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For so long I really thought Bad arguing like that was a bit for the elections but I am rapidly realizing that no he just argues like that.
#qsmp#opinions opinions#maybe slightly neg#qsmp discourse#idk it just reminds me of the worst type of stem bros#and to me it comes off as condescending expecialy when he’s talking to people who are not native English speakers#I’m just saying this to be safe#I’m probably not gonna comment on blue stuff anymore#because i cant be unbiased about bad tbh#it’s not a criticism#it’s just not for me#nova.txt
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man, you know, nobody asked me, but I have such conflicting opinions on some of the fat falin art, where on one hand: it's always nice to see A Fat Body in fanart anywhere + it's being done in positive ways, for funsies and on the other hand, there is something so familiar about how you are automatically The Fat One if you are a woman simply standing next to a more petite woman, bc I've had a 0% hitrate in seeing people change Marcille's body type and keep Falin's, or change both of them. it's just Falin
#it gives me a negative feeling that I seldom/never get from seeing fat art which is rare#like she's not fat out of thin air For Fun And No Other Reason and she's not fat bc of context#(out of thin air being like just picking a character you like and changing their design just cuz. Kabru maybe.)#(and Because Of Context being the way ppl draw fat Usagi from sailor moon. which i have been meaning to do btw)#but rather she's fat just bc to be Not the thinnest woman in the room is to be fat. like it happens specifically by scale#because marcille is so much physically smaller and petite and falin is bigger in the ways that a Human Woman is bigger#than an elf woman#and it's funny bc it's something i see all the time already#people also really don't seem to have an interest in making marcille butch in fanart in a way#that is sort of sad for me bc it's like ah well she's the thin small one so of course she gets to be feminine#if you're physically bigger then of course you get to be masc of course of course of course...#i also love good butch art esp fat butch stuff but this is about the phenomenon where if you're with#a thinner shorter woman then that means you're the butch now which is a place I have been to#and I did not like it there#I think part of why That sticks it to me is bc marcille has such a Butch Girlfriend personality and falin acts so demure LMAO#but she's slightly bigger so the writing is on the wall#sergle.txt#Godspeed to you if you choose to read these thoughts in bad faith bc I can't give you more clarifying statements if I try#like I said. conflicting feelings#i don't know if anyone else has similar thoughts it May Just Be Me#I don't think ppl think about this stuff when they make their fan redesigns but it gives me a certain feeling
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They only fetishize queer people. Especially our pain. We are not real, entire human beings to them. The celebrate the straight couples - their relationship, intimacy n all; fetishize the bodies of queer men; n fetishize the idea of queer women.
The extent to which they tolerate our sexuality is the short snippets in promo clips. They only want to exploit our online engagement. Ironically our viewership might be bringing in the ad buyers who r trying to erase us.
They try to erase the specificity of the "queer" part, but only use the pain, the convenient stereotypes, the virtue-signaling part to gain brownie points n for good drama. They joke about cultural appropriation n did exactly that during the pride episode with the straight couple's proposal. Same-sex marriage. What are you talking about? It's about queer hate n straight allyship.
They capitalize on the "women" part, to further fetishize our biology. So if it's 2 women in a relationship - it's double the drama about making babies, bad genes, n jokes about hormones n our body parts. But it's 2 women, how can they possibly manage w/o "big, strong, sensitive", straight men with good genes to contribute n overflowing empathy to deal with them being emotional n hormonal?
It's 5b, it's pride, it's the burning man all over again. First they elevate Jack, now Beckett. Pride was about cheating queer men n high queer woman. An intimate scene of Marina must be minimized n hidden among the others' or edited to death in a montage. It's as scary as a man burning to death.
The fact that they haven't even shared a proper kiss this season through any joyful or emotional moment... They just come up with more ways to obscure the kiss, if any. Bad lighting, bad angles n bad editing are prerequisites. They r also written into the script.
Of course they make an important life decision in the NICU, n it's completely inappropriate for a married w|w to share a quick kiss - which we saw via the back of their heads. Unlike a gay man having sex with an ex at the funeral of the ex's dad - while cheating on his partner - twice. Perfectly lit with no obstructions of course.
Even in their ugly kitchen they're assigned, with a perfectly good scene setup, nope. Too brightly lit for queer woman - save it for a long morning kiss b/w gay men in their nice kitchen.
Emotional scene about Carina's fertility issues and reciprocal IVF - okay a kiss allowed grudgingly - but just 0.5 sec. Their lips touched. You get the idea. Why are you fans so demanding? Time is reserved for the 101th proposal of the straight couple n their extended kisses. A proper Marina love scene? You perverts. More explicit sex scenes b/w straight couples are needed.
I don't want to rehash about Jack. I've said plenty about Beckett. Just that men's mistakes are dismissed and minimized. It is not enough to show every painful step of Maya apologizing and making amends. Maya and Carina must also be used to make the audience sympathize with Jack and Beckett. It is a deliberate yet thoughtless choice to use Carina's SA trauma to sympathize with Jack. Just as it is to use Maya's family trauma to sympathize with Beckett. Esp the context of the shot. It is esp violating. They might as well just get Jack to show up for this. They never really got it, did they?
However one chooses to justify these choices, it's not only unnec but wrong to include the men. Esp not Beckett - the man who bullied her for months till her breakdown. Even if he never apologized and they insist on using Maya's pain to make him look good in his redemption arc, idc at this point, but this is just not the time.
If it must be a man, get Travis. Make it a conversation b/w queer people, about queer hate, about their families. Travis sympathizing with Maya, about a journey he wouldn't know about. Way better than jokes on hormones with the guys. A cheap way to get a laugh at an arduous process. I thought we left 5b n mocking queer women behind.
It could have been one beautiful scene with Andy and Vic. They haven't had a proper one since s1 & 2. They would have understood about Mason, if not for their long friendship, there's 703. It could have been about the pain women go thru - Andy and Vic about their abortions or Maya about experiencing what Carina underwent... The show really isn't big on female camaraderie.
But it should really be Carina. Among all the scenes of Carina in the station bathroom - which have been a lot - this is probably the most appropriate if they must set it there. Definitely more so that her own insemination, which was ridiculous.
These are moments that they should only share with each other, privately n intimately. These precious moments that are dwindling - few n short to begin with. It's not irl, it's one scene in an ensemble show. They sure could have romanticized this. It doesn't even have to be half as dramatic as a regular scene of their golden couple. D & S will create magic.
Esp in this episode, there's so much to unpack. With everything they've been thru on their own, the ending could have been about them at home, checking in n sharing their day. Talking about the lawsuit, the hate on queers, their brothers, the boundaries they had to set with their families... Doing the trigger shot together - esp after their emotional scene in 705 n to cap off the morning scene. A perfect setup for their emotional n physical intimacy.
But of course it didn't happen. Other important moments in their lives about their new home n new baby were also short parts of wordless montages. They are even less important than scenes of the others having drinks n sex.
Queer women just don't matter.
#sorry if i sound too negative or snarky#i'm quite done being diplomatic#i try not to rant cos usually i start it gets long#i'm just really tired#with the string of cancellations#n this last season#n this is what we're getting#this is not about my hate#it's about their hate of us#I really tried to be positive n happy about the show in general#n the good scenes the other characters get#believing marina will get their turn#but the bias against queer women is just so blatant#we're only asking to be treated fairly#i'm too tired to try to rationalize n defend their choices anymore#even with paige - travis's sl is filled with neg stereotypes#if they had a queer woman as showrunner this season#maybe it'll be slightly better#maybe she can insist that the nuances matter#but i think there's sth else happening bts#how is 10pm slot worse than 8pm...#not on twitter#but if there's backlash#marina fans will be blamed#we should be grateful for whatever?#station 19 comments#station 19
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#having a totally awesome night rn lol🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣#amps are all fun and games until you try to drink socially and#accidentally drink to the point of throwing up without ever feeling the least bit drunk lol#Like if I had known I was only going to get the negative side effects of alcohol and none of the benefits…#I would’ve saved a lot of money tonight that’s for sure lmao#I mean I kind of knew this was going to happen. I mean I knew my alcohol tolerance was higher than before#But at the same time I kind of assumed I’d feel… idk maybe at least slightly buzzed? Before getting to this point?#This was my first time trying to genuinely get fr drunk since before I started my little umm adventure this summer so. Learned my lesson.
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i can't even tell if i FEEL bad or if i'm just going through the motions of someone who feels bad in order to convince myself that i do
#because like. i'm probably fine. i can't imagine i'm struggling particularly worse than anyone else#i really think these are just normal mental issues. like i guess slightly low self-esteem and prob mild depression or whatever. but normal#if not better and more cope-able than normal!! than average i mean!!#like in terms of the mean negative feelings of the human population. i think i am probably experiencing far less than other people.#but also i feel like i want sympathy SO badly that i. tend to say and do things to imply to myself that things are#worse than they really are. maybe.#and all the pretending has convinced me that i'm ACTUALLY doing poorly and deserving of sympathy.#when really! i just ACT this way!!! no mental illness necessary!!!!!#don't take this too seriously. anyway. i'm feeling really dazed today. really really hazy.#hello world
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I like how I'm apparently the priest fucker mutual to a bunch of people. My taste in hot priests is so warped that the vast majority of mainstream priest fanservice content doesn't even appeal to me. For some reason
#how do I tag this????#personal#anyway off the top of my head#priest by sierra simone did nothing for me other than make me kind of squicked#the richard armtiage priest from that recent movie?? he looks alright but he's like. not that hot to me somehow#i don't even that green haired guy from nu/carnival maybe i did slightly at first but then ????#slightly negative post
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Idk if they'll ever make more purgatories but if they do I hope they'll balance things out because this is truly fun to watch but sometimes i wonder if all the frustration is worth it
#qpurgatory 2#ok so slightly tilted because i just saw the percentages so maybe im not in the greatest state of mind to make this post#but I've been frustrated for one reason or another everyday since the start of the event#not blaming the admins or anyone because clearly the event was only played once and in a very different context#but there's a clear lack of communication and balancing#qpurgatory neg#i guess?
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It seems I've lost my sense of smell now
#everything also taste slightly bitter#i know that can just be sinuses#but i thought maybe i should get tested again to be safe#but the tribal clinic said they wouldn't test me again#maybe I'll try urgent care tomorrow#i know several people that had false negatives the first time or two before testing pos idk
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I've been thinking for a while that tumblr seems to be more dead than usual and it's... starting to get concerning? I'm looking at the pride, lgbt, etc. tags and even in the top tab most post have less than 1k notes, which is crazy for the "queerest place on the Internet". Tags from fandoms get the "I'm trending" thing but then you take a look at the latest posts and most of them have barely any notes and the top posts are from a couple of days or even weeks ago. Drawings don't get that many notes unless they are from both popular accounts and/or popular fandoms and even then the notes pale in comparison to what the same drawing gets on twitter... Maybe if I already was in a stable community/net of mutuals I wouldn't mind the inactivity so much but when you're trying to make friends this sucks a lot ngl!
#m#negative#maybe it's time to make the move to twitter but do i want to#my tl it's one negative piece of news after the other and every time i go to twitter something happens that makes me depressed for days#and it's incredibly hard to get views on twitter if you don't have slightly more popular friends to rt your art#i could try cara or blue sky but just thinking about having to get acquainted with a new website makes me lose all energy#maybe i could go back to instagram but it's impossible to get invested in other people's accounts and it's an image based website......#alternatively i could kms which is easy and free and would also solve all the other problems i have in my life#unfortunately i have obligations to do so I guess I'll just keep fantasizing about the sweet release of death
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i need to say my one and only controversial tsv take is that i cannot stand episode 10. i’ve never listened to a podcast episode with audio mixing so shit it ruins the rest of the episode. but alas.
#the worst thing is it has great character moments#i love the carp/faulk/paige trio and i’m always down to see faulkner bleeding out let’s be real#i just dont. get it#maybe someone can explain it to me and make me dislike it slightly less#sorry i never talk abt things i hate on here i don’t like spreading negativity but good lord someone needed to say it
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anyone else ever get struck with a sudden feeling of distaste or being tired of someone who you usually really like/are friends with for literally no reason whatsoever? or is that just me
#like this has been happening with various people all summer#I'll be like... the thought of this person causes negative emotions that are literally directed at nothing#it isn't anything the person has done I just. feel like I don't care and don't really want to put in the effort with whatever friend#which is really weird bc I KNOW if I DO just put in the effort and ignore that random feeling I'll have fun and enjoy myself!!#bc I DO still like my friends actually!!! I just sometimes feel like I Don't and idk why#Lu rambles#this is especially odd when it's the sound guy bc like. not only have I been massively crushing on him all summer#but he's also one of the few people I genuinely have clicked with here. like we get along. it's cool. I've been slightly in love with him#so why do I now have this weird feeling like I want nothing to do with him/don't care#actually I feel extremely ambivalent about just about everyone right now but for some reason especially him#wait maybe it's PMS actually.... the Leave Me Alone Don't Talk To Me Don't Look At Me Don't Make Me Show Up hormones have hit :/#...that would actually explain several things from the last couple days. I should start tracking it#ok sorry I'm done externally processing my emotions on Tumblr dot com. bye
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would love to know of yall with steps who go to dinner (on a date) with herald, how much effort do they put into their appearance for the big night ?
#sasja puts in 0 effort he changes nothing about his appearance#the only difference in how he looks tonight vs any other night is that hes s#hes tied his hair back into a ponytail#which is like. negative effort#maybe technically its slightly better than the mullet. but its what he does w his hair for training#hes just treating it like any other hang out between them when its not (and neither are the coffees)#flystep#sasja jespersen#sasja x daniel#op#fh
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crazy to think that my time and ability to draw has stagnated so much that i have literally only drawn and posted one thing all year long
#slightly negative but mostly im just like. genuinely shocked#with all due respect to myself i have had one of the busiest years of my life so ive literally had no time.#and all of my art supplies have been packed away or unavailable to me for a large chunk#i wanna draw more in 2025! i hope! i have a lot of new ocs in my brain i wanna share with the world!!!!!#it also just feels weird that nobody ive befriended in the last 3 years know me as an 'art person' its like. deep lore that i maybe share#wish i could say i drew stuff that i havent posted!! but even that isnt the case#anyway. one day. ill get there#first i need to finish unpacking my apartment and build my new desk and that will hopefully motivate me!!#idk where i was going with this. i just wanna hold myself accountable with a goal ig#laura life 2kwhenever
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I feel like spiraling is always described as a quick thing but let me tell you. Girls will get afraid and slowly spiral for months I think.
#Like overall we're. Okay#Just wish I had disability getting approved soon or I find a new job or I can just somehow not be sitting in#Either the negatives or slightly above the negatives#Financially I am slowly dying and I'm not dead in the water because my beloved gf is amazing and thankfully can handle this#For at least a few months#But my long term thoughts are so uncertain#I just want to be around her and I just want us to live comfortably#I'm ever so slowly trying to crawl out of this over a year art block and that's a bit taxing mentally too#Idk I just want a bedframe that doesn't make me scared I'll fall every time I sleep or get on it#I wanna work off my fuckhuge loan debt#Its been so ungodly hard recently#I'm also thankful my dr rocks and meds have been helping with pain a good bit.#It just feels like I'm ever so slowly slipping into pretty much bed ridden territory again#Even with the meds. They help the pain a good bit (sometimes) but I still feel exhausted. And I'm getting insomniatic again#I just wanna sleep. I just wanna feel no stress for the first time. I've been stressed since fucking middle school#Or maybe even 6th grade because thats when the chronic pain started! Yayy!!!
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walking people through all my interactive AR experiences at AWE has made me realize that I literally do not need to care about anyone who approaches my work with disrespect
I guided hundreds of people through portals to other worlds, dandelion forests, carnival games we could all play together, toys and collaborative paintings and just pure magic - and 99% of them clearly experienced joy and awe unlike anything they’d ever seen before…
and the small handful of people who still managed to be negative after all of that were clearly just unhappy individuals who had some kind of personal issues entirely unrelated to anything I was doing or sharing with them.
one guy was literally mad that our marketing wasn’t good enough on our business card. like… that is so vastly unimportant. I’m just here to bring people joy and show them something new - if someone can’t let that in, it’s extremely incredibly not my problem.
#auropost#our cards were fine btw they have our name#and a qr code that goes to our website which has contact links#there were like maybe 2 guys out of over 200 people#who clearly had ego issues and either loved to hear themselves talk (while recording themselves)#or who just seemed to think they were more important than everyone else and deserved special treatment#i’ve been so proud of how i’m learning to handle people though#all i do is guide them back to play over and over and over again#and if they don’t follow me i talk to them and learn more about them#and help them if they are confused and ignore them if they are rude#but literally it was like only 3 people the entire time who were even slightly negative#which is incredible considering the sheer volume of demos we did#everyone else was so happy and willing to play and create#and it gave me so much hope
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You know what who needs fucking dating apps when I could just reread homestuck bc I have a desire to sink back into something that not only Completely Changed Me As a Person but is also Comfortable
#the serious answer to this is I think I’m just burnt out. I have no desire#and I mean absolutely none#to get on those apps remake a profile and to swipe on people#have conversations that go nowhere or worse. terribly where I have to block people#or I get ghosted. idk homestuck sounds better don’t you think#sorry this is slightly negative perhaps I’ll just go 2 sleep.#maybe I’ll read hs and orv tomorrow. gnnnn bye#rjb.net
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