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[l-in-the-light]

This is a silly ask i know but do you think Law is secretly in love with Luffy? Or does Luffy just remind him of his little sister or Cora? 😉

This is a fun question :D to be completely honest, I think it sometimes does feel suspiciously romantic. But do I think Oda will actually go this way? Make his main character officially gay for another pirate captain? I would love to see that, so many casual readers would get their worlds turned upside down as the result. Something like that would be unprecedensed, especially from a number 1 bestselling shonen manga known all around the world. But I just don't think Oda has the guts to do that. I would love to be proven wrong though.

Despite that, I do think think Law and Luffy actually love each other. It just doesn't have to be romantic to be love. We live in a world that constantly pushes the idea that romantic love IS the ultimate goal for everyone. But does it have to be this way? Why can't the ultimate goal for someone be an adventure or some other passion instead? Or finding that one Best Friend? And what if that someone who decided their biggest love in life is adventure suddenly is ready to throw it away for their most beloved person? Does it have to be romantic to have a deeper meaning? I don't think so.

Sometimes you just find that One Special Thing or Person in your life, that ends up being your most favourite person or thing in the world. It can be your friend, it can be your family or found family even, it can be something you're super passionate about. You would do anything for it. Kisses, hand holding, dates and sex pale in comparison. That's the level of passion I'm talking about here. And I sincerely believe that's what Law and Luffy are for each other. Something even more meaningful than romantic love. Blasphemy!

Now let's look at the second part of the question: do I think Law likes Luffy only because Luffy reminds him of Cora-san and Lammy. Well, that's a tough one. Definitely Luffy is important to Law because of that resemblance. But it's not like Luffy is that similar to Cora-san or Lammy, there are some hints here and there, but ultimately he's just Luffy. He's not clumsy like Rosinante, for starters. He's a terrible liar, contrary to Cora. And he's extremely carefree and doesn't do what he's told. We don't know much about Lammy, but we can assume it's the same, they just happen to share a few things in common. That helped Law to open up a bit and want to protect Luffy, it's kinda thanks to that older brother's instinct in him.

What Law ultimately cherishes in Luffy is the fact he could save his life and that matters to him more than anything else. Finally, he managed to save someone and he can keep on doing it. And sure, we can assume he already saved Bepo, Penguin, Shachi and Wolf before, but here's the thing: they would survive even if he didn't interfere (some of them were gravely injured but should have been able to survive before help arrives). Meanwhile Luffy would 100% die there if it wasn't Law saving him, because only he could have done it.

For Luffy, Law's the reason that Ace's wish got fullfilled (saving Luffy's life). He's the person that allowed himself to be saved, unlike Ace. There's no way that alone wouldn't make Law Luffy's most favourite person in the world. And I think they will only keep on growing more important for each other from now on.

[mysteriaqueen]

May I request Texas and/or New York hc’s?

*not forcing ofc!! <3*

ty for the ask!!!!

texas my emotionally constipated trauma repressing idiot.

"What do you mean I have trauma? I'm just fine" (he doesn't know what trauma is. show him the definition)

"So it's uh.... "

Trauma is when we experience very stressful, frightening or distressing events that are difficult to cope with or out of our control. It could be one incident, or an ongoing event that happens over a long period of time.

"Huh. I guess that applies to me. But I'm fine. Really."

doesn't want people to to worry. (he also just does think he's fine. ignorance is bliss as they say)

he tells himself it's because he doesn't want to be a burden (which isn't a lie)

it's also largely the toxic masculinity that he's got ingrained in him

I think he struggle a lot with that and not knowing how to recognize it. He wants to conform but not in a toxic masculinity way so he's trying to tell the difference. the issue is conforming should never really be a goal in the first place. so his strat isn't working well.

i feel like my previous point is illustrated well in that one video where ny calls him a coward. it's smth like

texas: [i literally don't remember what he says here]- ny: Coward. texas: well my daddy said if I just keep my nose to the grindstone- ny: Coward.

he doesn't know where the line is but in actuality there shouldn't be a line at all. poor silly idiot. someone get him into regular therapy sessions. he needs it.

new york my (also) emotionally constipated aroace idiot.

firstly i'm not sure if he's exactly aroace but he's defo on the spectrum.

i feel like one of them (romantically or sexually) it's all way ace/aro and the other is either grey or demi. dunno which one. maybe it switched around every now and then

i feel he doesn't often have opinions but when he does they are Very Strong opinions and he will kill you on the hill he dies on

he strikes me as the guy who's had a lot of things happen to him but either was never told it was explicitly wrong or there was never really time to address.

because of that he doesn't react to a whole lot. nothing phases him because he was never given a chance to be phased. never given a chance to express how he feels about things so it just became in his nature to move on quickly. oh god i'm project so hard wow

reminds of that once Jay-Z lyric: Y'all don't know that don't shit phase me / The mets go could go / 0 for 82 / and i'd look at you like this shit gravy

it takes him a while to sift through the facts of the situation and actually get to how he feels about it. you ask him how he's doing and he probably doesn't answer at first but if you're close enough for him to give you a real answer he'd just state the facts of his current condition. if you're lucky he might consider how that would make the average person feel afterwards and then say that. how does he actually feel about it? huh. um. it's whatever, he guesses

thanks for listening to me read the vibes of these too. and thanks for the ask. i sooooo apreciate it!!!!

[vinluco]

What headcanons do you have for the main 4 in max headroom 20 minutes into the future? :)

HELLO HI OHMYGOSH OKAY sorry if this list isnt that expansive!! i cant think of all of mine, might update later djsjsjsjs-

My headcannons for 20 Minutes into the Future (below cut!!)

Max!!

Asexual, but I think he'd also be on the aromantic spectrum too?

Only knows a lot of things because of Edison's memory, and acts like he's a hot-shot know-it-all because of it. Mans has never played golf a DAY in his life.

I completely agree with the headcanmon that he blows tv fuses when he gets mad, but I think if he were to sleep, his background would only show up as a kind of "screensaver." Y'know?

Has a toothgap due to Edison's accident. He doesn't mind it, personally! :3

Cannot physically age unless he chooses to. I stress this because of the Channel 4 Digital Switchover commercial, in which Max is shown to be aged. I, for one, A.) Do not count that as canon, and B.) Don't believe Max can age physically. Though, yes, he is old in our world.

Hates his stutter. Tries not to show that he's insecure (macho, masculine, 80s persona type shit,) but in reality he can't help it and genuinely despises how he talks.

If!! If ever given a body (Bryce prolly built it), he would be taller than Edison. Max would be ECSTATIC.

Doesn't listen to a lot of music, normally. He might put on like, pop or disco sometimes, but its not like he gets too much into it.

AuDHD

Edison !!

I think he'd have a secret soft spot for country. Like, country or jazz, y'know?

Closet Bi. C'monnnnnn, you can't tell me that man isn't the biggest repressed bicon ever.

Doesn't have a tooth gap, unlike Max, but does have a scar from the accident. Doesn't like to talk about it.

Isn't mad at Bryce for the accident, he knows Bryce didn't mean any real harm.

Iced coffee bitch. Embarrased about it.

I think he had a normal childhood,, he feels like he did. Maybe some elements of religious trauma, coming from the related episode,,, Something something,,, Vanna Smith's relationship with Edison is meant to represent his past beliefs and how they still have a grip on him,,,, something something their one night stand was a metaphor for reliving your trauma and coming out of it changed/with a new lens,,,, something something,,,,

,,,I have mixed feelings about him and Theora,,,,

One one hand, yeah! Cool! They have good chemistry, and they have their motives to be in a relationship!

On the other hand, it would do Theora's character a misjustice to simply make her get into a relationship with Edison just cus,,,, i dunno,,,

Edison would HATE that Max would be taller than him. Matt Frewer/Edison is already a tall dude, but,,,, make Max 7'6 you cowards. /hj

Always breaks his vidicams, hides them from Murray and Cheviot but knows they'll eventually find out. Time out for Mr. Digital Sherlock >:P

Hangs out with Blank Reg when he's not covering stories, I think Eddy and the Big Time Television crew would have a great friendship!!

Do not call him Eddy.

Theora!!

Also Bi, but leans towards women :) Maybe like, Biromantic Asexual?

Her and Edison do hang out, like, outside of work, but the thought of "romance in the workplace" icks her out (valid, honestly.)

Sometimes plays into Max's antics, I think they'd have a great dynamic (shame it wasn't explored more.)

Completely meant to slap Murray in "Security Systems." No, she didn't need to sell the bit. No, she didn't need to warn him. Fuck Murray. All my homies hate Murray 😤

I see her liking glam rock,,, or like, some kind of rock (70s and 80s, ofc). She's giving me like, Sweet or The Ramones kinda vibes,,,

I think her childhood was a bit rough, but thata just vibes. We never get specifics, I think, but maybe I'll write a fanfic someday and explore it. (do y'all want Max Headroom fics I'll fuckin DELIVER.)

(( she is so fuckin pretty oh my godddd :O ))

Bryce !!

Aromantic. Not to fall into the trope that like "haha, smart character aro/ace!!" but, seriously. Do you think he wants anything to do with that? Nah, science #1, and y'know? Thats valid, you funky little dude.

Funky Little Dude™️

More of a gremlin than the show lets on. I know if he were around modern-day, dude would be slamming back monsters and talking about The Fog and The Rot.

Troubled childhood. Sent off to a tech school at an early age, didn't grow up woth his family around, or many friends. It's canon, what the f u c k.

iPad baby. Enough said.

Feels guilty about Edison's accident.

Literally says that he "felt fear for the first time" when he was /freezing to death./

Bryce???? Do you need a therapist??? Buddy?????

The only adults in his life want to use his genius to get more ratings. Bryce is but a toy to them. I need to psychoanalyze him. Puts him in a salad spinner.

On a lighter note!! Listens to classical music unironically!! Weirdo!! /pos

You literally can't tell me he isn't autistic. As someone on the spectrum, I bestow him this headcanon. Can't read social queues, doesn't understand figures of speech, flat tone of voice, ect. He's on the spectrum 😤

[agentofanarchy110]

what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?

Warrior Cats, my ex boyfriend, and cartoons

show us a picture of your handwriting?

wont be much use as my handwriting changes daily lol

3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

easy. Fellowship of the Ring, Shaun of the Dead, and Nightmare before Christmas.

what’s an inside joke you have with your family or friends?

We have so many I can’t think of one of the top of my head lol

ummmm maybbbbeeeee um we have this thing where we have the friend group “family dynamic” where two of my besties are divorcing and fighting over custody of me, the child (it’s ironic on purpose because I’m the oldest by several months)

what made you start your blog?

Wanting to make fanart for @morningstarwrites!

what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

the best: making new friends who like me and my art and I like them too

the worst: being told I’m only pretending to be aroace by idiots

what scares you the most and why?

Oblivion. I’m kind of a control freak. Or being abandoned.

any reacquiring dreams?

No, not really, although I do dream about Hazbin Hotel a lot lol

tell a story about your childhood

when I was four I believed with all my heart that I could fly. My parents had to stop me jumping off the stairs to prove it.

would you say you’re an emotional person?

one hundred percent

what do you consider to be romance?

ummm. I dunno. Candles and going to funfairs and asking 20 questions and being all fluffy and domestic I guess? Kisses and shit I dunno (I’m Demi aro I have no clue)

what’s some good advice you want to share?

If a person you think you love makes you unhappy, or you find yourself miserable any time they don’t give you attention, they are NOT good for you. Get out of there before you receive the same trauma I did.

what are you doing right now?

um. Answering these questions lol? But also admiring all the merch I got from Comicon😈

what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do?

go on an aeroplane or on big theme park rides

what do you think of when you hear the word “home”?

friends

if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

My gender maybe lol I dunno

name 3 things that make you happy

Friends. Stories (no matter what format). Music

do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?

aliens yes, ghosts not sure

favourite thing about the day?

being with friends or family

favourite things about the night?

Stars

are you a spiritual person?

I believe so

say 3 things about someone you love

Uhrm

my friends in general, support me, are honest with me and make me feel wanted

say 3 things about someone you hate

there honestly aren’t many people I hate. I can hate what they DO or how they treat me but not the person

but my ex:

egotist

hypocrite

Gave me emotional trauma

what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

learning to love myself and not care what other people think.

fave season and why?

not sure. They all have their merits. Maybe autumn because of the colours and Halloween

fave colour and why?

violet or black. I’m honestly not sure why, my brain kind of just hooked onto them at the age of 13 and never let go

any nicknames?

I have many. In real life my friends call me Chaos (or Agent Chaos), so I chose to go by that here too. On BlogClan I’m known as Cosmi!

do you collect anything?

Not your traditional “collectibles” but I try to get at least one bit of merch for every show I like

what do you do when you’re sad?

escapism (watch TV or read)

what’s one thing that never fails to make you happy/happier?

a new season of a show I like dropping

are you messy or organised?

messy

how many tabs do you have open right now?

three

any hobbies?

drawing, writing

any pet peeves?

hypocrisy

do you trust easily?

not anymore

are you an open book or do you have walls up?

depends who I’m with

share a secret

this is one I don’t like very much so please don’t judge:

I might be a furry (I genuinely don’t know though)

fave song at the moment?

ooh damn I have so many

probably Unravel by Amalee

youtuber you’ve been obsessed with and why?

Danny Motta—he does the most HILARIOUS reaction videos to shows I adore

Tomotasauce—funniest dubber I’ve ever come across

any bad habits?

nail biting, hair pulling, laziness

questions I think would be fun to be asked

what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?

show us a picture of your handwriting?

3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

what’s an inside joke you have with your family or friends?

what made you start your blog?

what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

what scares you the most and why?

any reacquiring dreams?

tell a story about your childhood

would you say you’re an emotional person?

what do you consider to be romance?

what’s some good advice you want to share?

what are you doing right now?

what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do?

what do you think of when you hear the word “home”?

if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

name 3 things that make you happy

do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?

favourite thing about the day?

favourite things about the night?

are you a spiritual person?

say 3 things about someone you love

say 3 things about someone you hate

what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

fave season and why?

fave colour and why?

any nicknames?

do you collect anything?

what do you do when you’re sad?

what’s one thing that never fails to make you happy/happier?

are you messy or organised?

how many tabs do you have open right now?

any hobbies?

any pet peeves?

do you trust easily?

are you an open book or do you have walls up?

share a secret

fave song at the moment?

youtuber you’ve been obsessed with and why?

any bad habits?

(this post was stolen from @teenage-mutant-ninja-freak, since it couldn't be reblogged anymore)

[aro-comics]

Debunking Arophobia (Part 6)

NOTE: This entire series is dedicated to discussing arophobia and it’s harm - in case this isn’t something you want to see, I’m putting each post in this series underneath a read more.

Debunking Arophobia, Part 6/7 - *As stated in the first panel, I want to clarify that technically, for demis and gray-aromantics there can technically be a "right person". I'm not demiro (so please, correct me if I'm wrong), but to my understanding being demi means there has to be a strong emotional bond first, before attraction can develop. In this case, there might be a right person, but there still needs to be an emotional component that isn't required for an alloromantic person to feel attraction to their "right person", so the situation is a bit different. And as for the gray-aromantics - I'm gray-aro myself, and I personally want to make clear that I don't believe there will be right person for me (due to how I experience my grayromanticism - see squishes vs crushes), but that doesn't mean this is the experience of every gray-aro. Some gray-aros identify the way they do because overall they experience no interest to people romantically, but with the exception of very few who they may consider the "right person/people". That is all well and good and doesn't change their experiences as arospec people overall (because they have still lived most of their lives not experiencing attraction to other people the way most of the population does). But that DOES NOT mean it's okay for someone to tell them they will eventually meet the right person. Again, this is a question of boundaries and what is appropriate to decide for other people, and re-inforcing amatonormative ideals for someone who tells you they are arospec right away is just flat out disrespectful 😔 Honestly wish any of this didn't have to be said. I feel like understanding should be a given, implied in the definition of being aromantic, but ... somehow, people don't understand anyway 🙃😬 Like, an orientation is generally understood as what genders can make someone experience attraction (even if you don't feel attracted to EVERYONE of that gender), which would imply that fundamentally ... it's also possible that no genders will trigger attraction? I just don't think it's that hard to wrap your head around 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ (also, I have no idea if this will make ANY sense to anyone else), maybe it’s a pan aro combination thing, but gender is so ... not a factor to me, ever 😂 maybe that’s why I feel so strongly about it, but it’s like the same “people” element that’s cool from a pansexual perspective is the exact same element that makes me go “ehhh 😬” as an arospec person. It’s interesting, but I just thought I’d throw that in there in case any of you were wondering why specifically I’m talking about the whole idea of “people” as a vibe/factor in arospec identity 😆

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Slide 1: Celia gesturing with her hand to the side, looking unimpressed. She says “Second of all, the whole ‘right person’ idea still makes no sense because for aros there will never be a ‘right person’*. And it’s really not a case of being cynical or picky”. In the corner is written a small note, “Please read description”.

Slide 2: “A straight woman won’t feel attracted to other women, because she’s a woman too” Drawing of a conventionally attractive woman and man on the left and right respectively. Below, two bubbles with drawing of a woman. On the left, woman shrugs and says “eh”. On the right woman has hearts in her eyes and notes around say “wow”, “so cute!”

Slide 3: Celia speaking “it’s the same way with an aro person. There won’t ever be a ‘right person’”

Slide 4: “-because it’s the ‘people’ element that makes them not interested, romantically”. Below is the same drawing of woman and man from before, but this time bubbles are replaced with a blank figure wearing an aro pride button. They say “I mean, she’s pretty but ... eh?” Under the drawing of the woman, and “I dunno, he’s ok?” Under the drawing of the man.]

[sidecarghost]

Spn 15x18 spoilers below

Dean can’t reciprocate: Spn Meta on Romance as the language of the soul or alt theory Aro Dean

So the 15x18 script had line about Dean can’t reciprocate. And I thought hmmm.... prob just like everyone else and here are my two cents.

Dean can’t reciprocate because:

He only ever thought of Cas as friend and would never want to pursue any relationship more than that.

He is aro and he doesn’t connect with romantic attraction. And this is absolutely fine!

He has denied and repressed any romantic urges and numbed himself to them. Big diff between this and Aro because Aro is natural and valid but repressing romantic attraction is not.

He was like wtf is happening right now. I need time to process.

I am Destiel shipper so obviously hard no to #1, but that is a completely valid opinion just not one I share. But I refuse to even enumerate any opinion of Dean being offended by the declaration. #4 could be case and with more time Dean would have reciprocated. But for this post I’m really focusing in on #3 and maybe a little #2.

In my opinion, Aro Dean is not a Destiel deal breaker. I think Dean and Cas can still have beautiful relationship with platonic love and sexual attraction and low to none romantic attraction on Dean’s side.

Really the purpose of meta was to poke at possibility of romantically repressed Dean. And the convo Famine had with Dean way back in season 5 came to mind.

Notes: I am awful at meta, so take this entire dump with grain of salt. Just some things I noticed while thinking about Dean’s romantic identity and making metaphorical comparisons to heart, romantic soul, and will power from a couple scenes in Spn.

Metaphors under consideration from Spn scenes

Heart

associated with acts of caring that are selfless and kind (like saying someone has a big heart)

Will power

Driving yourself to get your shit done.

In Dean’s case his will power is typically fueled by hate and anger because he is a monster hunter and his anger keeps him going even when he wants to give up.

Romantic soul

your romantic connection to other people (i. e. soulmate) and doesn’t necessarily have to be sexual.

Spn 5x14 Famine talks to Dean about his broken, empty soul

FAMINE: hunger doesn't just come from the body, it also comes from the soul.

DEAN: It's funny, it doesn't seem to be coming from mine.

FAMINE: Yes. I noticed that. Have you wondered why that is? How you could even walk in my presence?

DEAN: Well, I like to think it's because of my strength of character.

FAMINE: I disagree. That's one deep, dark nothing you got there, Dean. Can't fill it, can you? Not with food or drink. Not even with sex.

DEAN: Oh, you're so full of crap.

FAMINE: Oh, you can smirk and joke and lie to your brother, lie to yourself, but not to me! I can see inside you, Dean. I can see how broken you are, how defeated. You can't win, and you know it. But you just keep fighting. Just... keep going through the motions. You're not hungry, Dean, because inside, you're already...dead.

Spn 15x18 Castiel talks about Dean including how he sees himself and how loving he really is

CASTIEL: you see yourself the same way our enemies see you. you’re destructive and you’re angry and you’re broken... you’re daddy’s little blunt instrument. and you think that hate and anger, that’s what drives you, that’s who you are. it’s not. everyone who knows you sees it. everything you’ve ever done, the good and the bad, you have done for love. you raised your little brother for love, you fought for this whole world for love. that is who you are. you are the most caring man on earth. you are the most selfless, loving human being i will ever know.

Romantic Identity Thoughts for Dean

I agree with popular opinion that Dean reads like a bisexual character, but his romantic identity doesn’t necessarily have to match. And I think so far he doesn’t seem to fit label of biromantic. Like biromantic is possibility if Dean is just repressing his romantic urges because he has numbed his soul to all feelings per Famine’s monologue. Or just we haven’t seen it on show but Dean does feel that way. But I think some other labels may be better fit for Dean.

Dean is really good at all the platonic aspects of love. Like Castiel said Dean has a big heart. platonic love is very selfless. It is driving to help a friend, sharing interests, caring about each other’s wellbeing, being there to support them, and protectiveness. At its purest it is selfless and expects nothing in return. Pure platonic love is not jealous love. You don’t get jealous about the recepient spending time with others. You are also typically okay when they are gone. And that plays back well with Castiel’s speech in 15x18. Just aside, Dean being really good at platonic love is important if you read Castiel as demiromantic because Castiel would need a strong friendship before he feels any kind of romantic attraction.

Dean also enjoys casual sex and shows signs of sexual attraction for men and women. Although the show has only established female sex partners so far, that does not mean he isn’t attracted to men too. And there have been instances in show that read as sexually attracted to men.

But even though Dean has had multiple sexual relationships on the show, Dean has no canon romantic attraction. Other than the weird witch sisters when he was hexed in 13x12. That curse was first time Dean was in romantic love, and it wasn’t consensual which sucks but non-con is a common spn theme.

Maybe it could be argued Cassie and Lisa were romantic love interests. But I dunno he kind of just left them without any noticeable regrets. So it seemed like Dean enjoyed protecting them, being a good friend, and having sex with them, but there was no soul yearning romantic aspect to the relationship. These weren’t woman that he couldn’t live without. Their loss didn’t crush his soul.

But then there is Castiel. And each time Castiel is lost Dean falls apart. This tough hunter that tragically gives last rites to his family and friends on a daily basis becomes a sop of hurt and angst when Castiel is gone. Those are very romantic feelings. Then Dean seems to bounce back to happiness once Cas comes back. So maybe Famine was wrong or lied because Spn monsters seem to get retconned into lying quite a bit, or maybe Dean has already started to explore and nurture his own romantic identity or in Spn Famine terms soul.

Also Romantic love often tends to be jealous and possessive. Like Famine said this is a hunger, and it can be this wild, ravenous thing. So by Castiel calling out all Dean’s selfless acts it kind of resonates with Dean not having a current romantic partner and that being something Castiel wants for Dean.

Anyway, romantic identity and sexual identity don’t have to match. So Dean can be bisexual and homoromantic or bisexual and aro. I am thinking demi-, or homo-, or biromantic, because Dean does seem to experience some very romantic feelings for Castiel (i.e. touches, looks, romantic squabbles, and the overwhelming need for Castiel to be around). If Dean tells Castiel that he just doesn’t feel the connection to love speeches and romantic thoughts then aromantic may actually be a better fit for him.

There is even a WTFromantic that is meant for people that can’t feel romantic attraction because the things in their life have overwhelmed them to the point that the concept of romantic attraction is just completely inaccessible to them. And I dunno, but that label seems pretty descriptive of Dean too.

So Dean may not be able to reciprocate romantic feelings because he has made a conscious decision to just repress all romantic attraction as much as possible per Famine monologue. Even tho Famine talk was 10 years ago Dean still has same problems. He is going through motions, as in 15x17 where he denies there even is a case to solve. He is fueled by anger and hate. Right before Cas’s romantic declaration, Dean is talking about all he feels is angry and bloodthirsty. So that empty soul that has been denied every desire may still be mangled and hurting. Dean just needs to confess he isn’t coping and get help.

Or Dean may identify as a character that doesn’t connect romantically, if Dean is aro then there was nothing ever wrong with him because that is valid and no one should push him to act in a way that isn’t natural for him. And I specifically tried to use romantic soul, because I don’t mean to make any kind of comparison to romantic attraction and the immortal soul like that is totally separate concept.

Anyway, I kind of feel like the show is setting it up as former and that by calling Dean broken it is describing him as repressed romantically and maybe the next couple episodes are him coming to terms with that aspect of himself. Like he’s been running on anger for so long maybe time to do some soul searching.

Disclaimer: romantic and sexual identity labels are not meant to be prescriptive, they are just supposed to help describe your truth so you can have a language that describes your own personal identity and you know you are not alone and you have a community. I would never apply them to other people, but Dean is fictional and interesting so I thought I’d try to dig at what the writers and actors were doing to either consciously or unconsciously give Dean his own romantic and sexual identity.

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

agajsksns not gonna lie being 10 feet tall sounds awesome. i have no idea how tall that is because the only thing i know about feet (that sounds so wrong) is that google is telling me that i'm 5'6 (sorry to disappoint). which is. average height right? well it doesn't feel like it coz my best friends are giants. they're both 180+ cm tall and they constantly make fun of me for being short. but honestly i win because i can always make them reach things for me.

thank you! that's very sweet, i actually only saw your reply like 20 minutes before the new year so it was right on time! i loved writing to you and waiting to hear back as well, you're a really fun person to talk to!

i know you probably won't see this for a couple of weeks before going on holiday, but have fun!

i laughed really hard at the picture my brain conjured up when reading about you dropping the vampire act and starting to pretend to be a mouse, just straight up scurrying up to the houses on all fours in a bathrobe is hilarious. i'd pay to see that. and yeah! me either. the number of times i've gone outside at night is probably like 3. that's counting that time when i went for ice cream at 11pm to the store on the other side of the street in my pajamas and then had to turn back because it apparently closes at 10 pm. that was a pretty big disappointment

a halloween themed birthday party sounds awesome! it's sort of disappointing though that you can barely remember it. the only themed birthday party i had (or at least the only one that i remember) was princess themed because i was on my princess faze back then (i was 5 or 6 i think). i still remember the sheer joy i felt at being able to wear a long fancy dress. it was brilliant

oh yeah! i'm still slightly scared of blenders because of that time. now anytime i even put my fingers close to the blade i unplug it first. also i saw you got a blender? i think we have one that's similar to the one you described. so i have a couple of suggestions! i like to make banana "ice cream". you just cut up a banana into pieces and freeze it, (i have no idea how long it takes to freeze i just generally always have frozen bananas in my freezer) then you take them out, let them sit for 10 minutes (to not break the blender when you use it) and blend them. i sometimes add frozen berries or peanut butter too! depending on what i want that day. it's great, especially because i'm slightly lactose intolerant too and i absolutely love ice cream. you can also make smoothies as you said. i usually put in mine whatever fruit we have, generally apples, bananas and oranges or grapefruits. or if i'm making one for breakfast (which i know you can't, but this is just a generally more filling option i think?) i also add spinach. you can't really feel the taste but it's supposed to be good for you and it fills you up more (it does make the smoothie super green though!). but yeah i pretty much just mix and match anything i have! also: milkshakes. ice cream, berries (optional) and milk! super easy and my little cousins love it when they visit!

ohhh your grater also seems to be out to get you. i bet it's really painful if it actually falls on your feet, because like metal. on foot. ouch. especially if it hits you with a corner! and i would definitely also get surprised every time it happened no matter how many times it did! bifocal glasses do not sound fun either tho. i would constantly forget how to use them and probably would just get headache really fast too! i get a headache from my normal glasses when i wear them (i usually wear contacts) so bifocal ones would be even worse i bet.

exactly. i had no idea what "hot" means. i thought you were supposed to use it when you thought a person was aesthetically pleasing? or like you thought they look cute? i dunno. i used it a couple of times before i realised that was not what that meant and then i was just like uhhhh yeah i'm gonna delete that word from my vocab. yeah! i think that ace and probably aro too are pretty hard to figure out because it's the lack of something.

ahahsksns i can imagine tiny Lindsey waking up on Christmas morning and running to the window expecting snow in the middle of summer and it's so funny! i can't say anything though because we have this saying in lithuanian which is used essentially when someone does something unexpected and unusual for them so you say "it's gonna snow tomorrow". as in "wow, [name] did [something super unexpected from them], it must be snowing tomorrow" (because like those are equally unexpected things i guess? but it's said in winter too so it's just something you say whenever, i'm sorry it's hard to explain!) but yeah a figure of speech. and anytime i heard that, even in the middle of summer, the next morning i'd run to my window and look for snow and when there was none, i'd just stare accusatorily at my parents. like wow, i can't believe you lied/let someone lie to me

horse races sound fun, i've never been to one though! and a picnic luch sounds awesome! i love picnics but we have them very rarely, i definitely think we should have them more often

and yeah, i get that acid reflux more of an annoyance than a problem but still! i completely agree with you about peanut butter though. it's amazing, i could eat it everyday

I know exactly how tall 10 feet is purely because I’m 5 foot so two of me is 10 foot. I barely know feet but I got used to people being confused when I was like oh, I’m 155cm! so I learnt what my height was in feet but I can really only visualise heights when I put them into centimetres. Someone can be like I’m 6 foot! and that’s great but I don’t have the faintest idea how tall that actually is. 182cm on the other hand is easy. that’s just like one ruler above my height. I can picture that. 5 foot 6 is probably average but as a short person, I consider you tall. That really isn’t saying much at my height but still sdflshdfks. Biggest benefit of tall best friends is indeed making them reach high things though. 

And now we’re almost three weeks into the new year. Time seems to be flying this year. This is a very late reply indeed sdfjhskdfs. I did see this before I left but didn’t have time to reply, thank you though! I did have lots of fun. I had some birds try to invade the unit up in Orewa and I had a dotterel (I think) follow me along the beach at Ngarimu Bay playing some sort of red light green light game with me (it only moved closer and started following me again when I looked away) and I think a blackbird started some sort of mating performance at me which was flattering but uhhhh I’m a bit of a big bird mate. Maybe choose someone else. there was also beaches and gorgeous views etc etc but birds, y’know. birds.

i would 100% do that for money with no regrets. on one hand I could get a job and contribute to society. on the other hand I could do that as my main income. not a hard choice. hire me by the hour to freak your family and friends out. i have no respect for myself i’ll do it to anyone for the right price. damn. only closed one hour earlier. that’s a massive disappointment. i was out at night willingly for my high school prom and for a creative writing night at my uni and inside a car if that counts when I think my family was travelling back from the south island when I was younger. So three times that come to mind. Oh. And if stupid camp burma trails count then add a few times to that but those were not night outings I did willingly.

I can barely remember most of my life, I just assume it happened and I wasn’t just planted here at 12 years old as an alien spy. Anything’s possible though. I remember my birthday cakes more than my birthday parties to be honest with you. My mum always made the cake and when I was young she’d make fun designs. A bee, a bat, a swimming pool and a cat come to me off the top of my head. They were mostly just sponge cats but she cut them and iced them expertly. A princess-themed party seems like a very fun type of party for kids who like that. Kids always seem very happy to dress up in pretty dresses and cool outfits to attend those kinds of parties. I can imagine the joy. I know my little cousin looooves that sort of thing, and her brother isn’t willing to be left out either

thank god you unplug it first now sdfjhsdf that’s incredibly reassuring. Ooo thank you for those suggestions!!! this is great!! I was wanting to try something with bananas and that sounds easy enough. I had an apple and feijoa smoothie while I was away on holiday and all I want is another one of those. So I’m very very very interested in trying out fruit smoothies now because they seem like they can be very very tasty. Spinach seems like such an odd thing to add but I’ve heard that several times now so clearly it’s a thing. I don’t think I’ve ever even had spinach. I’ll keep it in mind though. I suppose if I just try whatever fruit we have on hand eventually I’ll get something that tastes good. I have dairy free ice cream and dairy free milk so it seems like this could work out for me in a way where I’m not regretting my entire life. Normally when I go near a milkshake I regret the day I was born.

It isn’t a super heavy grater but I have intense survival instincts every now and then so it hasn’t actually hit my foot yet. I go diving in the other direction. But I think if it did I’d probably curse a few times before moving on with my life. I don’t think it’d be THAT bad. But I live in fear regardless. oh no. do your normal glasses have a slightly wrong prescription or is this just a thing that happens when you normally wear contacts,,, I’ve never worn contacts because I fear touching my squishy eyeball and also I think my shitty eyesight is too awkward for contacts so I have no idea if that’s a thing.

oh yes haha hot has been solidly deleted from my vocab for many years except in terms of temperature. It has a word that has never naturally come to mind and I’m sure it never will. It just seems weird when I use it. 

I was a fool of a child and absolutely nothing has changed there! I mean I know how hemispheres work now but I’m still a dumbass at heart. Hahahahahaha oh nooooo. That’s incredible but oh noooo. I get what you mean by the saying though, that’d make a lot of sense here honestly since it never snows ever. Locally, at least. 

i think horse races are just a form of betting and losing money that is frowned upon less than actual buildings based on gambling and such. I mean I only ever attended those ones, idk if all horse races are like that, but I know there was buying tickets for whatever horse you thought would win, and if they did you got money, if they didn’t you lost money. I don’t think it was a whole lot of money ? just like a few bucks ? but maybe you could choose to bet more ? I really don’t remember how it worked, I just remember accidentally finding a ticket on the ground and handing it in only to receive some money because the horse won. I think it was like 5 or 10 bucks which seemed like a LOT to my kid self. picnic lunches are fun though. my family keeps a tartan blanket in the back of the car that we use whenever we have picnics and also whenever we get takeaways (we put it in the middle of the lounge floor as the rest of my family eats fish and chips and I eat sushi, normally). But we don’t have as many as we used to. They are fun though.

can confirm i do eat peanut butter everyday and it goes brilliantly.

[thoughtsdying]

People trying to force romance in kids and teenagers and frankly anyone is shit. I had weird ideas of romance as a preescolar bc of it. I said, legit, that four of the poor boys in my classroom were my “boyfriends”. Their opinion of course, was unnedeed.

What I mean, as I can disluce from my foggy memories of being 4, is that I thought having boyfriends was the proper to do thing  as was having imaginary friends but that’s another story so I invented a list and choose the boys based in who liked to play pursue at recess. 

My actual one male-friend (a quiet kid with no friends I remember) and two ones I thought were ok (funny to play with) + the one I saw as my rival for top grade (I have that obsession with rivals in anime from somewhere xd + he was cute).

When I arrived at primary school I did the same thing the first two years to three boys. One was left out of this twisted game quite easily, the other was my second friend in the new school (later out as gay) and thought I was crazy but awesome, so whatever and the third I gave trauma and stalker issues. Not seriously but like. He had to tell his mom to tell my mom to leave him alone bcs I didn’t listen to him. YIKES lil’me YIKES.

 Bc we girls played at weddings in the recess, and when not marrying girls we dragged boys into our games. Various times he was the groom, kicking and screaming, literally. Then we both runned away bc they wanted us to kiss and kissing someone forcibly was gross for me even at 7, thank god, not so yikes lil’me.

 Plus the feeling of us against the others the runs gave me were pretty dope. Thankfully my mom was a saint and explained quite well why it was wrong, plus that sometimes people are shy and prefer to be left alone with just subtle gestures no need to overwhelm them. Attract them to you. It was obviously a ploy to make me leave alone the poor boy that worked perfectly lmao

I didn't really like him; he was just intelligent and not a douche, kept to himself. (Do we see a pattern?) He was quite the friki at 12 the last time I saw him so personality-wise for a friend I had good instincts xD

 We had a cool few talks in the travel of sixth grade (last year of primary) and at graduation which made me realise we could have been good friends if I hadn't been such a weirdo to him. I apologized and explained a bit of the mess, and he talked to me about his stress at the time, and then we talked about silly stuff.

Also, a weird time in fitfh grade when people thought a guy from the theatre and I were dating. To be fair he confessed to me, and we were friends. Later he told me that I had been his first girlfriend to which I told him no way, I had no idea, it didn’t count. WE WERE 11!!! LMAO

Then nothing. A weird aesthetic wanna be her friend thingy on a girl in 3rd of ESO at 14 which to date is the closest to a crush I've come. I think. From what other people describe. I didn’t dare be her friend. Plus we didn’t have many things in common. She was... normal. But really long pretty black hair. It completely disappeared towards the next year.

Two other cases of me building a weird fantasy in my head of a nebulous vaguely romantic friendship + some kiss but no sex or real attraction towards two guys, one a liminal friend in the bus home from hc at 16 and the other a case of I make vaguely dating gestures towards you bc wanna be friends and you cool. I swore off romance after that last disaster (disaster in my mind. I simply ghosted a potential friend and a friend who was his cousin).

I had a more serious almost something with a fem-friend but that's another history.

What I was getting into with young me embarrassing not-romantic history is that forcing romance caused these situations to happen and made me lose or break potential cool platonic friendships. I hated getting into them but some nebulous concept of obligation + fantasy made me fall for the illusions. 

And primary school children and toddlers... gah. I know some people are like, but yeah romance and I remember my first crush/kiss etc. But I’m blank. It was all part of some grand joke everybody was playing. (big aro mood I think) I didn’t understand what like everyone was referring to. 

I still don’t get the overcomplicated messes of teenage-me friends, nor YA-actual-me. I get people is stupid and delicate and we’re all unable to be sincere. But I’ve never lost my head so much. Dunno, I still want like superfriends with whom to be intimate and share things with. But a romantic partner??

。。。Maybe is my family culture? My mother separated from my father (may that asshole go to therapy one of these days) when I was 5 and since then has been in 2 relationships of 2-3 years each with a long separation in between. Her brother and sisters are also forever-bachelors, my only cousin only met his father once a few years ago. 

My grandma divorced my grandad when she caught him with another woman, and told him after slapping him “she or me” and he said “both, this is what there is”, and she said “out of my house you aren’t making a fool of me” and yeah. With five children. Generational trauma, or just high standards? THE QUESTION OF MY LIFE LMAO

They’re quite happy even so, I like to think. But yeah. 

[monsters-and-mystics]

Help: Fanfic vs Smeyer Canon

Okay, so I need some help. I’m thinking of changing some things about vampires from Smeyer’s canon for my fanfic but I need some input from other people because I’m a big baby who can’t get out of my own way.

Basically, I’ve added a whole slew of other supernatural elements to the world already, like witches, magic, spirits, etc., but I’ve always tried to keep it “realistic” by keeping within the canon’s realm of possibility (mainly by leaning very heavily on the “it wasn’t part of Bella’s story” idea/meme). But I haven’t actually changed the existing supernatural canon itself. and I’m worried that doing so might be too much and will pull my readers out of the Twilight Universe.

So please, whether you read my story or not, please please please keep reading and let me know your thoughts on these ideas I have:

Fangs

The Sun

Old Superstitions & Magic

1) Having Fangs.

Why do I want the Twilight Vampires to have fangs? Because vampires. Duh.

No but seriously. According to my 8th grade level understanding of evolution, any animal that needs to pierce flesh in order to eat/get nutrients needs sharp teeth to do it. And Edward/Smeyer is always saying they have razor sharp teeth but... no fangs. 

Honestly, I think I just feel robbed of the inherent sexiness/allure of vampiric fangs and want it back.

They wouldn’t have to be hugely exaggerated or anything either... More like that one kid you knew growing up who had sharper canines than anyone else, but like.. even sharper/more noticeable. Or maybe they only get sharp when they’re hungry or when they smell humans or idk please help.

2) Sunlight Burning Them

Okay, real talk, the idea that vampires only stay hidden from the sun because they sparkle and humans will figure out what they are has always been such a dumb concept to me. Like, so what if humans figure out you aren’t human? They’re hella weak and most of them have no clue how to actually kill you. Just eat/kill them and take over the world. Problem solved.

So, to realistically keep vampires from becoming overpowered/unstoppable human overlords, there should be something that threatens them, right? Something that makes hiding from humans and the sun actually important? Like oh i dunno... the sun hurting them?? Like, c’mon! At least a little bit! A sunburn or something!

Except... vampires going out into the sun is such a thing in Twilight. It’s literally weaved throughout the story. The Cullen’s in particular, who are the main vamps in my fic, genuinely enjoy the sun: a large portion of their house in Forks is floor-to-ceiling windows, they go hunting on sunny days, they enjoy outside time together in the sun, they literally own a damn island in the tropics...

So it almost feels like I can’t – and shouldn’t – mess with the sun. But that still leaves me with the same problem. Vampires like Aro, Caius, or James realistically shouldn’t give two shits about staying int he dark or stupid humans finding them out. They would only care if there was an actual threat to their wellbeing that made them pause. Which brings me to my third idea...

3) Old Superstition Weaknesses and Magic

Smeyer canonically dismisses nearly all traditional vampiric weaknesses as Volturi propaganda. The only true weakness her vampires have is fire; and in the films they make this even more difficult by requiring the vampire be beheaded first for it to actually kill them — which for Normal Humans is just flat out impossible. 

Which brings us back to my main issue: why don’t vampires just become human overlords and slaughter us like cattle? There is quite literally nothing stopping them beyond the occasional werewolf or shapeshifter. 

However, my story has something that could stop them; something Smeyer occasionally teases at but never really sinks her teeth into in the canon: Magic. And not that “hur dur these native boys can turn into wolves because Exotic Mysticism™” magic. No, I’m talking a world teeming with magic, full of invisible but powerful forces pulling all kinds of strings; spirits, demons, fae, higher powers (Gods/Death/Fate), shapeshifters beyond the Quileutes, and – of course – witches.

In my story, witches are humans who live amongst Normal Humans (what I call “Norms” or “Normals”). They have hidden their magic since the Burning Times/Witch Trials/Crusades/etc. but have nevertheless passed their knowledge on from generation to generation. Maybe even hidden it from their husbands/wives/children, but found other ways to safely protect and share their knowledge with new witches.

So, in this world that I’ve created... Wouldn’t it make sense if all those traditional tools used to hunt/kill vampires – garlic, silver, wooden stakes, holy water, etc. – worked, but only if used accordingly? aka with magic? 

And since most humans don’t believe in/use magic anymore, any Norm who actually tried one of those tools probably didn’t use them correctly and died or got turned themselves. Either way, it further fuels the whole “nah that’s bullshit” narrative while ALSO explaining why humans used these tools in the first place. Beyond the whole “oh the Volturi made it up so vamps could fool humans” because. Again. Who. Cares? JUST EAT THEM!!!

Also, in my world, all humans have the capacity/ability to preform magic. Being a witch just means one actively studies and intentionally uses magic. And, like all things, the more you practice magic the stronger/better you become with it. which is just a roundabout way of me saying holy water is 100% magic and the only reason the sewer vampires Carlisle and his father were hunting didn’t eat/kill their hunting party right away was because Carlisle’s father was a clergyman and totally had a jug of holy water at the ready

...

hm. now that I’ve written all my thoughts out, I think number 3 is something I could definitely get away with.. But please tell me your thoughts regardless, cuz like i said im a dumb baby 

and thank you!!💕💕

[ineffablefool]

(1/4) hey uh ur bio says that u r demiromantic and if it's not too much trouble could i get some help? so i'm starting high school next year and so far, i haven't gotten a crush or anything. romantic attraction? don't know her. but whenever i thought or pictured myself "grown up" i imagined myself with a boyfriend. (i'm a woman) all the evidence is pointing towards me being aromantic, but a little slice of my brain is still, "oh, you're just super demiromantic and violently straight, all of your

(2/4) super close friends have been girls, you just have to become really close friends with a guy and there! instant boyfriend" but i know that won't happen. i won't have some man come and suddenly i'm head over heels. but i've always figured i'd have a boyfriend. i know i'm ace, and i am calling myself ace, but whenever i go to call myself aro, my brain goes "but what if ur actually demi and then all the people you told u were aro will think you were a liar" which i kNOW is stupid but i cant

(3/4) stop thinking it. i dunno why i can't fully accept the fact that i'm aro. is it society claiming that you need a partner to be happy? is it the fact that being in love sounds amazing and like floating on clouds and i want to feel like that? i have no fucking clue. and it's not something against aros, like, i know that if someone told me they were aro i'd have no problem with it. which makes it worse because why is it so hard to let go of the fantasy that i'll have a romantic partner one

(4/4) day? i know, in my heart, that there is a like a 1% chance i wont be aro. but i still cant call myself aro my brain won't let me >:( when did you get your first crush? when is it normal for a demi to first feel romantic attraction? did you think you were aro at first? also i sometimes feel like i shouldn't call myself ace bc im too young to know if i like sex yet? when did u start calling yourself ace? ugh sorry for the super long ask,,, also fun fact it's "how do u write kisses" anon hiii

Hi anon.  I cannot promise you excellent help, but I am still glad you wrote to me again, and I really hope you are about to have a straight 72-hour period of Good Days.  (It might take you that long to read this.  Oops.)

So, first of all: there is nothing wrong with calling yourself aro now and then later deciding you aren’t.  Or realizing you aren’t.  (Two different framings for the same thing -- both are good.)  Or deciding or realizing that you’re somewhere on the aromantic spectrum which you feel is better described with a more specific term.  Demiromantics are still part of the aro umbrella!  It’s not an exclusive club where You Must Be Pure Aro To Enter!  (Anyone who tells you otherwise is setting themselves up as Decider Of What It Really Means To Be Aro, and where are their credentials for that?  Hmm, hypothetical gatekeeping person?  Can I please see your certification from the Institute Of Defining Other People’s Identities For Them?  Oh.  Oh you don’t have one.  Because it doesn’t exist.)

Me saying that doesn’t magically make your brain accept the label, of course.  I am just trying to gently show your brain the door, and it’s the one that has to walk through it.

Assuming you want it to walk through it.  Maybe you decide you don’t.  That’s fine!  But “yes, I am indeed aro -- I am on the aro spectrum somewhere so I am using the label” is a perfectly fine thing to tell people, and if they are not carrying forged credentials from the Institute Of Defining Other People’s Identities For Them, then they will probably be okay with this.

I am not any kind of expert on being aro, or ace, or anything.  I am only an expert in being me.  But to somewhat exhaustively answer the questions from your last part...

I had my first crush when I was thirteen or fourteen.  When I was about ten, I was friends with two girls who both had a very public crush on the same boy, and I claimed to also have one on him in order to fit in, but I was completely lying.  Sorry, Drew.  I’m sure you were quite the catch, but I was not feelin’ it.

I don’t know if there’s a specific time when it’s “normal” for a demiromantic person to start feeling any particular way.  It just sort of happens if it’s gonna.  Maybe it never does.  People are complicated and different and that’s wonderful.

I didn’t know what being aro (or being ace!) was when I was your age, because they weren’t really identities yet.  “Asexual” was for amoebas, or maybe robots.  “Aromantic” was, like, dude, did you misspell “aromatic”?  (Keep in mind, there was technically an Internet in approx. 1995, but there was no Google, no Wikipedia, no YouTube, no social media, the concept of what is now called a “blog” didn’t even really exist yet, and often your parents would not let you on the Internet connection if they could even afford it themselves, not least because it was frequently billed by the amount of time you spent using it. It was incredibly hard to know what things existed in the world back then to even begin to learn about them! Now is so much better. I have all the treasures of the world in my pocket via my telephonic device.)  When I started to learn about asexuality, specifically that you could be ace but not be “an emotionless robot” (gosh has unlearning that kind of judgement been a journey), I jumped straight on that label and never looked back (this was roughly when I joined Tumblr, so I would have been about 32).  I thought I was alloromantic for a while after that, but I’ve come to realize that my feelings on romance probably put me somewhere on the aro spectrum.  And that’s where I am now.

I started calling myself ace, again, when I was about 32, but I didn’t have that label available to me when I was younger.  Ya boi was 13-14 years old, sitting in his bedroom writing letters-to-never-be-sent to his crush, which included long sections about how I had already decided I would never have sex so long as I lived, so once we obviously got married because how could we not when I had such Emotions, he would have to find some other way to get that if he wanted it.  I had no interest in it then.  I never developed an interest in it since.  If I had had the knowledge I have now, back when I was in junior high, I am absolutely convinced that I would have taken the ace label then.  Was I too young to know for sure?  I dunno, we don’t say that people are too young at that age to know they’re heterosexual, so why do other sexualities have to pass a higher bar?  (Because compulsory heterosexuality.  That is why.)

Regardless of your age, if the label of ace resonates with you, you can apply it to yourself.  If the label of aro resonates, you can apply it to yourself.  Or a more specific variant of either, or something else entirely.  And the day you realize “oh gosh, this is not, in this moment, actually me”, you can let the label go, because its only purpose for existing is to be useful to you.

Finally -- this is not something I can personally speak to, but I have seen people who identify as completely aro also state that they enjoy things that our (my? I do not know where you are from) culture frequently sees as romantic.  Like, if you want to have a person who you can snuggle up with, hold hands with, say “I love you” to and have them say it back and both of you mean it -- there are aro people who do all that with their partners, and enjoy it, and don’t see it as interfering with their aromantic identity at all.  I believe them, because they are the expert on being themselves, and I have nowhere near the ego required to decide that I know better.  So that’s something to keep in mind -- cloud-floating and an aromantic identity do not have to be completely separate, because there are lots of kinds of love and of affection, and people are complicated, and that is wonderful.

I hope you enjoy this novel, anon.  It is for you.

[livvywrites]

11/11/11

tagged by @aslanwrites, thanks so much~~~ this is one of my favorite tag games tbh xD

1. If your WIP got made into a movie, which actors/actresses would you cast for your main characters?

I’ve never been real good at fancasting, tbh. Probably because I really don’t watch a lot of movies. BUT, I do have some faceclaims that I’ve found through pinterest and other sites? 

Alinora Mynerva -- Tuba Buyukustun

Lyr Inerra -- Luke Pasqualino

Talitha Jade -- short haired Halsey

Haven’t found any other fc’s yet, but there’s a short list!! 

2. What is a story you’d like to write, but don’t know how to yet tackle?

There are a couple of different ones, actually.

The first is one I’ve talked about before on Tumblr. It’s called Heart Eater. (It’s a temporary title.) It’s a lot darker than my usual stories, though, so I have no idea where to even start. Not to mention I don’t know what kind of genre or setting to use... 

The second is temporarily titled Guardians/Overmorrow. It’s more of a sci-fi/fantasy story, with both high technology and a little magic. Or a lot of magic. It was one of the first novel ideas that I came up with and stuck with, though I didn’t finish it. I would love to tackle it one day, but for the moment, I don’t have much for it! Nor much faith in my ability to tackle any of the science that would be involved xD

3. How do you deal with writer’s block?

Crying, begging, pleading, making sacrifices to the writing gods... 

I kid, I kid. 

I don’t really handle writer’s block all that well, tbh. But there are a couple of different things that (occasionally) work for me.

The first is just leaving the story alone. Focusing on something else, if it’s a specific story block, or just taking a break from writing all together. I’ll do things like read and play games instead. 

The second is to stop writing the story, but still do things related to it. Create playlists--none of which I really like well enough to share, tbh, but I’m working on it! Make moodboards/aesthetics, do character questionnaires, revisit the plot with new templates... You know. Whatever I can do that’s still relevant to what I’m writing but isn’t actually writing. Or is, in the case of modern AU’s/pre-series drabbles. (Usually I’m too blocked up even for those, though.) 

4. Coffee, hot chocolate, or tea?

All of the above!

I wish I could tell you I had a specific preference, but I really don’t. It switches up on me a lot. I CAN tell you that I’m picky about all of the above, though.

Tea I like to be sweet and a little spicy. I’m a big fan of Chai lattes, but I also have this lovely Warm Fireside tea that I ADORE. Sadly, they’ve discontinued it, though, so I’ll be hunting around again soon. *sigh* I also really enjoy sweet tea! But I like it *really* sweet. 

Coffee I like with creamer. A lot of creamer. Like, two thirds coffee, one third creamer. Lattes are amazing, tbh. I mostly prefer vanilla flavoring, but sometimes I’ll go for caramel...

Hot chocolate is probably what I’m least picky about, tbh. I’ll drink it by itself, but I like it best with a bit of peppermint. (I keep peppermint creamer on hand, but I also usually have mints in my purse I can drop in.)

5. Do you believe in the death of the author?

Yes.

I think that an author’s interpretation and intention are still relevant to a work, but I also believe in a fan’s ability to disregard those things and do it their own way. And I don’t think that the author should interfere with that. Conversely, I don’t believe that fandom has the right to control how an author continues their work.

In short, while fandom and author overlap in the middle, there should also be some separation--much like a venn diagram ;)

6. What is a trope that needs more love?

You know, my first impulse was to say “found family” but like. That one is everywhere lately. (I am NOT complaining. I just don’t think it’s in the spirit of the question to answer that way xD)

So I don’t really know specific “tropes” necessarily, and I’m not falling into the void that is TV tropes to answer, so I’m just going to list some things that I, personally, would like to see more of?

male/female friendships that don’t end in romance, pls. AND, if either has a significant other, that SO doesn’t get jealous every time they’re in the vicinity of each other.

healthy M/F ships!!! no unnecessary miscommunication or jealousy please!! unless that miscomm is used for non relationship-threatening humor.

characters that don’t end in relationships??? it feels like in a lot of mainstream fiction lately all the characters end up with someone. i love a good romance as much as anyone, but as an ace and possibly aro person (questioning, majorly) it’s also a little disappointing???

the power of FRIENDSHIP. this probably goes hand-in-hand with the found family, but like. friendship/platonic love being the most important thing to a person??? yes pls.

I’ll stop there ‘cause I think that’s enough, but those are a few things!! :D

7. What is your biggest inspiration?

This question is actually really hard for me, because I don’t KNOW. 

Part of me wants to just boil it down to life, to living every day and finding something new about the world/about myself. And that IS a good answer, and true as well, but it doesn’t feel quite... right.

I could tell you that I feel inspired every time I pick up a new book, or poem, or fanfic to read. I could tell you that I feel inspired every time I see a commercial for a movie or a TV show. I could tell you that history articles/magazines inspire me. I could tell you that hearing about different identities and cultures inspires me. I could tell you that I find inspiration everywhere, in everything, and that none of it would qualify as my “biggest” inspiration, because I get little bits from everywhere.

But that still doesn’t feel right either.

I feel like maybe I’m missing the point of the question. 

8. Let’s go on a little adventure: One day, you end up in the same world as your characters–or if they’re in ours, you end up with your characters in some way, shape or form. What do you do?

I’m going to assume that either they don’t know who I am or think of me as some scribe meant to tell their story, instead of the person who created it. (Which is how I think of myself sometimes, tbh.) Because otherwise I feel like they would probably be maybe a little mad at me.

So, first things first, I probably give Alinora and Aishlynn a hug. Well. Okay. I don’t hug them because neither of them would be super comfortable with that. (Alinora doesn’t mind, and even appreciates, hugs from people she knows, but not so much people she doesn’t. Aishlynn just isn’t big on hugs in general.)

And then I probably fangirl a little. 

Just a little.

I mean. These are my BABIES, and yes they’re flawed and have their weak spots but. They’re also so STRONG and HEROIC and GOOD and I just LOVE THEM. 

9. If you had a magical power, what would that power be?

Probably something like empathy. tbh, but I would WANT like... the ability to not have to sleep. Though I guess that would probably get boring after a while. 

10. What is a genre that you feel is underrated? What about overrated?

So, I feel like every genre has the potential to be done really well, and I think I could probably enjoy something from pretty much any of them. HOWEVER. Lately I’ve been a little... uninterested in a lot of mainstream YA fiction. Not all of it, necessarily, but a lot of it. It’s not that I think YA as a whole is overrated, because I don’t. But at the same time, I do?? I dunno. I wanna read more about older people??? Not full-on “adult” fiction, but y’know. New Adult. And while I don’t think NA is “underrated” specifically, I do wish they had an actual section for it in bookstores. 

11. Have you accomplished anything that you’re proud of?

Yes. I finished my very first novel around 17. (I might have actually been 16 and a half.) I still have yet to complete the second draft/full rewrite, but I’m still really proud of actually FINISHING it.

I’m also really proud of how far I’ve made it into THE MARTYR QUEEN. I’ve started and re-started that story so many times, and actually being THIS close to the end, with a draft I don’t hate... It’s amazing. I mean, it definitely needs changes, but I’m really proud of how it’s shaping up. 

Now if I could just finish a short story.... X’D

MY QUESTIONS

Have you ever been so disappointed/unimpressed by a character’s concept/arc/etc. that you decided to take that concept and write it how you wished it had been told? Whether you’ve started the story or not is irrelevant, just if you’ve got an idea built up!

What do you feel are your biggest strengths in writing? What makes you look back over your writing and feel proud?

Are there any characters, themes, setting types, etc that you see popping up over and over again in your writing? Why do you think that is?

If you could give your past self any writing-related advice, what would you tell them?

When it comes to character creation, what are things you HAVE to know before you start writing, if anything?

Similarly, what are some things you HAVE to know about your plot before you start writing, if anything?

How often do find that your characters/plot surprise you? 

What do you find the most difficult/what is your weakest point when it comes to world-building?

What experiences do you feel have most shaped your writing? (It’s okay if you don’t want to share specifics, or don’t want to share at all! Or just don’t know. You can say something else that majorly shaped your writing :D)

Do you find it easier to work alone, or to have at least one other writer/person encouraging you?

Assuming you aren’t already, if you were ever to write a story based off of a mythology/fairytale/other, which one would you choose, and how would you do it?

(i won’t be tagging 11 people, i’m sorry! but if you see this and WANT to do it, PLEASE do so and tag me. if i’ve already tagged you in something like this recently, feel free to pick which one you do <3) 

tagging: @aslanwrites (yes, i’m tagging you back, but only do it if you want to! or save it for later, when you wanna have something to do. i don’t mind xD) @waterfallwritings, @diabhals, @matterovermindpodcast, @firesidefantasy, @klywrites

[ladyxdarcy-pleasefollownewblog]

Tagged I’m It?

Never in my life have I been tagged in a tumblr thing so I’m just gonna be doing a lot of copying and pasting because I don’t know what I’m doing...huzzah?

I was tagged by @cumberblocked and I’m going to pretend I know what I’m doing.

Rules: 15 questions, 15 mutuals

I’m tagging: @writingfanficsfan @elwinglyre​ @madsmeetsmisha @stahpshurlawkdatsgay @bloody-kirk @elphabahamilton @whyimmathere @astudyintea @santiagosbrooklyn @fabricdragondesigns @cptdorkery @twomenofnote @i-want-to-pet-your-dog @nappyfro81 @221bloggergirl221

I’m gonna be real honest...those are some mostly random tags. But like hey guys what’s up?

1. Are you named after anyone? Nope. My great-grandmother actually heard my name in a dream and said that that was what my name was supposed to be. She was very religious and always said it was G-O-D or angels telling her my name.

2. When was the last time you cried? I dunno probably yesterday watching one of my fandom shows. I love crying and yelling at my computer screen when I think characters are being dumb. I start my period in a week so it’s probably going to be happening a lot soon. Catching up on Supernatural (just started S12 actually) and these boys D-U-M.

3. Do you have kids? NOPE. NO THANKS. I do have godchildren though. But I’m ace aro (maybe some demi or grey thrown in there, I don’t know, shit is hard to describe) and happy being single so thankfully I’ll never have to worry about accidentally getting pregnant. Even if I did get into a relationship, however, I really just am not interested in children. If that ever changed, I’d probably foster or adopt, but like my everything goes to my godkids who are the world to me, and I don’t really need anyone else.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? I’m refraining from answering this sarcastically.

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people? I honestly don’t know. I take in a lot about a person at first glance. I guess maybe their general look? Like hair, clothes, makeup, that sort of thing. And like the way they carry themselves. Their personalities? I dunno, I just sort of take in everything and it can depend on what order that happens on the situation, so there isn’t really one “first thing” I notice about people.

6. What’s your eye color? Some kind of brown.

7. Scary movie or happy ending? Horror is honestly my favorite movie genre. Doesn’t mean it can’t have a happy ending, however. After all, a happy ending is in the eye of the viewer. But I do love a good cheesy romance movie too. Or an action movie. Or...anything really. It really just depends on my mood at the time. 

8. Any special talents? Does RBF count? Nah I don’t know. People seem to like my writing? Is that a special talent? I can low-key read auras or energies? Like not anything specific but my “first impression” feelings of people or places tend to end up being accurate, even if it doesn’t seem that way at the time.

9. Where were you born? Fresyes, California, USA. I fucking hate it here.

10. What are your hobbies? Reading, writing, binge watching, binge eating, binge drinking, daydreaming. lol I’m rather boring. I guess anything that takes me away from my normal existence. Is that depressing? Whelps nothing can be done about that. Mostly I’ve been focusing on fanfiction, though that’s my secret double internet life and I don’t really let my IRL friends or whatever know about that. Especially since some of the things I write or read can get a bit...steamy. ;)

11. Do you have any pets? Not any that are specifically mine but we have a lot of family pets currently. I would love to have a pet pig someday though. Also a horse. Low-key want to live on a ranch, honestly, in the middle of nowhere, but that’s a lot of work. And I love the ease of metropolis areas.

12. What sports do you play/have you played? lol fuk sports they’re not for me

13. How tall are you? Like 5′7 3/4 or something like that. Basically 5′8 except for a couple centimeters or whatever.

14. Favorite subject in school? English. Anything to do with literature in any fashion. Actually, I took Play Writing for English credit my junior year in high school and I got the highest grade on my play and it was the teacher’s favorite. So boo-fucking-yah bitches. (Dance for PE credit was also pretty cool, and I took Self-Defence this past spring for PE credit in college which was tight...found out I loved punching things...oh how about that for the sports question! I’ve never done it but I think boxing would be cool.)

15. Dream job? I wanted to be either a librarian or a mortician when I was younger. I’m currently finishing up my first year of community college in my pursuit of my Masters in Library Sciences to become a librarian. It took me a long while, but I’m finally on the right path.

I guess you’re supposed to tag me if you answer? Except that would already happen up above when you say you were tagged? Whatever man. I’m gonna go back to watching the 1995 BBC Pride and Prejudice miniseries instead of doing the college class assignments that are due by Sunday that I haven’t really started yet.

lol yolo

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

I posted 1.262 times in 2021

[Oh my god, this is wild. Like, I just joined this year. wtf]

239 posts created (19%)

1023 posts reblogged (81%)

[holy fucking shit-]

For every post I created, I reblogged 4.3 posts.

I added 167 tags in 2021

#a biscuit's rambles - 72 posts

#for future reference - 22 posts

#ace - 14 posts

#save save save - 10 posts

#idk - 9 posts

#rainbow rb - 9 posts

#asexual - 8 posts

#'portant rb - 8 posts

#rb - 8 posts

#star wars - 7 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#i made a picture based on ace colours and my friend said those were very nice colours without realizing i picked them with another intent ev

[ah yes, i remember this one. though i regularly reached the character limit when rambling in the tags... which everyone seems to do more or less :)]

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

new episode of what if

*Hawkeye and Black Widow are in the focus*

Me: YESSDFGHJKLÖKJFFHGVB NBJK!!!!!!

Watcher: ...this one breaks my heart the most.

Me:

Me: oh no

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Me: So that's how the multiverse looks... and the fourth wall(s)

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Me, watching the watcher basically begging for Hawkeye to look in the damn box: that's a fucking mood, man

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Me: No, Hawkeye, don't you DARE- NO

Me: *sobbing*

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Ultron: *crashes into the Watcher*

Me: If that ain't shattering the fourth wall i dunno what is

*fight goes on*

Me: That's gonna need more than duct tape to fix it

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Now just please tell me this is a fucking two part episode or i'm gonna lose my fucking mind

But they can't guide us through more universes without the watcher, right?

...

and, if there are infinte realities, are there multiple versions of the multiverse the Watcher is in, with maybe another watcher that watches our watcher like our watcher does and-

31 notes • Posted 2021-09-29 18:43:07 GMT

[i also remember that episode and it still hurts...]

#4

I keep drawing folks in ace blankets and nobody can stop me.

Below are the identities from left to right, I got them from looking at the pages here.

If you can't read I'll write it down here again (from left to right, as good as possible):

belussexual, mysexual, fictosexual, placiosexual, acespike, aegosexual, demisexual, greysexual, asexual, fraysexual, lithosexual, aceflux, iamvanosexual, reciprosexual, apothisexual, cupiosexual, caedsexual, requiessexual

37 notes • Posted 2021-10-28 04:28:32 GMT

[oh yeah, i was so proud of that one... still am, kinda]

#3

See the full post

63 notes • Posted 2021-10-27 20:07:20 GMT

[same def goes for this one]

#2

protect aro girls and women.

protect aro boys and men.

protect aro enbys.

protect aro people, regardless which gender (if there's a gender).

(in case this actually needs to be said:)

protect allosexual aros.

protect asexual aros.

y'all are valid as hell and belong here (if you want to, of course).

132 notes • Posted 2021-10-19 16:35:38 GMT

#1

protect ace girls and women.

protect ace boys and men.

protect ace enbys.

protect ace people, regardless which gender (if there's a gender).

y'all are valid as hell and belong here (if you want to, of course).

139 notes • Posted 2021-10-12 15:08:00 GMT

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[bigjuicys-world]

answer all of the marvel asks????lol

Avengers: What superpower would you like to have? the power to heal myself and others

Iron Man: What is your favorite piece of technology? my favorite piece of technology that i own is my electric guitar, but my favorite piece of technology overall would probably be any robot ever

Captain America: What is your sexuality? either i’m pan or i’m ace and aro so wish me luck figuring that one out lol

Black Widow: Share a secret. there’s a spider in my bathroom and i don’t have the heart to kick him out so while i’m peeing we just kinda make eye contact and hope for peace 

Thor: What is your religion? my whom?

Hawkeye: What is your favourite movie? Hot Rod, starring Andy Samberg

Hulk: How strong are you? how do i answer this question?

Loki: What is the biggest mistake that you have ever made? i wish i was more open with my grandma and spent more time with her

Scarlet Witch: If you could change one thing in the world, what would it be? people would trust logic and science more than feelings and their own eyes and experiences

Quicksilver: Have you any siblings? two

Vision: What weight are you? frickkk idk, maybe like 115? 120?

Ultron: What is the last text you sent? the thumbs up emoji

Ant-man: What height are you? almost 5 foot 3, so jot that down

Wasp: What's your full name? it’s a doozy and i don’t feel like typing it all out

Bucky: Who is your best friend? ummmm @mp3butt

Falcon: Which fictional character would you like to hang out with? J. Jonah Jameson, i wanna know his political beliefs

Spider-man: What is/was your favourite subject in school? math definitely

Doctor Strange: Name a special talent you have. i can play guitar pretty ok

Captain Marvel: What do you want to achieve in life? i want to participate in the international space program before i die, either going into space, studying it from earth, or designing/creating a robot that gets sent into space. also i want to be more honest with everyone, including people i don’t care about, and i want to make people feel comfortable around me

Black Panther: How responsible are you? i mean i cleaned my room today, so you tell me

Spider-woman: What is your favourite smell? gingerbread during christmas time

Nova: Do you prefer the moon or stars? stars, but to be honest i’m more attached to the moon (get it?????? lmao)

Luke Cage: What job do you want? astrophysicist, but that probably isn’t gonna happen so maybe some kind of engineer? 

Jessica Jones: What is your favourite memory? i don’t have one

Daredevil: What is your favourite song? i don’t have one rn

Iron Fist: What is your favourite food? currently mac n cheese

Ms. Marvel: Who is your idol? zendaya def

X-men: What social issue do you feel strongest about? (sexism, racism, etc.) probably racism, because it’s getting more people killed and it feels way scarier than sexism and homophobia, even though those two r the only ones i’ll ever experience

Professor X: What are you thinking about right now? i’m thorsty

Cyclops: Do you wear glasses? yeah, and they’re pink

Rogue: What is your crushes name? :-/

Magneto: What country are you from? usa babyyyyyy

Mystique: What is one thing that you would like to change about yourself? i wish i was more hardworking or focused (which i’m working on)

Wolverine: What are you afraid of? the unknown, and the known being kept from others

Phoenix: What is your favourite book? currently, Space Chronicles by Neil Degrasse Tyson

Storm: What is your favourite type of weather? raining real hard with the sun out

Beast: What is your favourite animal? penguins, no question

Angel: What is your MBTI type? i think it’s INFP but i’m not sure

Magik: What is your star sign? cancer

Gambit: When is your birthday? july 14th

Shadowcat: Have you any pets? yas, two dogs, and they hate each other lol

Groot: What is your favourite flower? candy corn plant, look it up

Rocket: What languages do you speak? english, i know some Spanish, even less French, and I’m pretty good at american sign language

Star-Lord: What is your Harry Potter house? either hufflepuff or gryffindor??? i’ve taken the pottermore quiz 6 times, and 3 times i got hufflepuff but the other times i got gryffindor so ..... and i was shooting for ravenclaw lol

Draxx: Who do you love most in the world? my family and my friends and my dogs

Gamora: What is your worst memory? i can’t bring myself to talk about it yet lol

Medusa: What colour/length/style is your hair? shoulder length and strawberry blonde, but it’s naturally blonde and i’m planning on dying it to its natural color before school starts so

Black Bolt: What is your accent like? dunno, but when i get excited or nervous while talking i forget to pronounce my R’s or i just stumble so bad that i’m not even saying words

Ghost Rider: What is the worst thing that you have ever done? i was near suicidal during 10th grade and i hate that i put my mom through stress because of it

[kxtyura]

Tagged by @rainbowpaladins​ bc she a big ho Rules: answer these 85 statements & tag 20 people

the last: 1. drink: Water 2. phone call: uhhh my mom 3. text message: ... also my mom. i tired to ask her what something was and she told me the price of it. 4. song: something by ryuseitai but i dont remember what lol 5. time you cried: like four hours ago lol have you ever: 6. dated someone twice: nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it: nope 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: not that i know of?? 10. been depressed: probably 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: na favourite colors: 12. red 13. milennial pink ™ 14. uhhh blue 15: i dont like anymore colors 16: im an artist and honestly i couldnt tell you the shades of any blues or reds i like in the last year have you: 17. laughed until you cried: yes 18. found out someone was talking about you: uuh ye 19. met someone who changed you: mmm ye 20. found out who your friends are: idk yea? 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: na 22. made friends: i hope!! 23. fallen out of love: na general: 25. what did you do for your last birthday: went and got japanese with daisy lmao. i feel like we did something else too but i dont remember what. did u sleep over?? 26. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life :i.. dont have facebook. im not a wine mom. 27. do you have any pets: a dog!! his name is banjo!! also two birds!! lucky and... aussie wtf. And a cat!! his name is charlie and i l o v e him 28. what time did you wake up: this post is scheduled lol but my alarm goes off at 7 on monday so probably 7 29. what were you doing at midnight last night: once again scheduled, but last night i was asleep at 12. tonight.... ill be posting this lol 30. name something you can’t wait for: uhhh i dunno to meet my friends n stuff. 31: what are you listening to right now: tryna find a cool yakuza documentary to watch tbh 32: have you ever talked to a person named tom: yea he catches my bus and hes tall as FUCK 33: something that’s getting on your nerves: my anxiety idk 34. do you want to change your name: uhhh im trans yes please change my name 35. hair color: brown 36. long or short hair: short 37. piercings: i have my ears pierced and thats all lol 38. tattoos: the permanent marks of marker on my left hand clearly 39. blood type: im four i dont know my blood type 40. nicknames: jay kitten wife son idk 41. relationship status: gay 42. zodiac: aries 43. pronouns: he/they 44. most visited website: chrome tells me its tumblr so thanks for being my most visited hellsite tumblr. 45. right or left handed: ambidextrous but predominately right handed 46. surgeries: once my eye almost popped out of my head because im allergic to mozie bites so i had to uhhh get my eye not popped out. probably others when i was a baby but idk 47. sports: i...... do ice skating. 48. favorite tv show: at the moment boku no hero academia im so pumped 49. vacations: my parents went to china without me and my dad and brother are going to america without me so. not goin anywhere this year. might go to europe next year. 50. sneakers: i bought a new pair yesterday! theyre blue and grey more general: 52. eating: its 11:55 pm im not eating my dude 53. fave drink: uhh i like melon soda but idk if its my favorite. strawberry milk tea maybe. 54. what you’re up to: im chillin in bed after finishing my essay. gotta start my prsentation, but... no. might draw some ocs. yakuza yuuri. 55. waiting for: the sweet release of death 56. want: to never do school again 57. get married: sorry im married to my ego bye bitch which is better: 60. hugs or kisses: kisses are weird and hugs are... also weird i guess but theyre better lol 61. lips or eyes: fucked if i know i dont care 62. shorter or taller: ive never liked a person Ever. i dont care. im basically always in the aromantic area my dude. 63. older or younger: eh idc.  64. nice arms or stomach: stop asking me relationship questions im a fetus 65. hook up or relationship: neither i just said im aro ace 66. troublemaker or hesitant:is this a question about me or more questions about people. i have no idea. have you ever: 67. kissed a stranger: no 68. drank hard liquor: no 69. lost glasses/contacts: i lost my glasses for a week turns out they were on my bedside table 70. turned someone down: i think so but it was like three years ago lol 71. sex on the first date: sex... never. 72. broken someone’s heart: there was this kid who had a crush on me and he was nice at first then he started getting creepy so i basically just stopped talking to him so probably lol 73. had your heart broken: nah 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: id cry if i stepped on an ant 76. fallen for a friend: hah yeah that happened literally when i was like 11. she was cute i guess idk. we went to a convention together. do you believe in: 77. yourself: depends on the day lol 78. miracles: eeehh 79. love at first sight: not really but idk 80. santa claus: santa claus is dead my dudes 81. kiss on the first date: do what u want. live ur life. idc. 82. angels: why not lol other: 83. current best friend’s name(s): rachel n rosa and daisy i love u all boos 84. eye colour: my eyes are hazel but more on the green side. trendy. 85. favourite movie: i dont really have favorites but i watched the wind rises recently for an au with rachel so... u kno

Tagging: @snxgsobaka @lady-stroopwafel and idk maybe @aisudream if u wanna idk yall are like the only people ive ever talked to on here

[elan-morin-tedronai]

Rare Pair Fest Letter Thingy

Dear Creator! 

First of all thank you for signing up and creating content for whichever of my ships happens to be your cup of tea so to say. Whoever you are, I’m happy you’re out there, enjoying the same obscure fandom things~

Then, to the point.

AO3 name: Tedronai

General likes & dislikes:

Likes: emotions, epic friendships, complicated dynamics between unlikely allies, politics & court intrigue, complicated relationships, enemies to lovers, aro/ace characters, aro/ace characters navigating romantic/sexual relationships, ships with good communication.

Dislikes: plotless porn, plotless fluff, crack humour, A/B/O dynamics, redemption = death trope, mpreg (of the cis male variety), pregnancy or kid fic in general, most modern AUs for fantasy fandoms, domestic fluff.

I have no triggers nor any serious squicks so you can do basically anything that feels right for the ship without worrying about that.

Then for the fandom-specific stuff...

Fandom #1: Endeavour Ship(s): Joss Bixby/Endeavour Morse

Oh dear. Ride was the first episode of Endeavour that I properly watched, and Morse’s relationship with Bixby just hit all of my buttons at once, I was devastated when it ended the way it did. I just wanted... more. Of anything. Everything.

So that gives you fairly free rein... Which, I understand, may not be super helpful so I’ll try to come up with a few more specific things. Just expanding on any possible stolen moments during the episode would be lovely. 

If you want to go down the angst road and destroy me, which you have my full consent to do, expanding on Morse’s feelings and thoughts from the point on when he hears the gunshot... The heartbreak, the regrets for things that could have been but never quite did. Or maybe something did happen between them and that makes things worse, because obviously Morse hasn’t been through enough.

Or maybe, if you feel like venturing into the AU realm, maybe Bixby didn’t stay behind to be shot, maybe he went home with Morse... And how far you want to take that AU scenario is up to you because if it goes far enough, you’d still have to deal with Bixby’s real identity coming to light and that may be too much of a hassle. But hey, if you feel like it!

Maybe Bixby goes with Morse, they spend the night at Morse’s cabin and Bixby gets shot upon leaving in the morning? I don’t know, I’m just throwing things out here at this point.

But like I said, I’ll be absolutely delighted with anything you come up with, sad or bittersweet or even -- gasp! -- outright happy, though that might take some imagination, considering... Morse and Bixby both. x’)

Fandom #2: Final Fantasy XIV Ship(s): Gaius van Baelsar/Livia sas Junius; Nero tol Scaeva/Livia sas Junius

Look, I’m not gonna say Livia deserved better... but, you know. She did.

I’m gonna be happy with almost anything for Livia/Gaius, but with certain restrictions. Anything sexual between them must be consensual, and my headcanon is that Livia initiated the relationship; she certainly wasn’t coerced into it by the older and more powerful Gaius.

Also for the love of whatever Garleans worship, let’s not do the daddy dom thing here. I mean I absolutely do see dom/sub elements being a thing, and Livia is probably the subbest sub to ever sub (or maybe I’m just projecting here, who even knows), but... daddy kink is personally something I’ve never really understood, and in the context of Livia and Gaius... let’s just not, okay.

As for Livia/Nero, I admit that this is mostly a thing I ship because I (used to?) RP Livia in an AU in which she survived the end of the 2.0 MSQ. But that doesn’t need to restrict your creativity! I’m absolutely fine with pre-Castrums Livia/Nero hookup brought on by frustration or alcohol or both, or whatever you happen to feel like. Just maybe no romantic feelings in that case.

If you do want to go for the AU in which Livia survives... the possibilities are endless. We know Nero ends up in Mor Dhona afterwards; maybe Livia did, too? It’s one place in which it’s easy to blend in, go unnoticed. And from there it can develop into anything at all, including romance if you feel like it.

Fandom #3: Wheel of Time Ship(s): Moridin/Mazrim Taim; Logain Ablar/Mazrim Taim; Min Farshaw/Elan Morin Tedronai

Okay so Taim/Moridin is a ship that just... happened. It started as a crack ship, things happened, now it’s one of my favourite ships in the WoT ‘verse.

It has its own fic ‘verse here. Just in case you’re interested. Though obviously whatever you come up with -- whether fic or art -- doesn’t have to be compatible with my ‘verse.

I’m looking for... anything, really. Maybe Moridin himself recruited Taim and was the main Forsaken contact for the Black Tower stuff. Maybe things happen around when Taim is promoted to the ranks of the Chosen. For this ship I’m totally cool with PWP, too, though if confused emotions are involved, all the better.

Then... Taim/Logain, the tragic love story of our time. (I don’t even know.) I’ll never buy that their relationship truly amounted to mutual hate at first sight. If Taim had hated Logain from the start, nothing would have been easier than to get rid of him before he gained a cult following among the Asha’man. No, Taim must have had a reason for letting Logain live, and to get away with the things he did, and the only explanation that makes any sense is that he wanted Logain on his side. (Or by his side, or in his bed, or whatever.)

Again, I’ll take anything with these two except some wild shit like, I dunno, Taim sexually abusing Logain while the latter is held prisoner. But if you really want my eternal, undying love, give me an AU in which Taim comes back to Light (or never turns to the Shadow) because with Logain, he can actually tell the Forsaken to fuck off and have a fighting chance of survival. 

Or, you know, when the Forsaken demand that Logain be Turned, Taim nopes out because that’s where he draws the line and survival doesn’t even matter anymore. Honestly, in this scenario, feel free to kill him if you like.

And finally Min/Elan. If you got matched for this ship, you’re probably either Lise or offered “any ship” for WoT. (In the case of the former, hi! In the case of the latter... I’m sorry? xD)

So if Taim/Moridin was a crack ship that got out of hand, this is like... this one skipped the crack phase, went straight from a really weird concept into “yes! this is the ship I’ll go down with!” territory. Basically this happened, and the rest... is... history? Not that there’s really anything yet that comes after the thing I linked. but. yeah.

The obvious route is probably to go with the post-AMoL AU, because Elan and Min don’t even exist in the same Age otherwise. Unless you can sell me a Min/Moridin that doesn’t venture into icky darkfic territory, because let’s not do that to Min. If you feel you can do it right, go for it. I have faith in you. But the AU in which Elan lives again is probably easier.

And within that premise... Anything, really? Like I said in the general likes/dislikes section, I appreciate communication in my ships, so honestly I’d be delighted with just them trying to figure out what exactly they want from their relationship. Or uh. You know. Kink negotiation? If you felt like it?? Elan is a sub, for the record. Hell, I’ll even take something vaguely domestic for these two (or three if you want to keep Rand around but he’s optional) because Elan and domesticity is such a strange combination.

Fandom #4: Kushiel’s Legacy Ship(s): Imriel de la Courcel/Lucius Tadius da Lucca; Imriel de la Courcel/Mavros Shahrizai/Lucius Tadius da Lucca; Mavros Shahrizai/Lucius Tadius da Lucca

So basically what I want from any of these is let Lucius be happy and not stuck in a duty marriage because you didn’t want to give Imriel a male love interest, for fuck’s sake.

Any scenario in which Lucius comes to Terre d’Ange is an absolute delight. At the end of Scion? Perfect. For Imriel’s wedding at the end of Mercy? Beautiful. Anywhere in between for whatever reason you come up with? Yes please. I don’t care if you ship him with Imriel or Mavros or both, just let them be happy.