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cloudstongue · 4 months

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you guys ever get so love deprived and needy and kinda touch starved that you kind of get overwhelmed by anything and tesr up at everything. worst part is i already have enough what the honk is wrong with me

#textpost #maybe a vent? idk man #i would say more of a. complicatef experience #not even that complicated #maybe its just my period comign soon idk #or im js being emotional like always

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jack-the-killler · 3 months

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POV: My mind on the daily.

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hakucho-art · 2 months

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This is, like, the third or fourth time (if not MORE) that I see a person apologize for talking about touken, showing enjoyment in the ship or needing to give some clarification. I know I'm not the only one who feels like the TG Tumblr space carries a negative atmosphere towards touken and it honestly kills my mood to post on here.

It also saddens me to see people show love for them so hesitantly. Like you're in the wrong for doing so. Like it's stupid. Like it's silly and unreasonable. Like it's almost shameful. Idk! That's how posting on here and see other people talk about them and acting ashamed about liking them makes me feel!

For how much TG tumblr advertises to be a welcoming space, I don't feel welcomed at all and more like just tolerated.

#maybe I should be blocking more freely. maybe thats the mistake im doing #the tg sexywoman tournament wasnt fun because instead of uplifting your fave #it kinda turned into dunking on touka #im not gonna stop posting on tumblr for those few who yk. actually like touken #but im alresdy interacting less here because of that atmosphere #and maybe its gonna be even less #idk man. im annoyed rn KWVFJWJDJ #im just glad i have the touken community on twt #i feel very appreciated there and not like im being delusional for liking the canon ship #im making this post to also see if others relate and im not overreacting #tg #ken kaneki #touka kirishima #touken #tokyo ghoul #yh going to the main tags #vent

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angelpuns · 4 months

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Pretty sure my parents think I'm a heartless freak but like idk what I'm really supposed to do about that-

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quemaiglesias · 2 years

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Drowning

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whump-on-a-string · 7 days

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I probably will need to do Physical Therapy for the rest of my life but at the moment mental health makes that feel SO OVERWHELMING that I wish I could check myself into a magically ethical institution that would only let me eat after I do my Required Physical Therapy because I just can't self-motivate to even cook food and EAT half the time. Adding excersize to that sounds IMPOSSIBLE rn. I wish I could just exist in a tiny quiet room with no worries about rent or food money for a while, and hope I can process everything and catch up with the world around me. I'll get through it but I'm still gonna process my brain thoughts with weird little doodles!

#chronic pain #pttd #vent #to me this is like an escapist form of medical whump #medical whump #oh to be a silly little man in a quiet soft room for a few months to try and cope with the suffering that is EXISTING sometimes #I get mid to high numbers on the beighton test but idk if its EDS ZEBRA tier high tbh. Maybe more mild hypermobility issues #oc #my art #doodle

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venacoeurva · 5 months

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Low-grade baby fever: You don't actually want kids, maybe the idea scares or disgusts you, maybe you have no parental instincts, you have no impulse or pull to have any... but your OCs however,

#vena vents #not art #Meanwhile virtually none of my ocs should be parents except for like dusk #and he is #Maybe Brook and Kruessakt start a mini colony or adopt a myconid or something idk #Like man I knew and made it apparent that I should not be a parent and do not want to since I was like 4 #and I think that solidified in my parents having to watch other peoples' kids grow up and be reluctant and dogshit parents

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0xeyedaisy · 1 month

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Was gonna make a vent post talking abt how everything sucks but then something good happened so I'm okay now, I'm cured

#Still gonna vent a lil...#So things kinda sucks as of late for me #I have all these little problems. That on their own aren't that bad. But they just. keep piling up and become one big problem for me #One thing after the other. I am tired. Like emotionally. My mind is exhausted #At this point I keep thinking that something really bad is gonna happen #I try to be positive. I try to make all these problems not get to me #But man. It's kinda hard #Idk. I just don't know.#I just feel unlucky #Whatever. At least I still have my ability to draw. That's one of the most important things for me!#If I feel bad I'll just draw something. Maybe even for someone! I've been having fun drawing other ppls ocs :]#I feel better now btw. Sorry for the vent tho I actually don't like venting like this but also. if I don't talk abt this I'll explode.#So yeah. Hope everyone has a good day!

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zebratimw · 1 year

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Spirit animal SQH

#svsss #shang qinghua #but mainly I'm just here to vague post LMAO I don't like to vague post its not very effective in terms of venting but #but basically I guess I'm becoming hyperaware of my like... cognitive dissonance codependency and derealization ee #also my general laziness ig and where it overlaps into executive dysfunction or whatever like I may genuinely have some issues but #I am also a lazy son of a bitch jfjfkgkg and i need to figure out how to figure it out so I can work on both in more effective ways hhggg #oh yeah but basically the thing to remember for later is the silence in the call and the immediate unmute and chat activity once I left #I should remember this and stop interacting I think? I should try to give em space I think I'm being too clingy or something #or maybe my own silence is too awkward and dampens the call? I was kinda just spacing out and not doing anything so I get its kinda weird #LMAO so I should just like try not to be in call for those times mm #I just like being in call with my friends jdhfkg but I suppose its not very good either #I overindulge I suppose another friend pointed it out to me before too haha but fjfjjt its just easier than facing bouts of dread by myself #eehh and that's why I gotta do something about my Metnal Ailneses hfjfj but ngl I don't really know how to go about it...#I get embarrassed looking stuff up djfnfkg and half the time I don't even know what to look up I just draw ?s and I give up #I suppose I also have commitment issues too but that ones not new which is an issue of itself aaaaaaaa #man idk idk I just don't really get it I guess djdjfjf and I've got existential dreads and think maybe it doesn't really matter whats wrong #cause there's no point to fixing them because ultimately I'm gonna die alone and a failure anyways? so like ehfjgkg idk #its depressing and I know its like sabotage cause my brain is being a little silly a little goofy and its not a shared sentiment #with the better half of me and the entirety of my friends but yknow its just ee harder sometimes to believe in the optimism ig #and i can talk about it somewhat normally and without like having a ✨️break down #but yknow djfjgkg I'm very emotional a person ya? I think sqh is relatable for gods sake 💀#irrationality sentimentality nihilism and existential dreads... wanting to die because living is too hard despite all my hopes for living...#just the ol regulars yknow?#and another thing... do I talk to my friends about these things? I vent them out here a lot but what do I really want?#I'm not strong enough to keep it to myself clearly but I'm also too proud to share these thoughts? I dump them out in the open and for what?#whenever someone reaches out with concern and care I don't respond in kind and refuse to elaborate?#so like what do I want with this? I guess I want someone to know I'm going insane half the time I'm awake? but not do anything about it?#that's pretty unfair I guess... and stupid I think I do want to share my thoughts with someone but I'm too scared of the ramifications #and that my pride can't stand the fact I might be looked differently by my friends even tho the image they have of me is already quite silly #man.... idk.... I'll come to conclusions myself and do nothing about them so I guess that'll happen again aah idk idk idk

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thegreatyin · 6 months

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it is more than mildly bothering me to look up dungeon meshi discussion between fellow anime-onlys and watch people call the funny purple eyed elf boy (thistle) a dark elf. like. i haven't read the manga but ive seen that one strip explaining the difference between them and normal elves in the dunmeshi verse and uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh that's incorrect i think,

#it BOTHERS ME. IMMENSELY.#can a man not have a skin color?????#sorry for venting about something that absolutely does not matter on main lol #i just think the implied 'all elves are naturally light skinned and dark skinned elves are Some Other Race Inherently Different' is uhhh #it's bad. actually.#yin-thoughts #dungeon meshi #idk???? it's not that big of a deal????? but also i Dislike It Greatly????????#maybe im just overreacting #it's just BORING too. why make dark elves just elves that are black. make em freaky purple cave dwellers or something idk

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oathkeeper-of-tarth · 7 months

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Also I quit my job of what would in about a month or two have been 10 years, and perhaps now I will get to actually be a human being again.

#honestly? honestly?#last week i told the two (2) godawful egomaniac lab head Man In Academia bosses i quit and that we need to formalise it asap and i just #felt like a little feather about to float away on a breeze #maybe now i can do normal people things like eat and sleep and have a routine of some sort idk #i have been slowly losing it for at least 3-4 years now #i took a screenshot and last year i had no fewer than 14 fucking travel orders fulfilled #most of which consisted of like 12+ hour days on ships and docks #i'm just so tired man #not for reblogging obviously #i don't really wanna vent anymore or ponder them and the entire godforsaken institution but like #good riddance tbh #which is really really sad when you think about it! but here we are #it was just... no trace of future anywhere to be seen! entirely a Void!!#gonna post a beefy lesbian paladin real quick to push this post down lmao #but i felt like sharing because i know there's good and concerned people who follow me here and i both appreciate and miss you all #and lord knows some of you have been listening to me vent and whine for ages #am i going to miss some great people and the research community of my field? of course but also it was all just completely unsustainable

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youngpeachenthusiast · 9 months

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the funny thing is people will claim that they don't mind you being physically present at events but not actively participating until you tell them that you are happy to be there, just unable to actively participate in activities. then suddenly it's not okay anymore and actually "it's okay on the daily but we'd expect something more on this event, otherwise it's just boring"

feels yucky. i enjoy just being there in company and watching them do stuff, and it really is painful to know that they feel me being unable to participate in their activities is apparently boring and apparently makes it useless for me to even show up lol. i'm so tired.

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moonchild-in-blue · 4 months

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Oh.

#according to facebook memories (why do i even have that still??) 12 years ago today i saw Linkin Park for the first time 🥺#in a few days it'll be 10 years since the last time i saw them #and. hm. there's a lot that surfaced this days since clancy dropped and i'm a bit more emotional / sensitive than usual #and this is. well. making me extremely sad.#12 years ago. i remember as if it was yesterday. i cling to that day so much and i'm scared of forgetting about it #i wonder how 14 yo me would've reacted if she knew.#they were my first gig ever! i remember the 2nd song was given up and the people around us started moshing pretty hard.#so much that my shoe came off and my dad had to shield me while i crawled and looked for it hahaha #it was so fun! i didn't really know that was a thing #that day was the first time they played Lies Greed Misery - it had been released just the day before #my videos are SO blurry but i still have them all saved 🥹#idk i've been in some typa mood these past days. not necessarily bad at all but.#me and a couple friends had a very important conversation 2 nights ago which was GOOD but. the bad thing about letting everything bottle up #is that once you spill it's hard to deal with. and yeah this is. idk. i'm just venting here like. ignore me.#it's just really hard for me. i miss him terribly and i'm really scared for myself because i *know* i'm back in the loop #and it feels so hopeless sometimes. maybe this is super silly but i'm so thankful that Clancy came out now because OH BOY i need it #maybe it's not the best strategy to put so much faith? importance? in like. music and other people but #man. i genuinely don't know if i'd be here if not for certain songs/artists etc #idk I'm rambling lol. i might delete this later #probably. maybe. i try not to talk too much about this here because i tend to deal alone but. sometimes it's nice to send things to the void #anyways. support your favs. talk to your friends - even if you much rather not. don't be like me and let things rot inside.#🤍#darya talks to herself

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daz4i · 6 days

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hm. i think i may be feeling emotions wrong

you may think "yeah no duh dan you're autistic" but like even compared to my autistic friends i'm. not feeling the correct emotions at the right stimuli

(i mean it's always been a thing lol the main reason i'm an actor now is i had to learn how to fake correct emotional responses as a kid and i just decided i may as well turn that into a career)

but man it's becoming an issue especially face to face when i need to fake emotions and think of the right responses on the spot. adult issues too are harder and more nuanced to react to. and idk how to do it. even if i may be saying or doing the mostly decent things in front of other people it still feels Bad to know i'm not *feeling* the right stuff (which then turns into feeling bad that i'm feeling bad abt the wrong thing lol)

#no point to this post sorry #vent #organizing thoughts man idk #maybe this is why i've become a bad actor lately who knows .

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cliqueinmyear · 27 days

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girls be like ‘i am cishet woman wow i love to be girl’ then feel more connected to male/gnc characters/ppl and get happy when they’re misgendered and go by she/her bc they’re used to it not bc they like it and cry over their chest and ultimately feel uncomfortable when referred to as a binary woman

but hey im just a girl right

#atp i feel like im just a girl for the bit #thoughts for the hillside #vent post maybe?#idk man my sense of self is fucked rn

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deus-ex-mona · 1 month

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chapter 6 is now on episode 9 of the [redacted] anime… the hallway fight scene is close

#ehhhhhhhhh we skipped over the whole nagisa arc huh… disappointing #unless the nagisa happened somewhere in ch 5. which. dangit. lemme in!!!!!!!#hmmmmm i feel like we can line up the timelines of kawaikutegomen and the [redacted] anime pretty linear-ly #ch 1 (of ktgm): second half of ep 4. ch2: ep 5. ch3-5: somewhere after ep 5 idk. ch 6: second half of ep 9 #a nd since the notice board scene happens in ep 9… dO YOUR THING CHIZUUTAN!!!!!!!!!!!!#i want to see what pushed her over the edge to do what she did (in the [redacted] anime verse at least)#what happened between the end of ch 5’s preview and the start of ch 6: a new maid has joined julieta cafe!#she’s a seemingly clumsy (yet popular) girl named tsumurin. she reminds chizuchan of hiyoko #hmmm. i won’t be surprised if tsumurin is somehow tied in to all this…#maybe one too many bad days with tsumurin made chizuutan snap and slap the pictures on the board to vent her frustrations #on someone (aka hiyoko) who reminded her of tsumurin? hmmmm. idk. why are the previews so dang short.#b u t what the heck man. the preview ends *right* before a seemingly shocking reveal????#w h a t the heck.#dammit come back renren i miss you already #o k that’s enough screamin into the void for one night. back to idol sengen i go~~~~~~~~#chizuutan chizpost

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