#maybe I’ll ask my dad ..
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my mom used to love me so much.
#i know i’ll feel a bit better once i’ve slept#i’m just having sad boy hours#missing the feeling of being best friends with my mom#she’s hurt my feelings so much recently#but i still remember watching star trek with her every sunday growing up#i still remember being 6 and her sitting on the tile bathroom floor with me when i was sick#i still remember asking for the same homemade chocolate cake for my birthday for years#i still remember her nickname for me—pooka shell#i still remember sorting thru a jar of change with her trying to find cool old coins#i still remember how excited she gets to show me her yard and garden projects#i still remember her playing piano while my dad plays viola—both of them haltingly and imperfect and wonderful#i still remember how she would let me be the first one to let go of a hug#etc etc etc#she still tells me she loves me and maybe it’s true#but will she ever want me around on her birthday again?#trans boy#transmasc#exmo#exmormon
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Cyn I just want you to know how much brainrot you give me-
I’m literally screaming in the discord server about the teasers you’ve dropped with Slime, and my brain is just going through so many scenarios that could occur to get us from the text teaser to the art-
Like did Schlatt have to quickly swallow him to protect him? Did Ted do this? And Slime looks so nervous, has he even been eaten before? Does he know it’s safe?
You’ve given me so much brainrot and I will now rotate this in my head like leftover pizza in the microwave-
THANK YOU SM!!!! <3
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY THAT MAKES ME AS SOMEONE WHO ALSO FREQUENTLY ROTATES THE SHRUNKEN MANHUNT AU IN MY HEAD LIKE THAT ONE GIF OF THE DANCING COW
anyway i’ll give you a hint: you did correctly guess the plot with one of those first two questions but i can’t say which just yet, and while I did have a way that Charlie got nommed for the first time, i’m retconning it for the sake of this story if that tells you anything >:)
#Raven the absolute beloved#also i’d love to talk about it in the discord w/ you if i can figure out which server 👀#i’m on two of them but idk which is active now#the mcyt g/t community one and the one with the hoglin uh oh stinky monkey face as the pfp#ANYWAY#ty for the ask i love talking about my nonsense 🫶#maybe i’ll post another teaser if the story keeps taking this long who knows…#mcyt gt#mcyt g/t#cyncerity#dad’s troubles au#tw vore mention
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Favorite movie of the 80s?
[wearing my shirt that says I ❤️ considering the further implications of androids and cybernetics in science fiction ] it’s blade runner
#fun fact I’ve only seen the director’s cut. I’ve never seen the original#asks#ohhh maybe I’ll rewatch it tonight when my dad gets home
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nia, r u doing ok??
No.
#funniest ask to receive after my long as fuck analysis of which of my OCs are alcoholics lmao#but on a more serious note#let’s just say that I heavily relate to the this is fine dog rn#everything I spent the entire summer working towards fell apart in one day because of the tiniest mistake and I still haven’t processed it#my life is spiralling out of control and there’s absolutely nothing I can do about it#my dad went out of his way to make my workload for the year that much harder for literally no reason#and I’m genuinely reaching the end of my rope#to the point I’m not even sure if I’ll make it to my birthday#but that’s something I am not going to talk about on tumblr of all places#basically. shit’s fucked. I’m fucked. and I continue to overindulge in my obsessions to keep at least some sanity#that’s gonna stop working one day. what the fuck am I gonna do then?#well. that’s for me to find out eventually. maybe. or maybe not#depends if I’ll make it that far#OKAY AND THAT’S ENOUGH RAMBLING FFS NIA SHUT UP AND GO TO THERAPY OR SMTH#you’re scaring everyone#or go eat. or sleep. stop neglecting both of those#but most of all just shut up
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Sleeping in + passing out for an extra four hours in the middle of the day. I am one with my bed
#the minister speaks#have a headache now from like. idk oversleeping#or something#I’m sdamn tired#would love to have one of my edibles I just got tonight but when I’m this tired#it just fucks with my sleep more than it helps#regardless of type honestly#I’ll wait until I go to dad’s maybe#I got some for him for father’s day. Sunday (stepmom) asked if I could bring him a treat or some edibles and I was like I can do both what#does he like#and they had his favs at the dispensary I stopped at with mom so YAY!#and I’m making molasses cookies with a family recipe this Saturday#to bring#so I’m set and everything basically#I’m just SO tired#jambalaya tonight for dinner so that’ll be good#deciding what I want 2 watch later#got a couple days to chill I think
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[video description: hozier at a concert in amsterdam, playing an unreleased song about icarus. only the beginning of the song is recorded (about a minute and a half). /end description]
@satans-poptarts
#the concert was. absolutely incredible#don’t have more words atm bc I’ve very tired just. <33333333#elli rambles#they played another unreleased song but I didn’t film it </3#maybe my dad did tho I’ll ask him tomorrow#wow this took. ages to post
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I’m really starting to feel like Gregor Samsa now
#exjw#going pomo#my mom knows I’m gay and also “opposed” but my dad doesn’t yet so I’m hiding in my room#So naturally I don’t feel well; but I’m going to work anyway because I don’t feel as bad there as I do here#Now all I need is for my dad to throw something at me (I don’t think he would but I wouldn’t be surprised if he did)#I think my mom is hoping that maybe when I start ADHD meds I’ll “come to my senses”#because she asked if I thought my ADHD had anything to do with my decisions#And she went on and on yesterday reading stuff she researched about these specific meds#Like… no? If anything the ADHD meds will make me pack up faster because then I won’t be as inhibited to gtfo#She oddly doesn’t seem as angry/sad as I thought she would; so maybe she hasn’t fully accepted it yet#I start meds tomorrow btw so we’ll see what happens. Hell of a time to be messing with my brain chemistry sjdjdjdjdndndn#This will either make things way better or way worse. We’ll see#I’m just afraid that they’ll make my already VERY high anxiety worse because they are stimulants#the anxiety wasn’t high before but it is now that I’m obligated to tell my dad knowing how much he hates gays#I don’t want to suddenly pass out projectile vomit or shit myself; because that’s what high anxiety does to me#I’ve almost passed out twice because of nerves in the past year in reaction to this situation#one such incident occurring just three days ago… while projectile vomiting
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Send me a character and I’ll rate their dilf and/or daddy energy.
#delirious speaks#maybe I’ll throw in some thoughts too#obvs all my own opinions and yours may vary#ask game#does not have to be a canonical dad to play
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enrichment time <- not only are they not starving they also bought a cup noodle flavor they haven’t tried :3
#marlo’s stuff#got a croissant first cause i got too scared to ask if there was water icould use to cook the noodles#but i’ll try the noodles at home#or maybe tmrw if my dad happens to grab food today
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maybe making this mapo tofu will fix me
#the ancestors are ROOTING for me lmao#but also!!! food as a way to explore diaspora!!!#that’s like half my poetry lmao#maybe I’ll make jook too….#one of the most precious things in my life is talking to my grandma about#her dad who was from china & a fabulous chef#& then infusing those details into my own cooking & writing <3#I’ll never forget the KINDNESS of this woman#who works at my favourite restaurant back home#before I moved away to school I asked her how they make their fried rice and she was like#noooo then you won’t ever come back!#(I’ve been buying there since I was 14 hehe)#and I was like nooooo I’ll never be able to make it as well as u im just moving!#and she ACTUALLY TOLD ME#I wrote a poem about that it meant a lot to me lol like that’s a very#personal & kind thing she did#never been able to recreate it as well as her obviously#so I always always always go back <3
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hey, i know covid sucks right now, but it’ll get better ok? maybe read a book you’ve been meaning to read, get plenty to eat and drink, and take care of yourself above all. i wish i could be there to hold you and take care of you while you’re sick, but you’re always in my thoughts. and i wish it was under better circumstances, but i hope you know: i’m happy to see you on my dash again. i missed you a lot.
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#^^^ me and you 🥺🥺#thank you so much for everything#you are such a sweetheart I can’t handle it!!!#all of your encouraging and heart warming asks mean the world to me#truly#like I’ve said before even if I don’t reply every single ask means so much to me#whenever I see the 🌸 I always feel warmth and love 🥰#maybe I’ll try to read a book!#I’m definitely one of those girlies who has a billion books cause I love books but my attention span sometimes doesn’t let me read#so maybe this will be the perfect time to get back into reading!#I was thinking about doing some of my paint by number painting that I’m doing for my dad#but idk if that’s the best idea???#sounds super dumb and I know it’s probably my anxiety and germaphobia and all that bullshit#but will covid get onto the painting if I paint while I’m sick?????#sounds so so dumb but my mind keeps going there hahaha#awwww you’re so cute 🥰#yes I was taking a break because of that anon but I also was on my family trip for the past week and i had absolutely no free time#even at night I would try and scroll for a second and before I knew it I would pass out#I missed you too my little 🌸🥺#I really hope you’re doing alright!#I’m sending you all my love and hugs 🤗#ask#🌸 anon
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They told my mom after tomorrow she will have 2.5 weeks until her hair starts to fall out. They offered her a wig but she said she would just join us in our hair styles. I have been shaving my head because of pain for 5ish years now and my husband started at the same time (partly in solidarity but also he hates small talk and strangers)
#My dad is going to be the only one with any hair more than 1/4 inch on his head in the whole house#I’m glad my mom doesn’t feel too upset at the idea of loosing her hair#I know it can be so hard on people#she already is having a hard time keeping on top of her shoulder length hair because of exhaustion#I can’t imagine that improving#but yeah we’re all going to have matching hair styles in a few weeks#maybe I’ll ask my dad if he wants to get in on it#he probably won’t he likes his barber#but it would be nice if he joins in#my mom wants to have a good bye hair party#so I guess that will happen in 1.5 or 2 weeks#and by party I mean take photos of the before the process and the end#personal#my mom has chemo
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Jackieee! How is life? How is everything going? You’re talking about work, what kind of work is it? Did you quit school fully? Did you talk to your parents? 🧡
School is a lot better now, still a little stressful but not as bad. But still really thankful that the weekend is almost here 🤣 Are you coaching this weekend too or will you be free to watch FRECA?
Hope you have a good weekend either way! Enjoy all the Oscar videos recently (he looks very good!) - 🧡
bestieeee it’s going okay! i had a really rough couple of days but things are starting to look up :) i’m not sure about school actually, trying to see if they’ll take me back in 🫣 my parents know and they weren’t happy lmao but we’re getting through it! i managed to get a like kind of paid internship, kind of temporary worker-job, so im not sure how long i’ll be there for. but i’ve worked 9-5 every day so far and it’s just numbers numbers numbers ahahah but it pays well so it feels nice!!
happy to hear school feels less stressful, i hope you can get some good rest this weekend 🥰🥰 will you be watching some racing? i am indeed coaching, we’re going off to another city for a tournament actually 😵 so i’ll have to catch up on freca at night when the kids are sleeping. it’s gonna be interesting to see how kimi performs now after the rumors (still calling them rumors bcs im not sure if i want them to be confirmed 🫣), is he gonna be nervous? or do even better?
oh, you can bet your money on me enjoying them 🤭🤭 he does indeed look very very good 🤭🤭🤭🤭 have a great weekend you too love! 💓
#asks!#anon!#orange heart anon!#🧡!#we’re on a 5 hour long mini bus ride#and i thought i would get time to write but idk man#i wanted to sit in the back so no one could see my computer but#the driver (a girl’s dad) forced me to sit in the front?? im sorry but what#im the one in charge here 😠😠#like we genuinely argued back and forth for a while but eventually i settled bcs i didn’t want to make the kids uncomfortable#but it was weird really#and now i don’t think i’ll be able to write 💔 maybe on my phone#this sucks
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pudding, oatmeal, icecream, mashed potatoes?
Icecream and mashed potatoes are gonna be my saving grace along with soup it seems like, gonna have to run to the grocery store I guess
#rambles#shout out to the person who suggested adding cheese to the mashed potatoes that sounds baller#my dad says he’s taking me to Burger King afterwards so I’m hoping I’ll be able to eat something there at least#maybe I’ll just take small bites and swallow them without chewing#personal I suppose#answered asks#the big worry was that jello pudding oatmeal and like most smoothies are on my unbeatable foods list due to texture but I’ve got options now
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packing SUCKSSSS
#marzi speaks#on a short break bc ughhhh . tired of it#idk if i wanna bring my switch. mayb i’ll ask my dad
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Nobody ever tells you what to do when you see your friends in pain
#tw sh#me and them are good friends they’re one of the most kind silly friendly intelligent responsible people I know#and I sit next to them and I can’t tell you the sharp feeling you get looking at the new scars on your friends legs and thighs#we’re not more than school friends so I suppose it plainly isn’t my place to say anything but .#idk what to do#once a billion yrs ago i did smth similar because I thought I deserved it for being a bad sibling - I would never want someone to bring up#my internal struggles to me .. but does everyone feel the same ? they wear skirts and shorts often . I have to wonder if it’s a conscious#decision - like an ask for help or recognition or anything#maybe I’ll ask my dad ..
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