#the minister speaks

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Men so cute they give you the zoomies

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Passion for men that need to be loved so sweetly, touched so gently, held so close to melt into. I’d like him to know he’s worthy of love and tenderness and I want him to revel in it, bask in the comfort of unconditional unending love

PR.OSHIP FUCK OFF

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Wanna go on dates with my f/os SO BAD. I want to go to the arcade and bars and parks and music stores and movies and cafés and look cute as fuck together while we’re out damn it >:T

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You could absolutely pull all your f/os of course, BUT, who would be the most desperate to date you? Who would be the one falling all over themselves to try to win your heart?

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So. The rundown, and an explanation on why I kinda look not great in the photos lol

Long ass post warning

So, we get to the con, we're getting our barrings, wondering where the actor guests are and end up happening upon them in the back l've been vaguely nauseous all day. I see him and try so desperately not to dig my nails into my mom's hand after catching a glimpse of him. Nerves, excitement, little bit of awe because beautiful man hahah

Anyway, maybe three people in line counting us, we wait a second it gets to us and he's like "hey, l'm sorry I gotta do photo ops in like ten minutes I don’t want to rush you guys. But it’ll be like ten fifteen minutes and you guys can come back?” and mom and I are like no worries! He’s so courteous about it and it actually really eased my nerves a little

We walk around! We go back, he’s there and there’s one person there so I’m like okay! Great! I’m not the first one walkin’ up! So we wait a second I’m trying to get my shit together so I can speak coherently and somewhat confidently and not end up quiet like usual, it’s awful sometimes. Anyway! I do great! Normal human I don’t sound weird or however like an alien I feel (I cannot express how much I am not built to do shit like this). I gave him the drawing first thing and through it all was a blur but mom said he called it brilliant twice <3 I don’t doubt my skills but it is still, vulnerable. This one was never intended to be seen by him nor literally gifted to him, I poured a lot of reverence into it I probably wouldn’t have otherwise if I did it with the knowledge that he WOULD see it (difference between, ‘I want this to look nice because he’s going to see it’ and ‘I’m drawing beautiful man for myself :]’)

It’s photo time, I hand mom my bag and the lady at the table (most if not all the actor’s tables had a convention employee with them) took like ten photos. I initially tried to keep a respectful distance because like, I don’t know, I’m not gonna go in for a full side hug or whatever but immediately I get squeezed right into him. Good god. Not to be weird or crazy or whatever whatever but I will never forget how that felt. Or he feels. Or any of that. Yes he is as boney and solid as I imagined <3 but just that like ‘you’re real, and sweet’ is what’s getting me. and. Well, mom said it first but it is true with how firm of a squeeze I got, my future boyfriend has a touch to live up to 😤 (I do wish I was mostly joking, but I’m mostly serious). Truly, I scrunched up in surprise and it took a minute to even fully comprehend the fact I’ve been fully tucked into his shoulder. Gonna feel that hand on my arm forever! Not a bad squeeze! The perfect squeeze, to me .

He is genuinely so so lovely and I’m so glad I actually did this. And shoutout to my mom for being the reason I’m here. And for confirming afterwards to me that I did, in fact, not come off as nervous and excited as I actually was and that I handled it well (I was still clearly very happy to be here, obviously, just, chill about it) (I do not think I will handle any situation well ever)

I’m not proofreading any of this tonight I want to go finish typing up my. Journal. Before I pass out. But. I’m happy! I still have two more days, and I’m chill, excited to continue to have a great time with my mom and enjoy my first weekend away from the grandparents in. Two months

Art I gave him……. I do love this one a lot. And!! In lieu of a ‘proper’ autograph (that was an accident but I truly don’t care) the 31 quote I am going to get tattooed on my arm as soon as I can <3 another reason I kinda had to gift him some art of mine… something of ‘me’ to give to him in return of something of his (handwriting) that will end up on me

I’ll cry about this at some point. I wanted to earlier but I was still at the con and I am such an ugly crier it’s awful. Honestly still surprised how emotional this all made me

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F/os that are so unbelievably kissable it’s painful you can’t kiss them 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

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I highly recommend talking to your f/o in bed at night, as if they were there. It feels super silly at first, but it’s so therapeutic once you get into it

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Your f/o saying “you’re fucking weird, I love you” 💕💕💕

Pr.oship don’t touch this post

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Seeing a character with a hooked nose pretty much guarantees half the fanart will not include said nose. I would say it’s sad if I wasn’t so fucking angry every time

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I should say something, huh?

Nezereb -> beheadable

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Wanna grab him and kiss all over his face make him smile make him melt

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If you see a kids anime style drawing and feel the need to comment that they need to study anatomy maybe you should shut the fuck up and let them draw without making them feel like they need to get better, do what you want forever especially if you’re only 11 or something, draw your anime split face good vs evil character personality drawings and naruto OCs and have fun. Goes for any age honestly, art is art, it doesn’t need to be well done it just needs to be, it just needs to exist, and not everyone’s goal is to be a master people need to stop giving unsolicited art advice to literal children or I’m going to start eating shoes

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Pretty boys that haunt you endlessly with their sweet smiles and sparkling eyes and lovely voice. Pretty boys pretty fuckin boys… heavenly

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“What’s in your bag?” No, what’s in your POCKETS, jacket, pants, skirt, whatever. WHAT is in your POCKETS

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If a man has a gay little earring? Well, let’s just say. I. I’ll. He. Is getti ng. Kissd

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Hearing or seeing your f/o’s actor in other media