#maybe I thought too much about this idk

[oldfashionedmorphine]

(going with the theme of the other ask): Joyce/Karen

Alright hear me out for this one…

So I think they both are bi (though an argument can be made for Karen realizing later in life that she is actually a lesbian)—but for years are of the belief that “all women are beautiful, all women think this way, and wanting to be with a woman is totally normal you just don’t act on it because it’s a sin” and so while there were a couple heated moments in their youth, they never confront it—too scared and ashamed of the implications.

And they both wanted children, so they ultimately sought out relationships with men, and while they love their children, they never stopped thinking about the “what if…” of it all and at times their love lives were lacking…

Most especially Karen. She felt trapped for years in a loveless marriage, and that’s why she reads so many steamy romance novels—imaging scenarios with men who are too perfect to exist, but then one day she realizes sapphic romance novels exist too. She buys one at a bookstore along with a couple other books (a small effort to seem like it was an accident to the cashier) and she reads the hell out of that book, always picturing herself as the protagonist and Joyce as the love interest and it makes her crazy! She wishes that was her life, but she never tries to change it because she has to stay with her husband for Holly… but it also never helped that Joyce remained in her life because her daughter married Jonathan and her son has been in a long-term relationship with Will—Joyce is always there!! Reminding her at every holiday of what she really wanted… it just wasn’t fair. But once Holly turned 18 and went off to college, she finally filed for divorce. She couldn’t take it anymore. Her loveless marriage was keeping her from true happiness…

Joyce was always followed by a string of rotten luck, ever since she was young. It’s true that there’s a lot of choices she regrets, many missed opportunities, and what-ifs that haunted her every night right before bed, of course in the light of day she doesn’t have much time to dwell on it—she constantly has to focus on work work work to raise her two sons. Daydreams don’t pay the bills. Their deadbeat father (oh boy she can pick ‘em) was no help at all… but she found another guy eventually who seemed a decent fella, and she desperately wanted her boys to have a good father figure—she had them in mind and the guy was great, a little boring, but great—but then he died. And that really sucked. Because she was happy enough with how things were going. What other chance was she gonna get? But then she does. Her old crush from back in high school—sparks were flying and he sweeps her off her feet. And once again, she is sure it’ll be great because her kids still needed a father and she truly loves him, no regrets, for once things were finally going right for Joyce Maldonado… but nothing lasts forever and eventually he becomes ill, cancer, probably from all the chemicals from the war and her heart is broken to pieces when he dies too.

But Karen was there for her through it all—all the hospitalizations and all the treatments until the bitter end—she cooked her dinners, helped clean her house, gave her a shoulder to cry on—Karen did whatever she could to help Joyce because she didn’t want to see her suffering. Because she finally could admit after all these years that she had always loved Joyce. No more denial. And sometime later, once Joyce seemed to be more like herself again, no longer dwelling in the dark cave of her room and when she stopped calling her up on the phone in tears, Karen started to invite Joyce out for dinner, dancing, and the weekly night out at the movies, and then one night after having one too many drinks, she finally confesses her feelings… and Joyce reciprocates! Because she had feelings too—buried deep down below responsibility and expectations, but they were always there. They decide to move in together, eventually settling into a beach house, and spend the rest of their golden years as a couple, happy and fulfilled <3

[graves-doodles]

Dragon rider au revisited!!! 👀

Warriors - Monsterous Nightmare Titan

Time - Terrible Terror (he rides with Wars)

Hyrule - Gronkle

Sky - Deadly Nadder

Legend - Armorwing

Wind - Shockjaw

Four - Hideous Zippleback

Wild- Sentinel

Twilight - Woolly Howl

[heartorbit]

the star you've longed for

[redwitchrune]

something about comfort, blue and orange, and new perspectives

[pixlokita]

(｡･･｡) witnessed so much Fronnie today I had to draw them too

[can-of-slorgs]

Completed the Shenkuu Stamp collection some time ago, so it was only fair to draw my girl Mirsha

[wannabemasterofwindintraining]

So like we all know that ninjago pulls inspiration from other Asian cultures not just Japanese culture right?

Well does this apply to only ninjago? (Like the realm not the show)

We don't really see much of the other realms but are they also solely based on asian cultures or are they free to pull from any culture

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

[jirachuuu]

Dungeon Crossing

[bumblingbabooshka]

Voyager should have had an episode where the command trio beat the absolute hell out of each other while blaming each other for being stuck in the delta quadrant as the fever pitch of a rising tension that was building throughout the episode. Like, they're absolutely being pushed to do it by some outside force. Maybe it's a telepathic being - maybe it's that they're stuck in some arena or an alien court or a time loop only the three of them are aware of - no matter the specifics, the sentiment behind their words has to be true and it has to be something they've been keeping back for months, maybe years. That fear and hatred and blame that doesn't really have an actual target because it's not actually rational but 'who's to blame' doesn't have to be capital T true to feel true. If Chakotay hadn't been in the badlands, If Janeway hadn't made that choice, If Tuvok hadn't supported it... "You trapped us here. It's your fault. If you hadn't-! If you hadn't-! If you hadn't-!" are just echoes of "I trapped us here. It's my fault. If I hadn't-! If I hadn't-! If I hadn't-!" Because at the end of the day more than being angry or hateful they're despairing in their own ways. Episode probably has a somber end - they beat whatever it was and it's a victory! They won by working together even after they beat each other half to death! But after the celebration we see them alone in their quarters...silent. Gazing out at the stars, into a candle's flame, at that same family picture before turning away. Because even though they won they're still there in the delta quadrant. Is that really victory?

[worstloki]

Fortesa Latifi, We Were Young

[hayaku14]

OBSESSED with the idea of KID coming into the Kudou mansion seeking refuge (either he got heavily injured or his idenity is compromised) but instead is met with Okiya Subaru, Kudou Yukiko, and Kudou Yusaku. (Conan is also there coincidentally because lady luck hasn't totally abandoned him yet, apparently, but Kaito is sort of distracted by the amount of non-conans in the house to appreciate it.)

one day (before akai moves in) conan drags kid's injured ass back into the kudou mansion to patch him up (and also to demand answers about the snipers in the heist)

kid refuses to tell more about the snipers and conan doesn't pry but keeps an offer of help open

it becomes an unspoken agreement that kid would go to conan if something out of his hand happens in relation to said snipers

by 'go to conan' conan meant go to him, the person, as in wherever location he was at. kid, on the other hand, thought he should come back to the kudou mansion.

months pass, subaru, yusaku, and yukiko come to occupy the kudou household.

kid, injured or identity compromised, sees the lights are on and assumes conan is inside. which well...he ISN'T WRONG (LOL)

kid goes in through the window of conan's room which startles conan who was there to pick something up in his room.

"What are you doing here?!" Conan scream-whispers in a panic.

KID stiffens and stares at him with something like betrayal in his eyes. "Oh, I see I'm not welcome here."

"No! No wait that's not what I meant. It's just, this is NOT the best time."

Someone knocks on the door and the two of them jump. KID's eyes widen in realization as Conan quickly drags and pushes him into a closet. "Don't make a sound." KID does a zipping motion across his lips and makes a show of throwing an imaginary key. Conan rolls his eyes at him before closing the door.

anyways, it was akai who went up to check on conan cause the 4 of them were in the middle of a discussion and conan was suspiciously taking too long.

whether kid gets caught by akai and the kudou fam or not, i have no idea, but either way I WANT IT.

although tbh i feel like akai and yusaku would sense someone else is inside and yusaku would know exactly who it is LOL

then again, whether kid is heavily injured, has his identity compromised, or both, is a big factor on how events will unfold. (and i love exploring each one so my brain is rotting pls someone send help)

[maxthesillyy]

thinking about. i dont know how to phrase this really but. chloe and frank.

like. when Chloe killed Frank i (, personally,) feel like her guilt from it was less because she killed Frank, and More because she Killed Someone (and their dog).

but!!! thats not to say she didnt feel guilty for killing Frank. because she definitely did. because on some level. despite everything. despite all of his shitty behavior. a part of her still cared for him. that tiny 15-17ish year old part in her still cared for him.

because that 15-17ish year old with intense abandonment issues in her only had. a small handful of people in her life that actually cared for her, and when THOSE few people aren’t even doing the best job at it— it’s no shit that Chloe’s standards for Good Friends are going to be Immensely dropped.

and so. it’s kind of like what happened with Rachel, but WAY less intense. when she found someone who didn’t hate her, and was willing to hang around her—after so so long of people hating her and not wanting to be around her— it makes sense that part of her would kinda latch onto them a little bit.

and so, even after all of the shit she’s learned he did— even when Frank starts to hate her— even when he threatens Max and her’s lives— part of her keeps remembering him as one of the few guys who stuck around when no one else did.

it’s just that. no matter how bad the person— if you’ve known someone for years, and they were one of the only nice people to you in a town where theres like. four people that are nice to you— it’s gonna hurt if you kill them. even if it was self defense. even if it was entirely their own fault— even if you two aren’t on even remotely good terms anymore.

ESPECIALLY for such a sentimental person like Chloe. taking that in consideration it makes me wonder. maybe she didn’t feel bad for killing Frank. maybe she felt bad for killing the person Frank used to be to her. but maybe she realized that That Frank already died long ago.

but yeah. im mentally ill. take everything i said with a grain of salt considering it is 12:07 AM.

[rasairui]

I think anybody who thinks autism is more "accepted" nowadays is either in denial or can't see outside themselves. What we actually did is just popularize a really weird infantilized perception of autism that focuses on the symptoms that can be repackaged as "cute" or "quirky," and are continuing to treat people with inconvenient or even upsetting symptoms like garbage. And no I'm not talking about bigots who pull the "I'm literally neurodivergent" bs I'm talking about supposed allies telling me I'm acting like a child for getting too emotional when I literally have "Can't Regulate My Emotions" disorder, or that I'm moving weird, or that my voice never has the right tone to it. Sorry my autism doesn't stop and end at hand flapping and dinosaurs lmao I can gaurantee I'm not enjoying my meltdown any more than you are, buddy! In fact, I'd say I'm having a far worse time than you! I do not make a choice to be emotionally volatile nor do I feel good when I get upset. It's not my fault that emoting "properly" is a performance that takes energy and I really can't do it 100% of the time. Like idk it honestly feels like I still have to mask in supposedly progressive spaces just in a different way.

And of course this doesn't even start to get into people with higher support needs than me who are rarely acknowledged unless they themselves are doing it. It's one of the reasons those posts that are like "Do you think neurodivergence is just autism/adhd, and not (heavily stigmatized other disorder)?" rub me the wrong way. They always seem to be addressing the most sanitized version of autism possible which strikes me as counter intuitive to the point being made. And don't get me wrong, as a system I understand why it's being said but it just really frustrates me because the people these posts are about don't actually think severe cases of autism or adhd are neurodivergence either! They treat higher support needs people with the same disorders like shit!

No I do not think anyone who's ever made a post like that is a bad person nor do I expect every post to have a disclaimer containing every possible nuance but I do think a lot of them are not written with the existence of high support needs or "weird" autism symptoms in mind, which inadvertently feeds into this "palatable autism" thing people keep doing

[observethewalrus]

PLEASE DO NOT GIFT ME BADGES

Tumblr is getting rid of avatars and no longer showing where a reblog comes from in post headers to “afford more room for badges.”

I always felt kinda bad when I was gifted badges and then didn’t use them, cuz people spent actual money on them. So I’m asking, please do not gift me badges, or any other tumblr merch for that matter.

I threw them a bone last year and paid for the ad-free because the ads and blazed softcore porn on the app were infuriating, but I’m canceling it. They’re not getting anything from me anymore. I’ll have to switch back to using the Firefox mobile browser. Hopefully the new dash un-fuckers that are going around will work on mobile.

[silusvesuius]

n*loth not being able to bag anyone over the (human term) age of 25-30 at most is the only logical and real conclusion to me because it can be just explained away as him wanting to prove and control everything and anyone (Cus he's a man!) but being stuck in that demographic because his unbearable and vile personality is a force that nobody can look past once they've outgrown the possible fear and idolization period of anyone but also n*loth in particular.