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marinonso · 10 months

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I have so much time and so much love I need outlets I NEED OUTLETS and I know I'll find one! and tomorrow I wake up and the day after tomorrow I'll wake up and again and again and again and the stars are up and bright and again and again and again

#so 1:30 vipassana meditation cause I'm going crazy #then I go clean some shit maybe even myself lol #I retrieve the creepy doll in the rivere #maybe I get my period in the mean time #I work again I study tibetan I go to my tibetan lesson and then #I need to get the tickets to Nepal or at least understand when to go etc etc and wait for my paycheck and plan! Maybe call someone I miss #think #argentina sexy man is a whoreman apparently :((( but I'll daydream anyways you never know I won't see him for sometime so that's good so #I don't get bored #something I really miss though is a girl friend #I don't have female friends anymore for some reason (not close ones) I miss a strong friendship bond #my flatmates from last year which I'm really close to... I feel like I don't matter that much to them anymore #in the group chat they never answer what I text they just keep texting between themselves about their stuff #I need to let go

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fuupan · 2 months

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i had this in mind a few days ago while running on 2 hrs of sleep

decided to finally draw it lol

i have some more ideas in mind of them that i will hopefully get to get around drawing

#one piece #trafalgar law #monkey d. luffy #eustass kid #so the idea is like maybe they got to know each other as children cus they somehow lived in the same neighbourhood/got sent to the same #daycare right and the first day they met it seemed they already got like beef with each other #but its ok its their version of bonding :)#they definitely shit on eafch other with no hesitation #they still have their own respective groups (crews) but they just hang sometimes for no reason #like they get put in the same place at the same time. whoever is with them will be the unfortunate victim.#they still care for one another ofc just in their own roundabout way #i do still have some things i need to think about like do i still want to make law a sick boy #i mean i know i made him p pale in that drawing #cause im a sucker for whump ok #but then again waht am i making him sick with. is it gonna be chronic. is it just an unfortunate one time thing.#also if i make him to still be a sick boy theres gonna be a period in which luffys gonna be taller than him by the time theyre around #10-13 y.o. and then law just shot up like a beanstalk from 15-16. luffys gonna grieve. but its ok luffy you can be taller than him at 40 #maybe #also the damn designs #law do you already have a beard by the time youre 16. it was not mentioned in the novel. i am conflicted.#also kids hair is fucking wild i almost cried drawing it #he doesnt wear lipstick in school. he does when hes hanging outside tho #luffys the most straightforward one i mean come on look at him #laws the one giving me headache cus fucker is canonically a 26 y.o man with facial hair #fanart #my art

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waywardstation · 1 month

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One last store update! After this I will begin sending emails to a subscriber list.

You can input your email of choice for my shop newsletter into this google form here.

A quick summary of some things:

I was unable to finish orders by printing their shipping labels by today, despite what I said last week, because of health issues that had to be addressed instead.

More of my product order was messed up, had enough items to fulfill every order but I’ve been left with ZERO extra stock on a couple items to put into my shop after.

I got enough interest in the Halloween keychains and stickers so I will be making them.

Full explanations below ^^

I have now packed every single order and reviewed all of their contents. However I was unable to send them out today as at some point last week I became very unwell. I’ve been going downhill for a while but it has never gotten to this degree this fast before. I still don’t really know what caused it and so I had been unable to pack over the weekend and couldn’t get all the shipping labels printed for them today.

I will be printing these labels out and taking chunks of the orders to the post office over the next few days.

But the more I’d packed the more I’d realized more of my product order had been messed up. I had ordered extras of everything and yet some of the products that I ordered just BARELY fulfilled every order — I had to use some of the initial samples to fulfill every order but rest assured they are the exact same as the products in size and quality. I have exactly ZERO of some products left over for shop stock when I’d ordered 10-15 extra of every item (as well as TOO MANY of some less popular products that didn’t need all these extras) which sadly means a few items will not be in stock when I open the store back up. I may put discounts on the unwanted extras I received because of this.

While I would expect by default to receive the products in the quantity that I ordered, I also understand that I ordered hundreds of products all in one order, and that is only one order that is being fulfilled out of the many other orders they get daily. I myself did not count out every single product to check because of the sheer amount of everything that was ordered — I had ordered over 500 keychains alone to fulfill the preorders and the entire order has taken up a full room when all spread out. But I still did not count beforehand and would only find out once I’d run out of a certain product, so I accept this is partly my responsibility too. This should not happen again as I never expect to make an order this big again, I had only done this for shop startup, and I will be making another order to restock these products. But it’s still sad it happened.

I apologize for this and I appreciate all of your patience once again. I am explaining all of this as I believe you are owed information about what is going on seeing as you’ve put money into this, and I myself said they would all be sent out by Monday. I just want to be transparent ^^

And one last thing — many of you wanted Halloween merchandise, so I will be moving forward with that! (I’ve decided they will not be glow in the dark though, as I’d have to make every vibrant color instead transparent for the glow to come through, and I believe the designs would suffer too much without these colors)

I have ordered from this manufacturer multiple times before over the years and they’ve always gotten it right with more reasonably-sized orders, so I am confident these will not have the same problems as this preorders period has.

Thank you again very much for your support and understanding up to this point!! <3

#I don’t know how long I’m still going to feel like this #basically it’s heart issues #at first I had thought I’d reacted really bad to caffeine in headache medication that I’d taken #because I cannot have caffeine #but it had never done that to me before and it’s been lasting for longer than caffeine would even be in my system #and maybe it still was the caffeine I don’t know #but for now #I do not know how long things will be like this #I can’t carry anything heavy or walk or stand for long periods of time right now #so I will have to take the orders in chunks over the course of about three days with some help probably #I promise I’m not pushing myself though I take breaks the moment I feel like I should #I’ve been getting help and this is a health issue I’ve already been trying to address and my job thankfully gave me some relief #so I’ve just been resting for a few days and thankfully have a head start on managing this #I do apologize if any of this has been disjointed or disconnected concentrating does not come easy right now #thank you all for your patience thus far it means so much to me

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stuckinapril · 11 months

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i love anthologies. anthologies are so sexy

#in an alternate world where im an english lit major the norton anthology of english lit is my bible #it's by no means an exhaustive overview but i really love how everything is in its neat timeline #and you get a general vibe for how literature was back then as opposed to just going in blind. u see how everything influences everything #a major (maybe a bit irrational?) fear i have is i come out of a book w superficial understanding #and while that has contributed to unfortunate reading slumps i do also like this trait of me #where i am actually focused on giving a book/period of time the respect it deserves vs just reading it flippantly #i like doing my silly little pre-read of a period of time/author before jumping into it #i don't do pre-reads for everything but there are books where i find it necessary to prime my brain for absorbing them #and anthologies are good for that #and they're also a good resource for investigating authors whose vibe sits right w u.#or for knowing the general quaintessential authors of a certain genre of lit #i also love poetry anthologies #the commentary comparing/contrasting certain authors is also rly interesting to me . ok i'll shut up now #p

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britneyshakespeare · 27 days

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i know i've been very culty on here about period underwear and reusable period products in general whenever i've brought up the topic in the last year or so but i mean it sincerely. i have never spent my money on a product that just simply improved my life so much. game-changing isn't even the beginning of it. i look forward to how much better my periods are now since i no longer have to depend on gross disposables. period underwear is the shit

#the best thing is it doesn't even feel wet. it doesn't even feel wet #like when you're a kid and you're new at it and all you can think about is how much you dont wanna be on your period anymore #and how much you wanna go back to just wearing your underwear like a normal day #with period underwear. you're just wearing underwear. and it DOES feel like a normal day #menstruation cw #other than y'know you're continuously bleeding and maybe you have cramps or whatever #other than having a kinda swimsuity texture (cant think of a better way to describe it) it just feels like underwear #it's JUST underwear #tales from diana #i mean im not even on my period rn although i am getting closer to it #i just bought ordered some new stuff and once this comes in. i'll be disposable-pad free forever #like i could cry about that #including some cloth pads (ive never tried them before)#i figured i could keep one or two of those in my purse or whatever for emergencies #the ONLY (and i mean only) inconvenient thing about period underwear is that it's much less convenient to just change or put on in public #on light or moderate days for me at least they can last the whole day. on heavy days it's good to change every 12 hours #and i can typically depend on doing that at home #but if i have a cloth pad for emergencies then i never have to rely on a disposable EVEN IN THE CASE that my period comes unexpectedly.#i mean it like i'm genuinely excited about this #i have only mentioned it a handful of times to friends in the year-plus that i bought that first pair of thinx #but i would literally buy any of my friends who menstruate a pair or a pack if they asked #like im very passionate about what a life improvement it has been #why do you think i'm always vag-angelizing about it these days?

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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#evenings and nights are always the worst for me #when i feel this lonely.... :(((#when you're alone the nights are the worst bc #u dont have anyone at all really.. and it gets so obvious at night #just .. the loneliness gets intensified #and i can compare bc #there was a period of time where i talked to someone everyday #and i looked forward to the nights and their messages and comforing goodnight messages #and so i know firsthand what big of a difference that makes #for years and years i've had these bad loneliness feelings tho.. so it's not smth new #but it gets harder and harder to deal with them. esp as the world outside is getting colder and crueler #and people only get more and more mean #plus when i do have smth wonderful that made me warm and happy and comforted that i dont have anymore #and can compare and know what im missing #it does get harder :c #i try to watch videos and think of other things but oh god this loneliness hurts so damn much i crumble underneath the weight of it #maybe life will get better dealing with it all if i have a stable income and an apartment with my pets #and go to work all day and come home too tired to feel lonely... idk?#im so scared i'll never find someone that i can be together with. bc i think im the kind of person who needs that #but im also so different and difficult and idk how and if it'll happen....#and how do i live with these heavy painful feelings of extreme loneliness ? idk :c #i try mindfulness too. and listening to music. and reading. and cuddling my pets #but im just a human. i want someone i love to hold me and fall asleep with them close to me.#i wanna lie in bed and talk to them abt anything bc between us it is a judgement free zone #despite what ppl say i am not weak for needing and wanting that. and being incredibly alone without it.#it's what i need and want but idk if i ever will and the thought of being stuck with this heavy loneliness all my life makes me wanna die #ok. peace out 😑✌️

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caluski · 7 months

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it actually feels good when the biggest stress of the day is done and youre like. powering down slowly. like yes im exhausted and my head hurts but its some sort of relief at least

#pogaduchy #i mean i dont know shit still obviously. but maybe no diagnosis also means that if it was something THAT bad and THAT advanced it wouldnt g #unnoticed by now... right?#also tmi or w/e but christ this whole stress made my period pains literally like 5 times worse. usually one ibuprofen every 4h is enough #yesterday and today i was in pain ALL day long!!! havent slept since 3am!!!! i already forgot how bad it gets when im stressed out so badly

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 4 months

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they call me the griever because halfway through a thing I enjoy I’m already sad that it’s closer to being over

#blue chatter #trying to work on not doing this #and just enjoying the thing in the moment #this happens to me a lot with school breaks and such #like ‘oh I love being on spring break but I’m sad bc I’m already 3 days in’#‘oh I love summer vacation so far it’s too bad it’s already a month over’#and I’m like NO!!!!! blue!!!!!!!! you’re missing the point!!!!!!!!#you have the joy *right now* and you are SPOILING IT bc you’re too busy looking ahead to when it will be gone!!!!!!!!!#it happens with friend visits a lot. it’s less bad now but it still happens.#like. the first time I visited friends over spring break I woke up in the early morning of the last morning and just cried #because I only had a few hours left before I had to get on the plane home #and I start hurriedly stuffing seconds and minutes into my mouth and refusing to swallow #because maybe if I just cling extra hard then the time won’t pass-#but it does pass. and that’s okay. and I know that’s okay because life had more joyful things after that moment #had I stayed there on that day I would have been frozen as a much more miserable person #my friends themselves would have been very different people #I mean. fuck. between then and now two of us figured out our genders. both of them got married. they moved somewhere else now.#there’s a lot of little joys that got left behind there. a church they loved. a local park. mountains and windy streets.#but I wouldn’t hold ourselves there. which I try to remind myself when I start crying about lost time again #because yeah. this will end someday. human lifespans aren’t infinite.#but the future is full of life I still have to live. there’s no saying that I can’t have good things again.#and this period of my life is rapidly rushing towards a much more uncertain future and I know that and it’s scary #I know I have about 11 months to make several very adult decisions that will determine a lot of my future #but no matter what I choose this period of my life is not wasted #and I don’t need to hurriedly optimize every second and mourn losing them #and I know that. and I still feel sad and mourny. but that might be more indicative that I’m hungry or smth.

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mimir97477906 · 6 months

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im so sosry for ranting abour this again but auhgufhgh im making a ref sheet of my ocs for myself beacse EVERYTIME I DRAW THEM THEY LOOK SOOOSK DIFFERENT os i thoguht maybe this can help me memorize their faces but EVEN THO IM USING GUIDELINES THE SAME CHARACTER LOOKS LIKE DIFFERENT PEOPLE ITS JUST A HEAD TURN AROUND I CANT DO THIS I FEEL SO VIOLENT WHY IS MY ART STYLE HAVING AN IDENTITY CRISIS HOWWWWWWW DO I FIX THIS

#everytime when im drawing any of my ocs and someone mixes them up with another oc my heart shatters to 7463874693 pieces #that either means everyone i draw looks the same or the same oc i draw looks so different every time #at that point they just went with whoever they think is the closest #im having the hardest time making my sentences right now what is going on my talkşng abilites have went down to zero #no like also ive always struggled w same face syndrome without realising #all my art life i had ocs that looked exactly the same from an outsiders view but they looked sososooo different to me #like i just erased my ocs frrom existence when i was 12 cuz everyone mixed them up and it frustrated me so bad #and i look back at that era AND THEY REALLY ARE EXACTLY THE SAME I CANT TELL WHO IS WHO #AND THIS KEPT HAPPENING until i got into sims which pushed me to egt out of my comfort zone #this is why its very important to be obsessed with the ugliest character u can find ^_^(NERVOUS SUBJECT)#and now im scared i once again convinced myslef that my ocs look very different when they actually arent #ok maybe this is a transitional period from having a same face syndrome to being able depict different kinds of people #and im in between rn cuz since im nnot used to this i just cant draw the same face again #and everytime i draw it loks like a dfifferent stuyle whatfevrrrr whatevr #wow writing down your feelings really do work maybe i should get a journal #ramblings

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giantkillerjack · 2 months

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Anastasia the Musical sucks so bad. They really said "We're gonna cut the best song from the movie - just axe the absolute banger that is 'In the Dark of the Night' - because we are being SERIOUS and GROWN-UP now. We are A Big Historical Realism Musical Now. This is FOR REAL, okay!? We don't have a SILLY villain like Rasputin! We have Gleb! [Please Just Clap.] We are HISTORICALLY GROUNDED. -- Anyway, here's a musical unironically glorifying the Russian monarchy~~ 💖😌💖😌💖😌💖"

#anastasia #anastasia musical #Anastasia movie #anastasia the musical #that said everything added in relation to Sophie and Vlad was 👌👌👌 chef's kiss #to add insult to injury they use the tune from in the dark of the night in a solemn dirge about the pain of having to leave one's country #I'm not actually against adding more historical realism into Anastasia but you have to give the monarchy that treatment as well #if you want to actually reckon with the oppressive regime of Russia in that time period you can't give a free pass to the monarchy #they're like completely uninterested in why the revolution happened and everything in relation to the royal family is #this glittering nostalgic shallow thing. which also describes the original but that at least had a campy magical historical fiction angle #that made suspending disbelief pretty easy. also how dare you add more ballads i mean for fuck's sake #I don't care if Anya and Dimitri saw each other TWO times as children instead of one! i don't care! i don't need a 6 minute song about it!#he's like 🎵 i saw you in a parade once. gosh the monarchy sure had some pretty parades and beautiful spectacle 🎵#and she's like 🎵 omg i remember you that's crazy i sure did love being a part of the family of the Czar 🎵#if you're going to add an introspective song maybe have Anastasia reckon with how her father was a great father and a violent ruler!#maybe address the inherent emotional conflict of grieving genuine trauma and also recognizing the fault of the ruling class.#i have memories of rewinding the movie just for a second or third viewing of 'in the dark of the night'#memories of jamming out to it in the car with my friends. then clicking skip 100+ times on my friend's ipod shuffle just to play it again #original #been a while since I saw the musical but I still get mad about this sometimes. half-assed ''Realism'' means less fun and more glaring flaws #please just clap #it's not like there's nothing there to develop it's just that they did it bad. I'm fine with adding a sad song about leaving home but ffs #also why not make Gleb a campy weirdo? he's SO. BORING. at least fuck up in an entertaining way.

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introspectionera · 2 months

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#just ignore this but I have put myself into bed and I am paralyzed with anxiety and sadness lol #It’s a mix of going back home tomorrow and period emotions #my time of the month is always so hard because my mental healths always just tanks lol #I literally get so anxious and think everyone hates me #and I mean I know it always passes and it’s fine and it’s just my period but it’s so exhausting #like I even thought my parents were so mad at mw and hated me the day before yesterday then period came and I’m like oh that makes sense lol #but then I also get v hateful to myself and feel like literally everyone just wants me sexually and that’s it LOL #these are just some thoughts for today but I actually am feeling a lot better typing it all out I think lol #maybe I get out of bed and read my book outside?!!!!

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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 24 days

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i'm kind of amazed how most of the stardew marriage candidates just want you to be their manic pixie dream whatever by agreeing with everything they like and plying them with compliments or praise or whatever (which is fine but a bit. Much) but for shane his romance is just you being there for him while he figures his own shit out... dunno why i never wanted to romance him before he's so good

#i'm usually a sebastian kinda guy but i do think it's silly you have to say you like scifi to gain friendship points w him like cmon man #i will say though that. my bestie's baby daddy being named shane kinda does make it hard to like him 😭 unfortunate but not his fault #ik a lot of ppl are weird abt his recovery and his messy ass room bc they play stardew to make things look pretty or whatever #but i'm actually kind of glad he's a realistic depiction of addiction... the problem is his dependence on indulging in alcohol when he's #depressed not the fact that he drinks period... i think that a lot of ppl are unrealistic abt alcoholism (including me abt my dad's)#but concernedape did really good w him imo. anyways all this to say that i'm really glad shane never expects someone to be a certain way #i know most of the candidates are like. archetypes or whatever and i think that's fine they are very sweet and cute regardless but #i think maybe i didnt romance him before bc i related to him so badly that it hurt seeing myself reflected LMAO dead end life and being #suicidal about it like. i've never had a drug dependence but i'm not really in a position where i can ever make my own decisions anyways #but regardless. there is smth to someone who slowly warms up to you when they can't ignore your kindness any longer and have no reason to #act like an abused dog anymore which. does make me sad just to say but that is how he acts beforehand #idkkkkk idk i think people are always too caught up with his addiction and his messy room to actually see him without realizing that #getting better is a lot harder than it appears and that having a dirty room doesn't mean you aren't trying to be better. sigh #besides it's not like. the end of the world that he has a beer sometimes. have you tried going thru life completely sober? it sucks #ok im done LMAO but yeah i've found myself gravitating towards him this time around when i've romanced sebastian literally every playthru #til now. hmm!#ACTUALLY ONE MORE THING. i like how he's basically a twist on the classic useless husband trope in media where they love sports and drinking #but he's not a bad person and the only reason he's mean to you at first is because he hates himself and his own life and he makes an effort #the more you get close to him instead of the opposite. i like that a lot. ok now i'm done

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gregmarriage · 3 months

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this was meant to be a funny post, but then it got deep imao

not a relationship person, but i believe in their beliefs

#me when i lie #it always comes round to june and i’m always single and it’s quite honestly homophobic #imaooooo nah it’s not that deep i’m just coming on my period hehe x #literally keep saying the same thing about relationships #like i shouldn’t get into one just because i’m lonely #and rush things and completely blow up my life on impulse #but i don’t know any other way #need to learn to take it slow and *actually* take it slow #because the last time i “took it slow’’ it all went wrong #basically i want a relationship at some point but when all your relationships are the same #it really gets to you #and i keep thinking about (redacted) and how much i fucked it all up #but also like would we really have worked out?#if i’d actually believed everything she said would we be okay?#do i not have a life? or am i not allowing myself to have a life?#bc literally i think i’ve gotten so used to being on the floor that i’ve forgotten how to get up #and like if i really tried i could actually get what i want #and i know that sounds obvious but like bear with me #i’ve basically shoved myself into a deep dark hole and covered myself up with dirt and then forgotten i can dig myself out #i *can* be with someone seriously #like yeah it’s uncomfortable and scary and it means facing up to certain things that make my stomach hurt but i will never have a life if i #don’t do these things #i can’t allow myself to basically get pushed back into the closet #i can’t allow myself to be infantilised and treated like shit all the time #like even if i’m surviving purely via spite for a while it’s better than the alternative #instead of constantly talking about the same thing and how nothing ever changes i should actually change it #again obvious but i’m usually miles behind bc my brain… isn’t great is probably the kindest way i could put that #and that’s okay. like it’s hard but it’s okay #even if i’m living out my teenage years and doing the things i’d wished i’d done then at 25+ that’s fine #there’s a whole fucking world outside my bedroom door so maybe i should go actually see it?

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evandore · 1 month

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at this point i cant even tell if hes just trying to pick a fight or like hes just that stupid….

#at this point theres nothing he can even get mad at me for OR SO I WOULD THINK … ive said like one sentence at him in these past months #my father literally pays him to clean the kitchen not that he actually does it #i mean holy shit he wakes up at like 6pm by that time i just stay in my room for the rest of the night #theres maybe an hour period we might overlap #AND HE SPENDS THAT TIME GETTINF MAD AT SOMETHING I DIDNT EVEN DO ???? hes acting like i havent showered in literal months #ive literally been showering MORE bc of my period what the fuckkkkk is his problem LEAVE ME ALONE !!!!

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bittwitchy · 4 months

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sometimes life w a v high pain tolerance means im still in pain but quiet abt it to not bother other ppl and sometimes it means im in such horrific pain for literally no reason (there is a reason oft just related to afab insides so ppl dont care) but i have to go to work anyways bc calling out is bad and somehow its ‘so brave’ to work while wanting to die as your insides torture you it feels like youre burning alive and your organs are breaking but hey we gotta go earn that dough right

#raiiot #it hurts so bad rn i wanna just cry and break down but i have work tonight #it hurts to breathe too which doesnt help me #i honestly dont even know if my pain tolerance is high or if i just got told my pain didnt matter #so much growing up and by docitrs and everyone that Im just not reacting to it #bc the reality is my wanting to die because of pain has been a constant since i first got my period at like 7-9 years old #and being told by doctors and my parents that im faking it for attention or i need to get over it or that idk what pain is jhst means i #started not saying anything bc being in pain and crying a lot was already bad since id get yeled at for crying #but being called a liar and being in trouble for it and the additional suffering just really sucked on top of it so it was ‘easier’ to say #nothing and try to ignore it and pretend i wasnt in pain for others benefit since they thought i was lying anyways #which is even funnier since now if i mention it theybsfill think im lying #so if im ignoring it or honest abt it i #still apparently a liar ig lol #the only pain other ppl in my fam have experienced is the oral pain funnily enough but they screamed abt cried abt how nobodys ever felt #pain like they have over a need for ONE root canal. i needed 9 and numbing didnt work #thats the first time they ever realized i maybe wasnt lying avout the pain. was when they got told thaf. but they still treat me like i am

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clarabowmp3 · 2 months

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#tw periods #not to brag but my period started on Monday #which I correctly predicted btw hehe #it’s Thursday and I’m done bleeding. like no spotting nothing #probably tmi #sorry lol #also have I mentioned how (relatively) painless it was #i mean this is all still pretty new and only cuz of a new medication I started in march #but for the first time ever I’m getting regular periods #also conspiracy theory time (or maybe it’s biology?) but what a coincidence that as soon as my cycle starts getting on track I start to thin #k pregnancy might not be all that bad #I’ve been dead set on no kids for YEARS since I was 14 at LEAST #anyways :)))

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