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our universe might be one photon in a super complex dimension
this is actually the only way physics makes sense to me... and in this high dimension we're all one literally, like one egg that later becomes an animal with many parts, many cells that came and went
I'm using my intuition here, lots of thought going into this postulate / hypothesis, but yes our universe could in my mind be a high dimensional photon traveling at light speed thus not experiencing any time itself, essentially timelessly illuminating our whole physical world, leaving plenty of room for free will too, as much as we actually have. Maybe some would call this the "God particle" hypothesis... probably touching on panpsychism here
#god particle#panpsychism#posts#panpsychist sympathizers#let's go team non-locality#that actually makes the most sense to me when I sit back i'm ngl#may free will be maximized
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Jupiter through the degrees đđ
Jupiter represents expansion, luck, wisdom, higher learning, and abundanceđ. The degree it occupies in your birth chart fine-tunes how you experience growth, success, and philosophy.
0° Jupiter â The Pure Explorer
⢠A natural seeker of wisdom, luck, and opportunity.
⢠Bold, adventurous, and often experiences fated new beginnings.
1° Jupiter â The Optimistic Pioneer
⢠Takes risks with a strong belief in success.
⢠Often the first to explore new ideas or places.
2° Jupiter â The Wise Builder
⢠Expands through patience and structure.
⢠Success comes through consistency rather than big risks.
3° Jupiter â The Charismatic Speaker
⢠Naturally persuasive, great at public speaking or teaching.
⢠Opportunities arise through communication.
4° Jupiter â The Grounded Visionary
⢠Can balance big dreams with practicality.
⢠Slow but steady success in life.
5° Jupiter â The Magnetic Leader
⢠Draws luck through courage, confidence, and taking initiative.
⢠Needs to avoid arrogance or over-promising.
6° Jupiter â The Harmonious Diplomat
⢠Gains luck through cooperation and relationships.
⢠Strong connection to justice, balance, and fairness.
7° Jupiter â The Mystic Seeker
⢠Deeply spiritual, may have psychic or prophetic abilities.
⢠Growth comes through faith, intuition, and inner wisdom.
8° Jupiter â The Strategic Planner
⢠Good at recognizing patterns and maximizing opportunities.
⢠Can be very calculative yet lucky in investments.
9° Jupiter â The Free-Spirited Adventurer
⢠Gains luck through travel, experiences, and taking risks.
⢠Drawn to international opportunities and cultures.
10° Jupiter â The Manifestation Master
⢠Can easily turn visions into reality.
⢠Strong ability to attract abundance through focus.
11° Jupiter â The Revolutionary Mind
⢠Luck comes through unconventional ideas and innovation.
⢠May be drawn to humanitarian efforts or progressive movements.
12° Jupiter â The Inspired Dreamer
⢠Great for art, music, poetry, and creative expression.
⢠Must avoid laziness or getting lost in unrealistic ideas.
13° Jupiter â The Charismatic Risk-Taker
⢠Magnetic and bold in pursuing opportunities.
⢠Needs to balance confidence with practicality.
14° Jupiter â The Balanced Optimist
⢠Expands through stability and maintaining equilibrium.
⢠Success comes when patience and action are balanced.
15° Jupiter â The Lucky Visionary
⢠Natural leadership abilities, with a strong sense of destiny.
⢠Attracts fortune through bold but wise choices.
16° Jupiter â The Karmic Teacher
⢠Gains wisdom through experience, often teaching others.
⢠May face trials before achieving success.
17° Jupiter â The Bold Decision-Maker
⢠Fearless in making choices that lead to expansion.
⢠Needs to avoid impulsive decisions or overconfidence.
18° Jupiter â The Deep Philosopher
⢠Seeks meaning in everything, drawn to deep studies.
⢠Can be drawn to law, ethics, or religious studies.
19° Jupiter â The Adventurous Spirit
⢠Expands through movement, travel, and new experiences.
⢠Needs to avoid restlessness and commitment issues.
20° Jupiter â The Steady Achiever
⢠Success comes through consistency and perseverance.
⢠Gains wisdom through hard work and discipline.
21° Jupiter â The Charismatic Influencer
⢠Gains recognition through public influence or media.
⢠Natural ability to inspire and attract others.
22° Jupiter â The Master Builder
⢠Strong ability to manifest long-term success.
⢠Power comes through hard work, patience, and structure.
23° Jupiter â The Karmic Risk-Taker
⢠Luck comes from bold choices, often gambling on destiny.
⢠Needs to be cautious of reckless behavior.
24° Jupiter â The Prosperous Romantic
⢠Gains luck in love, relationships, and creative endeavors.
⢠Strong attraction to pleasure, needs balance.
25° Jupiter â The Spiritual Mastermind
⢠Deeply connected to divine wisdom and mystical knowledge.
⢠Drawn to higher education, philosophy, or esoteric teachings.
26° Jupiter â The Silent Strategist
⢠Success comes from working behind the scenes and planning carefully.
⢠Can be reserved but highly effective in business or finance.
27° Jupiter â The Generous Healer
⢠Gains luck through giving and helping others.
⢠Often involved in charity, healing, or humanitarian efforts.
28° Jupiter â The Boundless Explorer
⢠Always seeking new frontiers, whether mental, physical, or spiritual.
⢠Needs to avoid overextending energy.
29° Jupiter â The Fated Leader
⢠The Anaretic Degree (final degree) makes this Jupiter highly powerful.
⢠Can experience extreme highs and lows in luck and wisdom.
⢠Often a great teacher, leader, or guide for others.
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Astrology Observation: đĽŞđ§đ§ââď¸đľđĄđťđŻď¸đđž Your Daily Routine ( Healthy & Unhealthy) Based On Your Rising Sign đĽŞđ§đ§ââď¸đľđĄđťđŻď¸đđž
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â¤ď¸âđĽAries Rising:
Healthy
* You care a lot about your hygiene and have a routine that ensures your skin, hair, nails, and body look and smell great. You are particular about what you put on your body and what you do because you feel confident when your routine helps you improve your looks.
* You pay attention to what you put in your body, drink a lot of water, eat your fruits and vegetables. You make sure to balance your meals.
* You are very routine, but find a way to balance work, school, with exercise, self-improvement, and relax time. To you there is nothing more important than maximizing your routine.
* You are constantly improving at a skill ( work, school, or a personal skill).
* You research new and fascinating topics in your free time. This makes you incredibly insightful and smart, always adding to conversations in meaningful ways.
* You love to be organized and youâre constantly finding a way to be smarter.
* You help those that need your help. To you being of service to people makes you feel fulfilled.
Unhealthy
* You donât have a hygiene routine, you let your hygiene slip until you see it getting bad. Your skin breakouts, your hair is greasy, your nails arenât taken care of, and you have an odor.
* You eat purely because of pleasure or to survive. You donât drink enough water or drink more juice, soda, and alcohol. You can overeat or barely eat on most days.
* You are fixated in a routine even if it doesnât serve you. You may overwork ( work long hours) or ( spend a lot of time on school work). You may put off parts of your routine that help you ( exercise) or time for self improvement.
* You are disorganized, misplacing items and losing things easily, you would rather act smarter, than actually focus on gaining the knowledge.
* You only help others when itâs something in it for you. Youâre self-serving to your own interests.
đŚTaurus Rising:
Healthy
* You care a lot about your presentation. But you like to keep it simple and blend-in, not stand-out. You keep your hygiene routine simple, you may follow trendy fashion or use products that youâve seen recommended online. You get inspiration looking at Pinterest or IG for your looks.
* You like to eat a well-balanced meal, but youâre either at that new aesthetic restaurant or ordering on DoorDash. If you cook at home youâre looking up Tik Tok recipes or using a recipe app you found.
* Your routine is focused on balancing your social life with work and routine. Youâll hang out with a friend quickly. Youâll spend a portion of your day having good conversations, laughing, and catching up. Youâll go around town doing fun things and keep yourself entertained.
* You enjoy learning new things and feel refreshed by hearing different perspectives. You can listen to podcast, read books, or spend time on YouTube.
* You enjoy fashion, home decor, looking at places you can travel, and finding new things to buy.
* You like to keep your day light-hearted and you enjoy being in aesthetic places. You might feel inclined to date or to hang with your partner.
Unhealthy
* You can feel very insecure and feel that you canât dress yourself without an inspiration or copying someone else. You may spend an excessive amount of money trying to impress people with your style. You may feel you always have to dress to impress even when itâs not comfortable.
* Youâre conscious about your image so you either restrict your eat, or skip meals. You can end up only eating socially, like eating out once a day or ordering food only for dinner. With the influence of Venus you could eat just to eat and be a glutton or binge eater.
* Your routine is all over the place. Youâre too focused on pleasing other people or doing favors for other people, you donât have time for yourself. You can be too focused on relationship where youâre always with your partner with no space or you constantly need the validation of a friend.
* You can get into a lot of debates and tense conversations due to talking about your perspectives with others especially when there are differences.
* Your focus on leisure and fun to escape your responsibilities can lead to procrastination and putting yourself in unnecessary binds.
* You can be superficial. You might go out just to post an IG picture or to flaunt. You might date just to avoid feeling lonely.
đ§ Gemini Rising:
Healthy
* You need space to yourself. You wake-up and provide yourself a private self-care routine. You have a set routine that you do that makes you feel confident and poised.
* You focus on the health routine that helps your ultimate goal. If youâre into gaining weight and building muscle you stick to a diet that allows you gain weight in a healthy way. If youâre into losing weight you and being lean you stick a diet that allows you to lose weight. If youâre trying to maintain your weight you make sure to eat a balanced diet.
* Your routine is very driven, you feel motivated and focused, your priorities, responsibilities, and work will be your main focus and you are working towards an overarching goal to succeed in these areas.
* You have tenacity and always are accomplishing things.
* You love to know the deeper aspects of life. You are on Google a lot. You are trying to figure out how things works.
* You are passionate and want to spend time with your partner, friends, and associates doing things that excite you.
Unhealthy
* You wake-up preoccupied with too much, you donât have time to yourself. You donât carve space out to yourself and you wake-up feeling negative. You may end up oversleeping or waking up in a rush because you donât want to get up.
* You either forget to eat and have periods where you donât eat enough and you are surviving off of a little food or you on the other extreme or overeating.
* You can be overly concerned with your image and succeeding, so you can be manipulative and do things underhandedly. You can try to get ahead and be selfish in how you move in your routine.
* You may go after your goals, get them, and feel unfulfilled. You donât enjoy your accomplishments and donât feel proud.
* You are suspicious and have trust issues. You may be only interested in learning things if it serves you to feel better.
* You are possessive and manipulative. You try to control your friends, partners, and associates and do dangerous things.
đCancer Rising:
Healthy
* You enjoy trying new things in your routine. You like to try new hair products, make-up products, skin care products, etc.
* You enjoy a diverse pallet, you find that you enjoy trying new restaurants and cuisines, you may find cooking exciting, you try different diets to help improve your heath.
* You are flexible in your routine, you like exciting activities, having fun, venturing out, trying new spots. You like your work, school, and responsibilities to be flexible and give you time to explore and do other things.
* You seek to understand life more. You may enjoy reading or understanding the different ways of life. You may be particularly interested in learning, but you may find that self-guided learning is better for you.
* You have a positive mindset and usually like to give yourself and other people pep-talks. You talk to your friends and give them helpful advice and allow them to see a different perspective or bigger picture.
* You have a big personality so could spend time on social media, on the phone talking, you can also like shopping or going out to eat.
* You want to have fun in your days so doing anything to have fun makes your day.
Unhealthy
* You can buy a bunch of products for hygiene that you never use. You may find that you spend so much money on hygiene products, always finding something that interests you and not putting use to them.
* You overeat, always want to go out to eat, love sweets and keeps eating even after full.
* You can feel confined by routine and may feel the need to always do something different, you hate boredom so your routine may at times lead to doing things to escape boredom and monotony.
* You can get very down and lose a lot of hope. This can lead to an excessive amount of negativity and complaining. You may get blunt and reckless in how you speak,saying hurtful comments in these moments.
* You can talk too much about others and be overly opinionated of their lives and decisions which can cause you to gossip. You can spend money excessively and always eat out.
* You can be irresponsible and focused on your own pursuit of fulfillment causing recklessness.
â¨Leo Rising:
Healthy
* You like to present yourself as a powerful person. You wear clothing that commands your presence. You keep up on your hygiene so that you come off clean. You have a set routine with your hygiene that you donât change much.
* You can be a picky eater, mainly because you like to truly enjoy the comfort and pleasure of eating, yet you have your restrictions. You like to be disciplined in your diet to maintain your health and body.
* You are routine and your focus is usually on work, school, and your responsibilities. You can be into hard work or work that makes you feel accomplished. You enjoy taking on tasks and pursuing your goals.
* You can be very focused on success or being the best at what you do, though you may not outwardly show it, you are constantly strive to prove yourself in your daily routine.
* You can be focused on maintaining your image, you may hang out with friends, but youâre selective who you give your time to, you like to be around people who are respected, powerful, good-getters, or successful. You feel empowered by their drive and you often are forging connections for better opportunities.
* You are family oriented so you check on your family, hang-out with them, you can be around your close friends a lot.
Unhealthy
* You feel weak and disempowered, to compensate you overly focus on your physical image, often times commanding presence through showy ways. You can be more engaged with your image than an actual grounded hygiene routine.
* You can be a restrictive in eating often starving yourself or not properly nourishing your vessel. You can be more focused on looking a certain way than your actual health. You can also be prone to overeating especially in privacy, you might eat a lot.
* You work too much for sake of proving your worth. You take life too serious and donât engage in fun activities. If you do have time outside of seriousness you can be prone to addiction or doing things to cope with your heavy feelings.
* You can step over other people to get what you want. You can be selfish and cold at times trying to attain the things you want or based off of self-pursuit.
* You can be superficial and more focused on hanging around people that gives you a sense of validation or worth. You can be socially pretentious and superficial. You can also be mean and judgmental.
* You can have a lot of power struggles in your family and you can also be very private and closed off from family and only go around them when you need something.
đđžVirgo Rising:
Healthy
* You have an eccentric or popularized approach to hygiene, could either be into natural (holistic) hygienic products or you could use popular hygiene products from major known companies. You can be routine with your hygiene but have moments where you switch up your routine to explore new options.
* You have comfort foods that you eat routinely, but you can enjoy foods that others donât. And youâre more likely to try different foods, you may even try an alternative diet to explore eating differently ( eating different cuisines, vegan or vegetarian, fruitarian, eating health and superfoods).
* You can be very routine and focused on long-term goals and practical aspects of your day, but you also have this side of you who wants to be free and live unconventionally. Could have a different sleep schedule, pursue unconventional hobbies, or hang-out and do things with weird, odd people or groups.
* Youâre very into varied topics, you can also be always on your phone on social media. You could be interested in pursuing a certain alternative lifestyle or in unconventional ways of life. You may have bursts of time where you work, go to school, and handle your responsibilities and then periods where youâre not working as much and exploring other options for fulfillment.
* You can be very focused on bigger ideals so you spend a good portion of your day in your head, coming up with future plans, and planning upcoming things you want to do. You could also be apart of a class, group, organization, or community.
* You can be very friendly and enjoy talking to all different kinds of people especially discussing your lifestyle, identity, and your ideals.
* You can be a bit eccentric and do things spontaneously at times, especially when craving a change.
* Your routine changes a lot and you like to hang around your friends a lot. Together you have come up with progressive idea and learn new things.
Unhealthy
* You could have odd ways to your hygiene. Sometimes you can omit certain things from your hygiene stubbornly even when it helps. You can sometimes have a very erratic routine, missing showers, not properly taking care of your teeth or neglecting skin care.
* You can have an eating disorder or have a strange way to eating. Eating at 3 in the morning or not eating for long periods then eating a lot. You may have a very weird diet.
* You can neglect work and important aspects to focus on bigger ideals. Potentially staying on your phone during work or breaking the rules at work ( taking longer breaks, taking shortcuts) you can sometimes act in rebellious ways and go against the norm. You may get into it with people you live.
* You can find it hard to blend in your environments which makes you at times problematic at work, school, or at home. You can sometimes get into altercations randomly and surprisingly.
* You may get absorbed in the wrong group of friends and do unlawful, bad, or inappropriate things. May struggle to separate yourself from groups and to spend time alone, so youâre constantly seeking excitement socially and do not give enough attention to important matters.
* Your daily routines can clash with your family, partner, or living situation. You may do things that make others angry or feel unsettled.
đLibra Rising:
Healthy
* You can have a very magical hygiene routine. You can be sensitive and have to use special or gentle products. You could like to make your hygiene experience magical, enchanting, and relaxing.
* You like to eat by yourself or with a loved one. You enjoy the aesthetic of food, you love to eat meals appealing to your senses, that smell delicious, look delicious, and creative foods. You might enjoy dining out at nice, relaxing restaurants that are aesthetic.
* You prefer a more free-flowing routine that allows you room for rest and time to get be creative and explore hobbies. You may need a nap after work or school and time to decompress to yourself. Spending the evening with friends and loved ones. You may not want to be preoccupied with school and work outside of it unless needed.
* Your imagination is vivid so your routine always has to have a touch of fantasy or enjoyment. A spiritual routine, a routine related to your hobby, a routine related to relaxing. You might even have time to yourself to reflect on your day through journaling.
* You have a lot of esoteric and creative interests. You may spend time looking up things to do, places to go, hobbies to learn, looking for your soulmate, or finding ways to connect more to yourself.
* You can be very giving to those in your life and your routine involves being supportive of your friends, partner, and family.
Unhealthy
* You can feel overwhelmed quickly and may not give adequate time to a hygiene routine. You may neglect self-care leading to unhygienic practices or a lack of care for your physical image.
* You can be prone to emotional eating especially when feeling down and overwhelmed you may indulge in sweet food or food that is delicious. You can find yourself ordering food from the comfort of your home, feeling unmotivated to cook.
* You procrastinate on work, school, and responsibilities which can make you fall behind at work, school and on meeting your responsibilities. To decompress from the stress you can become overly dependent on other people, substances, or neglecting responsibilities for more enjoyable activities.
* You can avoid any reflection or self-care routine and go to what gives you instant gratification or pleasure. You can also isolate and detach from people when overwhelmed.
* You become obsessed with your relationships and a need for love. You can sacrifice a lot of who you are, merely to please those around you and keep the peace. Can find yourself over invested in your relationships.
* You can be very escapist with lifeâs issues and choose to drink, use substances, isolate, dig your heels deeply into your interests and creative pursuits, and sleep.
đScorpio Rising:
Healthy
* You feel energized towards your hygiene routine. You stick to a simple routine that you can do in a timely manner. You focus on the important things and enjoy wearing comfortable clothing that boosts your confidence.
* You like to eat food that energizes you, you go for lighter meals when you want to get up and go. You stay hydrated and after you eat your meals prefer to move around, do activity, or clean.
* You arenât one for routines as much as doing what you have to do and enjoying the free time in your schedule to do something fun. You enjoy exploring your passions, going out, and accomplishing tasks. You feel very driven towards these things and like to act.
* Getting things done is important, as much as having time to do whatever you would like. The quicker you handle your responsibilities, the more time you feel free. You value your time.
* You like to do things your good at, so you may focus on improving a skill or building your confidence. You can also enjoy getting inspiration online through Pinterest, Tik Tok, Tumblr, or IG.
* You can enjoy personal time in your day to be in your own energy away from others. In those time you may think about your goals, priorities, and current focuses.
* You can be the one to initiate plans to hang-out with others , friends, partners, family. You may also be interested in dating and getting to know people.
Unhealthy
* You can lack vigor and feel unmotivated when it comes to your hygiene routine. You rush through self-care time, skipping steps that can improve your confidence and help you to feel better in your skin. You aim to leave out and do other things than self-care.
* You eat food fast, not savoring the moment. Itâs just another part of your day. You can eat food that makes you feel lethargic, depleting your energy. You may find that after eating you donât want to do anything and feel lazy.
* You want free time even when there are responsibilities and priorities so you procrastinate, hoping to execute the tasks last minute ( because you can do it fast).
* You may waste a lot of your time doing things for your own pleasure or desires, ignoring others and their needs and desires around you.
* You get stuck at the inspiration stage, scrolling through social media but too scattered brain to follow through on tasks.
* Your desire for alone time might lead to neglecting relationships or plans so that you can focus more on what you want. It can lead to conflict with people who want more time from you.
* You may aggressively push your desires onto other people. You can use other people to do things you may not want to do alone.
đSagittarius Rising
Healthy
* Your hygiene routine is focused on products that make you feel beautiful, smell good, and are pleasing to your senses. You take your time with your hygiene routine, longer showers, sitting doing your makeup. You like to pamper yourself like youâre at an at home spa.
* You enjoy cooking food at home. You love to prepare meals or to follow recipe/cook books. You get satisfaction from a balanced home cooked meal. Occasionally, you treat yourself to good tasting food from delivery or at a restaurant.
* You like to have a steady routine, can be into slow living or just very particular when it comes to your routine because you want to make the most of your day. Can incorporate creativity, beauty, and love in your everyday routines.
* You can focus on work, but you do enjoy leisure time. For you itâs a balance of achieving career, school, and responsibilities, with enjoying the benefits, rewards, and pleasure of life.
* You have a slow way of savoring the day, enjoying each moment, practicing mindfulness. You can feel connected to Mother Nature and earth by going outside for a simple nature walk or being surrounded by the elements comforts you.
* You enjoy those close to you. Your circle of people is the ones you trust and who have earned their spot through the test of time. You communicate and make plans to see your friends, partner, family, or even go on dates in moderation.
Unhealthy
* You procrastinate with your hygiene routine and may find yourself skipping important steps or too lazy to do things. Sometimes skipping showers, not staying on top of your dental hygiene. You can be too lazy and unmotivated to bother with self-care.
* You overindulge in foods to comfort yourself. You lean too much on sweet, savory, and home cooked meals. You can at times get lazy with cooking and putting thought in your meal and go for convenience or eat out a lot.
* You can lean towards procrastination and too focused on relaxing and feeling comfortable. It can make it so you do things last minute in an effort to focus on the things you love or enjoy.
* You can switch between being fixated on school, work, responsibilities and then switch to focusing a lot on your creative hobbies, chill time, and pleasure. You may lose balance of effectively doing both.
* You can become very routine and fixated in whatever youâre doing which leaves little room for grounding yourself in nature. Your lack of nature, fresh air, and plants makes you feel ungrounded and easily frustrated.
* You keep people in your life for the superficial image and do not have a strong, healthy connection. You can keep your anger in until you explode or have very tense moments with your friends, family, and partner. You may become overly focused on dating and pleasure as a way to feel a void.
đCapricorn Rising:
Healthy
* You have a unique and refreshing hygiene routine. You can be into understanding the product and finding products that align with what you personally enjoy hygienically.
* You have a lot of flexibility in your diet, but youâre often doing something to give yourself a break; fasting, no carbs, fruit cleanse, no sugar, or just eating more whole foods.
* You allow yourself to shift your routine especially because you find you need space to socialize and plunge into your interests. You can be bothered with a fixed routine, you need room for exploration.
* You find that everyday is a mental adventure. You oftentimes have a lot of interests,hobbies, or fascinations.
* You love to talk whether on the phone, through text, at work, or in class. Engaging in conversations, debates, talks, or dialogue is integral to your routine.
* Your schedule changes a lot as you find more opportunities within work, school, or your responsibilities.
Unhealthy
* You are always in a rush and on the go. You may find that you could careless about a hygiene routine or give it very little time and energy.
* You stick to quick and easy meals, sometimes losing focus to eat truly nourishing meal. Could survive off of snacks or one meal a day. Losing weight unintentionally.
* You can have a very hard time focusing and being productive. Itâs like your attention is everywhere and no where at the same time. Sometimes simple tasks take way longer than if you just could focus.
* You can find that your desire and need for stimulation turns you into a dopamine addict or someone who does a lot of different things for the thrill of it. A lot of unfinished projects, ideas, and responsibilities.
* You can be detached and have times where youâre social and outgoing and then off to yourself and easily irritable.
* Your life becomes quickly unstable and you may find that you holding onto things proves difficult ( missed opportunities, losing a job, falling behind in school, running into financial struggles).
đ¤Aquarius Rising:
Healthy
* Your hygiene routine is centered around how you feel, you choose what is your most important needs and desires based on your attitude for the day. If you feel a bit upset, you make sure to go slow and do something to make you smile.
* You eat food that reminds you of home, comforting foods, traditional foods, foods that make you feel warm, cozy, and filled. You stay hydrated and present when eating.
* You have a routine that includes time to yourself away from the world. Those are the moments you watch your favorite movie, show, journal, read a book, or do something to relax and feel cozy.
* You care a lot about your work, school, responsibilities and want to be invested in it. Work to you is another home and you make friends with your co-workers. You like to feel that work is meaningful, so you always have work goals or are striving for better.
* You like to hang-out with friends, loved ones, a partner, or someone you considered close and special to you. Involving someone that you care about is essential to your well-being and allows you to feel loved and supported.
* Your day is a cozy vibe where you want to feel that youâre connected to what you do. You enjoy the simple aspects of life and enjoy romanticizing your day.
Unhealthy
* In an effort to show up for work, school, or your responsibilities and being tired from your giving nature. You do not put effort into your hygiene routine which leads to a lazy look or feeling less confident.
* You may lean towards emotional eating, barely eating under stress, fatigue, or depression or overeating under these states.
* You are plagued with duties, responsibilities, work, and school and you have no time for yourself. You end up falling asleep in an attempt to take some time for yourself.
* Work, school, and your responsibilities become overwhelming for you. They create an imbalance in your life and you may feel taken advantage of, used, or burnout fairly easy.
* You isolate to yourself a lot in your own world. You crave connection but you may feel uneasy or distrustful. You may feel more protected off on your own.
* Your day feels heavy and you feel detached from all that you do. Your routine makes you feel depressed and it creates an unmotivated and moody personality.
đ¨Pisces Rising:
Healthy
* You enjoy a routine that is creative. A lot of color or products in your hygiene routine that resonated with you by advertising, color, or the ability to improve your confidence. Your confidence is exuded in how much you invest in your hygiene routine.
* Youâre someone who likes to make sure your body looks beautiful. You like to balance fun and pleasure, with health. Youâre taking your supplements and staying hydrated.
* You like to enjoy your day especially when it comes to having fun, youâre always carving out time for your social life but also to do things that make you happy.
* You are someone who romanticizes life and you take true pride in those that are close to you. Loyalty means a lot to you and you invest in those that are loyal to you.
* You enjoy the finer things in life, shopping, eating out, meeting with friends, going out to places that offer entertainment.
* You take part in going towards your goals of what success is. You feel the need to continue on a path that you see working for yourself or turning into something that can make you feel excited, seen, and respected.
Unhealthy
* Your lack of confidence leads to you dulling down your hygiene routine. You feel like your creativity is diminished and do what you think others expect of you. Limiting the possibility of feeling good because youâre trying to maintain a certain image.
* Food is a source of pleasure for you, so you eat out of boredom or for fun. If not eating to eat ( not properly balancing your diet), you are starving yourself to maintain a physique.
* Youâre all play and can find it hard to deal with work, school, or responsibilities. This makes you come off as irresponsible or only focused on fun and enjoyment. This can also lead to procrastination.
* You feel either inferior or superior to those around you, so the relationships in your life can be strained or stagnant causing you to utilize them only out of convenience.
* You overspend on the non-practical items of life always looking to be entertained. You keep going broke and feeling miserable.
* You can be very focused on success in societal standards leaving you feeling empty chasing dreams and goals that donât align with your true purpose.
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sebek and the love of literature
HELLO, HI... PLEASE READ MY SEBEK ANALYSES, I BEG... HE IS A VERY GOOD BOY THAT IS DESERVING OF YOUR LOVE, I SWEAR HE IS... OTL
[ Sebek and internalized racism / Sebek and his place in the Diasomnia found family / Sebek and his capacity to love ]
YES... It is I, here with yet another Sebek-related ramble. Make yourself comfortable :)) *straps you into a seat and tapes your eyeballs open*
***SPOILERS for the book 7 part 12 (Heartslabyul - Deuce and Cater) update!!***
Okay, SO.
We already know that one of Sebek's hobbies is reading, as is stated in his official in-game profile:
... BUT I DON'T THINK YOU TRULY REALIZE HOW DEEP THIS READING HOBBY GOES. He has several voice lines declaring his love of books and reading. Several of Sebek's peers, including Yuu, Azul, and Jack, gift him books for his birthday. In his free time, Sebek chooses to read books on a variety of topics, including romantic tragedies and textbooks. He doesn't just read the book and then move onto the next thing either; other characters may joke that the only time he is quiet is when he is reading, but Sebek seriously absorbs the information he takes in and reflects on it. He thinks about what happened to the characters, what the lesson of the story is, what the author's intent might have been (in his Nightmare Suit vignettes). He wants to apply the techniques he reads about in books to real life, such as picking up new skills like badminton (Sebek New Yearâs Attire voice line), how to maximize his training (Jack gifts him a sports science book for his Union Birthday), of learning to adapt to sudden situations like when he and Silver find an injured baby bat (in Liliaâs Dorm Uniform vignettes).This makes sense, as Sebek is the kind of person who is always striving to improve himself so that he may better serve his liege. Sebek is not a selfish reader. He loves books + picking up new knowledge and actively tries to share that with his loved ones. For example, Sebek has voice lines where he asks the player to share book recommendations so that he may read them tonight (aka basically as soon as possible). When we express confusion between dragons and longs, Sebek offers to visit the library with the player to show them "books suitable for beginners". (That of itself also indicates mindfulness towards people having different levels of proficiency at reading.) He is also shown being eager to fetch books for Silver from a higher shelf--though this is in part because Sebek loves to show off that he is taller--and directs Malleus to a book fair in Foothill Town so that his liege may find new interesting reads. He also pays attention to othersâ interests and selects the appropriate reading materialâhence why Sebek gifts Jamil a travel book for Jamilâs Union Birthday. According to Sebek, "It was [his] grandfather who taught [him] the joys of reading." Indeed, Baur has read to Sebek and told him (oral) stories since his grandson was a baby. He has continuously gifted Sebek book too, all of which Sebek has kept with him. It is implied that Baur thinks receiving a proper education is important, and even though he has complicated feelings about his one and only child marrying a mere human, he still wanted his grandchildren to be well-educated. Baur always made efforts to read and share stories with Sebek to that end. In book 7, this all comes full circle when Silver is wallowing in despair and Sebek talks some sense into him:
"If [Lilia] hated you, he didn't have to give or teach you anything. He could've just raised you into a dimwitted coward and made you a servant. But he didn't [...] Even trapped in the darkest despair, you kept on fighting! Who raised you to be so strong? LILIA DID! Why don't you see? Why do you doubt? You should have understood years ago! What can you call your strength, if not the direct result of Lilia's love?!"
From this dialogue, we can draw direct parallels with how Baur raised Sebek. In this analogy, Baur = Lilia and Sebek = Silver. Both Baur and Lilia initially have a disdain for humans, have served as soldiers in the royal guard, and have personally suffered due to humans invading their country and pillaging it for resources. Then they are also both forced into circumstances where they have a human child thrust upon them and they have to take some responsibility for said child. Despite that, Baur and Lilia were able to overcome their own prejudices and truly learn to love Sebek and Silver, respectively. Sebek is always in a rush to be better for others. Silver is always worried that he'll never be "enough" for the father that did so much for him. But the difference is that Sebek knows his grandfather loves him because Baur gifted him with knowledge--which is a strength and a power of its own. It's because Sebek is cognizant of Baur's love for him that he's the perfect candidate to call Silver out for being dense. Lilia DID teach Silver. Lilia DID value Silver getting an education. And because of that, Silver is strong. He is strong because of Lilia's love, just as Sebek is strong because of Baur's love and the knowledge that was granted to him. To Sebek, literature IS love. This is a core component of his character--and, additionally, it is a core component of how he understands, navigates, and communicates. (Please refer to the examples I gave in the earlier paragraphs!) Nowhere is this made clearer than at the end of Deuce's dream segment in book 7.
In the dream, Deuce gets into a brawl with some Octavinelle mob students in the NRC library. They chuck various books at each other during the fight, which deeply upsets Sebek. He falls to his knees (like, you can see his tall as fuck model lowering) to check on the books and laments at the damage they've taken.
What really sets Sebek off is when he happens to witness the contents of the thrown books. Simply put, a lot of information is missing. There are several blank pages, and what is there is riddled with errors or is written so crudely it's illegible. Literature, being desecrated in Sebek's presence? NOT ON HIS WATCH. He cannot hold himself back and lets it all out on Deuce, reprimanding his peer for wanting to be an honors student but not having the drive to properly absorb these materials (which, as you'll recall, is something Sebek takes very seriously himself).
Sebek has a very specific definition of what a "book" is. Simply having papers that are bound and have a cover is not a "book". Based on his anger, it seems he very much values the contents. He even alludes to the knowledge gained from reading as being a weapon Deuce can actually use in a fight (which, again, makes sense because of how Sebek often tries to apply what he learns from books to his own life) All of this shouting and scolding does lead to Deuce waking up, but I will be glossing over this part as this is an analysis focused on Sebek and not Deuce. However, there is something that I would like to discuss, and it happens after Deuce is fully awake. The two have a moment to bond over an anomaly of a book they found in the libraryâthe only one that appears to have all its contents intact. It is âThe Story of the Trump Soldierâ, a famous childrenâs book from the Queendom. It has various short stories about the card soldiers (whom Deuce idolizes) that serve the Queen of Hearts.
Deuce tells us that, as a kid, he would beg his mom to read the book to him. When he got a little older and learned how to read himself, Deuce would read the book so many times that now itâs just stuck in his head. The fact that it was so perfectly reproduced in his dream is proof that the story holds great significance to him. SEBEK RECOGNIZES AND RESPECTS THAT. He doesn't insult Deuce or look down on him for reading what is "just a children's book". Instead, Sebek comments that something as simple as this can be what sparks one's love for reading. And do you know why Sebek says that... BECAUSE THIS IS PROBABLY TRUE OF HIMSELF đđđ It was Baur who got him books--probably including CHILDREN'S books--and read to him when he was small... so, as a result, Sebek understands how the mere exposure and finding that one book that hooks you can snowball into a real love for literature. It's not clear if Sebek himself is aware of this parallel since he kinda makes the remark off the cuff but BOY did I sure notice OTL
QEILRQEIYQEPPQEF AND THEN AND THEN AND THEN He suggests that Deuce try picking out a book sometime for his friends, something easy so that even Yuu and Grim can understand it. Sebek gives recommendations like this to Silver (one of the few humans he likes), who can never quite finish reading those books despite his best efforts... Sebek is advising that Deuce do this same thing đ THE THING HE DOES HIMSELF FOR A FRIEND, BECAUSE RECOMMENDING A BOOK IS ONE OF THE WAYS SEBEK SHOWS HE CARES.... . .. ..... . ..... . .... . . . . .. . .. .. At the end, Sebek even says that he will read "The Story of the Trump Soldier" when he's awake in the real world. THAT'S HIM ACKNOWLEDGING AND ACTING ON DEUCE'S BOOK RECOMMENDATION TO HIM... meaning that some small part of Sebek is coming to terms with Deuce as a companion... slowly opening up to the idea of having other friends... 𼺠The love for literature that Sebek got from Baur... is now being used as a means to bridge the great divide between Sebek and the peers he used to so brazenly snub and insult before...
If you look back at the voice lines for Deuceâs Birthday Jacket card, he says âSebek gave me this reference book. He said he highly recommended it... Hey! This is CLEARLY for little kids! I can't believe that guyâŚâ BUT DONâT YOU SEE???? With this context, you suddenly see it wasnât meant as an insult. Sebek considered Deuceâs level of reading proficiency and purposefully picked out something that suited him. I have no doubt that Sebek actually puts a lot of thought into the books he recommends to others becauseâto himâto share literature is to tell someone âI love you, I care about you.â WEEEEEHEHHHHHHHH H HHHH H H H H H HH H H H H, IT ALL TIES TOGETHER SO WELL!!
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C Y P R E S S . (early access, patreon)
Hi everyone!
My new Cypress bathroom set is finally here! The set contains 23 new meshes, including lot of vanity counter variations, without and without sinks, wall cabinets. You will also find a vanity stool, a bathtub, some really chunky marble door frames (perfect for wet rooms & showers), towel racks, a mirror with a really cute foggy swatch & wall lights. I also made a fake marble half wall, you can add it right behind the vanity counters & use it as a small shelf.
Please note that this set is NOT meant to be a kitchen counter set, all surfaces are made separately, they have different width to maximize customizability & are all functional as surfaces (not kitchen counters). You can place them easily and seamlessly by having the cheat "bb.moveobjects" enabled in game & ALT key.
I focused a lot on bigger pieces this month but used a lot of my other set's clutter objects for the previews. All the cc used in the pictures is mine, except the windows. The windows are from the Soho set, by Felixandre. In regards of my cc, I used a lot of clutter from my previous bathroom sets (Lombok, Amed, Isla, & Ungasan).
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SET DETAILS:
Vanity Cabinets (6 versions) - 24Â swatches
Tall Cabinets (2 versions, open & close) - 24 swatches
Floating Vanity Desk - 24 swatches
Wall Cabinet - 8 swatches
Single Marble Arch (2 heights) - 5 swatches
Double Marble Arch (2 heights) - 5 swatches
Vanity Desk Stool - 10 swatches
Mirror - 6Â swatches
Wall Light - 2 swatches
Bathtub - 16 swatches
Marble Half Walls - 3 swatches
Deco Towel & Bar - 14 swatches
Towel Rack Shelf - 2 swatches
Single Sink Vanity - 24 swatches
Double Sink Vanity - 24 swatches
** cypress will be released (free) on May 31st**
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౿૮ę°ŕžŕ˝˛ pile 1 ŕšâęąá
[2 of Swords rx, Emperor, Judgment rx]
Well pile 1, your sexual prowess is rough and playful. I think you have a dominant streak, or at the very least, you like to take the reigns from your partner, and guide how the night goes. I think ya'll are natural leaders, and have the need to take control for yourselves. The ones that pick this pile are definitely toppers. I'm seeing some wild-girl cowgirl positions mostly front facing, but some back rides as well. Do some of ya'll go to a ranch and ride horses? Ya'll have strong thighs and stamina. Ya'll like to grind and ride and have a fun time doing so, may have a reference for teasing and play-fighting. You make sure that your partner is the focus and that they are completely distracted and absorbed by you, like nothing matters in comparison to the moment. Your partners find this irresistible, tempting. Your demeanor feels playful, I can see you being the initiator, and rarely will you ever be denied. You may like to sex it up in unfamiliar spaces, experiment here and there and try new things. You can be a bit demanding, even forceful, but your partners will like it. They find it sexy, and are relieved that they have found a partner who can speak their mind and is able to handle even the awkward, embarrassing parts of sex with grace. I think you give them the space to think, to pause for a moment in their busy, possibly tumultuous lives, and let loose with your sex. You create a bubble like atmosphere where it's just you and your partner, and you both can relax and be yourselves, all giggles, smiles, and laughter. I can see you directing the way things play out; play fighting, subduing, and then consuming. I see you being the type of lover that is excitable, loud, and always un-serious. You may like to start off with foreplay-touching, squeezing and embracing-and then the main event, making sure needs are attended for and that you both are satisfied. Not seeing many quickies. You like to enjoy yourself, and take as much time is needed to commit to the act. Sex is a fun exorcise to stress and negativity. Climax's are maximized and prolonged. I can tell ya'll are lovers of penetration and motion, and are very good at pacing. I heard you put the motion in the ocean đ. I genuinely laughed with those one. But ya'll are so free and enticing. I can see that the best parts of your sex are the way your partners can relax with you, melt in you. They are comfortable enough to let you take control, and they are relieved at someone that can give them pleasure just as much as they take it from them. Your sex feels so fun and freeing.
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౿૮ę°ŕžŕ˝˛ pile 2 ŕšâęąá
[9 of Wands rx, 8 of Swords, Knight of Cups]
Ya'll are slow lovers. I think the most important thing other than exploring each others bodies is exploring the others' minds. Vulnerability is a big highlight here. In order to satisfy you, your partners need to come with mental stimulation and not just physical. I'm getting in general, you like to unravel your partners, do to them as you would a piece of chocolate in a wrapper. Your partners feel quite naked with you, figuratively and literally. It's hard not to attach to you because in order to bed you, your partners feel like they have to sacrifice something to you. I got a vision of you in a cave at an altar, lit with candlelight, and a person with a hopeful, almost fearful, look on their face, on their knees with an offering presented. They can't come to you with an empty plate and expect to win you over. I don't think ya'll would give your time to casual relationships either. Partners would have to work at lowering your defenses. You're like a princess protected by a moat. On the outside, you may come off as closed off and uninterested, but there is much activity going on in your mental space. You have a lot to offer, but partners need to come to you with just as much. You're quite selective and come towards those that match your energy. I think you prefer sex at a slow, measured pace. I'm getting my lovemakers here, and the energy is very dream-like and cozy, like a person wrapped up in blankets, eyes closed, and day-dreaming. There's also a pronounced aspect of wetness in your sex. Lots of fluids are exchanged here, and a playing of those fluids. Why did I hear, "relaxed cumplay,"and "slip and slide", lmao. You may get very wet, like to play with oils and lubricates, and are attracted to sweat and moist skin. It's also the emotions revealed in sex that attract you. I see your partners get so worked up that they climax big and long. You transport people into a fantasy. You may especially like to cater to people and agree to whatever you wish they share with you. There's also a need to please and serve. Your touch is very soft and giving. I'm getting roleplay and sensory play. Your bedroom is such a secluded and sacred space that every partner will feel like stepping into it, is like stepping into a new world. I think you like to push your partners and make them open up to you, but gradually and slowly, so that they are willing. â¨ď¸Very Lilith vibes.â¨ď¸It's giving the impression of control through submission. This pile is more into vanilla stuff but enhanced, like conventional kinks if that makes sense. Sex while soft and slow won't be boring. It will be emotionally fulfilling. The excitement that comes from the build-up alone will be enjoyable. If you imprint anything on your partners, it's that sex isn't a race, it's a journey, and the small things do matter in the end goal.
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౿૮ę°ŕžŕ˝˛ pile 3 ŕšâęąá
9 of Cups, The Emperor, Wheel of Fortune
People here have a big personality and a competitive streak. Sex with you is exciting and unpredictable. There's a want to prove something through sex, as if it's a battlefield of some sort, and only one can come out the winner. I feel like a few people in particular have a thing for woman empowerment, and want to prove just how powerful they are through sexual means. Ya'll use it as a style of communication, as an expression of sides of yourself that can't be easily seen or received. I think this pile has sex for the fun of it, and there's a pinch of mischief that comes out once the bedroom door is closed. This pile likes to play coy, likes to tease and rile up their partners and prolong their anticipation. I think ya'll are quite wild in the bedroom, and I just saw a vision of two people going at it like tumbleweeds, lol. I think the want for sex often corresponds with your moods, and your tastes can vary widely, so your a sporadic lover, the type able to adjust to anything thrown at them and improvise, also the type able to be 100 different people in the bedroom. Pile 3 are some minxes. I think some of the people here are short, and get a kick out of acting bigger than they are. It's cute. I think a big thing that comes out is your masculine side. Like I said that competitive energy stems from a need to please and be the best pleaser. Your masculinity makes you eager and able to confidently do things others would be too shy to do. I think ya'll focus on creating multiple climaxes; multiple sessions, multiple places, multiple positions. The possibilities are endless, and there are many records to break is my point. Ya'll are very driven and full of energy. That translates into a fast and frenetic passion of the moment. Your partners absorb your energy, try to match you and share in your delight. I see lovemaking in the morning, a couple fresh from deep sleep, still looking disgruntled, but warm sunshine cutting through the curtains and laughter seeping through blankets. I'm not seeing specific kinks, but I see a platter with a variety of assortments. Ya'll are comfortable in your bodies and may like to study on different, sometimes extreme, positions to try next. I think this pile are Kama Sutra naturals. Sex isnât taken too seriously, but it brings some measure of emotional fulfillment. Your partners find satisfaction quickly, completely, and they succumb to a warm afterglow in the end. I feel this pile has the best hugs and the best aftercare. I feel the comfort of a bear hug and the warmth that comes with it. It feels very tender and very at odds with what would be an exhausting but vigorous bout of sex, but it works out in an endearing way.
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God the fact that every time you post it looks like someone morphed your belly to be even bigger is never not going to be amazing to me. The sheer amount of weight you've gained that has went to bulging out that gut, widening them thunder thighs, fattened up all your chins, and gave you such a perfect jiggly bubbler butt i couldn't imagine what you'd look like or how much sexier you'd be if you were bigger or pregnant. In my opinion you are the face and body of what feedees should be, a true feedee goddess
this is so fucking HOT đĽľ




feel free to compare - I was biggest when I hit 300, idk what I weigh now but my belly, butt and boobs seem to have decreased the least compared to my peripheral weight (face, arms, legs) lol.
i can think of other creators who are far more exemplary than me đ
but I stuck to my gains for over 3.5 years without any breaks and achieved all the goals I made for myself so i feel proud of that and satisfied đĽ°.
eventually i may just identify as a stuffer again because i am not actively gaining anymore, I guess it depends on whether you recognize feedism as a fetish that describes your turn ons/desires with or without substantial weight gain. i know whenever I do my BBL next year i will try to gain a bit while i am healing to fluff it out and get the best results đ my ass is already perfect but it can always be fatter đ if pregnancy made me gain weight that would be hot too! I think getting stronger will help me maximize the time frame i can make pregnant content because Iâll have more energy to work.
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compiling my headcanons for what video games dungeon meshi characters would like, if they were gamers in modern day
some taken from this post and my reblog additions there. added more characters, with some suggestions by friends/mutuals (marked by *asterisk ).
this can also be a games recommendation list based on your fav/most relatable characters too, if you want
characters that are not are included are bc i dont have ideas for them. if i only list the genre name but not any specific titles, its bc im not familiar enough with the character/genre to pick a specific game.
this list is, of course, biased towards games im more familiar with. feel free to ask me to elaborate on my choices or make suggestions in the comments
Laios' party:
Laios: plays lots of Monster Hunter. loves Spore but he doesnt often play past the tribal stage. likes Pokemon but he's more focused on catching the pokemon than following the story. played WolfQuest and DragonFable back in the day. enjoyed the concept of Bugsnax but wasn't interested in dealing with the NPCs
Marcille: mainly Dwarf Fortress, RTS games, some colony sims. but also sometimes The Sims, and dollmaker dress-up games. i could see her also enjoying Rollercoaster Tycoon and making elaborately-themed parks. might also occasionally indulge in some visual novels if she's in the mood for narrative she has Stardew Valley so she can have something to play co-op with falin, but its not a game she plays a lot of otherwise. when playing with falin, marcille micromanages the farm to maximize productivity, and does the decorations
Chilchuck: puzzle games and hidden object/escape room games as a video game-equivalent to finding/dismantling traps and lockpicking. i think he'd also enjoy Bejeweled.
Senshi: mainly Wii games and Cooking Mama. occasionally plays Snake on his 15-year-old nokia phone. i dont think he would enjoy games like Overcooked or restaurant manager games, because he likes to take his time making food, not stressing about customer service
Falin: some *Legend of Zelda games â she likes the exploration aspect in Breath of the Wild and Tears of the Kingdom, maybe also some of the toon zelda games like Minish Cap or Wind Waker she also plays Pokemon (*Pokemon Go when she's traveling), and i think she would enjoy some indie games, like Penko Park or Chicory: A Colorful Tale. plays Stardew Valley co-op with marcille â falin mainly takes care of the animals, mining, and picking the crops. occasionally makes improvement suggestions that marcille didnt think of
Izutsumi: i could see her enjoying games with parkour mechanics, like *Assassin's Creed, or Mirror's Edge. or maybe something simple but requiring cat-like swipes, like Fruit Ninja. despite her impatience, i think she could also enjoy action games with interesting longer narratives, as evidenced by [this omake] (relevant portion pictured below), so maybe *Final Fantasy 7 â my friend who's familiar with the game said "sheâd find Cloud and Vincent relatable"
[ID: a dungeon meshi omake, where laios' party watches a nightmare monster manifest marcille's dream. there are snippets of dramatic soap opera-like dialogue. the rest of the party are initially enthusiastic but get bored over time, meanwhile izutsumi remains enthralled]
Kabru's party
Kabru: definitely Crusader Kings. maybe also some rpgs with relationship/faction mechanics, such as *Fire Emblem (one of the older ones or FE:3H) or Fallout: New Vegas (hes maxing out the speech stat asap) i think he would also enjoy mystery games like Pentiment and Return of the Obra Dinn â he would love the process of getting familiar with the many characters and deducing "who did what" in both games.
Rin: she takes pride in being an indie gamer (translating her disdain for upper class magic academy mages -> disdain for AAA games). given her chain-lightning magic in canon, i think she'd enjoy games with AOE-type magic, so maybe games such as Vampire Survivors. my mutual also suggested she might enjoy indie mystery visual novels like *Paranormasight, and that her AAA guilty-pleasure would be *Final Fantasy 14 â that rin is "a hardcore ff14 raider. would join PUGs and shot-call every week. #holm and diya might also play ff14 casually with rin but holm would be fishing mainly"
Mickbell: mainly Bethesda games like Fallout and Skyrimâ enjoys the bootstrapper power fantasy in them. the type to go out of his way to pick up all the loot he can, to later sell
Kuro: enjoys the same games as Mickbell, but for the open-world exploration and investigation factors
Toshiro and Tansu's party:
Namari: her interest in fighting and weapons could translate to brawler/fighting games and action games with a focus on weapon stats â so maybe *Street Fighter, *God of War, and/or *Dark Souls. might play *Monster Hunter with laios but for the weapons. i could also see her occasionally enjoying truck simulators
Toshiro (Shuro): has the perseverance for soulslikes and other high-difficulty action and/or metroidvania games, but would take his time overthinking item/weapon synergies sometimes. given [his fondness for bugs], i could also see him enjoying Hollow Knight
Tade: would enjoy the cute aesthetics and lighthearted gameplay of Animal Crossing and Katamari. would also like idol anime rhythm games
Kiki: i think she would enjoy horror games such as Resident Evil, but would play it while super chill. i dont have much reasoning for this aside from vibes
Canaries:
Mithrun: plays Doom. got into Hollow Knight but still hasn't finished it because he keeps getting lost. senshi introduces him to Cooking Mama later on, which he finds surprisingly therapeutic
Cithis: plays Hitman and enjoys staging elaborate accident kills. i think she'd also enjoy The Cosmic Wheel Sisterhood, with her background as a devious fortune-teller
Fleki: surreal indie games like Hylics. also plays Team Fortress 2, and is a scout main. occasionally joins lycion in Animal Jam
Lycion: active WolfQuest and Animal Jam player. occasionally joins fleki in tf2
Pattadol: plays Stardew Valley â shes comparatively a normie, but on the meticulous side. she would enjoy perfecting her in-game farm
Otta: plays Genshin Impact. the serious reasoning is because of her (earth) elemental magic and how genshin has an elemental magic system (from my understanding. ive never played it). the joke reasoning is how some genshin players play to collect "waifus", and how otta goes through a lot of women in her dating life
Other:
Leed: runs her own guild in World of Warcraft
Winged Lion: god-games like WorldBox or Simmiland. and Darkest Dungeon (this ones mostly a joke)
Thistle: plays the original Plants VS. Zombies. also plays Minecraft and is very serious about it, but hasn't updated his game in years (translating the fact hes a 1000-year-old kid frozen in time -> playing "slightly old" games popular in the early 2010s)
[ID: tweet reply by twitter user ranchuppi â "thistle calls it lord delgal's server but he is the only mod. whole royal family is locked in spectator mode. Hell. living hell on earth."]

#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#its not that spoilery but just in case anyone needs it#ive never owned any game consoles except a laptop so i watch a lot of lets plays/game showcases. and a fair amount of those are indie games#so this is probably a somewhat biased selection. i wanted to give several indie shout outs tho esp if they matched the character well#dungeon meshi spoilers#delicious in dungeon spoilers#mynn.txt#dm meta#yes this goes in my dunmeshi meta tag. this is character analysis to me
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"At HarperCollins, a lot of attention and thought is given to deciding exactly what combinations of margin measurements, font, and layout feel most appropriate for the genre, and writing style.
But in a case of do-your-part environmentalism, designers at the publishing house have now standardized a series of subtle and imperceptible alterations to normal font style, layouts, and ink that have so far removed the need for 245 million book pages, totaling 5,618 trees.
Telling the story in Fast Company, representatives from HarperCollins, one of the four largest publishing houses in the world, explained that the idea first arose in Zondervan Bibles, HarperCollinsâ Christian publishing division. Being that the Bible is 2,500 pages or sometimes more, saving ink and pages was not just an environmental consideration, but one of production costs.
A new typeface called NIV Comfort Print allowed Zondervan to shave 350 pages off of every Bible, which by 2017 had amounted to 100 million pages, and which, as Fast Company points out, would be four times higher than the Empire State Building if stacked.
The production and design teams then wondered how much they could save if they applied the same concepts to other genres like romance and fiction. Aside from the invention of the eBook, publishing hasnât changed much in the last 100 years, and the challenge was a totally novel one for the teamsâto alter all their preconceived ideas and try and find a font and typeface that resulted in fewer pages without being harder to read.
They eventually standardized 14 different combinations their tests determined were the most environmentally friendly, and which delivered an unchanged reading experience.
But the challenge didnât stop there. Printed books, one might not know, are printed in large sheets which are then folded into sections of sixteen pages, meaning that Leah Carlson-Stanisic, associate director of design at HarperCollins, has to calculate the savings of space, words, and ultimately pages with the help of her team to fall in multiples of sixteen.
Nevertheless, they have been successful with it so far, and in the recent print run of one popular book, 1 million pages (or a number near 1 million that coincides with the 16 times tables) were saved.
âWe want to make sure our big titles, by prominent authors, are using these eco-fonts,â Carlson-Stanisic said. âIt adds up a little bit at a time, saving more and more trees.â"
-via Good News Network, April 4, 2024
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Note: Great! Waiting to see this on the rest of their books and at the other big publishers!
Actually, though, it's worth noting that this may not come quickly to the other large publishers, because Harper Collins almost certainly owns that font - meaning that other publishers would have to pay HarperCollins in order to use it, on an ongoing basis.
More on publishing shit and more realistic solutions here below the cut!
What I'm hoping for and think is more likely is that this will inspire the development of open source eco-friendly fonts, which would be free for anyone to use. That would make it far more likely other publishers would adopt eco-friendly fonts.
I'm also hoping it would inspire other publishers to create similar eco-friendly fonts of their own.
Ideally, there would be a whole new landscape of (hopefully mostly open source) eco-friendly fonts. And/or to see calculations of the eco-friendliness of popular existing fonts, compared to each other.
If we could have a publicly accessible list of calculations for different fonts, including fonts designed to maximize eco-friendliness, I really do think that it would affect which fonts publishers choose to use. Here's why:
Most people in publishing are on the left (notoriously, actually) and really do care about the environment
People in publishing are plenty aware of these issues re: paper and trees, I promise
Shorter books means smaller production costs - and possibly smaller shipping costs as well, over time! So it would save them money too.
Eco-friendly fonts could also be combined with other measures for greater effect, such as bamboo paper (already in use for a lot of projects where page color/quality is more flexible) and thinner paper (aka paper with a lower weight) that uses less trees.
Don't expect books to all move to just one or two different fonts, though. Publishers and typesetters and font designers will innovate to create more options instead, though it will take longer. This is because different books really do use different fonts for various different reasons - one new font to rule them all isn't really a solution here.
"Every book is in the same font" may sound like a "whatever" deal to a lot of people, but as someone who works in publishing - trust me, it would actually make your reading experience worse, even if you could never quite put your finger on why.
#publishing#books#book publishing#bookblr#harper collins#fonts#font design#eco friendly#sustainability#conservation#trees#deforestation#good news#hope
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Write Smarter, Not Harder: 5 Ways to Conquer Chaotic Writing
Every year, weâre lucky to have great sponsors for our nonprofit events. ButterDocs, a 2023 NaNoWriMo sponsor, is an all-in-one writing app built for productivity, collaboration, and a more joyful writing experience. Today, the folks at ButterDocs share a few tips on organizing your writing to meet your goals:
NaNoWriMo is about to start, and you're champing at the bit to get to 50,000 words. But that's no easy feat! Because life doesn't stop when NaNoWriMo starts.
You're still going to have climb a mountain of chaos to reach your goal: Chaos like not being able to find your notes and outlines when you need them since they're scattered across multiple apps, or the constant lure of internet distractions.
And of course, once NaNoWriMo ends, the writing process continues. You'll need to get feedback, be able to actually easily take advantage of that feedback, and make revisions (especially if your ultimate goal isn't just a rough draft, but a polished novel).
Here are five tips from ButterDocs to beat the chaos and make your writing workflow less work and more flow.
1. Know what you're about to do.
We know you want to start maximizing your word count from Day One, but you'll thank yourself on Day Twenty if you lay the groundwork for yourself. Take some time to organize your research, develop your characters, lay out your major plot points, and consider your themes.
You don't need to buy and learn advanced plotting software. A digital whiteboard can be as intuitive as pinning index cards to a cork board.
2. Write in the best environment for you.
You're about to spend a lot of time writing. It's a good idea to get comfortable.
Think about what environment you write best in. Do you need the hubbub and energy of a busy coffee shop? Or the serenity of a cozy nook?
Once you find the right place, put the same effort into finding a writing app you'll actually enjoy writing in.
3. Stay in your writing flow.
Focus and dedication during NaNoWriMo is the whole ball game. Lose either, and your chances of hitting 50,000 words are harder.
Whatever your NaNoWriMo goals are, give yourself the best chances to succeed with tools that will help you get and stay focused. A timer, word counter, and goal tracker will help you with timed writing sprints and hitting daily writing goals.
4. Recover from distractions.
Distractions will happen. Chaotic writing aside, the human brain wants to wander for dopamine. And life inevitably gets in the way.
What's important is how you recover. Don't let one distraction or missed writing day snowball into another and another. Give yourself tools that help you get back on track. A simple notification to come back to your writing can be a big help.
5. Pull others in to help you move forward.
You may be participating in NaNoWriMo as an individual, but know this: you are not alone.
You have the entire NaNoWriMo community, among many other writing communities and groups you can turn to for any genre of writing.
When you feel stuck or need feedback on a draft, don't be afraid to ask for help. Just be sure to invite people into a writing app where you have control over the collaboration.
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loving this... may we maintain our flexibility so our minds can be like ant man, and just inhabit the realm that's appropriate to the situation, sometimes we must discuss people and our mind must be small; sometimes our minds must discuss events, and our minds must be medium sized; sometimes, and necessarily at many times, our minds absolutely must discuss ideas and be exploring the realms of greatness on the frontier of our collective understanding.
#our nation cannot be great if our minds are not great or some bs#lol#recalling ants are the only other species on this planet with a brain to body size comparable to humans#it's us and the ants baby#we both have different claims of ownership over this planet#in a way it's more the ants' planet than the humans'#if you put every one member of each species on the same scale and weighed out each species by total population weight...ants would win#in a landslide#termites come in 2nd place#they're basically ants that are adapted to eat wood#humans may actually come in 3rd#science#biology#psychology#intersection points#does brain to body size matter#hmm#probably not#/s#humans all have basically a record-breaking brain to body size ratio for history on this planet#every human has wild potential to unlock#including myself#rediscovering ancient knowledge#and discovering totally new stuff too#may we stay doing this all and living long and prospering#maximizing free will always
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Timâs hands are shaking
itâs fine
itâs fine
yep he just apparently time traveled to the future
and Jason and Damian are just hanging around him
itâs fine
he is ok
he is just trying not to have a minor panic attack
(just thinking about how the Dino thing and then the battarang thru the neck happened in like one month)
Fuck, that's some heavy angst. Hmm... I think he should switch during RR (where the BftC happens and Damian becomes Robin). This would maximize the pain.
I can't even imagine Tim, after being hurt and betrayed, hearing that he's happy and content with them. There's also the fact that Bruce is alive in this future, so obviously, Tim is right to be traveling the world.
Also, the angst for Jason and Damian! Just them doing their normal activities with Tim, and suddenly he's closed off, guarded, and suspicious. He's suddenly reverted back to how he was before they worked on their relationship (and Tim was at an all-time low mentally at this point, which makes it worse).
[So, I use some of this post for some of my reasonings. It's a chaotic mess, and feel free to hc whatever you believe is correct. This is just what I feel makes sense.
Here's what I figured out about the timeline:
Tim turns 16 in Robin #116 (publication date Sept of 2003)
Tim gets his throat slashed by Jason in a Batman: Hush, Batman #618 (October of 2003)
Attack on Titan's Tower (no neck slashing) occurs in Teen Titans v3 #29 (2005)
DC does this "One Year Later" thing in May 2006, making Tim 17
Damian is introduced in Batman #655 (September 2006)
Damian pushes Tim off the dinosaur in Batman #657 (definitely not too long after being introduced)
Tim is said to still be 17 in Battle For The Cowl where Jason stabs Tim's chest with a batarang
Therefore, it's all within 1-2 years (and Tim still does all of RR while 17, so probably less than 2 years).
High recommend checking out this post for more about Damian and Tim's beginning relationship, feud, and Dick.]
#tim drake#thank you for the ask!!!!#dc au#i'm trying to keep canon straight but it's a struggle#hopefully you enjoyed the list as much as i did making it ^^#i really did like your au idea!!!! thank you!
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Welcome, citizen.
After heavy and repeated insistence from my friends and colleagues, I eventually agreed to create this⌠account. I have been reproached of becoming too cut off from the people and their interests. It seems to me that this strange app can be used to facilitate the reception of the citizens' enquiries and demands.
I am citizen Maximilien Robespierre, deputy for the Seine department at the National Convention, elected member of the ComitĂŠ de Salut Public and part of the Rousseau fan clu... I mean, the Jacobin club.
My dear family is also here : @bonbonrobespierre and @citoyennelottie âĽ
Please do not hesitate to leave your messages for me to the trustful hands of Citizen Maurice Duplay. Residents of counter-revolutionary cities who need to complain about the awful conduct of a reprĂŠsentant en mission should come directly to me. I have a lot of work to do and I may not always be able to grant you an audience, but I will always find time to help.
Trust the Revolution, trust the ComitĂŠ and trust your representatives. Happiness is for tomorrow.
Robespierre.
((so yeah, it's a silly maxime ooc roleplay account. anyone, feel free to interact, just don't be a dick <3
Keep also in mind this account was created for entertainment purposes, so it will not be 100% historically accurate))
#sĂŠances du comitĂŠ : reactions, answers and anything related to the @comite-de-salut-public
#courriers de l'incorruptible : the answers to all the terrifying things coming from the askbox
#ma famille adorĂŠe : roleplay and interactions with Bonbon and Charlotte
#mes chers amis : the friends
#les amis que j'ai perdus : the not-so friends anymore
#ma tendre ĂŠlĂŠonore : roleplay and interactions of local autistic revolutionary leader struggling to seduce the wonderful @mlleduplay
My Roleplays :
With @lazarecarnot : "I lost you forever" / Saint-Omer (coming soon)
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hi! i've been really enjoying your content sm thank u!!! i was wodnering if you had any pictures of the kind of clothing style that ni-ki would like?? thank u again đ
Enhypen Ni-Ki. Riki Nishimura
What is he paying attention to? Relationships? He likes or doesnât like



based on astrology (requests are open)







Ni-Ki likes light, bright colors on people's bodies, although has a passion for anything forbidden, such as rock-tar style or mafia style with lots of tattoos.
Attracted to people with a cold stare, looking mature from the outside and not paying attention to others. He likes older people because he thinks they only have that charm and people around his age are not serious yet.
Riki looks at a lot of people and will always pick someone who is similar to the cool character he made up in his head.
Has a penchant for people who have mental health issues, who are constantly complaining about life and he as a lifeguard spends his energy on these people.
He is comfortable with people who are more confident than he is.
Can have many people he likes outwardly, over time can easily forget them and it is hard for him to fall in love for real.
Wants love at first sight, but first there will be a long friendship because he is maximally untouchable with people he doesn't know much.
He doesn't like cocky people, but he can't help but fight and tease people.
Pays attention to the person's voice, he is calmed by a calm voice.
Goes crazy for people who have great taste in clothes.
Being a dancer has a penchant for DJ work (anything related to music).
The bad girl or bad boy vibe for him is considered enticing now.
His life is a constant circle of action rather than stability, so he likes people with their random pranks and offbeat jokes.
It is nice if the person is not annoying because only he is allowed. If a person wakes up early of his own free will, he will get upset, may even lose interest.
#enhypen#enhypen masterlist#enhypen nishimura riki#enhypen ni ki#enhypen niki#enhypen ot7#enhypen reading#enhypen reactions#enhypen requests#enhypen maknae line#enhypen members#enhypen x y/n#enha#enha riki#enha masterlist#enhypen moodboard#enhypen addition#enhypen astrology#enhypen tarot#enhypen thoughts#enhypen fluff#enha imagines#enha reactions#enha niki#enha x reader#enha x you#enhypen riki#enhypen recs#kpop astrology#ni ki enhypen
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TNWO Rideshare app. It functions like a normal real life rideshare app in that it gets you from place to place, except itâs passenger pickup priorities are sorted to maximize the amount of cuntfucking in the backseat.
For example, A cuntgirl and three regular woman both submit ride requests? The driver probably picks up goddess 1, then goddess 2, then goddess 3, and THEN goes to pick up the cuntgirl and invited her to âsit anywhereâ as if any of the seats in the back arenât taken. Then the driver makes sure to drop off the cuntgirl last so all three trans women cocks can be properly emptied into her while driving around. (Hell, maybe the driver picks up extra trans women along the way! And obviously they would also deserve to get where theyâre going firstâŚ)
It may not be efficient for getting from point A to pont B, but letâs be real, the TNWO probably has more than sufficient public transit and accessibility options for people who ACTUALLY need to get somewhere; a cuntgirl trying to get a private ride from someone else through a rideshare is just begging to get stuffed with the jizz and piss of superior women.
This is another instance of some in the TNWO that exists in a few different forms. There are transfem exclusive services closer to taxis, consisting of a fleet of drivers constantly ready to give a ride if needed, and of course equipped with a cuntgirl in the back to help the journey go by faster.
Then, in the vein you've described, there are more traditional carpool scenarios, open to anybody but with the explicit understanding that transfems are served first, and free to use any cuntgirl that happens to get in along the way. This can make airport shuttles, for example, very enjoyable for all parties.
Finally, while they're not common, you'll sometimes see transfem led taxi services. These are typically transfems who just enjoy the feeling of driving around, may want to show off their vehicle, or just enjoy the bit of busy work between quickies. Regardless, it's very close to a standard taxi service, with the simple difference of method of payment. No need to worry too much about getting where you're going on time, drivers are rarely interested in a long fuck. Usually they just ask a few minutes to empty their balls in a tight, warm hole before they send their passenger on their way and move on to the next one. Unsurprisingly, these women tend to have a LOT of kids~
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thinking about jamil traveling alone for the first time but for some reason youâre still constantly on his mind
(iâve been thinking about this and i just needed to get this out of my system and omg this was just supposed to be shorter but it ended up wayyy longer than intended)
(this is also an attempt at another x reader and it was proofread only by myself. some things might read awkward so go easy on me, i barely write đđđ)
(kind of like a future au??? and can be read as romantic/(queer)platonic??)
Jamil had been planning this trip for months.
He had always wanted to travel to a new place by himself where he didnât have to worry about anything or anyone else. Just himself and his own enjoyment.
Jamil planned on maximizing this whole trip. Reading everything about the place and making sure to see all the things that he would want to see while he was there.
However, you made sure to let him know that he should let himself loose and enjoy his trip naturally. It was supposed to be a fun, stress-free trip after all. Planning it out entirely defeats the purpose of that.
He needed to embrace a little bit of unexpectedness. You said it was âall part of the funâ. If he knew everything there was to expect, what would be the point in visiting?
Jamil saw what you were saying and admitted defeat. He gave you the benefit of the doubt and decided to have flexible and âlooseâ plans, as you suggested.
Meanwhile, Kalim had already thrown a whole âgoodbyeâ party for him. Thank goodness that Kalim had gradually learned over the years to be more aware of Jamilâs wishes. They simply compromised on a small and humble party (even though Jamil would have preferred not to have one in the first place).
You came with Jamil to drop him off at the station where he was heading. You both exchanged your usual banter, and you wished him safe travels and for him to have fun especially.
You thought you imagined it, but before he was about to leave, he looked like he was about to say something else. And he definitely was about to. You'd never know what it was though.
Instead, Jamil simply bid you farewell.
As Jamil was walking away, you playfully shouted after him to not forget about you. It was only a joke (for the most part).
Jamil didnât look back, but you know he rolled his eyes in exasperation. And he certainly did, which was followed by a soft smile on his face that you wouldn't get to see.
âââââââŚ
Once he reached his destination, Jamil took in the new sights. He breathed in fresh air, his chest feeling lighter and more relaxed.
It felt wonderful that, in this place, he was just another face in the crowd. Nobody knows him. And he knows nobody. Everything was new and unfamiliar and he reveled in that feeling. You were right, it was better to experience these things firsthand as being there felt like a fresh start. Even though he knew that this anonymity would only be temporary.
One of the first things Jamil made sure was to keep his phone out of the equation. He needed to experience everything naturally without having the need to document what he saw as well as the stress of other people contacting him.
Jamil might have partially failed on the latter. He had to have his phone open for emergencies for certain people. Unfortunately, some worries and responsibilities canât really fully leave him.
âââââââŚ
Jamil first visited an antique clothing store. It was a charming and unique place filled with different kinds of wear, displays of jewelry and trinkets, and of course, the touristy souvenirs. Those were noticeably out of place, but it was to be expected.
Having experience and knowledge about his own job of being aware of what is around Scalding Sands, Jamil was delighted to know that the majority of the products in this store, at least, seemed to be of genuine quality.
Jamil may have to come back to this place. He thought you would really like that little trinket he saw through the window.
As Jamil strolled through, he was surrounded by a vibrant mix of sounds and colors adorning the streets. Individuals, families, tourists, and locals bustled about. There were even street entertainers as well as vendors who tried to sell him their wares, which was always amusing to say the least.
A catchy melody caught Jamil's attention, and he spotted a breakdancer performing on the street. He thought to himself that he might try out the routine for fun, and he'd ask what you would think. You'd enjoy the performance too, wouldn't you?
Jamil was exploring when he unexpectedly stumbled upon some festivities. It appeared to be the festival he had read about that he hadn't planned on participating in until later. Since he stumbled upon it now, he figured he might as well just check it out.
As Jamil looked around, he noticed a dance circle filled with people of all ages. Friends, families, and couples were all dancing together. He felt compelled to join in. It was as if the lively music and the enchanting atmosphere were inviting him personally, and he found himself dancing amongst the people.
The band played with much fervor, and the people were equally as energetic. Jamil was having fun. He caught himself laughing despite himself, his body swaying to the beat and in sync with the other dancers.
No one was here to judge him. No one to evaluate his front, or tell him to keep up an image. Jamil could easily just be himself. And after everything, he could easily choose to fade back into the background.
As soon as the energy died down for him, he looked back at the crowd. It still held the same energy when he went in, but he was personally spent.
Jamil wondered. If you were there, he might have enjoyed it more with you. That thought slipped through his mind, and immediately went away as it came.
The following days were a bit more mellow but still enriching. Jamil wanted to build up to an exciting finish but it seemed like the enjoyment peaked within the first few days.
The cuisine being served there was particularly fascinating. Jamil entered a restaurant, the aroma of delicious food enticing him in. He ordered dishes at a surprisingly decent price for the amazing quality they were being served. Seeing the way the dishes looked reminded him of how he had been getting better at making his own dishes more presentable. It still wasn't perfect; he could still learn more. He could actually take some inspiration from these dishes.
Jamil planned on researching more of the local cuisine once he returned. Then, he could try some rendition of his own and see what you think, as well as hoping that he could do these dishes justice.
âââââââŚ
This isn't good.
Jamil felt... lonely?
He shouldnât be feeling this way. What happened to enjoying this trip by himself?
Against everything Jamil told himself not to, he opened his phone and checked his messages, the majority of which were from people who inquired about his trip. This simply soured his mood. If Jamil had his phone ringing for them, he wouldn't have had a break. Why did he even open up his phone for this?
Oh, he knew why.
Your name specifically caught his eye with a preview of your message. He decided to open it up and he saw texts from you telling him to be safe and to have fun, which were basically the same things that you both exchanged when he left.
In the most recent text, you jokingly asked for him to send pictures, fully expecting that he wouldnât. Admittedly, you were wondering what he was up to. You had really wanted to come with him but knew he really needed his trip for himself.
You felt a bit selfish sending that text because you knew Jamil shouldn't really be worrying about updating you or anyone else about what he was up to.
You didn't know that as soon as Jamil read that message, he briefly considered humoring you. He thought that perhaps he could take only a few photos here and there just to satisfy you. And then explain what else he had seen and experienced so far.
Jamil started to draft a message to send to you. Heâs sure that youâd enjoy hearing all about it, plus itâll be nice to have someone to share this experience withâ
He paused at the thought. He saw that typed all he wanted to share at the moment, his finger hovering over the send button.
Wait a minute. No, no. What was he doing? Jamil quickly erased everything he typed out and shoved his phone back in his bag.
This experience was for him and himself only, at least for now. Youâll just have to wait once he returns from his trip.
âââââââŚ
If Jamil was to be honest with himself, he had actually initially planned this whole trip with you in mind.
Throughout those months of planning, there was never a moment when he wasn't going back and forth with himself whether or not to include you in the trip.
You didn't know about this, of course. If he did manage to plan this whole trip with both of you, it would have been a surprise leading up to it.
But you yourself drilled into him how wonderful it was that he was finally able to go on a trip by himself. This was his very first opportunity to travel by himself and he doesn't know how long he will have that opportunity again. Perhaps it was your sentiments that finally convinced him that this trip was supposed to be for himself alone.
But deep in his heart, Jamil still felt something missing. He felt some kind of regret and longing that now he could not shake off.
As Jamil brooded to himself, he found himself standing in front of the antique store again. Once again, Jamil caught a glimpse of the trinket he had been eyeing the very first day he had been there.
âââââââŚ
When you told him to not forget about you, you didnât mean for him to take it so literally.
Jamil shrugged at the call-out, attempting to look unbothered. He had souvenirs for his family too, so it wasnât like you were the only person he had on his mind.
But you just know he was embarrassed knowing that most of the souvenirs were meant for you. It was funny but really sweet. You assured him that youâd just return the favor next time.
Jamil really didnât need you to, but perhaps itâll also be payback enough for you occupying his mind while he was supposed to be away focusing on himself.
Maybe next time it'll be easier if Jamil would just bring you along.
#i really cant give this guy a break#if only he didnt care about people it would be so much easier#but alas#[ââŚ-#-â§ my writing#twst#twisted wonderland#twst x reader#twst fic#jamil viper x reader#jamil x reader#jamil viper#-âŚâ]#i barely write anything are these the correct writing tags#oh well#also hhfndjdjd#HELP ME THIS IS SO SELF INDULGENT#sobs#I couldve easily went with only him enjoying traveling alone without the burden of feelings#but once again ALAS--#i HOPE i don't hate this in the morning
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