#matt murdock but hes depressed about it. which is cool

[fraseris]

sips my whiskey (this is a bar setting) well girl you want to know something about me. i love characters who are always laughing in the face of life no matter how awful it is for them

[shiorimakibawrites]

Again, I got a little wordy so thoughts are below the cut.

Agree on everything you said.

Thought One

At least once Matt figured out that Foggy was serious about that whole best friends thing, he'd at least start thinking of telling him. Like "He's seen me be a weirdo and a grumpy asshole. More than once. And that didn't scare him off so maybe . . ."

I can even see him during the high of his relationship with Elektra* being really tempted. "My girlfriend knows about my senses and ninja fighting skills. She's cool with it. Maybe Foggy will be cool too?"

Then his relationship with Elektra went south, his abandonment issues were once again raw and he retreated back into his little shell. It's implied that one of his first serious romantic relationships + the ending of it which brought up the pain of his father's murder . . . I bet Matt was a wreck.

Which is one of the reasons that Foggy really, really doesn't like Elektra. He was the one who put Matt back together after their break-up (maybe with a little help from Annie Nelson). Foggy doesn't know exactly what happen - Matt wouldn't tell him - but he knows it was bad. He knows it made Matt severely depressed. He knows that Matt had nightmares afterward . . .

Not necessarily for beating up that POS who killed Jack - that guy deserved it - but I don't believe that Matt never has bad dreams about hearing his father get killed. And that something like this wouldn't bring those dreams back to the surface.

In Foggy's shoes . . . if Matt was my best friend, seeing him in so much pain . . . I would hate Elektra.

*Unrelated headcanon: The show wants us to believe that his relationship with Elektra took place in L2 . . . and yet, the class they mention he shared with Elektra was Spanish. Which is undergrad. Not law school. So as far as I'm concerned, Matt dated Elektra sometime during undergrad. (I set his meeting with Foggy as freshmen year of undergrad for the same reasons - Punjabi is also not a law school class . . . also L1s at Columbia Law don't sign up for classes - they are given a class schedule during orientation).

Thought Two

In fairness to Foggy not picking up the hints Matt was throwing out or accidentally revealing himself by doing something he shouldn't . . . . superhuman senses aren't the only things about Matt that make him a little odd.

Even if Foggy had known all the secrets from the beginning . . . every Matt Murdock quirk has this multiple choice question.

Is this particular quirk due to:

A: Matt has superhuman senses B: Matt is a secret blind ninja C: Matt is an orphan with a lot of trauma and was semi-feral until recently. D: All or some of the above E: None of the above (this is new and exciting weirdness)

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Let's discuss a headcanon!

I personally headcanon that Matt did attempt o tell Foggy about his senses several times prior to Nelson v Murdock but failed for various reasons (not just chickening out and discussing something else).

Thank you friend!! 💖

Ohhh, now this is an interesting topic! I absolutely agree with you, though. With how much Foggy means to Matt and how much Matt feels guilty for a lot of his actions, I imagine it often ate away at him for feeling like he was lying to his best friend. And I imagine there were times Matt hinted at things subtly in college, whether drunk or sober, because he really wanted to let Foggy in. With the way he really grew close to Stick and Elektra, the two people who really "knew" him in his mind, he definitely always comes across to me as feeling lonely and isolated in some ways for having to hide such a big part of himself from his friends. But I also imagine the attempts Matt might have made often just flew right over Foggy's head every single time. Because why would you ever suspect your friend gained heightened senses from the accident that blinded him as a child? Generally no one would even guess at that, so it wouldn't have even crossed Foggy's mind.

Though I do also suspect Matt had many urges to straight up tell Fog but did chicken out for one reason or another. He was most likely afraid to lose the closest person he'd ever had because maybe Foggy wouldn't accept him, or he was afraid Foggy would feel as if he'd been deceived by Matt. And we all know how terrified Matt is of losing the people he loves most--especially taking into account how he'd recently lost Elektra--so I personally do think fear still played a role in Foggy not finding out before that episode. Plus, if my memory is correct, Matt started going out as the masked man when they began their internship at Landman and Zack. By that point, Matt was probably either afraid to tell Foggy because of being judged, turned in to the authorities, or afraid of putting Foggy's future career at risk if he was in on the secret and it was ever discovered that he was. I imagine Matt just made all sorts of excuses for his fears at that point to deal with his guilt.

But I'm sure you have thoughts on this topic and I'd love to hear them! Especially what beliefs you might have as to why it wasn't just fear that ever stopped Matt from telling Fog the truth, because while I do think that was a big one later on, I don't think that was all of it, either.

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FIC MASTER POST

I write a lot of AUs, and also just in general. A lot of it is too short, bad, or weird for AO3, so I post them here. For ease of access, I'll put links to every short story here. Those that belong to a greater AU will be sorted under the AU. Miscellanea will be posted just under the fandom. They will be ordered in a mix of size and chronology.

4-26-22 EDIT: I changed my URL, so I changed the links to suit the new URL. If I missed anything and any of the links are still broken, please let me know so I can fix it!

Fic under the cut.

MARVEL

Best Life

A pseudo fusion of the MCU, 1970s-80s Marvel Comics, and completely made up backstories. Exclusively utilizes the lamest superheroes I could find, including Moon Knight.

AO3 Fics [Starring Moon Knight]:

Mens Rea

Good Luck, Jake!

and Letter Column, an AO3 collection of the side stories listed below and more.

Side Stories [Starring other lame people, and sometimes Moon Knight being lame again]:

Dr. Strange Works Retail and Peter Parker Makes a Multiversal Mistake

Ghost Rider visits the Hell DMV

Colleen Wing and the Immortal Iron Fist Participate In A Cultural Exchange Program During The Weirdest Spring Break Ever

Moon Knight: Marc & Steven Meet Jake; Realize Youngest Siblings Are The Worst

Worldbuilding Notes & Meta

Matt Murdock: Ninja Union Organizer & Normal Guy

Assorted Marvel AUs

Moon Knight AU where Jake's the worst teenager you've met in your life; Jake Plays Minecraft, Marc’s a Wine Mom, and Frenchie & Layla Meet a Serial Killer

And companion piece Jake Stays Up Past His Bedtime, Meets His Contemporaries, and Wants a Dog So Fucking Bad.

STAR WARS

Roleswap AU

Roleswap AU set from the Clone Wars era to three years after ROTS. Family is found and lost. Children grow up and become angsty teenagers. Badly parented children become bad parents. Child soldiers become pirates. Local kitten adopted by pack of wolves thinks it's a wolf.

AKA: Rogue Jedi, Rogue Queen, and Rogue Clone go on a space adventure to rescue a dad, cry instead.

AO3 Fics:

Reel to Reel

Less Than Zero

SIDE STORIES:

Cody POV Interquel of Less Than Zero

Obligatory Canon Crossover

Mandalorian Crossover

Book of Boba Fett Crossover

[REDACTED] POV of Clone Liberation

NO CHIP AU: An extensive detail of situations in which, hypothetically, many people would be very bad parents.

Order 66: More Like A Suggestion This Time

Bly: The Perfect Boyfriend?

MORE than Zero?

Torture Adventures of Rex, Supernanny

SW:Rebels Depa Bilaba vs. Cartoon Villain Cody

Fox Takes A Really Nice Nap and what Mace Windu does during the nap

Rex, Padme, and Ahsoka's zany family hijinks

REALLY COOL SHIT THAT OTHER PEOPLE DID THAT I LIKE A LOT

@bobafett's Interquel Outsider POV

@nirelaz SUPER DOPE fanart of Ben & Blanche and another one!

OTHER STAR WARS

Boba Fett's childhood existential crisis

Fox & Leia's Holiday Special - this one is a less depressing AU of my other work Twilight on Owl Creek Bridge.

Obi-Wan is a depressed teen dad

Fishhooks (Jango Fett obtains a mail-order child, regrets it highly when child adopts two million clones)

AOTC Continuation of Fishhooks, just to make Obi-Wan Kenobi confused and miserable

THE MAGNUS ARCHIVES

(oh boy...)

WEB!JON AU

AO3 FICS:

Sucker's Bet

The technical nonsense that started this don't worry about it

SIDE STORIES:

Web!Jon roleplays canon Jon with mixed results

He's Just Not That Into You: Martin & Jon (this one is a sort of pilot to Sucker's Bet, it's not canon)

Not Your Queer-Coded Disney Villain: Annabelle & Jon

Desolation Destroyed My P----: Gertrude & Jon

THE CROW'S FUNERAL AU

Jon gets involved in local politics, regrets it

AU of AU Where Martin prevents the story from happening

Prequel: How Agnes, Gerry, and Jon met

HUMAN RELATIONS AU

Jon and Sasha versus Bad Telenovelas

Semi-Sequel, Never Completed

Jon and Tim versus the Internet

Jon and Jonah versus the Sixties

ROLESWAP AU:

People are bullied. Nobody does any work. Lesbians flourish. And, since being trapped in an infernal contract with a fear demon means that nobody can get ahead, everybody gets even.

Podfic of the entire series by @stonesfromglasshouses

Fear Demon Intern Michael Does Michael Things

Crossover With Canon

OTHER TMA:

Jon's Trapped In Temporal Time Out: A TMA Time-Travelling Tale

Fandom History: pleasedontaskpleasedontask

American AU: PLEASE don't ask

A short post-canon story of Bell, Book, and Candle & No Sin But Ignorance: Daisy Crashes A Date, Fuck You

NARUTO

Most demented roleswap feat. the worst decisions Obito has ever made

Uchiha Family Values

Sasuke and Obito's Post-Massacre Bonding Hour

Kakashi’s a wifeguy, Rin’s a Girlboss, and Itachi gets adopted

FIRE EMBLEM: THREE HOUSES

WEEKENDERS (AKA BYLETH'S CHILD CULT):

AO3 Fic:

Weekenders

SIDE STORIES:

Byleth gets turned into a cat; Felix causes problems on purpose

Byleth and Three Houses Search for Rat People

Worldbuilding Notes & Meta

OC lore and snippet don't look at me

Dimitri and mental illness

OTHER FE3H:

Ashen Wolf Byleth & Teen Dad Yuri

MISCELLANEOUS FANDOMS

Percy Jackson: Percy Jackson meets a Landlord, a Tax Accountant, and a Tree Growing in Brooklyn

Loki: Loki Suffers His Own Personal Hell and Participates in Game Shows

New Wave: Jason Todd vs. Annoyingly Perfect Cheerleader Barbie Stephanie Brown

Omniscent Reader's Viewpoint: YJH Commits the Improbable and Reads a Webnovel

Transcendence AU Nostalgia

This is MY Hero Academia

Chicken on a Raft: Chicken on a Raft

[a-really-good-lawyer-abandoned]

Random things I like about Daredevil fanfiction:

- Any time Frank Castle and Matt are bros. Yes this includes Frank/Matt fic. I just all around love their dynamic

- When people write that Foggy Brand Humor so well, just *chef's kiss*

- That there are multiple fics where Matt is put on pain meds after an injury and the resulting antics are heartbreaking and/or heartwarming and/or hilarious

- Any time we get Matt describing how differently he experiences every day stuff in a fun way (a Foggy-finds-it-cool-or-funny way, not Foggy-finds-it-infuriating way)

- Pretty much any fic where Matt cries, not because I'm into him crying but because the situations in which it happens are almost always so exquisetly poignant and painful and sometimes I just need that sweet, sweet cathartic angst (as long as there's a happy ending)

- Fic where someone is appreciative of Matt's (not Daredevil's but Matt's) ninja skills, because we don't really get that in the show outside of kind of depressing moments and I sort of just...want that for him. I want Matt to enjoy what he can do in a way that's not about what it enables him to do (fight crime), and I always feel like the path to that for him involves other people enjoying it.

- That there are multiple fics where Foggy asks Matt if he can hear boners. Just the fact that there are multiple instances of it is fantastic.

- Matt shutting down ableists/ableism hard

- Fics where characters treat Matt's trauma responses and depression as what they are instead of saying things that boil down to some version of Get Over It/Yourself, because those parts of the show made me feel super panicky because no one seemed to recognize that it's sanism and what they're saying can be extremely damaging. That shit kills.

- All of the Matt-meets-the-Avengers-and-they-want-to-be-his-friend-but-he-doesn't-and-he-somehow-ends-up-their-friend-anyway fics

- Really any fic where someone waxes poetic, mentally or aloud, about how hot they find Matt because SAME and I feel in good company with those suffering the same Matt Murdock Brain Rot (tm) that I am.

[motherflecker]

Top 5 comic book characters/superheroes and why are they your faves? 👀 (hope it's ok it's not drama related question)

nooo i love that this isn't drama related!!! cape comics were my main fandom for ages so it's fun to be able to talk about them again

let's see let's seeeee

Bruce Wayne / Batman - the obligatory number one boy. i feel very "well i loved him before it was cool" but it's also like, batman. everyone has a batman story. but! i remember being a Youth (like 14? 15?) and being like "well i want to get REALLY into the straightest white man thing i can think of bc i am a big gay brown girl and i'm better than them" and so chose batman. i didn't get as intensely into it until i was 16 where i just read fucking, everything. straight up, i only realized i had ptsd as a teenager through reading batman and the exploration of his trauma over the years (which is why tom king's batman is my favorite batman run). he's just a really personal love of mine and part of how i made it through the angry traumatized teenaged years of my youth!

Matt Murdock / Daredevil - if bruce is about ptsd, matt is about depression. he's another character where the exploration of his trauma through the comics really resonated strongly with me. the mark waid run in particular (which i know everyone always cites) did a lot for me. something about this page in particular is always something i come back to when i feel overwhelmed, and that's one of the few pages in comic books i can say made me and the way i deal with things feel really seen.

Damian Wayne / Robin - i love this kid. i love his anger and his earnestness and just how hard he tries. i don't think comic book writers are very good at writing kids generally speaking and especially not kids with trauma but damian gets the grace and care that he deserves. if you are not a damian lover, you will be after reading Tomasi and Gleason's run of Batman & Robin. that's where i fell in love with damian as a robin and bruce and damian as a unit. i know everyone cites the dickbats run for damian but i really think this does what i love for damian much better.

Oliver Queen / Green Arrow - i love ollie. COMICS OLLIE ONLY. god, he's been so badly misinterpreted by so many other media that i always hesitate to talk about him sometimes. comics ollie is my sweet socialist sjw who will throw tons of money at causes and also fight cops with his bare hands. i love his anger, i love his heart, i love the fact he's an oblivious frat boy poet. i love how much he cares and how he never hesitates to actually get into the issues. i also love that he would beat the shit out of barry allen for being a centrist piece of shit. i love oliver queen.

Reed Richards / Mr Fantastic - i love reed richards bc he is insane :)

[darlingpeter]

grayscale.

the reader faces the aftermath of losing a close friend, and sweet boyfriend matt knows just how to get through to you when you need another perspective.

this fic is a labor of love. although this story is fictional, please know that you are never alone in the hardships that you are facing, and there is a wonderful community of people out there whose inboxes and messages are always open if you need advice, to vent, or just to get bad stuff off of your chest. you are worthy of love and the space and support that you need to heal. 

pairing: matt murdock x reader, best friend jessica jones x reader

warnings: reader is going through some emotional bad times

length: 2,405 words

Everyone knows that grief is an important part of life. As you grow, you lose people, and the lessons that you learn from it are necessary to truly appreciate what you have while you have it. 

But no one talks about how hard it is to grieve someone who hasn’t died. 

In the first stages, you found yourself getting absorbed in the what ifs, cycling over and over again in your head about things you could have done differently that would have changed their mind somehow and made them value you as much as you did them. Even worse was fighting the urge to reach back out to them in an attempt to rekindle something similar to what you had before. But the rational part of your brain constantly steered you away from that because how would that be possible? You couldn’t pretend to ignore everything bad that had come into light and keep a good conscience at the same time. A similar end would be inevitable, and it would hurt just the same if not more the second time around. 

Matt was aware of what you were going through. He listened as you poured your heart out to him, brought you water and tissues when you could do nothing but cry, and was there to make sure that you were taken care of. If he sensed a bit of hesitation in your voice if you asked him for anything, he would remind you in a gentle tone that made your heart flutter that he was there for you in any way that you needed. Over time, though, you closed off to him. You couldn’t help but feel like your emotional outbursts were an annoyance to him since he already had so much else to worry about outside the walls of your shared apartment. Unbeknownst to you, when you started changing the subject and brushing him off whenever he asked about how you were feeling, he knew that he was going to have to make a call to the one person he knew would be able to talk sense into you. 

The first time that he invited Jess and Luke over since things changed, you were initially wary of being forced to socially interact, but after you changed into clean, comfy clothes, had a shower, and actually got to be face-to-face with your best friends for the first time in far too long, you started to feel better than you had in a long time. 

Luke had taken control of a speaker that you had in the apartment, showing you and Matt a few new artists that he had been getting into, and with the way that Jess hummed and sang along to the lyrics, you knew that you weren’t the first to hear him gush about the new finds. You ordered Pizza and sat around shooting the shit with one another. 

When you popped into your room to grab an extra blanket, the sound of the door closing softly surprised you, and you turned to see Jess with a sympathetic smile on her face. Your mood soured. You had a feeling that she was going to want to talk to you with the comforting look in her eyes that she had been fixing you with since she had arrived with Luke. “Red told us that you had a bad falling out with a close friend. How’re you holding up, kid?” She asked and instinctively, you bristled. At this point you had been packing everything down and trying to avoid thinking about the situation altogether, which made it sour and turn to irritability where it sat within you. You scowled, annoyed at the fact that she wanted to stir up the difficult emotions that you had been working hard to hide. Seeing this, Jess raised both of her palms to face you in a surrendering gesture. “Easy, babe. I just want to make sure that everything’s alright.” She said softly.

Frustrated, you folded the blanket a couple of times in your hands. “It is.” You said shortly.

Jess frowned. “We both know that’s not true.” Sometimes you hated how easily she saw straight through you. She sat on the edge of the bed, and patted the spot next to her, inviting you to join. “He didn’t tell us the full story, but I know you, and I know from what he told me that I would be having a rough time, so I can’t imagine what you’re dealing with right now.” You take the spot next to her and lean into her side, letting out a deep exhale when she wrapped her arm around you and gave your shoulder a comforting squeeze. When you relaxed into her after a moment, she knew that she had worn away the stubborn act that you put on. “I know that Matt isn’t the best when it comes to talking about feelings, and I want to give you the space that you might need to talk about things a little more in depth with someone that might be able to communicate a little better about understanding what you’re going through. Or you could just lay on me, which is cool too.” She finished with a small laugh.

For a moment, you considered just sitting in silence for a few moments before rejoining the group, but the longer that you sat against Jess, the bigger the knot in your chest grew until you were squeezing your eyes shut and fighting tears that were starting to well up. “I’m tired of being sad.” You said, hating how small and watery your voice sounded. “I wish I could forget everything about what happened so I could stop carrying around this weight with me.” 

And then you were crying. The more you tried to suppress it the stronger it came on, and the more your breath came in hiccups from your chest, so you stopped trying to hide it and instead opened the floodgates on your best friend. You told her the full story, about what caused the falling out and how hard it had been to adjust, as well as how angry you had been feeling with yourself for not being able to move past it. You told her about how you didn’t want to continually bother Matt so you had started to bottle things up. Even though you knew that it wasn’t the best way to deal with things, but you had hoped that in doing so, it would just pass over and make the whole ordeal easier. 

Jess listened to what you had to say, but also offered some advice. Because of how close the two of you were as well as how blunt and honest she was, Jess was the queen of getting through to you and telling you things that you didn’t want to hear.“The quickest way to get through this is to feel what you need to feel completely and wholly. By not tackling it head-on, no matter how much better it seems in the moment, it’ll eat at you and cause a lot more hurt over time.” This stung, mostly because you knew that she was right. You had been able to witness a small taste of what she was talking about already, and the thought that the bitterness you had been feeling had the potential to grow and have the chance to cause outbursts that could push the people you loved away. You nodded as she gave your shoulder a squeeze. 

“But I don’t want to feel like I’m burdening Matt with my problems.” You whined, digging the heels of your hands into your damp eyes and rubbing at them in exasperation. “I’m scared he’ll start avoiding me because he doesn’t want to hear me complain about my garbage when there’s nothing that he can do.”

To your surprise, Jess barked out a laugh, and you looked up at her with a glare. “Were you not just telling me how he was going total mama-bird over you when things were bad?” You deflated and shrugged, caught by your own words. “Just because you’re the only one who can work through this in your own brain doesn’t mean that you’re struggling alone. We’re all gonna support you in the ways that we know how. And if you’re worrying about the way that Matt is doing it, maybe that’s something that you should talk to him about and make sure that you’re getting the support that you need and that he’s not feeling burned out.��

Nodding, you let her advice sit with you as you leaned against her, letting her hug you from the side while you listened to Matt and Luke’s music muffled through the bedroom door. When you finally straightened up and let her arm fall from your side, Jess gave you a supportive look. “Feeling ok?” She asked.

“A lot better.” You responded, which made Jess give a little cheer that made you smile. “Thank you for… everything.” You said, unsure how to put into words your gratitude for making the effort to get through to you when you were so resistant off of the bat.

She bumped you with her shoulder with a playful grin. “Of course, kid. I’ve always got you. Now let’s go make sure those two haven’t finished off the pizza or torn the place up to bad out there, yeah?” 

Grabbing the blanket from where you had put it down and following Jess back into the main living area feeling much lighter. 

~

After the night that Jess and Luke stopped by, things started to feel like they were getting better. Her advice made you feel like you could dig yourself out of the hole that you found yourself in. You were able to sit down with Matt and express the things that you were worried about, and with that line of communication opened up, you felt free to check in with him when you were concerned that he was being overloaded. Fortunately, after that chat, you were able to go about life more freely than you felt you had been able to in weeks, and after a few weeks you were able to look a short ways into the past and be proud of how far you had come.

However, your good mood unfortunately broke. 

Out of nowhere one morning, you woke up under a wave of depression. You tried to get up and go about things as usual, but disinterested and suddenly exhausted, you ended up back in bed curled in on yourself. After what felt like hours of drifting in and out of sleep and checking your phone, you heard the door open, and you looked to see Matt poke his head into the room. “Hey, sweetheart.” 

At the sound of his voice, tears started welling up in your eyes and you blinked hard to try and keep them from falling. You made a sound of acknowledgement that came out more like a whimper, and his eyes widened, his brow furrowing in concern as he stepped fully into the room. “Oh no,” he cooed softly, padding across the floor to the bed. “No, no, no.” He climbed under the covers on the empty side of the bed facing you.“Talk to me.” He hummed, delicately thumbing away a tear from your cheek.

You almost didn’t want to tell him why you were sad. You had been doing so well! You didn’t want him to pity you for not being able to get over the loss, but you know that if you made up a lie on the spot that he would be able to tell, so you took a steadying breath. Damn his senses. 

“I don’t know why it hit me like this again.” You told him, trying hard to keep your voice steady. “I thought I was done with this.” 

At the admission, your face grew hot with shame and you sniffled, wrapping your arms around yourself. “Hey, hey, none of that.” Matt murmured, pulling you into his arms. You buried your face in his chest and took hold of his t-shirt, taking in the scent of the cotton and his laundry detergent and grounding yourself in it to keep your mind from spiraling further down. 

“I’m embarrassed.” You whispered, and Matt shushed you, removing your hand from his shirt so that he could raise it to his mouth and press a kiss to your knuckles. 

“I know that it’s hard to feel like you’ve made progress only to be set back, but dealing with grief is never a linear process.” He told you, brushing some of your hair back from your face. “Things like this take time, and bad days will happen even after things have been good for a while. But I promise you that things will get better, and that these reminders will start to sting a lot less as it goes on.”

It was silent as you lied together, him listening to your heartbeat return to normal, and you thinking about what he had said while your tears dried. When you finally made a move to get up, Matt’s arm around your waist tensed as he held onto you and kept you from budging. You were only able to let out a confused sound before he took your jaw in his free hand and pressed a soft kiss to your lips. You raised your hands to his stubbly cheeks, and he leaned into your touch, a look in his eyes that was reassuring. “What was that for?” You asked.

He shrugged, a smug smirk on his face as he ran a calloused thumb across your bottom lip. “I just wanted to know you were smiling.” 

That you were. For the first time all day, you felt almost giddy as you giggled, pressing a quick peck to his smiling mouth. “You’re so soft.” You teased, climbing out from under the covers and stretching. 

“Just for you.” He replied, swinging his legs over the side and following your lead. When he got close, you stepped forward and wrapped him in a proper hug. You squeezed him, trying to find the right words to thank him, but with the way that he squeezed you back, you knew that you didn’t need to say anything at all. “You’ve got this, sweetheart.” He said quietly.

And for the first time in a while, you full-heartedly believed it.

~

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[mattelektras]

Return of the nocenti daredevil anon and im almost done!!!!!! Ten or so issues left and ill leave my final thoughts about it when im done if you dont mind, but real quick, id like to know if there are any other daredevil comics that are like- around very similar vibes n attitude?????? Like something that has like similar themes and characterisation to the nocenti run of dd, its cool if there arent/u dont know of any runs but just thought id ask :] tysm!!!!!!!

to be fair i would say nocenti's daredevil is the ONLY thing quite like nocenti daredevil?? but i think an integral part of it is matt being outside of his comfort zone as daredevil?? which there are a few different versions of

prisondevil round 1 - brubaker's daredevil in general takes matt away from what he knows a fair bit. starts are daredevil vol 2 #82 and continues to #87

before prisondevil comes the murdock papers which i would say has huuuuge similarities but the social issues/identity/dealing with things outside of punching side of things does exist in it. daredevil vol 2 #76-81

prisondevil round 2 in the current daredevil run is slightly further down the road from nocenti's but since it's similar to the devil in cell block d arc i figured it's worth including. also. elektra natchios

born again comes before nocenti as i've said before, and as a story i think it gets wayyyy too much credit but its the reason why nocenti dd is the way it is and its a big reason for why matt's mental health is how it is. so dd v1 #226 to #233

daredevil vol 4 spends a lot of time on matt's depression and identity issues. he goes a little off the rails which is always fun and just something he likes to do every few years

[deniigi]

(1/?) okok listen this is pretty much coming from nowhere and i haven't written anything about it but i think i like to think about it (though i can't really flesh it out bc i don't want to be appropriative) but: half Algonquian matt murdock, esp with indigenous maggie because i think there could be a lot of room for thinking about privilege/colonization/assimilation? thinking about 1. the rejection of indigenous identity and coercion by colonizers to force indig identity out of the continent

(2/?) 2. maggie's self-rejection and leaning into christianity, vibing with both the message of unity beyond nationhood and struggling with self-betrayal, heightened by postpartum depression and feelings of inadequacy, esp considering the intergenerational traumas carried by indigenous north americans. 3. matt and his struggles with the law also are heightened by this whole identity thing because it's like. how do you continue to uphold laws and morality that was imposed on your nation without             

(3/4) its consent? i thin it's interesting how dd is about all these sociological concepts of nuancing the idea of privilege. like even all-white mattyboy is a handsome white man, and is (was) a lawyer enough to present as middle-upper class even if that isn't always reflective of his background. but he's very disabled and doesn't shy away from that fact. disability intrinsically upsets the notion of bodily normalcy and the capitalist assumptions about meritocracy and "deserving" rights            

(4/4) so i think it would be interesting to explore an indigenous matt, because indigenous nations kind of upset colonized notions of the universality and immutability of the law. and like, he obviously struggles with upholding the law and rejecting it and feeling shitty about both outcomes. i feel like it's thematically appropriate and it would be cool to have a matt who absolutely loathes colonialism and what it's done to people but also understanding its hegemony and having to work within it            

Anon I am

SHAKEN.

You’ve really fucking nailed it, honestly? You’ve really hit on smth that would throw DD into a whole new set of thinking, I think?

Because there are so many intersections here??? You have Disability intersecting with Indigenous culture/politics intersecting with class intersecting with colonization and religion and on top of all that we have Matt’s vigilantism which in some ways transgresses pretty much all of those things.

And like.

Holy shit

What a concept, wow. I wish I had more to say, but I’m just?? Wow.

[azeher]

It’s the last Sunday of the decade and I will spend it sharing some predictions for Spiderman: Homeboy

We’re gonna learn MJ was abandoned by one of her parents: When I first watched the trailer for FFH where MJ assumes Peter was gonna tell her he’s Spiderman, my first thought was, “Aw, he probably was gonna confess but she has emotional issues that made her think that was unlikely and she went with the Spiderman revelation scenario instead”. And when I watched the movie that’s exactly what happened. But she was also hurting when she lied to Peter about only watching him closely due to her suspicions, which we see in her pained expression, so I thought that maybe she didn’t want to get attached to him. And by the end, she admits she lied because she actually has trouble getting attached to people in general. But why would a teen feel that way unless they feared loving someone and then losing that someone? However, this has nothing to do with Peter having a dangerous double life that might get him killed since she wasn’t certain he was Spiderman when she lied to him. The only explanation is that she lost someone she loved. So either someone died or she was abandoned. But abandonment is the most likely reason why a kid would get scared of getting attached to people, bc they fear they will be abandoned again.

This revelation will be triggered by the current Peter situation: Even if MJ wasn’t abandoned, it’s canon she has a hard time getting close to people, right? So either way, imagine how hard it’s gonna be for her being in constant fear of losing Peter forever. However, if I’m right about my theory, this will make it 1000 times worse for her, especially bc there’s nothing she can do about it. Peter might die or go to prison, just right after she allowed herself to be open about her feelings and get attached to him. If I’m correct, this will be what pushes her to talk about her family background.

Peter will mention Uncle Ben, once: Okay, hear me out. I’m not one to think he has to talk about Uncle Ben necessarily but after FFH I finally understand why he never mentions him and why it DOES make sense for him not to do it, outside of, ‘We know about the Uncle Ben backstory’. A lot of people complained that FFH was too upbeat after the Endgame events and that Peter didn’t mourn Tony as much as he had to. After all, he was all about going on a school trip and having fun and confessing to MJ. What ppl seemed to ignore is that THIS is Peter mourning Tony. He was purposely avoiding the subject and trying to distance himself from anything that could make him think of him. These are not even assumptions. That’s why he left the suit, that’s why he panicked and ran away after the homeless auction event. But of course, the world wasn’t gonna let him not think about it, with Ironman imagery literally everywhere.

But Peter doesn’t ever mention Tony until the Jet scene, which yeah is my favorite scene. However, Peter doesn’t just open up bc this is the emotional climax of the movie, but bc everything that happened before pushed him to his limits to the point he had talk about it. And he didn’t just talk, he exploded, meaning he was bottling up all of his feelings and emotions.

And if we analize what pushes him to that point, it’s all just so harsh. We know Peter blames himself for Tony’s death, which Mysterio uses against him. When Peter sees a dead Tony crawl out of his grave he doesn’t say anything but his body tells us what we need to know. He’s terrified and in shock and the fact that he doesn’t say anything out loud speaks louder because we know everything Mysterio showed him, he actually thinks and fears. But there’s also the pressure the world is putting on him to step up and become the next Number 1 hero just cuz Ironman mentored him. No one is giving him space to disconnect from the events of Endgame for even one moment. Not the current damaged and depressed reality of the world that is starting to heal, not the kids at school who try to cope with humor but still keep doing homages to the Avengers and talking about the Blip, not the police or the press who keep asking Peter questions, not Nick Fury who keeps forcing him to save the world again and making him feel guilty for being scared and depressed.

Except, I’m wrong. Because there’s ONE person who does understand and has always understood. And that is May. May gives him space, she lets him be Spiderman, she lets him grief however he wants to do it. She doesn’t question that note next to the light switch that begs for the lights to stay always on. She doesn’t ask questions or try to force him to talk about how he really feels, even tho she knows he’s dealing with PTSD. When she tells him to take the suit, she does it bc she wants him to stay save (you think she isn’t terrified of him dying again?), but doesn’t mention Tony. She makes sure to support him, and after the events of FFH, she welcomes him with a smile and a hug and feelings of pride.

Now, there aren’t pictures of Ben Parker in their home, and there hasn’t ever been in any movie. People thought this was an odd inconsistency. But I’m pretty sure May put them all away so Peter didn’t have to see them. Because she can tell his death is something Peter has a hard time dealing with.

And it is. Even more than Tony’s. He feels responsible for Tony’s death. But he knows he’s responsible for Ben’s death. And he knows sooner or later he will have to tell May this. Yet we know Peter can’t help to think of him and feel a deep respect, bc he uses his suitcase. It’s old and uncomfortable to travel with but he still picked it. If anyone wants to argue that it’s bc he couldn’t afford a new suitcase, that still doesn’t change that he was aware that Ben owned that suitcase. Besides, May didn’t make it a big deal when it blew up, although there was a halt at the question (“Where’s your suitcase?”), so I think he definitely chose to take it as opposed to not having any other option.

Peter doesn’t mention Ben bc he can’t and that’s how he deals with death in general. But I think he will talk about Ben in the next movie, which is the last one (apparently). He has to come clean with May about what happened to Ben. But like with Tony, I think smt really bad is what’s gonna push him to that moment.

Flash is gonna have his well-deserved character arc and development: I don’t know what is going on with his parents/mother. But they made a big deal out of it and it’s obvious Flash is a neglected child. I saw a theory about how Flash was probably an Osborn, which I thought was cool but that theory was kinda debunked. However, I do think they’re setting up the Thompson parents to be quite relevant. If they just wanted to point out Flash is not receiving a lot of love and attention from his family they could have done it without putting so much focus on the absent parents. Flash is probably going to have to face them one way or another and since now he knows Peter is his beloved Spidey, it makes me believe at one point he’s gonna have to choose sides, and he’ll choose Peter’s.

Marvel will use Spiderman: Homeboy to introduce Matt Murdock: Everyone has this theory, not only me. Like, that was my first thought but it was also everyone’s first thought. I still think it’s gonna be true. And I want it to be true. I need to see this guy being Peter’s lawyer.

Ned and Peter will have a fallout: ONLY if this isn’t the last Spiderman movie, which might not be if you count the possibility of Sony making their own Spidey movies or if you’re hopeful smt will convince Sony and Disney to keep cooperating. Something small but important, something flat and green depicting dead historical figures. Yes, I’m talking about money. That might do the trick.

Anyway, this theory doesn’t come from the movies per se but from the insistence by Ned’s actor Jacob that he wants Ned to go Dark Side and become Hobgoblin. I’m all about fulfilling this guy’s dream so if he wants that to happen, I want that to happen. Will it destroy my heart, though? Yes, it will. BUT if that happens, I’m expecting a redemption arc. And if they go that route it will possibly lead to two scenarios depending on if Sony and Disney stay married or get another divorce.

A. Sony introduces Harry Osborn. Or B. Marvel introduces Johnny Storm.

[queenxxxsupreme]

I wanna hear more abt ur inspiration for darceria

Omg I love love love this question so much!! Also I apologize for how long this is. I just really loved this💕

So with Darceria I had been messing around with characters in my head the second I decided I wanted to write a fic about my baby Geralt (which happened to be when I was watching Betrayer Moon). At first, she wasn't an oracle because I hadn't even thought of that, of making that group of essentially magical beings. I'll explain that a little later. She was originally really insignificant. She wasn't a princess of a fallen kingdom, she wasn't blind, she could see the future. She was bland and I didn't like that. I wanted more. I wanted to make her more interesting and give her shape and definition.

So from there, I made her blind. I have shitty eye sight myself and it's progressively getting worse so I was sort of playing off of that. I've messed with blind characters before and when I say that I mean that I have written out different characters with different personalities, different traits, and different love interests that all were blind. None of those characters were lucky enough to make it further than rough drafts and charts and essentially they've been left in two binders that I keep with all my ideas for characters and plots and fics because seriously I think of new ideas every day and if I acted on impulse more than I already did, I'd have an insanely high amount of fan fics going at once.

(Fun fact, Wattpad is where I started and at one point on that platform I had close to fifteen stories going at once. That number has since been cut to ten after I finished a few stories. Yes I have an issue and yes I acknowledge it 😂🙈🤦‍♀️)

So back to Darceria. I decided to make her blind because I knew it would be difficult to write for her and I love the challenge. I also knew her being in the time period and the society she is in would introduce quite a few conflicts just because of her being blind and conflicts/problems are what drive stories in my opinion.

The oracle half of her character came from a relatively new idea I had in the last year for a Sam Winchester x OC fic. The character was blind and could see the future but how she saw the future was more prophetic and more physical. She'd have nose bleeds and she'd cough up blood and wake up covered in blood in her sleep. That physical part ended up turning into a character for a Pietro Maximoff x OC fic I have going on Wattpad right now. That character just isn't blind.

But when I thought of giving Darceria some sort of supernatural-y power, seeing the future came to mind. I thought it would really really awesome to take her sight but give her the ability to see the future. Sort of poetic/sort of psychotic on my half 😂

Oracle means a few different things but the meaning I took it as was a priest or priestess acting as a medium through whom advise or advise was sought from the gods. I really liked this so I started messing around with what an oracle would look like in the world of the Witcher. I thought about how an oracle would be useful and the first thing that came to my mind was a mage. Mages are advisors to kings and queens. They are heavily knowledged in science/magic and politics. Rulers depend on them for a lot and seek their advise. We saw in season 1 how important mages were to rulers. I highly doubt that without Fringilla's help Nilfgaard wouldn't have gotten as far as they did or it would have taken them much much longer to do so.

I sort of created oracles as the sister to the witch. They naturally have visions, naturally see things that have yet to happen. They have instincual feelings that they can trust. Like when it comes to chosing maybe going down this road or that road, they can sense which would be the wiser choice. It's a part of who they are genetically. But they also have strong magic genes too. They can cast spells to help see the future and that sort of thing. The oracles are just focused more on seeing the future and preserving the kingdom for the long run. (I have so much I want to say about this last sentence because of Darceria and her role in the fall of Romavek but EEK I CAN'T SPOIL)

I wanted to make oracles rare, to make them less known than witches and mages because having just anyone be an oracle would suck the fun out of it in my opinion. So I made it so that oracles are born every half century. They are also extremely rare in the story just for the simple fact that Romavek is the only known place to ever inhabit oracles. Romavek was very secretive and very solitary, even more so than Cintra. Romaveks (as we will see in future updates) very rarely left their country, their kingdom. They had no reason to. They didn't participate in wars unless absolutely necessary. I won't go much further into detail about that because I don't want to accidentally spoil anything.

I also wanted Darceria to be important, to have a destiny of her own that didn't involve Geralt entirely. So that's how I decided she'd be an oracle, a super important piece to Romavek culture and hierarchy.

When I was messing with her characterization, I played around before she was an oracle about the possibility of her being royalty. We know Geralt has sort of a bad habit of finding princesses and rescuing them/killing them (RIP Renfri my baby). So I thought hey what if she's a princess. Well then I saw quite a few different little stories where the OC or reader was a princess to a currently ruling country like Cintra or Kovir or some made up country. Whatever. So I was like well damn I don't want my story to be just another Geralt x princess!OC stories.

So she became a blind princess born with the gifts of an oracle.

As for her personality, I really like writing soft characters who know when to be tough. I am also a sucker for just writing asshole characters. Luckily, Darceria was not an asshole character of mine. She's soft and and she's quiet. She's observant and careful and nurturing. She doesn't like being babied or treated like she's nothing more than her disability. She's very independent but at the same time, she relies heavily on Zephyrina at times. Darceria is also cunning. She uses her disability to her advantage when needed. Like in the proglue, we see her faking being completely blind when she runs into Thominson and spills his drink on him. She fakes being more blind than she actually is to anger him, to get him out of the room. Also she has a very upsetting childhood. Though she was a princess in a thriving kingdom, her childhood is sad and depressing and tragic in a sense. Again we will see more in the future 🙈 I don't want to spoil anything!!

She's observant even though she is blind and she is observant through her other senses. Her "sight" as she explained to Ciri in chapter 1(I think) is very similar to how the creators and writers of Daredevil wrote how he sees in season 1 of Daredevil on Netflix. He sees fire. Darceria sees shapes of objects through sound and she feels them when she touches. Her senses are highly advanced, very much like Matt Murdock/Daredevil.

And as for her physical appearance, the white eyes was something that I thought was really cool. I was watching Supernatural when I saw Abbadon's eyes flicker to white. I thought it would be super cool for Geralt to come across a being with eyes that are different than everyone else's. He could sympathize with her, with how everyone stares at her when they see that her eyes are empty and white.

I absolutely love dark red curly hair (@ Natasha Romanoff) I hadn't seen very many redheads in the first season with the exception of Visenna (Geralt's mom) and Coral, the ginger mage who clenched her fist and kills an entire squadron of Nilfgaardian soldiers at the Battle of Sodden. So when I think of Darceria, I usually picture Scarlett Johannson as Natasha Romanoff in Iron Man 3. (fun Fact: Zephyrina's face in my head looks like Adelaide Kane)

Dareceria's name came to me in a really funny way. I was researching different midieval names and when I didn't like any of those names. Then I came across Daria. It's Polish and means kingly. I didn't like how close it was to Dara so I started adding different things to the end of the name. There was Darialene but that was what too much of a tongue twister and didn't flow off the tongue as nicely as I wanted it to. Dariara came across and in my head I pronounced it Dar-ee-air-ee-uh. So it's not that hard to pronounce but again when you say it out loud it doesn't flow nicely. Then I changed the name completely to something else entirely. Then I went back to Daria and started messing with it more. I messed with it for probably three days before finding Darceria. I personally think it fits in well with the names in the show.

I'm so glad you asked this @wayward-dream !!! I really really loved answering this💕💕sorry it ended up being so long though! I hope I answered you properly and I hope this makes sense!! Ask more questions if you need to please!!! I love answering this

[headfulloffantasies]

Not So Different

5 things that are different between Spider-verses

1 

The Spider-people kept in touch once they realised they could universe hop. Miles hung out mostly with Gwen and Peter B. They went for snacks, and walks in the park, and helped each other on patrols. 

After a few weeks, Peter B invited Miles and Gwen over to his apartment to watch Star Wars. His universe was very bright, Miles thought. It was hard to see how the depressed Peter B could come from a world so full of colour. If Miles had his markers, he would love to sit in Central Park and sketch.

Peter’s apartment was cleaner than the first time Miles had been there. The dishes were put away and there was more than cold pizza in the fridge. It was obvious B was making an effort for MJ. They had been talking, Peter said. Miles was confident they’d be together again by the end of the year. 

Gwen and Miles took the couch. Peter threw himself on the rug. 

“Floor’s better for my back,” he said. 

The movie started. Miles kept sneaking glances at Gwen in the blue light of the TV.

“I thought C3PO was silver.”

“Shh.”

“Ian McKellen played Obi Wan in my ‘verse.”

“Shut up.”

The comments gradually died off as the movie progressed. Miles was trying to figure out how he could casually sling his arm over Gwen’s shoulder without Peter noticing. He started to creep his fingers over the back of the couch.

They’d reached that pinnacle moment of the movie. “No… I am your father.”

Gwen say bolt upright and screamed. “Holy crap! He’s Anakin?”

Miles startled, almost toppling off the couch.

“I thought you said you’d seen this?” Peter asked without looking.

Gwen grabbed Miles’ arm. “Why is Vader not Padme?”

“Padme?”

“Luke I am your mother!” She yelled, waving at the TV. “What is this?”

Peter and Miles exchanged a glance. “Do you have a different Star Wars?”

Peter interrupted. “Gwen, tell us Darth Vader’s Story.”

Gwen took a gulp of breath and started, “Okay, so Padme fakes her death in childbirth and vows vengeance on the Jedi for killing Anakin and she becomes Darth Vader. She raised Leia but she thought Luke was dead until they meet up again.”

Miles sat in stunned silence. “That’s not how this one goes.”

Gwen flapped her hands, “But then where’s the battle for the crown?”

“What crown?”

“Leila’s a princess, and Luke should be a prince, yes? But they’re twins and no one knows who was born first so they don’t know who is supposed to get the throne.”

Peter frowned. “Does Padme not know which child was born first?”

Gwen scowled, “She was a little busy giving birth to the second. It’s one of the greatest mysteries of Star Wars!”

She stared back and forth between their baffled expressions. “The whole second trilogy is based around the Skywalker crown.”

“Your Star Wars sounds way better than ours.”

2

Gwen had to laugh when Peter B told her Tony Stark was a hero in his ‘verse. In her universe Tony Stark was the playboy billionaire creator of Starkbucks, the overpriced coffee chain.

Miles glared at the chalkboard menu on the Starkbucks patio. 

“Pineapple should only ever be on pizza.” Miles spat.

Gwen sipped her pineapple mango frappuccino. “I like it.”

“Pineapple in drinks is weird.”

“I don’t get it man. It’s a fruit.” Peter said. 

“So’s a tomato.” Miles shot back.

Peter drank his black coffee and made a face. Served him right. No one came to Starkbucks for real coffee. 

Gwen waited until Miles took a big gulp of his drink, “In my universe we put pineapple in spaghetti.”

The spray of caramel chip macchiato was wide and satisfying.

3

Miles lay back on his bed and spoke into the phone. “You’re working in Hell’s Kitchen tonight?”

“Yeah,” Gwen sighed over the speaker. 

“Why don’t you ask Daredevil for help?”

The phone was silent for so long Miles thought the universal signal must have dropped.

“I’m not going to Murderdock.”

“What?” Miles sat bolt upright. “Why do you call him that?”

“He’s a murderer. The kingpin of New York.”

“Holy crap,” Miles breathed. He couldn’t match mild mannered Matt Murdock with Daredevil most nights. Nevermind thinking of him as a criminal mastermind. 

“Wait, what happened to the real Kingpin? Wilson Fisk?”

“Murdock killed him.”

“Matt, no.” Miles groaned.

“You know yours?” Gwen asked.

“Yeah, he’s a lawyer. And he’s blind.”

“So’s mine. Blind lawyer criminal scumbag.”

“Gwen, I’m so sorry.” Miles loved his Matt Murdock. Guy was a puppy dog until you let him loose on the streets in his costume. He brought Miles snacks on their team-ups. He had a laugh like a seal barking. 

Miles scrubbed a hand over his face. “It seems like all my heroes are their worst selves in your ‘verse.”

“Yeah…” Gwen trailed off. Miles fidgeted.

“Gwen?”

“What if this is the worst universe?” She asked quietly. “What if I’m the worst Spider-person?”

“You’re not,” Miles assured her.

“But you’re right. I’ve got no Iron Man, and Captain America hates me, Daredevil’s a criminal, Harry turned himself into a monster, and Peter…”

“I’m sorry,” Miles could think of nothing else to say.

“I just,” Gwen’s breath hitched. “I just need one person to be on my side. Just one.”

Miles’ heart skipped. “You’ve got me.” It passed like a confession over his lips.

A soft glow pulsed next to his head. A white gloved hand pushed through the light. Miles took it and pulled. Gwen fell through the tear in the universe. Miles wrapped her in a hug as her shoulders shook. 

4

Miles was jumping to visit Peter B’s Central Park. Peter didn’t see how the park could be any different from his, but Miles insisted. 

“The colours are different. Like, more saturated,” he tried to explain. Peter didn’t get it. But he took Miles and Gwen tagged along. They stopped for ice cream and watched the ducks while Miles scribbled in his notebook. This was nice. Peter leaned back on the bench with a kid on either side.

Miles tossed his ice cream trash in the bin. “Yeet.”

Gwen scoffed. “It’s yote.”

“It’s not.”

“Do you seriously say Yeet?” Gwen leaned around Peter to make a disgusted face at Miles.

“Yes,” Miles closed his notebook.

“I think I just threw up in my mouth.”

“Wait, what about Kobe?”

“Kobe?” Peter was lost. “For accuracy?”

“No, it’s Lebron,” Gwen corrected.

“I love Lebron James,” Miles said the name in a weird voice.

Gwen scowled. “I recognise the meme you’re trying to do, but it’s Serena Williams.”

“No!” Miles groaned.

“What do you have against the greatest basketball player of all time?”

“She plays basketball?” Peter asked.

“Yeah. The Raptors won the championship because of her.” Huh. Remind Peter to ask if she played women’s basketball or if the NBA was a mixed gender sport.

“She’s a tennis player here.” Peter offered.

“She’s a swimmer in my ‘verse.” Miles nodded.

“No!”

“Wait, what about the pikachu reaction meme?” Miles asked to Peter’s bewilderment. 

“Oh, ‘cause of the face he just made?” Gwen poked Peter’s cheek. He batted her away. “It’s not pikachu, it’s bulbasaur.”

Miles nodded. “Ok, cool. What about Galaxy brain?”

Peter stood up and walked away. The two could bicker about internet fads all they wanted. He was going to feed the ducks.

5

“What do you mean penguins are extinct?” Peter gasped.

“I don’t know, man,” Miles held his hands up. “There was an earthquake and Antarctica sank or flooded or whatever and now there’s no penguins except in captivity.”

Peter scrutinized Miles through squinted eyes. The kid liked to mess with him. Penguins couldn’t be extinct, right? That was a joke?

“Um, can you put me down?” 

Peter hadn’t even realised he’d lifted Miles up by the front of his hoodie. Peter carefully set Miles back on his feet.

“When did this happen?” Peter demanded.

“I don’t know,” Miles shrugged. “Like, thirty years ago?”

Peter gasped. “Does that mean you’ve never seen a penguin?”

“Um, no?”

“Field trip,” Peter grabbed Miles’ arm and yanked him through the space between universes. If he focused, he could materialise them right outside the zoo gates. Actually, they should grab Gwen too. Did her universe have penguins? Who cared. The zoo was the perfect place for the kiddies to get closer. Peter could just slip away while they were watching the gorillas or whatever, and presto, instant date. Peter smiled to himself. He was such a good matchmaker.

[titconao3]

Hello I have a lot of feelings about Fratt and I’m endlessly grateful for your contributions to the pairing. I just want to know what draws you to them, what you love about them, how you got into the pairing, and what drives you to keep producing wonderful content for them?

Aw, thank you - i have a lot of feelings about Fratt too! About them both, separately, as /, or as &.

And now, brace yourself for word-vomit ;-)

i started with Daredevil, and Matt is a character that hits my buttons. i can ship him with almost anyone and anything, from socks to Foggy to naps to Elektra, bring it on. (Just not Karen Page, that’s not my personal jam - but to each their own ^_^)Matt being a cocky idiot who will throw himself into harm’s way and disregard his own well-being because Catholic Guilt ™ and Matt getting whumped is, uh. *grabby hands* He’s also So Dramat(t)ic - from backflips to emo-ing, from speechifying about god and justice to his “i’ll bleeeed for the cityyyyy” atttitude… *rubs hands* me like! He’s such a little shit too He’s also clearly suffering from depression (or bipolar disorder? the comics say depression, but i guess a case can be made for either), which i find… uh, yes. i can’t say i like it (poor Matty) but, just, yes.Plus i like hurt/comfort, okay? & DD is a whump-magnet of the highest, finest quality ;-)

Then Frank came by and i went uuuuuh yessss. The empty stare (and generally his body language; the immobility, the head movements, and then the sudden violence!), the difference in vigilante philosophy with Matt, his ALSO being a cocky idiot albeit in a different style, his bulldozer, one-man army style of fighting...  He’s clearly got Actual Brain Trauma from, you know, a bullet lodged there and has to deal with guilt from the death of his family, from sometimes loving being with his squad more than with his kids, from what he did as a soldier, etc.Frank can be emo-dramatic too, what with the whole “i am dead inside, i am just a tool of retribution, i am the mission and nothing else” attitude (we see through you, Frankie, sorry).He can be a real asshole too, and i like me some imperfect characters :DAND he comes with a cool cast of characters - Dinah, Billy, Curt, David…!

Both have a shitload of issues. Matt misses his dad (even when he rails against him in S3) and Frank has a well-developed dad instinct (is anyone reading Punisher Kill Krew? it’s hilarious and colourful and i promise Frankie goes ratatatatatBOOMpewpew at the baddies, but it also doesn’t take itself too seriously and Frank gives off the dad vibes AND the dog lover vibes ;-).Frank’s HE PROTEC and Matt’s “i’ll fight everything and anything!” (or is it the other way around?) go well together; they want the same thing, have the same goal.Plus, they can get on each other’s nerves; chatty lawyer and grunty Marine :DTheir rooftop conversation, with Matt chained up and trying to get Frank to open up, and Frank not being only this terrifying, violent monster but a guy with broken bits rattling inside! *clutches chest* And their various interactions after that - annoyance with some life-saving on the side. Aw ^_^

They have their little quirks, coffee or blind jokes and other little things that amuse me; they don’t like admitting they can’t do something, they can be terrible friends, they’re just perfect fic fodder, really :D

i also like the contrast between a guy who knows how domestic life works, how you take care of people, and occasionally (gasp) how you communicate (Frank’s surprise speeches at times…! like to Karen in that diner, bam Sudden Words) but who’s also a death-dealing machine and another guy who’s desperate for a family, who definitely craves being cared for (but NOT too much and only when he wants it, he’s a bit like a cat i guess ;-) and whose job is talking but who will always do his best to obfuscate, hide, or even lie because what will happen if i actually tell the truth? 

And: they’re both hoodie-wearers and both have been shown hiding under blankets. So, uh. Yes. That.

And on top of that, there’s the potential of team DD interacting with Mr. Punisher, especially Foggy (who was all Frank’s scary but also hot!!!) and Maggie (god save me from these guys! *gets the suture kit out*)

So there’s potential for feels, h/c, action, and humour too!Because, let’s face it, they can both be ridiculous sometimes ^_^ but it makes them human, interesting, and relatable!

There is Not Enough Content for them!

Also, for folks who are into smut, they do have great chemistry; but while i can and sometimes do write sex scenes when they feel relevant it’s not really my favourite thing in the world.Unless we’re talking post-deed CUDDLES :D

The challenge is to keep them as true as i can to my understanding of who they are: their flaws, their violence… and yet manage to give them an actual story that isn’t just we fought, we sexed, Frank left, Matt angsted, it never happened again because Frank’s a loner / Matt’s got too many issues / Frank “i’m a dead man inside” Castle won’t drag Matt into his world / Matt “Law & Justice and also my fists” Murdock gets hurt and Frank freaks out…i want to see how to make them work together, in part because i’m a wimp and i can’t stand downer endings and in part because can’t they have a little happiness too? (but not too much they’d disintegrate)Sure, i’d love to be able to write Deep Meaningful stuff, but basically i always end up doing domestic / fluffy / dog dads… stories.

...sorryy it got so long? i hope this answers your questions!

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[spidey-boyy]

WE’RE ON THE LAST ONE

DAREDEVIL S3 EP 13, WE MADE IT, HERE WE GO

- is fisk going to prom or something, that purple flower does not look good

- okay who is the english dude, i never got his name

- i feel like we’re back in s1 but in a good way with this opening

- the fact that fisk is dressed in all white and matt is in all black,,,

- i know i keep on saying it, but the scoreeeee,,,, okay let’s get into it peeps

- foggy is such a good friend, like he truly cares and belives in his heart that matt will change his mind if foggy buys some time

okay but do you think matt talked to foggy about him being catholic, like obviously to an extent he did bc foggy likes to crack on him sometimes with it, but here he says “its a catholic thing”, like like he’s heard this stuff before, maybe he used to be religious himself or something idk, but it feels like they’ve talked about it in a way and idk I find that interesting bc religion is something that can be so personal and it just shows how close matt and foggy were/are

- foggy’s about to punch a wall, seema making my heart break

- oh crap Matt’s not using the burner phone,,, i forgot about those tapes. oh, it’s not his phone cool

- holyyyy crap ray,,, now HE’S out here making my heart break

- i love learning court rules from this show

- oh sHiT the video

-  love the fight scenes, they’re choreographed soooo well

- t h a t s c e n e

the way matt just screamed from his soul and yelled at Fisk with everything he had, getting in his face and fighting every urge to land another punch on him, taking off his mask off and forcing Fisk to look at him. and you just saw it in every inch of his body that Matt was fighting himself too, to do the thing he’s been so dead set on doing the whole season but he just knew he couldn’t, and also him just wanting to protect foggy and karen so fiercely bc this was what his whole problem was about, him pushing them away bc he felt at some point he wasn’t going to be able to protect them and now he’s sticking up for them and staying true to himself in a way he hadn’t been confidently able to do this whole season

holy shit that scene

- MY BOY IS BACK ON THE ROOF, THE MUSIC, AHH

- :’ ) him and maggieeee

- :’ ) matt’s speech at father lantom’s funeral

- matt knows foggy’s family??? that’s so sweet

- they’re back together  :””” )

- ahhh hes moving back in

- MATT FOGGY AND KAREN ARE BACK TOGETHER

- ANOTHER NAPKIN SIGN, LOVE YOU FOGGY

- wait i’m going to cryyyyyyy, i love them so much

- okay okay okay i have so many thoughts that i might just do another post on but i love love love this show so much and ahhhhh i have so much to say so yeah, i might do another post. but overall, SUCH a great show and GREAT acting holy crap, i think its my favorite marvel show now tbh, and yeah, so many thoughts lol

And tbh, I know the show was canceled and it should’ve gotten so many more seasons bc damn it’s so good and it deserved it, but this was actually a good ending for it I think. It really does pain me that I guess we’re not going to see the future of Nelson Murdock, and Page, but I think the note of optimism it left on (ignoring the last dex scene) really did coincidentally wrap everything up well even if this wasn’t supposed to be the end. Yeah thier relationships with each other aren’t really going to be the same ever again but Matt was able to find foggy and karen again, and they’re going to stick together and do the thing they all set out to do which was to help others. And with the season starting off on a really depressing and grim note, the sense of hope at the end just highlighted Matt’s growth and made me really happy for their new beginnings.

But yeah, it deserved another season, screw you netflix or whoever decided to pull the plug

Anywayssssss, now that Matt, and assuming everyone else, is really in the mcu,,, don’t screw it up marvel 😀

[atlaese]

Jj season two was a travesty. Then they changed showrunners and everything. And god on season one when luke and jeasica breaking up? I paused and watched the rest of the season a week later. Kinda geta better in Luke's show you shall see. Three is better, once you see it I'll have some things to say. I love jessica, shesl has grown so much in all the seasons. Jj season 3 was on summer 2019. So not long ago. The last marvel thing i personally watched till wandavision. Feels weird.

I'm on season one of course. And ep eight had them at college and I kept rewatching it? The first hints at Elektra actually! Which just means that Matt and Elektra were together at like twenty. Eternal young love! At ep ten is when Foggy finds out about Matt and his indentity and they are bickering. I forgot about their relationship with the nypd and that cop and how much screentime the russians had. I remembered Fisk and everything but not them. And how beautiful Deborah is? Like her whole face shines? The blue of her eyes? Insane. I forgot how much I like Foggy and wish he was my friend. He has such a fun relatable personality. I remembered how fiesty Matt is? And passionate about justice and all? And the arms across the waist all times!

fav trio tbh <3

oof. am i glad they changed showrunners because i watched s2 with one eye open and one eye closed. the whole mommy issues thing was good for a few episodes, but the whole season just felt like overkill to me! omg yes! i love her and luke together but luke and claire also make so much sense? and i kinda like oscar with her - it feels like she needs a 'normal' person to ground her and he does that pretty well (or up until what i've seen!). I love the growth she has in this show!! although s2 kinda feels like a setback, i bet she will redeem herself in s3, as you said! i honestly wasn't into marvel before fatws (i watched the occasional movie but that was it), so now i'm just going through all the series and movies, really nice to see it all fit together, though!

omg college matt is such a cutie. with his little glasses and his awkward hair <3. ooh, i haven't noticed the matt x elektra hints, but i'll be on the lookout during my rewatch! i am a sucker for people who grow together, and young love is definitely a part of that :).

i honestly don't remember much of the russians, they kinda felt like a front for everything that was about to start with fisk!

deborah is such a pretty lady <3. she's very elegant and just her blue eyes... she's a great actress and her eyes speak emotions!

but poor foggy. this man literally would do anything for this man and that is what he gets?? (i understand matt wanting to have a secret identity but c'mon man, he's your best friend!) we all deserve a foggy in our lives tbh. such a hardworking man too?? goals, literally!

Also; i just read the opinion piece you sent me. i gotta say i wholeheartedly agree! i didn't know that matt's character went through so many changes through the years. also the fact that they added the mental health awareness thing (in the 70's/80's) is awesome! just the fact that they have a disabled superhero, who deals with depression (something i feel like more superheroes would have, as they deal with a lot of shit) just warms my heart and makes me love him even more. + his complicated relationship with catholicism makes for a very interesting duality (?) in his personality? (+ as religion and representativity are so important in this day and age, daredevil certainly was ahead of his time, so cool to see!)

matt murdock™ again, one step closer to being the perfect man.

[notwhelmedyet]

matt murdock! (tv or comics, your choice)

Going to go with ‘comics’ here because i’m elitist still feeling grumpy about those people we know reading Guardian Devil on purpose (it’s the worst! the absolute worst! it’s my least favorite story arc and that includes both the time he pretended to be his own twin and the time he sued himself in court)

favorite thing about them: lordy this sure has changed since I started loving this character 6 years ago. I’m going to go with the way in the waid run he learns to let his friends help him when he struggles against himself/his depressionleast favorite thing about them: the way in a bunch of different runs he acts super ableist towards other disabled people and this is never remarked on in-story as being badfavorite line: the line that ends the mark waid run “…I am a friend of inconsistent quality and boy am I loved. go figure.”

brOTP: okay, for the comics I’m going to say Foggy. I’m cool with them as a couple, but they’re going to be bros either way. You could also go with Black Widow.OTP: Milla Donovan. nOTP: Every single one of his other exes (Kirsten’s okay idk if she’s his ex nowadays I bailed after the waid run)random headcanon: there’s a better universe where Mattie’s a lesbian and she rescued her Milla from the mental hospital and they ran away together and forced one of the numerous asshole magic users to help Milla out and retired somewhere quiet. Probably a cottage in Ireland, nowhere too rural because Milla needs to be able to get to her therapist appointments and Mattie needs the internet to run her legal practice (and Milla also needs the internet to get back to work on her job which i’m 90% sure was urban planning? it’s been a long time)unpopular opinion: well I thought we were all agreed on this but guardian devil is the worst comic ever. jk, it’s only the worst daredevil comic. he tries to murder a baby!! what the hecksong i associate with them: Autoclave by The Mountain Goats

favorite picture of them: ?? that’s an excellent question and I have absolutely no clue

[pluckyredhead]

Daredevil 101: Foggy (Finally!) Finds Out

Last time on Daredevil 101, Matt was still pretending to be a) dead and b) a Brand-New Super Badass Armored Daredevil. Well, that’s all about to come crashing down when writer J.M. DeMatteis and artist Ron Wagner take over!

[Content warning: violence against sex workers, brief discussion of transphobia, fatshaming/body policing, a lot of discussion/portrayal of mental illness and suicidal ideation.]

We begin with Matt thoroughly disgusted with this new life he’s chosen for himself:

So I’m guessing DeMatteis didn’t enjoy the Daredevil comics immediately preceding his run?

Anyway it’s good to know Matt’s been doing his squats.

But Matt’s not just cranky about his new life - he’s forgetting things, losing time, waking up in unexpected places...

...which is pretty dangerous when you lead the kind of life Matt does.

Meanwhile, Foggy encounters an unexpected visitor:

Yes, it’s...Original Daredevil! Or someone claiming to be the OG Daredevil, at least. He flirts affectionately yet cryptically with Foggy, then scampers away, leaving Foggy feeling very confused.

Meanwhile, Matt, between crimefighting bouts, is thinking a lot about Glori, and having bloody, disturbing nightmares:

In the morning, he discovers that this particular nightmare has crossed over into waking life:

While Matt was asleep, someone shredded his armor, which is tricky because it’s...you know, armor. Plus there’s the threatening note. Who could it be? An old enemy? The mysterious yellow Daredevil?

With his armor ruined, Matt puts on his old red costume and heads to "his” grave - or at least, the grave that has his name on it and Hellspawn’s body buried beneath it. But when he gets there, the grave has been dug up. Matt panics, thinking maybe Hellspawn has come back to life:

After tearing up his fingers, Matt gets deep enough in the grave to discover that there is a body in there - but then he realizes he’s not alone:

Yep, Karen’s been spotting Yellow Daredevil around town and instinct led her out to Matt’s grave. Awwwkward.

Matt panics and bolts, leaving Karen even more confused than before. She meets with Foggy the next day to discuss all of these Daredevils running around and who they might be...or not be:

I do really love Karen and Foggy’s friendship, which is decades-long and very deep and sincere, whether Matt’s around or not. Anyway this conversation is interesting to me because the meta references to “the way [Daredevil] used to be back in the old [days]” is the sort of thing you would see a lot in comics from about ten years ago, but not so much twenty years ago, when this was published. Foggy’s ahead of the game, I guess! (And as despairing as this story is, it does foretell a brief return to a cheerful, swashbuckling Daredevil, which I always enjoy.)

(...And yes, both Karen and Yellow Daredevil stepping in on that last panel are policing Foggy’s breakfast/concern-trolling him, because of course they are.]

Anyway, speak of the devil...

Yellow Daredevil insists that he is the original Daredevil, that Red Daredevil (who Karen knows to be Matt) was second, and that Armored Daredevil is third, and a pretender to the throne. Then he scampers away, all giddy and devil-may-care.

Three things to note:

1. Cool assault, Yellow Daredevil. >:(

2. “I know for a fact that till now, there’s only been one Daredevil!” Why isn’t Foggy saying “Uh, Karen, what about Mike Murdock, the original Daredevil?”

3. If those are all $50s, Yellow Daredevil’s laying down $200 right there. How expensive are these bagels???

Meanwhile, Matt fights the villain of this storyline, a massive and incredibly strong murderer called “Sir.” I have not included any panels with Sir because this is one of the most viciously transphobic storylines I have ever encountered (guess what Sir’s big secret is, and why they love masculinity and hate women!) and honestly I don’t want to put that imagery in anyone’s eyes. But be forewarned if you decide to go looking for this storyline on your own.

Anyway, Sir steals Matt’s (red) costume for the totemic masculine power of it or whatever, so now Matt doesn’t have the black armored costume or the red one. Also, it’s a pretty brutal fight that does a number on him both physically and emotionally.

While all this is going on, Karen puts two and two together, and decides to take action:

That’s not a helpful answer, Karen.

(No, Foggy’s “older brother” is never mentioned again. I think we can safely discard him as a continuity glitch.)

Meanwhile, Yellow Daredevil has realized that he doesn’t know who he is. He’s not Murdock - Murdock was the second Daredevil - but then where does that leave him?

It was Matt the whole time!!! (Honestly, I was legit surprised by this the first time I read this storyline.) The swashbuckler, the grim avenger, the conman, the depressive...they’re all Matt.

That said, Matt is disassociating strongly enough to have created a whole separate personality he didn’t know about, which is a little bit more than just an identity crisis. (Apologies for the inexact or perhaps incorrect terminology - I am not a mental health professional and neither is DeMatteis. Just doing my best to describe the plot in layman’s terms!) So what triggered this sudden breakdown?

Remember Man Without Fear, when Matt accidentally pushed a prostitute out a window and she fell to her death? Well, it seems he suppressed that memory out of guilt, but Glori’s similar death by falling has dredged it up again, and his split personality was an attempt to escape that guilt.

Unable to copy with any of this, he basically goes catatonic - and that’s when Karen and Foggy find him:

It took thirty years, but Foggy finally learned his best friend’s biggest secret(s). There is less crying here than in “Nelson v. Murdock,” but there is the biggest bathroom in the world, so...there’s that?

Next up: the aftermath.