#man. this was really therapeutic in a way tbh

[parab0mb]

7-1: TAKE UP YOUR BRUSH

AND PAINT

THE WORLD

RED

7-S: nah nvm lol

[jasonntodd]

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[cheeseceli]

you have curly hair

Pairing: Ot8 Skz × Gn!reader (individually)

Genre: fluff, reaction

Request: an s/o who has curly/wavy hair and feels insecure about it? Maybe skz got used to seeing them with straight hair and one day they catch them with their natural hair?

Warnings: not proofread

A/n: curly hair girls for the win | fundraiser

Bang Chan

‌oh my God, twins?!

‌honestly he loves that you guys have this in common

‌he'll start wearing his curly hair more often

‌you'd both learn how to take care of it together

‌😔 that's so couple goals of you two

‌he'll even try to make some hair styles on you

‌at first he would fail so badly but it would be funny at least 😭

‌but in the end he'd get pretty decent in some of them honestly

‌so that's a slay

‌understands when you're not confident about your looks because same

‌but he's so ready to try and reassure you of your beauty

Lee Know

‌i think he'd have seen some pictures of you before you straightened your hair

‌and he was like "oh it looked pretty as well"

‌but then he sees it in real life

‌and he's like

‌"I underestimated it. I underestimated it so badly"

‌he just can't get over the fact that you look GORGEOUS

‌he finds it so fluffy😭

‌and i think he'd love it when you just woke up or something and the hair is a bit messy

‌because it's so?? pretty??

‌no matter if you say you hate it, he finds it to be your best look just yet

Changbin

‌you guys are also matching!!

‌he won't ever shut up about this btw

‌starts to wear his wavy hair more often too

‌stay are forever grateful to you for that

‌absolutely loves when you make new hairstyles

‌even if you end up failing on styling it, he still hypes you up

‌is already on his way to contact the best hairdressers in town just for you

‌and to buy whatever you may need to take care of it all

‌if you let him play with your hair as well, he could die a happy man

Hyunjin

‌has the most lovestruck gaze ever

‌right when he swore you could not get any prettier...

‌of course you had to go and prove him wrong

‌finds your natural hair to be the creation of some goddess or something like that, no way that is a human trait

‌ overall he's just falling in love even more after seeing the way your curls frame your face

‌compliments just flow so naturally out of his lips and he's like damn

‌needless to say he'll be painting this for weeks to go

Han

‌immediately betrayed because why didn't you tell him you had curly hair any sooner??

‌he could've been getting blessed by such a vision for ages

‌and you just didn't let him??

‌jokes asides, he can't put his mind on the fact that you look even better (how is that possible fr)

‌immediately on his knees begging you to keep your hair this way more times

‌he'll even learn how to take care of it if you don't want to do it yourself!!

‌actually I think he'd find the whole process kinda therapeutic

‌so that's a win win right

Felix

‌😮

‌ that's him right now

‌in the most adorable way ever

‌he just finds you so cute with it

‌it makes you look like an angel

‌really wants to touch your curls but he's so afraid he'd mess them up lmao

‌but he truly loves it

‌won't shut up about this for a hot minute

‌will also take thousands of pictures

‌with you posing or just candids, whatever

‌he just needs to eternalise this moment

Seungmin

‌finds it fluffy PT.2

‌idk you just look so... dreamy?

‌renaissance aesthetic you know

‌he loves it

‌next thing you know is that he bought you tones of things to take care of your hair

‌shampoo, conditioner, mascara... you tell it

‌he did his research okay

‌lowkey doesn't understand how you can be insecure about it because??

‌he loves how you look with the curls

‌he loves your appearance no matter what tbh but your natural hair is just something else

‌it really emphasizes the you in you if that makes sense

‌words of affirmation isn't his strongest love language but boy, isn't he ready to compliment you as much as he can

I.N

‌he has a somewhat cocky smile on his face

‌like, you're just so attractive like that

‌you already were, but now you're just ten times more

‌and it also fits you so well

‌it gives you more aura if you know what I mean

‌and if you do those really cute and creative hairstyles he's so !!

‌he finds it amazing

‌has a whole Pinterest board on inspiration for hairstyles because damn, he didn't know he needed you in those before he saw it for the first time

‌a lot of accessories as well

‌he'll find a way to match your hair accessories to some of his own acessories

Masterlist | you'll probably like: you have a lot of tattoos

Thank you for reading <3

Taglist (open!): @yuyubeans @dandelions-143 @sleepyleeji

Credits for images 1 2 and 3

Dividers by @isisjupiter

[toxycodone]

anytime I think of modern laios I jump with joy, like thinking of this man just casually living with you and being boyfriends is so cute ☹️💭

HE IS SUCH. A GOOD BOYFRIEND.

like don’t get me wrong he comes with his flaws. I’m pretty sure his lack of communication skills can be a big issue. He probably fails to accurately explain how he’s feeling. People will flirt with him and he never really puts them in their place or shuts them down (he doesn’t pick up on it). And like. With his “creative pallete” I’m sure the toilet has PTSD from him but…

he’s genuinely such a sweet guy and never fails to make you feel loved. He gives you creative compliments that aren’t based on looks or whatever but like. Just niche things he notices about you? Like the way you always feed your pet before you or how you scrunch your nose when you’re popping a pimple or how your pitchy, loud laughter has a cute little noise at the end.

and he notices good traits about you that you don’t? how you inspire others/dutifully do your work/etc. when he compliments you or kinda doubles as reassurance because he compliments you on a job well done pm.

he also actually cooks and does the dishes too. He likes meal planning and surprising you with food he thinks you’ll like 🥺💞

He likes to go grocery shopping with you and try new things..he’s a partner that makes mundane things a stress relieving experience. he’s just like? therapeutic to be around tbh

I think Laios also talks about you a lot LOL I don’t think he can help it. It’s just like. He connects the most random dots sometimes and people are like “uhm okay anyways”

[davyjoneslockr]

uhhh how about Abbacchio for the ask game? (sorry I won’t stop hyping them up they are so cool)

(For this ask game)

First impression: Tbh I actually really really liked him from the beginning. Grumpy Old Man who is actually 21 is such a funny character concept, and when they revealed his backstory and stand? Immediately in love. Adore characters who can’t escape the past and, in his case, are quite literally doomed to eternally repeat it.

Impression now: Still love him!! I wish he had more of a fleshed-out character arc in some respects, but I like that his final moments are framed by him doing a simple, mundane act of kindness, and leaving a final message that only Giorno can interpret, implying that he’s finally come to trust him. He’s one of the better-written characters in Vento Aureo imo, and I just find him really interesting. The little snippets we get of him in Purple Haze Feedback really add to his character, too :]

Favorite moment: Is it too basic to say “the only time I’m at ease is when I’m with you, Bucciarati” boat scene. Because Bruabba Brain aside, like. What an awesome monologue and insight into his character, especially when you think back to another favorite scene of mine during the Man in the Mirror fight, where he basically outlines his desire to serve something greater than himself. Which you would normally take as him being sort of subservient to the most powerful force at play, but by getting on the boat, he shows that he still has agency, and, even if it’s a losing battle, he’s more interested in defending what’s right rather than what’s most comfortable. Great stuff.

Idea for a story: PRE-CANON STUFF I LOVE YOU PRE-CANON STUFF. I need to write more about the fucked up weird little group dynamic between him, Bucciarati, and Fugo in the early days of the gang. Especially when he first joins, and they’re all getting slowly adjusted to one another like a bunch of skittish cats.

Unpopular opinion: Hate it when people say he’s the dad of the group. He’s not a dad just by virtue of being with Bucciarati (whose role as a “parental figure” I do buy but in a tragic fucked up way but that’s another rant). He’s the grizzled old grandfather who sits on his porch and throws peanut shells at kids who step on his lawn, but if you sit down next to him for a while he’ll tell you stories that’ll change your life, and he’ll pretend to be annoyed by you but he’ll let you have a sip of beer and call you “kid.” Do you understand me.

Favorite relationship: Him and Bucciarati obviously. Near-religious devotion and regarding him as your savior but still calling him a freak every now and again so awesome. But I also really love his relationship with Fugo that’s touched on in Purple Haze Feedback, and I like how, despite unreliable narrator Fugo thinking they weren’t close, so much of the person Fugo becomes is a reflection of Abbacchio. You became the very thing you sought to destroy etc etc.

Favorite headcanon: He knits and crochets. No reason behind this really, I just think it’d be nice and therapeutic for him. He likes to knit scarves, blankets, etc for the rest of the gang, leave them in their rooms, and pretend they weren’t from him. Everyone catches on, but they know he’ll deny it, so they don’t say anything.

[letstalkwhump]

Let’s Talk Whump No.3

Welcome to Let’s Talk Whump!

I’m Malice, from @whumpers-inc and today I’ve got the fabulous @brutal-nemesis in the house to talk about her experience with and love for whump!

Let’s talk about you! Tell us something about yourself :)

Yo, I'm Nemi, I'm in my 20s and a whumper all the way, baby. Outside of whump, I like rocks (like have an entire degree in geology like rocks), video games (Octopath Traveler, Pokemon, FE, Nancy Drew PC games...), anime (don't ask me about Chainsaw Man, I won't shut up), and hiking (rocks but in their natural habitat).

What does “whump” mean to you?

I get to stab men and laugh about it. I love violence, I am very sadistic

Your fearsome reputation is something of a legend around here. How did you find whump and what made you want to join?

Very long rabbit hole but to be less long about it, I saw some whump stuff on the blog of a pokemon tumblr I stalked (because I didn't have an account) and I was like, Hey This Is The Shit. I lurked for a while but as time went on, I wanted to talk to people about whump and share my own shit cuz I've never really had anyone to talk to about that sort of stuff (at least not without making them really concerned lol).

Being able to talk about wanting to beat up/stab/restrain a guy without concerned looks and questions is so therapeutic, honestly. Do you have a favourite(s) whump trope?

Gore, noncon surgery & body modification, vivisection, female whumper w/ male whumpee, and just general depravity!

Female whumpers, my beloveds! Speaking of favourite pieces, tell us one that you’ve written?

Uhhhh what have I written at all...mmm, well, as far as Castys things, if I had to pick one, it'd probably be Cycle-stys of Yikes . Basically it's a nice little overview of Castys losing his damn mind while he's stuck in a lab for like 240 years. It's probably one of the darkest things I've written as far as, uh, what happens, and that's saying a lot. Idk I just feel like I did a good job with describing these really fucked up actions as...whatever the hell he thought was happening.

For Erebus and Terror...it's hard. I'm really proud of the whole series, tbh, just how I've been able to develop both Erebus and Neteri over time as they change each other, but for a standout chapter...Maybe Chapter 14, Red, White, and Blue , cuz I really love the way I wrote Erebus's panic and what was happening to him from his POV without explicitly describing what was happening. And what's not to love about how upset he is in that one :)

Damn, Red, White and Blue! You’ve definitely earned your reputation..that was brutal! Is there anything new you’re working on at the moment?

Yare yare...I should get started on the next chapter of E&T at some point, shouldn't I? I mean, I have a huge AU stockpile that's basically all between me and one person and we just sit on them, so probably nothing from there for the people...So yeah, probably the next chapter of E&T whenever I get around to that and then I'll probably try to come up with something for Castys since I'm sure people miss him.

Take it from me, the people definitely miss Castys! Care to share what your writing routine usually looks like?

Hahahaha who knows, man. Back before my lil hiatus, I used to write every day whenever I had time and felt like it, but then I became Gamer Mode for a few months and I'm still working on getting out of that habit. But usually just on the couch or in my room with either my video game/anime OST playlist on shuffle (she's 59 hrs long!) or my weeb playlist (anime ops and whatnot) because if it's English words then it's harder to focus on writing,  y’know. Usually I jump around in whatever chapter or piece I'm writing, writing the scenes or bits of dialogue/description as they come to me, and slowly stitching the whole thing together until it's one whole blanket boy.

Is there an easy thing for you to write, something the words just pour for? Anything you struggle with writing?

The easiest thing in the world is whatever bullshit thoughts Castys is having. He is incredibly easy to channel. Any of his dialogue or what he's thinking about comes without much thought. The words also usually flow for my classic™ incredibly long run-on sentence paragraphs that have like no breaks in them cuz it's all go go go, baby. Erebus and Neteri talking isn't too hard either, especially if they're bickering. As far as hard, probably descriptions of pain because it can hard to say how much a thing hurts over and over without being repetitive. I am also not a researcher.  I will just be out here making shit up because it's MY fantasy world so I can have whatever bullshit I want!

Do you have any words of wisdom or writing advice for us?

Well, my old habit that worked for me was to try and write every day, for at least half an hour. If I end up going more, great, but if it's not working at least I tried. That and inspiration is everywhere. Steal whatever shit you like and cobble it together into something unrecognisable. It's not plagiarism cuz you're making something new. Like, E&T came from Stephen King's Misery and a magical girl anime. Go crazy, go stupid.

Go crazy, go stupid. I love it! Let’s give a shout out to your favourite writing/whump blogs, bffs or people who've inspired you. We're hyping everyone up here!

Can't not shout out the bestie @galaxywhump who has impeccable taste and bomb writing and we talk a whole lot everyday and yeah, queen shit. @just-a-whumping-racoon-with-wifih-wifi is another good friend and amazing writer and she's got so many different stories that everyone can find something they love. Ugh, there's a lot of other people I could talk about, but I'll give the last shout-out to @whump-side cuz her art just always hits the spot for me, so fuckin good.

Thank you so much for taking the time to talk to us today. Is there anything you like to add?

Don't be afraid to be a little bit silly, lads, we're here to have fun and it doesn't have to be the most serious shit in the world for it to be good whump. we love being silly and crazy.

Thanks for dropping by @brutal-nemesis ! 

And to all the readers, have a whump-derful day!

[oatmilktruther]

I'm excited to see anything on your WIP list tbh, but House of Wolves? 👀

okay so house of wolves aka what if ed struggles with violent intrusive thoughts, and then feels horrible because he loves stede, how could he even *think* about hurting stede, and when he finally admits it to stede, stede is like “those are just thoughts, and i know for a fact you would never hurt me in a way i didnt want.” and ed is like “okay but— what do you mean ‘in a way i didnt want’” and then enter stedes pain kink and them having therapeutic pain play sex about it where ed starts to feel better because he has concrete evidence that hes not actually capable of hurting stede in a way that would really hurt him. also tell me im a bad man kick me like a stray dot mp3. you understand.

[greekgeek24]

Thoughts on Almost Finishing Bette Davis Eyes

I can’t believe that Bette Davis Eyes is almost finished. It’s surreal and bittersweet to me but also fulfilling and rewarding. This was my first Stranger Things fic! 

I wasn’t sure if I’d like Sranger Things fanfiction tbh. I’d read some wonderful fics by @lexirosewrites​, but I was so entrenched in Marvel that I wasn’t sure I could even write about a different Steve! 

But I’ve learned that branching out and trying new things is so worth it. I never expected that this would be one of my biggest stories, and man, has it been a wonderful journey! The hits, kudos, and comments were such a blessing. 

Thank you, readers, so much for coming along on this journey with me! 

Truth be told, I was in a really dark place when I started writing this fic, and this story really helped me deal with what I was going through. I think sometimes, you just need to write all the bad things down. There’s something therapeutic about being able to express the darkest parts of you. 

I’ll be focusing on finishing I, Walk on Water next, and working on my event stories. But I may or may not have a few more Stranger Things fics on the way ;)

And if there’s anything you ever really want to be written, hit me up! <3

[eliza-rivers]

answering all these cause I’m bored 👍

1 - Coffee mugs

I’m

2 - Chocolate bar

3 - Bubble gum

4 - A good leader

5 - Soda bottles

6 - Tomboy?

7 - Earbuds

8 - Movies

9 - A certain sunscreen idk unless I smell it

10 - Mat ball (indoor kickball, if you hit the back wall you’d get a home run for yourself and everyone on the bases, I got lots of home runs 😫)

11 - Nothing or a protein bar

12 - what the fuck

13 - Keychain

14 - Warhead cubes

15 - Ultimatum (we had to choose a book to read so i chose that)

16 - man spread with one leg elevated

17 - white platform converse 👍

18 - Raining really hard, thunderstorm or blizzard

19 - on my side with my leg on a pillow or smth

20 - Notebook

21 - Journaling

22 - Chappell Roan

23 - Biting my nails I guess? Not very strange-

24 - Emerald

25 - Girl on Fire

26 - Hate warm weather, baking

27 - Freezing my ass off on walks (very therapeutic)

28 - Skinny, Wildflower, Kaleidoscope, 🤷‍♀️

29 - Talk to me

30 - Walking home from school in the winter

31 - This very low cut shirt and cargos 😔

32 - No clue

33 - “What the fart”

34 - Spotify fender ads

35 - 3 am

36 - I don’t know 😔

37 - Duffel bag

38 - Tea

39 - Lemon meringue pie

40 - A teacher was talking to a student (sexting) and then payed the student 10$ not to tell but she told and he got arrested lol

41 - My mom

42 - Jacket pockets

43 - Hoodie

44 - Something fruity or vanilla

45 - Sci-fi

46 - Bra and sweatpants

47 - Aged sharp cheddar

48 - I guess strawberry? (moots said that)

49 - “Life is too short, love is too long” - tlt iykyk

50 - When I had Lyme disease and my family was going to a water park and we walked there and saw a deer on the way and I asked if I could pet it and my mom said “No it has tics” and I said “So do I?!”

51 - School

52 - It changes but rn italicized times new roman

53 - Scarred up and I have a spider bite somehow but fine other than that

54 - My job taught me that I’m still just a kid 🤷‍♀️

55 - Don’t know any

56 - My (divorced) mom and dad always give each other gifts on the day they divorced..

57 - Being lazy, being ‘dumb’ and overcoming a lot of anxiety

58 - Singing, acting, writing and coffee making

59 - I don’t know 😭

60 - Never watched anime

61 - “Life is too short, love is too long”

62 - I don’t know

63 - Pink Pony Club, Hot to go, Good Luck Babe, anything Chappell tbh

64 - Unblocked games 76 iykyk 😫

65 - Two on my hands, three on a calf, a lot tbh.

66 - Roses

67 - My favorite pen

68 - Black licorice

69 - the average human has 7 pounds of poop

70 - both

71 - Polka dots or stripes, they piss me off man..

72 - Math

73 - Grapes and cheese

74 - Solid 7, I won’t complain unless I can’t bear it

75 - 4

76 - Au gratin

77 - Cactus

78 - Coffee

79 - School id

80 - Earth tones

81 - Fireflies

82 - PC

83 - Writing

84 - Barbie

85 - Podcast

86 - Cookies

87 - Reject

88 - Have friends

89 - My little sister

90 - Found 20$ on the ground

91 - Bags

92 - Lamps, NEVER THE BIG LIGHT

93 - I want people to come up with their own for me, it feels more special that way

94 - Winter

95 - Safari

96 - It’s just grey 😔

97 - 7

98 - The 1900s 🤷‍♀️

weird asks that say a lot

in

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

7. earbuds or headphones?

8. movies or tv shows?

9. favorite smell in the summer?

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

12. name of your favorite playlist?

13. lanyard or key ring?

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

18. ideal weather?

19. sleeping position?

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

21. obsession from childhood?

22. role model?

23. strange habits?

24. favorite crystal?

25. first song you remember hearing?

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

28. five songs to describe you?

29. best way to bond with you?

30. places that you find sacred?

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

32. top five favorite vines?

33. most used phrase in your phone?

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

35. average time you fall asleep?

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

37. suitcase or duffel bag?

38. lemonade or tea?

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

41. last person you texted?

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

44. favorite scent for soap?

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

47. favorite type of cheese?

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

51. current stresses?

52. favorite font?

53. what is the current state of your hands?

54. what did you learn from your first job?

55. favorite fairy tale?

56. favorite tradition?

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

62. seven characters you relate to?

63. five songs that would play in your club?

64. favorite website from your childhood?

65. any permanent scars?

66. favorite flower(s)?

67. good luck charms?

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

70. left or right handed?

71. least favorite pattern?

72. worst subject?

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

82. pc or console?

83. writing or drawing?

84. podcasts or talk radio?

84. barbie or polly pocket?

85. fairy tales or mythology?

86. cookies or cupcakes?

87. your greatest fear?

88. your greatest wish?

89. who would you put before everyone else?

90. luckiest mistake?

91. boxes or bags?

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

93. nicknames?

94. favorite season?

95. favorite app on your phone?

96. desktop background?

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

98. favorite historical era?

[thaleleah]

hahaha my dad is literally such a pervert 😂

my stepmom is such a terrible person! she made my dad get rid of our family cat who's been in the family since i was in high school and i had to find out by visiting my dad one day and found my baby was gone 😭 they didn't even ask me if i would take her in cause i would've and they just gave her away like she was nothing 🫤

right?!! she always speaks highly of my dad on purpose to boost up his manhood so he doesn't leave her = no money for her. she is such a manipulative liar.

"he'd probs break a damn hip" had me dead 😂

so. for some unknown reason, a lot of women find my dad hot (ew) he's literally your typical bald and old white man 😂 i honestly think it's his money that attracts this women, he's a sugar daddy for these younger women 😂 i've never met his girlfriend but she's just another gold digger! and i believe she's in her late 20s-early 30s!

ask away babe i love this. the tea is hot here 🩷

i feel you girl. nothing worse than a parent choosing the stepmonster over their own kids. like what more do they want from us? you ruined our families lives! that's what they are good at!

awee girl i'm so sorry this fucker has influenced your relationships. but i don't blame you at all cause i would probably be the same too. they cause nothing but trauma. but you got this girl! i promise you, you'll find someone who is worthy of your time and won't remind you of your fuckwit stepshit 🩷

i'm sorry... court? what a fucking loser. girl please hire someone to beat the shit out of him 😂

omgg yess these vents have been so therapeutic for me! i personally don't have a good relationship with my sisters at all and i refuse to talk to them about my dad and stepmonster because they are just pure assholes who only care about themselves. we have each other so *big big hugs through the screen* 🩷

i bother my friends sooo much with sending them anything tom blyth 😂

THE WAY I HATE YOUR FAMILY RIGHT NOW OMGGGG

I would not be able to forgive them if my family got rid of our cat without even asking me if I wanted to take them in. I'd probs go completely no contact with them (and by no contact, I mean because they'd be dead)

Also, fuck this side chick too. Let's just add her in there cause she seems like she's just as bad as the rest of them 😂 How did he meet her anyway? Was she the replacement secretary to your stepmonster? 👀

Yeahhhh he really fucked me up good. But I'm honestly such a huge romantic at heart and I'm hopeful that a soulmate will come and sweep me off my feet one day

🎵 A dream is a wiiiiish your heart maaaaakessss 🎵

Also, yes. Court lol. He offered to help pay for part of my college tuition as a "The past is the past. I'm a changed man. Let's be a ✨family✨ now" and then he got pissed cause dropped one of my classes that I didn't even need and said that I was "ungrateful". So he threatened to take me to court and sue me for all the money he 'wasted' on my tuition. Now... I'm not saying that I want him to fall off a cliff. But if it happened? Can't say I'd be upset about it tbh

Yes, babes! We def have each other! *big big virtual hugs* 🧡 And I appreciate you listening to my rants too cause i don't have a therapist right now and I really should lol

Side note: OBVIOUSLY Tom Blyth is the finest specimen on earth. That's no debate. But.... thoughts on Austin Butler? Cause he just came on my radar and ohhhhh mannnn 👀

[elvesofnoldor]

like anne rice could be such good writer if she just wrote with compassion and empathy for her characters. There was this "baby Jenks" character from the beginning of the queen of the damned and her story was so afforded so much genuine love and compassion it was literally my favourite part of the first part of the book. Baby Jenks' story reminded me of some of the best Sandman one-off characters' story tbh, it was that good. Wish Anne Rice always write with so much love and compassion though. Anyways, It's no wonder, tbh, that Baby Jenks character is actually Claudia (lestat wept for that girl because he was weeping for Claudia from his life, pretty sure at this point Anne Rice consciously projects her own motherhood onto him). maybe at that point in anne rice's life, she has heard enough about things like re-incarnation and all the better places one can go to after death that all that stuff is allowing her to started to make peace with the tragic death of her late daughter?? but i wonder if she ever got to walk out of her grief? cause idk? she kept writing vampire books??? to the end of her life???

like it's honestly such a mess that she wrote IWTV in response to the very tragic death of her daughter. I have to be honest, i cannot begin to imagine just how painful it is to go through something that traumatic, but i also felt like writing a psychosexual gothic horror vampire story is not exactly therapeutic either. It's kind of funny that it takes getting into the vampire chronicles for me to truly understand what vampires really are. But i do, finally. Vampires are not weird fantastical creatures, they are not Death itself, and they are certainly not Life Everlasting. Vampires, like ghosts, are simply a spiritual embodiment of the very rejection of Death. They are very effective device to examine the human condition, because we as human beings all fundamentally reject the inevitability of death and obliteration of the self we currently possess. We inherently fear change, fear loss, the changefulness of life, and the annihilation of self. Vampires embody a certain state of mind that's frankly universal in humans. But I don't think Anne Rice always wrote her vampire chronicles knowing vampires are??? if she ever knew??? Definitely not at the beginning though, when Louis was definitely just her self-insert and he brought Claudia to live with a theatre of vampires and they live happily ever after. I mean, midnight mass really got the Point when it says "the only way to achieve True Immortality is to accept and embrace death, and because vampirism is inherently about rejecting death, it will NEVER be life everlasting". Honestly the only reason that motivated me to read more Vampire chronicles is....well...i wanna know if Lestat can just? idk, be happy? be free? But this dude kept trying to get together with his abuser and i honestly don't even know what to say. Really i do not understand why Anne Rice kept making it happen. I have seen zero evidence that Louis changed to become better person and someone actually deserving Lestat's love. And more importantly, idk man, im not a psychologist but can you stop being a p*dophile??? so um. humm. i don't fucking know about this, lol. Like, im gonna be fucking real here, fuck all that "lestat was a bad person" " lestat was manipulative" shit, please grow a brain!!! Lestat was a good and loving person!! Period! all his bullshit has to do with the fact that he died a horrific and traumatic death and was never able to free himself from the pain and despair that trapped him in his vampiric state. But to let go of his pain and truly be the good person that he always was again, it'd require him to...well, embrace true death. But since Lestat will never end im guessing he will just have to stop being a bonafide vampire and become some sort of dark fantasy faery creature lmao. I'm starting to suspect the reason people think prince lestat trilogy is cringey because her vampires just...aren't even vampires by the end of it lol. Im suspecting that Anne Rice literally had to come up with some fantastical mumbo jumbo to justify her vampire characters finding happiness because these bitches kept walking into the sun and they kept not dying from it. I mean, lestat croaking for reales is kind of depressing so MAYBE i will take this shit. maybe i will still read the prince lestat trilogy lol. I heard there is bloodborne lore in there.

[a-wayofthinking]

subhaan Allah kids are just amazing. the tiniest things make them the happppppppiest, and they’ll take everyone with them to play. they trip and fall - maybe cry for a bit but get right back up again and continue despite of their hardships.

[deconstructivesurgery]

I think I took my love for pathetic men a little too far and simply became a pathetic man myself, honestly-

...pathetic person? Pathetic... entity, maybe?

Yeah, that works <3.

Anyways who wants to watch me lie face-down in a ditch and sob so you can have a video game cutscene moment where you try to comfort me /j

[cowboy-like-mee]

i wish i could change

summary: depressed! reader and boyfriend! harry

warnings: depression, mentions of wanting to d word

word count: 1.1k

a/n: hello. i am ending my year and a half long hiatus. i am writing this in the midst of a depressive episode, so it is based off real life me rn! it was kinda therapeutic tbh. i feel a lot better after getting this out.  i listened moon song by phoebe bridgers, my tears ricochet by taylor swift, and a different age by current joys on repeat while writing this. have fun!

p.s. i kind hate this :/ i feel like the end is rushed but whatev. i hope you enjoy. i feel like i might want to write more about this couple. i have many ideas also! if you have any requests let me know! or i can post what my ideas are and yall can tell me what you want first!

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Sitting in the filth of your room never made it any better. But you just couldn’t help it. There were empty bags of chips and dirty clothes everywhere. The floors need vacuuming. The bed hasn't been made in weeks- the fitted sheet isn't even on the bed anymore. You've just been lying on the bare mattress with a blanket covering you that doesn't even reach your feet. The smell of old food and dirty laundry stings your nose every time you breathe in a little too deeply. You needed a shower. There were clumps of your hair sitting next to a pair of scissors on your desk from where you had decided it was a good idea to chop a few inches off at 3 am yesterday. 

You're pretty sure you hadn't been to a single class in at least a month. You were failing only two at the moment, luckily. Last semester it was three. Emails and text messages were piling up in your inboxes. There was no point in setting alarms anymore. You knew you weren't going to wake up anyway. 

You really just missed your mom. You missed her encouraging words and her hugs. Her hugs. Any of your problems were made to be nothing with just one of her hugs. You know she would be beyond disappointed to see the state of your life right now. 

Nothing even happened to make you feel this way. It's just a part of that never-ending cycle of depression that seems to hinder everything you try to do. There are no words to describe what happens in your head when you get like this. No therapist or medication could ever stop this feeling. It's like the weight of the world sits on your chest. You can't breathe. You can't think. You can't move. You can't even provide yourself with the basic necessities one needs to survive. 

You try to tell yourself to get out of this funk, but nothing will help. Nothing has ever helped. 

Well...maybe one thing has.

Harry.

Your boyfriend on two years. The man who has helped you out of funk numerous amounts of times throughout the last couple of years. Of course, you don't always feel like this. It comes and goes. It seems nowadays it mostly comes. It never seems to go. But when it has come, Harry has been there for you. He has fed you and showered you and loved you and kissed you and never ever judged you. 

You feel like a burden. 

No matter how many times he tells you he does it because he loves you. He hates seeing you like that. He wishes he could take all of your pain away. You mean everything to him. He loves you. He loves you. He loves you. He loves you.

You don't know why. What kind of man wants a girl who goes four days without showering at times. Or a girl who wakes up at 3 pm because at night her thoughts wander so far she has to hit herself in the head to stop them. A girl who can't just...be normal. 

Either way, you know one thing is for certain. You love Harry. You really do. You probably wouldn't be here if it weren't for him. He has changed your life. There have been more good moments with him than bad. He kisses you just to kiss you. He watches your favorite movie with you weekly (even though you know he despises it.) He goes out to brunch with your parents because he loves talking to the people who created you. He buys you flowers every time he goes to the market just because he loves to see you smile every time he gives them to you. 

He really was made for you. Nevertheless, you felt like you didn't deserve him. 

You wish you could change. You wish you could change for him. You wish it was easier to be alive. You wish you didn't want to die. For him. Not for yourself. You wish you could be the perfect girlfriend. The girlfriend he deserved, not one that rots away in her room.

Harry walks in. You hear the door to your apartment creak open and gently shut. Footsteps lead into the kitchen, probably putting down the food you know he probably bought for you. You sit up and try to put on your most neutral face. You sniff your armpits and wince a little. It's only been since yesterday morning you showered, but a little deodorant wouldn't hurt. Your door opens letting in light, making your eyes squint and your hand instinctively come up to block it. 

"Y/N?" Harry says. You smile for the first time since you saw him last a few days ago. "Hey, baby." He gives you the softest, pure smile you've ever seen in your whole life. He tilts his head at you with a concerned look on his face. 

"Hi." You croak out, using your voice for the first time in a while. He walks up to your bed and pulls the blanket down to lie with you. You scoot over to make room for him. He climbs in and immediately wraps his hands around you. His face buries into your neck and plants soft kisses along your throat. Your hand goes into his hair and softly brushes through his soft curls. 

He hums. "Mmm, I love you." He kisses you again right on your jawline. "I've missed you, baby. How has my girl been?" Your throat tightens. You're regretting not answering his texts. He's probably been worried. 

You smile sadly. "I love you more, angel. I-" You pause to think of an adequate answer to your disappearance the past few days. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I haven't answered your texts. I've just been...not feeling well. I've missed you too. So much." Your eyes are welling with tears, but your room is dark so maybe he won't notice. 

He pulls back a little to look at your face. His heart breaks. His girl has been feeling bad and he hasn't been here for her. "Oh, honey. It's okay. You know I just want to make sure you're okay." He kisses you sweetly. Your heart swells. He really is perfect. "I brought you dinner. I hope you haven't eaten." He smiles at you.

You laugh wetly. " Eating hasn't really been my number one priority today." 

He frowns, "Y/N, you have to eat, love. It's important to take care of your body." He sits up and grabs your hand. "Come one. Let's go eat and watch Silver Linings Playbook." He pulls you up from your nest. He wraps his arms around you and engulfs you in a hug. Your head rests on his chest and you just breathe in. 

You reach up and kiss him. You will never understand how this man can be so selfless. He really has changed your life. You will love him at your highs, and you will love him at your lows.

[bsdwhore]

SFW Dating Chuuya Headcanons

a/n: literally been wanting to write this for so long so i have no idea why I didn't bc like ITS MY MAN ?? genre: fluff

warning: swearing ? not proof read, very messy

Anyway nsfw part coming soon 😏

okay so first off I think that he's probably never been in a relationship neither does he want one. It's just extremely inconvenient, him working in the literal mafia. It would be really time consuming which he doesn't have and dangerous if you didn't work in the port mafia.

So if he were to have an s/o, they'd probably work in the port mafia. That way they'd understand if he wasn't able to always be around and he wouldn't have to be extremely concerned for their welfare because they'd be able to protect themselves.

So bearing all this in mind, he's never really had a proper crush on someone until you came around and caught his eye for whatever reason 👀

and knowing chuuya, he would suppress all feelings for you and deny it.

"I have no feelings for y/n. Definitely not. The only relationship I want to and maintain with them is them being my work colleague. Nothing more. Woah they look so pretty right now ARHG FUCK DAMN AHHADSBFDHKSF" *angrily stomps away*

as we all know bottling up feelings is not good and eventually just blows up in your face. Which is what happened to chuuya.

After months and months of denying feelings, he angrily confessed to you-without even realising he did😃

You were just minding your own business, then chuuya just like angrily walks up to you, literally shouts at your face his confession, then leaves like nothing happened ???

Of course to chuuya, it was like nothing happened until an hour later (yes, an hour later) he was like "wait what did I even say to y/n?" , realises and immediately grabs a shovel to dig his own grave😟

He runs to kouyou's office and cries in her lap. She has no advice to give him bc he fucked himself up fr tbh. But you eventually come in to kouyou's office and confess your undying love for him too so it's all good 😩👌

Anyway moving onto to actually being in a relationship with him-

cuddles- chuuya loves cuddles, he loves cuddling you and being cuddled. It's like probably all he does when he comes back from work. I think chuuya likes being the small spoon the most. He likes both but he loves being held around his hourglass figure waist 🥰

something that happens a lot though is chuuya coming back from work, tired as hell. He drops everything on the floor, and just kind of collapses onto the bed and hides his head on your chest, wrapping his arms around your waist.

I don't think chuuya is big on pda tbh. He personally hates seeing couples who are really touchy touchy in public so he wouldn't really want to do the same. He'll hold your hand and link arms and stuff but nothing more than that really

CHUUYA LOVES MATCHING ANYTHING

matching chokers, matching rings, clothes, tattoos. He is a sucker for matching anything. I already headcanon that he's got a few tattoos 😩 so i think he would love the idea of matching tattoos, probably not something really obvious that it's matching tattoos, but something subtle and small and pretty that you can't really tell that it's a matching tattoo

dates with chuuya are very fun and adventurous like rock climbing or laser tag or travelling but they can also be classy and romantic like taking you to fancy restaurant.

we know this man got money so he definitely has a private plane. "wanna go to paris for breakfast? Maybe dinner in italy? switzerland? philippines? ( it was just the first countries that came to mind-)

CHUUYA IS VERY GOOD AT COOKING😩😩 so don't worry if you cannot cook at all, he can do it all for you and even teach you and chuuya is a PERFECTIONIST so the food literally looks like it's from a fine dining restaurant

night rides on chuuya's motorbike, blasting music, is a thing you guys do frequently. It's very therapeutic and whenever either one of you is feeling down you'll be like "wanna go for a motorbike ride?" and the person whose feeling down will feel instantly better

chuuya probably bought you your own motorbike and taught you. Of course it's the best quality and brand so dw👍

you'll probably play like follow the leader on the motorbikes but obviously you can't go up the buildings like chuuya 🙄

PLAY WITH HIS HAIR or style. He loves when you play with his hair and if you've got long enough hair, he'll probably braid it and stuff too

there's days where chuuya probably needs comforting and reassurance bc he's quite insecure about a few things, struggles with not feeling human, abandonment issues, probably feels like you might leave him too (basically everything that happened in storm bringer). He's not vocal about it though so you probably have to be good at reading him 😭. Although i don't think he'd be very hard to read tbh. You can just kind of tell what he's feeling by his face even if he's trying hard not to show it

he LOVES head and back massages, giving and receiving but especially receiving. He tends to overwork himself a lot so massages relieves stress and just helps

since you both work in the port mafia, there'll be times where either of you are gone for periods of times overseas or just for missions in general so when one of you are going to go, a week before you guys will just hang out and do everything together and treat one another bc both of you will miss each other

one time chuuya was gone for like months and you finally found out he had come back and was in mori's office rn so without even thinking, you literally BARGED into mori's office and basically jumped into chuuya's arms with so much force, you both fell and gave him loads of kisses, saying how much you missed him and mori was just there like *cough cough* ahem 🙂

you were surprised you didn't lose your job tbh

also chuuya was not happy and very embarrassed but he also missed you so he didn't care that much

whilst I think chuuya doesn't mind a bit of banter, I don't think he would like being with or thrive with someone who constantly teases, jokes and makes him the butt of their jokes (even if it's someone's way of showing affection/love language). He doesn't like feeling made inferior or dumb to someone which he doesn't need and whatever thing you joked about him, he'd probably think about it for years

I also think chuuya loves compliments (whether he realises this or not) and he'd also think about those particular compliments forever lmfao

So give him lots of compliments

chuuya is also a very stubborn person (he's a taurus what you expect?) so fights don't go too well. If you are also stubborn then they REALLY do not 😬

anyway my mind has gone blank so the end

[ohmykazuha]

coffeeshop

order: HOJICHA (ほうじ茶)

from the customer: diluc, zhongli, childe, thoma, albedo x gn!reader

warning: fluff

a/n: cafe au!!! welcome to the teyvat cafe! :D let's try to get this past 200? maybe? :"D

DILUC.

- diluc's working at your local coffee shop now. traded wine for coffee /j

- the hot barista around the block :heart eyes:

- he's genuinely so cool!!! that black apron! that flour stain! he's so cool as a cafe worker!

- let's just say he attracts all the people... including you. seeing him for the first time caused you to sign up for the cafe regular membership and everything XD

- he's the gentlest with all the cakes and everything :heart eyes: he doesn't want anything to break hehe

- watching diluc work is genuinely therapeutic. like one of those k-cafe or j-cafes that do vlogs and stuff

- i have a feeling that diluc does more of the drinks section than the actual foodstuffs! as his background of a winery owner, etc

- he does all those pretty little latte art designs in front of you ahh

- yeah diluc's pretty cool as a cafe worker! :D 10/10 service!

ZHONGLI.

- zhongli...

- man handles the tea >:D

- he's actually really good at knowing which teas need to be steeped for how long, which teas need sugar or milk, etc

- he puts all the love into his teas tbh you can't help but get a cup because of his ✨flaming✨ passion for tea

- he's good at interacting with customers as well! he's friendly, soft-spoken, and he's like that guy that you can just chat about anything with.

- zhongli would gladly use his rest break to come and chat with you. after all, the teyvat cafe remains an open space for interactions~

- he'd tell you stories of being the geo archon his past work experiences

- AHHH he attracts so many people its insane

- let's just say that... teyvat cafe would probably never go out of business...

- zhongli's a perfect 10 ;)

CHILDE.

- "hold still, girlie~" *gets slapped by the manager*

- n e ways childe is a pretty chill worker! he manages the dessert section of the cafe~

- he's actually pretty good with ice creams and bingsu-s and stuff like that! i love the idea of him doing OPCs (from zoe's cafe videos: oreo plus cookie ice cream)

- he chats with the customers a lot! and gets reprimanded because he's supposed to be doing that only during his rest breaks >:(

- childe is in charge of the music. that's it. he and thoma fight a lot over the aux chord as well LOL

- i'd like to think that he tends to almost drop stuff that thoma has to react really quickly so as to not make a mess XD he's clumsy give him a break

- nevertheless, i think childe would be head waiter. he gives me vibes and his social skills are pretty good as well!

- yeah, childe's a pretty good cafe worker. if you come often enough, he'd give you regular discounts (and would get scolded by zhongli bc every mora is precious) and perhaps a kiss~

- 10/10 service :wink:

THOMA.

- thoma thoma thoma thoma thoma @severedftaes come get your man

- anws. him serving you food? sign me the heck up. bro i want hot chocolate and croissants or bagels from him. or sushi. idk. spätzle sounds amazing though

- thoma likes to do a little dance as he makes his way to your table

- and he doesn't spill anything :D

- he has to save the stuff that childe almost accidentally drops though XD

- he bakes little brownies and cookies >:D

- master waiter!!!

- imagine him sitting down with you during his rest break... mmmm

- he'd play a few introductory games with you!!! like twenty questions, idk

- by the end of your time at the cafe you leave with his number. wink wink

- 10/10 service. would come again. and tip him a huge amount XD

ALBEDO.

- albedo is generally more serious than the rest (i.e. everyone except zhongli) but he does have his moments where he's more laid back!

- you can catch him humming sometimes :D

- i'd like to think that he works with drinks more than food! lattes, mochas, cappuccinos, etc. its all done by him.

- albedo prefers to not interact as much with the customers, unlike childe. but that's okay... all the customers are staring at him anyways XD

- albedo does cool frappuccinos! he experiments (haha get it) with different flavours and combinations and things like that! he came up with an interesting matcha mint flavour once

- he's more of a shy smile type of person, i would think!

- he's very gentle with everyone :D nice to have around, and he's quite a breath of fresh air

- he tends to the plants outside as well~ its all lush and greeny heh

- yeah 10/10 service would come again!

i hope yall liked this i spent a long time on this TuT like and reblog if you liked it ahhh!!!

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