#madd negativity

[kitkat-dreams]

I don't really want to talk about my daydreams anyway but GOD it sucks so bad to know that even if I did, I'd absolutely be disliked by a lot of people.

"You think about THAT kind of stuff?? 😧"

YEAH. VERY HAPPY TO KNOW MOST PEOPLE HATE THE PART OF ME CLOSEST TO MY CORE. GREAT TALK.

[justaboymadeofhoneyandglass]

not-quite-right life

I stare at the turquoise bathroom tiles, they're pretty but they're not quite him. The yellow sunlight is beautiful but it's not quite like them, the red i see when I bleed is right, and good, and I stare at it for a second too long, but it's not her red, not her blood.

The rainbow on the not-quite-right tiles, put there by a slightly dirty mirror, is nice to look at, but it's not exactly what it's supposed to be, what it could be what my brain could make it out to be.

The mirror is disappointing, not because it is wrong but because what it reflects is. I stare at myself, not quite daring to move because it might change something, anything.

So i live my life, staring at not-quite-right tiles, and disappointing mirrors, and not quite red enough blood, the sun outside that blinds instead of enlightening, the moon that makes my eyes hurt and my heart heavy instead of serving a break from the daytime.

I live my life, seeing and knowing and comparing everything I see and want and love, and hate and experience, to what my brain has made up.

Something in me wants to throw up, get rid of the deep dark thing inside of me that ruins every thought I have, every moment I live, every nice memory and every good song.

But even that would not compare to what my brain thinks it should be.

[sillycyan]

"Ermmm guys am I just figuring this out or has me imagining scenarios to fall asleep been maladaptive daydreaming all this time?!?"

YOU GUYS ARE GETTING SLEEP?

[acircusfullofdemons]

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[kitkat-dreams]

Just adding on here to continue the thread. I get these so often, and will absolutely be using day nightmares to describe them now.

Like Luka said, I think mine are usually triggered by stress or rumination. I have a lot of dark themes in my normal daydreams, but these feel distinctly separate. For me, these are specifically about me (instead of my usual fictpara plotlines) and tend to just be horrible scenarios I don't really want to be thinking about. Like way too detailed outcomes of "what if X horrible thing happened to me?"

I don't think theyre intrusive thoughts purely cause I can stop, but the hard part is realizing I can think about something else instead. Its frustratingly often something will send my brain into a "what-if" spiral and I'll only realize like half an hour later I'm creating worst case scenarios in my head and need to snap out of it

I just remembered that I had this exchange with my best friend, and I gotta page the experts on this, because he had a really good question:

And here’s how I responded:

I dunno what that’s like for anyone else, but that’s, for the most part, what it’s like for me. I do we have a word for that? I totally wanna hear everyone’s thoughts/experiences on it.

I totally remembered because I kept seeing (important) conversations popping up about how some of the themes that appear in our daydreams can get pretty problematic, so I figured this was pretty relevant.

[infiniteorangethethird]

Do you know what is something that really, really fucking hurts as a MaDDer?

My longest standing/main paracosm is reaching its 10th anniversary today. I've been mentally preparing myself for this for a while now, choosing to celebrate by building up for one of the biggest climaxes in the story of said paracosm. Both these internal events, and the fact that it's been 10 (ten!!!) years, they mean a lot to me.

And there is absolutely no one I can share this excitement with.

I have no idea how to properly convey just how important all of this is to me. These people I've created in my head, who have been with me for years, whose internal struggles and emotions I'm more familiar with than my own. These stories, these worlds, that are so indescribably large it takes near a minute for the doc containing said description to just load. And all the emotions they spark, good or bad, so vivid that sometimes they feel more real than my emotions towards the real world.

To most people, daydreams are just "random ideas to toy around with for a few minutes to ease boredom", I suppose. Some people don't even daydream. To most people, the idea that your daydreams can be a part of a consistent, coherent internal world, one that holds significance to you - it is unimaginable. Foolish.

And even if they did try to understand, how the hell could I even convey the impact of what is happening internally? How could I just go "oh hey one of my oldest paras just killed one of the most powerful gods for the first time since existence began" in a way that it makes sense? How could I let them know just how deeply all of this affects me, how could I share these grandiose emotions I'm feeling?

I dunno. I guess I just really wish there was someone out there who understood - not just related, but with whom I could share, whose reaction would be more than just "oh that's cool I suppose"

[homemadde-nightmares]

Having a major complication with your mother that’s making you feel all consuming dread and anxiety? Never fear, a solution is here! May I present to you dissociating for hours on end pretending the real world doesn’t exist!

[kkujo]

something i don't see people talking about is the way hyperfixations come in like stages and cycles like it's not just "i'm obsessed with this thing" it's like. euphoria from finding something new and it brings you so much joy and then as that initial dopamine rush wears off you start to get more and more down and feel isolated as you start to realise that no one else cares about it as much as you do and you feel silly for being so into it and the thoughts become repetitive and boring so you get more and more depressed and lonely and then you inevitably lose the hyperfix which leaves you drifting feeling miserable and hopeless until you start the cycle again. idk if i explained this well or if other people will understand but it brings genuine phases of euphoria and straight up depression and this is why i get annoyed when neurotypicals use words like hyperfixation to describe like, an interest. bc it's not. just an interest it becomes who you are and when you lose it it's like losing yourself and you spend so much energy thinking about it that it interrupts your daily life and it's so fucking draining 👍

[lesbiansandco]

madd making it impossible to get anything done today 😭😭

im not even listening to my daydreaming playlist! its just my liked songs on shuffle

bro lemme get stuff doneeee

[rainbowgothdisaster]

just so you know i fucking hate reality shifting :)

a lot of the ppl who promote it dont know what theyre talking about :)

it WILL cause maladaptive daydreaming disorder which is a "fun" kind of hell, and if ur one of the ppl that gets real into it actually existing and actually being a separate reality you are actively promoting delusions and psychosis fucking sucks and fuck you

[kitkat-dreams]

Does anyone else have to ban themselves from consuming disaster/horror/generally fucked up situations in media because your brain goes "okay but what if that was you" and then the following daydream is so vivid its 30 minutes later and you didn't realize youre crying

[justaboymadeofhoneyandglass]

fuckk you guyss

I think i like sprained my elbow muscle or some shit cus it hurts when I move ittt

and i think ik whyyyy

So in my room I have like my pacing route for my daydreams, right? we'll at the end of the route I push against one of the wood thingies in my room to turn around without losing speed

and i slipped like the day before yesterday and since then my arms been hurtingggg

fuck this shittt

[sillycyan]

I always feel really shitty when I’m talking to ppl while at the same time kinda thinking of other things.. It’s like I’m in two places at once and I can’t really ground myself to one, but I do so good being able to balance both at this point that there is no point in me stopping. And I want to stop, I really do, but I’m always being dragged away from my own mind.

[acircusfullofdemons]

might private @/fractured-fables or just stop posting in it & talking about it on here occasionally. despite my best efforts fandom ppl keep finding it & I feel like it has to be "good" aka follow the source as closely as possible which obviously isn't how my brain operates. Idk. I just feel like every post I make on there is gonna have someone say "thats not right, change it". especially bc its classic lit & fairytales, which have many versions/interpretations and widely accepted facts that are actually misinfo about them. if feels like I gotta get everything Right Or Else.

@/madasacrow doesn't have this problem because ive changed the names so on the surface it just looks like a comicverse inspired thing which yeah technically it is. Idk it just isn't as obvious what the sources are or unlike ff I don't have to say certain names bc thats how the Tale is so it might show up in tags accidentally.

[madd-information]

When do immersive daydreamings become MADD? I see a lot of relatable things in MADD community, but can't really understand if my daydreamings are just immersive or especially maladaptive. If it's possible, can you provide examples? Thank you.

Immersive Daydreaming becomes MD when the daydreaming habit causes distress and dysfunction. The behavior will have a negative impact on the person's life. Where that impact hits is different for everyone but some common experiences include: Not being able to stop even though you want to and have tried multiple times. Yearning for your daydreams when you are not actively engaged in them. Becoming angry when your daydreaming is interrupted. Choosing to daydream over other desires or responsibilities. Self-isolating and shunning social contact in favor of daydreaming. Continuing a daydream despite physical discomfort, pain or injury associated with the daydreaming behavior (pacing, for example, is very common among MDers). There are many other ways the "maladaptive" part can manifest, but I hope these few give you a better idea.

[coolingrosa]

Who made the 3 stripe ,2 stripe ,and 1 one stripe rule for the how age ranges in ROSEVERSE?

(Sorry if someone already asked this)

Hello! I made this system! I’m sure other medias have used it before, but while writing it, I hadn’t consumed any media with it before and still haven’t, so I like to say I coined it! Or at least madd it more known? Perhaps I’m still wrong and someone used it wayyyyy before Roseverse!

Quick refresher:

“Three stripes represent children under five.

Two is children six to twelve.

One is twelve to eighteen.

No matter the au, if you see a monster with three stripes, they are not to be touched. The Bad Sanses even follow this and will step away from the child while bringing negativity or even take them away from the conflict. They will even go as far to save them if something is about to hurt them. Killing monsters with three stripes directly is an unforgivable sin. “

The system was made by culture, not a specific person in the multiverse. It’s a trend that follows every AU, and if it doesn’t, then those AUS have strict rules when it comes to children or other forms of distinction.

I did this for a lot of reasons, but mainly, I don’t like how evil people will make Monster Kind in media. Even in the darkest AUS, they are different from humans, and this strict social rules separate them from humans. Monsters, at their core, were always supposed to be a kind race, and that’s true even in Underfell AUS. Their morals would follow that, even the cruelest of murderers.

I…also don’t like the idea of young children suffering in war to show how dark your setting is. I feel like there’s other ways to show cruelty snd abuse of power without bringing the innocence of children into it as a plot device. It shows true evil, and I don’t feel comfortable writing an originally very sweet and gentle race participating in the horrors of human war. War is dark. War is cruel. But Monsters in Undertale aren’t humans. They wouldn’t be as cruel as us, even in dark days. It’s just not a fair representation of war between monsters themselves.