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[annomimi]

Recently I watched the gameplay of BO6 and I find the (campaign) story to be very interesting. And I genuinely became fond of Felix's character (I have a tendency to basically fall in love with pacifists, I guess I just love this character trope that much). So, I got this idea that has been in my mind for few days now about Felix being a parent.

‼️Warnings: none I guess, just grammar mistakes (probably).

As we all know, Felix is shown as very peaceful character in the game. He's technical genius, very smart, very knowledgable. He's also friendly and mild-mannered, totally standing out from the rest of the "The Rook" group. Though his deeds aren't all that nice, since he himself admitted that he's done things he's not proud of (aka being associated with Stasi). And throughout the campaign he expressed his regret for the killings and murders he commited. But I still dare to say that the idea of him being fairly good father is self-explanatory.

I have this idea that he would be such a good girl dad. Just imagine, after moving to West Germany and living there for a while and working for some good cash, eventually he starts wondering what else he could do. Don't get it wrong, he likes the way of his new life - having a passion for innovations and doing what he likes (programming, cracking codes, etc). Though, he still feels as if his life is lacking something. And that 'something' turns out to be random orphan girl running around the streets without any care in the world.

I'm not exactly sure how these two individuals would've meet nor how these orphanage-systems had been working at the time (I need time to brew something up and also do a research) but I just know that eventually Felix would take this kid in. And I know that he wouldn't really regret that. He's living his new, peaceful life with a purpose of not spreading any more violence and naturally, he can teach another young lost soul this way of living.

The girl herself doesn't really feel lost, at least at first. Though, only later she realises that her life has been lacking a lot. Mouth-watering food, warm tidy bed, a room just for her. Her life lacked safe space to return to after wandering the streets for hours with people she used to call her brothers and sisters (though these peer groups were such a terrible influence on her), a place that she could call home. And in so-called home someone is always waiting for her to return. The someone who eventually starts calling her 'daughter' and the someone she grows to call her 'papa'.

So yeah, I believe that after such interesting experience of adoption, both of them would add more meaning to their lifes. Felix would have someone to tale care of, to teach and generally just be a good person to them, this way lifting up some guilt off his shoulders. And the said girl would find home and eventually would learn that the world isn't only poor streets, dark alleys and bad companies.

I guess in the future I'll write more to this idea (because I'm obsessed, at least right now). Though, someone else's writing on this would be very much appreciated as well <33

[herearedragons]

i think i fooled myself into believing i sent an ask before whoops can i get 5, 7, 17, 25, 31, 33, 39, 40, 43, 45, 50!!!

5. If you could make only one of your OCs popular/known, who would it be?

well honestly Selene is already what I would consider a popular oc because like. more than a handful of people know who she is and have said nice things about her and people have ??? drawn her ??? unprompted ??? which is WILD shoutout to the Selene fandom once again. so if I had an option to make one (1) oc popular on a larger scale it would probably be her because I already know she'd click with people (and also she's my favorite and I'd never get sick of talking about her/seeing other people talk about her).

but also as a secondary option, Aqun and/or Adina because I feel like they have some fun nuance to them and I'd be kind of curious to see different people's takes/opinions/interpretations of them

7. Are your OCs part of any story or stories?

BDJDBSJSHSJSBSJDJDKS well?????? yes?????????

most of them are part of the story of their associated videogame, and then there's all the fic I'm writing. I do also have some non-fandom characters/settings rotating in my brain, but it's nothing concrete enough to talk about

17. Any OC OTPs?

no OCxOC ones, but a lot of OCxcanon ones tbh. if we narrow "OTP" down to One True Pairing as in "I can't envision them with anything else" then it's Selene and Edér (surprising no one) and Mae and the Devil of Caroc (which also shouldn't be surprising). if we interpret it as "favorite ship regardless of whether this PC has other ships", then I'm adding SolAqun to the list bc they've also been on the brain lately. the holy trinity of Doomed Yaoi, Undoomed Yuri and Impending Doom Het Ship

25. The OC that resembles you the most (same hobby, height, shared like/dislike for something etc?)

funnily enough probably Aqun. we look nothing alike but Aqun🤝me (multicultural, multilingual, single child, STEM, Logic and Rationality as a coping mechanism, inclined towards Making Things, burning hatred of Social Overcomplication)

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)

Adina would 1000% be on here and her blog would be red-themed with yellow/blue/green accents, have a custom HTML theme she edited herself with artwork BY her, and it would be just all of her interests in one big pile with a barely functioning tagging system. she posts her vitaar designs a lot and her pfp is Her Actual Face with her favorite vitaar design up to date. she uses all caps/keysmashes a lot and vibes perfectly with tumblr's more absurdist kind of humor. Funny Nonsense comes to her effortlessly

33. Your shyest OC?

LORENZO. he's trying so hard to figure out how to People and having the physique of a Death Omen + an evil voice in his head is not helping. also he was a slave for the first 24-ish years of his life and old habits of Be Quiet Be Helpful Don't Speak Unless Spoken To die hard

39. Introduce any character you want

making you look at: the guy from the previous question. he's a runaway slave. he's a Ghost Bard. he was briefly possessed by the god of death and killed everyone in his master's estate with a song. he can sing ghosts into existence. he's haunted by his evil past life. he doesn't speak Aedyran (Eoran English) that well yet. HE'S SHY.

40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share!

@curiouslavellan I have to shout you out again because brainstorming Selene and Helaine plotlines in real time in DMs has been one of this year's highlights for sure. the people don't even know about the soul merging in POE1 and the Selene Is Dead drama in POE2. they don't even know about the werewolf au (well. one other person knows about the werewolf au)

43. Do you have any certain type when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? It’s time to confess

I'm going to be real, my OC creation process IS just like. *spins wheel* so what's the source of YOUR deep set feeling of alienation

45. A character you no longer use?

shoutout to this girl who is an old creepypasta OC of mine. I still care her

50. Give me the good ol’ OC talk here. Talk about anything you want

subjecting you to the mental image of Aqun and Eldritch Wolf Solas chilling together in some nice scenic place. they never got to do that but I think they should have

[suzteel]

I'll just throw a bunch of these out there and you can respond to whichever ones you want <33 🧩🏜️❄️🍄🍬

what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

Poor formatting/grammar is like the thing that immediately springs to mind. Opening a fic to just a solid wall of text is an automatic nope. Same with first person pov (like with published novels, I know it can be done well, but my trust in the author needs to be rather high before attempt it in fanfic).

what's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?

I'm still very much the type of writer who cherishes kudos emails (I got one this morning actually 😊), so I'm being sincere when I say that any comment is pretty much my favorite. But if I'm being picky, I would probably say that comments that point out a favorite line/part and how they made the reader feel are oh so delightful.

what's your dream theme/plot for a fic, and who would write it best?

Oh I only want the holy grail aka a long post-canon VegasPete centric fic that lets them be messy and angsty and working through their shit through lots of kinky sex and difficult communication and mistakes and angry words and tenderly picking up the pieces, that also deals somewhat realistically with Vegas's injuries and includes teaming up with Porsche and Kinn to take down Korn, all with characterizations I agree with and writing I enjoy and ends with a happy ending.

That's not too much to ask for, right??

Though I do feel a little bad for saying that given the number of amazing authors who do have really great post-canon fic that I love and adore. I'm absolutely not knocking any of them. Some of them get pretty close (except in length, god, I would love just...more, you know). But we are talking the dream fic here so.

And as for who would write it best, I couldn't begin to answer that. Too many choices but also like...maybe that person just hasn't arrived on the scene yet. A girl can hope, right?

share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings

Oh man, I struggle to just pull these out of my head on command...ok. Well, a personal head canon I have for Pete is that he has no strong opinions about music. He's generally cool with whatever whoever he's with is listening to, and for his personal tastes, he favors music with steady beats that he can put on while exercising (and he doesn't particularly care if he can understand the lyrics). He's probably had the same songs on rotation forever. But while he's never going to be enough of a music guy to "get it" whenever someone's discussing their favorite music and if you asked him what kind of music he liked, he would just kind of smile and shrug at you, he does, in fact, have a fondness for the luk thung music his grandmother used to listen to and he grew up with. And while he's not listening to it on the regular, he will put some on when he's feeling comfortable and happy.

Vegas and Macau, of course, tease him mercilessly about this. But it doesn't take Vegas too long to figure out that it has positive associations for Pete and it isn't too long before he himself starts to appreciate the genre (though he would never ever admit it).

post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character

I've already answered this one for someone else and it's late, so I'm gonna pass on this one for now. Thanks for the ask though!

[rabbitcruiser]

National Ferris Wheel Day

Ferris wheels have always been associated with childhood; it’s no surprise how loved they are around the world, as people who aren’t afraid of heights get to see the horizon of the world around them.

Ferris wheels, however, are a most recent invention over the past 200 years. That’s why National Ferris Wheel Day exists! National Ferris Wheel Day is all about teaching people the history and cultural significance of this magnificent machine.

Learn about National Ferris Wheel Day

National Ferris Wheel Day has been designed to honor George Washington Gale Ferris, Jr, who is, of course, the inventor of the Ferris Wheel! We’re sure that most people reading this have fond memories of going on a Ferris Wheel, whether at a theme park or at a tourist attraction. Ferris Wheels are a lot of fun, coming in different sizes and enabling us to see for miles and miles! You may have even had your first kiss on a Ferris Wheel!

Since the Ferris Wheel has been invented, there have been some incredible Ferris Wheels built around the world. This includes Canada’s Niagara Skywheel, which enables you to look over the Niagara Falls. It’s truly breathtaking. You also have The London Eye, which looks over London’s Thames River. Another famous Ferris Wheel is the Tianjin Eye Ferris Wheel in Tianjin, China. What makes this Ferris Wheel so spectacular is the fact that is erected over a bridge that spans the Hair River. There are so many incredible Ferris Wheels, so we definitely recommend doing a bit of digging online on this day. You could even make a bucket list of Ferris Wheels that you would like to visit!

History of National Ferris Wheel Day

George Washington Gale Ferris invented the Ferris wheel in 1893 when at age 33, he introduced his invention to the World’s Columbian Exposition.

This exhibition was also known as the Chicago World’s Fair, where people at the time were celebrating the 400th anniversary of Columbus’ landing in the New World. When people saw it for the first time, they immediately saw it as the United States’ version of the Effiel Tower.

Ferris’s creation stood at an enormous 260 feet high, with 36 cars encased with glass and locked doors, and weighed in at a total 26,000 pounds. After the exhibition, the Ferris wheel ran from June until October 1863. It wasn’t until 1894 that the Ferris wheel got taken down completely.

The dismantled part of the Ferris wheel was actually made into good use; During World War I, the scraps were used to make battleships, specifically the U.S.S Illinois. Now, Ferris wheels are everywhere, from carnivals, festivals, and can be seen at any kind of celebration.

This holiday honors his birthday as well as his invention. People celebrate this holiday by taking the time to ride the Ferris wheel and feel the wonder and excitement that comes from it.

Some make it a lover’s date, as it is the perfect place to gain some intimacy. Others come with their friends and family to take part in the event and some just take the time to learn about the different kinds of Ferris wheels around the world, which is fun in its own right.

How to Celebrate National Ferris Wheel Day

Head to your closest fairground, theme park, or showground and go straight to the Ferris wheel for some awesome fun! Bring your friends, family or lover with you when you go, and make it a date.

The theme parks that have been built over the years are truly incredible. If you plan ahead of time, you can make sure that National Ferris Wheel Day is one to remember by visiting one of the most thrilling theme parks in your area. Not only will you be able to go on a Ferris Wheel but there will be plenty of other rides for you to enjoy as well, from rollercoasters to dark rides and themed experiences. There is something for everyone!

Take some time to learn about the ingenuity involved with inventing the Ferris wheel, and look up all the most well-known Ferris wheels from around the world. Host a party and make the theme all about Ferris wheels.

You can also take some time to learn about the different facts associated with Ferris Wheels. If you take a look online, you will see that there are some really interesting facts. For example, did you know that the largest Ferris wheel in the world is found in Las Vegas? It is called the High Roller and it is 550 feet tall! You can also look up some of the more classic Ferris Wheels. For example, there is the Wonder Wheel of Coney Island. This Ferris Wheel has been standing for over 100 years now and it was constructed by the Eccentric Ferris Wheel Company. You’ll find it in New York.

Of course, the day has been chosen because it is the same date as the birthday of the inventor, George Washington Gale Ferris Jr. So, why not learn a bit more about him? A civil engineer, born in Galesburg, Illinois, George is known for the Ferris wheel concept and the original Chicago Ferris Wheel. He lived a short life, dying at the age of 37-years-old. This was shortly after the death of his father. Both died of typhoid fever. Despite having a short life, George Washington Gale Ferris Jr. certainly achieved a lot, and you will find a lot of interesting reads about his achievements.

If you’re an avid collector, start collecting antiques associated with Ferris wheels and help share your love of Ferris wheels with your friends.

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[prettyboykatsuki-moved]

hi my lovely fang!! ramadan kareem! also happy belated isagi day!! loll i’m tipsy doing my skincare and watching formula 1 + premier league football (<-being delusional abt my teams winning. i’m no better than a m*n) but my mind ran on you so i said lemme go blab in your askbox <33

not day drinking or anything dw. just came back in from a bday dinner and then we ended up at a nightclub ?? for some reason ?? the music was really good and it felt good to be out with friends. idk, the old me wouldnt have even entertained the idea of going out so i hope ur proud of me for socializing even when i got drained like an hour into the whole thing.

hope the spring's been good to you so far. (i for one am salty since this weather still feels treacherously winterlike to me.) and remember to pace yourself for school.

life has been so interesting lately: moved out of a toxic household and decided to establish boundaries with family (got villainised for it), trying to learn an instrument as a hobby, became a deku fan (‼️♥️☹️‼️) and an arthur morgan enthusiast (⁉️), my kitchen sink randomly flooded and my landlord was an ass abt it, finally watched howl’s moving castle,

always always still thinking of oliver tho. atp i mentally chant his name like my own personal litany against going apeshit in law school. i think u were talking abt songs that remind u of him and i would like to add for ur consideration: that tyler song w/ pharell? called “ifhy”. also DONT LAUGH but i cannot hear anything off the wiped out album without some association to him. some russ songs too. idk what it is abt that bastard but i enjoy putting him in mental aus he has no business being in: like we both know he’d be a regency AU scoundrel or like a rake or smth and yet i’ll be on the subway crafting it in my mind palace LMAO

back in the day i used to depression-watch the encore westerns channel so those scruffy ruffians u have been read dead posting abt are making my ears perk up a little (a lot).

if i was actually writing you as a legit penpal i would decorate your letter and use different coloured ink and stickers and send u a polaroid and stuff. i am so fond of you like whoa. hugging and squeezing and pulling you 🫂🫂🫂🫂 like taffy!! have a great day and an even greater eid !!

-resident oliver gremlin xoxo

RAMADAN KAREEM EVEN THO I AM ANSWERING POST EID AS SOME KIND OF FOUL BEAST!!!! and happy belated isagi day to u twin i hope it was wonderful

i actually heard alot about the f1 stuff from beloved mutuals posting and general internet circulation!!! lots of . stuff going on in that place from what i can tell . i hope ur special sports guys won i love u !!

also glad ur not drinking too much. a birthday dinner and nightclub feel like a random combo sdjhsdkfj but sometimes u just dont want the night to end so i really get it. im not a club girl either it is so overstimulation for me in a way i have a hard time with so im SO proud of you

i feel u abt spring it is so midwest core how cold it fawking is rn fdkjkhdjfkg. but its fine we ball

ALSO SO PROUD OF U!!!!! setting boundaries w fam is sooo dogshit but u did right by yourself and thats all that matters. iA it becomes easier. also instrument, deku fan, and arthur....... ohhh anon it has been a busy and fun life i see.

I MISS OLIVER SOOO FREAKING MUCH IM HAPPY U BRING HIM UP. i agree ifhy by tyler suits him so much im going to throw my guts up fkgjdffgklsd. also no he is very russ song actually.... best on earth ft him and bia.... i will eat glass. im glad his horrible and annoying ass can support the bad beautiful shorty u are thru law school... the most he is capable of im afraid. ALSO WAIT REGENCY AU KIND OF EATS...... WILL BE SIMMERING ON THAT ..... i think him being a sleazy powerful noble who's been enaged a billion times and broken up with even more chasing u a mean noble girl who hates him ohhh .. ohhhhh

ALSO IM GLAD U LIKE MY RDR POSTING. i am. completely out of my mind about them forreal its actually notfunny anymore JKFDJLKS. but thats alright.

I WOULD LOVE GLITTER PEN. mine would have so many stickers. SO FOND OF U TOO ANON... WE ARE KISSING AND HOLDING HANDS... EID MUBARAK AND MANY BLESSINGS

[starpros-sunshine]

Grimms Märchen <3

[persephonesfill]

hey girl heyyyy 1, 11, 22, 33, 44, 55, 66 (this charming man), 76, 77, 78, 79 for the ask games <3

omg thank you!! you are literally the best 💖💖 1. Do you daydream a lot before you write, or go for it as soon as the ideas strike?

Usually, my ideas seem to strike whenever I'm preoccupied with something else, so I have no choice but to sit and think about them until I can get to my phone or a computer.

11. Do you write scenes in order, or do you jump around?

I try to write scenes in order (which is why it takes me forever to write a fic) but recently I've been trying to write whatever I'm in the mood for instead of forcing myself to slug through a scene. I feel like it's working a bit better for me in terms of productivity but I kind of miss finishing a scene and know I have a certain amount of scenes left until I'm finished. When I jump around, it's harder for me to visualize how much of the fic is left for me to write.

22. Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process?  How do you come up with titles?

Usually during or after. Most of my fic titles come from music that I was listening to while writing said fic. There has been plenty a moment where I'll be listening to my playlist and have a eureka moment where I realize that either the song's title or a lyric from the song would be perfect as the title of my fic.

33. Is there a specific word count that you hold yourself to/enjoy writing the most?

Yes, but I'm trying to wean myself off of it. I dislike when my writing is under 1k. Fortunately, I suffer from can't shut the fuck up disease so I'm usually pretty good about meeting my word count goals.

44. What is your favorite genre to write?

I haven't written much fanfic in the genre, but I absolutely love writing fantasy. Like yes let me create a whole new world, let me believe in things like love and magic and ancient gods.

55. Have you noticed any patterns in your fics?  Words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc?

Yes. I'm nothing if not repetitive. I've found that I'm fond of color and light symbolism, especially when describing characters. I've also written a handful of soft, tender scenes between Steve and Tony that take place in a kitchen (extremely specific I know). I also feel like a certain neediness permeates my fics. Like every fic I write is just jampacked with longing either on Steve or Tony or both of their parts.

66. What’s a fun fact about [insert fic]?

Every chapter of this charming man has song associated with it. I tried to make them all older songs (aside from Search and Destroy, although that one is a cover of The Stooges song so maybe it does count) to help fit the retro vibe.

76. How do you deal with writing pressure, whether internal or external?

I have to remind myself that this is literally just for fun and that the stakes are extremely low.

77. Why do you enjoy writing fanfiction?

I love thinking about what ifs. Taking these little guys and putting them in situations that you would never see them get into in canon. Or even taking a situation in canon and wondering what other directions it could have gone in. I've always been a possibility-oriented person and fanfic allows me to ponder to my heart's content.

78. What motivates you during the writing process?

The fact that I'll have a complete story in the end. Something to look at and be proud of, like I did that. I wrote that short story/novella/novel etc.

79. Do you have any writing advice you want to share?

Don't let other people's opinions influence your writing too much. Keeping your audience in mind is all well and good but not when you're sacrificing your creativity and any excitement you have for the fic. You won't please everyone but that's okay.

Thank you again for the questions 💖

Send me fanfic writing asks!

[consulaaris]

🤝🎵👗 for seb or rowan (or both!!) 💗

ty azia!!! :’) <33 decided to answer for them both bc i miss them

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[ 🤝 ] how does your muse approach intimacy? are they hesitant, or do they like it? what types of intimacy do they like and dislike? (ex. physical intimacy, sexual intimacy, emotional intimacy, etc.)

seb: seb is very touchy-feely with his friends- he’s very prone to being physically close with people, and in the same vein he’s prone to casual hookups and seeks them out often; that’s something he’s always been open with and it’s easy for him to fall into patterns there. seb jumps all in for fast flings, but despite developing feelings for people quickly he also totally panics when it comes to emotional vulnerability, platonic or otherwise. he’s got a lot of issues re: opening himself up to people and not feeling wanted, and this fear definitely shows in his relationships- he’s incredibly resistant to any form of emotional intimacy despite badly wanting it.

rowan: though rowan’s largely grown out of his childhood shyness, he’s still pretty quiet, and he’s hesitant with any sort of intimacy initially when he’s getting to know people. he isn’t overly fond of physical contact in general, although i’d say he definitely doesn’t mind it with cove! overall he’s probably most comfortable with emotional intimacy, even if he doesn’t always put it into so many words— rowan tends to feel things very deeply and likes to form those connections with people and know them on a deeper level! he’s a little guarded, but not so much as afraid of getting hurt as he is cautious; by nature rowan has always kept his circle rather small.

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[ 🎵 ] is there a specific song or songs you associate with your muse? why is that?

seb: chosen by måneskin + heart of a dancer by the happy fits are the first songs that come to mind! the ~vibes~ of both songs just feel very him, as well as fitting with important/influential music is to him. could totally see him singing or dancing along to either of these.

rowan: curious hands by kuinka maybe? it’s got a soft sort of tone that fits him i think, and sort of works with the concept of finding himself :’)

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[ 👗 ] what is your muse’s fashion sense like? are they able to dress the way they want to? what would they wear in an ideal world?

seb: seb is a drama king and his fashion 100% reflects this. he tends to go for edgier vibes, like a lot of leather when he’s going for something more dramatic or just some ripped jeans/accessories when he’s more casual (in general damiano david is huge fashion inspo for him). he’s very fond of more dramatic makeup looks too, particularly with smudged eyeliner or glitter, and he usually wears a lot of jewelry and rings. seb’s also got a lot of tattoos & piercings as well, for another form of self expression! he doesn’t give two shits what other people think of his style, but he thinks he looks great.

rowan: rowan’s fashion sense is generally more subdued/beachy (think a more masc boho style, although he doesn’t like hats) but he does love a good leather jacket! he tends to be very casual— maybe wearing one piece of jewelry he made or cove gave him, and while he does wear eyeliner now and then makeup isn’t a huge part of his everyday look. as a teen he was more nervous about expressing himself, but he’s much more settled as an adult and dresses the way he wants.

[hotboxd]

[ 🔪 ] short note

hi doll! i was listening to music earlier and when i got to this song you were the first person to come to mind, i think the specific lyric was

“handsome stranger, you have made her insides turn to jelly. she wants to dance around the room, kiss you until her lips turn blue, but handsome stranger, you have made her wonder, is she pretty?” - absolutely smitten, dodie

i really love the lyric but i think that song in particular reminded me of you. everything by dodie reminds me of you.

there was another song that reminded me of you, it’s from be more chill. it’s a guy that is kinda be into. don’t know what it was about this song, none of the lyrics make sense for you but it was you i was thinking of the whole time.

i think i’ve gotten very settled with the idea that songs relate to specific people, there has to be a science about this right? FAR AWAY by easha always reminds me of bay, it has yet to fail. Dear Maria Count Me In by all time low never fails to bring my sister into mind. Heart Attack by LOONA (which my sister has grown pretty fond of) is always val and for some reason Hopelessly Devoted to You always reminds me of zel, especially if it’s the glee version. Mari is Fine on the outside, i don’t know why and i can’t explain it. i think it’s the rhythm and beat it plays at, and also how often they talk about it. although FAR AWAY definitely incorporates some lyrics. i find yours to be the biggest phenomenon, because it’s never the same rhythm or beat, and for some reason you remind me of dodie songs. it may be mentality, who knows.

and i know this is a short note i’m writing but i have a lot more to say so might as well say it right?

i always await you to answer to messages or asks, i haven’t figured out why. i’m always shaking with anticipation to see what you’ve said. i value your opinion, i think that’s why i always want to know

something i do that bothers myself is zone out. as an experiment i’ll be sending you asks everyday for the rest of the week to see if it helps, i don’t think it will in all honestly, but it’ll keep my mind off it won’t it?

i find that ive been thinking about you a lot more now that i’m always in the car, i think it’s all the spare time. but i have come up with a few things i’d like is to do together.

i hope you like strawberries because i don’t. i really love to go strawberry picking though. you get all dirty and find the largest ones, it’s so fun. but because i don’t like strawberries i always end up letting my sister eat them or making vanilla cake to layer strawberries and cream on for baking practice. my parents like to put it on ice cream, but they forget i don’t like it and have to give it away. i bet you would like it, and you’d feel like a monarch just sitting there being fed strawberries and cake and ice cream.

we could go roll down on hills together. i find it really fun to just get lost in myself as i roll. my sister hates how the grass gets in her mouth though, i never told her to eat the grass. my parents think it’s dirty. i think you’d have fun in it with me, its a lovely experience.

i don’t want to drag this on too much so i’ll stop here, you doing bed to hear 5 hours worth of things i thought about doing with you.

i love you j.d

- i wish i could assign songs to different people like you do, though my VERY limited music taste prevents me from doing so. i prefer to assign objects or colours to people. the colour that always pops into my mind when i think of you is a very light mint green, and most of the things i associate with you are little trinkets i've found around my room or outside, like this little wooden peacock i have or a container of shells from back when i went to b.c and kept running up and down the beach trying to find crabs. (surprise!! i didn't find any.) - i remember when i was little my mother had planted a few strawberry plants in our garden for my birthday when i was around six and i absolutely adored them!! everyday before school i would run out to the garden to check them for fruit and to water them, and when the fruit finally appeared i would pick as many strawberries my hands could carry and bring them inside. i think strawberry picking with you would be really fun, i'd bring two of those cottagecore wicker baskets for you and me to put strawberries in, i'd bring a camera too, though i think i'd just be taking photos of you. - gah that'd be so much fun!! i do that too whenever me and my sister go out to a park or somewhere else, though she never does it with me. there's this park near where i used to live, it has this huge hill that kids go sledding on during the winter. i used to love to go sledding there because of how fast i would go (the sled in question was one of those long sheets of plastic with two holes at the front), though it was more times than none that i would find myself landing face first into the snow.

i love you too keiko <33

[magicofthepen]

For the character thingy, romana and leela?? ❤

ROMANA - I’m going to answer for Romana I, since I already did Romana II!

favorite thing about them: so I fell in love with Romana I instantly when I watched The Ribos Operation. I was like “wait no one told me that Romana’s basically a recent graduate who always thrived in school but has now suddenly been thrust into the Real World and is a bit of a mess” and oh my god why is she so relatable, also I love that about her. I love that she doesn’t quite know what she’s doing, and her academic brilliance doesn’t necessarily help in the situations she’s finding herself in, but she keeps trying and learning, so by the end of season 16 she’s much more confident and capable on her own than she was when she started. I just absolutely adore the premise of her character and how she develops during the key to time quest. also her banter skills are so excellent. (….this wasn’t one thing whoops. 😄)

least favorite thing about them: I feel like it’s something about how she’s portrayed in the Gallifrey audios, but I can’t quite articulate what? but I feel like somehow, some of the things I really liked about her on TV (her witty fun banter, her determination even when she’s out of her depth) aren’t represented as much when we get glimpses of Actual Romana I (not Pandora or an alternate universe version). idk if this is even fully true, it’s just….she doesn’t quite have the same vibe as the character I remember from the TV show (but this is also tricky because the Lies scene, the Matrix projection in Lies (which *isn’t* really her technically) and the remains of her consciousness in the body that Pandora’s using are the only times we get Actual Romana I - which isn’t that much time to express all the nuances of her character.)

(continuing to skip the favorite line question because it’s too hard)

brOTP: her and the Doctor!! (like I said in the Romana II ask, I used to ship them more, but lately I’ve been more into a platonic interpretation.) I just as instantly fell for their dynamic in the Ribos Operation - two people with very different personalities who don’t get along but are forced to work together and gradually become friends?? this is exactly the kind of relationship arc that I adore. Their banter and snark is So Good (I was so entertained by their interactions in Ribos Operation that my brain refused to pay attention to anything but their scenes, and I ended up having issues following the plot later oops). And I love their growing respect and care for each other - how they go from being mutually dismissive of each other to valuing each other and being a solid Team and just really genuinely liking each other! their friendship is just Very Good (…..and now I really want to rewatch season 16….I’ve only seen it like one and a half times but I loved it very much….)

OTP: I don’t think I have any ships with Romana I that I would consider an ‘otp’? (the closest would be her and the Doctor since I have sometimes shipped them and I adore their relationship in general)

nOTP: Brax/Romana again….and tbh with Romana I it’s more of an actual nOTP (rather than ‘kinda nOTP, kinda ‘it’s complicated’’) because this is the time frame when she’s actually his student and so my discomfort with student/teacher relationships really rears its head (although there’s still one fic out there that I just think is so well-written.....but it does show the relationship as very unhealthy). 

random headcanon: .....so sorry to continue Sartia posting, but oops the first thing that popped into my head is my new maybe-unrealistic headcanon that Sartia was Romana’s first kiss. in a teenage “I’m curious and want to try this thing and you’re the only person I hang out with, but it doesn’t mean anything....or does it??” way. (.....this is so self-indulgent in such a terrible way rip.)

unpopular opinion: Armageddon Factor is my favorite Key to Time story! (I gather this is an unpopular opinion in Doctor Who Fandom At Large, it doesn’t seem to be liked as much as some of the earlier stories in the season.) technically I’ve only seen it once and it was a couple years ago, but I remember loving it as a Romana story, there were a lot of really interesting character bits for her!

song i associate with them: hmm I don’t really have one? my Romana playlist is specifically for Romana II in Big Finish so....yeah.

favorite picture of them: anything with her Ribos Operation outfit (with the full cloak), it’s iconic and beautiful! on a similar note, I love this Romana I art by @volucris-liga, it’s the first Romana fanart I ever reblogged and it’s so pretty!

more under the cut!

LEELA

favorite thing about them: her resilience and her kindness. Leela goes through so much grief and pain, she has her world upended again and again, she never really finds a place where she belongs. and yet she still keeps choosing to love, choosing to keep fighting for what she believes in, choosing to rebuild again and again. and sometimes it’s really hard and she doesn’t want to go on….but she does, and she finds moments of happiness again. and that strength is really powerful. and no matter how cruel the universe (and other people) are to her, she is still relentlessly kind - she listens, she protects, she wants to help, she cares. 

least favorite thing about them: I mean, the “savage” stereotype that her character references is a racist/anti-indigenous trope (especially the whole dynamic of the Doctor trying to “civilize” her ugh). and I hate that characters keep calling her “savage” (even when they’re the Bad Guys, it’s still bringing up this trope again and again, and it’s even worse when it’s the Good Guys). why are they still doing this.

brOTP: see all characters listed under otp, every relationship that I ship is also an incredibly important friendship in Leela’s life and I love all of them <33 as far as relationships that I see as entirely non-romantic….I really love the version of Leela and Ace’s relationship that exists in my head (and in fandom) - they didn’t get to interact enough in the audios, but I absolutely think they were really close, because of their shared experiences and the ways their personalities mesh. (I feel like I should also say the Doctor here, but tbh I don’t remember her TV stories that well, so I don’t really have a solid memory of what their relationship was like.) and of course, Leela’s parental relationship with Rayo is very important to me!

OTP: once again, ot3 my beloved <33 and Leela/Romana first and foremost (I already rambled about them here, so I’m just going to second everything I said earlier). 

and I also ship Leela/Narvin, although I’m not quite as invested in that pairing? (due to a combination of ‘Romana is my favorite character and so I’m just more interested in her relationships with other characters,’ ‘I joined the fandom when things were pretty much all Leela/Narvin all the time (I say with great respect and affection for the artists and writers putting out amazing content for that ship) so I was motivated to write fic primarily for R/L and N/R to balance out the ot3 content,’ ‘apparently I have a contrary streak with Gallifrey and the more the writers push a romantic interpretation of a relationship, the less interested I am in actually shipping it,’ and ‘I’m not really into Leela/Narvin as a pairing on its own - although I do love a lot of fic that portrays them that way bc it’s just very well-written.’) But just. how they form a grudging alliance for Romana’s sake and then develop genuine respect for each other and then build this really solid foundation of teamwork and fondness and care and really relax and feel comfortable around each other….the way they become ride-or-die for each other and just trust and love each other so much….it’s Very Good!! (And I did love writing scenes with the two of them in Call It Home - I might not focus on them, but I do genuinely love their relationship.) 

And of course Leela/Veega <33….I debated if they even interacted enough in the actual audios for me to consider it an otp, but I love the idea of their relationship and the story of them in my head so much?? going to link to this post because it really captures my feelings about them - they’ve both been through so much grief and pain by the time they meet, they’ve both lost people they love before, so the idea of them choosing to love each other and build something together against the odds is just. very powerful. plus I have a whole playlist for the family they’ve built together, which is a strong indication that I really love this ship. 😊

nOTP: Leela/Andred. last time I answered an ask meme about Leela, I had this complicated response about how I hated Leela/Andred when I watched Invasion of Time (bc it’s so abrupt and arbitrary), and then Louise Jameson’s voice acting Convinced Me To Care because oh she really did love him....alas i am a Leela/Andred detractor at heart, and I have been nudged back to my default state by re-listening….I simply hate how he treats Leela in Gallifrey.

random headcanon: I really like the idea of Leela being more politically involved in her own right after they all return from the Axis. She’s just spent a lot of time leading a group of people who don’t have a voice in the government, fighting for their rights against the established injustices of Gallifreyan society. I don’t think she’d easily slip back into only being Romana’s bodyguard after experiencing more political autonomy on the other Gallifrey. What exactly this looks like in practice I’m not sure about - in my one fic ‘verse, I wrote about her being more directly involved with the Academy as a political liaison and guest tutor, and also advocating to Romana for policies that would benefit those who live outside the city on their home Gallifrey. but there’s probably a lot of options to explore here!

unpopular opinion: hmm I don’t think this is necessarily unpopular but idk and I want to talk about it: even though Leela identifies so strongly as a warrior, a “happy ending” for her would, I think, need to involve getting away from fighting. too often she throws herself into a fight to try to avoid thinking about how much she’s hurting, and it doesn’t work, it doesn’t stop the pain. and in the Time War, she’s tied her identity so strongly to war (it’s inevitable, inescapable, and she will Fight and Defend because that’s all she has left). there’s a difference between “I am a warrior” and “all I am is a warrior,” and Leela’s slid too far into the second one, and she needs to untangle her own identity from war to heal. 

song i associate with them: Freedom by Karmina (it’s a song about going on defiantly in the face of heartbreak -  “Tearing my room apart, I’m starting over” / “Take my pride I can still survive I’ve got my freedom” / “Hunt me down you’ll never find me now that I’ve got my freedom”)

favorite picture of them: the first one that came to mind is this gorgeous art by @laurelhach (which I didn’t realize was based on a picture until I stumbled across the original picture and was like oh my god!! it looks exactly like the art!!)

[roselovesa]

have you seen CHOI HYEJIN ? i heard SHE is a FLORIST at THE GREEN MEADOW. they’re 21 years old and they’ve been living in san verto for one year. they tend to be BENEVOLENT & MAGNANIMOUS, but rumor has it they can also be CAPRICIOUS & FINICKY. 

｡*    ��       📂   𝐂://STATISTICS.

name: choi hyejin 

age: twenty - one

sign: pisces sun / libra moon ( click )

sexuality: bisexual

gender: cis woman ( she/her/hers )

occupation: florist , pianist, & composer 

alignment: chaotic neutral

｡*    ❪       📂   𝐂://BIOGRAPHY

* note: minho’s little sister !! <33 

📍   𝙿𝙰𝚁𝚃 𝙾𝙽𝙴 - 𝚜𝚎𝚘𝚞𝚕, 𝚜𝚘𝚞𝚝𝚑 𝚔𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚊.

born   as   the   youngest   child   of   a   nurse  &   a   teacher,   hyejin’s   childhood   was   nothing   out   of   the   ordinary.   her   love   for   music   had   always   been   apparent   —  her   mother   noticing   early   on   that,   whenever   her   daughter   was   throwing   a   hissy   fit,   all   she   had   to   do   was   play   some   classical   music   in   order   to   get   her   to   calm   down

hence,   it   shouldn’t   have   been   a   surprise   that   her   father   decided   to   teach   her   how   to   play   the   piano   at   the   age   of   6.   &  by   the   age   of   9   she   was   labeled   a   child   prodigy.   hyejin   would   often   participate   in   competitions,   attend   music   camps,   &   play   in   front   of   anyone   who   was   willing   to   listen.   her   talent   was   undeniable,   truly

in   the   years   to   follow   she   would   pick   up   other   instruments   here   &   there   (   violin,   guitar,   french   horn   ),   but   nothing   seemed   to   stick   as   much   as   piano   did.   hyejin   would   also   dabble   in   writing   her   own   music,   often   with   the   help   of   her   father

&   if   there’s   one   thing   hyejin   learned   it’s   that   practice   makes   perfect.   by   the   age   of   11   she   managed   to   become   an   extremely   valuable   asset   for   her   school’s   yearly   musicals   as   she   composed   about   60%   of   the   songs   performed   <33

she   went   viral   on   social   media   a   few   times   as   well,   her   youtube   channel   accumulating   about   1.6M   views   by   her   4th   upload.   she   would   frequently   get   interviewed   around   that   time   as   well,   with   professionals   often   commenting   on   hyejin’s   bright   future

📍   𝙿𝙰𝚁𝚃 𝚃𝚆𝙾 - 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚢𝚘𝚛𝚔 𝚌𝚒𝚝𝚢, 𝚄𝚂𝙰.

her   brother   getting   injured   on   tv   was   a   catalyst   of   change.   hyejin   convinced   her   parents   to   let   her   move   to   new   york   in   order   to   take   care   of   him,   being   well   aware   her   life   had   considerably   dulled   the   moment   he   decided   to   leave   a   few   years   prior

the   move   went   smoothly,   &   with   opportunities   lining   up   in   front   of   her,   she   decided   to   get   a   bachelor’s   degree   in   music   composition,   her   accomplishments   allowing   her   to   attend   one   of   the   most   prestige   universities   in   the   city

it’s   there   where   she   fell   in   love   with   a   guy   who   she   deemed   to   be   a   mentor   of   sorts  ;  always   pushing   her   to   do   better   &   achieve   unattainable   perfection.   it   had   been   so   easy   for   hyejin   to   trust   him   with   her   work,   with   him   appearing   to   be   the   more   experienced   &   wiser   of   the   two.   he   was   a   child   of   a   famous   musician   after   all,   mastering   the   arts   of   sweet   talking   unassuming   girls   with   a   whole   lot   of   empty   promises

so   when   their   uni   announced   a   proposal   of   a   student   being   able   to   apply   for   an   internship   that   would   skyrocket   their   careers   right   into   stardom,   hyejin   was   well   aware   this   was   an   opportunity   that   couldn’t   be   missed.   her   boyfriend   mentioned   how   he   wouldn’t   apply,   seeing   his   father   could   offer   him   a   job  easily,   but   mentioned   how   she   should   send   her   work   to   him   so   he   could   look   it   over   &  help   her   out

😬

“  hey   babe,   i’m   sorry   to   tell   you   this   but   the   piece   you   sent   me   just   isn’t   that   good…   i   can’t   quite   put   my   finger   on   it,   but   the   composition   is   just   wrong.   it’s   okay,   though,   you’re   only   a   freshman   &   still   have   a   lot   to   learn,   we’ll   work   on   it   together.   but   maybe   forget   about   the   internship   for   now   ?   i’m   sure   with   some   improvement   my   father   will   manage   to   get   you   an   even   better   job…   anyways,   love   you,   talk   to   you   soon   ”

crestfallen   &   humiliated,   hyejin   accepted   the   fact   that   it   would   be   simply   too   embarrassing   to   submit   the   sheets   of   music   she’d   written.   it   was   two   weeks   later   that   her   boyfriend   abruptly   ghosted   her,   only   for   her   to   find   out   he’d   gotten   the   internship   by   applying   with   the   composed   music   she   sent   him.   he   denied   any   claims   of   stealing,   &   when   hyejin   told   her   professor   about   the   situation   he   basically   wrote   it   off   as   well

📍   𝙿𝙰𝚁𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝚁𝙴𝙴: 𝚜𝚊𝚗 𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚝𝚘, 𝚄𝚂𝙰.

in   the   next   few   months   it   felt   like   her   life   had   crumbled   down   around   her,   hyejin’s   future   career   appearing   grim.   minho   &   her   decided   to   move   to   san   verto   in   order   to   find   peace,   a   fresh   start   waiting   for   them   there

she   took   up   multiple   side   jobs   to   get   her   music   out   there   again,   while   also   trying   to   push   past   the   writer’s   block   she   experienced   due   to   stress.   on   week   days   she   would   give   rich   kids   piano   lessons   after   uni   &   bloom   under   the   praises   their   parents   would   give   her   skills.   on   the   weekends   she   would   play   at   a   5   star   restaurant,   hoping   the   right   people   would   discover   her   there

having   lost   the   comfort   music   once   gave   her,   hyejin   decided   to   take   up   a   job   as   a   florist   &   keeps   herself   busy   tending   to   flowers.   it   isn’t   her   ideal   career   plan,   but   at   least   she’s   moving   forward   with   her   life

throughout   the   years   she   kept   uploading   videos   of   her   playing   piano   on   youtube,   each   video   getting   about   900k   views   on   average.   it   allows   her   to   be   fairly   recognizable   on   her   own   accord,   although   most   of   her   fame   comes   from   being   associated   with   her   brother.   she’s   starting   to   climb   in   popularity,   though,   spending   some   of   her   time   to   focus   on   crafting   a   stronger   social   media   presence

｡*    ❪       📂   𝐂://PERSONALITY.

🦋   𝙰𝚂𝚃𝚁𝙾𝙻𝙾𝙶𝚈 - 𝚜𝚞𝚗 𝚒𝚗 𝚙𝚒𝚜𝚌𝚎𝚜, 𝚖𝚘𝚘𝚗 𝚒𝚗 𝚕𝚒𝚋𝚛𝚊

click me !

empathic,   romantic,   impressionable,   &   imaginative   -   hyejin   tends   to   see   the   world   through   a   rose   colored   glass  ;   the   harsh   realities   of   life   often   making   her   want   to   indulge   in   escapism.   overall   a   generous   and   kind   person

can’t   handle   pressure   well,   ultimately   she’s   a   perfectionist.   hyejin   has   a   specific   vision   of   how   she   wants   her   life   to   play   out,   &   if   anything   interferes   with   that   she   might   feel   devastated   &   defeated.   however,   she’s   quick   to   get   back   on   her   feet   &  continue   pursuing   what   she   was   working   on

obsessed   with   fairytale   romances,   used   to   read   countless   of   young   adult   novels   hoping   she’d   experience   love   like   that.   hyejin   easily   tends   to   romanticize   &   idealize   the   people   she’s   fond   of,   thinking   they   can   do   no   wrong   in   her   eyes   &   putting   them   on   a   pedestal   *coughs* minho :( 

despite   all   of   that   she   has   a   great   intuition,   hypersensitive   to   her   environment.   she’s   often   aware   of   other   people’s   emotions,   meaning   when   someone   or   something’s   off   she   usually   able   to   identify   such   things   immediately

would   prefer   to   avoid   conflict   at   all   cost   as   well,   she   doesn’t   enjoy   being   faced   with   consequences   of   her   own   actions

at   first   glance   she   can   appear   rather   stand-offish   as   well,   not   really   the   type   to   walk   up   to   someone   &   handle   small   talk   in   an   eloquent   way.   she’s   shy   &   an   introvert,   the   type   to   hide   behind   her   mother   whenever   someone   addressed   her   when   she   was   younger.   hyejin   is   only   able   to   come   out   of   her   shell   around   people   she   knows   she   can   trust

channels   all   of   her   feelings   into   her   art  !!

｡*    ❪       📂   𝐂://WANTED CONNECTIONS.

💌   𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙰𝙽𝚃𝙸𝙲 - 𝚜𝚞𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜   (   open to m/f/nb muses !   )

current   flings  

will   they   /   won’t   they  

friends   with   benefits   (   one-sided,   purely   platonic,   etc…   )  

unrequited   love   type   of   thing   (   either   hyejin   or   your   muse  )  

fake   dating   au  

exes   on   bad   terms  

exes   on   good   terms  

enemies   to   friends   (   ?   )   to   lovers   /   flings   (   ?   )   to   exes   (   ?   )   (   we   can   do   this   however   you   see   fit   !   )

one   of   them   caught   feelings  (  thinking   they   had   something   special  )   &   suddenly   the   other   ghosted,   perhaps   leaving   behind   a   bruised   ego   )  

💌   𝙿𝙻𝙰𝚃𝙾𝙽𝙸𝙲 - 𝚜𝚞𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜   (   open to m/f/nb muses !   )

best   friend  

good   influence  

bad   influence  

childhood   friends  

protective   type   of   friendship   (   can   go   either   way   !   )  

confidants  

someone   (   preferably   an   artist   )  hyejin   looks   up   to  

friends   who   hang   out   purely   because   it’s   good   for   their   public   image  

secret   type   of   friendship   where   being   seen   together   in   public   would   damage   their   image,   aka   them   meeting   up   in   private   !  

were   set   up   on   a   blind   date   together,   hit   it   off   in   a   platonic   way   &   became   really   good   friends   <33  

only   hang   out   because   of   mutual   friends

💌   𝙼𝙸𝚂𝙲𝙴𝙻𝙻𝙰𝙽𝙴𝙾𝚄𝚂 - 𝚜𝚞𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜   (   open to m/f/nb muses !   )

hyejin’s   muse   aka   whenever   she   sees   them   she   gets   inspired   to   write   a   song   or   two   <3  

blackmailing   type   of   plots  

general   dislike   for   each   other,   they   simply   do   not   vibe  

someone   hyejin   teaches   how   to   play   piano  

rivalry,   they   see   each   other   as   competition  

have   shared   secret   where   both   of   them   are/were   involved   in   a   situation,   &  promised   secrecy   to   each   other

@foolsstarters​ 

[sometimes-love-is-enough]

aw fuck yeah min ask meme!!!!!! for eucatastrophe, 4 and 28; for melliferous, 3, 9, and 28 (again); for i love you and everything is beautiful, 9 and 10; and, in general, 7, 8, 20, 33, and 36. look, i just really like your writing, and hearing about your writing, and. min words good

ah!! lotsa stuff! let’s go

4. Did you have any ideas that didn’t make the final cut of Eucatastrophe?

So many ideas, I think I’d need another post to summarize them all. Some of them include: all of melliferous, a riddle battle that Janus was gonna have with the Two-Faced King, Patton starting a fairy revolution, a wild pirate sea ballad, and there was so much cannibalism in the initial plan you have no idea.

28. Is there a part of Eucatastrophe you’re surprised no one has picked up on yet?

Okay, so maybe it’s not something I’m surprised nobody picked up on, but!! in the song from chapter 11, where they’re all trying to convince Nyarlathotep not to eat all of reality, all of the sides use different forms of logical appeal! Logan and Patton use logos and pathos respectively (obviously), Janus tries ethos, Virgil goes for kairos. Roman uses appeal to culture (mythos), and Remus’s appeal strat doesn’t have a name but i called it ‘remos’ in my notes because I think I’m funny. 

3. Do you have a favorite scene you’ve written from melliferous?

I am really fond of those two consecutive scenes in Seph’s bar and Hades’ kitchen. the vibes of them were very clear in my head and they were Extremely Fun To Do. 

9. If you had to assign a theme song to melliferous, which would you assign?

ahh, that’s a hard one, because there’s... a lot of songs I associate with melliferous. It’s probably either Honeybee by Steam Powered Giraffe or Sweet Bod by Lemon Demon! which are both very good songs

28. Is there a part of melliferous you’re surprised no one has picked up on yet?

there’s a lot of parts of melliferous that i’m not sure if people have picked up or not. there’s approximately a fuckton of layers to the bee symbolism that i could dig into, or maybe the identities of all the unnamed side characters, or... oh wait, no, I know. You know how Virgil’s the one that takes the lead when they climb down into hell? that was very intentional. virgil’s the hell guide, classically speaking!! that’s what his name is!! 

9. If you had to assign a theme song to ilyaeib, which would you assign?

i tried to think of a serious answer to this but... it’s just Cup of Poisoned Coffee from The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals. That’s it. 

10. What is the line you’re proudest of from ilyaeib? 

“I love you, Roman,” says Thomas desperately, grabbing for his hand. He misses, and tries again, and misses, and on the third time he catches hold of it and doesn’t let go, and Roman’s stopped sinking out so that’s something, isn’t it? It’s got to be. “Roman, I love you. You – we – I made a mistake, and so you made a mistake by extension, and yeah it wasn’t great but it’s, there... there wasn’t any harm done. Not really. Not to anyone apart from us. Roman? I don’t hate you. The others don’t, either. Why won’t you look at me? Roman, I love you, please.”

“Do you think if we keep telling each other that, we’re going to actually start believing it eventually?” Roman says dully, finally meeting his gaze.

7. What story/headcanons do you feel the proudest of?

Eucatastrophe!! it feels kinda redundant to say that at this point but... i put a lot of work into it, and it was a story i really wanted to tell, and... i did it!! 

8. Do you prefer writing one-shots or multi chaptered stories?

multi-chapter is preferred!! because it means i can tell longer stories with complicated plots (and potentially, leave people on cliffhangers and get ‘HEY WHAT THE FUCK’ comments at the end of chapters re: plot points i intend to resolve).

also, i’m a wordy person. more words = more chapters. 

20. What feedback makes you the happiest to hear?

stuff like ‘hey, i learnt something from this!’ is always really nice. but also i absolutely adore when people tell me ‘hey, when i read [this bit] i nearly threw my laptop across the room in pure unadulterated fury, and then i walked around thinking about it all day’. but also. any feedback makes me happy. i just. thank you to everyone who comments on stuff i write. it means so much. 

33. Have you ever stopped yourself from writing something? Why?

Mhm. I stop myself from writing AUs all the time because 95% of the time I just want to write them because I read/watched/consumed something else recently, and really want to make something that’s functionally identical to it. e.g., i play Oxenfree, I immediately want to write an Oxenfree AU, I ask myself ‘why do you want to write that? is it because you think you can write an interesting, original story based around that concept?’ - and most of the time, the answer to that is ‘no, i just like the vibes’. and that doesn’t make a good story! it’s probably more fun to draw. 

i have also stopped myself from writing one specific because it got too disturbing, even for me. but i’ve also made a promise to finish that. eventually. so.

36. What fanfic of yours has the symbolism you’re proudest of?

melliferous. i can’t stress this enough: there are SO many layers to the bee thing. 

[rabbitcruiser]

National Ferris Wheel Day

Ferris wheels have always been associated with childhood; it’s no surprise how loved they are around the world, as people who aren’t afraid of heights get to see the horizon of the world around them.

Ferris wheels, however, are a most recent invention over the past 200 years. That’s why National Ferris Wheel Day exists! National Ferris Wheel Day is all about teaching people the history and cultural significance of this magnificent machine.

Learn about National Ferris Wheel Day

National Ferris Wheel Day has been designed to honor George Washington Gale Ferris, Jr, who is, of course, the inventor of the Ferris Wheel! We’re sure that most people reading this have fond memories of going on a Ferris Wheel, whether at a theme park or at a tourist attraction. Ferris Wheels are a lot of fun, coming in different sizes and enabling us to see for miles and miles! You may have even had your first kiss on a Ferris Wheel!

Since the Ferris Wheel has been invented, there have been some incredible Ferris Wheels built around the world. This includes Canada’s Niagara Skywheel, which enables you to look over the Niagara Falls. It’s truly breathtaking. You also have The London Eye, which looks over London’s Thames River. Another famous Ferris Wheel is the Tianjin Eye Ferris Wheel in Tianjin, China. What makes this Ferris Wheel so spectacular is the fact that is erected over a bridge that spans the Hair River. There are so many incredible Ferris Wheels, so we definitely recommend doing a bit of digging online on this day. You could even make a bucket list of Ferris Wheels that you would like to visit!

History of National Ferris Wheel Day

George Washington Gale Ferris invented the Ferris wheel in 1893 when at age 33, he introduced his invention to the World’s Columbian Exposition.

This exhibition was also known as the Chicago World’s Fair, where people at the time were celebrating the 400th anniversary of Columbus’ landing in the New World. When people saw it for the first time, they immediately saw it as the United States’ version of the Effiel Tower.

Ferris’s creation stood at an enormous 260 feet high, with 36 cars encased with glass and locked doors, and weighed in at a total 26,000 pounds. After the exhibition, the Ferris wheel ran from June until October 1863. It wasn’t until 1894 that the Ferris wheel got taken down completely.

The dismantled part of the Ferris wheel was actually made into good use; During World War I, the scraps were used to make battleships, specifically the U.S.S Illinois. Now, Ferris wheels are everywhere, from carnivals, festivals, and can be seen at any kind of celebration.

This holiday honors his birthday as well as his invention. People celebrate this holiday by taking the time to ride the Ferris wheel and feel the wonder and excitement that comes from it.

Some make it a lover’s date, as it is the perfect place to gain some intimacy. Others come with their friends and family to take part in the event and some just take the time to learn about the different kinds of Ferris wheels around the world, which is fun in its own right.

How to Celebrate National Ferris Wheel Day

Head to your closest fairground, theme park, or showground and go straight to the Ferris wheel for some awesome fun! Bring your friends, family or lover with you when you go, and make it a date.

The theme parks that have been built over the years are truly incredible. If you plan ahead of time, you can make sure that National Ferris Wheel Day is one to remember by visiting one of the most thrilling theme parks in your area. Not only will you be able to go on a Ferris Wheel but there will be plenty of other rides for you to enjoy as well, from rollercoasters to dark rides and themed experiences. There is something for everyone!

Take some time to learn about the ingenuity involved with inventing the Ferris wheel, and look up all the most well-known Ferris wheels from around the world. Host a party and make the theme all about Ferris wheels.

You can also take some time to learn about the different facts associated with Ferris Wheels. If you take a look online, you will see that there are some really interesting facts. For example, did you know that the largest Ferris wheel in the world is found in Las Vegas? It is called the High Roller and it is 550 feet tall! You can also look up some of the more classic Ferris Wheels. For example, there is the Wonder Wheel of Coney Island. This Ferris Wheel has been standing for over 100 years now and it was constructed by the Eccentric Ferris Wheel Company. You’ll find it in New York.

Of course, the day has been chosen because it is the same date as the birthday of the inventor, George Washington Gale Ferris Jr. So, why not learn a bit more about him? A civil engineer, born in Galesburg, Illinois, George is known for the Ferris wheel concept and the original Chicago Ferris Wheel. He lived a short life, dying at the age of 37-years-old. This was shortly after the death of his father. Both died of typhoid fever. Despite having a short life, George Washington Gale Ferris Jr. certainly achieved a lot, and you will find a lot of interesting reads about his achievements.

If you’re an avid collector, start collecting antiques associated with Ferris wheels and help share your love of Ferris wheels with your friends.

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[samsoleil]

9 and 10?

ask game

V I am sending the most fond vibes in your direction I hope they make it there okay!!

10. Your favourite season and why.

Honestly? Either S2 or S11.

Season 2: Sam has psychic powers and Dean is terrified that his brother might actually be bad, but is still ride or die for him. This is where we can see their relationship flourish without the search for John hanging over their heads. But y'know what does hang over their heads? John telling Dean he'll either have to save Sam or kill him, and Sam who is desperate to be saved and willing to be killed. And then!! when Sam dies!!! Dean saves him in the worst possible way!!!! Also, it's visually gorgeous. You've got the high contrast vibes from S1 but slightly less desaturated and you've still got the grainy film texture. An excellent time.

Season 11: Listen. I still think it should have been Chuck sending Sam visions. And I don't particularly care for the B plot. But Sam and Dean peak in this season for the first time since pre-s4 and it was amazing. It's the immediate aftermath of Sam literally unleashing  "a force on the world that could destroy it" to save Dean. Codependency at its peak. And in two mid-season episodes they absolutely nail the S2 energy. I mean, establishing beyond any doubt that Dean loves Sam? And then making him think Sam is dead in the very next episode? Where Sam is also the dictionary definition of BAMF? Not to mention, Sam is just. so understanding of Dean and his messy feelings about Amara. Love that for them.

9. What episodes best encapsulates the brother’s relationship? Does this change throughout the series? Doesn’t have to be the best episode btw.

To answer the second question, the brother’s relationship very obviously changes throughout the show. It’s obviously very codependent from the get go (especially from Sam’s perspective! Literally unendurable), and it varies in toxicity. Some seasons they are very soft! Some seasons I want to shout at Sam to run for the hills and never return. And then there are some episodes in seasons where their relationship is literally awful that are wonderfully tender (like 08x21 when Dean says “You gotta let me take care of you, man”). 

Imo, S1-3 are peak brothers. S4/5 are excellent to watch but not the most tender. S6 is on thin fucking ice. S7-10 are, generally speaking, when I would absolutely be willing to kill a man (Dean), but are still SO compelling because these crazy kids are devoted and have no moral boundaries when it comes to the other. S11 is a return to the good stuff! I haven’t seen the seasons after that but from what I have seen, Sam becomes a Dean apologist and Dean just gets worse. But they’re still codependent, so that’s fine. “You were gonna leave and you weren’t even going to tell me?” and “What about me? Would you trade me?” are baller lines. Sam is a grown man but he’s out here saving the world by being Dean’s baby brother. Iconic of them.

OKAY so. First question. I originally had several episodes per season but I have to limit it to 2, this is going to be too long otherwise. Also, as you well know, I've only watched up to 12x06, so I won't include S12 here. 

Episodes (and explanations) under the cut!

Obviously, both 01x01 Pilot and 15x20 Carry On. Literally the perfect bookends for this show. I don’t need to elaborate.

01x05 Bloody Mary - Has the moment where Dean actually has an emotional conversation with his brother, because he’s switched on to Sam’s emotional needs. He was willing to let Sam blame him for Jess’ death so that Sam didn’t blame himself! And near the end it has the iconic line "You're my brother and I'd die for you." Dean, right? No! It was Sam!! Anyone with any sort of reservations about whether Sam cared about Dean in early S1 can refer to this episode. It’s episode 5!! of the whole show!! and it has that line!!

01x11 Faith - Sam has absolutely no regrets about someone dying to save Dean's life. In retrospect, this episode says a lot about how much Sam loves Dean.

02x01 In My Time of Dying - Sam can sense that Dean is there, either through psychic powers or because they are soulmates. Both are good. Also, Dean is told that he may have to kill Sam, which influences their dynamic for the rest of the show <33

02x21 All Hell Breaks Loose Part 1 - Dean, on his knees in the mud, telling Sam's corpse that it'll be okay and screaming his name. That is all. Also, after thoroughly chewing out a victim earlier in the season for selling his soul to save a loved one, Dean sells his soul to save a loved one. 

03x08 A Very Supernatural Christmas - Sam decorated a Christmas tree with pine air fresheners to give Dean a Christmas. Obsessed.

03x11 Mystery Spot - Dean dies repeatedly, then dies for good for about 6 months, and Sam becomes a ruthless hunter in order to bring him back. Dean spends longer dead in this episode than he actually does at the end of S4.

04x14 Sex and Violence - Dean's siren is literally just a version of Sam that is devoted to Dean and would do anything he says. 

04x22 Lucifer Rising - Bobby coming for Dean's life. The VOICEMAIL!! Dean acting as though them being family is a cure-all and saying he'll beat Sam up, but also apologising. I'll take it. And then, of course, the voicemail Sam hears, which is more or less what Dean said in 04x04, and that being what tips him over the edge. The edge, of course, being killing Lilith to avenge Dean’s death, which has been his quest since the end of S3. Excellent.

05x16 Dark Side of the Moon - Ohoho. This episode. You know why this episode is here.

05x22 Swan Song - Same as the above! Dean who doesn't have a plan, just doesn't want his little brother to die alone. Sam, who fights off the devil himself and (essentially) kills himself to save his brother and the car they call their home. That memory sequence, for me, gave Sam the power not to save the world, but to save his brother. The world was just a bonus.

06x11 Appointment in Samara - "Dean doesn't care about me, he just cares about his little brother, Sammy, burning in hell. He'll kill me to get that other guy back." Dean's anger at himself for screwing up and forfeiting Sam's soul was. a lot. Also, Sam begging for his life and Dean just continuing anyway? Horrific. But very testament to their relationship at this point. Dean wants Sammy back and he WILL kill this other guy to do it.

06x22 The Man Who Knew Too Much - Sam being right about the consequences of having his soul put back in. And "You know me. You know why. I'm not leaving my brother alone out there."

07x03 The Girl Next Door - I was tossing up between this and 07x02 but. this has some flashbacks to past Sam!! Unfortunately, it also has Dean punching Sam for using the Impala, the car they both rely on to get around. And Dean murdering Sam's childhood friend for killing rapists. This isn’t an episode that makes you think “Awh, they’re codependent!”, it’s an episode that makes you send Sam vibes screaming at him to get out.

07x14 Plucky Pennywhistle's Magical Menagerie - Ever think that maybe Sam fears clowns because he associates them with being abandoned? Also, nostalgia vs reality.

08x09 Citizen Fang - The voicemail from S4 is still hanging over our heads. Dean asking “Does that sound like the Benny we know?” and Sam replying “I don’t know Benny.” Dean keeping Benny away from Sam because Sam is apparently the one who will kill monsters with no nuance or remorse. But this episode is on the list specifically because of how pivotal the line "Yes, I do – too well. In fact, every relationship I have ever had has gone to crap at some point. But the one thing I can say about Benny – he has never let me down." is in absolutely wrecking Sam's mental health down the road!

08x23 Sacrifice - For obvious reasons! “You know what I confessed in there? What my greatest sin was? It was how many times I let you down!” and then Dean’s speech of blatant lies. It sounded good, though. Dean really is that devoted, but unfortunately he has amnesia.

09x01 I Think I'm Gonna Like It Here - Autonomy violation. This is what advanced care directives are for. Dean being so dependent on Sam that he would violate his autonomy and trick him into consenting to possession. Dean will do anything to keep Sam alive, including destroy Sam.

09x16 Blade Runners - The parallels between Colette and Sam are unbearable. “Drop the blade.” Also, Dean becomes SO feral when Sam’s cheek gets cut.

10x19 Book of the Damned - Sam’s speech! “But I can’t do it without my brother. I don’t want to do it without my brother. And if he’s gone, then I don’t….”

10x24 Brother's Keeper - Ahahahahaaa. Sam kneeling down in front of Dean and letting him kill him, if he wants. Dean not doing so. Please do not emulate this relationship in your real human lives.

11x04 Baby - Obvious reasons. Also, the perfect example of how these two communicate. Dean clearly states his opinion so that Sam has something to base his arguments around, and then Sam provides his perspective. That meta about how Dean and Sam communicate and how Sam is the major decision maker opened my eyes. Impeccable takes.

11x16 Safe House - The thing Dean loves being Sam (and Sam being genuinely relieved that it was!!). Sam propping Dean’s sleeping body against the fridge while saying “I got you! Stay with me.” Him cradling Dean in his arms and patting his head and Dean being SO confused but not fighting it.

11x17 Red Meat - Okay, I lied about the 2 per season thing, I just needed all three of these episodes. They are too good to not include. Dean joking to hide how scared he is for Sam? Being willing to let all three of them die just because he thinks Sam is dead? Attempting/committing suicide to try to bring him back? Sam fighting through immense pain to get back to his brother? This episode is so good. They are absolute lunatics (affectionate).

[ghost-in-the-stalls]

Neil Josten's Playlist Part 5 - Nicky, Aaron, and Kevin

Masterpost and link to the playlist in its entirety here

Not as much to say about these three here - they each kind of speak for themselves I think.

Nicky

18. Relief - Chris Garneau

Of all the foxes, Nicky shows Neil more music than anyone else. Typically, though, it’s music Neil isn’t super into. Nicky knows Neil isn’t into most of the stuff he shows him, but Neil will still sit and listen to it with him if he is asked and isn’t busy, so Nicky keeps doing it anyway. I can imagine Chris Garneau being one of Nicky’s favorite artists, but one he keeps close to his heart. Several of his songs just hit me like they’re talking about the trauma and just general impact of growing up queer and topics like that, and I feel like it’s stuff that would really hit Nicky.

So Nicky listens to Chris Garneau (though he never was able to listen to Halloween the same again after what happened with Drake), but he doesn’t show Neil any of the songs intentionally. But one day Neil gets out of a class early and walks in on Nicky playing this one. He opens up to Neil about how much this music means to him, and Neil decides he likes the song. He keeps it.

33. Rocket Man - Elton John

Nicky loves Elton John. It's one of the artists he usually blasts on Sunday mornings in Columbia when they're all fighting hangovers. One morning he played this one and even got Aaron and Kevin singing along a bit (they were both still a bit drunk). Neil thinks back on that day and remembers it as a good one. Andrew looks back and remembers it as one of the more annoying ones.

60. Your Song - Elton John

Neil caught Nicky quietly singing this to Erik over video chat one morning in Columbia. For as boisterous and unapologetic as Nicky is (and for as much as he's always trying to get Neil and Andrew to act more like a "normal" couple with PDA and shit) it was a very vulnerable and private moment that Neil was a bit surprised by. He didn't walk in or make himself known, but he added the song to his playlist (and sometimes plays it on the car ride back from Columbia weekends for Nicky when he knows he's missing Erik).

Aaron

43. Up the Wolves - The Mountain Goats

Aaron has a lot of anger for someone who is only 5 feet tall. Neil may find him obnoxious as hell, and may deeply resent the way he holds that anger against Andrew. But I personally feel that an intrinsic and necessary step in repairing Aaron and Andrew's relationship comes with some sort of acknowledgement from Andrew that - regardless of what Tilda deserved, and regardless of what series of events unfolded upon her death - he hurt Aaron with what he did. He made a decision that Aaron did not ask him to make, nor did he want him to do it. And Aaron has every right to hold it against him. He doesn't need to regret doing it, but he needs to understand that doing it hurt Aaron deeply. I think it takes a long time for Andrew to reach this point, and when he does I don't think Neil really gets it at first.

However, I think once Neil has accepted and understood it as much as he can (he still struggles with his own mommy issues, okay?) he begins to understand Aaron much more. This song is a bit of an enigma in a lot of ways; I've never met someone who really fully gets what it's about exactly. Even the artists themselves have vague and changeable understandings of where it came from. But the clear theme of the song is anger and resentment, and carrying forward with those feelings. Maybe you'll let them go, maybe you'll act on them. Maybe you'll just keep feeling them for a while. Who knows when the hurt will go away? You're justified in your anger, but it doesn't make it any nicer to feel. Neil doesn't fully understand Aaron, but he starts to understand how he feels, at least.

62. Such Great Heights - The Postal Service

Listen. Neil doesn't willingly think of Aaron when he hears this song. It's a very nice song and he won't let that bastard ruin it for him.

Did he have a phase where he listened to it a lot to try and get himself to not associate it with Aaron? Absolutely. Did it work? Absolutely not.

In all seriousness, there are only a few songs that make Neil think of Aaron and this is one of them SOLELY because Aaron drunkenly mentioned it was his and Katelyn's song when it came on the radio one time. Something about hearing that and then listening to the sound felt very real and human to Neil. It helps remind him that Aaron does have feelings, actually, and does have it in him to care about other people. These are good things to keep in mind when he's trying really hard not to punch Aaron in the face for Andrew's sake.

Also it has a really nice sound. So he has begrudgingly added it to his playlist and he listens to it spitefully.

64. Wake Me Up - Avicii

Neil wouldn't believe Aaron listened to music this carefree and positive if he didn't witness it himself. He learns a bit more about Aaron every day they interact (against his will of course) and this is another song that helps him understand Aaron a bit better.

He has dreams and goals and he really wants to be happy. He wants to enjoy life. And it's really fucking hard to do that for anyone in their group. Neil seeing Aaron actually hold some amount of passion or desire for something better gives him a better view of the guy. Neil guesses everyone must need some amount of optimism once in a while.

Kevin

4. Amsterdam - Guster

So obviously Neil has never been through a breakup (well I actually hc that he and Andrew almost broke up after Andrew graduated, but they pulled their asses together and that’s a post for another time). But the thing is that Kevin absolutely has! And we all know how Kevin wallows when he’s upset. And Kevin Day is a Guster fan. You cannot take that away from me. So Kevin goes through a breakup and is blasting Guster in the dorm like no one else lives there.

Now Neil is pretty observant and analytical. I mean he had to be for years, so it’s kind of just in his nature now. Most breakup songs he hears are louder and angrier and predictable to him. Not in a bad way, but he expects that they’ll pretty much usually be either angry or sad in style, neither of which he tends to be very fond of. So he heard this one and it’s more upbeat tune without being overly loud or aggressive and I think that really intrigued him. It gets stuck in your head, but it’s the kind of breakup song that - even if you are going through a breakup - leaves you just feeling pretty good! Even if it is in a bitter way. So Neil’s brain just sort of latched onto this one and kept it close. It helps that it reminds him of Kevin in a way that is so intrinsically HUMAN. He can try to be an exy player before a person all he wants, but even Kevin experiences heartbreak and frustration. He's a whole person, too - just like Neil.

40. Still - Ben Folds

Yes, Nicky and Matt made him watch Over the Hedge. Yes, that is where he found this song. Yes, it still kind of makes him think about the sad turtle. Don't tell anyone.

Seriously, though, Neil latched onto this song initially for the smooth, sad sound. Then he listened to the lyrics. It really hits him once he's captain and he suddenly has all these added responsibilities piled onto him. He now has to appear respectable and put-together, and he doesn't have room for mistakes. It doesn't help that Kevin is reminding him of their deal with the Moriyamas at literally every turn, as if Neil doesn't KNOW the stakes and the pressure on him at any given moment.

But, oh, Kevin. Neil can roll with his punches with ease because, really now. Kevin is more terrified than he ever lets on anymore. "No room for weakness", but he hits himself with that reminder before taking it to Neil. He's stubborn and frustrating, and he can be downright cruel and unreasonable. But he's hurting himself with his scathing remarks long before they leave his lips to attack anyone else. Neil thinks about this, and he doesn't have it in him to be quite as angry anymore. He sees Kevin, and he know Kevin sees him too. He just doesn't know how else to provide support, and he isn't really in a good spot to be supporting anyone else at the moment anyway. Neil can only hope that, with time, Kevin can let himself feel safe the way Neil is learning to.

56. Dance Monkey - Tones and I

Neil heard this song and applied it immediately to Kevin. He's seen first hand now how much work it is for Kevin to maintain his image and career the way he does while balancing all the baggage that comes with it. The people in the audience who root for him the strongest are the same ones who rooted for Riko and the Ravens a while back. They're the same ones who thought he lost a brother the day his abuser died, who thought joining the foxes would be a huge gut punch to his career.

There's a lot that's expected of Kevin, and there's a lot of trauma he carries that people seem to think are memories he looks back on fondly. And that's a facade he has to keep up.

Neil sees this and he knows how hard it is for Kevin. He knows.

[little-writings]

Jumin Week: Day 1 {Birthday}

Upon finding out that Jumin has never had a ‘proper’ birthday party, you’re determined to give him a celebration he’ll never forget. 

Word Count: 3,333 (Wow! Didn’t mean for that!) 

Howdy howdy! It’s been a hot minute but I’m glad to finally have something to give ya’ll again! A lot of life has been happening lately but there has still been writing in the works! Including this, haha! Anyhow, I hope you enjoy and have a marvelous day! <33

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Jumin could count on his fingers the number of birthdays he celebrated: his father’s, V’s, Elizabeth 3rd, the RFA, and of course, yours. Your birth-’day’ in fact, was more along the lines of a birth-’week’.  

He had attempted to extend it to a month but for some unfathomable reason he couldn’t understand, you put your foot down. There was just too much about you to celebrate to fit into such a short time-span.  

In days that now feel like centuries ago, Jumin once celebrated Rika’s birthday. He could still remember the grand tiered vanilla cake with her favorite color, yellow, painted along its edges in frosting. The way her face would glow and beam among the light of the candles-

Jumin didn’t want to think about that anymore.

In truth, despite all the birthdays he’d celebrated for others, he hardly had the faintest idea of what to do for himself.  

Sure, as a child his father would go to extravagant extremes with parties and gifts but as Jumin grew older, the parties became dinners and the dinners became calls as life grew more elaborate and that much more hectic with the passing of every year. By now, Jumin associated his birthday with murky, restless nights with a bottle of wine that’d be empty before the sun rose.  

But you weren’t in his life back then.  

He’d first noticed the change with the words written on the calendar in your grand, curly lettering, taking up half of the sheet despite it only meant for a single day. The little heart you’d drawn beside the lettering bringing a gentle smirk to his face.  

“Jumin’s Birthday!”  

He absentmindedly fiddled with the ring on his finger, feeling the engravings rise and fall beneath his fingertips.  

“Are you excited?”  

Your voice snapped him from his thoughts, Jumin twisting around to see you standing on the tips of your toes, peering up at him with eyes as wide as saucers – anticipation brimming in every inch of you.  

“For what?”  

“For your birthday, silly!”  

“Not particularly. But I think you might be.”  

Your face fell in confusion. “Aren’t... aren’t you wanting to do anything?”  

“Whatever you’d like to do love,” He bent down and pressed a kiss between your brows, undoing what would’ve been the forming knot.  

“Jumin...” You wrinkled your nose. “It’s not about what I want. It’s your birthday!”  

“Mmhm. And I already have everything I could ever want,” Jumin wrapped a tender palm around your cheek. You melted into the touch in spite of your frustration – you just couldn’t stay mad at him. “The best gift you could give me is your happiness.”  

“Jumin...!” You took his hand in your own, clutching him like he was the only string still keeping you upright. “That’s so, so sweet – you're so, so sweet. But your birthday is for you! There has to be something you want!”  

He bit the inside of his cheek and thought.  

What was there that he couldn’t simply go out and get himself? Any material object one the earth was just that – a material object – perfectly obtainable if one had the means – and if anyone, Jumin most certainly did have those means.  

“Didn’t you have parties as a kid?”  

“I did.” Jumin nodded. “Granted, the only people were my father’s employees, my caretakers, and V.”  

As the words slipped from his mouth, a faint realization of how much loneliness hounded his life before you stepped into it became that much more apparent. He squeezed your hand.  

“Then that’s it!”  

“I’m sorry?”  

“We can have a birthday party for you!” You grinned so wide it was infectious. You always left him smiling like a lovesick fool -- something no one else could ever do. “I mean, you’re talking to the party planning professional!” 

“Aren’t most of them supposed to be surprises?”  

“Well -- just pretend you haven’t heard anything!” You snickered, biting the inside of your cheek. “Do you think you could do that for me?” 

Jumin paused, thinking before an amused glint simmered to life in his eyes, peering down at you. “Pretend for what, love?” 

“You’re just perfect,” Your delight poured out of your voice as you pressed a quick, adoring kiss to his lips that Jumin nearly instinctively leaned into. Had he not caught himself he could’ve stumbled over his feet in an effort to not part with you. 

“I better start getting everything ready,” Your hands unraveled from Jumin’s and immediately began searching for a pen and paper, even resolving to scribble notes on your arm. His heart melted at the very sight of it. “Oh, I’m so excited!” 

A bounce appeared in your step, only twisting back around to him as you disappeared with a pointing finger, bits of laughter seeping into your words. 

Jumin swore he wasn’t a particularly cheery soul, but you kept proving him wrong more and more in that regard. Every single piece of the world was that much more precious and beautiful with you in it, and his smile grew wider. 

“But you, you don’t know a thing! Don’t say a word!” 

He mimicked the motion of a key turning in a lock, nodding. “My lips are sealed.” 

You tried to disappear down the hall but you couldn’t quite bear to leave him just yet, rushing back to your husband to kiss him just once more. 

“I love you,” You hummed, curling tangles of his hair between your fingers. 

Jumin would never get tired of hearing those words from you. He wove his arms around you and pulled you close, rubbing delicate circles against your back. “How can I just let you go now?” He hummed beneath his breath. “Is there any way I could deter you from your incredibly secret plan that I know nothing about?”

“Jumin...” 

Whatever resolve you’d grappled onto vanished the moment Jumin asked once more with a quiet ‘please’. How someone could withstand such a thing, you had no clue. 

“Fine, fine,” You huffed, amusedly. “But just for a little bit!” 

You didn’t begin your planning until the next day, but your heart was in the right place. That was what counted. 

That next day, however, you hit the ground running. The days leading up to Jumin’s birthday were spent drowned in planning among texts, calls, and plenty of emails you’d become all too accustomed to. 

The only thing left for Jumin’s birthday was the cake. 

You’d assigned Jumin’s father, Mr. Han with the task of distracting Jumin that morning with father-son birthday activities. Mr. Han practically giddy to be a part of today’s festivities. 

“You two have fun, alright?” You hung at the front door of the penthouse as Jumin greeted his father outside, the man already holding a gift for his son. 

“You’ll be alright on your own?” Jumin asked. “Are you sure you can’t join us?”

“It’s only for a few hours. I’ll be alright.” You grinned. “Think you can handle each other?” 

“Oh please, I only raised him! I think I can take care of him for an afternoon!” Mr. Han gave a warm expression, setting a fond hand on his son’s shoulder in spite of how he towered over Mr. Han. 

“I believe we’ll be alright.” 

“I’ll hold you to it!” 

Did you give Mr. Han a playfully far-too-obvious wink? Yes, yes you did. He returned with a bright, eager smile and Jumin had to clear his throat to stifle his laughter. 

This might’ve been the most unsurprising birthday surprise party you’d ever known. 

But you’d do all within your power to make it the best. 

Within the hour of Mr. Han and Jumin leaving, the RFA arrived in a mess of delighted chatter. Even V took time out of his schedule for the occasion, informing you in a nightly chat in which you had to quell a squeal of delight and in a rarity, you heard V laugh.

“Is the fur-ball put away?” Zen asked, nervously scanning the kitchen for any sight of Elizabeth 3rd. “I don’t want to sneeze all over your cake MC!” 

“I left her in the bedroom. You’re safe.” 

“For now!” 707 slammed his hands down on the actor, causing the man to erupt into an embarrassingly shrill shriek. Jahee being the one to calmly remove 707′s grip with a glare sharper than daggers. 

“Please do not frighten Zen like that,” She stated, chillingly cold. “If his voice is strained, he may be unable to sing with his beautiful voice.” 

“Jahee, do you ever hear yourself speak?” 707 giggled with a wrinkled nose. “Like, really?” 

“Be nice!” You elbowed the hacker sharply. “We’re all here for a common cause!” 

Zen raised his hand. “Because you asked us to...?”

Calming the storm, V stepped forward, greeting you with a kindly smile and warm glimmer in his eyes that seeped through his sunglasses. “For Jumin.” 

“Exactly.” You nodded. “And we’re going to bake him the best birthday cake he’s ever had! Isn’t that right?” 

“Yeah, yeah!” Yoosung jumped forward, a little notepad clasped in his grip. “I even went and found some recipes for him! I found a really good one! I know he’d like it MC!” 

“What is it?” 

“Mm!” The young man flipped through the pages, strands of blonde hair slipping from his hairclip -- his bangs finding a way no matter his efforts to flitter right back in front of his face. “It’s vanilla with buttercream frosting! You said that’s his favorite, right?” 

“It sure is -- hasn’t changed since he was a child.” V mused. “We tried to make one once and nearly burnt down the kitchen.” 

“Let’s not have that as our goal?” You folded your lips nervously. “We’ll just follow Yoosung’s recipe and everything will work out! He’s a great cook!” 

“I don’t want to say Yoo-Yoo isn’t an amazing chef but-” 

“We’re not listening to someone who lives off a diet of soda and chips,” Zen glanced back to 707 with raised brows. “Have you ever even seen a stove -- touched one?” 

“No, this is my first time in a kitchen in fact~!” 707 gasped dramatically. “It’s magnificent!” 

You and Yoosung exchanged a series of glances before letting out an exasperated sigh.

“Well, at least they’re willing to try!” You exclaimed. “I’m sure it’ll be okay as long as we work together.” 

You were so optimistic then. 

You felt like an absolute idiot now. 

Luciel, given the simple task of greasing the pan, managed to cover half the kitchen in canola oil alongside a horrified Zen. Jahee fought with 707 and her own desire to wring his neck. Zen, on the other hand, was not above such impulses, and a fistful of flour was promptly thrown.

“I’ll get them under control, don’t worry!” Yoosung had said that half an hour ago, now he was smothered between the bickering trio, desperately trying to keep the eggs on the counter and not in anyone’s fist.

“Should I just order a cake at this point?” You asked V, taking in a sharp breath. “Is that what I have to do?” 

“Two people are better than none,” V smiled softly. “We can still do this. It’s just a few steps. We can wrangle them together later.” 

You stared up at him and nodded, taking in a deep breath. “You’re right. You’re right!  We can do this!” 

“Yes, we can. If we can handle Jumin, we can surely handle his cake.” 

“He’s not difficult to handle.” 

“Then if we can handle them.” 

You glanced at the arguing group of the remaining RFA members, Jahee catching your gaze and stopping -- shuffling her feet in quiet embarrassment. The other three followed, Luciel leaning over the counter with flour plastered over his cheeks. 

“S-Sorry,” He chuckled. “I ah -- I guess we got carried away! But we’re ready! We really want to make your ‘cat dad’ a good cake!”  

Jahee pushed her glasses back up her nose, now spotted with white specks. “We... we won’t let anything distract us this time around.” 

V simpered. “Are you positive about that?” 

With a ‘yes’ spoken in unison, that familiar joy bubbled inside of you. The ends of your lips stretched from ear to ear and the tension in your shoulders slipped away easily. 

“Then let’s get started!” 

You parceled out responsibilities to each of them, and though it wasn’t absolutely perfect, it was wonderfully unique. You’d never seen anyone as passionate as frosting as you did Yoosung -- he’d shriek in outrage when 707 would scoop a dollop with his finger. Jahee and Zen monitored the cake in the oven and fretted like helicopter parents over the slightest details, oddly in sync as if they balanced out each other out in all their quirks. 

707 proudly proclaimed the position of ‘cheerleader’, though you did insist he help decorate with Yoosung -- the two not sharing quite the same connection as Zen and Jahee -- more so a nagging pair in clusters of laughter despite their arguing. 

However, you and V, you simply had a lovely time. 

You whisked the ingredients together chattering quietly and occasionally humming little bits of songs until you couldn’t remember the music and simply scrambled to come up with your own. He told you stories of the past, and you told him of the present, melancholy washing over him. 

“I know you’re busy...” You murmured. “But you’re practically family. I know it’d mean the world to him if you’d visit more often.” 

“It’s not that I don’t want to. But... a part of me worries that this may be the best I can hope for.” 

You didn’t have to give more than a frown to tell you needed a tad more information. 

“I... I’m not quite the same as I used to be. I worry that I’ve changed so much I’m not the same person he knows. It’s just... so much has happened. I worry that if I try to fix anything I’ll just break what isn’t broken. I’m... I’m scared of that with everyone...” 

“V...” You stopped him and set a gentle hand on his arm, the thin cardigan he always wore unable to shroud the faint bit of shaking. “That would never happen. The RFA is a family, we aren’t going to abandon each other -- we’re here for you no matter what. You just have to give us the chance to be there for you.” 

You squeezed him sweetly and offered an encouraging, fond smile. “This is a good way to start.” 

He paused. “You think so?” 

“I don’t want to say I know so... but... I know so.” 

“I suppose I can’t argue with that.” 

You clicked your tongue playfully, flicking up the spoon from the bowl that sent more than few bits of mix scattering about -- much more than you’d like to admit. “Not with a professional like me, you can’t!” 

“I don’t think I want to.” 

From that point, V lightened. He allowed himself to enjoy all the mishaps and mess that came with the cake baking. The difficulty of the frosting with all its sloppy sides and how the frosting fell against the sides. The whole group practically held their breath each time a flower of frosting was painted. 

But somehow, someway you all made it. 

You all finished it with just enough time to decorate. 

You raced around the house at lightning speed with confetti and ribbons, it hurt to think of cleaning it later. Balloons were sprawled about and Zen and 707 nearly lost their minds attempting to hang up the poster with ‘Happy Birthday Jumin’ printed in only the largest lettering possible. 

You barely had time to catch your breath before the door creaked open. 

Just as soon as you sat down, you all scrambled to your feet and only utterly failed at the task of ‘acting normal’. 

Jumin and his father stepped inside, gawking a the explosion of color that’d gone off, glancing down from the poster to see you and the RFA, smiling like fools.

“Happy birthday Jumin!” 

He followed suit, the usually so stoic man beaming from ear to ear. You raced to meet him and fell into his embrace, peppering his face in kisses. His bright, faint laughter perhaps the most beautiful thing you’d ever heard. 

“I hope you like it!” 

He squeezed you tight as one would with their greatest treasure -- it’d be a tragedy to ever let go. 

“I love it. I truly, truly do.” 

“This isn’t even it!”

“What all have you been doing while I’m gone?” 

“Oh, you’ll see!” You stepped back, Jumin reluctant to let go. “We all worked really hard on it.” 

707 groaned. “It was back-breaking labor!” 

Zen pinched the bridge of his nose. “Maybe for the guy who sits in a chair all day!” 

“Exactly! Thank you for being so understanding!” 

V stepped forward beyond the small group, giving a gracious dip of his head. “Happy birthday Jumin.” 

“I’m glad you were able to make it.” Jumin grinned. “I know how busy you can be -- especially as of late.” 

“Yes... but I’m still here -- for you -- for everyone. I um -- I’m sorry I haven’t been able to show that lately.” V laughed weakly. “There’s not much of an excuse but-” 

What would’ve become a bit of nervous ramblings was cut off as Jumin hurried to hug his dear old friend. V, like a strike of lightning, nearly jumped at the interaction. 

How long had it been since someone showed him genuine care? 

Eventually, though, V settled, returning the hug and glancing at you, fighting back laughter at the sight of a smug you mouthing ‘I told you so’.

“Now, I believe there’s something else for you to see.” V stepped back, gesturing to you. “MC?” 

“Oh! Of course! Did you eat?” 

“No.” Jumin smirked at your sigh in relief. 

“Oh thank goodness!” You clapped your hands. “Then let me show you into the kitchen!” 

Everyone flooded into the kitchen with anticipation in every step, even 707 proceedings to drum against the counters. 

“Ta-da~! We baked a cake! It’s your favorite too -- vanilla with buttercream!” Your eyes widened like saucers, exhilarated. “Now, you have to know what comes next.” 

Jumin grinned and raised a perplexed brow. “No, what is it?” 

You lit the candles atop the cake and as though puzzle pieces snapping together, everyone understood what was coming. 

“Well... we sing you a song!” 

On the count of three, everyone began to sing that cheery, joyous ‘Happy Birthday’ song with an amount of cheesiness only you could come up with. As you sang, your hands intertwined with Jumin’s, your husband running his thumb over your knuckles. 

“Now you’ve got to know what to do now, Mr. Moneybags.” Zen snorted. “Blow out the candles!” 

And Jumin did just that. 

Tangles of smoke floated up as he let out a puff of air, all of you bursting into cheers at least two of you reaching for the knife to begin cutting a slice. 

You glanced at Jumin, snapping him away from his thoughts. “What did you wish for?” 

“I thought you weren’t supposed to say what you wished for or it won’t come true.” 

“I thought you didn’t believe in old wive’s tales.” You remarked, his other arm reaching for your waist, drawing you close. 

“Well, I suppose this is too important to risk.” 

“Could I get a hint...?” 

“Perhaps,” He tipped his forehead against your own, glancing down at the wedding ring on your own finger like a blessing come to life. 

“It involved you, and that makes it more precious than anything else.” 

You didn’t need to ask anymore, your heart already swelled. “You know, it’s supposed to be your birthday, but you’re still ridiculously sweet. You can be a little spoiled!” 

“I told you before, I have all I need,” Jumin smiled with such adoration it put the sun to shame in its warmth. “Because I have you, I have everything. All I could ever want is for you to stay.” 

“You don’t have to worry about that. I’m not going anywhere.” 

Jumin chuckled, pressing a kiss into your hair, speaking softly for only you to hear. 

“Then I suppose my wish came true.”