#literally spotless

[thegildedfantasy]

Okay, but Nightstrider by Sophia Slade. Halfway through the ARC, and I'm in awe. Enemies to lovers? Fuck yeah. Bisexual characters? Sign me up. Main female character with wings??? I'm on my knees. Marry me.

This book is everything and more and I haven't even mentioned the world building or the plot, which is spotless.

Nightstrider will be the hill I die on.

[housecow]

so, um… i’m wider.. (june 2022 to now! 215 to 270lbs)

[spikeface]

i get so jealous of euthanized dogs.

-- june gehringer

[ssweetener]

the title of her album being eternal sunshine is so... heartbreaking and genius at the same time. the title of "eternal sunshine of a spotless mind" is a ironic juxtaposition - it sounds happy and makes it seem like the plot is going to follow two lovers and their thriving relationship where everything seems perfect but in reality, it's quite depressing and the plot is heavily focused on sadness and the complexities of human relationships and wanting to forget the memories of your partner. now apply that to ariana's life, more specifically, where she was at while writing her upcoming music. a significant part in the movie is the main character clementine's hair changing colors that acts as a symbolic guide, red representing the "fantasy" parts of the relationship and orange when the relationship starts to fade out and they're at their worst - the two colors we've seen so far associated with the album.

when she posted this picture of her crying and said it was the theme of the album... oh she was serious

[mags-yaps]

i know being a failed donor baby is literally one of the most traumatic arcs buck has gone through but can you imagine how fcked up it is that phillip and margaret buckley decided that the best way to grieve and ultimately honor their dead son is by completely erasing his existence? not only do they not talk about him (especially not to his other siblings) but they also throw out every single item he ever owned or touched and moved away from the home he grew up in just so that they can’t be reminded of him, like what in the actual fck?? like okay maybe i don’t understand how absolutely terrible it is to lose a child and people can definitely process their grief in their own way but there has to be a better way to do this than to just forget your dead son and neglect your other children…

honestly makes you wonder how buck and maddie would have grown up differently if their parents didn’t shut down completely and learned how to actually communicate

[meownotgood]

aki's just the sweetest whenever he has a crush on you.

he's totally obvious, immediately standing up straight whenever he sees you, finding it hard to meet your eyes and absently fiddling with his thumbs while he talks. he blushes to his ears when you stand a little too close to him. his hands get clammy and sweaty and he'll shove them in his pockets hoping you won't notice.

he compliments you every time you meet, telling you that you look pretty (like always, he means, you always are). he shares his lunch with you when you forget to bring any, he asks if you'd like to come over for dinner (he was supposed to run some errands instead, but if you want to come over, that's more important, and he isn't going to tell you that). he offers to pay for everything when you're around. the tone of his voice gets lighter and he smiles more. maybe someday he'll get the courage to ask you on a proper date.

[alvojake]

KAYLA IM NOT OKAY

WHAT THE HEEEELLLLLL

HA HA HA HA....... AND YOU THINK I AM??????? 😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀

I AM ACTIVELY LOSING MY MIND 😍😍😍😍😍😍

[grantjf6744]

"oh look! There's your linens. If you're lucky 🙄"

Actually I have decided you are not lucky. Beg.

[wetcatspellcaster]

The first thing I'll say after reading the chapter is - CAT!!!!

Also, my cat came up to me while I was reading, and fell asleep on me, so double cats!

Poor Rosalie, still being haunted, but now actively trying to ghosthunt, when the ghost suddenly does not want to be seen anymore 😔 hug for both of them!

Shadowheart's words made me hurt, because damn. She is so right, they all still did choose to do bad things, because they thought they were right, but also - hug for her too, she deserves it for acknowledging her faults and trying to be better. Love Shadowheart and how wise she is here ❤️

And knowing that Astarion wanted to Ascend in order to be able to protect Rose too, in some way, breaks my heart for him, because he probably understands how stupid it was, and how much pain he brought Rose with that decision, but also how he was hurt in the process too... Oh, it is such a deep can of worms to unearth, I love it 💔

Also, Astarion in a jumper! WITH THE CAT! So far away from scary Ascended, it melts my heart. And him being embarrassed over bargaining in on Rose taking a bath, so worried and willing to face her in case she got hurt again... Aww, is the only thing I can say.

Not me waiting for the epilogue chapter to be Rose and Astarion on a double date with the Dekarios family. And I'm never letting my cat be alone in proximity to Gale. Nope. Also, I'm trying to imagine Astarion's shock when the whole clan of Gale's children starts climbing all over him. That will be hilarious.

Poor Rosalie with her email. I know the struggle. She is still better than me at handling it 😔

This chapter was so sweet, even if it brought something to think over, and that forever quest for acceptance of your past mistakes in order to move on, that fear of facing it, because it will be hard and painful... Yes. I can imagine the road to happiness will be long and thorny for both of them.

And now, I leave you, dear author, with the best of wishes for good luck in your work, many scritches for your cats, and big thank you for this delight of a chapter.

Now I'll go look for the banana muffins recipe, since Gale and Timothy refused to share that, and make me some. Thank you ❤️

hey anon, thank you so much for such a lovely message and comprehensive chapter review. I'm glad you enjoyed it!

I had a lot of visions for what this aftercare portion of the fic looks like, to be honest, but mostly it's just Astarion trying to rebuild his personality from the ground up and then trying to do it as quickly as possible so he can land himself a baddie lmfao. I don't know how well I'll pull it off, bc there's a lot of big things to unpack there that also, I don't think, make for a particularly interesting reading experience, so a lot of it happens off-screen. But for right now, I'm just grappling with an Astarion who feels bit weird about flirting, meanwhile Rosalie is like "he's not flirting with me? :( maybe he doesn't... like me :("

*screams internally in author*

so I added cats misbehaving to give myself some more familiar ground to tread!

I also just feel like Shadowheart's story is the neatest by the end of the game (her just T-posing in the background of the post Netherbrain trauma congaline on the docks, lmfao) but that there are things about her story, at least in my playthrough, that would actually equip her for understanding Astarion more than Rose does. I wanted to give a little space for the acknowledgement that most of the companions have experienced more emotional and moral nuance than my Tav has in her entire life :')))

Thank you for your lovely words! x

[morgan-the-lonely-brick]

Victor in a tub, Victor in a tub, what crimes will he commit? (all of them)

[alexjcrowley]

You know House M.D. is The Unhinged Show because if you asked "what's the most fucked up medical case on the show?" you'd get all different answers and they'd all be right

[birdricks]

it wasnt until i watched scenes of the yaoi amv you shared i realized oh shit this is real. they arent joking around what IS this

PLEASEEEEE TAMMY DONT EVEN GET MY STARTED. that one part is like a semicanon fantasy sort of thing but ohhhh my god. you literally dont even knowww like ok bp is one of the ONLY ppl rick has been able to openly admit to loving even amongst like. FULLY CANONICAL romantic partners. and bp is like legit maybe the onlyy person who can read him like a BOOK and get away w it. rick wanted to spend his whole life wxploring the multiverse w him. they kissed in the comics. ARGGHHHH

its so so painful cus they r like genuinely actually canon at least. well ricks feelings towards bp. and it goes soooo crazy hard bc it recontextualises all the previous episodes w them together. like how bp talks abt regrets and wondering “what might have been had [he] just put [his] faith in rick” like instead of rejecting him.£4&38&4&:!:£:!

SORRY IK THIS IS LIKE INASANE RAMBLINGS they literally turn my brain to SLUDGE. what tragic yaoi does to a mf!!!!!!!!!!!

[rubiesintherough]

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[llycaons]

it's so wild to have my own mailbox. no more sitting down at the base of the stairs sorting through grit-covered envelopes for me I guess. no more hoping that my neighbors didn't accidentally take my mail...no more making the executive decision to just throw out letters that had been sitting for six months for people who clearly didn't live there anymore...no more sweeping the stairs...

[gattmammon]

So the molecule change is going badly

[eohachu]

achh just rewatched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind and hnggh at one point i thought 'i wish i could erase my memories with [redacted]' and then immediately went actually no. i wouldn't. and cried