#lila’s rambles

[lilacmingi]

26 BABEYYYYY 🎉

[lilacmingi]

This has just happened to me ONCE. A couple years ago, I had a very nice reader on Wattpad make fanarts of two Ateez imagines I wrote and it was the sweetest thing ever 😭 I still think about it sometimes because that was just so cool. No one had ever done anything like that before. It was the first time anyone had ever created something based on my stories 🥹

Reblog if you are a fic writer who welcomes moodboards, playlists, remixes, art and any other type of gift based on your stories.

YESSSSS

[lilacmingi]

I GOT TICKETS TO SEE ATEEZ!!! 😭 They added a second date for the tour stop I wanted to attend and an Internet friend gave me her presale code so I was able to get seats! I was supposed to see Ateez in January 2022 after holding onto my ticket since December 2019 but I didn’t go because I didn’t want to get sick (which I made the right choice) but WOW! It feels so good to finally say I’m seeing Ateez! This’ll be my first k-pop concert too so I’m really looking forward to it and I hope everything goes well!

[hopelessfandomfreak]

it’s out of character for diego to not like being a father when he spent like all of season 3 proving to himself he could do it and showing what a good dad he would be and just unconditionally loving stanley and his unborn child. it’s out of character for lila to fall for five when she loves diego more than she’s ever loved anyone in her life, and she’s so devoted and loyal to her husband who she has children with and who has supported her and proved to her that she is a good person and she is worth loving.

it’s out of character for five to fall for his brother’s wife when he has never expressed interest in her in any way and is endlessly loyal to his family no matter what. he wouldn’t break that trust, even if he did develop feelings for lila, which is completely unexpected and out of character for someone who has not really shown any attraction to another human, least of all lila.

[nyaskitten]

WU IS A FUCKING FREAK FOR REAL... HOLY SHIT DUDE CHILL OUT...

[mothstiel]

inspired by an actual tweet

[laurrelise]

there’s something so haunting about watching scenes with five when he’s actually thirteen.

like, the flashbacks to before he time-traveled or when he was freshly dropped into the apocalypse.

the entire series, he’s supposed to look like that same damaged but not yet broken thirteen year-old, but he’s not. he’s the traumatized, lonely old man that we know and love. we don’t really know young five.

we know things about him. we know he was extremely stubborn and intelligent. we know he was distant but considerate, and that he wanted to prove himself to reginald more than anything.

but we never really learned who he was. and neither did five.

sometimes i wonder if he mourns the loss of his youth. of his curiosity. of his naivety and convenient stubbornness.

how could a kid grow into a stable man in a crumbling, apocalyptic hellscape?

the answer is, he can’t. so he never did.

he may look like he knows what he’s doing, like he’s got it all figured out, but he’s more lost than anyone in the series. he’s never had a moment to breathe. he never got to figure out who he was or wanted to be.

so he carries his young self around in his head like a rotted corpse, pretending it’s not there in an effort to stay focused in a situation that calls for urgency.

but his young self never escapes him. he may have physically gotten older. he can still feel the scratchiness of his mustache and hear the sloshing of water as innocent blood runs off of his body and into his drain. he may have had more wrinkles and scratches and scars to count, but he’s still the same naive child who disappeared out of spite.

he knows he is, and he hates himself for it.

he hates the stupid, senseless kid who ran off without a plan or the brains to make sure he knew how to handle his abilities before throwing caution to the wind. he started hating himself the moment he smelled charred bodies and burning buildings for the first time, the moment he knew that smell would never fully leave him.

and it doesn’t.

and neither does the thirteen year-old runaway.

[ninadove]

We talk a lot about how Lila was able to figure out Ladybug’s identity, steal the Miraculous and make her Wish within a few hours (!!!), but not enough about how Chronobug was able to beat her at her own game after the terrible awful no good day she just had.

This is Marinette at her WORST. She was literally dealing with the world ending for a second time that day, but this time for GOOD, and she still went out and did her job and absolutely KILLED IT.

Because the girls are both so smart, they highlight each other’s intelligence, and it’s great 💛

[lilacmingi]

You’re welcome 😎

love the phrase 'methinks'. me does think. thinketh me do.

[townofcrosshollow]

I absolutely love media that's just unapologetically a reinterpretation of Twin Peaks. Laura Palmer is such an incredible character that she doesn't just haunt the narrative, she haunts hundreds of other narratives

[lilacmingi]

ICE ON MY TEETH MUSIC VIDEO?! And Mingi’s line? Like WYM HIT THAT BOOTY???

[ratpoizonz]

sorry this is mostly dexter and jack n john i'm biased

[lilacmingi]

@taeswolfie I always think of us when I see memes like this because I know you and I are bad about having The Big Idea™️ and then being stuck trying to come up with filler for before and after the big scene of the story lolol

Had to make a meme to describe me currently

[nexus-my-beloved]

Umbrella Academy is actually so devastating because what do you MEAN all of them lost their lovers. What do you MEAN Klaus lost Dave not once but TWICE and he was never brought up again. What do you MEAN Diego lost not only Eudora Patch but also got distant with Lila towards the end. What do you MEAN both Bens meeting Jennifer destroyed them + Umbrella!Ben couldn't have that one girl from Klaus' cult and had to love her from the afterlife. What do you MEAN Luther finally got out of the pseudo-incest relationship he had with Allison and married Sloane only to lose her so soon and never see her again. What do you MEAN Allison lost her first husband AND Ray because Ray walked out. What do you MEAN Viktor got screwed over by Peabody, lost Sissy, and then fumbled EVERY GIRL IN TOWN and never found someone he really loved the way he did Sissy ever again. What do you MEAN Five had to bring Dolores back to where he found her and then when he thought he had real love with Lila he got told he was just survival and it didn't mean anything. What do you MEAN Lila had this relationship with Diego that was on and off but she still loved him and yet she was with Five at some point and also lost Stan's mom (I'm like 90% sure there was some lesbian relationship going on there what the fuck was that). WHAT DO YOU MEAN.

[fivelasanctum]

Everything is real

S03 ep.07 and S04 ep.06 parallel: Been doing my rewatch of the series and noticed this gem inside Lila's psyche when she was talking to Allison being reminiscent of her yelling that her and five's life in the alternate timelines wasn't real. A blatant contradiction to what she mentioned here. "This isn't real Five! None of this is real!" -Lila S04 ep.05 Events when time travelling are real and still impact you, just can happen quickly and feel like a whirlwind. She also goes to mention to have something or someone to focus on to essentially keep you sane and grounded.

Five comes in right after they have this conversation, zooming in on him as he came to fetch them for the plan. Hmmmm...xD When Five and her get lost in the subway time travelling system, her focus point is her kids. Just as Lila became Five's purpose for surviving. To protect her and try to get her back home to them. Five also became her focus point. Just secondary to their shared goal. Being together, relying on the other for survival (initially), comfort and affection. Eventually falling for each other since they can sit down and have time to see how they are mirrors of each other in many ways. Lila has shown she has mental barriers both around her heart and mind. Self preservation. Much like Five with his own control over his emotions and keeping others at a distance from all his years alone and serving as an assassin. Lila has the same trauma... with being brought up by the handler and living in the same life. She lied about Stanley to Diego as a way to test him if he would be a good father because she was scared and didn't want to be rejected. Possibly lying about being with many people to make him jealous. Mind games that she probably was taught by the Handler.

In the above images you can see that lila is a very human character with inexplicable flaws. Seeing herself far too broken to have a family and cowardly. She tends to go for the jugular to hurt when she has been harmed or upset emotionally. She goes into denial and tries to run away from her problems to a certain extent. Whereas Five has always cut to the quick with his brutal honesty. Telling her Diego loves her but also the cold truth of how her mother never did. Making her almost cry so she lashed out by diminishing his experience by calling Dolores out for what she actually was. Something to note from their argument in season 4 leading up to their return to their present timeline. He confronted her about what they shared in all those years and that the marriage was broken. Lila lies to herself sometimes and wanted to run away from having to think about anything outside of seeing her kids.

I strongly feel she said those words to Five about it being all about survival and it not being real because she felt betrayed with his lies. Even though his words weren't wrong. She couldn't say anything to his reasoning for doing it. "You know why." Still - it's true to her character. When she saw the hurt on her lovers face...think that's when most of the anger faded from her. Replaced with a sense of powerlessness, sadness and resignment. Yearning to stay there in their happiness bubble (it was still their Anniversary when all this went down) but needing to have her kids back. She appeared as though she was ready to cry because in her heart she didn't want anything to change regarding the two of them. Just trying to push him away yet can't stand hurting him. Perhaps it's difficult for her to hold herself back from that defense mechanism.

This is the look of someone eager to get back to her old married life with the kids right? Again, ready to cry with the situation weighing heavy on her heart. Think why she had tunnel vision to focus on just seeing her kids again was because she didn't want to ponder what happens next with her relationship with Five, talking to Diego...figuring everything out. Damn. This was suppose to be a short post but turned into a mini essay. In short...she was lying about what they have not being real. Just tried to push it away due to in the moment anger with the reveal.

[hopelessfandomfreak]

this is them