#lila’s rambles

[lilacmingi]

26 BABEYYYYY 🎉

[lilacmingi]

This has just happened to me ONCE. A couple years ago, I had a very nice reader on Wattpad make fanarts of two Ateez imagines I wrote and it was the sweetest thing ever 😭 I still think about it sometimes because that was just so cool. No one had ever done anything like that before. It was the first time anyone had ever created something based on my stories 🥹

Reblog if you are a fic writer who welcomes moodboards, playlists, remixes, art and any other type of gift based on your stories.

YESSSSS

[mothstiel]

it’s gonna be an official policy to only have two genders. an official fucking policy preventing basic recognition of thousands of queer people living here. this is fucking insane.

but most importantly, we persevere. we show trump that we’re never going away or being suppressed. don’t let him push us around.

[lilacmingi]

I GOT TICKETS TO SEE ATEEZ!!! 😭 They added a second date for the tour stop I wanted to attend and an Internet friend gave me her presale code so I was able to get seats! I was supposed to see Ateez in January 2022 after holding onto my ticket since December 2019 but I didn’t go because I didn’t want to get sick (which I made the right choice) but WOW! It feels so good to finally say I’m seeing Ateez! This’ll be my first k-pop concert too so I’m really looking forward to it and I hope everything goes well!

[hopelessfandomfreak]

it’s out of character for diego to not like being a father when he spent like all of season 3 proving to himself he could do it and showing what a good dad he would be and just unconditionally loving stanley and his unborn child. it’s out of character for lila to fall for five when she loves diego more than she’s ever loved anyone in her life, and she’s so devoted and loyal to her husband who she has children with and who has supported her and proved to her that she is a good person and she is worth loving.

it’s out of character for five to fall for his brother’s wife when he has never expressed interest in her in any way and is endlessly loyal to his family no matter what. he wouldn’t break that trust, even if he did develop feelings for lila, which is completely unexpected and out of character for someone who has not really shown any attraction to another human, least of all lila.

[lilacmingi]

This is literally it!! We always hype each other up 😂

[nyaskitten]

WU IS A FUCKING FREAK FOR REAL... HOLY SHIT DUDE CHILL OUT...

[lilacmingi]

ICE ON MY TEETH MUSIC VIDEO?! And Mingi’s line? Like WYM HIT THAT BOOTY???

[mothstiel]

guys don't start researching wedding vows for a fanfiction. you WILL recognize the parallels between cas's goodbye and the average vow. and it WILL upset you deeply.

[laurrelise]

something that i’d like to talk about is the scene where old five first sees himself, except in his thirteen-year old body.

this is a man who’s spent decades alone because of the mistake he made at the age of thirteen.

this is a man who found and presumably buried his dead siblings, the only people in the world he lived for, because of the mistake he made at the age of thirteen.

this is a man who was forced to kill other innocent men, women, and children in order to save the lives of everyone on the planet, because of the mistake he made at the age of thirteen.

he acts like he hates himself more than anything, and he makes it very clear that that’s exactly how he feels.

could you imagine making the worst decision of your life, a decision that could cause the end of all life and humanity, and then after decades of having to live with the regret, to see your young self again. the villain of your life and the creator of your misery.

but you were so young. you were so young and so stupid and you didn’t understand yourself enough to realize that you’d made a mistake until it was too late to turn back. and you really don’t want to hate yourself.

but you do.

can you imagine the pure rage? the hint of repressed depression? the unbridled wrath and the overwhelming sense of grief that old five must have felt in the moment he saw himself again?

[ninadove]

We talk a lot about how Lila was able to figure out Ladybug’s identity, steal the Miraculous and make her Wish within a few hours (!!!), but not enough about how Chronobug was able to beat her at her own game after the terrible awful no good day she just had.

This is Marinette at her WORST. She was literally dealing with the world ending for a second time that day, but this time for GOOD, and she still went out and did her job and absolutely KILLED IT.

Because the girls are both so smart, they highlight each other’s intelligence, and it’s great 💛

[townofcrosshollow]

I absolutely love media that's just unapologetically a reinterpretation of Twin Peaks. Laura Palmer is such an incredible character that she doesn't just haunt the narrative, she haunts hundreds of other narratives

[lilacmingi]

You’re welcome 😎

love the phrase 'methinks'. me does think. thinketh me do.

[nexus-my-beloved]

Umbrella Academy is actually so devastating because what do you MEAN all of them lost their lovers. What do you MEAN Klaus lost Dave not once but TWICE and he was never brought up again. What do you MEAN Diego lost not only Eudora Patch but also got distant with Lila towards the end. What do you MEAN both Bens meeting Jennifer destroyed them + Umbrella!Ben couldn't have that one girl from Klaus' cult and had to love her from the afterlife. What do you MEAN Luther finally got out of the pseudo-incest relationship he had with Allison and married Sloane only to lose her so soon and never see her again. What do you MEAN Allison lost her first husband AND Ray because Ray walked out. What do you MEAN Viktor got screwed over by Peabody, lost Sissy, and then fumbled EVERY GIRL IN TOWN and never found someone he really loved the way he did Sissy ever again. What do you MEAN Five had to bring Dolores back to where he found her and then when he thought he had real love with Lila he got told he was just survival and it didn't mean anything. What do you MEAN Lila had this relationship with Diego that was on and off but she still loved him and yet she was with Five at some point and also lost Stan's mom (I'm like 90% sure there was some lesbian relationship going on there what the fuck was that). WHAT DO YOU MEAN.

[fivelasanctum]

Everything is real

S03 ep.07 and S04 ep.06 parallel: Been doing my rewatch of the series and noticed this gem inside Lila's psyche when she was talking to Allison being reminiscent of her yelling that her and five's life in the alternate timelines wasn't real. A blatant contradiction to what she mentioned here. "This isn't real Five! None of this is real!" -Lila S04 ep.05 Events when time travelling are real and still impact you, just can happen quickly and feel like a whirlwind. She also goes to mention to have something or someone to focus on to essentially keep you sane and grounded.

Five comes in right after they have this conversation, zooming in on him as he came to fetch them for the plan. Hmmmm...xD When Five and her get lost in the subway time travelling system, her focus point is her kids. Just as Lila became Five's purpose for surviving. To protect her and try to get her back home to them. Five also became her focus point. Just secondary to their shared goal. Being together, relying on the other for survival (initially), comfort and affection. Eventually falling for each other since they can sit down and have time to see how they are mirrors of each other in many ways. Lila has shown she has mental barriers both around her heart and mind. Self preservation. Much like Five with his own control over his emotions and keeping others at a distance from all his years alone and serving as an assassin. Lila has the same trauma... with being brought up by the handler and living in the same life. She lied about Stanley to Diego as a way to test him if he would be a good father because she was scared and didn't want to be rejected. Possibly lying about being with many people to make him jealous. Mind games that she probably was taught by the Handler.

In the above images you can see that lila is a very human character with inexplicable flaws. Seeing herself far too broken to have a family and cowardly. She tends to go for the jugular to hurt when she has been harmed or upset emotionally. She goes into denial and tries to run away from her problems to a certain extent. Whereas Five has always cut to the quick with his brutal honesty. Telling her Diego loves her but also the cold truth of how her mother never did. Making her almost cry so she lashed out by diminishing his experience by calling Dolores out for what she actually was. Something to note from their argument in season 4 leading up to their return to their present timeline. He confronted her about what they shared in all those years and that the marriage was broken. Lila lies to herself sometimes and wanted to run away from having to think about anything outside of seeing her kids.

I strongly feel she said those words to Five about it being all about survival and it not being real because she felt betrayed with his lies. Even though his words weren't wrong. She couldn't say anything to his reasoning for doing it. "You know why." Still - it's true to her character. When she saw the hurt on her lovers face...think that's when most of the anger faded from her. Replaced with a sense of powerlessness, sadness and resignment. Yearning to stay there in their happiness bubble (it was still their Anniversary when all this went down) but needing to have her kids back. She appeared as though she was ready to cry because in her heart she didn't want anything to change regarding the two of them. Just trying to push him away yet can't stand hurting him. Perhaps it's difficult for her to hold herself back from that defense mechanism.

This is the look of someone eager to get back to her old married life with the kids right? Again, ready to cry with the situation weighing heavy on her heart. Think why she had tunnel vision to focus on just seeing her kids again was because she didn't want to ponder what happens next with her relationship with Five, talking to Diego...figuring everything out. Damn. This was suppose to be a short post but turned into a mini essay. In short...she was lying about what they have not being real. Just tried to push it away due to in the moment anger with the reveal.

[neahtrix]

Very self-indulgent post but I’ve been wanting to make a TUA x Squid Game au sooo…