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× Negative Trait Tag Game.
Tagged by @kharonion and @katsigian , thank you so much💜
RULES: bold what always or almost always applies, italicize occasional or situational, strikethrough never applies.
— VINCE —
aggressive | arrogant | authoritarian | bitter | brutal | callous | cannibal | careless | cold/cold-hearted | compulsive | controlling | corrects others constantly | cowardly | critical | cruel | demanding | disillusioned | domineering | envious | emotionally stunted | greedy | grim | guarded | hard | harsh | hypocritical | impatient | impolite | intimidating | irritable | kidnapper | lazy | liar | lustful | materialistic | mean | merciless | messianic | mistrusting | narrow-minded | obsessive | opinionated | overbearing | over-critical | over-emotional | over-thinking | patronizing | proud | remote | repressed | rigid | rules with an iron fist | ruthless | sarcastic | self-righteous | self-indulgent | taciturn | torturer | touchy | traitorous | unsympathetic | unpredictable | uptight | vain | vengeful
This is a good list, but you know what's missing? deceiving, impressionable, indecisive, manipulative and stubborn!
Apart from that, I feel like I had to italicize a lot here, and that's because Vince is the type of person who really has two different faces depending on which circumstances you meet him under... the kind of pragmatic "True Neutral" alignment character that will do whatever suits his own purposes best in most situations, not too bothered with what is the morally good or bad thing to do.
He is not as cold-hearted as he can come across when he's in his slick "corpo persona" that he puts on when he has to deal with people on a professional level. He was made to believe his worth as a person is defined by how "useful" he is to others, and at the same time he's learned the hard way that showing weakness gets you swallowed quickly in Night City and the corporate world as a whole. It's this constant balancing act between being useful while not letting yourself be used that got him as far as he did.
At the same time, he is a bit of a dick who always wants to be right about everything. Behind the cool exterior is just this angry kid who's been fucked by life over and over again, had extremely high expectations put onto him and puts them on himself now, and has just really gotten kind of numb and disillusioned from the life he's leading. He's too proud and stubborn to ask for or accept help, craving to find some kind of meaning or purpose for himself in this whole mess, and then repeatedly falls for the wrong people and their empty promises.
On issues like his distrustfulness, his sarcasm, and his tendency to lie (about uncomfortable matters in particular) he is working though (not because he sees them as flaws necessarily, but more because it's these things that usually get him into the most trouble with the people he actually really cares about...).
I don't know who's done this already, and as always no pressure and tyt! Gonna tag @honourandsteel, @pinkyjulien, @chevvy-yates (aber echt kein Stress! xD), @imaginarycyberpunk2023 (would be so curious about both Vinnie and Macha here!!), @breezypunk, @timaeusterrored (curious about Vax in particular, but anyone goes if you wanna do this :o), @genocidalfetus, aaaaand everyone else who I'm forgetting now! Consider yourself tagged <3
#cyberpunk 2077#cyberpunk v#male v cyberpunk#vincent ezaki#tag games#my boy is not okay and has so much crap to unlearn XD#funnily enough I feel like some of his 'negative' traits are also some of his most positive ones#like... over-emotional for example#cause yes he's disillusioned and can be cold and pragmatic#but he's not emotionally stunted - he feels and cares deeply he's just scared about showing it#and it's a struggle because his emotions blind his logic at the worst possible moments#and yes he's a bit vain and arrogant and materialistic - but he takes care of himself as best as he can even on the most shitty days#he is too stubborn to just give up and lie down and die when that oftentimes would be the easier thing to do than fighting tooth and nail#I am OVERWHELMED by feels help
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Rainbows (Patreon)
#Doodles#UT#Handplates#Papyrus#Sans#This rainbow is all out of order - and so many negative glows ah :0#I didn't mean for them to trend negative! They were just easier to imagine the expressions - maybe I'll take a second pass on the positives#Or in green's case the negative :')#Again in order of when I drew them so kinda all over the place haha#I wanted to go in order! And then I got distracted pft - thus started with red ow :(#Honestly I was thinking of it just being a surprise-pain more than anything lol - like a splinter haha that wouldn't even pierce him!#D'you think that eyeglows could also act like automatic word-responses? Like how we say ''Ow'' when we're surprised but not hurt sometimes#Silly haha#The second is a lot less silly-intended tho more actual pain#It's also sad to think that Sans' red would pretty much have to be sympathy/emotional pain :(#The kind of survivors guilt of not being able to shoulder more but he's so fragile! It's not his fault!#I am quite happy with both of their expressions there tho especially their mouth shapes - and how the colours interact with their eyes#Lineless colours are some of my favourites :) You can tell it's my pencils and not my pen there 'cause it's feathery hehe#For example Edgar's scars are usually with my pen and they have an almost hard-line quality while my pencils are soft :) S'pretty#Switched colours! I unfortunately misremembered what their meanings were oops lol#Well I got them kinda half-right - I like blue as skeptical quite a lot :D I think it suits them both!#Sans as wary and logical and wanting to keep distance to assure his safety and what he can devote energy to - I like it!#And Papyrus using his brother's colour to be grown up in the way that Sans is hehe <3 It's sweet#I misremembered orange lol I assigned blue's alt meaning of ''curiousity'' - orange is meant to be bravery! Oops lol#I think I was thinking of Papyrus' childlike excitement and wanting to know and be involved! Haha#Greeeeens <3 Happy boys happy with each other! I love when they're happy ♥ Interlocked holding hands hehe#Pinks! Along a similar line! I like pink as platonic affection :D And as embarrassment lol but hgg the sweetness! The care and love!#Is my bias showing lol - especially with the bros sleeping on each other haha ♪ They're both happy to know the other is safe!#Couple'a stresses - I like Sans' more I'm not even gonna sugarcoat lol his expression turned out so good haha#And the inverse for the purples! I do like Sans' face but his body :P Papyrus tho - he turned out sad and perfect :')
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sam can control dean emotionally by pleading & using submissive puppy dog eyes while dean has physical control over sam. you understand
#might expand on this later#i partly agree that the power imbalance in their relationship goes both ways#i say PARTLY bc dean isn’t just an older brother but also a father for sam#and sam wants his trust & praise & approval#but i think it’s important to remember that the power they have over each other is not the same#dean craves physical control over sam bc it’s part of “taking care of and protecting sam” for him but also bc he’s extremely possessive#and his biggest fear is losing sam. so he always needs some kind of reminder that sam is his that he owns him#when sam acts like a brat and tries to get out of his control dean goes violent and insane#and yes he’s fully capable of hurting sam in the process (the panic room is my fave example)#sam’s power is more emotional & subtle & feminine#he knows exactly what effect his submissiveness & needy behavior have on dean and sometimes he uses it to get what he wants#anyway i have sm thoughts on this#also i talk a lot about how dean being !physically! sub in their relationship is extremely ooc in my opinion#so i wanted to explain a bit#wincest#samdean#spn
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Come back home when you have some sense
You can throw your life away just not at my expense
You’re not the son I raised
#jhariah#this one just rawrrfrrr#and then uh another line thats like ‘tell me did you raise a man?’#nice#im just listening to the new album to cope with nasty sickness and feeling out of it#god this album is really good it has every emotion in there like this song for example just the part where they scream the chorus its like#hnnnghhh#hm some other moments from the album im liking a lot uhhh i love re: concerns a lot#the part where hes like reading off the complaints and then the part where hes just screaming and its like BAM BAM BAM BAAAM#sasuke is so good and the bit at the end where its like ‘i just want you to know im so so...’#like hes gonna say sorry but cant seem to say the word for whatever reason and i know nothing about sasuke#but i has to imagine the fan girlies are eating gravel over that one lol it gets me#and theres just that like spooky echoing afterwards#the intro to fire4fun goes SOOOOOOOO hard i was losing my shit its awesome#the entirety of trust ceremony is giving me big feelings but specifically that part towards the end where its all quiet and you hear#its like whistling i think? like a marching band is coming in maybe#but it also kinda sounds like nature too and idk i like got a little bit um magical at that part cuz i was driving down a big hill#and it had been raining but there was a clearing in the clouds and the sun was bright and like at this particular hill#you can just see everything like the land stretches for miles theres trees hills the river farms all that shit#and idk with the extreme stress and depression ive been feeling its hard to have these moments where life seems worth it#and its hard to really feel anything anymore or to feel in the moment but idk i was just going down that hill seeing everything and it was#very majestic so yeah that song is definitely gonna have the same effect as pin eye for me#which i must mention pin eye again its still OOOOGHH very good it came at a pretty good time for me#yeah basically this album is uhhhh whats keeping me somewhat grounded rn i recommend 👍
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after watching ATLA I got curious about whether my constantly negatively comparing its gender politics to the (imo superior) 2003 Teen Titans animated series had any merit or what, so I sat down to watch TT properly for the first time in ~2 decades, prepared for the worst
but you know what literally THE SECOND EPISODE centers one of the female leads and her complex relationship with her sister and features her love interest comforting and supporting her as she works through her insecurities and finally confronts said sister so WHAT THE FUCK WAS ATLA'S EXCUSE FOR ALL OF THAT
#deerchatter#people r always like buhhh atla was feminist for its time NO IT WASN'T LOL#katara and starfire are nice reference points for each series bc they're both supposed to be caring and emotional but also fierce#but while katara is saddled with supporting other characters' arcs and being her love interest's emotional punching bag 90% of the time#starfire's relationships have equal give and take! she's sweet and caring so everyone wants to care for her in turn!#the narrative treats her as interesting and complex and strong and vulnerable right out the gate!#there are many other good examples of similar female characters treated well in other series before ATLA#but TT is the one i always go to bc it came out just a couple years before and is the same genre + had the same demographic#also btw yeah i skipped over commenting on LOK much. i feel like anything i could say on it has already been said better by someone else#perhaps except i still hold the character writing is MUCH better than ATLA's. like it's not GOOD but it's BETTER#the plotting is clumsy but i honestly prefer it over ATLA just bc korra's so loveable and by contrast i want to put aang in a paper shredder
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something I really like about p3p compared to p5 is the extra bits of narration. I don't know if it's because the game doesn't have scenes with animated models or if regular p3 is like that, too, since I haven't played it. But like in Junpei's rank 10, when he's talking about going to see his dad, you get an extra text box that says 'Junpei's hands are trembling.' and in Shinji's rank 10 you get a few of them, one saying he toys with the pocket watch and one saying he looks down at his feet for a long time. Idk. They're nice. In p5, they use pretty much only the talking sprites and the character model animations to show emotion but things like trembling hands or staring at their feet are little things that probably wouldn't be animated but that add a lot to a scene I think.
#i got to junpei's rank 10 on my ng+ just now and it reminded me. the scene hits so much harder for me with that added bit of narration.#it says a lot about junpei in that moment yknow. ig it kind of fleshes the characters and their emotions out in a nice way#like in p5 the characters do have little model animations for certain emotions but theyre pretty general#ryuji has the one when he's unhappy where he scuffs his sneaker on the ground. ann has the one where she twirls her hair#but these narrations are for much smaller things. and theyre not reused all over the place so they carry more weight when they are used#idk. these are distinctly different to me than the animations in p5 and i cant concisely explain why.#i think part of it is the animations in p5 are used a lot so they feel much more general ig? and then the fact that the lil narrations#in p3p are for much smaller minute details. it feels more... idk. intimate? more telling of a character's state of mind? something like tha#and there probably ARE examples of this sorta thing in p5 too i just feel like it's very very uncommon in that game
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I just started a rebels rewatch and I can't get over how touchy the ghost crew are. It's just constant reassuring or steadying hands on shoulders, kanan cuffing ezra on the head for being dumb, zeb shoving Sabine when she's being silly, hera laying a hand on chopper since he's family too.
It's making me insane and I'd kill to see stuff like this in more media!
#ugh i just love it SO MUCH#its the comfort and familiarity and closeness#and it's camaraderie#i especially love seeing how quickly ezra is involved in it#once they get to know ezra for a few days the touches start extending to him and it's like they're giving him a place to belong 🥲#im not okay#im getting emotional over little animated star wars guys#hELP#but seriously this is my favorite thing ever#i want every show ever to take notes and follow their example#star wars#star wars rebels
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One thing that I'm afraid about for the next Zelda game is that nintendo is clearly going down the botw route for future titles. I loved botw and totk, but to me these two games HIGHLY prioritized gameplay rather than story. Ocarina of time created a formula for its future zelda titles that in my eyes prioritized story over gameplay (now the quality of the stories could be debated aksjdbakbd)
Overall i just hope the zelda team finds a REALLY good balance between the two
#totk's story WAS better told than botw#but....i did sort of enjoys botw's story more simply because of the story building#that totk really lacked#example: it was fun to imagine the shit that happened 100 years ago#rather than zelda's time in the past with the Zonai#and i will forever say the mystery of the Zonai was really killed off. I loved Rauru and Mineru but i feel like....#the story would've been the same if they weren't Zonai and we just hylians#you know what i mean?#anyways#is this a rant? kind of#pre-calamity era had sOOO much tension and emotions that I loved thinking about#zonai era....kinda didn't#it attempted to but i couldn't really connect#i wish there was a scene between ganondorf talking to zelda just so she could be like “holy shit uh this is dangerous.....”#OKAY RANT OVER NOW FR#Sorry for sooo many long posts today#a lot of my mind#zelda#totk#botw#loz
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the one negative thing i have to say is that please don't be screaming every single line and pushing into the barricade mid-show and fake hyperventilating through the quiet parts so that my short recording of the piano intro to atlantic is dominated by some heavy breathing from behind (to that person, it's not just you in the audience)
#we're all excited and emotional but there was no reason to be acting like that#everyone screams a few lines#YOUVE GOT ME IN A#< for example#TAKE A BITE#etc#but not every single line of every single song#sing along sure#but when you're competing with vessel for whose voice is the loudest#shut uppppp#i'm here for him not you#sorry. i'm over the moon in general but just watched my atlantic clip#and can hear that heavy breathing through the whole thing#so am very annoyed about that#acting the way this person did is disrespectful to the band and to everyone else in the audience#especially the other people in the audience#you are never the only one affected#ANYWAYYY#got to get on a plane#one more show so hopefully no heavy breathing and screaming there#and pushing into my spot lmao#did i see heavy breather at the doors at 7am?? no#get back#jdbdhgxjdbdh#had such a good time though#ending this rant on a positive#still worth it
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Me crying on twitter again whenever I remember most ppl seem to think "narrative heavy" or "good storytelling" in video games inherently means hours of cutscenes or a bunch of dialogue
(^ thinks experiencing the story through gameplay mechanics can get a much more genuine and intense reaction from a player as they see the direct consequences of their actions on the world and characters surrounding them)
#shaking and crying over minor things bcs I love games that elicit an emotional reaction and shows its world and characters through gameplay#instead of divorcing it from the narrative and thus creating a game that can be separated into 'shooting part' and 'cutscene part' neatly#and no characters talking while youre shooting does not count as story through gameplay#I mean shit like pathologic or dark souls#There has to be more examples out there Im unaware of please enlighten me so I can acquire more games#apparently a lot of very old games are good at this too
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Rwby's biggest sin (outside of its infinity gauntlet of bigotry) is by and large its incuriosity
The story presents so many amazing concepts only to explore exactly none of them. Systemic injustice and the many ways to combat it, societies that live alongside man-eating monsters drawn to negative emotions, whether or not someone's unique ability reflects them as a person, four kingdoms with a long and bloody history needing to come together to deal with an apocalyptic threat, so on and so forth
That's a major factor in why people keep coming back to rwby, why its most consistent criticism is "wasted potential", why this show garners so much attention for better or worse
The audience is curious and the writers are not ¯\_(:/)_/¯
#rwde#watching khadija mbowes video on feminine rage and it got me thinking abt anger as a 'negative' emotion#particularly in regards to the entirety of the white fang plot. yangs anger being glossed over in v4. qrows anger not getting closure in v6#all these examples are a direct response to a wrong: systemic injustice. literally loses a part of yourself. betrayal a close friend#and rwbys overwhelming answer is 'get over it'#ive never liked the idea of 'negative' emotions anyway. its usually used to demonize and silence people w legitimate concerns#hence the examples above#emotions arent inherently good or evil but your expression of them can be#i think itd be way more cool of grimm if they could be a genuine reflection of any emotion#the more chill the people are the more chill the grimm are#maybe people think theyre only drawn to negative emotions bc grimm get more active the more riled people get#idk man. rwby would be good if it was good yknow?
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it’s so wild how there’s still people who say c!dream wasn’t obsessed with c!tommy like. like you do realise that’s fundamentally just saying c!dream isn’t abusive with extra steps right. like abuse isn’t just a Bad Person Thing that people do for no reason it is in fact part of a mindset. abuse comes from entitlement and possessiveness like abusers feel like they're owed whatever they want from their victims whenever they want it and any time they’re not being actively controlled is theft of something that rightfully belongs to them. that’s like the fundamental thing that Makes an abuser. and that counts as obsession in my fucking books. like either you’re saying c!dream isn’t an abuser in a convoluted way or you’re arguing he did it for literally no reason which is like. that is worse. you know that causing pain onto people when you believe they don’t deserve it and know you’re causing severe psychological damage is in fact even more one note evil villain than the psychology of abusers that exists In Real Life right.
#At this point I’m convinced if anyone so much as mentions abuse is a real thing that has been studied and we know the psychology behind it#and how that might be relevant to Analysing An Abusive Character some people just instantly explode#like. at that point you're just saying the sky is in fact never blue and everyone who says otherwise is a nonce. it’s so stupid#like if the only way you can feel justified in liking c!dream is to completely ignore he’s a serial abuser i don’t think you like him?#and abusers do in fact act very possessively over their victims. c!prime is tame in comparison to some real life examples#relying on someone as your emotional support punching bag is in fact obsessive. and that is what abuse is.#if c!dream is not obsessed with c!tommy you are arguing he's either fundamentally not abusive#or you’re arguing he was made with zero research or realistic and sensible motives#and neither like? are good looks?#Abuse tw
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That one post of my mine predictably aged like fine wine. Never let somebody on comic twitter in the writer's room😭😭😭 Like imagine a 1 to 1 adaptation of literally any event?? -1b at the box office. "Who are these people???"
#Anywayyy I'm writing a retelling of DC and it is honestly so fun to imagine the characters in a new but familiar light#Like the biggest reason why I was never interested in writing fanfic before 2 months ago is because I never felt like those characters were#I felt... uncomfortable writing it not because i thought fanfic was bad or anything but because I felt it was weird to write for example#“XYZ DID THIS AND DID THAT AND DID THIS” like maybe he did?? I wouldn't know I don't know him like his creator!!!#But comic characters feel like more flexible due to the many interpretations over the years but firm enough where I can decide how to take#Certain traits and minimize them or expand on them#Also 1 to 1 adaptations suck balls to write. I'm not sure if that's universal but the whole fun of writing is coming up with new ideas#Writing a straight adaptation would be kind of writing a translation into a new medium. Which isn't bad. Novelization are literally those#But a common sentiment among writers I've seen is that Novelizations aren't that fun either unless you get to experiment either#Adapting comics into a new format and retelling them is kind of hell because you have all these intersecting plotlines and insane events#That's just tangled up in a story with a timeline that literally makes its contradictions into plot lines. But it's FUN coming up with ways#To condense a character's origin and sort of rewire it into the story you want to tell. Because yeah I think a lot of people miss is#that at end of the day#you tell stories about people and their struggles. You need to find a way to fit those moments of joy sadness love.#Like a movie about Jason Todd being RH will never be emotional as Jason Todd dying because you'll have less time to feel the love and pain#that Bruce felt for him. Like sure#flashbacks and exposition but that can only go so far. At the end of the day#It will always be about RH vs Batman. That's what people came to see. But that's not all Jason is. He was Robin before he was RH. A 1 to 1#Adaptation will never translate that to screen. Plus you (sadly) have shared universes now and a movie can only jump around in time so much#For example in my fic if I wanted to add Tim and faithful to his source material I would need to add so MUCH about Jason death#About like Bruce grieving without skipping all over that and missing the human element. It would severely mess up pacing.#I don't know i love how adaptations can make you see the characters in a new light or elevate the source material#Iwtv my beloved doesn't adapt the books exactly but reimagined in it a way that I like much more#Anyway this proves my point about comic fans being weirdly childish and omfg I hate to use this term...anti intellectual 😮💨😮💨😮💨#Everyone who writes or yknow reads should like understand this on a fundamental level. One to one adaptations are safe but boring.#Like the Psycho remake was bad not because it made bad changes but it barely made any changes.#Anyway watch amc iwtv to understand good adaptations better than your average comic stan on twtter#Not a rant I just love discussing adaptations#Long tags
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neurodivergency moment on my part
#[.art]#self#saw one too many posts about 'tv autism versus irl autism' and You can acknowledge different ways it manifests without demeaning one of the#it's perfectly understandable to be upset at only seeing one stereotype in media. But in asking for more perhaps/#/don't act like no-one ever can act like that representation- especially for things such as these?#idk I'm tired of people saying ''Autstic People Can Have High Empathy! We're not all heartless bastards!'' like. girl#okay good for you? Others still struggle with the concept of empathy or sympathy#or like- the narrative that 'masking' is only a suppression of emotion (as in containing excitement for example) /#/when it can also be the other way around?#''masking'' can also entail pretending to be excited or sad or whatever emotion is appropriate#i don't know i don't know#I'm :/ at whatever I'm seeing of nd talking topos lately because I keep stumbling on the same few things over and over#and :///#Maybe I'm the one not being nuanced maybe I'm not getting it this isn't meant to be a discourse post. I would have worded it better otherwi#this is very much me complaining about something that mildly annoys me. And nothing else. It's not a statement.
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There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.
#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz#ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and#then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc.#Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific#cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or#etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as#you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on#accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have#as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence#of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate#versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a#neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest#ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling#and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for#documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like#sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I#can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If#I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my#ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ??#Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be#accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor#focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it#were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan#that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is#some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my#kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means#i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m#in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in#one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability#& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER
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Hywel is inspired by a mix of my issues with stories with nonhuman protagonist/about nonhumans becoming human AND vet posts ive seen warning people about the dangers of anthropomorphisizing animals. Its fine to joke about your pets doing things out of spite or other human emotions, it does put you at risk of not being able to read their body language correctly. Cats dont cry out of sadness, a cat crying, with actual tears streaming down its face, is a sign of a medical issue. A dog smiling isn't doing it bc its happy, it means its nervous. Not being able to spot these is bad, and sometimes even dangerous, for you and the animal.
If you never get past Hywel's human appearance and treat him like one its like getting a reactive dog, doing zero research or training, and then taking it to a dog park. If Hywel mauls someone in town then its on you.
#hywel struggles a lot with good vs bad things specifically#he makes decisions based on what makes him feel good or bad (like most people) but#if you explain something being bad to him using emotional reasons (it makes you a bad person‚ its an awful thing to do‚ its gross)#he genuinely will not get it#he'll try to stop! just bc he was told to stop! but he doesn't know how to apply it to other situations#murder for example#he's immortal death doesnt have the same meaning to him#and he doesn't particularly care about people outside of arisen#they're entertaining he finds them fun. they're critters to him#but he's not bothered by them dying#arisen dying is bad bc it means he failed his charge. he cant die. regular people dying? eh whatever#so he doesn't really get why murder is bad#if ur in vernsworth and tell him no then he'll be like i dont understand but ok!!#its only bad in vernsworth bc thats where you said no at!! everywhere else is fine !#he's not trying to find loopholes!!! he genuinely doesn't get it and is doing his best to work with what he's given!!!#his way of thinking is p straightforward and logical though#so you have to explain stuff by how it effects him and how the cons of doing it outweigh the benefits#hywel u cant murder people you dont like bc if we allowed that people would kill merchants and then you couldn't buy stuff#anyway bonus scifi au stuff while im here#hywel would remember the time loops and would do whatever it takes to keep the crew safe#but the thing is. cosmic horror hywel doesn't really understand time or how the loops are fucking people up#he knows the false dawn losing its crew was bad. he doesn't understand WHY its bad‚ but he knows it is#and he loves this crew! theyre funny and some of them are fun to chew on. enrichment.#he's gonna do whateve it takes to keep this crew safe and together. on the ship. y'know‚‚‚ bc the other ship losing its crew was bad#restarting a loop means nothing to him. yeah he's gotta start over with his friendships but thats fun! enrichment!#hes a creature time means nothing to him#beginning of the loop all his friends are here :^) he's completely unaware of how its negatively effecting people#anyway i cannot stress enough he isn't doing this to be malicious he's just doing his best#someone would absolutely realize he was doing this early on and if you tell him to stop he will#but yeah better hope you can explain why he cant do that well enough or hywels gonna unintentionally find every loophole
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