#like... ive got a lot of merch and books

[lunar-wandering]

i seriously need to move out cause my room isn't big enough to hold all of my stuff anymore and it's genuinely causing problems

[ashyslashyy]

okay hi now that i am rested i need to talk about my edtm experience

main thing to know is that i wore my ash cosplay & brought my s-mart bag AND my handmade necronomicon that im super proud of. and also i know all the songs very well so i was mouthing along to pretty much every song & some of the dialogue. just in general very excited to be there

at the merch table i showed them the book and was like "yeah i think itd be cool to have the cast sign it ^_^" and one of the people running the table brought it back stage and they all signed it!!!! woohoo!!!!!!!!!!

we sat in the very front row and at the beginning of the show the director talked to everybody and said "you guys in the first few rows are gonna get sprayed with a lot of blood. Especially you" and he pointed right at me😭

the show itself was fucking incredible it was so so funny and there were some changes from the other versions ive seen (some updates to the lyrics but also. When they brought out a fucking skeleton in a wig for annies dad i lost it)

while ash was fighting all the deadites there were two people on the floor in front of the stage with these things⬇️

which were full of blood and they would spray either side of the audience depending on what was happening and the person on our side just kept looking directly at me and then spraying me in the face😭like i swear at least a third of the blood they sprayed was just on me it was fucking awesome

after the show one of the members of the band got the cast together so they could take pictures with me!!!! oh my fucking god!!!! they were all so nice and when we were talking before the pictures the actor who played ash walked up to me with the chainsaw prop from the show and was like "youll probably be needing this" and i got to wear it in the picture!!! what!!!!! and the picture was on stage in front of the big ass s-mart sign!!!!!!! oh my god they were all so nice it was so great. i told the actor who played scott that i loved his death scene and it was hilarious and he said "which one"😭and apparently they all saw me mouthing along the lyrics and were happy that i was so excited😁😁yayyyyy

overall. holy shit i cant believe all that happened. im so happy right now that couldnt possibly have gone any better. this feels like im the protagonist of one of those "i got sold to one direction" fanfics. also i got this shirt & i had it in my lap so it got covered in blood

[satoriberry]

niko ikki crushing on you!! :>

❥ summary: headcanons with a pining niko [requested by anon]

❥ pairing: niko ikki x gn!reader

❥ watch out for: nothing!! just cute stuff with some crack + reader is oblivious asf btw not proofread

- let me preface by saying that i love this guy so much

- ok lets start

- you're a student at his school and you just happen to catch his attention

- maybe it was your charm, maybe it was the kindness that you treated everyone with unconditionally, but whatever it was, it pulled on his heart strings and made him a sucker for you

- you're just so perfect and beautiful and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA <- representation of his thoughts about you

- everytime you walk past him, he just feels the urge to turn around and pull you into his arms but he can't because no.

- that's not how real life works

- even if you're not in the same class as him, he'd still try to find where you're hanging out in the school so he can sit far away and.....observe you.

- he does that a lot. his afro allows him to hide his eyes so you wouldn't tell whether he was staring at your or not

- doesnt have the courage to talk to you directly, but whenever he can, he tries to join conversations with mutual friend groups. he gets to hear your voice more closely :)

- he's an avid anime watcher (canon) and what he watches is influenced by his current life status

- so when he falls for you, you bet your ass he's watching all them cheesy shoujo anime where the male love interest is a suave, cool hottie so he can project onto him

- but at the same time, he feels so cringe because he thinks you'd definitely see him as some kind of weird loser with no social life

- tries to understand you by piecing together stuff his friends and classmates say about you, like favourite colour, food, celebrity, movie etc

- buys merch of your favourite band in hopes that it'll catch your attention and you'll walk up to him to talk :(

- he's bad at dropping signals and thinks that the most subtle gestures will attract you. they don't. you're too fucking dumb.

- his friends tease him for that a lot

- "bro, doodling their favourite character on your notebook will not make them notice you" "shut the fuck up, you don't know shit."

- seriously, he's so romantically inexperienced and doesn't know how to go about it

- during a particularly windy day, his bangs flew up and revealed his eyes when you were sitting on the rooftop (him alone and you with your friends). he ran off from embarrassment but left behind the book he was reading

- later that day, you walked up to him to return his book and while doing that, you slipped a complement about his eyes and how they were cute

- he screamed into his pillow when he got back home.

- but!!!! he can now talk to you!!

- buys your preferred candy by "accident" and gives it to you because "he pressed the wrong button on the vending machine"

- loves the little smile you wear when enjoying it ♡

- started to give you little acknowledgement nods when crossing each other in hallways. his brain melts when you nod back with a grin

- he daydreams about you a lot and even does that dreamy sigh thing with his cheek against his palm

- he....

- he has a manifestation journal and sporadically writes affirmations with your name in them...

- anyways.

- wants to invite you to soccer practice so you can watch him pull off sick tricks but doesnt know howwww >:/

- asks his friends to say good stuff about him so you can think he's cool

- "yeah niko regularly helps at a cat shelter", "he tutors my brother every sunday", "ive seen him adopt strays"

- at some point they started to say some ridiculous things so he had to force them to stop 💀💀

- watches your mannerisms closely and subconsciously copies them

- the way you open your drinks, tap your feet against the floor to make sure your shoes fit right, pop your neck in specific directions

- when he realizes what he's doing, he buries his face in his hands and lets out a high pitched scream with his face turning into a dark shade of pink

- gets really mushy when thinking about you, writes your name in hearts a lot

- turns into a mess when you're cheerfully talking to him about something you like

- once caught you napping in the library and took it upon himself to sit next to you and make sure nothing bad happens

- by the way that's a lie because nothing that bad could've happened and he wanted to gaze at your calm sleeping figure

- literally squealed as he watched you softly adjust your head on your arms

- so. we can conclude by saying that niko is really awkward when it comes to you and he has some pretty unorthodox methods of expressing his feelings, but he never loses hope that, maybe one day, you'll see him in the same light (he's a dumbass that can't see you already do)

[bloodgulchblog]

In light of what others have asked about the Banished, do you ever feel like the narrative writers (not all, but by-and-large) haven’t been interested in telling stories about morally complex aliens—writing them as people, in other words?

After years spent waiting for the post-war setting, for me the Kilo Five trilogy’s messaging signaled that 343 weren’t interested in telling that kind of story, especially after more years of alien terrorists who really want to kill humans again constantly being centered (while seemingly ignoring that the Great Schism was A Thing) and with the Swords of Sanghelios being deemphasized to the point where only a paragraph in the 2022 Encyclopedia’s “Splinter Factions” section was dedicated to them while the Banished got three dozen.

With some of the new story shards and Halo: Outcasts I feel like things are starting to turn around, but I do worry that they’ll shift back.

I don't know anything about anything for real but I think what's going on is this:

First and foremost, before it is anything else, Halo is an investment Microsoft is trying to make money on. The way it does this is primarily by selling purchases in a live services video game where you compete at running around shooting other players and (only recently) sometimes computers. They do make money on merch and things like books and such, but it's not remotely as much as they make on shootman video game.

They have a huge incentive to continue telling stories where running around shooting is the main action. Ergo, the stories Halo's writers tell need to create excuses to have this action and to make that part seem fun and enticing.

(The fact that Halo's pvp has never really had anything to do with events occurring in the lore doesn't really matter, once they have the campaign story excuse game for the multiplayer. "It's a training exercise for Spartan-IVs" was a very late addition, and oldschool Halo didn't bother framing it at all because nobody cared. Frankly, I think most people who play Halo PVP still don't really care.)

So, Halo's not interested in post-war and anything that amounts to recovery because it doesn't do a lot to contribute to Halo's core goal of making shootgame money that keeps convincing Microsoft that the people who make Halo should get the paychecks they need to afford to live indoors and eat food.

I do think there are people working on Halo who are interested in and curious about these ideas, and I really do think the Arbiter and the Swords of Sanghelios and the Sangheili in general are house favorites. (Why else would they be finding excuses to continue bringing the Sangheili into the games even if they can only fit them in as part of the Banished now, when the Sangheili are the species the Jiralhanae probably hate the most?)

Honestly, Halo isn't good at deep or complex characters of any species most of the time and when things are good it's because someone managed to give them some extra love somewhere. Halo has never needed a watertight, emotionally intelligent narrative. It just sometimes skates close on things like the Arbiter, and even though the Arbiter's arc is easily the strongest part of Halo 2's story the gamers hated it and that's why it was so curtailed in Halo 3.

They gotta make shootman games, and sell the shootman games, and that requires an acceptable enemy. For a while they were pivoting toward having Forerunner enemies, but now those are associated with an unpopular time in Halo (especially Halo 5). And Halo is at an age where it feels like every new thing about it is "trying to return to the roots" so... shooting familiar-looking aliens that people have nostalgia for.

Frankly, this is the biggest reason why I'm sighing and waiting for them to bring back the Flood again even though I'm really just not looking forward to that. It feels inevitable.

[pizzacastella]

sorry for being radio silent for weeks (suddenly became important at work) then breaking my silence just to reblog beautiful fanart of my beautiful wife (john silver)

quick recap for those who wanna know >:P

hello friends and family :)

sorry for being gone, i finally got to touch grass so i didnt need the delusions to go thru the horrors of everyday :( i am doing well, just been very busy with work and honestly it tuckers me out a lot so i just pass out the moment i get home (not ideal)

re: suddenly becoming important at work

im taking on more responsibilities now (single handedly in charge of merch designs, main designer for a rebranding launch, getting my designs signed up for IP) and probably even more once i get regularized (in two weeks!!)

my personal computer is busted (ant crawled inside the monitor n fucked it up a bunch) been waiting for the past few weeks for the parts to come in, hopefully it will get fixed next weekend. havent been able to draw bc of this and i semi had a breakdown bc i took this as a sign from god that i should get a tablet so i can draw anywhere instead of saving up for big girl pc that could run bg3 in hd (and also run after effects for freelance work ofc haha lol)

bc of that i had less screen time and it made me think abt how i need to consume less and actually take time to create etc etc so ive been trying to get back into more traditional stuff (reading books, writing in a journal, watercolors) and tbh its been v good for me, will prolly continue to do so until i figure out how to balance both (consuming/creating)

last but not the very least, i got a mullet !! v happy about it, my hair has never been fluffier. i've never felt gender-affirmation until i saw myself in this hair :) i feel more like myself now, im v happy i did it :3

anyway that's all for now my lovelies !!! im sorry if this was long and im not even sure if anyone would read thru the whole thing but if u did, thank u !! u a real one n im kissing u on the top of ur head :3

[kitty-the-wizard]

Twilight Brain Dump✮⋆˙

i literally love twilight so much. it is my greatest special interest and one that has impacted my life the most. other special interests ive had have also shaped my life but fixating on twilight lead me in to a different part of my life that had some positivity to it, some depth, some cool lore, etc. when i first got in to twilight i was definitely team edward, i guess because bella and edward seemed “better” together and it was just a cool original plot. but, now that im a few years deep in to my special interest, im 110% team jacob. and, with changing teams, ive changed my favorite movie to new moon because hes more in that one and greatly in bellas life. i enjoy the original twilight movie a lot because jacob does make appearances earlier and throughout the movie unlike the book (which im still in the process of reading) where he doesnt until pretty late. i only recently started reading twilight because i was scared that it was going to alter my perception, idea, and extreme interest in twilight. but, it has actually made it greater! im pleasantly surprised and relieved. i have the mass market twilight book and it is SO adorable- i literally almost cried when i got it in the mail! my dear boyfriend bought it for me <3 im kinda assuming that every neurodivergent person goes through this with special interests, but i go through waves and phases within each other - if that makes sense lmao xD like, sometimes ill be way in to one part of twilight, or not so in to the details but in to the movies, or detached from the movies and book but love merch, etc. it’s fascinating when looking at it from afar but scary when you feel like you are falling away. ive never actually fallen away, only “evolved” with my special interest in it. this evolving and growing interest makes me wanna be in the twilightverse so bad ;-; i want to live in this world!!!! i also really want to see bella just be with jacob OMG dont get me wrong, i love edward and his plot line/his family’s plot line - but HEAR ME OUT!!!! bella and jacob look so natural and cool as a couple, plus they have family friend relationship lore, bella moving back lore, getting back to knowing each other lore!!!! maybe wattpad has fanfic?? probably XD

i highkey wish i wasnt a CHILD when twilight came out. i should’ve been 16 LMAO i shouldve been able to cry at hot topic and scream at the movie screen XD

[thetwilightroadtonightfall]

my personal good things of 2022 list

Made some banger art this year!! I took a bunch of skillshare classes to learn digital art better and I think it’s paid off. I remember wanting so badly to make digital art in the past but not having the resources and being intimidated by it. And look at me now, babey!

I’ve been having a great time watching JJBA with my girlfriend; it’s been insane and so much better than if I had watched it on my own

Tried a handful of new recipes! My homemade Irish soda bread was my fave but I enjoyed the other ones too

Absolutely loved continuing online yoga sessions from 2021 in the first few months of the year. I actually really missed it when it ended. I plan to get into doing more yoga next year

Went on a lot of solo adventures in the downtown core of my city, which felt very refreshing and just fun to do every once in a while

Made my first budget sheet 🥴 Just Adulting Things

ADORED Turning Red like seriously, that movie was like a love letter to me

Made my website and linktr.ee hell yeaaahhh. I was putting it off for a long time

Uploaded art to Redbubble and INPRNT!!

Finished reading soooo many amazing books this year, which was awesome. I love reading but reading constantly in school drained me last year, so I’m glad I got into a comfortable groove this year. Best book I read this year was Eat Up! by Ruby Tandoh, which was totally up my alley and very informative and wonderful to go through

KINGDOM HEARTS IV????? MISSING LINK??????

EPHEMERA HAS A BIG FAMILY (SOURCE: ME)

Got some of my work featured in different publications :^))

Volunteered at a food bank, which was really awesome. I got to work with lots of kind people and talk to the people who were just so grateful to be able to get free groceries for their families

Year of Spy x Family lol, it’s just such a feel-good anime to watch

[trigger warning for life-threatening surgery; hospital setting] June was a hard month, physically and emotionally. My dad had 3 heart surgeries, and thank goodness he’s much better now as a result of them. But I almost lost him. It’s something that continues to weigh heavy on me. The long commutes to visit him and stay with him in the hospital every day took a toll on my mom and I too, but there was no doubt in my mind that I wanted to be there for him every step of the way. And I was.

Had a reunion with my high school band mates. We had so much fun chatting and drinking after a performance for our old band teacher’s retirement party

got hooked as shit on Legends Arceus, what a lovely game. It was everything I hoped for and more in a pokemon game and it was SO fun to play

Watched Amphibia omggg…it was so funny and heartfelt, and something I love going back to to just sit and relax to

Had an absolute banger of a day at Anime North with my friend. I got such a good merch haul

Dark Road gave me psychic damage but it was awesome. Completely changed my outlook on Xehanort and now I find myself wanting more of him

Helped my friend buy furniture from IKEA for her new apartment. It was a pain to get all of it up to the 10th floor but fulfilling in its own way 💅 Just Adult Things

Saw a bunch of cute ducks at the park!!!! It literally can’t get better than this 🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆

Finally started publishing A Light That Never Goes Out. I’ve been having a great time writing it and filling in some sections I had written already in the past

Had my make-up graduation in person (as opposed to online) which was nice :)

Overall, a great year. I had a lot of struggles and days where I could’ve done more, but I also tried a lot of new things, helped a lot of people, and made lots of good memories. Fingers crossed that 2023 brings more of that positivity!!

[p-antalons]

updated thoughts on NHL teams this holiday season WITH EXPLANATIONS under <3 (update i started this on christmas eve after work. it is now almost new years)

rangers: geographically makes sense. my friends entire family likes them and the first hockey player i ever heard of was panarin (i wrote about him in an ap lang essay once) they are so babygirl to me even if they are a literal mess sometimes <3333 my favs include fox, kreider, and miller who are all so cool. kreider is personal to me for a variety of reasons and i root for his success everyday. fox is simply just!! i adore him and miller is the best and i can’t wait to see how he gets better over time. bonus to panarin for being my first and always looking cool in the videos the rangers twitter posts

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canes: their vibes are good, they’re young and competitive, fun to watch and their social media presence is really well done <3 favs are kochetkov and skjei (bonus to aho for being my birthday twin) ive liked kochetkov since the second round last year even though his team did lose against mine so!! im happy to see him have such a large role on the canes this year

sabres: literally the sabres just look like they’re having a good time and that all the players love each other which is genuinely so fun to see, their merch is cute (my school’s chorus teacher wore a sabres ugly christmas sweater a few days ago) and i dig the blue and yellow. if i wasn’t a rangers fan this is probably the team i would’ve chosen to root for. unfortunately buffalo as a place was meh (even if it was really high on the list of places i strongly considered going to college) <33 my favs are skinner (MY FAV 30 YEAR OLD MAN) and power who is young and cool ig

senators: the vibes just seem good yk they are young and a mess what more could you want. i thought they’d be doing a lot better than they really are doing this year which sucks but whatever. i know nothing about them but i just feel like rooting for them they have that feel that makes you want them to succeed <3 favs are whatever dynamic is happening with tim and brady it is COMICAL in ottawa and they are literally just so funny to me

devils: that streak was very satisfying, i was wishing only the best for them. technically as a rangers fan the devils are like a metropolitan area rival but i literally do not care? they’re the type of team i root to succeed except for when some other team i like is against them so <333 basic but the fav has got to be jack hughes all of those brothers are FREAKS

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stars: i like robertson a lot. oettinger is growing on me too and i dig green as a color so the stars are okay in my book

red wings: i got sent about four trade requests for moritz seider. the way he hits people is hilarious to me and i like his wild hair. also dylan larkin is cool. his cheeks are very rosy. their logo is charming and classic

canadiens: nick suzuki you are a delight and i care for you deeply (FIRST ASIAN CAPTAIN IN HABS HISTORY!!!!) the rookies are super entertaining too i like xhejab’s whole narrative

maple leafs: mitch marner. look at him is he not the most endearing player ever. i do not care about the rest of the team but the tavares narrative is intensely funny to me and i applaud him for leaving long island. i can actually name multiple players on this team which im proud of myself for

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wild: this is mostly because their logo is pretty and i adore their vibes in regards to like kaprizov and reaves in christmas fits. ill say my fav is matt boldy bc he looks like he has a frog in his mouth and bc i don’t really know anyone on the team well enough to pick a fav

flyers: the vibes are so bad to where they’re literally good. it doesn’t make sense at all but that’s how it is. i like the jokes about their coach. fav is tk because he is always on something insane and it is so funny to go on twitter and see what shenanigans he started

penguins: they are so basic but i think everyone has thoughts on the penguins. like first off i know nothing about pittsburgh besides the fact that the penguins exist and that they’re having a great time. i don’t have a specific fav but geno is very funny in interviews so ill say him

avalanche: kept up with them after the rangers got out in the conference finals last year and they were very endearing. the vibes after they won were through the roof and this is probably one of the only teams where i can name the majority of the roster. favs include makar (he was my og avs fav during the cup run) and newy (he’s just … i want to hold him in my pocket)

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coyotes: i really don’t think i have to explain this? it’s literally where careers go to die, they have no arena at the moment, and everyone makes fun of them constantly. i feel immense amounts of pity for them but it’s always funny when some team that everyone thinks is much better loses to the coyotes. they keep the league on their toes. i can’t pick a fav bc i literally can’t name a single player. logan cooley is a prospect for them tho whose name i do know

ducks: every time they aren’t #32 in the league i consider it a miracle. they’re in such dire straits im not even sure what’s happening. on one hand, i admire the attempt at getting bedard but also like. cmon guys put a pep in your step. fav is going to be trevor zegras bc he’s always getting into something and i admire the NHL trying to advertise him as the face of the sport over mcdavid (he is the only player i know besides gibson so??)

canucks: they are literally so pathetic im not even sure where to get started. that losing streak at the beginning of the season? they are like a sad sopping wet cat. they look so defeated but i admire petey single-handedly dragging them to survival. their news is 90% trade rumors on who is getting sent away. fav will be quinn hughes bc i am basic and he is just Like that but also petey because he’s a delight and blond

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kings: my brother said “ive heard you mention them like once” which probably shows how much i care about them. i can name one player and it’s kopitar. also like quinton byfield but he’s a prospect. i could care less about them and their color scheme is lame

sharks: i love the sharks logo and their jerseys and their color scheme. unfortunately i don’t care about them as all and the only player i can name is couture and that’s bc he’s the captain and i did a sporcle on NHL captains once

predators: no i don’t know anything about them nor do i want to. i don’t like yellow as a color and roman josi and cody glass are the only players on their roster i know. i don’t even know much about nashville as a city

golden knights: look i really don’t know much about them. yeah mark stone is the captain and yeah i have eichel on my fantasy team but everything i hear about vegas is filled with loathing. i do wish eichel a happy revenge arc but other than that they can flop for all i care

capitals: i think as a team their vibes are good but i just do not care. this is one of the few teams in this tier where i can name more than three players which is a miracle. ive been seeing a lot of videos of dylan strome with his daughter which is adorable and i hope he signs long term in washington. cheers to ovechkin and whatever he’s doing i guess?

lightning: they’re like too good. like everyone gets it you’ve won two cups since 2020 but i just don’t really care? there’s no fun pathetic underdog arc for them. some guy at my school has a bunch of merch for them which makes no sense to me geographically but that’s whatever. stamkos is like the only player from the team that i can name but he’s cool and that video of his son with the zamboni is adorable

jets: i have multiple jets players on my fantasy team and i still can’t remember their names. winnipeg isn’t real to me and i refuse to believe it actually exists. i realize that they’re not even doing bad this year but narratively they’re kind of lame. their logo is meh to me but i love most of their jerseys

blues: i do not care about missouri as a state and know nothing about it. i can’t even believe they have a hockey team. still not a fan of yellow but i think the music note logo is cute. i know robert thomas and whatever that goalie who’s getting roasted on twitter every week. that is the extent of my knowledge and care for them. they won a cup in recent history so.

blue jackets: they’re just kind of sad at the moment because i feel like their entire roster is on IR? i feel like at the moment im writing this they’re probably like #31 in the league so lots of pity but also i just don’t care about them. their logo is pretty tho! i can name four players (werenski, johnson, laine, and gaudreau) so im counting that as a win! i have johnson on my fantasy team so i hope they keep him on the first line forever (update: not thrilled with them putting on a firework show when one of their goalies literally died because of a firework incident that proceeded to traumatize their other current goalie)

panthers: sorry to the panthers but i really don’t care about them? their logo is lame but their reverse retro jerseys are cool so they have that going for them. i know matthew tkachuk plays for them and there was a whole dramatic trade this summer but that’s it!

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bruins: this one is actually petty i just don’t like them which doesn’t bode well with my future lol. like as far as it goes, they’re a good team and have respectable locker room culture so i should like them more than i do but i just don’t like them. their logo is boring. sorry bruins but i do like mcavoy and root for his success often

flames: i think the battle of alberta is lame. wishing only the best for kadri though who is the only flames player i know!

oilers: i think the battle of alberta is lame (part two) yeah yeah connor mcdavid who is very good but has not expressed an emotion to the media since he was 18 which probably says something about sports culture and i feel bad but also like. edmonton? really? (update after watching the ruff ruff relay, mcdavid’s dog is cute and i like that the oilers did this) tyson barrie is also cool he’s my birthday twin and i wish only the best for him

islanders: my apush teacher in 11th grade was an islanders fan. he wasn’t a great teacher and as a person was questionable, including an implication of calling girls sluts, questionable responses when asked about the lgbtq community, and thinking he was considerably more liberal than he came off as. he microaggressed me as a show of anti racism; i didn’t feel the anti racism energy, in fact i felt very uncomfortable bc it was his response to finding out i did research on racial stereotypes for about the last six months (research that literally ended up with me in multiple newspapers because it was pretty decent). did get a 5 on the exam and 100 in the class but he left a lasting impression of what team i immediately crossed off my list when deciding what hockey team to cheer for. i love the look of their aqua orange color scheme (not the blue orange that is lame) and the fisherman jerseys are super cool. would not be this low in the ranking if i didn’t have that apush teacher, who i always avoid in the halls. if he didn’t exist i might’ve been an islanders fan instead. shoutout to mat barzal whose jersey i see constantly. other players i know are lee, cizikas, and sorokin

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blackhawks: do i need to explain this. i get literal psychic brain damage every time someone says kane to the rangers. literally psychic brain damage. if kane ever goes to the rangers im cutting my losses and becoming a sabres fan

[bloodsbane]

ive been thinking about my ~resolutions~ wrt my art for 2023, and i think the main thing is i want to re-learn how to let myself sink into a picture and do stuff just for fun

mainly, i want to develop the patience it takes to put a lot of work into something that i know won't be perfect, because being too scared to start holds me back. in particular i want to make more detailed pictures. not in terms of realism, but like... STUFF. draw more objects, more small details, flavor, personality. i want to try drawing more interior settings, get used to furniture and walls and ceilings and everyday objects. learn to fill in spaces in ways that convey a lot of personality and/or story

i also wanna make more comics!! but newspaper myself when it comes to longer-form projects. excluding MOIRA, which i hope to pick back up again this year, i am going to try limiting myself to short story comics that are only a handful of pages. my problem is that i like slow development of concepts and dialogue-heavy stuff. i want to train myself to be better at just having fun with a simple concept that i can play around with in like, 2-3 pages max. it's going to be tough, but im hoping this will help make me even more proficient in drawing comics and sand down some of the rough edges i feel grating on me still

i also want to make more merch! ever since getting a book specifically for the stickers i collect, i've gotten even more into stickers and want to make more of them. i hope to re-open my etsy store this year, though i may also try to FINALLY do what it takes to set up my own website. i think that would be a good Main Goal for this year - a site to make a porfolio out of, even if i'm not personally interested in securing, like, Professional Art Jobs... I did do some work as a colorist for someone else's comic and I think I'd love the chance to do something like that again? maybe!

a site would also be good for setting up a way to buy merch from me more directly, though there are some perks that come with doing things through etsy... no pay cuts would be pretty sexy though, especially because something as small as stickers or A5 prints are really easy to package on my own. i'll have to look into it and see.

OH AND THE LAST THING IS THAT I WANNA MAKE ZINES! little ones that I can send to friends, and then less-little ones that I can put for sale digitally and physically, maybe for limited runs. gotta research that a bit but i've already got a couple of fun ideas and I'm super excited to find the time to work on stuff like that.

so... here's to hoping, i guess, for a productive year. im hoping my move and major restructure of my life/schedule, and not living with family anymore, is going to give me the space to be more myself irl in ways that will benefit my energy levels and creativity... so here's to hoping i guess!

[pwblogarchive]

March 2005

March 2, 2005

alive and (un)well. just being melodramatic when it's completely unnecessary. got blue pill eyes behind black eyelids. my mind is running but more like in place, kind of how life is. you wouldn't understand what i mean. you and they have been here before but it isn't the same for me. and trying to explain anything is just leaving me with a dry mouth and sore shoulders and you shaking your head (not in disagreement but more like disbelief). "mellow out"- but thats been the problem all along, at least it's eben one of them. i feel like a nocturnal animal in the zoo at 12 noon. me turning away from you so you don't see my eyes when im walking out the door when im waving my hand back and forth and saying "i'm doing so-so" cause thats what i think someone "regular" would say. you saying " shake it off get back in the game kid. we're gonna be okay"- but trailing off in a whisper cause i know you dont even believe yourself. the volume goes with the truth. naivetey feels very strange on me but is as warm as the shyness that comes with it. you'd never guess that. new york transit love affair. the veins going underneath the streets that feel so foreign yet endearing. it's not charm, i just don't get it. trust me (but not really). couch living (dead) has me hanging onto phone lines. darling, i'm not making sense and my throat is sore- maybe at least you know i mean it. dreading when your voicemail as it clicks on. and on and on and on. its me logging off.

see you on tour soon. new clandestine merch over at your local hottopic.

- petey

March 11, 2005

and sometimes all the lit houses i walk by, im just dying to be inside

set this record straight- i've been getting lots of emails lately- the song "dance, dance" out there right now is NOT the version that will be on the record. it is a demo, so take it for what it is.

the song "hand of god" out there will not be on the record. it is NOT because island wouldnt let it be there. but because we thought it wasn't good enough- the line "im sick of always writing songs for you to slit your wrists to" can be taken for how it is- i dont want to just write songs to make one girl miserable anymore.

"sugar we're going down" can currently be heard on 89x and q101 so listen for it there.

keep your eyes on the clock, we're trying to be too predictable.

we have all new merch and we're ready to see you, playing some new songs, i'm so glad to be back and playing shows again, grab tickets before they sell out....

come by the book signings and say hi so i wont be lonely.

we've got some exciting stuff coming up this fall.

sorry for the boring entry. also being back on the road i need some good music to listen to- start a messageboard topic- bands pete needs to hear- and tell me some good unsgined bands i need to hear.

peterabbit

March 13, 2005

love is just going on because. we're trying to get real. my bunk feels like a coffin but my corpse deserves a parade around the country. wearing makeup cause she said i was pretty in it but i know im just d(sh)ying. here's to spring cleaning (up all the messes we made over winter). ive got new habits and loves including: words all over again, bloody lips, and fuck offs. "9 weeks can't change you". but you don't even get it. words just love me more. no worries though. you: "damn kid you just look so sad". me: "....". but im changing. get (re)born. i dont want this anymore.

drive me dead.

get busy living or get busy dying.

peter

- petey

March 21, 2005

come on,save me

why we are where we are. sitting at a hotel in tempe arizona. i havent been able to get on the internet in forever and i lost my sidekick. it's okay to cry for me, there is already a WAAAAHmbulance on the way. my clothes are dirty, so is my body- i havent slept in days but i am the happiest i have been in awhile- being on tour feels so good. shows are at their best. you kids look so goddamned good. i was out of my head for awhile but im back.

i know there are gonna be some growing pains next year- i just wanted to personally thank you guys for sticking with us. it makes us feel so much less awkward. i have been in your position where a band i loved that noone knew about started to get some attention. but i just wanted to let you know that i personally and as a band we focused on writing a record for those who believed in fall out boy from the beginning and not to impress anyone else. we will never bend or do something that we wouldnt do anyway. thats a promise and if you have ever met us you know that it's (we're) true. also, the deal with the signings at the shows- it is something our label does in order to sell records- meeting 2000 kids a night would be impossible but we want to meet and see our friends as much as possible. we still hang around venues and are out behind every venue- come find us and say hi even if you dont pick up the cd. sorry, i will write a better entry later. oh yeah, to all the emailers- to save you the time, yes i am losing it.

all in all. this is the best time of our lives- all thanks only to you. words couldnt explain. thank you so much..

peterpan

basement days

attic nights

its not so much that theres something wrong with me

as there is nothing right

got some books on the floor

they’re holding up my standards

swore myself off of you

but I don’t do too well with ultimatums

March 22, 2005

love doesnt mean a thing if its not leaving us light headed- all my headaches are in my chest for you now.

- petey

March 31, 2005

keep the gossip alive in '05

sometimes doors a closed to keep secrets out not to keep them in.

this tour is the best we have ever been on. its like a family. we were nervous about headlining- thanks for making us feel at home.

ive been thinking lots about people i shouldn't be...

lets move far away from their whispers and looks.

but mostly i heart nick scimeca.

im

(not)

just a boy

with

bad ideas.

peterpan

[cyber-newtype]

Multiples of 4 for the ask game!

so many questions......

4. what’s an inside joke you have with your family or friends? i have this bit with one of my online friends where we have swapped identities and call eachother 姐姐/妹妹 respectively

8. any reacquiring dreams? the most recent reccuring dream was set in like this new age korean cult building but the thing is it was specifically on the 68 bus and it had like a generic "traditional" asian fascade and these corridors that winded on like that one hotel that got posted a while back but ive been in this location before i ever saw that post

12. what’s some good advice you want to share? the timeskip past your spiralling trick works. dont tell your psych that thats what youre doing though

16. if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? cowards choice but id be cis

20. favourite things about the night? its a lot easier to get away with wearing silly outfits at night or at least when its dark. idk why but i feel a lot less judged for it

24. what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for? im definitely not the best sewist but it works and i like the stuff that ive done

28. do you collect anything? im going through all of rosamia badams mobile suits and like i do want to get the 2 lone pieces of merch that they ever produced for her but theyre so expensive....

32. how many tabs do you have open right now? 3 !!

36. are you an open book or do you have walls up? i like to think of myself as being fairly open and but it is kinda in that manic pixy dream girl way where theres so much going on that its hard to pin anything down

40. any bad habits? see 12.

[eluvixnsarchived]

organising my bookshelves because i had pilled everything on before i went into hospital and id had a huge clear out so i was curious to see if what id decided to keep was what i wanted to read and in the end im just standing crying because i came across things i feel like im not allowed to have or like or that i'll get told off or bullied for it all again like my volumes of gambit comics or my dragon age comics and it's so sad like i wanted to sit and flick through one and was like no i cant not without permission or what if someone finds out and are mad because i like this thing and i like the same character a whole lot and they dont like that

i hate autism and i hate how old relationships still haunt like they do

i wanted to get my shelves together so it was a thing ticked off my list and so i could SEE what i have and start working through that and the recs i got and now im too scared to do anything and its so STUPID like i have no irl friends to worry shitting on me for this bc i dont have irl friends besides a coworker but we're work friends not life friends and she just talks about herself when she calls anyway and my brother moved out and no one else is gonna find out what im doing unless i TELL them so like why should i be so scared to play a game or pick up a comic or a book or get that piece of merch or whatever it is i like ( plants and bugs and fish and whateverwhatever ) why should i be scared to draw and paint traditionally

bc ive never been allowed to exist as i am before and i dont know what to do now that i might be able to

[seangelfish]

its like really hard to explain the whole british not british thing it genuinely depends on who you ask over here 😭😭

omg… maybe one day the anon will disappear and i can send the pictures 🙏🙏 one day….. BUT ALSO YEAH I GUESS FOR LIKE SAFETY REASONS AND STUFF IS WHY THE CANT

ive always thought about using buyee but ive just never actually tried it AHHHH SINCE YOU 🤨🫵 ARE A SEASONED PROFESSIONAL TELL ME… is it good ? cause i know the packages get sent to the warehouse and then sent out from there but im still just so hesitant on using it since i dont know a lot about it 😭😭 AHHH BUT I DID LOOK AT THE 2WINK AND KNIGHTS MERCH AND ITS SURPRISINGLY CHEAP… i knew 2wink would be cause theres not a lot of fans compared to other units but knights really surprised me since its so popular ???

its so cute that you took english lit for a levels oh my god 😭😭 i loved my english teacher we were doing like creative writing and she said i could write really good books for like teens AHHHH love her forever 🫶🫶🫶🫶

YEAH THE PARALIVE SONGS OUUHHHHH AUGHHH i heard them a long while ago and thats what got me into it in the first place but i just never really interacted with the fandom much AHHHH… but now,, NOW I MIGHT 🫵🫵🫵🤭🤭

HAVE A GREAT DAY !!!

-ainon ᡣ𐭩

That’s so weird. I have a feeling you’re like from Scotland or Wales now idk 😭

Yes!! I love using Buyee! There’s a lot of benefits, but that’s like with other proxies too. I’m just really used to this one. But yes, you’re right, it gets sent to the warehouse and they package all your items up and then send to you! Also, if you’re a new member, you get free shipping for 2,000 yen off!

Ikr when I saw Knights prices, I was kinda shocked 😭 but some Ritsu merch is so expensive compared to Leo merch. If you ever need help though, you can message me 😋

That’s so sweet!! I also have good experiences with my English teacher too 🥹 He graded my (personal) horror story and gave me full marks HAHA I miss GCSE English 😭

Ngl, I haven’t interacted too much with the fandom 😭 but that’s only bc I’m kinda a wuss. Enstarries are just so much easier to befriend LMAO but yes, you should properly get into it!! <3

Have a good evening, ainon!! 💖

[thusspokeurmom]

Where did you first learn about Lupin III?

Castle of Cagliostro on netflix

2. What is your favorite character?

Goemon😋

5. What’s your favorite Lupin Anime series?

part 1 & 4 !!💚💙

6. What's your top 3 favorite episodes from it?

Part 1: 4, 5, 14

Part 4: 4, 8, 17

9. What's your favorite movie? And why?

Castle of Cagliostro. I have a LOT of reasons that are too long to type here. Second is mystery of mamo bc it's trippy & i love the art style so much very vibes

10. What was the first movie you watched?

Castle of Cagliostro lol

11. What's your favorite Lupin design?

Part 2 & 4, koike, dead or alive, Babylon

12. What's your favorite Jigen design?

koike, dead or alive, part 1, manga

13. What's your favorite Goemon design?

koike(i love this art style sorry), part 1, manga, the first

14. What's your favorite Fujiko design?

koike, part 1 & 4, fuma conspiracy

15. What's your favorite Zenigata design?

part 1, cagliostro (yeah i do not vibe with koike zeni)

16. What's your favorite thing about the franchise?

it's very fun. the gang is awesome even if it's a boring tv special seeing the gang makes up for it...also the music oh my god

17. What's your least favorite thing about the franchise?

sa of women..also those npc girls in every movie like im crying you can make a movie without having some girl in there😭 and how most of lupin is just mid(in my opinion)

19. What's your favorite Lupin III music track?

ive got sooo many but the way to the oasis and sphynx is so good omfg

20. Do you have any Lupin III merch? If so, what's your favorite out of the collection?

yes but not a lot..my fav would be my lupin part 1 fig & that coin from 50 years of lupin book

21. If you could contribute/change the franchise in any way, what would you do?

id make a movie although idk what it would be about but ill make sure to not include a single npc girl in there lol

23. A moment in the Lupin franchise you'll always remember?

idk but i do remember everyone going crazy over jigen in lupin iii: the first

30. What’s something you hope TMS would do in the future for the Lupin III franchise?

Make a movie similar to Mystery of mamo, or do some detective noir type zenigata film, or a goemon spinoff show :p

i was sad i couldnt find something like this anywhere so i made one!!!

This is gonna be fun to see people's response :) Here's the plaintext version:

Where did you first learn about Lupin III?

What is your favorite character?

Following up on that question, what’s the best thing about them?

What's a Lupin character you relate to the most?

What’s your favorite Lupin Anime series?

What's your top 3 favorite episodes from it?

What's your favorite Lupin manga series?

What's your top 3 favorite chapters from it?

What's your favorite movie? And why?

What was the first movie you watched?

What's your favorite Lupin design?

What's your favorite Jigen design?

What's your favorite Goemon design?

What's your favorite Fujiko design?

What's your favorite Zenigata design?

What's your favorite thing about the franchise?

What's your least favorite thing about the franchise?

What's your least favorite character? And why?

What's your favorite Lupin III music track?

Do you have any Lupin III merch? If so, what's your favorite out of the collection?

If you could contribute/change the franchise in any way, what would you do?

What’s something about Lupin III that you wished people knew more about?

A moment in the Lupin franchise you'll always remember?

What’s your favorite Lupin III quote?

Give one Lupin headcanon that you have!

What's the most random fact about Lupin III that you know?

Any hot takes?

Do you create things in the fandom? What’s by far the thing you made that you’re most proud of?

If you could be in the Lupin III universe for one day, what would you do?

What’s something you hope TMS would do in the future for the Lupin III franchise?

[little-fairy-forest]

okay hi this only my second time making an ask so i hope it’s okay, but i noticed in one post you mentioned ireland and i got really happy since it’s been impossible for me to find fanfics and stuff with an irish s/o especially for bnha ...

so if it’s not a lot of trouble could you do bakugou, todoroki and midoriya with an irish s/o

i just feel like bakugou would love the curssing and creative comebacks and stuff

i don’t wanna sounds like i’m asking for a lot but if it makes sense like could u mention things like the way we talk and the accent (for me it’s kilkenny so south west and i live in the country)

for some reason i cant think of anything else but you can add what you want aswell since i’m guessing you are also from ireland (WHICH IM SO HAPPY ABOUT FIRST IRISH PERSON IVE SEEN THAT MAKES AMAZING FICS MWAH <3 love u

- anon c 💗

Oh my goodness my first anon-

🍀 Hello!

I've also had trouble finding stories that mention foreign readers and not from a specific place since its normally said e.g. America so I'm more then happy to make more Irish!reader content :)

Boys with an Irish! s/o

Bakugou, Midoriya, Todoroki, fluff

Bakugou

When he heard you speak for the first time he knew you were Irish, the accent is very well known

He liked how you casually slipped in a few curse words no matter who you were talking to

When you first joined U.A you greeting everyone normally and then you started to talk to everyone as if you known them for years, calling them "girly, babes, hun,pal" etc...

He didn't like how you gave Deku a big hug when you seen him after the weekend and gave him a very quick kiss on the cheek. Yeah, that's not happening

He asked you out and then from then on you were his little "clover" or "weird voice" or even "leprechaun" if your short

He was very concerned when you started to call Mina "my gal" he wasn't happy either poor thing didn't know that's what girls call there besties

"Why the fuck did you call racoon eyes 'my gal' or even fucking worse 'hun'?"

Yeah you had to explain that Irish people love everyone and treat them like there family even if you only met them twice.

He was amazed that you never mentioned Ireland had snack called "spice bag" or "chicken fillet roll" yeah go make it for him now please

Learned Irish to communicate with you, definitely wasn't using this incase he had to meet your family back home one day "babe we don't speak Irish every day" "tch doesn't matter it's an easy language anyway"

Has made some mental notes to take you on certain mountainous routes such as the Cliffs of Moher and Steps to heaven

All in all you two are literally joint at the hip and he is never letting you go :)

He tried to flirt once and oh god "babe your like my pot of gold at the end of the rainbow" "suki' your too big to be a leprechaun" "are you calling me fat?!"

Midoriya

When he heard you were from Ireland, he instantly looked up Irish Heroes to start a conversation with you at lunch

He loved the way you said certain words with your accent such as "water" or "three"

He was very flustered when you called him "Izuku" rather then Deku or Midoriya, he later found out that you seen him as a good friend from day one and you didn't mean to seem rude :)

Listens to you talk about Irish culture and he goes out if his way to include your culture in the dorms so you feel comfortable e.g. Having Irish tea (lions or Barry's I won't judge)

He asked you out in irish, but unfortunately he wasnt very good at the pronunciation but it was the thought that counts xo

You call him "gruaig glas" (green hair) he has no idea what that means but he thinks it's something sincere- He calls you "angel voice" and "pet"

He really wants you to bring back Irish hero merch back from when you visit home, and of course you do complete with an Irish heros book over the years and a matching notebook :)

He asks All Might if he has ever been to Ireland and if he has ever met any heros

Loves the look of the 'claddagh ring' and he buys you one for your anniversary x

Really like the wacky woolies merch, has a mug and a teddy :) (so cute-)

Asks his mom to make you Irish soda bread, and yes it was amazing!

His way of flirting was a cute attempt "You should kiss me like the Blarney stone because...em...oh no I forgo-" "because it gives you the gift of the gob?" "Eh y-yeah.."

Todoroki

Thought you were an angel with your accent, seriously he could be lulled to sleep

He didn't know how to get close to you since Japanese and Irish culture are very different

He decided to ask if you have tried many Japanese foods here yet and you said no, cue this slick mf asking you out on a date ;)

He is stuck by your side like a little lamb <3 your new nickname given by the class are little bow peep and their little lamb :,)

He loved the sound of the harp, he played it to help him sleep

It takes him a while to understand the slang you might say "your friends new bird? What kind?" "Oh! Sorry shouto my friends new 'bird' is his girlfriend" "his girlfriend? But she isnt an animal, unless her quirk-" "sho baby its slang"

He loves listening to Myths and Legends stories from Irish mythology, his favourite would be 'Oisín and Tír na nóg"

Tried Sheppard's pie, he liked it but soba still has a place in his heart

Fuyumi loved talking about anything to do with Ireland with you since she never really got to travel with taking care of her siblings and schoolwork

Endeavor, wasn't the happiest that shouto wasn't dating a Japanese girl (honestly endeavor just seems racist-) so it took him a while to get use to you...

Rei loved you! Seriously she loved the clovers you brought her. She loved hearing about your life back at home <3

Shouto really loves you for who you are and not where your from, this man is a simple man really :) just once you can make cold soba ;)

Thank you anon c 💗

Please sent me requests it helps me know what exactly people want me to write rather then just writing something no one will read :)

[cometcrystal]

types of scooby doo fans

the purest, most genuine kind. usually fans that are older in age; they usually watched the original shows when they were still airing. they just think scooby is wonderful and don’t really have any fandom opinions. more often than not, they have large merch collections. literally the sweetest people you will ever meet

people who haven’t watched anything beyond the james gunn movies, zombie island/the witch’s ghost, and/or sdmi. if they’ve seen all three, they think they’re an expert and an authority on the franchise. (probably refuses to give be cool scooby doo a fair chance)

cishet fraphnes that are the most boring people you will ever meet

LGBT fraphnes that are the funniest people you will ever meet

vaphnes that are the chillest people you will ever meet

vaphnes that are the most annoying people you will ever meet (favorite hobby is making fred a far righter and picking out unfitting moments to focus in favor of acknowledging any actual chemistry between the characters in stuff like daphne and velma 2018 and the book series of the same name)

shaphnes and frelmas that are laid back and make their little youtube videos of shaphne and frelma screencaps set to music

shaphnes and frelmas who think that being shaphnes and frelmas magically gives them a personality

shelmas (derogatory)

people who definitely put the friendship aspect of the franchise aside and see scooby doo as an eternal double date narrative plus a dog tagging along (either with fraphne and shelma, or vaphne and fraggy)

bi velma truthers who only got angry about defending bi velma/supporting that hc at ALL when velma was confirmed to be a lesbian

scrappy doo stans. every single one of them is just incredibly genuine and kind. you are all my comrades and i trust you all with my life. scrappy doo nation rise

fans who keep trying to fit all the canons into the smallest amount of timelines as possible (usually just one) and who get pissed when something new breaks continuity with something from 20 years ago

the rare fan that has a favorite character that is NOT a part of the core gang. you are all so strong

people who will literally complain all day about kate micucci existing

fans who mostly stick to the older shows, almost never out of a dislike for the newer shows, but just because the older ones are their favorite

sdmi stans whose main focus (or only focus) is on that specific scooby iteration. comes in two flavors: “refuses to concede that any other version of scooby is better than sdmi (or is good at ALL) OR that it has any flaws” and “likes this particular scooby a lot but doesn’t act like it’s the scooby bible”

get a clue stans. there’s like 2 of them but ive seen them out there. keep fighting the good fight

simple plan

Scooby Doo Mistakes