#like. my mom just BLATANTLY doesn't trust me

[castrotophic]

I trust you

I LOVE YOU 😭

[saltsongwc]

I HAD A VISION-

Ok so Mudstar gets his lives, he goes and gets them and is blessed ( bc as we established with Spottedstar and Brokenstar, Starclan can't really deny someone their lives unless the current leader is alive, unless you've decided to change around the Nightstar thing bc that doesn't make sense in cannon either bc Sunstar got lives even with Pine alive but I'm rambling- )

The civil war gets pushed back until the first real conflict with Thunderclan ( which means the gathering island isn't discovered/used until then, so gatherings are really just cats being sent to other clans to fill them in on important news ) where Mudstar fatality injured a Thunderclan Warrior ( not sure who would die but we've got so many folder cats just close your eyes and pick ) though even before then, Mudstar was acting aggressive and some clanmates started to worry.

Then boom! After a moon of conspiring, the cats rally around the Civil War leader ( Ashfoot bc I love her and I believe she and Tallstar were close due to Deadfoot being deputy for awhile but you can choose another ) to dipose of Mudstar. This was supposed to be bloodless, but Mudstar ordered the rest of the clan to attack the traitors. Battle ensued, someone runs to Thunderclan for aid, and the fighting reaches its peak in the exact same spot as it does in cannon, except it's Mudstar vs Ashfoot.

Mudstar screams that it was Starclan who chose him, not his clanmates, and it will be Starclan that chooses if he steps down. He is promptly crushed by a tree, and many interpret that as a sign that Ashfoot was chosen by Starclan to lead over Mudstar ( whether that's true or not is up to interpretation )

I also think that this is what should've caused a change in code ( the new code has changed so leaders can be deposed if they are unfit ) like the " leaders word is the warrior code " should've been taken out here, and maybe instead of the leaders deciding to add that they can be deposed, it's the Warriors who demand it, and the leaders add it out of fear of another bloody civil war.

Of course a lot changes, Hawkfrost and RiverClan is no longer on Mudstar's side ( bc why would Mudstar, famous hater of everything but WindClan, work with and promise a deputy position to a random RiverClan tom? ) and the civil war is this slow build up instead of this sudden attack, with every action Mudstar takes adding fuel to the already burning fire.

Hell, I even think having Windclan cats who are against Ashstar and who think the civil war was plotted by Thunderclan could be a fun thing to explore. Plus I think having Ashstar as the leader makes other arcs and plots make a lot more sense ( Crowfeather is not exiled for blatantly breaking the code by running off with Leafpool bc his mom is the leader, Breezepelt isn't prosecuted for training in the dark forest bc that's Ashstar's grand baby, and none of those actions make sense if it's Onestar or Mudstar )

Anyways, thank you for coming to my Ted Talk ( yes it is Ted Talk anon, I'm glad you liked TigerNightstar ;) )

CURSES! MY NEMESIS THE TED TALKING ANON! YOU HAVE DEFEATED ME WITH YOUR BRILLIANT IDEAS ONCE AGAIN!

This is delicious, there is no better way I could improve this, there is somethign raw about this I can't place why but having it be Ashfoot makes me emotional. There is a build up of tensions among the clans before they get to the gathering island. There is nepotism, there is an acceptance of the errors of the Warrior Code much earlier and also a distaste for Thunderclan even if they aided in the civil war (because Ashstar is angry that they believe she's just pawn, she's not, she's angry that they think this was a ploy by Firestar and not her, that it wasn't her who saw the blood that would come and it's not her fighting for Windclan).

I wonder if she even thought of Crowfeather as her deputy but the betrayal by his affair would break her trust in him, even she doesn't exile him she still won't trust him (I'm not 100% if i'm moving with Crowfeather also being the three's dad or changing it but if I do this is extra drama (Firestar and Ashstar bonding over it lmao-)

I wonder if Windclan changes it's politics as well, if Ashstar decides it's not just Starclan that chooses but her clan as well, and instate that, at least for Windclan, deputyship and leadership is a position that must be approved not just by the stars but by the clan as well.

Delicious, everyone say thank you Ted Talking Anon

[pastafossa]

Adventures in being disabled/chronically ill but also just weirdness. And also in the process of writing this I only basically now realized how shittily I was being treated as a disabled person because that's what happens when you put it on the page and go, '...oh, maybe I wasn't overreacting by feeling put off.'

Putting it all behind a cut because there's some ableism here and it's a bit long.

Enter Lady. We'll call her - *spins random name generator* - Angie. Angie has decided I am her friend because I woodcarve and she makes old fashioned clothes. She has decided for me that I will be going to big weeklong outdoor renfaire style events with her group, in which I will sell my stuff and I will carpool with them.

She decided this ten minutes after meeting me for the first time, by the way. I have met her a grand total of 2 times.

Anyway. These events are outdoors, and I would be camping. In the height of summer. In locations known for high humidity and summer wet bulb temps that regularly climb over 100*.

As expected, this is an issue in multiple ways, the first of which is my chronic pain wracked body tolerates camping about as well as Cocaine Bear would tolerate being shaved (source: went camping), and the second of which is one of my medication's side effects literally includes inability to tolerate moderate to high heat and a fucking mild allergy to sunlight.

I'm a goddamn vampire with limited heat tolerance ya'll, on top of being Physically Incapable Of Many Things TM. And she wants me out in the sun and heat for a week, and sleeping at night in a tent.

So I pop over to her place because she invited me (meeting 2, since meeting 1 was brief), she's nearby, and I'm still thinking she was just a little clueless but maybe this can still be like a, 'fellow crafter discussion of cool events in the area' once I explain. My plan is to gently segue from heat tolerance and disability into I Am Not Going, but also I want to use it as a little reminder not to assume people's functionality, cause I don't mind trying to educate a little. Most mean well, so I'm not even mad at this point. But I don't get far at all before I'm blatantly interrupted and told heat and sun isn't an issue for a disabled person, I can swap out with someone and go be in a tent from noon to 2, and, get this-

"You can have a fan in your tent to cool down!"

Angie, if a fan could solve my issues I wouldn't have been so eager to live in a city that is, as we speak, still getting snow in FUCKING APRIL.

Which I calmly explained.

But I am interrupted again, after I use the word, 'disability'.

"Do you have a service dog?"

No???

"You should get one. Anyway, trust me, you'll be fine. Other disabled people go and they're fine."

Right, cool, I'm definitely in the exact same disabled situation as the dude that lost a foot.

I try again. I'm blunter this time. I am disabled, my body doesn't like camping, my doctor would not advise-

"Oh you'll be fine. They have flushing toilets nearby!"

???

How does that fix the heat or my body being-

"So when you go with us to this one in May, and this one in-"

Ah, ok, we're just disregarding everything I said. Cool. Cool cool.

I sat there feeling like... a prop I guess? Just... bewildered. Obviously looking back I should have just walked out and left, but there's this bizarre feeling where you're still in Don't Be Rude mode because you haven't quite processed what happen. I did manage to cut the visit short after about 20 more minutes, drove home, still kinda unsettled. It was only after talking to mom, that I realized I'd just been completely dismissed as a disabled person. Which has happened before of course (once had a random lady interrupt my conversation with another person about my disability with, 'you need to eat more blueberries. Those have antioxidants, that'll fix your problem!'), but it's been a while.

Anyway, I will not be hanging with this person again and to be perfectly honest I'm tempted to bring this up with the witchy shop owner (who I am friends with) where the event I met Angie is held - the shop owner VERY much wants to protect anyone who's been treated poorly or have some boundary talks with anyone crossing those boundaries in a disrespectful way - but even now part of me's saying, 'no no, that's too much, just skip that event every month so you don't see Angie again'. On top of that, I'm new to the area and the art community here, and this lady's much more established. I really, really, really do not want to cause issues for myself since I'm trying to start up with all my carvings. So I'm feeling... stuck I guess.

Anyway, 'you can just have a fan!' is going down in my, 'ridiculous fixes I've been given for some part of my disability' list.

[poppytuft]

the bear s3 spoilers

below the cut! thinking about claire and stuff we saw this season re: carmy/syd/the restaurant/donna, just finished the season so itll be a mess and also im comin in way too hot on this so my bad

sometimes...... sometimes i believe you guys are all watching different tv. im not sure how this season didnt feel like a direct through line from s2?? and im not sure WHY everyone is SO MAD about claire LITERALLY "haunting" this season. girl. come on. we need to have a sit down talk about how the berzatto generational trauma is the real meat of this show (this will make sense, just trust me). thats the MAIN EMOTIONAL POINT. syd's relationship with her dad, marcus and his mom, richie and evie, even tina and louie are all examples of parental relationships that are tender, sweet, supportive, etc. these are INTENTIONAL!! by creating these relationships we see PLAINLY how fucked donna is and how much she fucked up all of these kids. thats why "ice chips" was such a FANTASTIC episode. there was SO MUCH unpacked, so much revealed, so much worked through with sugar and her but at the end of the day she's still learning how to unlearn all of this horrific narcissistic bullshit. SHES STILL UNLEARNING THOUGH. thats where fucking DONNA of all people sits right now——somehow, she's learning how to heal. EVERYONE IS LEARNING. that's also what is so important about that episode.

now lets look at carmy. in "ice chips" we are LITERALLY told about how each berzatto is born: mikey fighting against the idea of being alive at all, nat into a quiet, soothing room, and CARMY is fucking born into EVERYONE SCREAMING and ARGUING and FIGHTING. we are BLATANTLY told that all carmy has ever known is HELL and all he's ever known how to communicate is through exploding. this is so violently against what we also know about his personality from childhood in "fishes" (anxious growing up, arts-oriented, had a hard time making friends). now, he works a violently stressful job, processing the trauma from both his mother (and chef fields [joel mchale], realistically) through the high-stress environment.

NOW. ENTER CLAIRE.

HOW is she not fascinating to you all. we don't see her whole story (because the bear, duh) but we are given just enough pieces here to put together that her story runs parallel to carmy's. how are you not getting this. walk with me.

claire. glasses, nerdy, quiet, sweet, girl next door. family friend! cute, but considered mid for a long time by everyone at school, but suddenly the berzatto men all badger carm, "oh she got a glow up, oh shes looking for you, she wants to see you," etc etc etc. what happened in between?

she finds herself. she finds the stressful thing she LOVES, which is the hospital. her job is objectively more stressful than carmy's (illustrated by that scene earlier in the season but i forgot the episode, where claire talks about the girl who got her shit wrecked by the glass table), and while we don't have an exact understanding of what her home life was like, we understand that her and carmy both have a level of internal anxiety that thrives on the stress of their careers. HOWEVER, claire does it because she loves it. carmy just doesn't know how to stop.

this is what makes claire feel like "peace" to carmy——because her high-stress job is a choice, an active choice she is making because it fulfills her. it's not to prove her dead brother wrong, or to honor his own legacy, or to prove that dickbag boss wrong, or to leave a mark on the world, or to make her own life worthwhile, or to prove that she doesn't need anyone else. she genuinely enjoys helping people even when the days are stressful, or scary. he's obsessed with this. he wants to know how she does this. every day she leaves that stress at home——and he wants to learn how to do that too.

claire is VITAL to this season and to understanding carmy's stress——and how far back he is in his healing process. it should only become more and more apparent, as we see characters like tina (the beef/the bear became vital to her success/development as a chef AND person, both for the people AND her love of food), marcus (not hiding his grief, but using it to help rationalize how much his mother loved him and wanted to be surrounded by people that love him), and richie (finding a purpose through service/expo and understanding he can start over again) push through their own traumas and struggles to become better people. if donna can be not only present at sugar's bedside during labor, but WELCOMED at this point in the show, it makes carmy's inability to heal all the more present. claire is an important part of this puzzle: she helps us see a window into a world where carmy is balanced emotionally, but unbalanced professionally, because he has no idea how to make the two coexist.

however, the idea that he can be balanced emotionally at all is so fucking enticing——with the help of someone who experiences stress in the same way as him (and who is familiar with his familial trauma), he has the opportunity to grow up and move on from his family trauma and wounds perpetuated by the industry he works in.

on the flip side of this....... his inability to process any of this is starting to impact syd. and frankly, that's some bullshit. his lack of communication, inability to community build/trust ANYONE, and his violent stubbornness is pushing her into the same space that he was in under chef fields, in a much slower, more subtle manner, and for slightly different reasons. her panic attack at the end of the season could read in two directions to me: her stress over the responsibility of changing so many people's lives has boiled over once she remembered that the beef once was truly great (hey five star review on the fridge!), OR, she realizes how much she isn't in it for the food. fuck a Michelin star: she wants to cook with her family. chef terry says at the end of "forever", in the garage with carmy, that she's so grateful she got to do whatever she wanted, whenever she wanted, where she wanted, with the people she wanted to do it with. sydney is so close to having those things at the bear——but carmy's dysfunction is keeping it just out of arms reach. the two of them are now on opposite sides of the approach from last season: syd dying for a star, and carmy dying to cook for the woman he loved. now, carmy is hungy for recognition again, desperate to prove something, and sydney is remembering (thanks to the conversation with other chefs during the ever funeral service) why she loved cooking in the first place. so this leaves us to wonder: should she stick it out? for the people? or make something of herself? is she carmy, or is she terry? i guess we will just have to see.

all this to say: every character is connected. the bear is a show about family, found and blood, and the choices we make for, with, and because of the people we love, for better or for worse. food is only the center of it, because it's the center of all of our lives. you can't hate claire without understanding where she sits in the web of the berzatto family. and really, you can't hate her if you understand what her presence means for carmy, for syd, and the restaurant as a whole.

[venomwrites]

Oh No, I actually thought something along those lines concerning Cassandra. I do get the feeling she does not want to make her daughter more miserable than necessary. And I get the feeling (correct me if I am wrong) she let's her have these little indulgences with Vi (letting Vi carry her to her bed) but never too much because at this point in time there are societal expectations to uphold and they are horny teens who are obviously into each other.

I always hc'd Cait as someone who brought home girls. And the whole scene with Vi helping Cait in through the Window in s1. Wasn't the first time it happened. Just the first time Cait went missing for days beforehand hence the gun.

YES RIGHT ON ALL ACCOUNTS! God there is nothing more satisfying than readers picking up on something you put in without saying it so blatantly.

Regarding the indulgences I love how the rules keeping them apart are imposed on Caitlyn but when they are softened, it's because of Vi's behavior.

Take the party for example (oops this got long but it made me laugh)

Caitlyn spends the entire party trying to dance with Vi. Not hoping, actively trying. Vi thinks she's going onto the balcony to catch her breath but Caitlyn has been training for this night for months. She's on that balcony because TECHNICALLY it is not a room so they can be alone there. Vi completely misses what Caitlyn is actually doing which is trying to get her to dance with her. In Caitlyn's eyes Vi is not protecting her, she's rejecting her. At the end she's not just upset because they didn't dance, it's because in her eyes Vi didn't want to dance with her.

Vi thinks she did a good job giving Caitlyn breaks and impressing Piltover's military command because she's totally pulling this off. She's not. She spent the whole night being hyper-fixated on Caitlyn's jewels. But Vi left the balcony and she didn't go back. Flashing that hand was a countdown in Vi's head but to Cassandra and Caitlyn it looked like she was saying stop. In Cassandra's eyes she ignored her own desires for the good of the family and so Caitlyn could do her duty.

In the end both while both of them are miserable, Vi has just proven she can be trusted to act in Caitlyn's best interest and the best interest of the family. Of course Cassandra is smart, she knows this could just be them sharing a braincell. So what does she do?

She puts millions of dollars of heirloom sapphires into Vi's hat

HANDS THE HAT BACK TO VI

Then asks Vi to take off Caitlyn's shoes

Has the transport leave them in front of the driveway, not at the door.

Vi even has the urge to run with the sapphires. Cassandra and her both know this could be her ticket out of here. Vi has just spent the night being told she's an outcast. There's a growing conflict between Zaun and Piltover so she might even have an easier time selling the jewels. She could flee back to Zaun and take care of her biological family.

Instead Vi forgets the hat.

The hat is in her lap and then it's never mentioned again.

Vi puts it aside so Caitlyn can put her gross ass feet there. So Caitlyn can be a little more comfortable. When they get out of the car her only focus is on getting Caitlyn on her back before her mom can say something about it. It's my favorite miscommunication so far:

Vi: i gotta be quick so I can make sure Caitlyn feels better, she was so tired needing all those breaks.

Caitlyn: why did you reject me all night but now you're being nice, this is so confusing but i like you close even though you can never be mine.

Cassandra (standing in front of the transport holding bloody shoes, a sweat soaked hat and millions of dollars worth of sapphires): how much is it going to cost to get this little shit into officer school so she doesn't die before i decide if this is really happening?

[seventeenlovesthree]

Digi Dynamic Shipping Game

Send me two names among the following 12 and I’ll write a short analysis post about them:

Taichi Yagami | Yamato Ishida | Sora Takenouchi | Koushirou Izumi | Mimi Tachikawa | Jyou Kidou | Takeru Takaishi | Hikari Yagami | Daisuke Motomiya | Miyako Inoue | Iori Hida | Ken Ichijouji

Whether canon provides input on them or not.

The first Adventure season is very adamant about making sure that the viewer identifies Sora as the "mom/big sister" friend of the group. This becomes mostly apparent when she is consistently protecting and/or taking care of Mimi and Hikari - but also Takeru. As I had pointed out in the post about the family angle between Sora, Yamato and Takeru, the latter functions as a bridge between the broken family dynamics they all appear to have at this point. Since Takeru is the youngest member of the group for the majority of the season, he is the most vocal about Sora basically being a motherly figure - which is even more blatantly stated in the English dub version where he straight up tells her that he doesn't "miss his mom so much" when she is around. And it makes sense that he perceives her that way, considering how she took everyone under their wing, including him, functioning as the voice of reason to prevent the others from fighting - especially when his brother is involved -, supporting them in the back however she could. And since Sora herself is struggling with her own sense of obligation, questioning her intentions and ability to love - is it really surprising that, the moment someone like Takeru finally reassures her, tells her that he likes her and doesn't want her to disappear, she immediately stops crying? Finding her composure again, regaining her positive outlook?

Both Sora and Takeru need validation, this becomes quite clear and is an ongoing theme between them through the course of Adventure - there is a reason why Takeru immediately becomes more serious and determined once Sora (and Taichi too) tells him to take care of and protect Hikari. He craves to be needed, he doesn't want to be a burden and actually being trusted by someone like Sora (and Taichi, again!), someone he greatly admires, is a huge boost for him. Maybe even the central motivation he needed (aside from Yamato's reassurance) to not give up, to "fulfill his responsibility", on his way to let Angemon evolve to HolyAngemon. Just like Takeru's words may have been a little stepping stone for Sora to activate her own Crest as well...

After Adventure, there aren't a lot of visible cues that indicate the same/a bigger level of closeness between these two (even taking into account that Sora and Yamato had been dating through the course of 02), but there are little tidbits here and there that do indicate care between them. It's when Takeru protects her from a Snimon attack in 02 (once again showing that he is responsible and protective!), it's when Sora calls him to ask whether he is okay in Tri (still showing off her caring attitude towards him!)...

One might argue that all of these framings are entirely familial, since there is so much focus on the family angle, especially when you keep the age gap of three years between them in mind. However, the reason why I chose the screenshot(s) above may indicate another meaning after all... Because similarly to my previous Daiora analysis, people tend to mainly focus on Sora's romantic potential with Taichi and Yamato - even though there may be other candidates who are potentially just as - if not more - emotionally compatible with her...

Whether I think why and how they’d work.

A famous callback Tri pulled on Adventure is the awkward silence between Sora, Taichi and Yamato in the fourth movie - mirroring the scene in which Sora runs away from the group, unable to tell them why she wanted to be by herself and why she considers herself "unable to love". In Tri, both Taichi and Yamato are at a loss, they have no idea how to deal with her. When they were still kids, all it took was for Takeru to approach her, thank, reassure and tell her that he "likes" her - which is probably why Yamato's instinct as a teenager at this point seems to be the following: "Shall we ask Takeru?"

Takeru, as opposed to his big band leader brother, has a so called "ladies-man-persona" in Tri, he's got a reputation of having dated several girls and appears to be very friendly with Meiko, much to Hikari's jealousy amusement. However, romance is not Tri's strongest feat - and just like we never learn whether or not Jyou's girlfriend is real, we also don't know what exactly Takeru has been doing all this time. He's famous for wearing a mask consisting of smiles and one may or may not be worried about him developing unhealthy dating habits that never result in long-lasting relationships....... OR we stop assuming the worst and take things at face value for once: Takeru Takaishi is a very kind person at heart, and even if he hides behind a mask, has a very big soft spot for reassuring girls around him.

Do you know who also has a soft spot for reassuring others while hiding their feelings behind a mask at times? Sora Takenouchi. They are both incredibly observant of the people around them and very keen to put them at ease, mostly through words - and just like we have seen above, they NEED that kind of validation. It's why Takeru notices that Sora got a new haircut and points it out to her, whereas his brother hadn't seen it at all. It's why Takeru tries to keep track on everything that is happening, not only because he's on his way to become a novelist, but because he cares and even if he probably still can't be honest about his own feelings - he knows that it doesn't hurt to notice and compliment others, he knows that he can make others feel good by being kind like that. Just like Sora is proooobably aware that her caring nature may not be the healthiest self-care approach, but at least puts smiles on everybody else's faces.

Again, this may not sound like the most stable foundation for a relationship, but I could actually see it working out for them. I'm not saying that I want them to "parent each other", but maybe together, they could reach a state where everything gets a little bit easier. Crying together, opening up to each other about how difficult it had been to always uphold that friendliness because they may have felt responsible, even if there were moments when they both would just have wanted to curse and scream... They both love their friends dearly, but may crave to allow themselves a shoulder to lean on. From someone who understands the struggles. I think it could be a great lesson for both of them as consenting adults, trying to live their own lives - having Sora tell Takeru that he doesn't always have to be the strong one to keep everyone together, that he is loved for who he is and that he won't be left again (because his abandonment issues may still be pretty strong). And simultaneously having Takeru tell Sora that she needs to look in the mirror to realize that she deserves to be loved for who she is as well (especially because her flight instinct might still be pretty strong). And that she deserves someone who actually TELLS her that...

Whether I’d prefer them as platonic or romantic ship.

I had thought about Takeru as analogy to Yamato before, simply because he is so much more vocal towards Sora. And while the age gap and mother angle may make things a little bit difficult and even though I had never thought too deeply about the romantic side of Sokeru... I can understand why they used to have their niche here on tumblr. Art of Takeru protecting Sora for once ("I am not a kid anymore!"), art of him letting loose in front of her... The appeal is definitely there and I am a big fan of mutually reassuring ships, so while I usually go for them platonically, I do have a bit of a fondness for their romantic potential now! So it would be nice to see how their relationship may pan out in canon in "the future".

[13eyond13]

13, 16 & 20 for the ask meme please?

13. What can make you excessively angry?

People being extremely lacking in common sense when it comes to taking care of the vulnerable little creatures they're responsible for, especially kids. Most recent example I can think of is my aunt being an asshole to my cousin by blatantly favouring her son over her daughter right in front of them, even going so far as to tell her daughter that she loves her son more. I get so upset on the behalf of the kid who is getting the raw end of the deal, because it is incredibly unfair, and I know the daughter is internalizing it and thinking it's her own fault somehow, even though it's not, and it's just basically her mom being an immature loser most times...

16. What is a skill or talent that you've completely lost or overlooked? Why did that happen?

I used to be great at drawing whatever was in front of me with a pen, and did it constantly in my sketchbook. Particularly when I was sitting in a classroom or something, I'd always be drawing the backs of people's heads:

It would not look that good if I sat down to try it again now. What happened is just that I used to practice it every single day, and now I go months at a time without drawing at all. There's really nothing magic about being able to draw well. It's just muscle memory and the discipline to consistently practice at it, like anything else.

20. Tell me what you think others think about you.

I think I'm considered quite challenging to get to know by most people who haven't spent a ton of time with me, actually. I'm very quiet and private in real life, take quite a long time to get to know or trust people, and err on the cautious side with what I choose to say. I usually find it difficult to pipe up and share more about myself in social situations, and I do a lot of listening and furtive people-watching and mostly keeping to myself. I can sense the vibes that people like my coworkers often don't really know where to begin when it comes to making small talk with me, and they've made remarks within hearing distance of me before along the lines of "she doesn't want to talk to us." And though it bothers me to realize that I come off this way to them, I also find it very difficult to change my personality into becoming more of an open book. And sometimes I don't know if it's something I actually DO need to change, or to just work on accepting about myself a bit more. I usually just hope that the more intuitive ones sense that I'm not trying to be snobby so much as I'm just shy and not much of a chatty person most times. I often feel like the online friends I make probably have an easier time getting to know me well than people who meet me in person, actually...

People who have known me well for years say I'm bright, funny, gentle, easygoing and kind, so at least once you get past the inpenetrable walls there's that, I suppose 😅

[deep asks that get uncomfortably personal]

[medievildead]

for the ship opinion bingo kratos/heimdall 👉👈

HOOOO BOY SORRY THIS TURNED INTO A RANT however you did ask for my opinion and this is my blog so you know what. I am gonna post it. And this will be the only time I talk about it.

I reeeeeally don't like kradall it creeps me out and I don't understand it at fucking all. I see people try to make Hear Me Out posts about them and AUs about them and it just makes less and less sense to me (and I KNOW this is bold ass words coming from me I KNOW) but the canon dynamic that does exist for them at no point to me ever at all in the slightest tipped me off or made me think to ship them. Never clicked.

Then again you gotta remember that I'm someone who has been autistic about Kratos since 2005 and I am so incredibly damn picky about shipping him unironically with anyone. Shipping Kratos with Heimdall knowing the kind of person Kratos is and what hes gone through to Become his new self in the norse saga just doesn't make sense. A lot of kradall I see (that isn't non/con honestly another huge reason I don't vibe with it is that a bunch of people use it as a bolt for r/pe stuff in the early moments of Ragnarok fandom) is just them in a very ooc marriage situation I can't wrap my head around. Throwing Kratos into a heavy intense relationship is dumb to me like it took him centuries to fucking get over Lysandra and then moving on to Faye and I'm expected to belive the Hear Me Out posts about why Kratos would be in a long term relationship with.... Heimdall? The guy who is a complete prick to giants? Who actively said misogynistic shit about Atreus' mom who Kratos still loves with his whole heart? And threatened to actively kill his 14 year old son? Kratos's son? Kratos who has lifelong trauma about his child dying from war? I'm not buying it im sorry. No way you cook it will convince me.

In the early points of the ships existence honestly felt to me like people who were into Heimdall just wanted to explore a crutch for brat breaking. But its just genuinley not something I'm into. I'm a firm believer of ship and let ship as long as its harmless and for the most part it is! It's people having fun but it's not for me and never, ever ever will be no matter what and there is a reason I don't talk about it on this blog.

I've been in this fandom a long time and let me say Kratos x Heimdall reminds me a lot of when GoW3 came out and people started shipping and writing tons of Kratos x Hermes dubcon stuff for the sole reason of yaoi fujoshi people wanted to fetishize the gay male power dynamic. Its like I honestly feel some people see a big muscular man and a smaller effeminate man and are like "oh I need to make one a submissive girl" like again I know its just words and pictures on a screen but I have been here long enough to be Very Tired of seeing my sexuality get used as a fetish tool sjshskdnks

And. And ill be honest. And this is petty and trust me this is literally just me and my opinion but I cannot fucking stress how utterly confused and flabbergasted because FREYR IS RIGHT FUCKING THERE. HE IS RIGHT FUCKING THERE. BLATANTLY INTO KRATOS, A COMPLETE KIND SWEETHEART FULL OF LOVE, EXACTLY THE KIND OF GUY THAT WOULD SHOW KRATOS A GOOD TIME AND HAS AN ADORABLE ONSCREEN DYNAMIC THAT DOESN'T EVEN NEED TO BE AU'd OR CHANGED TO MAKE SENSE AND THIS FANDOM DOES NOTHING WITH IT. I see so many AUs where Heimdall survives to get with Kratos and valid but you know what??? I am gonna be angry, WHERE ARE MY FREYR LIVES AUs. WHERE ARE MY AUs WHERE FREYR LIVES AND GETS KRATOS ASCENDED ON THAT VANAHEIM ZA???????

LIKE FORREAL. I honestly feel like this fandom gets so blindsided by Heimdall and wanting to put him in situations and hell I'm guilty of it too, but I have genuinley met GoW Heimdall likers that straight up forgot Freyr existed and it shocks me. I don't get it!!!!!!

Theres a reason I ship Heimdall x Hermes together and its because their individual dynamics are so unbelievably compatible and I like to explore that. But I get people wanting something more realistic in universe as a muse. When it does come to shipping Heimdall with someone else in canon that makes absolute dynamic sense to me, I gotta be honest, Heimdall x Gná is the only "heimdall gets a dom" pairing that I can realistically get behind. Since they both would actually like each other despite being hated by all their peers for their devotion to Odin. Is it healthy? No, but Kradall isn't exactly peaches and cream either. So we work with what we got babey!!!!

[macchiatosdumptruck]

it's intriguing to me how people view the Fandom with the differences of the show being your first entry to the Fandom vs the movies. For me personally the movies were mine. The first karate kid movie was mine. My family rented the movie from Blockbusters and I loved it! Especially considering I was a lonely kid who was being bullied like Daniel, more so because I was a girl with autism and had a single mom(with taste for asshole boyfriends). So I related to both Daniel and Allie when dealing with an asshole guy like Johnny Lawrence. And when the movies would come on ABC family, I'd binge the series all the time. I loved it. So guess I'm kinda bias . It's funny/ironic when I first heard about Cobra kai, I was like who would want to watch a show about the asshole bully from first karate kid movie? The show has its good points and potential. But over all I guess I know why I'm so critical to Ck. The first karate kid movie is always in my head you know.

Yeah, it's interesting, because my first interaction was with the fandom, tbh. Then the show, then the movies.

Depending on how you are introduced to it really affects any sort of bias. It's not a surprise to me that many Daniel critical fans are fans of only the show, which has a bad habit of minimizing Johnny's actions from the first movie in an attempt to humanize him, and exaggerating Daniel's negative traits in an attempt to make things more morally grey.

Which, Ive said before they didn't need to do. A character doesn't need to have done only good things to be interesting or worth following. To have sympathy for. But it's something I see a lot of lately. With the way people consume media now I see less and less nuanced takes, or well meaning intellectual discussions, it's all about who's better, depending on whose favorite character is better.

It's as if certain writers don't trust audiences to be able to make their own decisions and opinions on the characters. Like people need to be told, "this person is good" or "this person is bad."

And the quickest way of doing that is to place them opposite someone and compare. Which is why it seems they tried to make Daniel a bit less likeable in the first season.

That's how we get takes like "Daniel is secretly rascist and a class traitor" where he does anything objectionable because someone has to be wrong for the other to be right.

For Johnny to be likable Daniel had to be unlikable, which is just blatantly untrue. But it's that sort of thinking that has led to reframing the original conflict. Reframing it as a rivalry.

Bullying is wrong. That's not a hot take.

A character can do something wrong and still be complex. We don't need to erase the wrongdoing.

What Johnny did was wrong. That doesn't mean that he as a character is bad, or that he can't learn or move on. There is a really quick moment towards the end where he seems to really respect Daniel, "you're alright LaRusso" and realize that he had been acting inappropriately that they have seemingly cut from canon? That is crazy because that is the entire basis for the show for me.

Knowing nothing of the movies and only interacting with fandom made me shocked when I watched the first movie due to truly how brutal it was. Because instead of "here's the pov of the antagonist" I was led to believe that "he actually wasn't the antagonist at all " and that's blatantly incorrect when you look at the movie.

And, yes, a large part of why he acted the way he did was because he was under the influence of Kreese, who has now become the ultimate antagonist for the series, but that doesn't mean he wasn't hurtful in his own right.

Many fans have spoken about how seasons one and two were their favorite for his character because I feel like those were the seasons that showed him as an actual person. They allowed him to admit when he fucked up. He still fucked up, tbh. But then they also allowed him to learn from that. In his own, slow, stubborn way. It made him feel like an actual person worth getting to know. It made viewers excited to see him take steps towards accountability.

And then the show got more popular, especially with certain types of fans, (known in online spaces as cobros) and that stopped. ( But also with some fans who seemed less interested in the characters as themselves and more for the possible shipping potential. Who, yes, I have noticed, are usually younger.)

It shifted to "he actually never did anything wrong to begin with."

Which then shifted to "if you acknowledge his wrongdoings you don't actually like the character and you're a bad fan."

And I understand because it's easy to get defensive when someone is being critical of a character you love.

The show was never meant to undo the movies. They are a series. You can choose to interact with only one of them, but as it stands they should be seen side by side. And originally, the trilogy had been meant to be the only source of canon. Hell, originally, before they knew what a hit it would be, only the first movie was meant to be canon.

Anyways, it's all led to some pretty childish infighting that has pitting fans of characters against one another.

[dirtyoldmanhole]

ch23 opens with one of the funniest moments in a video game ever despite the morbid conversation.

ryoma opens with something he's been pondering over.

extremely reasonable, and he's already pretty sharp for a FE protagonist for noticing this, and not glossing it over like corrin just did. (when ryoma x alphonse 'we notice shit no other FE lead does?' forging bonds in FEH?)

(worth noting that leo and takumi have probably been thinking about this too, but left the floor to ryoma to broach it with corrin, considering his closeness with scarlet.)

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Corrin: That can't be! Ryoma: Think about it. We were the only ones who jumped off that bridge. Gunter: And you said yourself that you and Scarlet were attacked as you were falling, milady. Corrin: Ah, I see now what you mean... Ryoma: For you to be ambushed as you fell... The killer must have jumped with our group. You've wanted us all to trust each other, so I didn't want to say anything... At least, not until I was certain. Corrin: I appreciate that, Ryoma. Ryoma: However, it's possible that we'll encounter even stronger resistance from here on in. We may even reach Anankos soon.

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i can't. I cAN'T

you know the funniest thing about gunter

the man has the dryest, sickest sense of humor i have ever seen. HE SAYS THAT WHEN HE NOT ONLY KNOWS buT IS PLANNING ON BETRAYING YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU FUCKER

....

honestly this screenshot's pretty priceless too

YOU

ARE

STARING AT HIM,

GIRL

GOD! GOD!!!!!! I CAN'T!

the man frikkin full on trolls the absolute shit out of every royal in that little scene. and he doesn't just go 'gee i wonder :D' all nodding thoughtfully along. NO THIS FUCKER HAS FUN WITH IT. 'it would be tragiiiiiiic' MY ASS

[tearfully muffled between my hands] god i am in so deep in this brain rot

....

ANYWAY

ch23 ends and

hoooooooly shit

there's crazy symbolisim with these camera angles i completely missed the first time around. the scene is arete's real death, right (azura's mother, since possessed by anankos. we're gonna see a lot of possessions coming up.)

guess who was blatantly right behind arete's sprite in the opening, in a total blink-and-you-missed-it-moment .5 seconds right before she popped up?

... wha-ba-ba-bam!

now, could me frantically pointing at the shot symbolism here be coincidence/me reaching?

I'd probably agree if this shot was in a vacuum, but given the parallel of azura>possesed mom, and corrin>possessed(psuedo)dad, and the chronological order that this + the possessions are going in, plus some more angles below, I genuinely think this is intentional. "layers" of possession, if you will, and anankos steadily working his way closer to corrin's inner circle.

ryoma calls out- "it might be a trap!"

(WHICH IS ANOTHER ECHO.... OF GUESS WHICH UPCOMING SCENE.....)

(second screenshot's of CORRIN DOING THE EXACT SAME THING WITH HIS POSSESSION YEAH.....)

holyshitholyshitholyshit

and then if the action / script echos wasn't foreshadowing enough you get THIS freaking angle right after arete's death with gunter unsubtly, and "weirdly" enough (to most players) very much front-frame focused all the sudden.

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[septembersghost]

I know you must hate talking about this subject and you've given some really good advice for ignoring things, but just wondering if you have an opinion on the new sofia coppola interview/article on the movie from a day or so ago? I'm trying so hard to not care, but it really broke my heart. There's already so much bad press about elvis and this is killing me and making me so sad. It just seemed so different than the article from last week in tone it surprised me and took me off guard.

it's okay, i'm touched you trust and confide in me, even though i know there's not a lot i can do to assuage this as a whole, just having someone listen can help sometimes. tbh i'm not following press about this at all, so i only know anything when someone tells me. i'm not completely sure which interview you mean? in the most recent one that came up, she said:

"“I didn’t want to villainise him,” says Coppola, but she has been fairly honest about his flaws. “It was the most non-Elvis movie about Elvis. But I didn’t want [the film] to be about a drug addict. I like to leave things to the imagination. It’s just not my style to be in your face.”"

the article itself is what characterizes him in a particularly negative framing, but sofia doesn't actually say that? (and editorializing in articles like this is simply so annoying - when i googled this interview, a different article about the film came up which included a sentence saying elvis "blatantly stole his music," which is totally untrue and an incorrect framing, and i've read enough terrible/inflammatory/poorly fact-checked/unkind articles at this point that my brain shuts off when i see something i know is inaccurate or coming from a place of bad faith).

additionally, she said: "She was reminded of “my mom’s generation, and how my mom grew up with a big force of a husband”, but also the feelings that surround an early love. “All those stages of transition, from girlhood to adult womanhood. I felt it was relatable,” she says."

"I just put myself totally in her perspective and tried to make a film about what if you were her. I didn’t think too much about all the different perspectives. Yes, it was a different time, different culture, but there are elements that remain the same."

we know he could have a fiery temper (yet was always quick to apologize), we know he could get into dark moods and low moments of creative frustration, we know about the issues he had in romantic relationships, we know he struggled with his health, both physically and psychologically, and with managing that in various ways, some tragically damaging, and none of that erases that he was also profoundly kind, generous, loving, funny, spiritual, talented. so i hope it keeps that dynamism. i'd imagine it has to in some way, coming from that feminine perspective that everything is noting, doesn't it have to in order to understand why she fell in love with and was captivated by him, why she continues to love him and speaks highly of his legacy to this day? i know i don't necessarily have a...favorable...opinion of the casting choice here, but if he really does turn out to be that one note figure, it will entirely eliminate the power of the story, even for priscilla too.

my best recommendation is not to read the negative and salacious press and be aware of preconceived biases and misinformation, but i understand curiosity gets the better of us sometimes and we want to know what's happening, even if logic is telling us it'll make us feel worse. i'm so sorry this is making you sad! i know i always go back to elvis and his outlook/relationship towards fans to try to offer comfort with this, but i truly believe he wouldn't want our hearts to break over things we cannot control or change, over perceptions of image (as he himself said: the image is one thing, and the human being is another). his goal towards fans was always one of connection and happiness and the power of music. the focus on highly personal, intimate details ultimately makes me a little uncomfortable because it wasn't what he wanted us to hold onto. like i've said before, you don't have to fight battles for him, you can just keep whatever joy and emotions you feel towards him for yourself. outside opinion on most anything is varied, even divisive, but it doesn't change what you find - that's the sacred thing.

[weebsinstash]

I'm probably going to tune in for a few more chapters but I'm dropping True Luna already so, here's my synopsis/ragging on that I guess lmao. Honestly thank god it turned out to rub me the wrong way because it's over 100 chapters and momma needs to save her chapter-unlock coins for some REAL juicy shit kwim

(Is it just me or do the eyes on the woman seem. Off)

-I picked this story up because it was a rejection story, like I was on YouTube and got an ad for chapter 3 when she is rejected, and I'm dropping it because she's apparently falling in love with the rejector who i think is a coward honestly. I'm 26 chapters in and trust me, if there was another love interest, he would've appeared by now and they wouldn't be focusing so heavily on the rejector, Logan

-plot is this: protagonist Emma is the sister of the pack Beta, Andrew (shit they never even give the pack a name now that I think about it). Their parents were killed by rogues when Emma was little and her brother had to help raise her and they grew extremely close, im talking after their parents died they shared a bed for a whole year because Emma was too anxious and traumatized to fall asleep alone. Along with Andrew, there is also her friends Jacob and Amy, as well as the Alpha Logan, and his and Andrew's childhood friend, Sienna

-Sienna is this tale's white lotus aka the girl who's super sweet when people are around and an absolute demon when she's alone with Emma. She calls Emma names and insults her, but when Emma tried to tell Andrew in the past when it began years ago... he accuses her of being jealous of his childhood friend, the whole 9 yards of "just because I'm spending time with her and not you doesn't mean you're not still my sister"

-you would think like, they would respect Emma enough to put two and two together, "hey Emma isn't a dishonest person, even if she doesn't like Sienna she doesn't blatantly make things up" like Emma, as the pack Beta's sister, is in a sort of semi-authoritative position and has been studying pack law and rules and training for years to be as strong as she can for her pack, like her friend Jacob is a warrior who helps train her in secret and the current Luna, Logan's mom, is like a mother to her and thinks she's a great pack member like lowkey that's her adopted daughter

-before I get further I should mention the weird relationship dynamics. Emma is in some sort of, I don't even know if they're having sex but she's having some sort of relationship with Jacob and he openly tells her he loves her, but they haven't found their fated mates yet and chosen mates are looked down upon. Emma wants to give herself a little more time to see if she finds her fated mate before choosing Jacob, which is who she would have chosen if she had a brain and she even admits she loves him. Meanwhile, in her internal thoughts, she also admits that she wouldn't mind being Logan's mate and saying how well they match up with each other

-also. Uh. They say in this pack, the pack elders and such frown on chosen mates but. Like. It's kind of quietly snuck in there that people in the pack do still, you know, have casual sex and stuff, and I feel like that's extremely contradictory? Not to circle back around to my opinions on "if my fated mate was running around having tons of sex instead of like waiting for me" buuuut.... Emma even says she would be sad if her mate was a player who's been with a lot of girls

-so on your 18th birthday is when you get your wolf and earn the pack mindlinking powers and all that. Only those you invite to your first shift are allowed to attend, so she goes with Amy, Jacob, Andrew, and the Luna, and when Emma shifts, she is a pure white wolf, which is unheard of as all white wolves have colored spots or at least different colored paws. Her wolf's name is Eliza.

-sigh. After both wolves have had their first shift is when you can sense your mate and all that. Emma is, in her own home, which by the way, brief detour, because Sienna is Logan and Andrew's childhood friend the bitch is constantly in Emma's house so she can't even be comfortable when she's at home, but, she's in her room and she hears a knock on the front door and goes downstairs, descending the stairs and "smelling the most delicious scent I had ever experienced", she comes face to face with. Logan. Who is visibly tense and even looking angry which confuses her because she can tell the moment they lock eyes that theyre fated mates. Andrew tells her to go to her room and she complies but stays at the top of the stairs to eavesdrop

-I wouldn't describe it exactly like 'incestuous' but I personally really do not like how her brother uh infantilizes her tbh, like if i were to look at this from a human perspective i would say he struggles to separate from his role as her guardian (as in parent) and protector once she becomes an adult. Technically she just turned 18 and that's still young right but that IS a legal adult, and Andrew literally has a conversation with Jacob about how he can't chose Emma as his mate, that Emma is young and needs a few years just to see if she can find her fated mate, and I'm just sitting here extremely uncomfortable because there are SEVERAL TIMES Andrew uh, basically, I don't even know if it's because of pack rank or duty or whatever but there are multiple conversations with Andrew basically guarding her chastity??? Hes hsing language like "i wont allow it/id be ok with that" like she needs his permission or some shit and Emma is 18 and can make her own choices thank you??? It's kind of gross her biological brother is talking to men behind her back about how HE won't allow her to do this or that and he's. Talking about her having relationships?

It's controlling and creepy in my opinion like if you asked me to write a hypothetical platonic yandere sibling figure, I would choose a sibling who controls who you hang out with and doesn't let you date at all and just, eugh it just grosses me out. Even later in the story a character looks at Andrew because they were talking about Logan rejecting Emma and this person says "and you LET that happen?" Uhhhhhhh not to defend Logan but he had his own choice, so like why is the tone of the conversation "oh Andrew gets to pick and choose his baby sister's mate" as if Andrew could even decide whatever the fuck Logan does too

-anyways Emma overhears them talking and the conversation is so fucking stupid. There have been increasing rogue attacks and they even have a leader, called only the Rogue King, coordinating large attacks and the pack needs to be strong more than ever. Logan claims Emma is too young to lead as Luna and not physically strong enough, even though when it switches to Logan's POV he outright admits he loves her and thinks she's beautiful and cool and all that. he, in my opinion, decides to be a little pussy and "oh, I must do what's best for the pack, SIENNA will make a better Luna" and I think he's fucking her anyways so. Emma overhears her own brother agree and say she isn't strong enough even though Emma has been secretly training with Jacob and is actually much stronger than they think. And uh. Gee the rejection is still the DAY OF her birthday. Like I'm on chapter 26 and all thats taken place in like a week, in between a couple days before Emma's birthday up until like 3 days after

-the rejection honestly fucks up her mental health so bad she doesn't eat or sleep for 2 days straight even though she tries, she just lies in bed staring at the ceiling having racing thoughts because her brother and her mate don't believe her and her bully is threatening to exile her when she becomes Luna, which, after Logan chooses Sienna as future Luna she escalates and outright states she could have Emma killed and make it look like an accident

-because she is so stressed and sleep deprived, Emma gets visibly scratched and beat up during a training. Her internal monologue is that her brother and Logan will see her extremely rare temporary weakness and it will enforce their opinion she's some fragile loser and they made the right choice. She is entirely correct and it is so fucking depressing, like the author honestly kind of went too deep in having them just genuinely look down on her for me to like either of them, I was listening to this story legitimately wishing Emma would leave the pack entirely to get rid of Logan AND her brother like I am still, genuinely, genuinely, hoping like the rogue king or some fucking idk lycan will show up and Emma gets a new mate but, I can tell it isn't happening

-there is so much I genuinely don't like about Logan. A lot of stories describe the mate bond being able to make you more jealous and possessive or Alphas being excessive about it but there are times when Logan is growling because "oh no a MALE is near MY MATE" and its just in really GENUINELY INAPPROPRIATE TIMES like when Emma is getting examined by A DOCTOR BECAUSE SHE'S INJURED and even HER OWN BIOLOGICAL BROTHER. Like Emma zones out during a training and doesn't block a hit and she gets two of her ribs broken and btw Logan can feel things through the mate bond so of course they come bug her when she is already tired and stressed and cranky and doesn't want to see them

-"oh no Emma is too tired and weak to walk home" cue Logan insisting it's him and stopping her friend Jacob from doing it "because no man will touch my mate blah blah blah" like fuck you I am literally the Reader and even I don't want you touching her. Why not have her brother carry her. Just another obligatory forced touch to further brainwash them both with the mate bond

-I really don't like a lot of Logan's internal dialogue either, or perhaps it's the way packs are written in this story. Everything has an air of... no free will? A cult that beats you down and leaves no room for you to decide for yourself? Alpha commands can physically force you to do and say things and they can even make them hurt, and Logan occasionally will think shit like "he can't speak to me like that. He'll be punished for this". great example is before Emma breaks her ribs but after her birthday, once when theyre alone, Sienna shows up and mocks Emma "i always wanted to see the face of the pathetic bitch whos opportunity as Luna i was taking away (as in whomever turned out to be Logan's mate regardless), but its a treat that its you!" and mocking her for being rejected while Emma is trying to stay calm.

Sienna pushes and pushes until Emma finally calls her a bitch and oh no, that's when Logan and Derek magically conveniently come in to berate Emma and Sienna whips out the fake tears, "oh she must not be taking this whole mate thing well, im sorry, it's not her fault she just needs more time, although not to be mean, she DID just insult her future Luna 🥺" and apparently even just something as small as that, Emma calling Sienna a bitch, is worthy of 'a punishment' because, even though Sienna is not even officially Luna yet, because she is going to be Luna IN THE FUTURE, Emma has to be punished for... oh no calling her a mean name? Logan literally tells Andrew or says internally, "she'll have to be punished later"

-the very next day Sienna comes into her bedroom and basically breaks healing ribs a second time. She tells Amy and Jacob, who she always tells about being abused, but she lies to Andrew and Logan because she knows they won't believe her. Like. It made me want to cry, Emma has been called weak and been rejected and her brother won't believe her and he asks "why won't you talk to me? What's wrong?" And she just quietly asks "why don't you believe me about Sienna" and he just. Shuts her down with his fake support "you just need to give her a chance, she's really great, I don't know why you're doing this but blah blah blah" I legitimately wish she would have abandoned her brother and left him with nothing but he helped raise her and they're traumabonded

-ugh. So. It's minor but I still hated it: Emma is angry and upset and stressed and wants to be alone and her brother essentially forces himself into her bed to sleep beside her to help her sleep like she was younger. It does help her and she still loves her brother but to me as the reader this was infuriating because from my standpoint she is literally not being allowed to make any decisions for herself in any way whatsoever and can't even have space in her own fucking house, in her own fucking BED?

-wanna know the biggest reason why I'm so mad. Wanna know. Because Sienna's abuse escalates even further. Sienna has Emma KIDNAPPED by a rogue with every intention of having her killed after Logan marks Sienna, because once he's formed a new mate bond he won't be able to sense Emma being. Raped and then murdered. Like Sienna says it outright that the rogue can do whatever he wants once she gets marked. And you know what Sienna's plan is. It makes me want to fucking shake. She has the rogue beat her up and runs back to Logan and Andrew and claims "I didn't even do anything, Emma just saw me and screamed I took Logan from her and she attacked me"

And

They

Believe her.

INSTANTLY, NO HESITATION, BEWILDERED AND SHOCKED BUT THEY BELIEVE HER just throw both goddamn men away at this point smfh

Logan is one thing but her own fucking brother who helped raise her???? Like Sienna's master plan is to claim Emma said she'd rather be a rogue than have Sienna as a Luna. Andrew and Logan don't believe THAT PART, because her parents were killed by rogues and that would DEVASTATE Andrew, but they both 100% accept at face value that Emma must have attacked Sienna who is literally described as having a large wound on her head. Like. It drives me fucking crazy. Emma is restrained and dosed with wolfsbane, eventually going to be killed, and meanwhile Logan is all "she has to be punished for attacking Sienna but I won't allow her to become a rogue" uh to be honest I think being forced to stay in a pack where an Alpha can literally basically mindcontrol you and finds it fit to assault you for hurting his feelings would be worse than being a rogue "but wolves are pack creatures, social animals, we have to live in communities or else we get lonely and could go crazy" and you all obviously treat each other SO well don't you 🙄

-Jacob mans up and tells Andrew and Logan to their faces that Emma tried to tell them so many times about what was happening and they never believed her. He says outright, "if Emma dies the blood is on both of your hands" meanwhile Logan is just thinking like "I should kill him for disrespecting the alpha" nd Andrew just breaks his nose and it's like, awwww are you mad because he's entirely correct? Poor delicate insecure little wolves

And guess what. Before Logan and Andrew were alerted about Sienna being "attacked" they were literally having a meeting with another Alpha (who by the way? Biggest fucking cockblock. They mention his name as early as like chapter 4 or 5 and I was getting excited because it was so early in the story I thought "oh she was just rejected and now another Alpha is suddenly visiting, he's her second chance mate" but nope.) and this Alpha's name is Drake and his Beta is Josh (dont think i dont see what you did there) and Drake is like "hey we captured a rogue and interrogated him and he told us the rogue king's goal is there's a prophecy or some shit of a powerful shewolf mated to an Alpha, A TRUE LUNA, who draws power from the love of her pack, who will be strong and wise and lead like no other Luna, her pack will be truly strong and she will birth a new, stronger generation of wolves and the rogue king wants her as his mate and also we hear she's supposed to be pure white?"

So, brief pause because I especially hate the emphasis that she's destined to birth a new generation or whatever because I personally am against uhhhhh her being used as a glorified breeding whore after she was rejected for perceived weakness "oh we treated you like shit BEFORE EVEN GIVING YOU A CHANCE TO PROVE YOURSELF but now that you're strong and convenient to us now we want lots of babies out of you" fuck off, like genuinely

In a better story Logan would have his nose rubbed in the pissed stain carpet of his failure of rejecting Emma when she takes another mate and he finds out too late that he had a strong wise Luna right beside him all along, but no, before Sienna pulled her kidnapping fuckery, they had a brief make-out session at a party and, she's obviously falling for the bond and all that and I refuse to read this to the end 🙄 I don't like Logan, I don't like Andrew, I really don't like that from a narrative standpoint Logan is not actually really suffering any consequences for what he did, he just gets to, hurt Emma and throw her away and then he gets rewarded with her anyways? Geez. I keep finding good stories that have actual female empowerment and they lull me into a false sense of security and I wind up being disappointed when I find things like this 😩

[yeetspace]

Don't want to even touch it up with 10 ft pole

But from the parts of it I am seeing I do have to agree on the "Just because you're high doesn't mean you're exempt" from a very similar situation i had, but I will also bring up That exact same situation inversely to argue against this person.

With no precedent beforehand given that we also had stuff at previous points together like edibles and smoking, there was just one time my ex got like viscerally mad and told me he was going to break my nose because I gave him bad weed, (my mom gave us the shit)

But also, I didn't temper my response in the fact that he was high very much so because of the fact that previous interactions had shown there was a level of volatility that's always present.

At a certain point of a regular and consistent reaction to things, people not giving you the benefit of the doubt due to your own actions is on you, Person Who Constantly Misinterprets And Over Dramatic Sizes Things About Trans Women On The Internet To Explicitly Use As Inflammatory Remarks As To Actively Bolster Transphobia.

Like genuinely at a certain point of constantly crying wolf, though it is deeply saddening if the situation is in fact a victimization of you, you still very directly caused the level of scrutiny and non-Trust that was put into everyone's reaction to you bringing it up.

It's not that people are downplaying it or pretending like it didn't happen, it's that you constantly do things like that and so there's no reason in any possibility that this isn't either blatantly untrue, a wild misinterpretation, intentional manipulation of the situation due to the fact that the other party was inebriated to the point of blackout.

Again, any other person bringing this up I wouldn't bat and I and I would absolutely be on the side of the person who was and claimed to have been raped, but in this circumstance your previous actions are evidence enough to show and act upon this information as though it is a trepidatiously true half-lie that at the very least either has real-life precedent that can be applied to it that was misinterpreted due to both your inebriated states, or full-on actual lying for the sake of actually just being a transphobe, as has been done a multitude of times previously.

Not tagging this thing not adding anyone just speaking my mind loudly in my own little corner about this situation. Though the circumstances are definitely something that should be scrutinized and looked into, both because of the accusation in its own right, but directly also because of the validity by which the things you say, y'know usually having none, expressly because of your own actions no one believes you yet.

[c0ntaminxted]

like I can understand to a certain point wanting your kids to be independent. I can understand to a certain point being tired of "babying" your kids to a certain point. but my thing about this is how blatantly disgusting she was about it. I mean, this whole thing came up because of my dad and him taking his bible encyclopedias back because for some dumb fucking reason he didn't grab them before he left for ohio after their divorce. and I told him to ask her if he can take them and I was under the impression that she didn't care and that's why he took them

now I'm coming to find out that she actually does care and is now mad at everybody in this house for just existing. my older brother is a grown man, yes, but he still lives with us because honestly I don't think he's ever gonna be fully financially independent or. life independent. but I don't care, I love him anyways. but my mom doesn't get that it seems

and we already know how she feels about me

but I think what's most shocking about her rant was her mentioning my younger brother. he's the favourite, he's always been the favourite. and I thought he'd be safe in that regard, being the favourite, never doing anything inherently wrong, but I guess she's tired of him too.

I'm scared she's gonna reach a point where she'll just kick the two of them out, because she'll never have to worry about me. I don't have a plan, but I'm gonna come up with one throughout college. but they don't have plan. my younger brother is literally 13 and the older one never really worried about it. I hate how she only sees us as some of our dad's spawns, even though she gave birth to us, and she was the one that raised us. we might not listen all of the time, sure, but we're not deliberately being disrespectful to her. we're not deliberately disobeying her. in fact we do so much shit for her. like she always talks about how her birthday or christmas or even mother's day isn't special because nobody ever gets her anything, so you know what kj and I did? we went out and got her some stuff. and she still complains about how christmas isn't special because she only got stuff from us. I didn't have to buy her shit with MY christmas money, but I did because I felt bad. but truly knowing how she feels about us now, I'm not doing shit for her anymore

anyway this derailed really rapidly. I'm really upset. she's really not gonna have to worry about me after college because trust and believe I'm not gonna be around her

my mom going on her tri-weekly rant about how much nobody listens to her and how much disrespect she experiences and dropping on me how much she can't wait until we leave is actually a little bit heart breaking. like, okay. now I know I shouldn't feel bad when I cut her bitchass out of my life. tell me how you really feel, cunt

[ghostietea]

Furuba autistic headcanons

With it being April, or autism acceptance month, I wanted to finally drop my list of characters from Fruits Basket that I read as autistic! This is based a lot on my own experience, as well as that of other autistics I know or have seen talk online. I hope some people can get something out of it, feel free to tell me what you think 😊, though please refrain from getting upset that I would dare suggest your fave is autistic.

Hanajima

Before becoming able to better control her powers, she would be constantly overwhelmed by the things she heard to the point that she couldn't even really go out in public. This reads a lot like sensory overload.

Constantly picked on in school because other kids thought she was weird. Eventually reclaimed this weirdness and turned it into a whole persona.

Seems to talk usually in a relatively flat tone.

Had trouble socializing with no friends outside her family until middleschool.

Has a very funny, dry sense of humor that I find very similar to a bunch of autistics I know, including myself.

Hatsuharu

Listen. You have seen the funky little man, you have seen the way he talks, the way he acts around others. He is, and I mean this in the best way, a weirdo. I do not know how you could look at him and see a neurotypical.

Once again, like Hana, Haru is funny in a way that feels very autistic.

Very flat, dry, tone delivery. Sometimes just Says Things that make everyone else go huh??? Suuuuper blunt. Doesn't emote facially a lot of the time.

When this man sees a social norm he doesn't get he WILL NOT follow it. Pierces his ears just because his hair got flak, defends Momiji wearing whatever he wants because sometimes y'know the social rules are just dumb and don't make sense. Especially dress codes.

Sometimes says things not befitting the current tone of the situation.

Represses (masks) a lot of his emotions, leading to outbursts that seem uncharacteristic.

His main childhood trauma revolves around adults branding him as "dumb" and ridiculing him. Haru, however, is super smart and wise!! Just in an offbeat way that not everyone may get.

Machi

Reads as very "flat" emotionally to the point that others would call her boring. Also has a flat vocal delivery.

Relies on specific habits or ways of doing things or else she gets super upset (her hatred of imperfection.

Has trauma surrounding adults completely misconstruing her intentions and thinking she's doing something malicious when she's not.

Generally behaves in a way that's hard for others to understand, one of her formative moments with Yuki was him saying he wanted to "see how the world looks" through her eyes.

Once again, trouble socializing.

Tries super hard to please her parents but in the end they still see her as somehow inherently "defective."

Listen. A lot of this one and the last two are mostly vibes, hard to verbally define. You just have to look at them and trust me.

Tohru

Displays behavior very reminiscent of masking throughout the story, a huge part of her arc is about how she hides a lot of herself and has a very controlled persona. I think it would fit very well if she had other autistic behaviors that she suppresed also it helps explain why she is relatively socially adept, it's learned behavior to make people like her more.

Yes she is very good at saying what others need to hear, but especially early on she is pretty blatantly imitating her mother's words. She only gets better at getting through on a more personal level later on (see her with Rin and Akito v. early series Tohru). She does this by relating her own experiences, a very autistic way of showing empathy that often gets us written off as self centered. The way she relays things her mom said could also be seen as this, and she even worries at a few points that she's being insensitive for going on about things like that.

While emotionally repressed she is hyper empathetic and feels other's emotions so strongly she cries.

Her speech patterns are all imitated from her father and she often copies verbal things from others (see Ritchan-san). Noted in canon that people think her way of speaking is slightly off/not befitting of someone her age. Additionally, her father was polite more sarcastically, while she plays it straight and sometimes takes things very literally or fails to get the message, indicating trouble with reading tone. Has numerous strange verbal tics, including saying parts of her internal monologue out loud without context.

Very expressive with her hands including waving them around and flapping them up and down.

Does have a bit of trouble with accidental insensitivity in social interactions, like how she constantly fixates on her mom and realizes that might bug the Sohma.

Has trouble paying attention in school since it doesn't have much to do with her interests

Her only friend until she was a middle schooler was her mom

Has a pretty unique outlook on things compared to others, people seem to think she's pretty eccentric. There's always a "this girl is nice but in an odd way, she's our weirdo and we love her" vibe.

Sometimes has an "inappropriate" emotional response to situations

Has a lot of trouble with change, similar to Akito. Which oh, look at the time, next hc coming up.

But first, a disclaimer. It is cathartic for me to read Akito this way, but with that reading comes the baggage that she would, mayhaps, be showing a more negative side of things... It doesn't bother me since it's a joint hc with other characters and she does develop at the end but yeah, general villain hc baggage. This is in no way me trying to excuse her being The Worst being autistic doesn't absolve you of being able to do wrong . Also, a lot of these points can and do have other explanations related to her upbringing, but things can be for more than 1 reason. With that said, she really strongly comes off as autistic to me, in a way that's sorta hard to explain. I wrote a lot more for her than the other, both because I felt I needed more to convince people and that this headcanon was more sensitive and I needed to be careful in my explanation. Also hey! She's my special interest within a special interest.

Akito

Shown to have a dislike of summer weather due to heat and brightness, could be due to sensory issues in tandem with sickness things. Also covers her ears when people raise their voice sometimes which is partially her trying to shut down opposition but also 🤔 can read a different way. She'd also avoids louder Juuni like Ritsu and Ayame because she can't handle them.

Wears pretty much the same outfit every single day. Said outfit is also pretty loose fitting.

Always seen sitting in a pretty unconventional way. Evidence:

Of course this is also the isolated in a cult thing and there is a level of her purposefully doing things to intimidate but: doesn't follow a lot of social rules (overly touchy with strangers, legit doesn't get that what she's doing is wrong, ect.). Repeatedly confused when people indicate she should act otherwise without explanation. Has a breakdown when this comes to a head and approximately says that "they" shouldn't expect her to know "common sense" if "they" never explained it to her, that the way that she was was her "common sense."

Often talks in a way uncharacteristic of her age when shown as a child in a more faux mature/pretentious way. Might just be the translation and idk how to explain it but her speech as an adult also seems off from what one would normally use in conversation. Additionally, when she tries to fake being friendly in her intro chapter, it comes of as extremely stiff and unconvincing.

Generally displays behavior that could be thought of as childish as an adult, but a lot of this behavior could also read as autistic (covering ears, emotional deregulation and meltdowns, ignorance of basic social norms, ect.). It's also important to note that she knows that this behavior makes her seem younger and more helpless to the older zodiac and uses it as a manipulation tactic. Has issues regarding people treating her like a child or only hanging out with her because of pity. While she does weaponize it, we can tell that this grates on her, as seen with her finally blowing up on Kureno, which is partially triggered by the maids saying some sorta infantalizing stuff about her. Irl, a lot of autistic adults and teens struggle with being infantalized for our behavior generally or treated as little babies that can do no wrong. Even in fandom, you see people doing stuff like jumping to call autistic adult characters, such as Entrapta from Shera, "minor coded." It is also common for us to have at least one bad experience with someone hanging around us out of pity. This is something that really gave me a similar feeling in Akito's arc. She's not a baby and she can understand and do better if she is given the chance to learn and break from all the freaky cult indoctrination she's been subjected to instead of just being constantly enabled. In the end, a lot of her growth is represented by her showing that she is capable of changing and being independent.

Shows particular difficulty with socialization, often sits by herself spacing out at social events. A lot of her fear is rooted in the fact that she doesn't know how normal relationships work, becoming overly reliant on the curse because she doesn't know how to make friends.

Clings desperately onto the notion of being "special" and in some way superior to others to be worthy and to make up for perceived inherent "flaws." It's the nd gifted kid burnout vibes for me.

Easily bothered by things that don't bother others. Feels emotions very strongly to the point of getting physically ill and has bad emotional regulation.

Relatively good at reading others in an analytical sense (though has more trouble when it comes to seeing how they feel about her since she's wildly delusional) but brings up her observations in a very cold, detached way and hurts people even on the rare occasion she didn't mean to. Has extreme trouble connecting to others and understanding their point of view. This makes her come off as pretty unempathetic even though that might not fully be the case. Also thinks that people like Momiji are trying to look down on her when they try to empathize with her. A lot of why Tohru can get through to her is that she manages to convince Akito that she's not condescending by relating shared traits and experiences. As I said earlier, autistics often empathize by sharing their own experiences with someone, and I know I often have an easier time confiding in other autistics because of a fear of being seen as lesser by those that don't understand me. I think the connection between these charachters and the way that Tohru manages to reach Akito like that while others couldn't makes a lot of sense through an autistic lense!

Additionally, when Akito herself gets around to trying to help others instead of just projecting trauma, she tries to reach out to the old maid by relating back to her own experiences. This however, doesn't work.

Has "cold" emotional reactions sometimes even to things that do make her upset. For example, how sort of calm and detached she acted after her father's death can make her seem uncaring. However, we know that this event did mess her up a lot and she is still (poorly) dealing with a lot of grief from the death of her father years later.

Copies mannerisms from others, the most blatant example is with Ren, who she directly parrots lines from as a child to Yuki.

Partly just her posturing, but gestures a lot with her hands when she talks. Also seen several times clutching her hands in her hair.

Deals extremely poorly with the idea of things changing to the point that it is a driving force of the story.

Does not understand when people tease her.

Ect. Ect. Ect. Listen, I could go on for ages but just trust me, the mean gremlin lady is autistic.

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

Tw emotional abuse, I suppose

Hi, I have a very bad relationship with my bfs mom since the beginning of our relationship. (She was emotionally abusive towards him too so, it's wasn't a "one time" thing).

At the beginning of our relationship I was commited to a clinic because of my ED and my mom was certain that I only did it, to make her mad. To talk bad about her with strangers and to make her colleagues think bad of her. So she kicked me out. She "offered" that I could live with friends of her, who's children just moved out, and I did. These friends know very little of my mental issues and don't believe me either but okay. At some point, after several weeks, my mom wanted me to come back and when I refuaed, she told her friends lies about me, until they kicked me out. I was together with my bf for 5 months maybe at that point and he asked his mom, if it would be okay for me to stay with them for 2 or 3 weeks. And it was fine for her. I had only met her twice before. This is where the story starts. Ah and, we've both been 21 at that time. I've been at his moms house for 2 weeks at that time.

So my bf had a hard time finding a job, since his mom lived outside nowhere, and at some point he considered coming to my city (2h away) and looking for a job there. We could find an appartment together and just live our lives. He asked his mom, what she thinks about it and she got so mad. She started yelling at him (idk what) for several minutes and when he flew into his room (where I was at that moment) she followed him and continued yelling "And I am not a fucking open house for some fucking dirty hobo" which was referred to me. She only knew that my mom and I needed some time seperated. My bf entered his room, locked his door and his mom continued yelling for one hour straight (I don't remember what, I covered my ears most of the time) and came back every hour and yelled again for 10min (at some point because we refused to open the door to have "a serious and open conversation".) For like 6 hours until she went to bed.

She also said, I had to leave the next day and I did. But my bf came with me. He found a job, we found an appartment, it went well. It's been 5 years and she doesn't remember. I am always very shy and closed when talking with her (she's anyways always criticizing me) and at some point she asked my bf, why I was like that and what she did wrong and he just told her "You've insulted her pretty badly" and she was like "I don't remember. But I am sure she deserved it".

But whenever I look at her, talk to her, I know that I can't trust her. Because she's shown how fast she can switch and what she really thinks of me. And she's been really affectionate and hugging a lot etc and I am on one hand sure she means it. But I always think "Stop pretending!!" when she hugs me and idk if I can ever have a neutral relationship with her. Sadly, she's too "perfect" to have an earnest talk about my fear. She has said some other stuff... that was mostly well meant but sometimes just yelling at me for no reason (like, she believed I didn't do something, I said, I did, she said I lied). Etc. Idk, it is hard. I'd love to never have to see her again. But I don't want this to affect my relationship with my bf so I just shut up and join him visiting her everu now and then.

Hi anon,

First of all I'm so sorry about everything you went through. You did not deserve to be treated those ways, and I'm honestly appalled that both your mom and your bf's mom have said such blatantly rude things about and to you. There is no reason to speak to and about anyone that way.

It hurts when not only your mom, but your mother in law disapproves of you. It makes family functions needlessly more complicated. That being said, I do think you deserve to both set strict boundaries with these people and also have those boundaries respected. So for example, you say you'd love to never have to see your mother in law again, and that's okay. That could become a boundary where you say "If you're going to see your mom, I'm not coming. She has disrespected me and has now lost the privilege of my company."

Your boyfriend should be more understanding and supportive of you. When I put myself in his shoes, I would think it's completely valid why you don't want to see her. I wouldn't make you go with me when I wanted to visit her, I would simply respect that boundary because of my love for you, and so I'm curious why your boyfriend still makes you go along. It may be necessary to have a conversation with him and just explain to him that you love and respect him and his family but because his mom has hurt you so unapologetically, you don't want to visit her again, but remind him that he's free to visit his mom by himself whenever he pleases.

Obviously avoiding her won't be completely possible, but you deserve to respect your boundaries where you can, and if you really don't want to see her even at family functions, you may just want to keep a distance from her.

If anyone else has any suggestions, please feel free to add on. Otherwise I hope I could help, and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun