#like. idk why. but these lyrics feels so Shallow

[timeloop-angel]

Holy shit those are so bad. You guys werent exaggerating

[tonydaddingham]

so i had the bright idea of rewatching s1 today whilst im working from home, now knowing what i know about s2, and so i can ruminate a little more on s1 with the additional context. ive barely made it past five minutes

im pretty sure ive gotten most of the frames accurate from this bit, and im sure it might just be a bit of demonstrative cinematography (which ya know, *chefs kiss*) but at the same time i love going into full year 9 english teacher mode about this shit, and i think there is something to comment on (which someone already might have done but w/e). in any case, this bit of dialogue is very noticeably layered with shots of crowley and aziraphale, but intercut with the shots of adam facing down the lion:

like, i can't help but feel that there is some symmetry in this and either other people have spotted it and im very behind, OR we havent spotted it and s2 spoilers have helped unlock it✨

so who is meant to be who here? for my money it would be that adam is mirroring aziraphale, and eve is mirroring crowley - in so much that at a really shallow level, aziraphale is a platoon leader, a guardian, fought in the war etc. crowley, regardless of his rank, is a starmaker, and let's face it the boy has the structural integrity of a strand of dried linguine. so we could look at it on that level (ignore the lion for the moment ill sort of explain that if it isn't already obvious)

but also we now know that this scene is not their first meeting, and that aziraphale and crowley do in fact remember each other and know that they have met, and in aziraphale's case is probably the teeniest bit shy bc damn heart eyes as an angel, heart eyes as a demon 🥵 but my point is that this is after the fall. after (as far as crowley tells it) crowley fell for 'just ask[ing] questions", and "just hung around the wrong people".

now i have my thoughts on why crowley fell: tldr because it would require another post - both reasons he gave above are bullshit and obvs conflict with each other, so i think that he doesn't actually know why he fell and has just guessed his transgressions so he can rationalise it, that god actually never had an issue with him asking questions, and instead it was actually god's plan to make him fall so he could represent the 'evil' side of free will on earth, as aziraphale's counterpart, and essentially ensure that humankind stays eternally 'in balance'

ANYWAY so the fact that in the lion sequence, 'crowley' is being shielded by 'aziraphale' against an unknown entity; but does this mirror a flashback, or is it foreshadowing? again, id put my bets on the former visually, but the latter... lyrically? idk the word but regardless take the dialogue:

"What if I did the right thing;

with the whole 'eat the apple business'?

A demon can get into a lot of trouble;

for doing the right thing."

so let's rephrase this:

"Was it the right decision to fall;

was I right to choose this for myself?

to choose the right to choose?

Because i feel like i could live to regret it."

so is crowley in essence already asking if aziraphale is on his side? is he asking if falling was the right thing, the good thing, to do (regardless of whether god gave him any choice in the matter)? But was he given the choice, first true free will? did aziraphale try to protect him during the fall, so crowley could get out in time (but ultimately fail? or at least bought Crowley enough time to find a back staircase and fall gently and peacefully, 'saunter vaguely downwards'?), and then get assigned to earth to be the 'good' side of the coin for humanity?

and is crowley asking if aziraphale will continue to be with him? in whatever romantic, platonic, acquaintance context you want - is he asking aziraphale if aziraphale will fight for him again, for them both? aziraphale made his decision, enacted his free will, in giving the humans a sword, and thus brought the concept of war and horror to earth, even if that was never his intention - so now swordless, and now only condemned to watch humanity as it strides out on its own (or was this the plan all along?👀), is aziraphale willing to do it? does he have the power, the strength, the will? would he stretch his finger over the line to fight on their side?

maybe im asking the wrong kind of questions, but all ill say is that in the above sequence? at the end of the dialogue? adam kills the lion.

i think 'their side' began in the job minisode, yes maybe, but also maybe the idea of it, the understanding of it, was planted here.

[cringelordofchaos]

Hot take: drew and Zoey DO love each other

(or at least have at one point).

Look at that blush!!

Not saying they're not toxic or shallow or that it could've worked but to deny they had feelings for each other just for other ships to seem cooler seems pointless to me

They loved each other, though they are horrible cor each other that doesn't mean they don't care for each other (case in point: drake)

This is not to say drew isn't in love with Jake (I'm a big drew-is-in-love-with-jake-and-the-closet-is-made-of-glass-truther myself) but I don't think drew dated her just for reputation, they both have a messed up way of showing and receiving love (Drew's love language is gift giving, and Zoey might feel loved when given money which is weird af but it makes sense in a way, her getting a sugar daddy could be to get more money but also more love ever since drew might've started acting distant or uncaring towards her or she felt like his love and attention wasn't enough, cuz she seems extreme desperate for respect and attention and stuff like that, given how she usually makes herself to be the center of attention so often and how she tries putting herself above everyone else, meanwhile Drew would pay more attention to jake than her at times lmao, which might've made her angry or jealous or idk. but she craved his gifts, his love at one point.)

Zoey did manipulate and deceive him and he fell for it, RosyClozy at point said "Teeth" (a song by 5 Seconds Of Summer) fit Droey really well , and these are the lyrics

The song seems to be about someone infatuated with their lover, being the only brightness in their life and genuinely caring about them, but being lied to and deceived and ig being afraid of being pushed away

When drew found out zoey cheated on him, he was quite obviously upset, as anyone would be, really. Though you could say that, in a way, he seemed to be more upset about Jake not telling him Zoey cheated on him, than... Zoey cheating on him. Again, the show prioritizes how Drew feels about Jake over how he feels about Zoey, which makes it a bit more complicated to break down the true feelings behind Droey. (Plus, all the other ships have canon origins. Lander - childhood best friends. Jailey - met at freshman year, but Jake turned his back on Hailey in order to fit in w the jomies, causing rivalry and mistrust between the two. Jaisy - met in middle school, where she encouraged Jake's passions. Milliot - milliot spinoff ep1, see for yourself. Etc etc. but droey? We don't know how they met or how they got together. I assume it's gonna be revealed in S2 at one point. And it might be really important.)

At one point he worries about Zoey not asking him to buy her anything one time they went out. This was because that's his way of showing love like I said earlier. He was worried because she, in a way, rejected his love. He was worried she didn't love him anymore.

For what reason? Because he loved her.

Now, why does he act distant or ignorant to her at times? Heck if I know. In ep9 for example he seems more annoyed from her than anything else, really. Maybe he's fallen out of love..maybe he's tried of her. Maybe his love for Jake outweighed his love for Zoey. Maybe he felt like she didn't love him anymore, so he didn't feel like trying to love her either. Maybe something else entirely.

But either way ....

Drew cared about Zoey. End of discussion

Now, what is "the line" that separates romantic and platonic love? I honestly don't know. Was drew in love with her? Was it romantic or platonic? Could he have mistaken his feelings for something else? Idfk. I honestly think romantic attraction makes no bullshit. I always saw it as platonic attraction combined with sexual attraction but apparently that . Is not the case ???? Which makes no sense to me. Can some explain pls lmao

That's not the point. He loved her. Now, the show focuses more on how he loved and how he misses Jake, but it's not like Jake is the only person he loves and cares about.

Now does ZOEY love DREW? that's a separate discussion to have. Throughout the show we don't get too much of Zoey tbh. Or we do, but the fandom doesn't pay enough attention to her like it does to other characters. Which makes sense ig? At first glance she seems like a one sided antagonist that could be described in simple terms like "girlboss", "mean girl" "popular girl" "annoying" "manipulative" and that's it. But upon further speculation I feel like there's more to her. In ep3 when Jake threatens to reveal to Drew that she has been cheating on Drew, that's the first and last time she seems to soften up and seem genuinely afraid or caring. Like yeah, she doesn't want to lose the privilege of having him as her bf, that's what it seems like.. but I also have the feeling she was genuinely afraid of losing him for reasons other than money? Even though we can assume she acts affectionate towards him only to manipulate him, I feel like, again, there's more than we can tell.

I feel like though, it could've been very possible that they wanted love and affection in general, but didn't love each other specifically? But the Teeth song makes me think that's not the case.

This is what my mom thinks:

(I think they're both desperate tbh)

My mom also thinks Zoey might have had neglectful parents who mostly showed love to her through gifts and money, so that's why she's constantly seeking partners that give her such things, cause she's used to being loved that way - and being unloved as a child can make you have a messed up idea on what love is (this is the same exact backstory most people believe drew has, and honestly it makes sense for them both)

But yeah.

There's also this image, right here: (from extrarosy teeth MEP addition)

Both smiling, looking genuinely happy, faintly blushing. It doesn't seem as fake or artificial as it usually is.

They can't bear to lose each other. They need each other.

Why? That's up to debate. Maybe Zoey is a one-sided antagonist that's only dating drew for money, maybe drews relationship with her was a beard relationship like most people think so, maybe I'm just overthinking this all.

But again, I think they're more complex...

They're so interesting I need to study them under a microscope

Idk what I'm talking about tbh. This is very surface level and there's much more to say tbh but this is all I feel like saying at thr moment

[comfortless]

"held back by a leash that no one’s ever thought to untie, constantly growling and leaping at anything that gets too close just to simmer down to whimpering and begging the second he’s pet just once" ??? 😩 This is so real and relatable (I'm crying in the corner of my room). Lord have mercy, I need to kiss every ridge and groove on your brain.

The way I giggled when you mentioned his fleshlight is crazy. I was actually thinking of saying something similar but then I decided against cause the message would've been too long. I was trying to decide if he would be the type of man to get one of those insanely realistic sex dolls. Maybe he felt particularly desperate to have something in his bed (something that can't just get their clothes and leave before he wakes up) or he would just be curious. If he actually got it, by being impulsive, now he has this thing in his house and kind of regrets it. Yeah, it's soft and doesn't look bad, but it definitely doesn't look like a real woman either. It gives him the uncanny valley effect and puts it out of sight for now. How would he even get rid of something like that? Is it recyclable?

I've got brainrot when it comes to this man, I know. I might start reading Letters to Milena by Kafka so I can yearn more accurately for a man that doesn't even exist. This time I have no nice poems to quote but I feel like Konig is very much Sleep token coded. Idk what type of music you like but their lyrics are yummy.

P. S. Your fics are like vitamin D + Omega 3 getting me through this shitty British weather with my sanity more or less intact. Lots of consensual kisses!

oh my gosh and you are more brazen than me because i thought the same, just… kept that to myself!

if he has the money why would he settle on some little silicone tube when he could at least have something to cuddle up with, too? it isn’t like he has visitors often (or at all), though there are some nights when he definitely feels pathetic and disgusting for having it: haphazardly shoves the doll in the closet and settles for his hand instead…

also much to ponder in regards to his impulse control…! for the most part, he probably considers himself to be pretty rational; reasons with every decision by thinking well, x happened so then comes y. his dating life is shallow at best and utterly devoid of anything at worst, it’s… reasonable that he would have some sort of outlet, even if he knows that buying the damned thing has basically sentenced him to never having any sort of stable relationship. if some sweet woman actually gave him more than just the time of day, if she actually wanted to be with him but… she sees that mimicry of a woman’s warmth lying in his bed? she’s either laughing at him or immediately making up some excuse to leave. and if that happens, then of course he’s got to find a way to get rid of it. he’s tossing it in a hole in his backyard or burning it. sorry environment. this is König’s world now and the sex doll can no longer be in it..!

he would never pull something comparatively ridiculous in his career, maybe a few mistakes here and there but he plays a character when he’s König. and König is all menace or indifference, never the pitiful thing that gets so wound up over his own purchase he’s got to destroy it at all costs. though in the time that he did have it… the soldiers around him are certainly aware that he had some ‘girlfriend’ he spoke rather highly of at home that always had her legs open for him. he never seemed in higher spirits, though…

Letters to Milena is sooo quotable for him. i will give you this one: “Auch ist es vielleicht nicht eigentlich Liebe wenn ich sage, daß Du mir das Liebste bist; Liebe ist, dass Du mir das Messer bist, mit dem ich in mir wühle.”

i have an entire ridiculous playlist that is just… all over the place with songs that remind me of him, perhaps i will give Sleep Token a chance and throw a few onto it! ^^ i am always looking out for König-coded songs… Never Land by Sisters of Mercy is possibly my favorite to suggest when it comes to him. <3 the full length is my go to but - a fragment encapsulates it almost as well!

burying you in a world of hugs right now, anon! pleeease send your weather my way! it is HOT here! your messages are vitamin C and a lovely cup of earl grey to me! <3 i am glad that you appeared!

[beautifulpersonpeach]

BPP, am really really interested to read your thoughts on Seven!

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Ask 2: Hey bpp, can i be honest?? Ive been checked out of the fandom but still keep track of any music releases. So i didnt know abt any rumors abt 7. Imagine me being kind of disappointed that it’s another english song from jk when i watched the mv😅 it feels like his most promoted songs since last year has been all eng song… idk i wanted & expted something diff… i didnt like l&r, dreamers and now 7… it’s back to back lol. Tbf i didnt like My You too and thats in korean. At least not enough to listen!again after the first listen.

Im happy that still with you is finally on spotify tho. I’ll still be waiting excited for his album whenever it comes out. Hopefully ill find something i like in it!!

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[BPP Note: Both asks above were sent before my "I don't like it..." post. The asks posted below were sent afterwards.]

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Ask 3:

Same here

All the hype didn't matched with the song

1. rest members songs had so much depth and substance to it while this was the cliche boy chasing a girl song. Like we always dont need deep songs but the quality could be so much better. This was like just another pop song.

I think I'll put this on same level as BAD DECISIONS. But for bad decisions, atleast the chorus was staying on my mind while for this nothing was catchy enough for us to humm. Just because it's JK it will get hype but otherwise it's so generic. I think I liked LEFT and RIGHT way better than Seven. Even the rap portion felt so unnecessary and boring.

2. MV was kinda nice because of the production but concept was too shallow, the stalking and chasing was so outdated. In my country we have like 9293928843837 MVs in this same concept that not many make the same theme songs again.

3. The choreography. We haven't seen the full version. But for tiktok they do the highlight portions if that's so mediocre idk how rest will be. It was again giving the same mediocre showing off choreography and for me backdancers ruined it with their awkward moves.

4. they wanted this song to be played everywhere around the world. But there was nothing catchy enough to attract gp or go viral on tiktok, even if we sped it up. The only way to make everyone listen is to shove it down their throat but doing payola. But idk if investing in payola is worthy for the song. I also doubt the longietivity, as for me it was boring after 2 listens. I'll rather listen Like Crazy or wildflower or closer 20 times than listening this once.

5. I HOPE he'll bring something fresh to the table for his album and don't involve this mediocre producers who uses the same formula and same superstar persona to make a song successful. He is so much talented to sing a song which is so rich in melody and lyrics. And he can produce way better songs by himself.

Prolly a 4/10 for me

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Ask 4: troye sivan's rush (which also came out last night) is exactly what I wish Seven was. I don't mean that in a 'I expect the things JK to make to be gay' way just in the way it's a fun, very danceable, sexy summer song that doesn't pull its punches. Something about seven feels too run through a commercial sanitizer a few times, even with the explicit lyrics.

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Hi Anon(s),

Jungkook likes to fuck.

Rather, Andrew Watt likes to fuck and thinks Jungkook can relate.

JK has been talking about wanting to show more mature and explicit sides of himself for a good long while now. So I’m glad he’s finally gotten to do that, confirming for us why he keeps getting noise complaints from his neighbours since the mattresses all over his apartment don't help.

BTS has made songs explicitly referring to sex before (though it's been mostly the rapline doing so). So it's nothing new but I guess it's cool JK gets to share with us that he too has sex.

The question I posed to my friends immediately after watching the MV is, “Do you know who's been doing A&R for BigHit since 2020? I really need to know who is doing A&R for BigHit in America because they’ve been doing an appalling job lately. I'm starting to wonder if it's an inside job cause this song is kinda ass.”

That was me ~11 hours ago.

I didn’t like the song.

I’ve streamed Seven about 20 times since then I think, took a break from the song for a few hours, watched his GMA performance, caught a few minutes of the Wlive, then listened to it again just before writing this post and…

I still don’t like it.

Jungkook did a good job on the song, Latto's verse wasn't terrible, and while the song itself isn’t bad… the song isn’t good either.

It’s painfully, and at this point it’s a pattern so I have to add, predictably, mediocre.

Reserving judgement for the album, but Anons, I agree with you for the most part. The suits at BigHit are trying but they are woefully out of touch with the reasons BTS blew up in the West in the first place. I don't even feel like spending any energy doing a review or even trying to explain what I mean. So I'll just ramble on for a bit but try to keep it brief.

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I have to give BigHit some credit because I can see what they're going for here. Andrew Watt is a very celebrated producer in the US, he won the Grammy award for Producer of the Year in 2021, he's got A listers in his portfolio. So, he's not a cheap name to book and I can see why the suits at BigHit thought he's the genius to gift them a song clinically designed for American radio.

But that pandejo phoned it in. There isn't a lick of creativity to be found anywhere in all 3 minutes and five seconds.

It reminds me of VIBE by Jimin and Taeyang, as the closest analog to the vague dissatisfaction morphing into annoyance and then pragmatic rationalization I experienced in that same sequence when listening to it the first few times.

The song is disappointing because we've all heard it before. Too many times, and we're bored of it. We've heard JK sing this sort of song for years, as covers mostly. So on one hand, while I guess it's nice JK gets to have an American summer JB-reject pop tune of his own, it's not good enough to be the track that introduces him to the world as a solo artist.

It's fine for any white, blonde, blue-eyed heartthrob that can ride on a pretty face and implicit bias to rack up accolades, it's not good enough for Jungkook.

And BigHit needs to start using whatever leverage a US$10.6 billion market capitalization buys you in Hollywood, to insist for songs that are at least as good as the songs made by BTS members and produced by their in-house team. It's a waste of money and everybody's time to fly a battalion to LA just to record 2014's summer hit in 2023.

In my opinion.

Still With You > Stay Alive > My Time > Stay > Left & Right > My You > Dreamers > Seven

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All that said, I can't ignore JK has a taste for songs like this, and it's not his fault the song is shit (he didn't write, compose or produce it), so technically he shouldn't be punished for it. And the song is made for radio, while it's not my personal taste a lot of people really like the song (one of my friends likes Seven the most out of all the BTS releases so far), and it will catch on with some support. So, ARMY will support it including me, just to a lesser degree than I've done so far. Fingers crossed JJK1 has something solid on it.

[tallyhoot]

so i was just ranting to myself about roe because like sure mucka blucka describes the tension boiling and stewing but then we have never meant to know, spring and a storm, and then night all in a row which are relatively peaceful songs (just going off of memory here) and then we have roe . like. all of a sudden heart just shoots at mind. and the lyrics describe this as "Juno was mad, he knew he'd been had, so he shot at the Sun with a gun". but that's very like simplistic phrasing. it doesn't really leave room for nuance so my vague interpretation was that this is mind being an unreliable narrator and that heart had more reasons for the shooting than just being mad. and also. the word MAD. like you would find that on an emotion chart like "sad, happy, mad". idk about you but that is not the word i would use to describe someone who was so angry at me they decided to shoot me. like mind didn't even allow him one more syllable in a less childish word, angry, no it was MAD. like. not furious. no ire to be found. he was just. mad????? and my theory is that the word mad in specific is used to show how childish heart is, that he can't deal with a simple emotion such as just. being frustrated. and that his automatic response to those emotions is violence and murder attempts. because it's the word MAD which is just so shallow of a word????? i needed to explain this to someone so i asked my sister, who was on a voice call, and she just kept giving me like. gad. gun mad. and i explained to her why i was asking the question "if you were describing the emotion someone who was mad enough to shoot at you was feeling, what synonym of 'angry' would you pick?" which required a little more elaboration bc of the other songs, and then she said she'd heard enough, and then i said "do you not want to hear my plot synopsis of the album 'Chonny's Charming Chaos Compendium Vol. 1', which you can listen to on youtube?" bc i had realized she wasn't muted so . now whoever she was talking to knows that i'm going absolutely insane abt this album. that's my reputation now

anyway do you think i am right in any way if you read all that

WAIT something i forgot to mention. 'he knew he'd been had' implies that mind had gotten a victory over heart, and heart was angry about him winning, so he shot at him, at least to me. it's very definitive. like. no fault on mind here whatsoever which i kinda get, like he was shot at, but if heart is so trigger happy why didn't he just. do it earlier?? why was there time for tension to boil and stew?? i thought these arguments were cyclic???

i am going insane and i need to relisten to cccc

holy moly :D!!

[narrativelysignificantturtleduck]

a playlist for ty lee!!!! <3 <3

similar to mai's, the sound and genre was very important. while idk how many of the artists here would be classified as hyperpop, i was very much inspired by the idea of girly exaggerated pop music with a dark undercurrent. there weren't any songs that fit lyrically, but the vibes of scene queen's bimbocore eps are so ty lee.

1. bubblegum bitch - marina

got a figure like a doll / don't care if you think i'm dumb / i don't care at all

like i said - seemingly shallow girly pop with a dark/satirical side.

2. pink diamond - charli xcx

i'm a pink diamond, i need space

mostly just here for the aggressive & pink vibes, but it's about how charli felt trapped during the pandemic, wanted to go out and party but couldn't. ty lee, of course, also felt trapped, which is why she ran away to the -

3. circus - britney spears

all eyes on me in the center of the ring just like a circus

after growing up lost in the shuffle with all her sisters, ty lee wants to be a perforner who's the center of attention

4. starstrukk - 3OH!3 ft. katy perry

'cause i just set them up / set them up / to knock them down

ty lee manipulating all the boys in "the beach". there's a pretty sad edge to this song - this girl manipulates bc she doesn't know how to love. ty lee is also pretty disconnected from her feelings, especially when she's flirting with men but also just in general. she's willing to do azula's cold and cruel bidding, and do it with a smile.

(for the record, i started thinking about this song that way bc of marina's cover. not to be like 'acoustic covers are automatically deeper' but i probably wouldn't have given this song any thought without her version.)

5. one woman army - porcelain black

i'm on the battlefield like, oh my god / knocking soldiers down like house of cards / i'm a one-woman army

a pretty standard girl-power track that just happens to refer to knocking soldiers down and therefore fits ty lee. there is a dark side to this song, though - it's about being powerful and successful but it's one of only 3 songs by the artist, and she hasn't released anything since 2014.

6. flux - poppy

i'm just a possession / for your amusement, for your confusion

her relationship with azula. i think azula genuinely had feelings for her, but azula also does treat mai and ty lee as possessions, as tools and means to an end. and ty lee makes herself non-threatening and praises azula all the time, molding herself into the compliant subject she knows azula wants her to be.

7. girl of the year - allie x

tell me i'm the only one / i like your lies

ty lee is attention-seeking because of her upbringing lost in the shuffle - mai was right about that even though it was mean - but she is also savvy enough to realize that most of the time when she has people's attention it's because they're treating her as an object. the boys, the audience at the circus, azula.

8. mirrorball - taylor swift

i'm still on that trapeze / i'm still trying everything / to keep you looking at me

similar to previous. ty lee is a performer, who has backed herself into this box where she feels if she's not entertaining, molding herself to what people want, she'll be discarded.

9. cheerleader - st. vincent

i've played dumb when i knew better

video

about her decision to betray azula at the boiling rock, deciding she won't be azula's "cheerleader" anymore, will stop playing dumb. shoutout to comradekatara's albumgaang yet again.

10. fetch the bolt cutters - fiona apple

other people have already explained it better than i could.

[jeonqkooks]

i couldnt agree more with you! i really dont understand why everyone is so hyped over seven. i have to admit it kind of disappointed me with its shallow lyrics. and i dont understand the purpose of the explicit version? i really hate it. and i think its okay not to like every single song they put out, being an army definitely doesnt mean you have to agree with everything they say, do… but i really hope that the rest of the songs in his album wont be so shallow and i really want them to be more unique like the rest of their songs… i feel like with songs like seven you can listen to them a couple of times and then get bored (but maybe thats just my opinion idk). tbh i think jk is just trying to show us something different than what he showed us previously and i dont blame him for that. but im definitely more looking forward to the songs that he will actually write because im sure that he is capable of writing deeper and more meaningful lyrics. and even if the whole album is in english it doesnt necessarilly mean its going to be completely westernized, right? he did say he wants to try new genres… i think he just wants to challenge himself to try something new and i think a fully-english album is a part of that.

either way, i really wish him all the best because i genuinely believe he’s a bit lost and lonely without other members. to me, it seems that the hiatus definitely had the biggest impact on him? but at the end on the day, 2025 is not THAT far away and im excited for when we can see them as a group again💜 jk even said (recently) that after hiatus they will come back even stronger and i think these words are definitely worth lookig forward to💜

p.s. im sorry for such a long message🥲 i just wanted to share my thoughts on here… and i apologize for my poor english😬

if Watt wanted a no brainer song then he succeeded 😂 and yeah i don't like the explicit ver lol someone i follow here said it sounds like they only did it for shock value, which i kinda agree with. the explicit ver cheapened a song that barely had any meaning to begin with (y'all do not come after me for this. you know it's true) but i guess people really wanted to hear him say fuck 😂

true. jk is definitely trying to show a different side of him and good for him, honestly. but i don't think it necessarily reflects in the quality of the songs yk? i think this is more about presenting a new image rather than exploring the sound.

when you say just bc it's in english doesn't mean it's completely westernized, that is also true. but then considering the people he's working with, i'm not holding out much hope for that 😔

the hiatus... yeah :( they raised him, he literally spent half of his life with them and this is the first time he has to be apart from them in like 13 years. also i feel like there's this kinda pressure for them to all release a solo album before enl*sting, so idk if this also plays a part in him not taking the time to focus on His sound himself but yeah just putting this out there

do not apologize for the long message!! i love it i truly truly do. you could send me 50 whole pages of condensed text and i will still be left wanting more. i love that we can have respectful conversations about this :') and what r u talking about, your english is flawless!!

[onemorecupofcoffee]

the soft parade (album) is good, actually

no but FR even if you don't like the rest of the album. the soft parade (song) makes up for it because of how damn good it is. literally a masterpiece

also the rest of the album is jazzy and bluesy and nice?? idk i really like it some of the songs like easy ride and wishful sinful aren't my faces but they aren't terrible necessarily? also yeah do it is filler but it's also nice so idc. also as for runnin' blue it is NOT filler and i forgot where i read that someone said it was but it's not really??? it's actually a cool song about otis redding (as well as a tribute to him).

as for the rest of the songs; touch me is their single, they needed a single and i actually quite like touch me! it doesn't sound exactly like the doors, but the somewhat off-putting "what was that promise that you made? / why won't you tell me what she said?" (slightly) makes it sound a bit more like the doors. tell all the people is not one of their strongest songs but it SLAPS!!! and is kind of mysterious and weird and i love that. shaman's blues is just,, oh my god i love that song so much. i really feel it's connected to the soft parade (song) in a really good way that's essentially questioning society, hence the lyrics "the whole world's a savior / who could ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever / ask for more?" which is very similar to "all our lives we sweat and save / building for a shallow grave / must be something else we say / somehow to defend this place / everything must be this way" from the soft parade (song). shaman's blues is also representative of morrison, as some put it, he was the "shaman" in a way, someone who was a leader of both good and evil.

back to the soft parade (song). it's really a mix of songs and yet feels very cohesive. it's great -- parodying the bible and critiquing it; critiquing society (as i mentioned earlier); and great visual descriptions that talks about nature plenty. lots of layering at the end as well, which i am a HUGE fan of. basically all of this song is amazing in its own way and contributes to the song and album in a great way.

[bipolaritysucksbutslaps]

ok lemme sit properly

1. at 6 years old

2. it was a comic about mermaids

3. umm... aside from the mermaid comic... fanfiction

4. well... fanfiction

5. idk honestly

6. i'd like to add in some psychological stuff, make it a bit more than just two boys pining after each other

7. don't have oc-s, but i'm projecting heavily on all of my fictional characters

8. what i said above

9. these questions aren't for me lmao

10. my current wip, because i'm projecting so much that we'd all just cry together and i've never wanted nothing more

11. writing fanfiction about fanfiction?? hm. i could try that

12. "a sigh escapes his lips." because meanwhile same, why can't i just- jdhfhshd

13. my friend said she could see the whole scene right in front of her eyes and that it went so smoothly- i think about this a lot

14. my asexual ass could never write smut. never.

15. i open the word document, stare at it for a while, come to a conclusion i don't know words and scroll up to edit a bit

16. my own mental illness and some pretty sunsets and vibey songs

17. uhh... it might never see the light of the world? because- because what the hell i've never seen an english sentence in my life

18. umm... like my own? wait lemme-

"no, we're playing at the summer fest, actually," the boy renders the volume of his voice back to normal, and soobin tunes in to the conversation despite his best efforts to not eavesdrop. he still keeps his distance though, loitering in the door frame and scrolling on his phone, trying to look nonchalant.

"quit making it sound so fancy already, it's literally going to be just you guys standing on the square playing for a couple grandmas," yeonjun says gruffly, but it only makes his friend snort.

"excuse you, my grandma loves our music," the boy fights back.

"yeah, probably because she doesn't understand a single word of the lyrics."

"the most important part in music is the feeling."

soobin can practically hear the roll of yeonjun's eyes. "well, i'm currently feeling a very strong urge to kick you out of here."

19. you're really making me go through the whole thing now:/

“it’s getting bad again. i thought leaving this town would solve everything. i wanted something new, i wanted something that is not just… plain grey. but the city is concrete and full of people who mean nothing to me, all friendships shallow, i don’t even remember half of their names now. it’s just nobody next to another nobody, and i am nobody, too.”

not a single line, but it's very important to me.

20. don't ever give up on writing. your thoughts are beautiful and deserve to be written. now go open that stupid document and do what you were born to do.

Writer's Ask Game

When did you start writing?

What was the first story you've ever written?

What genres have you written for so far?

What is your favourite genre to write for?

What is your favourite trope to write for?

What topic would you love to explore in your writing?

Who is the OC that is most like you?

Which OC is nothing like you?

Have you ever brought an OC back from the dead?

In which of your stories would you like to live?

Have you ever written fanfiction about your own work?

Do you have a word/phrase that you overuse in your writing?

What feedback did you receive for your writing that stuck with you?

What is something that you feel weird/uncomfortable writing about?

What is your current writing habit?

Where do you find inspiration to write?

Tell us a fun fact about your current WIP.

Show us a piece of dialogue you really like.

Show us the line you want readers to remember from your story.

Do you have one piece of advice for your fellow writers?

[bisluthq]

“Why can’t we trust her what her own songs are about” cause she’s a certified liar?

Just talking about Harry. She implied many many many times that she wrote Trouble about him. MANY TIMES. And it wasn’t about him. It couldn’t have been. He was freshly 18 when that song was written and they had spent about four days together. She made it about him later, when they broke up and she was mad as hell (before they fell back in bed together). Was the song initially about him? No. Did she make it about him? Yes, probably. Which is why Harry replied to it in multiple songs.

Also, she references her own lyrics when the songs are about the same topic. I can’t think of a single example where she doesn’t do that. Hell, we all agree Maroon is about Jake because it’s a darker shade of red.

Taylor is so surface level with her Easter eggs it’s not even funny. Swifties try to make them deep and so convoluted but 99.99% of the time they’re a Lover neon sign for the album Lover.

If home girl has a song called Wildest Dreams on her album, which she writes while hanging out with Harry, and then she says the direct title of the song in another song about Harry, then the song is most likely about Harry. And I think HARRY knows better than you or me. And he also knows Taylor better than you or me. And if he’s calling out her bluff, then he’s most likely right. And you, a stranger on the internet, are wrong.

Their relationship had deep and shallow spells. Everyone who has their feet on the ground and is aware of their back and forth knows this. He inspired Style but also Is It Over Now? He can inspire This Love but also Wildest Dreams. It doesn’t have to be one or the other.

You HAVE to be aware of the fact that she’s a human being with complex feelings and that this back and forth of a relationship went on from March 2012 till early 2015, in whatever capacity. Three years of your life (especially between 22 and 25) is a LONG ASS TIME. Especially in terms of a relationship with someone. Especially if you were only official for a couple of months of that spell. At time she felt like he was the one who’d interrupt her wedding. And at times he was just one of many on her bed.

Your need to put everything in a neat box is sort of infuriating, because man I love your blog and your takes otherwise.

Like, I think Question is about both Harry and Matty. I don’t think she decided to sample Out Of The Woods, the most on the nose Harry Styles song she has ever written (not just interpolate it but also the lyrics), just because she was feeling playful. But I also don’t think she decided to play it when giving that godawful speech about Matty for no reason.

I think the song was escapism. She was having a horrible time with Joe so she needed to go to the garden of her mind. And sometimes it means thinking about exes and what it would be like to be with them instead of with the person that’s currently hurting you so much. And feelings don’t have to be fully linear and you don’t have to have them figured out fully every single time.

Taylor doesn’t have to have been pining over Matty since 2014 or over Harry either. In fact, I think she was NEITHER. I think she had a few years where she was mostly super content with her relationship with Joe (with some downs, of course), but then it ran its course and it went on a lot longer than it should’ve. And she thought about how other people hurt her, and she thought about those exes who didn’t, who she felt she maybe had unfinished business with. And no, it doesn’t have to be just one of them!!!

But then she starts hanging out with one of them, and she romanticizes the HELL out of that one. Maybe Question started about Harry and then as she hung out with Matty it morphed the more time she spent with Matty. Maybe she wrote it fully about Harry but as she worked on Midnights it started to become about Matty. I don’t think the reference is just there for the sake of it. But I’m also not an idiot who thinks she’s idk, gaslighting us or whatever it is that cupcake Swifties tell themselves about her and Matty.

I don’t think she was in love with Matty, but I do think she believed she was. And I think she admitted to that with the temporary insanity plea. She knows it was a period of unhingedness in her life and that she wasn’t thinking clearly, and she’s making no apologies for it. She felt it, she went through it, it elicited a ton of very valid emotions, and she exorcised them on paper.

That doesn’t mean Matty is the love of her life. But she fully convinced herself he was for a while there!!! And both things can be true at the same time.

Taylor is not a TV show character whose thought process is written by a team of people to advance a plot. She’s a complex human being (actually SO complex). People want her to have an arc so bad. And they yank her in different directions all the fucking time and it must be exhausting.

Fans will interpret her music depending on what they like and want to be true instead of what it suggests and what she says and I truly cannot understand it. They want her to have this fairy tale story. Omg her one true love is Matty Healy and they’ll get back together and have babies because they’ve both written every single song since 2014 about each other. And before that it was “omg Joe is a Disney Prince and he’s so protective and he was there waiting for her and they’ve been together for so long.” And then he was a Disney villain. And now the Disney Prince is Travis Kelce lmao.

And they did this song and dance with Tom Hiddles. And they did it with Calvin. And don’t get me started on Haylors, who to this day think they’ll get back together when Harry would probably have a stroke if he had to date someone like her.

Btw, Harry did not introduce Matty and Taylor. By May 2014 Harry legitimately said he had never even met Matty, and there’s no reason to believe he did afterwards. 1D had a writing session with Matty but Harry wasn’t present (he was in LA and the session was in London). I’m pretty sure Matty even said that he hadn’t met Harry by 2015. Matty did absolutely fucking hate Harry’s guts from 2015 on and I have no idea why. He got over it by 2019 and he wanted to produce his album. Then he got mad again and started shading him. He’s weird. I’m glad Taylor is over her temporary insanity.

I’m literally not reading all this but ur valid queen go off idk what to say - anyone who is willing to write an essay is valid for believing that lol. We can… politely agree to disagree? Is that okay? 😘😘 The first few paras seemed decent like I don’t agree but there’s no TRUTH about people on the internet as you correctly say (or even other people we know or even fwiw ourselves like we can change our minds about stuff). Fair play queen. Pop off.

[extractingmystone]

sometimes i just want to kms to make everybody listen to this one particular song that i would quote in my suicide note. the song is always the song i am currently listening to

i often judge songs by how well they would perform in this scenario

i wish this was a joke

it allows me to listen to the song/the lyrics from a certain angle - to question them, like: would this still go as hard if somebody thought i had chosen to have these be my last words? would it work for somebody who wouldn't normally listen to this type of music? (would it make a good tattoo?) would it give the ppl in my life (in their mourning) a deeper understanding of my subjectivity, my hopes, my pain? or would it feel shallow and empty to them, embarassing even, profane?

i'm just saying this bc i've never heard anybody else say it, which feels strange in this era of "i haven't had one original experience in my life" etc. it's very embarassing so i get why nobody would talk about it

also, i find it interesting what phantasies ppl indulge in and what metaphors they use in order to conceptualize "meaning" or the creation of meaning. i've heard ppl say they want to eat a song/lyrics. i get that too. idk why i feel the need to kms to give meaning to a song. or to myself

[notessek]

absolute minor vent on my sideblog of sideblogs bc it literally. is so insignificant. and yet. vent. and its got so little to do with this sideblog but i dont want it on main lmao

this is all exclusively irl to be clear. but i get so frustrated talking to people abt dnd - although other things to but its really evident when abt dnd - because it turns any conversation one sided. like i do enjoy hearing about peoples dnd adventures and their experiences w dnd, and i invite them! i ask! but it never turns reciprocal. and when i try and add in my own thoughts it makes me look selfish for interrupting, and i often dont get to say my 2nd sentence that would link my part back to the conversation. and this sounds sooo specific but thats because it is!!! this exact conversational framework has happened so much!!! and its just. disheartening.

like i know my prose is a bit too purple, and i know i often dont feel heard by my peers, which is why i very much make the active effort in my friendships to let people talk about the things they love. to let people wax lyrical about their dnd characters or their fanfic or their favourite indie musician on bandcamp, because when the hell else in life do you get to talk about that? i don’t!! so i want to give people that oppotunity!! and i love hearing about what other people are passionate about!! literally its one of my favourite things. but i just wish sometimes that maybe i could say more than a silly 1 liner joke and people would see that platform for what it was. and offer me the chance to talk about my dnd character or my fanfic or my weird specific petty problem that i never get to talk about. idk man on one hand i literally invite this behaviour and then get mad thats its not about me. but on the other hand this happens every single fucking day of my life and i very much worry that people think i’m callow or shallow or selfish because i didn’t share my weird stories. but it would be worse to have done so!! and be rude!! idk. the pandemic laid waste to my social ability and im not being facetious here lmao. i just wish i knew how to make conversations more reciprocal without reneging my invitation to share.

anyway i have had this conversation so many times over the last 2 months where i mention i play dnd, and i find out all the other people’s thoughts about dnd but no one even knows that i play a cleric- like, the first thing i say about playing dnd - because we didn’t get that far into my dnd experience. and it’s fine, it’s petty, im not foaming at the mouth about it. all of these conversations were fun and good and i hope the other people thought so too. i just know a lot about how other people play or want to play dnd (or insert any topic here, bc this really is recurring) but no one wants to hear my opinion. and it just kinda sucks a bit.

cant stress enough: this is a non-issue, i dont care too much, this is a vent of the highest order. nothing matters with genuine sincerity or gravity. venting for the sake of venting.

[tigris-types]

Analyzing School Across the Street Lyrics

So the new shadow high song. I love it, I've listened ot it idk how many times, bit I think the lyrics are interesting, especially considering the students singing it.

From a brand perspective, Shadow High is a part of the Rainbow High universe and it makes since that they would start their song with: "Tell me who are those kids in the school across the street". Shadow High is the other school that is cloaked in mystery, so its a good question to ask. Who are the other kids?

But from a character standpoint, I don't think it makes sense as an in universe song. The song starts with "Tell me who are those kids in the school across the street" and then soon says "Everyone so perfect and so neat, from the bougie school across the street".

Now these two lines are very similar and draw a connection between the two schools. And while watching the music video makes it clear the first "school across the street" is Shadow High and the bougie school is implied to be Rainbow High, without the visuals, both "school[s] across the street" could be interpreted as the same school. Sure, they make this distinction clear with the next line of "they all dress so fly but underneath - they want to be like us".

So clearly the singers are not from the "bougie school across the street", but then where are they from? We know that Rainbow High and Shadow High are rival schools, but seeing how the Storm twins had to drive to Rainbow High for pranks, I doubt the schools are literally across the street.

As the song goes on, the kids from the "bougie school" want one of the singers to take them shopping, they admire the singers' style, and are jealous of the singers' style. Then the chorus kicks in again about the "cookie cutter clean" appearance of the "bougie school" students, we get some fa la la's, and the line "they want to be like us".

But who is "us"? Clearly the singers, but what has this song told us about the singers?

According to the song, the singers have a negative opinion if the bougie school and are presenting themselves as having a better grasp on personal style and reality than the bougie school. They aren't "cookie cutter clean". They tell it like it is and they make mistakes, they're messy, but that's what makes them better.

And so then, "Who are the kids from the school across the street?" Well, based on the music and the visuals, this line is referring to the Shadow High students. But it could also be interpreted as asking about the Rainbow High students. And if we were to take that route, what does this song tell us about them?

The students from the bougie school have a "fly" sense of syle. They are jealous of the singers and may even feel resentment because "underneath" their "clean and neat" exterior they want to be like the singers but they can't. Since they "always try to copy", these students are unoriginal and are likely plagiarizers. Finally, because these students are from a "bougie" school we can infer that they likely seeking to appear to be more than they actually are and are probably pretty shallow. They are concerned more with their "perfect" appearance and are chasing an authentic style they can't replicate. "They want to be like [the singers]", but they cant because they aren't.

So when the song asks "Tell me who are those kids from the school across the street", I can answer it with how Shaodw High precives Rainbow High. Which is strange right? I should be able to say who the Shadow High kids are. I can infer that they are the opposite if Rainbow High, but they still don't really tell me anything.

Which is why I think this song doesn't make sense in universe. If the Shadow High students want to separate themselves from Rainbow High, why would they sing a song about the rivalry between the two schools? I understand that their motivation is to raise themselves above Rainbow High, but most of this song is the chorus where they're putting down Rainbow High. They mention the "bougie school" more times then themselves, so if anything, this is just an insult song about Rainbow High. Which tbh does seem like a Shadow High thing to do, but you don't put yourself on a pedestal by kicking others off of it.

So in conclusion, it's a good song. I like it and I've listened to it tons, but I'm not sure it would serve the in-universe goal the Shadow High students would want.

Also, the disorted "fasion" at the end is not music to my ears and I think they could have cut it.

[cometcrystal]

midnights thots

as i listen

lavender haze - meh. reeks of “im going to talk about my REPUTATIIOOOONNNNN again”

maroon - cool reference to Red i guess but it’s not catching me. can she do anything other than reference herself (SWIFT HATER MISOGYNY ALARMS START BLARING AND I AM SHOT BY SNIPERS)

anti hero - very mixed feelings about this song. ig it feels more in line with the archer than mad woman. will have to get back to you on this one.

snow on the beach - it’s fine i guess. very inoffensive love song. doesn’t have much going for it sonically tho. not surprising given that lana del rey collabed on it. HEYO!

you’re on your own kid - so far it’s the best one. i love a coming of age song :) but it’s still not getting added to my likes.

midnight rain - TAYLOR SWIFT WARPED AND SCREWED JUMPSCARE

question - why does she like warping her voice so much i hate it. i dont get the narrative of this one :) googles taylor swift question ending explained

vigilante shit - i don’t even have no body no crime in my likes on spotify but even i know this song is just a shittier version of no body no crime. first line go to fucking jail

bejeweled - FIRST SPOTIFY LIKE OF THE EVENING! a lot of my fav taylor songs are the ones that are like “you mistreated me in a one-on-one relationship and im rightfully mad”

labyrinth - can relate to this one lyrically a LOT... tentatively adding to my likes but idk how much i’ll listen to it because the tune isn’t grabbing me. why is literally everything just boring synth lately.

karma - release debut taylor’s version right fucking now i need Lucky You

sweet nothing - another inoffensive love song. its fine.

mastermind - OH THIS ONE IS SOOOO FUN!! an EASY addition to my schrucy playlist. 1000% my favorite so far. gonna be very hard to beat this. good thing im listening to the bonus tracks because otherwise this album would feel very lackluster. its prob gonna feel that way anyway but whatever.

the great war - i was just thinking about the shitty peanuts d-day special the whole time so i have no thoughts on this song. sorry

bigger than the whole sky - this cannot be a fucking relationship song. that would be SO stupid. it has to be about a loss or else its a stupid fucking song. if it’s about a death it’s beautiful. this is the exact opposite energy of me hearing Soon You’ll Get Better and assuming it was about a relationship and thinking it was shallow and selfish and then realziing it was about her mom and then wanting to curl up into a ball and die because it was too sad and made me think about MY mom.

paris - mostly just ok but i AM obsessed with the lyric “i wanna brainwash you into loving me forever”

high infidelity - another taylor cheating song <3333 “do i really have to tell you how he brought me back to life” she is insane. is this comment a compliment or an insult? you decide

glitch - meh

wouldve couldve shouldve - THIS ONES FOR THE GIRLS AND THE GAYS (girls and gays means ppl who were groomed online in high school) (girls and gays means me)

dear reader - the shittier Idle Worship - Paramore

hits different - put it on spotify right fucking now im not joking im throwing up in the crib

[weasel-b33]

500 Miles (j.p x fem!reader)

Description: A few years after the birth of your son Harry, you and your husband James recall the beginning of your relationship. (NO VOLDY I CAN NOT DO THAT TO MYSELF) 

Warnings: Fluff, Kissing, A little Swearing, idk Cute Daddy James, Prolly many spelling errors I wrote this late and I am very tired...

 (THIS IS MY FIRST TIME EVER WRITING SOMETHING KINDA SIRIUS hehe SO IM SORRY IF IT IS TERRIBLE) 

Also the dates may be a bit wrong so im sorry in advance!! 

italicized is flashback!! 

Lyrics used in the song are from “I’m Gonna Be (500 Miles)” by The Proclaimers (I KNOW THE SONG CAME OUT IN ‘87 BUT SUSPEND YOUR DISBELIEF PLEASE)

(not my gif)

The rambunctious laughter of the four year-old toddler and his father echoed throughout the large estate.

“Daddy!” exclaimed the messy haired Harry, “Can I please have a story.” Heavily emphasizing the puppy dog eyes he learned from his godfather, Sirius, a few years prior.

James Potter, the man unable to say no to anyone, tried to recall a story he had not told his son. Thinking back to the fairy tales of a prince slaying a fictional dragon, even though they are very much real, to save the princess that his mother used to tell him, James realized he was all out of good material. 

“I’m sorry bubs, I have nothing new too share,” the bespectacled man added lamely. The disappointment was instant on the child’s face, but luckily before the waterworks began, Y/N Potter strolled through the foyer into the den.

“Mommy!” Harry exclaimed, jumping up and bonding over to his mother, nearly knocking her over with his brute strength.

“Umph- Where’s the fire lovey?” you questioned with a slight chuckle. The dramatics of your son were never a surprise. Between his father and Sirius, you were surprised he had not acted much worse. Walking, more like sliding due to the child gripping your calves, over to your husband and lightly pecking his lips you ask, 

“What’s wrong now?”

Rubbing the back of his neck, he sheepishly stated, “I sorta don’t have a new story to tell him... he’s a bit peeved, if you couldn’t tell.”

A loud laugh tore through your throat as you pet your son’s hair affectionately.

“Come off Harry, Mommy has a perfect story to tell you,” you crooned softly.

“You do?”Harry questioned, rubbing the tears out of his stunning green eyes.

You picked him up and sat down near James, “Yes poppet, I have a very interesting story about how two very special people fell in love.” 

James quickly turned his head and quirked a questioning brow, “It all started when they were 15...” 

November 7, 1975

Quietly sitting on the vermilion couch of the Gryffindor Common Room, you began to fade out the noise of Lily ranting about the recent History of Magic exam, and Marlene’s long monologue over if she should or should not cut bangs. Instead, you were beginning to rip out each and every one of the hairs on your head because your Potions essay was nearly finished, yet you could not get those final words to conclude it all. 

Across the common room, a rowdy group of teenage boys, better known as the Marauders, were planning the newest prank on Snape. 

"We should give him that shampoo that will change his hair pink,” Sirius added.

Remus shook his head disapprovingly, “Pads, we did that last time come on..”

“WE HAVE NOTHING! WHAT IS WRONG WITH US, MOONY, HELP I’M DYING OF NO CREATIVITY!” Sirius exclaimed throwing himself across the scarred boy.

Although, many people turned their attention to the dark haired pureblood, James seemed he could not take his eyes off the girl nearly burning holes into her parchment, the girl he has fancied since he was 12. 

While playing with the snitch he stole, he said, “What if we tried that new rain spell we learned in charms today?” 

“Too difficult, we have not had enough practice.” Remus dismissed. “Well what if I found someone to practice on?” James added quickly turning to face his werewolf best friend. 

“Sure... Whatever, I could care less- Pads, get the bloody hell of me before I kick your arse,” 

“I’D LIKE TO SEE YOU TRY REMUS JOHN,” Sirius yelled beginning his quick climb up the stairs to the boys dorm, with Remus and Peter quickly following.

“You comin’ Prongs?” Remus asked to the brunette still staring at the girl with shaky hands.

“No, I’ll come up in a few, still want to try to figure this prank out...” he said quietly. The lanky boy followed his best friends line of sight and quietly smirked to himself.

“Alright, don’t wear yourself out too much.” 

Even throughout the commotion, you still made no move to change your line of sight. That was until Marlene nudged you and whispered into your ear.

“Psst! Oi! Y/N! Why is Potter staring at you?” 

You quickly shook your head and waved off her question, opting to continue to find the right words.

Well until your blonde friend gripped your jaw, and turned your head to the direction of the boy. You instantly made eye-contact with the messy haired Gryffindor and quirked a brow. He smirked and turned his head away. You thought nothing of the interaction, until you felt a sudden drop above your head...

Instantly, it seemed as though there was a storm in the common room. Looking towards the ceiling you saw the dark rain cloud above your head. Quickly turning your head to the essay you were writing you noticed it completely wet and ruined. You jumped into action, trying to salvage what you could, but it was too late. Ignoring the screeches of your friends and fellow housemates, you began to look for the source of the cloud.

That was until you made eye contact with the laughing and smug James Potter.

“POTTER!” you yelled. Almost immediately the rain stopped, but the damage had been done. “JAMES POTTER! YOU BETTER HAVE A REASON YOU STARTED A STORM IN THE COMMON ROOM!” 

Hearing the commotion, the rest of the Marauders came down to the common room to witness what was happening. But all they saw was a yelling match between you and their brunette best friend.

“YOU ARE A DICK JAMES POTTER! KARMA IS A BITCH AND SHE IS COMING! IT’S GONNA BE SO NICE TO SEE YOUR FACE WHEN ALL YOUR ACTIONS FINALLY COME TO KICK YOU IN THE ARSE!” you yelled.

“What? I did nothing, I don’t mean to dampen your mood, but I have no idea what you are on about.” James replies smugly.

“UGH- YOU ARE A BULLY AND A RIGHTEOUS, STUCK UP, EGOTISTICAL ARSEHOLE! I HOPE YOU ARE ENJOYING THIS BECAUSE-- OH MY! I-” You were quickly being dragged away by your red head companion. 

“Y/N, he is not worth it... let’s just leave.” 

“NO! I HAVE TO RESTART MY ESSAY! I WAS THIS BLOODY CLOSE. UGH- YOU ARE AN ARSE JAMES POTTER I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT!”

“Y/N, it was just a prank, its no big deal relax.” James said.

“RELAX! ARE YOU KIDDING... I-” you paused taking shallow and rapid breaths, ‘you know I can not believe you think its funny. You truly have no regard for people and how they feel do you?” you asked slowly and meticulously. 

“Prongs, just apologize and lets go..” Remus said quickly.

“I- I didn’t realize it would be that big of a deal.” James tried to say to you, but it was no use because you had already dragged Lily and Marlene out the common room and to the library to re-start your assignment. 

“Oh, COME ON! I did not” James stated jokingly.

“Darling, you must certainly did, I barley passed that essay as well. I blame you for me getting an E in that class.” You replied giggling.

“Moooommmyyy! Story, get back to the story,” Your son said dramatically, grabbing your cheeks and turning to face him for extra effect.

Hearing a chuckling from James in the background, “Alright bubs, back to the the story”

January 23, 1976

After months of back and forth between you and James, he was fed up trying to get your attention. From roses to chocolate, to even a firework show in your honor, James believed he had done everything to apologize to you for his stupid prank and prove his affection.

Tired of his friends constant whining, Remus and Sirius decided to take matters into their own hands and talk to someone who knew you better than anyone else, Lily and Marlene.

“Oh Evans, Mckinnon, we are in grave need of your beautiful minds” Sirius flirted. Remus smacked him across the head adding, “Ignore the git, we need some help its about-”

“James?” Lily and Marlene said in unison.

“Yeah...how did you know” Remus questioned. “Are we gonna ignore the fact they spoke at the same time” Sirius said, once again receiving a blow from his friend.

Rolling her eyes, Lily remarked, “Well, Y/N has been complaining about him for months,” Marlene quickly interjected, “...and you never are without him so its an easy assumption. 

Now its was the boys turn to roll their eyes to the back of their heads. “Anyways, he will not shut up about getting her to forgive him... so we were wondering if you had anything that could work to get her to forgive him?” Remus pleaded with the best Sirius puppy dog eyes he could muster.

“Fine,” Lily and Marlene said jointly.

“THEY DID IT AGAI- OH NOT YOU TOO AS WELL!” Sirius exclaimed rubbing the now sore bump on his head. 

Ignoring the dog’s dramatics, the group of four began conducting a plan for James that would knock Y/N’s socks off.

At this point, Harry had nestled between his parents and fell into a deep sleep.

The two of you put him to bed and settle down back into the living room.

Looking longingly at his wife, James says, “Well, might as well finish the story love... it is the best part.”

Giggling at the antics of your husband, you shrug and began to finish the story...

February 14, 1976 

The Great Hall looked as though Cupid had just went on a decorating rampage. The room lined with pink and red hearts and the sight of loving couples nearly made you want to gag. Then, you remembered the boy who has dying to get your attention for the past months and can not seem but to get excited.

What does he have planned for you? Is he gonna get me a gift? Do I look presentable? 

“WHAT!” you quickly think to yourself, “Why in Merlin’s name am I excited to to see Jame- Potter. Godric I can’t feel like this for him... He his as a fly that buzzes and will not leave me alone... but he is not the worst to look at”

You quickly snap out of your thoughts as Lily starts to put food onto your plate. You begin to eat, but can only think of one thing.

James Potter.

“Why?” You begin questioning again, “Godric, Y/N You like him... No I do not.. You realize you are having this whole conversation within your brain, right? It is obvious you like him...” you grumble to yourself as you realize your psyche has won once again.

Lily noticing your strange behavior begins to question if you discovered what they have planned. 

Almost as though the boys heard Lily’s thoughts the beginning of the plan is activated.

Instantly, the candles in all of the Great Hall extinguish and there is the beginning of a song plays.

Suddenly, a spotlight shines onto the teachers table where atop, James and the rest of the Marauders stand, Remus and Sirius with guitars and Peter on the drums. James holding a mic begins to sing...

When I wake up, Well I know I’m gonna be, I’m gonna be the man who wakes up next to you.

Your head snaps to the noise and there you see in all of his glory, James Potter holding a microphone staring straight at you.

When I go out, yeah I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man who goes along.

Quickly shoving the breakfast roll down your throat you nearly choke as you see the boy slowly make his way towards the front of the Gryffindor table.

When I get drunk, well I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man who gets drunk next to you.

Your eyes widen comically when you see James Potter jump onto the Gryffindor table. 

And when I haver, hey I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man who's havering to you.

Slowly, the boy begins his walk across the table to where you sit. You try to make a run for it, but Lily and Marlene quickly grab your arms and anchor you down to the bench 

“What friends you are!” you hiss at the two.

Marlene just rolls her eyes and Lily pinches your hip.

And I would roll 500 miles And I would roll 500 more Just to be the man who rolls a thousand miles To fall down at your door

Once the boy is standing in front of you he reaches down for your hand. Stubbornly, you ignore his gesture, well until your two friends throw you up onto the table with the love struck brunette. 

When I come home well I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man who comes back home to you And when I grow old, well I know I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the man who's growing old with you.

You grip onto the boys biceps for stability and are forced to look into his ravishing hazel eyes...

In that moment you forget all that he has done to you in the past and all you can think about is him and you. 

But I would roll 500 miles And I would roll 500 more Just to be the man who roles a thousand miles To fall down at your door.

Smiling, to yourself, you grab the face of the boy in front of you and mold your lips together. Ignoring the cheers of your classmates, the only sounds you hear are the background noise of the boy’s best friends signing backup. 

Da da da  Da da da                                                                                                            Da Da Dun Diddle                                                                                            Un Diddle Un Diddle Uh Da Da.....

Smiling to yourself and grabbing the hand of the man you love you start laughing.

“What’s so funny, love?” James asks.

“Nothing.... Just we began dating because you performed a whole song and dance in front of the entirety of Hogwarts.” you reply breathlessly.

“Well, hey, look at us now... happy, healthy, and a true family.” he replies smiling at your antics.

You lay down your head into the lap of your husband, and look up into his hazel eyes you got lost into all those years ago, “Such a sap, Potter, such a sap...”

Kissing your cheek softly, “Only for you, my darling girl... only for you...” 

“I love you Jamie”

“I love you more, my love.”            ______________________________________________________________

AHHH I HOPE YOU ENJOY!!! IM SORRY IF IT IS SO BAD!! THIS IS MY FIRST FIC PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF I COULD DO ANYTHING BETTER!!! AHHHH (but like kinda like this story... kinda proud ;))