#its like she trying to be cool and have a Image but i dont sense any earnestness or genuineness at all

[timeloop-angel]

Holy shit those are so bad. You guys werent exaggerating

[impperfectcritiques]

Beelzebub Redesign

Ramble/rant below

I made this design while keeping in mind some of her roles and themes of her character.

That said, I'll go over the parts of her character I HATED/sucked in general.

Her hair and tail were far too confusing for what it was meant to represent, shes supposed to be a fennec fox, bee, fly, demon, and her having lava lamp hair is cool, but steals the fennec foxes iconic tail and doesnt scream insect either. This along with the mess of hair at the front of her head just ruins the overall silhouette. The spikey mess of hair is one of the only places, outside of her snout and fingers that shit sharp and its just ew.

That said the lava lamp idea is very nice and I love me some lava lamp vibes!

Fennec foxes were chosen for her species due to hell hounds, which is odd coz theyre not canines? AND coz theyre, quoting viv, "Greedy". Thematically this is stupid, coz shes the sin of GLUTTONY.

"She cant be fat, coz its fatphobic to have the sin of gluttony be fat" I disagree, over indulgence of food is a leading factor for obesity, and that shouldnt be a controversial thing to say! Over indulgence doesnt make a person horrible, gross or evil, but thats what people who argue this point seem to try state. This along with the constant fat phobia from both Vivs shows and how Mammon is allowed to be fat, supposedly because hes a man, is horrendous.

Shes so fake and the writing tries to make it seem like shes not?? like she's toxic positivity and that isnt bad, like???

The lore with the hell hounds and bee annoys the shit out of me. Like HOW THE HELL are hell hounds the bottom of the heirachy?? Theyre the guard dogs, they are the enforcers of hells boarders, they are simply the most powerful creature, aside from the kings, they keep everyone in check, like?????

My rewrite and redesign:

Shes a horse, as stated in the image, to fit the circus theme, and to reference some play on words and quotes. Y'know, some actually smart themes. Also horses have a lot of flies around em soooo...

Shes A FAT PARTY QUEEN AND THATS WONDERFUL.

MLP inspos coz Blitz loves horses and Celestias and Lunas hair were inspos for her in the first place.

Leg fluff is a reference to bees and how they hold pollen, along with Clydesdales to further the horse theme. The texturing and colour is to hint towards her being a mass of flies. Also leg warmers for a 80s vibe.

Actual antennae, insectoid feet, larger wings. She is a shape shifting mass of flies.

Kept the colours coz orange is the colour for gluttony, and blue is a nice accent colour. Added some more dark colours too to balance out the bright and light colours.

More references to party culture, with the beads and binky!

She does pig out (like eating contexts and gets messy! wish i could over indulge like that but i'd totally vomit + i find it wasteful, but power to her!) < This is to be opposed to Vivs ver where shes hypocritically disgusted by mammon doing the same.

I think out of the sins, shes the most agreeable, along with sloth, who is the least demonic. But dont touch her food, YOU WILL DIE. But you can ask for food, she caters so well! No one in her ring goes hungry!

Cerberus would actually exist and be in charge of boarder control and the hell hounds. He gets mad at her for over feeding his denizens.

She wouldnt have that stupid human trafficking bullshit that makes no sense for her character.

Replace the hell hound who is thousands of years younger then her and literally her slave with Cerberus who is her equal and such blah blah.

Any thoughts? Feel free to share.

[pixelatedbugs]

ive been playing stp for a few hours now. but i’ll say my thoughts here…

holy shit its so good! i love it its fucking great. i think i managed to get some of the new update things but since i held back on playing before the pristine cut came out i wouldnt actually know. i have a guess considering how rare certain achievements are, though…

listing more specific, very rambley, VERY SPOILERY thoughts on the paths ive gone under the cut. do not click if you dont want to be spoiled I know what you are.

so, the endings i’ve gotten! so far:

The Cage - the part of being trapped in chains is a fucking nightmare scenario for me so kinda funny that i got it for my first one. the whole thing of “we can’t control where the story goes” being shown in both our character’s heads being cut off and having the bodies fight was. wow. i didnt say anything to convince her that she was wrong about the lack of free will, though maybe i should have. or maybe i should’ve picked up her head. too late now though… the image of her body walking towards us holding her head in a cage is SO fucking good.

Happily Ever After - hwat the fuck! fuck! ow? so i mean, i got to see a bit of narrator’s “happy” ending even though i let skeptic kill me in the end. so then getting that sort of ending, again, but having the narrator realize that it’s a horrible ending to have, and sounding so broken about it, and that last line from the narrator too…i miss this narrator. he’s the only one so far who’s realized that eternal, stagnant happiness isn’t a happy ending.

and the princess trying so hard to say she’s happy when she isn’t, trying to come up with new ideas to keep being happy, ultimately ending in “I don’t think I ever was”. even that first part of “dinner’s ready” really sent a chill down my spine because it just, sounded so sad. her walking outside with us, dancing under the stars, looking so much happier, even if it was a little cold..USUUHFHDJDNXKS

and the shadow behind her - smitten i assume - even though she isn’t literally chained this time, the shadow still holds her there - he kinda acts like the narrator does when you get the “happy” ending. does that make sense. this false happiness becoming her new chains - what the fuck. what the fuck!

and i mean, im the one who said we should stay in the cabin the chapter before (though i wasnt the one to rip my chest open Smitten CHILL) because i didn’t want her to leave. but at least we got to dance with her. at least she really was happy dancing under the stars before it ended. this is probably my favorite ending so far.

Mutally Assured Destruction - this one was so good. hearing all the different voices talking at once, them all coming up with their own ideas, and all of them failing until, in the end, we silence them all and having one final fight, with the princess and us stabbing each other, just like it was in the first chapter - fucking cool as hell.

[antiv3nom]

Bedman (Romeo)

omg havent had an excuse to talk abt bedman in a hot minute thank u anon...

favorite thing about them:

i love the tragedy of his story arc... that feels like a weird thing to say but its the first thing that came to mind! just. look. the road to hell paved with good intentions bit taken to the extreme really works here!!! the idea that he remembered the name of every person he ever killed because he was under the impression he could bring them all back, only to have the rug pulled from under him? hurts me! in the best way!!!

other than that i do enjoy his design, both romeo himself and the bed :] i wanna give my bedman cosplay another try sometime for sure, it didnt work out for various reasons but i have most of the components and would enjoy cosplaying him fr in the future

least favorite thing about them:

i think i dont really dislike anything about the way bedman is written in the source material strongly enough to point it out here? i think my main gripe is the way the fandom treats him to either extreme, like theres "bedman did nothing wrong ever" people and "bedman is horrific" people and i wish both camps would chill out and recognize hes like. a complex character? but i do think most people do this already which i can appreciate

favorite line:

im a little obsessed w his win line against may in xrd

"I do not understand humans who are motivated by love. A person is born, lives for a number of years, and interacts with up to eight billion people. What proof is there of something they can't even define?"

bc like. buddy. you dont even realize it. YOURE driven by love. all this shit wasnt just for yourself but it was for delilah too!!! fuck!!! you dont even see it as love you see it as necessary because shes that important to you!!! and dont even get me STARTED on the bed in strive and how its still running because of his last minute code additions which almost act as the last part of his will to protect delilah. GAHHHH

brOTP:

BEDMAN AND AXL INTERACTIONS. PLEASE. PLEASE. their dynamic is so interesting as characters with such fascinating ways of interacting with the world...gah. GAH. and no one fucking talks about it!!!

OTP:

sinbed. must i wlabo.

ok but i will, im not as into them as i was like a year ago but i still do really enjoy their dynamic. sin being such a beacon of hope and being so willing to see people as good contrasted with a post-xrd living bedman (bc all my sinbed stuff exists within au but im having fun out here so sue me) seeing himself as inherently evil due to his actions despite his intentions and believing no one would ever care for him? it hits for me

nOTP:

i dont know of anything off the top of my head that ive seen for him??? nothing prevalent at least.

actually on second thought i think ive seen like one instance of bedman and ram in a romantic sense, and that im not a fan of but i guess i could see the appeal, just not my thing

random headcanon:

this motherfucker would have gotten heated in some internet forums or wiki talk pages, DEDICATED to accuracy out here and he WILL fight you about it

unpopular opinion:

not entirely certain i have one? i think the "bedman while flawed is not actually a terrible person and was doing his best given his extremely fucked up circumstances" is a pretty cool take by this point for most people

i think the only thing i have is that my interpretation of bedman has always been as like a young adult rather than a kid but like i dont really have a concrete opinion on that and i totally understand people who do see him as a kid like its entirely understandable to do so

song i associate with them:

other than his character themes, its GOTTA be dramaturgy by eve, which just. it gives the vibes. read the english lyrics it will make sense i prommy

favorite image of them:

THE EEPER...

OTHER than this one its more an animation but his 6p in xrd is so silly i love it so bad...and for a more serious option his instant kill is really cool

[lemongogo]

what's your process for coloring like? the look of that elendira is so textured and interesting, i can't figure out how you do it

AA THANK YOUU ^__^ !! textures & brushwork are my favorite things abt my art, so im happy you find it interesting hehe . its SOO cool to look at & so much fun to draw imo

i prefer to color by building in layers , if that makes sense 🤔!! hundreds of them !! such that i'm always drawing on Top of previous layers, working from big & messy blocks of color to, eventually, small and refined blocks of color until it feels processed enough. as a result, i rarely ever erase (!!) and i rarely ever draw lineart aside from the initial sketch

a rough, patchy textured brush is key here, as it'll give you dimension and variability w/ your colors. i recommend "Brush and various sets of fountain pen style (万年筆風ブラシと色々セット)" on Clip Studio (ID: 1679706) !! :3

im terrible with explanations though, so i'm going to show a step by step of that elendira drawing if you dont mind :3

sketch layer !! because i mostly render through color alone, i try to make this as close to the finished thing as possible . ^__^ i hateee drawing the same thing over and over and like the expressivity and movement of my sketches anyways , so the more i can preserve at this step, the better. if u were to look at a side by side of my sketches and finished pieces, youd notice a lot of those og lines are present in the final drawing :3

2. flats !! pretty self explanatory, but the solid background gives me an idea of where the figure begins & ends while the colors themselves help distinguish whats what . i stick to ambient lighting @ this point because im usually not sure what i want to do with the overall palette or lighting yet . having two tones (ex, dark and light in her hair or dark and light on her skin) can also help in identifying key features early on that u wanna preserve. as you build layer by layer, sometimes these areas will remain untouched and i think it makes for a rly lovely feel at the end

3. start blocking !!! to be totally honest with you, i dont really know what i do here HAHAHA. like i just scribble the shit out of it, usually focusing on what i might want to do with lighting (ex: grey areas to accentuate folds in her costume). i think i like to start "erasing" the sketch where possible by coloring on top of it .. like if you look at her hat or her arm , you can tell i'm starting to get a sense of the shapes i like vs the ones i dont. it's at this point that the final image starts to emerge in my mind , like im gradually pulling her from a tarpit of scribbles until shes recognizable lol. chipping away at the marble until i can free her. tbh.

4. keep blockingg...when u think u are done , block some more . as you can probably see, the brushwork becomes more intentional as i add more shape, with specific focus on line weight. this is also where the patchiness of that textured brush comes in - notice how none of the colors seem totally uniform (ex: the red cross or the original sketchlines for her waist). you can see bits and pieces of the layers underneath pushing through and i really like that !! ^__^ its very fun and sketchy to me, so i try to keep them around. those areas are also great to colorpick from, because it'll give you "new" colors to work w/ that are already part of your palette.

5. GRADIENTS & GRADIENT MAPS !! TONE CURVE !! COLOR PICKER !! this is the best stage tbh. flatten your image so its all on one layer and just go crazy with all the color settings in ur program. add gradient layers and set them to darken, or overlay, or subtract, orrr. lighten or dodge glow or divide or soft/hard light.! OR!! edit the hue, saturation, luminosity and contrast.and then color pick from these edits, block even more on top of ur image, flatten, color edit again, etc. etc. until u feel satisfied.

ANYWAYSS . i hope that makes sense @__@ sry i wrote this out and deleted it like 23 times trying to make it make More sense but thats what ive got HAHA i hope its useful though :3 !

[teruthecreator]

Mingus.

AND IIIII GET A LITTLE BIT MINGUS KHAN DONT WANT YOU TO GET IT ON WITH NOBODY ELSE BUT MINGUS. WITH NOBODY ELSE BUT MINGUS KINGUS

Sexuality Headcanon:

i dont really think about this too much but she has a bit of bisexual slay i think

Gender Headcanon:

cis woman for sure tho she could have a bit of agender slay if she wanted

A ship I have with said character:

now this is gonna seem like a big surprise to everyone, I Know, but i REALLY like normingus. i think about these two CONSTANTLY like something well and truly sinister has taken over my brain and reduced me down to a child slamming two barbies together like “theyre kissing theyre kissing” like its bad for me. god just like. the flavors of normingus you can have. the bitter rivals/enemies to reluctant friends to lovers pipeline is real and it lives in my heart. truly and honestly i think they are an untapped well of potential EVEN OUTSIDE OF JUST STRAIGHT UP SHIPPING THEM. i think their dynamics of being like two sides of the same coin when it comes to callum is super interesting, and theorizing on how they both could grow and change as people post ch3 is super fun to do bc like. they both have been given a second chance at life, how will they use it? also there’s the fact that mingus hires norm on and finally has a reliant employee other than tango. the kind of bond these two could forge even outside of a romantic sense is really cool and i wish more people touched on it!!!! tho of course i Do still rlly like them in a romantic context im ngl, and i Also wish people explored this dynamic more. but In General i think norm and mingus are an untapped well of potential!!!!!!!!!!! and i have literally TOO MANY fic ideas revolving them it’s actual insanity

A BROTP I have with said character:

mingus and tango have a dynamic that im EXTREMELY fond of, partially by my own doing. i think the like begrudging (on mingus’ end) friendship they have is so special. like tango is just an employee but he’s also been at mingus’ side for the longest time and is probably the one person she can trust to back her up if shit goes awry. but GOD FORBID if you ever told tango that he would start giggling and kicking his feet like fucking spongebob and you’d never hear the end of it. so mingus has to keep him at arms length even though i think she genuinely sees some parts of herself in him and wants to encourage him to thrive. in a suuuuuuper post canon world, when mingus eventually steps down as mayor, i think she fully endorses and encourages tango to run in her stead. a passing of the torch, in a way, and tango takes the endorsement VERY personally like i think he’d start bawling and hug her so tight and mingus would reluctantly return the embrace. god they’re just so silly you guys

A NOTP I have with said character:

i have yet to see a ship with mingus that has genuinely made me scratch my head so uh. nothing for here!

A random headcanon:

this is kind of random and i touch on it in tryt, but i think she collects knickknacks (specifically novelty snowglobes but also other things). i think her office in town hall is very deliberately kept very sterile and like. devoid of personal affectations because she is trying to maintain an Image there. but her house is a different fuckin story. i think callum probably started collecting novelty snowglobes and mingus just noticed how her house growing up was full of them, and eventually when her dad died and she was given the house back she just. continued callums collection. started bidding for super expensive ones on ebay and going out of her way to find antique stores with little knickknacks from her pawpaws time. i think it would be a kind of private joy for her, to have this ongoing collection of Things some of which connect her with her pawpaw, and something she would NEVER dare show another soul. that is, until she starts making friends and having people over and everyone can realize how much of an oddball she truly is <3

General Opinion over said character:

guys i really fucking like mingus. mingus is FASCINATING as a character like she takes herself so seriously and yet is So Ridiculous it’s really funny. and just her whole motivations and her perspective on life and her grandfather it all just makes me wanna tear at the walls and scream and cry. genuinely the first time i played through chapter 3, mingus’ monologue at the end brought tears to my eyes bc i resonated with her longing on such a level it like. it really put her into perspective for me. and since then i’ve just become more and more fond of her like ohhhhhhhhhhh i love her guys. i really do. mingus kingus forevar and evar

[gale-gentlepenguin]

Gale Reviews: ML Season 5 episode 14 Derision

Spoilers Below

-WHY ARE THEY SO CUTE!?

-Umm Marinette? You okay?

-Have some cereal with your milk.

-Yea something is up with Marinette.

-Marinette's bike is cool.

-Okay adrinette hand holding is cute. But something seems wrong here

-Okay so she reacted seeing an image of Kim... okay weird.

-Okay ... Marinette is having a panic attack. That feels a bit too real

-Bugs! Locker full of bugs. But what does it have to do with...

-Marinette freaked out hard. and Kim says thats her normal reaction to pranks... Kim? What the fuck?! What did you do?

-Of COURSE the akuma shows up now

-"Panic" Oh damn thats a good name for an akuma. But I know Marinette would never get akumatized (especially at this point) But I really want some art interpretations of that form

-So Marinette is having a flashback while Monarch be trying to work on akumatization... How does that work?

-Okay so Marinette had a crush on Kim in 8th grade... Wow someone somewhere owes Lunian some money.

-Marinette with her hair down! Not a drill. Flashbacks matter

-Marinette of 8th grade doesnt want to go to school... Oh wow it feels like origins. Does Sabine KNOW how bad it is? Why not just let her change schools?

-Chloé bullied Marinette, but that was already known...

-JEEZ! Bugs in the locker. Seriously!? Where did chloe make sabrina get those

-And Damacles is a f***ing asshole

-Oh Jeez, Mendeleiev still a harsh b****

-Oh come on! Someone give Marinette a break

-Wait... Kim just thought these were NORMAL Reactions to pranks. He thought these were Okay?!

-Okay wow, yea Mendeleiev and Damocles are garbage. Sure hope no one thought they were better teachers than Ms.Bustier. That would sure suck.

-Chloé is really no different then how she has been all season or season 1

-Juleka looks ready to throw hands. So I really cant hate any of the other students in the class, they seem scared of Chloé, and honestly seeing what I saw. I dont blame them.

-Mylene out right said "Chloé's mom leaving is no excuse. My mom left and I aint a bitch." Go off Queen

-At least Juleka, Rose and Mylene talked to Marinette and were kind

-Kim actually offered his swim trunks to her. Well that is kind of sweet in a himbo way.

-Chloé really just decided to hate on Marinette.

-Damn Socqueline! You defend Marinette. Maybe thats why Marinette wears her hair like that.

-So Socqueline is a year older confirmed. And it does explain the deeper lore about her knowing her mom.

-Tonto. Hehehehehehe

-For a change? So the implication is that Marinette has crushes before. Makes sense. Marinette at this point seems like the type to develop crushes on anyone nice to her.

-Kim doesnt really get when Pranks are pranks and Pranks are... well TOO far. OMG he is the "Its just a prank Bro" type

-Sabrina was watching.... oh this can only end poorly

-Oh... oh no. No no no no no no no.

-Kim you are really an idiot. And not in the endearing himbo way.

-Marinette didnt have a plan back then... Oh! This is gonna result in a trauma where she needs to... Oh wow this is gonna be traumatic af.

-Socqueline is like a big sister to her. Poor thing already can see this going poorly

-This looks like an adorable time. The marikim looks adorable, yet all I can think about is how Chloe will ruin it.

-Oh no, Kim. Please dont do this.

-IT HAD BUGS IN IT! KIM! KIM!!! IN WHAT WORLD DID YOU THINK THIS WAS AN OKAY PRANK?! THAT WAS 8 TYPES OF FUCKED UP. I DONT CARE HOW CONVINCING CHLOÉ IS. YOU ABSOLUTE GARBAGE MEATHEAD!!

-Welp... Chloé has done some f***ed up things. But Wow. This really is her at her worst. Like damn. That is just... And here I thought Lila was bad.

-So Astruc, you really needed to drive the point home on why you hate chloé. You REALLY drove it home. But really

-Socqueline Out here for the save! At the very least saving Marinette from ABSOLUTE eternal shame. Put some respect on this character that only appeared this season.

-Kim REALLY doesnt get how f***ed that was. Its a sad day when a Himbo is more dumb than kind. That just make him an idiot.

-Marinette needs a hug.

-So this explains everything about Why Marinette knows absolutely everything about adrien early on. Well except for the fact he is chat noir. But yea. It was actually TRAUMA!

-"And that he is not friends with Chloé." Yea Adrien, buddy. You might want to completely burn that bridge now. Side note, this completely contextualizes Origins and why Marinette assumed the worst about Adrien off the bat. Damn. This was deep. A little exposition heavy... but deep

-And Chloé gets Socqueline because she broke her phone. Well Damocles. You are officially s*** in my eyes. Even Darker owl seems less slay to me. YOU RUINED DARKOWL FOR ME YOU BASTARD

-She got suspended for two weeks. That sucks

-Wow, so was that flashback instant? Or was Monarch just patiently watching that flashback ENGROSSED by it?

-She broke free by working through the source of her trauma in a matter of seconds... Okay.

-Oh damn! Ondine and Adrien look ready to throw hands at Kim. And Justifiably so.

-Kim... You done goofed. You really are an idiot and My opinion of you is trash.

-Adrien going full arthur anger meme. PUNCH HIM ADRIEN. PUNCH HIM IN THE FACE

-Dude doesnt even swim with his goggles.

-Monarch really said "If I gotta settle, I can at least spin it to make it sound better than it is."

-Dark Humor, Hehe instead of Dark cupid. Clever. Cause his sense of humor is dark. Also CHAT NOIR HAS A REASON TO PUNCH HIM IN THE FACE.

-Its twisted that he gets his old power

-Also... was he wearing that in the pool? That thing is waterproof? Neat.

-I like the updated costume. But I hate kim right now

-Adrien is ready to throw hands.

-Chat noir wants to beat Kim's ass today. SLAY KITTY SLAY

-YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Chat noir giving Dark Humor the Two Piece No Biscuit.

-He gonna cataclysm him! oh sh*t. Chat noir really felt regret about accidentally cataclysming Monarch, but now ready to erase kim. Yea I completely understand. Valid.

-Ladybug understably needed to stop him... But that caused him to get hit with the goofy arrow. Damn

-Ladybug had to detransform and retransform quick. Tikki really sped ate her cookie today.

-She got jokes

-And Ladybug's plan faked him out and now he got a toilet on his head

-Ladybug may also be using this as a chance to work stuff out.

-The ladynoir is cute. But Chat noir was still 100% justified in his beating of dark humor... Except the cataclysm. But I get why he was ready to use it.

-Well at least Kim is owning up to his s***. He is still an idiot. But He is a himbo. But yea, still a dick move early on Kim. Path to redemption Kim. (still forgave him too quickly.) But Ondine will beat his ass if he doesnt stick to it.

-This Adrinette is adorable and sweet and understanding.

-Trauma is still there. Guess she isnt completely over it, which is understandable. It will take some time (or like 3 episodes)

-Adrien went to chloé. Oh damn. You go boy

-Yea, this chloé is season 4-5 chloé alright. Nothing surprising here. She is just vile

-Sabrina looked annoyed at that speech. (Sabrina will remember that)

-Adrien is officially done. He ended it there officially. Friendship over.

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So I have a LOT of thoughts on this.

For one, Every adult in miraculous is an idiot. Sabine, its good you has Socqueline there to help... but that doesnt really mean s***. This is where you work with the school to have her change classes, or even schools. 3 years of that treatment is enough.

Also, Damocles. You gutless coward. Even if it did cost you your job. The fact you let yourself get controlled to let your STUDENTS suffer is gross.

And Kim... Kim you are an idiot. The fact that you didnt even think that a prank like that was too far?! Adrien was more than justified in a cataclysm. But you did apologize and promised to THINK about the consequences. Plus you are a kid. I can forgive. But THIN ICE MY GUY

Chloé, yea season 2 and Season 3 chloé might as well be a completely different character than this chloé. Zoe appeared after harnessing any decency Chloé has left. But yea, I dont care for this chloé. Not gonna defend this chloé.

So this does explain a LOT about Marinette's more cautious personality. But it also doesnt make sense in a way that Marinette didnt really think things through before. Because if thats the case... then the thing that made her a good ladybug was because of a crippling trauma?! I feel like this maybe should have fleshed out younger marinette more.

Socqueline really was like an older sister to Marinette, but sadly it feels like her inclusion without mention before makes this feel like this traumatic event wasnt planned from the get go as the reason Marinette is how she is. Also after what happened to Socqueline. How could Tom and Sabine allow Marinette to go to that school again?! Seriously. Especially after KNOWING Chloé would be in Marinette's class in origins.

Side note, Adrien was 100% perfect this episode. Loved him. Ondine too. I do wish Civilian adrien did get ONE punch on Kim tho. Just one.

Chat noir laying a beating though was great.

Right, so even though I enjoyed the episode to an extent... I cant say it leaves the show in a better place. If anything, I think it leaves things much worse off.

6/10

3 points for the adrinette moments

2 points for Chat noir laying a beating on Kim

1 point because Kim apologized.

Overall I dont like the direction of things this implies

[bonesandthebees]

still thinking about the qsmp lighting strike one shot...

learning sign language makes you realise just how isolating it is to cant hear properly and its just so nice to see phil signing even when hes not speaking directly to tallulah and even tho she has a hearing aid and could hear him this close

richas having a prosthetic leg and being carried a lot and the other kids understanding that and not complaining about not being carried too which is something youd except to see with kids

and the kids choosing to speak mostly with sign too and richas having to learn with his leg and finding little bonuses like hiding lock picks, its so interesting and cool to see, just representation man, yk

and just the way such a short story is packed with happy little language things in general is sweet, hearing your own language after some time is always such a good feeling, cant imagine not hearing it for so long

or while the parents are communicating in english they still talk to the kids in their languages so they nurture their native languages and dont forget

and you nailed character voices and personalities so well, like you clearly worked on every character to figure them out and its so cool to see basically literally the qsmp characters in this story

the bagi and cellbit moment was a cherry on top, made me so emotional I love them

the possible/implied parallel to crimeboys/wil and tallulah was so hopeful

all in all such a sweet little story, 10/10 I cried

aaaa thank you so much this makes me so happy to hear how much you enjoyed it

yes exactly, a lot of hearing people, even well meaning ones, don't seem to realize how much hoh/deaf people have to struggle with feeling isolated. even if a hoh/deaf person can read lips, can hear a bit, has hearing aids, or even has a cochlear implant that doesn't mean they talking to people is easy. there's issues with background noise or not having people facing you when they speak or sometimes you just don't have the energy that day to put your everything into focusing on what other people are saying. I'm a hearing person but this was a common thing I heard about my Deaf teachers in my ASL classes when we learned about Deaf culture and audism. also, while of course I'm in no way trying to say my experiences are similar to that of a hoh/deaf person, I have an audio processing disorder so hearing is something I struggle with a LOT, specifically when it comes to communicating with others. if there's a lot of background noise, even if I'm standing right next to someone I might only catch ~60% of what they say and I have to use context to guess the rest. it's unbelievably frustrating at times.

so I figured that since q!phil is already so accommodating and aware of tallulah's 'asthma' in canon, I thought it just made sense that in an au where she's hoh he would be very attentive and would make sure to sign to her regularly so she won't miss out on what's going on.

richas babyyyy <33 when they're walking for long periods of time like that I figured it just made sense for the adults to want to take the strain off of richarlyson's leg by carrying him, but also I just thought the mental image of richas sitting on cellbit's shoulders was too cute not to include. benefits of having six parents is there's always someone around to carry you lol. also I thought of the lockpick thing and it was too funny not to mention. richas would 100% hide random things in his prosthetic if it had a compartment for that.

I had the rest of the kid prefer signing to talking for two main reasons: one, I thought it would be the way to interpret all of them using signs in canon to talk while tallulah is the only one who has hearing aids. and two, when you grow up in a world where being too loud means death, wouldn't you learn not talking is better? it's sad but I thought it made sense :(

the language stuff in general was so fun to play with. although it's definitely nervewracking to try and write in languages I don't know, I think it just feels more natural for the parents to speak to their kids in their first languages even when they're around english speakers. idk I just went off vibes for those bits and really enjoyed it. and then cellbit and bagi's entire Big convo I felt had to be in portuguese given how serious the subject matter was so of course they'd both have it in their first language, and I'm so grateful for the help I got with the portuguese there.

i've had several people tell me I nailed the character voices in lightning strike and that makes me SO happy because I was trying so hard. some of the members are easier for me to write (phil I'm used to obviously, cellbit idk why I just kind of get how he talks and don't have to think too hard) but then for others I put a lot of effort into making sure they sounded right (etoiles was the one I had to focus on the most because he has such a distinct way of talking but he's also so fun to write, bagi I've watched a lot of clips of recently so I had her voice but I still wanted to make sure I nailed her, and tina like etoiles has a fairly distinctive way of speaking so I thought over her lines a lot too)

I came up with the idea to parallel wilbur trying to find tommy and then wilbur coming back to tallulah with cellbit and bagi finding each other again after all these years while I was writing it and I was very happy with how that whole bit turned out :)

i'm so glad you enjoyed ty for this it made me smile a lot <33

[5-htagonist]

Laios, 1 4 and 8?

why do you like or dislike this character?

ahaaaaa i have so. so much. so much. but well you asked for it!

of course, to begin, hes very relatable. this isnt the only thing that makes me like a character, but its one of the main things that makes a character touch my heart and soul like laios has. i have had so many experiences that align with his...

like, i made my first Bestest Friend apparently by walking up to her and just talking about spunchbob. like weirdstyle. i dont remember it and i didnt remember it even 3 years after the fact lol but i dont know WHAT made me come up to her. that was not something i did. i guess maybe it was because she was new at school in the middle of the year? i dont know! but i saw her, thought she seemed interesting i guess and started talking at her.

when someone shows me that they will listen at all, i was unabashed with my interests. until one of my friends (who i had mistreated before in self interest) when i was 13 sent me a LONG skype message about how im annoying as shit. i dont remember what else it said, but part of it was talking about homestuck all the time and also being socially oblivious.

my sibling and i have a weird relationship- they do theclassic sibling thing of following what i do. their mental health problems (caused, in part, by our guardians not protecting us properly, and my explosive childhood temper) got so bad, i dont think i withdrew from them consciously because of this, but im sure now its because i was guilty. i didnt withdraw until i got my anger under control. i went to live elsewhere, didnt talk to my family at all for a long time, had a rough period of isolation, but eventually reconnected and even made friends again. my sibling has had their agency violated in a traumatizing manner. but instead of turning into a dragon they channeled their feelings into smoking weed and getting buff LMAO

on to more substantive stuff, i love that kui wrote him to be NORMAL! autism is normal! its normal to be neurodivergent! atypical, rare, uncommon, do not equate to abnormal. he isnt just An Autistic or Obsessive single track minded character, although of course he has plenty moments.

he is extremely intelligent, and i LOVE that other characters recognize this, even if its begrudging. i LOVE that he seems to be a good king post canon. i LOVE that he isnt totally socially incompetent, or portrayed as the Im Not Mean Im Just Blunt type. he cares so much, so deeply, for his friends. i love he and falins relationship. i love he and marcilles relationship, he and kabrus, he and shuros. i love how he approaches that conflict, in general!! he doesnt care about being insulted until his resolve is called into question. he is such a cool character!!!!!!! im so happy to have an adult character who is super autistic but not seen as infantile, or stupid, or behind the curve.

also, i love that he has confidence in what he knows, and is aware of the boundaries of his knowledge. i think this is something that shows the intelligence of a character better than them just Doing Smart Stuff. and i love that he can be smug. i love the smug laios images. theres just so much! im sure i could say so much more, but i love that hes loved. i love the chapters btwn the lions defeat and falins revival. i love that he gets recognized for his knowledge. i love that he has kabru, post canon, not because kabru can make up for his social shortcomings, but because kabrus mind works similarly to his and could give him a better sense of belonging, and confidence in his friendships.

also i love that hes puppy *scritches his head*

4. if you could put this character in other media, what would you put them in?

ive actually been trying to cook up crossover aus in my head lately! ive been thinking about if laios (and others) met the cast of mob psycho 100. i think he and serizawa would be great friends! ghosts are some of his least favorite monsters iirc, but i imagine laios would find the spirits of mp100 interesting regardless! but if he were born in that world he and falin for sure would be psychics. i wonder if he would find humans more or less interesting, then?

8. whats something the fandom does to this character that you despise?

i SO hate how a lot of fans interpret the kui interview where she says she didnt intentionally write laios as autistic, she wrote him as someone normal and who anyone can relate to, as if that means he definitely is NOT autistic. like. the thing that makes it autism is how a certain AMOUNT of traits and struggles are present your DAILY life, across different settings!!!!!

so obviously you dont need to have autism to experience these traits, a1. an abnormal social approach, or a2. to have trouble with body language, or a3. to have trouble with peer relations, or b1. to stim, or b2. to experience rigidity/rituals, or b3. to have circumscribed interests, or b4. to have sensory abnormalities. none of these individually or even having a few of them mean youre autistic.

but if you experience all 3 A conditions, and at least 2 B conditions, that were present from a super young age, that are present in your daily life across differnt settings, and causes issues, you probably have autism.

and obviously you cant diagnose a fictional character with a condition weve categorized in the real world. BUT!!! it also doesnt hurt anyone to recognize a common diagnosis in a character. and its pretty obvious laios experiences all the traits, across settings, daily.

he walks up to shuro out of nowhere just bc he needs a party member and thought he looked like an other (which he identifies with). he doesnt notice seemingly basic parts of his companions outfits where the others have no trouble. he has trouble understanding how his peers feel on the day to day (but tends to be very perceptive with those who are emotionally open, even where others dont notice, like with marcille.)

he has been seen stimming at least twice, he has a rigid belief that monsters have a more desirable existence than humans, obviously he has a special interest, and he definitely has sensory abnormalities (laying basically naked in the snow, the clothing drawings from kui where he doesnt like the textures/neckline of the sweaters, he has sensitive hearing, a discriminating palette, and food texture issues. idr if he has any visual/olfactory abnormalities, but he has a high attention to detail.)

like. at that point, to say hes DEFINITELY NOT autistic, you have to argue he has not experienced these traits since he was younger than like 5, that these traits dont cause issues in his daily life, or that he is intellectually disabled. the ONLY one that could be a legitimate is that he didnt experience these from a young enough age.... but even still, thats only if you only pay attention to the main canon and not any extras.

you dont have to have these symptoms at full capacity as a small child, a lot of it only becomes apparent once social demands are too high. BUT! in the laios and falin page where laios's father introduces him to falin, they note he didnt have much of a reaction, and he doesnt. typically, children have a very strong reaction to a new sibling, as young as a year or 2 old. sometimes its anger, sometimes its joy, sometimes its confusion.

laios was 3, and didnt have an apparent reaction, but DID go tell all the animals. to me, this is an excellent demonstration of a prototypical socio emotional reciprocation issues- the animals cant reciprocate with words, and he seemingly has no desire to talk about it to his parents, who should be around a lot at least due to his age. he shouldnt have any reason to avoid them at this point!

but, to be fair, people dont see words like "autism" and "adhd" and "bpd" and "ocd" and think of collections of impairing traits, they think of specific types of people who are defined by solely by their medicalization. so the only way, to these people, for laios to be definitively autistic, is for there to be some sort of in universe explanation for diagnosis of autism, or it has to be word of god, which wouldnt happen (because narratively, saying laios is autistic doesnt add anything, hes the same character.)

i dont really see this attitude tooooo often on here, but regardless, it displays a fundamental misunderstanding of what people are saying when they call laios autistic. lmfao.

also, i hate when people portray him as like. Uniquely sexless or incapable of romance? its not a romance story. very few characters are shown having explicitly romantic or sexually charged interactions, but they do not get this same treatment. because yknow. autism isnt sexy i guess.

[bentosandbox]

I think that majority of players don’t even know that chen is one of the main character in game that it’s sad. I see a lot of people complaining about her appearing in stories after reunion arc even though her screen time is already a lot less than amiya and kaltsit… I think yj already forgot about the main characters concept lmao but her getting new outfit at different region is cool i guess but why are those outfits so weird- (sorry this is just my personally ranting…

true! before I go on my own ramble everyone else can scroll down to the bottom for (unconfirmed??) ten thousand mountains lore/trivia

i have a feeling this image is somehow related to your ask LMFAO...

actually... have they mentioned the whole 'kaltsit = past, chen = present, and amiya = future' thing outside of CN or did i dream this i feel like they said it somewhere...i can kind of see how people would think amiya is the only protag seeing as there are people who unironically think the doc is the (sole/main) protag and chen/kal acting so antagonistic early on probably didnt help lol

2. yea its sad but as always if chen has 1 morbillion fans i am one of them if she has one im that 1 fan etc drinking their salty tears 🫡🫡🫡

3. uhhh went on a little costume design ramble sorry. my outfits copium is basically telling myself she's really getting the 'dad who does not really understand fashion buying(designing) clothes for child' treatment anime-style (like what can i say other than point to the night and day difference of dossoles chummer e2 fit vs the ice cream collab fit)

i have my personal nitpicks for every outfit but (looks at gavial2 summer skin) a 8.8 is so much better than a...nvm i'll refrain from grading. but for all the nits i pick i think they still pass the baseline of costume design because of the storytelling they do

base chen: cop who likes to yolo a bit too much, leave that one button undone so roll up her sleeves, give her gloves, give her a walkie talkie/earpiece etc, e2 makes that jacket even bigger and has that yummy rhodes teal

CNY skin: still of the opinion/hc that its the dress fumizuki mentioned which is why she looks like shes wearing it grudgingly, it has shorts though at least !!

chummer: shes (trying to be) on a holungday so bring back her epic tourist c cap and make her existing recognizable jacket more summer-y, also the duck heart emoji

victorian arc: cop sideclass(?) to sheriff detective or something, embracing her cringe but free era by leaving her collars up now has the sense to tuck in her shirt and wear actual pants, better coverage against the elements etc etc thank terra nevermind the fact theyre so tight fitting this is just like khr also she looks flatter in the animated PV smile i'm reminded of a wb comment that went sth like 'why are you dressing like this when youre already 30' on this fit and shes not explicitly 30 etc etc but i really like the 'chuuni(cringe but free) at 30' vibe

yumen: passing-by traveler with the cape!!! 👍👍👍👍👍👍 i really like how it looks in the cg lol with the thinner/darker stripes on the outside, ngl no fucking idea what that green box is but i appreciate chen still having a little green and yellow on her outfit, the shortness of the dress? bothered me at first but ive come to the terms that chen is a shorts enjoyer so

10k mountains: youxia-core with the hat and cape👍👍👍👍👍👍 and keeps the plastic part from chummer jacket as well as the checkers (i think they were zips but you know, the black and white alternating…lol remember how her current thing is supposedly dealing with the reality of being grey or whatever as little sense as that makes. we are in full hc territory here but its so much better than adding another 20 belts) the heels dont exist to me though

like idk it's not even a high bar honestly just nail down the role/silhouettes first before adding your morbillion belts/fanservice 😭 looking at a certain bunch of characters anyway this is why swire has the best track record for outfits 1/? ill stop here before i start tambling about her summer drip

anyway everyone should look at this Canon(as in camera brand not the other meaning) ad ft. real cormorant im convinced they got the designs from HG early because they dropped a photoshoot ~bout a week after the 4anni livestream and they got the 2hu-style sleeves right that you can never see unless you look at the sprite sheet, uh

wait what's this on the back

oh its from a poem wait whys that so famili

just going to link some translations/explainers of the poem i think but you can also look up '涼州詞 王之渙 + english translation' or something for more there's quite a few

[bugzbun]

Slenderman x Reader (Moving from Quotev)

Why hello, I'm moving this here from Quotev, dont mind me. I wrote this when i was like..idk, 14?? So its not the best but its part of me.

It was a quiet day, an eerie quiet but that could have been me, I didn't normally like the weather like this but, my family and I had recently moved to a new house out by the forest, it was beautiful not going to lie but it was always foggy, like today for example. It was cold and cloudy with a light fog outside. I was sitting at my desk tapping my chin with the eraser of my pencil humming to myself, and letting out a long sigh.

I didn't want to do homework,  it seemed that was all I did nowadays.  I blew a strand of [h/c] hair out of my face and looked up, My desk was in front of my window with a clear view of the forest that was my back yard, I found myself yearning to go there..as if something called me there.

The urge grew more the longer I stared, my leg bouncing in restlessness till I finally stood up, knocking my chair back from how fast I got up.

"I need to," I muttered to myself and put on my jacket and shoes before leaving my room and going to the kitchen where the back door was.

My heart beat faster with each step but as soon as my hand touched the cool silver door knob. I jumped hearing a voice. 

"[y/n] where are you going?" I turned on my heel slowly to see my mother. Her arms crossed, tapping her foot at me, I give a small smile.

"I'm just going outside for a bit, okay?" She squints her eyes at me slightly before relaxing and stopping her foot. My heart resumes its frantic beating.

"Well...all right but don't be out too late." I nod and flash a smile at her before rushing out the door.

The wind whipping my hair in my face, I take a deep breath, the crisp misty air fills my lungs before I start into the forest. 

I was only walking for a bit before I started to feel like something, perhaps someone was watching me, following me. I could feel the hair on the back of my neck stand up.

I slow my steps and slowly look behind me, I don't see anything so I sigh softly and try to shake it off as nothing but being paranoid...That's all it is, right?

Not long after I continue to walk, I see a small clearing. 

 I stand in the middle of the clearing, looking at the trees that tower over me, It's small enough for two people maybe. I let out a soft sigh, sat on the cold, damp ground, and looked around me. 

I can't help but think about how the clearing is, it's almost like a natural trap. My (e/c) eyes stop when I feel like I see something, something out of the corner of my eye, A tall figure, tall enough to blend in with the trees and surrounding area but what catches my attention is that it almost looks like it's wearing a suit.

My heart feels like it's about to beat out of my chest and my throat goes dry. I close my eyes shut tight. 

'I must be imagining things' I think to myself but when I open my eyes again. I can't help but gasp noticing the figure more as if they got closer, enough to the point I notice a blank, white face.

 Fear runs through my body like an icy chill.

Then darkness consumes me..

I let out a small groan as my eyes flutter open, Everything is blurry but I can tell it's dark now. I feel the material underneath my hands and my heart stops.

'This isn't grass..' I thought, remembering where I was in the clearing. ' Oh gosh..' 

I look around me and I start to feel a sense of panic. I wasn't outside anymore, I was back in my room, on my bed. I was in the clothes I was in and I had a massive headache. 

"What happened?" I asked no one, clutching my head in my hand. The throbbing almost was unbearable, I felt sick.  I closed my eyes once more before opening them again and looking around my room. 

I have no memory of how I got back here. "I did leave right?" I asked myself, almost immediately an image came to mind, that made my throat go dry and my head hurt even more. 

The clearing, the figure; The face with no features. My gaze and my thoughts were interrupted though once something caught my gaze. 

There above my desk, on the window was a note. 

An old crumpled paper, with nothing but a circle with an X through it. 

I slowly got up out of bed and shuffled my way to the only source of light which was the moon shining through the window, illuminating the paper even more. 

I paused once I got close to it, my heart felt like a fluttering butterfly trying to escape the prison of my body. My fingertips brushed against the glass, The note was on the outside. 

I couldn't understand what it meant or who put it there. 

But I did know one thing. I was right about what I saw. 

Why do I say that? 

My gaze shifted from the note on my window, to the same figure I saw in the clearing. Standing in the distance and even though it has no features, I can tell...It's looking right at me. 

And almost as if it knows I'm watching, I lifts its hand and wave a small wave. Almost like a spell, my head started spinning and my vision went fuzzy. 

I clutched my eyes shut till it stopped hurting, once I opened them again. The note was gone and so was the person. 

'What was that..?' I whispered...My heartbeat calming down and my headache residing. 

Whatever it was...I feel like it wont be the last time I see it and I felt a heavy feeling loom over me.

A few days have passed since that day, the day of the figure and the note appearing out of no where then disappearing but the image never left my head. 

I couldn't sleep, my curiosity was nagging at me to find out who that was. 

I spent most nights now looking out the window in hopes to see this peculiar entity but they never came. The person with no features captivated me, I'd often find myself drawing them.

A part of me still thinks I was dreaming but another part of me knows that's a lie. 

The only thing keeping me from going crazy about this is the fact that it-No...He was real. 

My [e/c] eyes shifted from the window of my room, the trees now changing color for the new season, to my open laptop on my desk. 

A page open, Folklore, about a tall man in the forest, years ago stealing children away, do not attempt to stop him, for you will be his next victim. 

How do you know you're next? He leaves a note, a drawing it can be 1 or it can be 10. That is up to you. 

I felt my skin grow cold, remembering what I had read, surely he wasn't real. He couldn't be, he shouldn't be. 

But he was and I was his next victim, He was toying with me like the prey I am. He knew I saw, He knew I would know, so why? 

Why me? 

My thoughts were nothing but why and how. Questions to never be answered. 

A flock of birds escaped into the now night sky, which caught my eye. 

My heart pounding as my eyes once again scanned outside. Till [e/c] eyes met with...um blank ones. My throat closed up and I felt like I couldn't breathe. 

The moment I was waiting for. 

He was back. 

"The slender man" I whispered, feeling like my heart could rip out of my chest at any minute. Almost like he heard me, a long lanky arm lifted from his side, pointing a gloved finger my way. 

The same feeling of dizziness came back to me, only worse this time. I clutched a hand to my head, small beads of sweat forming above my brows. 

He took a step forward and I felt it get stronger, my vision started to go dark. 

Now with both my hands clutching my head, I wanted to rip out my [h/c] hair. He didn't stop. 

Now backing away from the window, I felt fear in every bone in my body.  

I'm going to die.'  I thought as I started to black out, not before seeing a black tentacle reach my window. 

then it faded into darkness...

Next part

[rin-and-jade]

hello, cohost of a relatively newly discovered system here, i just saw a post you made in response to new system ask, and i was curious about how we would go about developing an innerworld.

i am led to believe we have aphantasia, so we cant "picture" anything in our head so i dont know if that prevents us from having a headspace/innerworld. i know some systems just dont have a headspace (a roommate of mine has DID and she has told us that she does not have a headspace, and she cannot communicate with her sysmates outside a discord server)

anyways, i was just curious if there would be a way for us to try devloping an innerworld or not after reading that post. ty

I can be of help to you, but this will heavily depend on yourselves as im here only capable of sharing what might work, from my own experiences.

To understand what makes innerworld an innerworld, by simple means,, it is a place that is reconstructed by senses mentally, vision (mental images) is one of them. You see where this is going.. right?

What if you try it by theory, i know you can't imagine, but im sure you know what it'll be like correct? For first advice, a small but functional innerworld will do because navigating in a big one whilst being 'blind' does not spark joy. Ok so, let's start the steps:

Using your other senses (tactile and hearing) as advantage: How do you want your floors,, is it solid, warm to touch and smooth? That could be porcelain. Straight ridges, un-even textures and cool to touch? That could be wood planks. Fluffy, scruffy texture and it damps noises? That could be carpet/rug floors. Now how do you want your walls,, is it wallpaper patterns you can feel by tactile? Maybe you want it the regular way that is painted smoothly? How thick or thin do you want it to be, enough to produce an echo from a knock or nothing at all? The rest then lies on personalization like furnitures and decorations,, i bet you can do this yourself. Also recommend you by practicing with little things for now and work from there, to bigger things.

Map it out: after determining which fits best, this is where the floor plan is arranged, you might want to draw it out physically (or use apps/webs its ok), from arial, or from side, or in 3d,, anything works. This will help you keep the world consistent as you can't see, as well as serving as a map to navigate around. I also have aphantasia where i can barely see anything as it fleets away so fast (i believe its in a spectrum, i saw it), leaving me having to navigate by touching the walls and guess the floor and temperature (i think windows make rooms feel hotter and in this case my living room has a big balcony). Do not over do the items as it can block your walking route leading to unnecessary bumps, if you want shelves or something hanged above, place them in a reasonable spot because bumping to it by forehead or elses is annoying.. i changed the height of my hanged shelf at the end and it never happen again. Especially if you don't have the innate 'gps' to navigate around.

Teamwork makes dreamwork: I assure you that you don't want to do this alone.. why not share some ideas of what the fronting room should 'look' like, or what the communal place should,, this is honestly done to make everyone feel at ease living in it, as well as sharing the work. You CAN do this yourself but it feels overwhelming and could lead to a burn out.. anyway, it'll take a while to properly build a world, so don't feel bad if its still going to be on progress for months,, no worlds are made perfectly in one try. Incase if you want to remodel the world to a new one at future, just repeat the steps.

Hope this serves you as an insight, this has definitely work for me, and i am not 100% sure it could for you, though, you still learn a few things from here. If you feel like giving up or see this as too much work there is no shame,, and so, i wish you the best luck.

- j

[freebooter4ever]

Are the lines on your drawings stylistic choices or are they measurement/guiding lines? Either way, they are cool, but just wondered. I dont understand drawing at all, might as well be a magic spell to me. I was looking at the pencil (?) sketch of Malkin with the cheesecutter hat on.

i, uh, definitely did not google 'cheesecutter hat' until after i saved out these images. :/ sorry about that. if you'd like the other one broken down, i can do that too lol. my reading comprehension when im tired is kinda lazy i just saw 'cheese' and imediately thought 'omelette'. SO here's the 1) initial sketch, 2) 'clean' sketch, and 3) final lines for the omelette boy drawing instead:

also i have had a cumulative of about 9 ish hrs of sleep total for the past two days so keep that in mind for if this explanation makes no sense, its not my fault. :( anyway! the way i draw definitely has changed over the years but currently im really trying to focus on the line i "see" rather than the one that is actually "there". i've been applying this to my writing for years (story vs happening truth) and you know it never occurred to me that i could do it in my drawings too till like...a few years ago. in general these lines seem to form the planes of the subject. if you google 'stanford bunny' you can find an easy example of a 3D surface turned into triangles. I do this too - see things in relative triangle proportions, except i've been doing it long before i knew how computers worked. i cant begin to tell you how long d*sney and cartooning's obsession with round building blocks of anatomical structure fucked with my brain until i finally decided i could cast that teaching aside completely.

ANYWAY sorry off subject again. so we have these sketchy under lines, and usually as im trying to find the proportions and form of the subject these lines end up being where the light/shadow hits. here i saved out the 1) 'flat colors', 2) the 'light', and 3) the 'shadow' parts on their own (i lightened the background for the 'shadow' so its easier to see):

the light is like four or five 'overlay' layers of pale yellow/orange. you can see how each of these layers follow one of those sketchy lines i did initially. and the same with the shadow but instead its a dark red color set to 'multiply' for each layer. and when you combine everything together you get:

some bullshit :). anyway you know that anniversary edition of beauty and the beast that featured the version previewed to nyc audiences in 1990 with the glen ke*ne sketchy keyframe animation of the beast's transformation? i watched that - must have been sometime after i graduated college - and i felt robbed that THAT version was never presented as a final piece. the 'unclean' drawings had so much more life and movement and intensity to them. tldr i like the messy lines, i hate 'inking' with a passion (HATE. IT.), and when i finally allowed myself to stop giving a fuck drawing became way more interesting. but my art is shit and i will never be glen k*ane so i dont really feel like the best advocate for this "style". alas. there was this one artist on tumblr who i fucking loved whose sketches were SPECTACULAR but the asshole racists in the m*c*ha*nz*o fandom bullied her off tumblr and ive never been able to find her art anywhere else since. she was also very negative about her 'unclean' sketches and it made me so sad. there was also this other artist whose sketches were awe inspiring but all she drew was p*rn and well...we all know what happened on tumblr in december 2018.

also i 100% stole the lighting scheme from The Bear which is currently one of the most gorgeous shows on television right now in my opinion

im really really sorry if this makes no sense, if im feeling motivated maybe i'll try again when my brain is fully functioning but with the actual 'cheesecutter hat' doodle ^_^

[squirmydonnie]

Long post

CW: transphobia, body image ( though not negative )

I feel as though my parents have this weird theory about me. And maybe isn't weird theory it's just wrong.

Basically I feel like my parents have this idea that my being trans comes from not liking my body.

When we went to the store yesterday my mom wanted me to get cropped shirt. I don't really like wearing these kinds of shirts. They are cool in concept for me but in practice I would get to cold. Pants don't usually fit me well and they fall, so it wouldn't be practical.

My mom still had me try it on anyway even though I said I didn't want it. It looked okay on me. But it wasn't something I would ever wear.

My dad he thought it was cute and my mom did as well, but I still didn't want it.

My mom kept talking about how I should wear these things now while my stomachs flat, but it isn't flat??

Idk what she means because I've got a little puppy belly.

Either way I'm not interested in these shirts.

And when I had accidentally came out to them they made a point of telling me that I'm special.

So maybe they believe I want to be trans because I want to special.

But. I?

What? I dont know why they think that. I have many other qualities that people would say make me special.

Personally these qualities don't make me feel special so I can rule that idea out.

They had also told me trans people online just want clout? None of it made any sense.

I draw my body very often. I draw myself very often. This idea they have doesn't make much sense to me, expect for for how I present.

My mom doesn't like me wearing such baggy clothes, but these clothes make me feel comfortable.

I used to hid my face not because I didn't feel beautiful, but because of my anxiety.

I was always so scared I covered my eyes and mouth a lot.

I don't think its crazy for them to think these things about me. They make sense from where their looking at it, but it isn't the truth about me.

[theaviskullguy]

Akiza, Kalin, or Astral

okay. how about all three. ill try to keep them short and sweet

Why I like them/why I don’t

Aki- best girl. i think her story, what we got of it, was incredibly interesting. i loved her dynamics with the rest of the signers, especially yusei but thats just me being a faithshipper so. :/

Kalin- I am neutral on him. However i am still watching 5ds when i get to the crashtown arc that might change but like. hes the guy i love to hate since ive just seen him as a dark signer

Astral- okay so. i use they/them pronouns for astral because theyre an alien they should not have a human concept of gender. Anyways, i loved kinda their development over zexal! they and yuma just sorta blended together. also that voice... very nice. i want that voice.

What I like about their appearance

Aki- everything. I love her aesthetic, i love the silhouette, the color pallet... before i realized how hot it would be my renfair outfit was inspired by her which is a big compliment.

Kalin- Okay so this one user who i dont remember the name of said that the clothing of Sattelite was very punk/biker and other than maybe crow. i think kalin shows it off the best. And I Fucking Love Him For That. also i want his gender.

Astral- I think the body markings to me. There's not much to Astral's design that i want to pull out because its all so elegant and gets across who they are very well.

Do I prefer their dub names or original names?

Aki- I have a Kaito-Kite/Haruto-Hart situation but the other way around. Akiza is her full name, but she goes by Aki (though Izayoi is her last name). But in terms of preference not in writing. Aki for sure

Kalin- i watch the 5ds dub because i watch it while playing zelda so i cant read subtitles. so im more adjusted to his dub name. Also i can never remember how to spell his og name.

Astral- name is the same in dub/og, so no comment here.

OTP

Aki- FAITHSHIPPING FOR LIFEEEEE literally the one het ship in all of yugioh that i ship. Its so cute and so canon. though to me theyre bi4bi so. kinda not really a het ship?

Kalin- ill be honest ive never really thought of kalin in the shipping sense. again, i really only know him as a dark signer, so i dont think im in a place to comment on this.

Astral- keyshipping. i know im basic but its cute and its just. Yeah its just cute!

NOTP

Aki- Her and Divine. Fuck Divine All My Homies Hate Divine

Kalin- same as above, ive just not thought of him in the ship sense.

Astral- I dont really have any notps with astral. The closest is them and 96 but even then i am flexible on that

OT3/BROTP (i added the brotp just so i have something to talk about for some peeps)

Aki- i havent found too many fics of it. but i have seen like one cute piece of fanart thats crow x yusei x aki and it lives in my brain rent free i think its so fun.

Kalin- again, not really a kalin shipper, but heavy believer in a Kalin and Leo Brotp for the sole reason of i think itd be funny and i have a vivid image of him teaching Leo to say the fuck word.

Astral- Them and Yuma are a package deal so if i ship someone with yuma, chances are its an ot3 with astral as well. so thats trey x yuma x astral, shark x yuma x astral... yeah.

Favourite card they use

Aki- look this is going to sound Unoriginal but Black Rose Dragon. im sorry i love rose motifs i love dragons its the coolest thing ever

Kalin- His Earthbound Immortal. i dont know how to spell it but it just has a fun name to shout and it looks so goofy. i know its this terrifying thing but also its just. Silly.

Astral- they use yuma's deck for the most part. so. Gagaga Magician. if i had the resources id totally make a gagaga magician cosplay it looks so cool

Favourite moment they were in

Aki- ROLLER SKATING DATE WITH YUSEI. IT WAS SO CUTE. i have a lot of aki moments i like but thats the fun one

Kalin- His (first) duel with Yusei. he was just so crazy i lovb him.

Astral- "Sub-observation 13a, Yuma is my Friend" WHEN I TELL YOU I CRIED THE FIRST TIME I SAW THAT.

Least favourite moment

Aki- Her duel with Yusei with her parents there. Cause like. her parents actually hurt her and i know this is yugioh but like. you dont need to make her forgive them right away. have them earn it.

Kalin- I dont really have one, so i dont wanna pull one from thin air.

Astral- youre telling me this guy got so betrayed at their naive-ass boyfriend keeping a secret from them that they turned evil? it just. it never jived with me yknow?

Would I smooch, marry or kill them

Aki- smooch. i want to kiss her gently on the forehead or be kissed gently on the forehead in a motherly way.

Kalin- theres no option for a bro-fist. i would smooch him but, like with crow, in the "kissing the homies goodnight" way

Astral- itd be hard to do any of the above on account of them being incorporeal but i want them to experience a single smooch. i would kiss their cheek like how siblings sometimes do. at least its what me and my sis did i dont know if thats weird or not

[rotruff]

hi : D !!!!! 💥💥 🎫🎫🎫

gwuhh .... cheating and using this as an opportunity to talk abt crushes .

[ rambling under cut ]

UM. they are putting something in the roblox water its CRAZY. anyway i just played phig/hting for the first time after hearing abt it for a while and ermm. um. ermmuh. holy moly.

scythe my darling freak beloved. im not super caught up on all the Lore but. shes so strange <3. i love a woman who will actually kill me because im a first day healer trying my best please leave me alone i dont know how to get away from you please please please.

SILLIES ASIDE .. i dunno i just really like her design i really like her being southern and scary. in my beautiful mind she's a butch ruining my life. i have very vague thoughts of my s/i being more aloof and sillycore so a lot of their dynamic is just scythe being vaguely threatening and ominous and my s/i going "ohhhh itd be cool to swim with fish ... idk abt sleepign though. :]" weird scary butch who is a blight on the objective and her pursedog femme who only knows how to heal and run away. they mean lots to me.

i have a few more phig/hting s/is (and respective crushes. im normal) BUT as far as these two go im imaging they're both just offputting and strange in their own unique ways but equally annoying during phights. butch who chases you across the map vs femme who bunnyhops away when remotely approached. i wanna draw them later but my s/i is probably going to be based off of spellbooks ... it seems like a fun weapon type since a lot of my other favorite weapon types are taken up / don't fit me well. rlly inspired by mismagius in the sense of its dex entries ! ('it chants and mutters things that often curse those who hear them, rarely it is known to help people'). i dunno. im having fun even if i suck at the actual game <3