#like. be normal about the fact that im upset and hurt and angry and hurt

[esotericbluntbaby]

compensation

hamzahthefantastic x reader

description: going against your wishes, your boyfriend decides to fight another match after spraining his wrist the last time he boxed. injured, he returns home to his girlfriend, who can't help but feel more than just "angry."

mentions: boxer!hamzah, bf!hamzah, angsttt, female reader, sub! hamzah, blood, bruises, nsfw!

GUYS IM SORRY I FORGOT TO POST THIS PLS DONT KILL ME

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this was the first time that hamzah kept you in the dark, betraying your trust in him.

he was always a strong-willed, passionate boy; in fact, it was one of the things you found attractive in him. he kickstarted his youtube with his resilience and determination. giving up was simply not an option for him; one way or another, plan after plan, he'd get his goal even if it meant he had to cut off his limbs and sell them. if hamzah wanted something, he would get it, similar to a horse kicking whenever it's being restrained. though, normally, he knew when to stop pushing, especially when the cost was more than the benefit.

the last time hamzah boxed, his wrist fractured like a 6 year old cracks a wishbone. you, obviously, knew that getting hurt was apart of his hobby; you didn't like it, but you accepted that it was inevitable for some part of him to be banged up and broken. he allowed you to stay in the hospital with him during the time he was getting monitored, meaning that you were allowed to hear the doctor tell him that he had to wait 6 weeks to box again.

during the hospital visit, hamzah realized he had a match in exactly 5 weeks. you argued with him, telling him that there would be no way in hell that he'd be able to box until his wrist is fixed. of course, being as stubborn as a mule, hamzah argued back that he had to fight if his life depended on it. eventually, the night settled in as you laid in bed together that night, cuddling; he told you that you were right. reassuring you that he wouldn't be fighting, he kissed you goodnight. you thought you wouldn't have to worry about it anymore.

that was, until tonight, an hour after the match: when hamzah walked in the front door, bloody and bruised.

his eye began to swell, darkening around the indents of his skull. the black eye that adorned his face was accompanied by a deep gash that exposed the layer beneath his skin. he looked at you with guilt plastered in his banged up face, furrowed eyebrows and pursed lips being muted by the extent of his injuries. you didn't have to guess where he was: you felt betrayed by the fact that you knew exactly what he went out to do. alongside his injuries and deception, came a girlfriend who wasn't going to speak to him.

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not a single word was said when you grabbed his other wrist and walked to the bathroom with him; the room was filled with silence and guilt radiating off of him. he was currently sitting on the toilet seat as you rummaged around the medicine cabinet for materials that would help you fix his wounds. though you were upset, you weren't going to leave him to tend to his own injuries; you were still his girlfriend, after all. sitting on the floor, you grabbed his wrist to check how worsened it became.

"baby-"

"no, hamzah."

from your previous arguments, you knew that hamzah has a habit of overloading you with pet names. he knew he fucked up; you know he fucked up. him starting his sentence with "baby" helped you realize that he knew he's in the doghouse.

taking the textured, cotton gauze, you began to wrap his wrist with a softness that foiled your emotions towards him. you felt his eyes trained on you like the aimbot of a video game; his gazed fixated on every single movement you made. he noticed the way that you still looked so pretty even when you were mad at him. the way your face looked, tensed and full of agitation, created a pool of guilt that he swam in. he hated making you upset, but he simply needed to box. it was passion. it was commitment. he had to do it; at least, that's what he was telling himself. however, no matter how much he told himself that he had to fight, he knew it was wrong of him to go against your wishes and back. he knew you wanted the best for him and his physical being.

"i'm sorry. i shouldn't have gone tonight. i was being stupid and i shouldn't have went behind your back like that."

you listened to him apologize, yet, didn't respond. in fact, you didn't even look at him. there was no acknowledgement of his apology; it was almost like it never even happened in the first place. he needed to know how truly upset you were. instead, you focused on wrapping his wrist with a second layer of gauze, to keep everything in place.

"baby, please. just talk to me- i don't care if you cuss me out or give me hell for betraying you like that, just- please talk to me," his mannerisms were tense and rushed, "how do i fix this? how do i get you to speak to me? i'll do anything- i swear- you want me to quit boxing completely? i will. you want me to do all the housework in this house? i will- i'll do every single chore. shit, if even just sitting in a corner for days with no food or water would get you to speak to me, i'd do that. please, baby- please."

you finished wrapping the gauze by the time he finished his speech about what he'd do to get you to speak to him. you began to touch his face, examining the bruise on his eye and cheekbone like a scientist looking through a microscope. suddenly, he grabbed you by the cheek, forcing you to look up at him.

"i'm sorry. please, just speak to me. i'll do anything. talk to me. i just wanna hear your voice."

listening to him yearn for your voice made you feel a certain type of way. yes, you were mad. however, in a way, this whole situation was turning you on. you hated to admit it, but your boyfriend looked attractive with a black eye and bruised cheekbone. the fact that he was begging for you to speak to him made the sexual tension you were feeling within you even worse. his submissive side was creating a potion of ecstasy in your stomach; you wanted to see how far he'd go.

you sighed, "i don't know anymore, hamzah. you told me you wouldn't. i trust you less."

"i know, pretty, i'm sorry. i'll earn it back, i promise. i shouldn't have gone tonight. i was being an idiot."

standing up as his face followed where your eyes were, you rubbed it against his open wound, earning a wince from him as he gripped onto your waist. butterflies emerged in your stomach, causing you to feel similar to how light a fairy is.

"thanks for the warning," he said with sarcasm and irritation laced in his voice, opening his eyes from the hard shut he indulged in

"you don't deserve one."

he pulled you onto his lap, causing you to straddle him on the toilet seat. taking your cheeks, he cupped your face in his hands and sighed. he looked at you with a level of submissiveness you haven't seen in him. normally, hamzah was the dominant one; yet, you didn't mind that the roles switched.

"what can i do to get you to not be mad at me?"

"i dunno. you're a smart boy," you grabbed his cheek and stroked it with your thumb, "figure it out, baby."

you saw a lightbulb flicker on in his eyes. he sensed the tension in the room wasn't only angry, but there was also sexual tension in its silver lining.

"you want me to make it up to you?"

you leaned towards his ear, now whispering, "how are you gonna do that, hamzah?"

you felt something poke at your ass from beneath you, a slight twitch emerging from it too. your words made him as hard as a rock.

that's so fucking hot.

"baby, i thought you were mad at me."

"oh, i am. trust me, i'm fucking pissed."

he kissed you on the cheek, "i'm sorry."

he kissed you on the jawline, "i'm sorry."

he kissed you on the lips, "i'm sorry."

moving down to your neck, he kissed it longer than the pecks he gave you previously. you felt a sucking motion, as well as his tongue swirling on your sweet spot, shortly after. your breath got heavier, almost as if your lungs were being weighed down by hot air. your lips parted as he sucked a dark spot onto your neck.

"i'm sorry, pretty girl. forgive me?"

"not yet."

his eyebrows furrowed in confusion, "why not?"

"i need more than that."

"tell me what you need, pretty. i'll do it."

you leaned closer to his ear, kissing his neck and the area between, "you know what i want from you."

standing up from the toilet seat, your legs wrapped around his waist as he carried you to your bedroom. your lips began to intertwine with his as he walked through the hallway, your tongues melting together like two lollipops on a hot day. he laid you down on the bed, still kissing you with everything he had; he needs you to forgive him.

letting go of your lips, he moved closer to the edge of the bed, taking off your shorts and leaving you in your underwear. feeling exposed in front of hamzah was always nerveracking in your own way; however, this time it was different. you knew hamzah had to please you, leaving you with a newfound confidence.

"are you okay with this?" he asked, exhibiting a level of care that you were all too familiar with.

"do whatever you want to me, hamzah."

taking your underwear off, you were left laying on top of your sheets in a tank top. his arms wrapped around your legs like a snake to its prey, prying your legs apart with a sense of desperation.

"you're so pretty like this baby," he kissed the inner part of your thigh, "you're so fucking pretty."

he spit on the area between your legs, earning a subtle gasp from you. his tongue began to lap on you, dropping saliva on the area of you that was already wet. between your legs, you felt the roughness and neediness of his tongue. his hands squeezed your inner thighs as pleasure began to unravel the metaphoric yarn located in your stomach. hamzah was eating the fuck out of you, leading to your moans getting louder and louder with each and every movement his tongue created against you.

his tongue produced a dance that only the both of you would know. some parts were as fast as light, while other ones were full of yearning and slowness; he knew exactly how to balance it for you to feel the best that you could feel.

your hands made its way to his hair, "you're so pretty like this, hamzah. my boy- my pretty boy."

his movements got faster as his grip against your thighs tightened even more, as if you were going to fly away if he let go. similar to his hands, you squeezed his hair as his movements quickened in pace; you could feel the yarn unraveling like a rubber band about to snap.

"f-fuck- hamzah, i'm close-"

he kissed your core, before his tongue sped to a pace you haven't felt before. you watched him eat you out like there was no tomorrow, leaving loud moans echoing the room, before he felt you release into his mouth. kissing it once again, he looked up at you as his hands massaged the pillows that he was in between. you looked at each other with love while he watched your heavy breathing and fucked-out expression.

"forgive me?"

"i forgive you. please go box someone else, baby."

confusion was apparent in his face, "what?"

"you're so fucking hot when you're bruised and yearning."

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author's note!

this is so short omfg i hate using anatomical words for smut LOL more coming soon!

[i-yap]

Literally loving ur writing so far Bestie 🥺💙would I be able to req how the batboy would react to a fwb/situationship vibe with reader? Like they have feelings but reader is scared of commitment

Thank youuu! Im gonna be really honest, I don't think a lot of the batboys would be okay with a situationship sort of deal.. and I don't write romantic damian( at least not yet) .

Batboys x reader- Situationship headcanons

Dick grayson-

I can see a teammate or someone he works close with as a detective turns into a night of passion and now both of them cant go back to normal situation .

He says he is okay with it, and prolly keeps up that act for 4-5 months?

I think you would end the situationship. Dick is a really sought-after guy and one night he Is just upset with you about something. So when another girl flirts with him rather than his usual " I'm sorry there's someone else I'm into" line he flirts back. You see red

you either walk away angry/upset or pull him away. He follows you to an alley or a secluded area of the party.

"why are you even upset, you are the one who doesn't want us to be official?" "well that's not because I don't want you, that's because I'm scared of intimacy"

He would be really understanding once you explain your issues and fear of commitment. You guys come up with a better set of guidelines for your arrangement and he sticks to it.

if you want an open relationship, he is down. if you want to be exclusive but not yet in a relationship relationship he would be okay.

But dick does want to get married someday and have kids. So this arrangement wont last for long. he will try his hardest to help you overcome that fear of commitment but if you cant then its gonna end someday. And he makes that clear to you from the start. all cards are on the table always and communication is key and he makes sure no one gets hurt( or at least tries avoiding it as much as he can)

Jason todd

wont do it

maybe a bestfriend turned situationship scenario

you are his sanctuary , his home a safe place to come back to. and after everything he has been through he struggles with so many insecurities and he deserves a domestic life.

the moment he sees you with another guy, even if it just flirting, he is out the door. He already believes no one loves him and now you don't even want to commit to him? is he not enough?

he gets that you have issues and no one understands issues better than him. But he is in so much pain already that its best for the both of you to not get together at all.

even the fact that you from the very start didn't want to commit makes him get all in his head and even if you get ready to commit later on , he wont be able to forget that fact and will keep thinking you'll leave him or he isn't the one

he also reads a lot of classic literature and romance in books is what he wants. the concept of a situationship doesn't make sense to him and he just needs some good old domestic loving.

Tim drake

best at it

you guys are young, he is so busy. he is totally cool with a teenage dirtbagy relationship

lets meet under the bridge , get high and makeout type of shit,

Partners in crime / bestfriends that hookup

he loves it, its perfect for him

there are no expectations no responsibilities, you guys are just what the other needs . no stupid anniversaries and big fancy dinners

tim gives very "eat the rich" vibes so this situationship is another way for him to be a little rebellious .

Very very teenage dirtbag- going to grocery shops at 2am and sitting on the dirty floor trying all 20 types of slushies

spray painting the really big asshole companies buildings, going to huge rallies without having any idea what you are rallying for.

stealing the batmobile and then crashing it

the adrenaline makes you hot and bothered and it leads to more. and once its over you go to a shady Chinese place and tip 200 on a 40 dollar meal.

he gets you, you get him and you don't need labels to show your love to each other. and who needs someone else when you have everything you could want within each other? and then someday when you're ready and if you are ready, you can always make it official. its all up to you two , fuck the labels

[notlhecxzsa]

Sorry - Scarlett Johansson

Warnings: Angsty, slightly mean Scarlett (she's a literal baby at the end!), sad reader

Sum: Aftermath of the fight between Y/n and Scarlett

Scarlett JohanssonXFem!Reader

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No one's POV:

You didn't remember the reason why the two of you started to fight anymore. Hours and hours of shouting here and there with so many different topics coming up in every seconds. You just confronted her on being so busy this days, i mean, you know and understand her line with work, but this past few weeks you felt as if you're just a chore for her.

Why is it so hard for her to understand where you are coming from? Because as the shouting gone by, she's flipping the table, and she's coming at you, saying things that's not true, which really hurt you. While Scarlett, is just too tired and exhausted from work, that her anger got triggered when you confronted her, and became too blinded on where you are coming from.

They said that these things, the fightings, is normal in a relationship, but it gets really tiring, so after the last sentence she shouted at you which is "Fuck, why can't you just shut the fuck up?! Can't you understand it? I'm working, and i've been busy!". You just shut your mouth, and made your way to the kitchen.

She made you felt as if you're in the wrong, as if you're the wrong one here, while all you just wanted is a free time from her, it may just be an hour or two, you didn't really care, because all you wanted was her, but now, she took the confrontation the other way.

So, currently, you're here at the kitchen, cooking dinner, while she went upstairs to take a very much needed shower. Even though you're very upset at her, the care you have for her still didn't go away, and the fact that she's tired and exhausted from work, makes you feel like you should still make her feel all better and cared for, that's how you love her.

Now, back to Scarlett, as she take a shower, her mind went back on earlier moments, analyzing and calculating your words, and her words, trying to make out on who's truly wrong. A fight that started from a small conversation. As her mind became wider and more clearer, she realized that she's the one who's in fault.

Because, as much as she don't want to believe it, she been so busy, so busy that her busyness makes her almost forgot about you. Her heart swell in guiltiness, and regrets because of the things she said to you. It almost made her angry with herself, on how dumb she is for not seeing through you, and for not understanding you well.

So, after she's done and all clean up, she quickly turned the shower off, then drying off and putting a much more comfortable clothes on. Then going down the stairs to look for her girl, only to be met by the smell of her favorite food. All she wants to do is to hug you, say sorry, and to whisper comforting words. Her wandering stopped until she found you in the kitchen, and only now did she notice that you're wearing her clothes, from head to toe, it's all of her clothes, it only made her realized more of how much you have really missed her.

And god, don't you look so cute and adorable wearing her clothes that are bigger than you.

Calmly making her way over to you, stoping when she's just behind you, peaking over on what you are cooking, as her arms found its way to your waist, pulling you closer to her until your back touches her front. Even though you don't really want to be near her at the moment, you just let her.

"That smells amazing, my love." She whispered lovingly in your ear, but you made no move and just continued cooking.

Hmp, she deserves this.

"I'm sorry, baby..." Once again, she was met by silence. "I'm really really really sorry, i should've known, im just really tired and exhausted that's why i snapped out, i don't even know where the words i said came from. I'm really sorry, please forgive me." She begged, hiding her face on the crook of your neck, as her hands snaked inside the shirt you are wearing, her fingertips dancing around you tummy soothingly.

She kept begging and apologizing, showering you with kisses, attention, and sweet words. But, you made no action on paying any mind to her.

Now, it's time to eat, but you're still ignoring her, you just eat, while she stared at you. You're halfway, and her stare is really bothering you, plus, the food is getting cold, and ofcourse, you being the caring girlfriend, and with the looks she's giving you, you know she won't eat until you talk to her.

"Aren't you going to eat?" Your voice is calm, it's not as warm as it used to be, but it's not that cold either.

"I am." She squeaked out, she sounds like she's fighting her tears, making you look up.

"Then what are you waiting for? The food will get cold." You said, pointing at the food.

"Talk to me, then I'll eat." She said, her voice is now breaking, her heart cannot contain the pain of you, ignoring her as if she's not there.

"Am i not talking to you right now?" You ask with a raise of an eyebrow, as if it's the most obvious thing. She shook her head, and you see tears started to brim out of her eyes, making you feel bad for the way you're treating her.

Damn, she's so sorry already, why can't you just accept it then move on. But, you want her to feel how you felt, you have valid reasons.

"I'm saying sorry to you, and you won't even acknowledge me." She said, which came out as a whisper as tears fell out of her eyes, which she quickly wipe, then lean back on her chair, looking forward at the plate, avoiding your gaze.

And now, if you would look at your peripheral vision, Scarlett looks like a kid who is being scolded by her mother for not wanting to eat.

You almost felt bad just by looking at her, but it's making you laugh at the same time for how she is acting. Such a baby.

"Okay, sorry, i just- i just thought you would understand what i felt and realized what you did, which i think you do. I wil accept your apology, only if you promise me that you won't do that again." You said now more softly and warm, just how she loves.

"I promise, im really sorry, i really promise to have more time with you, and give you more attention that you deserve." She said, looking at you pleadingly and convincingly, then reaching out to hold you hand.

"Look, im not asking for so much, because i know you're a very busy person, i knew that from the first day i met you. But, an hour or two with you is enough, that's all im asking." You said, softly.

It makes her heart clench on how you're very desperate on having her by your side, it's just a very simple thing that she can't give you, a very simple, but a very heart-warming gesture. You just want her, while all she does is work.

"I'm really sorry, baby..." She started, as she reach over to pull you in her embrace. "I promise, i will give you more than just an hour or two, okay? I will take a break from work, and then we'll go on a vacation, just the two of us, how about that? Would you like that, my love?" She ask softly, hooking her index finger on your chin, making you look up at her.

"You don't have to do that, im just asking yo-" You tried to reason, not wanting to be a burden or anything to stop your girlfriend from doing her work, but you were cut off by Scarlett.

"Shhh, i want to, okay? I want to make it up to you, im just giving you what you deserve, plus we would really need that, i've been busy, and work is really hectic, plus, we would have much more time with each other. Work is nearly done anyways. Pleaseeee?" She begged as she gave you a puppy eyes at the end, making you sigh in defeat.

I mean, the idea of going on a vacation, just the two of you, no works, or anything that can interrupt the both of you, is a good thing right? No, it's amazing.

"Okay, okay, fine. We'll go." You said, and smiled softly at her, which she returned with much more big smile. She lean in to kiss you, and you met her halfway.

The kiss is deep, full of love and passion, but before it can lead to something more, you quickly pull away, much to her dismay.

"Okay, okay, stop, let's eat." You said, chuckling when she groaned.

"Why do we even need to eat?! We're just gonna poop it out anyways." She whined, making you slap her playfully.

"Hey, we're infront of the food." You scolded her while laughing, which made her laugh too, and said a small 'sorry'.

Before she started to eat, she softly capture your face with one hand, and gave your pink plump lips a multiple pecks, that you needed to stop her because she doesn't want to stop.

"Okay, big baby, you're being too spoiled with so many kisses already." You teased, and she pouted, but it quickly go away when you gave her a kiss.

"Now, go on, eat up." You said, which she quickly obliged.

"I love you." She said lovingly, before shoving a food in her mouth.

"I love you too."

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[infizero]

cat kid comic club epic transgender representation ramble 🗣🗣

ok im gonna explain the trans stuff in cat kid comic club bcuz i cant stop thinking about it and i want to share it with you all

so basic premise for context, former villain flippy the fish has 22 frog children he adopted, and this spinoff series follows them all being part of a club about making comics

while i was reading and becoming familiar with the kids, i noticed that wendy was seemingly the only girl that was drawn without eyelashes. and i DID immediately go hmmm. does that have significance and she's meant to be trans or am i just reading too much into things

later on, it's shown that one of the kids, el, is non-binary and uses they/them!! which made me happy and also made me think that maybe i was right about wendy

"El likes birds and dragonflies. They sing in a punk rock band with their brothers, Pink and Curly. It's called: 'The Eye Screams.'"

no attention is drawn to this, until a plot point where one of the kids naomi makes a comic and sends it to a publisher. it gets rejected and when reading out the email that was sent back, this is mentioned:

"'Global sameness' fails to recognize that everybody isn't always given the same opportunities or chances in life. Furthermore, some lines in the story (i.e. 'just poke your nose beneath your clothes, you'll see we're all the same'), could be seen as making controversial statements about gender that may offend or diminish many readers.'"

for context, the comic is about a bunch of halloween monsters who dance around in their underwear, with the intended message that we're all the same deep down.

naomi gets upset at the idea that the comic that she intended to preach unity might offend people. but when she explains this, she specifically mentions wendy and el!

POPPY: "Wait. Who got offended?" NAOMI: "That publisher lady said my comic made statements about gender that are offensive!!!!!!! Wendy and El probably HATE me now!!!" POPPY: "No they don't."

naomi then goes to talk to wendy and el and make sure they know that wasn't her intention. to which they say they know and that they didn't take offense to it

NAOMI: "Remember those parts where I said... something like... 'everybody's the same underneath?'" EL: "Yeah." WENDY: "Kind of." NAOMI: "I wasn't talking about gender." EL: "Yeah. We know."

NAOMI: "I just didn't want you to take it wrong." EL: "We didn't." WENDY: "We're good."

and that's that!

what really struck me about this was that they actually... acknowledged it? like it's become more normalized to have trans and non-binary characters, but a lot of times esp in kids media it isn't directly addressed. like a character may use they/them, but attention won't be called to it or anything

but here, it's actually addressed, and in a really lowkey and realistic manner! like it's not a big deal or something they have to have like a whole PSA about. but el and wendy ARE trans and in this scenario that fact is relevant, so it comes up

it's also interesting to me because despite this, neither el nor wendy are explicitly STATED to be trans, but they're very obviously treated as such. which again feels very natural and i like a lot, but i do also wonder how this reads to the intended audience of young kids. like if they dont know that trans people exist, how do they interpret a moment like this? do they understand why el and wendy were specifically singled out? i have no idea but im fascinated thinking about it.

also smaller thing but i like how the trans kids werent portrayed as getting all super angry at something like that (since we are so often stereotyped as being easily offended snowflakes lol), but at the same time the idea that they might've been offended is taken seriously and naomi is shown to be in right for checking in with them to make sure she didnt hurt their feelings. again it just feels very realistic and i really appreciate that!

i do wonder if this fact will come up again or if this was the extent of it. i guess we'll have to see lol

in conclusion, dav pilkey says trans rights and continues to be the king of treating kids as intelligent and capable of handling more complex and nuanced topics 🔥🔥

[kayentokk]

IT’S HERE IT’S FINALY HERE AND IM SO SORRY 🫶🏽🫶🏽 I don’t know, it’s like I was in a drought or something. So forgive me and here is your long awaited request.

Forgetting your anniversary with the MHA boys

Request; “I would love to see reactions to forgotten anniversaries”

A/N; Of course, that’s a good idea! Thanks for the request. 💕

Pariring; Bakugo Katsuki, Midoriya Izuku, Kirishima Eijiro, & Kaminari Denki

Contains; comfort, kisses, apologies, big babies

wc; 481

Bakugo Katsuki

You might think he’s angry

Who’re you kidding he is angry

Jaw clenched

Eyebrows furrowed

But he’s more upset than anything

Honestly

He knows you’ve been under a lot of stress lately

Things have been busy with him rising in the ranks

And increased crime

He knows it was an accident

That you didn’t mean to forget

But it still hurts 

And you immediately apologize 

He just brushes it off

He had a dinner planned

Which y’all can still go but the mood is kinda tense and awkward

You literally have to comfort this big baby

He’s all pouty and all shady

Trying to make the whole thing a joke but not really

Bcuz guarantee he meant when he said 

“Can’t believe you’d jus’ forget about the best thing ever”

All under his breath 

You cuddle him after the dinner

And…give him a gift

Of some sort

Midoriya Izuku

🥹

So uhm

He gets a little nerve wracked

Cuz like what now

But I honestly think he takes it better than most

Because he’s so selfless

And like not that he puts his own feelings on the back burner

But right now he’s more concerned about you

Cuz like what happened?

Why did you forget?

He knows you’re normally good with things like this so it’s odd

Maybe too much stress

So honestly you don’t even have time to feel bad

Or say sorry

Cuz he’s already coddling you

And telling you it’s okay

Super understanding about it

Kirishima Eijiro

☹️

He’s really so sad

Like soooooooooo sad

BUT

He’s a manly man

He’s gonna turn thangs around

He knows it wasn’t on purpose

He’s aware of the love you have for him

So 

He makes it extra special

Just for you like always

He cooks

Got you flowers

That cute necklace you’ve been wanting

And most of all

He is on you

ALL NIGHT

He fed you during dinner

Was literally on you during the movie

Pampered you

And he’s not gonna sweat it 

That much

because it doesn’t change the love y’all have for each other

Kaminari Denki

So let’s be honest

He’s prolly shocked himself to death a couple of times earlier

Definitely has a buzz to him

But he still managed to have something planned

He was all sparky and

“Oh yeah my girls gonna love this!”

Then you’re just like “what’s all of this for?”

He’s like

“Wym babygurl”(gosh I hate love him sm I hate the fact that I actually imagined him saying that more tho)

🤨🤨🤨

Then when it clicks to you

You’re apologizing 

He still hasn’t gotten why ur apologizing 

Then you tell on ur self

And he’s like 

Oh(inside)

He’s the least hurt tho

Cuz like there’s always more anniversaries 

But 

He’s gonna be so dramatic about it

Never gonna let it go

And you’re gonna baby him allll night 

@/cafekitsune for the divider

[merlucide]

gonna have a convo with my dad tmr (rant about dad tingz)

I’m gonna do it 🗣️ and he’s gonna have to listen

I invited him to take me to lunch (LMAO)

I’m gonna tell him how I feel and hope for the best, he’s going to get defensive and deflect it but I’m ready fr 💪 He’s prob gonna gaslight a tad too lol

He’s not a bad dad, just not the best yk? He’s not mentally/physically abusive thank God but he’s like…. special.

He makes me so upset— I mean he’s really hurt me and there has been moments were he has physically hurt me. That was a while again but those were impactful moments for me, and bitch I don’t remember an apology?! then I get after bro for doing what he did to me to my sister and like I was angry crying and getting off at him bc you don’t fucking hurt people and not apologize?!? THATS NOT FUCKING DISCIPLINE?! ITS ABUSIVE. And bc you are so fucking prideful and don’t want to face the fact that you hurt me, you hurt her, you are going to deny and say ‘well that’s what happens in life’. Shes 7. SEVEN. Who is on the spectrum and has ADHD. She doesn’t fucking understand you asshole. NO SEVEN YEAR OLD IS GOING TO TAKE AWAY ‘I shouldn’t have done that’ WHEN YOU FUCKING DO THAT. She’s going to remember how YOU hurt her, and how YOU didn’t apologize, how YOUR wife held her and deescalated the situation. You cannot blame a child for acting like that, yeah she was acting absolutely insane and frustrating, but you as a fucking grown adult cannot hurt your child like that. AND THEN COMPARE YOU TO ME?!? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?.

And he doesn’t even care about her, it’s sad. I mean this whole situation is fucked up man, I get it. My siblings quite literally ruined my life tbh.

How do you think I felt when my dad stopped caring about me? Stopped playing with me— and started yelling. How do you think I felt when you turned grey and I was the only one helping momma with the kids. I was little too. I didn’t know it would get so crazy after we adopted them?! No one did?!? So stop blaming this shit in my mom you signed those fucking papers too. She’s still your daughter you asshole. Care about her too. You don’t get to make efforts with me once a month then discard her. AND fucking act like you don’t have a son anymore, just because he is out of the house doesn’t mean you have no connection to him. If he was a normal fucking kid he’d wonder why his dad is the only one that doesn’t call. But since he’s also fucked in the head he doesn’t, it’s better that way. I hate and love my siblings. Well, I love my sister, I’d kill for her. I love my brother too, but I hate him, yes it sounds ridiculous considering the overwhelming age difference between us but he hurt me significantly. I’m glad he’s gone, he’s doing better anyways. I wish things were different. I wish he could’ve been normal. Lmao I remember thinking ‘I just wish he was never born’ lol. It’s not his fault their parents sucked.

Anywho wow getting sidetracked here—

My dad is a crazy Winston Churchill ‘follower’ of you would. Constantly quoting him and wtv sooooo I have a couple quotes ready to fire at him when he gets defensive… heheh

I feel so prepared lmao

I’ve also talked about him so much with my mom so I’m like extra ready lol

I just need to get it out yk.

Also if anyone is reading this (which I doubt) my dad is NOT abusive or wtv— i am not in danger or wtv 😭🙏 im not in denial I’m quite aware of how my life looks so know it’s ok. And again, my dad isn’t a bad dad, there’s just a lot of pain in our relationship 🫠 He tries, just it’s never what I need yk. He loves me and our family, he just has issues of his own (Not excusing in the slightest- in fact I think it’s a shitty excuse but yk) I love my dad, he’s just rlly hurt me yk

[writers-get-biters]

sooooo tired of feeling bad and shitty and stuck and miserable

fuck my relationship ocd i hate it so much and also fuck being forced to do stuff i dont want by people i dont want to be with sometimes (like now )they get into some sort of fucked up loop where i feel miserable because of stuff in my brain and then theres external stuff which also fucks it up more so then my disabilities become more disabling because obviously and then i get blamed and hurt more externally because of my disabilities that are not! my! fault! and then of course that makes internal shit worse so then im just stuck in the middle forced to pretend shit doesnt suck and actually im fine and actually everythings fine keep being "jokingly" mean to me and pushing my boundaries i dont care i get it its actually really okay if you say something to me that most other people i know offline wouldnt consider mean even though i have told you to stop its okay if you dont stop i guess i guess its fine if no one listens to me and i have to sit in miserable silence by myself because i dont even feel like doing anything that any of my ceters enjoy like drawing or our data entry projects or video games or writing and it doesnt matter i guess that im so stressed because since its from an arbitrary authoritative institution everyone is supposedly fine with that makes it totally okay and actually the real problem is me and i guess im the problem and reason why no one wants to talk to me or communicate with me the way i want to be talked to or otherwise communicated with yeah my bad i guess its all my fault and im supposed to just suck it up and stop complaining and also its creepy and wrong and bad i guess for me to try to cope with any of this the way that i want to and i guess yeah i need to and should be keeping it a secret because otherwise ill make everyone else uncomfortable and thats the worst possible outcome btw no person left behind unless its me in which case utilitarianism is always right and we cant give a shit about everyone yk like someone is always going to be miserable but we should prioritize the most people so if i mention kink (ew) or my other interests (ew) im a horrible really bad person actually because im making other people (more important than me. btw) uncomfortable and upset also i should ignore the fact that i am systematically and systemically being isolated from and kept away from people who might actually show understanding and kindness towards me or be in a similar position and extend the kind of support i desperately need but its cool because you keep saying youre only doing that because im "better than them" and actually youre helping me because "those people" are bad and wrong and harmful and they might make me (simultaneously innocent and guilty) do bad things like drugs that might offer a chance to alleviate some of my pain or transition to a bodymind i& want or be angry or just generally be a "bad person" and not be able to participate in the joys of continuing the chain of oppression and harm. but its fine because its for my benefit actually because you frame it as ""those people" have it so hard and theyre so unlucky (because theyre treated like shit by everyone which is true because people's actions are definitely a matter of "luck") and i just want to spare you from that" how kind of you wow youre so sweet and nice to me right now because i havent violated any of your rules yet what a great person you are because you let me be myself to a certain extent (a tiny little eensy-weensy extent but thats fine because its more than i deserve anyway) and since im being invited to participate in the continuation of oppression and pain it would be pretty rude for me to say no and if i did say no it would definitely justify treating me badly and doing all of the things you do to "those people" to me because im technically actually even worse than "those people" because i could have been normal i could have just accepted your rules (that were literally killing me to follow) (not that you noticed)

and also on the other hand the people arguing against you get to use me as their fun little trick-up-their-sleeve because obviously its ridiculous to treat someone like me the way that you have and will and i can be used as a perfect little pawn

[the ceter who wrote this switched out around here, but before they did, it asked that the others of us post this vent anyway if they were unable to finish or post it]

[whythefuckwouldisayprinter]

7x4 live tweets

- RAVIIIIIII EYAYAYSHUY YEASSSSS SMY BABY IS HOMEEEE

- buck is literally going insane this is crazy

- “do you know what’s it’s like to meet someone and just click” “i do. i really do” with the somber ass look?? sir your GAY is showing

- this is the first time i’ve ever actually thought buddie might happen. if it isn’t, the producers are just laughing in our faces atp

- they’re really not paying enough attention to the fact that that woman SHOT her son

- harry ate athena’s ass up bc why are you always defending the cop black woman??? that’s the one thing abt her character i try to ignore

- the amazon ad? hello?

- ms. nelson was acting her ass off

- i genuinely feel like i can’t watch this episode the secondhand embarrassment is getting me

- and the gag is tommy is so nice and normal to buck th at he could just ask if he could join his and eddies plans and tommy would say yes but buck is so in his head about his crush friendship with eddie that he’s spiraling

- this basketball sequence is so tense im cringing omg

- this is is embarrassing to watch im losing my mind

- chimney using bucks name as a verb to mean messing something up was uncalled for a little cruel tbh especially bc we know he already struggled with that

- also harry is 34 wtf is this. how old is he every supposed to be

- “it’s not about right or wrong, it’s about making it home alive” athena kinda ate that. she’s still wrong though

- this show needs to stop taking about race especially in the context or relationship with cops bc they never do it right. moral of the story is sympathize with the cop and don’t ever be angry or upset or disgruntled or annoyed in public ever bc if you are, whatever happens to you is your fault bc you should know better than to show human emotion and be black

- also this is all cute and fun and buck is jealous and doesn’t know how to act ha ha but sir you’re 30 something your sister shouldn’t have to tell you that hurting people for attention is bad

- this was the wrong episode to watch at work i literally have no words just want to scream

[wires-to-the-heart]

So thinking of backing off my Data im role playing having an emotion chip at this point. So much character comes from their time without it.

Of course I like the idea of Data “really” loving me back, but I also love the whole story of us finding the romance in their analogs, them finding a partner who accepts them before the emotion chip (they do express that they want that in the show at one point and it kills me they never really find anyone more than someone who’ll peck them on the cheek and get upset when they demonstrate that no, they do not suddenly have feelings like a typical humanoid, just like they told you they wouldn’t)

the main reason I was skipping to them having emotions is as because I like rp-ing with a system based on a modded sims 4 game, and the sims 4 relies heavily on emotions.

But!! I had a thought!

At some point when I was watching the show, I learned/heard somewhere that “emotions” and “feelings” are actually separate! Like an emotion is an instinctual response, and a feeling is the thing you feel after interpreting it, something like that. It seemed to me like from that perspective, Data without their emotion chip, does have emotions in this sense, but not feelings. He often reacts to things as if he has emotions, but he lacks the feelings.

It’s hard to explain how this looked in canon (later seasons, anyway. Early seasons they were just a bit understated, and I still believe that’s because the writers hadn’t decided Data was incapable of emotions yet). Maybe it’s just poor writing- or maybe it’s the difficulty of trying to write a character with any desire for Good who can’t literally desire. But for me, it worked in my love for the character, and it really worked once I established this emotions/feelings dichotomy (though I moved past being overly literal referring to this dichotomy at all times).

For example- Data could not be angry, sad, embarrassed. When kidnapped by Kivas Fajo, it would initially seem like they aren’t on any level- they’re calm and much more polite with Kivas than most would be. though they object to their capture and try to find ways to resist Fajos control and get away, it’s always in a matter of fact “this is not my place, I will not consent to this” way, not a “how dare he” way, no matter how much Fajo dehumanizes and insults them.

That is, we think that until the end of the episode. Data is on the edge of escaping. The only thing in the way is their programming, which gives them a “fundamental respect for all life” meaning they can’t kill unless it’s active self defense. So even though Kivas has been holding and torturing them, killing people around them to control them, etcetera, Data can’t fire a weapon to get away. Stunning him won’t give them enough time.

Kivas starts to taunt Data for being unable to grieve the friend he’s made on the ship that Kivas just killed. Taunts Data for not being able to feel angry or upset or to really want revenge. He contemplates how this must be “just another of life’s puzzles for Data”

Data is standing there holding the weapon and twitching a little the whole time, but otherwise appears calm and normal. Finally, Kivas comes to the conclusion Data has no choice but to go sit among his possessions. Data does not visibly become animated in any way, but they give a chilling “I cannot let this continue” and break their programming on the spot to press the trigger. That’s not even about escape anymore- you can tell Data wanted to murder that man.

More examples-

Data seems to be hurt when he realizes that one of the things Lore has told them is a lie, despite how constantly he lied. Data literally pauses the conversation to shoot Lore a look and say “…Another lie.”

Data smiles after an emotional moment with his mother

Data works with an incredible fervor to save their daughter from death, but (seems) unaffected after her death

Basically, the core chemical process is still there. (Well, maybe not in exactly the same way since Data is made differently, but you get the jist.)

How could I adapt this to my sims 4 rp system?

Well, I look at like, how sims emotions work. Sims have an array of moodlets and whatever has the most points becomes the dominant emotion. If Happy is not the dominant emotion, or the top positive emotion, it boosts positive emotions. Mods I like to use have Uncomfortable work the same way for negative emotions. There are tasks you can do to make moodlets run out faster, but only if that emotion is the dominant emotion- you can punch a punching bag to relieve anger, but only if the Sim is angry. There is a mod that has some other effects for “using up” some emotions not included in the game. Also- there’s an emotional inertia mod- I follow the classic roburkey modifiers for this one. this makes it so that once a Sim has an emotion, they stay in it longer, and it’s more resistant to change. Also, moodlets generated by Emotional Traits have varying intensity (1-3, randomly).

Basically most of this works differently for Data.

No emotional traits without the chip, for one.

Since they never feel their moodlets, they last much longer.

They have to have the moodlets to be Very something before it starts to affect the way they act- it wouldn’t affect their expressions, but their behavior. Like a sim who is Sad might have the Gloomy walk cycle and occasionally cry- Data will stay calm, like they’re fine, but like a Sad sim, they’ll be less interested in their interests and more likely to disengage from conversations and hobbies.

a few sims 4 emotions work without the chip, mainly because I don’t consider some of them really “emotions” in the sense I think they’d be affected by the chip. Focused and Energized, for big examples. Tense, even. Still no inertia for these, though- i feel like inertia is an emotional phenomenon.

Since Sims emotions strongly affect when they get new traits, likes, dislikes, and sentiments, I think they’ll have mainly their 4 traits (in the absence of traumatic events, which might change a trait) and that be it till we activate the chip. They’ll still have the relationship bars for Friendship and Romance, but Romance Satisfaction won’t have much of a function until they can get likes and dislikes for Romance Styles and other turn ons and turn offs.

[winderlylandchime]

1/2 and we are at 4x06. He came back and sat down and went ‘okay so i am now fully relaxed and chill. I talked to myself in the mirror. And we both agreed that going forward, i will be now more calm.’ ‘What is this? Ohhhh Kinnetik launch party! awww he gave the check back. I knew it was killing him to accept the help…quick question, why didn’t he remove the showers? JUSTIN! Are we back to normal? Oh shit, Deb and Em are roommates!! BLONDIE IS BACK! MY BLONDIE IS BACK! Aww Brian, is gonna make a speec- why the fuck is Lindsay following him up there? Girl get the fuck out, you have nothing to do with any of this. AWW FEMALE BLONDIE IS UP THERE. See! SHE makes sense. Linds doesnt. AND JUSTIN! Now he makes sense because HE NAMED IT! Shoo lindsay, this isnt your moment. LOOK AT THEM KISSING! I LOVE THIS! This was nice! Finally my blondie is back!’ ‘Now why the fuck is Debbie ignoring Vic? Right, she’s angry but still. RAGE? A MOVIE?! HOLY FUCKING SHIT! She needs to stop being a bitch to Vic. I get shes angry but still’ ‘awwww he immediately went to Brian to tell him the news! Of course he did. MY BLONDIE IS BACK! That’s right Brian, go back to school Justin! Look at him making time to celebrate Justin. AWWWW’ ‘TED! AND EM! oh shit, this is gonna be tough, isn’t it? Yeah, i was right, this is tough. Fuck. I feel ripped in half. Im happy for Ted, i understand Em, but i want them to be friends again. Fuck’ ‘oh ben is miserable. And jealous and a bitch. Bro, he is your partner, you’re supposed to be supportive no matter what. Fuck you man’ ‘okay, i get Ted but dude! Come on. Hasn’t Blakey been through enough? Let that man live, he can’t catch a fucking break’ ‘FINALLY VIC AND DEBBIE MADE UP! We have a lot of catching up to do so let’s get to it babies! *waves to deb and vic* this is us when we grow up. Why is she bringing up what all she did for him because of aids? That’s wrong. I take it back, this isn’t us when we grow up. OH FUCK YOU DEBBIE! TOTALLY NOT US! NOT US! NEVER US!’ *he forced me to pinky promise that that wont be us* ‘did they change babylon? I dont remember this bench thing, because i know for a fact that they wouldve fucked on it by season 2. Ohhh Justin being sassy to Brian. Ohhh ibiza *says it like justin and then brian corrects justin* okay, my bad. He could have anything he wanted and he is betting school? HE REALLY CARES ABOUT HIS EDUCATION AND FUTURE. Fellas, how about this, you both fuck him. That way, you go to ibiza AND back to school? Win win’ ‘no Ben, the only piece of shit here is you. What a jealous prick. Who does that? Mike literally told him that he shouldnt judge his book cause he’s not smart enough since he didnt go to community college, which was fucked up b-t-w just to make up for hurting his feelings and this fucker cant even pretend to be happy for a moment? Fuck you. YEAH, GO OFF MIKE’ ‘aw Blake and Emmett. I need them to be friends. Oh god, i just had a realization. I sound like that chick in mean girls who wanted to bake cupcakes and make everyone friends. Blake, deserves the world!’ And now we are at the Britin/gym scene ‘it took 4 seasons for Justin to go with him to the gym? Bullshit, this man was stalking Brian like crazy in season 1. He would’ve had gym membership AND his personal trainer by episode 3. Ohhh its that guy! Damn, Brian really wants him to go back to school. What is he doing? Justin, what did you do? CRABS? What a little shit. I missed this. I missed them’ ‘Lindsay, what the fuck are we doing here again? Bagel? Hair and outfit, looking like that? Babe, what is going on? This is weird AND creepy. DUDE HANDS OFF HER ASS! WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON. YOU SHOULD’VE PUNCHED HIM HARDER AND LET HIM FALL! PIG’

Brother shouting about Lindsay being up on the stage at the launch party is so correct. WHY IS SHE THERE?

Your brother getting all worried and upset about Vic and Debbie's fight. I'm going to cry.

BRIAN DOES CARE ABOUT JUSTIN'S EDUCATION! I am so soft about that.

it took 4 seasons for Justin to go with him to the gym? Bullshit, this man was stalking Brian like crazy in season 1. He would’ve had gym membership AND his personal trainer by episode 3 OKAY I snorted at that. So accurate.

UGH the start of Lindsay and that guy. UGH

[mountttmase]

That's going to be super long but i already warned you a few days ago🫢😂

Fuck she’s pretty, the voice in his head told him and he gulped lightly before shaking the thoughts from his brain

The thought of getting in a small enclosed space with you made his mouth feel dry and his palms sweat but he knew he needed to keep his cool and as soon as the lift pinged open, he motioned for you to step inside. Why the fuck am I freaking out? He laughed to himself, but each time he looked at you he felt his heart give a small thump. OMG I'M LOVING HIS INTERN THOUGHTS

The guys making fun of him asking him if he's sure she's real, and then tadan she's here

You looked as good as he’d ever seen you and from the way his heart felt like it was about to burst from his chest he knew he was in trouble. He was already in love🤗🫢

The fact you’d been dragged away for most of the night drove him insane so when he finally got the chance to be around you his mind had gone blank. I LOVE THAT YOU EXPLAINED WAY HE DIDN'T TALK WITH HER THAT NIGHT

‘What are you wearing?’ He asked, only noticing now the black hoodie you suddenly had on and an unfamiliar feeling of jealousy settled in his tummy. Little jealous boy, she's yours don't worry

Your arms were suddenly thrown around his shoulders, face in his neck and it took him a beat to try and work out what was happening but as if on instinct he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you close to him, revelling in the way your body seemed to fit so perfectly with his. He’d been dreaming of this moment for weeks, wondering if it ever might happen but here you were. Pressed up against him and the feeling of your breath on his neck was sending him into orbit. THATS THE SWEETEST THING EVER, OMG IM GOING TO CRY

Mason knew something was up, you’d been quieter than normal all morning but he wasn’t sure why. Maybe it was the hangover from all the alcohol from the night before or maybe it was the regret of waking up next to him but he felt useless and unsure of what to say to you again as he stacked the dishwasher. OHH THAT HURTS

‘I’d like that’ he told you and he felt his heart race at the fact you wanted to change your rules for him. Ooooo🤗

‘What’ he breathed, and his heart broke even more as you looked away so he wouldn’t see you cry. WOW IT DIDN'T HURT THAT MUCH IN HER POV

Why you were making him play spin the bottle he had no idea. The the thought of possibly having to see you kiss someone else was making him sweat and he couldn’t figure out why you’d seemed so insistent on playing what was practically a kids game. Jealous boy part 2, I knew he was dying inside

Mason stood up on instinct, reaching down to grab you by the hands so nothing looked too suspicious but he was freaking out at the possibility of maybe getting to kiss you. SCREAMING

Mason felt a shift in the bed, the click of the bathroom door waking him up fully and in the pit of his stomach he knew something was wrong. He just wasn’t sure what yet. AND THERE WE CAN START CRYING

There you were, out of your pyjamas and dressed in the clothes you’d bought to leave in the next morning. He could tell you were visibly upset and knew he had to be careful with you but the uncertainty of what was happening confused him. The fact that he knew that he had to be delicate but at the same time he was hurr and was not able to control himself hurts

Your face was unchanged as he ripped into you, but he turned away as he felt his first tears fell down his cheeks. He knew you’d seen them but he still wanted a little dignity if that was even possible at this point. IM CRYING WITH YOU DONT WORRY

‘She basically threw herself at me. Told me she wanted me and I told her that things would change if we did. She told me she knew but once we were done she’s just got dressed and fucked off like I’m nothing. I thought we were on the same page but she basically lied to me so I’d sleep with her’ Ooooo🥲

‘Look mate, I know you’re angry but please just think it over a bit when you’re ready. I’m pretty sure she’s just scared. I’ve seen the way she looks at you and the way you are together and unless she’s a pretty good actress I don’t think there’s a way she could fake that’ Ben reasoned but Mason wasn’t in the mood to agree. Simply nodding his head but leaving after a quick goodbye. BEN, I LOVE YOU (just when you're the cute friend in fics, sorry)🤗

He could still see your face the morning he’d dropped your bag off at your flat, the way it had dropped even further at the sight of him and the way you screamed at him out of hurt and frustration. He couldn’t blame you, he’d shouted at you too but now he knew how it felt he was willing to do anything for your forgiveness. YOU LOST ME THERE

I loved Freya, she was protective with the two of them, not only y/n and that hug🥲

‘Can you tell her that… that whenever she’s ready I’ll be waiting. I haven’t wanted to push her or anything but I’m getting desperate. No matter when or where I’ll be ready for her, yeah?’ 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

He was awake and thinking of her while she was down stairs 🥲🥲🥲

OK, that was even better than what I was thinking, you've overdone yourself here

Thank you for bringing them back to us 🩷🩷🩷

This series will forever have a soft spot in my heart

THIS IS SO LOVELY THANK YOU 🩷🩷🩷

I love getting to read all your favourite parts cause they’re my favourite parts too 🥺

But I’m happy they’re back too I’ve missed sharing them with you 🥹

[heartmatic]

Song recc time teehee..

I Wish I Never Met You by Babygirl, Sunflower by Michele Leigh, maybe Man by Quinnie if Rover was (RIGHTFULLY !!) salty as hell......

Some lyrics in Never Love An Anchor by Crane Wives makes me think a bit.. "On some level I think I always understood that these hands of mine were clumsy not clever / So I tried to do the best that I could, but try as I might I couldn't bring myself to hold you".. oough. "This heart of mine that's guilty, not remorseful"; Because Andre knows he fucked up and he feels really bad for it, but he (at the moment) didn't regret being straight up, because he felt it'd keep them both from getting more hurt in the future.. he's not sorry for doing what he thought was the right thing, but he feels terrible about hurting Rover how he did

After Midnight or Casual by Chapel Roan mayhaps.. AM feels a lot more Andre cuz of how bubbly it is… Duvet by Bôa…

Can you tell I really like Rover being upset with Andre after the conversation, because I am. Androver saves the world. That's all for now GOODNIGHT !!!!!! 💥💥

hai monroe 😁

I Wish I Never Met You.. yes... i have a similar song (more angry) Turbulant by Waterparks. rovers not a regret person he doesnt dwell but man he does get pissy abt it sometimes like oh ok. i shouldnt have ever done all this..... SUNFLOWER classic..... almost even andre pov bc hes. dumb. LIKE doesnt rlly understand fully at first why rovers so mad at him after the Talk. assumed it would all go back to normal......... AND YESSS man by quinne. salty rover. i think that describes a lot of his emotions after the fact so well... thinking abt this too. looks into the distance

Never Love An Anchor 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 oh so youw ant me dead........................ BC YEA!!! HE THOUGHT HE WAS RIGHT!! he freaked and thought that it was the best decision in the moment... it gets more clear to him as rover distances from him more (literally cuts* him off, back to just coworkers and rover tries to move back to his old department/diff position...)

ive never rlly fully gotten into a chapell song im interested...

After Midnight yesss a bit more andre but i could see it as both ish. duo song..... loosening up with eachother smileee <33

Casual. wait . youre cooking. their whole early relationship was just "no strings attached!" i made them fuck buddies back then idk if ill keep that but you get the idea.... whole casual thing "I thought you thought of me better Someone you couldn't lose" guh

DUVET IS SO REAL another classic ive heard a lot but never rlly listened to the lyrics of... the whole lying thing with andre i love. i think hes kind of an ass liar (i think abt the virus minion thing LOL) rover kinda can always tell at least......

THANK YOU MONRGEHJFALG i heart when yoiu give me songs i jump up and down im sorry im always late to them . AND YES i hearttttt thinking abt it too..... i thought abt it so much back then that recently i said, wait. lets go back to situationship androver and now i post abt it a lot again LOL, ppl must know... so many songs abt getting hurt by love........... its hard to find particular ones that i love for rover but youre getting some im v happy. i shoudl jsut make a new playlist for this specific era of androver

[bexisanidiot]

Me randomly remembering that Bee during any form of psychotic episode (like PTSD for example) is fucking horrible.

Someone has probably died because they got too close to her during a PTSD episode. Even if they were trying to help. She might've unintentionally hurt Quiet before.

This can also be an example that psychotic episodes can vary, and it's not always just eating ice cream while crying with messy hair in bed.

Bee isn't a normal stereotypical mentally ill person. When she has episodes like a PTSD episode people get fucking hurt when they're in arms length of her, Mantis probably learned that the hard way himself and they probably eventually talked about it or he accepted it maybe cuz he understood that that is a moment where Bee is mentally vulnerable, her adrenaline is spiked, and she's incredibly on edge so she's basically feral in a way(???)

No, im not saying it's okay to hurt people, and she's know that too but usually when you're in a bad state of mind you don't really think it through (depending how bad it is) and her reaction to anyone getting close to her is usually violence.

Personally (and for example), I can get super violent when I'm upset or simply just overstimulated. I haven't killed anything, but I have hurt a friend or two because of a minor inconvenience that happened when I was already angry and heavily overstimulated. Yes, I know that's bad, and I feel bad because I did that. I am making trying my best not to do that.

Anyways, I might hear, "But Bex, that's a little extreme if she does that out of PTSD!😨😨" Everyone's episodes are different, of course. But you gotta consider the fact that Bee is literally a war veteran both as both a victim and a soldier. She had a kid against her will at 14 or 15 and that kid was stripped away from her before she could even hold it. She suffered a lot from just Vietnam on its own. Her body is COVERED in scars such as burns, cuts, stab wounds, and gunshot wounds. She's been through so much before she was even 35, she is not okay

[tri-punisher]

every time ive had some stupid fucking episode that made me completely despondent and want to die 100x more than i normally do what managed to calm me down enough i could think clearly was doing shit like impulsively opening a youtube tab and watching dumbass fucking tf2 sfm vids or coming across some old posts on here that made me laugh despite tears stinging my cheeks because i was so upset only 10 or so minutes prior that i was fantasising about what might be left of me if my tiny little 3 door car got t-boned by an 18 wheeler.

if i were in a position where i was actively suicidal and had a plan and Really wanted to hurt myself and not just do what i have been doing for the past 15 or so years of my life which is hope and wish every fucking day that something very sudden and very violent happens to me so it could all be over and i didnt have to worry about anything ever again and someone came to me and said "nooooo dont do itttttt nooooo your family would be so upsetttt what about your friendsss noooo :((" it'd honest to god make me want to do it more. i dont need dumbass fucking platitudes about some hypothetical "it gets better!!!!" future i may or may not even end up seeing anyway through no fault of my own, i dont need reminders about my family that sucks fucking shit, i need distractions. i would need something to delay me enough that i calm down a bit and think Oh okay i dont actually feel all that bad. What am i doing. i wouldnt want someone to ask me about why im this bad because that doesnt really matter. fact is i Am this bad right now. id want someone to ask me what my favourite game is. ask me what kind of music i like. ask me what my favourite animals are. fucking talk to me about anything that isnt just making me repeat why everything is so unbearable it lead to this point.

like we all know that directly addressing the material social and economical conditions that are making so many people so completely miserable and hopeless that they are driven to take their own lives in the first place would eliminate that issue. if that cant be changed you should probably stop trying to make people feel bad for wanting to find ways to stop their own suffering. least you can do in the meantime is try to give them something else to focus on. if my attempts at trying to talk someone down ended up with them even more angry and upset i probably wouldnt try to guilt or shame them into not being receptive to something that was never going to work in the first place

people keep saying this shit but like what are you supposed to do when the idea of someone "missing" you doesnt really matter to you. like again i am the one in enough pain i want to die. what is the prospect of someone missing me supposed to do to assuage that? not like im gonna be around to witness any of that grief. Lol

[lhecxzsaisgay]

Sorry - Scarlett Johansson

Warning: None.

Angsty and fluff.

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No one's POV:

You didn't remember the reason why the two of you started to fight anymore. Hours and hours of shouting here and there with so many different topics coming up in every seconds. You just confronted her on being so busy this days, i mean, you know and understand her line with work, but this past few weeks you felt as if you're just a chore for her.

Why is it so hard for her to understand where you are coming from? Because as the shouting gone by, she's flipping the table, and she's coming at you, saying things that's not true, which really hurt you. While Scarlett, is just too tired and exhausted from work, that her anger got triggered when you confronted her, and became too blinded on where you are coming from.

They said that these things, the fightings, is normal in a relationship, but it gets really tiring, so after the last sentence she shouted at you which is "Fuck, why can't you just shut the fuck up?! Can't you understand it? I'm working, and i've been busy!". You just shut your mouth, and made your way to the kitchen.

She made you felt as if you're in the wrong, as if you're the wrong one here, while all you just wanted is a free time from her, it may just be an hour or two, you didn't really care, because all you wanted was her, but now, she took the confrontation the other way.

So, currently, you're here at the kitchen, cooking dinner, while she went upstairs to take a very much needed shower. Even though you're very upset at her, the care you have for her still didn't go away, and the fact that she's tired and exhausted from work, makes you feel like you should still make her feel all better and cared for, that's how you love her.

Now, back to Scarlett, as she take a shower, her mind went back on earlier moments, analyzing and calculating your words, and her words, trying to make out on who's truly wrong. A fight that started from a small conversation. As her mind became wider and more clearer, she realized that she's the one who's in fault.

Because, as much as she don't want to believe it, she been so busy, so busy that her busyness makes her almost forgot about you. Her heart swell in guiltiness, and regrets because of the things she said to you. It almost made her angry with herself, on how dumb she is for not seeing through you, and for not understanding you well.

So, after she's done and all clean up, she quickly turned the shower off, then drying off and putting a much more comfortable clothes on. Then going down the stairs to look for her girl, only to be met by the smell of her favorite food. All she wants to do is to hug you, say sorry, and to whisper comforting words. Her wandering stopped until she found you in the kitchen, and only now did she notice that you're wearing her clothes, from head to toe, it's all of her clothes, it only made her realized more of how much you have really missed her.

And god, don't you look so cute and adorable wearing her clothes that are bigger than you.

Calmly making her way over to you, stoping when she's just behind you, peaking over on what you are cooking, as her arms found its way to your waist, pulling you closer to her until your back touches her front. Even though you don't really want to be near her at the moment, you just let her.

"That smells amazing, my love." She whispered lovingly in your ear, but you made no move and just continued cooking.

Hmp, she deserves this.

"I'm sorry, baby..." Once again, she was met by silence. "I'm really really really sorry, i should've known, im just really tired and exhausted that's why i snapped out, i don't even know where the words i said came from. I'm really sorry, please forgive me." She begged, hiding her face on the crook of your neck, as her hands snaked inside the shirt you are wearing, her fingertips dancing around you tummy soothingly.

She kept begging and apologizing, showering you with kisses, attention, and sweet words. But, you made no action on paying any mind to her.

Now, it's time to eat, but you're still ignoring her, you just eat, while she stared at you. You're halfway, and her stare is really bothering you, plus, the food is getting cold, and ofcourse, you being the caring girlfriend, and with the looks she's giving you, you know she won't eat until you talk to her.

"Aren't you going to eat?" Your voice is calm, it's not as warm as it used to be, but it's not that cold either.

"I am." She squeaked out, she sounds like she's fighting her tears, making you look up.

"Then what are you waiting for? The food will get cold." You said, pointing at the food.

"Talk to me, then I'll eat." She said, her voice is now breaking, her heart cannot contain the pain of you, ignoring her as if she's not there.

"Am i not talking to you right now?" You ask with a raise of an eyebrow, as if it's the most obvious thing. She shook her head, and you see tears started to brim out of her eyes, making you feel bad for the way you're treating her.

Damn, she's so sorry already, why can't you just accept it then move on. But, you want her to feel how you felt, you have valid reasons.

"I'm saying sorry to you, and you won't even acknowledge me." She said, which came out as a whisper as tears fell out of her eyes, which she quickly wipe, then lean back on her chair, looking forward at the plate, avoiding your gaze.

And now, if you would look at your peripheral vision, Scarlett looks like a kid who is being scolded by her mother for not wanting to eat.

You almost felt bad just by looking at her, but it's making you laugh at the same time for how she is acting. Such a baby.

"Okay, sorry, i just- i just thought you would understand what i felt and realized what you did, which i think you do. I wil accept your apology, only if you promise me that you won't do that again." You said now more softly and warm, just how she loves.

"I promise, im really sorry, i really promise to have more time with you, and give you more attention that you deserve." She said, looking at you pleadingly and convincingly, then reaching out to hold you hand.

"Look, im not asking for so much, because i know you're a very busy person, i knew that from the first day i met you. But, an hour or two with you is enough, that's all im asking." You said, softly.

It makes her heart clench on how you're very desperate on having her by your side, it's just a very simple thing that she can't give you, a very simple, but a very heart-warming gesture. You just want her, while all she does is work.

"I'm really sorry, baby..." She started, as she reach over to pull you in her embrace. "I promise, i will give you more than just an hour or two, okay? I will take a break from work, and then we'll go on a vacation, just the two of us, how about that? Would you like that, my love?" She ask softly, hooking her index finger on your chin, making you look up at her.

"You don't have to do that, im just asking yo-" You tried to reason, not wanting to be a burden or anything to stop your girlfriend from doing her work, but you were cut off by Scarlett.

"Shhh, i want to, okay? I want to make it up to you, im just giving you what you deserve, plus we would really need that, i've been busy, and work is really hectic, plus, we would have much more time with each other. Work is nearly done anyways. Pleaseeee?" She begged as she gave you a puppy eyes at the end, making you sigh in defeat.

I mean, the idea of going on a vacation, just the two of you, no works, or anything that can interrupt the both of you, is a good thing right? No, it's amazing.

"Okay, okay, fine. We'll go." You said, and smiled softly at her, which she returned with much more big smile. She lean in to kiss you, and you met her halfway.

The kiss is deep, full of love and passion, but before it can lead to something more, you quickly pull away, much to her dismay.

"Okay, okay, stop, let's eat." You said, chuckling when she groaned.

"Why do we even need to eat?! We're just gonna poop it out anyways." She whined, making you slap her playfully.

"Hey, we're infront of the food." You scolded her while laughing, which made her laugh too, and said a small 'sorry'.

Before she started to eat, she softly capture your face with one hand, and gave your pink plump lips a multiple pecks, that you needed to stop her because she doesn't want to stop.

"Okay, big baby, you're being too spoiled with so many kisses already." You teased, and she pouted, but it quickly go away when you gave her a kiss.

"Now, go on, eat up." You said, which she quickly obliged.

"I love you." She said lovingly, before shoving a food in her mouth.

"I love you too."

[pinkslashersimp]

Hannibal x reader req

What if you got into a fight with Hannibal like an argument over idk what and you brought up his dead sister?

MY FIRST ANGST REQ i’m gonna have fun w this one bye

u didn’t specify which so as usual i’ve included both for u💗💗

TW: Graphic depiction of murder, angst, Hannibal being kind of a dick. if this upsets or triggers you in anyway please scroll past and stay safe🤍

Hannibal x GN!Reader - Arguments 🌷💗

OG Hannibal

Arguably the scarier Hannibal, with much less patience.

It had been a painfully long day, and after arriving home from work an argument ensued with Hannibal over how much time you’d been focusing away from your personal life

“I’m worried, darling, it’s almost as if your boss is trying to steal you away from me” he teased, his back turned to you as he sliced and diced onions into tiny pieces for your dinner tonight

“God, Hannibal can you please just leave it? Youre acting like every man is going to take me from you or some stupid shit. I’m not your fucking sister.”

The fact you could spit something so hurtful towards him is both upsetting and amusing to this man

Theres something almost comedic about you, a tiny kitten, scratching at the big scary lion

Theres something almost comedic about you, a tiny kitten, scratching at the big scary lion

It’s dangerous.

He slowly reared around to face you, knife still in his hand, glistening from the food he was just preparing.

He turns his head slightly at you, staring straight into your eyes and refusing to break the uncomfortable eye contact. His mouth twists itself into something of an amused smile 

He searches your expression, figuring out what reaction you were looking for from him

“Come here.” He orders, something sinister behind his calm facade and chilling hiding behind his chill tone

You take a small step back, laughing uncertaintly. This must be some sort of game, right? 

Hannibal usually plays mind games with you, sometimes acting scary to playfully frighten you. 

Except he usually breaks the character once you become visibly nervous. This time, he wasnt. 

“Im serious, love. Come here and repeat what you’ve just said.” He takes a step forwards, his hands behind his back and he leans in. “I want to hear you say it.” He hisses through his teeth

“Im sorry...”

NBC Hannibal

It wasn’t a bad argument, you were just sick of Hannibals controlling presence around you all the time, making you jump every time he came near you. 

“Stop this silliness.” He ordered, creeping towards you.

“Or what? You’ll kill me? Eat me just like your sister?”

Shock.

That’s his first initial reaction.

He told you about that with complete trust, he let himself be vulnerable enough to open up to you because he loves and cares about you, and you’re using it against him?

Then, anger.

How dare you?

He feels it boiling inside him, quickly ascending from his feet, pooling and turning inside his stomach like a sick, hot, bile. Before continuing upwards towards his head, causing an agonising pounding and ache. For a moment he truly doesn’t know how he should respond to your comment. 

In any normal situation (or what’s considered normal to him) , he would’ve leapt upon you and stolen the breath from your throat by clasping both his huge hands around your tiny, fragile neck and squeezing hard with all his vicious, angry strength. Painfully crushing your oesophagus as he smothers you to death.  Leaving you lifeless and limp beneath him as a product of his blind rage. 

Then, of course, dismembered your corpse and eaten you whole.

He ponders that thought for a moment, whilst staring completely dead pan into your eyes

There’s more than just a hint of anger reflected in his expression, watching him hopelessly attempt to cover it with his poker face is both amusing to you and horrifying to observe. You’ve seen what this man is capable of, and been an unfortunate witness to the multiple atrocities and death he’s caused. To think that you could become one of them in a matter of seconds is terrifying.

You’d wanted a reaction, but not one this frightening.

Your fear is evident, written all over your face and body as your eyes widen and you tense up, leaning away from your lover, too scared to take a step back in case he takes one forward. 

In a matter of a few, long, agonisingly drawn out seconds, Hannibal finally made his move.

He spun on his heel, and silently left the room. Walking away to another part of the house, anywhere, so long as it was away from you. 

It wasn’t an issue of disgust towards you, it was a lack of self control. The thought of killing, whilst exhilarating to him, felt wrong when it was you. 

But still, you’d crossed a very dangerous line, and the anger mixed with the harsh, bitter feelings of betrayal would cause him to act rather...vulgarly. 

He doesn’t sleep in the same bed as you that night, he uses one of the guest bedrooms. Still to resentful to speak to you to kick you out of his bedroom. 

There are no dinner conversations. He’ll sit and eat with you, but refuses to speak to or look at you. 

He’d explain that you need to apologise, but each time he thinks about confronting you his feelings gather in his stomach again, twisting his abdomen making him feel sick and furious over and over

It takes you less than a week to approach him whilst he’s busy in the library, reading over some patients files and pretending he doesn’t see you as you nervously block the doorway

“Hann...” You croak. He glances upwards.

“I’m really sorry...”