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I can’t believe that so many people in the watcher fandom have never made a mistake and said something that they didn’t realize was in poor taste. It’s wild that so many people have never said something that people took a different way than intended. Insane that they never had to apologize for anything ever. Also crazy that apparently all these people who have never even tried to start a business seem to automatically know better about running a business that is generated solely by making free content in the hopes that people will pay money for more things. So cool that they’ve never made a mistake in their lives.
#watcher#ryan bergara#shane madej#steven lim#watcher entertainment#watcher weekend#watcher weekend 2024#why can’t ppl just get over this#apparently when you’re famous you’re not allowed to make mistakes or say things that come across differently than intended#even if you actually genuinely apologize#and actually listen to your fans and try to right your wrongs#like yeah ok they made a mistake#they’re humans. trying to make money. because it’s a capitalist society.#get over it#for the love of god
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N tries to tell another joke (gone wrong)
Sequel to This
#if you see any mistakes uhh no you don't#yknow i am a huge multishipper and i love almost every ship in this fandom#but id be lying if i said i didnt find envy to be like one of the most romantic relationships in MD#like??#"Loving you is so fundemental to who I am that even when my brain is digitally lobotomized and I can't even remember why#like hello Liam Vickers yeah its me again why the FUCK would you DO THAT#I think even if envuzi wasn't actually canon. I entirely believe that you can't actually seperate them anyway#like it kills me that the entirety of Murder Drones. N and V are in love with eachother. like mutually#and they still are. and thats just how things are.#I'd go further but this is literally a shitpost and I don't wanna make the tags a mile again#I'm just a yapper ok. I yap abt the robots#anyway uhhhh this comic isnt even super envuzi but since its a sequel to the last one ill tag it. why not#murder drones#serial designation n#serial designation v#uzi doorman#murder drones lizzy#md lizzy#nuvi#violentbitingbiscuits#envuzi#vuzin#nvuzi#thank you to the person that made we aware of all the different varients of these threes ship name sdlkfjsdf#kinda in love w/ nvuzi cuz it doesnt look good as a word but it funnier to me cuz of that dslkfjsdf
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i know astrology is fake but i'm not too keen on how a lot of people on this website seem to be clowning on it as a hobby a bit too hard. i swear the woman who thinks it's neat how she and her friends with the same sun sign are all similar isn't trying to say that you are who you are born as and there is nothing you can do to change it. it's a hobby. an interest. what happened to finding meaning and joy in the small things. does it affect you if someone enjoys tarot reading or crystals. does it make you upset someone has interests that they enjoy.
#im not saying astrology/tarot/crystals/etc. get clowned on so much bc theyre hobbies mostly enjoyed by women But....#i saw a post about some astrology study and made the mistake of opening the notes on that bad boy#not fun. and that reminded me of that old post that was basically like ''liking astrology is transphobic''#anyways idk maybe its just that my bestie is very much a ''crystal girl'' but like. stuff like that are such neat hobbies#she makes some cute little jars with pretty rocks and they make her feel better bc if you believe in something you can make it happen#when it comes to small things#like yeah if you pick up a stone that's like ''this can help you be more open with your emotions'' and you are like ''oh hell yea!''#ofc that will be on your mind and the item will be a constant reminder and actually help you with your goals#and its like. ok what really stuck with me was when i was talking with my bff and i was like ''i think all this stuff is interesting but i#feel bad bc i am superstitious and believe in some signs like lucky numbers but i know that logically its just. if i pick a lucky number of#i pay extra attention to it but i want to believe its lucky but i know how human brains work in that aspect''#and she was just like. ''so? those things dont have to exclude each other'' and it clicked#if i have a little tigers eye with me it does not make me feel more grounded magically#but if i decide (or believe) it's grounding then it will b bc it's a reminder for me to calm down#and stuff#like. ah idk how to put my thoughts into words#but i just think its unfair that a few rotten apples have ruined the perception of fun hobbies for a lot#not every astrology enjoyer is trying to sell you mlm essential oils or genuinely believe peoples entire lives are dictated upon the stars#or something#idk i just feel like these things are v misunderstood even tho im not personally like super into them myself#but ppl super mean about that stuff arent invited to look at my medieval themed fortune telling cards#idkk im sleepy and cant articulate my points someone else say this but better#leevi talks#im just saying. i dont think its bioessentialism to decide to believe you personally have a season for growth when the stars are in a#certain position or whatever
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I honestly feel a lot better about having posted anything at AO3, even things I won't finish, and there's something that warms my heart about posting fic for The Borgias in 2024.
I was actually deciding between two different WIPs to represent that "phase" between my undergrad years and grad school. The other one was the prologue to a Legend of Korra/Star Wars fusion in which Noatak/Amon is Korra's father and this is revealed in S1 (I think it was going to be Tarrlok who figures it out first, lol) and it actually affects the plot and it isn't just the LOK canon plot with minor adjustments—the fusion with SW was meant to be more than vague I-am-your-father inspiration. In any case, I only ever wrote the prologue about the Noatak/Senna quasi-romance that led to Korra's existence and never even got to the sheer comedy of Korra as Tarrlok's niece :(
But the Juan and Lucrezia as dysfunctional twins one-shot is closer to being a whole fic (in a side-story way) and I did like being able to add one more to my Borgias oeuvre—and getting at least some part of that AU on AO3 after all the time I spent on it!
#anghraine babbles#fic talk#i don't think senna actually ends up with tonraq in the au so there's no easy I Have A Real Dad option#and korra grows up knowing that her parents spent a genuinely wonderful year together before a ship he was in tragically sank#(this is not actually noatak's fault - he'd actually disembarked and chosen to disappear before the shipwreck happened#and just appreciated the convenience of it effectively covering his tracks after he'd made the 'mistake' of getting attached to senna#who fully believes he was in the shipwreck and is very dead)#so korra's heard all these (true!) stories of how cool the 22-y-o charismatic super waterbender noatak seemed to senna#meanwhile tarrlok discovers just who her father was and is like 'ok she's DEFINITELY getting the satomobile. but for different reasons')#the publishing au is actually incredibly involved (it's the bay area borgias fic as well!) but just focusing on juan and lucrezia#made it more possible to compress into a reasonably sized one-shot#in reality i wrote about the kids in school and how rodrigo bulldozed into their lives when their much older brother luis tragically died#vanozza is the second of his various ex-wives. also i included an adriana del milà expy even though it's very much borgias fic bc i love he#and yes she /is/ still the mother-in-law of the giulia expy :D#lucrezia ended up getting moved ahead a year from juan and joins cesare in befriending The New Kid#miguel aka micheletto - who thus is a high school friend of theirs and has complicated feelings about everything#but never forgot that teenage cesare and lucrezia stood by him when he was involuntarily outed in their school c. 2002.#lucrezia is the most obvious nepo baby of the company but actually fantastic at marketing while cesare is the creative one#but rodrigo has convinced himself that juan is the creative genius bc he(r) likes him(j) best and obviously has infallible judgment#but yeah it dovetails into the bay area au in which the alfonso d'aragona expy is lucrezia's boyfriend al from pleasanton#he doesn't like her living in the house her family owns outright in oakland for reasons he never manages to explain!)#political shenanigans and codependent siblings#avatar: the legend of korra
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i’ve had this long list of td surname headcanons (and i guess some of them are nationality headcanons) for a while and haven’t done much about them, so…
here are each generation’s surnames! (except for rr since i’m not too confident about them)
gen 1:
harold norbert cheever doris mcgrady V
cody emmett jameson anderson
lindsay tyson
noah könig (german)
eva barta (czech)
izzy clark
owen fraser
trent evans-grant
gwen kennedy
heather ryeo
bridgette summers
leshawna simelane (south african iirc)
beth spring
devon ‘dj’ joseph
alejandro burromuerto (spanish)
sierra kauffman (german)
tyler wilson
ezekiel miller
courtney cortez (spanish, or from somewhere where they speak spanish primarily)
duncan butcher
katie wan (malaysian)
sadie peterson (originally was gonna give her a romanian surname but here is peterson)
justin kāne (hawaiian)
geoff jasper
gen 2:
josef ‘jo’ kaczmarek (Polish)
brick macarthur
anne-maria chahuán (chilean)
michele ‘mike’ russo
cameron corduroy wilkins
rudolph ‘lightning’ jackson
staci sterling
zoey gates
dawn oakwood
scott brackin (irish)
dakota milton
sam stevens
beverly ‘b’ jones
gen 3:
ella ito-courtemanche (japanese and french)
scarlett montgomery
max mayhem (yes. i’m actually giving him that as his surname. get sillyed)
jasmine reynolds
shawn tremblay
dave korrapati (indian, more commonly in telugu-speaking areas)
sky sanderson (i was a bit uhm. stuck with this one. i looked up ‘cree surnames�� but found only three. i went for this one but i’m still uncertain.)
amy martin
samantha ‘samey’ martin
topher mccann
rodney rogers
sugar silo
beardo mbomio (equatoguinean)
leonard howe
gen 4:
nichelle ladonna (italian)
bowie davis
emma fletcher
julia hartwell-hughes
priya khan (indian)
millie carter
chase boonmee (thai. it means ‘reliable, generous, loyal’. ironic)
raj ghosh (indian)
wayne watterson
mary-kate ‘mk’ yí (chinese. in honour of fai yí, my beloved)
damien reid
hezekias ‘zee’ guzman (argentinian (it means ‘good man’ which is what he is!!!))
rhinffrew ‘ripper’ bowen (welsh (WELSH RIPPER REAL))
caleb garcia (hispanic)
axel sanchez-guðmundsdóttir (hispanic(?) and icelandic. yes, apparently ‘axel’ is an icelandic name!)
#ok i kept two of the comeback surnames. i actually really like them. bite me.#(i hope i used that phrase correctly)#btw geoff’s surname is based off this really nice person from my school i met during our oliver! production!#he doesn’t go to my school anymore because he graduated. i hope he’s doing well#i’m realising now that priya and raj’s surnames are both surnames of my classmates.#like i genuinely didn’t name them after these people. this is a total coincidence#IF there is any mistakes in this please correct me. a lot of these are taken from websites#(i made up the first gen surnames first…. i actually looked up ‘canadian surnames’ LMAO)#oh yeah i named noah after someone i know too (my german exchange partner). also he’s like. a king#I LOVE NAMING THINGS#IT’S SO FUN#naming characters is one of my favourite parts of creating characters#(although i accidentally named two octuplets characters after like. people idk.)#((and one character was nearly named after a WWI war general!))#ANYWAYS#total drama#td#I AM NOT TAGGING ALL THOSE CHARACTERS
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Oh ok. I get now why a lot of people didn't vibe with the ending.
All and all: excellent manga, overall very good final act, too rushed final 2-3 chapters but weak and honestly mediocre epilogue, which makes the high of the ending kind of leave a bitter taste. I think Noda had a good steed and suddenly he had to finish and had to rush all. So the ending in the sense of the final arc was good but the ending proper (final couple chapters) + epilogue......... Not so much
#i liked rhe ending (though made the mistake to read comments so now I'm like 'yeah you are right that did not make sense' when on my own i#probably would not have noticed. but ok. I'll work my suspension of disbelief. HOWEVER the epilogue WAS indeed very lackluster#i get it's an epilogue but it was so rushed. we barely get a closure for ume and saichi and tanigaki did not get to#take asirpa back to uci as he should have (though he was instrumental for that). overall it was super rushed#like we did not even see how Sugimoto was rescued. the epilogue was faaaar too rushed tbh and also too vague in parts#siraishi not really saying goodbye.... also sugimoto and asirpa living together that's cute idc and i think the line into nastyness was not#crossed but oh boy is it a thin thread... i still choose to believe they are platonic soulmates lol but i want to see an official#translation of the volume that's all i say. what else... oh yes. the way the gold never got to actually be distributed doesn't sit right#with me at all but the worst part was definitely the sugimoto/ume thing oh god that was BAD#we did get to see osoma which was cute#OH AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON VASILY??? We didn't even see him. the epoligue for him in particular was great though but his ending was not#like he just hanged around ogata gor chapters and chapters on end and we don't even get a glimpse of him during the final showdown??#tbh i think noda wanted to do something more with him but realized he did not quite fit into the story and in the end got#caught up with all the main lines he did have to close and he obviously had planned and probably combined with his own exhaustion well#did not go nice for vasily! i also would have liked a more proper epilogue for tsukishima and koito. they deserved it#I don't like how pre-epilogue the tsukishima-tsurumi-koito tension seems to reach a breaking point only to kind of not get resolved because#they have to keep fighting lol.#laura reads#also i get the sentiment of the ending regarding the ainu and i think noda did his best but it seems like a rather soft thing for asirpa to#do like... sure. museums and stuff. i GET it but it goes a little too soft in the actual colonialism that went on from the japanese. i feel#noda starts off fairly critical of that but in the end softens his stance which is a shame but ok. the bar is in hell so this is actually#much better than average from what i can personally gather of my little knowledge#golden kamuy#gk spoilers
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i had a dream that i made little cards that say "THEY!" on them that i handed out to people at work who got my pronouns wrong, immediately after they got it wrong. and in smaller text (or on the back) it said "i don't want an apology, i want you to do better" or "don't say you're sorry, DO BETTER" and ..... i kind of want to do it. maybe i'll get some moo cards made lmao
various scenarios included:
me slamming it down on a desk in front of them.
instead i had stickers, would slowly peel one off while they watched, and stick it on it on them.
handing out a quarter sheet piece of paper based on the 'i caught being good' tags we'd get in kindergarten which said 'i got caught misgendering hallie/my coworker'. it would have their name and date on it and a giant 🙁 face. i had them as a pad of paper and would hold up a finger to say 'wait a second', dramatically pull it out of my back pocket, take my pen out of another pocket, slowly fill it out in front of them, and hand it to them while staring them in the eyes.
getting a whiteboard for the outer side of my cubicle wall that said '[days] since i was misgendred' (with a bonus by saying 'last offender: [name]'
i also dreamt that i got into trouble for it because i was making people feel bad and was 'creating a hostile work environment'. i was just like.... okay and how do you think i feel? and my boss shut up real fuckin quick. dunno if that would be the case irl but if that does happen i can only dream.
#tired of the people who say 'i'm trying but i'm going to make mistakes'#ok sure i definitely mess up sometimes too but when it's not even close to 50/50 let alone merely uncommon ............. fuck you#what's sad is it's all people i like and it hurts so much#in the dream it the cards also said something about how i'm not a girl. not a lady. not a woman. stop saying that word to me ...#... in plural when i'm with female coworkers. about half the time i say 'not a lady' and only about half the time it's acknowleged#or that one who constantly posts female-empowering images on ig which are alienating bc it's clearly very binary#and getting comments like 'well it applies to you to!!!' why bc i have a pussy? fuck off#and she'll sometimes say 'thank you for your patience' (what patience) or 'have patience with me' (no.)#i've also thought of holding up my name tag in their faces bc my previous boss had it specially made for me#it's got my name position and pronouns#same boss tho..... he was REALLY consistent about using my pronouns but one day used she/her three times in a row before eventually...#... correcting himself and the next day i told him that really sucked especially from him and he later told me i should have been nicer...#... about it. i was PISSED. i said 'well then how should i have said it?' i don't even remember his answer i just know i wanted to go...#... off on him SO BADLY bc he said it 'hurt his feelings'. well too fucking bad bc every time i'm misgendered it makes me want to...#...die inside a little and feels like at the very least a tiny punch to the gut but that felt like being stabbed esp since it was a new hir#he also said 'ok but i corrected myself' yeah AT THE END after doing it THREE TIMES and that's not the point here#anyway lol this dream definitely stirred up shit unfortunately but i'm serious when i say i might actually have these made#like both my internal email and external emails have my pronouns in them (i had to campaign for this btw so thank you me)#but i recently added my own custom signature with 'they/them' in it that has a link about using pronouns correctly#me#lgbtq#nonbinary
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😓🤬
#I fucking hate doctors and the medical field so much#I was FINALLY starting to get on the right path#called a php place and think I know where I’m going#have a therapist I’ve been talking to here and there#I’ve been trying to get into a psych evaluation right?#called 5+ places the other day and they all had 5-8 month long waitlists#I need to get most of this shit done before June#so that ain’t gonna work#called the psych place my doctor referred me to#(would like to add that I did call this same place right after my doctor visit a few months ago and they never called me back)#so I had no hope they were even going to pick up#I was shocked when I heard someone picked up and even more shocked when they said they had an opening for fucking Wednesday#literally I felt like everything was finally aligning#I scheduled the appt for a zoom meeting at 10am#then I get a bunch of random emails saying my appointment was changed#now I have two different appointments- Wednesday and Thursday both at 9am and with a totally different doctor#so I was like???? ok guessing something happened but I didn’t think much of it - called to figure out what day it actually is#when I called to confirm they told me that I can’t be tested until I get an internal referral#I told them I did get a referral???#they looked at it and it was just a referral for depression not adhd or anything else#but then when they looked more into it they found in the notes she wanted me to get adhd testing#SO she just forgot to add it to my referral#I get people make mistakes#but this is like the 4th time something like this has happened lately#I’m just trying to be healthy#and it is fucking RIDICULOUS how incredibly hard it is to find the proper help#also the girl yesterday when I made the appointment said yes to all my questions but sounds like she doesn’t know what she’s talking about#was like ‘does this test for adhd and autism?’ ‘yeah for sure’ and then I find out they don’t even test for autism#so now I have to find a totally different person to either do both or just test for autism#either way I feel incredibly disheartened and overwhelmed and sad
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i will look back on my life at awkward things that happened and instead of cringing at them, i will think "this would happen to harry wouldnt it" and end up making stuff like this
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#disco elysium#kim kitsuragi#harry du bois#hdb#harrier du bois#harry disco elysium#harrykim#kimharry#i mean.. its there lmao not super visible but its there on harrys part as clear as day#but. yeah. yeah this has happened to me lmao not a mag or video but a secret third thing. good times. i still dont know#also im putting this in my drafts bc its 3 am and i dont even know if i made a mistake with the text or not so#i may check that once i can actually see before posting it#if you see these when i post this i have checked and decided i liked it as it is#ok the only thing im doing is the image description#ive never done that before i hope it works#also i hope i did that right shgsiugh i just think theres a lot of text so maybe it would be easier to try with this one?#ok but im leaving everything else as it was when i finished it at 3 am lmao i think that has its own charm im not double checking#the skills or the difficulty level of their checks or anything i think its fine as it is#digital art#i forgot i do tag that lmao
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I have woken up in a cold sweat with the realization that since The Grinning Thing wants everything and The Other Thing wants there to be nothing, I'm pretty certain Other Thing just accidentally fell in love with their trash can.
#Like#Ok so there needs to be a distinction made#Guy Manson is the human man at the start of the story. hes a dude who was chosen to be other thing's vessel/cocoon/whatever.#through a series of understandable but critical mistakes he fell in love with Grinning Thing before Other Thing melded with him#Thats why Other Thing can feel love and other human emotions and why they're in love with Grinning Thing specifically.#Guy and Other are basically the same person at the end. hes not dead and its not gone. theyve just merged#as Grinning Thing did with its host#but yeah after realizing that Guy managed to get close to Grinning#instead of just picking another easier target Other doubled down bc making ther be nothing is a Lot easier when you ah e something#that Wants and will get rid of everything if you give it to them#thats just their trashcan
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when i have pms it tricks me into getting upset other people are having babies and that i am undesirable for this purpose. im childfree by choice. hormones are evil. And i have to remind myself i just want to be the centre of attention from a partner for being pregnant and get fussed over and not to raise kids selflessly. it would drive me insane.
#my worst nightmare is being forgotten about because all attention is going to a baby even if it's MY baby.#so yeah. i just know it would be a mistake to test it out in case i 'change my mind' like bro BY HAVING A WHOLE HUMAN???#as i say id rather vaguely ponder what could have been than have a baby and regret it and resent it like that would be my fault#i have hella mommy issues. they say not 2 hold grudges but well feeling emotionally unsafe as a kid = no grandchildren 4 u#tw pregnancy#tw babies#when u have no positive modelling of motherhood + your mom made being a mom seem like the most soul crushing depressing task on earth lol#tho it's ok cause funnily enough i do enjoy being a mommy. for grown men (sweet baby boys) so i get my uhm maternal kicks there
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✨ i survived my very scary meeting ✨
#my machine learning model was not working well and my boss's boss was freaking out about it#and i felt Very Guilty because it made my whole team look bad and even though this wasn't like. a stupid mistake or anything#it was still something i should have caught but did not. but it's fixed now. met with boss's boss & everything's ok again#i've spent the last week literally sick over this 🥲#grumble grumble yeah i should go back to therapy blah blah blah#m.txt
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I guess thats the thing adaptations are always gonna feel the need to leave out shit for the sake of simplicity and I get it in some cases but if it gets to like “well we need to focus on his DID and dont have time to go into him being Jewish : (” well the comics had plenty of time for both in the same runs so maybe cut out some other shit!
#and yeah whatever years of character history vs 6 episodes of a show but the MacKay runs doing fine talking about both !#It doesnt have to be fucking one or the other what is this!#And I KNOW why they did that its because they wanted to do the fucking Lemire run in season 1#Because everybody knows the Lemire run and they didnt think to just change the fact that it skirted by the impact Marc's religious-#-upbringing had on him (because the Lemire run also kind of made this mistake and was also relying on#the reader knowing the characters previous history. But I think its a flaw with it)#its a weirdly common take in general with Moonknight that you cant focus on one aspect of the character without leaving out the others and-#I think its a bad take. Moench did it fine. jed's doing ok#The idea that you can only focus on him having mental issues or only focus on his issues with his faith or only focus on him being a#Cool Action Guy is weird and I dont know why people buy into it#besides most people have only read like Huston Ellis and Lemire#And Now MacKay#ok done now.
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ALSO god its way past my bedtime. new fuckign playlist. tap taht!
#for new followers or those who missed it#i like making age playlists every year. this year is 19#except i already made the 19 playlist earlier this year but it uhhh. yeah it kinda flopped.#thats ok we all make mistakes.#so get ready FOR#nineteen.... TWO !#chris noises#misc#i actually made it on new years eve after a good vc time with my friends#but i forgor#ofc this playlist isnt complete yet. im gonna add plenty o songs as the year goes on. all until i hit 20 next september#but yea :)#ok im exhausted. good nite <3
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Listen I'm all for seeing Sada and Turo realize how they neglected Arven before their death and/or going a no death au route with it, and/or the AIs stepping in to help fill the parental rolls that he didn't have.
But personally it doesn't sit well to gloss over the neglect and emotional abuse entirely. I'm not saying to clarify that's a known fact every time they're talked about, I'm just saying to understand that they were neglectful and emotionally abusive parents, and that a good chunk of Arven's character arc was about realizing he wasn't just an afterthought in their lives and that he's his own person with his own thoughts/feelings/dreams/etc.
#i know i've talked about this before#but seeing a post that glossed that over and really excused how he was treated made me genuinely uncomfortable#considering how i was emotionally neglected by my parents and in some points neglected straight up-#it made me uncomfortable seeing how easily explained away arven's trauma was#i really want to leave it up to it was some misreading but at this point the posts defending the behavior of the professors-#just really downsize the trauma that we see in arven and take away what made him even more relatable to the majority of people#no his parents didn't just suddenly neglect him when they died it was back when he was a child#and how the last time he saw them in person was when they took back the giant lizard they dumped on him#like bulbapedia literally has all the quotes he says come on it's really hard to give the benefit of the doubt#like misreading while playing yeah but after it's all online it's hard excuse the ignorance#like i'm not saying 'oh i misread it my mistake' it's the 'i've seen all this stuff and i'm still gonna say he was pretty ok' things#he literally even says he hated the lizards because his parents took them back after escaping and he felt like he got replaced#like that's really hard to ignore as part of the trauma#thing is i block people who gloss that over because it's like-#it's very clear neglect and emotional abuse being excused and being portrayed in a way that's very 'hey sympathize with your trauma here'#which is awesome considering how that gets steamrolled or made fun of in most media#but looking at that and saying 'no he wasn't neglected at all it just started when the emails stopped' is like just...idk#'well he had food and books and his dog had a bed and-' those are very basic necessities#listen i always think back to my guidance class in elementary school and the lovely lady who taught it#and i always think about the videos we were shown explaining abuse and neglect and her telling us about it#and the story of neglect that stuck to me was this little girl who would be left at home for days on end with just a bowl of oranges#and then she would get passed from home to home#and i look at arven and think 'he's just like that little girl'#and then i think 'a lot of that was how i got treated'#i wasn't left at home for days on end but i was emotionally neglected in favor of my parents wanting to always argue-#and a lot of times we wouldn't have dinner because they would argue instead and i'd be too afraid to get food because of it#and seeing arven's trauma being excused/downplayed/ignored/etc is like 'where do you draw the line with that'#where do you draw the line that a child was neglected and emotionally abused and abandoned?#is it because his parents are somewhat attractive? because ai squeaked out a very personally forced 'they loved you'?#just because he wasn't physically abused doesn't make his trauma any less valid or his parents any less of shitty people
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#u kno what i dont like? when i talk abt doing something completely bananas that i would absolutely do if i was even a little less socially#conscious and then whoever im talking to is like lol do it#idk maybe im just slightly distorted abt it but i have a compulsive need to do what ppl tell me to and i kno ppl would think i was real#weirf for doing the things so im just like. r u making fun of me? bc truely i cannot tell#like i dont have a good grasp on how well i read ppl. sometimes i think im ok at it. like i can deduce things from context clues#but if someone is not being clean then its fucking way over my head but idk sometimes i cant tell if im being made fun of#like u kno when u make someone laugh and ur like well i wasnt really trying to b funny. i was just saying whats in my head#so was that nervous laughter bc i said something kinda off the walls or was it laughter at my expense#again im probably just distortion bc my sister used to publicly call it out whenever i was being weird but idk#i just wish ppl said what they thought more. like dont say one thing to my face and then later text me something that indicates u were#thinking something entirely different in the moment. bc that's disorienting and it makes me think i can't trust my reading of ppl#i mean. it doesnt help that i dont look ppl in the face lol but whatever#i should sleep. i have jury duty tomorrow and i pray that i am not selected. tho it would force me to have a day off#bc im fucked up like that. no fun allowed. only work. and not enough sleep :-P#idk why im even thinking this?#i guess bc i was helping one of my lab mates with coding stuff and like idk ive spent way too long around him and i still dont#kno whats going on in his head. like idk hes not too bad but he also is very quick to jump on it when i do something wrong#like when i make a lil mistake i mean. and i think its in a teasing way but idk it feels weird. like he thinks hes caught me fucking up#and im like ...yea? i mean yea that was a dumb thing i did. or like yeah i cant spell or remember plant codes? idk maybe he just thinks#its funny. it doesnt upset me or anything. i just think its kinda weird and i dont get it so it puts me on edge#idk he says things sometimes and im like... ok ur star war5 options make me nervous abt the general opinions u hold but i dont kno how to#manipulate u into a revealing conversation. idk his not that bad just puts me on edge a lil and i have to b around him a lot so i sit here#man wtf is his deal? let me psychoanalyze u#unrelated
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