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# âTHE WOMAN WAS TOO STUNNED TO SPEAKâŠâ ââ .⊠( batboys w an unhinged!reader and blunt!reader )
a/n: this is from my little brain of mine , and I like to honor it for @kyriakis anywhoo Iâm back and omg 1k?! Alsoo guys dw! Iâm gonna do the event tomorrow && Iâm gonna pick out some prompts I have organized, so i didn't forget okay but i just got a lot of DMs asking when Iâm gonna do it for you guyss so yeah itâs gonna be tomorrow since Iâm gonna re-edit + add some ideas of your guys votes!! Tags: (batboys x unhinged!reader)
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DICK GRAYSON ââ .âŠ
Heâs always caught off guard but loves it. Your bluntness is a breath of fresh air for Dick, whoâs so used to diplomatic conversations. You say whateverâs on your mind with zero filter, and heâs like, âOh, wow. Okay. I respect it.â
Hates it when you donât hold back with him. Heâs used to being the charming, funny guy who makes everyone laugh, but you hit him with a âThat was dumb, donât do that againâ and his brain short circuits for a second. âYou canât just say that!â âWhy not?â
Finds it hilarious when you wreck other peopleâs egos. You have zero time for anyoneâs nonsense, and when someone messes up, you let them know. Dickâs in the background, trying not to laugh. âDo you not think before you speak?!âŠâ Heâs always acts so shocked but hey, heâs kinda enjoying it unless itâs aimed at him. (He canât fight verbally for the life of him without saying some cringe shit)
Doesnât even try to change you. Dick knows what heâs getting into, and he loves you for it. Heâs never going to ask you to âtone it down.â He actually finds your unapologetic attitude pretty hot.
Heâs 50% worried youâll get into trouble, 50% impressed. But in the end, heâll always back you up, saying, âSheâs just honest. Get used to it.â
JASON TODD ââ .âŠ
Finally, someone who speaks his language. Jason lives for the fact that you donât care what people think. He loves how blunt you are, especially when you cut through the BS with the precision of a sharp knife.
Gets protective when people try to push your boundaries. If someone dares disrespect you, Jasonâs the first one to step in. âYouâve got a problem with her? Youâve got a problem with me.â, âJason that was so fucking cringey..â
Appreciates that you don't sugarcoat things for him. Youâll tell him exactly how it is, whether itâs about his attitude or a bad decision he made, and he respects it, itâs like the tt sound where âthatâs when it hit me, it was the best idea I ever had..â but like this: âNot gonna lie, that was a terrible plan, Jay,â and heâll just nod. âFair.â
You guys have the most chaotic, weirdest conversations. Itâs a mix of witty banter, ridiculous one-liners, and deadpan sarcasm. Other people canât even keep up with the energy.
The idea of dating a âgood girlâ never appealed to him anyway. He thrives off your unhinged energy. Youâre unpredictable, and it keeps him on his toes, which he loves. âYeah, youâre definitely not boring.â (Although the thing is he does love innocent people, like if youâre like gen clueless he wants preserve your innocence.)
TIM DRAKE ââ .âŠ
Timâs brain canât keep up with you. Your blunt, no-nonsense attitude constantly makes him blink in confusion. One minute youâre casually roasting someone, and the next, youâre giving a straight-up critique of his latest plan. Heâs learning that he canât outthink you.
He admires your unapologetic honesty. Tim has a lot of internalized doubts, so watching you casually reject anyoneâs judgment is a nice contrast. You donât apologize for your thoughts, and itâs something he secretly admires.
Constantly second-guesses himself around you. Your sharp tongue makes him want to be as confident as you. He gets nervous about saying anything that might sound soft, so when he stumbles, youâre like, âWhat was that? I swear you just whispered something.â And heâll blush hard, muttering an apology.
You both have a sarcastic sense of humor that others donât quite get. You say something outrageous, and Tim will respond with the driest remark possible. People in the room often wonder if you two are joking or just genuinely a bit rude.
Not scared to call him out. When Timâs too nice, youâll be like, âYou need to stop letting people walk all over you. Grow some teeth.â Tim wonât admit it, but that does motivate him to be a little bolder.
DAMIAN WAYNE ââ .âŠ
Damian is a bit taken aback at first. Heâs used to people being respectful or like seeing him as kinda a role model, so when you come out with a âThatâs dumb, donât even talk to me right now,â heâs not sure how to handle it. He will stand there, blinking, while processing your bluntness. (Heâs too stunned to speak đ)
Genuinely respects your forthrightness, though. âIâll admit, I have never met someone so⊠honest.â He starts respecting you even more, thinking youâre someone he canât manipulate or charm easily.
Loves that youâre as stubborn as he is. If youâre determined about something, thereâs no changing your mind. Youâll fight for your opinions even if it gets you into a heated debate. And Damianâs right there with you, arguing like itâs the most fun thing in the world.
Tries to match your bluntness. âYou talk too much,â he says one day, and you immediately reply, âAnd yet, here you are, listening to every word I say.â Damian actually pauses for a second, impressed. âRight..â
Loves how youâll shut down his critics with zero hesitation. Someone says something disrespectful to him, and youâll be the first to shoot back, âHe doesnât need your advice, trust me.â Heâll give you a proud little smirk. âI like the way you handle things.â
BRUCE WAYNE ââ .âŠ
At first, Bruce is a bit disconcerted by your bluntness. Bruceâs the kind of guy who expects people to be formal and classy, and you just come in with âThis entire meeting is a waste of my time. I donât care about any of this.â He blinks, then quietly admires your bravery.
Totally respects your unfiltered honesty. Bruce has had enough of the worldâs games, so when you donât bother to pretend or hold anything back, itâs like a breath of fresh air for him.
Secretly loves when you donât play nice." He knows you're not afraid of saying what you think, and when you call him out on his brooding or overly protective behavior, he listens. âYouâre right. Iâm sorry for not trusting you more.â (He totally doesnât have a tracker on your hair clip..đ„°)
You both have moments of pure savage honesty that no one else gets. Thereâs no need for filters, and youâll both exchange one-liners so dry that it leaves everyone else in the room confused.
Finds it endearing when you make his plans more interesting. âThis is ridiculous. Why are we doing this again?â You snap at him in a room full of his board members, and he just gives you a look that says, âIâm never apologizing for you.â
#jason todd#jason todd x reader#batboys#dc#dick grayson x reader#dick grayson#red hood x reader#red hood#nightwing x reader#nightwing#nightwing imagine#nightwing headcanon#jason todd headcanon#red hood imagine#red hood headcanon#tim drake x reader#tim drake#tim drake imagine#tim drake headcanon#red robin x reader#red robin#damain wayne x reader#damian wayne x reader#damian wayne#damian al ghul x reader#bruce wayne x reader#bruce wayne#dick grayson imagine#dick grayson headcanon#dcu
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(reblogging w/ my comments under opâs post to have it on one of my blogs)
hi!! this was my post that you're talking about! and wow haha i did not think it would strike this much of a nerve with some people, but it's always a good thing to see other people passionate about things i'm passionate about also.
a few thingsâ
the post overall was meant to be lighthearted in nature, as someone who enjoys both the musical and the poem it wasn't really an us vs them thing. moreso a playful jab at people who made assumptions about the myth based off the musical (which, in my comments there were a lot of) and if you don't do that, the post doesn't apply to you!
in the pinned comment under the post i talk about how a conversation can definitely happen over the ethics of the situation, i'm all for interpretations of the story and enjoyed the people discussing the myth from the perspective of actually having read the myth or of being aware of it. whenever i corrected people in the comments, it was about things they got wrong about the material specifically, such as people saying circe used her magic to force him to bed or arguing about things a simple google search could tell you whether it did or didn't happen. If you interpret the text as being non-consensual, it was never the point of the post to say that your interpretation is incorrect! me personally though, i don't like the optics of circe being turned into a supporting/positive character if she was a rapist in the original.
I wasn't defending hamilton lmao!!! it was a joke!!! it was a bit!!!!
i also never said homer!odysseus was a horrible person! i very much don't think he is! to me, the point of the story is it's exploration of the human condition, and that even if he had faltered in his resolve to get home, that he still wouldn't have been a horrible person because any normal person in his shoes would have done similarly! i dunno where you got this bit but yk, js for the record.
your interpretation of book 10 in the odyssey is fine, if not a little lost on me. odysseus was certainly not initiative in the task of going home. of course, you can read and take away from it whatever you like, butâ and i'm not trying to sound pretentious hereâ in my analysis class for the odyssey specifically we talked about how this section of the odyssey goes into the nature of human temptation when faced with luxury or an easier way out. Odysseus intentionally spends longer than he has to, a full year, and doesn't make the decision to leave until his crew bugs him and calls his delays âmadnessâ. That doesn't read to me as them being like let's leave and he's like alr bet, it reads as odysseus finding reasons to remain on the island even after his crew is ready to go. you can find all of this in the text.
i never mentioned being fixated on the telegony either, all of my rebuttals have been centered around text and examples found in the odyssey itself. it wasn't really a gotcha moment with circe either, there's no debate that odysseusâ is one of history's great morally ambiguous figures in fiction, with or without her.
lastly, i think the odyssey is sooo romantic! a lot of your post seems to have misunderstood the point of mine fundamentally, and that's ok, i probably could have phrased it better! i think epic is romantic, i think the odyssey is romantic, the point i was trying to get at when seriously debating the storytelling of epic is that i think a lot of people miss the nuance that went into the storytelling of the odyssey in favor of a more sanitized, more easy to swallow protagonist. again, how i studied it, and how i believe the odyssey was meant to be read, is as a critical analysis of the human condition. Myths are reflective of the societies they come from, and i want people to be aware that the myths we read are a glimpse into what sorts of things people back then valued and strove for, how they're different from us, and how they're not. you mentioned having wished youâd studied the literature, and i think if you had, you would have come to a similar conclusion.
while i donât think op misinterpreted my points intentionally in bad faith, calling me an asshole or saying iâm illiterate definitely made me raise an eyebrow. i tried my best to keep the conversations in my own comments respectful and productive, and hostility was definitely not the tone of my original shitpost. i think most people were able to talk about their perspectives and interpretations of the odyssey without going there. iâm attaching my pinned comments below for more context about the post itself
Some assholes on Instagram saying that Epic fans are "gaslighting" themselves about Odysseus being faithful to Penelope because of the Circe part and being pretentious about it and how we are stupid for considering The Odyssey romantic
Motherfucker
1. The Odyssey is an epic poem we all fucking know that? That it's a tragedy, technically comedy (comedy in ancient literature used to mean "happy ending", not funny stuff)
2. The Circe bit can be interpreted in different ways, as if it was fully consensual or not or just a transaction. There was still a difference in power dynamics, which was 100% mentioned by Calypso in the beginning, but if you choose to ignore that part if the same as saying some of Zeus' kids were ok to be conceived because the women agreeded to what A GOD wanted.
3. Obviously Epic!Odysseus is differente from Homer!Odysseus, but trying to say Homer! Odysseus is a horrible person that fully wanted to cheat on Penelope just because you want to defend ALEXANDER HAMILTON, i have bad news about you.
4. "The crew had to beg to go back!" I read the Odyssey too. As a child and a few days ago. They stayed on Circe's island to rest so Odysseus job as a captain was literally wait until his crew told him they were ready to leave, specially after what they have lived. Odysseus didnt force anyone to stay in that island, when the crew went "oh, sir, we miss our families, please lets go back now, yes?" Odysseus immediately said "ok". It literally felt like a father waiting for the kids to stop playing in the playground.
5. Homer!Odysseus is not perfect, at all (man killed his disloyal maids because he didnt want to deal with shit anymore, even if they also were coerced/raped by the suitors), but come with a better gotcha than Circe. You are just fixiated on the Telegony and it shows.
6. Idk what to tell you, but if you think renouncing a life with two inmortal godesses (one of whom offered you immortality), traveling for 10 years defying a God's rage, killing 108 men who wanted to marry your wife (and ruined your house), almost killed yourself when said wife rejected you only for her to go "haha i was just testing you, silly :)", have your literally marriage have a word created for you two specifically is not romantic... Idk go read Bridgerton
#the odyssey#epic the musical#ah man what a fun start to 2025#there are lots of things to analyze about the odyssey! all of them were intentional and all of them are important#odysseus#penelope#epic odysseus#epic penelope#canon odysseus#canon penelope
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accepting what you cant change, facing your worst fear and finding comfort in it, not equating the consequences of an act with the act itself, and kind of accepting yourself through it all.
im insane.
#shredded descent#tmnt au#tmnt iteration#tmnt#wcs#kirby#raph#art#wow that caption sounds over dramatic ahahaha#really once again just making shit for myself to make myself do it. saying fuck it idc if it looks good or not#cuz this was a scene i really just enjoyed a lot n wanted to draw so idc if i wish i could have done it better *eye twich*#the colours got weird i didnt know what to do sigh#i feel a bit like uh oh this is on the nose again am i going to jail for actually drawing this but whatever#its one of those things that wont make sense to the people who it doesnt make sense to you know#but its one of those things where i could talk for hours abt all the things i think about these two lmao#COMPLICATEDDDDD
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the arcane fandom will hate me for this one but i have to speak my truth !
i don't think vi is the "not jealous type":
i think ppl are just misreading her reactions in two (2) particular scenes and that's why they think so! so i'll talk abt those briefly in a sec
i think ppl have this impression of her having so little self-worth that she wouldn't care if her partned flirted w/ someone or someone flirted w/ them, which i personally hate to see! (and yes, she does have issues w/ putting her own needs first and taking what she needs sometimes, she's been shown to self-destruct in dire situations, and she'd put everything on the line to protect her loved ones but that! does! not! translate! into potentially being okay w/ your partner breaking boundaries)
the scene where she learns caitlyn is into women: first of all, caitlyn and vi are still practically strangers at this point so it's very early to say vi has any feelings for (let alone romantic relationship to) caitlyn that would warrant her feeling jealous!! there's perhaps attraction there ("you're hot, cupcake") but no possessiveness, for reasons other than "vi isn't a jealous partner"! everything in vi's behavior shows this entire sequence is power play to her and she's just toying w/ her food ("the undercity will eat you alive") - she's putting a piltover girl of status, an enforcer, in a situation where she has to do something she deems unbefitting ("i will not!" ) if she wants to achieve her goal, because vi finds it entertaining! piltovians getting their hands dirty, being desparate (think of sevika's glee when she's choking caitlyn in s2 and caitlyn bites her hand, resorting to behavior that's beneath her). vi doesn't expect caitlyn to actually do it - so when she sees her flirting with a girl, this is the first time she's proven wrong abt caitlyn! she thinks, "wow, so she's for real/she's got it in her". not only is caitlyn willing to put her pride aside for more important things, she also seems to be enjoying herself - a contrast to her previous uptight and nervous demeanor, and a sign she's going out of her shell and that this place might grow on her, as well as proof she's into women, which to vi is at least smth they have in common. (and no, i won't get into social psychology and theories of homosociality rn but we are all likely to like ppl similar to us/to what we know, esp when we're unsure of someone's personality, views or values)
the scene where caitlyn pulls away from vi mid-makeout - after vi has forgiven her and decided to ultimately take what she wants for once instead of just running after her loved ones and carrying the responsibility of their safety - to tell her she "saw someone": i wrote a separate post a while ago explaining why to me her simple wording is brilliant in making it very apparent that whatever her fling was, she was not only willing to be upfront abt it but it was also shortlived, she thought of it as a mistake, and it was now over. crucial knowledge, although it can be argued vi didn't process it that extensively at all. which, fair. but it also very much happened when vi was gone and likely hadn't forgiven caitlyn yet (despite having had feelings for caitlyn at the time, and caitlyn for her, which she was obv aware of). so her reaction (cait, i don't fucking care) was completely understandable. they'd only kissed once, before having a huge fight/fallout, and this was before they'd put (at least on screen lol) a label on their relationship - and while we don't see them do that after their sex scene either, we see them basically living together almost domestically after the war and i believe that's confirmation enough. i've also talked before abt how/why caitvi have never doubted their love for each other so i'm willing to bet vi understood the insignificance of caitlyn's relationship in her absence - vi also did some questionable shit in the meantime
so, do i think vi is the jealous type then?
short answer is: yes, at least the normal amount. (so less than caitlyn). because to me, it makes total sense that she would be!
she was so madly in love she was hallucinating caitlyn after their fight, which lead to her descend into alcoholism, pit fighting, style change, madness and anguish. and during that time she'd kept the enforcers badge and used the kiramman house banner as a blanket, like?? do you seriously think she'd let caitlyn flirt w/ others once they're in a relationship (not that caitlyn would) or wouldn't mind someone else trying to flirt w/ caitlyn?? bffr vi is not sharing
idk how relevant this is since it's not exactly jealousy but i thought it's worth mentioning that since vi has been shown physically using her body to defend or shield others (both defensively and offensively): she's definitely the type of gf to tell caitlyn "wear whatever you want babe, i can fight"
#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#caitlyn kiramman#arcane s2#arcane season two#arcane caitlyn#caitlyn arcane#arcane speculation#arcane meta#arcane season two spoilers#arcane vi#violyn#vi#vi arcane#arcane violet#arcane violyn#caitlyn x vi#vi and caitlyn#caitvi#vi x caitlyn
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showed my friend my ocâs lore and she described it as âall of the fantasy books ive read but betterâ and i
#silly#writing#i love that feeling#like wow you actually enjoy what I enjoy doing#thatâs crazy#just convinced me to keep writing
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I was so excited to get to Friday for this chapter, and then I got a damn migraine, so I haven't been able to read it until now. So diving right in...
âOh, Iâve thought about it, Sheriff. And Iâve told you: I donât know where she is now,â Diane reiterated with the same infuriating smile. Her gray eyes then wandered to a wall clock behind the men. âAt least not yet.â
She's tormenting them. She doesn't know where she is now... but she's going to?? Does her accomplise take them somewhere Diane doesn't know where before they end up in the bunker?
âAm I?â Diane quirked a brow and then sent him an innocent smile. âAbout four years ago, she wrote a rather lengthy email to her sister Sophia in Seattle. She seemed very upset. Said there was a little something you wouldnât give her. Ring any bells?â
Oh!! She's done her homework, hasn't she?!
âToo bad. I always liked the autumn sunsets. When it gets dark soonerâŠâ Diane then stretched out her neck.
Her eyes flickered around the bleak, depressing room. âI miss windows. Havenât seen the outside for days.â
Huh, what is she up to now? Is it when she's being moved, or is there something else going on, too?
Poppernak shot Beau a look, and only when the latter gave his agreement, did the deputy nod. âYes, Sheriff Arlen.â
Good ol' Poppernak. He's a loyal one!
Oh, our girl's putting up a fight!! Nice move... It sounds like training with Beau paid off.
âDid you know bear traps are actually pretty easy to get out of?â Beau babbles a random fact in his usual manner when neither of you has said anything in a minute.
Thank goodness for Beau and his random facts, and that she remembered it!!
And then, suddenly, Hal Turner stood in front of you with a shovel.
Oh no!!! Seriously, on the edge of my seat with this!
Cassie and Denise to the rescue! That's the cabin isn't it!!
Ok, so they have found his vehicle and the cabin. Thank goodness!! But there's no one there đ.
Ah, she took a screwdriver... that gives me a little more hope (probably misguided, lol) when Turner appeared in front of her in the woods.
Weâll find her. Youâre not losing her again, alright?â
Randy could only nod and hope, but a little tug on his heart told him something different as he glanced at his former friend.
Is that because he thinks they're not going to find her in time or because he's beginning to realise that he is going to lose her to Beau after all.
I really enjoyed that scene in the car between Beau and Randy. Felt like an honest conversation between them where they both learned a few truths about each other's relationships with her.
I have to say I was surprised to hear what had happened between her and Randy. I'm guessing the fact he knew she asked Carla about a divorce attorney adds to his fear that he's going to lose her to Beau if they find her. Also, I'm pleased that conversation made Beau realise he was being an idiot too and gave him the kick up the backside he needed.
Oh wow, Hal stumbled right out in front of them! Does that mean that the bunker is nearby?!
Of course, he removes that screwdriver before they had the chance to get any information from him.
But his green eyes only found an email and darkened at the senderâs name. âDiane just sent me a link.â
Randy, caught in his own spiral, suddenly glanced up. âTo what?â
âLivestream.â
I have so many questions. How did she do that???? She's locked up, isn't she? Did Diane have this all planned and set a timer to send the link? Did Hal set it up before he stumbled out in front of them? Or is something else going on?!
Polaris â Chapter 12
Series Summary: When Beau Arlen moved to Montana, he left behind a past he wasnât proud of. But when a series of murders requires the FBIâs help, Sheriff Arlenâs ghosts come back to haunt him one by one. With a wrong turn waiting at every crossroads, itâs hard to make the right choices and find his way back home â back to you.
Pairing: Beau Arlen x FBI Agent!Reader
Warnings: 18+, a heavy dose of angst, kidnapping, violence, injuries, serial killers, death, an awful cliffhanger
Word Count: 6.8k
A/N: Happy New Year, everyone! đ„ł We jump straight into 2025 with an angsty banger đ
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Chapter 12: Through
On one of the sunniest mornings Helena had seen in recent days, the peaceful quiet of the early risers in the Sheriffâs Department was disturbed by one restless sheriff.
Beau was taking his office apart â bit by bit, nail by nail, panel by panel, brick by brick.
The search for you had gone on all night and yielded zero results. You were nowhere to be found. For all Beau knew, you could be dead by now and buried in the vast woods of Montana.
A computer mouse flung against the wall and only missed Jennyâs head by an inch as the blonde peeked inside his office. The rest of the station had selected her to talk to the big boss, his outbursts even being heard from miles away.
âYou okay?â Jenny checked carefully.
âIâm tryna find that stupid camera!â
âThought you already found that hours ago,â Jenny noted with a raised brow.
âCanât be too carefulâŠâ the sheriff murmured, his focus landing on the pile of pens on his desk. The silver one â had that always been there? He picked it up. âDoes this look normal to you?â
Jenny only offered a shrug.
âNever mind,â Beau muttered and reduced the pen down to its individual parts. Nothing. Just a plain, old pen.
âDid you get some sleep?â
âWhat dâyou think?â
At five in the morning, Beau had promised Jenny heâd snooze for half an hour on the couch in his office. He did lie down, stared at the suspended ceiling tiles for about a minute, and then remembered the damn camera.
It wasnât just about what he had done in there but also about heâd said. No wonder Diane had gotten so easily under his skin. She probably had heard every insecurity he had ever uttered. To you. And to imaginary Randy.
How was he supposed to sleep in a place where he felt exploited, exposed, and unsafe?
âWell, uh, I just wanted to tell you that Randy went into Interrogation Room 2 with DianeâŠâ
âWHAT?!â
âYeahâŠâ Jenny exhaled a deep sigh and leaned against the door frame. âHe said youâd deputized him and authorized it, but I had a feeling that wasnât true.â
Beau ran a hand across his face, rubbing his beard.
Rule #3: Sheâs my wife. I get to decide how we proceed.
Rule #4: Youâre not the boss of me.
âWell, I did deputize him,â Beau admitted. He had given his former partner a long leash, not expecting heâd bolt through the backyard.
âBeauâŠâ Jenny clearly didnât approve.
âHe left me no choice, alright?!â
Well, no choice his guilt could deal with.
The sheriff then left his destroyed office and thundered into Interrogation Room 2 down the hall. Randy wouldnât get to do this alone. Beau knew there was an ulterior motive â if only Randy saved you, he could also miraculously save his marriage. Randy was a persistent motherfucker. He wouldnât give up.
And if the roles were reversed, Beau wouldnât either. Heâd probably be even more annoyingly persistent than Randy.
âWhat the fuck do you think youâre doing?â Beau charged in with steam coming out of his ears. For a moment, his anger was so focused on his friend, he didnât even notice the rising smile on Dianeâs lips.
âGood morning, Sheriff Arlen.â Even if Dianeâs voice sounded melodious, to Beau it was still chalk on board. âRemodeling the office, are we?â
âYou mind?â Randy prompted stand-offishly, glancing up at the sheriff. âKinda in the middle of something here.â
âOutside. Now,â was all Beau said.
Defiantly and miffed by the authoritative tone, Randy followed him to the hall.
âPlay nice, boys!â Dianeâs voice echoed through before the door fell into its lock.
âWhat dâyou think youâre doing? You canât just talk to our prime suspect without my presence!â Beau roared.
Randy rolled his eyes back. âDidnât know I needed a babysitterâŠâ
âThis isnât a game, Randy! We need to find Y/N before itâs too late,â Beau argued furiously. They didnât have time for petty competitions.
âYeah, which is why Iâm talking to the only lead we have! That bitch knows where she is,â Randy countered with an equal amount of fury.
âSheâs not gonna tell you!â
Randy only shrugged â cocky in nature and completely unlike him. And Beau then realized something that had changed: His friend wouldnât back down anymore and bend. Those days were over, and it was probably Beauâs own fault.
âWeâll see,â Randy said stubbornly, his hand wandering back to the door handle. âYou cominâ?â
Beau inhaled and exhaled a deep breath before nodding â and back into the lionâs den they went.
Diane welcomed them with a sneer. âAll made up?â
âTell us where Turner took her,â Randy demanded with a stern expression and firm voice.
If Randy wanted to play bad cop, the role of good cop fell to Beau by default. And although they had never ever played it that way before, Beau figured Randy carried more anger than even him right now. He might as well let him make good use of it.
âCanât.â Diane twitched her shoulders. âHal doesnât tell me.â
âOh, and weâre just supposed to believe that?â Beau lifted a brow in mock. âCâmon, DianeâŠâ
âItâs true,â she said, smiling. âCall it an insurance policy in case one of you Neanderthals decides to go rogue on me â looking at you specifically, Sheriff Arlen. If you leave your own partner to die in a filthy warehouse, I donât wanna know what you do to your enemies.â She then looked at Randy, whispering behind her palm, âYou know, I think he did it on purpose.â
Beau clicked his tongue and snorted humorlessly. âAlright, Diane, youâve had your fun. Youâve wreaked havoc⊠Youâve won, okay? Fair and square. Just give up your partner, tell us where Y/N is, and end this once and for all. Might even get a better deal if you do. Think about it. Murdering an FBI agent doesnât look good in front of a judge and jury. We have iron-clad proof you killed at least five people in Texas. Capital murder, death penalty⊠See where Iâm going with this?â
âOh, Iâve thought about it, Sheriff. And Iâve told you: I donât know where she is now,â Diane reiterated with the same infuriating smile. Her gray eyes then wandered to a wall clock behind the men. âAt least not yet.â
Randy and Beau both followed her gaze and stared at that same clock. Their eyes widened.
âThen when?â Randy prompted.
âDonât worry. Youâll see her soon.â Diane smirked. âIf she makes it out alive, she can tell you in person sheâs choosing the rugged sheriff here over you, Detective Nichols.â
Randyâs jaw tightened, his fists clenching and unclenching under the metal table.
âI gave her a fighting chance.â
âOh, you mean like the others?â Beau had known from the start that it would be useless talking to her.
âThey all couldâve gotten out,â said Diane as if she blamed the victims for not being smarter and more durable. ââSides, why would I give up my favorite part? Iâve waited a while for this one. Killing her? While you two idiots watch helplessly and throw feces at each other like monkeys in a zoo? Gotta say, itâs better than killing twenty-four people combined. Ever since I met Deputy Popcorn, Iâve been actually craving a snack.â Upon Beauâs facial twitch, Diane leaned closer and whispered with a smirk, âYeah, I know about the cute little nicknames for your deputies too, Sheriff. I wonder how many bugs youâve found yet in your office. Sure it canât be all of them. Maybe Iâve bugged the whole station. Whoâs to say? Have you checked your trailer yet? The lovely agentâs motel room? No?â
Beau couldnât pinpoint the exact feeling that clutched his heart and twisted it like a boa constrictor. Pain, fear, anger, sadness â a deadly cocktail for anyone. Was this throbbing sting in his chest what a heart attack felt like? Only recently, heâd read an article in the paper about a guy his age who just dropped dead. Was this it for him?
Would it mean he'd get to see you again, though?
âEnough of that!â
Randyâs voice rang in his ears, but Beau couldnât refocus. He needed fresh air to breathe, his lungs dried up and clinging to every molecule like heâd been deprived of oxygen for days. The small room felt suddenly suffocating as the monster across from him sneered joyfully.
âLook, I donât know if youâre saying all that horseshit âcause you wanna hurt him or me,â Randy said, his voice laced with a darkness Beau had never seen before.
âLittle bit of both,â Diane teased with a shrug.
âYeah, well, I donât care either way,â Randy huffed, the deep creases in his brow casting threatening shadows on his face. âDo your worst to me or him. Hell, burn us at the stake if it makes you feel any better, sweetheart, but all I wanna know is where that bunker is. Where is she? Your beefâs clearly with us. Men, right? You know she doesnât deserve this. Just let her go.â
Diane seemed unamused by the suggestion, leaning back in the metal chair. âYouâre right. She doesnât deserve this. I actually like her. She reminds me of me. But you two did this to her. Itâs out of my hands at this point. You donât deserve her, sheriff,â she said and looked at Beau before her cold eyes shifted to Randy. âNeither do you, detective. I know a lot of things â and not just about the sheriff here. I know what you did to her, too.â
Randy forced a tight smile. âYouâre bluffing. I didnât do anything.â
âAm I?â Diane quirked a brow and then sent him an innocent smile. âAbout four years ago, she wrote a rather lengthy email to her sister Sophia in Seattle. She seemed very upset. Said there was a little something you wouldnât give her. Ring any bells?â
With a thick swallow and a glare swimming in his hazel eyes, Randy nodded. âWeâre done here.â
Diane let out a long, suspenseful sigh, not bothering to engage further. Her icy heart wouldnât melt. Her eyes flickered around the bleak, depressing room. âI miss windows. Havenât seen the outside for days.â
âYeah, and you ainât gonna,â Beau huffed. He had quietly listened, his heart rate slowing down as his head started spinning with questions. You had never told him anything. He had never asked. It had been an unspoken rule to not talk about your marriage. Beau always figured knowing too much would only make it worse.
âToo bad. I always liked the autumn sunsets. When it gets dark soonerâŠâ Diane then stretched out her neck. âAnyways, nice chatting with you boys, but itâs time for my beauty nap now. Which one of you two cowboys is gonna accompany me back to my cell, hm?â
The men shared a look and then wordlessly rose, leaving the room. In the safety of the hallway, Beau ran a hand over his face and took his first deep breath.
Air. Lungs. Brain. Without toxicity, he could finally think straight again.
âWell, this was pointless and a waste of our time. Happy now?â Beau huffed with his newfound lung capacity.
But Randyâs brow was furrowed. He was thinking. âActually, yeah⊠Didnât you hear what she said?â
âYeah, bunch of narcissistic bullshit. Sheâs not gonna tell us where Y/N is,â Beau muttered bitterly. If possible, he wished to never converse with that psychotic witch again. There was only so much he could handle before snapping her neck.
âShe said that she doesnât know where Y/N is now,â Randy pointed out. âMaybe she wasnât lying. Maybe Y/Nâs not in the bunker yet. Turner might keep her somewhere else and wait till he can move her.â
âAt sundown,â Beau mused, Dianeâs words haunting his mind. âHeâll move her when itâs dark.â
âWhich means we still have a couple hours to find her,â Randy finished the thought.
âPopcorn!â Beau yelled down the hallway. The sheriff found himself in better spirits. He hadnât used a silly name for his most loyal deputy in days, although it ached a tiny bit to say it now. âAny properties in Newtonâs name?â
âYes, sir, several,â Mo replied.
âI need a list of all in the area. Get a team together and search âem. One by one,â Beau ordered. âWarehouses, cabins⊠Take it all apart. I donât care.â
âAnd also see if any properties are in Hal Turnerâs name and add them to the list,â Randy suggested.
Poppernak shot Beau a look, and only when the latter gave his agreement, did the deputy nod. âYes, Sheriff Arlen.â
The obnoxiously loud sound of birds woke you from a deep slumber. Groggily, you pried your eyes open and found the first few beams of sunlight warming your face. For a peaceful moment of dazed bliss, you had no clue where you were or how you got here.
There was a thumping, searing pain in your skull, hammering away at your sanity like the ticks of a clock. Your neck and shoulders hurt from tension till you realized you were bound to an old wooden chair, a harsh and creaking surface underneath you. Your behind felt both sore and numb.
Glancing around the room, you noticed you were in the living quarters of a small cabin. A fireplace sat to your right. Above it, a cuckoo clock that showed shortly past noon, and you realized that mustâve produced the bird noise that woke you. The stinging sunlight reached your eyes and filled you with hope.
Hal Turner hadnât locked you into a bunker yet.
âYouâre awake. Good.â Turner entered the room with a bottle of water and a sandwich, throwing the items unceremoniously onto your lap. âYou need to eat. Weâll leave soon.â
âWhere are we going?â
âWhere they all went,â he said and came up behind you. Turner wasnât a man of tall stature. Small, middle-aged, nervous. Non-threatening.
Dianeâs little ant.
He cut your ties, and you could tell his hands were shaking. They didnât treat the others like that. Entertaining a victim had never been his job before.
Sedated, dumped, marooned.
That had been the pattern, and you hoped this little off-course adventure would pay off with your freedom. Your gaze drifted down to a lonely brown belt buckle.
Unarmed.
With free hands and Turner still vulnerably behind you, your arms shot up and wrapped around his neck. Fortunately, he wasnât as heavy as Beau in training when you jolted him forward, jumped up, and rammed his face straight into your knee.
Unconscious for the moment, Turner tumbled to the ground, and you sprinted through the front door. You hoped it would give you enough time to find an exit.
But all you found was a vast sea of trees â towering pines that reached heavenward with no neighboring houses or roads in sight.
There was a shed to your left. Tools. You needed weapons.
And, most of all, you needed more goddamn time to think your way out of this one.
It wasnât long till you heard the front door of the cabin slam open, heavy and angry footsteps aimlessly searching before they slowly circled closer to the shed.
Fortunately, your little hide-out had proved itself useful â and fully stocked. Turner had arranged his tools in a neatly organized manner. Nothing seemed to be out of place, screwdrivers hanging on the wall from small to big, pliers, drills, hacksaws⊠Your weapons of choice, however, fell on a hammer and the heaviest, biggest wrench.
Lurking behind the small barn door, you lay in wait till the old door creaked open and Hal Turner walked through. He only blinked at you wide-eyed before your first hit with the wrench landed across his right cheek. It was hard enough for blood to spew out of his mouth, and as he tumbled forward, you delivered your second blow â the hammer, this time, slamming against the back of his head.
Dropping the tools, you decided to take your chances and make a run through the woods for it. You still had a few fleeting hours till dark. If you just kept going, maybe youâd make it to a road or a town somewhere before you froze to death.
What a great outlookâŠ
However, you didnât even get farther than a few yards from the house before a sharp pain seared from your ankle throughout your entire body. Falling harshly and bracing yourself on the cold, wet leaves, you screamed out and looked down at the culprit â a bear trap.
Well, points for Hufflepuff!
Apparently, you had underestimated Turner. Ahead of you, you also spied some tripwire. Great. This place was a giant death trap â and you had already hated the woods before all of this.
Getting back onto your feet was not only hindered by the giant claws in your flesh but also the iron chain attached to the trap that tethered you to the ground. So, with your freezing hands, you dug out the metal stake that served as your anchor.
Then, the fucking bear trap â you knew this one would hurt like a son of a bitch. Carefully, you inspected the oozing wound, the razor sharp edges deeply clutching your skin at your lower calf and ankle. For a moment, you even swore you could feel the tips of their pointed teeth drilling into your bone. You tried to pry them apart with your hands but gave up on that idea rather quickly once the jaws cut your fingers.
Glancing at the shed, you saw the door was still ajar. It was quiet in there. Either Hal Turner was gone, solely unconscious, or currently bleeding to death. The shed was your Schrödingerâs cat. As long as you didnât know which one it was, you still had time.
Taking several deep breaths, you closed your eyes and remembered the trip you took with Beau when you were back in Houston. The two of you drove camping in Piney Woods. For a few days, you were gone and unknown to everyone around you. You could just be you and him. No one had to hide anything. No one had to feel guilty. In those short days, you realized you wanted to spend the rest of your life with him.
âDid you know bear traps are actually pretty easy to get out of?â Beau babbles a random fact in his usual manner when neither of you has said anything in a minute. He glances at you, a happy smile on his face as he intertwines his fingers with yours during a stroll through the green and lush forest.
âHuh.â
âYeah, all you gotta do is not panic, get up on your feet, and press your weight down on the springs at the bottom. Just pops open and you can pull your leg out,â he explains with a popping sound, turning the little lesson into a show-and-tell.
âDonât panicâŠâ you mumbled to yourself and sat up. âGet upâŠâ With a strained groan and your palms supportively on the ground, you heaved yourself to your feet. You winced as you put pressure on your injured leg and, therefore, tried to shift your weight to your good one. The main problem was the next step: âPress down.â
Mentally, you braced yourself before you slowly started to put pressure on the leg again. The jaws moved and wiggled in your flesh, but the pain was too much too bear. You bit down on your tongue as tears strangled your eyes.
Alright, next try.
If slow was too painful, then maybe the bandaid method was the way to go. Quick and painless, as they say. You inhaled and exhaled through your nose as you raised your foot a few inches above ground, making sure the springs would hit the uneven surface properly. Then, you kicked down.
The trap sprung open, you pulled your foot out, and released a primal scream that echoed through the quiet woods, surely disturbing whatever lived there.
And then, suddenly, Hal Turner stood in front of you with a shovel.
Dianeâs listed properties came up empty. There was still no sign of you. Turner, on the other hand, had only booked a motel room in his name but hadnât been seen there in weeks. So, Beau figured he had to be staying somewhere if he wasnât sleeping in his room.
At four oâclock, the sheriff was close to a breakdown when all leads petered out and the daylight was almost gone. But then Cassie and Denise stormed the station, both out of breath, and brought forth a document that showed a property north of Helena in the name of a Diane Turner. It was a remote cabin in the middle of the woods, which also happened to be close to the location where the ambulance had picked up Randy.
Ding, ding, ding!
Beau gathered the whole cavalry and raced there as fast as he could. By the time he was ten minutes out, the sky had grown dark, the woods pitch-black around him. Switching on the Jeepâs headlights only added to the uneasiness in his stomach. His passenger was quiet next to him, but Beau could tell how worried Randy was by the way his left leg anxiously drummed against the floor mat.
Both of them thought it was too late to save you.
An access road, all dirt, led up behind the cabin, only making it a short hike. Turnerâs vehicle had been parked at the fork where it reached pavement. They seemed to be on the right track. After all, if Turner was here, then hopefully so were you.
Beau and Randy were the first to arrive, the cabin inside dark without a single light on, not even a candle burning in the smudged windows. Carefully, the men stepped on the porch, the property around them quiet and undisturbed, but the front door was an inch ajar. Pulling out their weapons, the two shared a look without speaking a word before entering the house, a feeling of familiarity rising in Beauâs chest.
They were still partners, somewhere deep down.
The floorboards creaked under Beauâs boots as he treaded down the hallway. The cabin was small, only consisting of one bedroom, a living area, a kitchen and bath. While the men checked each room, Beau already knew you werenât here anymore â if youâd ever been here to begin with. Maybe Diane had sent them on a wild goose-chase, another sick game created by the mind of psychopath, while you had been locked in a bunker all along, waiting for him to find you.
How much air did you still have left? Would he get to you in time?
âBeau!â
His partnerâs voice drew him from the bedroom to the living space, his mind still rattling with the unspoken fear of losing you. His green eyes then focused on the beam of Randyâs flashlight as it shone on a wooden chair in the middle of the room, a set of cut plastic ties on the floor next to it. There was also an uneaten sandwich and an unopened bottle of water scattered on the ground.
And then, there were the trails, the little drops, and the sheer pools of blood everywhere that made his gut churn. Was it all yours?
âWe need to get forensics here,â Beau said with a thick swallow, already pulling out his phone to call Jenny.
âThatâs a lot of blood,â Randy said with a lump in his throat, his eyes transfixed on the little red pond by the tips of his feet. And although it was dark, Beau could see the color drain from his partnerâs face.
âI know.â Beau bobbed his head quietly, gently clasping his friendâs shoulder as he held his phone to his ear.
The sheriff then informed Jenny of their findings, telling her to hurry any lab results along. The sooner they knew whose blood it was, the better. As he hung up, he noticed Randy following a trail of blood to the door, leading further outside. He shone his flashlight through the dense foliage before it landed on a little working shed to the right.
As Randy creaked the door of the shed open, with Beau behind him, both thought there was a high probability theyâd stumble upon a body in there â if not two.
Instead, the shed was disappointingly empty.
Beau whistled lowly as the light hit the neatly arranged wall of tools. âWell, thatâs some freak level organization.â
But Randyâs brow furrowed as his light landed on the ground behind the door. âThereâs a hammer and wrench on the ground.â He knelt down to inspect it closer. âGot blood on it. Lot of it.â
Beau chuckled lightly and ran a palm over his face to keep the stinging tears of hope inside, which only confused Randy.
âWhatâs so funny? Y/N might be dead,â Randy said sourly.
âThatâs not Turnerâs doing,â Beau argued and gestured at the tools on the ground, his heart flooding with a tiny bit of relief. âLook at the wall. Why would he kill her with tools? Itâs way too bloody. Guy like this canât handle the mess. He had a perfectly fine gun. Wouldâve been way cleaner if he wanted to.â
âSo, you think this was Y/N?â Randy thought for a moment before nodding. âThe ties inside were cut. The food and water on the floor⊠Maybe he cut her loose and she took advantage of it? I mean, it does sound like her.â
âYeahâŠâ Beauâs eyes then musingly drifted back to the wall. âIs there a screwdriver on the ground somewhere? Thereâs one missing here.â
âNope, nothing on the ground,â Randy replied once his flashlight search was complete. âYou think she took it with her?â
âLetâs hope soâŠâ
âBut if Y/N managed to overpower Turner, why isnât she here? And whereâs Turner? And if it happened out here, why is there so much blood inside?â
Beau licked his chapped lips, his brow returning to their initially creased position. âMaybe she didnât take him out for good.â
âYou thinkinâ she knocked him out and escaped?â
âYeah, and then Turner woke up, went back into the house before taking off after her through those woods,â Beau shared his theory. It would explain the vast amounts of blood inside.
âSo, your theory is sheâs lost and being hunted?â Randy cocked a brow.
Beau only offered him a shrug. âBest possible scenario.â
âGreat.â Randy scoffed. âWhatâs the worst possible scenario then?â
Beauâs Adamâs apple bobbed. âI think we both know.â Licking his lips, he patted Randyâs shoulder. âBut letâs not think about the worst right now. Iâll get a team going to search these woods. Weâll find her. Youâre not losing her again, alright?â
Randy could only nod and hope, but a little tug on his heart told him something different as he glanced at his former friend.
âItâs been three hours,â Randy huffed frustratedly as they passed the same street sign to Helena down the mountain once more, driving up and down the roads around the cabin in an endless loop, hoping and praying a miracle would happen. âDonât you think we wouldâve found her by now? If sheâs hurt and inside those woods, we should be in there looking for her.â
Beau passed another sigh between his lips. There had been three hours of that, too. Patience was a not only an eight-letter word but a bitch as well.
âNeither of us is any help there. We donât know those woods. You donât even a phone, Randy,â Beau said with a bit more firmness in his voice, causing his partnerâs frown to deepen. Saved by the bell, Beauâs phone chimed in his pocket with Jennyâs angelic name popping up on the screen. He pulled over on the side of the road before picking up.
âWhat you got? Uh-huh⊠You sure? What did they say about the cabin? Okay⊠Both of âem? How far? Which direction? Alright⊠Weâre close. Driving back up there now.â
Randy held his breath till Beau hung up, trying to guess the content of the phone call by the various facial expressions of the sheriff. Then, he asked, âGood news or bad news?â
âHard to say,â Beau replied, his eyes fixed on his hands gripping the steering wheel. He swallowed the lump in his throat, gave himself an encouraging nod, and started the engine, trying to sink every bad theory that surfaced in his mind. âForensics came back. Our theory was partially correct. The blood inside the cabin was mostly Turnerâs.â
Randy raised a brow, his heartbeat thrumming in his ears. âMostly?â
âEvidence points to her not escaping. Turner might have gotten to her before she could even leave the property. They found a bear trap with her blood on it,â Beau explained slowly, his grip on the wheel tightening. âDogs picked up a trail, leading into the woods. Forensics confirmed both of their blood on that trail.â
âDoesnât mean anything. He couldâve followed her. She still couldâve escaped,â Randy replied and knew full well it was only sugarcoating the truth swimming in the lower pits of his belly.
âCouldâveâŠâ Beau nodded and swallowed heavily. âBut then again, if she did manage to escape, how did her blood end up inside the cabin?â
Defeated, Randy licked his lips, expelling a humorless chuckle. âYeah, guess my hopes are little too high. I mean, how the hell would you get out of a bear trap?â
Beau knew the question was mostly rhetorical, but true to himself, he still answered, âItâs actually pretty easy. Just press down on the springs, and the thing opens right up.â A smile formed on his lips as a memory popped back into his mind. âI told Y/N that once when we took a camping trip back in Houston. She probably didnât remember it. I mean, honestly, I doubt she was even listening. I was kinda ramblinâ, you know?â
âUh-huh. I remember. Iâve spent a lot of time with youâŠâ Randy smacked his lips, fingers tapping his thigh. âYou guys went on a trip together?â
Beauâs mouth opened on reflex, but he stopped himself from replying, shooting a scrutinizing look at his partner. âYeah, uh, just the one, really. Shoulda been moreâŠâ
Regrets seeped to the surface. If Beau had known he had only a finite amount of time with you, he wouldâve enjoyed and appreciated every last second of it. He shouldâve spent less time in his head. He shouldâve taken you out on more dates. He shouldâve been the best he could be. Instead, he wasted so much time and couldnât even remember why in retrospect.
âWhat makes you say that?â Randyâs question rang both with curiosity and pain. His brown eyes stared stubbornly ahead and focused on the dark road.
Beau blew a long sigh. âWell, I wasnât always the bestâ,â he hesitated a moment before saying the word, ââboyfriend, I guess.â
If Randy was upset by the term, he didnât let it show. Maybe he was sticking to Rule #2. He quirked a brow and glanced at Beau in the driverâs seat. âSo, on top of stealing my wife, youâre telling me you didnât even treat her right?â
âGuess so,â Beau admitted quietly, poking the inside of his cheeks with his tongue and ignoring the subtle jab. âAnd I didnât treat her badly, by the way. Just couldâve tried harder. Felt guilty because she was your-, well, you know⊠And the divorce got kinda messy, too. I just wanted to stay clear of complications.â
Exasperated, Randy scoffed, shaking his head. âThis is not really making me want to give you my blessingâŠâ
Beau huffed a chuckle. âDidnât know that was an option.â
âWell, itâs not. You donât deserve her.â Randy clicked his tongue, pensively bobbing his head. He then finally admitted, the words sounding almost sour, âNeither do I. You might be as big of an idiot as me.â
Beauâs eyes widened in surprise, his focus briefly swaying from the road. âWhat dâyou mean? You guys were perfect together. Is this about what Newton said?â
Randyâs lips curved into a bitter smile. âY/N never told you?â
âTold me what?â
Randy chewed on his lower lip before pushing out the words that had plagued him for three years. âShe wanted to leave me.â
Beau shook his head. âNah, I donât buy it. She loved you. You shouldâve seen her after she thought youâd died.â
Randy inhaled sharply, his head spinning with regret and heart filling with hope. For the past years, he had wondered if heâd ever get another chance to fix things with you.
âYeah, well, itâs true,â he said, his gaze cast downward as if he were confessing his sins to a priest. âShe wanted kids, and I told her I didnât. Neither of us was backing down. The night the cartel kidnapped me, we were supposed to have dinner and talk about it when I got home. Part of me already knew where it was headed.â
Beau listened and nodded. He remembered the set dinner table, the lovingly prepared food, the candles â it didnât seem like something one would do if they planned on leaving.
âNo, I donât think she wouldâve left you,â Beau noted, although his heart stung when he said it out loud.
âI overheard her asking Carla for a divorce lawyer. Pretty sure she was,â Randy retorted. âSeems silly now. She was already out of my league. I shouldâve just given her what she wanted. I donât even know why I didnât. I shouldâve just shut up and been grateful.â
âThatâs what I wouldâve told you to do,â Beau muttered, his brain trying to keep track and process everything. Why had you never told him any of this? And more importantly: âWhy have you never told me?â
âGuess I was embarrassed.â Randy shrugged. âAnd I already knew what you wouldâve said.â
Secretly amused, Beau cocked a brow. âWhat? That youâre an idiot?â
âExactly.â
âAnd Carla knew?â
âI guess.â Randy gave another shrug of his shoulders. âI mean, they talked all the time. Well, mostly it was Carla complaining about you, but stillâŠâ
Beauâs brow furrowed into deep lines. He shouldâve been more surprised than he was. The only thing that really baffled him was the fact you had still agreed to date him after hearing all of that. What else didnât he know?
âI thought they met once a week for book club?â
Randy shot him a pitying look. âDude, there was no book club. Only three bottles of wine.â He then exhaled a long sigh, stretching back into his seat. âMaybe itâs good she didnât pick anyone. She deserves someone who can give her what she wants.â
âWhat makes you think I canât?â A little offended, Beau raised his brow. âYou know, when she came back a few weeks ago, I swore Iâd make things right. I wouldnât let her go this time.â
But Beau broke that promise. He pushed you away to stay clear of complications. His heart twinged.
âAnd you think she wanted to live in a trailer in the woods of Montana?â
âDoesnât matter. I wouldâve given her anything she wanted. No questions asked,â Beau stated simply. âI was happy when I was with her. Didnât matter where we were or what we were doing.â
âSo, what? You planned on marrying her? Kids?â
Beau twitched his shoulders, his eyes not drifting from the street. If he glanced at Randy only for a beat, he couldnât ignore his friendâs reactions any longer and still remain honest. âWe never talked about it, but... If thatâs what she wants, then yeah. Donât even have to think about it. You really were an idiot, you know?â
âI know that. Thank you,â Randy huffed sarcastically and rolled his eyes. âStill not getting my blessing, though.â
âGood thing youâre not her father,â Beau snapped. He could only muster so much patience. âYou donât really have a say in who sheâs datinâ.â
âYouâre one to talk.â Randy scoffed mockingly. âI met your friend Denise at the station. We had a long chat. She almost talks as much as you. Sounded like you tried to have a say in who Carla should marry. Little hypocritical, donât you think?â
âThatâs different,â Beau retorted defensively. âWe have a kid together. Whoever Carlaâs seeing is also gonna be in Emilyâs life.â
âSo, you donât even care a little about Carlaâs well-being? âCause Denise said you killed her new husband,â Randy countered cleverly.
âOf course I care,â Beau admitted frustratedly. What did Randy want to hear? That he was right about everything? Well, except one thing: âAnd I didnât kill Avery, by the way. Might have been slightly responsible for his death, sure, but I didnât kill the idiot.â
âSeems to be a pattern for you. Maybe Diane was right,â Randy muttered wryly.
Beau licked his lips and sighed. âListen, I know that devil woman is good at getting into someoneâs head, but you gotta believe me, man. I did not leave you to die. If I had knownââ
âWhoa, I know,â Randy interrupted him with an amused chuckle and two placating hands. âI was just joking. I knew you didnât hand me over to the cartel on purpose in some evil ploy to get with my wife. That would be insane.â
Beau gave a nod, accepting his answer with relief. âWell, good.â
âLook, Iâm not delusional, contrary to what everyoneâs thinking. I know things happened while I was away,â Randy admitted. âI figured she had moved on. For three years, I actually hoped she did. I wanted her to be happy. Just didnât think it be you, I guess. Probably shouldnât have been surprised, though. I kinda knew you always liked her. Just didnât think any more of it, you know?â
âAnd there wasnât more, alright? I promise,â Beau assured him, his cheeks reddening from embarrassment. He never thought Randy wouldâve suspected anything â not that there really ever was anything. But had his tiny crush really been that obvious? âOne of those things, you know? Just âcause I find Michelle Rodriguez attractive doesnât mean I seriously expect to date her. I didnât know it was more than that till I spent some time with her.â
âGood to know,â was all Randy said, crossing his arms with an uncomfortable clear of his throat. âDefinitely surprised Y/N likes you, though. She always had a pretty low opinion of you. Said you were doing shitty police work and I should be more careful. Guess she was right..." Beau shot him a darkened look but refrained from taking the bait. Randy pursed his lips. "Look, I know Iâm a pain in your ass right now. Youâd probably love to get rid of me.â
âWell, hey, thatâs notââ
âWhat, true?â Knowingly, Randy lifted a brow. âI would if I were you.â
Beau only nodded, not admitting out loud the thought had certainly crossed his mind. âSo, what are you thinking now?â
âStill want her to be happy,â Randy said quietly.
All of a sudden, Beau then slammed on the brakes, both men jolting forward into their seatbelts. A loud thud echoed through the car as something heavy hit the Jeepâs hood. For a moment, the sheriff thought heâd run into a deer before blinking his eyes at the bloodied and muddied image of Hal Turner.
âWhat the hell?!â
Turner was in rough shape, pantingly and deliriously stumbling around the car and onto the road, shielding his eyes from the blinding headlights with his palm. Blood dripped from various places from his head and body before Beauâs eyes narrowed on the metal tool stuck inside his neck.
âGuess we found our missing screwdriver,â Randy noted as the two men jumped out of the car, guns drawn.
âWhere is she, Turner?â Beau prompted sternly, his finger itching to pull the trigger for everything heâd done to you. But knowing where you were was more important than a vendetta. Turner could only speak while he was alive.
And the man seemed to know it, too. Before the sheriff could call for back-up and an ambulance, Turner sneered and raised a hand, gripping the screwdriver tightly.
âNo, donât!â
Beauâs plea came too late. Hal Turner pulled the makeshift weapon out of his throat and collapsed to the ground, bleeding out within seconds.
Randyâs fingers landed on the manâs pulse point. He glanced up at his partner with a shake of his head. âHeâs gone.â
Throwing his gun angrily into the rustling brushes, Beau gripped his temples and screamed into the void of the dark woods. Desperation clawed on his mind and heart. The fear of losing you for good took him prisoner. With labored breaths, he squeezed the bridge of his nose with his thumb and forefinger and rubbed his tired eyes. Turner had been his last lead. He knew more wouldnât be coming.
What now?
A sanctimonious beep of his phone drew his attention. A small part of him prayed it was Jenny, informing him youâd emerged a few miles up the road â bloody like Turner, but otherwise fine. Alive.
But his green eyes only found an email and darkened at the senderâs name. âDiane just sent me a link.â
Randy, caught in his own spiral, suddenly glanced up. âTo what?â
âLivestream.â
Chapter 13: Sure And Certain â JANUARY 10
Another cliffhanger, and it looks like Diane's still having the last laugh đ
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Sooooo the last few days iâve been seeing stars and suddenly iâm juggling 6 sorcerer boyfriends. Whats a polar bear to do?
Also this is my MC, đšâš Sorbetes âšđš.
Context why my MC is a sentient polar bear.
The MC doesn't have a set appearance and then there was this dialogue. And the emotes are polar bear themed đđđ is also literally its own spoiler
#arcana twilight#arcana twilight Arcturus#arcana twilight Spica#arcana twilight Vega#arcana twilight Sirius#arcana twilight Alpheratz#arcana twlight Pollux#wow cant believe iâm actually drawing/playing something other than SDV#are you proud of me?#i was supposed to be playing reverse 1999 but likkkkeeee#i heard alpheratz and spicaâs voice and it was game over#i spedrun the game in a week???? and the plot isnt done yet so i dont know what to do with my life anymore#The main story is pretty good?? I mean i wish that the MC would play a more active role???#i mean she started learning magic in a whole as new world#but i like i just want my MC to fight yknow aside from like rushing to someones aid#although she literally is meant to be a support character but like#if i cant fight with magic let me fight with my fists/sord#the game really shines with the side plots!!! I enjoyed the friendship building and the character relationships#hahahha catch me drawing some of them in the future#Sorbetes built like Alpheratzâs new favorite napping place#Spica is very disappointed somewhere#Also Sorbetes goes by they/them
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Chase suffers in love but the other Norms still let him come to their little photoshoot
#shepherds of haven#lavinet naveen#shery acquell#trouble alder#riel syndran#chase trinaeste#LOL so I sketched Chase ages ago bc I have beef with him and he is the main man of some of my closest friends#and I just was like what if I drew all the other norms wrapped in blankets#it became everyone in jackets while Chase suffered but I think thatâs funnier#itâs norm team building!!!!#originally troubleâs jacket was a denim bomber bc basically I just want him to wear a rugby uniform or anything worn by members of a-ha#but he looks rly nice in brown so#FIRST TIME DRAWING RIEL AHHHH my actual love#Halle would be crazy for riel as her small vicious pointy boyfriend but alas#but she can shape shift riel !!! pls!!!!!!!!#she is flattered he saw her as a dragon she felt rly seen in that moment lol but also just generally enjoys his company#I drew shery first but after I drew trouble she looked really washed out#It was driving me nuts and I couldnât stand it - I had to go back in and saturate tf out of her layers and it looked better#lavinet got the same treatment actually#I really like lavinet and in my head sheâs THICC with a wasp waist like just OOZES femininity#her and shery are accidentally looking at each other while riel is trying to stare through troubleâs soul#DONT FEEL BAD FOR CHASE ANYONE itâs SELF INFLICTED#the infamous trinaeste torpedo#love is hard chase !!!! it sucks !!!!!!!!#if I reframe Chase as being reluctant to fall in love bc he becomes a complete simp with lowkey yan behaviours I can rly get behind it#chase and Halle wouldnât last long enough to sleep together unless she loses all confidence in herself as a woman bc wow her true love is#CLEARLY NOT INTERESTED OMG#she would hear him choose to f chase in fmk and would be like what do you have that I donât#wouldnât even hear the marry bit#anyway this was fun and actually came about bc I was drawing rly extra outfits for the mages and got tired aka couldnât figure out what
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"Alright and then my last question on the celebration because we are huge fans of thisâmaybe the greatest establishment of all timeâhow was the party at E11even?" "From what we remember? Yeah. You know, that whole week was crazy."
Empty Netters | 8.26.24 (x)
"The next dayâ" "Still haven't slept?" "Still have not slept. That night I probably got an hour of sleep. Maybe 2 hours. The next night was the boys night in Miami. So we have dinner at Catchâwhich is... what a great spot down in Miami Beach! And then we go to E11even. And E11even put on one of the greatest parties I'll ever go! I don't know if I'll ever go to a better party!" "Big Dog's there? Pitbull?" "I can't remember! But it wasâI remember. It was incredible! Like it wasn't even like guys were going crazy. We've been drinking for 3 days straight so you're already in the pocket! You're just enjoying all the fans and like the night that they put on for us was likeâit was incredible! We own the place basically! It was so fun! A night I'll remember forever!"
Cam & Strick Podcast | 8.27.24 (x)
and just for prosperity sakes monty and swaggy had public signings at hollywood collectibles on the 29th and even 2 days after the eventâą they could not remember jack shit about it (x)(x)
so in conclusion: "so about e11even-" "i dont remember anything about it but it sure was fun ill remember that i dont remember đ"
#brandon montour#matthew tkachuk#carter verhaeghe#florida panthers#everything about the e11even adventures makes me giggle#you know the shinji âi will enjoy my weekend to the fullestâ (unspeakable horrors) âwhat a good weekend!â meme#that but cats with e11even#the way montys eye shift left to right as he tries to recall anything about that night and very quickly realises he absolutely cannot#the way he blew out of his mouth oh i felt that in my soul#very obsessed with maffhews storytelling voice#âi cant remember :Dâ he says and immediately retracts that to go no âI rememberâ obviously like obviously guyssss of course i do#girl who lies to make the story funnier#in which way did she lie welp thats a tossup!#chatty kathy loves gossip! and boy does she love retelling the messy parts of her life!#schrodingers can maffhew actually retell specific details of that night who knows thats the beauty of it#once again im not surprised swaggy remembers nothing as well because wow yeah#would love to see if any of the other cats can even remember anything lmaoooo#very important to archive this guys i promise you
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Happy Valentines, Akira. Happy Valentines, Asshole.
If you canât read what Akechiâs secondary inner-dialogue says cause I obscured it too much behind his regular dialogue, hereâs a transcription in panel order: Hello, you fucking- Ah- Hello, Akira! Fuck off, why should I tell you- Just a soda- thereâs a new flavor.
I donât want your shitty gift. Oh- haha! Youâre so sweet.
I hope I choke. Theyâre lovely, thank you.
Like hell. Likewise. Thereâs no way itâs just a coincidence. Still though, itâs a funny coincidence.
#p5#akeshu#akechi goro#kurusu akira#wow- me?? posting a valentines comic... actually on?? valentines????? wack. absolutely wack#it's a short one! I purposefully tried to keep it short. it was a challenge and it still ended up being 3 pages. but i blame my canvas size#also in case u can't see what akira is holding out to akechi: theyre chocolate covered strawberries on sticks!#i saw them irl and was like oh god i want those. i am going to project that feeling on my favorite characters so help me god#and now! here we are! but my shitty-ass coloring & line quality make it hard to discern them so. sorry about that lmaooooo#ANYWAY i don't do enough post-maruki stuff so. i made this one a little bittersweet. :)#why did i put akechi's scarf in a bow? honestly i dont know! i think i saw some art a while ago that did that too and i thought it was cute#well. plus i guess there's the symbolism of 'akechi being alive and reciprocating your feelings (however involuntarily) IS a gift' part#hence that hes wrapped up in a bow. like a present. :)#also god. the first panel is supposed to be akechi's reflection in a vending machine window. I could NOT get it to look right#so for reference!!! just so you guys understand!!!!!! thats what that panel is supposed to be!!! he is NOT in fact a ghost. (sigh)#hope you enjoyed and had a lovely valentines!! for my part i have eaten nothing but sweets today and hoo boy will that have been a mistake#ALSO in terms of the audience-participation comic...hopefully coming soon. if i can ever gain the will to draw it.#but at least tumblr has polls now so i can do the audience-choose-y bit without needing to use a separate website! so thats good i guess#anyway anyway anway thanks for listening to me ramble if you made it this far! have a lovely rest of your day and hopefully see u again soon
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doodles
edgar vargas and squee by johnen vasquez
scriabin by zarla-s
#sunny's art#vargas#edgar vargas#vargas zarla#scriabin vargas#zarla s#scriabin#doodles#YOU THOUGHT YOU'D SEEN THE LAST OF ME . . . . !!!!#well HELLO !!!! I'M BACK !!!!!!!!#got a new brush . what do you think of it do you like it#okay i want to ramble about these wait a second#the first one looks a bit different to the rest because i was just trying new stuff .#if i spend a long time without drawing i'll forget how to draw and well it happened#i've changed my art style like 3 times now but i still draw side profiles the same . looks weird ugh#the mug says â JESUS loves me BECAUSE no one else will â btw . meta gave me the idea actually . thanks meta .#about the second one . finished that one like ten minutes ago . missed drawing todd aw#i just find their whole relationship so amusing .#like yes i went crazy for like a month and now i have a brother-husband and a kid ?!#they complement each other so well though . i love them#THE UNO ONE omg i've had that idea for like A YEAR NOW and i just drew it lol#i wonder how long it would take scriabin to notice though .#when i showed this to meta she said : â oh wow !! edgar's finally winning at something !! â and it's SO TRUE#wonder how he does it !#and the last one . i got the idea when i was looking through zarla's account searching for fan art .#love it so much though they look like their lives aren't a living hell#anyways i'll probably make more of these . who knows#going back to school on monday . and of course i had to get inspiration four days before going back .#please PLEASE I DON'T WANT TO GET BACK TO SCHOOL . PL#okay byeee enjoy these . eat my starved followers . EAT !!!!!
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Hey!! So turns out a video I made between a certain âwell beloved but highly sensitive/emotionally reactive T.Vâ and an âorange haired inkling-turned-humanâ has managed to sweep my YouTube channel and accumulate 100k VIEWS!! THATâS A LOT OF PEOPLE ACTUALLY?? My most widely viewed video EVER to exist in this moment in time?? AAAAA?? Not even mentioning the various comments and staggering increase in subs! Itâs so much more then what I expected or even prepared forâmight even be the most impactful thing to happen for me this year <3
âŠaside from graduating high school + the social connections Iâve been fortunate to make lol
BUT THE POINT IS Iâd been closely monitoring the YouTube growth through the entirety of October. Itâs make me smile like a dork, gawk in astonishment, dance frantically in my room from the energy boosts, and grow courage to stop being so selective/self-conscious with what I wish to share with the world! Itâs kept my ambitions going!
I needed to find some way to celebrate the occasion and express my thanksâbecause I canât NOT acknowledge this milestone jksjskp. Typically I try to avoid getting tunnel visioned focusing on the metrics/numbers. Mr. Puzzles had already demonstrated how much those things can mess with the minds of creatives. Caring too much about chasing views or placing your artistic value in attention seeking gets damaging. But at same timeâŠitâs hard to deny the sense of pride the 100k achievement has filled me with. I understand that reaching 100k views doesnât immediately make me any âbetterâ or âworseâ then I was before. Iâm still just me! It only helps me feel seen by othersâand thatâs all I really needed. To hear some nice words & receive reminders that my ideas are cared about. So thank you SMG4 fandom for that, seriously thank you.
Please accept this Mr. Puzzle drawing as a way of sharing the happiness around. Heâs so entertaining. Love him for simply existing. So glad we can all collectively be super attached to him (and the rest of the SMG4 cast of course). Canât wait to see more incredible artworks from the fandom :)
Just incase anyone is confused by my vague description over which âanimated videoâ Iâm referring to hereâhopefully this photo will help clarify lol. Itâs this one!! Sorry about not outright stating the title at the start, I got carried away with writing!!
Iâve been in an odd place mentally when thinking about it. Wondering to myself if any of the attention is deserved considering itâs not even fully colored and could be dismissed as âlow effortâ content (despite taking several days making it). Itâs easy to get into a trap of comparing yourself to others and questioning how much of the videos success is based on your skills, sheer algorithm luck, or only because you used popular characters and catered to a specific fandom. And then judging yourself by looking at other peoples videos. Iâve seen several artists post higher quality works then my own but it somehow gets less views. So why did mine succeed when others (who should have gotten just as much attention if not more) didnât? Sometimes you feel like youâve unfairly robbed them of that chance to be seen. However Iâve realized that I canât ever expect views to be consistentâand comparing is pointless. So why worry about it or feel inadequate? I mean itâs pretty common for funny cat videos to go viral, so who am I to question the system lol. âPopularâ YouTube videos can range from a passion project which took 7+ artistsâŠto a clip of Toad singing Chandelier or a nonsensical Vine sketch. Anything can happen when itâs the internet! And just-so-happened my video was chosen. I should stay glad about that and get rid of all the overanalyzing. So thatâs what Iâve chosen to do :)
#OKAY SO SO SO actually started doodling this once the video was around 98k this morning#it wasnât even meant to be art specifically designed to celebrate the milestone at first#I just wanted to draw the funky fella who makes me laugh#but as you can see that changed up fast jksjksp#I was under the impression that my video wouldnât reach near 100k until December UH?? WHAT HAPPENED MY PREDICTION THWARTED??#seems Iâve severally underestimated how long the traction would continue for geez wow uh#people sure do enjoy comedy gotta love âem laughs and giggles#I CANâT BELIEVE WE REACHED IT THO. THATâS INSANE TO MEâALL THE SUPPORT AND COMMENTS AND SUBS#thank you SMG4 fandom I wouldâve never fathomed the algorithm to carry it so far like this#you wanna know the real kicker?#things would have gone so differently for the channel if I didnât wrestle with my anxiety & post there#because there was a point during that day where I fullheartedly figured it would cause me to loose subs#I was kinda terrified ngl#this goes to show that you should never hold yourself back from sharing different aspects of your interests#you donât need to confine yourself to just one thing#or to strive only to make the most high quality videos ever (I put that pressure on myself a bit too much nowadays)#sometimes itâs the simple ideas that manage to charm people#and those who see the effort will stick around to support you. You just need to trust yourself during the process and take that chance :)#EWWWW MUSHY GUSHY SENTIMENTALITY CLOGGING UP THE ATTENTION HERE#whatever happened to keeping the focus on âšthe starâš who made it all possible to begin with huuuu??#show a bit more gratitude to the charming TV who boosted the viewership in the first placeâŠdonât be so self absorbed with morals lonesome đ#what is this some sort of My Little Pony episode oh pleaseeeeee đ#<- all of that was a simulation of Puzzles interjecting and nagging a bit lol. Iâd imagine heâs tried of my nonstop nonsense#âŠ.yea the Puzzle brainrot is reaching maximum severities. So thereâs high chance Iâll be animating him more down the line :3#stick around to find out!!#hplonesome art
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you know what guys. after this whole thing goes down, i hope we get the ACTUAL kamiyama school festival and it is a very good comparison to the first one. where we can see clearly how much mizuki has grown since that first event in january 2021, since that first school festival in middle school.
and i hope mizuki gets to have fun with her friends and can hang out with ena. and i hope ena has fun too. i hope she gets to tease akito, forge bonds with her classmates at the fried squid stall, and hopefully get roped into a dumb show with the oddballs 1 2. i hope this is enaâs pandemonium. i hope we all can have a little bit of joy and whimsy while getting to see how much the gangâs lives have changed at this point.
and i hope rui is a little worried for mizuki â i sincerely hope he is somewhere in mizu5, quietly waiting by the rooftop like he always has for her. but by the end of the schoolfes event he can look at mizuki, her whole face bright as all eight students in our little kamikou main cast gang come down from the rooftop (for one last time maybe, but we donât talk about graduation in front of rui⊠unless ofc we bring it up this event) and he can say âyouâve come such a long way, havenât you, mizuki? iâm happy for you.â
#project sekai#karamell yells#mizuki akiyama#ena shinonome#rui kamishiro#mizu5#sorry for making this sort of about rui. will not happen again#I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT THE KAMIYAMA HIGH FESTIVAL EVENT#and i will elaborate on the graduation thing btw#@ lunchtime i came with this wholeee scenario#ruiâs a lil bit worried about mizuki after whatever happens in mizu5#and is all âoh boy i hope sheâs enjoying todayâ#and cough okay i stole this bit from honakana wedding BUT#tsukasaâs like âwell rui. you know what time it isâ#âits our last school festival rui. we need to make sure everyoneâs having fun!#tis the duty of us seniors HAHAHAHA ok so blah blah blahâ#and just ig. kidnaps ena for a little bit#phantom thief style. she is so confused but plays along#and mizuki and rui (and the other 2nd years) get to go around the school to look for them#over time rui kind of realises âhm. actually. mizuki is having so much fun right now⊠wow the power of companionship :)â#and ofc the final destination is that rooftop#and rui lets the 2nd years go in front of him and watches themâŠ. and is all âwow. i might never get to do this again.#iâm so glad we get to be connected like this :)â#blah blah. wholesome ending. blahâŠâŠâŠ..#what a ramble hey#but tis my duty as chairwoman of rui#a friend of his is a favourite of mine#cough SORRY AGAIN
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what do you fucking mean that's how charlie dies. THAT'S HOW CHARLIE DIES??? i mean i know the show has a penchant for killing off every character who's not a winchester brother or an angel of thursday but good god. what the fuck. charlie was such a good and enjoyable recurring character, and she had such a fandom impact that i've seen, and she's only around for THREE SEASONS?? (sidebar: it's amazing she has the presence she does for only being around for a couple episodes in the long run!) but: was this necessary? and she just dies offscreen after her skills are utilized to progress the plot of decoding the book of the damned?? oh my god. what in the actual fuck. i'm finding myself getting genuinely very upset at her death. she did not fucking deserve that. and i can absolutely see why the fan response to her death is what it is now. completely fucking unjustified and throwaway and useless.
#theo.txt#spn#charlie#spn spoilers#spn 10x21#almost none of the women who've gotten fridged on this show have deserved it but still#good god this one made me especially angry#why do you use this character for a plot point and then ship her off somewhere. to oz or to the afterlife. so often?#she was such a cool character with a good story that i enjoyed and related to and THIS is what they did with her?? and from my perusing she#doesn't even really come back like bobby occasionally does?? and his death. while devastating to me as somebody who really liked him. still#felt WAY better than this#sorry i ended that episode with my jaw on the fucking FLOOR oh my god. /neg#what did she have to die for? where is that post about female characters dying so male characters can feel sad but it's a gifset of all the#bullshit ass deaths of women on supernatural#i love the show fucking obviously but jesus h christ.#but also you know what. having the context that i have. still a fucked up thing to say but i see why dean says That to sam now during#charlie's funeral. it IS an interesting look into how they respond to the other one violating their wishes/freedoms and into their larger#dynamic actually! but thats not what this post is really about#wow. i am actually livid. poor fucking charlie.#if she was like a sister to the winchesters how about you bring her back huh? how about you revive her? jesus christ#i wonder what her heaven is like. i hope its dnd and movie night with the girls#i took a little break mid-typing this to see if i was just being insane and angry but no the super wiki has a whole section about the fan#outrage at charlie's death and the discussions it furthered about the show's misogynistic tendencies#and you know what? good!#ok anyway. im going to go browse charlie art and feel abnormal now.#supernatural#charlie bradbury
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there's cliche's and then there's intentionally leaving a piece vague but it still having meaning and assuming your audience isn't stupid so they can come to their own conclusions about how the piece makes them feel based on visual language
#that's what we did in art school#when you actually have to do shows and tell people in person your artist's statement#I like seeing how people feel and react to my work rather than care about the style or aesthetic or tropes used#it's the /meaning/ of the piece and I love how even though my experience is specific#it still feels relatable to others#in that moment where people go wow or that's so cool like#i had a guy run up to me once just because he bloboed a work of art I made#i love that shit#i miss shows but eugh pandemic :(#jackal's journal#my art historian would have a fit rn#her whole thing is Pompeii and she showed us how much enjoying and relating to things you love or find neat helps inspire you more#than worrying about how other people feel about you#like damn
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do NOT let Blanche get into the X-ray glasses jar!!!!!!!! /j/ref
#drew this yesterday & debated confining it to Twitter or letting it escape onto here as well#itâs just too funny not to. I had to at least post a cropped version.#(believe it or not this was supposed to be only a study ((of the very obviously detailed clothing)) & then the ref popped up on my dash)#(I just had to)#silly nothing headcanon (kind of angsty ⊠sorry in advance) but I just think that Dorothy **very secretly** owns#some Very pretty things to fight off the insecurity & constant jabs at her features. I rlly think being a little hyper-feminine in secret#(itâs no secret honestly. whoâs she fooling. her confidence is what keeps her from doing what sheâd like to)#would keep her from being completely depressed about it all. because she *knows* that sheâs feminine & attractive but itâs really hard to#believe that when what you know deep down is constantly being challenged and beaten down. Iâm making no sense but I think that embracing#her own desires & allowing herself to be feminine in an âextravagantâ way would help slowly build back her confidence.#Iâd argue we see her doing a little of that in season 6-7 actually â she becomes very open about the kind of person sheâs attracted to (&#allows herself to swoon!!!!!!!!!) & that is huge for her !!!!!!! regardless of if she gets shot down by Blanche or Sophia she still#communicates & reiterates that she *is* an attractive & desirable woman & no amount of bitterness from the others will change that!!!!!#wow this turned into a ramble completely off topic LMAO can you imagine. this silly meme inspired a whole heartfelt âreasons why Dorothy#deserves to embrace her femininityâ essay#okay thatâs all. enjoy
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