#like where do u go to vent and talk about stuff when u wanna vent about ur trusted friends

[mintyyukimevt]

Some days I want to pull the bomb out of my chest (my heart) and throw it into the center of the earth and blow the whole place up :D

[chosolala]

jjk characters at american highschool ˙⋆✮

i’ve been seeing this silly headcannons all over tiktok for other anime so i thought i’d make a jjk version but here’s the type of student i think characters would be at an american school :]

characters: yuji, megumi, nobara, gojo

yuji itadori

never has a ride and failed his drivers test

genuinely tries to pay attention but never has any idea what’s going on

“class clown” but is actually kinda funny unintentionally

wears sports brands for all his clothing

goes off campus for lunch everyday even if he isn’t supposed to

gets invited to every party but never ever goes

“i’ll do it for a dollar”

does no extra curricular school activities despite a bunch of his peers asking him to join their teams and stuff

tiktok shop fidget toy victim, bro has a pop it phone case

constantly getting caught for being on his phone in class

hes the type of guy whos phone will randomly start blasting music bc he forgot to mute it

dont ask him if he has a pencil

megumi fushiguro

mansplains

actually so sassy at first, like if you talk to him and he had no prior intention on reaching out to you he doesn't wanna talk to you

type of guy to do all the work on the group project in one night because he doesnt trust you

brings local business iced coffee to school every day in first period

has a car and only gives people rides in return for favors

probably in like theater but works behind stage

takes really good notes, ppl ask to take pictures to study

like the entire school knows him but he ONLY knows his friend circle dont ask him abt anyone else

probably randomly gets philosophical during the conversation

makes tiktoks where he just stares into the camera and ruffles his hair a few times with a lana del rey song in the background (half his comments are lana stans calling him a poser or something)

tries to put girls onto his niche music taste and its just like birds dont sing by tv girl

nobara kugisaki

buys into every microtrend ever but is always trendy

always drinking those bottled starbucks frappes you can get in vending machines

everyone thinks she might be gay

makes tiktoks in school of her and her friends dancing and stuff and you are DEF in the background like passed out or picking your nose lol

talks over the teacher despite them shushing her and her friends multiple times then is shocked when she gets kicked out of class

she is the ultimate girls girl, shes so nice to girls despite looking mean but she will jump a man so quick if he steps out of line

probably like on the track team

goes to the mall sometimes during lunch instead of eating

has skipped in the bathroom and had to hide with her legs on the toilet before

satoru gojo (as a teacher)

extremely unprofessional

sometimes when he doesnt feel like teaching he puts on like wall-e and just has a movie day

literally all in everyones business, students come to him with their problems before they tell the school counselor

like he has some of his students numbers and they gen vent to him and are like friends with him

NEVER teaches, he just posts power points online and gives test every few weeks

orders kfc for lunch

maki zenin

everyone thinks she and nobara are girlfriends

takes all her notes on her ipad

she does NOT play about school field day

always brings medicine, feminine products, deoderant, anything you might need maki has it

kind of the mom friend

probably in like cross country

has the fattest hydroflask water bottle and is constantly getting up to refill it

very organized school supplies

has college stickers on all her stuff

gen takes school seriously

sometimes goes out to eat with the others but often spends lunch alone in the library reading or studying while she eats

brings a tote bag instead of a bookbag

inumaki toge

also always has medicine

will text you at 2am on a school night asking u to get on duos

his mom packs his lunch for him and the group picks on him for it

he is the funny friend nobody is checking up on

for some reason he speaks fluent spanish (he is not hispanic in case you didnt know)

texting during class but never gets caught

also skips class sometimes but actually goes off campus with people instead of the bathroom

sometimes makes brainrot comments

will ask to copy your homework but will let you copy his next time as a thanks

has the worst handwriting ever almost unreadable, ts has teachers breaking down the syllables and stuff trying to decode his essay

also vents in his english essays

kento nanami (as a teacher)

openly talks shit about the principals and higher up staff to his students literally any chance he gets

constantly breaking school rules he does not gaf if he gets fired

leaves the class alone sometimes to go talk to other teachers

all the girls lowkey have a crush on him (he has no idea)

has a seating chart but for like 3 students, so if youre unproblematic he keeps you with his friends

probably has a class pet, like a hamster even though he isnt allowed to, he dont gaf

still gives all his assignments on paper

leaves a gold star sticker if you score a 90+

always messing with higher up staff any chance he gets

[mclmora]

✧ MCL (hsl) flirts - boyfriend headcanons ✧

~ NOTE: here are some hdcs about our favorite (highschool) boys as boyfriends! as usual all pictures used aren’t mine, ct to the owners on pinterest. all headcanons are SFW. reblogs are super appreciated (≧ヮ≦)

ꞝ Castiel.

his biggest love language is touch. he will not take his hands off of you, holding your hands when you take walks, resting his chin on your head, and so much more.

asked you once if you’d like to dye his hair, you did, and since then you’re his monthly hair dyer (and stylist, at times) appointment.

his cooking skills aren’t the best, he just learnt the basics to eat simple meals, that don’t taste like much. that’s why when you learnt how to cook his favorite meals he felt so spoiled and honored. he’s very humble (and is always trying to reciprocate, however he can).

ꞝ Nathaniel.

will share anything with you. something happens? you’re the first person who knows. he will literally tell you anything that bothers him or any thoughts he has. he trusts you so much.

he remembers every little thing about you. he will buy your favorite snacks and leave them on your bag whenever you guys have an argument, along with some flowers and a piece of paper with apologies.

will give you his hoodies without you asking. he loves seeing you wear them.

ꞝ Lysander.

if you call at 3am because you need to talk to him, he will always pick up. and if you wanna see him, say no more, he will be at your door as soon as possible.

the best times with him are summer nights, where you guys stay up until late talking about everything that crosses your minds. he’s the best when it comes to conversations and is always ready to go into important topics with sensitivity & care, but most importantly, maturity.

has a small diary dedicated to you. writes his poems for you, vents when you guys argue & take notes of your favorite things in there.

ꞝ Armin.

he will give you all his accounts passwords, let you use his phone, pc & tech stuff whenever you want. what’s his, is yours.

if he sees something that reminds him of you, he will buy it. a small keychain? a plushie? a cd of your favorite singer/band? he’ll keep it in his room and look at it whenever he misses you.

loves having you at his house. could be just chilling, him doing his thing and you doing yours, he just wants your presence near him, it makes him feel good.

ꞝ Kentin.

keeps his hand on your thigh everytime he’s driving. he’s also very jealous and will often keep it there even if you guys are sitting in a public space.

he really loves it when you put make up on him, or just doing skin care. it relaxes him so much and feels so pampered.

your biggest supporter. will support your ideas and will always hype you and your projects up. he has so much respect for you and value your opinions more than anyone else.

✧ check out the boys’ general headcanons here !

~ thank u so much for reading friendsss. hope you liked these & i really hope i’ll see u around!! sending lots of love and wishing y’all a good day/night :)

[babyspacekwid]

Astrology Observations and Advice ✨ (TW talks of ED)

From a non professional astrologer who has no idea wtf she’s posting half the time 💕

Chiron 4th house in Capricorn, Your dad may be very hard on you, like a perfectionist dad. Could have also been abusive. Could be the type to comment on your shortcomings. Remember that you are enough as it is, don’t be so hard on yourself, treat yourself as you would a friend. With compassion and kindness. Its okay to make mistakes in life. It’s common to have daddy issues with this placement, so try not to let that affect your love life, this is a personal placement of mine😜 rlly into toxic men, but they ain’t good for me, so let us be aware of that. Don’t take life too seriously, do the serious shit without being too serious about it. Idk if that makes sense but for example, let’s say u got a math test, do the math test seriously, like study and shit but don’t let the stress of it consume you because it rlly ain’t that serious.

Aries moon, especially men y’all’s temper is unregulated af. Ive seen y’all snap at stuff that energy shouldn’t be wasted on, y’all are one of the most emotionally reactive signs I have ever met. Like a ticking time bomb. This moon sign might have experienced a mother figure that was harsh and emotionally neglectful. Very hard on you, wasn’t that nurturing when raising you. The type of mom to tell you to get up and wipe the dust off when you fall and scrape your knee as a kid. y’all gotta delve into those emotions in a healthier manner. Therapy and journaling could be very beneficial. Go to one of those rage rooms where ppl break shit, I feel like y’all would go all out. There’s definitely some pent up anger. This goes for Scorpio moons too, y’all is more internal though, got some deep dark thoughts and intense internal feelings that could easily overwhelm which is why downtime is needed.

Speaking of some Scorpio moons I have met, don’t let your trust issues fuck things up. This a hard placement, y’all feel things so deeply, but just cause one person backstabbed you don’t mean everyone will. Open up to people, trial and error and you’ll find that person. Obviously set boundaries and don’t just trauma dump on everyone you meet, but don’t build an invisible wall as soon as you meet someone. Not everyone is out to get you.

(TW) Taurus risings I’ve met have dealt with some type of eating disorder. Could have had family members or people comment on their weight as a child or just got rlly influenced by the negative parts of social media. Every taurus rising I’ve met has dealt with body issues, y’all are actually so beautiful though, and I’m sorry you don’t hear it often,no matter the size. You guys are also so photogenic, like maybe I’m just the type of person that sees human beings as cute in general but istg y’all could be making the ugliest of faces and I’d still think it’s charming 😭 my best advice would be to stop comparing yourselves, and to learn unconditional love towards your body at every stage it’s at. We’re gonna be 60 and wrinkly anyways, might as well enjoy what it can do for you now!

I have this friend who’s a Capricorn sun and moon, and as a Gemini sun and moon myself I feel so similar to her in like every aspect. Idk if it’s because we’re both born on a new moon, but anyways, this girl needs to learn to open up😭 like hun I wanna be your shoulder to cry on, don’t get me wrong she will vent, and spill the tea, but when the waterworks come out she’d rather isolate. I’m just like naurrrrrr, come back. I might not be comfortable with tears and shit but il awkwardly pat your back and listen to you. Either way y’all don’t be afraid to be vulnerable, you aren’t a burden and you can’t deal with it yourself. Stop trynna convince yourself that you can. Humans are social creatures and our primal instinct is to receive and give love. M

ANYWHOOOO y’all I rlly ain’t that knowledgeable about this shit, I’m rlly going off my friend’s placements (and mine). I am studying astrology tho so maybe one day 🤠 but I got the memory of a goldfish so it might take a while, I appreciate everyone who’s been liking my posts though THANK YOU💕💕💕💕

[kamiversee]

SPILL ON UR LOVELIFE OMG WHAT 👀👀 I want fanfic moments too hsjjssj

Are you ready for a yap sesh…

Okay so do y’all rmb that 6ft tall guy I was talking to & said I MIGHT be in love w? Yeah so erm… He was wayyy to lusty for me, so much so that when we talked and he’d say how much he liked me— it just felt weird because it was like “wtf do you like about me aside from the fact that I’m nice & know how to dirty talk??”

And I thought it was ironic that he was too lusty for me even tho I write literal smut in my free time but y’all I’m not even exaggerating when I say nearly every convo w tht man was about sex. And if it wasn’t about sex then it was just about something pertaining to him in general.

Anything he knew about me was info I had to just throw out there to him yk? It was like he never really asked me anything about myself unless it was something sexual. Which irked my nerves so badly because, again, wth did he like about me? The guy didn’t even know my favorite color like ??

But in the beginning I was pretty blindsided by how good the conversations were and I was just happy to receive attention in all honesty.

Anywho tho, I told my bsf about the guy & he was telling me to stop talking to him because it’s going no where, or at least tell him that I want him to start asking things about me but uh…

I’m not that kinda person y’all. I dont want to have to tell someone to be curious about me if they claim to be interested in me. It was so apparent that he was only interested in the way I gave him a listening ear on his struggles & the way I engaged in sexual convos.

So, although I felt like shit for a while because I didn’t wanna be like his other exes tht just up & left him for no reason, I eventually told him I just couldn’t talk to him romantically anymore. NOW, this was damn there the icing on the cake.

While he was really mature about it ending & basically said he understood and wasn’t going to push me about staying or anything, y’all… he didn’t even ask why I wanted things to end. I wasn’t exactly looking for him to ask why but dude, if u claimed to like me as much as you did & were oh so infatuated with me, shouldn’t you wanna know why I suddenly wanna break things off w you??? 😐

Anyway, that ended & we decided to just stay friends. Our convos got shorter and shorter & nowadays he & I both moved on.

ONTO MY CURRENT LOVE INTEREST 😁

Guys hes so.

We started talking from me giving him advice abt his ex and stuff & I met him literally right after that first guy so he even gave me advice abt him and when I told him I felt so shitty about leaving guy numb 1, he reassured me even tho he didn’t know me tht well at the time ^-^

Then from there we just became friends and would talk a lot bc he noticed my lil sugu obsession and told me he looked like him (He does lowk) which led to him sayin I should be obsessed w him instead of Sugu since he’s actually real… he lowk gagged me there guys

Aaaand we’d just talk every day more and more, all on discord btw bc it’s so silly over there (server coming when??) And like, I dont rmb when exactly he caught feelings for me but at some point I could just kinda tell.

The only thing was that it just felt too soon so when he actually confessed to me or wtv, I told him I still wanted to know more about him as a person and whatnot. AND GUYSGUYSGUYS.

So rmb guy1 right? & how he didn’t even know my fav color? I told guy2 about that and he immediately asked abt it. I KNOW that’s smth so small but pls, it was so sweet…. is the bar in hell? Idk, I swear I have standards 🙏

We even had a whole convo abt colors & it was just super cute! >< Another time, I vented and told him how guy1 didn’t rlly put in any effort to get to know me but claimed to like me and guy2 went out of his way to say how he wants to know everything about me

When I tell y’all his confession was like smth out of a damn fanfic. YALLLLLL. And it’s funny bc MLN is actually based on events tht’s happened in my life soo…

Anywho, guy2 is amazing and ilhsm. He’s so sweet and silly, I wanna eat him yall ☹️

We talk everyday & I’ve ruined my sleep schedule juust a bit for him (it was ruiened beforehand tbh)!

That’s pretty much how things r goin for me rn. Guy1 & guy2 did interact w each other at one point and it was sooo messy yall, I was not feelin it but thats a story for another time frfr

I hope you guys enjoyed my podcast :3

[averagetmntfan]

a special thank you to my moots.

(TW: suicidal thoughts, ig?)

ahem- so as I have mentioned, today is my 1 year old this platform! I honestly cant believe it’s been this..long? A lot has happened, too. And honestly for the longest time, it wasn’t going well. Like- at all.

(rant continues under the cut:)

I’m don’t want anyone to feel sorry for me. Im doing much better than before, so it’s really not a big deal anymore. I’m just giving some brief context for my 2023- early 2024 school year.

so, I made this blog a couple days before the whole situation went down. Which I think I briefly mentioned on here.

so for a bit, I had felt very uh- isolated in my friend group. I had kinda always been the odd one out. We had different interests. Their sort of fun was hangin’ out, gossiping and what not. And I was into cartoons, and art. I never really told them, though. There were sorta judgy, and I was very insecure. Because they make fun of people. And I didn’t wanna end up by myself.

But anyways- usually, they’d all leave. And tell me to watch their stuff. And since I’m sort of a pushover irl, I didn’t really argue about it. But when I say all of them leave-? I meant all of them. All 4 of em. And it often did upset me.

also they’d talk to people I didn’t even know- which, okay yeah- but I couldn’t talk to them. I didn’t wanna get dirty looks. I’m not a very outgoing person. I like to think I keep to myself often.

So, Halloween comes around. And this stuff doesn’t end. And for a bit more context, one of my friends was getting super annoying by me. And I’m pretty sure she didn’t like me, like- at all. She easily got annoyed at me. And only me.

so she went to the Halloween dance- last block of the day

blah blah skip to after school and I text the group- “where are u guys?” None of them respond. So I search a lil bit, then head outside. Where- guess what? All of them were.

I asked “Why didn’t you answer the text?”

and my friends that gets annoyed at my easily said a snarky “my phone was off.” And was generally just being fucking bitch. And I use to be a big crybaby and stuff- and eventually grew out of it. But this- this sentence really upset me. I stormed off, avoiding all of them.

eventually I got on my bus and- well. Uh. Let my feelings out, if you will. I remember it very cleary, too. It was one of the most tears I had shed in a long time.

I get home, and the girl texts the gc, clamming I stormed off for “no reason” and I had enough. Saying smth “I obviously didnt storm off for no fucking reason”

a bit more of arguing keeps going, and a lot more sobs. It was one of the worst days I had ever had.

a few more days go by, and the situation gets worse. I avoid all of them, and hung out w/ a diff friend. I ranted/vent to her, telling her my friend was a Hippocrate for complaining about our other friends leaving, even tho she did the EXACT same fucking thing.

Which, was talking shit. So that wasn’t great and rlly bad of me. And I guess karma hit hard bc she texted me after school, saying I was talking shit abt her. Bc my friend was friends with her friends. So..awkward..

and really- the next day, it was over. I was free. But at what cost, really? I lost all my friends. Became an outcast, really. It was pathetic, now that I think about it.

for the rest of the year, I rarely spoke to them. And never talked to the other girl.

I spent most my time in the library, reading. And skipping out on eating. I was so unhappy. I don’t wanna say depressed but- very close.

it really made me hate who I was. It made me feel like a terrible person.

And that’s when I really did start using Tumblr more. It was sort of an escape, of mine. And god, I’m so glad I set up and account. I Met do many amazing and unique people one here.

This is sort of corny but, I really think this has helped me through a lot. Since a few months early I lost my privileges to tik tok, and discord. Which, yeah. Sucked.

but so many things had happened-! Joined a rp group, met a new online friend (which we are now very very close<3), found out about a LOT of facts, found other people who shared my interests!

so here we are, one year later.

it was really something. I’ve met so many wonderful people on here, man. Especially my moots. You guys know who you are. I’m not gonna tag you guys, but I’ll do a quick smth smth ig

FIRST OF- my first closest moots-!! Ghosty, cookie, Sleepy, Ally, And my Pooks, Ari. So many awesome things happened with these guys. A lot of funny moments, too. Lmao.

AND ALL MY RAMSHACKLE PEEPS- dew, anomaly, Schnozz, reboot, Bailey, lilac,- you guys are literally AWESOME UGH- I seriously enjoy every interaction I have with you guys. It genuinely makes me so happy

sorry this is super corny and stuff, I really wanted to make something meaningful for this. Thank you guys for being so amazing.<3

— jj

[finlizziah]

Redoing my introduction/pinned post cause apparently someone ated it 🙄

(Me infodumping about me time :333)

DNI: minors, bigots. (Remind me if I should add anything.)

Anyways, hai haii, prefer to be called Lizziah, though sometimes go by Liz/Lizzie.

I'm 19, NB femboy, autistic and adhd (diagnosed), anxious, moody and probably unstable :3

Sapphic (womnen,,,), aro-spec (romantic feelings are :( hard)

From the EU (if u know where do me a favor and keep it private).

Some of my fav bands and artists are Tally Hall, Penelope Scott, Los Campesinos!, STYXII, Mother Mother, The Living Tombstone (zero_one specifically), and more. Feel free to recommend me stuff.

Media im into: Limbus Company (god I love it so much), Fate (unfortunately my autism has taken a liking to it, I play Fate GO...). Some anime like Dungeon Meshi, the Frieren elf one and Steins; Gate (it hit me so hard in the feels when I watched it ;w; )

Send me a dm/ask, I'll most likely reply/answer, though may not if I have chosen for ur vibe to be wrong (rare). But if we talk we are friends, such is the law on my page.

I avoid most politics (though I may take interest in some stuff), nude images (feels gross seeing that), and get uncomfy from sharp object near the body, self mutilation ig? I dunno.

I collect tons of plushies (owner of 4 blahajs), linux user, (I'll add more later)

WILL REBLOG/MAKE HORNY POSTS, DONT FOLLOW IF U DONT WANT TO SEE THAT

I'll tag my own femboy selfies with #femboylizziah vent posts with #vent (currently #vent post , idk) and will try to add #asks to, well, asks.

If i unfollow/block you its either cause you post/reblog nudes and I dont wanna see that. Or other stuff that may make me uncomfy/i dislike. Sowwy!

Mmh yeah I'll add to this later, lemme know if I should add something. And if u read through all of that, send me an ask or dm or else you'll go to jail for a thousand years!!!!!!

[horce-divorce]

🏳️‍⚧️ jim ♡ he/him ⚧ 30s

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▪︎ writer, photographer, freelancer

▪︎ garbage artist + multimedia dabbler

▪︎ no good commie transient + aspiring nobody

» i like to share my thoughts and observations from a disabled, trans + homeless perspective, reblogs of stuff I think is important or educational, and stuff that makes me want to live. been sharing more of my own art + writing lately too! I have sideblogs for poetry & photography as well.

🌙 ✨️

⚣ @smeetlinglord and I have been homeless since August of 2023. we're chronicling our experiences living this way as disabled queer guys. we lived in our car until it died 07/01/24 so now we're going between a tent and couch hopping, and just continuing to live our lives in spite of everything. if you're interested, follow along here, on Ko-Fi, or on our side, @vagabond-sky

we have no monthly income due to our circumstances & constant displacement. the only money we get comes from friends and followers, and every dollar counts for us. when I'm able I sell art, but at the moment I have nowhere to keep stock. reblogging our essays & donation posts is always a huge help, too!

› (10/4/24) current donation post

✨ ⭐ KoFi Art Gallery & Essays ⭐ ✨

› "We all have the same 24 hours in a day," discussing what it means when someone chooses to label themselves as "disabled," and how we had all better get comfortable talking about it in a post-COVID, climate-changing, politically unstable world -> reblog on tumblr › "I'm Proud of Us," where I talk about some well-documented but oft-overlooked factors of homelessness, and why I'm not ashamed to be homeless, disabled, or to need so much help

I made a Tumblr Community for current, former, or about-to-be homeless folks to chat, commiserate, vent, ask for advice, or just share memes in a chill place; be warned that Communities has been buggy on mobile, you may have to try more than once. 🔗 here's the invite link if you wanna come hang out 🔗

I also made a Tumblr Community for chronic pain havers. are you pained, chronically? do you enjoy the company of others who understand the scope of your suffering? join the chronic pain gang

› little fucking guy alert!! › visit my neocities if u freaky thank you textstudio for the bling shrek font

[kuzuhina1brainrot]

Have wip

rambling and stupid shit under. Venting I guess! (Long, If u even end up reading this shit)

This. This was the one week off I had and I spent it laying in bed and cleaning and shit instead of drawing and stuff like I’d hope. Last week I was like omg I’m gonna be them drawing so much ill reach 220!!! Because I had ideas. I’m still at 215 rn. I only get the motivation when I don’t have the time why couldn’t it have stayed. 😞 I haven’t drawn much this week and that may sound like nothing but it’s weird because usually I’m able to keep up and constantly do stuff.

Every year, April is the worst for me mentally ????Like. Bad.somehow it just is. so don’t expect much this month from me lol.!! Unless I end up feeling bad and trying to pump out shit

like we are 4 days in and I have not been feeling good

it’s weird, as soon April came my mood dropped further and further. the worse it gets, the more I try to distract myself from it. YESTERDAY I SPENT MY WHOLE MORNING THINKING ABOUT GRAVEYARDS AND I KEEP STAYING UP UNTIL 1 IN THE MORNING WHEN I ACTUALLY DON’T NEED TO BECAUSE NOW I HAVE THIS WEIRD FEELING GROWING ON ME WHERE I JUST DONT WANNA LEAVE MY FRIENDS AND STOP TALKING EVEN IF IM TIRED? I LITERALLY WAIT UNTIL EVERYONES OFFLINE TO SLEEP LMAO?? The changes I’ve noticed altogether: not motivated to even draw Kuzuhina which is odd, eating junk and like no real food at all unless someone reminds me to, staying up for my friends, not wanting to get out of bed and do shit I’m supposed to. And then next week I gotta go back. Kill me ion wanna

I know it’s a bunch of little stuff, it’s just weird

anyway love u person reading go eat and get water or something have good day or night goofy

[callsign-relic]

Hullo :} Long time lurker (tasty era miss it loads btw)

U seem to be kinda low energy lately, like the last cuple weeks u gud?

Hi anon!! You’ve been here for a while wow!! Thank you for sticking around for so long :]

This ask was a surprise to me, but in a good way. It actually means a lot that you reached out just to check in :,> I’ll talk about some more personal stuff below the cut if anyone wants to read. Guess I’ll take this as an opportunity to vent PFFF.

short answer is though that as of recently I’ve been going through a lot of changes in my personal life that have left me stressed out, and my own mental health has been continuously beating my ass, though I’m trying to push past it for my own good and not let the bad dumb thoughts win. Talking with you guys helps, and as I’ve said before I really really appreciate it ❤️

In the span of just this one year, I have moved four times. It is soon going to be five. (Thankfully not very far, just from the 2nd floor of my complex to the ground floor). But still, all of the situations surrounding those moves has been very taxing on me emotionally. I’ve struggled with feeling like if I even belong anywhere, or if I myself am even worth all of this trouble I’m going through. Thankfully where I’ve settled now I don’t feel that way anymore, but in general it’s a feeling I’ve struggled with.

Secondly, I’ve mentioned this lightly before but I struggle a lot with my self esteem and self confidence, so my own brain likes to beat me up and make me assume no one wants to hear from me. Logically I know this isn’t true, but it’s of course hard to fight against how my brain’s been hard wired to think for a long time. There have been plenty of times where I write up a post only to immediately delete it without even posting cause I psych myself out of it. In terms of answering asks, I do always try to give it my all, but my confidence issues have lended to a big form of creative blockage in my head, where I am so convinced no one wants to hear from me that I’ve unfortunately successfully tricked my brain into not coming up with anything at all unless I’m prompted. Might be some form of depression, idk, I really don’t know anything about that. I can at least say that I’ve been tbh struggling very hard with feelings of both depression and anxiety, and that combined with my brain beating me up, it’s not been fun.

I don’t talk about it often (or, at least I try not to) because I don’t wanna be making vent posts all the time you know, dragging the mood and other people down. Another dumb thing my brain has convinced me is that doing that is just “making people feel bad for me”. Which again I know logically is not true, but it’s just hard.

I know the logical thing to do when one is feeling burnt out is to take a break, but… with how my life has worked out, where I am right now, I don’t really have anything else. That feels pathetic to admit and I really should go out and find more hobbies and expand my interests lol. But idk. I just feel very stuck in my own head, and too embarrassed or ashamed or feeling like I’m some bother to ever really reach out. So my brain has convinced me to just grin and bear it. Which is unhealthy, and I have been trying to push past it, but those are the feelings I’ve been tackling with for a while now.

I know you probably weren’t expecting an in depth answer like this, but I guess I needed to let it out somewhat. If you’ve read this far, thank you. And just thank all of you guys in general

[1totallynotasimp]

Elijah x ADHD Reader(If Rainbow Friends was in real life)

Before you read i have never experienced ADHD and ive never properly met someone with it so u had to search more on it up .so this might not be completely correct and in really sorry bout that and please try to not get offended to much .But feel free to correct any mistakes I make 

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Requested by Cassidy (on quotev)

(Your POV)

"ODD WORLD ,ODD WORLD ,ODD WORLD" we were all chanting ODD world and we were going to ODD world I was so excited . Then we all stopped in confusion

 "This is odd world " Judah asks "looks kinda different " micah replied Micah then runs to the door to find out it's locked

"WOOHOO WE'RE LOCKED IN ODD WORLD!!!" Me and judah say jumping 

"This isn't odd world " britney says

"awww man are we in trouble again" i reply 

Then a shadow figure appears on the TV and says stuff about collecting blocks hmmm and we gotta survive

"Survive ,survive what " elijah says along with some other gibberish Everyone ran away while i started skipping and eligah followed me. I really like elijah think I like like him I wonder if he likes likes me back what did what I say make sense oh wait this is in my head I forgot this is my POV and not anyone else wait did I break the fourth wall...

*meanwhile shiloh and bros background music starts play dodododododododod ba na na*

"Wow these boxes Unfold " judah explains

"really I love boxes "I reply "since when "elijah asks me "Since now "I reply mysteriously "hey look I'm a kitty in a box meow meow meow ."

"Y/N this is serious we have to get out of here" shiloh explains then notices evryone else is in a box like me

*scary deep voice sound" Chandler has been found

 Oh that's a bummer anyway I was walking with elijah and then we heard loud footsteps eligajah why do you walk so loud " I ask him

"W-what that isn't me" elijah replies Everyone else comes and gathers around the door and then I saw a very familiar blue monster but I forgot where I saw him from

"Awwwee it so cute I wanna hug him " I say going towards the blue monster

"Nope nope nope on a rope we gonna go go "elijah tells me and grabs my hand so we run away .The blue monster caught that grey jumper girl I I always forget her name .

Anyway daniel gets the last block and places it. All th flights turns of and back on and the figure from the TV starts yappin and tells about green Then we see a food bowl "aww they have a puppy" josiah exclaims "What about this place makes you think theyd have a normal pet.elijah says sarcastically

 "Oooh can I keep blue as a pet pwease " I say"

"No" elijah tells me and takes my hand and we walk off. We found some of the doggy food  and them we saw green "Aww look it green HIII GREEN " I say to green and start waving

"You do realise he's blind right "eligah tells me slightly smiling "Oh well ill heal his blindness with my great hug because I'm the queen of hugs " I yell going to hug green

 "No no no no no " elijah grabs my arm and pulls me away frome green " Y/N you can't keep doing this "

"Doing what " i ask "trying to hug the monsters " elijah replies  .

"aww but there my friends " i tell him

Y/N, can we, like, stick to the plan for once?” Eligah asks me “Plans are boring!” i exclaimed, running around him him, eyes bright with mischief.

"your gonna get hurt I'm worried about you there not our friends " eligah tells me

“Then we can just hug them until they become our friends!" i yell and elijah  starts laughing .

I love elijahs laugh that's why I try to make him laugh alot it's cute

We found all the doggie packets and the figure on the TV starts yappin again he talks about orange and how the vent start licking ..wait no it's leaking yeah leaking that makes more sense While me and elijah were walking shiloh runs up to us and cole is in a box on the floor we all look at cole

"Huh that odd " shiloh exclaims 

"ooooh what odd" I ask

"That " shiloh says "ok what odd about it "eligah asks clearly confused 

"That is odd " shiloh says again then I look more closely " *GASPS* WAIT THAT IS ODD" I yell

" I KNOW but what so odd bout it "elijah yells after me

"look it say odd "I tell elijah

"Oh that is odd "he says finally getting it

Shiloh them says stuff about how this was apart of odd world and other stuff

Judah runs near a vent and sees a puple thing in it  "Oh hecko no ! Nope not today ! Not today!!!"

Me and eligah ses the purple thing to I was about to say how cute it was but eligah interupts me " No Y/N its not cute . It's not so hug-able . And it is definitely not our friend " 

" *gasps* how did you know I was gonna say all that are you pyscic " I say and elijah just laughs at me his cute laugh

"what - what's so funny " I asked

Then all the light went of when we found all the fuses we had to power up the backup generator or as shiloh said find a way out then me elijah and shiloh found a room with alot of lore "ooooh spooky ... you think there's any cute monsters to hug here " I ask

Elijah amd shiloh look through everything while I just stand there playing with my hand shiloh started reading about how someone created the monsters to love the kids to much and wanted them to never let them leave "awww they just want company it .just be lonely here" I say

Elijah and shiloh were talking untill I heard the word Red WAIT RED "guys guys guys reds my brother "I tell them

 "HES YOUR WHAT!"they both yell at me . "I haven't told you that I have a brother hmm I thought I did my bad " I say .

Wait that means my brother is here I haven't seen him in soooooooooooooooooooooooooo long, I wasn't paying attention until I heard

Shiloh has been found

 "what huh that thing must be broken shiloh was right with us and there's no monsters around" I say I look elijah and he points to the vent with purple in it

"oh"

 Now we were without shiloh what we gonna do we powered up the generator and it was just me ,eligah ,judah and fairy girl . Anyway red my brother said we were having a party and I love party's then eligah told red that we now he's red I was gonna ask red if he still remembers me but he was gone then

"Wait are you telling me that red was sus" judah says "Yes judah red was indeed sus" I say

We got to the party place and I was still holding eligahs hand we saw alot of balloons and blue was sleeping "awww look he's sleeping he's probably so tired from chasing us all day "I say "Im Sure he is "

 Them a balloon popped because of a fork and now we were all running and then we found everyone else we escaped blue and then I saw red

And approached Red,  i waved enthusiastically and huged red very tight. “Hey, Red! It's me, Y/N! Sibling hug !"

“You know, if I was brave enough to hug a girl like that, maybe she’d notice me,” josiah said

"It's really you" red replied to me "Yeah anyway i have to go with my friends now but ill see you next time we have to run away from the rainbow friends byeee " i smile and wave then run over to the others .

I saw red wave back to then poof he disappeared, We made it we survived . Yippee "wow we really made it " i told elijah "yeah we really did " he responded

Then He leaned in, his gaze flickering to my lips, and in that heartbeat before our mouths met, i felt a rush of exhilaration as my mind quieted, and i could finally focus on one thing then we pulled apartTalia’s eyes widened, a mixture of surprise and delight flooding her expression.

“Whoa! What was that?” i exclaimed, laughing

“Uh, I… um…” Elijah stammered, feeling heat rush to his cheeks. “I just—I don’t know!”

“We ahould kiss more often!” i declared, bouncing away, energy renewed. "i love you "elijah said softly

"I love you to " I say

The end

Word count :1434

[spotsupstuff]

I wanna learn more about Blessing / Boreas. What’s up with all the bat flies with him? What’s his city like?

-rubs my hands together like a fly- uuuuuu boy, time to shake my blatantly favorite child Hell yeah huhuhuhuhuuu

the batflies enter the scene a good while after the Mass Ascension- they are his coping mechanism after Zephyr collapses and goes dark!

from the comic where they talk about Euros' n Sparrows' relationship, one can probably guess how close these two are. Boreas might be the big scary dog of the whole Eo family that punches things in the face rather than take any miniscule amount of shit, but when it comes to Zephyr he is very open and sweet. she's the only person who can actually influence his opinions and ideas greatly, because he loves and trusts her enough to allow her to do so. so when she collapses, he takes it the worst out of everyone. in a very quiet way. his pain if for him to keep, nobody else can know he's hurting

bear witness to Ňuňu

this lil shit was basically Boreas' therapy dog. just.. very very feckin teeny

child...

she is as smart as your typical bat, but the thing was that when she accidentally made her way into his chamber, he didn't have much will in himself to send the animal to eeby deeby so she got to flutter about. and as animals do, girlie used the empathy trap card to figure out this person who doesn't seem to be posing any danger is Sad. so she landed on his head, crawled up to look into his eyes and chirped

n that was the straw that broke the camel's back and Boreas had his first grief-inflicted breakdown ever. Ňuňu stayed during it and even after it, so emotionally-empty-feeling Boreas decided to take her in. hardly can replace Zephyr, but at least he isn't alone

Ňuňu later brought friends and Bee decided that he will look after them then. even after Ňuňu passes away, he still houses and raises them. the younglings like sleeping on his antennas so he has to watch himself to not move them too much sometimes. Euros has a folder full of photos like that

to his city- the name kush is:

originally from me looking for latin words for Rage. ended up going with Desaevio, because Bee is indeed positioned in a fitting place for the word

and the storm connection plus the last two are the main reasons why the Ancients called the city as such. after project Abet Zephyr ended in such a failure, they had to vent some stuff out. and we are going to claim that it is anger because that isn't as pitiful as shame or embarrassment

(the fact that almost every translator i put it into gives me "i'm sorry" works wonderfully, too. because what else will ultimately Boreas do, but quietly mutter to himself a mantra of apologies when he'll be lying in his chamber 30 seconds from his death, drowning in his regrets and mistakes?)

Desaevio was capable of comfortably supporting over 5 million people (no other Iterator city ever reaches that far- the max is ambitious Gen 3 cities that only ever reached around an estimate of 2.7 million) but at times housed over 6-7 million. despite lying close to the geographical location of Bergen in real life, Desaevio is very far from reaching such nice vibes (the old towns Boreas' structure overshadows come close, though). it is way closer to New York, but more dystopian. if u look up dystopian city on google images u get to see pretty closely what it looked like. combine it with Coruscant from star wars for bonus authencity with the layering

made up of skyscrapers, with endless layered bridges for means of transport (most commonly expres trains), with what little decoration of the buildings chipped away by time without anybody caring enough to restore the beauty- the grey, gloomy expanse of Desaevio is as majestic to witness as it is absolutely harrowing

with it being a layered city and one with Boreas' consciousness/structure, some wonder when does one truly leaves the borders of the city and enters the giant's actual insides. it's hard to tell, with old models of Iterators not being all that enclosed and isolated like Five Pebbles is. there is no karma gate to tell you when exactly the walls turn from homes for people to homes for wires, tubes and alien-like organic life of a colossal Hivemind

despite the whole "Iterators are above the cloud level" thing, i like to imagine that it rains in Desaevio either way. at least- some levels are just straight up Wet like after rain. but it'd be those normal rains like we have, not the annihilating ones that the old towns need to bear with down below. or maybe it's just the upper layers' waste water seeping through the ceilings

most of light of the lower levels comes from streetlights, neon signs and Boreas' own systems once deep enough

cameras and such security systems litter all the streets and every public room- and the private homes are still accessable by overseers- and All of that feeds directly into Boreas' memory cache

this omnipresence is why Boreas later suffers with the fuckin

nobody is as unhappy with Boreas' omnipresence as Boreas himself. no wonder he's always ticked off, imagine being a witness to All of New York's road rage 24/7

[fanfiction4sooya]

hello mother, I just wanted to come vent here cause I have no one else to listen to me,I’ll get it if you don’t respond to this because some people may not want to talk about these stuff on their blogs.

but,I just wanna say,I’ve been under the weather these few past months for some reason. I don’t know if it’s exhaustion,from moving to a new place,or being pressured to learn the countries language,since they do not want to speak English anywhere I go. I’ve been down mentally and physically,noticing that I started being even more sad and agitated,to my stomach hurting again and to craving ice again. As for the mental side,I have had those thought,I do still and it makes me cry. It makes me cry,that my friends and cousin,don’t talk to me like before,that they view me differently now for some reason. I’m trying to stay stable,but I’ll see how I’m gonna be this week rn

and again,I get it if u don’t respond,I don’t wanna make u angry in any way nor do I intend to

cw: depression, su!cidal thoughts, anxiety.

Hi honey! Don't worry, you are not bothering me at all and I sure wanna talk about it here.

I am sorry you are going through all that. Moving to a new place it's something scary on it's own, specially a place where communication might seem difficult.

The stomach ache might be anxiety, love. It can manifest in our bodies in different ways and as you said, the new place and learning new things, the cultural shock, it might be a lot of pressure and stress. Maybe try some herbal tea and no coffee for a while, how does that sound?

You know, when we are depressed or having a depressive episode we have the tendency to see things in a different light, such as our relationships and the way people treat us. Maybe ask your friends and cousin if there's anything wrong or if you are acting different for them (sometimes we dont even notice ourselves being different). Maybe it's just lack of communication.

And as for those thoughts, again, I am sorry. I can't speak much on the matter because sometimes one wrong advice can make you spiral into something even worse. What I can say is: ask for help. I know it's hard and scary but you need to see a psychiatrist or a therapyst asap.

Depression is like a tree. The longer you take to cut it's root, the bigger it gets and the harder it is to get it out of the ground; so please, as soon as you possibly can, look for professional help. Why am I saying professional help? I have a lot of good intentions, but the help you need it's not in me or in anyone else. Professionals know how to deal with your matters and know how to help you get out of those episodes better than I ever will.

Be safe and I hope you feel better very very soon. 💖(sending lot of love, hugs and kisses your way!!)

[nahalism]

Ok I swear this is my last anon, idk wanna take up ya time! But yes! That’s something I’m gonna do moving forward. I’m no longer gonna be physically intimate until I’m in a relationship which I was never a stickler about but I’ve realized ppl have really taken advantage of that. Plus the exclusivity , I only date one person at a time and I’m considering not doing that anymore. With him we were exclusive, physical etc etc and when I brought this up he was like well don’t you have to do relationship stuff to know if that’s what you want. Also realizing how manipulative it was . He was also always trying to get me to sleep over which was the one thing I was firm about not doing until there was a label. And then he eventually turned it on me like that’s the thing holding him back lool. (Example of shifting goal posts) But thanks for letting me vent 🙏🏽

lol dont apologise its sweet u felt comfortable to share your feelings in this space. in fact i think the reason people end up suffering in these kinds of predicaments is precisely cause of the shame / embarrassment that surrounds talking about it. and if not that, the underlying feeling of not wanting to burden other people with our problems. the fact is, that couldnt be further from the truth. we are all stronger when we have spaces where we can be honest, vulnerable and share the truth of our feeling. that kind of freedom and acceptance is what leads to understanding and growth. if your venting (not dumping) and someone doesnt want to listen its a huge indicator that your not where you need to be, not that you need to speak less<3

unsolicited advice, but since we're talking ill share it anyway, you dont have to get to know more than one person at a time. you can if you want to, and if it feels natural to you, but its not a solution to the situation you've just shared. i think we live in a society that currently encourages a very blasé approach to dating and developing romantic relationships, but that shouldn't let your standards change, slip, or your guard go up. more isnt always better. dating one or a few people intentionally is a surer way to get what you want. think of a fisherman casting a net. if he wants sardines, he doesnt need to expand his net. that might help him catch a dolphin, a swordfish but not a sardine. to get the sardine he needs patience and the right bait. he also needs to know not to reel in the wrong fish, or how to throw back the wrong catch before it suffocates on air.

if what you want is a good match for you, work on being the person the person you want wants. if your currently accepting less than what you deserve, work on that and the underlying reasons why thats the case. that way you can raise your standard, and that way you'll be levels & when the right one comes along there will be a better probability of you having done the work to keep that relationship healthy

sending u love. chat to me whenever 🤍

[m1mk1d]

warning !!! this is a vent, please scroll past if you're uncomfortable with it.

cw: mentions of sexualizations, gore, blood, suicide and s/h and similar stuff.

Okay so, this has been on my mind a lot.

Recently I had this friend, I trusted him a lot to the point we would hug or kiss platonically, usually that's very nice like "awww u have a best friend now" but no.

Somewhere during vacations I went to his house to hang out, play videogames stuff like that, but after a while he said " wanna see a video of two people being decapitated? " I said yes because I didn't think he was being serious and it wasn't until he said " It has gore, is that okay?".

That might've seen like a nice gesture protecting his friends from possibly being traumatized from it, but later that same month I was being my normal self, talking about Burt and all that shit and I said " I would do anything for Burt, except watch gore" I was expecting just a silly response since it was a joke, but I was met with the same exact video and the caption " If you really loved him you'd watch gore."

I was obviously freaked out because if you know me, I'm EXTREMELY sensitive to even mentions of blood let alone real life gore, I was asking in the nicest way " hey, can you stop? it makes me uncomfortable." but guess what, he didn't!!!!!! he kept sending the video to me to the point where i was literally shaking and even crying. All because " it was cute how I go so scared"

This led up to not being able to watch videos people sent to me out of fear, and ANY chainsaw noises or screams would trigger me.

He would also grab and squeeze my thighs, which at that time I consented to so I didn't mind, because it was a JOKE like "haha squishy thighs :3" until he actually started sexualizing it, and I got uncomfortable. I tried telling him this but he just started begging for me to let him so I did. He would squeeze my stomach, same thing happened.

At some point, he got fed up I didn't wanna give him the pleasure he wanting because I was uncomfortable with it and looked for more people go help him.

He started using my emotions as a way to take advantage of me claiming "If u weren't my friend I'd kms" and saying that every fucking day no matter what the circumstances. We were just in English class like normal ? he'd say he wants to die. Taking it as far as sending pictures of blood from his sh or claiming he had a rope ready.

Hell he triggered my trauma response a LOT of times because seeing him with someone else immediately made me think he was gonna replace me, because he would if he could. But when I called him out on his bullshit he went " I've always comforted you, I always cared for you"

I admit, I also had fault in this, because I was also struggling with suicidal thoughts I'd say "I wanna die too !!!!" but I fucked up on that part and also saying I'd replace him, when he was also scared of that. but I APOLOGIZED for all of that, he made fun of me because I got triggered by gore with his friends, he would show me full on hentai just because it was "hot " and obviously didn't give a fuck about me and my interests.

It was all planned. He confirmed it to me.

This affected me so fucking much, he stopped talking to me during October when they changed me to another classroom. Just like that I lived through my past traumatic experience yet again, I was left with tons of suicidal thoughts and was generally in the worst mindset, I couldn't even talk to my friends about it because the only one I trusted was his new comfort person and I still feel guilty because a lot of it was my fault. I can't fucking look at my thighs the same way.

And all because he wanted the comfort he never fucking got.

(sorry if its incoherent)

[cowboylikeekatie]

all 35 lol tysm for answering those 2 tho!!

okay here i go!

6: i get mistaken usually around 15-16, it’s close to my age tho so it doesn’t matter

7: i don’t have any tattoos! i want to get a little disco ball tattoo when i’m older because of mirrorball by taylor swift:)

8: i just answered this one ^^

9: i have my ears pierced but other than that no piercings!

10. i want either a bellybutton piercing or double ear lobes!

11. my best friends name is richie! i forgot his tumblr so i can’t tag him tho!

12. i’m taken! i have the sweetest bf ever:)

13. i’m not going to answer my turn ons because idk

14. turn offs uh i hate when people r like really just mean?

15. my favorite movie huh i wonder…(IT 2017) (or brokeback mountain)

16. i’ll love you if you let me ramble about my hyperfixations or even better if u love them too and reply to me and we can discuss

17. i miss my grandpa because he’s like dead

18. my most traumatic experience was like probably having one of my closest friends in the past like… manipulate me into a lot of stuff, idk i don’t wanna vent so i’m not going to go into detail but it sucked

19. a fact about my personality is probably that i’m like very anxious, i talk fast i ramble fast i rant a lot it’s just a me thing idk

20. the thing about myself i probably hate the most is that i’m really avoidant without realizing it? if i start to actually be close to someone i’ll usually just get distant, or my weight. my insecurity about my weight used to be a lot worse but i just try to ignore it now

21. the thing i love most about myself is that i’m really goal oriented. i love to work hard to do something

22. OOH i love this question! when i’m older i want to be a child psychologist or a pediatrician! i want to go to yale (in connecticut) or to colby college (which is in maine)

23. my relationship with my brother used to suck a lot because we argued so much but i think we’ve gotten closer

24. me and my parents get along super well! they’ve always told me i can do whatever i want and they’re so kind.

25. my idea of a perfect date depends on the person? idk maybe a picnic

26. my biggest pet peeves are snoring and mouth breathers sorry

27. a description of the boy i like uh he’s my age, he’s probably 4 ish inches taller than me i think, he has brown hair

28. the person i dislike the most is taller than me, she’s 2 years older, uh idk

29. i try not to lie but i did have a friendship where i lied to them because i was scared they’d be mad

30. i hate the stress of it, like i’m academically motivated but i’m really scared of getting in trouble or being late to class

31. my last text message is “your gonna be my twin for twin day during spirit week right? i actually think that’ll be easy because we shop at a lot of the same places”

32. being called fat is the word that upsets me the most

33. i enjoy being called smart

34. in women i like when they’re taller, uh masc, that’s it

35. in men i like when they’re taller, glasses, long hair

36. connecticut! i want to live somewhere colder

37. my weight is one of my insecurities

38. i wanted to be a rockstar when i was little

39. coffee is my fav ice cream flavor!

okay thanks 🫡