#like these cannot all be coincidences

[sparklepool101]

There's something poetic in me finally going "hey wait maybe I do have ADHD" and then immediately falling into the Sonic fandom

[meadow-sea]

nekomatas life must be crazy rn. she’s been living in an apartment where the door is barricaded to stop debt collectors. she and her roommates parkour onto the balcony to get in. she collects the 15 eviction notices from their front door because there are commission details written on the back. she gets sent to the brothel next door to smuggle things out in the laundry baskets. she watches anby haggle for groceries using interrogation tactics and movie spoilers. she watches the shopkeeper puke and the goods are bought at a fifth of the price. she fights ethereals on a speeding truck with billy. she hears nicole cursing from the drivers seat. she takes a stuffed kangaroo to a pawn shop. she helps nicole track down a vintage stamp seller. she stakes out an abandoned petting zoo. she voice acts in an anime parody dub. she fishes a solid gold toilet seat out of a river. she slips people concert tickets through yaoi magazines. she helps expose a politician and a city wide conspiracy. she realises everything goes much much deeper than she thought it did. she finds herself knocking on nicoles door, she finds billy and anby doing the same. nicole lets them in because how could she not and they all cram onto her bed. nekomata finds herself surrounded by people that she has already grown so close to. she gets a rich snob to pay 35800 dennies for a spray painted rubber duck the next day. shes living her best life fr.

[candyskiez]

Do you ever think about Minoris reaction to being freed from the possession because I do a lot. Like. Imagine you were used as a puppet to torment this incredibly kind and patient boy, who didn't do anything to you except be too odd and off-putting. Imagine you said so many horrible things to him and made school unbearable. Imagine you tormented him until he finally snapped and then he saves your life. After you made his life a living hell, he just...saves you anyway. And he looks at you with big, disappointed eyes and asks you if you actually treat people like that. If you would actually make someone's life a living hell or if that was just Mogami rewriting your personality to suit his needs. And you could lie. You want to lie. But you don't. You are like that. You have done it, multiple times, too many times. You've berated and harassed people who've done nothing but been too weird, too annoying, just existed wrong around you. And you have no excuse. They didn't do anything wrong. He didn't do anything wrong. And what are you supposed to say? "You didn't deserve it" what does that even do? What would make what you did hurt less? What would make up for all the horrible things you told him? What can you possibly say to make up for it? Would you even have said sorry if he HADNT saved you? Do you even know?

And then he just tells you to change. You both know sorry isn't enough. Sorry will never be enough. There is nothing you can do to take it back. You just have to be better. And you have no idea where to start. You have no idea what being a good person even means. And you have to live with knowing somewhere out there there's a complete stranger who will always remember how you treated him, and who decided you deserved to live anyways. And you have no idea why.

So anyways how's your day going.

[lloydfrontera]

anise and damian being the only ones to consistently see through rakiel's bullshit lmao

[aromanticasterisms]

getting to the bottom of the new area and going oh 1. ajaw was telling the truth about what (he thinks) he was 2. so that's why he looks like that 3. did kinich go to ochkanatlan to meet him or was he set up somewhere else

[lindentea]

sooo UHHHHHH did anyone else get BIG HEDWIG VIBES from "All 2 U" or is it just me...???

[dangerous-disposition]

My post about storm chasers and people not being familiar with them being a profession was bc multiple people in my notes in another post was like "who doesnt know what storm chasers are?" so I made my post about how storm chasers as a profession are mostly only in the US so like, so it's actually not that weird for people to not know what storm chasers are and some little fucking weirdo decided to read that post in a really negative light

[astriiformes]

Had a really good conversation with my therapist yesterday that has left me feeling better about life & the future than I have in... months, honestly (which also has me feeling really good about her ability to help me continue sorting through things).

I was talking about my distress about the future and in particular what I'm going to do when I graduate, since grad school isn't the most stable option, and she pointed out that since I was spiraling over hypotheticals, maybe it made sense to simply make up my mind about the first step, since applying to grad school is hardly the same as committing to grad school. And she was so right. I am so good at feeling like I need to make the right, perfect decision -- especially after making mistakes with school in the past -- that I have been worrying myself into depressive spirals over what the "right" decision is here. But making up my mind to at least apply and find out what my options are is a decision, that will give me a lot more information in the long run than paralysis over if it's "okay" to apply at all.

It'll still take a lot of work, obviously, and l don't know if I'll even get in anywhere, much less actually commit to doing a PhD if I do. But it has taken such an incredible weight off my shoulders just to say "Okay, I am going to apply, what next?" Because it means I can put all that nervous energy to actual use! Instead of spiraling the next time I start thinking about my options in the future, I can go do research on different PhD programs (without feeling guilty the whole time, like I have been until now)! I can ask my favorite professors for advice! I can reach out to current grad students to ask what they think of their advisors! All of which is actually productive and will help me make the most informed choice I can if and when the time comes, instead of ruminating endlessly on what the "best" one is!

TL;DR -- my therapist is very smart and understands me and the things my brain gets stuck on in a big way, and her advice has dislodged literal months of extremely disordered thinking just like that. Because now I feel like I've made a choice and have something to work towards. And also like I can breathe.

[phynixdotcom]

*remembers what they did to Vanny* 500 FUCKING PIPEBOMB ATTACK.

[naivesilver]

actually, sorry, can I be annoying in your inbox one last time? IF you so fancy it (no pressure because I'm being especially self-indulgent here but), can I ask for 53 and any fake/real character/ship/mood/whatever? :^)

I honestly could NOT believe the song you pulled you had me SCREAMING I couldn't have made it funnier if I had tried on purpose akjfhdskhfgashhkah

Spotify Wrapped Game

53. Jabberwocky, Erutan

[soundofez]

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[confinesofmy]

has negative feelings about someone's actions towards me > does not attempt to communicate these feelings > realises that's infantile and maladaptive > attempts to communicate negative feelings to person in question with the expressed purpose of maintaining the relationship > they overreact and say they didn't do anything wrong and i took things the wrong way and i need to adjust my attitude and they indicate they will never change how they interact with me because they're right and i'm wrong > i now understand why my first instinct was to smile and nod

[hecatesbroom]

I'm watching s4 right now and speaking of subtext, the ep with Blanche's gay brother coming out and all that jazz also has the scene where Sophia walks in on Blanche blowing on Dorothy's ear and says to Dorothy "You couldn't stay in the closet for one more day?".

Ohh that was such a good scene lol. Another one of my favourites from s4 is the one where Blanche is 100% sure Dorothy's making a move on her. Like of course your perfectly straight best friend would make a move on you (when you are also a Very Straight woman). Nothing queer about that!

[supercantaloupe]

getting a migraine today of all days was so evil

[lloydfrontera]

i think it fucks immensely that bk moon went out of his way to 1) establish rakiel wished to live a long life and eventually pass away of old age, 2) have him very briefly envy an immortal being only to be told very clearly to be careful what he wishes for by that very same person because living forever isn't all it's cracked up to be, 3) make the main antagonist be another immortal being who is so desperate to die he's willing to destroy the universe just to finally rest and 4) have said antagonist psychologically torture rakiel with the threat of making him live for a thousand years as everyone he loves and knows eventually grows old and dies and becomes nothing but forgotten memories.

only to then end the novel by making rakiel also immortal

like. god. it's so fucking good i love it. i'm not being sarcastic i genuinely think it fucks and it's one of the best ways bk moon could've wrapped up the plot.

it's a happy ending by all means but it has consequences and through the entire novel we've been shown and told over and over again just how heavy the consequences are and/or will be on rakiel.

he got his happy ending but it was at a price and by the last time we see him he's only just starting to pay for it.

it's great i love it

[queenjunothegreat]

PLEASE SEND HELP! I'VE FORGOTTEN HOW TO WRITE HEROES OF JUNO