#like she just seems like such a joy
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your honor they are best friends
mirabel just being like thats my tío !!! and bruno waving at her 😭 I love them
#encanto#encanto disney#disneys encanto#mirabel madrigal#disney’s encanto#bruno madrigal#mirabel encanto#Disneyland mirabel my beloved#she nails the character honestly#like she just seems like such a joy#number 1 fan!!!!
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forever obsessed with dynamics between vampires, specifically that of a maker and fledgling, as a way to explore abuse. the creation of a vampire itself can so easily be a literalization of the lasting impacts of trauma and also much more simply the ways a perpetrator might shape their victim’s very identity. the extremes of isolation in the way that the new vampire, in most narratives, must cut all ties to their mortal life, or else go through an elaborate charade to maintain the facade of humanity, while forever still being removed from it. and the sheer dependence and vulnerability of being in an entirely new state of being, wholly uncertain of what it entails, and relying on another person to define… everything.
#or just the moral dilemmas#rewatching amc interview is kind of making me insane#that moment in episode two when louis is looking for a sort of assurance in the fact that lestat may actually have some good in him#look at how he cares about music look at the simple wondrous things that can bring him joy#and then the immediate dread when the opera performance turns out to be imperfect because he knows how lestat will react to *that*#I think there’s also something really interesting in the highlighting of lestat upbraids the less skilled singer before killing him#(slowly)#but also I will wait to watch more before I articulate my thoughts#vampires#interview with the vampire#amc interview with the vampire#I do still find the lestat and claudia film and novel dynamic by far the most compelling for how she tries to usurp him but almost to be him#but I’m enjoying this#I’m very curious if I will like show claudia more on rewatch#the movie always resonated most with me (sue me lol) because there seemed to be more simultaneous fondness and attachment even at the end#dark stories of the north
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I’ve been thinking about the Magicians Nephew, right now specifically Polly Plummer and in an attempt to get back into doing art outside of work.
I’ve been thinking of what she’d maybe look like in the book and then as she ages (except it turns out I have such a hard time visualizing the passage of time in decades I was not alive in)
most of the references I looked at for clothes was anywhere from 1900-1940s. Maybe some late Victorian in her younger dresses? Not sure. Mostly Edwardian.
I like to think of her definitely going to school, and then becoming a journalist. She’s super sharp and level headed in the Magicians Nephew, and also has an interest in writing.
Also she definitely wore pants.
More rambling stuff under the cut if you’re specifically like me and fixated on Narnia for most of your life
Ok so c.s. Lewis isn’t very well known for his like, accuracy/timelines making sense. (The beavers somehow had potatoes and other vegetables despite it being a 100 year winter).
The magicians nephew takes place in somewhere between 1900-1910, cause that’s his childhood. And then LWW takes place in the 1940s, so like at the oldest Digory and Polly would be in their 50s by then, but also Digory is an old eccentric professor with white hair?
(I could be wrong and maybe that does work timeline wise, and I suppose in different eras, 50s is a lot older. My brain just doesn’t compute that at ALL. At the very least the movie version of the professor DOESNT look like he’s only in his 50s with how they made him look.)
I am also not a clothing expert at all, but it’s cool looking up fashion from different eras. I slightly interpret Polly as having a rich family because her first thought seeing digory is “oh he’s dirty”. I think it’s a thing that richer Edwardian children were usually dressed in light colours which wrapping my head around is tough, cause like, are their play clothes also white?
#I’ll probably draw digory and other MN characters as long as it’s still giving me dopamine#also to me Polly is either a lesbian or aroace#some form of queer#regardless I don’t really see her marrying#and if she does it’s definitely later in life#but it makes me sad to think of her leaving behind a spouse in the last battle#also I suppose if she’s gay she probably wouldn’t have a legal marriage#just a roommate#she doesn’t seem like a joy Davidman insert to me idk I could be wrong#so I don’t think her and digory ever got together#I read their relationship as like lifelong platonic friends#fairmerthefarmer art#CoN#the magicians nephew#Narnia#c.s. Lewis#character design#procreate#illustration#Polly Plummer#Digory Kirke#artists on tumblr#trying to come back from art block yayyyyy#narnia books
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This is a Future Ramona Flowers appreciation post bc look at her I actually love her so much
#like look at her she seems so full of joy#also#long hair ramona slays#I feel like I haven't talked about future ramona flowers enough at all lmao#but LOOK at HER she's brilliant I love her#animators did an amazing job with this one#also I ABSOLUTELY BELIEVE IT#continuity is chef's kiss#also she's pretty much entirely a back to the future reference which I also love#basically she's amazing and I love her lmao#Ramona flowers#Scott pilgrim takes off#spto#Scott pilgrim#yo does this count as spoilers y'all lmao#uhh#might tag spoilers just to be safe#Scott pilgrim takes off spoilers#is that even a tag#spto spoilers#???#oh well lmao#future ramona flowers
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A Biltmore Christmas may be the first Hallmark movie to drive me to fanfic.
#hallmark#a biltmore christmas#time travel#WHERE IS MY POST-CREDITS SCENE SHOWING HOW MARGARET REACTS???#she was one of the best parts of the movie!#you need at least five minutes of her screaming for joy!#also clearly there was a conspiracy of people in the past who knew about the time travel thing so how did that work?#what about that bearded guy on the crew who was CLEARLY another time traveler?#(there is no way that facial hair came from 1947)#also where does the relationship go from there?#how do you adjust?#does tour guide riker help out?#so many unanswered questions can fit into the last scenes of that film and i need answers#also just overall: thanks to people who said this one was worth seeking out because my goodness what a delight#that movie oozed charm#i think maybe my true core fictional love is classic '30s/'40s film because i was digging that vibe#the banter! the patter! the zingers! the perfect blend of cynicism and sentimentality#some of the background stuff was too modern but also some was spot on#that guy who played claude looks like he was born to be a classic Hollywood film star#the leading lady did not fit the vibe at all but she had great chemistry with the movie's leads so i can see why they cast her#the old-timey writer dude was charming#the main lady might be a new favorite hallmark actress (there's only one other on the list)#(watched part of a different film with her in it and she seems to put some of that classic hollywood sass into her roles)#i wasn't sold on the male lead at first but the writing came through for him#when he sits in the chair behind her! when he's trying to guess her personality traits?#charming and absolutely spot-on for the vibe#(the fact that they cast hallmark regulars in the remake is hilarious and also sad because it looks so much worse than the original)#anyway great time had a blast will definitely be rewatching
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My 'casually watched s01-02 of teen wolf back in 2012 and forgot 70% but indulges me', 'derek hale has babygirl-vibes', 'hey draw this pic of ariana grande but its derek' friend - let's call her K.
Me: I irritated some joints in my hand yesterday so I'm on a self-imposed drawing break today
K: okay but picture this: the spidermonkey scene in twilight but it's derek and stiles
Me, having never seen or read twilight: the what
#mel blabs#bless K for giving a rendition of the scene complete with gesturing at her google image search and cackling all the way through#She's a huge movie buff so it's very interesting to hear her take on different themes in the series#Yesterday I was telling her I was kind of shocked during my rewatch how it kind of seems like Stiles is in a parallel show with it's own-#-rating with the shit that happens to/around him#And she proposed it's an attempt to compensate for how he's not supernatural#and it just set some thoughts in motion that haven't fully crystallized yet#but i love her for engaging with me on this although her primary enjoyment is from seeing my joy
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wiggles my fingers at you ouuuu… you want to tell me about solace so bad…
HKJGG wiggles my fingers back lovingly!!! i really do, i fuckin LOVE solace :3 hey did you know i really like making fake skill descriptions?
SOLACE
Follow the north star. Find light in even the darkest places. Cool for: Optimists, Recovering lost souls, Sweet summer children
Solace is the skill you tucked away long ago, at the bottom of Pandora's box. The little one that tells you: despite it all, there is still hope. It needs a lot of nurturing -- and it's far from being the most helpful for police work -- but taking care of it is basically self-care. It enables you to find the glow in yourself that you often ascribe to gold lungs or brilliant halos in others. It encourages you to wake up and watch the sunrise, to play board games with someone you love, to forgive yourself and let yourself be a gentler kind of animal. Constantly looking forward to a brighter future, it also helps shield your morale from damage.
At high levels, Solace gives you a heightened sense of childlike optimism - which isn't always the sense to lead with in this precariously harsh world. Always looking for the bright side will blindside you with naivety. At low levels, however, you may just extinguish whatever keeps your soul alight. You've already lost her once. You may not survive the desolation if you let her disappear again.
#i wanted to draw a skill portrait for her for this but [gestures vaguely at life] i hope this is cool enough hkjgkj <33#solace is truly voli's ''keep going. there's still hope for us'' and echem's ''we can be happy again! let's go find joy wherever we can''#this is why i keep saying she's their kid hkjgh she covers the happy medium of both of their ideologies. hope for a happier future.#harry goes to the store and finds a pair of pink heart shades that gives her ''+1 Rose Colored Glasses'' :3#i feel like theres some mechanic that keeps her from gaining too many points. a locked skill cap or maybe she can lose skill points??#hm. considers this.#echem voice ''i can't believe i'm saying this but we really can't drink alcohol anymore. it's bad for the baby :(''#ALSO. THIS IS ONE OF MY MORE SELF INDULGENT WORKS SO IF IT SEEMS OOC IN ANY WAY THAT'S BC THIS IS MY COMFORT FIC HGKJKJ#i know sometimes i write skill relationships too sweet and the world too kind and the game too unrealistically...#i know shivers said the end of the world is in 22 years. i know being a revachol cop would kill solace. i know alcoholism is hard to kick#and dora still haunts us. i know life is so hard and there is so much that kills hope and that the pale is going to swallow elysium. i know#but isn't disco elysium about how the world is awful and corrupt and futile but there is still beauty and worth to living in it?#the sky. the world. you're still alive. after death; life again. one day i will return to your side. sunrise parabellum.#the phasmid exists. the pale can be fought back with art. the city's alive and she told us she loves us. and solace believes there is hope.#augh idk man hjlkjg just don't want to lean into the ''young witch trying to find a cat in the alps'' bullshit lmao FUCK that </3#i just think harry deserves a hope skill.#volta transmissions#inland drabbles#task: when two skills love each other very much
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people who complain about people singing at concerts are so annoying if you only want to listen to the artists thats what listening at music at home is for. concerts are a social experience you go there to be with other people who like the music as much as you do, you dont get to stop them enjoying it because you dont know what a concert is
#i think people like want to pretend its just them and the artist but like thats not why you go to a concert youre missing the point#there is no greater joy than screaming song lyrics with a bunch of strangers#this seems to be more of an issue with like. those ~aesthetic~ types of people people who are into rock dont care#but like the mitski subreddit was so annoying when her tour was announced it was full of people saying to not sing along#which is just very sad u know#also because i was watching a boygenius concert video and the comments were full of people making fun of one girl in the audience#for singing loudly and not being able to carry a tune#like ok she paid a lot to be there and ur watching it for free on youtube you can keep those opinions to urself#if you dont want to hear other people judt STREAM THE SONG#anyway#im seeing mitski this month i hope everyones chill OSLSJ
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People get so mad at Marie Kondo for someone who's thesis is just "If you don't like it then don't keep it 🤷♀️"
#“what if my 3000 books DO spark joy?” then...keep them. I mean that seems pretty self evident#“well my toilet brush doesn't spark joy should I get rid of that” ok a. she does actually address useful objects in the book#they're really not part of the “sparks joy” paradigm#and b. maybe next time you see a toilet brush that sparks joy should get it?#and if you're like “no toilet brush sparks joy in me I don't care about objects like that”#then maybe it's just not the philosophy for you?#like no need to get so upset geez
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She's just so 🩷
#good coursing day. rough first run. she was accidentally tackled and took a tumble#but recovered beautifully and basically seemed to feel like it was nbd#tbh my heart was in my throat with that tumble so it being minor makes today 10/10 imo#and. because im proud of her. her second run was probably her best run to date#she was right on the lure. didn't lose speed at all. started strong and kept the momentum#also she did not take me on a joy run of the field. which she was just starting to do in the last couple times we went coursing#she barely thrashed the bunny and came right to me when i called her#i wish i hadn't been alone today and could've recorded that second run!!
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The thing is I am definitely not happy or chill in the Immediate Sense lately but I am, big picture, so fucking happy with the person I am.
It's like. My brain was made by and for consistent trauma and since that trauma stopped about 5-7 years ago, it is incredible what the amount of resilience and cleverness and flexibility and thoughtfulness I developed to survive can do when it's not being all spent on surviving. like I had a hundred ton weight on me so I had to get REALLY STRONG to stay in the same place and not get 100% crushed, and when that weight came off I found I can use the strength it used to take to stand up and I can leap tall buildings in a single bound.
I was talking to my mum the other day and she said, "you've got the 'fuck it' energy at 30 that most women don't find until their fifties at least" and I'm like yeah man. Imagine how unstoppable I'll be in 20 years.
#red said#i don't know that i can express this clearly but it's the most encouraging thing in my life#my mum's always been proud of me but just lately she seems to actually really admire me#like she's genuinely impressed. she thinks I've surpassed her. i don't necessarily agree but it's a really nice quiet joy.#anyway like this sounds super up myself and it kind of is.#but also it's part of realising just how heavy the weight I've been carrying around with me for 25 years was#like not to be ridiculous but i have realised again this week. that it isn't that everyone's been raped that much and doesn't talk about it#i just have been raped an Unusually Consistent Amount. i have spoken to a lot of people who have had much more horrifying things happen.#I'm not sure I've talked to more than a couple of people who've had a similar level of total consistency of abuse from all angles#and the one is not heavier or harder to bear that the other. but. i think i spent most of my life listening to people's awful experiences#and going ok well nothing i went through looked that bad so it's microtrauma#obviously microtraumas build up but still.#then the older i get and the more i have these conversations the more I notice that stuff which to me is a microtrauma#is a lot of people's defining trauma. and they're reacting appropriately which means i am SO SEVERELY UNDERREACTING#told my friend the other day about a time someone who i still like and respect was having sex with me when i paralocated my hip#and then just kept getting really annoyed with me for not being ready to have sex again while i was literally crying with pain#until i caved and just tried to find the last painful position#and my friend was like pal what the fuck that's horrific#and i was like i mean no that's normal I've had sex with like maybe 3 or 4 people in my life who i haven't had similar stuff with#like i am genuinely thrown when i am allowed to say no to sex and have it be the end of the conversation. and not end up having sex#out of guilt or out of physical coercion or through physical rape. and i have had sex with probably like 40 people at this stage?#and I'm not sure it's as many as 4 i haven't had that experience with tbh#so like. I'm slowly coming to terms with the idea#that i may have actually been doing a hell of a lot of heavy lifting.#like i developed a sense of self that can survive being constantly crushed and at this stage is fucking diamond.
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i need to pack my bags and get the hell out of frown town
#i realise that recently i have been disgustingly self absorbed with my own issues 😔#there is a line between discussing bad feelings with friends and being stiflingly negative and i leapt across that line a few weeks ago#like yeah my own issues feel horrendously overwhelming at points but i can't always be caught up in that when i'm around my best friend#i think it's a mix of just exhaustion and also the fact i see her after school where i'm more positive#so i just crash after a tiring day and become the mayor of frown town#it hurt to hear but i mean she worded it much less directly than i have been wording this#and the vibes have been feeling rancid lately so im glad i recognise the issue now and things should feel a bit better between us#just ough it's so easy to become an unpleasant person#not even necessarily by inflicting harm on others but just not inflicting any joy#it's rough out here but it's good to find out negative aspects of yourself and improve them ig#bc i have had friends that are horribly negative and it's just difficult to be around them sometimes#ugh anyway sleep will help all this#oh also in the morning today seemed impossibly exhausting but i got through it#woohoo#now i desperately need to fix my sleep schedule starting with now. bye bye tumblr#oscar.exe
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Pokémon said bisexual rights 🫵✨✨✨
#fluff binges !!!#treating myself to more Horizons eps since I had a pretty awful past week mentally and need a pick-me-up#I keep smiling so wide while watching this series it's just so lighthearted and sweet#and can get unexpectedly resonant at times (I'd honest to god tear up from Liko's moments early on because right now identity's something--#--I'm deeply struggling with - so seeing her always want to try and find out more about the kind of trainer she wants to be hits close)#this series is comforting to me and I get to enjoy it at my own time and pace 💖💕✨#(that may seem like a superficial thing but I've been through a lot lately aight I'm taking the little joys I can)#(and frankly I've been............... hiding out from other places because I just. need time away from things)#(so let me be silly on my lil blog here this is like a safe space heehaw 💃💃💃)#but anyways Horizons is for the queers amen#I'm not going insane right like . y'all see the queer-coding in other episodes tooSDKJFSJNDFNS#I also say bisexual Orio because of her talking about Friede earlier on there were sparks aiiiight they're cute#pokemon horizons#anipoke#pokeani#orio pokemon
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No actually if there’s one thing— ONE THING— in the entire show I would have changed, it’s that I needed more genuine hurt from Patricia in her and Joy’s final argument of S2.
Honestly even a reaction would do, because without even just a cut to her face after “Well, I don’t know need you anymore,” I simply don’t buy the point they were trying to make, which was that by perpetuating her own isolation, Joy pushed away her one true ally, and that this was the breaking point for their relationship.
Patricia’s lack of reaction makes it seem like the breaking point for her was ages back… which we don’t really see? Like yes Patricia was angry with her over the article, but she still obviously cared deeply for Joy. The whole point of their friendship was the clear need they had for each other. Joy saying she doesn’t need Patricia anymore should have been a visible slap in the face.
#I hate that she just walks away#or rather I hate that she walks away with barely an acknowledgment of what must have been an incredibly painful thing to hear#after she’d just spent a YEAR being gaslit and borderline abused while hunting for joy#and the scenes after where Patricia doesn’t seem to gaf that Joy has shot a bullet clean through their friendship?#idc how tough you are you’re not just gonna be like ‘okay business as usual 😁’#house of anubis#joy mercer#patricia williamson#joytricia
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when you say you’re happy being by yourself
but maybe that’s just what you’re trying to convince yourself of…?
#more incoherence coming up bc i still!!!! jk trio!!!!!!!!!!!#from what i can see… chizuchan’s really… something#she seems to really really *really* crave love. but hardly anyone gives her the time of day when she’s chizuru and not chuutan#it’s no wonder that she accepted the shady modelling deal so quickly the moment she received her parents’ support tbh…#like. someone *finally* acknowledged her for herself. even her classmates dgaf about her#with that kinda situation i think it’s really no surprise that she would latch on to the attention she was given from someone else…#it’s also no wonder that she clings so hard to aizo and lxl tbh. she got suckered in by their pretty smiles and fanservice#the ‘you’re my only one my julieta~~~~’ thing they have going on must bring a sense of joy to lonely girls who want to be loved…#she’s clearly *not* ok being alone (despite what she claims while dolled up in her chuutan ‘fit)#i think she’s only able to tell herself that she’s fine by herself when she’s fully locked in as chuutan#bc she genuinely loves herself when she’s dolled up all cute like that; hiding her true self under layers of makeup and whatnot#(see: the way she lights up when she puts on her makeup vs how she sees her plain self in the mirror)#(and also bc she has many people who love her as chuutan. her tt fans. her maid cafe regulars.)#(and i assume she gets at least some positive engagement on her stan twt account. we prolly only see the negative ones bc it’s chizu pov…)#(…and she kinda hates herself and such… but she’s able to put on a brave face bc she’s *the* perfect chuutan and nothing can phase her)#(so. like. she prolly only registers the negative comments bc *that*’s what she’s agreeing with deep down…)#(…even though she acts unbothered bc she’s *the* chuutan: aizo stan extraordinaire)#also. like. look at how many solo songs she has. she sang all of them as chuutan. the only songs she’s singing as herself are group songs#i hope she’ll able to have a song as *herself* one day..#i’m waiting for the day when she finally feels comfortable enough as herself by herself (and not just with her besties)#…idk where im going with any of this tbh. um!!!!! i think renren would like her for who she really is?????#maybe the acceptance from someone else would be the final push for her to love herself?? idk???#anyway gws chizuchan~~~~ aizo’s not good enough for you~~~ raise your standards queen. renren’s right there—
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u ever seriously wonder if ur gonna make it thru the year
#im#not even sad abt it.#just thinking.#i saw my aunt today and she bought me alc like every time i see a family member. lolololol i am mentally and physically ill i absolutely#failed at resisting temptation#mainly bc im a WRECK due to my period#i did not break the cycle of addiction that runs HEAVILY on both sides of my family 💀💀💀#maybe one day but that isnt today.#i actually havent drank in like a month whixh is awesome for me given. The Tendicies.#anyone else also feel like theyve taken a stimulant on alc????#like i have so much energy and joy but without the horrific heart racing symptoms#it’s bc it works on gaba receptors that seems to be what im lacking#bc neurontin (gabapentin) was the psych med that worked WONDERS for me and i’ve been on 10+ other meds that haven’t done SHIT#my doc wld not prescibe me last time i went despite being prescribed before and ir working wonderfully#she just upped my paxil which didnt do jack fucking shit#then i lost insurance so i havent been able to follow up w her But im working on that#it just sucks so much that the only time i feel relatively happy is on drugs#then i think well. at least im no longer in my benedryl phase like when i was younger💀#and im like wow it rly cld be worse. i guess.#tendencies*#oh jesus i am NOT proofreading this. sorry
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