#like people deserve to get paid for making art! but idk when they do it it feels so much more greedy than most shows

[curls-cat]

idk why but something about the monetization of the amelia project annoys me way more than other podcasts. they're not doing anything worse than anyone else who uses acast but i hate it more

[definitelynotshouting]

fic writer interview!

shamelessly yoinking from @karliahs bc this looks fun as hell to do :]

How many works do you have on AO3?

32 fics total, between my main and rough draft pseud!! which feels like a really small amount, honestly-- i think my private WIPs list is MUCH higher 😂😂😂😂 if we're counting my very first (and very abandoned) ao3 acct too, then that number is bumped up to 35!!

What's your total AO3 word count?

163,211, and a good 65k of that was written this year somehow??? according to my statistics ._. lowkey crazy to think about

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

paid for it with all of my blood (BNHA | 8,452)

at times so self destructive (BNHA | 4,554)

lost in the dark (he's got a heavy heart) (HC/LIFE | 3,618)

or we can just have conversation (MSA | 1,834)

the art of rawgabbitry (BNHA | 1,609)

if youve been following me since my bnha fics in 2018 you deserve a veteran's discount

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i used to answer every single comment i got, honestly, unless it came by years after i posted it-- the only reason i dont as much anymore is because it gets REALLY overwhelming for me to respond to everyone after the initial barrage 😅😅 the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak etc etc. but i do read every comment and appreciate them SO SO MUCH, and whenever i find one particularly moving or want to just reassure people im still working on something i'll respond to those :]

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

not counting the wips that just never got finished and left off before their main shit could resolve, id say at times so self destructive (BNHA)-- i mean i LITERALLY ended it with izuku potentially dying 😭😭😭😭

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

tbh i dont think i write happy endings so much as i write hopeful, bittersweet, or open-ended ones-- i tend to like catharsis more than fluff when it comes down to it. but out of my fluff fics i think honey it's starting to storm (HC) is one of the genuinely sweetest ive written. my runner-ups on that would probably be when the smoke does finally pass (TMA) and or we could just have conversation (MSA) :]

Do you write crossovers?

not typically, and ive never published any, but i am definitely not immune to them 😂😂😂😂 i think my most niche crossover ive actually written (never to see the light of day) was a Nine Lives of Chloe King and Supernatural fic that was the definition of self-indulgent rot. only a little less niche than that was a Mortal Instruments and Supernatural crossover (theres a running theme here lol) lying in snippets on an ancient google doc in my oldest gmail acct. reread that one recently and its shockingly coherent for being written in like. 2016. id even call it decent (though theres a lot id change up if i were writing it now)

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

idk if it'd be considered hate but once i wrote a fic inspired by someone else's when i was very new to ao3, let them know (i didnt know about the "inspired by" option back then), and they got mad at me in my comments section because in their words, "its better than mine" 😭😭😭😭💥💥💥💥💥💥

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

YOU COULD SAY THAT

as for what kind, honestly whatever strikes my fancy-- usually character/relationship studies, or just a fun focus on character intimacy. love 2 be asexual<3 love 2 write asexual sex<3

i had a discussion with my qpp recently about how in all honesty the smut i write is pretty tame, its just the character emotions written behind it that makes it feel a bit deranged. smth smth scarian is a chemical explosion. u understand

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not to my knowledge!!!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

yeppers!! the art of rawgabbitry (BNHA) received a translation to Russian, which i always found a bit funny because rawgabbitry is. one of my least favorite works ive ever written, if only for the type of comments it tended to receive back in the day 😭😭😭😭

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

ive never managed it honestly-- i get a bit precious about my process, which can make it hard to collaborate on that level. but its something ive always wanted to grow enough as a writer to try :]

What's your all-time favorite ship?

not so much of a singular OTP type of guy as i have favorite pairings per fandom im in-- that being said rn its scarian :P

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

pretty much all of my dsmp wips honestly. i may surprise myself someday, but for now i just have zero urge to actually finish any of them

What are your writing strengths?

like my pal karliahs im gonna rip these from the comments ive received 😅😅😅 but id definitely say imagery is my strongest skill!! i have a very strong imagination, and tend to see fic scenes as movie scenes in my head which i then transcribe into written format. id like to say im also really skilled at characterization and realistic dialogue that captures character voices very well!! and frankly i just love emotional realism so much i cant NOT write it, its always leaking into everything i do

What are your writing weaknesses?

i tend to get a little too funky and abstract with my descriptions sometimes-- that can work for some scenes, but grounding everything so that it feels more real and makes actual sense to the reader is something i often have to do on the second, third, and final passes

also to every person who has to crack open a thesaurus to understand what i write, i am so fucking sorry😭💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

no thoughts beyond if its not a language you're proficient in you should probably get that checked over by a native speaker, just in case :P

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

fairy tail..... ff.net was a dark place

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

crying sobbing wailing as i desperately beg my brain to start writing that post-canon siffrin and odile relationship study. unfortunately i dont think i can have more than one longfic on my docket at a time so it shrimply must wait

What's your favorite fic you've written?

to the surprise of absolutely nobody, i'd have say lost in the dark (he's got a heavy heart) (HC/LIFE) :]

No obligation, but im tagging: @raichett, @kayawolfhorse, @boonbeenblade, @sillyfairygarden, and @grimfey !!! And anyone else who wants to do this ofc :]]]❤️❤️❤️❤️

[lastoneout]

I cannot fucking believe Watcher had to release an apology video after their fandom was revealed to be the most entitled, hypocritical assholes on the entire planet. Like I am glad they cleared some stuff up, but they didn't do anything wrong??? They shouldn't have had to back track on making things exclusive to their platform???? What the fuck????? I s2g I feel like I'm living in the twilight zone.

Like y'all really claim to give a shit about creative freedom and treating artists with respect and being anti-ad and against big companies buying out smaller ones but then the second a group you like tries to go independant and get rid of ads it's like "have you considered canceling half your shows and firing staff and not renting sets and getting rid of your CEO and leaving LA so I can continue to receive media for free??" like good fucking god. The entire internet showed their ass on this and I'm legit ashamed.

People really claim to give a shit about being anti-capitalist but the second it starts to affect something they actually care about it's right back to "but I deserve free art no matter the cost to the artist" like you sound EXACTLY like AI techbro assholes and it's embarrassing to watch and incredibly disheartening as an artist and creator who has lost money because I refuse to take ad deals because I think ads are evil and I don't want to subject my viewers to them or change my content away from stuff I actually care about to make more money.

I'm just so mad about this. Mad and betrayed. Idk how to even process this. I know it's partially just me being upset that my own ideals are being attacked here but like I legit thought relying on viewers for support was the ethical option. I've said that to people. I hate ads, I'd get rid of all of them if it was possible, but apparently caring more about viewer support makes you an evil capitalist. Like how else am I supposed to feel rn? Half the internet acting like wanting to be paid fairly without relying on ads or firing half your staff makes you a greedy capitalists. I can't even begin to unpack it.

I have never felt less like I want to be a creator in my life. How can I muster up the energy to stand by my ideals when I know so many people think prioritizing viewer support makes me a capitalist pig. This is just....idk. It's awful, that's what it is.

[marmotish]

I know Talbott probably isnt a person who likes hugs a lot but he deserves one so maybe the 33 one(the hug from that one person who is allowed to hug you ) from the hug prompt? idk if u did that one already. Btw love your art <3

((thanks hon! ⭐️))

ok so Talbott and Freyja are both not-really-into-hugs and then I thought back to the Flying Solo SQ where Talbott tells MC about his parents - like if anyone needs a hug it’s the kid who confides in you about losing his parents and the impact it had on him, yeah? Ha…

“What are you doing?”

Freyja’s fingertips had barely brushed Talbott’s shoulder when she froze at the sudden sound of his voice. An answer to this question didn’t come straight away, instead an awkward silence began to weave its way around the two. The only sounds now were the night breeze through the tower, along with the hesitant shuffling of feet on the floor.

“Just …”

Just doing what people are supposed to do in this situation, right? Hug?

Talbott shook his head, eyes trained on the floor in front of his feet. “You don’t need to do that.”

Freyja hesitated, then withdrew her arm back to her side. It was a bit of a relief, if she was being honest. She wasn’t one for hugs, really. Even with her family she was always on the receiving end of hugs, reciprocating with far less intensity. And Talbott wasn’t one to play games using reverse psychology, so if he said she didn’t need to hug him, she really didn’t.

Distant laughter rang out from one of the Ravenclaw dormitories, helping to break the silence that permeated the atmosphere.

“I don’t know what to do then.” Freyja said quietly, almost to herself.

At this, Talbott huffed out a breath of air. It could almost have passed for laughter. “You don’t have to do anything, not if you don’t want to.”

A comfort, to be sure. Yet Freyja still felt like she’d missed an opportunity to show a little emotion in the face of what was evidently a vulnerable moment for her new friend.. “Sort of feels like I should do something though.”

Only a little over year ago, you couldn’t have paid the majority of her peers enough to sit next to her in class. Now she was a curse-breaker and a member of the Ravenclaw Quidditch team, both of which completely overhauled her social life. Navigating all these new friendships had certainly required a lot of effort. She thought she was catching on to all the nuances of friendship pretty quickly, but apparently she’d misstepped in this particular interaction.

Talbott shuffled aside a little to put a bit of distance between the two of them, then turned to face her straight on. “I get that you’re probably trying to be nice by offering a hug, and if you were someone like Penny then I wouldn’t have said anything.”

Freyja frowned. Like Penny? Blonde? A Hufflepuff?

“Penny’s a hugger by nature.” Talbot explained. “Do I enjoy it? Not particularly, but I appreciate it. Because that’s honestly how she expresses herself. How she shows a friend she’s there for them. But you know, she never expects me to hug her.”

“Aye well, she’d be better off waiting for hell to freeze over if that wasn’t the case…”

Talbot snorted. “Well maybe not that unlikely, but it would be a pretty rare occasion.”

Freyja began to relax a little, the conversation seemingly moving away from her misguided attempt to hug him. She adjusted her sitting position to better appreciate the expanse of the night sky, dotted with countless stars, stretching out over the highlands.

“The thing is that she doesn’t want or expect me to act out a friendship that isn’t true to my own personality. Not wanting to hug my friend all the time doesn’t make me a bad friend, or a cold person. It’s just who I am.” Talbott continued. “And I don’t want or expect that of you either. If you genuinely want to offer a consolation hug, then go ahead. I won’t mind. But I’d be just as happy sitting and talking.”

Well this was embarrassing. Here Freyja was trying to comfort Talbott after sharing the story of how he lost his parents, and yet now he was reassuring her that not being physically affectionate was not a character defect. The corners of her mouth pulled up a little at this.

“I like the sitting and talking option.”

Talbott grinned. “me too.”

[agirlnherfandoms]

Omg same though, i was all about zutara growing up! Recently, my bf saw atla for the first time, and I was watching it with him (its been years, it was so fun!)

I guess back then I was kinda using katara as a self insert?? Haha I just had the biggest crush on zuko 😭

But watching it again recently idk I found this new appreciation for kataang, and aang especially! I just think aangs so charming and cute? 🥴

Like the headband episode? I mean, come on! Gahhh that episode made a kataang stan (the near kiss, and the way they look at each other at the end of the dance 🥺). Also that last atla comic had such a cute art style, and the kataang stuff was adorable!

AND LET ME TELL YOU! WHEN👏🏼 I 👏🏼 FOUND 👏🏼 OUT 👏🏼 WE'RE 👏🏼GETTING 👏🏼 AN 👏🏼 ATLA 👏🏼 MOVIE 👏🏼 WITH 👏🏼 ADULT 👏🏼 KATAANG 👏🏼 / GAANG 👏🏼 🤯🤯 (and katara and aang as the lead characters, I CANT WAIT!)

Also one thing I hated about shipping zutara was all the aang slander that came with it by other zutara fans, I couldn't stand it 😭😭

Hi anon!! 😊

Yay love seeing people relate to the post I posted about becoming a Kataang shipper during my re-watch of ATLA 😘 (you can read it here if you haven’t already).

Firstly, yesss, watching ATLA is still fun after years. Ngl I think when I was younger (mostly because Netflix wasn’t really big), I watched Avatar but not thoroughly. It was more like, if the episode is on the TV, I’m going to watch it. I might have missed an episode or I’d have to wait till next week to see the next episode. This is compared to when I got older and I could do a full binge watch of the whole thing on Netflix (which I recommend 😉).

Secondly, haha I soooo relate to crushing on Zuko. Honestly, still do lol (literally have you seen what he looks like in the comics!?! I didn’t know his hair could get better than season 3 but 😍). And yeah, definitely understand using Katara as a self-insert for the Zuko love 😂. Love an enemies to lovers!!!

(The above two are from The Promise)

(…and these two are from The Search)

Aww yes, I don’t think I paid much attention to Aang when I was younger (other than him being the main character lol) because of how much I loved Zuko. But truly, every single character is so amazing that they all deserve the same amount of love and attention 🥹.

THAT DANCE!! I don’t know what’s in the air at the Fire Nation but Aang was too smooth. After watching that episode, my standards went up by 5000%. I feel like that might have been the episode on my rewatch that made me think a bit differently about Kataang. I think prior to that I was still fully on the Zxtara (going to x the ship name out again in case shippers don’t want to see this xx) train but then that episode happened and I thought this is fricking cuteeee (then of course proceeded to rewatch again).

I’m so happy they’re giving us more adult Gaang content!! So so excited for that movie 😍 and all the Kataang content to come.

Yeah, and on your final point, I do remember lots of Aang hate from some shippers (I do think there might still be some even now). Definitely not saying all Zxtara shippers hate Aang (and definitely don’t think that was what anon was implying)!!! I do think it was a small minority who were probably just trying to find an excuse to hate Aang but I have seen many Zxtara shippers who absolutely adore Aang which always makes me happy because he is a sweet sunshine who deserves all the love and appreciation ☺️.

(This above picture still forever makes me soft 🥹)

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Disclaimer just in case you didn’t read the post anon’s replying too / you don’t want to read it lol: I still ship Zxtara and this isn’t Zxtara hate. I just found that rewatching ATLA has made me ship Kataang as well. Perfectly fine if you favour one ship over the other! I’ve just found love for both :)

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Love hearing opinions because none of my friends or family want to talk about fandoms with me so please keep them coming 🥺.

[trickstarbrave]

i saw some people bitching on tiktok about art/commission prices again and i feel like ranting

idk why someone got it in their heads all artists are upper class rich folk trying to scam you out of something that isn't hard at all for us to make. art takes time and energy--time and energy we could literally spend doing ANYTHING else. we could be spending time with our loved ones, working a regular job with reliable pay and better benefits, or even just making art WE want to see. most of us are working class or poor.

"but you could charge less and get more customers" who the hell wants to work more for less pay. genuinely. would you rather work 90 hours for 10 bucks an hour or 40 hours for 35 bucks an hour? like get real. past a certain point of popularity you will be literally unable to keep up with commissions bc you cannot physically make them fast enough and stay healthy so higher prices mean you can dedicate more time to people who want it more

"well your art isnt even GOOD" if someone's art isnt your taste or technically worth it to you then dont buy it. to really get good at commissions you do have to build an audience and if they havent then they'll figure out they need to improve or network/promote more. you bitching about it isnt helping them figure it out any faster, and you bitching to artists who DO reliably get commissions at that price makes you look like a whiny brat

"but you COULD charge less and still survive. that means youre scamming people" listen i know you are used to be catered to by large corporations who can use literal slave labor to make things dirt fucking cheap but ethical labor costs more. we are not large corporations with big art machines shitting out subpar garbage you can buy off the rack. you are asking for handmade, customized things from someone in a place with a higher cost of living. we cannot and will not bend over backwards to appeal to the lowest common denominator. see above: we have better things to be doing with our time and this shit costs time and labor to produce. if you dont want a handmade custom art piece or dress or jewelry consider buying from shein then you cheapskate and get out of this market.

because, see above: we have better things to be doing. you are the one asking me to spend my free time making you something because you want it supposedly. i could instead be making things i like. i have the luxury too where if i dont wanna do something i dont have to. i dont have to pick up extra work for you. other artists can find other customers that arent you. if YOU want something you should make it worth the artists wild. no i dont wanna do a full custom painting for you for 40 dollars. i would barely get out of bed for 40 dollars. if i told you to clean my whole house for 10 dollars and deep clean it you would probably tell me im insane and you're not gonna do all that work for 10 god damn dollars. 10 dollars wont even pay for the cleaning supplies.

i dont take commissions anymore specifically bc i kept getting burnt out. i felt i had to make it cheaper to get more when in reality all it did was make more work with little reward. i didnt feel happy making art anymore. it became a chore, and i didnt wanna make anything for myself after i spent hours and hours making other stuff for other ppl. im lucky enough now to have a corporate job with more free time so i can get paid enough to survive and still make art. if i ever decided to again i would probably price it rly high bc tbh. if you want me to make you a custom piece i dont rly wanna draw you had better make it worth the soul crushing work that is turning a passion of mine into a profit.

and lastily with the "you could charge less and still survive" artists deserve to not only survive but thrive. artists deserve free time to make what they enjoy and have other hobbies. artists deserve to not have to work overtime to have stuff in savings. you do too in fact as a non-artist, but attacking artists for wanting that and trying to make it a reality that they get paid not just a survival wage but a FAIR wage is not actually helping anyone.

[problematicfanfics]

Kinktober ‘21 Oct 19. Hate Sex (WIP)

RAMSCAM, dubcon, l’manberg, dsmp au

slight NSFW (for now)

i think this’ll be my last one… idk. maybe i’ll post more. ignore all errors.

* ⋆★

Trees.

There used to be so many trees.

But with the combination of sapnap’s fires and gentrification of the land nothing was left but a small patch some ways off.

It was his sanctuary. Sometimes he’d read, drink, stargaze. But sometimes he’d do even more intimate things, like writing or singing, even art.

Today was a good day. There was no war, only collecting wood and laughing with friends. So he had decided to settle down for the night and paint a little.

Upon arriving he was very well pissed off to see a drunk man laying in the middle of his safe place. Schlatt. What a fucking disappointment.

When the man first showed his face around the server, Tommy remembers feeling so honored. Just having Schlatt around in his general area in his stupid suit and tie made him feel so cool.

But now he sees how naive and stupid he was. Maybe it was all the time Schlatt had spent away, maybe it was the rumors that shot out of people’s tongues like arrows in war, or maybe it was just seeing these rumors play out live in front of him. Whatever it was, war made him realize he can’t blindly follow someone he knows nothing about.

“Hey. Hey dickface, get out of here.” He shoved Schlatt.

“Fuck off, man. Can’t a guy sleep?”

“You have a bed. Go. This is my spot.” Tommy placed his art things on the ground, quietly to not draw attention to it. “It’s the only fucking patch of trees around and I want to relax tonight. Beat it kid.”

“A fucking drunk like you doesn’t have any right to relax. You do nothing BUT relax!” The kid threw his hands up in the air. “I have been through wars. Through death and pain. I have the right to relax. NOT you.”

Schlatt stood, moonlight highlighting just how big he was. “I don’t deserve to relax?”

“You fucking heard me.”

“Learn to keep your mouth shut, kid. You’re gonna run into trouble.” The older one turned to leave with an eye roll, muttering under his breath “I’m fucking lazy? I do shit.”

“If you do shit,” Tommy turned to face Schlatt defiantly. “Then what is it? Because I only see you get drunk.”

He stopped walking, taking only a few strides to get to where Tommy was. “I’m a fucking business man, that’s what I am. And I’m pretty damn successful. I got money, a life, and liquor. I’m fucking set. All I see you have is trauma for no reason.”

Tommy scoffed. “No reason? It was life or death!”

“It was for the independence of a stupid nation, who gives a shit. Just fucking get under their rule and take them down from there.”

“That’s the fucking stupidest plan I’ve ever heard of.”

“Ok Mister ‘“do I shoot him or aim for the sky?”,” He gets close to the boy’s face. His eyes sting from the alcohol on his breath. “Pathetic that you really think you ever meant anything to this nation.”

Tommy’s fists ball up. “I paid with my life.”

“So what? I still see you standing here. You wouldn’t even die for the thing you’re oh so passionate about. It’s sad, truly, that you think you deserve special treatment. This is public property.”

The blond points to a sigh on a tree, and Schlatt goes over to read it.

“BIG MAN TOMMY’S LAND! DON’T TOUCH >:(”

Schlatt walked back over to Tommy. “Doesn’t mean jack shit if you don’t have a building on here. So as far as I can tell,” He leans up against the beginning of the mountain behind him. “This is fair game.”

This fucking bastard! What fucking right does he think he has? Tommy’s the entitled one here? No way! No, all he wanted was to sit and paint. Just one night of relaxation. But he can’t even fucking have that.

Quickly he pulled out his sword. “Square up, bitch.”

Schlatt stood up straight. “Woah, hold up kid. I don’t have a sword. Let me make one real quick.”

Tommy threw an extra stone sword in front of him. “You and me. Let’s go. Right here right now.”

Schlatt slowly picked up the sword, getting into his fighting stance.

The two stared at each other intensely. Neither wanted to make the first move and ruin their chances.

Finally Tommy swung his sword, lodging it in a tree instead of Schlatt’s side. The older jumped out of the way before holding his head in his hands. That’s right, he’s still drunk. Tommy almost forgot.

He unlodged his sword before running towards Schlatt again. The two nicked each other a couple of times, coming dangerously close to killing the other once or twice. But something always stopped them.

Schlatt pulled out his shield, instantly knocking Tommy off his feet. The boy fell on his back with the wind knocked out of him.

He took this as an opportunity to kick the sword out of Tommy’s hand and pick the boy up by his shirt. The boy was thrown against the stone wall like a ragdoll, neck pinned by Schlatt’s forearm. It was quiet except for their breathing.

“I win.” Schlatt whispered. Tommy could’ve sworn the hairs on his back stood up. Something about the way the man said it…

“Well? What do you say?” The grip tightened.

Desperately Tommy clawed at the arm pinning him down. “Fuck you.”

“Tsk. That’s no way to speak to me.” Schlatt’s voice sounded condescending. “Cmon, baby boy. Tell me I win.”

“Baby boy? What’s this, a fucking porn?”

“It’s about to be if you don’t fucking own up to the fact I beat your ass.”

“Never.” Tommy snapped back.

“Fine. You fucking asked for it.” Schlatt reached into his back pocket. “You’re lucky I even have. I had plans to fucking jack off before you showed up, guess I can’t just do anything in peace around here.”

His grip changed from forearm to hand, pressing hard against the boy’s neck.

Finally he pulled out a small bottle of disposable lube. He grinded his hips against the boy’s front, hot breath escaping the younger. “Fuck, if we’re gonna do it let’s just do it.” Tommy rolled his eyes and pushed Schlatt’s hand away, more of a suggestion they should just mutually get this over with.

Schlatt let go and immediately Tommy pulled him in for a kiss. A mess of taking off clothes, barely taking breath in between making out, they made their way to the back of the mini forest out of everyone’s eyeline.

Tommy pushed himself up against Schlatt. He hated this man, but there was an undeniable attraction he had with him.

[twisted-tales-told]

Okay okay talking about my favorite film. I don’t think I have like a niche movie taste at all but I’m okay with that.

My favorite favorite movie is Forrest Gump. I just- i love it so so so much. I watched it with my parents the first time when I was a child (I think I was around ten but I might have been a bit older) and then we started to watch it every year, so it became like a tradition so maybe that’s a part of it. Honestly we don’t do it anymore but I’m glad they got me into it (they also literally plotted and waited for the appropriate age they could show me rocky horror picture show and blues brothers so that’s them).

I’ve seen it with so many of my friends and I honestly get like so upset when someone misunderstands Forrest (like I had a friend and she just spend the whole film complaining about how stupid he is which is just a stupid critique and also tone deaf but okay). Anyways, I don’t think there will be a single time that I watch this movie without crying (the „is he smart? Or is he like me?“ will make me sob every single time without fail) and I just- I can’t describe this. I watch it less then I’ve watched other movies (that I’ve fixated on for example, but it’s like a constant and I always come back to it), I do watch it at least once a year.

So yeah, that was a ramble. I don’t know if you meant it like that but okay. If you haven’t seen it (I think most people have but idk) you should. And if you hate it, I’m going to cry.

Also what’s your favorite film? xx

I have not seen Forrest Gump but I’m definitely putting it on my list now!! And yes I meant scream about how much u love your favourite films or give me a list of them!! Whatever u all want!!

I’ve just rewatched into the spider verse recently because the new one is coming out soon and it’s just. So special. I am so grateful this film exist. Like the graphics??? OhmyGod!! I fucking hope those animators got paid because they deserve all the money for creating this work of fucking art.

I’ve also been getting the urge to rewatch this film called Short Term 12 which is about this short term group home for kids and teens, it’s a very intense film, a lot of mental health and SA content warnings

my mum was a social worker and she ran places like this, but she stopped when I was born because it is a very draining and sometimes dangerous job. It helps me kinda understand what she did with her life before me though, which is really cool.

[neuvillettes]

I agree with you, I don't do art or writing commission, but if I could do it, then I would price my work high. Like people don't realize that it's not the same as going to your everyday job and doing the same thing over and over again and getting used to it, and having a consistent income.

It takes a lot of time to come up with a plot, to make sure it's good cause if the client isn't satisfied then they'll want a refund or they'll tell others that this artist/writing isn't worth it. Plus it's not consistent. You might not have many commissions or you might have a lot, you'd still have to get paid. Whether a company is doing good or bad your salary is the same.

It takes years of mastering your skill, materials, time, and you need profit. If you open a bakery and at the end of the week or month, the expenses for ingredients and electricity and heating and cleaning and shipping and all that is barely covered and you are left to almost no profit, then what's the point??

So I understand that for some people anything can be expensive, especially when it comes to writers or artists. But everything is expensive let's be real. Getting your nails done is mad expensive, getting a haircut, having a doctor appointment, idk some sushi plate at a restaurant that doesn't even taste that good.

So yeah, don't feel bad. Make it to 20 ;)

you get it fr 🥹

i thought maybe i was being too harsh but from a business standpoint, things are expensive and writers tend to undervalue their work bc of how they’re treated. i was hesitant to price the way i did but at the end of the day i believe in myself to produce higher quality work, especially when its for someone else. as such, that means the value of my pieces are higher too.

it’s also insanely unfair that if my commissions were for art there would be no questions asked, as it should be. artists deserve the recognition and i think even some still undervalue themselves. just bc it isn’t conventional work it’s still work. time and effort are being put into these pieces.

artists (yes this includes writers bc it is a form of art) deserve the support they rarely get. it’s unfair how much people take advantage of us.

if it’s as easy as they say it is then pls, by all means, they are welcome to create their own content to their own standards.

thank you for the validation, lovey 💘✨

[jupitervega]

not that anyone asked my opinion on the whole ai art debate but here it is

i miss back around a year ago when we were just gettin strange blobby dreamlike images from nightcafe & similar. the main ai art now it seems like we're seein just feels like it's rippin real people off & that doesn't seem very "be excellent to each other" to me. idk. i enjoyed seein the early creations when they were all surreal & you kinda had to squint to figure it what it was supposed to be. this new stuff is just. meh. i don't like how they're goin about it. like yea it's neato they can do all that with computers now, i'll admit. but i don't want the rise of cheap ai renders to put my real life artist friends outta business

idk. it's like buyin a sweater. sure you can pick one up from whatever walmart spits out & hopes you'll like. or you could pay a little more & have someone make you one by hand, in just the color & size & material best for you, & not only will you have a lovely sweater you'll also help support an actual person & not a corporation. does that make sense in the context of the comparison i'm makin?

sure, ai art is a tool. it's useful in some ways. but i worry that it bein a much cheaper & faster alternative to a human at work will take business away from my friends who need it most, which makes it much much harder for them to continue makin art if they can't provide for themselves. & before any of y'all get in my notes hollerin about how expensive handmade/commission items are, we've all gotta make a livin. it is not your favorite artist's fault if you can't afford their commissions. creatin art takes time & money & energy, all of which it's entirely fair to ask compensation for

in short ai was cool, love the concept, but now most of it is uncanny valley/pretendin to be my friends & peers so now it's not so cool imo. artists deserve to get paid for their work. thank you for your time

[cauldronofeverything]

Some damn good tags on this post. Here's some highlights:

#also how yall sound about pirating books from indie authors

#ok but like in librarianship (and other helping professions)#theres this thing called vocational awe#and it comes into play in a lot of insidious ways#but the most applicable one here is that when we ask to be paid fairly for our work#people (usually upper management) are like#you shouldnt be doing this for a paycheck#you should be doing it because you love the work and think its important#and like yeah our work is important (as is everyones!)#but idolizing it and saying you dont deserve to get paid for something because you should be doing it out of th 'goodness of your heart'#is pretty messed up#idk i have a lot of thoughts#sorry op

#all the cool ass art ive made lately is bc someone paid me 4x what i asked for for an art and now im just#inspired. imagine that. that paying your artists makes us want to do more art.

#it’s like guys…….. do you know what proletariat even means#‘those exploited for their work’?

Why does "you're a class traitor to want to make money from your art" apply only to artists? it's fascinating. Are you a class traitor to not want your labor stolen in other ways also. Who are you people

[shadyhouse]

Your art is so fuckin good and I lose my mind every time I see it! You pretty much top the list of artists I want to commission one I have digital money again. Do you have any art advice you'd wanna give a fellow (though less experienced) furry artist?

OMGGGG THANK YOU!!! :D that means so much, i'm glad my art can have so much of an influence on you! that seriously makes me so happy 😭 i'm honored to be one of your favorites!!!

as for art advice.... i feel like im not qualified to give Good advice since im pretty much completely self-taught, but also maybe that makes the advice better? idk ive been "serious" about art and doing commissions since 2017 so i have quite a bit of experience but i still feel like a beginner gdhkgjldsgdskg but anyways here's my own personal things ive learned over the years

absorb as much art as you possibly can. art of all mediums. tv shows, movies, music, visual art, animations, books, comics, ect ect ect EVEN bad art! i am a huge believer of the idea that both bad art and good art is extremely important to you as an artist because not only does the bad art show you what Not to do, but sometimes bad art has GREAT ideas that you wouldve never thought of before. whether they're just executed poorly or the ideas arent touched upon as in depth as you'd like. i'm giving you permission to steal ideas right now PLEASE steal ideas from all the stuff you love and put your own personal spin on them i'm BEGGING you!!!! just don't claim other people's art as your own and you're golden

if you want to open commissions but you don't think you're "good enough", open them anyway. i swear it will do nothing but help you improve and give you experience for the future. i started out by drawing things for $10 a pop and it did SO MUCH for my improvement, i'm always drawing stuff that i wouldve never drawn otherwise and it's helped me a ton with my own personal art too. the variety of the prompts you'll get will be intimidating Because it'll be stuff you don't typically draw, but you'll feel such a sense of accomplishment by the end Because it's a challenge. all this being said, don't let people take advantage of you. stand your ground and don't be afraid to refund/deny a commission request because you're excited to get paid. for every client who's a dick to you there's like five clients who will gladly respect you and pay you what you deserve irt your skill and quality. i Promise

DRAW WHAT YOU LIKE TO DRAW!!!! Don't draw what you think other people want to see! at the end of the day, it's YOUR art, and you should be building a gallery full of things that make YOU happy and Spark Joy when you create, regardless of how "niche" the subjects may be. i'm in the process of unlearning this myself, but the best thing that you can do for yourself as an artist is be self indulgent and cater to Yourself above anyone else. if you only draw stuff to pull in followers/commission clients/ect you'll end up getting burnt out EXTREMELY easily and start to resent your art. the best thing to do is to slowly acquire the community that cares the most about your art, and you as an artist. that way you'll feel better about your craft and you'll be able to REALLY feel the love. the people who look at your art can absolutely tell when you're passionate about a piece vs when you're just doing it for attention/money/ect. that's why people who claim they're going to "stoop low and draw furry porn for money" never get anywhere unless theyre TRULY passionate about the craft, because people can TELL when their heart isnt in it

TL;DR draw whatever you wanna draw, be open to try new things, and take in as much art as you can and be open to new life experiences so you can stay inspired even when you're not making art. i hope this is helpful!! i feel like im kinda rambling about my own learning experience haha

[thousandyearphantombunker]

TFP au where Miko's host family are the Darby-Esquivels- I have a lot of issues with the logic in TFP surrounding miko- inorder to be an exchange student she'd need consistently high grades and while the show tries to make it sound like mikos host family is neglectful and they basically don't exist- that's nonsensical why would anyone volunteer to be a host family and then not hang out with the kid? You don't get paid anything so it can't be about money! it really is about developing a relationship with the exchange student during the duration of the program. In this au, jack and raf are half-brothers, jack's dad divorced his mom and Raf's dad is dead, we get some actual backstory on miko, also here miko cares about her grades- cause if she started failing she'd be forced to drop the exchange program- this also subverts some expectations cause in this au I want miko to actually be punk! And I want to give Jack a bit more oomph, Raf would be heavily rewritten (he stays a shy hacker boy who becomes friends with Bee and Ratchet but can we give him something to work with outside of that?)

Also Silas and MECH and dark energeon aren't dropped from the story- MECH and Silas as villains where genuinely more interesting than the omega keys and artifact crap we got, I'd go as far to say Silas is more interesting than Megatron and after all the stuff we see with starscream being an actually competent scary villain that was also comedic it angered me to see him become so flanderized- so here we take a cyberverse route but do it a bit differently and Unicron stays a major threat (I'm taking some inspiration from armada so in this au sideways replaces arachnid but instead of starscream getting redeemed- well let's say he still doesn't get a happy ending) I changed arachnid out for sideways cause she made little sense in universe.

Raf doesn't understand bumblebee in this and there's at least one story where they have to find alternative means of communication- let be actually be disabled by his lack of a voice box

I'm probably never going to write this but I'd like to see other people add to this au with there own ideas, let's get freaking insane and do the stuff tfp didn't have the balls to do! kill Bulkhead and let him get actual character development so it hurts, give Dreadwing a redemption arc, lets give arcee her time to shine, let's get some gay shit with Knockout and Breakdown let's fucking go!

edit: I was thinking about what problems I have with most human characters in transformers is that they 1 aren't as interesting as the bots are, I understand they want the characters to be relatable but sometimes they make them into flat characters borderline harem protagonist, another problem is a problem more commonly found in YA books- when a 16 year old middle class scrawny white girl with no combat training or superpowers or anything can successfully fight off a room full of vampire fbi agents with no injuries or losses, so my goal is to make the kids badass but in a more believable way, so they aren't just damsels in distress either

like I know jack was chosen because he's suppose to be like a young Orion pax and whatever but like it never felt right to me, they could have drawn the parallels clearer, we can also make Miko's badassery and cool moments more emotionally satisfying and make them feel more...deserved idk how to explain my problems with the humans in transformers too well.

Also can we make this the ultimate found family au? And bringing back some inspiration from transformers animated for Bulkhead- not exactly mind you but I love the idea of miko showing bulkhead something cool/creative for a hobby like how sari showed him art, and in RID15 apparently raf and bee liked watching cowboy movies together so now I'm just imagining pure fluff with these ideas I'm trying to come up with some fun ideas for jack and arcee- I usually don't like fluff but I like seeing friends being friends- it's adorable

More on miko, in this au she'd be the master of malicious compliance and finding loopholes, she's scared of failing and cares about her grades as stated above, but she also has early onset senioritis so she finds her ways, she rarely actually breaks rules or skips out, so she works smarter not harder, she's still got some major flaws, she's got a secret case of overconfidence, she's cynical (I think her parents would be loving but super controlling and never gave her privacy so she became sneaky to get away from them, she might have become a lone wolf in school maybe people thought she was scary or something maybe she tried having friends but her parents scared them away I like the idea that mikos super outgoing but in a way that scares people or she struggles with deeper connections outside of surface level, more on Jack, I'm taking some spiderman inspiration- like the rest of the fanbase I shall torture him for fun, give him some hidden rage, a guilt complex, constantly stress over June Raf and Miko, and here he's going to be a senior, he still lives with June and pays her rent but it's always a little bit extra even though she says he doesn't have to, he remembers the time when his parents first divorced and when Raf's dad got sick in this so he worries about cash a lot and maybe has some depression, he's working out what he wants to do with his life and all around is trying to act stupidly responsible and mature to cope, raf is still a dorky lil baby but he's got a surprisingly dark and unsurprisingly gross sense of humor and is more interested in biology than computers at the start, but starts picking up on stuff real fast, he and bumblebee work on alternative means of communication together(one day the bots can't translate what he's saying so after that they start practicing sign or Morse code or something!) Idk just tell me random stuff that bothered you tfp and RID15 or ideas you guys have that could make this au interesting

[ratherbefangirling]

Hi!! Idk,but can I request a yandere ship with BTS? This is my first yandere ship💀I hope my info would be enough.

I am an ambivert. I love art related things and I love to read and know more. My curiosity is always high. I love to eat and cook. I am open,witty funny but I am actually a reserved someone. You can say I have a royal/princess au going around me. But that's just appearance. My personality is a bit introverted and quiet. Even though I like meeting new people and talking about new stuff,my lone time is very important for me. So that I can think. I think I am someone whom you call savage but elegant. The total baddie doesn't go with me. Respectful but also know when to use my sharp tongue on people. Straightforward,honest, passionate, hard-working. But ig I do have problems. You see,since I am like the therapist of my closed ones,take care of others. I don't know how to receive affection or care well. Though I know I deserve it,but I don't know how to process the care when I receive from others(without thinking it's a trap ). I have low self esteem but with a god complex. I mean I do feel confident,but like,at times I doubt myself. 💀💀

I hope.its enough. Thank you and have a nice day/night🥰💙💜

Hi Sweetheart,

May you have a nice day. Hope you like it.

The yandere I ship you with is Taehyung.

For a long time you had a crush on Taehyung and you had made your feelings for him more than obvious.

With Taehyung what was not there to love. His pretty face, his collar bones, his fluffy hair, his deep voice you could go on. Despite that Taehyung barely paid you attention.

You decided to let go of him slowly distancing yourself. Taehyung was alarmed. How could you no longer like him and pay him attention. So he starts coveting you. The perfect opportunity presents itself when you go on a college trip.

Somehow you are seated next to Taehyung on the train. Hours pass there is no conversation between you. He is busy on his phone. You fall asleep.

When you wake up he is not on his seat you spot him flirting with a girl on another seat as you make your way to the restroom.

After freshening up you choose to admire the view. Silent as a cat Taehyung joins you.

The train stops and you loose your balance landing on Taehyung. His eyes are blank. You move away but your clothes get caught up on the button on his.

And to make things worse a group of your class mates walk on you, rushing away with not so silent whispers.

You close your eyes hoping you'd disappear.

Fingers trace your face.

"So pretty." Taehyung's voice makes you crack open your eyes.

"Huh?" You are dumbfounded. Is he actually talking to you. You must have misheard him right.?

He helps you up.

"I'm sorry." You apologise.

"It's not your fault." He says simply.

You follow him back to your seats. You pick up the book you were reading. After a while a head falls on your shoulder.

You look at Taehyung and wonder what sort of beautiful nightmare is this.

What you didn't know that was not even a trailer of the life you were to live later.

The proposal you recieve is very romantic. A public, heart of roses and candles on the ground and a bouquet of your favourite flowers. You cant help but say yes. Surely you can't deny his efforts.

The first three months are heaven. Your boyfriend is sweet and cute and hot and sexy. It's everything a girl could ask for but there's something missing. When you tell it to your friend she says it's your anxiety speaking. Still you feel a lack of emotional connection. Its his way and only his way.

You are getting ready for your friends birthday party when Taehyung comes home.

"Jagi." He calls out.

"Yes." You say still getting ready.

A frown is painted in his face when he enters your shared bedroom.

"Why's the house so messy, even the food is not done do you want me to starve?"

You close your eyes. You were expecting it.

"Tae, I will clean once I come back. You can order in one night."

"Ha not all of us have money to waste princess."

He says seething. You feel hurt.

"Tae. ... please don't be like this." You plead ignoring your phone that rings incessantly.

"I dont know what you want but you're not the only one that gets to complain about not spending time together when you keep partying with your friends."

"We haven't been on a date for three months!" You tell him.

"I know and I finally got time so you're running to your parties hoping any pervert can pay your ugly self attention pathetic."

You don't even know when tears start to drip down.

You answer your phone.

"I can't make it." You tell your friend.

"Again."

"I'm sorry."

"Whatever."

You cut the call to find your house empty. Taehyung left. You break down in tears. You decide to pack your bags. You've had enough.

You book a hotel room with nowhere else to go.

Your phone rings and rings. There are voice messages.

Finally you answer your phone.

"Jagi.. jagi." He cries

Your heart lurches. He sounds so much in pain.

"What happened?" You ask alarmed.

"I.. you.." You can hear his sobbing and your heart breaks.

You rush back to the house.

You find him crying in the living room. Immediately hugging him. Stroking his hair.

"I'm sorry I will be better." He says.

"It's fine. It's fine. It's ok." You comfort him.

Later when you go to bring him water he wipes the tears and wonder how he should punish you.

You make it too easy sometimes. Still you're a fun prey to play with.

[bibblelevi]

heya, i am normally shit at leaving reviews but WOW. i could not help it when it came to SS. i only wish i had binged it much faster, it took me a while to read because… idk life. but here i am! I do hope you accept reviews. if not, then you can ignore/not answer this entirely.

where do i begin? this series is a work of art, honestly. if it’s not copying or plagiarising - i really wanna write my own after-the-war sort of series too with levi owning a teashop.

Levi’s personality:

you captured him so well, from his dialogue and speech to his ministrations and subtle ways of caring for the reader. but what captured me the most was the way you described the workings of his brain. the man would be riddled with guilt and anger and sadness after the rumbling and i am so glad you wrote about this. he’s so tired and done with life and there is nothing wrong with him wanting a bit of peace and solace. he may find it in his not-so-innocent thoughts and desires for reader, but even earlier on in chapter one when he was craving her to always be with him even after his leg fails or when he’s more dependent on someone to care for him, and how Gabie and Falco would be fine… but they aren’t the reader. wow. perfect. it’s not his first time feeling desire or attraction, but before he had to stifle it. and now he is able to feel it all unabashedly (even if he keeps it to himself) and not have to put comrades’ lives above his own feelings. It’s hard and he's not used to it and he feels selfish and disgusting and possibly cruel, but he’s feeling such normal things that he is not used to feeling. 

The Angst and Pining:

oh good LORD, this is one of my favourite parts. it ties into Levi’s desires and how feels guilty for hurting the reader (both the gunshot wound and the time she woke up in hospital without him being at her side, etc) and how he feels he doesn’t deserve her. all of this pining and build-up paid off SO much in chapter 9. i won’t spoil it but wow… incredible. and we get to see the pining from the reader too. she was so torn and conflicted and upset whilst on that date with Paddy. even if he did touch her w/o consent, it did help highlight the feelings a bit more than before. How she didn’t want anyone’s touch, even if it was consensual, unless it was from Levi. beautiful. and how they both indulged themselves in chapter 5??? PERFECT? The pacing for this was beautiful, perfect. *chef's kiss*

The *ahem* smut: 

god-tier. i love how you captured Levi in the bedroom. in that subby-ish headspace in chapter 7?? i was QUAKING. chapter 9 was so worth the build-up. smut doesn’t normally make my heart race like yours did. i had to pause and take a break every now and then. it’s fantastic. levi’s dirty talk throughout this is my favourite thing. it’s given me multiple heart attacks. he’s dominant enough but not super harsh and crude, which I really hate. i mean that’s just my personal preference and how I’d write him too. he’s incredibly caring and attentive to detail simultaneously too and i wish we saw more of that in the fandom. he’s not just a hard-dom, he’s also subby and he whimpers and he’s bashful and-- basically everything you’ve done, and it’s perfection and then some. 

i seriously can’t wait for the next installment (take ur time!) 

Cece

Cece my friend I literally am BURSTING with love and affection for you. AGH. Thank you so, so much. This is so in depth and I was smiling the whole way through, thinkin bout all the scenes you mentioned. I always love seeing how people are interpreting the work/Levi’s characterization, because everyone is so different and has their own preferences about what they like or don’t like.

Thank you SO MUCH FOR READING. silver soul is my writing journey so to see you give it such warm praise makes me incredibly grateful.

I cannot WAIT to drop not only chapter 11 but chapter 12 too, because there’s going to be so much revealed and so much more insight into what the fuck everyone is thinking. (Chapter 12 is going to be told in “then” “now” where everything that happened in Liberio is revealed)

Again thank you so much :(( You have no idea how much I appreciate you.

[cobrakiin]

Ask memey thing, 001 Pokemon, 002 Cojeel, 003 Sokka

Send me a fandom, ship, or character ask meme!

001 | Pokemon

Favorite character Pokemon: Absol and Bulbasaur :)

Least Favorite character Pokemon: idk... Pignite?

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): Kukui x Burnet, Archie x Maxie, Chloe x Dawn, Ash x Goh, Steven x Wallace (+ Bonus: Leon x Raihan)

Character(s) I find most attractive: ORAS!Archie is 👀 but Talia do be kinda cute

Character I would marry: idk

Character I would be best friends with: Leon or Brock seem fun? idk

a random thought: i'd like Nanu's job of sitting around with cats all day and getting paid for it

An unpopular opinion: I liked Tracey and want him back

My Canon OTP: Red x Blue. They were ON THEIR HONEYMOON IN ALOLA IN THIS ESSAY I WILL-

My Non-canon OTP: i think maybe,,,,, Adman and Warden!Ingo should kis... just a lil,,,,, uwu

Most Badass Character: Cynthia. She may not be my favorite champion but I respect her.

Most Epic Villain: it's ya boi GUZMA

Pairing I am not a fan of: Anything with Piers? He's ace? sorry i don't make the news i just report it

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): Lance. No, I won't explain.

Favourite Friendship: Pikachu and every other electric rodent

Character I most identify with: I can't say I identify with any specific character

Character I wish I could be: When I was little I liked to pretend I was a Vaporeon when I went swimming :) . I, as an adult who has seen unspeakable things in greentext format, know better now.

002 | Cojeel (Cobra x Gajeel)

When I started shipping them: Been on this ship since 2012 babey!!!

My thoughts: punk bfs w/ a lot of chemistry, they've both been through plenty of traumas in their own lives and sorta understand where the other is coming from...... (also this ship is how i met you @zephiraz my loving partner of 8 years *heart eyes emoji*)

What makes me happy about them: they're not pretty boys except for when they want to be (SO much eyeliner and hair products, their bathroom is a MESS), their relationship feels natural for them, they very lovingly insult each other yet they also don't let the other get away with shit, but also sometimes they're just content being lazy gay snakes dragons together

What makes me sad about them: they deserve happiness but shit keeps happening, who would have predicted that past misdeeds would have future consequences :(

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: I guess if Cobra's dialogue is hard to distinguish from Gajeel's? His vocab does get more relaxed post-timeskip, but not that much,,,,

Things I look for in fanfic: .... new fanfic. There's 15 works on AO3 and 4 of them are from ME. FFnet is practically just me.... oTL

My wishlist: More fic or art in general? Maybe some more canon teamups? <:3c

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Laxus x Gajeel x Cobra polyship... it's technically not just them ;)c

My happily ever after for them: They have a very private wedding or just straight up elope

003 | Sokka (Avatar)

How I feel about this character: this boy has adhd 100%

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: I like most ships with him, but I don't really have a favorite?

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: I like his relationship with Katara. Especially when they pick on each other, because I will always be tired of the "siblings always get along perfectly" trope in fiction

My unpopular opinion about this character: He's obviously bi, but is a little nervous about the whole liking boys part bc of his upbringing. That being said, it's something he definitely gets over later in life.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: I wish caffeinated beverages existed at that time period, because he definitely seems like the kind of person who should not consumer caffeine because then he sees all the time all the time

Favorite friendship for this character: Him and Aang are always fantastic idiots when it's no braincell day and it's great

My crossover ship: Sokkoya. (Sokka x Naoya Itsuki) It happened because of the rp that originally inspired Hiraethean Prophecy, and is one of the "canon" ships in the panfandom crossover fic version. :3x