#like part of why I feel like everyone secretly just tolerates me is because they all seem to get along better with each other than with me

[punkrockgenasiashton]

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[7ndipity]

Dating headcanons pt.2

Yoongi x Reader

Warnings: crack, swearing

A/N: part one felt a little short to me for some reason, so let's cover some of the things we missed, yeah?

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Increasingly not so secretly romantic. He made hundreds of handwritten notes for everyone at his birthday fanmeet, imagine the kind of things he would do for an s/o?

The type to surprise you with a pillow fort and your favorite movie after a tough day and then try to brush it off like "I didn't really do anything tho".

Intentionally takes couple photos out of focus? Idk why, it's just become his weird aesthetic with you.

Man's a master of 'flirting, but not flirting.'

Starring at you while you're doing anything, with that lil head tilt and the fucking tongue thing he does.

Knows you have a thing for his hands, and will use it against you.

Although, would you really mind?(I'm going to hell for these posts)

Brutally honest. Like he loves you, but he's still Yoongi.

"Does this make my butt look big?" "Your butt is big." "EXCUSE ME?!" "What? I like your butt."

But also the most supportive boyfriend about even the littlest things, similar to the way he tends to go along with Tae's little bits or dances.

Does not fall for or tolerate those tiktok/text pranks.

"I want a divorce." "🤨we're not married? Also no" "But-" "NO" "okay rude."

Actually has a little box of momentos from dates with you, from ticket stubs and bottle caps to a paper crane made out of a shopping receipt.

Loves it when you fall asleep on him, because it means you feel safe with him (maybe got a teeny bit emotional the first time it happened, but will never admit it).

Has a habit of sniffing you?? Like, idk he just finds your scent really comforting. Always notices when you try a new perfume or shampoo.

Intentionally leaves hoodies at your place in hopes you'll wear them.

[thefiery-phoenix]

Hello. How are you? I hope I'm not bothering you. I'm so sorry your old blog is gone. But I believe you can start over. I wish you the best of luck on your new blog. Can I make a request if requests are open? You shared it once. I wonder if you can do it like part 2? Can you share more for yandere husbands Pollux Black, Cygnus Black, Orion Black, Alphard Black and Severus Snape ? Please

Don't worry you're not bothering me dear, and thank you for the kind wishes for my new blog, I really appreciate the love and support I've received from all of you during those difficult times. I was pretty dejected when my blog got deleted for no reason but it's okay, I'll start over, a fresh start and sure, let's get into this

I'll have to write only for Pollux and Cygnus unfortunately, you've requested for too many characters 😭 Please request for not more than 2 or 3 characters at least for a scenario next time, it gets overwhelming to write for more. I sincerely apologize 😔

Pollux Black: Pollux might love you and be obsessed with you but if you dare to act up in front of him he's not going to appreciate it. As much as he cares for you he's really not above using the Cruciatus curse on you when you misbehave with him and demand for silly things like your freedom and wanting to see your friends and family. He's your family now, you're supposed to be content staying with him, he's already providing everything for you despite your constant tantrums and protests which he's willingly and patiently tolerating, and yet you say you don't want to be with him?

As soon as those words come out of your mouth, you'll be wishing you'd never said that in the first place judging by the dark look that's now plastered across his face. After he's done with torturing you for a while, he'll lock you in a room and ignore you till you apologize to him by literally begging him to pay attention to you, which is what he wants. You better hope and pray to whatever God you believe in because this deranged lunatic will hunt down every friend, family member and person you've come in contact with at least once in your lifetime and murder them right in front of you

If it's a random stranger who bumped into you on some random day, even better as he'll taunt you for having the blood of them on your hands and gaslight you by saying how all this is your fault because you refused to love him and reciprocate his feelings back. This is why I called him a deranged lunatic. When you finally do apologize, his personality will change drastically, like going from a zero to 360 in just a matter of seconds. He'll gently kiss your hands and tell you that you've been a good little darling for him as he patches you up, this bipolar MF 😒 All in all, just be good and you won't have a hard time dealing with this lunatic and try not to make him jealous by mentioning other people in front of him, things will get messy

Cygnus Black: Cygnus is quite fond of books and if you're a writer, lady luck just graced you with good fortune, however of course, as usual there will be consequences since well, is a Black after all. Cygnus will allow you to pursue whatever interests and hobbies you have after he's taken you because he knows you'll be lonely staying cooped up indoors all day long without magic. If you're fond of art, he'll get you the best art supplies galleons and knuts can buy from a reputed store. If you're fond of reading books he'll gladly join you when you're reading as he slowly wraps a protective arm around your waist and pulls you in closer to him while the two of you read. He won't really mind it if you decide to lay down on his lap, he'll be thrilled that you're finally trusting him after so long as he secretly basks in his moment of victory and gently runs his fingers through your hair

This man is territorial and possessive, you can't do anything without taking his permission first and unfortunately that rule applies to you wanting to get your books published for everyone else to read. You decided to ask him about this one day during dinner. He noticed there was something on your mind and you were unusually quiet, at first he thought of using Occlumency on you to find out what you were thinking about, however he decided to be generous and gave you the chance to explain yourself. He'll most definitely use his Occlumency skills on you later though, you know, just as a precautionary measure to make sure you aren't thinking about anything silly like trying to get away from him

"You're quiet today...quiet than usual, I can tell there's something on your mind" he said in a nonchalant voice as he sipped his Earl Grey tea and surveyed you with a calculating look in his eyes, silently trying to draw an answer from you. You slightly fidgeted with the hem of your robes and spoke "I was wondering if I could publish a few of my works to the public..." You were greeted with silence in return as you mentally winced at yourself for coming up with this idea in the first place. You could tell he didn't appreciate the question you've just asked him judging by the way he was starting at you with an unreadable expression on his face

He got up from his chair and strode towards you as he lifted your chin with his finger. "Dear, why would you want insignificant pathetic vermin to tell you how good your work is when you already have me? Is my presence for you not enough?" You were struggling to think of saying something that wouldn't anger him as he continued to speak. "Your writing is one of a kind my love, the others... they're like mere flies who have no experience when it comes to writing, they don't know how creative and beautiful your mind is when you imagine something and put those very thoughts on a parchment. And yet some of them dare criticize you, your work is reserved for me and ONLY me, they don't know you like I do.... the sooner you get rid of this silly notion of yours, the better" as you nodded your head silently and kept eating your dinner

Sure enough he kept a close eye on you whenever you wrote something to make sure your writing didn't go public. Part of him was worried that you'd include some secret message in your writing and then he'd lose you, no.... he couldn't lose you.... he won't lose you, you're his and he'll make sure people pay dearly if they dared to take you away from him

[dearweirdme]

https://www.tumblr.com/dearweirdme/757449554999296000/i-think-all-of-bts-sometimes-feed-shippers-i

i meant more that jkkrs are more accepted in the fandom, from what I've observed tkkrs are more their own fandom and they have no problem not being associated with armys, of course this isn't everyone, but from what I've seen jkkrs are generally tolerated more, I think it's cus the fandom built up tkkrs as the big bad shippers when realistically as far as shenanigans go jkkrs and tkkrs are pretty matched and there is a lot of people that bias jkk a lot and they excuse a lot of jkkr bullshit

to me fan service is sharing these moments cus fans love them, it doesn't mean to me that they're always faking it and that they secretly hate each other and play it up for the camera, rather that these are moments meant to be shared with armys and other fans that will then enjoy them, I do believe they all do it, I think even yoongi did it a lot on suwchita, a lot of people feel icky about fanservice as a term, I think it's just a term and says nothing about the closeness of the members, I think they all engage in it, sometimes even subconciously and I think some pairings just have better chemistry on camera than others but all of them are friends, it's a part of their job, not some moral failing

for taekook and specifically the hawaii photos, I go back and forth with what I believe, I think it was fanservice, I do think he did feed shippers cus of the timing of it all, but to me with tae if they indeed are dating, it doesn't come as a desire for attention from taekookers, liek clout for his photobook, but rather him wanting to share how close he is to jk, and not just to tkkrs but everyone, maybe feeding shippers isn't the correct term tho idk, either way fanservice and feeding shippers when it comes from idols themselves I don't mind much, it is part of their job and sometimes I do think they do it without even realizing it, and sometimes it's clearly the company either putting them in units the fans want to see and doing content with the ship they usually push and know people like and will want to see, I think the difference tho is when the members do it and when the company pushes narratives, that's when it starts to get icky to me, cus they're always so blatant about it, especially these recent articles

sorry this is a long ass rant again, I feel like I keep repeating myself🙈 anyway imo vminkook are all good friends and they like to show that to armys, and I believe taekook may or may not be together and that they also occasionally do fanservice cus they like to show they're close to armys and now armys and obviously tkkrs will like it

Hi anon!

I think in broad terms fanservice is the things they do to excite army. It’s stuff that has entertainment value.That can be several things, like engaging in funny behavior during a show, posting group pics, posting pics with members, mentioning each other, taping certain content, honestly a really long list of things. As you mentioned, I also think fanservice is aimed around army as a whole.

The existence of fanservice does not however mean that they never do or say things that are for themselves though. They are human, they want to share certain things because they want us to know or understand a certain part of them. I mean, they talk about hard stuff at times and share how that makes them feel.. that’s hardly fanservice, so if we accept that their negative emotions are a factor in what they share, why is it hard to accept that their positive emotions can also be shared because of a wish to be honest. I think sometimes something is fanservice and other times it is not 🤷🏻‍♀️. That does mean there’s always gonna be fandom discussion about which moments are and which aren’t though 😫.

Yes absolutely, Vminkook are the best of friends! No but seriously.. that Vmin hug when Jin got released healed parts of my heart I did not know were broken. These men have gone through a lifetime of memories together. I think it is very possible they agreed to not let shippers come between them.

[madlyn5ever]

Part 2 of Madlyn headcanons!

-despite texting pretty much everyday (except that time between the Halloween party and opening night where Ash wasn’t texting Maddie)

Ashlyn has no idea where the hell the siblings actually went when everyone didn’t show up for rehearsals that one day (or where they go in general when they’re not at school) (especially since Miss Jenn only seemed phased that everyone else was missing and not Jet or Maddox) and she finds out that the siblings had to fly home to help their parents pack up their house to move.

Ashlyn has never been happier than she was learning that her girlfriend was actually moving to live near her.

(Okay but seriously this plot line was very thinly fleshed out like it appears they moved schools to be at East, but it also somehow to me heavily seems like they’re from California, -maybe that’s just cause I am and shallow lake is in CA- so they’d have to move states, right?)

-Maddox tries to teach Ashlyn archery. Tries.

-Ashlyn gets Maddox to watch a show her, Carlos, and Kourtney watch together. She doesn’t totally get it but she doesn’t say anything so that she can spend time with Ash. Eventually though she gets really into it in secret at Ashlyn’s when she leaves her room for a minute and Ash, suspecting that she didn’t really have much interest in it stands in her door frame smiling smugly at her girlfriend until she notices her prescience and, whilst having been screaming at the tv about what the characters should be doing, freezes in embarrassment.

-Maddox watches camp site set up videos on YouTube, just, people setting up camp sites either with music over the video or with the people explaining what they’re doing and why. Like how to set up a tent (she already knows but she likes to watch) and one time she stumbled upon Dewey Wood advertising camp shallow lake, (with passive aggressive feelings about the campers) and explaining how the Cabins get ready for summer.

He mentions that there’s really only one camper he more than tolerates, because she actually respects the camp and it’s rules to the letter, and he wants to hire her but she’s legally not allowed to work for him because she doesn’t have any certificates to watch children. He is talking about Gadget.

She never brings it up to him but when she hears “I don’t really like children, but there is one camper, Gadget, who’s been coming her for years, she actually respects the place. If you ever come her for the summer talk to her, and maybe if you listen this place won’t be such a mess.”

- Ashlyn put a whole handful of coins in her mouth as a child. (I can’t explain it she just looks like she did that)

-They’re song (other than call it what you want) is ‘If My Heart Was A House’ by Owl City

-after everyone goes to Denny’s opening night, they all go to Ashlyn’s house (EJ’s staying over so everyone is allowed to stay over not just the Girl’s and Seb) and Ash and Maddox finally officially confirm that they’re girlfriends to each other. Everyone say’s their “ooo”’s and embarrasses them light heartedly. Jet does it the most, Maddox’s being his sister and bestfriend and all,

One comment from Maddox to Jet about him and Kourtney shuts that up real quick.

- Ashlyn asks Maddox what she wants to do for their first date. An escape room she can’t solve was not what Ashlyn thought she’d choose, but listening to Maddie confidently guess tings that aren’t part of the puzzle and try and connect objects that don’t go with finding their key is worth it. She doesn’t have the heart to tell Maddox how bad she clearly is at escape rooms so she goes along with it and tries to connect Maddox’s “clues” with her while also secretly solving the real puzzle and let’s Maddie “find” the key once she solves it by gingerly convincing Maddox to “maybe check under that box over there”

Maddox still has no idea.

-Maddox eventually gets Ashlyn to watch Shang Chi for the first time with her since she almost knows the movie by heart now. She’s so excited to show her girlfriend Michelle Yeoh, and also Awkwafina singing Hotel California.

[stinkysarai]

idk why but i feel like the funniest and also most annoying thing i see with atla characters is like. how theyre pushed into a VERY small box and mostly known for/ characterized with like. a certain aspect of them.

tell me why i constantly see ‘mom friend katara shes so momcore motherly’ posts. like yeah i guess so but shes more than just a motherly person guys!! shes a teenage girl with anger and rage and a very very strong passion for justice! shes a teenage girl who was forced to mature and clearly dislikes the motherly part of herself!!! cmon guys shed be so upset if she was only known for being a ‘mother hen’ or something!!

aang. poor aang literally hes either a 'pacifist saint scared of confrontation and has no guts' or an 'evildoer thats the founder of frowntown' or some shit. did we watch the same show?? i mean i was a little sleep deprived when i watched it yeah but i dont think aang was the true villain of atla… i think that was ozai? just a guess ? (sarcastic) idk. i just think its crazy that this little fella is usually seen in such a bad light

sokka. my boy sokka brah see hes like. hes a strange thing. i feel like there could be a buzzfeed quiz of Which Sokka Are You? and the options are buff stupid ass himbo that gets girls , annoying male manipulator/manchild that hurts women, mean big brother thats only ever sarcastic and annoying and cynical and NEVER shows any emotion other than hatefulness, spite, and jealousy, or sunshine happy funny guy that aspires to be a comedian and never has any emotions or personality other than butt of the joke/ jokester. and even then those are like. BROAD options. i could get so much more specific but like. i wont because im lazy. it just. it peeves me a little bit but to be fair i am the same type of person to go YOU DONT GET MY FAVE LIKE I DO even though i am bad at overanalyzing characters. sokkas my fave so i might just be spewing nothin but pure ass takes (dont criticize me ill cry)

toph. AUGHHHH IT GETS ME SO MAD!! why is she a mean ass no tolerance no respect girl!! why is it thay most of the time they make her out to be some girl that is mean to others because ‘its funny!!1!1!’ and will never listen and also hates everyone and is unnecessarily violent. THAT or they make her out to some ‘i’m secretly really sweet and nice and kindheartedmaxxed but i hide myself with ANGER and violence and rebellion…’ type of person that acts like a tsundere in extreme comedy animes. like giys please why are there two extremes that neither of which are good!!

dont get me started on zuko because once i start i wont stop . WHY WHY WHY!!!! i scream to the midnight sky as raindrops down my despaired face… WHY is it that hes either a small, shy, vulnerable sack of twigs who cant defend himself and needs his alpha sigma buff boyfriend(s) to defend him at all times or a buff ass strong extremely mean jerk thats also ‘a bad boy with a big heart’ that smirks 25/8 and is sad all the time and in his feels. guys like… WHY?? HES NOT .. GUYS olease. Please please please

pisses me off man! but to be fair i am VERY particular about a lot of thijgs and like. no shame / hate truly. im just a fella who cant shut up, living my life happy go lucky and filled with love and hate. if this offends you PLEASE DONT HURT ME im just a feller!!! a person in this big big world!! twas just a rant!

[friendfromdsmp]

Are there Adrien Salt takes that you disagree with?

I definitely think that Adrien gets unnecessary hate as well as unnecessary praise. One thing that disappoints me is how many people see a lot of Adrien’s actions as malicious due to his arguably abusive behaviours concerning his love for Ladybug

You can partake in abusive behaviours without malicious intent. You can form a pattern of abuse without malicious intent. And while good intentions don’t justify or excuse the abuse, it does help to get to the root of the problem. In Adrien’s case, it seems to be a matter of not having been provided healthy outlets for his emotions, emotional identification and regulation or any positive examples or role models to lead by example

Before the show began, Adrien only had a few people in his life; his father, the cold and distant man who secretly had full control of Adrien’s free will and isolated him and all but forced him to work for his brand and do an ungodly amount of extracurriculars; Nathalie, the assistant who seems to have shown Adrien lightly more care and gentle encouragement but that’s really grown in the past few months more than anything; the bodyguard who’s chill and would keep a secret but isn’t exactly a fountain of advice, at best he’s a great option for venting; a mother who we know nothing about but judging by what we know in-universe there was most likely nothing too much better than Nathalie or Gabriel in her; and Chloé, the best friend that was clearly a horrible influence that Adrien tolerated more than liked but clung to all the same for being his only friend

All of this absolutely screams of an unhealthy social development in his upbringing. And when we see how Chloé and Gabriel both throw tantrums like toddlers whenever they don’t get their way or they need to play a part to manipulate others, it’s no wonder that Adrien has a tendency to lash out when his emotions get volatile. It’s not healthy or acceptable, but it’s understandable

Adrien also seems to have developed a bit of a codependency issue of sorts when it comes to Ladybug; if she’s not there, he doesn’t function, but when she’s present he constantly shows off and tries to win her over. This is another factor of his neglectful upbringing; he’s strongly motivated by praise and has a high reward drive, but when there’s no attention to be gained, positive or negative, he sees no point. And with Ladybug being the first person to actually return that emotional connection with him in a genuine and friendly way, he seems to latch onto her to continue supplying him with that positive emotional input and manage his emotions. Again, none of this is healthy or acceptable behaviour, but it’s understandable why he’d get to this point; it’s a classic case of a neglected child acting out for attention, whether positive or negative, because it’s better than feeling totally invisible

Adrien needs therapy, is the bottom line here. He’s developed horrible coping mechanisms or just straight-up lacks them due to a traumatic and neglectful childhood. I don’t think he’s always morally well-intentioned, but I think a lot of his abusive acts, while definitely not excusable, aren’t done out of any kind of ill-intent. They’re mostly done out of ignorance of how to appropriately express or vent his emotions, which results in him lashing out in harmful ways or completely shutting down on both himself and others. Both are harmful, but not inherently malicious. What Adrien needs to do is learn emotional regulation, something that everyone learns as they grow. Hell, it’s something many adults still struggle with, so I won’t blame a teenage boy for not having it down pat. But that doesn’t absolve him of responsibility to work on himself and to make amends for his past behaviours

[duckmine]

Any headcanons for the belcher family? or any other characters u like

-i firmly feel as though jimmy junior is actually anti-social or has social anxiety. seeing him interact with anyone outside the main group is always the most awkward thing ever lol and i just feel like the reason he lacks as much confidence is because of his father and maybe the lack of a mother figure as well. that’s why he gravitates so much towards zeke and tina because they praise him so much and feed his ego but also genuinely care about him. and also why jimmy jr. isn’t really actual friends with anyone except for zeke, i honestly don’t think he likes tammy and jocelyn that much. maybe tolerate jocelyn since he knew her for longer than tammy but after tammy jocelyn just became her follower and jimmy jr. just didn’t care for it.

-this is a little more specific but i lowkey headcanon tammy as bi with a slight repressed crush on tina. i know it’s cliche to say every bully secretly likes their target but unfortunately that was a very common concept i grew up watching and enjoying and i am a absolutely a sucker for that trope. but i also just favor tina and i want everyone to like her DHSJSB.

-i do headcanon that tammy and tina take a better path in friendship around high school. they’ll probably be in different friend groups but because they went to the same middle school and are more familiar with each other they develop a deeper kinship in that regard. maybe they even rebel for another night in dedication to their first meeting.

-i do headcanon tina to be completely straight tho. i also understand the idea behind her being trans but at the same time i liked that the show was unique for having both female and male voice actors for female characters regardless of sex so because of that tina is actually cis in my eyes but i like seeing everyone else’s headcanons that may differ to mine.

-i think jocelyn might be trans tho. i know that just curved from what i said but jocelyn to me seems like she’d come from an actually pretty accepting and even loving family considering her lighthearted and breezy nature and her honesty cute relationship with her mom so it wouldn’t surprised me if she potentially suggested as a kid that she preferred more feminine clothing and other associations of sorts.

-louise definitely screams “on the nonbinary + demi-ace/aro spectrum” to me with like a preference in girls and an exception to rudy. there’s so many things queer about this girl to me fhskhdks.

-louise also definitely looks up to tina but will not say SHIT about it, you can catch her dead 50 ft below the ground admitting it. i know she technically said tina was her hero in the two parter episode of season 12 but that was because tina was gonna smash something but no, louise like GENUINELY looks up to tina. tina has an exceeding level of strength compared to her (but also tbf louise you’re like, nine), tina can be just as snarky as louise when given the chance and also tina has helped louise in her most confusing times because in all the girly, sappy stuff that louise just can’t handle, tina can and she’d help her get through it in a heartbeat because tina is her older sister. also, i’m sure louise enjoys tina’s stories.. minus the raunchy parts. she definitely considers tina an exceptional writer (for age 13 i guess) and the diverse genres that tina will incorporate into her writing is probably very entertaining for louise. because tina is not afraid to get rough and gorey, or action-packed and silly (i’d imagine).

-tina gives gene and louise hugs and kisses because i fucking said so she is an affectionate and HAPPY sister and no matter how much they squirm they definitely appreciate it!

-i semi-headcanon bob and linda as T4T. not fully because i don’t automatically see them as such but i can definitely see why others do and enjoy the headcanon myself. otherwise i firmly believe bob is bi and linda if not trans is at least an ally or somewhat heteroflexible because honestly. it’s linda.

-jimmy pesto sr. still calls jimmy jr. pepper i don’t care he just has to.

-jimmy jr. won’t say it but he really does cherish his younger brothers. even tho they don’t always understand each other or bond as well together jimmy jr would defend them in a heartbeat if he could. in high school he eventually tries ti get closer to them and they become almost as inseparable as the belcher kids.

-andy and ollie start to become more easily differentiated through personality as they get older. ollie remains bubbly and naive while andy is a bit more tentative and skeptical. ollie is also probably one of those “hidden genius” types where he’s typically known to be airheaded until he starts spouting the most profound shit and everyone is shocked. andy on the other hand is more of the look out and tries to protect ollie as if he was the oldest brother. he also gains a sarcastic form of humor and definitely gets it from louise which bugs her for sure lol.

-i headcanon millie frock as a lesbian. not strictly because of louise but she just gives off femme lesbian vibes idk.

anyways those are some of the other headcanons i have that i can remember off the top of my head 😅.

[evelhak]

30 Days of Autism Acceptance 2023

April 26

If you're interested in other people/want contact, how do you normally make contact with others? Do you stay where you are and hope that they approach you, or do you approach them?

If you're not interested in other people, do others respect and understand that? Were you negatively affected by the "autistics are very social actually and want friends, they just don't know how to do that!" mentality (for example that everyone tries to force social interactions because they think you secretly want social contacts)?

I need connection with others deeply and am very social, however, also very introverted so I need a lot of alone time, and I assume autism makes it even more so for me.

My natural way of making friends is going to someone and stating why I want to be friends with them. That tends to put people off, so I don't really do it in real life anymore. Online it seems to work a lot better, actually!

Another way for me to make friends is through a shared, predictable activity where I know my role. That way I always know what to talk to people about. Hobby groups have always been my number one environment for contact with other people, however, I still rarely make the kind of friends who I would see outside of that activity. It has happened a few times, but more often than not, people will create subgroups I'm not a part of, and I don't know how you get into those. Mostly I don't mind though, since the demands would exceed my social capacity.

If there is no shared activity, I don't know how to make friends. I don't know what to say, or how they expect the relationship to progress, if they do. I can't do casual hanging out in groups very well unless there's a clear topic of discussion, and even then I usually don't get a word in because people don't notice I'm speaking. I have no clue how most people seem to be able to get their turn to speak so intuitively. Generally speaking I'm not socially anxious though, so I don't fear parties or gatherings or anything, I just don't know how to really be a part of the crowd, so usually I end up sitting with someone's cat or finding their bookshelf instead of talking to people much.

Sometimes an extrovert/ambivert notices me for something, after being around the same circles for a while and ending up in situations with me. Usually it's something like, that I'm a good listener or empathetic, or they like my peaceful nature, or something like that, and that person takes it upon themselves to become friends with me, which is how I've made most of my real life friends. It happened enough times that I began to trust it will always happen at some point, so I'm not in a hurry to make friends in a new place. Even if most people find me too odd, or don't even notice me, there's always going to be that one person who was looking for someone exactly like me.

I'm a quality over quantity person, so having too many people to keep up with regularly distresses me a lot. Until university I was pretty used to having only one or two friends who would expect me to talk to them most days. It's important to me to be a part of a group but it suited me very well that most people in them never expected me to be reachable outside of the hobby/activity, because it's through a shared interests that I feel the most connected to people anyway, and I need most of my free time for decompressing from social interaction and sensory overload.

However, in university I somehow managed to have four people who constantly competed over my time and they all happened to be prone to jealousy too. That was probably the only time I consistently had too much attention to cope with it. I was studying full time, writing my novels, taking five ballet classes a week, helping an elderly lady with her grocery shopping regularly, and on top of that I had friends who each expected to hang out with me at least twice a week? My tolerance was more like I could see one of them each week and only once. So their expectations were completely overwhelming to me, and I couldn't explain why, because I didn't know I was autistic. And it was a new situation: during my first year in uni I had grown accustomed to sometimes having no contact with anyone for a week or two, not even talking to anyone in class. But then I suddenly had too many close friends for my brain capacity. I remember it culminated in me having a total meltdown (both in autistic and general sense) which shocked everyone because they had never seen me get angry before. I wasn't even really angry, I was just overwhelmed. I tried to explain how I need time for writing, since that was the only thing I could think of that could excuse my inability to cope with the demands of friendships, but they didn't really understand it, because for them seeing me twice a week was almost too little, and they interpreted my behaviour as not really caring about them as much as I said I did. Somehow we worked on communication over time, and began to understand each other though, and everyone was able to make compromises. Most of them are still my friends.

These days I'm in a pretty comfortable place. Most of my friends are long distance but it's alright because interacting with someone's mind is the most meaningful aspect of friendship, and it's easier for me to sustain a bigger number of long distance friends because I can easily control when I interact with them. I still have my activity groups for in person interaction, and I live with family members who are completely used to and not threatened by me spending the majority of time in my room. Despite of needing so much time alone it's really important to me to have people around and to do things together and be actively involved in each other's lives. There are also a few people who don't overwhelm me at all, and I could talk to them for hours without needing a break.

Hmm, this post is kind of a mess. To conclude, I need deep interaction but not necessarily a lot of it. I need a lot of alone time, but I'm the most comfortable having someone in the next room and knowing each one of us can disturb each other if we need anything. The loneliest I have ever been in my life was when I didn't have a group. I'm the most fulfilled when I have a group and "my person" within that group. Even if I have friends, I don't feel fulfilled unless we share an intense interest. I'm very comfortable listening to people and some are drawn to me because I have a special interest in people and can analyse their behaviour and feelings in a way that helps them, but I don't necessarily need the same kind of interaction, I'm not very interested in talking about my feelings, I want to share interests above all else. Because of that I'm more active in friendships with a shared interest, and I'm more passive and more likely to wait for the other person's initative in friendships that are based on hanging out and talking. But all my friends are still important to me. ❤️

[korineedsanap]

I hate feeling like this I feel numb, but also like I need to scream and like I never want to feel better, but the only thing I want is to feel better  god, I have myself convinced  that we can get season three but Matt wouldn’t have to come to terms with Izzy‘s death  because as long as there was a season three it meant that  he wasn’t dead if there was a season, three it ment that maybe there was a place for me in the world  maybe I was worth being seen, because Stede was worth being seen  which is definitely something I need to bring up to my therapist when I see her next week because there’s no way that’s a healthy thought  because tying myself to this show  made me feel worthwhile  like by my simple virtue of trying to be good and being myself  meant that one day, someone would see I was worth being seen  and I would find my own crew to sail off into forever with  and I hate that I’m so upset because I was afraid of this before season to even finished filming because I had this terrible feeling in my gut please, dear God, I don’t get my hopes up and then Rhys had to go and say  but that was his last time playing Stede for now, and I knew what that meant. It scared the fuck out for me and I let myself get lost in it I let myself hope and I feel like such an idiot, even though I know that this isn’t about us because this is some stupid corporate green thing wrapped up in a homophobia and pride and late stage capitalism being the enemy of art, so why does it feel like my fault? Why do I feel guilty, I didn’t do anything. I did everything right we did everything right this isn’t our fault  right now I just stuck and not being ready for it to end not even just the show but the fanfiction the fanart is feeling like I’m part of some thing even though I’m too scared to really talk to anyone because I’m afraid of getting a shouted at cause I could be a part of it from a distance, and I was happy  I could live vicariously through Stede  and pretend I had the overconfidence to socialize with people in a way where people actually like me rather than hiding in my room because I’ve convinced myself that everyone secretly hates me and they’re just being too polite to say it to my face because let’s be honest, I’m annoying people think I ask stupid questions I’m too obsessive about the things that I like and they think the things that I like are stupid and that’s the stuff I like is not worth caring about  because my me and my interests are not worth respecting  but through stede there was hope  through him I could pretend that I didn’t have to hate my self in order for people to tolerate being around me  I could even pretend that someday someone would come in and let me sweep them off their feet with my artistic Riz  even though their way out of my league  but they’ll like that I care  and then the people around me or what they see that I’m a person worth liking 

Right now I guess I’m just afraid that if people stop caring about Stede  that I too am worth forgetting  again. I do know if this is an about me, but this isn’t about any of us, but God does it feel like it is. 

[meat-huge-pain-endless]

huge vent post feel free to ignore✌️

tw just in case tho for depression, anxiety, suicide/suicidal ideation, death, disordered eating, drug use, dissociation, depersonalization, and derealization

i need someone to come put a straight jacket on me i ruin everything i fucking touch i don’t want to be a bother but im desperate to be known so i spill my guts just for them to get trampled. and i really do let everyone walk all over me. i assume that every other human being on the planet knows better than me about everything and i will tolerate literally an treatment so long as you’re a little bit nice to me sometimes, or even if you just tell me that you are ill probably believe you. my self esteem is so fucking low plus i can’t ever rlly tell what’s true anymore. my memory is so fucking bad like the amount of times a day i forget what im saying mid-sentence and then forget what i had just said and then forget what i was even talking about in the first place is genuinely embarassing. it’s so fucking humiliating actually like i am so out of it all of the time and i can never tell if it’s bc im dissociating or bc im dehydrated or bc i didn’t sleep or bc i haven’t eaten or bc i forgot to take my adhd meds or bc i hit the pen at 9:30am again or bc i DIDNT hit the pen but i have brain fog from smoking the night before and at this point it’s probably all of it all the time like it is so bad. ive never been worse in my life i don’t think. again i wouldn’t rlly know. all my memories feel a million miles away. im alone in my dorm room rn bc my roommate and our other friend went to our other other friend’s dorm to hang out. if i think about it too hard ill probably start crying. i was crying before they were even out the door.

everyone told me college is where you meet “your people.” the friends you have for the rest of your life. why do i have about 3 friends total (as in i actually hang out with them outside of classes/club meetings/school events/etc) and why do none of them feel like they’re actually my friends. oh wait actually i know why that is. it’s because i don’t feel like im real when im at college. that’s how i felt last year (like school year, and it was awful btw, thought it was the worst year of my life but then this semester happened and now im not so sure) but it just occurred to me that im feeling the same way except this time i wasn’t so alarmed by it bc i got used to it. like this is baseline college feeling for me. the worst part of it all is that everything is actually all my fault. like for real not sarcasm. my anxiety is so fucking severe and i didn’t realize it at all until recently when i started having more frequent panic attacks. i cry most days. i hyperventilate way too easily. i walk thru the world just going about my everyday life with the anxiety levels of an animal being hunted for sport. like literally if i accidentally do something wrong in public like the smallest tiniest stupidest mistake like pushing on a pull door or something i get so embarrassed it like so very seriously and genuinely the idea of people thinking that im stupid or laughing at me makes me want to die like seriously kill myself dead and i cannot overstate that im so scared of what people thjnk of me all the time.

oh and did i mention i also literally never stop thinking? overanalyzing everything i do and say and everything everyone else does and says to me and im always worried that my friends hate me or secretly think im an awful person or im thinking about things that they might potentially hate me for later down the line and sometimes i try to preemptively circumvent that by randomly being like “hey if i ever [insert thing im worried might potentially make them not like me anymore] just know that it’s not because [reason i think it might make them potentially not like me]” OH and i also all the time will ask my friends if they think im a bad person which is like so insane of me actually like why the fuck do i do that THIS IS WHAT I MEANT AT THE BEGINNING!!!! PUT ME IN A STRAIGHTJACKET CUT OFF MY GODDAMN HANDS JUST PLEASE DO SOMETHJNG because no matter what i fucking do i always end up crawling to SOMEONE to beg them for reassurance or tell them something that will make them worry about me (sometimes im not even aware im doing that one!) because i just need someone to care. i need someone to care about me or else im not real. (i feel like i only exist contextually but i don’t have time to get into all that right now). but then i get embarrassed for needing something. the fact that i have needs and wants and desires is the most embarrassing thing in the world. asking for what i want and need is the most mortifying torturous experience in the world. i hate being vulnerable.

i want to be cared for without judgement. i want to stop feeling like i am hard to like and even harder to love. i want to stop feeling tired all the time. i want to stop feeling miserable all the time. i want to feel like im real, like i actually exist. i don’t want to die, but i don’t want to live either. i think the only thing about death that still scares me is the fact that i would have to go alone. but the idea of infinite nothingness sounds like a dream. it’s so loud in my head all the time. i just want it all to stop.

[world-love-government]

Wheres all my homies

What happened (to hip-hop/the streets) before and after the election of Barack Obama? All my friends are dead.

This is a political issue. What happened to T.I., why is he telling people to be a soyboy. Why be forced to conform to the system, the wear your vagina on the outside system that emasculates black men. I'm personally offended by the mainstream liberal establishment for playing its part in creating the contemporary urban-environmental atmosphere that negates black male masculinity (thugs and gangstas). I think in the processes of gentrification, making the "streets safe", politics, immigration, and of course construction of contemporary panopticon through our CCTV surveillance society - this has done more harm to black men than what we should tolerate. There are even more factors to consider in how black masculinity has been negated from public space, but in careful thought these are influences I feel might have had influence on this trend since around 2008.

What happened to the black masculinity of 2001-2008? When the black man was a role model for all men? What was the true meaning of Obama's election after hip-hop and rap culture of 2001-2008? I personally think the white man got angry at the youth of America and then said "Oh yeah? Here's a black man for president", except the agenda was to (naturally) emasculate black masculinity in hip-hop and rap that was replicated by all men. You may claim this is an old issue, the liberals already censored and watered down hip hop/rap, but -

Nothing is going to change I can walk down the street claiming to be the King of crips and bloods; you should all be upset at this. I can effortlessly take on this alpha-male domination/bully mode over everyone and be the only one without protest; laughter is meaningless if youre straight edge nerds and soycucks. If we sent a video of 2023 to 2007 all the thugs and gangstas would laugh at everyone and what Toronto turned into.

This is why I became kizuna. I was always upset at some level at what society became, and so I became this. I'm mad everyone became kizuna. We are synthetic creations made to resemble pink; the feminine of white people so that we create a society safe enough for the most fragile of whites. This is what makes me upset, that somehow not just black men, but kizuna represents this expected representative/symbolic archetype of effeminate/sensitivity behaviour and lifestyle found in western society. If youre not as sensitive as the most fragile white girl, you lose the game in Canada and society. Kizuna is a symbol of the developed world. She's not just a representation of privilege and whats desirable - shes a trick because its representation of human being moving towards the artificial, the feminine, idealism. Think about it like this - you have the freedom to "be a girl" in Western society and most of the developed world. How about with the Taliban? Or any society where traditional social norms can be strongly enforced.

Despite all this the developed world is cucked; hip-hop and rap culture is dead. Everything is too depressing or sad for thugs and gangstas from 2001-2008. Everyone is secretly working for the white man when "we/you buy into the system", so everyone became Obama and put on a business suit? Everyone became Drake? Man.

It's clownworld because the black man is forced to be a pussy; there are only "safe" versions of black men and you should all be outraged. Where's the visible presence of black masculinity that was part of hip-hop/rap in 2001-2008? Where did it go? Where is everyone?

There can be many explanations for this. I was thinking recently how immigration pressures ethnic groups to compete or conform and the systemic nature of this. None of these explanations can replace or take the place of visible "intimidation" of the alpha male that "we" all agreed upon. I think it's undeniable in the height of hip-hop/rap this was being a thug or gangsta - that in most cases translated to being a "wigger". In some sense it was a form of humiliation against white people; then also taking a leading role upon races in models of masculinity. My question I repeat to myself and society is - what will really replace this. When I walk down the street or in the mall everyone is wearing office clothing, everyone wants to be a professional, everyone or most people have taken on the "soyboy"/social/cultural/political conformity archetype. Everyone else is a bum. A small echo of thug/gangsta culture exists that I barely see anymore in 2023. This is racist and was a proxy to delegitimize black male masculinity that's a fraction of what it once was before the election of Barack Obama/pre-2008. It was to negate the unwanted black masculinity that was "a problem" to economy, politics, law, and hegemonic masculinity. All are influences yet to be truly examined by the public that should leave people questioning was the election of Barack Obama meant to humiliate whites or African-Americans? Or was it both?

And like I tell readers all the time - what's with this trend of Presidents that humiliate Americans? Not many people take note or understand why since around Bush, to Obama, then Trump and now Biden we've had Presidents who for some reason tend to humiliate America/Americans or have many gaffe moments. Why? I am kizuna. Just like me all have retreated inside to comfort, security, privilege, and even effeminate behaviour because this is the order of the developed world in contrast to the developing world. The highest level of privilege in the developed world is the ultimate symbolic/representative act of cuckoldry. That is to even leave the ultimate act of procreation/generation to someone else, and this is symbolized by immigration. To take pride in this symbolism is to challenge necessary new boundaries of leftist thought. This thought is the foundation to current economic order; everybody is thinking it - but no one has the courage to say it properly. This is what conformity is in the developed world - desirable by many but a paradox to human nature and order in the world. This is all for now I have to mention on the topic -

Always remember our motto - LOVE! CUTE! NICE!

[swonkimn]

Yesterday and today I have been struggling with myself. As in, I have been throwing up nearly every day and I've been back to having persistent negative thoughts...like everyone secretly hates me, my coworkers wish that I wasn't part of their team, that my husband is barely tolerating me.

I wonder if this vulnerability is from sharing my testimony two weeks ago, because the bulimia really started kicking back up since last week. It started on the Thursday that I decided to share, and it's slowly been climbing up in frequency since then. It's not that I feel regretful of sharing my life with the people in my community group, but it's the aftermath knowledge of accepting that I'm all out in the open. To share it isn't just to share it once, it's to live in your audience's heads and for their perception of you to forever be changed. It feels vulnerable and shaky for me to have expressed it out to a core group of people in my life, and then to see them again and again each point afterwards takes more bravery than I realized.

I've also been a bit bummed out because I recently cut my long hair short LOL. At the time I was so refreshed by the change and exhilarated by the newness of the experience, but I'm starting to think now that it was very impulsive and manic. I cut about a foot of hair without much second thought, briefly scanned through pinterest for inspiration before just landing on a random photo and showing it to the hairdresser without even much direction. And...now I have hair that is shorter than my shoulder, and it feels like my reflection is very foreign to me. It feels like my clothes do not fit the person that I am in on the inside. This is exactly it--the person I am on the outside and who I am on the inside feels mismatched. I feel like I've been soft, quiet, minimal in my clothing these days...but this hair cut makes me feel like I either have to wear a lot of makeup or reduce myself to being and feeling matronly or administrative. It just makes me feel like I have to work at building up my image instead of this haircut adding to the identity that I already am. It's sad, even though I shared my testimony just a week ago about wanting to die to these chains. it feels like I'm always being swept back up by these powerful emotions of helplessness, of unworthiness, of rejection.

When I looked at those photos on pinterest, I wanted to emulate those same effortless images of chic, everyday glam, off-duty polished looks. Instead I look like a quasi librarian/stay-at-home-mom/middle schooler going through a makeup and wardrobe malfunction. These are all issues that I so wish to leave behind me...like why am I still struggling with these issues that are so juvenile and immature? I'm almost thirty. Why do I still struggle so much with my body image and self-confidence?

[merakiui]

MERA!

I just, got an idea! You know that, usually, the events are done in a way that they aren't specific in the time it take place? Like they don't mention events from the books, or at least that's what I have noticed.

The thing is, imagine that the masquerade events happens right after Scarabia book, at the verge of starting Pomefiore's. Due to the stuff Rollo pulled in NBA, he is sent to NRC as punishment and has to live with the reader at Ramshackle. You know, that theory. My idea comes that, Rollo actually has such a nice voice, probably can sing because you can't look me in the eye and tell me they don't have choir at NBA and he was the one to always lead the other students.

As part of the punishment, he is forced to audition for the cultural event and, guess what? He gets elected alongside the original cast! The thought of this stiff man having to move around and put on a happy face will be a good start for him to repent for what he have done. Vil will go down on him IMMEDIATELY to remove those eyebags of his, they would butt heads a lot because Rollo is accustomed to give the orders, not follow them.

Rollo will complain to you everyday that he can't wait for those menaces to leave our dorm, that they are too noisy and Vil is just a frivolous being. He prefers the comfortable silence you two share, your forgiving and kind nature allowed a fast friendship to bloom (that and the fact that you are magicless... at least on his side. You decided to forgive him because you already knew those bastards would end unscathed)

It's funny at first, as the manager you always have to be present for every rehearsal. But as time passed by, Rollo gained more confidence in his steps, his smiles weren't as dashing as Vil strives for, but the roughness suited his character. Soon, you find the only one you can keep your eyes on, is him.

And, Oh, everyone but you and Grimm notices. Before, Rollo didn't made that much eye contact with you, being embarrassed and all. But now? Now he does everything in his power to keep those pretty eyes of yours on him, not the other dirty magic users how are trying their hardest to also make you look at them like that.

It's futile, Rollo thinks. By the end of this event, it's only going to be you and him and Grimm living together, again. He is the one who gets to keep you, to charm you without obstacles...

And, if pests ever pop up on his path to get you, then... he has no problem to repeat what he have done at NBA. But this time, he will make sure that the only scorch you'll sustain, is the fire of his love for you.

Aaaa I love this!!!

Ever since Rollo has moved into Ramshackle and has taken up classes alongside you, he’s stuck by your side because you’re the only one he can trust and tolerate. The other students are either too nosy, too irritating, or too free with their magic use. He can’t stand how they try to impress you with foolish parlor tricks, which is why when he’s essentially forced to participate in the cultural event he tries his best to earn your approval. Vil is always getting on his case for all sorts of things: stiff posture, inability to smile pleasantly without looking villainous, dark eye bags. It’s Rook who usually compliments these features in exaggeration, claiming that Rollo’s rough exterior is a charming personality that hides something soft and wonderful within.

To think he dreaded this punishment in the beginning. Rollo finds that it’s actually very nice living alongside you and Grim, who don’t judge him for what he did. For once he feels a sense of belonging. You forgave him so sweetly, and for that he has secretly vowed to do his best for your sake. You’re his only friend; he can’t lose you. That’s why he practically clings to you everywhere you go. At lunch. To class. To the other dorms when you’re invited. You’ve tried to integrate him into your first year friend group, but everyone’s still a little wary, especially Sebek. Deuce is quick to take Rollo’s hand and shake it vigorously, welcoming him into the group. Rollo could care less about any of them, but he smiles awkwardly and accepts the handshake.

He doesn’t become friends with Vil, but he spends a lot of time with everyone in the VDC group. He hates that they’ve chosen to do their training camp at Ramshackle. That was his private space with you and these ignorant mages are intruding! He surmises that if he can endure all of this and perform on the stage everything will go back to normal soon after. Then he’ll be back to waking you and Grim in the quiet of sunrise, a soft smile on his face as he nudges your shoulder and whispers about how it’s time to get up. When you aren’t around, Ramshackle’s ghosts tease him about his budding feelings and he shoos them away with a scowl.

The training camp is so annoying, but knowing that you’re under this roof as well—that your room is just next to his—is enough of a balm. And when he starts to improve in the choreography and his angelic vocals impress everyone, he looks for you, cold eyes warming when you meet his gaze and smile encouragingly. It’s been a while since Rollo has truly sung. Choir always helped in keeping his vocal chords in use, but this is something entirely new. He’s never done something like this before and for a while he hated the idea of performing on a stage, singing lyrics and dancing like a fool. But now he realizes this can be enjoyable so long as you’re in the audience.

And one pesky Overblot later and a stunning performance, he’s finally washed his hands of this chapter of his life. He looks for you in the crowd and finds you and Grim cheering, wild with applause. For the first time in a while, the burdens that weigh his heart lift and he feels so free and happy on that stage, where confetti rains down and adoring fans (mainly Vil’s fans) toss flowers onto the platform. He considers taking one and offering it to you later, but Rollo just can’t bring himself to do it. It’s too embarrassing. He’d certainly look like a deer in headlights if he tried to admit any of his deep feelings to you.

When you catch him after everything’s settled down and offer him a bouquet of red, purple, and white blossoms he furrows his brow. You insist it’s for him and congratulate him on an amazing performance, and Rollo takes the bouquet, somewhat awestruck that you’d do this for him. He wonders if the others got similar treatment. Rollo isn’t bothered by the loss, but you tell him that he’s a winner in your eyes and that’s the only real reward he needs. He keeps those flowers in his room and looks after them until they begin to wilt. Even then, he still keeps them because they were a precious gift from you.

When you’re so kind to him, a beam of bright, beautiful light that cuts through his darkness, how can he not fall even harder for you? Rollo fears that his feelings will only grow to dangerous levels if he continues to exist beside you. When he presses his ear to the wall in hopes of hearing you on the other side, he wonders if you’d ever view him in the same way he views you. And when you’re busy in the lounge with Grim and the ghosts, he’s sneaking into your room to look around, to run his hands over your bedsheets, to smell you all around him.

NRC is always so gloomy and shadowed. Some flames ought to brighten those corridors. If it comes down to it, he’ll let his love for you burn brighter than any conflagration, and it will consume everything in its destructive path.

[skzxlevanter]

they secretly have feelings for you and show it through jealousy

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skz!maknaeline x gn!reader

warnings: jealousy , petname (darling) , mentionings of food (juice)

not proofread !!

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part one with the hyung line

han jisung:

han and you weren’t that close, but even you could tell that something was off tonight. you were at a friends place, a small crowd gathering to enjoy the evening together, a mutual friend bringing you and han with him.

but the bubbly, energetic han you usually see when you happen to meet each other seemed to be gone today. it was actually quite the opposite: there was this extreme tension coming from him, eyes dark and a serious facial expression painting his face. and you tried your best to ignore it, focusing on the friend you’re talking with, but you can feel his gaze burning through you.

when you excused yourself to the bathroom, it didn’t take long to notice that somebody was following you and as you turned around to see who it was, it didn’t completely surprise you when you saw hans face. but what did surprise you was how incredibly close he was to you. you didn’t even notice that you were holding your breath, but you were fazed by his beautiful facial features- because you couldn’t deny that he looked breathtaking.

“hello darling” he finally broke the silence, his lips forming a big smirk on his face. you could feel your heart racing and you were a little too stunned to speak, not knowing this side of han.

“you’re not leaving with this jerk, right?” he asked teasingly “ because i think you should go with me instead”

lee felix:

felix was one of the most soft-hearted people you knew- always smiling and making sure that everyone is alright and constantly offering his help to where it’s needed. And this night was not different from any other night- felix invited you over for a movie marathon, baked brownies ready to eat and the couch covered with tons of pillows and blankets.

you were about to snuggle yourself into the nest of blankets when you felt a cold gaze turning right through you. you tried to shake it off, but you can’t help to feel watched by felix- and not in a very good way. after a while you started doubting yourself, thinking of any reason why he could be upset, but nothing came to your mind.

tolerating only a few more minutes of this passive-aggressive silence, you finally decided to speak up. “what is it with you felix? if you ate upset with me just tell me and-“

you were interrupted by felix sitting up straight and leaning forward to your figure, his face now extremely close to yours.

“just tell you huh?” he huffed, rolling his eyes with annoyance “when did you want to tell me about this” he pointed out your hoodie, only for you to follow his fingers confused, until you finally got what he meant.

“felix it’s not like that-“ you tried to explain but got interrupted by felix again. “so you’re telling me that this isn’t minhos hoodie or what?”.

“no, i mean yeah, it’s minhos hoodie but he only gave it to me because he ran into me with juice in his hand and it spilled all over my hoodie, so he lend me one of his”

felix while demeanor changed again, like a switch getting turned off. a little ‘oh’ left his mouth before leaning back to the couch again.

kim seungmin:

“minnie what is it with you today?” you asked after seungmin was letting out sigh after sight and seeming extremely bothered- but you couldn’t make out why.

“don’t minnie me y/n” he grumbles back turning back to his phone without any further notice.

“ oh come on minnie, there’s obviously something that is bothering you and if you’re bothered by me please just tell me instead of ignoring me the whole time” you threw back at him, locking your own phone so your full attention is in him.

“i said don’t minnie me!!” he said, voice louder than the last time before finally looking up to you and scanning your face. you could see that he was contemplating to say something, the way his eyes wandered and the lick over his lips giving him out.

“sorry” seungmin finally said “it’s just that i noticed you texting this number the whole time- and i don’t really like it- i don’t know-“

“this number???” you ask, holding your phone up so he can read what’s on the screen. he nodded, being slightly confused- not knowing how to read your action.

“seungmin this is my cousin, you really don’t have to worry about it” you clarified and seungmins face got red in embarrassment, hiding it between his hands.

“sorry y/n”

yang jeongin:

you were out with your friends bowling, jeongin tagging along with you as he usually does since you two pretty much have the same friend group. but this time was a bit different. one of your friends brought someone along with them and to your surprise it was your childhood best friend, which is why the two of you immediately clicked and fell into deep conversations, only stopping when it was your or their turn to bowl.

after a lot more talking you started to feel jeongins gaze in you and just moments after he approached you as it was your friends turn to bowl.

“you two seem to be pretty close, huh?” he huffed, a hint of jealousy glazing his words.

“ i mean yeah, we haven’t seen each other in ages, you know” you answered, ignoring his tone and walking away to make your move. as you came back and walked back towards your friend you could feel a hand wrapping around your wrist, pulling you away towards the other direction. you stumbled for a second, but jeongin was quick to react and stabilize you, with the result of you facing him and standing a bit further away from your friend group.

he scanned your face, his eyes wandering from the too of your head over your eyes, before eventually stopping st your lips.

“you’re driving me crazy, y/n, you know that?”

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part one with the hyung line

masterlist

[oinkinpigprince]

Filbo headcanons because I’m traaaash and he’s my therapy dooooog

Okay so he cannot sew like at all but he can crochet and makes stuffed animals

Definitely autistic and/or adhd, no way that boy (or anyone on that island) is neurotypical

The type of guy to help a complete stranger in the grocery store after they mistake him for an employ and not question a single thing about it

His favorite food is French fries, a basic food for a basic bitch/lh

A hopeless romantic and secretly falls for every one of his friends at least once because he simply cannot distinguish ‘I respect and admire this person’ and ‘I want to spend the rest of my life with this person’

It doesn’t matter cause he’s too much of a bitch boy to do anything about his crushes and would suffer in complete silence then do anything

This is doubled because he is bisexual, I make the rules

Would be very nice about my DID and constantly ask about who’s fronting and their name and pronouns

Asks for peoples pronouns only to end up using the/them anyways

Actually a very charismatic person and in the right setting can befriend damn near anyone after long enough

If he were human, he’d have freckles, blue hair, and pronouns

Mans got a lil chub, apple shape body though so all of the fat goes into his stomach, once again I absolutely make the rules

Ngl I think all of the grumpus would be a lil chubby except maybe Shelda but that’s because she reminds me of every hippie old lady my mom befriended

I should do one for shelda, she may be a fraud but she reminds me of a home I never had, sorry for trauma dumping mid post

Favorite animal is absolutely frogs, if he could he’d own like 20 different species and give them buck wild dumb ass names

Him and beffica have a very brother and sister like relationship after snak tooth, and often hang out @ coffee shops together and argue for fun

According to historians him and buddy are roommates, just roommates, nothing else at all

It’s sorta like a Chandlo and snorpy situation where neither of them say they’re dating but they’re definitely dating

Mainly because I headcanon the journalist is mute and Filbo is bad at communicating but they’re dating

I could make a whole post about why I think the two would make for such a cute couple but no

Loves giving people things and when shopping he will usually get one gift for a friend

Tw alchol

Rarely drinks but has a low tolerance anyways so a few drinks in and he’s already stumbling and bumbling

has sent several drunk messages crying about how much he loves his friends and regrets them in the morning, everyone thinks it’s sweet for the most part

Very sentimental drunk and has sat in a bathtub crying over how much he loves his friends and how much they mean to him, while buddy hold a puke bucket and rubs his back

Okay tw over

Had a pretty lonely childhood as a middle child got neglected a lot and grew up very independent and ‘weird’

He was outcasted all throughout middle school due to his weird hyper fixations and poor social skills, he developed major imposter syndrome due to this and never truly feels like he had any friends so that’s why he’s so thankful for the ones he has now

He LOVES one piece and owns all of the volumes

He also loves my hero academia and watches the anime on Hulu

Definitely watched bee and puppy cat when it first came out