#like it would’ve been weird if i DIDNT include them

[fappellmoan]

😊 i decided to text a bunch of film friends last night abt doing our own little writers room/get together to keep us motivated and meeting up hopefully thru the fall/winter and i definitely included the situationship bc like why not we’re all film friends here um. i’m beginning to wonder if i’m problematic

[beiq2y]

NEW YEAR’S KISS¡! ❞

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❀——————❀——————❀——————❀ ༊*·˚ Warnings - they kiss lol, bachira follows u arnd 😭 not in a creepy way tho!

༊*·˚ Characters - isagi, bachira, rin and sae!

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ISAGI has been waiting for u! Just like the wonderful best friend he is, isagi will be by your side the entire party. Making sure no one spikes your drink, ensuring no creeps are staring at you weird, and most importantly of all, keeping your lips for him and only him. When the time comes he turns you to face him gently, nervously fidgeting with his fingers as he looks you in the eye. 

five. 

“ i guess there’s no one else around here but us, huh?” isagi murmers, giving a nervous giggle as you simply smile back

four. 

“ well; i supposed i wouldn’t be against my best friend stealing my first kiss” you beam, grinning as you lean in closer

three. 

isagi can smell you everywhere, the scent of your perfume filling his senses and intoxicating him. it makes him sweat, nervous to make the next move, you’re just so.. you! so perfect and so sweet, the thought of even touching you making his guts twist and turn. 

two.

you lean in closer and he thinks, “this really wasn’t how it was supposed to go..” he was supposed to be the one in charge, the handsome prince charming who would sweep you off your feet and capture you in his arms before claiming your lips as his. So.. why were you the one taking the lead instead?

one. 

isagi barely has anytime to think before you wrap your arms around his neck, giving him a quick peck on his lips before pulling away, a teasing smirk gracing your face. 

Instead of feeling euphoric and over the moon like he imagined himself to be, isagi’s flustered state quickly transitions to disappointment and then confusion. were first kisses usually this.. anti climatic? 

but as he stares at your slightly rosy cheeks and small fidgety movements, isagi can’t help but bring out his ego. 

it didnt matter if this one was quick, there would be more in the future. much, much longer ones, and he would ensure to savour them all. after all, a new year meant change, right?

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BACHIRA chases you around. he needs to be your first kiss, he has to be! he watches you from afar(not in a creepy way ofc), following your every move and occasionally making small talk - after all, he needed to make sure you liked him enough too! he strikes while the iron is hot, leading you to a place where he’s certain you’ll be alone, just in time for the new year to begin. 

five. 

now that you were here, bachira doesn’t know what to do. he had never included a reason for dragging you to a secluded corner in his little plan, and now that you were with him,, well it was just a bit awkward, he would say.

four.

surprisingly enough, you don’t seem to be too opposed to his antics, tagging along almost as if you were grateful to be in this position, never even questioning his motive. if bachira didn’t know any better, he was sure that was what he would’ve assumed, from that gleam in your eyes to the pinkness of your cheeks.

three. 

three seconds left on the clock. at this point, there was no turning back, might as well follow through with his plan! he gives you a close-eyed smile, knowing that if he couldn’t see you, it would at least make some of his nerves go away. 

two. 

he opens his eyes after a while, giving himself a moment to take in all your beauty - the way your dress perfectly outlines your body, the body that would fit oh-so perfectly in his hands. the way your hair had been done perfectly, looking so smooth and silky that he would give up all the money in his possession to run his hands through them. and your makeup, so well done by those delicate hands of your’s, and he can’t help but wonder if your lipstick would leave a stain after the kiss. he would look good with some lipstick, wouldn’t he?

one. 

the clock hit 12 and before he could even think about making a move, you leaned in, looking him straight in the eyes as you gave him a quick peck on the lips. With that, you were quick to dash, leaving a slightly confused and very red Bachira behind, 

Oh well, a little more chasing without hurt, he supposes.

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RIN would be tricked into it. It had been pretty obvious that the boy had been crushing on you, HARD. With the way he stared at you in the hallways, to the look in his eyes when you were mentioned, there was no other way to describe it. So when isagi and bachira realised New Years was coming, they crafted a plan to get the two of you together.

Five.

Both you and rin were still slightly flustered from suddenly being trapped in a room together. Who would’ve expected that a casual talk with bachira would lead to a dark isolated room, before being ditched to fend for yourself when Rin itoshi showed up? It was almost the new year, and you would be lying if you said you weren’t wishing for rin to be your new year’s kiss. But the fear that he may have had someone else on his mind, that your feelings weren’t reciprocated held you back from looking for him, and stealing that kiss right off his lips. But maybe like this, you would have a chance!

Four.

“Rin, um if you don’t mind, could you possibly be my new year’s kiss? The door here is locked and i.. well I really wanted to have a new year’s kiss yk? Start the year right and all” you blurted out, a nervous grin appearing on your face. It wasn’t the best excuse, but with only 4 minutes on the clock, you simply had to make do with what you had.

Three.

To your surprise, he nodded, almost without hesitation. Could it be that.. he wanted this as badly as you did? You didn’t want to get your hopes up but just the notion of it set your heart ablaze, a sudden burst of confidence warming you from your head to your feet.

Two. 

To say he was elated would be an understatement, to rin, this is practically a dream come true! At this moment and this moment only, as rin looks your form up and down, he just might be willing to throw away his pride and thank his two um, friends for giving him this opportunity.

One. 

Rin’s still too out of his head to realise the clock’s hit twelve when you go up on your tippy toes, cupping his face in your palm and you press a kiss to his lips. ”she’s gentle and warm,” rin thinks as he reaches out for you when you pull away, desperate for more. Now that he’s had a taste of you, rin itoshi simply can’t get enough. And you’ll let him pull you back for as many kisses as he pleases.

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SAE would be next to you simply by luck! Now it’s no surprise that Sae itoshi the prodigy and japan’s national treasure would be surrounded by girls on new year’s date, an unspoken battle between them to steal his kiss on the start of every year. Unluckily for them, Sae has seen this coming from miles away, and before anyone can notice, he quickly slips away from the crowd of girls starting to surround him.

Five, 

There are only 5 minutes left on the clock when Sae thinks he’s finally safe, seeking shelter at the poolside, currently vacant of any people. Well, at least that’s what he thinks. All feelings of false security from before had come crashing down when he saw a tuff of hair across the pool from the corner of his eye. Sae cursed under his breath and was about to dip when suddenly, he heard a silent “Sae?”. 

Four.

Sae thinks he’s dreaming, after all, it wasn’t uncommon for him to hear your saccharine voice ringing through his head even at the most random of times. However, just to check, he whips his head around and there you are. The dazed look on your face quickly transitions to a smile and he feels one start to form on his face as well, after all, if there was one person he wouldn’t mind kissing, it would be you.

Three.

Sae starts to make his way to you, all the while checking that there was no one else around to disturb the two of you. It would be fine if someone stole his kiss but he didn’t think he could handle it if he saw some other rando connect his lips with yours. Just the thought alone made him pick up the pace, taking larger steps and reaching you in record time.

Two.

Sae hardly has time to catch his breath before you hold his hand in yours and he has to use every inch of his self control to resist blushing a bright crimson red. the feel of your smooth porcelain like skin against his calloused hand and the bright smile of your face makes him light up, a soft smile adorning his features.

One.

Seeing that the clock had struck twelve, Sae quickly gathers his composure as he begins to ask, “Can I ki-“ before he can finish his sentence, the auburn haired man is cut off by a small peck on his lips but before you can let go, he wraps his hand around the back of your head and pulls you closer, while your hand wraps around his neck.

Well, this year certainly started off with a blast.

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A/n: hello everyone! Happy new year 🎆 I hope 2023’s been treating u all well 🫶 also this most likely will not have a part 2 lest someone asks for one but I hope u enjoyed it! It really was so tiring writing this in a day 😭 I’m last min cramming my hw rn btw bc sch starts in 2 days, so I’m sorry if I’m not very active here. Still, I hope u all had a great hols and a very good 2023 💗 also I’m once again begging for people to interact w me, I don’t bite I promise

tags : @noheartsfromsie , @geeerage , @enraa-ged (ily pookies i hope y’all have the best year)

©beiq2y 2k23 (wow not used to that) on tumblr, pls do not steal or repost my works! 

[axolot-of-ideas]

i think one of the biggest things that’s helping me get over my exs is when i realized that they were people i used to tell everything to, and now?

they don’t know i got new stuffed animals and their names

they dont know the homework i have and what im doing in class

they dont know when and what i cried about last

they dont know my new hyperfixations

and they do not know i have a new haircut

the last one is what made me realize it the most, such a huge thing in my life- especially since i got because i came out as trans to my parents- and they have no clue. i changed things for me

[babyyweebbitch]

Carlos with an S/O who has SH scars

so i’ve done something like this before but this is a comfort thing for anyone (including me) struggling with SH or something like that. i wanna say i (and carlos) love u and hope ur getting better 🥰

content warning for : female reader ; SH scars ; talk about SH

carlos obviously has a few scars from his job so he doesn’t mind scars that much, he actually thinks you’re more attractive with them. he knows you have some on your arms and your chest you said were childhood accidents or something

the thing is you never wore shorts or anything that showed your legs around him. not that he cared because he knows everyone is different and don’t like shorts but after a year of dating him he thought you would’ve been more comfortable with him but he didn’t say shit out of respect to you

carlos had brought up going to a pool party he and Tyrell were thinking about having. well not exactly a party because it was just gonna be you, carlos and tyrell — more of a little hang out with friend plus girlfriend. you panicked on the inside and you said you would think about it

carlos nodded and noticed your attitude changed after he mentioned pool. during the days leading up to the day you kept asking if you had to swim and kept asking if you had to wear a bathing suit, he obviously said you didn’t have too but if you wanted to you could if you wanted to

the day before the hangout was when he finally asked why you were acting so weird and asking so many questions about bathing suits and swimming

it was around 7:55 at night when carlos found you sitting on the couch with your phone in hand and earbuds in your ears. he had a few seconds to decide if he was gonna question you on why you kept asking so many questions or not and he decided last minute he was going to. he walked over to you and tapped your knee to get your attention. you sat up and pulled the earbuds out your ears to see what he wanted

“listen… you don’t have to answer but why do you keep asking about swim suits and swimming…? like you’ve been asking alot and i dont…. know —“ you felt your heart sink into your ass when he asked that, you looked down and played with the cord of your ear buds

“uh… well—“ you started, you knew he wasn’t gonna shut up about why you kept asking so you decided you’d show him instead of having to explain. you stood up and untied the strings of your sweatpants you had on and pulled the pants down and stood there, looking away because you were scared of his reaction.

you had scars on both your thighs and hips, some even in your calves. a lot of them were different sizes, small, big, medium. some looked deep some looked faded. carlos kinda just stood there staring at them and he thought of everything they could be that wasn’t what he knew they were

“y…you got hurt…? or you fell on glass….?” he asked, in a gentle voice he couldn’t stop looking at them but when he did he saw you crying

“c-carlos….”

“you…. no — it can’t be that… right…? it’s not is it?”

all you could do was nod and try not to sob like a baby. he was in shock… he had no idea what to say or do so he just sat down

“y/n… it’s…. why?”

“it was the only thing i had to do and i got addicted…. i was hospitalised three or four times and almost died because of how much blood i lost…” you explained to him and he reached out to grab your hand and pull you to him. he pulled you into his lap and that’s when you started sobbing into his chest. he held onto you and rubbed your head and back as you cried

he held you until you stopped crying and he looked down at the scars before looking at you “you’re okay now right? you’re not… still doing that are you?” you shook your head and wiped your eyes from the tears. you sniffled and played with the end of your shirt avoiding eye contact with him

“i…im sorry—“ you mumbled, he almost didn’t hear you but when he realised you just apologised he shook his head

“do not… do not apologise… i should be sorry i didnt realise sooner — a year of not knowing about this is too long…” he pulled you closer and he gently traced your scars making you tense up a bit but then you relaxed realising he wasn’t going to hurt or yell at you like your parents did when they found out you started and didn’t stop until you were almost dead from it

“b-but i—“

“no buts…. just know i’m proud of you… for not doing that anymore and being strong…” he said making you cry even more and harder. he held you the entire time you cried and even slept on the couch holding you. he felt guilty he didn’t know but at the same time he’s glad you’re okay and healthy again

✨Bonus 💃🏾🕺🏾✨

the day you had the hangout you actually put on a swim suit. you went to show Carlos who was getting snacks ready. he didn’t tell you this but that entire morning he was thinking about you and what you went through, what caused you to do that to yourself but he didn’t ask.

“carlos….” you said, standing there with the swim suit on and your hands to your side not knowing what to do with them “do you think… he will notice…?” you asked, very scared your mutual friend will bring it up at the pool

“no… he’s not like that — even if he did you shouldn’t care… you’re okay now that’s all that matters” he said, a smile on his face as he closed the bag with snacks and drinks in it and he handed it to you

“i know… but what if—“

“ah! Y/N, no ifs or buts! i have scars, he has scars. we all have scars and we shouldn’t care what people say” he was pretty good at keeping you on track and making sure you know you were doing well and that you shouldn’t care about what people say or think. you nodded and he gave you a kiss on the forehead before going to get changed. you went and grabbed one of his big jackets that looked like a Parka but minus the fur and 70 pounds of fabric. you put that on and zipped it up before putting on your shoes

you waited for carlos to come out and the two of you were on your way to Tyrell’s house. once you two got there you both went to the back yard where the pool was and you got the drinks and stuff set up while Carlos and Tyrell were inside getting the rest of the stuff

“hey… she has some stuff — ya’know scars and whatnot on her legs she’s kinda insecure about…” he leaned over and said quietly while the two were alone and close enough to be able to talk quietly.

“what happened..?”

“i’ll let her explain that to you whenever she’s ready but for now you don’t see them and you don’t bring it up, okay?” carlos said

“i would never — but zipped and locked away. not a word from this mouth, Car” tyrell nudged him and the two laughed before they went out to where you were, already on a floaty in the pool

“already in without us!?”

“i couldnt help it! you have a freaking duck floaty! i had to!” you called out, slowly turning on the floaty and you looked over at the two

“you know how she likes ducks, T”

“you’re gonna love the duck cups i got for you then”

“you have duck cups?! :O”

i know ppl wont like this because it’s “sensitive” or something but it is a comfort thing so 😀 hope u all enjoyed! i’m rusty because i havent written in a while. this also isn’t proof read so enjoy the potential typos 🕺🏾💃🏾

edit: i can do another one of these with another character too! i actually wanna write more about serious topics like this one

[deus-and-the-machina]

Things im slightly disappointed we didnt get in the torna dlc

why addam was in uraya to awaken mythra

Addams wife. wanna meet her i bet she was cool

the main game talks about how tornan tech was all advanced and its ships could run without titans and yet aside from the titan matrix and i think the ship that rescued everyone at the end? we dont see any of that. most of torna is rural and even the capital doesnt suggest that its any more advanced in technology than the base game countries

who is gort to lora. Stepfather??? mothers employer??? father??? my moneys on stepfather bc he and rynea shared a bed and his dialogue implies he met rynea after lora was born

more of jin and haze’s relationship. im ok with them not being close, i even tend to see them as mostly bound by their affection to lora, but considering what happens in the main game more interactions to put that in context would’ve been nice.

we were ROBBED of minoth and malos having known each other as amalthus’ blades honestly. it also makes the scene with him and cole weird because they talk like they know each other but malos never even directly addresses him in torna. like minoth even sarcastically calls him “comrade” but it’s so weird bc canonically they would never have spoken before this???

Didnt have to be there but since i feel like brighid didnt get much, a scene of jin and brighid discussing their journals. Wouldve given more weight to their conversation in morytha if theyd had at least one significant interaction

it really feels like jin’s line about not liking fighting from the base game isn’t really taken into account at all. not to say he comes across as though he likes fighting but it felt more like a “im not aggressive but totally willing to throw hands to protect myself and my driver” situation and i just wish some actual discomfort or active dislike of fighting was portrayed rather than that one line.

ok but seriously why was milton with them this could’ve been easily solved by a line of dialogue or two “oh he wants to stay with me so i made him my squire/assistant” sort of thing, but the whole time i was just wondering why addam had brought this child he rescued and clearly cares for into potential danger when he had a perfectly good camp to leave him at. Mikhail makes sense bc where would team lora drop him off at? but cmon why is the catboy here to begin with

very VERY self indulgent but i wish mythra had sarcastically called malos partner back

give the tornan king a personality please

also does he have like a wife??? if addam is fourth in line who’s second and third after zettar. i know this stuff doesnt matter in the grand scheme of things but hey (is a worldbuilding buff) they made him fourth in line and then didnt elaborate so here i am. 

how did lora get haze and when?

again only like four of these are legit things i feel really should’ve been explained/included the rest are my personal wants but yeah what would you have liked them to have covered in the torna dlc that they didnt?

[mc-the-bunny]

Okay so hear me out this is my first ever story...

Have mercy on me please :')...

So i had the thought about lucifer being a winemom. And even though i dont particularly like lucifer i was thinking....

What if he would masterbate with the wine bottle and then mc walks 😳🍷

The story:

It had been a long tough day for lucifer.

All day he had been swarmed by paperwork,meetings, bills from mammon and Asmodeus buying things and making sure you dont get eaten or lose interest in him. After all he couldnt bare the thought of you losing interest in him or even worse you dying..

that would be the scariest thing happening to him after lilith died..

beel had also eaten everything in the house twice today. In response this had send satan in a rage, he had punched holes in cabinets and walls.

So now not only lucifer had paperwork he also had to scold satan, which was no easy task. The blonde demon had flung at him so many times (one hitting his abdominal area) before Lucifer could finally get him under control. He lifted his clothing up to reveal a nasty bruise grunting at the touch.

He would deal with satan later.

He also had to Prepare the repairing spells which required special ingredients they didnt have anymore due to beel eating everything including several dishes... So he'd have to go search for the ingredients.... Sigh* why doesnt akuzon have tge ingredients lucifer thinks while scroling to look if they did...

Akuzon had a lot from the east indian special black and red inc he used to the stuff his brothers bought. But sadly no spell ingredients... He could ask solomon if he could get some of the ingredients but he knew solomon would probably want to make a pact with him in return.... Not that he would ask for help otherwise, after all the Avatar of pride didnt need help from a sorcerer.

He walked up to his liquor cabinet

( which was massive)

First he had to drink some demonius to lighten his headache. (and stresslevels because lets be honest the poor man works way to much)

grabbed a bottle of demonius and sat back down behind his desk drinking straight from the bottle.

He hadnt even bothered to pore it into a glass because he would end up drinking the whole bottle anyways.

(bottles and time passed)

3 bottles of demonius later and lucifer finally felt at ease. His alcohol tolerance was naturally very high so if he really wanted to get black out drunk like mammon and Asmodeus sometimes did at parties he would have to at least drink 6 bottles of demonius.

No the 3 bottles just left him tipsy and on edge, feeling like he wanted to have some sexual gratification.

he took the empty bottle of demonius and looked at the shape. The bottles in the devildom (and human world) didnt look to different from those weird toys he saw Asmodeus walking with a few times.

He smirked opening his drawer he took some orgasm gel out. It was the gel he had wanted to use with mc, mc however was already wet enough on their own for him. Dripping down their legs before lucifer even entered them.

He smiled.

However he wasnt going to be dependent on some human to satisfy him.

He didnt want you to think he needed you.

No he was going to satisfy himself with this bottle of demonius, that was now covered in gel. He undid his pants, pulled off his underwear,

and let his hardening member jump out. He putting it on his desk and started to roll the cold bottle back and forth slowly.

his cock hardening at the temperature difference of the bottle. "Fuck " he muttered while pleasuring himself.

He would've been more than embarrassed if anyone would ever know what he was doing, no this was something only he would ever know about.

The only reason he didn't cum was because he didnt want the paperwork to be dirty with his cum. He would never stoop so low.

No he would never.

After massaging his cock with the bottle until it turned the temperature of his skin he looked at the bottle again.

Another idea popped up in his head.

The top looked to be the similar shape of the dildo he had bought recently for mc.

They had been very thankful and thrilled to try it out.

So curious that they couldnt wait to try it and he ended up watching them masterbate in front of him. He shouldve filmed it.

Such a gorgeous delicious sight should be filmed after all he thought.

He'd have to ask mc next time if he could film it.

Their moans of that night had flooded his senses remembering the lovely noises they had made, they seemed to feel so good with that toy inside their ass cumming on his sofa in his secret study.

He walked over to the sofa and looked.

mcs cum still visible on the dark red velvet.

He smirked positioning himself on the sofa ass up.

putting gell on the other side of the bottle now before slowly sliding the bottle in his ass.

A fairly loud moan escaped his mouth.

Its a good thing he had casted a spell to make this room sound proof for the time being otherwise his brithers might of heard him.

No that would be unbearable. They would definitely tease him over it, and his pride would be more shattered than ever.

Due to the orgasm gel his slit around it quite easily. He positioned himself feeling the cold glass reach deeper and deeper in his ass.

His body now felt like it was on fire with pleasure. Another loud moan escaped his mouth. Then he started thrusting the bottle in and out of his ass.

He could feel a orgasm going through his body at high speed.

Faster and faster rougher and rougher. As long as he was in control he didn't care how rough it was.

(nothing to rough for this sadist)

The sounds of his moan increasing in volume with every thrust.

He felt pure pleasure as he felt he was going to cum, he had preps for that to happen however and he Swiftly took the other empty bottle of demonius as he cummed into the bottle.

Putting the full bottle of cum to the side.

He was going to keep thrusting for a littke more he thought.

"Lucifer?"

Lucifer stiffened at hearing your voice, and looked at you like a deer in the headlights.

"what are you doing?"

"Nothing i i was doingbpaperwork "

"with that bottle up your ass? "

You couldnt help but laugh.

Not in a humiliation way but it was the last thing you had expected to walk into when opening his door.

After the knocking was left unanswered you had stepped in only to find lucifer with a bottle of demonius up his as and flushed cheecks as red as apples.

I can explain lucifer quickly pulled the bottle out and sad up, his pride scattered and fearfully awaiting your reaction. What was he thinking not putting a spell on the lock!?.

He would have to wash those bottles secretly later.

washing would be safer due to nosey brothers . you would never be sure if anyone found the bottles or would stumble upon it by accident.

They woukdve immediately known who the bottles had belonged to, after all lucifer was the only one having multiple bottles of demonius on him at all times.

"Lucifer, im sorry for laughing my beloved. Its just that i hadnt expected to find you.. In such state"

... Lucifer fell silent. he felt like his life was over. he was beating himself up for letting this happen.

What would you think of him now?

Would you turn away? He would never get over it if you did.

Sensing his worry you walk up to him and put a arm around his shoulder (not knowing if you should put them on his cock instead)

"Lucy i understand"

You smile at him.

With bewilderment in his eyes he looks at you.

"You do? "

"Yes lucy babe i do, you were under so much stress today. i already thought you had forgotten our date tonight so i initially came to remind you of it "

"im so sorry mc i shouldnt forget -"

"no its okay Lucy its not your fault"

You looked over to the second bottle of demonius on the ground, seeing what you were almost sure to be Lucy's cum in it.

"It is mc how can i apologise? "

"Ill take that bottle"

before he can say no or even think about it you grab the bottle crawl to the corner of the sofa and smell the liquid in it.

Now emerged with the smell of the last bits of demonius his cum smelled like some sort of delicate wine.

"hhhmmmmm it smells so good lucy darling"

He looks at you in shock for a bit but as soon as he realises you dont judge him for masterbating with a bottle he loosens up.

"Does it now my beloved? "

You look up happily

"Yes"

Lucifer chuckles he tries to take the bottle back but you see it comming and quickly run to the other side of the room.

"Nuh uh its mine now lucy"

Lucifer scoffs and makes his way over to you.

Before he can reach you however you already started drinking his cum out of the bottle. Your eyes still fixated on his to see his reaction.

He looks at you before regrouping himself and making his way over to you.

You run to the other side before you continue drinking his cum wine.

"Hmmm mm hmmmmmm, if water tasted like this i would definitely drink enough on a day"

"Mc, stop this weird behavior at once and hand me the bottle..

before i punish you."

He reaches to grab you but having spend so much time with mammon you know how to avoid getting caught. Running further.

Lucifer can't help but smirk, after all hes secretly really proud of you and himself. After all you said his cum is delicious and are getting quite protective.

it is as if lucifer has to take candy from a child.

"Be a good girl and finish it all then"

Your eyes sparkle in excitement

*Really lucy? Thank you!! "

You sit down on the sofa again tired from running around. Lucifer sits besides you rubbing your back waiting for you to finish it all.

You do finish it surprisingly fast and put down the empty bottle. You want to hug him but-

Lucifer grips your hands and handcufs them

"Lucy?"

"yes darling"

he smirks biting your ear softly.

You squeel

"Lucy what are we going to do? We have to be at the restaurant at 6 remember?"

He positions you in a way your but is sticking up. He squeezes it and this draws a moan from your mouth.

"I remember that, we still have 3 hours"

"but-" you stammer.

"i said i would punish you

so be prepared sitting might hurt a bit in the restaurant. "

He says as he takes out his whip ready to spank you senseless for not obeying him.

I hope you enjoyed.

Im sorry for spelling errors im dyslexic😣

[papers4me]

Fruits Basket Manga Review ch (90)- First pages ONLY.

I skimmed thro ch-89 to know the context of ch-90. it was Cinderella’s play. In this chapter, Kyo says early on, that time has passed since the play & that they are NOW starting their third year in high school. cool.

This part will ONLY focus on the 1st few pages of ch 90 abt (kyo & tohru) & stop before kyo’s memories starts, because the early pages contain:

Tons of new unexplored analysis of (kyo & tohru) characters that unfortunately was intentionally cut & worse! “changed” in the anime.

No space to add kyoko’s story in this post.

Kyoko’s story is full psychologically & socially.. I need to take a deeeeeeep breath before I unpack it. very deeeeep breath!

-Glimpses of Tohru (the silent grieving girl) Subtle Writing of Grief:

Right from the beginning, I hate how much insight into tohru’s grief & weakness as a human being is already there in the first few pages of ch-90 than the entire 3 seasons of the anime! From few pages we have:

Tohru’s seemingly delighted watching a video. Subtly, showcasing tohru’s grieve & paving the path for tohru’s trauma exploration later in the story. Grief is not sth you quickly past, that’s the most tragic misunderstanding of grief. Time will pass, so, you’ll be better & healthier. Really?!. Tohru’s inner desire to see her mom alive manifested in her words: “ like a photo comes to life” T_T.

The story/writing/manga is acknowledging tohru’s heartbreaking & NOT cute habit of talking to her mom’s cold dead photo! In the anime, tohru talks to her a lot in se01 & it’s up to you to see as as “ cute” as all the canon characters do or actually feeling it IS wrong. Kyo’s  “ what would she do if there were a video of her mom”! “ drives the point more abt tohru being a sad grieving human~not the “advice-giving, optimistic angel, & rain-stopping sunshine in the anime.

Tohru telling kyo to NOT catch cold connecting it to se01, ep 9 (haru’s ep) when tohru was afraid that yuki might catch cold & kyo noticed that! so now in se03, they’re dropping this plot altogether within the main anime, for what? we dont even know if this part would be included in whatever “ kyoko’s” spinoff content would be. -_-’.

That’s how you write subtle trauma such as (grief) for a main (female) MC. subtlety is the key. Respect the viewers intelligence & do it.

You don’t have to give her the long speeches or the many focused ep that yuki had. he’s the kind who confront himself inwardly constantly.

You don’t have to showcase drama, confrontation & force the emotions out like you did with kyo. he runs from his trauma & punishes himself.

Tohru buries her feelings! she’s different from both kyo & yuki. So, with her subtle & symbolic scenes are enough!!!The viewers will catch it if you show it, but ignoring it, cutting it & hoping the viewers will magically predict what you cut, is weird. But the anime isn’t even into us predicting nor subtly showing her cuz this tohru is NOT the tohru we have in the anime. How?

Simply cuz there is no kyo’s inner thoughts abt small things such as tohru’s photo obsession which subtly shows her grief & trauma. If kyo didn’t monologue abt her, tohru does not exist as she’s meant to be. You loose the subtle insights into tohru if you cut kyo’s inner thoughts. Not everything kyo thinks abt in regards to tohru is romance!!! That’s a very narrow & superficial look into the writing of kyo/’tohru dynamics. Flip the pages, hmm..cut this kyoru scene here & there cuz we dont want the anime to be only their love story.. But the story itself IS NOT only their love story at all. These pages/scenes here are abt tohru as a PERSON. Not tohru the lover...

- Writing Clashes between manga & anime: (Kyo’s Conscious Gradual Psychological Exploration vs Shock Value & Drama)

In ch 90 i really love all the inner self talking that kyo’s doing. It really explains why he ended up rejecting tohru so strongly. Also, going for a trip into kyo’s mind is hella exciting, new, refreshing & full of analysis-worthy exploration! Kyo’s inner psychological argument with himself is a psychologically-informed presentation of a tried guilty mind:

“ Why can’t I stop thinking of (kyoko’s words) lately? Acknowledging that he IS remembering kyoko & never forgot her. This is also supported in the anime itself. When he apologized to a sleeping tohru in se01, ep14 & se02, ep9 , confronting yuki in the stairs & other instances as well. 

“ It’s like a lid been opened & all the memories came pouring”. Acknowledging that kyo DID open his lid since se02, ep9 byt chose to run & not confront it due to his guilt of ruining tohru’s happiness by confessing his connection to her mom. 

“ pretending I didn’t know, pretending I forgot”. Here is a blatant clash in kyo’s writing (1) between the anime & manga (2) between the anime’s episodes themselves!!. In the manga, again kyo chose to ignore & pretended to forget. Death is NOT sth you forgot. Kyo saw kyoko bleeding & dying.  The anime chose to make him totally forget & it could’ve worked if they didn’t included all the canon moments of him actually remembering & pretending to forget. Is that lazy writing? or was the director for se03 different from se 1 &2 &? chose to NOT watch the two previous seasons? Why would you consciously include a contradicting depiction of your character on screen for thousands of confused viewers? Was the scene of kyo’s shocked gave upon seeing kyoko’s photo that artistically appealing that you forgot everything? I really have NO problem of kyo forgetting kyoko if that was written in the anime since se01, but it wasn't. that's why it sucks. 

“Is this payback? maybe I want to blame ME?” augh! i love this line so much! Directly hinting to the viewers that this is kyo’s one-sided guilt before his story with kyoko even started! subtly paving the path for the reason of his rejection of tohru” I dont want forgiveness. I want to blame ME.

-I don’t mind that the anime left kyo’s thoughts of kyoko until the climax in eo8, cuz ep 8 was SO well-done! Se03, ep 8 pacing was very suitable to (1) uncovering dark secrets & death, trauma, & guilt. (2)  for exploring the effects such secrets on kyo’s character, decisions, mentality. Also, the animation of kyo’s face all ep 8 was one of the most expressive facial expressions the anime has ever delivered! The eyebrows, eyes, mouth, tears, body languages, heartache was all 100% perfect. The fact that the following eps didnt have much time to express everything & chapters were cramped is not ep 8′s fault but the decision to have 13 eps. Kyo’s delayed trauma deserved to have its own ep.

-What I DO mind is the added scene of ep 6 where he freaked out upon seeing kyoko’s picture, the concept of shock is perfect & so suitable for an anime but was NEVER properly written into the anime itself from the beginning. On the contrary, the anime itself contradict such usage of such value. Good job ruining an otherwise perfect-depiction of two traumatized characters (kyo & tohru) with ONE scene.. -_-

Side Notes:

I thought tohru is narrating the 1st page in ch-90, turned it out it is kyo!!!! Kyo narrates sth? Kyo monologues? kyo has a POV? Just the setting of kyo doing that feels different! I duno if it cuz when that happens in the anime it’s always clash & drama! lol, or cuz it’s sth original!

Shigure’s “ it’s broadcasted all over the nation” is epic! XD! you know poor stupid kyo would fall for that! XD. kyo, you really are an idiot! XD... man this scene would’ve been epic comedy~ lol.

Tohru not knowing what a “dvd” is is outdated for the anime, but to still keep the sentiment of “her wishing she’d have a video footage of her mom”, they could’ve replaced her words with “ It’d be fun watching this play years from now & remembering all the details”. I know that to some, it feels weird that tohru doesn't have video footage of her mom in this era. but trust me, this is more common than you might think. My late brother, who’s way younger than me, doesn't have much video footage, he always felt awkward & preferred not to be filmed. We got photos for him tho~

Even if you want kyo’s knowledge of kyoko to be in the climax only. You can always include this scene of tohru & kyo in the first pages in the anime somehow. It doesn't even need to be abt the dvd even tho that’s manageable. Cutting this short scene of them talking abt videos, & catching cold is cutting tohru’s trauma from its core. Then, the old grandpa’s narration from se03, ep6 would at least have some backup in the anime’s canon.

Momiji & shigure are perfect as a comedic duo!

I can’t get over tohru’s art~ <3

Pinning kyo at the beginning is epic~ kyo always gets the BEST romantic lines when he talks to himself. “ burning (tohru’s ) memories into my head or forgetting everything”. The torturing fire inside him is only distinguished by loving her but is also ignited by loving her~ what’s the solution~

[kj-1130]

Could you do a oneshot where human b!d is on the couch of her and Kara's shared apartment crying cause she thinks Kara will be out on patrol all night. But Kara comes back early and takes B!D in her arms to find out whats wrong and it turns out B!D's really upset about the betrayal with Lena, and kara comforts her and feels bad she didnt realize how it effected b!d earlier?

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Everything had just been weird recently. Everything had just been wrong.

Lena wasn’t coming over like she used to. She wasn’t inviting you over to the lab like she used to. Nothing was the same anymore.

When Kara told Lena she was Supergirl, you thought things would’ve gotten better. You wouldn’t have to cover for your sister all the time and would be able to confide in Lena and include her in more conversations on the subject. But it turns out she knew already. She knew because of her stupid brother Lex.

You never wanted her to feel like a fool. You didn’t think she was a fool at all.

You tried to brush it all off, though. This was about Kara; not you. This was her best friend and said best friend used her to accomplish a project.

Everyone was focused on Kara and how she felt. It was understandable, really. She lost her best friend who was faking her emotions towards the whole situation. Not only did she lose that best friend, but she had to treat that best friend like a villain.

Everyone was focused on Lena as well. With whatever project she was planning, they didn’t have time to focus on anything else. This was what was important.

And you understood that.

But some part of you deep, deep down, wished that they would glance at you even if it was just for a second. You wished that they would glance at you so that they could see how this was affecting you.

To you, that was a selfish wish. And there was no time to be selfish. You weren’t a superfriend. You didn’t have any type of powers or advanced intellect. You were just… you. Just average.

The least you could do was let them do their work and not bother them with your stupid feelings.

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Kara was tired.

She had just finished patrol for the night and was worn to the bone.

But she was tired emotionally as well.

This whole thing with Lena’s betrayal just hurt her so much.

At first, she was relieved, knowing that Lena knew her secret and still accepted her. Was still there for her and still her best friend.

Then, to find out she was only being used the whole time hurt her.

It was a whirlwind of emotions she thought she’d never have to go through. But she pushed them to the back of her mind because there were more important matters at hand. Like stopping Lena and trying to find out where everything went wrong.

It was late when she got back to the apartment. She expected it to be dark and for you to be sleeping.

But when she landed on the balcony, she saw the lights still on. Tuning in with her super-hearing, she heard faint sniffles coming from the living room. Speeding towards the area, she saw you sitting on the couch with tears falling down your face.

“Oh, little one,” she cooed.

Your head snapped up and you tried to wipe your face, attempting to hide the fact that you were upset.

But it was to no avail. Kara was already out of her suit and into sleepwear in less than two seconds before she made her way over to your huddled form.

She brought you into her arms and kissed the top of your head. The simple comfort and warmness made more tears come to your eyes before you could even think about it.

“Do you wanna talk about it?”

You sniffed one more time before rubbing your nose.

“I don’t wanna bother you.”

“(Y/n),” she said sternly, pulling back and holding you by the shoulders. “You talking about how you feel will never bother me. You don’t need to bottle this up.”

There was a moment’s hesitation before you started talking.

“I just...I miss her. And I-I wanna hate her but I don’t think I can. I’m just so confused by it all. And I didn’t want to tell anybody cause there are more important things to worry about.”

You muttered the last sentence, not really wanting her to hear that sentence and not really wanting to admit it either. But she heard it regardless.

“Nothing will ever be more important to me--to us than you. And I'm so, so sorry that you feel like this takes priority over you. We’ve been practically ignoring everything else and focusing on Lena and all these other things--what I’m trying to say is...we shouldn’t have been ignoring you like we have. But you should know that we do care about how you feel and you shouldn’t feel like you have to bear it alone. Okay?”

You nodded in response and fell into her strong arms. Hopefully all of this will pass soon.

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[msookyspooky]

OKAY HI SO THE NEW CHAPTER—

I AM NOT OKAY !!!

Literally what the hell is gonna happen ???? FUCK IF I KNOW !! WERE IN THE LAST PART OF THE STORY AND I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO CLUE WHO GHOSTFACE(s) IS LIKE ???????

Here’s my play by play detecting - please understand im not very smart - also this one gets super long im so sorry

SO I don’t think Roman has anything to do with it fuck canon cause i mean we talked to him Once and the cast we’ve interacted a lot with has to include the killer right?

Dewey, Gale and honestly Billy are in the clear for me. Dewey is too much of a himbo to pull this off, Gale is too focused on finding B and Stu to - i think - plan this whole thing out and ACTUALLY murder ppl and Billy, honestly he looks the least guilty of the suspects cause he and Stu are in really bad terms abd I doubt he’d risk getting a partner AGAIN after how things went down with S, and i dont think he could pull that off on his own

NOW Angelina, baby, angel, please be part of this !!! She’s so weird and she has connections to Woodsburo - i think ! I also have a terrible memory !! - and I cant begin to express how gutted i was to knoe that the plan for her to be Romans accomplice in the movie was scratched, it would’ve been perfect

So Randy 🥺 Randy please bby, angel, please have NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS !! So yeah im very attached to your Randy and I’d be gutted if he was the killer - it would also be awesome to see a survivor “one of the good guys” go apeshit - BUT Stu’s speech really got to me, not only because yes, it makes sense BUT ALSO we’re like on the final stretch here, is it really time for a red herring? He does look suspicious, Stu has a point there

Speaking of Stu, THAT WHOLE SPEECH DIDNT FOOL ME FOR A SECOND - except for the part that it did - I could NOT get Tim’s monologue from the Curve out of my mind during that scene in the motel cause well yeah Randy could feel that way and want revenge BUT that’s not Stu’s actual point, he’s projecting a VERY REAL emotion he had/has to make Randy look sus, it doesn’t matter if he actually is guilty or not, cause either way Stu wins. If R is guilty BOOM Stu was right the whole time, see he cares, he was looking out for things we didn’t want to see, he’s “good” to us AND if R is NOT guilty he can get us so scared and distrusting of Ray that if something happens to him, Stu made “an honest mistake” to protect us. He gets what he wants, “everybody dies but us” ya know

I genuinely believe or at least hope strongly that theres 2 ghostfaces right, so my biggest sus are Randy and Stu AND I think Angelina could be an accomplice to EITHER of them. I genuinely forget if in your story we know her from Woodsburo or if im getting mixed up with the og script so this may be v off skskskks BUT imagine shes working with Randy cause they remember each other and she’s become a lil obsessed with the survivors (like she was with Syd in the movie) and thinks he should get his revenge OR she was really interested in the killers and when she saw “Dennis” maybe recognized him - i dont think he would’ve remembered her tbh - and offered to help, so from set on Stu was no longer working alone ? (With stu shes def an accomplice but with Ray she gives more mastermind vibes ya know? She “convinces” him thats what he wants and lbh she needs someone strong to do the murders shes v tiny)

Omg fucking Mcdreamy ???? I dont wanna sus him cause Boyfriend again 3 times a charm skskks but he’s way to interested in us, for me to trust them wholeheartedly but i have NO IDEA how he would play into all of this so Im saying red herring

Well to be fair Sid never interacted with Roman in 3. I'm js!

Good point about Angelina, red herring or jealous from HS and obsessed with the Woodsboro Massacre survivors for the fame she fought so hard for?

Good points about Dewey, Gale and Billy!!

Randy and Stu are definitely up there and both would rip us to shreds to know they did it (ESPECIALLY RAY. Ray would be fucking devastating) And both have really valid points that they could use as leverage.

And ngl...Kincaid did have our phone number from Dewey when Ghostface called...Again, IM JS-

[mendesbhraanth]

Hi beautiful sending you love mwah 😘😘 just wanted to know if you can write something were you hear Shawn talk badly about you so you distance yourself. Please.

Thank you so much for requesting!! 😘😘

Pairing : Shawn x y/n

Warnings : language and angst

Word count : 2.8 k

The first thing you heard when you opened the door to Shawn's condo was basically loud laughter of people including your boyfriend's. You just came back from work, a bit earlier than usual because shawn had been complaining about how he doesn't get to spend time with you because work has been crazy for you and you had a lot of files to finish and you were hella tired of your boss being a complete asshole, who never lets anyone stay home and he was no different to you. Anyways you were not at all aware of the fact that he had guests over.

The sound was coming from the living area of Shawn's penthouse apartment and apart from Shawn's, you recognised the laughter as Brian's, and Connor's. A small smile creeped on your face. You absolutely adored Shawn's friends so you walked towards the living to say 'hi' to them.

You were close enough to hear what they were talking about when your legs came to halt at the mention of you name.

"So how's life with y/n? Tour's over....You're free and now that y/n is staying with you, you must have a lot of cheesy things to say" Connor said whilst laughing.

"Oh yeah I actually do but not right now because why the hell would you mention my so called clingy girlfriend?" Shawn said and Brian laughed so loudly at that but your heart stopped.

"What??! What are you saying?!?" Connor said because shawn has been the most "I'm obsessed with my girlfriend and she is my goddess!!" Type of guy he had ever met.

"I said y/n is extremely clingy and annoying and I don't have anything good to say about her right now so please stop talking about that hoe!!" Shawn said and started laughing like crazy with Brian. Both of their laughs clouding your mind. You just stood there not able to comprehend anything.

You turned around silently, grabbed your keys and left the apartment in the same clothes you came in.

You got in your car and started driving slowly. You were now driving to nowhere for about 30 mins.

The moment you processed the words shawn said you slammed the break and your head came down on the stearing wheel with a plasticy bang.. must have been painfull.. ow poor y/n.

Did he really say that?!? Does he think I'm an annoying clingy hoe?!? Hell! "HE" was the one who wanted me to stay home and spend time with 'HIM'!! And I'm clingy?!? Is this the guy you've been in love with for what? Like 3 years?!! How could he call you a hoe!?! Why would any boyfriend disrespect his girlfriend like that??!? This is the worst day ever!!

All these thoughts were knocked out from your mind by a loud honking sound. You were basically in the middle of a road and by now, there were tons of cars parked behind you. Wow! You just created a big traffic block in the middle of Toronto city. Go you!! *Claps of sarcasm*

You quickly turned around and took another route to make your way back to Shawn's apartment like nothing happened. Haha asshole! but sometimes you gotta act like you weren't the cause of a huge ass traffic block..

You didn't know exactly why you were going back. To lay it onto him?? To get your things?? I don't know but you got home with slouched shoulders and an emotion less face.

You were about to reach and open the door when Shawn opened the door and a bright smile appeared on his face on seeing you which almost made you forget about the things he just said. Eh but not really.

"Baby!!!! I missed you so much today!!" He said and went in for a hug and you hugged him back it was as if someone was clawing at your heart.

"I'm just gonna walk these guys out and I'll be back in a second okay? You get freshened by then" He said sweetly but right now his words seemed anything but sweet!

How dare he say that to them and then act like nothing happened?? That too infront of them?!?! Which speaking of-!

"Hey y/n!!!" Connor and Brian said at the same time and both hugged you and you silently hugged them back, with a fake smile that could basically convince anyone but not Shawn.

"You guys go ahead I'll come in a sec" he said and turned to you.

"Okay then Bye y/n" they both bid their goodbyes and made their way to the lift.

"Hey what happened baby? Any problem with your boss??" Shawn asked tilting your chin up to look you in the eyes.There was evident hurt in them.

You were debating to weather tell him or push him away but you didn't choose any of that.

"Yeah..had a bad day at work"

"Aww baby you go inside and sit down okay! I'll be back after properly saying goodbye to the guys and you can tell me all about your day. Alright?" He asked sweetly but it sounded like straight up sarcasm to you but you chose not to call him out right now.

He gave you a short peck and there he goes ....'probably gonna talk more shit about me' you thought to your self which and it made you feel like your heart was stabbing itself.

You went inside and sat yourself on the couch. The same couch where the love of your life talked shit about you being a clingy hoe. (Sorry I'm just over dramatic 😅)

About 5 mins later shawn came in and sat by your side.

"What happened baby?? What did your crazy boss do this time?" He asked while taking your hand in his and slowly stroking the back of your hand with his other hand but you didnt move.

"Nothing..just the usual..I have...work...just...I-!...I'm going to take a shower" you said. A slight frown appeared on Shawn's face. But he understood....some days you were like this when work really stressed you out.

'Maybe she doesn't wanna talk about it' he thought.

"Okay baby" he said and you stood up from the couch and before you walked 4 steps shawn caught your hand and pulled you into him.

He craddled your face in his warm huge palms that always made you melt like it wasn't even a big deal at all and kissed your lips sweetly.

You kissed him back but pulled away quicker that shawn would have liked which caused a small pout on his perfectly soft pink lips and all you wanted to do was kiss it away so that's what you did but quickly reminding yourself that he thinks your a clingy hoe and pulling away again.

"Let me kiss my girl properly first" he said smiling at you and you'd be lying if you said it doesn't do things to you even if your upset with him. How could he do this?!? One time he's saying he hates you and now he's all over you as if he really is?!?

"I'm tired shawn I wanna take a shower" you said while planting the same fake smile on your face. He frowned at you and them pulled you into a hug and you only dropped your hands low...not embracing the hug.

"Want me to join?' he asked playfully smirking at you and it literally made you feel all sorts of way but you knew it was all an act and he just.. thought you were a hoe.

"No I'm really tired shawn" you said now turning around and walking to the bathroom with tears forming real quick in your eyes.

"Okay... baby I'll start preparing dinner then" he said and you didn't fail to pick up the hurt in his voice. But why??? He doesn't care at all!! What a great ass actor?!? Your seriously doubting if you dreamed all that. But nah...its real..he hurt you.

You took a long ass shower washing yourself and feeling all your emotions get warmed up by the warm water and you just...started crying. You cried silenty under the shower where one couldn't distinguish tears from water. Maybe you were clingy. But that's only because you love him but why would he call you a HOE!?! Why?? Why would he disrespect you like that?? After 3 years of relationship, was your love for him making you look like a hoe??

After you got out of the shower, usually you would've just put on one of Shawn's hoodies and then go chill on the couch but today you just.. couldn't bring yourself to wear his clothes. So you put on one of your band t-shirts and some shorts and walked to the kitchen where Shawn had already prepared and put out dinner on the table and was waiting for your company.

He came to you with a toothless smile on his face which quickly dropped by half when he noticed you weren't wearing one of his clothes..but he didn't let it bother him that much or let's say... tried to act like it didn't bother him as much as it did. You still noticed it though..and it gave you a weird feeling.

He hugged you which again you didn't return.

"You smell so good!" He said pulling away from the hug and you gave him your half assed fake smile AGAIN.

Shawn was fully aware that something was wrong but he thought you'd tell him while having dinner.

He led you to the table and pulled the chair out for you like he always did and you both sat down to have dinner.

Awkwardness was all around the table.

You did not talk at all and even though shawn tried his best and asked you stuff to get you to talk about what's wrong or let's say..make it less awkward, all your replies were just..yes, no and silence.

After dinner you washed your plate and mumbled a goodnight that didn't feel like it was to ANYONE and went to sleep.

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It went like this for a few days.. you being extra awkward to Shawn and purposely avoiding him and distancing yourself from him and being really down. He was really sad and hurt and frustrated because he would ask you whats the matter and you would either tell him "nothing" or just shrug your shoulders. You didn't even look him in the eyes anymore. Shawn was really really confused and even more worried.

Well how could you talk to him?!? After all he called you clingy and annoying which means he doesn't want you around and also he called you a hoe.

One day Shawn came back from the studio and saw you reading a book on the couch. A small smile creeped on his face knowing that you were reading some sort of romance novel.

"What are you doing?" He asked while coming and sitting next to you.

You were pretty lost in the book so you did not see him coming in.

"Oh just a stupid book haha... I have to get back to work now.." you said and got up to leave only to walk two steps and stop at the mention of your name.

"Y/n" you turned around to see Shawn now standing up from the couch with a very hurt look on his face.

"I don't know why but I noticed that you've been purposefully avoiding me for a few days..why are you doing that?? What did I do??please talk to me.." He asked now looking straight into your eyes and you could see right in his eyes that he was hurt.

"What? I don't know what your talking abou..-!" You were cut of by Shawn showing his palm infront of your face.

"Y/n stop...you know what you've been doing.....Is it me?? Did I do anything wrong?? Please talk to me.....you can always talk to me you know" he said now reaching for your hand but the moment his hand touched you you shook it away and backed off like he attacked you or something.

Shawn looked at you as if his heart just broke.

"No shawn..you should've thought about that before calling me a clingy, annoying hoe" you said for once and stormed in your bedroom slamming the door shut.

Shawn followed right behind you and got the door shut right on his face.

"What are you talking about-!? I- I-..! Dont understand! I never called you any of that!" Shawn said now leaning on the door.

"Stop fucking lying shawn I heard you talking with connor and Brian that day and you called me all those things!!" You barked from the other side of the door.

"Shit! Baby I can explain! Please open the door for me! I swear I didn't mean for you to hear it!" He said now banging on the door.

"Of course you didn't! And Explain what?!? That I'm being delusional and maybe even say some half assed lies?? How did I ever believe that you love me?!? Maybe I am clingy...But you called me a hoe!!"

"No baby please listen! I know it would've sounded so very wrong but just wasn't being serious! We were just joking around and I said that" he tried to explain and it did not even harm a hair of your anger.

"Haha what are you saying shawn?! That would never convince anyone! Try harder with your lies and leave me the fuck alone!" You said.

"Baby please believe me.. you are the most gorgeous and amazing women I've ever met and I could never ever say such things about you! I love you! Please believe me!" He said with tears threatening to spill from his eyes.

"I wish I could believe you shawn..but I actually heard this with my own ears.." you said.. now wiping your own tears.

"Please open the door for me I will explain it all please just...hear me out!" He said now bringing his hands to his face to catch the spilling tears.

You opened the door to him kneeling on the floor. You sat next to him resting your back on the wall.

After a few seconds he came and sat next to you..... Both of you staring at whatever that was ahead of you.

"Explain" you said.

Shawn wiped his tears and started talking.

"So...that day..you went to work and connor and brian came over and we were chatting on the couch and you know how connor loves you and me together like he ships us so hard haha so me and Brian were just pranking him and joking around so I just said I don't like you to prank connor....it sounds so fake...I know but that's the truth..I should've never said that..even if it was a joke I'm so sorry baby. You can even call Brian or Connor right now and ask them if you don't believe me " he said

By now you felt almost dizzy..you're so dumb!! 😬..you were making such a huge ass deal about this. OMG you're so stupid!! Wtf?? How could you be so stupid?? Like..all of this would've never happen if you just opened your mouth and talked to your boyfriend!!!!

"I..-! I'm sorry" you said, looking at Shawn who was already looking at you.

"I'm so so sorry baby I thought you didn't love me anymore I mean..I know I'm not that good looking and you could basically have any girl you wanted and I just-! I'm so sorry!! Ya know I always am terrified that one day I'll wake up and you don't love me anymore and I just-.... I should've just talked to you about this. Shit! I'm so stupid this is all my fault!!" You were full on crying right now and shawn just pulled you to his chest while you cried.

"Hey Don't say that!! You're the most beautiful girl I've ever laid eyes on and I can't even imagine living a life where you hate me and it's okay bubba I mean..if I was you this is exactly how I would've acted but from now on ..please talk to me if I did something that upsets you....I hate it when we cry" shawn said cracking a small smile.

"I'm sorry again" you said pouting your lips only for shawn to grab your face and kiss your frown away replacing it with a genuine smile, Something that has been lacking from your face for the past few days.

"It's alright now do you wanna make dinner or get Mc Donalds??"

You smiled at your sweet boy. He already knew the answer.

"Mc Donalds it is!"

[zukkacore]

It sucks that mako and bolin are underdeveloped, bolin especially (& even Mako is “developed” in ways that are kinda unsatisfactory, mostly via love triangle bullshit or him becoming a cop) bc like the fact that they’re homeless orphans from a potentially multicultural background like automatically makes them more interesting than 90% of these annoying corrupted political figures the show spends so much time with, & it’s like never rly explored?

Like republic city is former earth kingdom territory turned fire nation colony, the whole reason aang & Zuko Did A Colonialism was bc they didnt want to displace the mixed Fire nation/earth kingdom families that were living there for potentially generations, so it might’ve been interesting to explore characters from a mixed background? Especially bc the way they handle Kataang’s family is honestly kinda bad, the show treats tenzin like he’s culturally an airbender, kya like she’s culturally a waterbender, and bumi like he’s neither. They’re a MIXED INDIGENOUS FAMILY. Plus Mako & Bolin’s multicultural background is different from Kataang’s family. The SWT & the Air Nomads we’re both victims of the fire nation’s imperialism. A family where one side is from the fire nation (we just don’t know how far back) is a completely different dynamic.

Like the s3 stuff where Mako & Bolin find their family in ba sing se is good for what it is! I’m glad they have family! It’s good material for them and they deserve it after being alone for so long but it’s almost like being in republic city or being orphans or both was almost an excuse to just divorce them from their multicultural background which to me is rly missed potential. The effects of Japanese imperialism are SO prevalent across Asia, it’s fricking weird that none of that imperial influence is apparent in any of the colonized territory in Atla. Bc they don’t spend hardly any time in former colonies! And it’s not until s4! & we see the separate earth kindom territories are struggling do to a power vacuum, but really? After 100 years, no fire nation influence on any of this territory?

And like it’s a real missed opportunity bc like it would’ve been rly interesting to address Bolin’s background during his lavabender arc! But the show treats it almost like a level-up or a cool new gimmick. Alternatively/Additionally, the fact that they’re disconnected from their background could be like a Thing bc Mako and Bolin use bending purely for like. Survival & competitive sport. Reconnecting w Earth Kingdom & Fire Nation culture could’ve been really interesting directions for them, especially in terms of like. Them finding a sense of belonging. Blood relatives are good but found family? That could’ve been so powerful.

Bending as like a cultural practice honestly goes kinda unaddressed and forgotten in LoK? Or, it’s addressed, but it’s rly inconsistent. The contrast between bending as competitive fighting sport vs. bending as a big component of a pacifist culture like the Air nation is a rly interesting idea, but bending as an aspect of the other nations is just kinda forgotten about. I mean, Amon made some points but also Amon ur really gonna tell me that airbenders have privilege? During s1 there 5 of them in the world, total, including korra, because they were nearly wiped out via genocide 100 years ago. And yes, he’s the villain, but this aspect of his anti-bender ideology is never critized, they just rely on him and his goons using extremist tactics that are easy to dispute, or scary displays of his power unsettling and disturbing Korra.

Anyways I got kinda sidetracked from my point bc I think the treatment of Mako and Bolin is also a larger issue that kinda bleeds into the world of LoK as a whole & shows some of the problems w the worldbuilding, but just. Ah. I wish those two had been given some real material instead of getting wrapped up in love triangle drama and playing bodyguard and actor for so much of the show

Edit: I elaborated on my thoughts a bit if you wanna check the notes it’s a long read tho so w/e if ppl prefer this short version for brevity it’s fine

[bloomyn]

climbing waterfalls

pairing: ushijima wakatoshi x reader

summary: your midlife crisis happens rather quickly, and its not midlife, you’re twenty three with a baby whose daddy just left with your best friend. peachy.

part of: pink peonies

apricot aisles x climbing waterfalls x next

isn’t weird how your eyes smell? 

your tears have a scent even though they’re pretty much just water. there are tears half-soaked into your pillow cases and you can smell them. you laugh to yourself, pathetically. 

pathetic. three years ago you would’ve berated yourself for behavior like this. you’ve turned off your phone and akio’s playing cars in his room next to yours but the image still rings fresh. well the article had only been published an hour ago but still, you know. the desire to take a picture of your puffed face almost wins but after, what, twenty plus years of being here, alive, you know the image will only send you down an awkward depressing spiral, and you still have to make dinner. 

-

seventy two hours ago

“mom.”

“mommy wake up.”

you roll over, peeking out from under the covers and squinting at the figure in front of you. 

“it’s too early.” you groan, “go back to sleep baby.”

akio frowns, his little hands coming up to tug at your sleep shirt. 

“but someone’s at the door.”

immediately you shoot up, yanking akio into your bed, ignoring the little ‘ouch’ he whined. 

“you. stay here. don’t move, okay?”

he nods, tugging your sheets over his head.

“okay mommy.”

tip-toeing down the hall you say a silent prayer. it could be no one, it might even be the neighbor but there is no way in hell you’re taking a chance on it being some serial killer waiting to take you or akio away. so you grab the baseball bat that sits against the wall of your living room, gripping tightening as you approach the door. 

you really need to invest in one of those door hole things. what do they call them, peepholes?

cracking the door open you quickly scan the figure in front of you, only to sigh in relief at the familiar face and then quickly close the door again.

“u-ushijima-san what are you doing here?”

you groan inwardly at your appearance, bed hair and wrinkled pajamas, how sexy of you. hastily, you push a few stray hairs out of your face and tug your shirt down, hoping to flatten it at least a little bit before your open the door again. 

“this is for you.”

the bright red gift bag in front of you is a little intimidating, especially with the way ushijima stands so forwardly, training his eyes on your face. 

you don’t have time to process the fact that the man you might soon be in love with (based on previous engagements with said man) is standing at your front door with a gift for you. your brain is still stuck on the fact that your standing in front of him with pjs on. so that’s exactly what you say.

“sorry about my clothes,” you stutter, “ i wasn’t really expecting any visitors.”

and now you sound like he’s intruding on your morning. 

“ah, sorry about that. i sent a text and thought about calling you but i didn’t want to seem intrusive.”

oh. you’ve really dug yourself a hold on this one. 

“akio was actually the one to wake me up, and i freaked myself out a little bit when he told me someone was at the door and i didnt bother to check my phone.”

“oh.”

“yeah.”

you don’t miss the way his eyes travel around your figure.

“i should probably clear this up but, the gift isn’t actually for you.”

suddenly every ounce of possibility that the man was interested in you flies out the window.

“sometimes the merchandising company gives us extra clothes for family members and i thought that akio would like a jersery or tshirt, so, it’s in the bag.”

and there it goes flying back into your heart. 

“he’ll love it. i’m sure.”

he gives you a little smile and you cheer on the inside. 

“well, i have to go to morning practice so--”

“oh! yeah of course, i’ll give this to akio, yeah! sorry go ahead.”

ushijima gives you a small nod before heading off, and you wave a good-bye to his car. 

you’re terribly in love with this man.

-

you hate men. 

“that doesn’t include your husband.”

misaki gives you a small smile. 

“oh honey,”

its pity in her voice. there is no reading into it. if you continue like this any longer the stack of midterms on your desk will stay ungraded and the kids will hound you until you’re done. 

“if you want i can make sure that ushijima stays behind to clean up after practice.”

you snort, “nah, he’d be too dense to realize it was a punishment.”

at that misaki laughs, “you don’t deserve him you know? you know what, get yourself a - a ,”

“a what.”

“i was going to try and say someone on the team but, i really couldn’t think of anyone.”

“terrible.” you laugh, “terrible.”

“it’s true though! i’ve snatched the last viable man, what a shame.”

“poor me.”

“poor you.”

sighing for the millionth time you grab a stack of papers and a pen,

“well, i’ll be here for the next hour till class starts.”

“and my class starts in two minutes.”

you say your good byes, promising to grab lunch because she misses akio’s face so, so much. and you get to work.

-

[sepialunaris]

Besides the crazy stupid plot twist and dumb character actions I think the big problen why Jurassic World is a failure of a narrative is that it constantly confuses its own tone and what idea it wants to convey. And as a whole it just sounds like singing praises to capitalism and pinning problems on other aspects instead of the root of the problem.

So JW is said to have been open for 15 years, and its said people are bored with classic InGen retrosaurs hence initiating the creation of Indominus, and yet from the other perspective people are enjoying the retrosaurs just fine? It is not even hinted a bit that they did not not enjoy them besides that bit of exposition.

And our audience perspective character doesn't work. Gray and Zach seems to come from a middle-upper class family and yet they never visited the park for years despite having a family member as a high level staff? Knowing their son is obsessed with dinosaurs? And the only reason they were sent there was because it was an excuse to cover up their parent's divorce? In the case of Darius Bowman from CC it makes sense, but this is weird. It's kind of nitpicky, but okay my point is, what makes them ineffective is that they are new eyes to the park and Zach cannot represent "ahh ppl who already seen this many times get inspired to see the beauty of ugly 1993 retrosaurs" because he has never been there either. So its just weird to include their POV when it deosnt complement the Indominus narrative and if it does it feels forced and loose.

And its more bizarre when the movie seems to be more obsessed with showing "oh my god look at this capitalist paradise! John Hammond's gentrification deeam fulfilled!" and panning on random buildings and starbucks with the Jurassic Park theme. Besides "do you have dinosaurs in your dinosaur park" it just wooshes the anti-capitalist social commentary of JP, more crazy when its loads of product placement. I know that they did plan a panning shot with dinosaurs which would've been effective and narratively fitting rather than *pan to giant building* so idk why they even did that. And so idk if this movie wants to criticize capitalism and consumerism combined with the privatizing of the genetics could give way to ethical and environmental issues or do they want to say "god powers are allowed for capitalists if they are nice" (ahh and based on leaks for JWD, its the latter. They made John Hammond a messiah for protecting his unethical business from the 'bad capitalists' omg)

There's also the issue of 'authentic' dinosaurs (hence why I keep mentioning retrosaurs from the start 😂, i want to talk about this too). The scene with Wu and Masrani works, but ultimately the whole movie fails it. It is lifted from one of the few good scenes from the oroginal movel with Wu and Hammond, and concerns about how ALL dinosaurs from this park are genetic hybrids from the start. And well it would've worked well to explore the ethics and capitalism approach but honestly with the whole movie as comparison it just sounds like "guys this is the reason why they are not realistic and feathered please dont ask us about it again." The fact that they are hybridized retrosaurs get ignored and thrown under the rug besides that one scene, and we never again explore how unnatural all of them are as the movie time to time again keeps promoting a division between "legit" dinosaurs and Indominus, the character Lowery keeps pushing. And the latter... aslo shows how much they want to praise the first park and John Hammond despite it being a metaphor of capitalism failing from wanting to conquer nature, despite it being the exact same thing as modern JW. "They didnt need these hybrids they only had real dinosaurs" is already an errornous statement since all of them were frog hybrids, so if its wrong... what was the point of bringing it up? JP didn't just fail because Dennis Nedry sabotaged it, it was bound to fail for its attempt to control nature as Ian said. However JW attributes the singular creation of Indominus as the reason for its failure (and by attribute hoo boy how many plotholes did they engineer to pin it the blame. Suddenly it knows its being thermally monitored? Or does it just releases electromagnetic energy to make ppl around it dumb or jam cellphones, god im rambling), and if they continued making retrosaurs it would've been fine? So what was the message? "Its okay to mix dinosaur dna with frogs but don't add to much to the mixture"? "Its okay to play god with capitalism but dont go too far"? Instead of mentioning both concepts as unethical and the concept of Indominus as an already flawed concept pushed even more unethically, the increasing level of tolerance for playing god already shows a shift of morals from the JP and JW. So once again its 'capitalism is actually good, its just the evil ppl thats the problem'

It honestly just erases the brilliant potential of how that narrative could be engaged. Of course its obvious the park would want to promote their retrosaurs as legit and Indominus as a different flavor despite both being hybrids but the latter being pushed to the max, so both of them are bound to have intersecting problems. However not everyone would've been fooled by such promotion. And yet from our POV only Wu was aware of it; the view of them as retrosaurs is treated as an understatement to be ignored as we are only allowed to see things and agree with opinions from the POV of Lowery or the kids against Hoskins' cartoony "lets convince our president to use dinos to steal oil" idea.

It could've honestly touched on many aspects of de-extinction or concepts like the Chickenosaurus, as well as the complex moral dillema around many genetic issues, but the movie just wants to shy away from it and impose a black and white morality of "Indominus bad unnatural" and "retrosaurs good natural." Not unnesary military commentary that doesn't work (dinosaur's effect in the environment would be more devastating than them acting as military weapons so pro-US imperialists can be proud (one bullet will kill them, I swear yeah ik this is a 'scifi' franchise, but the logic hoops you need to jump from that. One raptor died from getting hit by a rocket launcher as they should. So what US wants to use these bags of flesh as weapons to steal oil? There is nothing they can do that dogs or dolphins can't do better). The only time its kinda shown is when Indominus is killing Apatosaurus for fun, but... real animals like humans, dolphins, chimps do that too. And the movie treats this as something unnatural or makes it evil. Scorpios rex despite being ugly actually accomplishes the ecological horror of having an invasive creature invade an ecosystem (despite the ecosystem itself alr being flawed and superficially created) and being able to reproduce through parthenogenesis). And I doubt they would touch on this in JWD despite the variance of animals they will show, as even Atrociraptor is not going to be called out by name in that film, that they can change its name in post production.

[wickedpact]

oh i absolutely agree with the idea that nicky enjoys dancing/can dance well. part of me is picturing him learning to dance for the purpose of impressing joe and the other part is like “what if he was able to dance well BEFORE he met joe” but i doubt with his background he would’ve been especially good dancer pre crusades (weird question but like, did they have dances pre crusades?? like upon a simple google search i can’t find anything about european dancing pre the 15th century.) so i think ultimately i’m leaning towards the first idea. (also according to wikipedia the first detailed description of dance was from italy in 1451! 👀 so like. hmm) but like i’m picturing nicky secretly learning dance without joe’s knowledge in an attempt to impress him with dance once nicky has gotten a better grasp on it.

as for the the dance at the con, YES to the women approaching nicky for a dance and being all “we don’t mind if you step on our toes” and batting their eyelashes at him and just, assuming, based on their interactions with him that he’s not good at dance and them him literally and figuratively sweeping them off their feet on the dance floor. (or, alternatively, he tries to pretend he’s bad at dance for the sake of the character that he built but his love of dancing kinda takes over and by the end of the night he’s exposed himself as a lovely dancer) - 2ta

like upon a simple google search i can’t find anything about european dancing pre the 15th century.

i did the same exact shitting thing asdfghjk

also the idea of nicky learning to dance to seduce joe like a bird doing a mating ritual is >>>>>

& i imagine they had some kind of dancing at the time, since dancing is such a weirdly almost instinctual thing (i mean even babies and toddlers kind of dance before they know what it is) so id be shocked if they didnt. im guessing that Dance Maneuvers werent just recorded much during the time. but yeah i would?... think that nicky wouldnt have had any kind of formal dance training. unless the ppl who theorize he was some kind of nobility (bc priests were usually rich ppl i think? idk) are right and maybe dance lessons were included in that. idk

(nicky making dancing Mainstream in the 1400s. hmmmmmm)

[hazelolive]

So I comissioned @anjchan8 to draw my ocs and I orginally was going to make it into like a devilgram with a short cute fluffy story added to it but! I thought of a way to include it to Kera and Damien’s main story. I absolutely love how it came out and feel it displays exactly how Both Kera And Damien feel at the end of this part of there story. (plus there so pretty like looooooook at em ^_^)

It had been 2 days since Kera had seen Damien and she was growing worried. Sure she was shocked to find out that he wasnt human like her but after that talk she had with mammon she had started to calm down about it. She was still a tiny bit annoyed that he didnt tell her because younger her probably wouldve found it awesome, but slightly more understanding now that there probably was a reason behind him keeping it secret.

She however was worried about her friend. She hadnt seen him in 2 days and any time she asked lucifer were he was hed say something stupid like. That doesnt matter, or kera im busy, please leave my study. Mammon didnt know where he was either. Which made sense because he left to follow her and She hadnt been able to get ahold of Diavolo.

So she was here worrying about the state of her friend and how it must of looked with her just walking out upset and almost crying after he acidently revealed his big secret to her. She had checked the addict twice and even cast a detect magic spell shed learned from Simon just to make sure lulu didnt pull any of his old tricks that he did with Belphy.

But she couldnt find him. She had searched the house of lamentation top to bottom while bothering Luci on mutiple ocassions. But he just wasnt here. She had been pacing the floor for 2 hours now and she was tired of waiting. She grabbed her ddd and decided she was going to storm diavolos castle if she must.

It was a little weird heading to the castle without any of the brothers with her to act as a guide. But luckily she didnt run into any trouble. She entered through the grand doors. She had gotten this but there was a sense of now what? This was a big castle with many rooms probably some of them hidden or off limits she she shouldnt just go exploring.

She decided that she might as well look for diavolo she was about to start her search when she ran into someone. She looked up after letting out a audible umph and saw she had ran straight into barbattos.

"You should be more careful Kera. Wouldnt want you to hurt yourself now would you?"

"Barb! Im sorry about that. I didnt mean to run face first into your chest."

"Its fine im just glad you didnt run into anything less forgiving, like a stone pillar for instance." He said knocking on the one behind him.

She gave off a little nervous laugh. Well this was embarrassing.

"What do we owe the pleasure of this unexspected visit?"

"I need to speak to diavolo. Theres someone im trying to find."

"Aw do you mean your little friend?"

She looked up surprised for a second.

"How did you- wait I shouldnt ask of course you would know."

He just gave off a little amused laugh.

"Right this way."

Kera tentively followed barbatoss, down a few hallways, and a long corridor till he opened the door to a room and on the other side damien sat. horns still on display but he seemed to be in a fresh pair of clothes.

She was relieved to see him and he didnt seem any worse for wear

"Damien! Your alright! Thank goodness." Kera said throwing her arms around him.

"You say that as if you exspected us to harm him." Barbattos said with a small laugh.

"Well not you but I know luci was in the room when I left and I know how he can get. Plus he refused to tell me anything concerning him after the fact. "

"Well I can asure you lucifer or luci as you like to call him was only able to give him a good tongue thrashing. Diavolo made sure of that."

"Can you give him my thanks."

"It would be my pleasure but im sure he'd love to hear from you."

"Alright and Lucifer probably wont admit it himself but he may have been annoyed because of all the paperwork he had to help fill out concerning Damiens sudden Arrival."

"Oh! Is that why he wasnt around for 2 days?"

"Yes, we had to ask him all sorts of questions, like who was he, where did he live before, how did he get here, Where he will be living now, etc. But we finished up all the paperwork this morning and gave him his own ddd so he should be free to go."

"Thank you so much Barbattos. Im sorry you guys had to go through so much trouble."

"It was no trouble at all but im sure you two have plenty to catch up on so ill excuse myself for now." He said giving a slight bow and leaving the room.

As soon as she left she found herself drifting back over towards damien.

"So I see you got yourself a nice new pair of clothes."

He didnt say anything just kept her back to her.

"Damien?"

No response.

She began to worry. Was he mad at her?

She put her hand on his shoulder and he turned further away almost violently.

She was confused but then she heard the tiniest of sniffles. Oh no. She leaned over him to see he was crying.

"Damien! Whats wrong!" She started to panic. He looked fine before but now he was crying and she wasmt sure why.

"Dont Look at me! I cant get them to go away when im like this."

"What are you talking about? Are you talking about your horns-"

"I cant pretend to be human. To be like you when im like this."

"Hey, hey, hey you dont have to pretend to be anything!" She said running around so he could she her.

She looked up and saw him open his tear stained eyes.

"But you said. Your were so upset when you found out what I was. And I was so worried and tired after searching that I didnt have the energy to hide it."

"Hey Listen here." She said as she gently grabbed his face and wiped away some of the tears that had just fallen from his eyes. "I dont care if your a demon. You could be a demon, a human, and angel it doesnt matter to me."

"But you said-"

"Im not done. You could be any of those and it wouldnt change my opinion of you. I was upset and shocked because you never told me and it felt like you didnt trust me or care enough about me to let you in on a big factor of your life."

"It has nothing to do with that! Of course I trust and care about you. I was afraid you hate me that you'd call me a monster and never want to see me again."

"I could never serriously hate you! I love you to much to ever hate you!"

Kera visibly stiffened. What had she just said!?

"You love me?" He said as his last few tears fell.

"No......."

"You love me." He started to smile. "You actually love me."

"Shut up I dont."

"You said it you cant take it back now."

"I said I loved you not that I was in love with you."

"You love me."

"How many times are you going to say that." She started to pout she was embarrassed enough as it was. She didnt mean to say it in the first place it just sort of slipped out. She was glad he stopped crying and was happy now but now she just kind of wanted to hide.

It was her turn to hide her face as he tried to peek around at her blush. He tried seeing her face but every time shed turn some so he was only able to catch glimpses. Well if she was going to be like that.

Without a second thought he scooped her up and threw her over his shoulder. He was just really happy now. He was basically over the moon. He could feel the wicked grin start to spread across his face and was glad that Kera was over his shoulder because she probably would've smacked him for it.

"What do you think your doing!"

"Gee I wonder."

"Put me down!"

"I don't think I will not for a while anyway."

"Do you even know where your going!?"

"Nope."

@butter-beel @anjchan8

[chocafe]

under the mistletoe — bang chan

summary: “you know how my family keeps on setting me up on horrible blind dates? well, to make them stop, i told them that i was in a relationship and now they all want to meet this mystery person so… can you pretend that you’re dating me and come to my family’s christmas party?” genre: fluff, bulletpoints, friends to lovers, fake dating au

[txt] chan: guess what

[txt] you: what????

[txt] chan: you know how my family keeps on setting me up on horrible blind dates? well, to make them stop, i told them that i was in a relationship and now they all want to meet this mystery person so… can you pretend that you’re dating me and come to my family’s christmas party?

[txt] you: okay

[txt] you: WAIT CHAN WHAT

“you should be glad that i’m your best friend.” you sigh aloud as the two of you discreetly stood right in front of chan’s relative’s house. “not everyone would easily do something like this.”

in response, chan clicks his tongue against the roof of his mouth and states, “why are you lying? i know you’re here just for the free food.”

“i’m also here for the free desserts.” you mumble underneath your breath, agreeing with his truthful statement

as you were about to knock on the door, chan swiftly grabs a hold of your hand with a concerned look appearing upon his face. “wait! let’s rehearse everything one more time.”

“ah!” you pull your hand away from the wooden door. “we’ve been dating for─”

“five months.” chan abruptly interrupts

“yes, five months. the reason why i’ve never met your family is because─ um. it’s because i’ve been just so busy with life and our schedules never match up with one another?” a hint of confusion lingered at the end of your sentence.

a deep breath escapes chan’s lips. “try to say that with confidence if anyone asks you during the party.”

knock knock knock

the moment the door opens up

the two of you are straightaway greeted by chan’s aunts and uncles who were more than excited to meet you!

perhaps, they were more thrilled to see you than to see chan . . .

“how did you two meet?”

“how long have you guys been going out for?”

“what made you fall for our little boy, chan?”

“is chan a good boyfriend? come on, you can be honest with us!”

questions after questions after questions after questions

you were absolutely glad that you had chan besides you

because you were not prepared for any of these questions ! ! !

“everyone, chill out! you all might scare y/n by asking so many questions.” chan chuckles to himself, wrapping an arm around your shoulder (you know, to make everything look like that you both were in an real relationship)

just by chan’s small comment, the two of you were able to dash away from all of the endless questions that you two were unable to answer

because let's remember

the two of you aren’t even dating to begin with

“y/n, meet my cousins!” a wide grin stretches across chan’s face. “the one on the right is jisung and the emo looking one on the left is chang─ OUCH!”

“the name is changbin. i’m definitely not the emo one here.” changbin introduces himself, disregarding the fact that he had just punched chan in the stomach

“you guys, don’t be afraid to befriend one another.” chan adds in, still in an endearing amount of pain. “y/n, i’m going to leave you with them for a short moment, is that alright with you? i just need to quickly say hi to some of my other relatives that i haven’t saw yet.”

“that’s more than fine, my darling!” you exclaim in a tone filled with dripping honey and sweets

cringe

cringe

cringe

is what chan, jisung and changbin all simultaneously thought to themselves

maybe changbin wants to punch you too just by hearing those words slip out of your mouth

within a minute, chan disperses into the party and you’re left with his fellow cousins

“so…” you’ve never felt more awkward in your life than you did within their presence. “what do you two do for fun?”

“we talk shit about chan for fun.” jisung jokes while squealing through his set of laughers

“wow, i guess the three of us have something in common.” you utter to yourself

“what?”

“NOTHING I DIDNT SAY A SINGLE THING.”

“i can’t believe you’re dating a loser like chan.” changbin’s voice sounds harsh, which slightly confused you to the core

did he truly believe that chan was a loser?

or was he just joking around in an odd manner?

you had no clue, but saying you were triggered by his words would be an understatement

“loser? i mean, sure, he says some pretty weird things sometimes, but i truly think he’s far from a loser.” the tone of your voice quickly shifts alongside with the mood of the situation. “chan is such a responsible person and i personally really enjoy spending my time with him. he makes me happy, it’s as simple as that.”

“uh, y/n, we were just joking around.” the two boys respond back in slight shock. “there’s no need to be serious!”

you’re over here like oh shit i didn’t notice how serious i was getting

“GUYS I WAS JUST KIDDING TOO CHAN IS SUCH AN IDIOT!”

“i’m an idiot?” a mysterious voice questions you as their breath hits the roof of your earlobes

sometimes, things are too good to be true

and you felt that quote hit you right at that moment

“am i supposed to be flattered that i’m being called an idiot?” chan asks once more, but in no way was he serious

“out of all times, you just had to come right at this very moment?”

every party tends to get chaotic after a few hours in

the two of you fully acknowledge that after this hectic christmas party filled with infinite questions

it felt as if the whole party revolved around you two

“i didn’t know you had this many family members. let alone, i didn’t know that every family member of yours had a question pre-planned for us.”

the both secretly hid in the empty hallways, filled with no one, except the bodies of you two

“i’m sorry.” chan wants to tell you that everything will become easier from there on, but that surely will be a flat out lie. “i didn’t know that everyone would put you right in the spotlight. if i knew this, i would’ve taken more time to plan everything out, but i didn’t. once again, i’m sorry for putting you through this situation.”

chan’s head falls down, almost resembling a pitiful child

“hey, don’t worry about it!” you lightly hit his arm in a playful manner. “we’re friends, so i don’t mind doing things like this for you. even though it’s hectic, i do find this sort of fun.”

just by your encouraging words, the ends of chan’s lips slightly move upwards in relief

“well, if you think that way then i’ll thank you for everything instead of apologizing.” he reaches for you hand, interlocking them together, as he pulls you down the hallways. “let’s get back to the party. if we’re gone for too long, everyone will start to question us.”

on a winter day, there was no need for you to crank up the heater

because chan’s hands were possibly warm enough to heat up your entire body

“before we leave, i just want to tell you something.” you pause, pulling chan back into the hallways. “i don’t think you’re an idiot! i’m sorry abut before. i was just joking around with your cousins and─”

you suddenly stop mid-sentence as you felt chan ruffle his hands throughout the top of your hair

“y/n, i didn’t take any of that serious. however, i do appreciate the fact that you’re apologizing for such a small thing.”

by the time you two walk back into the party

the loud voices of chan’s relatives infiltrate your guys ears

“stop right there!” jeongin yells in demand

confusion i am CONFUSION

“look what we have here!” minho says in excitement as he circles you two like a predator. “we have a couple walking underneath the mistletoe!”

mistletoe….?

your head shoots up and your eyes lay upon only one thing in the whole entire room

which was the mistletoe you and chan were currently standing underneath

shit

you’ve never kissed your best friend before and you had no idea that today was going to be the day that you overcome that mission

“you guys can’t enter the party unless the two of you kiss.” 

jeongin is scary for a small little teenager, you think to yourself

“oh my god! i’m so excited, i seriously thought chan was going to be single for his entire life.” minho, on the other hand, is more thrilled than you could ever be

and you’re the one who’s supposed to be kissing chan

“don’t be scared.” chan whispers, only wanting you to hear his voice

he was right

there was no need for you to be scared

BUT KISSING WAS NOT ON UR GUYS CONTRACT?????

and before you knew it

you and chan were kissing underneath the mistletoe

chan’s kiss wasn’t the same as those movie stars you see in those international netflix films you binge watch

instead, his kiss surprisingly felt like home

and everything around you (including chan) just felt absolutely right in that very moment

you’re not sure if your heart was racing because of the kiss you shared with chan or because you ate waaaay too many sweets at the dessert table

“AAAAAHHHH I ATE SO MUCH!” you gushed out, resting a hand on your stomach

“man, you really weren’t lying when you said that you were coming just for the food.” chan nonchalantly comments. “oh yeah, i forgot about the reason why i brought you outside”

chan’s hand vaguely searches throughout his pocket for a tiny box that only he was aware of

“here’s a little present for you.” he places a box within the palm of your hands. “merry christmas, y/n!”

you’re almost shot dead by chan’s warm smile (that happens to be much more brighter than the sun)

but you won’t let him know that

“chan, i can’t accept this!” you attempt to give the gift back, but chan wasn’t taking no as an answer. “i thought we agreed that we weren’t going to get each others presents this year?”

“well, i lied.” chan laughs to himself as if it was nothing. “listen, i’m thankful to have you in my life, so can you please accept this gift?”

in response, you nod your head in agreement

however, this isn’t going to stop you from buying a gift for chan in return

within the box was a necklace made exactly to fit your peculiar taste

it was more than you can ever imagine

“chan, i love it!” you immediately wrap your arms around him, pulling him into a tight hug. “can you put it on for me?”

“w─ why do you want to wear it so quickly?” he stammers over his words due to the sudden embrace

“because i like the gift, idiot.”

and i think i might also like you too, idiot

chan hesitates to lock the necklace around your neck

if you were to tell him to do this exact action a week ago

he wouldn’t hesitate

nor would he even bat an eye

however, this time felt so different compared to the other memories you two shared

somehow, he manages to wrap the necklace around the nape of your neck

did you always look this lovely? chan ponders to himself as he watches you admire your new gift as the cold winter breeze brushes by

“um, l─let’s head b─back inside!” chan speedily grabs onto your hand, pulling you inside the lively house

without a single thought, you noticed how chan constantly kept on fumbling over his words

instead of questioning it, you come to the conclusion that maybe the wind was causing him to do such a thing with his speech pattern

in reality, it was all because of you

“look!” the sound of your voice instantly catches chan’s attention as the two of you continue to hold hands. “it’s another mistletoe right above the entrance.”

chan releases a deep sigh. “my family is filled up with a bunch of hopeless romantics. why do you think i had to lie and say that i was in a relationship?”

“well,” you pause for a second before proceeding on. “do you want to walk underneath it?”

chan’s mind: JDOIJFPW292-?F900RI?/!<39/?????????

“you can say no. chan, i don’t mind.”

“wait, don’t think that way!” shades of pink begin to fill up chan’s cheeks. “i would actually love to walk underneath it once more with you.”

once again, the two of you found yourselves standing underneath the mistletoe

but this time

no one was chanting for the two of you to kiss

instead, the two of you voluntarily kissed

finally accepting your guys true feelings for one another