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so like....how many coincidences before u start to accept u might be having auditory hallucinations
#like im used to hearing things that arent there#like the shower or sink running when its not or a fan whirring when its not#and i hear voices on occassion??? never more than like a word#but just now i was scrolling thru tiktok waiting for my brother to get out the bathroom so i can shower#and i just hear someone like a male voice yell 'HELP HELP AHHH HELP ME#and it didnt sound like it was coming from outside it sounded like it was coming from INSIDE THE HOUSE#and ti certainly wasnt the video i was watching bc i had my tiktok on mute#i check all the rooms and both my parents are DEAD asleep so likely they didnt hear anything from outside or inside#then i BANG ON THE BATHROOM DOOR asking if my brthers alright#and he just opens it confused while brushing his teeth#i asked if he heard someone outside (the bathroom is kinda near the street so u can hear the noises outside from in there) yelling#and he said no#so like....whay do i do with this information????#omg im so will graham season 1 core#no but seriously...what
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who up seeing their disorder in a fictional character but feel like its not their place to put a name on it
#id have to be waterboarded before i can talk abt how i see a lot of my adhd and personality in mitsumi iwakura let alone post it#idk how to talk abt this without feeling like im talking over or invalidating ppls experiences relating with a character#someone was talking abt how ppl tie laios' autism to special interest and social difficulties but not much else which kinda flattens it#and then went into a respectful in depth analysis of other autistic behaviour that laios exhibits and it wasnt phrased meanly#its fascinating and important to me to hear someone explain a little bit abt traits that they recognized and often go overlooked#because it does help me learn more about it. but i think thats also where hesitancy kicks in when it comes to depicting it accurately#like i have adhd and some of my adhd symptoms overlap with autism (time blindness and pattern seeking behaviour) but that only means#it feels familiar to me even without having autism. on top of that traits arent always cleanly determined as being /caused/ by#a disorder. to understand my environment i compare it to something unrelated but similar to make it more familiar and for the longest time#i thought that was a personality thing and not an information processing thing since i loved playing pretend in my head as a kid#so if you make a character who experiences that hoping to reach people that also experience that and tell them its not weird or#smth youre making up like. thats the goal. ppl who dont get it arent expected to it just means it doesnt cater to them but it helps them#become familiar to it yk? since i dont have autism myself i dont feel confident i can depict it properly or explain it in my own words#but that doesnt mean im trying to dismiss it or try and cut it out completely.. ill just leave the floor open to someone who /can/#a lot of issues around fanon depictions are when smth is baselessly popularized or a characters personality and behavior is flattened#especially to fit them into a trending meme. its harmless and its supposed to be for fun but it gets tricky when you drag things that#need to be carefully explained beforehand or else it gets lost in translation. like that tweet abt 'hyperfixating' on cooking pasta#once it becomes popular language usually the original meaning is left out for the sake of simplifying it for everyone that when it#circles back theres a sort of hesitancy like. am i using it the way it was intended or am i unknowingly using the popularized version of it#actually thats probably why i felt wrongfooted during diagnosis bc it felt like i was misusing the words i heard to describe what i felt#i /know/ i see a lot of myself in mitsumi because our minds are always somewhere else and we tend to put good faith first and for me#that personal connection is enough. but idk it feels like its always gonna have to be 'palatable' first before i can talk abt it openly#mad respect to writers and creators who stick to their story even if theres the looming fear of ppl misinterpreting it and letting them#have it.. its been almost 2 weeks and i am so close to deleting that m3 dunmeshi drawing bc ppl keep saying chilchuck wouldnt have 200 HP#IT LITERALLY SAYS I MADE IT WHILE WATCHING EP 1. I USED EARTHBOUND LOGIC AND I WASNT EVEN TAKING IT SERIOUSLY CHILL#yapping
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going on my ao3 and seeing 29 fnaf works and 1 pokemon fic I posted last year is so 😭
#ive always wanted to write for gravity falls or paranorman/mystery kids but its so intimidating#because i hold it so high on a pedestal and i wouldn't want to mess it up and characterize anybody wrong#even though i know i would have a blast writing the vibes of both and matching their dialogue to their actual selves lol#thats one thing about fnaf#is that theres no canon to try to match#like theres no humor you can try to match or dialogue you can try to make feel like the characters so much you can hear it in their voice#or setting and atmosphere you can describe l#its pure fanon#but its fine to me because especially with flashlight duo i like coming up with my own of that stuff to put in#i want to actually try to focus on that next flashlight duo oneshot#put more into the vibe and feeling of the world theyre in#and make it distinct#its probably just because its me and im the one who wrote it and people who arent me who read my series#probably definitely have something in mind#but i think i could focus on it more#this is me wanting to use the enviroment again in my writing like i did in rabbit burrow lol#it was fun ok#pandas.txt#pandas talks#my fics
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“Little Things” was written by Fiona Bevan and Ed Sheeran.
#Im so sorry; there really arent many good pics of ed sheeran at 17#anywho- you always hear that ed sheeran wrote Little Things#but i rarely hear anyone mention how he and Fiona Bevan wrote it together; like 50/50#fun little fact for yall#sorry for the gap in facts 😭😔#1d#one direction#1dfunfacts#<- thats the main tag Im using btw
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bad astrology by flower face
#yellowjackets#jackieshauna#ITS DONE OMG ITS FINISHED#what do I do now. with my life (ranking)#also ive decided i am gonna do literary analysis. on all of em#literally i have NO idea if anyone cares. well. i do bc I care and tbh that's enough to me#<- guys look im living so healthy#anyways this was a blast#hope somebody has at least discovered flower face trhu me bc its one of my fav artists#mitos incredible life#mine art tag#also im sorry the like long scenes 3 and 4 arent on beat :/ i love that song but it has so long instrumental stuff and idk what to do there#ALSO!! i had it all planned out like at least half in my docs (like always)#and then in the middle i was like 'omg what if I only show jackie-after-the-argument and shauna-after-jackies-dead'#(excluding the argument and the flashbacks (they used to hear us thru the floor))#which was. restricting. very much#also meaning was changed (originally wanted jackie to have the line 'idc if ure not made for me' but the only scene i could think of was th#ure hungry for and that was the next scene already so.)#anyways this was originally gonna be lottienat before i started with The Shark In Your Water#bc I thiught it fit them SO well. (still do) but now I like have to get away from the jackieshauna thought and then ill do the lottienat#probably#omg also I want everyone (who has read this far. whoever would do that) to know i was running on like 25 screen#recordings and 3 jackieshauna scene packs form yt#that's why. I dknt have that many clips alright im not using like 10 scenes over n over on purpose#gotta go but im gonna make a wrap post thingy once im back slay#no actually I get like average 7 notes (<- that's a lie Idk bc I didnt count) but im proud of myself this is amazing#ive wanted to do smth similiar alr#but it was some album by alec benjamin and a different thing for every song (like a poem‚ a painting or a play)#but I lost motivation this is the first thing that i actually pulled though all the way I think#jackieshauna: The Shark In Your Water
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my issue with terminology discourse isnt that i think everyone's stupid and sensitive it's that literally nobody explains the meanings of things and then get pissy when people dont know what things mean
#like oh my GOD how do you expect people to know certain words arent For Them if you just. DONT TELL ANYONE#like i understand researching for yourself but ??!?!??! if you don't think its wrong in the first place why would you research it!??!?!??#like ok ive just seen a vid of this woman saying “thibgs im tired of hearing straight people say as a lesbian” and it was all yeah whatever#but the COMMENTS#someone asked why they cant be a bi fem if fem just means feminine and people were getting so mad being like#no you CAN. be a bi fem. you just cant be a bi FEMME.#like queen if they dont know why they can be a bi fem i dont think theyre gonna know what a femme is!!!!!!!!#dear god its annoying#like i get the issue with people misusing terms specifically for lesbians or queer people but oh my god#like genuinely just are you thick#if you dont Tell people what a pillow princess is how do you expect them to know they cant use that word to describe themselves??????#AND NONE OF THEM EVER EXPLAIN IT.#EVER.#oh my god i hate tiktok so much#i dont even know why i use it#blah blah!#not 75 stuff#to elaborate about getting pisst#i mean that they all expect everyone to google things but 1 google sucks atm and 2 how are you meant to find out whats legitimate informatio#and what's just completely fake unless you Tell Them#like. if you want people to stop misusing terms then you have to explain WHY#and DONT get fucking annoying about it being all like “lmao yeah i knew you wouldnt get it” because then theyre going to do it out of SPITE#like it's ridiculous genuinely
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me staring at my DAD when he said "if i see you have any f's during these 10 days.. things are gonna be bad. and by that i mean youre gonna get your tv taken. And youre gonna get no privacy. Meaning im going to take your door away" when i just wanted to go downstairs and get a fucking granola bar and NOT remember that if i fuck up once at school my privacy vanishes
#i am so fucking done with my parents my dad shouldve went with my mom to europe#hes more laid back and is not constantly checking to see what im doing (stares at my mom) but he is 100% more strict about things#also hes more how do i say this#“if you get emotional in front of me im going to start yelling at you instead of comforting and caring abt you” kinda person#like my mom cares about my emotions to an extent and my dad just fucking doesnt what in the world#i dont fucking care abt my tv that much its just my door that matters#at least i have backup plans in case he takes my door away#the plans arent solid and it may be more possible i could get caught but its better than nothing#EXTREME WORST CASE SCENARIO i keep fucking up and my parents put a camera in my room#then its literally over and i cant use my computer at ALL#if that happens maybe i can hide the computer in the bathroom cabinet and use it at night#idk if that would work#maybe i can hide it in my sisters old room's closet??? uhh idk maybe my mom would hear me walk to her room at night#lets just hope im not forgetting anything this weekend#i have to be better or else this stupid game gets harder and its easier to risk losing everything#closet rambles again on tumblr#goodness GRACIOUS was this a vent#sorry
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Atla live action 😐
#thats my honest reaction 😐#to be fair ive only seen 20 minutes of the s1 finale bc my parents are watching it but. mmmmm kinda mid#like. the casting is definitely an improvement since the last time they tried a live action but it feels like the writing falls flat#or maybe im being harsh bc ive only heard negative criticism on it beforehand. but fr anytime u bring up the original its already#good and not just because its the original. so much fucking detail went into it to the point of someone noticing azula wielding mai's knive#to how well thought out irohs character is used as a way of uniting the cast especially as zukos foil#i heard that sokkas sexism was toned down and i have to agree that feels like a cheap move. like i get WHY they think it would be better#but its not about how that reflects on real world its about how it affects the story. sokka starts out as a misogynistic asshole because#it makes it that much more impactful when he changes. toning that down makes it flatter and makes his character development weak#and someone pointed out they didnt even make him wear the kyoshi warrior uniform and i know it feels like such a small detail but#come on man. they did that in the original because not only does it help him really walk in their shoes - wearing 'feminine' clothing and#makeup and having suki explain its significance but it also ties in with the shows theme of harmony and intersectionality#i was also disappointed when they had the fire sages explain how the water tribe draws power from the moon because in the original it was#IROH who explained it to aang and everyone else BECAUSE we as the audience is under the impression hes with the 'bad guys'#and it builds up to how he learned from the other nations which reconciles his past as a war general and his character overall#AND its an excellent starting point for the cast and audience to understand how the nations arent as closed off as you would think#plus you would think its only fire nation doing propaganda but they expanded on that with earth kingdom censorship and it WORKS#a lot of things in the live action also feel arbitrary like. they gave momo a near death experience for 5 minutes for no reason#im firmly on the stance of bringing back filler moments instead of putting major events right after each other so that u give your#audience a sense of time passing and to really absorb the story. but i think thats more like shock value than filler and yeah its a small#thing to gripe about but those things build up and its really annoying. the thing abt avatar filler moments is that however small#its at least meaningful. hell even the beach episode emphasizes how isolated zuko and his friends are as child soldiers#i also swore to never watch the first live action since it was that bad but i really liked the stylized tattoos they used for aang#anyway. those arejust my thoughts. im not gonna watch the rest because im a ride or die for the original aftr growing up and#rewatching it at least 20 times as a kid. but theres definitely room for improvement and i wish ppl wouldnt take it as 'better' just cuz#netflix is adapting it. i wouldve killed for them to just reanimate the entire avatar series and touch NOTHING ELSE no redub#no changes to the story. just reanimate the thing and leave the rest alone and youd make easy money just the same#ALSO its very jarring not hearing jack desena and dante basco voicing sokka and zuko cause their voices were the most recognizable to me#i get that its because its live action but im allowed to feel a little sad abt that. and uncle irohs accent was really soothing#yapping
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last night i was on my phone and i fell asleep for a second and i literally woke up because i started hallucinating miku's voice
#maybe she just wanted me to put my phone down on my nightstand#so it wouldnt fall off my bed in the middle of the night and scare the shit out of me#guys im literally always hearing things that arent there its so funny#once i played splatoon for like five hours straight and i went to use the bathroom or something#and i hallucinated the splat bomb being thrown sound effect#i literally flinched so hard my first instinct was literally that if i did not move i was going to get splatted. literally What#once after i had also been playing legends arceus for a long time when i tried to sleep i started hearing the arceus nighttime song
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He won't leave my fucking friends alone.
#tales from diana#sorry this is about that bad friend i have to break up w that ive posted abt on and off the past couple weeks/months maybe#i still have to send him that final 'i dont wanna speak to you ever again'#ive been fucking busy ok. my summer has been full of family events and obligations#i have one brother getting married and the other having a baby!!! i have a LIFE and SHIT TO DO and PPL TO BE THERE FOR other than YOU!!!#i havent spoken to him in over 2 months too and he knows it's bc i don't want to#he's so difficult bc you can't fucking tell him the truth. you can't!!! he can't handle it!!! do you know how hard it is to handle???#the things i have to do to cut him off. because he doesn't respect normal fucking boundaries. make ME feel like im in the wrong#like im the shady person and the liar.#i can't drift from him bc hell pull me back#i can't communicate w him bc he won't hear anything i have to say he'll just turn it around & make it abt himself.#he literally does not understand ppl having motivations to do things that don't relate to him#and he has no sympathy for what he does to other ppl. nothing but self-pity for how they don't like him anymore.#if he dealt w someone who put him through half of what he put ME through. no he couldn't actually.#i only allowed him to manipulate me for so long because i cared abt him. who i thought he was.#and he just point blank period doesn't care about other ppl. so he could never go through what ive gone through w him.#i feel like all this friend breakup has proven to me is that im actually a good person and it can be used against me by ppl who arent#some fucking lesson i needed to learn huh?#i hate feeling as negatively towards anyone as i do towards him. it's so hard for me not to have at least#a little spark of hope deep down for everyone. even ppl ive removed from my life before. i dont HATE them#theyve disappointed me or insulted me or mistreated me but at least their motivations seemed simple and clear#and MOST of them seemed to understand SOMEWHAT that they were in the wrong#even if they don't admit it to me or still find an excuse to hate me. whatever#i can see them as ppl who might feel remorse someday and grow from it#i do not see it in this guy. bc if you have a problem w him he'll only make it 20 times worse.#he's so selfish it genuinely baffles me to think about it. and he's one of the least honest ppl ive ever known.#he'll never see the error of his ways. i do not believe he has that capacity.#and will i say none of this to him? no#im just going to say thanks for leaving me alone these past couple months. it's been good for me.#i don't think i can continue our friendship anymore for my own sake.
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"this house is so full of ghost activity!!"
the house:
#my post#im still on my skeptic shit#ill never stop being on it#these people really go into houses and buildings that are at least 100 years old and go 'wow! theres so many noises!'#or 'the temperature just dropped holy shit'#or 'woah why is this thing swaying lightly on its own!/this item shifted!'#as if old buildings arent made the way they were back then and also as if they werent heavily used by the time this happens lol#'listen to this recording! it sounds like [word or phrase!]' the recording in question: [see image]#sometimes i can KINDA hear what they hear but if i dont see what word they think it was. it literally sounds like a shuffle or wind or like#someone maybe just breathing slightly too loud LOL#i will say that the latest ghost investigation video i watched did have one of these that did sound like a person talking more than like#almost every other example ive ever heard. but get this: i still think it was fake#because tbh. i still think they faked a few things in that video to make it more interesting. and it was just a whisper so#so it didnt sound like a particular voice. it just sounded like anyone whispering#and couldve been said by one of them or edited in later#cause iirc they didnt react to it in the moment. only in editing#sooo anywayyy
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im so fucking overstimulated rn LMFAOOOOO the semester starting is going to kill me for REAL!!!!
#purrs#everyone is super great but also like... god. we're keeping our office door open and its so loud outside. we have ZERO private space in the#office and the interns are going to work in here now so me and the other professional staff cant like..h have conversations bc there are th#things the interns cant / shouldnt / arent ready to hear or know abt yet. (<- the irony of ME of all ppl saying that and holding firm to it#💀 but whatever.) and tmi as fuck but i have anxiety abt using public restrooms and over the summer they were all empty and now there are#people EVERYWHERE and i have to go so bad i feel like im gonna **** but all of the single stall bathrooms are constantly occupied and i#woudl rather die than use one of the multi stall ones so i guess i will just have to decompose until i get home 💀. this is a NOIGHTMAAAARE#and ppl are walking past the door and can see me and i feel so uncomfortable like. i want to jump out of my skin. at least no one can see m#screen anymore but idk how i feel abt them seeing my face. cosmo wanda i wish i had a private office and a private bathroom so fucking bad#its actually unreal. and we are going to be like this for the next 9 months LOL HELP!!!!!
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Why are so many posts about trans women being oppressed in some (factual) way now about how trans men are responsible for it and should be shutting the fuck up bc we don't have it that bad. Do you people look at what you post and think about the consequences of your words or do you just need an easy target while pretending you're speaking up for trans women
#crimson tomes#to be clear trans women have the capacity to be transphobic just as much as trans men and nb people you mockingly call women do.#im not saying trans men dont say shitty things. i am saying we arent youre oppressors. just as trans women arent oppressors.#point out when people do say transphobic shit but trans men growing a spine and saying this isnt an ok way to frame things isnt.#“”“mras”“” bc it sounds like you just want an easy way to dismiss people you dont want to hear about.#the only way out is to hear eachother out and listen and not act like either of us as groups have it easy. we have different problems#you cant keep trying to turn yourselves against eachother
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does anyone else who likes vocal synth stuff ever get nervous talking about it outside of spaces for that sort of thing because you feel like eventually some dumbass who knows nothing about how it works is gonna assume that its basically just ai generated song covers and get mad at you/lump you in with people who make that stuff
#in case anyone needs to hear it vocal synths and ai covers are not the same#the main problem people understandably have with said ai generated song covers/voices/whatever is the lack of consent/payment#which doenst happen with professionally made vocal synth voicebanks#becuase theyre always made with the voice of somebody who actually signed up to do that sort of thing and is being paid for it#most popular example that im sure all of you have heard of: hatsune miku#and also making a song or song cover in a vocal synth program takes just as much if not more#time and effort than it would to do it with a real persons voice#because vocal synths arent just ''push a button and they sing a song for you'' theyre more like instruments that sound like voices#and you still have to actually work with them and put effort in to use them . does that make any sense idk
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i miss louis sm
#so weird earlier i felt sad bc i dont get super excited about things anymore like i feel kinds disassociated#and it was making me sad bc i wanna be excited about louis things always hes my baby forever#and then i suddenly just got the most insane wave of missing him and i cant wait for next week its gonna be fun and cool#lile at this point there's no use stressing over things that arent Right he's doing what he's doing and im gonna enjoy it the way it is yk#like ive got too much going on rnto sit here and nitpick the negative aspects when this is the one thing that I really really enjoy#at the end of the day louis seems proud and excited and i am too !#cant wait to see him and hear him and all of that <333
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OH also I've never had a post breach containment and hope I never will but I would like no one to tag my posts as "X slur" in context of queer words. I don't use any of them in a negative connotation and am of course aware of the history. Just a boundary (I have like 20 followers most of which are mutuals who don't tag things like that anyways. Just a Thing. I like my posts not being reblogged just responded to or liked :) Or asks. Staying in my ecosystem)
#rambling#that one post? 100% talking about OPs boundaries#saying like. THEIR post they wouldnt like tagged like that#the lgbt community is HUGE and everyone will have their own boundaries#some people have trauma with words and still do#some people have healed from it and do not wish to be reminded of#or perhaps being seen as using those words in a negative context when they arent#not a great situation to be in since tags is how you filter but i hear theres#extensions that can posts with certain words used IN the post not just tags#so there is a way around it if we dont censor words#which is more of a tiktok thing than tumblr ANYWAYS#also i am always SO fucking worried and anxious about seeming#intolerance or ignorant of other peoples struggles#especially minorities#this isnt what im saying and i hope i used the proper language#if you have anything you want cleared up shoot an ask#i keep anon on for a reason!
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