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I hate the insistence in pushing Jason into the batfamily.
If he doesn't wanna go to dinner, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't wanna hang out with them, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't want to see them, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't even want to contact them, he doesn't have to.
It's so annoying to read fic and always see it presented as his Family Knows Better. Jason is just being silly by not realizing how much they love him and he just needs to let them break into his home and comms and life because they want him there.
#my dc posting#jason todd#red hood#batfamily#like genuinely how do yall write this shit n not realize how fucked it is#i hear jason say he doesnt wanna do something w his family and im like HELL YEAH ASSERT UR BOUNDARIES#him being strongarmed into dinner despite knowing its gonna be a shitshow n judged heavily if he doesnt show is like. a fucking staple#of fic and im SOOO done w it#do none of you think? really do you even think??#ig its the difference in perspective between viewing the batfamily as the Ultimate Good thing. the place they all should strive to be#instead of the mess of toxicity and stalking n abusiveness it is#and even in content where the batfamily is actually as healthy as they can be jason still doesnt have to do anything w em!!!#hes completely justified to not contact them. thats his fucking choice and boundary n writing his family prancing right past all that#does Not endear me to them sorryy!!#i once saw someone explain jason as low-contact and i was like. yeah. i love that. let me have that please#its not that i hate seeing him in the batfam. i just think it should be HIS choice
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does anyone want to kill me. for the bit...
#camera talks#sorryy#im fine#my head just hurts again and im really tired and i dont want to do work#im going to keep making things for the show on thursday actually#thats better than doing my late work el oh el <3#hmmmmm i dont feel good (like a person)#wha tever#i have things to look forward to so i have to keep being real so (live show. concert in august. musical in august (that one is cool))#i need to be okay. this isnt cool
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Can't believe how direct RSD can be sometimes. Had a small fight with my person a week ago and now its like they're nothing to me. Literally went from being in love and planning my with them to feeling kinda neutral about them. Like i dont hate them, i just. Dont care. They say they love me or say some cute flirty thing and my brain just goes "cool story bro".
Anyway how do you get back your feelings when your brain decided to Ctrl+F4 the whole fucking page? Asking for a friend, literally, cause i dont know what to say to them if i cant go back to how things were.
#i tried to take a few days to think on things#i tried to chill with them like nothing happened but#idk#all the stuff i thought was so charming before is just annoying now#all the shit i thought was cute is just meh#and they dont even know#it just makes me unconfortable#like when you're chilling with someone you dont really like and you're just waiting for them to go so you can chill in peace#and its Weird!!!!#i loved them!!!#isnt that fucked up?!??#anyway#sorry for the rant but#if i dont scream about it Somewhere its gonna burn me from the inside out etc etc#and also babe if you're checking on my tumblr cause im being weird welp#hii#sorryy#rsd
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#idk why im posting this and idek how to type this normally but#sorry for being boring and quiet the past few weeks (ig?)#theres been a loss in the family and woah idk how to type any of this and none of u really need to know nor do u guys care#some days ive been online like last week when i had the worst week possible at work and needed some other time to think#but i couldnt post images of pretty boys on the internet everyday sorry </3#yeah idk how to end this ill probably be boring and quiet the next few days too#sorryy?#idk how to deal with this properly idkkdkkkkkk#🦀
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Noir@Wisteria: "MY goodness you are such an adorable little ghost !" he said adoring the Misdrevius looking her over "Your little ears almost remind me of a cat, perhaps you were a cat in past life? Perhaps a meowth..." he purred almost out daydreaming "Perhaps may I hold you ?" his fatherly like instincts just wanted to take care of the smaller ghost he opened his feelers "Like a hug? Sorry am I too much?" he got worried now gulping slightly
Wisteria: Hey, wait!
Wisteria: I've always been a ghost, I didn't die!
Wisteria: I even had a family! Don't worry you'll see when they come back! They'll tell you I've always just been a ghost!
Wisteria: They'll come back... soon... they just forgot me. They'll be back soon, you'll see.
Wisteria: Oh!
Wisteria: We don't need the monster cat anyway! Wisteria: This one's better, and pretty, and nice.
North: Awww she likes you! I've never seen her warm up so fast!
North: Sorry, Wisteria, I would love to keep them but I don't catch pokemon without their permission.
North: They're still welcome to be part of our family even if we can't! But um... We're not replacing Atlas either, that'll make him super duper sad!
#north varron#wisteria ferus#Chapter 1: Familiar Faces#damn wisteria really said lets forcfully make them part of our family#that just means she really likes noir 🤭#sorryy you get human north bc im still working on her pokemon icons🤣#Also random thank you to sleepy (the person who sent this ask) for being the one who designed norths pokemon form#hehehe#good pokemon design#all chrono
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I really can't describe how much I love kafka, I know it's become a meme but I was in it before and will be here after. I love his SENTENCES, I could sleep in them and build a house, there's still no one who could make sentences like that
#when people tell me they resd it in translation and didjt really like it or get it#im sorryy.... the best part cant be translated#p
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I think (as much as I annoyingly complain and whine about not having a partner) being single this long has been good for me. I'm learning a lot about myself and I'm learning why I was a shit person, and through finding the root of the problem I can kind of... start to heal. I can be nicer to myself so I can grow and get better. Because TBH.. being mean and cruel to yourself doesn't make you become a better person. It just makes you believe that thats what you /are,/ and thats what you /always will be,/ as opposed to realizing that you are a product of your circumstances but that does not mean you can't get better and become a better person. Accepting help and trying to get better so you can eventually love yourself – even if no one else does – is the greatest and loveliest thing you can do for yourself. You deserve that love, you exist and you live and you feel and that is a truly beautiful gift.
#uhm well anyway I hope everyone finds people and a place where they feel safe and loved#I'm feeling really emotional sorryy#basically. tldr; found the problem! trying to get better now through loving myself instead of hating myself#its been really hard. its going to be really hard. I feel like ive barely made any progress#I wish I had a therapist to talk about this stuff with. but I dont.#btw the uh root problem: finding out my mother was actually hugely abusive & I already knew my dad was#so basically ive been having to confront the fact that Ive been living a lie and my mother is actually deeply terrible as much as my dad#and my parents should have never had children & ive never had one single decent adult in my life#so basically uhm yea lol. I was born into dysfunction. I was never going to turn oit normal or okay.#so its been hard to like. figure all that out alone. learning I have ptsd and extreme ocd + dissociation because of them hasnt been easy#its made me so deeply miserable because I guess I assumed what my mom was doing to us was normal this whole time?#because I thought no. surely not. surely i cant have TWO terrible parents. I need at least 1 good one right?#but yea no actually every adult has hurt me in some way. and I was never going to turn out alright because#I am the king of obsessing and cycling over everything in my life#Im like. not okay right now but not being im in danger just because I wish I had someone to talk to about all this.#I just need to learn to drive so I can get out of here. I need to get out like#all these realizations have been really really heavy on me and ive been having trouble sleeping#Its been hard to process and I dont really know where to go from here. I guess I cant properly heal and grow until I move out?#idk this has been really long im so sorry.#vent#tw vent#tws ->#abuse ment#parents ment#<- in tags
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If I may be so bold as to ask, what are your favourite Eichi stories?
Fav eichi stories... every story eichi is in is blessed and made wonderful by his presence alone... that aside, jingle bells and milky way and of course element & checkmate my favorite reminis... black tea too is a favorite. OH. EP:LINK how could i forget my darling...my darlink if u will... but theres also circus and quarrel fes i loved...daydream..............
#pensive emoji i really do love most eichi stories#a bit sad his center in !! was to me more a yuzuru story but i didnt care abt eichis grandma at all i think i just had higher hopes#but i can make any story where eichi was there for a few scenes Be About Eichi so#supernova. shinsengumi. wonder game. king's horseback ride. requiem even#all awesome stories by themselves but eichi's presence although small enhanced them#thats not even true eichi's presence there wasnt small it was essential#stories without him in it are about him too. can you tell im half asleep i dont feel like im being coherent#ALTERED. I FORGOT HER#diner live was cute too it has my 2 favorite temporary units once again there eichi is the 5star but i end up thinking about#other things in that story besides him mostly#im rereading this it is all over the place sorryy#ask#anon
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fox, honey, i am such a gossip please tell me what you are talking about :O :]
hfdkgfmhh idek why im tiptoeing around it honestly :') im talking abt ger*rd way (<- censoring so my post doesnt show up in searches) being an orientalist (+ related stuff) and how ive seen a couple posts abt that but some bigger mych*m bloggers never ever mentioned it? and like idk maybe all videos/interview snippets/etc of them fetishizing asian women were from 2008 and gw*y isnt like that anymore but its not really abt him and more abt like. how do u spend your entire day posting abt someone and all of the great things they did for music/queer ppl/whatever but not Also talk abt the other stuff yk
#but as i said i dont really know a lot abt the band in general so. idk it just feels a little like back in the spn days when some ppl would#act like the show's homophobia was worse than the racism or when there was a big popular post abt how kaia was harmful indigenous rep and#everyone talked abt it for 3 days and then moved on and kept talking abt her as if nothing had happened.. not exactly the same thing#obviously but im feeling the same kind of weird. dissonance#asks#sorryy for the late reply i had lunch <3
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fan non-français de bd mais qui est exclusivement à fond dans les trucs genre bigard en bd caméra café ( la bd ) le guide de la cinquantaine ( en bd ) les 3000 bd nazes de Bamboo sur divers types de boulots ( avec une préférence pour les Gendarmes )
#this is not really an international blog post sorryy#im still loving to realize lately that some french comics or cartoons that i wouldnt have guessed to be popular internationally at all#actually have a small very dedicated international fandom#but like what if some people had a special interest for like the more.. the less.... the kinda bad bande dessinées .. ..#its pretty easy to be like a non-french Franquin or Moebius fan and look cool about it#what if you were really into Les Blondes though#also is there an international fandom for Tchô comics actually ?? this is outside of my previous point those are good actually#but like more recent so idk#Lou DID make it onto that bd character contest so there's at least her#easy mode though shes got lesbians#shevr
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people think i dont like school but i fucking LOVE school it gives me something to do that actually doesnt make me feel like i will die a sad and lonely death in the near future.
i fucking do not like being in CROWDS of my noisy dipshit peers.. my weird fucking nervous tics and vivid hypotheticals of my body being mutilated have increased tenfold!! save me weird fanfics.. weird fanfic.. save me..
#not art#personal#vent#<- ? fuck it whatever i dont care. i do get violent a lot in this sorryy#theres no reason for me to stay in-person rather than scuttling back to online#but my parents get the final say.. if i just fucking skip whos gonna care.#i technically failed a class last year but the school pushed me through because#i had previously gotten very high marks in that particular class (english)#like im talking 93 to 97 percent here#THANK FUCK FOR THAT#donnot think i could pull that shit with aaaany other class#i regret taking visual art tbh#mostly because we had to use charcoal which makes the most heinous sound humanly fucking possible that makes me wanna rip my skin off#but also.. mixing your fun hobbies with work is just. bad. im too burnt to draw for myself ALREADY#<-though i diiiid have a busy day so maybe. ugh nvm i could not give a fuck#i dont know what to do. i dont wanna go back#start chugging mouthwash and silica gel to get sent to er? am i really at that point already??#uuuuuuuuugh#just clicky clacking at my keyboard. back to the fics i guess ahahhahahahahahahaaaaa. help.
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>tried to be ultimate good friend by never talking to ky friends abt my issues because they were too extreme
>now have no one who cares
#this is ENTIRELY my fault#even if they wouldnt have listened to me no matter what i sure couldve sussed that faster and eventually found people who would#sorryy im just after seeing debs pics from people in primary and feel awful upset now that 1) im not going#(self sabotage + insecurity + the whole suicide mindset i still have + no way in fuck would my parents. yeah)#and 2) just not supplementing it w anything ☹️☹️ my friends get to celebrate and be celebrated the world over for doing their leaving +#graduating. its just me and my dear friend not going#i made a vent art thing ages ago abt that NEVERRR to post i would never. but just how neither of us are going debs#but her family wouldve killed to have her go and now she never can. and how im not going out of choice#and how awful i am for not taking opportunity while im alive and shes not#but. nothing will ever like make me feel happy. as im learning#this summer has really been me coming to terms w the fact i do have depression and just will never be ‘happy’ as a default#will never. be able to do things#im Sick is what i am. its lit a sickness#and treating it likethat instead of fighting it might unfortunately be the realistic and rational and best way forward#which is very embarrassing for me and so hard to accept because ive always been a Fi. no i Was a fighter#and then she passed away i just crumbled lol. im still not half the person i used be#i used likeeee strive for greatness. because its all i could do and i had to fight for a better life as a gay person as someone w a rough#fam. but then she died and nooothing was ever worth it again. whats the point if people can just die so suddenly#she deserved so so so much. the world like#sorry debs just makes me think of her. of course it would like#.. can i hust be evil now and say i wish my friends wouldve. wanted me to come#THEYRE NOT MY FRIENDS ! i have this sorted. this has been established.#i need ro get over that. or rathee have them stop coming to ky mind#im talking
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i have a random video in my gallery of eng chrome (ty avil ily avil) that i just look at whenever i need to laugh BUT I FEEL BAD FOR LAUGHING AT HIM but. victoreh,,,,,,,,,,,
#sobs. im sorryy chrome im sorry i know it's not your fault you're british :((( im sorryyy. but. you're funnyy.........#commondont..............wuhk.......................chrome im sorry............#ari.stuffs#f/o: chrome#he sounds like a really funny imitation of what chrome sounds like in my head (not british though mind you 😭)
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Being a superhero fan means I am always going to bat for Justimon over Cyberdramon sorry. But also No i'm not I think Cyberdramon looks like ass
#dinu yells into the void#dinu yells in the void#dinu watches digimon#digimon#IM SORRYY BUT CYBERDRAMON IS A SHIT DESIGN…..#as a whole im not a like furry or a scalie etc#so most of the digimon designs I do really like are the ones that are humanoid or like robotic or like. monstery without being anthros#i do appreciate and like a lot of the anthro designs anyways like stingmon or leomon but cyberdramon is just like#its UGLY its a weird ugly rubber dragon guy. WHO CARES. so many more cooler dragons in digimon.#i also just. vastly prefer the lore for Justimon. again. im a superhero guy and I like goofy earnest superhero characters#in MY opinion the ideal justimon line is actually starmon to superstarmon to justimon i think it’s more interesting but that’s just me#ryuji's cyberdramon from hackers memory though is okay i like him. i thought his story was sweet.#but meeting Ryo and his cyberdramon and im just like EUGH. you are nawt fucking Ryuji from hackers memory and his cyberdramon/Justimon.
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if i had control of the interent for a day every log into pornhub will result in an immediate swatting and every women creating an onlyfans account will instead be given a scholarship to harvard engineering
#feminism#like no really.. slay#some cumbrain would pprobably scream at me for being a prude puriteen like im sorryi care about the lives of women
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Haiii idk how to word this but basically season 10 spencer reid seeing reader in a backless dress nd hes all flustered but also really attracted to her ? idk if i worded this right sorryy
green dress | spencer reid x fem!reader
warnings: mention of scar, uncomfortable body image! fem reader
word count: 1.5k
a/n: thank you for your request!! i hope you enjoy this<3 requests still open, im getting through them! reblogs n comments always appreciated <3
you’ve always been insecure about how you looked in dresses, especially backless ones.
a year or so ago when you were out on the field, an unsub had managed to corner you and stabbed you in the back resulting in a scar a few inches long that rested between your shoulder blades.
even before the incident you weren’t keen on showing off much skin, but now the scar made you even more self-conscious.
you often found yourself shying away from outfits that revealed too much, particularly those that might expose the mark left behind from that encounter.
the fear of judgment and the constant reminder of that day made it difficult for you to feel confident in anything but the most modest clothing, so when you went out dress shopping, and penelope pulled out a backless dress she could immediately sense your discomfort.
you were out with penelope and emily, using your very rare day off to go dress shopping for agent rossi’s annual ball he liked to host in his mansion.
a frown graced your features as penelope held up a simple dark green satin dress with a plunged neckline and, of course, it was backless.
emily noticed your frown, turning around in one of the many dresses she had tried on in the last hour. this one was by far the nicest, it hugged her nicely and the shade of red complimented her striking features.
“c’mon y/n, you’ll look so good.” emily hummed, smoothing down the dress on her form as she looked in the mirror.
“i- i don’t know guys- you know that’s not really my style.”
“oh but it could be- just try it on please!” penelope practically begged, shoving the soft fabric into your arms. despite your dislike for showing off your body, you knew this would make the girls happy so you obliged, stepping into the changing room and drawing the curtain closed.
penelope and emily waited anxiously for your return, still adorned in the dresses they were also trying on. penelope opted for a bright pink number, with many layers of tulle, very much her style.
you slid the curtain back, taking a step out and shuffling awkwardly towards the mirror where the girls sat. their expressions ranged from shock to excitement, penelope had a huge grin on her red stained lips.
“you look perfect!” she squealed out, adjusting her thick framed glasses to get a better look at you.
emily nodded in agreement, her dark eyes scanning how the dress hugged your form. “wow..you’ll be the prettiest at the party.” she chuckled.
you stood in front of the mirrors, turning slightly so you could get a look at how the dress sat on you. you had to admit, it suited your figure well, accentuating your curves. you turned to see the back of the dress, it cut rather low, stopping just before the small of your back.
your eyes flickered up to the scar on your back, you instinctively rolled your shoulder blades back. “i- i don’t know…” you mumbled out under your breath.
penelope shook her head. “you look amazing- you have to get it.”
still uncertain you sighed, “i feel so exposed- im not used to this.”
emily glanced towards penelope, a smirk turning up on her lips before she spoke. “that’s spencer’s favourite colour you know..” she muttered out half casually.
instantly you could feel a rush of warmth spread to your cheeks, the thought of spencer seeing you at the party in a dress like this made you nervous. you shot emily a fake glare which she returned with a knowing smile.
“so….yes to the dress?” penelope quizzed, eyes wide as she waited for your answer. you paused for a moment, chewing on the inside of your cheek.
“fine..”
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it was the night of the party. guests were arriving, music was blaring, derek and spencer were standing near the punch bowl.
as you walked in, you could feel the buzz of excitement in the air. the soft fabric of the dress clung to your skin, making you more aware of every movement you made. emily and penelope flanked you, their presence giving you a bit of courage.
you scanned the room, heart pounding, until your eyes landed on spencer. he was deep in conversation with derek, but as if sensing your gaze, he turned. his eyes widened slightly when he saw you, and a small, appreciative smile played on his lips.
spencer’s figure adorned a deep green suit, complimented with a black shirt and tie, the colour a few shades darker than the dress you were wearing. your eyes flickered away, as you whispered to penelope.
“did you know-“ she cut you off with a small smirk. a breath escaped your lips as you drew closer to the two men, emily and penelope not leaving your sides incase you decided to make a dash for it.
“wow you ladies look incredible.” morgan whistled lowly, penelope and emily as if on que, abandoned your side, linking arms with derek. “i’ll see you later lover boy.” morgan shot back to spencer as he lead the two women away from you.
spencer’s eyebrows furrowed at morgan’s comment, his gaze quickly fixing back on you.
spencer's eyes widened as they fell on you. his jaw dropped slightly, and a rosy hue crept up his neck to his cheeks. he fumbled for words, clearly flustered.
"y-you look... amazing," he finally managed to stammer out, his voice barely above a whisper.
you felt your own cheeks warm at his reaction, your heart fluttering. you took a step closer, your eyes meeting his, and you could see the genuine awe in his gaze.
"thank you, spencer" you replied softly, a shy smile playing on your lips. despite feeling so out of place and out of your comfort zone in the dress, the way spencer looked at you made you feel…confident.
he cleared his throat, trying to regain some composure. "i mean, —you always look nice, but tonight... you look... stunning."
the sincerity in his voice made your heart skip a beat. spencer, usually so composed and articulate, was completely gobsmacked, and it was all because of you.
his gaze shifted to the dress again, now noticing the low cut, how it showed off your back and the scar between your shoulder blades. he felt a surge of warmth rush to his cheeks, his breath practically getting caught in his throat.
"i, uh," he started, his eyes still locked on you, "i didn't expect... i mean, wow." he let out a nervous chuckle, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly, soft brown locks falling over his face.
"it's just a dress…” you said, though you felt a thrill at his reaction.
"no," he shook his head, his gaze unwavering, "it's not just the dress. it's you. you're... breathtaking— you’ve always been breathtaking.”
his words left you momentarily speechless, the intensity of his gaze making you feel both exhilarated and shy. you took another bold step closer, your hands lightly brushing against his.
"spencer, i.." you began, but the words failed you. instead, you let your eyes speak for you, hoping he could see the effect he had on you.
he took a deep breath, his fingers trembling as they curled around yours. “—you’re- god.. you’ve always been so beautiful- and i should’ve said something earlier— told you sooner..”
your eyes widened as he spoke, the taller man taking a step closer to you, his hand resting at your waist, his fingers brushing against the exposed skin on the backless dress. your breath hitched slightly at his warm grasp.
“i— fuck.” he mumbled out, for once in his life spencer found himself unable to formulate a sentence, to describe how he felt about you. he had longed for you, for months, years even..and now he had the chance to just tell you.
your eyes flickered over his facial expression, the pale pink hue deepened as he brought his gaze back to meet yours. his dark eyes traveled down to your lips once more.
he wanted nothing more than to just kiss you right now, the way the light made your skin glow, how the dress wrapped around your body- the low cut back, it was all too much for him.
spencer leaned in, his lips brushing against yours in a soft, tentative kiss. it was gentle at first, filled with the unspoken feelings you both had kept hidden for so long.
as the kiss deepened, you felt a surge of warmth and happiness, a feeling of rightness settling over you. his hands moved to your hips, pulling you closer, and you responded by wrapping your arms around his neck, losing yourself in the moment.
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