#like i’m not saying you CANT post about other things. it’s not a strike rn after all! but it’s not like rb’ing a donation post & rb’ing a

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why isnt palestine - or any related tag - trending, just after a strike week & aaron bushnell’s self-immolation [bbc] [al jazeera (opinion piece)] [wikipedia] & the palestinian prime minister announcing that his government is resigning [ny times] [al jazeera] ?…… so much going on and yet palestine isn’t even in the top 10, it’s under many fandoms & hobby tags.

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YES I KNOW THAT HE’S MY EX! | TOM BLYTH

pairing. tom blyth x fem!actress!reader

summary. you knew tom was your ex, and that you should probably stay away, but that’s never stopped you before

part 1 | installment of this au (please read for more context!)

ynuser :)

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user1 im loving the aesthetic

user2 THE BIKINI TOP IS SO CUTE

user3 put them toes awayyyy

rachelzegler i pay attention to things that most people ignore (this isn’t your car.)

➥ user4 PLEASE?? not rachel using yn’s own lyrics on her

➥ user5 IS THIS TOM’S CAR??

user6 i may be delulu but those r tom blyth’s mfing hands.

user7 he has her hair tie on; i repeat, tom blyth literally has yn’s hair tie on

When Tom had messaged you saying he wanted to talk, no matter how much you knew it was a bad idea, you decided to agree to it anyway.

The breakup had ended pretty badly. Although it was an agreement between you and Tom, that didn’t mean that’s what the both of you truly wanted.

The reason the two of you broke up in the first place was that Tom was talking too much about your future, which wasn’t a bad thing — but it overwhelmed you. You weren’t ready to settle down, not yet, at least. You and Tom had only been dating for a few months, and although it was all sweet and loving, you knew that getting engaged this early was like asking for a disaster to strike.

He was upset. Clearly. He loved you, you loved him, so why was it such an inconvenience for you to agree to take the leap in your relationship? That caused a blown out argument between you two, and by the end of it, you had agreed breaking up was the right thing.

You had a acting and music career to focus on, and Tom had an acting career that was just at the beginning of its success. You felt that it wasn’t right to put a distraction into his life.

“Is this a bad idea?” You ask breathlessly as you pull away from the kiss. You can’t help but stare into Tom’s eyes, which held a language of their own.

“Maybe,” he says, wiping the corner of your mouth. “But who cares?”

Who cares. Right. Well surely, it was a bad idea to meet up with your ex, much less kiss him, and although alarms were baring in your head that you probably shouldn’t—you go in for a second kiss, this time, Tom doesn’t let you go, cradling you close to his body.

“I don’t care if you don’t want to take the next step in our relationship, I’m fine if you’re not ready yet. I just want you, okay?”

And how could any girl possibly reject Tom Blyth when he’s begging so prettily? Certainly not you.

tomblyth and ynuser both posted an instagram story !

ynsbiggestfan THE GIRLS AND I AFTER SEEING THE STORIES ON INSTA

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user8 IM ACTUALLY DYING BC NO WAY WAS THAT A COINCIDENCE

user9 they’re connected they cant be far away from each other

user10 she’s my Heather 💔💔

➥ user12 fr i wish tom was that inlove w me

user13 so this is why rachel said that wasn’t yn’s car

➥ user14 ITS ALL MAKING SENSE NOW

sean.kauf photo dumpy

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ynuser pic creds ?? 🤬

➥ sean.kauf ����🤓

user15 wait im confused, is she together with tom again or is she with sean..

user16 Ykw i cant even be mad, if i was as hot as yn, i’d have two bfs too!

➥ user17 REAL SHIIT

tomblyth fun fact: the 2nd pic is sean third wheeling after forcing me and yn to speak to each other

➥ user17 TOM CONFIRMED IT IM DEAD

user18 all the yn haters must feel stupid asf rn after accusing yn of being with sean

➥ user19 literally cause all 3 of them are literally close 😭😭 like why would sean date yn, he’s literally friends with tom

user20 if yn isn’t dating sean let me have him omg

ynuser yes i know that he’s my ex but can’t two people reconnect !!!!!

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user21 this took the cake.

user22 time to cry again bc tom blyth is off the market

user23 she got him wrapped around her finger FR

user24 THE THIRD PIC OF THEM 🥹🥹

user25 THE CAPTION OUUU GIRLY IS BRAVE

tomblyth i only see you as a friend (the biggest lie i’ve ever said)

➥ user26 I CHOKED

➥ user27 THEIR SOCIAL MEDIA MANAGERS ARE CRYING RN

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ASKA AREADER EMME BEGINNING: 1, 8 BEST: 4,5,6 WROST: 2,3,5 PRESENT: 7,8,10 PLEASE N THANK U

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got long so under the cut!!

Beginning:

1. When did you start reading fanfiction? 

Hmmm I think I was about ten?? Maybe 11?? It was in fifth grade and I had just gotten my own tablet without parental controls so probs not the best situation but hey, what can you do, im here now and never leaving.

8.  What was your first fandom? Are you still in that fandom now?

Warrior Cats I think? Its the first one I considered a ‘fandom’ at any rate, and I wrote stuff for it without realizing what fanfiction was?? I was like. 9.  But the First Actual Fandom where I knew what was going on was Sonic The Hedgehog. Its been a wild ride guys. 

Best:

4. Who is your current favourite author? What is their best story?

Currently demonsLOver on ao3!!!! I’m reading through their fics rn. Their fics are kind of on the dark side but I really love how they are interpreting different events and such in one piece!! It just all hurts me :))) The one that drew me towards them was Coming Into Focus which explores Luffy post Marineford. Heavy topics, but a good read. I will also suggest dirty dirty carnivore by Civillain because heck another one of my favorite authors!! I just have a bunch of favorite authors okay.

5. Which story have you read more than any other? How many times?

Embers by Vathara. Yes, it 700k+, yes I have read it multiple times repeatedly, I think at least seven at this point?? maybe eight?? In full I guess? Its just. Really good guys, and the way vathara connects stuff in their story has helped me realized how I should work on interpreting and connecting stuff in mine. Plus its like, political, but political I can understand and very fun.

6. What is your favorite story trope? Why?

FOUND FAMILY FOUND FAMILY FOUND FAMILY - okay, but 1) Captain and first Mate dynamics and 2) when the story does the thing and ends with a character saying half the line and then it cuts to another scene where the different character finishes the other half of the line. Idk if its a trope but its probably on tvtropes somewhere lol

WORST:

2. What word or expression always makes you cringe when you read it?

Ejaculate but especially like. used for speaking. :/

3. Is there anything that makes you nope out of a story? What is it?

Extremely poorly characterized characters to the point where its not even anything like the canon character or even the fanon interpretation of the character. I’ll typically read a chapter or too then just. Bye. Also when the story doesn’t make sense like they edited out a scene and forgot to put it back in. It stresses me out fgjyhkl

5. What character that fandom loves are you just kinda “meh” about? Why?

Oddly enough, Law?? Like, he’s good and all but if I had to pick between reading about his experience or say, Robin’s experience, I’d choose Robin. I prefer reading him in conjunction with other characters but I don’t like it when the focus is all about him?? Idk. Personal Preference tho I do love all the Law jokes lol

PRESENT

7. Why did you leave your most recent comment? Will you share it with us?

I thought this said where at first, so i left it on Like Ink Through Her Veins by grainjew!  and why, because the fic devestated me and its just two lovely characters who have neverr interacted interacting and Vivi Time Skip material. Absolutely excellent fic in one of my favorite series (because LOYALTY I SOB) and I wont share the comment because it was some of the lines in the fic I screamed about but guys. Seriously. Go read it!!

8. Which fandoms do you read fic for?

One Piece (duh), Fullmetal alchemist, Avatar The Last Airbender, Transformers, marvel occasionally, Harry Potter only in crossovers, bnha when I feel like reading some aus… I read Naruto despite never reading/watching the series?? OH! And PJO, Destiny occasionally, Fairy Tail, Batman + Justice League, but only AU’s when everything is happy…. Think thats it?? Whatever strikes the mood tbh or I need to reread a good fic.

10. What is one story idea you really want to read but no one has written yet?

The thing is for me if I cant find the fic ill write the fic but….. I really want a fae luffy fic but set in the op world. That’d be lit, but I have no plans for it, so someone write it please!! Also 50k+ of Ace and The Spades acclimating to the WB pirates and not just Ace

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ask me something from this ask meme!! 

[survivormetaverse]

Episode 14 - "This will be a fun finish" ~Amy

I'm so sorry Colin. I really thought you'd play your idol. I didn't mean to send you home, just weaken you. I was hoping to pick between Amy and Elle to send out 😬 

Sigh... I miss him 🥺 I think I'm gonna try to self-destruct this round. Keep you posted ❤️✨

Wait so Amy just told me they swapped the votes last minute on Anastasia, so she would've gotten 3 votes or something. Did nobody catch on that she had immunity then? 

Ahahahahaha fuck Colin somehow went home and it's partly my fault but it was a mix of a mess. Colin really believed jodi and jared were voting with him to get josh which seemed odd from the start. I have been talking and I think I know or as much as I can. I was the sole vote on jodi lol but I didn't get the memo to do anastasia until 859 and didn't have time to switch so I thought it would still be okay but somehow elle colin and I all voted differently lol whoopsies. Now I'm told jared used his idol on jodi but if Josh knee we were split I don't think he did. I think anastasia actually voted colin with Josh and Jared. Anastasia And jodi aren't budging that they voted elle so I guess jared could have given her the necklace to get colin. I am just so mad I didn't vote the same as elle 🤦🏻‍♀️ I'm hoping josh believes elle used an idol so he votes with me and elle. I might need to use my steal this go and that would get it to 3-3 minimum and if Josh voted with me it would be 4-3 but I think Jared still has his idol. I am legit so sad about colin like I obviously flipped to save him and legit wanted him to win and I would come in second lol now I'm worried I won't make it bc Jodi is spreading I have an idol and obviously josh wanted to flush idols last round that's why he did that. I know hosht wants anastasia in his f3 but I'm just hoping he wants jared and or jodi out more but I think he wants me and elle out ☠️ the fact is if jared still has his idol he's safe now but he need to make it seem like we are voting him. I'm just so confused about the last one hahahaha I was going around asking like I'm not mad just confused lol. And I called colin before talking through everything and myself and elle I guess said I think we are fine ☠️ I can't believe it honestly just shocked. That's the thing like even when I said jared was lying to colin whichever round before colin was still trusting him and look jared did it again he is good at lying haha shooooot. This will be a fun finish. F6 and I just don't know how it's going to end. Rn I think I'd like any mix of elle josh or anastasia at the end WITH me but I won't be surprised if it's them but also elle said they might self destruct. So basically I don't know if I should use the steal and save my idol or just idol since I think it will be live. I guess if elle just says vote me out but like I need their number the next round. If I idol then elle votes with me next go, we'd be okay until 4. That's probably as far as I'm making it lol. That's my update 😭😭😭😭 sorry colin I wish you were still here

Nothing. This round really scares me because playing in the middle could really come back to haunt me. I wouldnt mind Jared leaving then i could have a better chance of winning immunity but at the same time all these advantages and Elle’s potential idol scare me. Jared revealed that i was the one who flipped last round but im reassuring her that it was just to flush idols.

My brain wheels are turning and Im realizing how scary this round is. Me Jared or Jodi will probably be leaving unless we play exactly right. There is a steal a vote so we cant split vote... So we would have to vote either Amy or Elle and pray they dont have an idol. Also Josh is with us now yayy!! And Josh talked to me about us voting to make a move not necesserily with everyone else so we can build our resume. We just need more info at this point. Elle literally told Jodi to vote her what. And Amy isnt talking to me that hard so I think Amy has an idol maybe idk 

OKAY! Amy has a single vote blocker and we don't trust Josh bc he voted Colin (even admitted it smh have shame man COLIN IS DEAD he's not dead but i do miss him hi Colin reading this❤️). I talked to so many ppl today why does everyone want me for my brain lol it's like the opposite end of objectifying someone 😂 I'M MORE THAN AHIGHLY DEVELOPED HIPPOCAMPUS, YOU GUYS 💔 jk jk anywaysss Video called with Jodi she is so sweet ❤️ also so stressed :( hate to see it also sorry everyone I told that I didn't have anything I didn't at the time??? But then Amy gave me her vote blocker so That's gonna be a thing tonight lol. Here's the plan: - Told Josh to vote Jodi bc he's too insecure of an ally now to trust that Amy and I are actually voting... - Jared, who may or may not still have an idol idk but he's annoying me with the question of it all lol use it or lose it at this point (but ty Jared for wearing pink all the way back 💖 still have not spoken to you sicne May lol) - Use the vote blocker on Jared's vote Any believes they're voting her and I believe that's likely! Who knows lol either way: 3 Elle/Amy 2 Jared 1 Jodi (maybe) Vote blocker used, now it's 2 Elle/Amy, 2 Jared, 1 Jodi Revoteeeee Elle or Amy, Anastasia, Jodi, and Josh get to revote (or something, i forget how this game works whatever I'm fine with whatever happens tonight and I'm bored of confessing oop! Amy just told Josh I have a vote blocker bc she transferred it to me 😂 and earlier I told Josh I didnt (bc I didn't) oml so help me I try to plan so enatly but then this game get messy anyway... xoxo, gossip girl

I am not sure what to do. I wanted to do a 3-2-1 on Elle and Anastasia, but it's so risky as Amy essentially can control what the outcome of this vote is. Elle and I had a weird call. they said that they "expected to self destruct in the early merge", and "feel free to vote" for them, they "don't really want to win". That's practically code word for "I'm going to idol you out of this game". Also, I studied the Stings series wiki to see that Colin has idoled before in a previous invisible round, so that's why I thought he'd idol here. I also realized after revisiting that today might actually be a reward challenge for information from the invisible round, since that's also what happened in that same season. We must be there for tonight, it's only 10 minutes (according to Amy) but heck, we got a plan anyways. 

Wow, my first written confessional! This is only because my video confessionals will take too long to upload, and I'd hate for Raffy to give me a strike. Anyways, things got messy today but the plan right now is to split votes between Amy and Elle. The goal is for one of them to go home while also getting an idol out of the game. The reason things got messy was because we originally proposed a 3-2-1 plan to Amy, but realized (1) she wasn't fully on board with us and (2) that we couldn't burn Anastasia like that in having her be the decoy vote. If Amy is actually with us, she's going to be pissed if she's still in and realized we lied to her yet again. If Amy isn't actually with us and is leaking our discussion to others to try to redirect the target to us, then clearly I don't feel as bad.

So final plan is 2-2-2 Elle Amy (whomever) if vote stolen, it means Amy isn't with us, we vote 3 Amy Very high chance I get idoled out here, but this is about as much as I can plan. Last time I got voted out, I tried to play so perfect. So perfect I didn't get a vote. Not getting a vote ended my game ☠️ We'll see. 

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Edgic:

Power Rankings:

Jodi: Manipulating the situation in her favor

Josh: Probably will make it to the end

Jared: Probably will make it to the end

Anastasia: Is on the bottom of the 4 person alliance

Amy: Is on the bottom but has advantages that no one suspects she has

Elle: People think they have advantages and is getting targeted over it

The group was given 5 minutes to discuss out loud who to vote out unanimously. If it wasn't unanimous, the whole group would go to rocks. After 5 minutes, they were allowed to play advantages if they wanted to. Elle chose to play their Vote Steal on Anastasia. For this round, a Vote Steal would immune the person it was used against. Additionally, this person would not be able to vote or have a say in the discussion. The group was given an additional 5 minutes. During the discussion, everyone except Elle (who wanted to go to rocks) said they would vote Elle. Then, when the vote was announced, the tribe instead went to rocks as it was not unanimous. Josh was rocked out

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Nct as Vampires

Request: Hi! Could you do an NCT Vampire au? Like how each of the members would be as a vampire? Thank you! :) I hope I requested correctly

A/N: i was actually thinking of writing a single post for each member but it’d be too many so here’s only a brief summary !! if you want me to emphasise on a specific member please do request again !

Assume that only you know about their identity and they promised not to hurt you as long as you don’t tell anyone else ,, and also you live together with them

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Taeil:

really chill about his identity

like when you first told him you knew , all he did was get shocked and asked how you knew , then went back to being normal

acts more like a human than a vampire tbh

you don’t even know how he survives because you never actually saw him eat/suck ( is this even right it sounds wrong omg ) any other living things before for their blood

and when you ask him ,

he simply replies with a “ secrets ”

turns out he’s been drinking blood he stole from clueless vampire WinWin’s bottle/jar since they stay in the same room

Hansol:

he’s so quiet and mysterious it’s creepy

like you don’t know when he’d do something dangerous and sudden

so you lowkey stayed away from him even after he promised not to hurt you

but then you realised he’s an actual softie

because you saw him crying over an anime once

yes vampires need entertainment too

so you start opening up to him

and he shares with you about his family and ancestors

like how great of vampires they were

when he goes out to hunt at night though ,

he becomes really serious and you lowkey got scared once because he came back home with blood all around his mouth

then he smiles at you innocently and blankly

and you can’t help but return a fake smile like hansol you’re scaring me get away and wash up first

Johnny:

okay he likes teasing you A LOT

okay maybe more of threatening , not teasing

like one time you were too lazy to cook lunch for him ,

he got super close to you and whispered sarcastically like “ i can’t guarantee you’d still be able to stay up till dinner tonight though ”

and he shows his fangs too like stop johnny what are you doing

so you were left with no choice but to cook for him

he’s such a flirty vampire i cant even

like he got you a black dress and cap one day

and when you asked him why ,

he was like “ you should know we vampires can’t be exposed to sunlight ,, but your beauty and smile’s shining brighter than it so i gotta cover you up ”

go away johnny ew

kidding he’s so hot tbh

Taeyong:

really particular about how he looks and acts

like he’s really ‘elegant’ as a vampire (?) ( does this even make sense omg )

like his cape must be washed and ironed out properly every day before night falls

and he HAS to do it himself

one time you helped him wash and clean it ,

he got so pissed he didn’t come back for two nights

turns out he was living in some kind of abandoned house as a bat

and he couldn’t stand the dust so he had no choice but to come back

he sometimes forgets that you’re human so he shares with you on stories of all the people he’s eaten

and when you’re like “ taeyong that’s too much detail … ”

he gets all jumpy like , “ oh shit i forgot , i’m sorry ”

“ i forgot i got too caught up ”

but he doesn’t really seem different from a human being so you’re not that much bothered by him

Yuta:

okay here we have another flirty vampire

like really really flirty

like one moment you’d just be there watching television ,

then a pair of hands wraps tightly around your hips

“ want me to turn you into one too ? ”

“ no wth yuta what are you doing ”

“ couldn’t resist you ”

“ stop yuta , hands off ”

“ who are you to tell me what to do , i have the powers here ”

“ yeah sure if you don’t let go i’ll move out rn ”

then he lets go right away and pouts like a small kid

he’s really lazy and afraid to go out under the sun so he stays at home like 24/7

and he clings onto you like a leech

disturbing and annoying you as a form of entertainment

Kun:

he’s such an angel though

but you didn’t knew he was a vampire until like 1 month of staying together

because you always wondered why he went out and came home so late in the night

until you saw him drinking some red & thick liquid one day in his cape

you almost screamed and fainted

but kun was nice enough to help you out , and confessed about his identity after

and was like “ don’t worry , i won’t hurt you , you’re too beautiful ”

he didn’t even tell you not to spread it , as he trusts that you will keep it a secret

so sweet tbh

smh why were you born as a vampire not an angel kun

Doyoung:

always shookt and worried that his identity might get revealed

so everytime you come home , the first thing he asks you is

“ did you tell anyone ? ”

“ doyoung of course not they’d think im crazy ”

“ are you sure ? ”

“ yes , i promise ”

then he goes back to acting all confident and laidback like

“ haha what’s there to be afraid of ”

then he turns into a bat and follows you around the next day to spy on you

and he thought you wouldn’t notice but in fact he’s so obvious so you just let him be

Ten:

always curious about the ‘humans’ like ,

“ wow Y/N how does it feel to die ? ”

“ do i look like i’ve died before , ten ? ”

“ hehe idk , im just curious , i’ve been living for like 127 this is not intentional years now ”

“ you’re so old ”

“ but i’m still cute right ?? ”

and he gives you a cute and innocent smile

you wonder if he’s even a vampire

but when he gets ready to go out at night he always has this smirk on his face

and he’d have eye contact with you before he flies off

so rude but you gotta admit he looks good

Jaehyun:

like taeil he’s pretty chill about his identity

his naturally white and fair skin caught your attention first

then he was always hiding in the room first thing in the morning , saying that he had to take his ’ daily medicine ’

turns out it was small cups of blood when you went to check

so when you first asked him he was just like

“ since i trust you , yeah i’m one ”

then he flashed his sharp fangs infront of you

and when he saw your shocked expression he’d laugh to himself , his cute and smol dimples coming back

he actually takes care of you instead , and protects you from other vampires/creatures from attacking

WinWin:

he’s such a soft person you couldn’t believe it when he told you he was a vampire

and he casually mentioned it to you during a conversation

you were shookt for days

“ why are you always so tired in the day ”

“ i don’t sleep at night ”

“ why ? ”

“ we are more active in the dark ”

“ ‘we’ ? ”

“ vampires .. ”

he’s cute and innocent most of the time

but when night time falls he gets really serious and doesn’t come back quickly ,

because he has to find the perfect type and taste of blood which suits him

The minors are all half-vampires instead of 'full’ ones

Mark:

he’s so clueless and adorable he often asks you vampire related questions that you cant even answer , like

“ why do we live forever ? will we never die ? wow that’s cool ”

“ mark i dont know .. ”

“ how am i supposed to take blood out of someone , won’t it hurt them ? ”

“ mark i’m not a vampire idk anything ”

“ oh … sorry ”

he’s so polite and nice he almost starved and fainted because he couldn’t bear to hurt anyone for blood

so you had no choice but to donate your own blood

which also refused to drink ,

but you forced it down his throat , so now active mark is back again

Renjun:

another literal angel why

he tries his best to sustain his hunger by only eating food

but part of him still feels drained because he’s half-vampire after all , he needs blood

so he tried drinking his own one ,

but it made him even sicker

so you had to ask for vampire taeyong’s help because he always had spare bottles of blood

just like that you lectured renjun on keeping his body healthy and fit

and he was like “ sure … but one person that i’d never ever eat is you , even if im dying ”

go reborn as an angel with kun please

Jeno:

he’s always smiling and cheerful , the thought of him being a vampire never once crossed your mind

but when he told you that he’s only half ,

you still got really shocked and speechless ,

and as soon as he noticed he promised not to hurt you

he likes showing you baby photos of himself , the growing process of his small fangs ,

and the way he’d always smile brightly

he likes going on walks with you but he always prepares a cap and a pair of jacket to cover himself , if he gets exposed to the sun too much

Haechan:

such a prankster i cant even

he’d offer to pour you a cup of water ,

then when he comes out with two cups filled with red liquid you’re like ,

“ this better not be blood haechan- ”

“ it is ”

“ what why ”

“ try it , it’s really good ”

“ no donghyuck i cant do this ”

“ shut up and drink it ”

and after a few minutes of arguing ,

“ it’s only some cranberry juice ”

and he also likes joking about turning you into a vampire too

and would use it as an advantage to call you to help him do things

“ help me wash my clothes … if not i might hurt you , idk ”

Jaemin:

a mixture of haechan + winwin

one moment he’d be all soft and positive ,

the other he’s scaring you with his fangs and blood

but he knows when to stop and not scare you too much

he’s also pretty flirty and smooth like

“ if you were a blood type you’d be my favourite ”

“ jaemin that’s not cool , stop ”

“ okay fine you’re my favourite human ”

Chenle:

he’s so happy and loud you didn’t think he was a vampire

and his looks did not help too , as he looked so cute and adorable to you

he slightly teases and joke with you

especially when he reminds you of the face you made when he first told you

your mouth and eyes were wide open and no words were said

he doesn’t really need that much blood so he acts just like a normal human being ,

only sometimes when you notice him getting a bit tired ,

you’d ask him to go eat/replenish on his blood intake and listens to you without fail

Jisung:

like chenle , this baby is still in the process of developing the vampire characteristics ,

so his fangs are still pretty short and he can perform perfectly well even without the intake of blood & under sunlight

so you had absolutely no idea he was one

until he accidentally told you while y'all were talking

and he got so flustered and worried after he realised his confession , he couldn’t sleep peacefully that night

but as soon as you told him you didn’t mind and would not spread it ,

he became to soften up and share more stories of his family to you

[mestos]

3AM Ramblings

LMAO well

what you see above there is actually a wip image of a small comic lol, changed the way i draw alpha’s hair yet again but whatcha got to lose, sad part about the comic is that ill prolly never post it on tumblr (or at least, try not to) but itll be up on my pixiv since i’m basically trying to build a log to upload, and i didn’t draw enough over the past few months of m///apl/e due to school. i don’t feel right just uploading 2pics bc ik it could get disappointing opening a photoset and only seeing 2 pics lmaoOOOOOooooo 

trying really hard to get rid of my attention-seeking habits. a long time back, i never actually had a problem with it? like, i was attentionseeking but not to the unhealthy extent i am now. i think making an askblog really ruined me mentally as notes and notifs and numbers suddenly took a huge impact on me? back then, it was just something i observed from afar but now when ive felt the numbers myself thats when it started to get really bad. ive had a bunch of friends tell me off for this - and i’m well aware that skill =/= number of notes/notifs, but its still such a fucking struggle to get rid of the mindset. i still glance by this godforsaken website and all my blog lists wondering if its worth putting time and effort then feeling disappointed and depressed when i see a low number or whatever after I post, and logically speaking that ain’t cool for me to do but I still do it anyway. trying to refrain is going to be one of the methods i try to avoid it, but i just hope i don’t end up lapsing back into the shitty mindset once i do post things again.

aside from that, a lot of my loneliness really stemmed from having no one to scream about my things towards bc HA, i like screaming to someone who understands the feeling towards the media with enthusiasm, and i often wonder if i’m spamming my twitter - i am, no doubt about that - so i really do say sorry to all my mutuals lmao...although i’m in a Avoid M///a//p///l//e/S///////t///o//r//y At All Costs phase rn bc all that dumb game/franchise has ever brought me is salt, despair, bullshit, etc. my favourites are never noticed, i fucking despise freud x zero till i die and that’s all i ever goddamn see (yeah, i said it. i dont give a fuck) , and well. idk. i feel like my skill is so limited bc - even though i enjoy drawing my faves, i feel like its not bringing me anywhere with my improvement, so i’m trying new things/focusing more on my original works. drawing Tiaz is still technically related bc he is a franchise OC, but i dont really associate him with whatever salt bc most of what i associate him with is like, the completely insert-based material. really, his story just contains the lore and not so much the bullshit story that makes me angry in the first place, so i’m cool with that. i really like drawing asta/teria too, i did a vote with my twit account and im pretty pleased to know  that people really like them too?? my friend personally also said they’re her current faves out of my ocs so that makes me soooo so pleased (lbr, teria is super pretty and asta is swag). 

sometimes i really envy people. its weird, because i can do the same thing as them? its so simple. but for some reason i feel like, i can’t at the same time or the chance always escapes me? or that i feel overwhelmingly obnoxious the minute i do something simple like sending a message. i’m also really closed off because i’m highly selective of the things i like, which makes it even harder. plus bc a lot of the time i cater to myself more than others and since i do that im usually in a minority, which makes it more difficult for me to magnetize people towards me. i’m trying though!! i do strike up conversations when i see it... but i always suffer that ‘i can help. but i don’t know how.’ thought which limits me even more??? god, i’m always so hesitant. when i was faced in a situation where someone was suffering i immediately stepped in to help but i didn’t know what to do? i asked questions but i really wasnt- i really didnt know what i couldve done. eventually someone else stepped in with more experience and was able to settle the situation, but the feeling of ‘i couldve helped but i didn’t know how’ just really stuck with me. i feel like i lack the maturity and independence to go out but i’m confused on how to change that? bc those things are built with experience, which means i need to go out and get some experience, but that’s easier said than done lol. i do feel like, sure, one thing i can do to get closer with people is listen to them and ha, i do that! anytime someone needs it, i’m willing to lend an ear or time. but what i do notice is that, while someone needs someone else to listen they also need guidance or advice. i’m aware i cant change the fact that i’m inexperienced in so much that i can’t offer any words of wisdom, but there it is again, the ‘i can help but i don’t know how’ feeling. i don’t want to say shit and i always have felt like ‘you’re saying shit they’ve heard before and you’re just making it worse’ whenever i try to say something reassuring. so i...i really envy people who can step in and create new bonds without these types of thoughts holding them back. i’m trying to get rid of them as best as i could because they sound like excuses don’t they? it sounds like i’ve come up with reasons to avoid interacting with new people. ha, that’s really not the case though...

wow this is long. it is late. i should sleep. did not want to overload my twit with a dumb threat so long ass tumblr post it is.

[rosannesarcher]

 madkingtrashking replied to your post: ((Ok but since I’m still in a rambly mood, if...

Omg in particular i cant remenber anything rn but pls choose one part you rather like and ramble on for me

But of course! Since I forgot about mentioning her in the other post, I present my thoughts on Nowi and Virion’s supports.

     So, most people already know almost the guys are thrown off by her youthful appearance. Virion is different. Here, let me just, copy their C support.

Nowi: Ouch! I really scraped my hands when I slipped back there...

Virion: I hear a fair maiden in need of medical aid! Shall Virion tend the wound?

Nowi: Oh, could you?

Virion: But of course! A dab of ointment, a small, clean bandage... There! Danger has been thwarted thanks to my speedy and skilled treatment.

Nowi: Aw, thanks!

Virion: No need for thanks, sweet Nowi.

Nowi: Hey, so I've noticed that you keep calling me "sweet." Don't you think it's a little belittling or whatever?

Virion: If I have offended you, you have my apologies. 'Tis but a habit of mine. Pray, do you not like it?

Nowi: No, pray! I do not!

Virion: Then I shall endeavor to correct myself with all due haste! A nobleman must take care of how he addresses others, you know. Especially one as distinguished as you!

Nowi: What's so special about me?

Virion: Why, you are over a thousand years old! You lived in the time of my great ancestors. You are practically immortal! Divine, even! It ill behooves me to disrespect you.

Nowi: Okay, knock it off! You're making me sound like some old lady.

Virion: Nonsense, Nowi my sweet! You are charming, young, and beauty itself!

Nowi: You really think I'm beautiful?

Virion: Let the gods strike me down if it is not so! You see? No lightning strikes. No fire ants nibble at my drawers.

Nowi: Wow. You really ARE good at this whole philandering thing.

Virion: Ph-ph-philandering?! Where did you hear such a vulgar word?!

Nowi: Um, that's what everyone says about you. ...Seriously. Everyone. Even Chrom. Didn't you know?

Virion: I most certainly did not!

     Just, look at how respectful he is towards her! Where most of the others can’t help but see her as a child, he sees her as the woman she is, and treats her as such. And once more, we see how offended he is over being seen as some ‘lecherous playboy’.

     Their B and A supports are pretty important too. Virion is willing to play duck duck Dragon with her, even when he learns how they play (however hesitant he might be about it haha). And in their A one, while he was trying to get out of playing, he still showed concern over her wasting her Dragonstones on the game. Still, when she insisted, instead of trying to get her to listen he went right on playing.

     I think the most important part of their supports is their S rank though. He sees her upset, and offers to play duck duck Dragon with her, even though his behind is still healing from when she burned him a previous time. It really shows the lengths he goes to, to make a woman happy, even at the cost of his own well being/happiness. And even better he’s not even the one who proposes, she is. It shows just how fond of him she’s grown. And even despite having been running in fear from her fire, he still finds himself fond of her as well and accepts!

[survivormyanmar-blog]

Ep. #12 - “Get Over Yourselves and Play The Damn Game” - Ashley

Immunity was posted and it was Back and Forth which involves cutting your fellow tribe mates in order to advance.  Sam and Ting Ting were both targeted early in the challenge and Ashley went on to win Immunity.  After Immunity, Ashley approached her alliance of Amanda and Tommy to vote off Sam with the help of Leah.  Little did she know that Tommy was not actually with them and was working both sides and went to Ting Ting and Sam to vote off Leah.  The three of them were able to convince Linus to work with them to get majority and took out Leah in a 4-3 vote as they thought Leah, Amanda, and Ashley were a tight threesome.  With that, Linus was the only fan remaining.

do these people know nothing about subtlety? at least I won't go on that immunity run like jay said.

So Jay is finally freaking gone. About time. I even got Linus in on the vote somehow. So that is pretty sweet. I am going to try and look into that relationship more because I definitely think something is there. I still have my idol. I was really contemplating using it but at the last second I decided to have some hope for once in my goddamn life. And look where we ended up! I am still alive!

Well I won immunity! This is a really nice feeling. I am guaranteed a spot in the f6. AND I STILL HAVE AN IDOL. I am screaming rn. Like on cloud nine. This shit is great. Hopefully next tribal isn't as freaking frustrating, which of course it shouldn't be; Jay is gone ;) Maybe targeting Sam? Maybe even Ting Ting. Cuz after looking at her moves with our last challenge, she definitely targeted Amanda and I, even before we were ahead of the rest of them, sooo I don't exactly know her business but I sure as hell am gunna get all up in it.  

YAY IT WORKED! JAY IS OUT! So now I just really have to rely on Ting Ting and Sam voting with me from here on out. I also have a pretty unique relationship with Linus and an alliance chat with Amanda/Ashley from the Christian vote. So this round I would ideally want out Leah because she's kind of a goat and if she doesn't go soon everyone will want to go to the end with her. Also out of everyone left in the game I feel she is the least likely to talk game with me.  Lastly, long term people will want to go to the end with Leah and nobody will be willing to take her out in a few tribals from now so they'll continuously not target her and that can be fatal to my game. Also Amanda is a much bigger target to keep in the game and keeping Amanda in will keep Linus more likely to vote with Ting Ting, Sam, and I which will work to our benefit.   My plan for this vote is to talk with Ting Ting and Sam and keep us all together but by doing that we have to keep the secret bond between Sam/I's bond to Ting Ting a secret from everyone else so none of us go and have a majority on the numbers come Final 5. So Ting Ting and I put in a plan that we can get Linus to vote with us by me approaching Linus and myself saying we need to break up the fearsome3some of Ashley/Amanda/Leah. I think this plan has a good chance of working out tbh. Leah going this tribal would be fantastic. If this plan works out Final 6 is Ashley/Amanda/Ting Ting/Sam/Linus/Myself. I would ideally want Ashley out next because she has won 3 individual immunities, has better ties with people than Amanda (especially Linus which is the most concerning), and her smart strategic plays, and social bonds. If we are able to pull of a blindside on her next it'd be great. We'd need myself, Ting Ting, Linus, or Sam to win immunity though. If that plan works out Final 5 is Amanda/Ting Ting/Sam/Linus/Myself would be left and ideally we want Linus to still be against Amanda. We'd need myself, Sam, or Ting Ting to win immunity. Then I think this would be the perfect time to get Amanda to vote for Linus and Linus to vote for Amanda, and cause a 3-2 vote with Linus getting the majority of the votes because he's less of a jury threat than Amanda and way better at comps and I think he can totally rock that Final Immunity if he can get there, if it's a Final 3. If that plan works out the ideal Final 4 is Amanda/Ting Ting/Sam/Myself. This way if we look at the jury Amanda has Steffen, Christian, Leah, Ashley, and possibly Jay which I think Ting Ting and Sam will be able to see by that point and consider Amanda a major jury threat and would win in any Final 3 scenario with us 3 remaining which would give us the reason to give her the boot. We'd just need for Sam, Ting Ting, or Myself to win immunity and cause a 3-1 vote with Amanda leaving which I think is possible. Final 3 I'd ideally want to be sitting next to Sam and Ting Ting whether that it's Final Tribal or the last tribal before a Final 2 because I feel I've made good connections with both of them and been so close to both through out the entire game. If it's a Final Tribal I feel I have an okay shot at winning next to them. Honestly, just getting to the end will make me relieved. For now I just need to continue on my bonds and plans and make sure people don't go after me, turn up the comp skill, and make my way to the end.  

Okay so I am immune and we have tribal in 4 hours AND NO ONE HAS SAID A THING. At the point I am just throwing out Sam's name cuz I think it is about time for him to go. I know I probably couldn't beat him in the end and therefore I kinda want him gone. I am taking a leadership role in this vote and I think I will hate myself in the future for it but shit needs to get done. It is like no one has the balls to say anything so they don't hurt anyone's feelings. Like come on. Suck my dick, get over yourselves and play the damn game. Also omg I think I am starting to like Leah because she is fucking insane like me and we are essentially the same human.

Trevor: *Sends confessionals link to tribe chat* Haven't gotten any!!! Me: Bish I literally just sent one.

*lowkey don't care about this tribal cause I know the 7th place chat is lit and I would be content going there lmfao*

Ashley and Tommy like to laugh at me for sleeping too much when they wanna strategize. ITS NOT MY FAULT THEY WAKE UP AT LIKE 7AM I'm basically nocturnal I cant help it. At this point they should call me Sleeping Beauty and call it a day

Okay y'all this Sam vote has been too easy, I am feeling a little sketched but I am immune soooooo. I just don't want someone close to me to leave. I don't quite trust Ting Ting 100% because she targeted Amanda and I in the last challenge, and then Amanda mostly. So I am a little confused as to why. Linus might be close to Sam so we might have just risked Sam finding out. From what people are saying, it seems like the vote would be a 6-1. But is Fucking Sam plays an idol whoever he chooses will be screwed. So I am thinking someone might have to throw out a vote on someone like Ting Ting or Leah just to be safe. But I just have to find someone willing.

okay so ting ting told me that ashley is pushing for my name which doesn't surprise me. she has immunity so she's probably trying to call some big shots. i'm working on linus to try to get him, myself, tommy, and ting ting to vote for leah. if all works and there's no idols, i'll be in the final 6 for the first time ever! but anything can happen, so i'm going to keep doing all the work i can.

"No one mourns the Wicked! No one cries they won't return. No one lays a lily on their grave." -Wicked (2003 musical) So Jay is gone :( . I'm kind of torn on how to feel about this. Sure she was shady as hell to most people in the game and a huge flipper, but like, she was always honest with me about where her head was at. Now on one hand my closest ally is out the door, but on the other I think multiple groups are seeing me as a possible extra number for them. In the Challenge Ashley teamed up with me  (She made deals with other people too, but at least I think that means Im not at the top of her hitlist) and she also somewhat tried to revive the "The only goddamn trustworthy people left chat". On the other side I have Tommy who I talked to for over an hour with yesterday in a skype call who wants me to side with him. Right now my play is Im trying to solidify a final 2 deal with Ting possibly. I know shes lied to some people, so Im hoping the trust isn't misplaced on my part, but I think I can play it up like with Jay gone I'm just going to become her extra vote. As it stands I think this round Im siding with Tommy and Sam, and hopefully Ting votes with us. Ashley's saying she hasnt heard anything about the vote at all, which is usually a red flag, but with her you never know since she's said that to me every round until like 2 hours before the vote :/ . I really do feel like there could be a f3 deal with her, Amanda and Leah so I want to get to strike while the iron is hot. The biggest problem with going against them though is that it seems like Tommy, Sam and Ting would most want to target Leah. Getting Leah out is kind of a mixed bag for my game. In one sense, Im pretty sure shes been going for me for a while, and if I make the end I can say that I was the fan who did what none of the others could. Thats also the problem with it though. If I become the last fan standing (Get it, like the famous saying last man standing but with an f instead of an m, Im so funny) then maybe others don't want to take me to the end so much since it possibly increases my shot at the end. On top of that, Leah is clearly been the least influential player so even with her wanting me out there hasn't been a vote cast against me since the Steffen boot.

Alright first, alliances and such: Ok it just makes me laugh so much that no one knows how close Tommy and I are in this game. Like omg. We literally swap info daily about the going ons. Like he's close with Ashley and Amanda and I got Linus it's great. Also Linus is nice and he's in a good strategic position for the remainder of the game. Like if he swaps, then boom there goes a vote. Sam is cool. He's really good at comps so he'll probably get immunity for like the rest of the game if he makes it through this vote. Leah is chill, I definitely think she's more focused on BB which is cool. Ashley and Amanda like don't trust me which i'm like fine whatever. Next, this vote: So basically Tommy, Sam, Linus (hopefully), and I are going for Leah this round because there's that Ashley, Amanda, Leah like final three alliance going on that needs to break up before final 6. Like strategically having three people in the game that are really close is bad because that's basically a majority right there going into f6. Ashley thinks that it's gonna be a 6-1 on Sam and he's leaving but... ;). Anyways, my only goal is to get to f5 to figure out what that legacy advantage is (shoutout to Steffen). Hopefully i can make it there. 2 more tribals. Also the cave can go to hell along with the hosts because they are evil people.

ashley actually thinks imma vote for amanda i cannot wait to SHAKE her geez if this all works it's gonna be amazeballs.

my heart my heart my heart that was so awesome. so awesome. i just i omg that was amazing amazing. ashley left that chat so fast!

yikes ashley like you were pushing for me to leave why am i supposed to tell you things