#like i said its in the fridge

[iliterallydecepticanteven]

How's "Of Gutters and Galaxies" coming along? Hasn't updated in a while. No rush! Take your time. Just wanted to check in

Thank you for checking in! In a sense, it was on the back burner, then I forgot about it, took it off the stove, and it's sitting in the fridge.

Real talk, I do want to finish it by the end of the year. But every time I sit down to outline the end of the fic, I freeze up with all these questions of if the ending I'm imagining is the ending I want to give it, if I will continue the fic in a series, if yes am I gonna merge it with an AU I've already made or crave out a new, and if I do continue it then I have to adjust the ending accordingly for a smooth tie in. And it all gets so overwhelming that I just give up and work on something else, typically shorter and without existing connections.

I also get torn between wanting to write the ending in its entirety and then posting chapters on a schedule or working one chapter at a time so I have time to mull over where I want the story to go. I can't say how many chapters or words are left, but I will say, where the fic currently is, is what I would consider the end of the second act of a three act story. Like more is going to happen but again I try to think over what that more is and freeze up.

Life has also gotten crazy between working to pay off medical bills (which I did in full earlier this year!!), going on a trip with family, a death in my extended family, and now working to pay off my credit card debt. I can't take on more hours at work since I'm already full time so I've been donating plasma twice a week because I also want to pay off my credit card by the end of the year. Plus I got yanked into a tricky phone plan situation which put even more of a strain on my finances and got surprise dropped from my family's insurance so I had to scramble to get onto my employer's insurance and reschedule a ton of appointments I had made months prior to getting dropped. But all of that is a rant post for a different time.

And just to be clear I don't mind asks like these! I actually like them! It makes me so happy to know that even though it's been literally forever since I updated you like my work so much that you took the time to check in on me and see how it was progressing 💜 (even if it did mean getting an extended pseudo vent post in return lol)

[skellydun]

I'm curious because in my head you still look like you did in your videos. Do you have any recent photos of yourself?

i don't take selfies but please enjoy these pictures snipped by one of my coworkers as we tested out things for our summer program

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

OKAY. OKAY. WINTERS FAMILY TORMENT NEXUS. as i've said before this is all REALLY vague rough outlines bc i wanted to bounce it all back n forth with u. but. what i have:

>winters family (mark & ashe & fridged mom/wife) live in a location hit by the simurgh

>mark is at work when she arrives. something horrific happens at home. maybe his wife is injured or hurt, but not killed. ashe (7/8/9) triggers. whatever his powers are, they. do Not help heal his mom. in fact the opposite.

>mark tears back home asap instead of leaving as soon as he hears her song, actively choosing to stay in her effect zone for his family. finds newly triggered baby ashe & the rest of that scene.

>theyve spent too long in the affected zone to be allowed to go free, especially since ashe triggered from it. mark nukes his whole past life & ashe's to escape without undergoing all the protocols. he spends ages doing shit work to support him & ashe bc theyre both legally dead, ends up working for overlord, manages to get enough of a fake past to get through cauldron background checks & get powers? it'll pay so much better than the grunt work he's doing now & he has to support ashe (powered)(legally dead)(would probably be executed if anyone Found Out)....

anyway to me the trickster is like. the endgame of this specific simurgh rube goldberg. somehow it doesn't end horrifically, for once! but it gets. bad. the fact that they're simurgh survivors is always looming over their heads. its why mark fucking freaks out when ashe joins the wards. literally have nothing more specific than this though u gotta help me put meat on these bones!!!!! STOP "being responsible" and "doing work" and stuff START thinking incessantly abt nhw ashe!!!!! i don't even know his powers bc i have no clue how he triggered!!!! augh. god. them..... mods torture that blonde man in the most narratively satisfying and fucked up way possible!!!!

QUIT YOUR JOB JOIN MY EMO WARDS !!!!!!!!!!!!! god dude god dude I'm gonna be thinking about this all fucking DAY . who needs to be responsible and have a job. not me!!!! FUCK !!!!!!!! dude im just. thinking abt mark being at work getting the notice to evacuate and starting to hear the song and. bc it's important to me that he's a little bit of a coward. it takes him longer than he will ever admit to decide to go back to his family. he definitely hesitates and hates himself for it because. what if he had gotten there 10 minutes earlier! who fucking knows! he never will!!

god man I'm just thinking about. that scene where they're in the hospital waiting to hear back about noelle and the person (ai?) at the desk is giving them the rundown of all the containment procedures and handing them paperwork and asking them if they can pay for the medical care. how fucked up would that be to hear after you're in the midst of losing everything. mark winters the universes most hated man. I looooooove the satisfaction in thinking about that snap decision where he goes from "relatively normal if a little emotionally repressed but otherwise does his best suburban dad" to "my wife is dead and my son is fucked up and there's this fucking sound in my head that won't go away I'm about to erase everything and break several laws in order to get us out of here" and how that eventually leads into. supervillain. it's just soooooooo. sickos haha yessss the downfall of this fucking miserable blonde guy. when do you think he consciously made that choice. he heard "you're never going to get out of here and live a normal life again" do you think he just . sat with that for a while. ashe unresponsive either due to shock or fear or the trauma of triggering/whatever his powers are and mark just has to sit there. by himself. like what the fuck am I gonna do now. auaghghghghhhh I need 2 make him so miserable forever. fuck that guy i hate his ass (<< me when I lie)

I THINK . I NEED TO SIT FOR A WHILE AND FINISH THESE NEXT COUPLE CHAPTERS AND PROCESS A LITTLE MORE BEFORE I MAKE A SOLID DECISION ON ASHES POWERS. but you knowwwww it's gonna be some fucked up horror shit. it has to be. it has to be something fucked up enough that mark forbids him from using his powers and keeps him . at home isolated for his own good. but not TOO fucked that he wouldn't be able to join the wards.

actually speaking of. HOW THE FUCK DOES HE JOIN THE WARDS. I know mark basically fucking erased their whole identity and everything but. there's noooo way the prt would let this kid join them. right?????? right????. how the hell would that even be a possibility with all the precautions in place for simurgh survivors. THEY EXPLODED THAT ONE CAPE GUYS HEAD BECAUSE HE STAYED IN PROXIMITY FOR A LITTLE BIT TOO LONG. maybe it's unofficial. maybe he never Officially joins them but he sneaks out while mark is gone and meets the boys somewhere and they become friends out of costume first. and then they learn about his powers and ashe is like "I can help!" and helps them like. as a rogue or something. but hes never registered as an official cape. is this anything. im thinking about him so much what the fuuuuuck have we done. what have we done !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[dirt-str1der]

Im super charmed whenever they include tsukasas corpse inside the freezer its so funny to me ... that man is not in cryostasis he is straight up dead

[spacejammie-eimmajecaps]

Fell back asleep for a while (still have a horrible headache btw) and I had the most disturbing dream that I'm going to tell you guys about in the tags

[someguywriting]

Silently doing things to support my autistic dad who refuses to acknowledge he's autistic

[ambagelbraindump]

top surgery is 80% gender euphoria, 10% trying to explain to cis people why you chopped ur tits off, and 10% EW GROSS EW

[muskmelon-enjoyer-199x]

Friday night is gonna be lit

I have stir-fry plans and iguana marriage plans and I got a beer and we have cartoons to watch. Sick

[wolfeyedwitch]

You're supposed to have good reasons for killing off characters, right? Is "my best friend who made this character for our DnD game is now dead and writing the character without him feels like sacrilege" a good reason?

[halfdeadwallfly]

i was just sitting in the kitchen eating breakfast, having greek yogurt with grape nuts - which i thought was perfectly normal - and my mom cam in and with complete sincerity told me that i needed to have some fruit with it because otherwise i was basically eating plain sugar. am i going insane here

[tacticaltechs]

Also what if. Instead of food I drank 3 cups of coffee and called that breakfast

[istherewifiinhell]

Rewatching jacob gellars Pinocchio video to rewatch tng measure of a man to watch metropolis to read rossums universal robots to better argue about why modern tf lore sucks.

[cosmic-ships]

Tells the woman I can be ready to leave at the end of the month.

She wakes up early (as she often does)

Throws away all of my food

👌 fucking n i c e /s

[comradesnufkin]

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[lavendorii]

the worlds smallest snail had just gone freak mode on an emergency room inducing sandwich

spins around too fast and has to go back to the emergency room

[lupismaris]

I woke up at 1pm wanting a simple bodega style egg'n'cheese and yet my extra ass is here hours later with a plate of duck bacon (when the duck bacon goes on deep discount you buy it no question), onions crisping in duck schmaltz, toasted croissants, and homemade garlic and herb aoli

I lost the plot somewhere I think