Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.
I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.
I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.
So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?
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goooooodmorning ! ok real talk it is so Deeply frustrating how little anything really prepares you for becoming an adult. like its this huge deal and then its just like . well. i sure am older now. but now you have to instantly know what taxes are and how to start paying them, how to get a house, how to drive, how to take care of a car, how to take care of a house, groceries, money, insurance, healthcare, job, resume, money again,
like.... is it just me or is literally None of this explained. ever. and yet you must. god forbid your guardian(s) suck too, then youre extra fucked. its all like "get a job youre an adult now ^w^" and then they just sit you down and say Go For It! ok cool. how do i do that. what am i looking for. is this one taking advantage of me or am i expecting too much.
or "start looking for a house or roommates or something, youre an adult you can live on your own now ^w^" and then they sit you down and say Go For It! ok cool. how do i do that. how much is too much. how much money should i save up to survive. groceries? transportation? what if i go somewhere else far away. what places are Good Places? do those even exist? where Shouldnt i go? i still dont know what taxes are.
like damn its been like years of adulthood and i never left being a highschooler really. can someone just tell us what were supposed to do. goddamn
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Headcannon for a what-if-father-khatri-didnt-die-au: he likes to paint
Another headcannon for a what-if-father-khatri-didnt-die-au: he's terrible at flirting
Another, even better Headcannon for a what-if-father-khatri-didnt-die-au: he paints a portrait of jade to try and flirt
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OMG I LOVE THIS ASK yes your headcanons are so so good and correct. can you imagine HOW annoying jade would get if he found out that khatri is attracted to him? "forgive me father for i have sinned 😏😏" just to tease him and the like. but he'd be so impressed and touched if he found out khatri had been painting him like wait... from memory...??? whatthehellhow... he'd probably laugh in disbelief and khatri would think that he's making fun of him but then he'd offer to model for him. but end it with "i'm not taking off my shirt though" just to see him fluster at the thought
while he paints him they'd talk about random stuff like whatever khatri knows of the town, the bible, and their own lives because they're both GREAT listeners. jade is a pretty open person but even then he'd probably end up shocked that he shared that much that fast. if khatri dies after they've already got something going on you'll probably see jade at the church whenever he needs to sort his thoughts :)
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