#like i guess im on s 1 of 8 and maybe it gets way more personal than this

[shittywriterbrain]

im only at season 1 episode 7 but you CANNOT convince me dr james wilson is real. that man is a CONSTRUCT. a HALLUCINATION

[secret-sturniolo]

under the stars - matt sturniolo

summary - it's y/n and Matt's 1 year anniversary, and she can't wait to see what Matt has planned...

warnings - angsty beginning but a fluffy ending, one kiss

a/n - thank you so much for all the love on my first fic "Hot Tub"! i'm so glad you guys liked it, and i am so excited to keep writing!

When I woke up to my alarm this morning, I felt super groggy, and my first instinct was to hit snooze and go back to sleep. That is, until I remembered what day it was. Matt and I have been dating for one year today! I immediately checked for any messages from Matt, but I didn't see any. That's strange I thought, but I figured he had something planned and he wanted to surprise me, so I didn't think much of it. Instead, I decided to get ready for the day so I would be prepared for when Matt told me what he had planned.

I started with my makeup, doing a simple, natural look like Matt always liked. Then I picked out a baby blue crop top, (Matt's favorite color), a pair of high waisted jeans, and I planned to wear my white Air Force 1's. Then I put on my silver necklace with 2 small hearts intertwined, which had been a gift from Matt for Valentine's Day. When I was done getting ready, I checked my phone again, but still nothing from Matt. I'm not going to lie, I felt my heart sink a little, but I decided to call him. Maybe he's just sleeping still I thought as I clicked on Matt's contact. I let it ring all the way through, but there was no answer. I began to get a little worried, so I decided to text Chris and Nick.

Hey, are you guys with Matt, he's not answering his phone? 1:32pm

I waited for a response, but still nothing. My heart began to sink even deeper, my hands shaky and thoughts racing. How could he forget? Hot tears began to roll down my face as I lost all hope, smearing my freshly done makeup down my cheeks. I decided to stop trying, figuring that he obviously didn't want to talk to me. Feeling heartbroken, I took off my carefully planned outfit and changed into sweatpants and a baggy t-shirt, and crawled back under my blankets. I guess I'm ending up going back to sleep anyways I thought. The tears slowly turned into wracking sobs, until finally I was so exhausted that I could no longer keep my eyes open, and I fell into a deep slumber.

When I awoke, I couldn't immediately tell whether it was morning or night. I rolled over to check my phone, and the time read 8:57pm. I didn't mean to sleep that long I thought, as I began looking at my unread notifications.

hey babe, im so sorry but everything will make sense soon 8:46pm

im picking you up in an hour, wear something cozy :) 8:48pm

I stared at the screen, frozen in place as I re-read the texts. So he didn't forget? I quickly text back okay :) love you and I get out of bed once again to get ready. As I look in the bathroom mirror, I can see that my mascara is no longer on my lashes, but instead smeared around my eyes and cheeks. I gently wipe the old makeup off, but decide to leave my face bare rather than reapply more makeup. I leave my sweatpants on, and swap out my baggy tee for a better fitting hoodie, remembering how Matt told me to dress comfortably. Finally, I put the heart necklace back on, pausing to hold the hearts between the fingers as I wonder what could possibly have taken Matt all day. I remember how Matt thinks I look extra cute with braids in my hair, and I decide to put two dutch braids into my dirty blonde hair. Just as I was finishing up, I heard a knock at my front door, and I immediately knew who it was.

I ran to open the door, and just as I thought, Matt was standing there with a smile on his face, looking as handsome as ever. I jumped into his arms, breathing in the familiar scent of his cologne.

"Matt, I thought you forgot!" I say, slightly exasperated.

"I know, I'm so sorry sweetheart." he says, holding me tighter. "I could never forget this day. I just had to make sure that my plans were perfect for you."

Smirking slightly, I ask him, "What do you have planned?"

"Get in the car, and you'll find out." Matt tells me, grabbing my hand and pulling me out the door.

The ride was about 20 minutes. The whole time, Matt had his left hand on the wheel, and the other was tightly gripping mine, our hands resting on the center console. As the night sky got darker, I admired the stars in the sky. I had always loved them, and I had told Matt multiple times before about my dream of going stargazing one day.

"Matt, look at the stars, aren't they beautiful?" I said, turning to look at him. Matt just giggled in return.

When we reached our destination at the top of a hill, Matt put the car in park and motioned for me to get out and follow him. Once again, he grabbed onto my hand, waiting for me to notice what he had set up. When I saw it, my jaw dropped in awe.

Firstly, Matt had set up a circle of small lanterns, each one giving off just the right amount of light. At the center of the circle, there was a luscious pink blanket big enough for two people, along with two matching pillows at one end of the blanket. At the other end, he had set up a bottle of sparkling juice with two glasses, and an assortment of some of mine and his favorite snacks. It was so perfect, better than I ever could have imagined. All of the stress from earlier in the day melted away, as I turned to look at Matt.

"I hope you like it, I know I upset you earlier but-"

I quickly cut him off with a short, but passionate kiss that said everything that words couldn't.

"Matt, this is perfect! You know I've always wanted to do this!" I buried my head in his shoulder as he laughed and squeezed me back.

"C'mon, let's go lay down." Matt guided us into the circle of light, and we laid side by side, my head on his chest.

"What, am I a better pillow than the one I got you?" he teased.

"The pillow is great, but you're even better." I replied.

As we looked up into the sky, we took turns pointing out the constellations that we could see, just simply being in the moment with each other's company. I couldn't imagine a better way to spend our anniversary, or a more perfect perfect person to spend it with.

[freefolkfightorflight]

Here have my brain

1. Piper says hi. Mostly I call him ‘kitty’ or ‘kee kee’. He sleeps and lays on me all the time. It feels like I have a sweet lil baby again and it’s kinda nice yall. We think he’s 2 months old now.

2. My face has been more dry/peely/red lately. Not sure if it’s the kitten or just my lack of self care honestly. It’s not new but it is worse. I have what I think is rosacea or eccema or both. I know my skin does better under different eating conditions and was absolutely perfect when I did keto a million years ago. But lol no

3. Trying ozempic. Just got week 5’s shot. Slowly losing weight. A few pounds a week. (I’m down 21lbs total🎉 just like 80-100 to go🤣 god that’s depressing). I feel like I can tell a difference in my stomach but i said that and the next day a patient asked me if I was pregnant so maybe I’m just imagining it🤣(this is a recurring thing, people asking me if I’m pregnant since gaining weight. It’s all in the very best place to store fat. My belly😒) sometimes I lie and tell people yes I’m pregnant bc I don’t want them to feel embarrassed for me. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣 like when it’s a patient and imma have to deal with them all night it’s sometimes easier to just say yes so they’re not all weird for 12 more hours) anyways I’m 28 weeks and it’s a girl and her name will be Polly. (Lol jk)

Pros: appetite is that of a human. Portion control is done for me. Like I don’t even want to eat more than when I feel full. I FEEL full. Haven’t felt that in years since starting depression meds 11 years ago. I’m less nauseated than before starting it, I’m guessing bc I’m prediabetic and my blood sugars were shit.

Cons: literally none for me so far. I was nervous re nausea bc I was already struggling with that before. But it’s improved it. I still get nauseas sometimes but it’s even less than prior to starting the med. I started off at the lowest ever dose (4 units- max is 45 I think). Todays dose I did 8 for the second week. Nice to know when/if things are stagnate I can move up. Im doing this in place of weight loss surgery for now.

4. Weight loss surgery. I went to my appointment last week and honestly it scared the crap out of me. They were trying to rush it and make you sign contracts stating you’ll get a cardiologist, pulmonologist, nutritionist, psych, surgeon all to meet you and then monthly until your surgery and then see psych and nutritionist and them after and if you don’t you’re off the list and have to start over. Also I have to stop vaping and they test you and lol I’m here bc I have no self control lol. Also I couldn’t afford it. The only way I can afford the ozempic bc my friend is an NP and gets it for me.

5. I straightened up some and showered today. Where’s my prize?

[dozing--zzz]

these are @robbie-lee-zombie 's tickle questions! (sorry for the tag! ik you dont know me haha)

i thought id answer them because why not! also its a fun way for yall to get to know how i am tickle-wise since my blog is so new ☺️

1. What’s your favorite tickle tool?

honestly, just hands. but feathers and paint/makeup brushes are fun too. i just dont like the harsh/scratchy ones

2. Favorite Ler? (Tag them if you dare~)

im not super close with really anyone on here just yet, (totally feel free to change that, send me a dm lets be friends!!) so im not sure! i dont wanna tag someone i hardly know lol

3. Favorite Lee? (Tag them to call them out~)

same as #2!

4. Opinion on blindfolds/restraints? Why or why not?

not really my thing! they scare me like a lot haha. like im okay with maybeee my arms up or being pinned if i trust someone, but that's as far as ill go.

as a ler, ill pin a lee if they want it, but big bondage is still not my style. whatever the lee prefers other than that ☺️

5. A spot that gets you squealing?

this question is so cruel 🥲

lower back n back ribs

6. How long do you estimate you could last before calling mercy?

not sure. ive never been tickled for an extended period of time before, but id estimate maybe 2 minutes? before I need a break.

7. Ever have tickle fantasies?

if "fantasies" is being used non-sexually in this case, absolutely. haha i think about lots of cute little scenarios of either me tickling someone or them getting me.

8. Why did you make your tickle blog?

ive had a few before this that i abandoned, and have lurked for like 2 years since my last one, but i joined again because i love interacting with this community and having tickle friends makes me soo happy

(again, dm me!! id love to be friends)

9. Does anyone irl know of your interests?

nope! farr, far too scared haha

10. Can you say the t-word?

i think i can, ive never actually said it in front of anyone before because it never comes up, but like ive said it just fine sitting in my room or while reading aloud

11. Verbal teases, yes or no and why?

depends. some of the stuff i see is awkward and corny, i guess i would have to really experience it myself because most of what i see online doesn't appeal to me. im not sure if that would change if it was an actual interaction haha

this also is the reason i dont rp online as a lee, because its just awkward to me lol. i dont actually feel anything lol 😭

12. Upper body tickles or lower body tickles?

i like both, but probably upper body if i had to choose.

no, definitely not because my belly and back are there shush

13. Neck or ear tickles?

i dont think my ears are very ticklish, so probably neck tickles haha

14. Pinned on your back, or your stomach?

i dont think i could choose haha both make a bad spot super vulnerable 🥲

15. What do you love about the lees you know?

they're SO tooth-rottingly adorable oh my goddess. they make me wanna hold them in my lap and just gently tickle them silly you literal cutie pies.

16. What do you love about the lers you know?

one, they're also so adorable, and two, they're so nice about tickles 🥲 they make me feel so safe and nice

17. Feathers or Paint Brushes?

this question.. 🥲

i dont think i could choose i love them both

18. How long have you known about your interests in the community?

since i was young, like maybe 7-8 years old, i had that feeling about and fixation on tickling, and thats also when i became a little scared and very shy about the subject on top of being a very reserved child, and only just secretly watched yt tickle compilations in my bedroom. i didn't find out about the community until i was more like 11-12. it was huge to me since i thought i was just.. weird haha, and while i was very dumb and didn't put up proper boundaries, i engaged with tickle content for a while. when i was 14, i believe, i had this like year-long phase where i wanted to not be like that anymore, deleted tumblr, and tried to completely push it out of my life but surprise surprise haha! at 15, i started lurking again and here i am now at 17 with my current blog!

19. What’s your favorite way to be tickled? (As in provoked, teased into asking, etc.)

surprise tickles or having someone straight up ask if they can tickle me would probably be my favorites because i feel its SO cute, and also doesnt involve me asking.. also the second one usually means gentler tickles like we're cuddling on the couch or something and those aaa are for sure my favorites

20. Are you/Do you like Polite Lees or Bratty Lees? (Asking for tickles vs Pissing someone off for tickles)

i love all lees because all of you are adorable and i will never say anything different, but someone coming up to me and asking for tickles will always hold a special place in my heart because AA its so incredibly cute it makes me so happy

i myself am a polite lee, im very shy irl in general and that kind of bleeds into how i am about tickles, so while it would take like a whole day of hyping myself up and figuring out how to ask and i would almost 100% chicken out, if i could ask i would. i don't like making people mad either haha

if you have any other tickle (or just normal!) questions you want my input on, my asks are open! ask away!!☺️

[flaylore]

DIRECTORY (2024)

Jan 1, 2024, Red Mecha Pilot Tries Blender To Make Goo Cat!!!!!!

As Flayon’s about to end the stream, he reminds viewers to love themselves… and for a split second, his eyes swirls, telling them to never leave him.

Jan 2, 2024

‘Can you have a late growth spurt in your 18000's???’

Jan 4, 2024

'i cant wash the black strands out of my hair so i guess i didnt dye it WEIRD'

Jan 4, 2024

imo it looks like it's spreading

Jan 6, 2024, The Roons Got Me A Place At Time Square!!! || + Granblue Fantasy

Flayon starts to pan over a fanart of X. The screen glitches as he stares at it, saying nothing. He turns the page and the glitching stops.

MINOR: Jan 8, 2024, 【debut watchalong】o . o

Flayon revisits his debut, occasionally interrupted by glitchy moments, and ends with a brief cameo of the original pilot that got his place taken by him. Please read the summary for more information.

MINOR: Jan 13, 2024, the anxiety of happiness roon

A new Machiroon asset was introduced, which warped into a scene where a figure with swirly eyes appears. Please read the summary for a more detailed information.

MAJOR: Jan 20, 2024, Content Warning|【Machiroon Appreciation+ NEW OUTFIT】AAAAAAAAA

He compares his old outfit and his recent one, lamenting how he has changed from before.

Jan 22, 2024, UNDER NIGHT IN-BIRTH II Sys:Celes] I Need To Play Kuon Immediately #sponsored #ad

Up until this point, Flayon’s height is 171cm.

Jan 30, 2024

‘there are many me and there are many you’

Feb 7, 2024 

‘THE RUBIX CUBE IS BEATING MY ASS’

‘its a mirror cube its so confusing’

‘apparently pre debut i was able to solve stuff like this so effortlessly’

‘idk what happened’

‘i cant pilot things like I used to either’

‘the memory is so hazy’

‘but maybe its better it stays buried’

Feb 11, 2024

‘Sometimes it feels as if the R-TRUS is going to destroy me from the inside’

‘Oh-oh shut down rtrus sometimes maybe- wait can rtrus be shut down?’

‘yes

if i have no energy then he won't work

or if im too stressed then he wont work

sometimes when im inside, he'll move on his own a bit

it hasn't been happening often but every now and then’

Feb 12, 2024

‘I’m losing apart of me every time I pilot…’

Feb 13, 2024,【POKEMON UNITE】Duo's w/ The Regis ALTARE, Hero of Elysium & Your Heart

R-TRUS was found in Xenokuni and Flayon gets visits from scientists.

Feb 17, 2024, Experiencing The Wholesome Door 2 w/@Octavio_en in【The House in Fata Morgana】| Spoiler Alert!

Flayon does not have a reflection in the mirror.

Feb 17, 2024, Experiencing The Wholesome Door 2 w/@Octavio_en in【The House in Fata Morgana】| Spoiler Alert!

Flayon questions if the person inside your reflection is a doppelganger rather than yourself.

MINOR: Feb 20, 2024, x teaser

This video is best watched in its entirety.

March 4, 2024 

‘Do you wanna know how it feels to be crushed by 100+ tons of reinforced X-metal? Just because the R-TRUS is big doesn’t mean your death will be quick You’ll feel your bones pull apart and slip out Your eyes will leave your sockets ever so slowly and if I aim right I can play’

‘around with you like food. not to mention if I choose to absorb your very life force into the R-TRUS It’s the equivalent of taking out your soil and throwing it into a sea of memories. You’ll experience all the pain of everyone who met their death to me Just when you think it’s’

‘over, the cycle will loop and I’ll use your remains as fuel which I will then have concentrated into energy that flows through my spinal cord Basically you’ll be connected to my nervous system and have to share each and every waking moment with me without being able to leave’

March 8, 2024

‘I’m getting rid of old clothes and there is a lot of oversized shirts/jackets/hoodies from school SLIGHTLY 

Nostalgic but I’m bitter about something when I see it too’

‘I have one green jacket that is made out of fleece and was way too big for me

idk how I wore that and why I would wear green’

Mar 12, 2024

‘japan public transportation so cool IM STILL CONFUSED but I can feel myself getting the hang of it just slowly’

(Someone asked if he parked the R-TRUS somewhere.)

‘i have him on standby at the guild

he keeps moving on his own sometimes

just lil twitches’

April 11, 2024, 【CORPSE PARTY】Nah, I'd Live (Does He Know?) | CONTENT WARNING

Flayon loses a lot of blood when he fights with the R-TRUS overdoing it.

April 12, 2024

‘This pilot is going to go back to sleep, that is a warning from my body that I need more rest 

Hard to understand it without the R-TRUS directly telling me what's wrong with me’

April 15th, 2024, THIS CAT IS BANNED IN 44 STATES!!!! (ROON DAY 2)

This a series of clips where he turns on the red eyed toggles.

He reaffirms that he is a genius.

April 15th, 2024, THIS CAT IS BANNED IN 44 STATES!!!! (ROON DAY 2)

Rudely responding with, ‘What’s your problem?’

April 15th, 2024, THIS CAT IS BANNED IN 44 STATES!!!! (ROON DAY 2)

Flayon with red eyes grumbles as he confirms that the outfit he’s wearing is the one he wore when he attended Elysium Academy.

April 15th, 2024, THIS CAT IS BANNED IN 44 STATES!!!! (ROON DAY 2)

Flayon with red eyes confirms that the TEMPUS members do not attend the Elysium Academy.

April 15th, 2024, THIS CAT IS BANNED IN 44 STATES!!!! (ROON DAY 2)

Flayon with red eyes questions if the viewers actually want to be crushed by the R-TRUS.

April 15th, 2024, THIS CAT IS BANNED IN 44 STATES!!!! (ROON DAY 2)

Flayon with red eyes calls viewers filthy.

April 20, 2024,【UNARCHIVED KARAOKE】LET'S PARTY WITH THE BOYS BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY 🎂🎈【OFF COLLAB】

He turns into particles to teleport in and out of the R-TRUS. The sensations feels like it’s ripping his flesh apart, claiming that he’s used to it.

27 April, 2024

This a series of tweets where he turns on the red eyed toggles.

‘Do you know how painful it is to be the only one in Elysium with this kind of fire power? No other *mechs* except MINE? No one worth my time.. Until now. Do your best or you'll just become fuel for /my/ R-TRUS.’

[responding to a tweet congratulating Flayon, and pointing out his red eyes]

‘Hah?’

27 April, 2024

[responding to a tweet saying that they’re excited to fight him in Idol Showdown, 1st tweet, 2nd tweet]

27 April, 2024

[replying to a tweet of an image of X]

‘why did you send a blank image??’

May 1, 2024

[responding to yatogami fuma, who asked flayon to come over]

‘im afraid senpai

 i want to retreat to the insides. 

while i stay outside’

May 5, 2024

Flayon is referencing a monologue of his first post on Twitter/X, with updated information such as his age being 18433 years old and being put on leave after being questioned over his mental stability. Original monologue

My name is Machina X Flayon. I'm 18433 years old. I currently reside in Japan, an area associated with Xenokuni, with the rest of my guildmates and I am not married. I work as the mecha pilot for the TEMPUS GUILD, but was put on leave after the board questioned my mental stability

May 14, 2024

[responding to someone asking if he gets any weird alerts/updates from the R-TRUS when doesn’t get to use it]

‘his mental state mirrors mine’

May 14, 2024

[responding to someone asking if he’s worried he’d forget to pilot the R-TRUS if he doesn’t get to use it]

[an image of flayon with red eyes looking down disapprovingly, shadow looming over his face]

May 16, 2024, I am Hakumen. THE END HAS COME【BLAZBLUE: CENTRALFICTION】

Flayon has various weapons outside of the R-TRUS. He has his shields where he can propel off them, and his energy drinks that act as bombs that its properties similar to lava.

[sagittarithealastorsimp]

im bored, so im gonna rant about alastor's breakdown scene

deal with it

(i also may have lost the post with most of my info but whatever shut up/j)

WARNING: MAJOR spoilers for for hazbin hotel

if you havent watched it all the way through, id reccomend that-

also speak of sensitive topics such as father issues, mental breakdowns,

i feel like i should say this, i am NOT a psychiatrist, in ANY way shape or form, and im just speaking from prior knowledge and experience, aand also my friend who has studied psychology and all that jazz immensely (say hi to ros! :)

i also make an excess of unnecessary and dumb jokes so if you cant handle that bye i guess (/j)

(will also include random images here and there of him, bcz why not)

okay, so i dont think its that much of a secret that alastor is NOT okay, mentally (and physically, i mean, look at that gash thats not healthy smh)

it could NOT have been made ANY clearer that theres something wrong going on in this mans head, and its... uhm whats the word help ive backed myself in to a corner here

theres more than one s o m e t h i n g thats wrong, i guess, and im here to give my opinion and theory on the matter so uhhhhhh

make sure to SMASH THAT LIKE AND SUBSCRIBE BUTTON FOR MORE AMAZING CONTENT1!1!1!!/j

okay very dumb and idiotic jokes aside smh, im gonna explore and explain each one of the reasons i think this guy is not okay, starting with

d r u m r o l l

father issues! yayyyyy amazinggggg totally not horrible haha whaatt.. anyways, there are numerous hints that alastor had, at the very least, a very problematic father, and, hey, ever notice how he's more comfortable around women?? and that he was a confirmed 'mamma's boy'? yeah, based on those two things (i only provided two reasons because, haha, i may or may not have lost the post i was using for info) i think we can concur that he had atleast SOME sort of father issues, and not the "oh yeah he's just an annoying goofy fella" kind of father issues

of course, we ALSO have the deal he made, which was brought up briefly in episode 5, and 8

and there i s kind of a funky little debate on who the deal was with, and what it was for, but the two main cantidates are lilith, and roo

and who knows what lilith/roo makes him do, even? ...okay, aside from lilith/roo, who would be the ones making him do things-

i dont know, theres not alot i can say on this matter other than its most likely alastor made a deal with either lilith or roo to save his power or something, and briefly bring up the fact that he probably does have to do some things here and there, and the fact that if it i s lilith he made the deal with, she probably sent him to help out with the hotel, maybe, i dont know

WHEWWWW OKAY THEN lets get in to some of his behaviours that are n o t at ALL good or normal, the way he treats husk and reacts to him 'caring' about his 'friends' wooo yayyyyy

also heres another alastor image so you little grubs(/j) dont get bored at the lack of things to look at woo

lets start with how he treats husk, thats just, thats not nice man dont do that :(

jokes aside though, there HAS to be some reason that he treats him like this, theres no way that its just because he owns his soul- like, unless husk did something reaallyyy bad theres no reason to treat him like that (granted, alastor IS in hell for a reason, and is NOT a normal or good person)

anyway thats it for this section because i really dont have anything and im relying on the wiki and memory alone to get me through this post shush :(

okay lets talk about his reaction to him nearly dying for his 'friends' and actually caring about them

its clear that this man has some sort of issues with caring about people, and there has GOT to be more than one reason why other than "oh no people are gonna think im a softie thats no good :( *has a breakdown musically*" i mean, it COULD be just that one, but i just really dont think it is honestly, i dont really have that diffinitive of a reason, i just really think that something happened that made him n o t want to get attached to people,

and i REALLLYYYY want to know what that reason is in season two

alright, for the last bit of this post, i think we should discuss the fact that he always smiles

we DO know that one of the reasons is that, to him atleast, a smile is a valuable tool, that keeps your friends inspired, and your enemys guessing, and always ensures YOU'RE the one in control

but its HEAVILY implied in this image that there is another reason,

if you observe close enough (not really that close, but hey who has perfect eyesight not me) you can see it looks like his mouth is stitched, and even more so to be literally always smiling so theres a possibility that either lilith or roo is ALSO forcing him to smile

then again it could just be something about him literally not being able to talk about his deal, which is also plausible

...or thats just what he looks like idk im not here to judge his fashion choices

CONGRATULATIONS!! you made it to the end of my stupid post! keep in mind that any and all of this could change at any given point, and i will update it accordingly....if i remember to

i am not using this in any way to condone his actions AT ALL, you shouldent be a cannibal, or a serial killer, or be manipulative (is that the right word???), thats unswag smh, and i am NOT AT ALL a psychologist, or a psychiatrist, once again, i only really know some of these things because my friend rambles about them, and i used to get in to crime and psychology documentaries when i was bored

so i am not at ALL a professional

thanks for reading this shit show of a post

[mangopit]

20 Writer Questions

ty @littlefirefox for the tag!! nice seeing the other folks you tagged too, fandom runs deep fr haha <3

1. Total number of AO3 works?

34! i haven't uploaded in so long ouurgh

2. Total AO3 word count?

103,336 :o

3. Fandoms I’ve written in?

oh boy, tons. and im too shy to talk abt a lot of them on my main blog lol, but throughout my life i've written for a lot of youtubers, bbc sherlock, rotbtd, atla, tlok, american idol, some disney shows, an anime, live streamers, musicians...

4. Top 5 Fics by Kudos

dhjdjhs again im too shy to list em directly, they're all rpf >:'D # of kudos: 519, 377, 341, 314, 305

5. Do I️ respond to Comments?

yes, i try to reply to all of them! tho i need to look at my inbox and check that i haven't missed any recent ones :')

6. What has the angstiest ending?

hmmMm on ao3 i have a drabble that ends in perceived unrequited love but i think my actual angstiest published story ends with 2 former best friends finally choosing to part ways. offline, i have stories that end in major character death 😬

7. What has the happiest ending?

oh! a delightful question! i think the one where the soulmates figure their shit out and finally confess their feelings for each other feels like the most triumphant ending that i can remember writing :)

8. Have I️ received hate?

not for my writing. i've received unwarranted constructive criticism before tho.

9. Do I️ write smut? And what kind?

yes sometimes but i've never posted it online 👁👁 and idk "what kind" means... gay i guess???? loll

10. Do I️ write crossovers?

yes! i don't think i've posted anything online but rise of the brave tangled dragons is one of my longest loves.

11. Have I️ ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of 😳

12. Have I️ ever had a fic translated?

no but i would be honored if anyone offered! :')

13. Have I️ ever co-written a fic?

i've initiated "finish the fic"s before, but i've never co-written a fic in the traditional sense.

14. What is my all-time favorite ship?

OH hmmm idk if i have one. maybe sh****** just bc of how long and intense my obsession was for it lol

15. A WIP I️’ll never finish?

i have a bbc sherlock fic that was well-received but i just can't imagine finishing it bc my writing has changed so much, i never had a direction for the story, and i don't really like how i wrote the characters.

16. Writing Strengths?

i'm good at eavesdropping on imaginary conversations between people who exist solely in my head so i think im good at whipping out dialogue, lol. i also pride myself on writing realistic, complex emotions and digging into the deeper, more hidden thoughts of characters.

17. Writing Weaknesses?

i think i get so excited about writing my favorite bits i have planned that i rush the pacing of my stories or i force plotpoints that don't make too much sense and can probably be cut. i've been trying to combat that by indulging in the first draft—letting myself write all the exciting, wild ideas i have first before revising and fine-tuning the story to my standards!

18. Do I️ like foreign language dialogue?

yes? no opinion? i don't think i understand this question.

19. First Fandom I️ wrote for?

i think it was american idol >:)

20. Favorite fic Ive written?

wahhh like lynn i find it super hard to choose bc my writing is such a reflection of my interests and general mindset at the time! plus i still love my most busted writing bc i have such a warm appreciation for who i was and how i've improved. buuuuut for whatever reason i'm very proud of this one friends to lovers fic on my ao3 that's set during the wintertime~ i think i was able to get the pacing just right, emotionally and plotwise, and everything just makes sense, and the ending is so satisfying. it's a very solid fic for when i wrote it, and i am very happy to write a simply solid fic :)

thanks again lynn for the tag!! tagging: @farklelucas @26velociraptors if you want + any other ficwriters who would like to do this! (lol gretchen i can't even remember if you post on ao3 ermm)

[lumiereandcogsworth]

smoshblr tag game yippeee!!!

“tagged” by @unknownteapot hehe!!

also i have to put this under the cut because uhhh too long 🫣

1. how long have you been watching smosh? WELL i do have very fond memories of watching the boys with my brother back in maybe 2011? 2012? maybe later idk. i specifically remember the pokémon vids, man-spider, the paranormal easy bake oven, and this one where the entire time you thought that he (i cannot remember who. i think anthony) got his dick stuck in a port-o-potty’s door, and he’s like stuck there for days, and the whole time you think it’s his dick that’s stuck, only for it to be revealed at the end that it was the burger that he brought in with him. THAT got stuck in the door 😭 idk why that one lives in my head so prominently, but it’s so stupid LMAO. anyway… then i started watching pewdiepie and eventually got more into shows on netflix (superwholock nation😐✊) than youtube. THEN in like 2019, my brother rediscovered smosh by way of try not to laugh. and showed them to me. and for a couple years that’s ALL i watched. like legitimately just checked smosh (pit) once every two weeks and watched it, then carried on. i loved it and them but i still didn’t have the desire to check out any other stuff lmao. and THENNNNN at the beginning of 2023, i just very randomly decided, in my boredom and unemployment, to check out their other stuff. and boyyyyy did i get hooked. and i’ve been watching everything ever since. so, very long-winded way of saying i’ve known about them for over ten years, but i’ve been DEDICATED to watching ALL of them for about a year and a half :)

2. favorite smosh cast member(s)? shayne’s been my fave since 2019, and since 2023 amanda has very prominently become second fave, if not tied with shayne. i also love courtney and spencer and tommy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND TREVOR AH

3. favorite pairing(s)? well in terms of actual ships i’m sooooooo so happy for shayne & courtney and they’re SO cute :”) in terms of just like, any duos? shayne & amanda (of course), spencer & courtney, amanda & angela, tommy & spencer, and chanse & damien — they have a very underrated dynamic, like when they’re in videos together they’re so wildly in sync. they seem unlikely but i think damien brings out the nerd in chanse the best lol. also i love so many duos gosh!!!!!!! they’re all such good pals with each other it’s rare to NOT have a good duo. ian being arasha’s “dad” is always a fun bit lmao.

4. favorite reoccurring character? im a chosen girlie for sure 🥹 love that freak.

5. favorite smosh video? oh my goshhh that’s so hard. i love to rewatch shayne & courtney’s tntl trivial pursuit. i love lots of the don’t win mario partys. love when they play werewolf (and blood on the clock tower.) and OF COURSE, love so so so many try not to laughs 🥰🫶

6. first video that got you into smosh? i wish i remembered the first “other” vid i watched last year, but i do not 😔 i also wish i remembered the first tntl my brother showed me, but alas i do not 😔 i can’t even say i remember which early smosh vid he showed me first all those years ago, but i’m going to guess it was one of the pokemon ones. so that’s gonna have to suffice as my answer lmao

7. favorite picture of the cast? i don’t know if i have a favorite favorite but this recent one from the live is very cute and silly <3

8. favorite picture of your fave? i mean really anything this dumbass posts. why is he like this

9. what smosh series do you want to see more of? gosh i’d loooove if they brought let’s do this! back!!! AND IDIOTS PRESENT!!!!!

10. dream guest on smosh mouth? oh my gosh uhhh… i literally don’t know. maybe vanessa lachey just to see amanda resisting the urge to commit murder for a full hour.

tagging: @japhan2024 @hoohoobeanie + anyone else can say i tagged them bc i’m not confident who of my followers are here for smosh adjskdj 💛

[eddie-rifff]

suicide talk tw

tl;dr at the end

lol. something happened at work on friday that may very well not relate to me or effect me in any way but i am worried im going to lose my job over it. like i want to clear it up asap but im worried asking about it will make me seem insane in case it DOESNT relate to me but if it does i need to know. so yeah all day ive been like hardcore anxiety at a 8/10 with 10 being screaming crying panic wondering what im going to do with my life if i get fired. like if im too stupid to do what i do now, and its the only thing i have experience in, then what the fuck am i supposed to do? proofreading is my only "skill" like seriously i cant do anything else. so if i get fired for the one thing i was supposed to be good at i think thats it for me as in lights out shows over. so i told that to my friend and he was like well how would you do it and i was like ummmmm. idk actually. in the past ive tried to OD on meds and, clearly, that didnt work. we didnt have anything in our house powerful enough then and i dont think we do now but id have to go through my dads stuff to be sure. our guns are like not really capable of killing a human theyre more like varmint guns so that wont do. we have the train tracks but i couldnt do that do my family so. if i get fired im not fucking applying to hundreds of jobs for three years again. i think i might just live in misery forever until i can find a way to kms i guess.

but like i said. i dont even know if what happened friday has anything to do with me. im just so so so so worried that it does. i am so incredibly fortunate to have the job i do, such that any seed of doubt that can be scraped together to suggest that it might be in jeopardy just makes me insane.

like idk it would really probably be for the best that i do die asap for my own good. but ive seen firsthand three times now how absolutely devastating the suicide of a young person is on countless people around them. like the person whose visitation i went to was the sister of a former best friend who i met maybe two times 15 years ago and i have been thinking about her and tearing up regularly since i found out. but idk im not nearly as likable as she was so i wouldnt necessarily have that effect. i kind of fucking suck in fact. i know shelby and my family and my ex would be very hurt but is living out the rest of my life in pain worth it just to spare their feelings? i guess thats the question every suicidal person has to ask.

like i know i am no one's #1. i know my place. but i know my family still loves me in some capacity and imagining them finding me dead and grieving me just hurts so badly. but if i get fired and am faced with what i had to deal with prior to this job idk what else im supposed to do. it really really feels like my only option

i am so fucking sick of trying to get better. i WAS better but then the idea of being fired got put into my head (by myself) and here i am again. i really will be ok as long as i dont get fired. but bro i dont think i can take any more of it if i do. the therapists and the shrinks and the drugs and the "im here if you need to talk"s i just cant fucking take another second of it.

tl;dr

im worried about getting fired because im reading into something that happened at work and now im suicidal again hooray

[spamton-addison]

okay all the questions I can think of before I have to leave

1 general backstory overview?

2 pronouns?

3 favorite food, movie, snack, book, and person?

4 an object they really like

5 sexual/romantic orientation(s)?

6 how many friends do they have?

7 cursed by the visions or doomed by the narrative

8 are you interested in maybe them hanging out with my characters sometime maybe…….

9 does their name have a meaning?

10 are they yours or did you revamp them? (Or are they just a blorbo?)

11 do they like rain?

12 favorite tv show

13 old television colorbars? Yes or no?

14 touch tone telephone or rotary dial phone?

15 why do they stand out to you so much?

16 I am out of ideas. I will send more if I think of them and pls keep writing if you’d like/can

OKAY RAPIDFIRE LETS GO

1. sale is the oldest sibling of the addison family (hes 28 usually, but around 24 in some aus . hes always the oldest sibling though) he was happy once and then his best friend got cucked by a capitalist bastard which caused him to completely shut down emotionally in some fucked up misguided attempt to protect himself and his siblings from further harm its a whole thing . he is constantly overworking himself in order to avoid thinking about what happens and refuses to let himself cry ever

2. pronouns are he/him this man is CIS

3. favourite food: nothing i can think of specifically but he used to really like sour things and meat . he hates beef specifically though

favourite movie: he doesnt give himself time to watch anything recreationally. he probably wouldve liked deadpool/deadpool 2 if hed ever watched them though (sorry. my movie knowledge is limited and im projecting)

favourite snack: coffee is not a snack but it is to him . he probably ate coffee beans before the horrors as a joke

favourite book: he doesnt give himself time to read but he probably would like fantasy books . think like the dragon stones trilogy or eragon . also maybe the hunger games

favourite person: thatd either be his (missing) best friend Loveluck, his sibling Reverb (in aus where reverb exists) or his sibling Radio (in aus where radio exists)

4. he has this one specific pen that hes used for years and never throws away . he would rather spend a fuck ton of money getting ink specifically for this one pen than just buy a ton of new ones cheap . it is his favourite pen . otherwise he has a photo of him and his siblings he keeps in his room, but hes kept it facedown since the horrors (it hurts to look at)

5. hes aroace :D

6. anywhere between zero and maybe three . depends on the au

7. doomed by the narrative but also the narrative wants to save him . he is dead set on dooming himself . but also he suffers in nearly every au so i think that counts as doomed by the narrative

8. he doesnt get out much anymore and is kind of mean to most people but ABSOLUTELY . young sale (pre shutdown) is tolerable and a fun guy to be around probably

9. take a wild guess what the name Sale could possibly mean/silly

10. sale is my oc but he was Supposed to just be a generic yellow addison to act as the scapegoat . it got a little out of hand and now hes my everything

11. ya he likes the rain its grounding . when it rains is like the only time he lets himself take a break from work because he can just focus on the white noise of the rain . its nice to him . rain is actually one of the few things he likes now that he Didnt like before

12. he hates like everything to do with tv shows . probably the pokemon anime

13. possibly

14. touch tone . he has a personal vendetta against rotary dial phones

15. CLAPS HANDS TOGETHER. HE IS MY FAVOURITE COLOUR, HE HAS SPIKY TEETH, I PROJECT ONTO HIM AN ALARMING AMOUNT, IVE HAD HIM AROUND A YEAR AND A HALF AT LEAST BY NOW I THINK? HE STANDS OUT BECAUSE HES JUST SO FUNDAMENTALLY BROKEN IN A WAY UNIQUE TO HIM (and trust me there are a Lot of characters that are so fucked up around him) HE IS SO FULL OF CONFLICT AND FEAR AND HES PATHETIC AND ID LET HIM BE MY DAD BUT ALSO IM A LITTLE GAY FORHIM .

16. sale has like. two main character arcs to me, regardless of au . notably being his first arc, in which he digs himself into a terribly awfully deep hole, and his second arc being then realising he wants to get Out of it again . although in the aus where he Does get to heal he is never the same as he was before it all, he still heals and gets to move on with his life . even if it takes him literal years to get to a point where he can even start .

despite how poor his circumstances are (largely by his own fault but caused by the disappearance of loveluck) and despite how hard it is for him to keep going every day he never wants to die . he wants this hell to end but he doesnt want that end to be by dying . he wants to live . he wishes he still could . but he is so scared and he lets that fear control him and that is why he so routinely makes the shittiest decisions . he is trying his best but his best right now is terrible because of how centred he is on avoiding the past .

he means so much to me

[renjibozo]

episode 8 has finally dropped (1/3)

its time !!!! ill be referencing this post quite a lot since it's my prediction post

(part 2 for things that weren't mentioned here) (part 3 for more things that weren't mentioned)

everything under the cut for spoiler avoiders!

THE TIME HAS COME. and i'm extremely giddy despite sobbing my eyes out for today's episode

let's debunk or confirm the things that i said/predicted when the trailer dropped

kazuki and miri are preparing but i'm still not sure if they're preparing for rei's birthday because putting kazurei's conversation aside, it should be related to the episode still like the previous trailer for episode 7

since miri's zoo trip is over and the rainy season was shown in episode 7, and kazurei talked about the summer weather, i can only guess that it really is gonna be a rei birthday thing because no way is it miri's birthday bc hers is in november, and her acquisition was in christmas eve

rei bday might be somewhere between june to september

i will cry if i get this correct

I WAS CORRECT. I CALLED IT!!!! the episode is set in the summer, august (specific date is august 10th)

you can hear extremely loud cicadas, and this ties in pretty well with kazurei's conversation about summer during the trailer!

not only that, today (in the anime) is rei's birthday and that IS what miri and kazuki are preparing for

now we have all of their birthdays........... wow

the suwa manor i assume??

yes it's the suwa manor. we could see similar architecture on the outside compared to episode 3's flashback scene

a little bit of benefit of the doubt for those windows because it has been some time since episode 3's flashback to current timeline

this implies that despite kyutaro once looking at rei saying he knows the consequences of betraying the organization the most, he is in contact with his boss (father)

unfortunately, despite that line, he didn't betray the organization. he also wasn't in contact with his boss the entire time he was gone

did he have an escape attempt once? is this episode going to elaborate on that? this seems more of a rei backstory episode after kazuki's backstory episode

the episode does end up elaborating! though he never had an escape attempt. his boss was fully aware of him leaving the manor for elsewhere and made an oath to return

if kazuki's wife died five years ago and rei left the suwa manor (and by extension, the organization) three years ago, that means there's a two year gap between them meeting... curious as to what happened during then

im willing to bet kazuki's the one who did her hairstyle because i feel like rei would just accidentally tug on her hair every few seconds but i might be proven wrong or they never show us

THEY DIDNT SHOW !!! but it's definitely kazuki because rei's outside of the house, small win

favorite child and unfavorite child face off? they have similar facial structures and hair strand placement the color contrasts is screeching into my face as well

absolutely nothing like that !!!! a little sad to report that,

this man wasn't rei's sibling, but rather, rei's mentor who taught him how to use weaponry for assassination

now why is this man here

he's here as rei's uber driver and someone who shares things without being asked for it /LH

he also asked for kaji's last words but we'll get into that a bit later or maybe in a part 2

i really do wonder what sort of conversation they're having in the midst of a gunfight inside a ship maybe the organization found out about miri and them taking in miri?

they were talking about rei leaving the organization, a little bit of their history, complete with a debate between someone who follows the organization's rules to the letter and someone who strayed from the path for something they wanted to protect

this definitely resonates with rei because

he never tells ogino the last words he saw kaji mouthing while he fell to his death despite knowing what they are

he also found two someones to protect (i'll never forget this scene where his voice sounded really panicked)

NOW WHAT IS THIS !!!! HELLO !!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT HAPPENED LITTLE CRINGEMAN he's showing too much emotion so i'm convinced that there was a threat made to miri and kazuki by favorite poster suwa child

WE FINALLY GET CONFIRMATION! this face was due to this scene right here

he seemed startled at how accepting his mentor was at dying when his wife? girlfriend? fiance? died

it didn't even look like he wanted to drop the guy off the balcony on purpose because why would he run over to try and catch him somehow

and for the last part of the prediction post that i want to tackle,

hopefully rei does get back home safe and sound even if he gets a wound or two, manifesting!!

he does come back home! thankfully.

he only has one wound on his arm that he hopefully did take care of when he finished eating some of the birthday food laid out on the table for him

now onto things that weren't tackled on my prediction post, but in a part 2 to have some form of organization :DD

[udon-udon]

haven’t had the time to sit down and kinda recap the mamamoo concert trip so here we go, i’ll try to keep it short!

Landed in SF and had a friend take me around San Jose for a lil bit! Went to Trader Joe’s for the first time ever LOL and then got to the place I was staying at. Unpacked and got ready for the next day which was concert #1 day. Went to a really cute cafe that had some local artist stuff for sale, I bought some stickers hehe. We then headed to a mall to kill some time before heading to In N Out with our other friends. Had my first In N Out experience and laksjdflskjd im in love. We headed to the concert at about 5pm ish and the merch line was long af alksjdflaksjdf but managed to snag a sweatshirt, and 2 tshirts, i really splurged. The concert was amazing, I’m still shellshocked, cause I’m so used to seeing them via a video or something buT THEY WERE THERE IN PERSON!!! Anyway I’m still shook. I also lost my hat that I’ve only ever worn once so I’m sad about that... Got home at around 12am ish and we ate in n out yet again cause it was the only thing opened around LOL. In N Out twice in a day? Would do again honestly. That night my travel friend and I only had like 2 hours of sleep though cause we had to get up at 5am for our Lyft to the airport alskdjsalskdf We made it on time though! 

Our flight to LA was 7am to 9am, and once we landed, we got picked up by another friend who showed us around Little Tokyo and Koreatown! I loved Little Tokyo so much aaah. Bought Mamamoo’s Purple album (blue vers.) and Mamamoo+’s Act 1 Scene 1 at a kpop store. Got dropped off at our airbnb at around 3pm and met up with the airbnb gang in which i didn’t know half of, but they were chill people! Always nice to meet more fellow moomoos. We went to a well known gopchang restaurant for dinner that night, and apparently a ton of kpop artists went there too cause they had their autographs etc. Good stuff. First time trying gopchang and it’s definitely an acquired taste. I’ve heard it doesn’t all taste the same so maybe I should try some more if i ever go to korea again. That night we slept very well haha

The next day was concert #2 day! Travel friend and I managed to sleep in while the others went to do their own things. 3/8 of us regrouped at the airbnb and walked to the restaurant that we wanted to eat at (which was kinda full so we ended up going to another nearby restaurant). We ate coco curry and then headed to the concert venue! lasklaskd A friend of ours made a poster that for some reason wasn’t allowed in so she snuck it through and I had to be the one receiving it LKJASLDKJF mission impossible shit right there. The concert was just as amazing and aaaahhhhhhh I have no words to describe IT STILL FEELS SURREAL. We tried waiting after the concert for Mamamoo’s cars to come out and THEY DID. but they didn’t roll down their windows like they usually do and they went the other way we were standing LMAOOO twas a good effort i guess. At least their car passed by us HAHA. I got a video of it. We then got home at like 12-1am and then ordered tacos and drank til 5am cause they bought way too much alcohol;;; 

Next day was our last day here, in which I split with the airbnb gang to hang with some other friends. I heard that the airbnb gang’s adventure was very stressful and i wish i was there to witness the chaos but thankful i didn’t have to experience it LOL. hung around another area of Little Tokyo I didn’t go last time, and then went to Nucleus, a local artist gallery BUT IT WAS CLOSED AND I WAS SAD. It looked super cool too which makes it even sadder :( Oh well. Then got dropped off at the airport at about 3pm (which was really early), but my airbnb gang were there shortly after cause some of them had their flight at 5:30pm. My flight buddies just sat there and chatted til 8pm, our flight aaaand on the flight we went. Got home at about 11:30pm ish and the end : ) 

[27-royal-teas]

im gonna controversially rank every fall out boy album (writing this i am realizing HOW fucking obsessed i am with this band holy shitttttt) just for funsies and pls dont attack me these are just my opinions!!! I love all the albums there are just some I like more than others open minds open arms yk

8.) take this to your grave

Hey i know im aware its a classic but im just not a huge fan. All the songs kind of sound the same, this is true for any first album i think, especially from this time period (for instance. All time low i love you to death but put up and shut up just wasnt IT for me). its still a really good album!!! but like. Ive also only listened to saturday and grand theft autumn off of it so i guess im not much one to talk. I definitely need to give this album another try when i get the time! It’s just kind of difficult for me to listen to. Like reading lord of the rings. Everyone says it’s a classic and it’s amazing but it’s fucking DIFFICULT to get through

7.) american beauty/american psycho

Its ranked this low simply because its kind of too mainstream. There are, of course, tons of bangers (see: twin skeletons, favorite record, fourth of july) but yeah. I do end up skipping a lot of the songs on this album just cause they were really overplayed, but ive forcibly distanced myself from the more overplayed songs enough that an occasional relisten wont make me want to rip my ears off. Still a good album, (none of these are BAD ALBUMS by any means, just,,, not my favorite) 

6.) save rock and roll

Best way to come back from the dead imo. I love this album. I listened to it with the commentary queued before each song and it really did enhance the whole thing by listening to them discuss the meaning behind each one. Not a huge fan of ALL the features- i like all the songs and i wont skip most of them but i just dont really like courtney loves feature tbh shes kind of off the beat in her verse and my brain doesnt like it but other than that its a really good album. Also the youngblood chronicles have my entire heart on a plate istg

5.) from under the cork tree

I love this album i really do!! There are just other albums i like MORE. its a fantastic album full of fantastic songs (Our Lawyer and I Slept With Someone being my two favorites besides the obvious) and so many have really just become huge milestones in pop punk and emo music as we know it. This album was fucking INFLUENTIAL and really changed the entire music industry as a whole. How can you not love it??

4.) MANIA

Ah, mania, my musical wife. I love her so. I love this album so much, I don’t understand why it gets so much hate. Sure its different but i like different. It feels like there was a lot of love put into this album idk. Also there are no skips for me on this one (except for Hold Me Tight or Don’t, depending on what mood im in- ever since I found out Joe never plays guitar in that song at all it’s kind of changed my whole view of it). It really does bring to life how close the links are between music, how they’re not so far apart after all, how we can bridge the gap and make something purposeful and new. 

3.) so much (for) stardust

This was my first album cycle as a fan and i am having a marvelous time.  I feel like partly because of that its ranked so high, but i love this album to death. No skips, except maybe flu game. Loved the resurgence of pete’s slam poetry and i really do think that the orchestral arrangements brought it all together. Overall sm(f)s is a great album and im glad it was my first with them

2.) infinity on high

I seriously love this album SO much. however i do recommend watching the video for carpal tunnel of love. i think it ruined me. It’s absolutely horrifying but everyone should have the experience of being absolutely horrified by a fall out boy video at least once. Either way, great album and Hum Hallelujah is one of my favorite songs by fob. Everything on it is just so well made

1 ) folie a deux

I mean what else can i say? Its, in my opinion, the best fall out boy album of them all. The craftsmanship feels like someone really put their heart and soul into it. There is some delicate care within these walls. What A Catch makes me cry every time. My friends have heard me talk about 27 enough. Tiffany Blews is incredible. It’s just,, so FULL. idk

In conclusion you really can’t go wrong with any of fobs albums!!!! They are all hella bangers !!! Incredible masterpieces!!!! If you haven’t listened to any I highly recommend!!!!!

[anosci]

Media Thread

im making a list of media ive watched/played/etc this year with brief thoughts. its going to be far less featured than my music list, but still a bit long. again mirroring twitter except this time because fuck twitter.

list below the cut

～January～

1/ Princes Arete (2001) I was sold on this movie under the premise that it's similar to Kino no Tabi. and… it is. kinda. Kino and Arete would be cool pals. Every character is interesting, which seems rare(?) Only real drawback: the hostage situation kinda really sucked.

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2/ Time of EVE (2008/9) the classic tale: androids indistinguishable from humans as an allegory for racism. but unlike DBH, this is actually really good. its a story that feels like a single thread in a vast tapestry that'd be fascinating to explore, but too bad: you only have 6 eps

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3/ Spice & Wolf (2008) i remember loving this show. i don't remember understanding the economics. I took notes this time. I still struggled. (spoilers for ep3) regardless: wow this is a good show. weirdly, I saw myself in the relationship portrayals. I guess that means its realistic?

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～February～

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4/ Spice & Wolf II (2009) i feel like this kinda fell off? :( like it tried too hard to be action-packed. and that worked sometimes. but that first arc was just… :( it feels like a case of "just needs an editing pass. needs a bit more focus" i'll treasure S1 more, after all

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5/ Double Fine PsychOdyssey (2023) absurdly captivating. i say that it's a miracle that any video game gets made ever. this shows that Psychonauts 2 was several miracles in succession. it's simultaneously illusion-shattering and inspiring.

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6/ The Owl House S1 (2020) finally sat down to watch this. it's GOOD. lots of worldbuilding to chew on, and then it picked up quite nicely. im immediately pouncing on S2 and feeling glad i was late enough to be able to marathon

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～March～

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7/ The Owl House S2 (2022) stumbling down the boulderest mountain and hitting every rock on the way down. the rocks represent engagement. i am engaged. i adore this show. it is a little weird to suddenly freeze mid-tumble.

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8/ Broken Age (2014) (Dr. Mick's LP) delightful start! brilliant, even! then the big bad is revealed and…. meh. I watched Dr. Mick's playthru tho, and holy shit that's some really cool commentary.

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9/ Double Fine Adventure! (2015) its a little unfortunate that the nature of gamedev means that the ending is kinda anticlimatic but good lord what an amazing journey. i'd watch a million of these.

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10/ Everything Everywhere All At Once (2022) ok ok fine ill [finally] watch it …oh its good. like really good. its rly funny but in a way that fascinatingly beside the point? yeah I can see why some ppl didnt like this but i think its super fun

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11/ Nichijou (2011) a nice and cute slice of life thing… that occasionally breaks out some quality jokes. though only half of them landed for me. i feel like i would've gotten more out of this if I caught it at the time.

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～April～

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12/ The Owl House S3 (2023) i had a lot of reservations about the collector initially but having seen the entire arc: that came together nicely! still sad that it's The End, but like. good overall!

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13/ Penguindrum (2011) i DONT think i followed 90% of the themes and their connections. that said, i DO love the way metaphors are treated as "literal". confusing maybe, but i adore the idea of "paint what you feel not what you see" applied to storytelling.

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～May～

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14/ From the New World (2012) this has a mess of an opening (several) episode(s), but it eventually found its footing and became quite a cool action adventure… thriller i guess? i do take some issues with bits and pieces but it was a good watch overall.

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15/ GinGitune (2013) fluff. the lightest, fluffiest of fluff. melts in water. there are several elements that couldve been mined for drama and intrigue but they were all treated as background elements. (this isn't a bad thing, but it's not what you might expect.)

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～June～

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16/ Space Dandy (2014) dropped after ep4, but on good terms i guess? fun animation, funky vibes, sometimes even funny! anime johny bravo…or I think i saw a Dirty Pair comparison, which feels right. but im not meshing with the silly wacky high nrg antics rn. maybe another time.

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～July～

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17/ Death Parade (2015) rly misleading intro (i was ready to drop lol) rly rly promising setup by ep4 RLY good development and mildly biffed ending, but hard to fault considering its a 12ep. i love the aesthetics, worldbuilding, characters. overall i really really liked this!!!

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18/ One Punch Man S1 (2015) i forgot how fun this show is! and the great worldbuilding! i dont plan to move to the second season again tho. i thought about grabbing the manga instead but good lord it's way longer than i thought. oh well.

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19/ Flying Witch (2016) slicest of life with a la croix touch of supernatural. the normal slices didn't do much for me 90% of the time. but the supernatural slices? choice. (…mostly.) tbh i just want an entire season of that cafe.

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～August～

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20/ Haven't You Heard? I'm Sakamoto (2016) i was skeptical, but this actually worked rly well. for moment. a short, beautiful moment. most of the potential here was stifled by trying to add high school drama/plot. the comedy tho, at its best, had a vibe i havent felt since hayate

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～September～

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21/ Saiki Kusuo no Psi Nan (2016) it is VERY EASY for a comedy show to slide from "absurdity = funny" to "this is just annoying". somehow, this never crossed that line, which was weirdly refreshing? not always a winner, but overall a good mix of laughs and superpower exploration.

21b/ edit to add: oh this was right after Sakamoto! Man. The two feel kind of kindred but Saiki is leagues better at staying fresh.

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22/ Viewfinder (2023) short but very sweet mind-bender puzzler thing. the story had a cool foundation but fumbled in execution imo. but the gameplay? top notch. felt great through and through. never too difficult. beautiful idea and beautiful execution.

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23/ Flip Flappers (2016) uncertain about the show at first, and then, after watching… im still uncertain. i did enjoy it, but I also felt outside the audience ig? a case where I can imagine a version of this show that knocks my socks off, but as-is it's just a fun ride

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24/ Fionna & Cake (2023) my expectations were very low and they were VASTLY exceeded! think this show is at its strongest when exploring characters w short stories, which was most of this. the ending felt slightly fumbled…i think it couldve rocked me but instead it was just :).

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～October～

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25/ Outer Wilds: Echoes of the Eye (2021) i already played and loved this game, but happened upon About Oliver's playthrough and fell in love again. truly that is The Most outer wilds playthrough. good lord.

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26/ The Amazing Digital Circus (2023) interesting and filled with style… but not for me. i'd list complaints but basically all of them are strengths and favorites for someone else. yknow?

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～November～

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27/ Little Witch Academia TV (2017) as the credits roll, i find myself with two thoughts: croix was done dirty and wow this is SPECTACLE. aptly magical. oh also! it was quite fun to follow along with contemporary discussion

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～December～

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28/ Scott Pilgrim Takes Off (2023) oh it's like. really good. i dont remember the movie so i cant compare but this stands well on its own and i love the character exploration, even if i dont like some of the uhh… what would you call that? scifi jokes? (spoiler territory soz)

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29/ Land of the Lustrous (2017) FLOORED by how much I loved this. qualms about the CG turned into admiration, the shading drawing me into the world. worries about annoying characters melted away to find admirable layers. THE USE OF SYMBOLISM kept me SO well fed. and the pacing!

29b/ cont: my only complaint that isn't a nitpick: i hate how it left so, so, so many threads loose. i faceplanted my dashboard during the decelerating pace between the first 10 eps and the final 2. i get that it's from an ongoing manga but that still felt maximum bummer.

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[plutothe-pup]

Write your RPer Resolutions for 2023! (What are some goals for yourself as a writer? Improve descriptions? Plot with more members? Etc.)

Plot more; I’m very much a hands-off kind of person and often I do not approach people to plot or respond well to other’s coming to me to plot. I think this also just has to do with me and my socialization in general. I tend to fly by the seat of my pants and that’s fine and all but I do think I should probably actually engage in fully planned/developed and laid out plots for once. 

I would say a resolution is to dive into big plots more - but that is a lie. I will not do that even if I say I will. Maybe I can say focus on personal plots more?? idk

do more tasks - but the way this one is going is not a good indication I will follow through on this lmfaooo

/cracks knuckles and pulls out megaphone: No. More. Characters.; That’s right. That’s my resolution. I don’t want a SINGLE NEW CHARACTER in the entire year of 2023. I want to put all of my focus on the three I have currently in continuing, expanding and guiding their storylines and I want to focus solely on them. Like the good ol’days. Like when Lauren had a whole one character and refused to get a second one. Bringing it back. I will not fall to peer pressure. I will not be swayed. I will be strong. I will be brave. ( x ) 

Stop using song titles as thread titles. 

Stop using em dashes and the phrase ‘after all’ 

Write at least one resolution, or “goal,” that you have as an RPer for your character(s)

Greg: Explore relationships and mend the fight between himself and his parents. Get back on the upwards slope. Alternatively - spiral into Greg’s new normal. No in between. Chaos energy only. Graduate his Masters program.  Seb: Get this man a new job, or join the VFD. SOMETHING. He needs purpose. Build bridges between the gaps in his relationships with his brothers. Try and break the attachment to his biological ghost family so he can have peace.  Milo: Originally I wanted him involved in both sides of the fence. I wanted Milo to dip himself into the kinds of things he was raised to do and continue having that moral/family conflict of doing what he knows is right vs what he was raised to think was right. To have him excel in something shady and have to dig his way out of that mess - the problem is he’s like too deep in wanting to impress Pip that it’d be a lot more difficult to pursue this. So perhaps just FINDING HIMSELF. 

Write at least one resolution IN CHARACTER for your characters. What do THEY want to accomplish or change in the New Year?

day 1: imma skip this one day 2: ....oh my. all of my characters suck and are like ‘resolution? lol’  day 3: maybe I can leave it blank.  day 4: damn well I guess I can’t bc the last one needs these...  day 5: god DAMN this is hard why do yall suck so hard day 6: ok seriously  day 7: im not even going to do this god day 8: TODAY WILL BE THE DAY.....ugh

Greg: Survive until 2024. Move. ...hm. OBTAIN THE LEGENDARY WEBKINZ CROWN OF WONDER.  Seb: [Redacted].  Milo: Graduate Secondary, help Pip get enough money to attend NYU, pay back Amy & Pip, Figure out his future. BREAK HIS CURSE. 

List one or more characters you have never interacted with that you would like to do so

Doc - Doc is a lil shit and I love watching him cause old-man disgruntlement yet also still be very sweet and kind. I just think he’s neat

Jake - I can’t say I’ve never interacted with Jake, but I’ll consider not having interacted with Jake since 2018 (?) never. Which is surprising because him and Greg had very many potential connections and similar interests and would probably be........... - well not friends, Gregory is complicated but.. friendly. 

Drakken - That’s a chaotic energy I would love to be a part of. 

Talk a bit about your plotting style – what plots are you most drawn to? Do you prefer to come with a fully-formed idea and plot off that, or throw stuff at the wall and see what sticks?

As I think I’ve mentioned before I’m a... Best Supporting Actor kind of plotter. Which means that very rarely do I have this large arching plots for myself or my own characters, but instead am just happy to offer my characters in supporting roles towards other people’s plots. In case you haven’t noticed a lot of my large plots with my own characters often even happen off screen and I just casually drop mentions of it in threads until it finally comes to light (if it even ever does. For example; as mentioned above, Gregory has been completely estranged and hasn’t spoken with his parents since the Ruff to Fluff Re-opening. Did I ever do a formal plotted thread or self-para regarding this? No. Not really. Did I drop minor mentions of it here and there in various threads. Yes lol. This is how I work) Anyways - Which means I am very much in my own regard just a throw stuff and see what happens person. I have never been very good at having big central plots and huge inter-weaving story lines that all come together for one big thing. I’ve always just kind of been like ‘...what if we do x?’ and then see what happens with literally no further information. It’s incredibly hard for me to follow a bullet-point plot or to even plot a fully organized timeline kind of thing. My plotting style for the most part is.......... oh you want to do that? ok. - or ‘I’m going to answer this open’. 

Talk a bit about character relationships – what relationship are you most drawn to? How do you prefer to approach shipping (if at all!)? What, specifically, are you looking for right now for your character relationships? 

I’m very much fond of platonic, found family types of relationships, which...I think is evident if you look at most of my characters or the history of my characters. The large majority of them, if not......... all of them formed found-family relationships the most. Dodger, Greg, Roscoe, Milo, Sebastian. Those are usually the central relationships with my characters. Shipping is probably one of the rarest relationship plots I form if only because my approach to shipping is to........ not approach it at all. All of my ships form simply by authentic in character interactions and seeing where they go. They’re often not at all talked about or even discussed until the relationship/crush/etc is already well established. Right now I’m just looking to grow tighter/closer bonds for all of my characters since I seem to be playing two recluses at the moment and one social puppy who is trying to make friends. I want all of them to grow stronger bonds in friendships, but they do not make it easy. 

Talk about your dash reply style and your Discord reply style! (And if applicable, also your doc reply style). What do you like about each type of interaction? What is something you feel is difficult? 

My dash reply style is based solely on availability. I am definitely not the type of person who can post daily, and often it ends up happening on weekends but I do try to also post throughout the week. I’m also not a ‘few posts a day’ kind of person. When I have the time and the muse, I will literally charge through my entire draft list and spam the dash with every single thread I have at one time. When availability and time allows, I’m also very into back & forth dash RPing!!! Please never be afraid to hit me back right away, I came from RP’s that centered around the back and forth when online style and while I’ve adapted slightly to this RP, I still do enjoy that. Unfortunately, like I said, availability keeps me from replying to dash replies as much as I want to. 

I love a discord thread, if only because the simplicity of being able to reply on the go and anywhere I am at is very nice. Even if I’m away on a trip or on vacation or something, I enjoy still being able to reply to Discord events & threads. I’ll reply to these so long as I’m around and they’re much easier and often take less thought than dash replies so it feels like a far larger amount of development can happen in a much shorter time. Standing events? special events? private server.... just in dms. whatever. love a little back and forth quick rping. little tidbits or musings. always fun. love discord. 

My doc reply style is similar to dash, but also more available as I can reply on the go or wherever. However, the downside to doc replies is I often forget about them and am like ‘oh shit the doc’ because they’re not right in front of me and I’m not just visiting Google Docs every day like I am tumblr or discord. I only really do doc stuff if a) it’s a secret/private thread we want to keep hidden until it’s done. b) it’s a time sensitive thing/heavy thing, c) it was from the past/or for the future and we just know we won’t hit the actual time period on the dash. 

Plotting Exercise! Pick one of the resolutions/goals in #3 and plan a rough guideline to how you could accomplish it. Here’s an example.

Milo seeking help for his curse: 

Milo talks to Pip about trying to break his curse after a series of unsuccessful attempts at finding some kind of good middle ground for what Milo can and can’t do. They discuss some starting ideas and Pip gives Milo people he might be able to talk to. 

Milo goes back to Mim since she’s one of the few people who know about his curse and has tried to help before. He hopes that Mim might have some connections that could help and he gets information on Martin, who also might point him in the direction of other people who could assist. 

Milo meets back up with Pip at Hatters and discusses what he’s discovered (nothing), and laments the fact that he’ll be cursed forever, much to Pip’s disagreement. 

Desperate for some kind of answer, Milo seeks medical help because maybe a doctor can help and tries to get Tibbs or Dian to fix him. Though there’s nothing they can do for a curse and have no choice but to send him away. 

Milo runs into Yzma and spills his secret to a stranger in a fit of desperation - agrees to be a test-dummy for experiments or whatever they need in exchange for any chance of breaking his curse. 

Considering seeking a higher power in the BOARD and see if Swynlake itself has any recommendations or resources for cursed persons. Try to speak with Al, or Isaac. 

Give up. 

(Not the canon take, I can assure you) 

[softlymellow]

remember me -- P.P 3

pairing: Peter Parker (Andrew Garfield) x reader

word count: 3.4k

warnings: no way home spoilers !!! 

request/s: extended story !! part 4 coming soon

summary:  Peter Parker had lost you in a different universe, but when he is brought to a reality with another Spiderman, he also finds you, but you don’t remember him.

a/n: hi guys !! lots of you guys were requesting for a part 3 so here it is! this is just like an extended story with a new problem and the return of ur favourite spidey. there will probably be one or two more parts following this before i wrap up the series! also just some notes that mit is in nyc im actually from australia so it just kinda makes it easier to set it in the same place since idk where it is

part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4 

You held the phone tightly in your palms, afraid it might fall along with the rest of your belongings, the two boxes you held weighing more than you.

“I can’t believe you’re not staying in a dorm with us, Y/n. ” Ned groaned as he face-timed you.

You rolled your eyes, “my parents wouldn’t let me. They think I’ll just sleep around, get drunk and party.”

“Isn’t that the whole point of college?” MJ teased, her brown locks sitting on her face.

“Something’s different this time guys. Maybe staying in this apartment is just my ‘grand plan’,” you mocked, taking slow steps up the stairs.

“How’s that thing going with that doctor of yours?” You asked Ned.

Ned’s face lit up with excitement, his mouth agape. “I help him with universal balance stuff now!”

“I guess your grandma was right, you really do have magic.” You snickered.

“How did you even manage to know someone who’s part of the Avengers?” MJ asked, her brows furrowing.

Ned shook his head, “I-I honestly don’t know. I just can’t remember but it feels like I’ve known him for ages.” Ned stammered, an uncertain look on his face.

Finally reaching the top of the stairs, you let out a breath of relief. The second floor of the apartment block was small and had only four rooms. You assumed that the third floor contained the same amount. The front wall that faced the stairwell had two rooms and the right had the other two.

“Okay, guys. I’m going to fall if I keep talking to youse, call you later.” You whispered, afraid you might disturb your new neighbours and cause a bad first impression.

“Okay, bye!” Ned exclaimed, a grin on his face as MJ shot you a tight-lipped smile. The facetime ended and you shoved your phone in your pocket with one hand and the other holding the two boxes tightly.

“Unit 8...Unit 8...” You muttered to yourself, reading the numbers at the front of each door. Your eyes caught the number ‘8’ engraved in silver, your door at the right of the stairs.

“Okay,” you whispered to yourself as you knelt and dropped the boxes at the front of your door. Taking your backpack off, you unzipped the small pocket on the side to get your keys.

Slinging your bag across your back, you stepped over your boxes and shoved the key into the hole and twisted it. Placing your hands on the door handle, you attempted to open the door but it wouldn’t budge.

Furrowing your eyebrows, you tried again, but it still didn’t work. Taking the key out of the hole, you carefully placed it back in and twisted it to the max. Using the handle again, it still wouldn’t open the door.

While you were trying to open the door, you hadn’t noticed that someone walked out of their room, their eyes watching you cautiously as you struggled.

“You okay there?” The voice of a man startling you. Whipping your head around, you saw a man who looked the same as you, he had wavy brown hair and porcelain skin. His eyes widened and his face dropped, staring at you with almost a shocked expression.

“Oh sorry! I can’t get the door open.” You apologised, a pink hue growing in your cheeks.

The man didn’t respond, instead, he only stared at you with wide eyes. Feeling slightly awkward with the lack of response, you threw your hand out to shake his.

“I’m Y/n L/n. I’m just moving in here.” The man cautiously shook your hand, his lips sealed. Suddenly he shook his head, almost as if he was hyper-aware of the situation.

“Sorry, did you want me to-” He pointed towards your door.

You nodded your head, “Yeah, that’d be great.”

The man walked around your boxes and took the key out of the hole, and placed it back in, wiggling the key inside and holding the door handle with his other hand, his body against the door.

“You just kind of have to...” He trailed off, flexing his arms and suddenly pushing against the door with his body, grunting at the force. The door flew open revealing your new apartment block.

“My door does this too,” he chuckled, looking over at you.

“Oh my god, thank you so much.” You thanked him as he passed you the keys. He looked down at your boxes and began to pick them up. “No, no. You don’t have to...” You muttered the last word as you saw how easily he had picked up your belongings and placed them onto the desk.

You walked in behind him, looking over your apartment. It featured a twin size bed with a small wooden bedside table and a lamp, a desk and chair against one of the window sills, and a small kitchen area near the door. It looked worse than it sounds, the floorboard creaking with every step you took.

The man twisted his body to look at you, an innocent smile on his face. Your brows furrowed as you stared into his face, taking a closer look.

“You know, you kinda look familiar.” You said to him, his face suddenly dropping.

“I-I do?” He asked, pointing towards himself as if you meant it towards another person.

“Yeah, I feel like I’ve seen you before.” You said, taking a step closer to him as he stood there awkwardly.

“I don’t think we’ve met-”

You gasped, a grin plastered onto your face. “You’re that guy from the coffee shop!” You cackled, covering your mouth with your hands.

“Oh! I-” The man tried to explain himself.

“You were talking to my friend, MJ! You introduced yourself, your name was...” You clicked your fingers as you tried your hardest to remember.

“P...P...P...”

“Paul! My name is Paul Preston.” Paul interrupted you, almost a hopeful look on his face.

“Yes! Paul, it’s so nice to meet you.” You exclaimed.

Paul nodded, “I really have to go, Y/n. I’ll see you later.” He scattered out of your room, not leaving you any chance to say goodbye to him as he closed the door.

Peter sighed in relief as he stood outside of your door, thankful he had left before he exposed anything about himself.

He groaned as he realised that he made a fool out of himself, ‘Paul Preston? Seriously.’

You sat on your chair, spinning around you thought about the new life you were going to have. A new beginning in your life. Pulling out a granola bar from your backpack, you unwrapped the wrapping a took a bite out of it.

As you thought about your latest interaction with your new neighbour Paul, you instantaneously thought about the photograph from the coffee shop.

Pushing your hand into your pocket, you felt the prick of glossy paper on your fingers. Pulling it out, you unfolded the paper and stared into the photograph. It took everything inside of you to not ask everyone you know if they know the man inside the photo. How could the photo be taken without your knowledge and how can it be taken with someone you don’t know?

The only explanation you had was a doppelganger but even that seemed unrealistic as it was placed directly in your bag. The person who has given it to you knows you, you just don’t know them. An uncanny feeling grew in your stomach as you thought about all the worst possible explanations of how it could have been taken. Could you have been drugged and forced to kiss the man? Did someone have a crazy stalker obsession with you and photoshop yourself with them?

Taking the last bite of your granola bar, you threw the wrapped into the trashcan underneath your desk and took another look at the photo.

It was unrealistic to think that the man in that photo wasn’t attractive. He really was and maybe you didn’t slightly mind the idea of kissing him, but it still made you feel uncomfortable knowing the photo existed.

Leaving the photo on your desk, you got up and began to unpack your belongings, wanting to stimulate the feeling of a home.

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Today was MIT’s open day, the campus bustled with excitement as you looked through all the stalls with MJ and Ned.

“Please! I’ve never had a Korean corn dog before,” you exclaimed, begging MJ to try it with you.

MJ groaned, “Just because you want to try, doesn’t mean I have to.”

“But it’s best to try it together,” Ned said as he was already eating his.

“Fine...” MJ muttered as you squealed, pulling her into the line.

Once you were finally served, you and MJ had both picked the most generic looking one. Pulling her to the side, you passed your phone to Ned asking for a photo with our reactions.

“Okay, 1, 2, 3.” You both took a bite out of the corn dog, the cheese created a stringy effect.

MJ kept chewing onto the cheese, an impressed look on her face. “That was surprisingly not that bad.” She shrugged as she took another bite.

Your eyebrows furrowed as you kept chewing on your bite, “not sure if I like it.” You muttered, handing it over to Ned.

“What a dramatic turn of events,” Ned said, taking a bite out of yours.

“Ned, do you ever think you could use that ring thingy for like what, a celebrity?” MJ asked, eating in between her words.

Ned thought for a second as if he hadn’t thought about the idea before. “Like who?”

“Mmm! What about like Elon Musk!” You exclaimed.

MJ shot you a look, “you really want to use a wizards magic to see Elon Musk?”

“I think it’s like a distance thing though. Like maybe I can’t use a portal outside of New York.” Ned explained as he threw the stick into the bin.

“Okay...Someone in New York...”

“What if we did Spiderman!” Ned yelled far too loud earning strange looks from students.

“You sound like Flash right now,” MJ taunted him.

“You know that’s actually not a bad idea, Ned.” Shooting him a smug smile and a pat on his back.

“Okay but Doctor Strange is really iffy about guests so I can’t bring you guys to the Sanctum Sanctorum.”

You waved him off, “we don’t even know if it will work.”

MJ nodded as she threw her rubbish in the bin and wiped her hands with tissues. Ned nodded, inhaling deeply with sudden confidence.

“Alright, let’s do this.”

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The night lit sky gave Ned anxiety as he made his way to the building, every now and then looking to see if someone was following him.

Ned quietly opened the door to the Sanctum Sanctorum, although nobody found him suspicious since he had spent a lot of time recently there, he wanted to make sure no one would ask him questions.

Ned shuffled up the stairs, gripping the railings tightly. As he reached the top, he entered the door on the left, one that he has entered many times before.

Pulling out a key in his pocket, he unlocked the door to reveal an empty room, signalling that no one was going to disturb him. Being Doctor Strange’s apprentice came with its perks, having no one question you and receiving a key for your studies.  Ned let out a sigh of relief as he walked up towards the table and took the Sling Ring that lied out in the open.

Ned furrowed his eyebrows, thinking to himself that it wasn’t exactly a safe spot for a multidimensional gateway.

Ned took the ring in his palms and wore it on his ring finger in his right hand. Inhaling deeply, he remembered Doctor Stranger’s training and his grandmother's words.

“Okay,” he muttered to himself, holding his fists up.

“I want to see Spiderman,” Ned said aloud, creating a circular motion with his fingers. Suddenly a firey red portal was drawn in front of him, revealing a man lying in his bed.

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Peter Parker laid restless in his bed, turning and tossing his pillows as he thought about you. A deep regret lied in his stomach that he didn’t stay with you, he hadn’t known the side effects of leaving you. Whether it was against his will or not to leave, he wanted to take it back. He needed to lose you to value you, and you were more than he could ever imagine.

He sat up in his bed in a grey shirt and looked to the side, his face stained with tears. Sniffing, he ruffled his hair, thinking about every possible way he could see you again, but there was no Avengers or Doctor Strange in his universe.

A noise caused Peter to abruptly look up and there it was, a portal, just like the one he went into last time. In that portal he saw Ned, your best friend and his face instantly lifted. Ned looked shocked to see him as if he wasn’t expecting it himself. Peter took no chances and shuffled to get his Spiderman suit and web-shooters, running into the portal before Ned could stop him.

Ned stepped back as Peter entered again, the portal disappearing on his own. He looked over at Peter and suddenly covered his eyes, “Woah man, put some pants on.”

Much to Peter’s confusion, he hadn’t realised he was wearing only his boxers and shirt. Peter shook his head and grabbed onto Ned’s shoulders, a grin on his face as he held the suit tightly in his palms.

“Good to see you again, Ned.”

“Again? I-I don’t know who you are,” Ned furrowed his eyebrows as his eyes darted everywhere on his face.

Peter suddenly remembered the spell and he internally groaned realising that you wouldn’t remember him. With a sudden determination, he looked deep into Ned’s eyes.

“Where is Y/n?” He asked. Ned shook his head, even more confused.

“How-How do you know, Y/n?” Ned stammered.

“We were friends before and I need to see her right now.” He exclaimed, only half lying.

Ned didn’t know what to say, was he about to give your address to a random stranger? But the suit he held in his hands was more than enough for him to slightly trust him, Spiderman symbolising a greater good.

“She lives on Rothfields square, 243 main street, unit 8.” Ned exposed.

Peter nodded his head as he repeated the address in his head, “thank you!”

Peter ran out of the building and called a taxi in, not wanting anyone to find out he was Spiderman in this universe.

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Playing with the hem of your shirt, you sat on your bed reading your book. You couldn’t help but feel distracted, repeating the same lines over and over again in your head as you tried to make sense of it. You just kept thinking about the MIT open day and what Ned was going to do, though you felt excited about it, there was still some nerves you were experiencing.

“Identify with your body, said Aunt Elizabeth. Already I can feel slight pains-” A knock on the door pulled you of your trance. Looking at the clock, it read 9:36 pm, narrowing your eyes, you had no idea who would be knocking on your door at this hour.

Getting up and leaving your book on the bed, you straightened your hair with your palms and made yourself look presentable quickly before opening the door.

It revealed a young man, his dark brown hair stood up and he had a narrow face, a huge grin on his face. Looking down you noticed he was wearing no pants, just red and white boxers and a grey shirt which only confused further.

“Hey,” he breathed out.

“Hey?” You furrowed your eyebrows, confused about what he doing at your doorstep. “How can I help you?”

Peter’s face fell a little, remembering that you had no idea who he was. He inhaled deeply, “I’m Peter Parker. I was your um...” He trailed off not knowing how to start this. His face suddenly brightened, “I’m that guy in that photograph! The one in your bag.”

And it suddenly made sense, it really was him. In all his flesh and bones.

You gasped, “You’re that guy!” You pointed an accusing finger at his chest.

“You creep! How did you get that photo, I don’t even know you!” You yelled all too loud, alerting your neighbours.

Peter waved his hands in front of his face, “No! No! It’s not like that. Honest, let me explain-”

“How’d you get my address? And why are you naked?” You shrieked.

“It’s me, Y/n. Peter 3.” He tried to explain.

“3? So where’s B1 and B2.” You mocked him, gripping the wall behind you.

Peter got up from the couch, hearing yelling coming outside from his door. Curiosity getting the better of him, he opened it to check on his neighbour. Peter froze.

The sound of a door interrupted you as you both looked to see Paul coming out from his room, his mouth agape as he stared into Peter with wide eyes.

Peter sighed in relief, walking up to Paul and enclosing him in a hug, but Paul didn’t return it. “Peter, man. It’s good to see you again.”

“That’s not Peter, that’s Paul Preston.” You argued, shooting a glare at Peter.

“What?” Peter chuckled, looking between you and Paul.

“I, umm...” Paul stammered, not knowing what to say.

“You told her your name was Paul Preston?” Peter held his stomach, trying not to laugh.

“It was the first thing that I thought of,” Paul said, a small smile on his face.

“Wait, so you’re not Paul Preston?” You asked him, your confusion growing.

“That’s Peter Parker,” Peter pointed towards the other Peter.

“But I thought you were Peter Parker?”

“Oh right! I’m Peter 3. He’s Peter 1 but you just call him Peter.” Peter 3 tried to explain but only further confused you.

You shook your head, “I’m not understanding. I don’t even know you guys.”

Peter suddenly pulled Peter 3’s arm, a serious expression on his face. “Look man, we need to talk right now.”

Peter 3 nodded, taking a quick glance at you before he was pulled inside Peter’s apartment.

You stood there dumbfounded at what had just happened.

Peter slammed the door behind him as Peter 3 stood with a smile on his face.

“What the hell are you doing?” He asked, tightening his lips.

“Your buddy Ned pulled me here,” Peter 3 said, walking over to his bed and sitting down.

“Ned? But how? He shouldn’t remember anything-”

“He doesn’t. He’s training under Strange I’m assuming,” Peter 3 sighed, throwing his head into his hands.

“Look man, I don’t know how you’re here but you need to go back right now,” Peter pointed towards the door.

“No, no, no.” Peter 3 shook his head, getting up. “I’ve been crazy about her since I left, I can’t just leave now.”

“The whole point of making her forget was to keep her and the others safe! If you’re back that can ruin her life.” Peter exclaimed, defending you.

“She finally has things going for her. She got accepted into MIT and now she has an apartment of her own.”

“She got accepted into MIT?” Peter 3 asked, a fluttery feeling in his chest, proud of what you had accomplished.

Peter nodded, “That’s because she has no relation with Spiderman. If you come back to her life you could ruin that for her.”

“I love her Peter! I’ve loved her for years and I’m sorry but I can’t just let her forget about everything. You can do that to MJ but not Y/n.” Peter 3 threw his hands in the air. 

“Don’t say that. It hurts me everyday seeing MJ having no clue I exist. But I’m still living.” 

“I’ve been given a second chance, Peter! Why shouldn’t I take it?” Peter 3 pointed to himself, his eyebrows furrowed.

“You got your second chance back at the statue,” Peter said sternly, a hurt expression flashed onto Peter 3’s face, taken back what he said. Peter noticed this and was guilt-stricken.

“I love you, man, but this won’t work out. You guys are from two completely different universes, she’s gone and you have to accept it.”

Peter 3 huffed and went to walk out, to go and explain things to you in hopes of you remembering. Peter could instantly sense this, flexing his arm, he shot a web towards the doorknob, trapping Peter 3’s hand.

“Are you serious?” He crinkled his nose, looking over at Peter with hurt.

“I can’t trust you right now. Tomorrow morning we’re going to go and see Strange and that’s that.”

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a/n: i canttt wait to write part 4 little hint its going to be kinda of a spiderman vs spiderman thing with some cute fluff !! and im soo glad u guys are enjoying this series !! and btw i read all of you guy’s messages in my inbox haha it just takes me a while to get back to your requests but i love seeing all of your feedback and feelings over my writing

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