#like i get where ppl r coming from when they talk abt trying to be gnc or very strongly come off as 'gay' so the other gender is 'repelled'

[chaosclover1999]

yeh i always hated shit like this

like okay there was a point in time where i knew i was nonbinary in some way but hadn't figured out i was a demiguy yet and i was still presenting kinda feminine-ish mainly bc of trying 2 play around w gender expression 2 c what worked, i constantly was being lumped in w women and had cis women talking 2 me abt misogyny but in a way where they clearly thought i was going 2 hav the same experiences as them bc of being visibly afab at the time, they didn't seem 2 want 2 talk abt sexism w me anymore whenever i talked abt transphobia and the transphobia i was specifically experiencing as a nonbinary person, and the few that did always tried 2 universally blame men 4 transphobia and tried 2 act like ppl not respecting me using they/them pronouns was the extent of what i was experiencing and also that it was just an extension of the sexism they experienced as cis women, they always seemed so uncomfortable and surprised whenever i brought up that it wasn't only men being transphobic 2 me and that nonbinary specific transphobia goes beyond ppl not getting that my pronouns were they/them and they would straight up start arguments w me insisting that the majority of transphobic ppl at least were men and would just straight up say i was wrong when i said that it was honestly abt 50/50 between cis men and cis women and if i tried 2 argue that "well 2day it was mostly women that were being weird abt it" then they would try 2 argue that there were definitely more guys being transphobic and i just hadn't noticed it even trying 2 put in my head the idea that random men had been being transphobic 2 me and i just didn't notice it when they hadn't been, this got especially bad when i was presenting kinda hyperfeminine and wearing lots of dresses ect and none of this was even in those kinds of spaces this was just,,, me meeting w ppl in cafes and stuff 4 various reasons, so when i started seeing shit that said "women and nonbinary ppl" i had a p good idea of what it was gonna b and i knew i wasn't actually going 2 b welcome there

naturally this got worse when i became even more aware and i realised some more things abt myself and that im specifically a demiguy who uses he/they pronouns or he/him pronouns depending on situation and how likely i think some1 is 2 switch between he/him and they/them interchangeably vs seeing "he/they" and then just using they/them pronouns 4 me, like legit i feel like most ppl don't even c me as nonbinary even tho i literally am just bc im also a guy and i present a lot more masc these days, like buzzed hair w joggers and a hoodie kinda masc bc that's just how i feel the most comfortable but bc of that and bc of me being both a guy and nonbinary im p sure i would either get misgendered or told 2 leave if i went 2 1 of those types of things

i think 1 of the things that needs 2 b talked abt within the queer community more is the performative fragility of cis women when it comes 2 trans ppl just,,, existing but especially when it comes 2 trans ppl talking abt our experiences w sexism and transphobia, a lot of cis women from my experience seem 2 treat transphobia as an extension of the sexism that they experience and not as it's own seperate axis of oppression they also never seem 2 want 2 listen 2 the concept that cis women r often transphobic and sexist 2wards trans ppl since the idea that cis women can b sexist in some way shatters their idea of how sexism works which is the concept that "woman = good and morally pure" and "men = gross/creepy and morally evil" like even a lot of cis women who don't c themselves as terfs fall victim 2 that kinda thinking, hell even i did, that's y it took me so long 2 let myself b a guy bc i had so much unlearning 2 do, i think smth that needs 2 b stated more also is that terfism is an ideological cult based around the concept of moral purity which is how so many ppl including ppl literally hurt by terfism fall victim 2 it but also it's often easier 4 cis women 2 fall victim 2 terfism and a lot of "women only spaces" or spaces that r functionally "women only spaces" when it comes 2 talking abt politics usually just has the side effect of creating an echo chamber 4 terf ideology not bc all cis women r terfs but bc it's so much easier 4 terf ideology 2 spread when there's no1 in the room who can correct misinformation or incorrect assumptions ect like it's gonna b more difficult 4 terf ideology 2 spread in a group if there's a transmasc there who's confident enough and feels safe enough 2 speak up and say "actually when u guys make jokes abt how u think all men r rapists or how u think all men should b killed it makes me feel really unsafe and is just another form of sexism, also it's literally that kind of assigning morality 2 gender that made it so difficult 2 accept myself as a guy" like sure terf ideology can still spread even when there r ppl speaking up who feel safe enough and confident enough 2 do so but it's a lot less effective than if it was a bunch of cis women in a room talking abt how they think all men r trash as a "joke"

idk mayb im just kinda jaded but if im being 100% honest i think the worst transphobia i've ever had 2 deal w has been from cis women, like at least w the handful of cis guys i've dealt w that from they r not trying 2 convince me im doing something morally reprehensible by accepting myself idk, not every1's experience ik but in my experience when cis guys r transphobic it's usually attack helicopter jokes or slurs which sucks ass but it's at least easy enough 2 b like "okay well ur clearly just being a dick" or they try 2 argue that ur gender identity is "illogical" and "doesn't make sense" which also sucks but also like being human in general doesn't make sense and doesn't really operate on logic so yeah, just kinda annoying af, whereas in my experience typically when cis women r being transphobic it usually instead is about how me transitioning was morally wrong somehow even if it's not explicitly stated that that's what it is and it's more just heavily implied with "i just don't understand how some1 could live as a woman and then choose 2 become a man after seeing how terrible they r" type statements or its "jokes" abt how they think men r terrible or it's calling transmascs sexist when we speak up abt the specific transphobia we experience and how us being transmasc plays a role in that or it's cis women saying that "bc we're men" (in quotes bc this is also said 2 ppl who don't identify as men) they now don't feel safe around us bc anything 2 close 2 "being a man" 4 them is labelled as dangerous inherently

ok hands up

how many other nonbinary/genderqueer people here hate the phrase "women and nonbinary people"

[matoitech]

i know its easy for me to get bad faith'd bcuz my stake in it is as an i guess 'cishet passing' masc bi man who can b attracted to masc women but once ppl realize bisexual butches exist and identify as butch i think youll be a lot happier and also a lot less weird. ppl do this same thing w feminine men where ppl act like fem bi men dont exist bcuz if ur a feminine man who fucks men you cant be attracted to women youre just faking or closeted or something. very silly. just in general recognizing gnc people can be bisexual (or straight, and not in a metrosexual way or something, they just Exist, also gnc trans people exist) is probably gonna be good for you. treating gender nonconformity like its inherently fetishistic if attractive to the 'wrong' people is not the win u think it is but get well soon guys

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[plsdonttakemyname]

You dont have to feel like you gotta do this, bc i know sm ppl r too out of their comfort zone with it, but would you consider:

Poly!Soukoku? Like Dazai / reader / chuuya?

Fluff HCs?

Ig if you wanted more fun stuff (pls dont do it this is too much!) What do you think would be a good ability for an S/O of them to have?? :0

I have this one idea where their just a sort of puppet master and have strings that they can latch onto ppl and physically move them around, or even mess with memories (the non-passionate/deep seated ones) bc i thought Dazai would like the different ways it could be applied, and Chuuya would think it's badass to watch you just, lower the glowing strings coming out of fingertips attached to like a group of armed enemies and they just like, drop their guns and bow.

Feel free to have fun with this however you want, or delete the request if its too much!

Also the ability i talked abt doesnt have to be readers ability, and these could just be chill headcanons abt their relationship! Whatever works!

Hope youre having a great weekend so far, and I really like your writing!!

Cheers,

Poly Anon ☢️

Poly!Soukoku X G!n Reader

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A/n; Hi Anon! Tysm I really appreciate it! I'm glad you like my writing! I hope you're having a great weekend so far too :D

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Genre; Fluff, Hcs

Pairings; Chuuya X Dazai X Reader

Warnings; Mentions of Suicide(Dazai), my bad writing, Might has some grammar mistakes 😭

Now how do I start with this chaotic relationship...

Chuuya would try to kill Dazai from time to time and you have to be there to stop them because of it 😭

I feel like s/o would toy with their opponents with the use of their ability

Mori had assigned you three on another mission together even though one was already enough since the three of you were strong enough but who knows why he assigned you three on a mission like this

Chuuya would be surprised and amazed at the same time when he first saw your ability with his own eyes, sure he has heard about this ability before but he’s never actually seen it for himself before.

Chuuya thinks that his s/o is so badass when they puppet the enemies, making them bow down and drop all of the weapons carried to the battle.

Dazai on the other hand would not really get surprised since this is his first time actually seeing this ability with his own eyes and not hearing it from some stupid book, but he still knew from the beginning

But when the three of you are all bored and out of missions to carry out, you'll all hangout in a bar to spend some time with each other

It's either one of yall ended up drunk OR you all ended up drunk and passed out in the bar 😭

The three of you will always go out to the mall or on expensive dinner dates

You all share the same apartment and that's where things are starting to get really wild

When getting into bed, there is never peace...The three of you would be kicking each other off the bed and slapping each other in the middle of the night 💔

"GODDAMN CHUUYA STOP KICKING ME" *SNORES*

Chuuya Is the kicker,Dazai is the pusher and you're the one that's suffering 😢

Just imagine this, suddenly you woke up at an ungodly hour because you felt a hand slapping your face just to find out it was Dazai slapping you in his sleep and Chuuya is almost on the floor still dead asleep after a long day in the Port Mafia.

You had enough one night and decided to kick them both off the bed and acted as if you're still asleep 😭

It's legit 4am and suddenly you just kick them off the bed "OW" "what...the..fuck..." *Y/n fake snoring noises*

Besides that when it's really peaceful it's either they're both on a long mission or they're ACTUALLY not kicking or pushing each other off the bed.

The three of you likes to cuddle and fall asleep in each other's warmth

"Will you,Y/N L/n, Come double suicide with me?" "no." "OI MACKEREL IF YOU WANNA DIE I CAN KILL YOU NOW STOP ASKING Y/N TO SUICIDE WITH YOU JACKASS" "YOU HURT MY FEELINGS CHIBI.." while you're just busy typing up a report and also trying to calm down

When one of you are on a mission alone you all definitely give each other a goodbye and goodluck kiss before heading out

Besides all of those chaotic stuff happening in your relationship, You all are an unbreakable trio

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That's all I hope you like it </3

[user2718273]

Terrorheads r always dunking on goodsir for the moral absolutism & then having absolutely no nuance in their own conceptions of good & evil. Like when goodsir finally snaps & poisons the mutineers ppl are like "oh see hes a bad person cus he couldnt forgive them cus he only thinks in black & white!!!!" but like bro. If somebody kidnapped u and forced u to carve up your coworkers' bodies for consumption u would not feel too friendly toward them i think. Or just how ppl talk abt goodsir in general. Like yeah he believes in colonizer shit, he was raised by colonizers. Every1 on the ships believes in colonizer shit i fear. But he gets more shit abt it than anyone else bc theres this weird conception that its worse to try and do good and get it wrong than to just straight up act out of vanity or greed. Not that goodsir should be absolved of anything, but its weird how ppl have so little empathy for characters whose desire to do good is tainted by ideological conditioning. Like bro i hate to break it to u. We all have ideological conditioning. If u act like thats some inherent moral flaw and not the inevitable product of living in a society and absorbing that society's beliefs, u will have a very hard time recognizing it outside of tv shows where people are just characters.

Also theres a difference between having no empathy for franklins men bc ur pissed at them and having no empathy out of principle. I feel like theres some recognition of personhood that comes w putting someone on the receiving end of a human emotion like anger, whereas if ur just like "logically i know colonizer bad, so empathy for colonizer = bad," ur putting them on a subhuman level out of the reach of emotion. U dont feel anger or empathy for them. U never find out what u feel toward them bc without accepting the possibility that u might reach muddy, nuanced, morally frustrating conclusions, theres no wiggle room to feel what u feel. But then u never get to feel the anger either. U cant understand things from either side bc once u start trying to sort everything into concrete moral categories, then ur not understanding individuals, ur defining variables, and everything becomes theoretical. I feel like thats part of the reason why when ppl put the expedition on the level of the subhuman, they often elevate the netsilik to the superhuman. Like ppl have a weirdly hard time conceptualizing that silna has complex motivations & is capable of developing complex relationships w other characters? Theyre just like "oh wow shes being so nice to goodsir, she must have stockholm syndrome or be wayyy too forgiving." Cus if u imagine franklins men as having one pure and self-contained nature that opposes the pure and self-contained nature of the netsilik, then theres no way they can genuinely interact. They can only touch each other under the guise of something else. Silna must not adequately understand goodsir's role in the fuckery ripping up her world. Which is ridonkulous to me bc her first interaction w him was when his party shot her father & then goodsir prevented him from dying on the ice. Like. She is not under any illusions that this man isnt part of the hurt and destruction. She just finds a way to care abt him anyway. Not bc she's some fountain of forgiveness, but bc despite the things she must hate about him, there are also things she loves. Same w crozier. Idk if she feels affection for him in the same way she does goodsir, but she def doesnt just save him bc shes a saint. She feels anger and bitterness just like any other person, and if she wanted to, she couldve left crozier to die like des voeux. Personally i think she saved him bc he was the only one left who had seen what she'd seen and she didnt wanna have to bear it alone but idk. She had her reasons. Anyway goodsir is literally a butch buttom so the wokes cant even get her. #She positionality on my moral puritanism til i absolve

[scudevils]

Why do i feel like Bianca is getting sm hate for being held to higher standards than other drivers…like everyone is SO QUICK to forget when as a result of something Max said a whole ass country got involved 😭😭.

Or when DR said the n word, and all the shit he’s said abt women on podcast, it’s so quickly forgotten but when its a women she’s torn apart online.

I feel like the only driver to be “cancelled” is checo for the whole monaco thing, obvs there’s mazepin because HE GROPED A WOMAN, Vps seems to be only driver actually punished for being racist, but apart from them that’s all i can name:

If we’re gonna talk abt anyone then let’s talk about Max saying the r slur, and in general associating himself with and defending, racists (the piquets), daniel saying the n word, charles being anti blm, and then lance quite literally putting his hands on his pt.

Absolutely Bianca should be getting backlash for her actions, but the amount she’s getting in comparison to how ppl react when it’s their fav male drivers is very revealing.

honestly i do see the point you are trying to make, especially in the sense that drugovich also liked some shady posts towards lance but i can’t recall many people talking about it, but also i think it comes down to the fact that bianca is very much an influencer as well as a driver, she knows the platform that she has and liking those tweets, not even one but a few, is a bad look for her (also deleting her apology which is just :/).

and like you said there are many instances where some of the male drivers were let off the hook pretty easily, the max/mongolia situation, and also max saying the r slur (also towards lance my boy can’t catch a break), daniel too saying the n word which i rarely see people bring up. but that still doesn’t mean we can’t hold bianca accountable for liking tweets using ableist language, especially directed at a fellow driver, and then deleting her original apology.

there’s a tiktok someone brought up on twt similar to this take so i’ll tag it here for anyone who wants to watch!!

[nomeniko]

hi :D for the ask game What do you wish more people understood about kazui? Which trial 2 MV do you enjoy the most, and why?

thank you for the ask i would grovel at ur feet in gratitude i hope the sun shines down and makes the light dance for u and you only today

1. if anything ive seen a few theories of kazui possibly revealing himself to be a two faced manipulator of sorts due to his self proclaimed liarness…. like ‘ohh u cant trust what he says he cld be trying to make himself look pitiable to the audience to get voted inno’ sort of theories which is. no he wont do that???

is he a liar? to a degree yes—liar not in the sense that what he says are direct falsities, but more like hes built much of his character to constantly disguise his true intentions/feelings as a defense mechanism. the lies he says are less of words from a schemer and more of redirections from someone who is, all in all, an insecure adult scared of what will happen if he isnt able to meet peoples expectations of him

as much as he calls himself a liar hes mad honest about where he thinks his capabilities lie, which is to say he doesnt believe in his capabilities at all lol. when amane asks him for help with her studies, he turns her down after some consideration bc he doesnt believe himself to be smart enough to help (despite having graduated from a university; sports degree or not credit shld be given where credit is due). when he talks to shidou post ktk attack, he refuses to admit doing any of the work in taking care of the situation and instead puts all the praise onto shidou. even his physical strength and skill (which is arguably the one part of him he does acknowledge and take some sort of belief in) is something he treats as less of something that he has achieved himself and more of an obligation of his—like, hes strong bc to him he HAS to be, bc it is expected of him to protect those who need protecting. he does want to protect others, sure, but much of that wanting comes frm how ingrained it is in him that thats what hes good for, thats what his strength is for (his timeline w/ yuno on her bday says as much nyway)

the way i see it, that self deprication of his plays back into his obsession with meeting the expectations placed onto him, or at least lessening the disappointment of others by lessening those expectations in the first place. if u tell someone that u didnt go to the right university, that u didnt do much to help anyway, that u were born so fundamentally wrong as a person that everything is bound to go to shit as long as ur there (he basically said this to es in his t1 vd im not even kidding), wouldnt that ensure the safety that youre less likely to ruin someone elses confidence in you? less likely to ruin bc in the small chance that u still fuck up, theres not much left to ruin at that point

in the end ig what i wish more ppl understood abt kazui is that hes a liar yes, but not a manipulator. he lies to stay safe, not to be a sadist or whatever. you cant take what he says at face value (in much the same way u cant do the same for any other prisoner tbh), but that does not mean u shldnt take anything he says srsly at all!!!

2. ok this one i have to give a bit of thought, mostly bc i cant pick just one

if the standards were which t2 mv do i enjoy for its direction music n visual wise, purge march takes the cake so quickly. the music itself is so bomb (which like, i cant even find a logical explanation as to why… its just so good to listen to) n the mv itself does such a great job at creating the right atmosphere, both in its flashy theatrics and the subtle uncanniness under it. mayb i have a slight bias bc tpm was the whole reason i got into milgram in the first place, but i stand by it idccc

aesthetic wise, def all knowing and all agony. the horror elements r genuinely disturbing, but not so overbearing that it overwrites the pop style that milgram has going on. i luove the use of amber for blood, plus the filters that remind me of found footage u usually see show up in asian horror movies. i think i was actually terrified the first time i watched the mv

symbolic wise, its cat always and forever god bless. it takes advantage of its aesthetics to hint at subtle secrets so well that it makes me giddy as hell. the use of colors as a part of the set, the transitions frm scene to scene having its own part in making the story, n honestly making the bg more blank than usual readjusts the focus of the mv on what matters p well. i cant mention every detail rn or else id be here all day

[angelfevr]

akane kurashiki is (not) allocishet: an analysis

[pt: akane kurashiki is (not) allocishet: an analysis. end pt].

okay so we’ve been meaning to write this for a while but havent bc we’ve been focusing on other projects. slight disclaimer if u dont agree w this hc thats fine, just dont be a dick just bc it interferes w ur own interpretation . we all have our own ways of reading the text so. Yeah!! lets get started

so i just wanna say akane is a character i resonate with in a lot of ways, and a lot of what im going to say comes from my and others’ experiences. ur identities and experiences r def gonna affect how u view a piece of work right? 

so when i played through the series in 2023, i initially viewed akane as everyone else did: she’s in love with junpei, and even hced her as bi like most of the fandom. but the more i studied the source material, the more i felt thats not rlly the case?? esp after ztd, like im sorry but i cannot buy the idea that both junpei or akane wanna marry each other. junpei is for another day but in terms of akane i wanna talk abt the idea that she may be aromantic. 

immersing myself in the fandom, a lot of ppl’s first impressions of akane’s june persona is that she was initially gonna be this ditzy girl next door who only serves as a love interest for junpei. ofc that ended up not being the case, but i see ppl say that they only rlly cared for akane after finding out she’s zero. which imo is such a missed opportunity for analysis.

as june, akane interacts with the world through tropes. the first thing she does when we’re introduced to her is fall on junpei. and overall is seen as this nervous girl who wouldn’t harm anyone. she flirts w junpei throughout the game, yadda yadda yadda. when it comes to her identity as zero, she desperately wants a perfect ending where she can be with junpei. its guesswork as to which aspects are true of akane, but i personally see these traits as smth she thinks “kanny” would do. 

[id: screenshot from 999’s script, black text on a white background that reads:

“Junpei: Well, I dunno. Anything. I mean, you're hiding it. How would I know?

June: You mean, like...the number of men I've dated?

Junpei's heart stumbled over itself.

June: Do you want to know?

He had to admit, he was a little curious.

June: Don't worry.

She smiled at him.

June: Only 18...

!?

June: ...Times 0.

June: Yeah... I guess I just haven't met Mr. Right yet…”

“Number of men” is highlighted in green. End id].

of course, bc of her tumultuous childhood and how she didn’t have many friends, she never rlly had experience w dating. but not much suggests she would beyond her own words.

[id: screenshot from 999’s script, black text on a white background that reads:

“Kanny: You...meant a lot to me...when we were kids...

Kanny: I've liked you...for a long time, Junpei... A really...long...time..”

“Liked” is highlighted in green. End id]. 

.

[id: screenshot from 999’s script, black text on a white background that reads:

“"Okay..."

My voice shook as I answered.

It was hot in the room. It felt like my heart was on fire.

6 minutes or not, my heart burned with my feelings for him.

…”

“burned” is highlighted in green. End id]. 

but actions speak louder than words, and she doesn’t go far beyond flirting and declarations of love. in ztd, she doesn’t even make these advances even when she’s trying to lighten the mood or make things right with junpei. the only time being when she speaks with carlos in the pantry. 

[id: a log of dialogue from zero time dilemma which reads: 

akane: if it was because of me somehow… then this time i need to rush to his aid. that’s what i’ve decided anyway.

carlos: you really like junpei, don’t you?

akane: wh-what in the world are you saying, carlos?! 

carlos: i’m out of my depth when it comes to romance.

end id].

[id: a log of dialogue from zero time dilemma which reads: 

carlos: did you bake heart-shaped cookies full of love for your darling junpei?

akane: oh carlos… would you please stop teasing me… 

june is meant to be seen as the ideal japanese woman, and since performance/identity is a huge part of her character, it wouldn’t be a stretch to say that she’s performing heterosexuality/amatonormativity, by extension femininity (but that’s an analysis for another day). 

akane is also slotted into the role of a mother figure for kyle just as sigma with the role of father. i can’t help but think of the scene in little shop of horrors (1986), audrey sings abt a stable and “ideal” middle class life. i remember watching it thinking it was odd, given that im aro and am not interested in settling down or emulating cishet middle class values. but my friend, who is poor just like audrey and akane, told me that it’s a common occurrence for poor ppl to think this way. to want a sense of stability even if it’s stereotypical. i feel like this applies to akane as well. i also hc her with bpd, and instability is a common symptom for us, so it makes sense for her to see junpei as a beacon of such, of normalcy. he’s rlly the only normal part of her childhood. she wants him to fix her lol . 

[id: screenshot from virtue’s last reward which reads: 

“i pleaded with her to leave, but she quietly shook her head. there was someone very special to her, she told me. he had saved her life once, and she felt her death would help to repay that favor.” end id].

and while we do see oldkane/vlrkane reminisce abt her life w junpei thru kyle, the passcode being jumpydolls, i feel like thats less abt love and more abt the fact that shes lonely, which a lot of ppl mistake that like. love can fix that.. when it rlly cant. not to mention what i said earlier

akane and junpei rarely make physical contact beyond junpei holding her in his arms and hugging. you can of course be a couple and not be that physically affectionate, but junpei is the only one initiating this. also like?? not even an “i love you” when you haven’t seen each other in nine years???????

[id: cg from nine hours nine persons nine doors. junpei holds akane’s shoulder with a worried expression. Akane has her eyes closed. End id].

[id: screenshot of zero time dilemma. junpei hugs akane near the basketball court in the lounge. akane wears a wedding ring on her right hand. end id].

[id: screenshot from zero time dilemma. junpei holds a ring in his right hand. white text on the bottom reads, “well, remember back in elementary school your dream was to wear a ring?” end id].

this is actually a common experience for aros who dont realize aromanticism is even an option. i remember when i was a kid, i’d have daydreams of getting married and dating ppl but when the opportunity actually came, i was uncomfortable and rejected it. 

i feel like junpei’s proposal and akane’s acceptance were reckless of both of them, and probably not even signs of true feelings. junpei’s arc is abt regaining agency, and akane’s is abt control (hashtag cinematic parallels), so it makes sense this would happen. both wish they could return to their childhoods, hence their emotionally immature attitudes + tendency to reminisce abt the past (junpei is counterphobic to this though and eventually gets over it in vlr’s timeline, though akane continues to act this way going forward). poor decision making is a sign of trauma after all. 

i mentioned how akane (and junpei but again. Another story for another day) subverts gendered expectations w her personality. aro ppl (as well as lesbians if u wanna go for a lesbian akane reading) tend to feel disconnected from their agab bc yk we arent straight and like a cishet woman liking a man is a sign of womanhood according to Society............ so like what if ur a girl who likes girls? or doesnt like anyone??? what does that make u??? (again, this could either be a trans reading or a lesbian reading)

anyway my point is. i think its more interesting to read akane’s interest in junpei as her wanting stability and a normal life, esp given that she is traumatized and was once poor. i feel like fluffy junepei fanworks make their dynamic very one-note and lack what makes their dynamic intriguing. but hey!! thats just my opinion as an aro person and how i prefer to interpret it 

[dreadanddespairdyke]

OH I REMEMBERED THAT I WAS GOING TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT BUTCH FEMME JFJSJSKKS

actually I don't even disagree with you that much, just about the part that butch femme is the same as gender bs. I think it's like. butch femme at the end of the day are just identities like. it is in fact just about how you feel and like. people identifying with butch femme doesn't really do much to the world unlike how people identifying with man and woman is about changing and watering the definitions of words that are like super important to women's and gay rights and just like... health care. I'm bad with this but I hope you get what I mean kkk. like it barely affects anyone if butch/femme is about how you feel but sure does when woman/man is about how you feel...

also butch femme is like... lesbian history, too, and I think it's cool that you guys have something like that from the past even though I see it is a trend that people... are too much into this?? smth. I think butch/femme on its own could exist as a really cool thing if it wasn't deranged by gender ideology...

so yeah lmao imo butch femme might be annoying but it's not like. anti-feminist or smth

AHSJDBEJ its okay i did wonder if u wld ever come back and tell me lolol

i do agree w you that any qualms with butch/femme isnt such a pressing issue as trans ideology is, i hope it didnt come across as me thinking theyre the same </3 trans ideology does have consequences politically/legally for womens rights and gay rights, its now far past the realm of just 'genderfeels are nonsense', whereas the butch/femme stuff i brought up is more. how shld i put it... more personal, to do with how we percieve ourselves and label ourselves and the impact/implications it has for u and the women around u. i do think its important tho, just not a pressing issue, more on the side of being a personal reservation w/ using these terms

but i do wonder what other ppl here think abt it, and its nice to hear the opinions of those who do use it. like mm whoever it was who reblogged from me and mentioned why she feels femme as opposed to her gf being butch

also i def agree w/ you about it being lesbian history, and i dont mean to say in any way that we should look back on its use as 'bad' or 'useless', ig i feel more that it served a purpose for a time, but just in the current times for those of us in places where gay rights have progressed enough, particularly america/uk, using them is more regressive than anything

this in itself varies from country to country probably, so u have to decide for urself in that sense . idk englands lesbian history at all, or russias, but its easier for me to say 'we r past the need for these roles' when gay marriage is legalised and theres perhaps less incentive then to try to fit into an acceptable set of roles

[zai-doodles]

I really appreciate how it seems everyone seems to have their own priorities when it comes to Fairy Tail redesigns tbh, like mine are "what if they were butch" half the time or "what if their outfit was more functional"

What's your take on Irene I'm curious? She's the latest woman I'm hitting with the butch beam but in general I haven't really seen people redesign her much despite her fucking ATROCIOUS outfit

Ok I was avoiding this ask oops

The easy part is my mentality with redesigns, I usually just go for what I personally find aesthetically pleasing while adding in visual storytelling with their personalities. Like all the dragon slayers having varying levels of draconic features for plot or lucys main fit being an equestrian horse riding uniform to allude to how she ran away from home.

Idk for me it's kind of rule of cool at times and just me messing around until I start thinking abt the plot and incorporating more and more ideas into the designs ig

Ok so I have gotten asks about my opinions on Irene and silver and all that so the tldr is that I don't actually remember a lot of the late ft stuff bc I genuinely just got bored and didn't like it.

I plan on rewatching a lot of this but FROM THE LITTLE I DO REMEMBER here r my thoughts:

From jump I think bringing back Irene or silver is a detriment to both erzas and grays character arcs. They happen at a point in the series where we were never even remotely interested in who their birth parents r and seemingly neither did either of them so to bring them up out of no where feels like shock value to me.

There's just very little emotional investment because again AT THIS POINT in the story both of them r suppose to have grown where they see the guild as their family regardless of blood ties. This is kinda emphasized/ addressed by having erza be like the only parent I recognize is my guild master but also then y make it her mom in the first place if it doesn't hold any emotional stakes??

Specifically Irene, I think making her related to dragons is cheap and weird, erza before this has never been hinted at to have any kind of connection to dragons so again we have this weird shock value nonsense feeling

Like ugh if u WANTED to make it work then at the very least they could have made Irene more mother gothel energy where she's actively trying to coax erza into loving her and playing the role of the loving doting mother only to turn out to have been evil the whole time or something to at least CHALLENGE erza emotionally since so much of her arc has been learning to let ppl in so having it back fire this late in the show would have been interesting to me.

I'm rewatching the Irene fight just for this and I'm so annoyed now omg let's talk abt it

Irene just taking over Wendy's body happened so fast and easy also u can't tell me that Irene has never heard of the other dragon slayers so what would it have changed to just make this her plan all along and that's y she wanted to get close to erza and gain her trust. Like give it an arc or something with the twist at the end that she was grooming wendyas her new body and make the ritual more involved that it needed some level of trust or willingness from Wendy which would in turn make erza feel awful for putting her trust in Irene at all

I'm spitballing idk but all this to say that having a main supporting characters parents come back from the dead to be a nothing villain that they defeat the same as everyone else is lame

I forgot this is the fight where erza destroys a meteor with one arm I'm not even going to touch on that theres just so much there.

Ok onto silver omg

I simply hate the switch of like, o it's grays dad wait no it's actually deliora wait no it's actually actually grays dad fr This time guys-

Like idk commit to something bc again, this whole fight is like 10 minutes so all this info is just thrown at gray with no time for him to process until his dad dies again like idk can we plz have some internal struggle that lasts more than a single fight

I don't hate giving gray some kind of closure to his family dying but he also literally never mourned or talked abt them before hand bc, to me, it was implied he didn't really grieve them and just jumped right to revenge and training with Ur and when she died her death kind of consumed him so he stopped thinking abt his parents?

Idk again, if u wanted to make it work, literally just throw in some guilt abt his parents deaths where gray feels like he could have protected them or something or even resenting his father for not being strong enough to protect them and thats y he always pushes himself to do better and is willing to sacrifice himself to save his family at every turn bc he wants to be a martyr so bad guys-

Idk these r my initial thoughts, ik u didn't ask abt silver but he and Irene go in the same box to me

[dullahandyke]

yippee yippee yippee yippee eimear con haul!!!!

Hi. It was my birthday recently and I'm bad to shop for so instead of gifts I got money to spend at Kaizokucon. So here's a haul. Under the cut bcos I couldnt fit it nicely in one picture and I wanna ramble

ok we're gonna take it one picture at a time ^_^ the ID in the alt text explains what everything is if u just wanna see what i got without the rambling sure to come with it. links in rambling r to the artists of the fan stuff where i can find em ^_^ only one of them is a direct link to the product tho bcos some ppls shops r down and some ppl dont have all their stuff online. lemons_arent_green youre a real one

Ok the flat stuff!!! black rock shooter poster bcos i already have a figure but i liek her... badass anime girl ily.... was so so sure i saw a reigen keychain but when i went to go get one there weren't any so i got this sticker sheet instead :3 SPEAKING OF KEYCHAINS!!! yippee yippee kaguya i love you youre my special little tiempsy. yue you are a gay anime boy with a cool design. tomoyo ive always felt a kinship with you and its because im a desperate dyke. monokuma is here ig 🙄 i put him on my carabiner and hes fun to stim with. i am not immune to the sdr2 fanboying. also full disclosure ive not watched naruto (its in the spreadsheet) i just thought funko pop sasuke keychain was really really funny. my son who stares into my soul. comparatively i dont have as much to say on the badges!! luka luka fever for real girlie ily. the bandori ones were blind bags and i got himari on my first try <3<3<3<3<3<3 sorry eve i kind of dont care. 🙁 the dr girlies i kinda picked at random based on who i've been vibing w lately.

THE POKEMON DIORAMA!!!! its soooo cool, staff were setting up the trade hall so i was in there all day friday and this shop was one of the first to set up their stands and i was literally staring at it all day... so fucking awesome. the rings n the necklace r from the same shop look at them... im fucking obsessed w the catgirl necklace. literally look at her. i dont thiiink shes supposed to be a specific character but she might be. oh well. cat girl ily. aaaand the arisa stand is actually a little clip for papers n stuff!! she was also a blind box but specifically for popipa so i was gonna b happy w whoever <3

MIIIIKUUUUUU MY PRINCESS MY EVERYTHING!!!!! she was calling to me she beckoned..... shes actually rlly big irl shes the biggest figure i have, replacing my kokoro one... shes the one where i audibly said 'it was my birthday i can buy things' bcos figures spencey... she wasnt too bad actually i just like bitching. 6 euro axel for scale

BOOKS 💥💥💥 i was reading nana a while back and i dropped it but i gotta pick it up again... rlly pretty and awesome... aaaand the summer hikaru died!!! kay if youre seeing this then know you posting abt it convinced me <3 i originally got it bcos i was on door duty in a quiet area and didnt wanna spend my time draining battery life on my phone but after i bought it i realised that that was literally a terrible idea so <3 we'll get around to them soon

FINALLLYYYYYY TSHIRTS!!! the top yellow one was my staff t-shirt, it has 'staff' on the back i was wearing it all weekend and yippee i love it.... emotional bond.... and if this is a safe space can i just say. if kaito was a woman? would. next up FAYE FUCKIN VALENTINEEEE!!! do u remember that post i made going thru all the sellers that were gonna b at the con that started like 'i hate shounen fans. name a woman'? well this is the seller i was talking about but all was forgiven in the name of FAYE ! GODDAMN ! VALENTINE ! ugh i love you girlie. and the last t-shirt was given out free to staff after the closing ceremony!! it was the tenth anniversary of kaizokucon so we got this awesomes design yay.... wore it to classes today hoping somebody would comment on it and nobody did 😌and in the middle i got CLOW CARRRDS BITCHES!!!!!! i saw them and immediately all thought left my fucking brain. i needed them. so important. the seller also recognised the axel in my fanny pack yippee!!!! a few people recognised him over the weekend actually and i was always like yes!! the him

anyway. yippee! yippee! yippee! yippee! yippee! yippee! yippee! yippee! yippee! con con con con con :)

[sueske]

sorry if you've already answered this before! but i just saw a post saying "naruto didn't deserve sasuke's friendship" and how naruto didn't bother to understand sasuke and only cared abt sucking the boot. that naruto kept asking sasuke to come back to konoha, the very place that ordered the hit on his entire clan.

idek where to begin with this.... bc it's a nuanced topic to talk abt but what r ur thoughts on this?

yes I have talked about this before, either briefly or in the context of other things like here, here, and here. (I'd recommend reading the first link at least cuz it's most relevant). but ppl that say the above are literally missing a vital part of naruto's character arc - because while he didn't understand sasuke at the start, something naruto himself recognised and voiced aloud, he does come to understand sasuke.

in vote1 sasuke says to naruto 'you who never had bonds can't understand what it is like to lose them!' so do u need to experience what other people go through to understand them? well in sasuke's case this is what he thinks and feels like, that naruto can't, and it's what the narrative also points towards. (but then that also means that sasuke doesn't fully understand naruto either cuz sasuke doesn't know what it means to have no one from the start.)

that being said, people say that sasuke's words in vote2 of understanding naruto when they were children are therefore a retcon cuz of what sasuke said in vote1. but it's important to note that sns understood each other's loneliness from the start. they understood the pain that comes from being alone, that is the thread that connected them from the beginning, even if their loneliness stemmed from different things. what naruto and sasuke didn't understand, at the point of vote1, is the actions they took in response to that loneliness. naruto didn't understand why sasuke was going so far for revenge, while sasuke didn't understand why naruto was willing to go so far for him. and throughout the story while naruto comes to understand sasuke's actions, sasuke also comes to understand why naruto would go far for him. that's... that's the story.

so let's look at all the moments naruto chased after sasuke to get him back to konoha (gonna repeat myself a bit from the first link but still recommend you read that first cuz it's more detailed) because no where, in all of these moments, was the reasoning due to naruto just wanting sasuke to be a good little konoha shinobi to lick boot.

in vote1 naruto went ballistic trying to get sasuke to come back to konoha because naruto was scared that orochimaru was going to hurt sasuke. and of course naruto was also upset on a very personal level - cuz he thought him and sasuke were friends after all they went through, but that sasuke was still willing to kill him.

so then naruto becomes aware of orochimaru's body transfer jutsu so naruto decides to become a fool all his life and go training so he can get strong enough to bring sasuke back. and listen - is wanting to save your friend from the clutches of a dangerous person who previously trashed the leaf village and caused so much pain to your most precious person a bad thing? it's sasuke's safety that naruto brings up first when they meet up in shippuden, that's why he wants to bring sasuke back to konoha.

when naruto finds out sasuke killed orochimaru, naruto thinks that sauske's going to come back to the leaf village. wishful thinking on his part right? sasuke got strong, surely he'd come to the village right? but no. he's still going after itachi. and naruto doesn't get why sasuke is still so fixated on revenge. naruto had his run in with the akatsuki. he knows how dangerous they are. why can't sasuke come back to konoha where it's safe and they can laugh together like they used to in team 7? naruto still doesn't understand why sasuke would go so far in the name of vengeance, why sasuke would still seek it out, naruto just doesn't get sasuke's actions yet.

and then jiraiya dies. the pein arc happens. naruto undergoes his own revenge/forgiveness arc. and in the wake of everything he says this:

naruto recognises it himself that he couldn't understand sasuke back then! in contrast let's look at everyone else who just condemned sasuke for what he did and wanted to kill him, even sakura for all that talk of how much she loves him. no one else tried to understand sasuke. these are the people that don't deserve sasuke's friendship, these are the bootlickers.

how about all the moments where naruto trained all night long to get strong enough to save sasuke from orochimaru, at the expense of his own health. at the expense of his own life if need be. sasuke is naruto's 'driving force'. it was never about 'beating sasuke's fire', it was about 'assisting his flame'. and how about all the moments naruto spent all night thinking about sasuke, wondering if he feels fine, if he's okay, if he feels better, wondering why he was doing all this - are these the actions and thoughts of a person who never bothered to understand sasuke? lol.

and then obito tells naruto and kakashi the truth. naruto's first instinct is to tell everyone about it but kakashi shoots him down. and then at the bridge scene when team 7 meet up again, sasuke tells them he killed danzo. that it's former team 7 to him. and naruto never brings up laughing together in team 7 like they used to again because he understands things can never go back (in comparison to sakura and kakashi), and naruto doesn't ask sasuke to go back to konoha again. naruto says that he understands sasuke's actions. but naruto can't let sasuke kill everyone in konoha, so naruto comes up with a proposal - when sasuke is ready to fight, he comes at naruto first. and naruto stops chasing sasuke at this point, naruto waits for sasuke to come to him. and sasuke agrees.

so then vote2 comes along. do people honestly think that fight is to beat sasuke into submission? LOL. tell me you didn't understand vote2 without telling me you don't understand vote2. vote2 was a battle of love.

when sasuke left during chapter 699 naruto didn't tell him to stay or kick up a fuss. he realised that sasuke needed to go and they left on a promise of settling things between them in the future.

also about keeping everything about itachi a secret - sasuke was the one who said that he'd take on itachi's wishes as his own - which means keeping it a secret. do I like this? no. do I agree with it? no. do I think it was only so boruto could happen and konoha could live as it did in order to not address the 'darkness' of the leaf? it played a huge part in it I'm sure. but why do people blame naruto for it?

saying that naruto doesn't deserve sasuke's friendship and that naruto didn't understand sasuke, that naruto's just a bootlicker that forces sasuke to stay in the leaf is just plain wrong. if people want to hate on naruto they're gonna have to come up with better than that.

[link-20xx]

can u explain all the fallenchungus lore literally all I can find is that he made unattractive fart fetish porn and I've avoided twitter for like a good week and people are talking about a massive downfall and im SO out of the loop

Hi. Okay. I’m gonna try the best I can. I’m putting this under the cut for people who don’t care.

Fallen Chungus’ main problem is that he’s kind of just really annoying, but he’s so annoying everyone hates him. But he’s done some kind of insane shit so I’m gonna try and summarize what I can

- he has said he is going to kill himself publicly like 8 times now. I feel for the guy I get it but it’s to the point where he does it whenever anything goes wrong and I know he is not being honest abt it because he says he will do it, then says that he was released the next day. The worst one was when he said that he took like 80 Advil when you Can Not do that (speaking from experience) because your body begins to throw up the pills because it doesn’t like that many. Even if he did manage to get 80 down/if he did take pills (I’m sure he did, but just exaggerated) 80 is an insane exaggeration because that would leave him disabled for life. Like his liver would have stopped working and he’d have like… 10 years to live w/o a transplant. That’s the main thing that pisses me off abt him LOL but

-he was shit talking his family online when his aunt came out and said that he was actually pretty abusive and his family has been trying to help him because they’re worried. He told his fans to review bomb her small business and then just like ignored it ever happened

- made fun of a 14 year old for self shipping for like no reason then got mad when people were like “hey man they’re 14”

- he said “young [n word]” (the abbreviation of the first two letters) and when ppl were like haha hey man jsyk that means something different than you think, he said he knew what it meant but he wasn’t calling anyone it so it was fine. (He was directly calling someone it)

- some people say he made incestious animal crossing porn but i think that’s kinda an over reaction. It was just Isabelle reacting to her brothers farts which is like.. kinda weird but nothing crazy idk. He also drew kuromi fart porn when she’s 5 but idk if a lot of people know the hello Kitty characters are that young and not just like chibis?? So that doesn’t seem that bad

Okay now for just the funny stuff

- he made a thread with a fucking. Drawing and everything called “the kid, the unc, and the gooner” and hyped it up like it was gonna be something crazy. He publicly said he had a fart fetish after hyping it up for days and then said things every normal person agrees on, like “kids shouldn’t be in nsfw spaces” and nothing new was added to the conversation. He said porn artists were bad because autistic people could get hyperfixated on porn. A week later people found his newly made porn account

- he says he’s done with the internet forever then comes back a day later. Longest he’s been away is 2 weeks. No one wants him here he is killing himself online

- says the r slur so much it’s insane I have never heard someone say it with such hatred before. It’s really funny to hear him say because of how intense he says it ngl 😭😭

- he was like homeless for a while? That’s not like funny I just feel I should mention he was homeless because his parents couldn’t take how terminally online he was

- he had a job for 4 days then got fired for arguing on Twitter all day

- had a breakdown and said he would not be this generations Chris chan

- one of my friends used to run in the same circles as him and she says he was really really rude

Now for my favorite:

- when he decided was done with the fallen Chungus account he decided to sell it. The buyer gave him 500 dollars so chungus gave him the account. Chungus than freaked out, decided he didn’t want to, and gave him the 500 dollars back. But the guy already had the account so he just. Took the account. And everyone likes the new guy more. They ended up being cool until he kept getting more and more annoying and finally said he’d stop posting online, but asked him if he could still promote his Roblox game. He said “what” and chungus blocked him

Thats everything I remember. I’m so sorry if you read all this I feel I’ve cursed you. But basically everything could be solved if everyone went outside I think

[virocci]

wahooie

henlo and welcome back to the life update

featuring me,, viola

i dunno how to start so like hehe

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo i finished alllll my exams :3 i got 4 days free since exam break so i been chilling :D i acc think i did pretty well on my gr12 exams, i alrdy got my grades for ela back and i got 80 on the written and reading comprehension!! thats acc quite good for me lol, i always usually get like 70 on comprehension so am happy :3 am js kinda nervous cuz it takes a minimum of 3 weeks of chem and math to get posted which suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucks :(

i also got new glasses today!! i acc choose them back in december but they took 5 weeks to come back :( i think they got lost in the mail or lab lol.

i have work tmrw and its like 2;30am heehe, i acc have hsr farming for sunday relics rn hehe

since i got THE herta ive been building sunday and surprisingly got some good relics for him :3 my only prblem is that my mini herta is kinda trash ehe. ive been tryna pull for jade by js farming for jades but tis kinda hard since non of my teams r rlly good enough for alotta end game content. i have a problem with pulling only supports lol... i also still havent built rappa and i got her day one of her banner... i kinda regret pulling for her since ion rlly even have a team for her :( i've also looked to see abt building rememberance tb but ill prbly do it at a later time to see if they r needed in meta or smthin.

i also havent touched zzz in a while, i should prbly log on to check up on events and stuff ehe. i am still saving for the vtuber girls and i think i have like 100+ pulls and a guarenteed so am js hopin i have enough :D

side notes:

i got miku in fortnite :3 i got her full set since my brother gifted me two emotes from her pack so now im almost done the music pass and have all her stuff :D

I also have been meaning to play p5 royal again except im js too lazy to use my switch...

AND!!! i found out the dude i befriended on strinova is like 30yrs old (WHICH IS CRAZY) so like idk. if vro tries anything ill js block hehe, i have experience, unfortunately. also strinova's new battle pass is acc so cute, i LOVE the medal u get for completing it, its SOOOOO cute. i think imma end up buying this pass as well when i get to lvl 85 hehe.

anyhoodles,,,

eggrolls texted me :/ he asked me for math notes since he's doin math 30 next sem, i told him id send him the notes but kinda js forgot. he also attempted following me back, i js accepted cuz its wtver. he js annoys me now. he would always talk and try to seem deep but tbh he's kinda shallow. he js tryna seem cool i think... me and my wives have a theory that he has some self esteem issues and that js makes his self value be placed in his gf. i wouldnt be surprised if it was his gf who told him to js ghost me. still sucks but who cares ig. i think i'll send him the notes later, am too lazy rn.

my sleep schedule has gone to shit again :( ive been going to bed at 4am everynight, its rlly bad... i shud prbly be going to sleep earlier but i feel like im always up and js not tired :p

tbh the weather has been so shitty, and ive been feeling so shitty. its like so bleh to even do anything... i need to clean out my backpack for the new sem but i havent even done it yet and ion even know where tf my classes are :,) im js NOT looking forward to having to make new friends :( i js hope the ppl in my classes r decent ehe.

oh yahhhh, after my math final i walked in like -20°C (or smthin) to the mall hehe. i called my mom the entire way i walked, it was cold but i was able to go through a hospital nearby to warm up :> when i was there i got a rlly cute tokidoki blindbox figure (it was from the gems set, i got topaz) and like a flocked kirby mini figure with a hot topic giftcard i got from christmas :D I also bought an aventurine (AVENTURINE MY LOVE I LOVE AVENTURINE) keychain from makers as like a reward for doing exams for myself :3

anywayz, am too tired to continue, i duped enough info lol

im kinda excited for sem2 but also kinda scared cuz like ion have classes with any of my friends unfortunanty :( but that js means i have to talk to ppl which kinda sucks hehe

byebye now :3

song for u bcuz ur kool :D

[hy4c1nthh]

Do you have any non pjsk ocs :3

SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOS MANY. SOOOO MANY URGHHH. so we got the newer one I talked abt the other day (Mc name is kyouya, is a ghost centered story) and. urhh. lemme pull some out of my memory. I'll sort them by what they belong to

(No story name: assassin type story, modern day, action)

Venice (35 y/o, he/him)

Minte (pronounced minty) (33 y/o, he/they)

Naiya (22 y/o, she/it)

Kanai (23 y/o, she/her)

not fully developed but there r a few more charas

quick rundown on the story uhhh Venice is sorta the mc he grew up in an assasin/gang setting and eventually ran away and kept getting tangled up and couldnt leave that lifestyle behind and took up being a hitman but eventually found kanai (who was close to being in the same situation) so he took her in and raised her as a daughter and made a proper life for himself and everything until. one day. his past caught up to him. and he found her body in the snow on train tracks.

but it was faked and was used to get him back in the game but he continued to work as a paid hit man (one of his main things was actually kinda seducing people then getting info or killing them) and he eventually met minte. and they. toxic yaoi. minte was also a paid killer but he also rlly likes music and yaya and one day venice just. well. venice was paid to kill minte and minte said "we'll run away together" and venice said okay but. he ended up betraying that and instead shot him (agaaain in a snowy setting) but he didnt kill him.

fast forward some years later venice gets called in to work for an org. trying to get info on some weird other organization that is suspected of taking people into experiemnt on them. a group of ppl are called in. GUESS WHO ELSE. minte. he is immeditaley like "ohoho look who it is~ little prick venice awwww look at thatttt~" and venice wants to either kill himself or minte. anyways.

not fully fleshed out but on the other side: kanai is not dead. she is part of that same organization venice is workin on taking down. at first venice believed they stole her memories or wtv. but. they didnt. im not sure whyyy exactly kanai stayed by her own will but it was smthn like. fate is fate. it was never gonna last. stuffs like that.

then theres naiya. Moth girl as I call her. She loves moths (cuz i do) and her design is based off the cecropia moth.....(my favorite.....) well. she cant remember where she came from but she calls the "enemy" org. her home. She's prolly an experiment????. not fully fleshed out but it makes sense plus it plays into her whole "not feeling human, not feeling natural, feeling abnormal" play. or also "i am not a butterfly like all other living beings, I am not gazed upon with awe. I am disregarded with digust, associated with the emptiness of life". like a moth. shes eccentric, lil crazy, and loyal not to her home, but to the orders given to her. She gets attached easily..and when kanai comes in when theyre both kids..she gets attached. very. very much attached. yeah you know what that means

toxic co-dependent yuri....

i love naiya...i drew her a lot i can show u later.....

uhmmmmm i have a bunnnnchhhh of convos and scenirios with these guys i have them for a few years now. but its been a while..i should continue them.

shared story with @w1zteria, these r my ocs of that story/those aus..

spencer redwood

Millie Pines

Riley (I FORGOT. GREEN????)

Sienna redwood

Elijah (for.forgot..)

Roger (I FORGOT??????? HOW???)

Ashton (.....f...forgot..)

Everett (ya'll will never guess..)

Caddell (so that's his last name but I forgot his first...we only ever called him by his last name. actually i think we had shared custody over him idr who made him first)

MUCH MORE i am prolly forgetting

so. we often put these guys through many stories and aus? ya. they go through a lot. uhhhhh wisty has a bunch too you should ask her.....if anyone remembers that cyber/dystopian oc story post i made a while ago then some of these names should ring a bell!! and by some i mean. 2. wtv. theyre my babies. esp roger and spencer. ough. love em. had them for...jeez..almost 5 years now???? holy shit...

THAT ONE OFFICE STORY.....uuuuuuuu

Main character name is up to interpretation/unnamed (prolly thirty smthn??)

Rad collines (???? y/o like genuinely idk if its for story i just dunno how old he is yet. uhm. twink)

Erick Arvelo (probably thirty something idfk)

Linking this post if u want the rundown on that

a lot more random ocs!! uhh we got my twst yuusona, their name is "yuusei" but ive never drawn them or talked abt them wtv wtv theyre barely fleshed out. awwwmmmmmm trying 2 rember...ya thats as much as i remember rn!!!

thanks 4 asking :33

ALSO dw i got the ask my phone just. died as i was gonna respond and i had to switch 2 laptop

[f0point5]

I js read the ask abt the portuguese madel agency that gets the models to like get close w like high profile ppl and I've hear this too

People r also saying since kika started going out w pierre magui has been trying to follow in here footsteps but that is js like gossip accounts

And the magui cheating on joao felix i think there were people who had sent pics of her cheating to a gossip account on ig I can't remember it but me and my friends were talking abt it during our free period today and one of them said that she saw a tikok where there were vids of magui and a guy that wasn't joao during their relationship. I'll send another ask with the post if I find it 🙃

And also on the magui thing she is only 21 so not that I support cheating but ig the only reason she's being so scrutinised abt it is because she is 8n the public eye

Yeah I can well believe that about the agency. But I think all agencies of “influencer” models will do the same, try to get the girls on Raya and invited to parties with sportspeople. That is part of their job, to get these girls seen. People want to make it a sordid thing but it’s a pretty standard operating model.

Idk people have this weird thing about “clout chasing” the same way they used to have a thing about models getting “work” done like…sorry life doesn’t just happen to people, it’s all called “their job”. Grow tf up 🙄

(also stop infantilising the men. These men hang out where they hang out specifically TO FIND girls like that. They know what they’re doing. Dating is literally a meat market, they’re just shopping in a different supermarket. It doesn’t make them stupid)

I mean…if she cheated, she cheated. It’s not great but where is the moral indignation coming from from people bc Lando isn’t your friend, why do you care? Also, if the public knows about it, then Lando knows about it. Whether he’s dating her or not, he will know about whatever happened because they are clearly friends. He doesn’t care, so why does anyone else?

The whole obsession with people hating on this girl just gives “bored and bitter”.

Also I high key wish people would lift the lid on these celeb dating things (and NOT when they’re trying to sell you a “how to” ebook) because people just really think “PR” or “transactional” relationships are SO much more dramatic than they actually are. And I’ve never dated a famous person but I’ve dated in adjacent circles and fr the way people think these young women are all Anna Delvey scamming idiot men is so…not true.