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im getting pissed off seeing some things on twitter but seriously, where did the idea that fans have to "address" or "have a conversation" about cc's relationships and friendships even come from? the idea that we have to decode red flags and we have to address "how weird things were in retrospect"? yes this is about tommy and WS, no matter what tommy alluded to in yesterdays video that was not permission to suddenly start talking about things that you have assumed were a given. we do not actually know what their relationship was like, and we never will unless tommy chooses to say something about it. that is the ONLY word you can take for it and its frankly weird to jump on a few things he said when he was clearly venting, and use that to construct your imaginary version of how things are behind the scenes. you can show support to tommy without digging further than he chose to share its really not that hard
i do not understand in what reality its somehow a fan, a STRANGER's, responsibility to a) closely examine a creator's relationship b) pick out supposed "red flags" and c) speculate on what this interpretation entails. thats invasive and creepy. you're allowed to privately have your own opinion of peoples relationships but we dont KNOW these people. we're fucking strangers.
if anyone was hurt, we're not involved! and you know what WOULDN'T fix that potential hurt? seeing people online wildly speculating and guessing and providing their own "take" like its a fucking tv show. i understand ccs put themselves forward in a manner not unlike reality tv sometimes, but that doesnt mean you dont owe them privacy.
and i understand its not always something malicious, sometimes its out of very misplaced genuine concern/anxiety for someone who you look up to. so i want to make it really clear that you, random fan, are not being "complicit" or whatever because you watched while a creator had a friendship that you, from behind your screen, consider as unhealthy with a younger creator. even if it later revealed that your analysis was correct. you are not complicit in this scenario because you are a stranger who is not involved and has zero responsibility.
do people genuinely think making all these posts help? do you think that tommyinnit is relying on his fans to analyse for him whether his friendships and relationships are healthy or not? do you really not see how thats not our job and is completely out of line? just be normal like honestly i think he's dealt with enough
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34. "you made me believe in us." scoups/jeonghan with happy ending
(p.s. i love that youâre doing these and theyre so good too đ„č/ side note: i chose 34 out all the angst prompts cause it seems like it would hurt less đ„Č idt id survive the rest because the one line alr hurts)
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angst prompt #34: "you made me believe in us."
the car ride home is quietâtoo quiet.
seungcheolâs knuckles are white where they grip the steering wheel, his jaw set tight, and his eyes fixed on the road ahead. you sneak a glance at him, your heart sinking at the tension radiating off him in waves.
âcheol?â you ask tentatively, your voice soft. âwhatâs wrong?â
he doesnât answer, his lips pressed into a thin line.
the silence stretches on, and the pit in your stomach grows heavier. you know somethingâs bothering himâheâs never been good at hiding his feelingsâbut no matter how much you try to reach out, he keeps shutting you down.
by the time you both get home, the air between you is thick with unspoken words. he walks in ahead of you, kicking off his shoes and heading straight for the kitchen without so much as a glance in your direction.
âcheol,â you call out again, following him. âseriously, whatâs going on? youâve been like this all night.â
he doesnât respond, just pours himself a glass of water and leans against the counter, staring into the sink.
âokay, fine,â you say, crossing your arms and leaning against the doorway. âif youâre not going to talk to me, then at least tell me what i did to piss you off.â
his head snaps up at that, and for a moment, you see something raw in his eyes before he quickly looks away.
âit doesnât matter,â he mutters, his voice clipped.
âit does matter,â you insist, stepping closer. âcheol, if i did something wrong, just tell me.â
he slams the glass down on the counter, the sound sharp and jarring in the quiet room.
âfine,â he snaps, his voice rising. âyou want to know whatâs wrong? itâs you. itâs the way you spent the entire night talking to that guy like i wasnât even there.â
you blink, caught off guard by the anger in his voice. âwhat are you talking about? heâs just a coworkerââ
âi know that,â he interrupts, running a hand through his hair in frustration. âbut do you have any idea how it felt? sitting there, watching you laugh and talk with him like... like i didnât even exist?â
you open your mouth to respond but hesitate, unsure of what to say. his words cut deeper than you expected, and you can feel the weight of his emotions pressing down on you.
âwhy do you even care, cheol?â you ask finally, your voice shaking. âyouâre not even my boyfriend.â
the words hang in the air, sharp and cold.
seungcheol freezes, his expression crumbling as the tension in his shoulders collapses. he stares at you like youâve just slapped him in the face, and the silence that follows is deafening.
âcheol,â you whisper, closing your eyes as regret over your words quickly settles in you. but seungcheol doesnt move or say anything. though the words are true; you didn't mean to hurt him.
âyou made me believe in us,â he says softly, his voice breaking.
his words hit you like a punch to the chest, leaving you breathless.
âwhatâ what do you mean?â you ask, your voice barely above a whisper.
he laughs bitterly, shaking his head as he stares down at the floor. âyou made me believe that there could be something here, that this wasnât just... whatever this is. and stupidly, i let myself hope for more. but clearly, i was wrong.â
the raw vulnerability in his voice makes your heart ache, and for a moment, you canât find the words to respond.
âcheol,â you say finally, stepping closer. âi didnât mean it like that. i just... i didnât know you felt this way.â guilt, heartache and panic sizzles in your blood.
he looks up at you, his eyes shining with unshed tears. âhow could i not? do you have any idea how much you mean to me? how much i care about you? and yet, iâve been sitting here, pretending like this is enough when itâs not. itâs not enough for me anymore.â
your breath catches in your throat, and you feel tears prick at the corners of your eyes.
he shakes his head, his lips curling into a sad smile. âmaybe i shouldâve said something sooner. but now... i donât know. maybe this was a mistake. i shouldntâ.... maybe i shouldnt have fallen in love.â
for a moment, youâre both frozen in place, the weight of his confession settling over you. has he always felt this way? were you too busy keeping your feelings at bay that you failed to notice his feelings?
you donât know what to say, every thought in your head scattering as his confession hangs in the air. seungcheol runs a hand down his face, taking a shaky breath as he steps away from you, heading toward the door.
âiâm going to stay at jeonghanâs tonight,â he mutters, his voice strained & cracks. âi canât do this right now.â
âwait,â you call out, panic rising in your chest. you grab his arm before he can leave, holding on tightly. "don't go, cheol, please."
he turns to look at you, his eyes glassy and filled with pain. âwhy? so i can keep pretending this doesnât hurt? so i can keep playing this game where i feel like i mean something to you when i donât?â
âyou do,â you blurt out, your voice trembling as your chest tightens, âyou mean everything to me, cheol.â
his breath hitches, and for a moment, he just stares at you, as if trying to figure out if you really mean it.
before you can lose your nerve, you step closer, cupping his face in your hands. âi donât want you to leave,â you whisper, your voice shaking. âi cantâ... just, i can't lose you.â
the tension between you snaps like a rubber band, and suddenly, youâre pulling him down into a kiss. itâs desperate and messy, filled with all the emotions youâve been holding back for so long.
seungcheol freezes for a split second before he melts into you, his arms wrapping around your waist as he kisses you back just as fervently.
when you finally pull away, both of you are breathless, his forehead resting against yours.
âdo you mean it?â he asks, his voice barely above a whisper. âare you really saying you want thisâwant us?â
you nod, tears streaming down your face. you don't know how else to reassure seungcheol that you feel the same, that you want the same, that you want him, all of him. your voice; still shaking, still trembling with nerves over all your unsaid feelings; you say the one thing you're sure will get him to finally understand, "I love you, cheol, i love you, i love you so please,"
the sound of your sniffling and light hiccups fills in the gentle, comforting silence that settles over the both of you as seungcheol's eyes searched yours. then, a shaky laugh finally escapes him when he sees it, when he sees the fondness in your eyes. his hand reaches up to wipe your tears away and he pulls you into a tight hug, burying his face in your shoulder as he lets out a deep breath. âgod, you donât know how long iâve been waiting to hear that.â
you cling to him, your heart feeling lighter than it has in weeks. âiâm sorry it took me so long.â you mumbled through your tears.
he pulls back just enough to look at you, his hands cupping your face as he presses a soft kiss to your forehead. âyouâre worth the wait,â he says, as he leans down to kiss your forehead. his voice filled with so much love it makes your chest ache.
you smile, your tears finally slowing as you lean into his touch. âso... does this mean youâre staying?â
he chuckles, nodding as he kisses you again, this time slow and sweet. âiâm not going anywhere, pretty."
#seventeen imagine#seventeen#svt#svt x reader#seventeen fluff#svt fluff#svt angst#seventeen x reader#seungcheol x reader#seventeen angst#angst seventeen#seungcheol fluff#seungcheol angst#seungcheol fanfic#seungcheol imagines#choi seungcheol x reader#seventeen seungcheol#seungcheol seventeen#scoups#scoups seventeen#seventeen scoups#scoups angst#choi seungcheol#seungcheol#scoups x you#scoups x reader#scoups fluff#scoups imagine#scoups fanfic#daisymbin: reqs
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Change Your Mind (Bucky Barnes)
Summary: After an intense fight between you and Bucky, you vow to get your revenge on him. He thinks your kidding around until he wakes up with an arm made of metal. Will he forever have the metallic limb? Or will you both resolve your issues and cause his arm to become human like once more?
Warnings: readers a witch of sorts, this would take place in an AU where bucky *doesnt* have a metal attachment
WC: 600
Read on ao3!
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Bucky didnât usually slam doors. But tonight, the door to your shared apartment rattled on its hinges as he stormed out of the room, leaving you standing in the middle of the kitchen, seething.
Heâd crossed a line. You werenât even sure how the fight had startedâsomething small that spiraled out of control, words sharpening like blades until you both drew blood. But what stung the most was how dismissive heâd been.
âDo whatever you want,â heâd snapped. âItâs not like I care.â
Those words echoed in your mind long after heâd disappeared into the other room. Your hands trembled, but not from sadnessâoh no. This was anger, white-hot and unrelenting. Fine. If he thought you were bluffing when you said youâd get your revenge, he was in for a surprise.
Bucky had no idea what you were capable of.
When Bucky woke the next morning, the sunlight streaming through the window felt... off. Something about his arm felt heavier than usual, the weight pulling awkwardly at his shoulder. Groaning, he sat up, running his hand through his hairâexcept it wasnât his hand.
âHolyââ Bucky stared down at his left arm. The sleek vibranium he was used to was gone, replaced by something disturbingly familiar: the exact same metallic construction as his right arm.
âWhat the hell?â His voice was hoarse as he flexed his fingers, the joints moving with unsettling ease. It felt realâtoo real.
He scrambled out of bed, nearly tripping over himself as he stumbled into the living room. You were there, sitting cross-legged on the couch with a cup of coffee in hand, your expression as nonchalant as ever.
âMorning,â you said sweetly, taking a sip.
âWhat did you do?â Bucky demanded, holding up his new metallic arm.
You tilted your head, feigning innocence. âOh, that? Just a little reminder to be nicer during fights. Thought you could use a taste of your own medicine.â
Buckyâs jaw dropped. âA taste of my own medicine? Are you kidding me? This is permanent!â
âOnly if you keep being an ass,â you shot back, setting your coffee down.
He stared at you, a mix of disbelief and frustration written all over his face. âYou canât be serious.â
âDead serious,â you replied, crossing your arms. âMaybe next time you wonât storm out in the middle of a fight. Or, I donât know, tell me you donât care?â
Bucky flinched, guilt flickering in his eyes. âI didnât mean it like that.â
âWell, it sure felt like you did.â
For a moment, silence stretched between you, broken only by the faint hum of the fridge. Bucky sighed, running his flesh hand over his face. âI shouldnât have said that. I was mad, but thatâs no excuse. Iâm sorry.â
You raised a brow. âGo on.â
He exhaled, his shoulders sagging. âI care about you. More than I shouldâve let on last night. I was out of line, and... I deserved this.â He gestured at his arm, his lips twitching into a faint smirk. âEven if itâs kind of overkill.â
You huffed, but a small smile tugged at the corners of your mouth. âApology accepted. And maybe it was a little overkill.â
âOnly a little?â he teased, stepping closer.
You reached out, brushing your fingers against the metal, and with a whispered incantation, the metallic surface shimmered, melting away to reveal his human arm underneath. He flexed his fingers, marveling at the change.
âYouâre not just scary,â he murmured, meeting your gaze. âYouâre terrifying.â
âGood,â you said, smirking. âMaybe next time youâll think twice before pissing me off.â
Bucky chuckled, wrapping his arms around you and pulling you close. âLesson learned.â
#bucky barnes x reader#bucky x reader#james bucky barnes#james buchanan barnes#james bucky buchanan barnes#winter soldier#winter soldier x reader#bucky barnes#bucky x you#bucky x y/n#bucky x female reader#bucky barnes x you#bucky barnes x y/n#bucky barnes x female reader#bucky barnes x oc#bucky james barnes x reader#james bucky barnes x reader
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Could you make a lando norris x male reader/oc (maybe its a oneshot or more you decide) where lando has been in love with his best friend since they were in dipers and lando is just obsessed over reader when their not there(ex. Their always what he talks about, always staring at pictures of him and getting supremely angry when anyone talk bad about male reader), and when male reader is there it's like he's high and he always has to be touching you (he could even secretly touching in areas hes not suppose to but male reader is just used to it because he's done it so many times in the past that he doesnt see anything wrong), the other drivers get concerned when lando that you have a crush on someone on the grid (not knowing its him because male reader is equally as obsessed as he is but just hides it way better) and as reader is mclarens media admin, actor and occasional song writer their both too infatuated with each other that the other drivers have to force them to tell each other so lando doesnt hurt anyone on the track.
This has sat in my inbox for a long time đ itâs not exactly what you want but I am writing something for male!reader and Lando getting high together đ€đ€.
Also im definitely going to be writing blurbs for them.
Iâve always been yours â Lando Norris x male!reader
Word countâ 990
Warnings â slight jealous Lando and possessive Lando slightly angsty
It had been a long day at the paddock, but that didnât stop Lando from keeping you within armâs reach at all times. He was more touchy than usual, his hand constantly finding your shoulder, his fingers brushing your arm or neck every few minutes. It was subtleâprobably no one else noticedâbut for you, it was impossible to ignore.
Lando had always been possessive, sure, but this was something else. The look in his eyes, the way he practically bristled whenever anyone else took your attention⊠you couldnât quite put your finger on it.
âSo, any plans tonight?â Carlos asked, nudging you as you finished up with a few media notes. âA group of us are heading to dinner if youâre interested.â
Before you could respond, Landoâs arm slid over your shoulders, pulling you just a bit closer than necessary. âActually, heâs busy,â Lando said, not even bothering to look at Carlos.
You blinked, glancing up at him. âI am?â
Lando shot you a quick, sideways look, and you caught the almost imperceptible tightening of his jaw. âYeah. Weâre grabbing dinner together. Already planned it.â He said it with such confidence that you had to stop yourself from laughing. But his hand lingered on your shoulder, his fingers flexing slightly, and something in the way he held onto you made you decide not to argue.
Carlos raised an eyebrow, glancing between the two of you with a smirk. âOhhh, alright then,â he said, winking before heading off.
The second Carlos was out of earshot, you turned to Lando, arching an eyebrow. âDid we actually have dinner plans?â
âWe do now,â he replied simply, not loosening his grip on you. âDidnât like the way he was looking at you.â
You rolled your eyes. âCarlos? Heâs just being friendly. Itâs not like that.â
Landoâs gaze darkened, his voice dropping to a murmur. âDonât care. Donât want him looking at you like that.â
You knew he could be intense sometimes, but this was new. You werenât sure whether to laugh or ask him what was going on, but the fierce glint in his eyes made you hold your tongue. Besides, a small part of you didnât mindâLandoâs possessiveness felt good, like he was claiming you in ways he hadnât before.
Later, after the debrief, you ended up in his hotel room, sharing takeout on the bed as you usually did. Landoâs leg pressed against yours as he leaned in, close enough that you could feel the warmth radiating off him.
âHey, uhâŠâ He looked away, fidgeting slightly. âHave you⊠ever thought about someone on the grid? Like, actually thought about them that way?â
You paused mid-bite, caught off guard. âSomeone on the grid? Whatâs with the random question?â
He shrugged, eyes fixed on his food. âJust⊠curious. Iâve heard people talk about you. Heard you might have a thing for someone.â
You narrowed your eyes, laughing a bit. âAnd you believed them? Please, Lando. You know how people talk around here. They just like to gossip.â
âStill. Itâs not funny.â His tone was firm, more serious than you were used to. When he finally looked at you, his eyes were filled with something intense, a possessive glint that sent a shiver down your spine. âDonât like the idea of someone else thinking they have a chance with you.â
You blinked, taken aback by the bluntness. âLando, why do you care so much?â
For a moment, he seemed to consider backing off, but then he leaned in closer, his face inches from yours. âBecause youâre mine.â The words were soft, barely more than a whisper, but they were filled with a raw, undeniable certainty that made your heart race.
Your breath caught, but you tried to keep your voice steady. âYours?â
He nodded, his hand reaching out to cup your face, thumb brushing your cheek with a touch that was both gentle and possessive. âAlways been mine. Donât want anyone else even thinking about you that way. Canât stand it.â
A part of you wanted to push back, to tease him for being so intense, but the way he was looking at you, the heat in his eyes, made any words die on your lips. Instead, you found yourself leaning into his touch, your heart pounding as you let yourself feel the full weight of his words.
âLando⊠youâve never said anything like this before,â you murmured.
His grip tightened, pulling you closer until your foreheads touched. âBecause I thought youâd think I was crazy. But then today, hearing those rumorsââ He shook his head, his jaw clenched. âI donât want anyone else. Just you. Always been you.â
Your chest felt tight, your heart swelling with a mix of disbelief and relief. Youâd known him forever, but hearing it out loud, feeling the intensity in his voice⊠it was almost too much.
âYou couldâve said something sooner,â you whispered, barely able to keep the smile off your face. âWouldâve saved us both a lot of time.â
Landoâs face broke into a grin, his hand slipping to the back of your neck as he pulled you in for a kissâdeep, intense, filled with years of unspoken feelings. When he finally pulled back, he didnât let go, his hand still tangled in your hair as he whispered, âJust so weâre clearâno one else gets to have you.â
You couldnât help but laugh, your own possessiveness finally breaking free as you wrapped your arms around him. âGood. Because I donât want anyone else either.â
The next day at the paddock, Lando was practically glued to your side, his arm around your shoulders, hand possessively gripping yours whenever you had a spare moment. The other drivers noticed, casting curious glances, but Lando didnât seem to care. He was too busy keeping you close, his every glance and touch a reminder to anyone who looked that you were his.
And you didnât mind one bit.
#f1#f1 x reader#formula one x reader#formula one imagine#formula one x you#f1 x y/n#formula one x oc#faiths inboxesđ„đš#formula one x y/n#lando norris#lando norris fanfic#lando norris one shot#lando norris fluff#Lando Norris x male!reader#f1 x male reader
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#i know it's silly and stupid#but i cant help but feel sooooo hurt that he doesnt wanna follow me anymore#or interact with my blogs#... this is really childish and embarrassing#but i wanted him to interact with me so bad i've tried a few times to like send him posts and stuff (that remind me of him)#but he still doesnt interact ... it's like he doesnt want to have anything reblogged from me on his blog#it just feels like he's trying to keep me as far away from him as possible#like he just doesnt want us to be close at all...#that hurt bc i love him sm all i want is for us to be close#actually it hurts even more bc he said he wanted me. he made me believe he felt all these things for me#and then he just suddenly started to slowly pull away#and i get it i get it.... he isnt in love with me and he doesnt care to keep me close#that's that on that!! but i just cannot let go#i should be strong and cut him off and focus on myself and meet someone who'll love me the way i need#i just feel like i have a connection with him i cant find with anyone else#and that makes it so so much harder for me to just leave#even if he clearly doesnt want me close#it just hurts so much#how he doesnt even want to interact on tumblr đ#how he like hates my blog now and how im only bad energy in his life#it hurts!!!!!!
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I have what you're looking for. High quality. Befitting a man of my tastes. I have a room over on Divisadero, not too far a walk.
#iwtv#interview with the vampire#iwtv amc#daniel molloy#louis de pointe du lac#danlou#iwtvedit#tvedit#dailyflicks#*#dont know if i can articulate my thoughts well#but something about how daniel at first is so closed off from louis when he sits down near him#doesnt really want to talk at first but starts opening up pretty quickly#then louis is buying him a drink and it's easier to talk. mostly what he wants to talk about is his journalism work#because its so important to him. but when louis starts getting too personal (i know what you're here for danny) he starts backing off again#maybe some combo of shame for how quickly he felt attracted to louis and the flirting and the diminutive louis uses#the bartender uses it when asking if hes got money tonight. hes used to exchanging sex for things he needs but cant afford#above all it's like a sharp reminder of what louis wants & what daniel wants too even before the offer of drugs#and he's trying to hold onto the denial and excuses. it was a good place to score he did what he had to#sex with men has to be in exchange for something he can't just want it on its own#the lie he tells himself about himself#also these tags are getting long but i think you can see the moment louis decides he might not just fuck and kill this guy right away lmao
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Side effects of wearing your Kaiju suit too often ,,,, Part 2
#narumi gen#kn8#kaiju no. 8#my art#kn8 spoilers#idk if this actually needs a spoiler tag since it's mostly AU but eh#if nothing else my tags need a spoiler tag lol#biblically accurate narumi i have created him#himm always watching#I like the idea that when all his funky 1 eyes close you can barely see them#want him to walk around like a normal little guy#and then something catches his attention and bam#suddenly eyes everywhere lookin around#I also think the sclera of his normal eyes might do a colour change depending on if he's in normal boi or 1 mode??#idk i'm still workshopping this a little lol#the hoshi10 merge i had figured out in my head weeks before i drew him but this literally just happened sdkjfhsf so ......#I would pay money for a proper reference picture of 1 because there is so much of the design i don't get sigh#will probably have reno done tomorrow as well he's almost there ehehehe just need to clean up a little#kaiju boyfriens all together <3#I wish i could have incorporated his suit more :c#i like to think of this au as the suits actually merging into their bodies + some funky kaijufication#but the 1 suit doesnt have any cool features like the 10 tail ;;#except for the spine i guess which i will defintiely use but stillll
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the way jack is like âheâs fineâ when will, sick as a dog, shot a man outside of alanaâs house at ass oâ clock is ASTOUNDING
like ik jackâs always terrible and overworks will but why does it take hannibal urging jack to do something?
why did no one but hannibal notice will was sick and not doing well AND did something about it?
ik itâs an obvious running theme about the ablism in how people besides hannibal treat will (yes even beverly) but god every time i find a new instance of it or a new angle i fly in to rage
#like ik alana hate can be over the top but i need people to realize it IS warranted#she talks so much about wanting to get close to will#and the minute he lets her in she rejects him calls him unstable and a professional curiousty#he openly says he feels unsatble which is practically a cry for help from a guy with walls as tall as willâs and all she does is⊠hug him?#and then NOTHING#shes not concerned she doesnt try to offer help or any more support besides the hug#and jack ofc is both better and worse; will is only considered a person as long as hes useful#and he does get better like alana toward the end but only just#OUGHHHHH HANNIBAL TREATS WILL BADLY BUT AT THE SAME TIME TREATS HIM THE BEST#hannibal#will graham#hannibal lecter#hannigram#murder husbands#jack crawford#alana bloom#beverly katz#meta#fungus watches#fungus talks
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get normaled, idiot
#pizza tower#peppino#arts#mine#anyway....#i cannot for the life of me get it right#i need a ref or something#i have like SUCH a clear image of what i want him to look like and trying to imitate it just makes him look uncanny#like he needs droopier eyes and bigger eyes#and ive seen people who look EXACTLY like the ref i would love to have#ah well#i did get his mouth pretty close to what i wanted :)#other things; he has like a SMALL amount of accessories like necklaces n stuff. i think he is very Particular about his appearance#the balding doesnt bother him AT ALL so its not messed w in anyway#the most hell do is brush it down so its not in the way#and hes got hats for if he simply does not want it to get unruly in the wind#i was stuck deciding between a Normal earring and a stud but i think stud looks a bit better heehee hes got quite a bit of piercings#but hes stopped using them YEARS ago. they havent closed up so like. theoretically he Could use them again. but hes fine w leaving them be#also he is like obv a mess when hes in the back working the oven n stoves so hes sweaty and kinda gross if hes been in there TOO LONG#(and he is SO conscious about this; he gets a better ac unit postgame when he gets more funds)#but otherwise if hes going out somewhere he has like spicy smellin colognes. like the shit that makes ur head hurt when u smell it sdfkjdfj#meanwhile gus does not give a flying fuck#hes got 14-in-1 body wash and a prayer#you get what u get#which is admirable tbh#i just think it is funny for him to be particular about this. gus we are best buds but you are not coming out w me looking like this.#or the noise smells AWFUL bc he is covered in grease and sweat from tinkerin in his room all day#and peppino looks SO upset hes like get AWAY from me u smell like ACTUAL garbage !!!!!!!!!!!!! go get CLEAN you fucking BEAST
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love it when a character that's hard to read intuitively for you has like a dedicated fandom interpreter who can just glance at their blank face in a panel and then give you a 3k word essay on their innermost thoughts & desires & fears and neatly tie it back into the themes & whatnot as if it's the most obvious thing in the world
#im talking about griffith btw#guts i feel i get intuitively - maybe because i have some personality traits in common with him#and we get more about his life concretely told to us in canon. so he is a bit easier to pin down as a character and feel attached to for me#but whenever i was reading the manga i just kept wanting more insight about griffith's actions and feelings#like ok yeah its fun to have mysterious antagonists and suspense /tension etc but its also fun to feel like you deeply understand them too#and i felt like that was a bit missing from him for me in canon#so reading about him in analysis and fics is the most fun for me rn#he always felt kinda half unreal to me- which maybe was the point of him - but i wanted a bit more about his childhood or something?#and wished we had more stuff explicitly from his pov in the story to read or explanation about his transformation or wtv#and now he's so much more closed off to me even than he was in the golden age. i keep waiting for him to explain stuff and he does not#ANYWAYS all this rambling to say some people out there are very good at interpreting him and making his like. insecurities#more obvious to me bc i didnt really get that side of him from canon intuitively well#also im really enjoying reading the first few berserk fics ive read#there may not be a ton of them out there but there is def writing talent in the fandom#i'll share some recs once i'm done sifting through most of what's out there to read#also (not to tie everything back to death note but it IS my home fandom after all)#i feel griffith is obvs the more light-like character here and L maybe a bit guts-like? but unlike berserk in death note#light is the one you get to know best and L is the mysterious / unreal one you don't get a lot of concrete insight into#and in the DN fandom I can read the more mysterious character intuitively but had to warm up to the less mysterious one instead#and the mystery of L makes sense to me and doesnt bug me as much due to like - he HAS to hide a lot about himself or else he will die lol#so some similarities there but also some opposite feels as well#berserk spoilers#p
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hhhhidea...,,,, CUTE idea (kinda?) dust reading to phantom papyrus during night to lull him to sleep,,,, but really its just a way for him to pretend that everythings not really that shit (as if phantom paps isn't just dust's denial incarnate) and to help him NOT wake up because of a nightmare again or something
(and just because i can't resist now im imagining this with mtt. not that dust stopped reading to paps in place of killer and horror (because he wouldnt he simply wouldn't) but now the two join them for storytime. horror knocks out pretty damn fast and eventually dust falls asleep too after he makes sure that paps is satisfied with the amount he read and then killer's just left to sit there. maybe he tries to fall asleep maybe he doesn't,,,, maybe he picks up the book and continues reading but EITHERWAY,,,,,, this scene in my head so đ„đ„đ„đđđ)
#sweet soft mtt taking OVER triglycercule's brain has been invaded with them.........#horror probably sleeps like a rock man. dust is a very very very light sleeper. killer doesn't sleep at all and when he does#its just like that half asleep state. better than nothing tho....... those weeks of not sleeping probably leads to the most delicious naps#now in an ideal world killer learns to get a proper sleep schedule even if he can't feel his exhaustion#however in MY mtt dominated world killer doesn't fix his sleep habits and instead just takes a shitton of naps everywhere#they killerfied the house (made everything softer to sleep on) and killer always has 2 walking pillows to sleep on#sure he might not get 8 hours of sleep like during night. but he got that over the day so its ok TRUSY#this surely wont have any bad side effects but whatever its the mtt since when do they care about PROPER habits. if it works it works#ik i aaaaalways say hrkl wouldn't like phantom paps and find it weird but also now im considering#like. them being jealous of dust for always having kinda papyrus with him#like damn..... horror fucked up his brother permanently. he will never get the old paps back#and killer doesnt want to see his papyrus again because then he thinks hell just ruin everything again#but dust gets to talk and laugh and joke with his paps all the time!!! he got it better than them and thats just cus he hallucinates!!!! wt#i mean phantom paps isnt a 1:1 version of papyrus but hes close enough in my eyes#another idea....... horror (and maybe killer if he warms up to it) hanging out with dust JUST to talk to phantom paps#dust could easily just lie about what phantom paps says (although unless he had a reason he wouldnt risk upsetting paps like that methinks)#but theres something there. something something toxic mttpoly dynamic or whatever idc man. im in the mood for FLUFF!!!!!!!!!!#i think it would be funny if phantom paps says dusts deepest thoughts about hrkl. and then if he wants to say it dust has to filter it a LO#they could be sitting near killer and phantom paps would provide a detailed description of why killer has the mannerisms of a cat#and then dust would (hesitantly) agree to everything paps said (he was thinking it too) but when killer looks back at him#(he's been staring at killer for the past 10 minutes to see if what paps said was right) dust just says like. you remind me of a cat#OR BETTER YET he doesn't wanna admit that he thought of that so he just says paps says you remind him of a cat#insert horror version of this moment here. and killer quickly realizes that dust's just using papyrus as an excuse for why he says stuff#like that sometimes. horror just thinks dust's a weirdo freak (but unlike killer he takes the little observations to heart. loser)#killer sans#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#utmv#tricule hc
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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally
#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months#to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them#in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought#i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are#and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it#its worth missing i think#i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over#(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think#i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat#they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand#how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much#i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around#something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode#arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully#last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing#and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets#and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably#have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused#blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like#i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much#my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to#music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads#i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says#what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.
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Ouhhhh friendship I love friendshipâŠâŠ..
#Iâm reading volumes 14-16 of the ouran manga OOUGHHH MY HEART#I love this weird little friend group so much its unreal#like u have this charming sweeps you off your feet prince but heâs actually a huge lovable idiot with a kind heart and his friends#who are all misfits that he reached out to and drew in because of his kindness and own weirdness like that shits TIGHT BRO#and the trauma part where he has some deep seated issues with love bc he thinks that itll break a family apart like with his mom#how his family isnt allowed to be together because his mom and dad fell in love and how he says he wants to build a big house#so that way one day everyone will get along as a family like. all he wants is not to lose everyone and the only way to do that is#by maintaining a certain order.. he both wants a complete family so bad and doesnt want anything to sour between anyone#so he assigns each of his friends a family role based on how he sees them and YEAH its mostly played for giggles and tamakis#already weird so its his way of showing theyre close to him but. god damn this boy has LAYERS#it also feels kinda meta towards how found family tends to get thrown around to assign characters as 'siblings' or family roles instead of#using it to describe characters who are close enough to be each others family. cuz tamakis doing that EXACT THING in a way tht#ties in with his character and i have to say its fascinating using that within the story itself and its completely plausible#theres a lot of things i can say about ouran that are good bad and questionable but. god i love it when characters are niceys to each other#i remember i really liked the mall episode bc kyoya and haruhi got to spend time together and their relationship isnt very close#but it was really nice to see their personalities bounce off each other. i think i also wouldve liked to see haruhi alone with kaoru#i also firmly believe all of the hosts are at least a little in love with haruhi and this can be anything like endearing romantic cuz like#who DOESNT love haruhi. kyoya i think would want to study her under a microscope like his fascination with her draws him in#but im fucking obsessed with whatever haruhi and tamaki have going on because YES hes obsessed with her YES he jumps at the chance to#put her in a cute costume but haruhi? she just fucking goes with it because she knows hes fun to be around even if hes a little wacky abt i#theyre all so. NNGGHHHH#ouran#ohshc#yapping
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Also just because you get annoyed by something someone is doing doesn't mean they are evil you can leave us alone
#this is about autistic people.#that guy in you class that is always asking questions? he always raises his hand theres nothing wrong with it#it takes time in the class but that's how he makes sure he understands the subject#and meanwhile every other student decides hes an asshole#that girl who doesnt blink and who cant seem to have a linear conversation is not doing anything wrong#you dont like interacting with her but that doesnt say anything about her you can leave her alone you dont have to bitch behind her back#that person cant read social cues? why are you getting mad? can you shut the fuck up?#it is insane how often some of my friends talk about people who are clearly autistic and are mad at them#no its not because theyre autistic theyre just always interupting!#its not because theyre autistic they just make me uncomfortable! PLEASE LISTEN TO YOURSELF#i swear youre all asshole to us#no respect fr#its so annoying to see you run in a circle trying to justify calling someone an ass for doing literally nothing wrong#youre allowed to feel how you want about other people but you always jump to bullying#and whenever i try to make them realize they get so deffensive#just because you grew up with an autistic brother does not make you a fucking expert youre not even close to him!!#ok sorry im gonna go hit my bong im getting too angry lol
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i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is
#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And#make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not#saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was#going to say#like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so#bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the#winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000#other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless đ like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but#i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its#been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody#responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple#muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it#but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like#im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good#solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start#all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the#punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4#im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but#even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think#avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is#like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they#hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be#the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors đŻ like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO#difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15#minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case#it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel#stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and#tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i#tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction#like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint
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a double flash event near empire territory has been detected by satellites
#unless eggman just doesnt test his nukes at all#although he could do underground tests#im actually a little intrigued by his decision to murder-suicide by launching an SLBM at station square while he was still there in sa1#why use surface burst? its like he wasnt trying to maximize destruction at all#moreover how was he able to get a ballistic missile submarine so close to station square#coast guard was sleeping?#also SLBMs are mostly used as second strike (retaliation) rockets since theyre more likely to survive a first strike due to being underwate#where are your normal icbms eggman#maximizing retaliatory capacity is beta nuclear power behaviour#dont you want to set the standard for what your enemy can strike? loser#unfortunately i was forced to read 400 pages about nuclear programs + development last weekend and its rotting my brain#tons of nuclear accident reports too#theyre kinda wild like these morons actually drove a bomber into a warehouse full of nukes that should have blown up a significant#chunk of england. and they just didnt go off so they got very lucky#also reactors used to catch on fire a lot#redposts
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