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rememberingpunday · 5 months ago

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I would like to be done suffering

#personal #i know that life is suffering #but i would like for mine to stop being that #im so tired #pls i just want to stop struggling #like havent i had enough ��#i literally work from 7am to 11pm today and i barely pay my bills :)#and i have a degree 😭😭#that im in debt from and wont pay off for another 10-15 years #i miss beimg able to go out to eat and being able to come home and not have work still #i miss my friends and family too #like damn shit just sucks so hard #and to top it all off im living in the devil's asshole #Phoenix is probably the shittiest place in all of the US straight up #like yehaw there’s pretty mountains but you cant hike them bc you will die #from scorpions snakes or the weather just stay inside and cry #and the sun is going to make me look 10 years older than i am if i stay here much longer #i already see it #someone save me 😭😭😭😭 im done playing adult shit is bad!!

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nibbelraz · 1 year ago

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Some Discord doodles

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kyurochurro · 1 year ago

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saw this image on Pinterest and the pose gave me such riker vibes that I just HAD to draw it as him and troi HEHEHE

#churro art #my art #digital art #illustration #fanart #star trek #star trek tng #star trek the next generation #william t riker #william riker #deanna troi #AHAAAAAA OKAY PLS DONT SEND ME TO TREKKIE JAIL I HAVENT HAD A CHANCE TO PROPERLY START TNG YEET 😭😭😭#but I do know… I DO KNOW . I love troi so MUCH #I actually started this image drawing her and doodle her a lot on paper in my first week back to uni #but omg I struggled so much with riker here and for why BJBJCBSDJHDSBJ #he literally had like 60 different hairstyle changes during the Lineart phase like it was that bad #it just didn’t look like him but in the end I think I’m close enough 😭😭😭#ANYWAYS This is this weeks uni drawing … the type of drawing I do in my free time on campus :P #I LOVE HOW THIS TURNED OUT SO MUCH!! I was kickin my feet n giggling. like a madman #i should really draw the tos crew w these full eyes too but I always love drawing them with the simple dot eyes more HAHAHA #also little authors note. wow did that reference give me a hard time #those are some LOOONG limbs boy . Riker almost ended up looking like slenderman DAMN

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vero-niche · 18 days ago

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im so cooked im naught but ash at this point

#head in hands please stop (never stop) please i csnt do this anymore (i love it) havent they suffered enough already (they have. alas)#im sorry mr wolfwood theres a new kid on the block. you two are quite alike tho actually. including a great nose #orb: on the movements of the earth #chi chikyuu no undou ni tsuite #chi: chikyuu no undou ni tsuite #that squidward was my exact face when seeing again the ep1 opening (hah 😭) scene and recognizing oczy #like FUCK. if i had any doubts. of his fate. 😭

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xxplastic-cubexx · 16 days ago

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Magneto would love lumpia meanwhile Charles would have his Bibingka and Puto Bungbong hehe

Happy Holidays!

asks that remind me my bitchass friend kayla promised to make me *puto two years ago and she still hasnt

*puto is a filipino rice cake i do know it also means 'bitch' in spanish we do not have to address that thank you

#snap chats #'snap is the disclaimer necessary' every single time i mention 'puto' i get people clutching their pearls yes it is necessary vjAVKJ #LIKE I GET IT. CAN WE TALK ABOUT RICE CAKES NOW im hungry ...#kayla always gets beef from me but esp with puto and i only mention this when it was promised two years ago #cause SHE will always bring it up like 'oh yeah i still have to make you puto' bitch just forget it ive made it three times since then 😭#PUTO ISNT EVEN HARD TO MAKE LEGITIMATELY YOU JUST MAKE THE BATTER AND PUT IT IN THE SHIT AND STEAM IT #add a slice of cheddar on top if youre feeling especially nasty .... its so good .... anyway ..... rice cake ... i love it ...#i havent had bibingka in so long tho im PISSED. you know what else is really good tho cassava cake .. thats not rice but. lol #i never get to have filipino food on account of my mom hating cooking anything that isnt tiramisu knock offs #she really doesnt make filipino food she hasnt for years. my dad always does tho ..... whatever ....#i could always cook it myself of course. yeah... im lazy ill admit it you got me 😔#oh my god no you know whats great for the winter tinola I LOVE. chicken tinola so much #funny enough i learned how to make it when i was in the hospital from a filipino girl 🥰 we did not speak anymore after that interaction.#Also funny my fam and i were just talking about getting lumpia for christmas since theres like one (1) filipino place vaguely near us #'you guys dont make it??' on account of the fact im too lazy to make wrappers and no store near us sells any no <3 #i did make lumpia myself once tho when we Did have wrappers after drivign out an hour to an asian market once #not to brag but they were pretty delicious ..... anyway ..#oh my god fuck me theres this like. speaking of rice cakes again JALKJKALJ theres this one with this delicious coconut sauce #BIKO IT'S BIKO its literally glutinous rice steamed in banana leaf with latik. UGH SOOO yummy ..... i dont have banana leaves anymore tho :#OH YOU KNOW WHATS ALSO GOOD FOR THE HOLIDAY lechon. that was my fave part bout goin to my dad's christmas parties #they had this big ass pig and i loved the ear .... crunchy as hell and so good 🤤 i havent had it in at least a decade tho..#now im hungry. and homesick. 'homesick for yoru dad?' homesick for my dad <- literally just saw him #well i get to see him again thursday :) goin to the doctor... gonna get my medicine again life is gonna be SO good !!!!!!#i have rambled far too long . happy holidays my friends !!!! do try to make puto this season ... very simple and very tasty .......

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pickled-flowers · 10 months ago

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Rereading the Mysqueery Gang and like. Who let me post this. Worst writing I've ever done like heck I'm so sorry to all my readers i should have been better 😭 these kids deserve a better story

#cringing so bad like oof #good ideas! good concepts! terrible execution #this is why i havent continued it from where i left off #if im ever to pick this project back up #i would need to redraw and rewrite the whole thing #at the end of the day i was 18 😭 my brain was NOT developed enough #the dialogues....... they are so flat like kdjfkshdisbfjdhsibdjdbc #I have to trust my writing is better now 😭😭😭😭 because BOOOOOOOOO #anyways once more im so sorry to all the people who were readers im so very thankful for you all #one day!!! one day theyll live again #and ill put them through so much you will no recognize them #ive had the time to listen to tma since then ok #also i made them swear so much #its because thats how i speak 😔 ive got a nasty mouth sorry #the story is still the same in my mind tho like i still have the ending ready

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faaun · 1 year ago

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a little bit sad @ myself :(

#working on a paper w someone and shes first author so ofc shes doing quite a lot of work and she deserves it absolutely #the 2nd author is a friend i respect deeply and she basically was like. expecting me to do most of the code/data analysis #this friend also gave the first author the first author-ship (she was going to be first auth originally) but when me and the first auth wor #together she sort of takes the coding over entirely and she just said shes gathering the code we need and then were going to hop on a call #like #oh i was under the impression we are doing this tgth whats the point of me being here if we are just using ur code...i feel so useless 😭#good on her + im proud of her but i also wish i had the chance to do more yk. idk #i feel like i havent done enough...yay first publication...

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turtlespancake · 6 months ago

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me when i write a character who is prone to dooming themself and then they run off and doom themself. core traits are stubbornness and a willingness to disregard their own humanity gET BACK HERE IM NOT DONE WITH YOU

#rambling #surprisingly this is not about jakob.. im just really consistent about my favorite character archetypes 😭😭#WARNING THE NOTES ON THIS ARE REALLY LONG I STARTED RAMBLING #“ouhh i have a headache i'll just lie down and rotate my blorbos in no general direction for a while until it goes away” and then boom.#serious plot considerations. 2 questions answered 24million new questions raised. this is specifically Not what i asked for.#so now im sitting here STILL dizzy running mental calculations on how i can get this bitch out of peril without reworking everything #but they literally keep dying in every timeline 😭😭 every single plausible road leads to them running off and screwing themself over #“character who doesn't realize they want to live until it's way too late to look back” VS #“character who is forced to live and handle the things they never though they'd survive long enough to deal with” FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT.#fucking hell i have never had this much trouble writing a character as i have with them #they genuinely do just run off and do shit without my permission and then i have to pace for an hour or two wondering #“ok they wOULD do that. but should they. do i feel like i can confidently write that.”#im like constantly in this tug of war trying to get them to CHILL #but also they are absolutely my favorite character from the entire project. but like. FUCK GET BACK HERE #is death the most satisfying end to this arc? is someone who was Set on dying then NOT dying the most satisfying end to the arc?#how many bridges can you burn until you irreparably set yourself aflame too?#would ghost or revival plotline work?? would it make sense with the worldbuilding??#do i just Like Them enough to want them to not die?? where do i draw the line between personal bias and a good arc?#is death not feeling as impactful as survival solely because i've been writing for so long that it's lost the initial impact?#and other such plot considerations...#im gonna have such an easy time writing another character though 😭😭 because THAT character's dynamic in the second act #is to stare at character 1 and be like “why are you like this. i mean i know Why but can you chill. please.” and like damn bro me too #actually wait no i think kaey.a is the hardest character i've ever written i take it back #had to worry about his 20million facades AND his Actual feelings AND canon compliance. shit is hard #i still havent finished the k/aeya fic i started back when the chasm first released which is uhh. two years ago. oops.#i think i struggle writing emotionally repressed liars i think thats what this is 😭😭 anyways.#(voice of guy who has been obsessed with nonlinear narratives and tragedies for several years):#“is it too much to kill this character in a nonlinear exploration game with tragic elements”#like bitch what are you talking about 😭😭 YOU'RE the target audience here figure it out #sorry the notes on this are just my writing journal now apparently

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kissingarthurclaus · 11 months ago

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Hi yall! It's 1am and I'm still sick 🤧 (at the tail end of it tho!) And just letting u know thanks to the sheer amount of self vs self insert memes I got tagged in I'm gonna throw em all in a queue to post a few times during the day!

They'll be tagged as both 's/i meme' and 'queue queue kachoo' in case u don't wanna see em

Ok that's all ily guys byee 💖🫶💖

#jane journals #ive felt like straight ASS the last few days 😭😭#today i felt well enough to do dishes and get the calendar going #my partner and i have a dry erase calendar and i set it up for feburary #but im still coughing like crazy and theres...goo #so i havent had much energy to do stuff #but im considering implementing a queue system for f/o rbs too like fanart and gifs and stuff!!#inspired by my lovely partner 💖💖#so uhhh yeah #be prepared for that potentially?#the memes for sure

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faunandfloraas · 8 months ago

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That was straight up wildest doc appointment I've ever had, get this- he listened to me when I spoke, asked pertinent questions, was sympathetic AND helpful. Did you guys know this was a possibility? Did you know doctors could actually do their job without making it painful??

#im being dramatic i havent had that many bad doctors #more just...... indifferent ones who need you to come back 7 times before they help you #also prescribed me strong pain killers for my migraine?@??@?@ like theres only 4 tablets per prescription bc they dont like handing it out #willy nilly which fair enough but other than goin on one medication years ago that didnt help ive never been given anything to help my #migraines bar these horrible wafer things you put under your tongue #like im actually shocked 😭#and he was pretty young and british so not necessarily the doctor id expect to to me but i was wrong

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milf-harrington · 9 months ago

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oh tonights going to be fucking miserable

#no matter what i do i cant get comfortable theres always something digging into me or not sitting right #its too quiet so i put my fan on but the /droning/ was genuinely doing my head in i thought i was going to snap so i had to turn it off #so now its STILL too quiet #im itchy and in pain and my nose is blocked #and i am. so fucking tired. i havent had a proper solid nights sleep in like 4 days #how was i more comfortable on my sisters couch last night than i am right now in my own bed #i just want to sleep 😭😭 pls dont me and sleep have enough issues cmere bbygirl i miss you-#captain speaks

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orcelito · 8 days ago

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This just in, local struggler severely overestimates how much they can eat yet again. Left with half a bowl of ramen and a sad, sad heart

#speculation nation #it's homemade at least so im not wasting money on fancy ramen #but i Hate this man it sucks 😭😭😭😭#i keep losing weight bc i can never eat enough #and i was like 'ok lets make a ramen thats a good sized meal' but then i cant FINISH it #forced myself to finish all the eggs at least and now im just picking at the peas. ugh.#at this rate im gonna have to start drinking ensures more regularly again #bc i havent gotten to the underweight phase yet but if it keeps going like this then i will #like it was. excuse me talking about my weight for a bit but im a tad bit concerned about it #but back before i started adderall back in uhh. september?? i think?? or october???#fuck if i remember. been a few months tho. but also not That long.#anyways i was at like. 140lbs at the doctor and like 137lbs at home (relevant bc clothes weight. rest of this will be at home weights)#and ive had such shit appetite that ive been watching it go down and down. like at least a pound a week. sometimes two pounds.#and now im at 123lbs. which is a solid almost 15 lbs lost in like 3 ish months. which is kind of a lot when ur small to begin with.#also a little alarming when u see this happen like a pound lower between every shower. bc i tend to check before i shower.#& i often shower every 4 days or so. when im in the Rotting Era and all. aka i dont rly go outside much.#and like 123lbs still isnt bad for 5'3“ but i think 107lbs is the cutoff for underweight. and im halfway there.#and now see i was about this weight a few years back so in one respect it's nice to fit into some of my older pants again #but at the same time..thats too quick!!! thats not healthy!!!! but when i try to eat more i Cant!!! it makes me nauseous!!!!!#so back in early 2020 when i was dipping under 110lbs bc of meds stuff i got onto ensure and it did help. so maybe i need to again.#just..blegh. i just kinda feel empty all the time. like stomach-wise. but not Hungry. it's a problem.#gotta come up with ways to eat that dont rely on my stomach to tell me when to eat. bc it's definitely not doing a good job at that.#weight mention/#and like see ive been eating 2 meals a day on average but i was doing that before too!!!!!!#but i think it's bc i cant Finish my meals half the time that's really causing problems.#staring at my half eaten bowl of ramen very grumpily. it has now been long enough that it's kind of gross.#and my arms hurt. just bc my bone aches have decided to flare up again. very grumpy.#negative/#i guess lol

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dossei-dossei · 3 months ago

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how deal with taidan

#^ crying over saki for the second night in a row #i am Not Okay about the fact her taidan is exactly a year after her pb footage aired on sky stage #bc that was the very last thing where i was like ok yeah maybe saki IS my second fave of all time #feels weird to call her my second fave #shes like basically on par w aasa 😭 idk how else to word itjfhd #idk not the point i am just emotional and sad and will miss her dearly #but also wishing her luck in whatever she decides to do next whether that be in the public eye or not #also just feel so sad about how busy ive been recently 😭😭#was planning on going back and watching all her shinkos and leads that i havent watched yet before the 13th but uni hit me like a truck #and i have not have time 😔#have not had *#sorry if you are reading this 🙏 it is not coherent 🙏🙏 fjdhdjd #idk i was torn up enough over kiwa and this is about to be 4000x worse sofhdhdjd #did watch every sakigumi show in order a while ago w my gf and that was nice at least #idk man im excited for aasas run im sure itll be great im just so not ready to say bye to sakigumi #god if youd have told me when i first got into zuka i would be this torn up over saki leaving i would not have believed you #but here we are #at no point was i expecting to get This Attached to saki but it just kind of happened #aasas fault whatever #fjhdjdhd #sorry none of fhis is coherent i do not know how to organise or articulate my thoughts #idk i love s4kiaasa so much #getting to watch them together both on and off stage for the last two and a half years ish since i got into zuka has meant so much to me #i hope they both continue to thrive and i look forward to seeing what they do next

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daenystheedreamer · 2 years ago

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I've been going through your Omaegorverse AU, and I was wondering if you had anymore thoughts about it? It's just such a fascinating targ tale. It's like a gothic satire 2 me

oh kisses to you sweet baby😭🫶 i absolutely have thoughts on it i stopped posting them because it was getting too cringe and insane and no one is here for my sixth generation of maegor bloodline incest targ OCs ;_; i like maegor because to me he represents house targaryen stripped of pretence. every targ commited horrific atrocities or poisoned westeros but they kept up the myth of valyrian supremacy, of monarchy, of divine right, of hierarchy, to legitimise and excuse their actions. how are rhaenyra's cruelties any worse than any other targ king's evils? aegon i and daeron i and waged Manifesteros Destiny, the dance targs went just absolutely ape mode but maegor is considered the worst of the worst cos he was unapologetic about it. jaehaerys went awwww come on 🥺 my incest is okay guys 🥺 we're ethnically superior we dont get sick (daughter immediately dies of being sick) while maegor went okay argue with my sword. chad maegor virgin jaehaerys.

so i like having fun in my sandbox AU where instead of the jaehaerys moral reset there's just murder and murder and incest and murder no apologies never apologise just make it worse 😜

#im gonna haul it soon. havent committed to the jokerfication of westeros enough. i've mostly stuck to regular laws of inheritance #but i think a maegortarg bloodline would be more like. Ok im gonna give you all swords and whoevers still alive in a week gets to be king #they would have more murderous as opposed to incestuous relationships. instead of all being stuck together youd be groomed to hate #your siblings and want them dead #au:omaegorverse #i should purge all my omaegorverse stuff its so cringe 😭 it caters to me myself and i....#ask #anonymous #anon i love u for taking me seriously and liking my bizarre BS but im so sorry you had to read it 😭 ily ily ily

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stick-by-me · 1 year ago

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how many new follower stickers do you have to do at the time of me asking? i admire the dedication and personalization of each one!

Thank you so much! I'm glad y'all appreciate them, they're super fun to do :] And at the time of you asking? Oh gosh golly XD. I have 7 prepped and ready in the queue and 14 more I need to investigate/pick out right now.

#If I didn't have my Halloween queue I'd probably be queuing two a day just to get them out faster #But I think 2 og posts a day is enough xD #Because i post them in order too I tend to get Stuck on certain blogs #and even if ive picked out some later ones I can't actually. Add to queue until I figure out the missing one 😭#I'll figure it out tho I always do 😌#alSO I KNOW I HAVE SOME OTHER ASKS RN BUT I HAVENT HAS TIME TO LOOK THROUGH MY COLLECTION LATELY #I SEE U AND I LOVE U AND THANKING YOU FOR SENDING ASKS I THINK ABOUT ANSWERING LIKE 24/7 #I want to try and answer them this weekend but. A H. Human responsibilities #We'll see 👍 together #Not stickers #Asks my beloved #anonymous #Anon #It brings me so much joy that yall like the nfs seriously thank u :]#I had a massive influx of new followers from my Mrs. Grossman's anniversary bear stickers and I haven't caught up yet xD #Plus I've posted some other decently popular stickers since then (Winnie the pooh stickers break the bank every time I swear...)#I don't normally have this many to do I swear XD

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justareallyboredfangirl · 2 years ago

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man you overwater a cactus ONCE and it’s game over huh.

#just my life #ive had this fucker for like 2 years now and havent overwatered it once the whole time #shes dehydrated af but that was fine #NOW though in the past week the whole bottoms gone mushy. i watered it ONCE #the soil just didnt dry quick enough😭

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