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#i dont want to get out of bed#i want to wake up again and have this be a horrible dream#what bothers me most is its not even close!#a republican hasnt won the popular vote in years but he wins it this time?#what the fuck is wrong with people?#like damn maybe im with the crazies now#blow it all up wipe it all out the good really cant over balance the evil humanity does deserve to exist#i should just say the us i know its not the world but its not like elections in other places are going much better#its hard to be hate men when things go like this... like yes women voted for him too#but its mostly men pushing to keep women pregnant and chained to the stove#im just so disgusted and angry and... im not normally one to lose hope but seriously what the fuck?
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Part of something, once (but in a practical sense, all that matters is whether theseus still recognizes the ship)
#doodles#great god grove#comic#gettin real annoying with these titles#thats not an apology thats whatever the opposite of one is#anyway. so like. have we talked about thE FUCKING TAIL BEING TAPED ON??????#IVE BEEN GOING LOWGRADE CRAZY OVER IT FOR WEEKS NOW#HE NEEDS TO BE WITH PEOPLE SO SO MUCH BUT HE THINKS HES SO DAMN UNIQUE AND MAYBE THAT! MADE HIM! LOOK LIKE THAT!#incredible toothpaste boy!! he can bend in whatever shape u need!!! bc theres no longer anything of substance in there!!!!#Only What's Useful :)#mooney if youre reading this im blaming you#ggg spoilers
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college … wasted on the youth (me)
#didnt help that 2/4 yrs was covid telezoom but man.. MANNN#forgetting how impossible it is to pursue rhe degree plan u actually want (advising hell) i feel like . theres just#so many diff things i want to learn now Knowing that im more solidified in my interests and who i am and what i would be interested in doing#and like.😭RGAAAAAQH TEARING MYHAIR OUTTT every other week i have a night where im sititng there like damn i couldve been sm1 completely dif#dgmw i still rly enjoy some of the upper div classes i Did take but what if i took x and liked it more or minored in y and it led me to z#bc i do feel rly set in where i am rn which . i DO ! like it but im never gna be in that environment where u have the flexibility to explore#ykwim . i wish i had taken physics and calc srsly . i always thought i hated that shit but i like it. i like it quite a lot actually😟#or more geology .. urrghh.. sprinkle in sme extra art history . no bc thats what actu pissed me off ab school#i rmbr wanting to dual major and they straight up told me no i cant . but then i was like maybe an arts major bio minor when i wanted to do#science illustration but sry we dont offer bio minor . ok bio major arh or studio art minor . no sry not enough open spots we rly only#reserve it for when we have extra openings post admission❤️#and then even late into sophomore year u would still be last in registration so all the cool classes would be closed#and then bc of covid half that shit was cancelled bc they couldnt transfer labs online (rip comparative vertebrate anatomy)#and then by senior yr an additional collection of classes were unavailable bc u dont have the prereqs bc the prereqs were cancelled during#covid and u dont have enough semesters left to actually take it . like it was gen such an awful experience so ik why i couldnt ever do what#i wanted but .😭 AND LIKE the classes i DID enjoy like genomics or molecular genetics were closed by registration and i had to email and beg#for access . thts crazy .literally crazy .#anyways . i think i want 2 start reading textbooks bc i think thats the closest ill get LMAOO#i remember seeing my coworker read a textbook for fun one time and idk why i just didnt understand why bc it seemed so dry but i Get it now#like yeah .. u knew what was up ..#sad too that like . i could theoretically audit a course but i Work..during the day .. so sad . so sad#guys wht if i just said yes to grad school (<the devil talking.dont agree)
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jank junk June
#smth art#traditional drawing#junk journal#this is my sketchbook actually im just putting a bunch of shit in it#im trying to do more traditional art lately. its more Tactile#also i keep seeing sketchbook inspo on pinterest. tons of 'how i made my sketchbook thicc and creamy'#and its tons of beautiful sketchbooks full of busy pages of just. so much junk#and interactible stuff and stickers and stuff glued in#and im like Damn. Why Am I Not Doing That Right Now. Why Does That Seem So Hard When I Know I Can Do That#the answer is these sketchbook belong to like. high schoolers. who are drawing in them all day in school and shit.#instead of working a full time job and then coming home exhausted#if i was still a teenager i could put out that volume and level of art#and i did! but my issue is i did it on loose copy paper that i would then tape up on my walls.#so i dont have a sick ass full sketchbook like that. and i also wasnt sticking everything ever into it to make it look crazy cool#cuz that wasnt really the Thing back then afaik#as an adult i have many partially filled sketchbooks. its embarrassing.#but whatever we go on! and im trying not to be too precious with this one#maybe in a few years itll be like those fun thicc sketchbook tiktoks or whatever. for now im just getting silly with it#this page was actually full of like practice scribbles for something else before. then i put a bunch of postits and blank labels over it#and then drew over those in acrylic paint markers and micron pens#and then packing tape over all that to keep the postits in place. and a few stickers for funsies#im happy with how it turned out actually :)
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i Need to take up embroidery now rIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#walmart didnt have a starter kit and hobby lobby is closed RRRRUHHUERHRHRRRR#i was always like i love it but its simply somebody elses thing my whole life until like 1 am last night my brain unlocked#the things i could make with practice and patience i need to seeeE CONSARNIT shit would be SOOO COOL#i want to just have fun with it and be jovially shitty at it for a while until i pick up on things#ive forgotten everything ive learned throughout my life when it comes to sewing & that of the like but i feel like itll click after a while#itll definitely be a lil side hobby bc holy FUCK i dont have time to really sit down and invest atm but still#maybe my small new years resolution is get better at embroidery and see my progress bc i lov that shit#plus when im like 60+ yrs old imagine what crazy shit i could do if i start now#ANYWAY ill get to those asks eventually theres some that i simply want to draw for but brother im sniper focused on getting this damn comic#done and DONE so i might have to answer them way later tbh unless its super easy and quick to answer imma have to put off asks cause im#hellbent the comic should be done by early february
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does anyone remember this house has people in it? that shit was wild
#i still am kinda freaked out by whatever the pink thing was#tbh i watched it when i was a kid and all in one sitting so like. i think i only truly caught half of it but damn. wild stuff.#crazy how no matter how much digging you did nothing ever made sense lol#it just kept getting weirder without ever explaining itself which i respect tbh#you learned more but never anything that would like... help#just More#now im thinking i need to rewatch alantutorials bc i remember literally nothing abt it#except for a scene at the end with a leg on like a drill or something? or maybe it was just meat? i just remember it freaked me out
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Got really horribly sad outta nowhere and like idk if its cause ive just been looking kinda ugly or like cause ive been working a lot or like general vibes but im not having a fun time
#i lost a 20 dollar bill and im still upset about it#also still kinda mad abt the other day where i thought i was honest to god being stalked at the mall#it was bad timing and misunderstanding and no one is to blame but it didnt make me feel great#im also worried abt the grade im gonna grt on an assignment and if it tanks my overall grade#i will jump from the ferris wheel at the county fair#or maybe its the constant dreams of like having a sweetheart and being cute w em and stuff and waking up and its not there#then having to go to work and make elaborte giftsets and boxes of candy and see people buying their sigfig other pounds of fancy candies#and treats and be like like wow arent u the best and like lowkey the level of customer service i have to give so lest they take my kneecaps#verges on forced method acting levels of glee and whimsy and doting#and its like yeah at the end of the day sometimes hearing about how you got ur girl a kuromi plushie and a braclete and now ur getting#literally upwards of 6 pounds of treats while i know i have 7hours to go till i can go hom3 and have my microwave carrots#that smell like dishsoap but i must eat cause im not wasting it#kinda makes me feel bad and makes the day so horribly long#and its no ones fault but like idk damn it reall is what it is#also i realized that feeling of like what tf am i missing is cause i havent been wraring my locket cause it had to get repaired#id been like going crazy being like what is it!! when i catch u ricky!! then realized oh its that#also like i was like lets look at yellowjackets merch as a treat#its so expensive#anyways.......#i have to be awake at 7:30 in the morning out of the house by 8:15#and my hair is wet cause i took a shower#so its gonna be a horrible morning and its supposed to be cold again
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I think the thing that gets me about the LQG-LMY age gap is the implication that SVSSS martial sects serve to sever your ties from your family. This is admittedly skewed by our protagonist being SQQ, but at no point do we hear about any of the Qing Jing disciples getting visits from family members. SQH's family doesn't even get a mention. And so LQG is making a conscious decision to go back to meet this baby (a girl, even, in what isn't ancient China levels of misogyny but is still PIDW) and spend enough time with her that she chooses to follow him up this mountain away from everything she knows. I don't think it was For him but it was something that registered as desirable to her because he was there and able to tell her about it, you know? No wonder PIDW LMY is so ready to avenge him, when he clearly was the one to choose her first
actually, we do hear about the Qing Jing disciples getting visits from family members! Ming Fan mentions his family visiting during the fake jade fight, which is why he had his own little jade trinket to show off to Ning Yingying -- because his family brought it. I think he's the only one to mention getting visits from family though, so maybe that's just a Ming Fan thing lol
even still, it definitely seems like a big deal that Liu Qingge would have any relationship at all with his baby sister! I mean, he was head disciple if not peak lord when she was born, he was probably busy. he could've very easily responded to the news that his parents were having another kid by just being like cool 👍 and then moving on, but he apparently didn't since they have some semblance of a relationship! I mean, they're described as not super close but still having a good relationship, and she still ended up in the same cultivation sect at him, and still apparently teamed up with Bingge to avenge him in PIDW, so they definitely care for each other despite the age difference!
#asks#anonymous#i think if they were more central to the plot i would be absolutely crazy about them#give my tendency to be absolutely crazy about sibling characters#as it stands we don't know Much about them#but what is there is good!#i wonder if she grew up with stories of her brother being the bai zhan war god#and that's what inspired her to join cang qiong#i think them not being super close makes sense given the age difference and the fact that lqg is. kinda brusque lol#but they still have a good relationship regardless!#i wonder if he taught her how to hold a sword#also re: your first point#i think the cultivation sects definitely offer the Option to sever family ties!#it probably depends on the person#it's like. you have the option to sever ties bc now you have this sect to fall back on for support#that you are also supposed to be filial towards#but you probably don't Have to sever ties if you don't want to#or maybe ming fan is just an outlier lol#it could just be that he was still a kid at that point or that he's spoiled or something#i think i've seen it said that he came from a somewhat privileged family but i can't remember if that's fanon or not#it would make sense#okay i looked it up and he is described as a spoiled rich young master lol#and apparently his family makes tea. i forgot about that.#so maybe the members of the sect with more wealthy families tend to keep those ties#while orphans like lbh and sqq or people who apparently don't give a damn about their families like sqh#get the chance to get a support system through the sect#or at least. ideally they should get a support system. we saw how well that went for binghe at first#anyway. the liu family is implied to be pretty well off so maybe their family ties are closer?#this is all speculation#*banging on mxtx's door* hey can you give me more details about side characters from a novel you wrote a decade ago. please. im so hungry
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cutely wonders if i'm abrosexual or if it was just puberty or if it was just me misunderstanding my attractions in the past
#questioning#but like i don't think i need help lol i'll just keep a log or whatever i guess and wait and see#it's just crazy to me like#i used to identify as lesbian#but now im kinda more into (certain fictional) men than women at the moment#but then again i have relatively pretty damn strong attraction to my “type”#so maybe im still into women but its extremely overshadowed by the strangely ungodly sexy fictional characters who happen to be male#aauyghhh so confused#i better not be ace#no hate to asexuals obviously i just feel more comfortable with the aroallo label than the aroace label
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i feel kinda crazy bc whenever i was a teenager i created this sorta imaginary older big sister who had moved out of the house so in my head i could live w her whenever i wanted bc she had survived it all and was independent and she would also just comfort me in a big sisterly way whenever something bad or upsetting happened and recently ive been going back to that at my big age 😭 and its kinda sad and also just wish fulfillment and also kinda scary bc i really used to think that by my age i'd have everything sorted but i really don't and i know that's normal and nobodies twenties are perfect but some people also have good relationships w their fathers which is crazy just to think about sooo
#is this readable? i hope not ❤️#i typed up some of my feelings about this in a word doc and just realised like damn i basically have an imaginary friend as an adult#i really am crazy lol#i just feel lonely within my family atm. bc my brother is younger than me so he could never really do anything to help#and i feel like i cant really trust my mam the same anymore..even tho i still love her a lot#and i'm trying to improve my relationship w my dad bc im realising what a hard life he had and that he's not like an irredeemable Bad Perso#and sometimes he'll look at me a certain way or apologise for something small that he would never have apologised for a couple of years ago#and i feel like im going crazy like is he becoming a better person or..? and i feel bad bc im not really doing the same#or maybe i am. sometimes i think im unfair to him considering how he is now but i also cant really reconcile what he is now w/ how he#was then. and then he'll suddenly say something to me in a certain tone of voice or with a certain sharpness and i'll go back to how a felt#as a teenager :/ i rlly dont know what to do about it but i think its because i dont really have anyone to talk to about it#i mean i sort of do. but i also dont actually know how much of it actually happened and how much of it i just made up#but having worked w teenagers yeah they can be little shits but i also cant imagine treating any of them the way my dad treated me#just bc theyre annoying or have an attitude or are a little mean or whatever#like theres actually a lot of ppl i could talk to but also how do you even bring something like this up#how do i say 'oh and i invented an older sister as a coping mechanism and sometimes i still talk to her in my head' without sounding crazy#its 2am here i need to go to bed i have work in the morning 😭 day and night and next day ruined bc my dad spoke to me slightly funny
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lord please forgive me i am getting into fights in tiktoks comments again
#teeth.txt#IM SORRY i have no self control#also i feel justified bc the initial post was a trans guy asking 'if theres a reason why some trans women are so nasty to trans men'#and i was like. it's transmisogyny. and the op hasn't replied but it didn't go over super well with the other trans guys in the comments#ACTUALLY what's even worse is that my comments have gone over fine like nobody has been mean or unendingly stupid (a little stupid tho)#but the trans girl who said pretty much the same things i did in a slightly less patient way is lowkey getting jumped#so. proving the point there guys.#god trying to have any sort of rational discussion in comments of anything but#especially the character limited tiktok comments is so evil#i would actually very much like to patiently explain this to you because i have the time and desire to explain my thoughts#but it's making it really hard when i can only get like 45 words in at a time#anyways there are a lot of people liking my comment(s) which makes me feel a bit better bc a lot of people agree but also it's dire in there#i should maybe just delete tiktok again. but then i will just go in instagram reels. which is worse tiktok.#alsooooo i forgot that The Algorithm on that damn app is crazy and i think maybe i just shouldn't have commented anything at all#bc i think me rapid firing 3 comments in a row on a post that had pretty low views actually just rocketed it#out on to other people's pages and now it has a lot more attention in general. which is lame bc it was a bad post which is why i commented.#aughhh
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was so overjoyed abt having local dykes in my area again that i forgot the epic highs + lows of trying 2 get dykes 2 be normal over text…
#literally killlinggggg me this dyke was like#before we go on a second date u should know i just want sex…#+ i was like damn that’s crazy i also just want sex…#they were like omg amazing that’s great#+ i was like yeah so do u wanna just come 2 my apartment then#suddenly it’s radio silence + then oh today might work for me + then oh nvm sorry i can’t like#HELLO????#so i’m like k just lmk if u wanna meet up this week then….#MORE RADIO SILENCE#they already know i’m out of town this weekend like….babe clocks ticking im getting ready 2 consider u a lost cause…#twin was like ‘maybe they’re nervous’ WHY. that’s so annoying if u wanna hook up just come here like what’s the issue…#anyway. got another dyke offering 2 show me around the city now so maybe all hope is not lost….
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hand over mouth you guys there’s something afoot here
#do NOT get into a dick measuring contest with me on one of the things that like composes me as a person#there are insane things happening on my other acct BUT ITS OK BC I LIKE THIS MUTUAL A LOT#BUT IM SITTING HERE LIKE OHHHH I AM THE WRONG PERSON TO DO THIS TANGO WITH...#i'm feeling a little fucking crazy right now sorry#like. really out of it. damn i should do something about that huh#let me text my girlfriend maybe she'll make this go away
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Playing bl2 with a friend and I wanted to talk about it here but I think my most favorite moment is on Overlook when you're trying to get the fast travel to get back into Sanctuary. Why there? Mainly all the lines and sillies with Angel but my MOST favorite part is when they kept denying her request and so she's like "I'm gonna cut off the engineers oxygen supply and see if they wanna fill it then" (paraphrased i can't remember things but only the jists of it-)
AND I REMEMBER FIRST TIME I WAS PLAYING I WAS SURPRISED AND SHOCKED since I played bl1 before and now here it was the most "violent" thing heard from angel atp for me and I was like "you'd kill/threaten to kill all those engineers for me?? 🥺🥺"
#i was extremely flattered and honored in the moment#you can tell i have high standards for romance#idk why but something with it i just love it like damn girl#maybe im just being crazy and its late but im just saying#i think im being crazy#i was just hearing my friend go through the area over the mic#im terrible to play bl2 with because im consistently like “i miss my wife tails”#the urges to just restart another run just for more interactions#now im thinking about an au timeloop abt gaige doing it again and again to interact and see if she can change angels fate#of course i have to make this gay and sad but this was gay in the first place#i rambled whoopsie#anas rambles
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but i would give anything for just one day spent in the life i had when i was 15. it may not have been perfect but i felt like i belonged somewhere. and i didn't worry so goddamn much about the big picture
#sighhh i miss when my biggest worry was my crush liking me back#i was such a typical teenager in hindsight bc of that#it seems a lifetime ago but it was only 4 years#2 years since we broke up thats crazy. everything changed i built my own life from nothing#im a completely different person#figuratively and literally though i will not use that to excuse my past actions haha#discord was like my whole damn world my center of the universe talking to my friends on there the highlight of my day#we had plans we had goals we had all thse big ideas and things we could do in our free time#now we go days without really talking to each other#in 2020 i said 3 more years and then we meet irl now 2023 is over and i am sure i will never see you. i wouldnt want to see you#i guess adulthood caught up to all of us. okay. most of us#i am just so sentimental#things had purpose back then and i wasnt this afraid#and i loved them#and i had someone who loved me#its fucked up how you dont even realize it wont last forever until its over#i wish it had ended differently. the whole friend group.#sometimes i wish we wouldve stayed friends. but thats just hopeful thinking because in my heart i know there is no way#were too different and theyre too committed to fucking up everything they have always#it makes me sad. makes me think they truly dont feel like they deserve happiness. i am kind of that way too#but i dont complain about losing the people i push away. so thats how were different lol#and i also dont suibait my mentally ill followers every other day because of some drama that only 15 year olds care about#so in that regard thank fuck i grew up. but also. thinking of them reminds me of simpler times#when this petty shit mattered to me. it really doesnt matter to me anymore and i cant get myself to care about anything that happens online#maybe its time for me to leave the internet behind for good. i dont know what its doing for me anymore.#i dont have anything im excited about on my laptop anymore lmao i have to desperately cling for straws for things i could do#to avoid sleep and being alone with my thoughts
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