#like a fucker possessed

[dookins]

I know a lot of my music recs don't get a lot of love, but if you ever wanna chill, or listen to what a dream sounds like, check out this

地面は暑い (The Ground is Hot)

For anyone who wants to know more about how it sounds without listening to it, here's some insane rambling:

It has an immensely slow build, but it feels natural. And as it progresses, it's like you're searching the echoing halls of some long lost memory that becomes a bit sharper more and more. Until about 7min and 30 seconds in, you remember what it is you're supposed to be looking for. So you take your time, no longer concerned. You've been patient this long, so you take in the contrasting heat of hot sand and cold air to bask in the mixture for a moment. But 10 minutes and 45 seconds in, you hear it. What you've been looking for. And it's calling out to you, so close, but the echoes are so vast... Slowly you go from chamber to empty chamber trying to find the source. It sounds like its getting closer, but it doesn't appear. And it's strange. How can a voice that sounds so far away sound so comforting? You keep searching and listening simultaneously. Until eventually 17 minutes in it feels like you're right on top of the voice, but still can't see it. It's still saying comforting things, but you're concerned. What does this mean? It's dark... but it's still trying to sound so encouraging. And after you deliberate with yourself, you decide to trust them. 19 minutes in, you come across an endless room of placid darkness filled with still water that goes on forever. And you can see something out in the center of the water. The owner of that voice. You don't know them. But at the same time you know them so intimately it's almost frightening. They're standing on top of the water's surface and causing faint ripples to echo along with their voice across eternity. You try to step out, but the water is immensely deep. There's no way to reach them. But they still see you. And they smile. And continue to sing for you.

You both cry. You don't understand why they can't move closer, or why you can't you swim out to them, you're so close it hurts. But it's that strange, unspoken logic that only a dream can fathom. It dictates it so. But you've trusted the voice this far... so you take a deep breath, and try to actually absorb the words of their song. And you do. Despite the tears that spill over both your eyes and this person you 'know' so well, the tears cause their own ripples on the mirror like plane of the water. They cross the surface until they connect at a point in the middle, bouncing and merging as one. They give you one last smile before wavering much like water itself and disappear. Like a mirage in the desert. The darkness of the room slowly gives way and disappears as well. This house of memory.... is gone. And you're outside again. Beneath the night sky, and the desert sand cradling your feet. Was it real? Does it matter? The emotions were. And that's something. And ultimately, you feel peace.

[pinkd3mon]

Dealing with Trauma while being King Dedede

Bonus:

Dealing with Trauma while being Taranza

[namorslutfanfiction]

I am absolutely feral for this tiktok of Tenoch. He looks like the perfect red flag for me.

Namor with long hair vibes.

Rafa's older more ruthless brother vibes.

My toxic aquarius lover vibes.

Hate sex for days vibes

Choke me out vibes

"Touch her and you'll wish you were dead" vibes.

Credit to the tiktok for making me moan involuntarily

[vegaseatsass]

NONJINPHEE NATION, RISE!!

[kenobihater]

waited outside for like 50 minutes bc i heard the ice cream man in the distance and i wanted to get my brother something and that asshole only drives by when i'm finishing my dinner and can see him going thu the window. fucking exploding him with my MIND. hope he goes insane bc of listening to that incessant jingle all day every day

[eddieydewr]

this is mental illness.

[hatedbyiife]

a new challenger (tma version kyu) steps into the ring

[quietwingsinthesky]

pre-canon spn to me is just Azazel having to show up to parent John’s kids for him so they don’t die a la the Maleficent movie until he starts feeling partial towards Sammy as his favorite of the special children

[newlacesleeves]

7k words man i missed the feral feeling i get when a brain worm takes over and i just fucking WRITE A BUNCH OF SHIT

[waywardsalt]

there is undeniable opportunity to make bellum x linebeck fucked up but i dont have it in me. im a sucker for it just being fine with a side of like. light nautical crimes against nature but i cant make it toxic or w/e after a certain point. theyre chilling

[cleverclove]

In other news, guess who my new little skrungly dungly is

[sea-jello]

i love thinking about the hc that ghosts don't feel pain. wouldn't it be funny if kai heated up the crystal, threw it at morro and he just,, caught it and dipped

[animelover20]

Y'all why the fuck was I going back through my doffy wips after ages and realised that 4 months ago I blacked the fuck out one night at like 3am and wrote 5-6 paragraphs of the most descriptive, heart wrenching thing I've ever read.

AND ITS IN MY NOTES? I WROTE THAT?!

genuinely reading the dialogue pulls at my heart strings(hehe strings anyway-) it's from doffys pov(atleast so far)which makes it a bit strange but holy shit you just get to peak into this man's thoughts in the best way.(It's so sweet too🥲)

I'd describe the story but I don't wanna spoil it. However I may not even post it because I doubt the rest of the story could compare to how poetic the beginning is.

I suck at writing beginnings(it holds me back a lot cause I know what's gonna happen but I can't get there.) but this is the most poetic shit and it actually makes sense,aside from a few very moments where I use the wrong word.

Btw I also have question regarding the end of that. I can't tell whether sleepy brain was correct or I'm correct. Sleepy me said a window was projecting light but shouldn't it be reflecting? Listen I know that's really dumb but google sucks.

I'm sorry for this big ol ramble out of nowhere lmao I just went back and reread my masterpiece and god it's great.

I'm really proud of it,even if I'm the only person to ever see it.

[pierogipete]

[kicks down your door] hello I would like you to know I'm INCREDIBLY obsessed with KimPorsche, and I just binge-read all of in another life in like 3 days. (would have made it in 1 but! Exams!!) Anyway. Friend???

yes please!!! i am so consumed with kimporsche ahhh im so happy :D yes lets be friends 🥰🥰 i hope exams went well ❤️

[mycological-mariner]

Crying while reading The Flight of the Heron. Keith really is just out here calling Ewen “my Achilles” nine times in two pages

[koinomegaluvr]

i watched insidious: the red door again with my sister, and it grew on me the second time around despite not knowing how to feel abt it initially.

At first i found the story was underdeveloped (and despite my opinions on the movie changing, i honestly still do feel this way lowkey ghgh) but like. i see exactly what they were trying to do, y’now???

i’ve always rlly enjoyed the insidious franchise, not necessarily because i found it scary, but because the concept of the further was absolutely FASCINATING to me. especially because it’s a place that’s like. an endless limbo that’s reminiscent of liminal horror (and i’m a sucker for that shit)

I rlly liked that they brought in more emotional depth & complexity for the lamberts and how they explore more of how the events of insidious: chapter 2 ultimately affected their family and each individual character.

I immensely enjoyed that they wanted to explore themes of generational trauma and repressed trauma, and how sweeping said trauma under the rug rather than trying to heal and resolve it at its root causes it to fester and ultimately harm everyone involved.

i like how they acknowledged how extremely traumatizing it must have been for renai and the kids to see parker crane josh trying to violently DESTROY them. like there ain’t no way that’s NOT going to have devastating effects on your psyche/marriage when you see what you think is your deranged looking father/husband, trying to beat y’all to death with hammers 😭😭 like i can’t imagine how that must have looked for the kids and i’m glad they explored that

i also really like how (at least in my opinion), the red faced demon and his lair is also kinda symbolic of dalton’s repressed & festering mental illness/trauma with how OBSESSED the demon is with dalton. and how he set up all those “scenes” of dalton’s past which makes him just. remember everything (and that made me feel SAUR BAD for him bc recalling that much repressed trauma would be overwhelming as fuck)

that said, i really feel like they could have executed these themes a lot better, in a way that would make a little bit more sense. during the scene with dalton and josh near the end where they’re in the further trying to close the door, dalton states that they have to stop running from the demon. and there i thought dalton and josh were going to slay the demon together once and for all, but dalton just paints over the door leaving josh in the further by himself and i was like ??????????? 😭😭😭😭 hello???

like. aside from it being a bit anticlimactic, i also don’t think it made very much sense of dalton to just paint over the door when he said they couldn’t run/ignore it anymore. i suppose in a sense, dalton painting over the door in of itself symbolizes that he is trying to break the cycle himself, but honestly? it would have made more sense imo if they somehow tried to relinquish the red face demon together, bc to me that would show that dalton and josh are finally trying to resolve their trauma together by tackling it head on, thus competing their arc more effectively.

i wish they could have introduced josh’s father a bit differently—i know the existence of josh’s dad probably wasnt planned from the beginning, so adding him in was going to be a bit clunky no matter what, but i had a hard time feeling anything at all for him as a character…..

i also wish elise had a bigger role in this rather than making a 5 second cameo at the end of the movie just for the the sake of it, especially since she is what makes insidious such an interesting franchise. but i am SO glad we got a specs and tucker cameo i genuinely teared up seeing them :,)

ANYWAY, overall, i’m quite pleased w the movie, even if certain aspects of it could have been executed better. it definitely isn’t THE BEST insidious movie. i think it had a lot of potential to be excellent. i have WAYY more thoughts abt it that i dont think i can convey in a single post but maybe i’ll talk abt them another time

also. dalton and chris my beloveds 🫰🏼🫰🏼