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I was soooooooo excited for this! *breathes in sharply* Okay let's get started đżđđ
âYou have my blessing,â she said. âAll I ask is that you donât scar me with any gushy details afterward.â
I love their friendship so much đ And kudos to Dory. It takes a lot to agree to this. It could potentially get very awkward đ
âYou know, itâs been about twenty years since Iâve seen him,â she said. âWeâve had entire lives already. I see him now, and thereâs some of the Russell I knew when we were kids, butâŠthereâs just a lot I donât know about him, who heâs become.â
God, I know. This is honestly what I think about the most when I watch Tracker. The whole story line is insane and intriguing and... đ
I have a thousand questions, and there's so much you could do with it in fics. I love it (clearly) đđ€
Doryâs face tightened. âItâs a long story. Iâve told you some of it. But basically, after our dad died, nothing was ever the same again.â
I do think Russell knows a lot more about their past than he lets on. Also, he was way too chipper for someone who was accused of patricide by his own brother for twenty years. The dynamic between the brothers is just... interesting đ
Barely a date, you reminded yourself, as you unlocked the door to your house. Barely a date, barely a date.
Right... đ
âYouâre a grown fucking man, Charlie! Do you really need me to give you the just say no speech?â you said.Â
Oh, she's going full Reagan! đ I sense some trouble coming from the brother, though...
âYeah well, maybe just for one night, I wanted to relax without you harping on my back,â he said, glaring up at you. âIs that too much to fucking ask? For you to give me some goddamn slack?â
Well, I hope he already picked out his casket... đđ
âHey, there.â He greeted you with a warm hand on your back. He helped you into your seat.
I'd be a puddle before I even made it to the damn seat đ«
And they are literally so cute together! I'm full on swooning over here đ
Russell nodded. He wasnât sure how much Dory told you about their family business, but it dimmed his mood.
Ah, yes, the family business. Love that sublte hint đ Would be a good name for a brewery, tho đ
He was starting to get a clearer picture of who your brother was. It struck at familiar chords inside himself that he wasnât so comfortable with. He shifted in his seat, fingers flexing over his glass on the counter.
I like that you emphasized the darker parts of his life. Like I said, I don't buy his whole "I'm happy and funny and quirky" act. There's a lot more stirring beneath the charming surface đ
(Another thing he has in common with Dean lol)
And oh, don't we love a good cry on the first date? Poor thing đđ€
âYou gotta understand that me, my brother, my sister, we didnât grow up like a normal family,â he said. âYeah, I know,â you nodded. âDoryâs told me some of it. It soundedâŠrustic.â He snorted. âPutting it mildly.â
Indeed đ I would've loved to be a fly on the wall when Dory had this conversation with her lol
How he very eloquently avoided talking about Colter accusing him of murdering their father. I wanna be a fly on the wall for that future convo too đ€Ł
And he slapped you right on the ass.
Loved that she got a punch in before even Russell got there. He might have actually killed that pig lmao
âAw, it doesnât look as bad as all that. But can I see?â he asked. You allowed him to take your smaller hand in his. Your knuckles were red and tender to the touch when he gently pressed. You hissed in pain.
I'm having vivid flashbacks to Smoke Eater đ„”đ„
But his hands were gentle for you.
This line just about killed me... đ« đ« đ«
âThree balls, huh?â you said slyly, and maybe, a little tipsy. âMight wanna get that looked at.â
I appreciate that kind of humor đđ
âNow, if I go in for a kiss goodnight, are you gonna deck me?â he asked, with a teasing glint in his eyes.
I absolutely can see him saying that đŻđ
He found no other recourse but to back you up against the side of his car.
Probably one of my favorite scenes is when characters are so hot for each other they lean against a car. There's just something so incredibly passionate about it đ„đ«
âIâm staying at a motel, if you wannaâŠâ he said, between kisses.
Oh, Russell, this is not what the lady wants to hear. Bless him tho đ
And I figured she wanted more than a one-night-stand or fling. His job and lifestyle truly is a bit of a problem. But he wanted out anyways, so... đ€
I loved their first date! đđ€ Hopefully, they'll see each other again soon and might give this another shot. I have a feeling it's gonna involve her brother's bullshit somehow đ
Every Second Counts - Part 1
Pairing: Russell Shaw x F. Reader
Summary: One date with your best friendâs brother leaves you wanting more, even though his questionable job and vagabond lifestyle make you want to guard your heart. When your brother falls into trouble, however, Russell is the first one you trust to help you find him.Â
AN: Finally, here we are at Part 1! Remember that A Line and a Half functions as our prologue here.
Word Count: 5.7K
Tags/Warnings: 18+ only for some mature thoughts. Fluff, angst and hurt/comfort, drug use, mentions of drug addiction and alcoholism, skeevy men, and a tinge of spice.~
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Part 1: "Permission Granted"
âAre you absolutely sure?â you asked, with your hands on your hips.Â
You wanted no miscommunication here, no read-between-the-lines mishaps, no subtext or nuance to bite you in the ass later. So here you stood in the middle of your best friendâs office, still at the Wyoming University campus after your last class.
Dory had to laugh at you. She pushed away from her desk and threw her hands up.
âYes, for the love of God, you can grab a drink with my brother,â she said.
After brushing a lock of blonde hair behind her ear, she went to you and set her hands on your shoulders.
âYou have my blessing,â she said. âAll I ask is that you donât scar me with any gushy details afterward.âÂ
Your face began to heat up in a blush. You crossed your arms.
âAll right, no one said there was going to be any of that,â you replied. âItâs just a date. Barely a date, mind you.â
âA-huh,â Dory said with a sneaking smile. âOut of curiosity, what was it about him that hooked you? Youâve been dodging Chrisâs valiant attempts for like a month now.â
Chris was a French and Spanish professor. His office was on the same floor as yours, so you two occasionally crossed paths whenever you ventured into the teacherâs lounge.
He usually caught you in the morning while you were grabbing your free coffee fix at the Keurig. Heâd chat you up about his classes and his dog and his new boat, and all the while youâd struggle to get a word in edgewise. Despite that, he was good-looking and pleasant, for the most part. It was justâŠ
âI donât know. Heâs not my type, I guess,â you shrugged. You kind of liked conversations where both people got to speak.
âAnd Russell is?â Dory said, in a teasing tone. You chewed the inside of your lip, fighting a smile.
âI donât know,â you admitted. âKind of want to find out though.â
âOkay, well, let me know what you find,â Dory said, more wryly. You caught a bit of melancholy when her gaze drifted off. Your brows furrowed in concern as you drew closer, setting a hand on her arm.
âWhat do you mean?â you asked.
She was hesitant, but she eventually answered you with a confession.
âYou know, itâs been about twenty years since Iâve seen him,â she said. âWeâve had entire lives already. I see him now, and thereâs some of the Russell I knew when we were kids, butâŠthereâs just a lot I donât know about him, who heâs become.â
You could understand that. You squeezed her arm in sympathy.
âWell, he really seems to want to know you now,â you said. You remembered all the questions he asked you when he helped you carry your files back to your office after lunch todayâmost of them about Dory, about her career, your friendship, and ultimately, if she was happy.
âWhat happened to you guys?â you asked. âWhy are you all so distant? Colter included.â
Doryâs face tightened. âItâs a long story. Iâve told you some of it. But basically, after our dad died, nothing was ever the same again.â
You dimmed at that. You knew their mother still lived in the cabin they grew up in, but Dory had never quite been able to tell you what happened to their dad. Youâd never pushed the subject. You knew better than anyone what kind of pain that was.Â
âI just wish weâd been able to stay with each other. Me and my brothers, at least,â Dory said. But she adopted a smile for you, before she returned to her desk.
âOkay. Go on your non-date at your favorite bar with Russell. Iâll be here, grading papers until Judgment Day,â she said, with a small laugh that felt like a coverup for thoughts she no longer wanted to think about.
You let her do it. You grabbed your purse and work bag off the spare chair in front of her desk.
âSo youâre sure,â you wanted to confirm. âOne last chance for me to tell him I came down with food poisoning.â
Dory collected her stack of midterm papers and gave you a cheeky look that said, class dismissed. Then she clicked her red pen and pointedly looked down at the first batch of papers to read through.
You smiled. Okay, you thought, giving her a little wave goodbye when you turned to leave. You had just a couple of hours to drive home and get ready to meet Russell.
âGoodnight,â you called.
âGoodniiight,â Dory replied.
You heard the smirk in her voice without even having to look back.
After fighting through rush hour traffic, you were exhausted when you got home from work. Your tentative excitement and nerves about tonight gave you some new energy though, even if you thought those nerves were silly to have.
Barely a date, you reminded yourself, as you unlocked the door to your house. Barely a date, barely a date.
The Ring Camera beside the door chimed when you entered the house, signaling your arrival. You had to wrinkle your nose at the dank-ass smell that greeted you.
Frowning in annoyance, you dropped your stuff on the kitchen table for now and shucked off your heels. You made a beeline down the hall, to the bedroom that lied across from yours. You pushed it open without knocking. There you caught your older brother, Charlie, snoozing in his bed with the covers half pooling on the floor.
His room was a mess, as usual. Your gaze locked on the evidence of half a blunt on his nightstand and two smoked roaches beside it. You were glad it wasnât remnants of white lines of powder, like times before, but there was also a large bottle of whiskey. It was almost empty, and hanging loosely from his hand.
He managed to raise his head a bit when you came in.
âHey,â he said, blinking bleary eyes. He cleared his throat and tried to sit up.
You shook your head and picked around piles of dirty clothes and a couple of used paper plates on the floor. You swiftly grabbed the bottle from his hand and slammed it on the nightstand.
âYou promised me, Charlie,â you snapped. âYou promised me for the hundredth time that youâd quit all this shit. Where even were you last night? You werenât home when I left for work this morning.â
He sighed, frowning at how loud you were, and sat up in bed. He swung his legs over the side and held his swimming head in his hands, resting his elbows on his knees. He ran a hand through his hair. It was nearly black, like Dadâs had been, but heâd inherited Momâs lighter eyes.
âI got invited to a party,â he said. âIâm sorry, I know. This is the last time.â
You expelled a frustrated breath and shook your head.
âYouâre a grown fucking man, Charlie! Do you really need me to give you the just say no speech?â you said.Â
âLook, Iâm sorry. I donât know how many times I can say it,â he said. He shut his eyes tight, probably trying to fend off a headache.Â
Good, you thought. Let that be a reminder of how bad heâd screwed up again.Â
âAnd while weâre at it, what about your half of the bills? Youâre a week late,â you said, testily crossing your arms.
âYeah, Iâm a little behind,â he said. Once again, he cleared his throat past a wad of phlegm. He was still a bit crossfaded too, you could tell. âYou know they cut my hours to part-time at the museum. Iâve, uh, Iâve been looking into getting another jobââ
âI already paid the phone bill. And the internet, the water bill, the electricity,â you said. âThe house may be paid off, but the least you can do is pay your half of living here.â
The longer you stared at him, seeing the guilt hidden behind drunken eyes, you realized he wasnât just late on his half of the bills.
âHow much?â you asked.
He frowned up at you. âWhat?â
âHow much do you owe?â you said. Your voice was as cutting as your gaze. Charlie lowered his. Â
âItâs okay, donât worryââ
âHow much,â you pressed.
He looked up at you again, this time with pursed lips. After a beat, he sighed and gave in.
âAbout two grand,â he admitted.
You raised your eyes heavenward, muttering a curse. Your hands went to your temples as you had to pace the room. You were angry and exasperated in equal measure.
âWho the fuck do you owe two grand?!â you asked.
Charlie shook his head. âItâs better that I donât tell you that.â
You paused. As you looked down at him, your anger dissolved into sadness, like it always did.
âIf Mom and Dad could see you now, they wouldnât recognize you,â you said.
Charlie fought not to react to that, his brows furrowing. Instead, he just looked down, unable to answer you.
âCharlie, you need help. I canât keep doing this with you,â you said. Your shaky breath gave way to the burn of tears. Â
His red-rimmed eyes became glassy as well.
âIâm sorry,â was all he said.
He was always sorry. And you always had to be the one to nurse him back to health, pick up the pieces, pay the bills. You were exhausted. The bone-deep kind of tired that felt like gravity wasn't so much keeping you down, but pushing you.
âIâm going to ask for two things: do what you need to do to get paid, and clean up your shit. If you canât accomplish that, then Iâm taking you to rehab,â you said.
âYou know Iâve tried that,â Charlie said, with a shrug of his shoulders. âDidnât really work for me.â
âYou left the program after two weeks!â you retorted.
âI did it on my own! Iâve been clean for months,â he argued.
âAnd what happened? You go to one party and all your good sense, all your training, mentally and physicallyâthat all goes out the window?â you said. You had half a mind not to believe him.
âYeah well, maybe just for one night, I wanted to relax without you harping on my back,â he said, glaring up at you. âIs that too much to fucking ask? For you to give me some goddamn slack?â
Your mouth fell open incredulously. Â
âIâm on your back?â you said. âOkay. Iâll get off. Do whatever the hell you want, Charlie. Iâm done.â
You left his room in an angry huff. You headed over to your room so you could take a shower and start getting ready to meet Russell at Howleyâs.Â
By the time you got to your bedroom, you heard the front door slam closed.
The truth was, you were no longer in a mood to have fun when you pulled up to Howleyâs, but you needed to escape your house. Also, you werenât someone who canceled on people last-minute, especially not on Doryâs own brother.
You found Russell waiting for you at the bar. He waved to you with a fifth of whiskey in hand and an easy grin. Heâd saved you a seat beside him.
You found yourself smiling. Your mood began to lighten as you went over to him. He looked more or less the same, but this time the jacket and jeans combo was navy blue and dark wash, respectively. His hair was swept back, lightly gelled. You smelled the familiar, rich woodiness of his cologne when you drew near, along with a hint of spicy soap.
âHey, there.â He greeted you with a warm hand on your back. He helped you into your seat.
âHey, yourself,â you replied, and thanked him for the assist onto the tall stool. Youâd opted for jeans and a blouse, paired with your favorite leather boots. It was less dressy than heâd seen you before, but that was âwork mode.â This was a more casual affair, even if youâd spent at least twenty extra minutes on your makeup.
You were glad he picked a spot at the end of the bar though. It put some distance from the group of guys getting rowdy as they cheered at the football game playing on the TV.
âHow was the rest of your day, Professor?â he asked. âAnd whatâre you wanting to drink?â
You let out a long sigh and turned toward him, resting your elbow on the counter.
âAwesome. Iâm going to need two shots of tequila and an order of something fried, and preferably covered with cheese, please,â you replied.
Russellâs grin deepened. âOkay, Iâm thinking âawesomeâ is code for something. But we can get started on that order of Forget Todayâs Unfortunate Events.â
He flagged down the bartender with a raise of his hand, but he shot you a glance.
âThough Iâm hoping itâs not all of today that you wanna forget,â he said.
Your lips threatened another smile, as the memory of your hand being swept up into his, and soft lips meeting the back of your hand filtered through your mind.
âYeah, I donât think thatâs possible,â you said.
After about ten minutes of playfully debating the appetizer menu (you swore by the pretzel and beer cheese, but Russell had his eye on those spicy wings), he finally settled on ordering both.
âWhen in doubt, donât go without,â heâd remarked.
You swept a pretty coil of hair over your shoulder and downed your tequila shots with a lime wedge. Meanwhile, Russell tried not to linger his eyes on the way your tongue swept over your finger to catch a drop of lime juice. Your nails were manicured, and the shade of the polish matched your lipstick.
Russell didnât pretend to know the art and science of a womanâs wardrobe, but everything about you was thought out, it seemed, falling in line with what heâd expect from a (sexy as all hell) college professor. Youâd also told him at lunch today that as of last year, you now had two doctorates: History and Ancient Studies.
Even with all that under your belt, you also seemed refreshingly down-to-earth, a lot like Dory in that sense. He could see why you two were friends.
âSo, are you from here, or are you a transplant, like my sister?â he asked.
Dory hadnât come to live in Wyoming until their aunt and uncle took her in, when she was about eight years old. Before last month, Russell hadnât seen her since. It hurt his heart to think about, but he tried to focus on you.
You now seemed to be staring a bit listlessly at the glass of whiskey in his hands. He laid a hand on your arm and called your name.
âHmm?â Your brows rose as you blinked to attention. âOh! Iâm sorry. Yes, Iâve lived here pretty much forever.â
âYou okay?â Russell asked. âTequila hit ya a little hard?â
You shook your head. âNo, Iâm sorryâŠâ
You raised your hands up to your temples. You debated whether you wanted to open up about this, butâŠconsidering who Russell was, you thought he might just understand.
âDory told me youâve been trying to reconnect with your brother, right? Colter?â you said.
Russell nodded. He wasnât sure how much Dory told you about their family business, but it dimmed his mood.
âWell, you could say Iâve got a brother issue of my own,â you said, laughing humorlessly. âYou donât have to talk about yours, but maybe youâll understand⊠My brother is a veteran too. He was a Captain, air force pilot. He fought in Afghanistan, mainly.â
Russell processed that with a nod. âYeah, I was there too. Special Ops.â
âWow, okay. Then you know what it was like for him, coming back home,â you said. Your gaze fell to your empty shot glasses. âIt was hard, afterâŠâ
âAfter?â he prompted.
You sighed. âNear the end, he lost half his unit in a raid, off of some flawed intel.â
Russellâs brows knitted together. Hmm. Grief, survivorâs guilt, feeling like you donât belong.
He was starting to get a clearer picture of who your brother was. It struck at familiar chords inside himself that he wasnât so comfortable with. He shifted in his seat, fingers flexing over his glass on the counter.
You didnât notice, but you did push the shot glasses away from you.
âI helped him the best I could,â you said. âI got him a job at the museum I interned at when I was in undergrad. Heâs there as a security guard, but itâs not really enough, you know? Itâs like, nothing satisfies him. I justâŠI donât think I know how to help him anymore.â
You couldnât help it. Emotion bubbled in your throat, making it close up on you as tears stung in your eyes. Your lower lip wobbled, and you tried to turn your face away. Embarrassment coiled up in your chest and made your face hot.
You felt a hand cover yours on your thigh, squeezing warmly. You looked up and met Russellâs gaze, both sympathetic and understanding.
âIâm so sorry,â you said, trying to calm your shuddering breath. âThis isnât exactly first date material. I canât believe I unloaded on you like that.â
âHey, itâs okay,â he said. âBelieve me, I get what your brotherâs going through.â
He pushed the plate with the last piece of soft-baked pretzel over to you.
âYou finish that if you want, then you go ahead and pick something else off the menu. I wonât even argue with you this time,â he promised with a grin.
It got you to laugh, at least, and he gave you a napkin for your tears.
God, get it together, you told yourself. Youâre a damn mess.
âThanks,â you said. You managed to smile as you blotted at one corner of your eye. You hoped you hadnât just irreversibly smudged your mascara.
Russell surprised you by brushing his thumb against your other cheek, wiping a stray tear away. Your face began to warm with a blush.
âAgain, Iâm sorry for dumping on you. We had a fight right when I got home,â you admitted.
âWhatâs his name?â Russell asked.
âCharlie.â
âOlder or younger than you?â
âFour years older,â you replied. âHe enlisted a few years after he graduated high school.â
Russell flickered at a smile. Enlisted, huh?
Yet another thing he and Charlie had in common, except Russell hadnât made it through high school in the classic sense.
âWhat do you think?â you asked.
âI think your brother sounds lost right now. Iâve known a lotta guys like him, unfortunately,â Russell admitted. âWalking back into civilian life, it ainât easy. That I know my damn self. Just like I know a thing or two about being an older brother. Heâs probably doing his best to keep it off your shoulders.â
You shook your head at that. Trying, maybe.
You werenât even sure of that anymore. Still, it made you all the more curious about Russell and his family.
âI know I said I wouldnât ask this, and you donât have to answer. But did you and Colter have a falling out or something?â you asked.
Russell expelled a deep breath and took a sip from his glass. How was he supposed to navigate this minefield with you?
âYou gotta understand that me, my brother, my sister, we didnât grow up like a normal family,â he said.
âYeah, I know,â you nodded. âDoryâs told me some of it. It soundedâŠrustic.â
He snorted. âPutting it mildly.â
He shook his head and drained the rest of his glass.Â
âWell, my brotherâs got an idea about me that isnât true,â he said.
Your head tilted in curiosity. âWhich is?â
His lips briefly raised in a wan smile.Â
âWe donât gotta get into that one tonight. But uh, the truth is, Iâve tried reaching out to him several times now. He just doesnât wanna hear from me,â said Russell.
You considered him for a moment. You laid a hand on his arm, covered by his jacket.Â
âDonât give up,â you said, with a sigh of your own. âDespite some things I said to him today, I know I canât. My brotherâs the only real family I have.â
Russell grew curious then. âWhat about your parents?â
You gave a weak smile.
âThey passed away when we were young, butâŠwe donât have to get into that one tonight,â you said, borrowing his words.Â
His expression fell. âJesus. Iâm sorry to hear that.â
âThank you,â you accepted, twisting the napkin around your fingers.
An awkward lull of silence fell between you, until Russell nodded and blew out a breath.
âWell. Heavy, huh?â
You chuckled and rested your head against your hand.
âI know. Again, my fault,â you replied.Â
âItâs okay, sweeâ. Mmm,â he cut himself off, shooting you a knowing glance.
âWere you about to sweetheart me?â you asked playfully, nudging his hand. âYou know how I feel about that.â
âNo, maâam. Not at all,â Russell shook his head. His smile gave him away though. You laughed and grabbed his arm.
âCome on,â you said.
He allowed you to lead him out of his seat. He already had a tab open, so heâd settle up with the bar later. âWhere we going?â
âYouâre gonna lose to me at pool,â you said with a smirk.
Russell laughed and wrapped his arm around your waist instead.
âOh, okay. Iâm gonna give you a run for your money, though,â he promised.
And he was true to his word.
Russell Shaw turned out to be a more than worthy opponent. You studied the board as you changed the angle on your cue stick no less than five times.
âYou gonna make a move, or we going to be here all night?â he said.
He was smiling as he leaned against his own cue on the other side of the board. His clever moves had left you in a difficult position to get your three remaining solid-colored balls into the pocket.
âYou hush. Iâm thinking,â you said, fighting your own smile.
âCareful, youâve got steam coming out of your ears,â he teased.
You shot him a narrowed look for that. But then you smiled, as the answer came to you. You walked around to his side of the board and nudged him with your hip.
âExcuse me, sir,â you said to him over your shoulder.
Russell made way for you, but his eyes followed the way you bent over to line up your shot. Namely the curve of your ass in those tight jeans. He could see you knew exactly what you were doing, in more ways than one.
You shot your shot. The solid green ball leapt over his white-striped blue one and managed to sink into the pocket. You straightened up and gave him a triumphant little smirk.
He tried to temper his smile (and ignore the way his cock twitched).
âAll right, go on, do your little victory lap," he said. "But remember, I let you go first.â
âLike that matters,â you quipped back.
You went back to the other side of the board to line up your next shot. Russell noticed a pair of drunk men ambling your way from the bar, but before he could make a subtle move to put himself in between, one of the menâs gazes slid down your form and gave into the base urge to let out a low whistle.
And he slapped you right on the ass.
You gasped, grabbing hold of the pool table. Then your shock melted into ire.
Russell was already heading toward you with an angry frown of his own, but even he had to stop short, when he watched you throw a punch that cracked the drunken man across the bridge of his nose.
Good form, Russell thought, when the guy reared back with a howl. His nose dripped blood when his hands came away from his face.
His buddy started to raise his hackles, but that was when Russell stepped to your side. He angled himself toward you and loosely gripped his pool cue by his hip, like it was an extension of his arm. He was fully prepared to use it like one.
âFucking bitch!â said the one who was still dabbing his nose in vain. He glared at you, his eyes watering involuntarily, while his friend tried to keep him upright. You rolled your eyes.
"You're the one who's crying, bitch," you returned. Russell held in a snort. He cleared his throat and looked on at the pair of idiots.
âIâd have a little sit down if I were you,â Russell told them, with a smirk. âLet that be a lesson to ya. And if it donât stick? Well. Whatever you start, I can damn well finish.â
His steely gaze reinforced the promise of his words. The other men were still angry, but even drunks had some sense of self-preservation. They ambled toward the back of the bar to find another pool table.
Russell focused his attention back on you, finding you looking down at your hand, rotating your wrist and flexing your fingers.
âWell, look at you, slugger,â he said. You met his smile with one of amusement.
âThatâs just what I needed tonight. A broken hand,â you quipped.
âAw, it doesnât look as bad as all that. But can I see?â he asked. You allowed him to take your smaller hand in his. Your knuckles were red and tender to the touch when he gently pressed. You hissed in pain.
Damn, she really gave it to him, Russell thought.
âSorry,â he said, but your hand felt fine, at least. More than fine. His gaze flicked up to yours as his amused grin deepened. âGood hit though.â
If he liked you before, he mightâve fallen half in love with you right there.
You laughed through the pain. âYeah, my brother did teach me something. Shit.â
Russell led you back to the bar after you grabbed your purse. There he called to the bartender for some ice. The guy nodded; heâd seen the entire exchange and was sympathetic.
You knew this sort of thing was just par for the course at this kind of bar, but they had the best drinks. Charlie had to carry you out of here on your twenty-first birthday, drunk off your ass. Not to mention, heâd punched out two handsy dicks that night.
You recounted the story to Russell over a couple more drinks. Your conversation was lighter then, filled with laughter and a warm, companiable feeling. He was still rather evasive about his job, but you supposed he had to be, since it was government contract work.
Private security, mainly. Or so he'd said. This man made you infinitely curious, and a bit apprehensive, if you were honest.
And yet, at some point while you two shared and laughed and split a hot sandwich with another round of beers, you realized it.
I like this, you thought. And I like him.
However, the night had to come to an end sometime. Your third involuntary yawn told Russell it was time to call it.
"I'm okay," you tried.
"Nah, you've gotta work tomorrow," he said. He signaled to the bartender. "Let me go ahead and close out my tab."
âOh, I can pay for half,â you said, reaching for your purse now hanging from your hip.
âYou kidding me? Put that away,â he said, guiding your hand with your wallet aside.
Smiling, you accepted his generosity with a small thank you. Then, you let him take up your sore hand again, just to carefully press the half-melted bag of ice over it.
âFeelinâ better?â he asked.
Your smile became softer. âYeah.â
You had no doubt that this man, tall as he was, with his broad shoulders and the controlled way he carried himself, couldâve laid both of those drunken assholes onto their asses. His intimidating gaze had promised as much.
But his hands were gentle for you.
âI was about to win that game, no contest!â you said, laughing as you and Russell headed out of the bar and into the parking lot.
âHey, hey, I still had time to win it back,â he argued. âI only had three more balls to go. I couldâve sunk that with my eyes closed.â
âThree balls, huh?â you said slyly, and maybe, a little tipsy. âMight wanna get that looked at.â
Russell snorted. âYou think youâre funny, huh?â
âHey, you laughed!â you said, pointing at him.
He shook his head, despite his amusement. He slowed to a stop in front of his car.
âWhereâd you park, huh?â he asked.
âOver there,â you said, pointing several parking spaces down. Your eyes were drawn to his car, however. âWow. This is your car?â
Russell grinned and patted the top of his black Chevy.
âAw, yeah. Thatâs my baby,â he said. âSheâs a Chevelle, 1967.â
You didnât know much about cars, but you could see this was a classic beauty. You passed a hand over its sleek paint job without touching, so you didn't get any fingerprints on it. Though you quirked a smile over your shoulder at him.
âShe?â you intoned.
âThatâs right. She,â he confirmed.
You smirked and crossed your arms. You paused in front of the passenger door, and when Russell drew in closer, you had to crane your neck up to meet his warm gaze.
âNow, if I go in for a kiss goodnight, are you gonna deck me?â he asked, with a teasing glint in his eyes.
You tilted your head, your own eyes dancing.
âIâm sure youâre brave enough to find out,â you said.
Russell decided heâd take that bet.
He leaned in slowly. He made a show of hesitating, raising a brow, as if waiting for a blow. You were tempted to laugh.
But then he let loose a true smile, and he bowed his head to press his lips against yours. Your eyes fell shut, and your hands moved to flatten against his chest. A firm fucking wall. Jesus.
He circled his arms around your waist, bringing you in closer. Your fingers wound up in his hair, while he tilted his head to kiss you again. You met him with the same fervor with each new kiss, and the feel of your body, soft and pliant under his hands, each little sweet sound that you made, it all drove him to delve in deeper.
You moaned into his mouth at the first warm swipe of his tongue against yours. He tasted like the burn of good whiskey.
You pressed yourself flush against him on instinct. He found no other recourse but to back you up against the side of his car. His hand tangled into your hair, gripping, then easing through the soft strands.
Russell veered away from your soft mouth after a while, just to burn a line of warm, wet kisses along your jaw, and down your neck with the added rasp of his beard.
His lips found the sensitive spot where your neck met your shoulder. He kissed and sucked at your skin, even grazing with his teeth. You gasped softly in his ear, shuddering against him. You ran your hands over his shoulders and down his strong back out of a need to feel him.
His hands were heavy along the curve of your waist then, squeezing your hips. It all felt incredibly right. And by right, you meant body tingling, warmth churning in your lower belly, and wetness growing between your legs, for sure dampening your panties.
You tugged him back by his hair, so you could reach him for another steamy kiss.
âIâm staying at a motel, if you wannaâŠâ he said, between kisses.
You paused against his lips, parting from him softly.
âOr not," he added. "Just thought Iâd mention.âÂ
You giggled, catching your breath, and then smoothing your hands down his chest. The faint throb of your core was telling you one thing, but the warning signals of your more cautious mind were telling you another. You thought for a momentâŠbut then you sighed.Â
âHow long are you really in town?â you asked.
His wet lips tugged to one corner, ruefully. âA few more days, probably.â
âRight,â you said with a frown. âRussell, I like you. I actually, I really do. If you were sticking around for a while, itâd be one thing. But youâre my best friendâs brother, and Iââ
âNo, I get it. I canât predict when Iâm gonna be able to swing back into town, and youâve gotta live your life,â he said, but not without care. He curled an errant strand of hair behind your ear.Â
Your heart tugged, almost painfully.
âYouâre a good guy, Russell Shaw,â you breathed. âWhy canât you be a good guy whoâs staying?â
âIâm sorry, sweetheart,â he said. Then he cringed, knowing how you felt about sweethearting men. âAh, sorryââÂ
You smiled and covered his mouth with your fingers.Â
âItâs okay. You have permission to sweetheart me.âÂ
After blinking his surprise away, his face eased into a grin.
âThen Iâll wear that badge with honor,â he said.Â
Your shoulders shook with laughter when you let your forehead fall against his chest.
Russell remained what he had been throughout the entire night: a gentleman, who accompanied you over to your car.
After another stolen kiss or two in front of your sedan, you parted ways from him with a bit of a heavy heart. You wondered if you made the right decision, or if you shouldâve just gone for it for once, instead of second-guessing yourself like usual.
You did know this. The rumble of his Chevelle driving down the opposite road would be imprinted on your memory.
When you returned home, you realized that the house was empty, and in complete darkness.
Charlie still wasnât home.
Worried, you flicked on the lights and began to text his cell, only to find a note for you on the kitchen counter.
And it worried you even more.
Iâm sorry. Iâm going to make it right.Â
â C.
AN: đŹ Well then! lol We're diving straight into the drama and feels on this one. What did you think of her "barely a date" with Russell? đ
And where do you think we're going next with Charlie?
Next Time:
Dory was sat next to you on the couch, rubbing your back with sympathy and concern in her own eyes.
âYou should call the police,â she advised.
Youâd thought of that, but if Charlie was doing something he wasnât supposed to, then depending on what it was, you didnât necessarily want him locked up in a cell. He wasnât a bad person, he was justâŠlost. You wanted him to get help.
You set down the butterknife beside the jar and turned to her, after drying your eyes the best you could.
âDo you think your brother would be willing to come back to Wyoming?â you said. After a beat of hesitation, you specified:
âColter, the tracker.â
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Love Trial = Requested
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[Sung Jinwoo x High School Ex-Lover!Reader]
Sung Jinwoo. The Hunter who was praised for his bravery and selflessness, the Hunter who was the embodiment of Cinderella, and the Hunter who was hailed as a hero no matter where he went and how he acted. All because he acted for the good of the people around him, be it former foes or strangers in another country, he protected all. He was humanityâs strongest shield and sword against the dangers of the monsters within the vile Gates.
Yet to you, his shining image was clouded with the shadows that surrounded him. In your memory of him, one stood out more than the rest, more than the good deeds heâs done, more than the joyous memories you made with him.
âIâm sorry. Letâs break up.â
His words pierced your heart and body like no other. The shield you held over your heart was long gone and the walls you built around you long crumbled, all because of the knight in front of you. You canât say you didnât expect it, you have and mentally prepared yourself, still⊠It hurts oh so much.
âI understand. I wish you happiness, Hunter Sung. May your days be nothing of smiles and content.â
And you turned and left to hide your tears. Even knowing that Jinwoo would one day leave you because he was stronger now and would have more and better choices, you cravedâclungâto the fantasy that he wouldnât leave you behind after everything that youâve done for him. You drank till your body couldnât handle and your bartender friend called in your reliable friend from back in your college days. You cried in his chest. Why? Why werenât you a Hunter as well? You could have done more! More for your dearest lover! Maybe then, you wouldnât be abandoned.Â
That night was agonizing to live through. It was the worst day of your life. Perhaps, you were in love with the idea of love. You and Jinwoo did fall for the other over some silly comment and gossip from your classmates, then you started seeing the other differently. You two thought they were right and loved each other like actual lovers. How immature of you. Look what that led you?
It took some time, but you recovered with the help of your college friend. He helped more than you could ever thank him for. If he werenât such a workaholic or that heated up then maybe your heart could have been swayed. Still, you knew for a fact; that you couldnâtâwouldnâtâbe in another relationship any time soon.
When the world appeared to be coming to an end, you stared out your apartment window and sighed. Jinwoo must be saying his final farewells to his loved ones; his mother, his younger sister, that brother of a Hunter Jinho, and his new lover Cha Hae-In. It didnât ache as much now than before when you thought about their official relationship and Jinwoo moving on so quickly while you took your time recovering. Now, you were fine with the time you had for yourself.
Your phone rang and you picked it up without a thought, a voice spoke from the other end. âWorldâs ending, thought I should check up on you.â
âHow nice of you.â You chuckled from your end and retreated back into your apartment and away from the window, âArenât you busy with your guild affairs to call me?â
âI can still rest, canât I? Here I was being nice and now Iâm scolded.â You hummed, knowing the man from the other end heard it loud and clear. There was a pause before he continued, âAny regrets? Might as well say it since the world is ending.â
âWhy should I tell you?â You meant it as a tease since you two have been close and shared a lot with each other. Way more that people could have confused you two as lovers at some point.
âThink of it as a goal for your next life. I wish we had our silly friendship and that there were no more beasts to fight off so I could work.â
You remained silent for a while. What would you wish for? What was your regret? You glanced over to a corner, you know it was because of the lighting that there was a shadow, but you couldnât help but be reminded of a certain someone. Your lips moved while your eyes were glued to the shadow, speaking your mind, âI regret having let down my guard for him. I wish⊠I never met him.â
Whether it was the heavens taking pity on you or cursing you, you canât tell. The moment you woke up, you were back home and alive. The only difference was that you have shrunk. No. Thatâs too light of a term. To be more specific, you have turned back to a child. It made no sense whatsoever that it was a dream. A dream too realistic since you could feel the clothes covering your body and the wind against your skin, even smell the familiar cooking of your parents. Not to mention, eat it!
You accepted it as reality when a week passed and nothing changed. You figured that you were reliving your life due to regrets. Or maybe a lot of people had regrets so everyone is reliving their lives right now. Yet you were the only one who seemed to have remembered anything about Hunters and Gates. Well, the moment you realized that, you shut up and said it was all a dream to anyone you asked, a childâs fantasy is wild after all, so none was the wiser.Â
First things first, though, you had to avoid being in the same high school as Jinwoo. Easy enough as you had another school that was much closer to your apartment now. It was so easy for you to change your future since you were the only one that know what would happen. Cha Hae-In is Jinwooâs fated lover, so at some point, theyâd meet each other and fall in love. No surprise, but you want to be away from that drama.
âDear! Can you get the door for me?â Your motherâs shout brought you out of your musical trance.
âYes, mom!â You placed your violin down and hopped onto the couch. Your footsteps pitter-patter through the floor. You reached the door and opened it, knowing the metal fence as the outer door was closed to protect you in case of an attempt at breaking and entering. âWho is itâ?!â
The bright red hair and the matching red eyes, you recognize them anywhere. The boy in front of his parents smiled with his head bowed to give his greetings. âHello! Iâm Choi Jong-In, your new neighbour. Iâll be studying at XXXX Middle School if you want,â His closed-eyes smile softened as his eyelids opened again to meet your shocked gaze. âWe can walk to school together.â
Words seemed to have been sucked out of your mouth as you stared at the boy. Your parents had come to the door and welcomed the boy inside while you were still in a daze. In the past, you had never met Jong-In this early; you met him when you two were in college and Jinwoo in high school. Perhaps because you avoided meeting Jinwoo, now you met Jong-In. Well, you canât complain. It was a good change.
âWhat a coincidence! We go to the same school.â You smiled back and introduced yourself. He repeated your name, and a wave of nostalgia washed over you. And so started your friendship with your former best friend from your past life.
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As time passed, days turned to weeks, weeks turned to months, months turned to years. There were no such things as Gates or Hunters or even mana. Everything was just perfectly normal, just as you pleased. You momentarily looked up from your phone at the cluster of people before you stared up into the sky. Your eyes widened as you caught sight of what appeared to be a Gate in the sky. Even after a few moments, nothing happened, and no Hunters were awakened. You couldnât help but breathe a sigh of relief.
You passed by an ice cream shop and wondered if you should grab a cup of ice cream while waiting for your friends. Your attention was taken away when your phone buzzed and you looked down once more to see what the notification was about. Ah, your friendâs here.
You walked away from the shop and entered the crowd, entirely missing the boy who rushed out of his seat from the window table and tried to catch you. You heard your name being called out, and you went in that direction, finding the redhead waving his hands in your direction. You chuckled and went over to him. âHey.â
âHey to you too, letâs get out of here. Itâs so crowded.â Jong-In placed his arm around your shoulders and led you away from the crowd.Â
When you look back up at the sky, nothing happens, and the crowd starts to disperse. As you and Jong-In chatted up a storm, ignoring the chatter around you two, you also didnât notice how the boy had stared at you longingly with guilt and envy in his eyes while the shadows around him twisted and swirled, reflecting his conflicting emotions.Â
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âHave you heard? That running star, Sung Jinwoo, is going to this college too!â
âI heard! I also heard heâs still single too!â
âYou think I got a chance with him?â
âNo way. I heard heâs a heartbreaker! Even Cha Hae-Inâs no match for him.â
âAw⊠Thatâs crazy.â
You stood up and moved to another seating area with a deadpan emotion. After finding a good seat, you sat down and returned to whatever you were doing on your phone. Up until now, you had been able to predict what happened since that was the point in time that Jinwoo went to become a Hunter. Basically, since high school, you were on your own. You managed just fine because the moment you werenât in the same school as Jinwoo, it was the same as you never having to meet each other. Even better as it saved you from heartache and unnecessary emotions.
Still. You were beyond confused as to why Jinwoo wasnât together with Cha Hae-In when they were so lovey-dovey in your previous life. Thereâs no way you heard it right. Gossip is just that, gossip. Itâs never true, and even if some parts are, the majority of them are twisted to match whatever the listener and speaker want to hear or know.Â
The students in the lecture hall suddenly squealed as they all whispered about the newest student who came in. You glanced up and huffed with a smirk, watching with a teasing look at Jong-In, who was called by men and ladies alike. He was popular, after all. He came to your seat and gave you that gentlemanly smile, âCome on, you free to go now?â
âGeez, not sure. I feel like sitting a bit longer.â You taunted shamelessly.
You watched as his eye twitched and his smile widened dangerously. âDonât be such a tease. You know weâll be late for lunch.â
âLunch is a whole few hours long; we can afford to be late for a few⊠say⊠30 minutes or so?â
At your words, Jong-In immediately started packing your belongings for you, strapping your bag over his shoulders, then pulling you out of your seat and dragging you out of the hall. People all cooed in your direction, some even whistled.Â
You let him do so until you two were in a more secluded hallway when you spoke up. âYou know I was just teasing. Who told you to be so popular?â
âAnd here I thought having you around me would ward off peopleâŠâ Jong-In sighed, finally letting you go of your hand. âSorry for being rough.â
âItâs no big deal.â You shrugged and took back your bag. âSo, the confessions are still sky high?â
âNot sky high, but still a number of them.â Jong-In fixed his glasses, raking his hair with his fingers, âSeriously, I just want to focus on my studies and get started on my work!â
You and Jong-In have been close and the best of friends, in the past and current life. In both lives, he was basically married to work, or study at the moment. Jong-In had no want for romance, and you avoided the whole romance thing, so both of you came to the agreement of being a fake couple to ward off other people. Since you two were close enough to do what couples do without feeling romantically attracted to the other, well, nothing like kissing but hand-holding and hugging was acceptable.
Jong-In looked over to you, who was still very much unaffected and chill about everything. The winds seemed to pick up when his words escaped his lips. âWhat will you do if Sung Jinwoo finds you when Iâm not around?â
Your eyes darted to his before you blinked and looked out the window, âI doubt it. Letâs just say I have a strong feeling that heâs making a mistake if he does come to me.â You smiled at Jong-In while your eyes seemed devoid of light. âIâll just direct him to the right one.â You blinked and, like a switch, returned to normal. âWhy the sudden question?â
A finger of his pointed behind you, âBecause heâs coming in this direction and I donât think itâs a coincidence.â
Note: First part out! This request has been sitting in my inbox for a while, sorry it took so long. As you could tell, I had other stories and stuff to do. But it's out! Thoughts, everyone?
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HEART OF A WOMAN. ⊠and she gives me all her trust and iâm abusing it right now.
06, CHAPTER SIX. SOMEBODY ELSEâS GIRL (MINE FIRST).
ju speaks. happy late thanksgiving if you celebrate! this is the quickest iâve ever finished a chapter and i think itâs because i switched between their views, so itâs also a little long. but let me know your thoughts cauuuuse⊠itâs all mess from here. pairing. wnba!paige bueckers x reader. warnings. sexual innuendos, sappy paige.
present day, june 2025.
practice had just ended, a longer one than usual might i add. most of the team had trickled out, grabbed their stuff and hit the showers. i lingered near the bench with maya, who had allegedly been here under some important circumstance, but i just think she wanted to see me. we havenât hung out much recently.
sheâd been talking my ear off about the game tomorrow, but i wasnât fully listening. my focus? splitâlike always. out of the corner of my eye, nai walked in, hair tied back, a stack of papers in her hand. she didnât look over here, probably didnât even realize i was in the gym. what was she here for?
maya nudged me, temporarily snapping me out of it. âyou hear me?â she asked, tilting her head.
âuh, yeah,â i lied, blinking as i turned back to her. âsomethinâ about their zone defense, right?â
maya rolled her eyes. âyouâre hopeless,â she said, but she was laughing.
i chuckled too, stroking a hand over my chin. my eyes drifted back to nai. sheâd settled near the scorerâs table, flipping through the papers like whatever she was working on was life or death. sheâs more locked in for the game than i am.
âyo, nai!â i called, my voice echoing through the quiet of the empty gym.
she glanced up, startled, her brows furrowing slightly before she turned her attention toward me. âwhat?â she asked. her tone was neutral, but not exactly inviting.
âcome here for a sec,â i said, leaning back against the bench, spreading my legs out, my arms draped over the sides like i wasnât hanging on her reaction. mayaâs eyes followed over to me, her smirk growing, but she didnât say a word.
nai hesitated, her lips pressing into a thin line before she exhaled sharply, setting the papers down on the table. she walked over, her sneakers squeaking faintly on the court. she wasnât in any rush, but the way her eyes stayed locked on me, i knew she was curious.
âwhat do you need, bueckers?â she asked, stopping just far enough to keep some space between us. her arms crossed over her chest, and i couldnât help but notice the way her forearms flexed slightly with the movement.
ârelax, i ainât gonna bite,â i teased, tilting my head with a grin. âwanted to ask if you saw the film on the libertyâs screens. got it on my phoneâfigured you might have some notes since, you know, youâre always prepared.â
her eyes narrowed, but sheâs definitely amused, biting back a smile. âyouâre only asking me because you didnât do your homework, huh?â
i shrugged, unbothered. âmaybe.â
maya laughed beside me, chiming in, âat least sheâs honest.â
nai rolled her eyes but stepped closer, her gaze flicking between me and maya. she held her hand out. âfine. show me the video.â
âthought youâd never ask,â i said, pulling out my phone. my thumb hovered over the screen as i unlocked it, my stomach flipping briefly as the lock screen flashed. thankfully, iâd changed it from the polaroids this morning, though the thought of it, thought of her, still made my chest tighten. in a good way.
i tapped the screen, pulling up the clip, and held it out to her. âhere,â i said. âmaya and i were just talking about it.â itâs a breakdown of their off-ball movementâmostly betnijah and sabrina setting those high screens.
nai leaned in slightly, her shoulder brushing mine as she took the phone. i parted my lips, forcing my focus onto the video.
âyou werenât talking about this,â she murmured, a faint smirk tugging at her lips as she glanced at maya.
maya snickered, leaning forward to watch over naiâs shoulder. âcaught us. but itâs relevant.â
i watched them both for a second, my eyes settling over nai longer than i shouldâve let it. she was so close, close enough that her shampooâsomething clean and floralâfilled my nose.
her fingers tapped the screen as she rewound the clip. âsee this?â she said, pointing to a sequence where sabrina set a screen to free betnijah for a backdoor cut. âthey do this every time the ball swings weak-side. if youâre late, itâs an automatic bucket.â
âmakes sense,â maya murmured, nodding along.
the video played on, but it was just noise to me. nai shifted again, and my eyes dropped to the curve of her jaw, the faint flush on her cheeks that was always there, down to the sliver of skin her button-up gave me a show of when she crouched down, her hipsâ
âpaige,â nai said suddenly, snapping me out of my daze. God, iâve been having a lot of those. it was a stern say of my name, and i blinked, realizing i hadnât heard a word sheâd said.
âhuh?â i asked.
she sighed, handing the phone back. âi said, theyâre predictable, but you have to be locked in. no gamblingâyouâll get caught overplaying on those screens.â
âoh. yeah, for sure,â i replied quickly, slipping my phone back into my pocket. âlocked in. got it.â my hands found the hem of my shorts, fidgeting with the fabric just to do something.
maya raised a brow, glancing between us. âyou good, paige?â
âalways,â i replied, shooting her a grin as i scrunched my face up, like the question was absurd. i caught the knowing (or the i think i know) look she shot nai. iâm terrible at not being obvious.
nai shook her head, muttering something under her breath before heading back to the scorerâs table.
i need to talk to maya.
game day was different. they always started early for me, the arena was quieter than i liked, but now the whole team was here. sneakers squeaked against the polished court, basketballs bounced rhythmically, and the teamâs warmup playlist blasted from the speakers. but me? i was posted up at the scorerâs table, laptop open and notes scattered around me, running through every last detail of game day operations.
or trying to, anyway. a slightly sweaty paige in her jersey just a few feet away from me was a very distracting sight.
next to me, maya leaned back in her chair, legs crossed over each other like she didnât have a care in the world. sheâd been going back and forth between scrolling on her phone and making snarky comments about my âgame face,â which, according to her, was âway too intense for someone who isnât even playing.â
âyou know itâs not that serious, right?â she teased, snapping me out of my focus as she nudged my half-empty in-n-out cup closer to me.
âit is that serious,â i muttered, grabbing the cup without thinking and taking a sip. the straw gurgled, and i frowned, realizing there was barely a drop of my chocolate milkshake left.
maya grinned. âright. because if the scoreboard malfunctions, the worldâs ending.â
i rolled my eyes, setting the cup down and returning to my notes. ânot all of us can just show up to work and look pretty, maya.â
âfirst of all, i do a lot more than look pretty,â she shot back, feigning offense. âi contribute to team morale.â
i snorted, finally glancing her way. âuh-huh. is that what weâre calling it now?â
she kept her smile, leaning back in her chair. âyup. and speaking of morale⊠i gotta ask you something.â
i paused, fingers hovering over the keyboard. mayaâs tone had shiftedâjust slightlyâbut enough to make me wonder. âwhatâs up?â
she hesitated for half a second, which was already suspicious. maya didnât do hesitation. âitâs about paige.â
my throat went dry, and i reached for the cup again, even though i knew it was empty. i needed something to do, anything to buy myself a second to think.
âwhat about her?â
âiâm just saying,â she starts, sitting up straight now. âyou two are tight, right?â she asked, her head tilting as she studied me. âshe talks to you a lot.â
tight? not exactly the word iâd use, but i nodded anyway. âyeah, i guess.â
maya leaned forward, resting her elbows on her knees. âsheâs just⊠hard to read sometimes, you know? one minute, sheâs all chill, the next, sheâs pulling away. i canât tell if sheâs playing hard to get or if sheâs just like that.â
shit. of course maya was asking about paige. of course sheâd come to me, thinking i had some kind of insight. of course maya was trying to lock her down. she was older, probably didnât have time for whatever game paige was throwing. she wanted a relationship. iâm sure if she knew what paige and iâs relationship was like, sheâd call us childish. i wouldnât disagree.
i swallowed, nodding slowly as if i was carefully considering her words, but my brain was going a mile a minute. whyâs she pulling away from you? probably because she was tangled up in my sheets just last night. iâm pretty sure a good number of her workout clothes are on my floor. the towel sheâs been using the past couple of days hanging up in my bathroom. i forced the thought away, along with the guilt that came with it.
âi mean, yeah, she talks to me, butâŠâ my voice trailed off, unsure how to finish the sentence without giving myself away. âi think sheâs just busy with the season,â i redirect.
maya raised an eyebrow, more to herself. âit seems like sheâs got time for everyone else. itâs me sheâs dodging.â
everyone else. me? what lies has paige been feeding her?
my stomach churned. i hated this. i hated that she was asking me these questions, hated that i didnât have an honest answer for her. most of all, i hated that i could feel her suspicion growing with every passing second.
i forced a tight smile, my fingers idly fidgeting with the straw in my cup. âpaige isnât really the relationship type,â i said, hoping that would satisfy her.
maya laughed dryly, shaking her head. âyeah, iâm starting to figure that out. but damn, i like her, nai. sheâs justââ she paused, letting out a small sigh. fuck. âsheâs different.â
i couldnât help itâthe words slipped out before i could stop them. i wanted to know too. know if she makes her feel the same way. âdifferent how?â
her eyes softened as she smiled a little. i knew she was looking at paige. i follow her eye line, and there she is. stretching while she bites back a laugh at her own joke. âi donât know. sheâs got that⊠thing. sheâs fun, sheâs confident, she makes you feel like youâre the only one sheâs paying attention to when youâre with her.â
yeah, and thatâs exactly the problem, i thought bitterly. because wasnât just paying attention to maya. she wasnât just fun and confident with maya.
i nodded again, biting the inside of my cheek to keep from saying anything else. âi get it.â and i did. i got it more than she knew.
âdo you, though?â maya asked, her tone skeptical as she studied me again. âyouâre not acting like someone who gets it.â
i forced a laugh. âiâm just tired,â i lied, standing up and grabbing my laptop. âlong morning.â
maya just watched me for a moment, then nodded, leaning back in her chair again. âalright, well, if you hear anythingâŠâ she let the sentence hang in the air, her meaning clear.
i just gave her a noncommittal shrug, pretending to focus on packing up my stuff.
paige needs to talk to maya.
itâs our second game against the liberty. the teamâs been stressed about it all morning, but i canât say i feel the same. muffled voices and footsteps echoed in the locker room, but i couldnât focus on any of it. not the game plan, not the liberty, not even fucking maya for christâs sake.
the only thing i could focus on was nai, pinned against the row of lockers, her lips pressed feverishly against mine like the game had already started and she was playing to win. my jersey stuck to my skin, damp from warmups, but i didnât care. my arms flexed as i braced them on either side of her, caging her in, every breath i took mingling with hers in the secluded space near the showers. nobody should be coming back here, catching us. itâs why i chose it.
âyou,â i murmured against her lips, one hand sliding down to her hip and gripping it like it was my lifeline. my other hand wrapped gently around her neck, pulling her closer. âyouâre drivinâ me crazy, nai. you know that?â
her laugh was breathless, her hands trailing up under the jersey sheâd untucked, nails scraping against my stomach and making me shudder. âyou started it,â she whispered, her lips brushing over mine, teasing me.
i didnât answer, couldnât. i just leaned in and kissed her again, deeper this time, my tongue sliding in her mouth in a way that made me forget we were just minutes away from tip-off. she tasted like the cherry lip balm she always wore, and it was doing something to me, making my heart race faster than the pregame drills ever could.
she pulled back slightly, her breath hot against my cheek. âpaige,â she murmured, a warning tone in her voice like we should stop. but her hands stayed right where they were, gripping the waistband of my shorts like she couldnât let go.
âwhat?â i asked, furrowing my brows. my lips trailed down her jaw, then lower, brushing against the curve of her neck. âsay it.â
âwe shouldnâtââ she started, but i cut her off with another kiss, silencing whatever logic she was about to throw my way.
âdonât care,â i said, pulling back just enough to look at her. my thumb brushed against her cheek, over the faint blush forming from the warmth of the room. âi donât care, nai. you gotta know that by now.â
her eyes searched mine, and for a second, i thought she was about to tell me to stop. but then her lips crashed into mine again, and i grinned cockily.
i couldnât stop. i didnât want to. she had this pull on me, always had, and every time we found our way back to each other like this, it only made it harder to let go.
i didnât want to let go anymore.
i was thinking straight nowâfor the first time in a minute, actually thinking. she drove me crazy in every way possible, just like iâd said, but it wasnât just that. it wasnât just the way she kissed me or the way she looked at me like sheâd love me like this in every lifetime. it was her, all of her. the fire, the attitude, the way she cared so much about the smallest things. the way she called me out when i was slacking but never let me fall too far. she wasnât perfect, but damn, she was perfect for me.
iâd tried moving on, tried ignoring it, tried putting someone else in her place a million times before, but nothing worked. nobody was her. nobody ever could be.
and maybe that made me selfish. maybe it wasnât fair to her, not when i kept coming back like this, asking for pieces of her without offering anything steady in return. but for once, i didnât want to pretend.
her breath hitched as i kissed her deeper, tilting my head into it, and i felt my chest tighten. this wasnât just hooking up. it wasnât just history or habit or whatever excuse i used to tell myself. âi love you,â i breathed against her lips, my hand tightening around her hip. âiâm serious, nai. i love you. i donât wanna keep sneakinâ around like this. i wanna be with youâfor real.â
her eyes widened. she looked like she might push me away, laugh it off, tell me i was lying. but she didnât. she just stared at me, her lips parted, her breath shaky.
âpaigeâŠâ she started, her voice soft, uncertain as she brought her hands up to my shoulders.
i leaned my forehead against hers, my hands moving to cup her face. ânah, donât âpaigeâ me,â i said, licking my lips, trying to find the right words. âyou gotta let me say this. i want you, baby. only you. iâll figure it outâiâll make it work. just⊠let me.â
silence. her hands stayed on me, fingers brushing against the collar of my jersey. i looked into her eyes, and i knew i was laid bare. no bravado, no jokes, no quick quips to deflect. just me, standing there, begging without words. let me. please let me.
the sound of a buzzer echoed through the hallway, signaling it was time to hit the court. i didnât move, didnât pull away. not until she gave me an answer. not until i knew.
âyou donât get to do this now.â
âwhy not?â
âbecause itâs game day,â she countered, sternly mothering me in the way i loved, and the flash of vulnerability in her eyes nearly knocked the air out of my lungs. she was quiet for a moment too long, like she was wrestling with herself, with me, with us.
finally, she exhaled, her hands smoothing down my sides. âgo win it, p. weâll⊠talk later.â
the words were a promise and a deflection all at once, and we both knew it. my chest ached, but i nodded, biting back the urge to push for more, to beg for her to meet me where i was.
i stood there for a moment longer, just watching her, memorizing the way she looked at meâlike she was caught somewhere between wanting me and pushing me away for the last time.
the sound of footsteps in the hallway broke the moment, and i sighed, dragging a hand over my face. leaning down, i pressed a kiss to her forehead, inhaling the faint scent of her hair like it was enough to carry me through the next two hours.
âlater,â i echoed, and i left the locker room without another word.
halftime ends, and the buzzer sounds, pulling me and everyone else back into the game. iâve been occupiedâtiming, logistics, making sure everythingâs in place for the team. itâs hectic, and iâve barely had time to focus on the game itself. i catch paige, bouncing on the balls of her feet, all amped up as she waits to get checked in. i stretch my legs out on the bench, trying to shake off the restlessness thatâs been following me around all day.
just get through the game. you can think about what this means after.
my thoughts are interrupted when i see maya making her way back from the tunnel. she strolls across the court, looking like sheâs had a moment to herself, like she hasnât been gone for the entire fifteen minutes of halftime. i barely even notice her approach until sheâs right next to me, her posture a little different, almost like sheâs holding something back.
i look up from my clipboard, following her as she sits down next to me. âhey, how was your half?â i ask.
âgood. just needed a minute.â
sheâs not making eye contact, and her voice carries this weird undertone, like sheâs working through something in her head. i furrow my eyebrows, chuckling. âthatâs weirdly ominous.â
she bites her lip. âsorry. i just wanted to apologize for being weird earlier.â
i glance at her, trying to gauge where her headâs at. âuh⊠itâs cool. you were just concerned.â the way she phrased itâthe way sheâs actingâŠ
thereâs a moment of silence before she speaks. âi just⊠i thought something was going on with you and paige.â she pauses, looking me dead in the eyes. sheâs smiling a bit. âbut she assured me there was nothing going on. said she wants to move forward with me.â
i blink, glancing at the court. i canât look her in the eye. iâm back to busying myself with my clipboard. âshe said that?â my voice feels flat, distant, like iâm hearing it through a fog.
this had to have been just now, right? my mind whirls for a second. she told maya that she wants to move forward with her? but then why did she tell meâmeâin the locker room that she loved me? was maya just blowing her words out of proportion?
maya fidgets slightly, her fingers tapping against her leg as she looks away, grinning like this is some kind of revelation sheâs been waiting for. âyeah,â she replies, eyes flickering back to my occupied ones. âiâm sorry for misreading it. all i needed to do was ask her!â
and then she laughs. she fucking laughs.
i chew on that for a moment. the sound of it feels like a slap to the face. itâs not a real laugh, not one that feels genuine or free. itâs almost⊠rehearsed, like sheâs trying to convince herselfâor meâthat everythingâs fine, that thereâs nothing more to this. that paige just straightened it all out.
the frustration bubbles up inside me, but i keep it contained, gripping the edge of my clipboard like itâs the only thing anchoring me to reality. i donât know what to say to that, or if i even can say anything. all i can think about is what happened in the locker room, how paige looked at me, how she said the words that felt like they meant everything but might have meant nothing at all.
she said she loved me. it was the first time iâd heard it from her in awhile where it felt like she actually meant it. and now mayaâs telling me that paige is just moving forward with her? that sheâs already decided?
suddenly the loudness of the gym is tuned out, and i canât focus on anything. i start to open my mouth to excuse myself, but something catches my eye. my gaze trails down, taking in the rest of her appearanceâher shirt a little wrinkled, her hair not quite as perfectly styled as usual. it hits me all at once, like a punch to the gut.
i force myself to look back at her face, trying to keep my expression steady. âmaya,â i say slowly, voice quiet, âyour jeans⊠are unzipped.â
she freezes, her eyes wide for a split second before she quickly pulls at the zipper, trying to cover it up. but the damage is done.
it was easier to deny before. easier if i hadnât caught that small detailâthe one she didnât think iâd see.
âiâm gonna head out.â
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Linzin trying for a baby and itâs taking longer to conceive than they thought it would. Tenzin soothing an anxious Lin ?
I've been really liking this idea of Lin actually being super confident that she's gonna give Tenzin airbenders.
The reason I say that is because Lin strikes me as the type of person who will do something out of spite and to prove people wrong.
"She'll never give Master Tenzin airbenders. She's a Beifong and a powerful earthbender. She'll give him 10 of them before she has 1 airbender."
Lin is like "Fuck all of you, I'm going to have 10 airbenders and 1 earthbender."
She's not gonna pop out 10+ kids just to repopulate a nation and not raise them properly. But pairing this with, "Oh you don't think I"ll be a good mom? Watch me" mentality would be sooo interesting to see more of.
So back to the ask, young Linzin gets married and Lin has incorporated motherhood into her life plan. She's hoping to have 1-2 kids within 8-10 years, and open to 3+ depending on what's happening.
She's 26 and after a year of marriage, no baby.
"It'll be fine, Lin. We'll have a baby."
"But why haven't I gotten knocked up yet? it's not like I'm 50! Maybe something is wrong with me...."
"Nothing is wrong with you, Lin."
She eyes him. "...is something wrong with you then?"
"Well, i can get checked out too. But you're stressing too much about having a baby. That's why it's not happening. We have to not try in order to get our child."
"Ugh, that's ridiculous."
"You know I'm right. So many couples conceive when they're not trying at all. Which means, we just need to enjoy loving each other and then when the time comes, our little baby will be here in no time."
"So we just enjoy fucking like rabbits without a care in the world?"
"Yes. You just need to relax and enjoy it, love."
Lin sighs.
Tenzin holds her hand. "We'll definitely have a baby, Lin. Right now it might be hard, but I'm sure our future babies are going to come into our lives so easily and quickly."
"Probably. Knowing our luck," Lin chuckles.
"Maybe it'll be twins."
Lin makes a face. "Eh, I don't know about twins, Tenzin...that might be a lot."
He kisses her cheek. "But then it'd be double the love forever."
Over time, Lin does let go of her control on conceiving a baby.
After a wildly drunken night, Lin and Tenzin have the hottest sex ever on a boat. And they're so focused on each other. Not the world, expectations, responsibilities....just Lin and Tenzin.
Not long after, Lin finds out she's pregnant.
With triplets.
Lin rolls her neck and shoulders. "I'm going to kill you, Airhead."
Hint: all 3 babies are airbenders :3
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SUMMARY: Charles Leclerc, a Formula 1 star, faces the decline of his reputation after breaking up with art curator Alexandra Saint Mleux. Under pressure from his team, he is forced into a fake relationship with one of the most popular influencers of the moment. NOTES: English is not my first language, so there might be some writing mistakes. I apologize for that, and feel free to point out any improvements. WC: 1.9k WARNING: teasing, fake relationship
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The next morning, Charles was already regretting it. Or maybe just annoyed. Or both. He hadnât decided yet. The truth was, the plan had started before he was even awake.
âDid you like her photo?â Lorenzo asked, barging into the room without knocking.
âGood morning to you too,â Charles replied, throwing a pillow at his brother.
âCharles, Iâm serious. Did you?â
âWhich photo? She posts like fifty a day.â
Lorenzo sighed and handed his phone to his brother. On the screen, Y/Nâs latest post glowedâa seemingly casual photo but so flawlessly composed it was impossible not to notice the meticulous planning behind it.
âLiked it yet?â Lorenzo pressed, pointing at the heart button.
Charles mumbled something unintelligible but tapped the button anyway.
âThere. Done. Now let me sleep.â
But it wasnât done. The second his like went live, the internet worked its obsessive magic. Gossip accounts picked up on the move almost immediately. âCharles Leclerc likes Y/Nâs photo. Coincidence or something more?â
Meanwhile, across the city, Y/N was sitting in a chic café, laughing quietly as her phone blew up with notifications.
âTheyâre fast, huh?â she commented to her best friend, Clara, who was rolling her eyes as she stirred her cappuccino.
âAre you actually enjoying this?â Clara asked, sounding a little skeptical.
âItâs not about enjoying it. Itâs a job.â Y/N shrugged, though the smirk on her lips said otherwise.
Charles was never a fan of hosting dinners at home. He was more of a fine-dining restaurant kind of guyâor, when no one was looking, fast food in his car. But tonight, his apartment had turned into Sofiaâs mission control.
He opened the door still in sweatpants, his hair a mess, and looking just a little tired.
âYou look like a teenager,â was the first thing Y/N said as she walked in, holding a bag of desserts.
âAnd you always look ready for a runway,â he shot back, taking in her flawless outfit: skinny jeans, a white cropped tee, and sneakersâcasual but calculated.
âThanks. I practice.â
She waltzed in, ditching her shoes near the door and taking in the space. His apartment was minimalist but not soulless. Trophies were scattered across a shelf, abstract art he clearly didnât choose hung on the walls, and a big couch dominated the living room, probably the epicenter of his social life.
âDo you actually live here? I expected it to be⊠messier,â she remarked, flopping onto the couch.
âIf it were messier, youâd complain. If it were tidier, youâd say itâs fake. So, please, tell me the exact level of chaos that would make you happy.â
âYouâre starting to figure me out,â she said with a laugh.
The dinner, as it turned out, was delivery that took so long to arrive they were already brainstorming the next steps of the plan before eating. Y/N sat cross-legged on the floor, her laptop open and notes scattered across the coffee table.
âOkay, we need something for the first public appearance. Nothing too obvious, but not so subtle that people miss the point.â
Charles, slouched on the couch, watched as she spoke, distracted by the businesslike tone she used.
âDo you talk this seriously all the time, or is it just when youâre in work mode?â he asked, resting his chin on his hand.
âThis is serious, Leclerc,â she replied without looking up. âIf you want to salvage your reputation, youâre going to have to trust me.â
He sighed, knowing she was right.
âOur first appearance could be next week, just before the Monaco race weekend. We could stroll around the streets in your car or stop at a cafĂ©,â she suggested. âItâll look casual, but everyone will notice.â
âWhat if we just let the rumors do their thing?â he tried.
âBecause that would be too easy for you.â Y/N finally looked up. âYou need to give people a reason to believe this story. And Iâm very convincing.â
At that moment, the delivery arrived. Charles went to grab it while Y/N rearranged the table to make it look casually perfect.
âLetâs start small,â she said, stretching her arm out to snap a photo. He watched as she worked, following her directions like a puppet.
âThis will drive people crazy,â she commented, showing him the image before posting it.
The picture showed Charlesâs hand holding a wine glass and part of his torso. On the table between them sat two pizzas.
Charles rolled his eyes. âYouâre good at this, Iâll admit.â
âNot just goodâexcellent,â she corrected.
As they ate, the tension between them grew more noticeable. While they discussed details like when sheâd start appearing in the paddock, the teasing didnât stop.
âDo you think people will actually believe I fell for you?â he asked, smirking.
âIf I can pretend to find you interesting, people can believe anything,â she shot back, taking a bite of pizza.
He laughed. âInteresting? I thought you were having fun.â
âIâm a great actress,â she said, giving him a playful wink.
âNow we need more pictures,â Y/N said after a while, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. âSomething a bit more⊠intimate.â
âMore?â Charles sighed, clearly exhausted. âWasnât that last one enough?â
âOf course not! People need to believe weâre in love. Think of something subtle: holding hands, your hand on my thigh⊠something like that.â
Charles raised an eyebrow, a teasing smile immediately forming on his lips. âFor someone who made the âno touchingâ rule, you seem pretty eager for this. Trying to relive that night at the club?â
The comment was bold, but Y/N didnât even blink. She simply stared at him for a moment, her calm almost irritating, before replying, âWhat night, Leclerc? You must be confusing me with one of your dreams.â
He chuckled, but there was something about the way she brushed off the topic that left him unsettled. After all, she had walked out that night without a word, pretending like nothing had happened. And it still nagged at him.
Unbothered, Y/N stood up and moved to the couch behind them, sitting like someone who knew exactly what they were doing.
âCome here. You need to sit next to me,â she ordered, patting the spot beside her on the couch.
Charles raised an eyebrow but stood up, following her instructions without protest. âWhat do I need to do now, boss?â
Y/N firmly took his hand and placed it on her thigh. With her other hand, she adjusted her phoneâs camera.
âYou just need to sit still,â she said, winking at him before snapping the picture. âLook, it turned out so cute!â
She showed him the result, a satisfied smile lighting up her face.
He glanced at the photo, then back at her. âYou seem pretty excited about this. Iâm starting to think Iâm not the only one dreaming here.â
Y/N let out a small laugh, ignoring his comment as she went back to adjusting the photoâs filter. But Charles couldnât help but notice: as much as she tried to stay in control, there was something in her eyes that hinted she might be enjoying this more than she let on.
Later, as they cleared the empty plates and went over the planâs timeline, their eyes met. For a moment, silence filled the room. It wasnât awkward, but it was heavy with something neither of them wanted to acknowledge.
âWell, this was⊠productive,â Y/N said, breaking the tension as she stood up to grab her bag.
ââProductiveâ is one way to put it,â he replied, following her to the door.
Once she left, Charles collapsed onto the couch and grabbed his phone. The picture she had just posted was already blowing up with comments. He liked it quietly before tossing the phone onto the table.
At the media day press conference, Charles had already memorized the answers Sofia had prepared for him. When someone asked about his personal life, he replied with a cryptic smile:
âIâve been spending more time at home, enjoying it with people I like.â
Meanwhile, Y/N was doing her part. During an Instagram live, someone asked,
âDo you like Formula 1?â
She smiled, as if she knew exactly what she was doing.
âI didnât think I did, but lately⊠Iâve been watching it more.â
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Lost In Control | Bad Omens | CHAPTER 12
adult content | minors do NOT interact.
â đđđđđđđ. Bad Omens X ex-girlfriend and singer!Reader.
â đđđđđđđđ. You and Noah had a difficult ending, but you still need to support each other for the band.
â đđđđđđđ(đ). melancholy, ex-boyfriends, difficult relationships, alcohol abuse, swearing, drug addiction, violence.
It's okay to not agree with the characters' attitudes during the fic. It's good to remember that the story is fiction from the author's sick mind, and of course they will make dubious decisions according to my fantasies. Nothing is done to be compared to reality.
NOAH
"Enough! Iâm not playing with you!" I snapped through gritted teeth, looking around nervously, fearing someone else might see us. "Weâre going inside now, and youâre going to put some clothes on before I have to force you!"
"For someone whoâs been treating me like I donât exist, you seem awfully concerned," she said, dragging out every word with exaggerated slowness, dripping with sarcasm.
I didnât know my body could overheat like a volcano about to erupt until this cursed woman crossed my path. It was evident from the triumphant look on her face that making my life a living hell with her presence was her greatest mission on Earth. I had no doubt that was what tied her to the band.
Being here every day, driving me a little more insane for her amusement.
Every time a car passed and honked as the driver caught sight of her body, clad in nothing but a white lace bra and matching panties, I wanted to claw my eyes out. It was hard enough to focus on her mocking face when all I wanted was to savor the view that hadnât been mine for a long time.
Everything was still perfectly in place, and damn it, I couldnât remember the last time Iâd been this close to her exposed body. Her curves looked like theyâd been painted with the finest brush, and at this distance, I could practically feel the texture of her skin and even catch her scent. I wasnât the best at remembering things most of the time, but I never forgot anything about her.
"Letâs. Go. Inside. Now!" I said slowly, feeling another wave of fury boiling inside me as another car passed, honking and catching her attention.
"Donât you dare come any closer!" she warned, pointing a finger at me, stepping back as she realized I was closing the distance between us. "Stay right there! Donât move!"
"Or?" I tilted my head, matching her defiant tone. "Thatâs what I thought."
It only took one step to invade her space and lift her off the ground as if she weighed nothing, slinging her over my shoulder. Her screams and hysteria as we headed back to the studio didnât faze me in the slightest, nor did her fists pounding against my back in an effort to free herself.
"PUT ME DOWN!" she yelled, kicking her legs and hitting my back harder. "PUT ME DOWN NOW, YOU IDIOT!"
Inside the studio, I tossed her onto the couch and pinned her down, immobilizing any movement by holding her wrists above her head. Her chest heaved erratically until our breaths became one, her darkened eyes locked on mine.
"Damn the day you crossed my path, you cursed girl!" I growled, tightening my grip on her wrists, my stomach churning inexplicably every time she curved her lips in amusement. "Have you lost your mind, pest?"
"You were so eager to touch me again that you broke your own stupid rule, didnât you?" she taunted, biting a corner of her lower lip and holding it between her teeth, eliciting a faint gasp from me. I hated when she did that. "Look at you, still the same scared little boy whenever something crosses the limits of your control."
She lifted her head slightly, and our faces blurred into one another. Instantly, my skin felt like it was sparking as if struck by invisible embers.
"You still reek of fear, Noah," she whispered, her voice maddeningly soft. God help me, it was the closest Iâd ever been to losing my mind. "And I love it."
"How is it that your entire life revolves around making mine a living hell and enjoying every second of it!"
"I won," she declared softly, almost sweetly, her jet-black eyes gleaming like polished tourmalines. "I beat you."
There was no denying the curse in her gaze. Not once had her eyes crossed paths with mine without dragging me into an abyss where I fell endlessly, with no place to land. Trapped in a trance. That was her power over me.
"There are curses that canât be broken, Noah..." she whispered, her lips brushing faintly against the skin of mine. They were dry from the sudden lack of air and the suffocating heat that had overtaken the studio in mere seconds. "No matter how much you try to avoid us during the year, every pathetic day of your life, or who wins tonight. In the end, youâll always be mine."
Her small nose grazed mine, and my eyes closed as her long, curled lashes brushed against my eyelid. Every touch seemed to amplify in intensity, as if reality had slowed to six times its normal speed, forcing my body to absorb every moment with care.
My free hand traced the side of her body, and with each advance of my fingers, counting her ribs, she gasped and reacted with her skin prickling from the sensitivity. I lifted her by placing my hand on her spine, and when I finally released her wrists, she launched herself at me, pressing our lips together in a furious kiss.
She clung to my neck as if afraid I might escape at any momentâan impossible detail when I was holding the world in my arms. The entangling of our tongues fueled the compression of our bodies. Slowly, I pushed her legs apart to wrap them firmly around my waist.
âI never disagreed with this part,â I murmured, tugging at her lower lip slowly. Pulling away swiftly, I tilted her head back, my fingers digging into her hairline, and watched as her heavy breaths colored her flushed face. I couldnât resist when her smile broke through a soft moan under the pressure I applied to her body.
Our laughter synchronized with our desperate breaths as we resumed the rhythm of our kiss. Living a scene where weâd almost killed each other moments ago seemed to ignite an even fiercer spark, fueling the silent dance of our bodies. I buried myself in her lips with such urgency, as if I might lose her again. Her lips sucked on mine as we switched sides, and I held her face firmly, pressing my thumb into her skin.
It was more than good.
Tasting something that belongs to you has a different flavor. Tracing a body you know so intimately, like running fingers over the keys of a piano; feeling at home in a familiar place; recognizing the rhythm of a breath as if it were a musical note; desiring to merge with one person's lips for the rest of your life.
It was more than good.
But it couldnât be mine.
With one last turn, I released her lips slowly. She seemed confused at first but softened as I rested my forehead against hers. Her fingers gently traced my face, making my skin tingle as if it might peel from the bones at any moment.
âI know what you're trying to doâŠâ I said quietly, as though an invisible rope tightened around my throat.
âNo, no, no, no, my loveâŠâ she repeated, holding my face as I tried to pull away. âDonât do this, please.â
âWe can kiss now, drown ourselves in this feeling that everything still belongs to us. That we still exist. I could tell you Iâve been waiting for this, and you could drown me in your lies and more promises you wonât keep,â I declared, even more agonized. âBut our problems wonât disappear when we walk through that door, and theyâll come back, forming that same chasm that tears us apart, the one we know too well. Do you know why? Because I donât want to hear you anymore, no matter what you have to say.â
âNo, donât say that.â
âBecause you havenât changed a single thing, and the proof is what youâre trying to do now, pulling me back into the same cycle again.â With the finality of my words, I stepped away from her gradually and stood up. On a chair, I noticed a shirt I assumed was Ruffiloâs and threw it at her, still staring at the ceiling in a trance. âWhy are you doing this?â
I felt like closing my own throat with my fists, such was the pain constricting it and cutting off my air. I needed to breathe in short intervals, releasing it slowly through my mouth. I watched her get up and dress while still sitting, her arms hanging limp, her disheveled hair revealing the knot she tried to swallow.
Like me.
âItâs getting harder every day to just pretend I donât care about this when everything I see, every path I try to take, every place Iâm inâeverything I amâhas you,â she said without even looking at me. âIâve never felt so alone in my entire life, and thatâs saying something, considering Iâm used to my own company. But that was before I hated everything I see in the mirror. Because sheâs the real culprit.â
âI could say I miss youâI miss you in the morning, I miss you at night, I miss you in the shower, I miss you in bed, I miss you when I eat, I miss you when Iâm on stage, I miss you when I writeâŠâ I paused for a few seconds, searching for air in the ceiling. âBecause youâre right, itâs like Iâve forgotten how to write anything good. You took everything I had, even my inspiration.â
âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry,â she repeated over and over, shaking her head. âThere isnât a day I donât feel guilty for killing that version of you and turning you into this.â
I hated myself for being moved by her tears. Were they real, or just the effect of whatever junk she was on? I didnât care; the crushing sensation was the same, like a hammer shattering a glass chest.
Taking cautious steps, I approached and knelt beside her. Hard shell, sharp tongue, and a messed-up personality, but deep down, she was just a girl afraid to go home, afraid of anything that might trap her again. She was like a damned little bird, insisting on flying with wings patched together with toothpicks after a grave injury.
"If youâre truly consumed by remorse and want to do something for me, then take care of yourself," I said softly, lifting her chin with the tip of my finger. "Keep your mind steady, your body healthy. I wish I could do that for you, because I would never treat you this way."
"I love you."
Shimmering gemstones in the salty sea of her tearsâit was the first time I heard her say it with such anguish, as if each word tore through her chest. She surprised me with a tight embrace, collapsing onto my lap, breaking down completely on my shoulders, and shattering my heart with the sound of her sobs.
Unfortunately, I returned the hug just as tightly, drowning in her hair. She wouldnât see the tears I left there.
I love you too, little storm.
Nor would she hear what I whispered to myself.
Bad Omens was on its way to Mexico.
We couldnât be more excited about a festival in a country we had yet to visit. Our Mexican fans were awesome and always tagged us in posts, asking us to come. Their day had finally arrived.
Our schedule was so packed during the three days weâd be there that weâd hardly have time to explore the city. Gerard, of course, thought that was nonsense and made it clear that if we wanted to sightsee, thatâs what vacations were for.
The guys were asleep in their seats at the back of the plane, and not even my headphones could block out Folioâs snores.
Matt, Jolly, and Ruffilo were with the rest of the crew, glued to their phones, while I⊠well, I was in my favorite spot by the window, playing a ridiculous fruit-slicing game on my iPad and listening to music.
Nothing could ruin my trip.
âExcuse me, excuse me, excuse me.â She said quickly, weaving through the people in the aisle. Her body came to a halt in front of the aisle seat, and she checked something on her phone before glancing at the seat number.
Well, I spoke too soon.
âGreat, this is my seat!â She said without much enthusiasm and, after placing her carry-on in the overhead compartment, sat down next to me.
It was impossible for her to arrive anywhere without drawing attention. She had to be noisy, bump into things, and breathe way too loudly. I kept playing as if nothing was happening and turned up the volume on my headphones.
Of course, after the conversation at the studio, things had gone back to normal. We fought like animals the next day because she insisted we should change the stage setup unnecessarily, and our brief truce resulted in another three days of silence.
I thought it was perfect.
âWhat are you listening to?â she asked, running her palm along her thigh. From her rushed tone, I guessed she was nervous.
âMusic.â
âWhat song?â she shot back with another question, and I wished for death just to avoid answering.
âHow about you grab your headphones, put them on, and stay silent for the rest of the flight while pretending this seat is empty and that Matt forgot me at the airport?â I said, glancing at her, and she didnât even flinch.
For a few seconds, that actually workedâshe stayed quiet.
But, as I said, only for a few seconds. From the corner of my eye, I saw her tapping her fingers on the torn part of her jeans. Her breathing seemed uneven, and even after sitting for a while, her body remained tense. If I knew her well enough, Iâd say she was having an anxiety attack.
âWould you mind switching seats with me?â Her fingers curled, and she pressed her palm against the armrest as the plane prepared for takeoff. âI promise to stay really quiet if you let me have the window seat.â
I pretended not to hear and kept slicing fruit on the tablet. Out of the corner of my eye again, I saw her close her eyes as the plane ascended, shrinking into her hoodie with trembling fingers peeking out of the sleeves.
I closed my eyes, sighed deeply, and shifted to stand up. She opened one eye and looked confused as I gestured with my chin for her to take the empty window seat.
âThanks.â
âDonât tell me Miss Iâm Not Afraid of Anything is still scared of flying.â I let out a chuckle, settling into my new seat.
"Ok, go ahead and call me pathetic," she replied without looking at me, her eyes fixed on the clouds over the airplane wings as she quietly counted her breaths.
"Actually, try focusing your energy on something during the flight, and itâll go by faster. Try listening to music, reading a book, orâ"
"Composing? Singing for the entire plane?" she cut in, raising an eyebrow as she turned to face me. "All terrible options. Honestly, I just get bored when Iâm sober."
I rolled my eyes and returned my attention to the tablet, as if pulling an invisible curtain between us. The more I kept my mind occupied, the faster the flight would pass, and the torture of enduring her next to me, constantly talking, would end.
"We get bored when weâre sober," she repeated, but this time with her eyes narrowing at something specific. "But weâre miserable when weâre not."
"What the hell are you talking about?"
Her eyes lit up with something sharp, like lightning, and she pulled her phone from her pocket, fingers moving rapidly until she found the notes app.
"I canât be saved," she murmured under her breath as she typed.
Carefully, I set the iPad aside and lowered the music in my headphones, watching something come to life before my eyes. She was having a burst of creativity and needed to write it down urgently.
"Watching it swirl down the drain," she continued, and my eyes narrowed as I watched her create something. It was fascinating how nothing around her seemed to existâshe was just immersed in her own thoughts.
I jumped when she suddenly shoved the phone into my hand, a sequence of jumbled phrases filling the screen. Each one had meaning but still needed to connect somehow.
So I decided to follow her inspirationâs formula.
"Old friends, the same as enemies. Iâm killing myself againâŠ" I said, finishing the sentence on her phone, filling one of the blank spaces.
"Watching it swirl down the drainâŠ" Her expression finally softened as if something clicked into place. "Down the drain."
"With all I was but couldnât change," I continued, holding her gaze before adding another note. "Down the drain."
"Down the drain," we said together, lifting our heads in surprise and holding each otherâs gaze for a few seconds.
We had just created the second song for our album. Together.
Damn it.
We couldnât be more different. We were a terrible duo playing instruments in completely disjointed orders. She always seemed to row against the current I was swimming, intentionally. And yet, it was surreal how she could take something so complex and make it look simple.
Like writing a song during an anxiety attack on a plane.
It was as if she didnât need preparation or even a warm-up because she was born with it in her veins. Because she was good.
Really good.
"Thanks," she smiled, her breathing steadying as she leaned back in her seat. "Iâm feeling better now."
"You wrote a good song."
"We wrote it," she corrected, nudging my arm with her elbow. "The first time you let yourself just listen to whatâs in your head, we made a good song. Weâre still a good team."
She looked so beautiful that, for a moment, I almost didnât hear what she said, too focused on her bare face. The curve of her lips when she smiled was almost painful to look at up close, every time I remembered that just a few days ago, Iâd tasted her again.
"Now that youâre feeling better, you can leave me in peace," I cut her off, turning up the music on my phone.
I was almost drifting off to sleep, guitar riffs running through my mind, when something poked my arm.
"Do you mind holding my hand?" My eyes opened, and there she was, looking at me with a pair of glistening gems. It was strange seeing her afraid, something Iâd only witnessed a few times before. "Just until we land, please."
Slowly, I turned my palm upward and waited for her to slide her fingers over mine and interlace them. Unlike mine, her hand was soft and warm, and I couldnât resist the involuntary motion of running my thumb slowly along the side.
Once again, I was doing what she wanted because maybe she was right when she said I was pathetic.
And I couldnât wait for this plane to land already.
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btw similar to the whole "if you try adderall at a party and it calms you down, get an adhd test" thing, if at some point in your life you try microdosing shrooms with a friend and end up feeling like a functional person for the first time in your life, get tested for depression. like yeah hallucinogens come with elation so youre probably gonna have some "this is the best ive ever felt in my life" vibes regardless, but like. if that in and of itself feels like finally breathing in for the first time in years, thats for sure a sign that something is up with your ability to process serotonin most of the time. feeling better than ever before should be a nice bonus, not a crushing weight off your chest
#fun fact there are currently multiple ongoing studies vis a vis the effectiveness of psilocybin on depression#both on its own and as a companion to ssris#psylocybin targets the 5ht2a serotonin receptors which wikipedia tells me are more numerous in the brains of those with depression#so like. if you spend most of your life feeling like your brain is an aquarium with a leak in it and serotonin is the water and your default#state is 'slightly damp gravel grinding painfully against itself' thats ummm not normal đ#and on the flipside of that if you have depression that no other med has worked for and know a guy. its 1000% worth it#origibberish#also i say 'wikipedia tells me' as if i just looked it up but that all comes from a long night of spite filled research after i asked my#psychiatrist if we could use the fact that psylocybin worked for me as a basis to like. narrow down which legal antidepressant#might work instead of basically just throwing darts at a board every time#and after several minutes explaining to her that i was not just asking her to prescribe me shrooms but in a legal way she went#'ohhhh yeah no unfortunately theres been no research into thatâ yeah.... sorry......:)'#which. as far as 'lies you come up with on the spot to avoid having to say i dont know' goâ that is. maybe the worst one to pick#like. 'noâ thats not an option'? alright fine maybe theres some internal rules or something who knows#'theres no research' though just. immediately tanks any and all credibility 100% even on its own but considering the subject matter?#youre telling me. that humans. the famously curious species that researches fucking Everything. and also Loves playing with drugs. when#trying to figure out how to make drugs that make brains feel good. would not start with the drugs they already knew made brains feel good.#youre telling me that not one (1) singular scientist tried shrooms and went 'oh my god wait. i dont feel like im dying for the first time#ever. holy fuck i need to study this'#complete misplay. absolutely legendary fumble. there were so many ways to fuck it up and somehow you found the worst. congratulations#om the other hand though. really was an excellent setup for the punchline that is the voicemail i have from them saying she'd been fired LOL#they didnt say what for specifically but yknow. based on my own experiences i certainly have theories jebfksbfk#it was annoying in the moment but at the end of the day i have shrooms and she doesnt have the job so. whos laughing now emily KSBFKSBFKDN#this is what i mean though like. rn i feel fine. not on top of the worldâ not like a god#just. fine. i just dont feel like shit. i feel like i can do stuff if i want toâ or chill peacefully and have it actually be. relaxing.#i dont feel like gravel right nowâ i feel like a person.#and god what a fucking relief it is#really i guess the moral overall is that if at any point you react to trying a new drug the same way an addict craving a hit for days would#then there maybe is something up with your brain chemistry because that means your default state of existence is comparable to that#of withdrawal. a famously shit experience
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sometimes i miss talking to that one person who didn't NEVER turned it into a competition about who has it worse and never told me well atleast you have [x]
#weirdly i think she was the only one#my irl bestie called and was ranting about her miserable life and#it's the exact same thing ive been going through for years her parents won't let her move to another city#she can't make friends here she hates it here her parents are being overbearing and don't understand the importance of socialising#with people her age and they tell her to just hang out with her family all day and don't give her privact#like. okay. i love her ive been listening to her complain about how her mom comes into her room sometimes. and just#i was okay listening to it okay im no judge for how someone's feeling and my bad might be their worst#but then she goes like well atleast you'll know you'll get to move out after you finish your degree for a job#like. wow okay. atleast you got to enjoy 3 years of college at the coolest city in india atleast you got to have vibrant life experiences#and learned so much about the world made tons of friends visited a hundred places had a boyfriend#went to clubs increased your netword learned how to be street smart and talk well#i hate to be resentful ofcoursr im happy for her and ofc i understand this is a hard time#but like god seriously. she'll never know what it feels like think you'll live your life as you pass 12th because they let your elder siste#go to college and she had the best times and then suddenly you're 17 and they twll you well actually we made a mistake and we won't repeat#it ever so you're just gonna stay home where we watch you 24/7 and ww won't even let you go to classes that have somewhat okayish people#because you can't have friends because they'll distract you from your studies#and she'll never know what it's like working towards a dream everyday that seems so fucking faw away and unreachable#when you're not even good at studying and especially focusing because yeah parents fucked you up majorly!!#like im sorry but try being completely hopeless and alone and isolated losing your friends one by one watching everyone#grow and find themselves as you rot in your room try to do better try to find happiness but it's impossible it's never enough#and try to study for a really fucking hard course in the middle of all that#and then tell me that atleast ill get to go out after i finish#like seriously try fucking living my life for one day and then talk#god i know ive become resentful and bitter because of a thing in my childhood but i don't know how to stop#ugh i never should've picked up the phone i was studying so well before that#anyway. i miss talking to that one person who was sensitive and sweet and encouraging always yk#i miss hearing i completely understand you because im going through the same things (def worse imo) and we'll get through this together#man.#chappell roan was so right actually i hate that i let this go on for so long now i hate myself
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Just because the now is not perfect doesnt mean it can't be good.
If you have no friends why not enjoy the time with yourself?
Have a date with yourself. Do what you think makes you happy.
Drink some tea or coffee as music in the background plays.
Play games, read, sleep, maybe even draw! You do you.
It is a small comfort a short amount of time to sit back and think.
Maybe I am worth it. Maybe this I am enough.
Times may get though but it doesnt mean you can't relax and step back even just a little bit.
#nightblogging#comfort I guess?#comfort#exams is shit so here words of wisdom by me#enjoy the little things#rambling hehe#life might not be good right now but we have a long life who knows what might happen?#maybe one day you will think#maybe this is enough for now#maybe i am enough#so live not just survive#GOOD DAY AND GOODNIGHT IMMA GO TAKE A NAP!
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LOVER'S QUARREL
- fushiguro megumi x reader
âi can't do this anymore.â you and megumi are just too different; he's stoic, you're bubbly, he prefers solitude, you love being social. it starts with fights, words you don't mean, and ends with an event that would haunt him for a long time to come.
genre/warnings: angst, breaking up, post-breakup feelings, mentions and description of injury and blood, hurt/comfort, fluff in the end (you make up!)
note: dear god iâm finally getting this out of my drafts. loosely inspired by real life events iâve seen around my friendâs relationship sooo it might hurt a bit đ€đ» but who can say no to angst to eventual fluff? tagging @lees-chaotic-brain and @kasumitenbaz (as per request in the ask!), you two are always here for my megumi works, thank you!! :3 and thank you for dropping by for the event!
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Everyone pointed it out as a joke, that you liked him way more than he did you.
And you used to never let it ruffle you. To you, Megumiâs sternness and silence meant that he was comfortable with you. You never wanted him to change his ways just because now you were seeing each other.
But when you thought it over now, as you stood before him with an aghast expression and knives stabbing your kind, soft heart, you couldnât help but do a double-take.
You were the one who confessed first. Most of the time, you were the one who initiated dates. You always texted him first, asking about his day, and even when he brushed you off, you would keep being this ball of sunshine and wished him a good day.
You never realized it before⊠that through everything, it has always been you. Unfailingly.
So how dare he spout this now?
âI can't do this anymore.â
"You... can't?" you spat out, feeling the first tendrils of anger course through you. "What exactly it is that you can't do? What do you even mean?"
"Look," Megumi stared at you squarely, and you thought now, that it was the coldest of eyes, straight and true. "It's always been like this between us lately. It's only right that we end this."
This, he said. He didn't even want to define your relationship anymore.
You scoffed. "And why do you think we always end up this way? Have you ever considered, even once, that it's because you make no effort at all?"
"I'm trying," Megumi quickly replied, almost in a hiss, and you almost recoiled. "But I just see that we'll end up nowhere, that's why I'm bringing this up now."
Oh, that freaking hurts. You boyfriend had just told you that this relationship would go nowhere. Right in your face.
Your eyes stung with tears, yet you fought to hold them back, fixing your gaze on the lamp overhead and inhaling deeply.
"You're... selfish," you stated, filled with ire. "You're always walking around eggshells around me, never telling me what is it that you really wantâ"
Megumi's unclouded eyes fixed on your trembling form. "We just disagree on a lot of things. You know it and it bothers you. It bothers me too. Rather than forcing our relationship, I think it's betterâ"
"It's always me!" you yelled then, lips quivering and eyes watering, unable to hold your emotions back any longer. "All dates, lunchesâeverything!" you locked your eyes with him, in mocking disbelief. "How can you say you're trying when, in truth, I'm the one putting in so much for us?!"
In that very second, Megumi thought that he hated seeing you like this. You were supposed to be the cheerful one in this relationship, and when he agreed to go out with you, he made an unspoken commitment to himself that he would at least not make you miserable.
And yet...
"...I'm sorry."
Came his reply, and you were sure that this was it.
And to rub the salt in your wound, he added, "I can't lie to you and say I haven't thought this for a while too."
As tears welled within you, you wondered and questioned what you lacked that led to this. However, the overwhelming sense of betrayal consuming your thoughts ultimately prevailed over any other emotions.
Now he could've appeared before you as a stranger and you wouldn't bat an eye, as the cold steel in his tone said, "And if blaming me is what it takes to make you feel better, then so be it."
You couldn't pinpoint the source of your sudden boldness, but in the next hot minute, you marched past him, your shoulder harshly colliding with his in a deliberate, almost spiteful mannerâwhich, indeed, was your intentionâand then you ran.
Which led to the next scene: you found yourself bawling your eyes out in the girls' lavatory.
Yuji and Nobara saw everything unfolding right before their eyes. They hadn't meant to eavesdrop, but you and Megumi were literally breaking up right the middle of their shared classroom, and it was hard not to follow the discourse until the end.
"Are you okay?" Nobara had come to your side, ensuring privacy by locking the restroom door out of your consideration. You were a sobbing mess, attempting to wipe the overflowing tears away while letting out all your emotions.
"He's..." Your voice faltered amid sobs as you gazed at your steadfast friend, your throat clogging up. "He said... he's been wanting t-to... break up with m-me..."
"That's okay, that's okay..." Nobara brought you to her arms, patting your back in reassurance. "Fushiguro is insensitive like that... don't cry over him now. He's just a wimp, okay?"
"Why is it me?" you asked her, voice brittle, still shaking with tears. "I t-tried everything! Being the supportive girlfriend..."
"If he can't appreciate what you did, then the problem lies with him," your friend stated, traces of irritation brewing in her resolute gaze. And as she firmly grasped your wrist, her next words resonated. "Not you."
. . .
"Do you really have to break her heart like that?" Yuji fidgeted with his hoodie, staring at his best friend with a blend of confusion and sympathy.
Megumi sighed, finally ruffling his hair into a mess, as if expressing his own state of mind. âThis is for the best.â
Yujiâs eyebrows visibly creased. âHow is this âfor the bestâ? Sheâs miserable, and youâŠâ he assessed him, scanning him from head to toe, âit doesnât seem youâre faring any better too.â
âThe longer she is with me, the unhappier she will be.â Megumi glanced at the bathroomâs direction. âShe can deserve better.â
He was always too quiet, too boring, not able to match your energy too. He couldnât fault you for expecting more, whereas he was just not exactly built for your expectations.
Megumi really thought he wanted it to end. At one point, it even felt like a chore, butâŠ
How strange. Why did it feel like something was clawing at his chest?
Time heals. Megumi knew that by theory, but he really did see it firsthand when he saw you all giggling and happy again three weeks after he initiated the breakup.
With Hakari.
âYo, what are you glaring at?â Panda asked, but Megumi didnât pay him any mind.
An upperclassman, Hakari Kinji, was naturally cool and talented. He was laid back, knew how to have funâall in all, a total opposite of Fushiguro Megumi altogether.
Three weeks. Itâs only been three weeks since then.
âMegumi?â
Wait⊠Arenât three weeks too fast to get over your ex?
âMegumi!â
âHuh?â he turned to the sentient panda with a jerk. âOh, what is it?â
He looked at him with a concerned gaze. "Why do you look so scary? It's almost as if you're about to punch someone..."
But who was he to argue? He had no right to be upset now.
"Is it Kinji?" Panda gasped, finally putting two and two together when he followed his line of sight. "Oh Megumi... but youâ"
"Just shut up, please," he blurted then, a hint of annoyance in his tone. With that, Panda didn't pursue it further, leaving him with his thoughts.
From where he was at the field, he could clearly see your radiant smile for Hakari. It was clear that the two of you shared a degree of friendship, but Megumi never knew that you two were that close.
...huh?
Why did the sight irritate him so suddenly? Why did his chest twinge again?
What a fool. You're the one driving her away, you idiot.
Suddenly these memories popped up one by oneâ
Of you suddenly hugging him from behind in an attempt to surprise him.
How he pressed his lips on the crown of your head when you fall asleep on his shoulder.
How you would give him that dopey smile when he pulled you close.
But on harder days after missions gone wrong, heâd ignore you altogetherâ the slight disappointment in your smile then. How your expression fell when he told you to go. How you slumped and looked back in hopes of him changing his mind.
âHaaaah.â Megumi turned away, unwilling to keep watching you any longer. Why? Why hadnât it occurred to him before now?
Why did he long for you now? Why not before, when you were still his?
They were right. It seems people tend to desire what isn't meant for them.
What could have been more painfully awkward than being sent into a mission with your ex-boyfriend?
You would kill Gojo for this. Or at least give him the lowest possible score in his teaching evaluation for the year. How could he? Your breakup was an infamous public spectacle, so this setup was undoubtedly intentional!
You were losing your head over this, and yet your ex-boyfriend...
"Keep your guard up," Megumi reminded curtly, in a warning tone. He looked as vigilant and straight as always, as if he wasn't even bothered.
You threw him a dirty look, offended. "You don't have to tell me twice."
This just cranked up the discomfort to an excruciating level. The mix of unresolved tension and memoriesâokay, you might be an emo, but how were you supposed to be cool with all of these hanging in the air?
Your site of exorcism was an abandoned warehouse, and the cursed spirit in question was supposed to be a grade 3. You two were grade 2 sorcerers now, so you were a perfect fit to exorcise it. But there was indeed this unease in the air that you couldn't put your finger to.
"Isn't it awfully too quiet?" you unwittingly muttered, staring at the darkness of the wall. You couldn't feel any cursed energy belonging to any possible malevolent entity, and that was what unsettled you the most.
Megumi frowned at your line of sight. "It is. Stay close."
You blinked at what he said, and before you knew it, the familiar scent of him being near to you made your entire body burst with this equally familiar warmth. When you looked up to him, seeing the solid sharpness in that dark eyes of his and his jaw set, dead butterflies in your chest rose back to life again, against your heartbreak and better judgement.
Stay close, he said... So he is worried...
And in an attempt to hide how flustered you were, you looked down.
You walked a few good steps, when suddenly he asked, "So, are you with Hakari-senpai now?"
"Huh?" You spun around, your expression a mix of surprise and confusion.
"You two seem close."
Seem close? Seem close... wait, so Megumi had noticed...?
Suddenly, you felt incited and it made you angry. "That's none of your business," your voice carried a sharp edge, hissing. And you knew you were being a bit mean by adding, "You broke up with me, so why do you even care?"
In that moment, Megumi could've sworn his chest throbbed. Your cutting tone pierced directly into his heart, lodging itself there.
You had all rights to be annoyed, and he knew that. Why did that question even slip out of him?
"Nah, nevermind," he mumbled in response, looking away.
Awkwardness lingered afterwards. You hated this, but no, you weren't above being petty. He had broken your heart and it still stung even now. If your intentionally biting words did to him even a fraction of what he made you feel, then you would find a small sense of satisfaction in it.
But you weren't able to ponder about your mess of feelings further when Megumi abruptly yanked your arm, his voice soaking with urgency, "It's here!"
Sure enough, the grotesque cursed spirit with the shape of a giant bee broke through the walls with a bang. The two of you immediately readied your fighting stance. Megumi was ready with his divine dogs, while you with your cursed weapon.
For a while, you engaged the cursed spirit with all you had. You were trying to focus on the enemy, but you couldn't help but notice the way Megumi always looked at you every few seconds, checking for any signs of injury or harm.
Frankly speaking, he trusted your strength and knew that you were a capable sorcerer. You had been paired in a mission before and he knew both your potential and shortcomings. It was just there was something about this place that had his senses on high alert.
And his fears were proven true when you yelped and were flung onto the grimy floor. "Y/N!"
"I'm fine!" you shouted in a rush, scrambling to your feet. However, as you spun towards him, your scream tore through the hall as you caught sight of the bee lurking behind him. "Megumi!"
He got distracted. The bee quickly latched onto him and almost stung him, until he wrestled it off and summoned Nue and exorcised it.
You went to his side that instant. "Are you okay?!"
"I am." But then he winced and almost fell on his knees if you didn't have a secure grip on him. He savored your touch and breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that now you two were safe.
"Megumi! Oh god!" Panic surged through you as you pulled him close. His side was bleeding, and you widened your eyes at the sight.
"I'm okay, I promise," he rasped, looking you in the eyes. "What aboâ"
Then you saw it, the flicker from deep from that corner of platform, and suddenly, you grasped the source of the unease that had been lingering within you all this time. It wasn't the bee Megumi had just exorcisedâ
At that moment, there was no room for thought, one thing was certain: you didn't want him to get hurt more.
He didn't manage to finish his sentence when suddenly you pushed him away with so much force he never thought you had. Everything crashed so suddenly, he didn't have the time to brace himself or grab you with him, as another cursed bee appeared out of nowhere andâ
Reality flashed before his eyes as he stared at you in sheer horror. At how the cursed spirit tore your body, sinking its hollow stinger in you.
You didn't really know what happened next. Everything was muffledâthe frantic movements around you turned into a blur, along with Megumi's yells. Otherworldly pain coursed through your entire being and your ears rang, then everything in your line of sight became distorted and faded, along with your consciousness. Next and the last thing you knew was Megumi's battered face, a final imprint before you succumbed to the void.
Megumi had exorcised the remaining cursed spirit and staggered to his feetâfalling a few times, but he made his way towards you through gritted teeth. You are hurt. He forced himself to get to you and pull you into his arms.
And suddenly, suddenly, nothing mattered anymore as overwhelming terror consumed him upon seeing you. Blood streamed from your abdomen so much that it made a continuous pool.
"You stupidâ!" He choked out, voice hitching. You were no longer conscious and it devastated him even more. "Hey, hey? Wake upâhellsâ"
You, who did everything you could to save your relationship. You, who cried tears for him when he blatantly broke your heart. And you, who put himself firstâand now facing the consequences.
It crashed upon him in that very second, the clarity. What was he thinking back then? He still loves you.
"If you die on me, I won't forgive you."
Megumi scooped you in his arms, pressing you close to his chest, the blood seeping from his wound be damned as he looked at your serene face. His heart shattered in the worst way possible and he almost wheezed at the sticky sensation of your bloodâand how lifeless you felt in his graspâbut he willed it away.
"Don't," his broken rasp echoed the walls as he took each step to get both of you out of this hellhole. He winced and hissed at his own injury, chewing his lip in frustration, at how helpless he was.
"Don't leave me."
It was like a distant, hazy memory.
Was it a memory though? No. It seemed far too real for that.
The throbbing headache pounding through your skull and shivers that wracked your body pulled you back to reality. There was a heavy pressure on your abdomen and any movement sent sharp pain shooting through you.
You gradually opened your eyes, squinting against the brightness. You were in a hospital gown, an IV was injected on your arm, and the sterile scent made your stomach twist, as nausea creeping through your guts. Your vision was still blurry as you tried to look around to find someone who waited for you. As you slowly turned your head to the side, you saw him, sitting in the chair right next your bed.
Megumi was sleeping in such uncomfortable position, his head resting on the edge of your bed. He appeared peaceful, almost childlike, devoid of his usual stoic demeanor.
Your heartstrings were tugged at this rare sight. He also sustained injuries and yet... he was waiting for you to wake up, here.
Your chest swelled with warmth, which was quickly followed by a sting of heartbreak. Still, you two broke up...
You jolted, and the inadvertent movement sent a wave of pain that seemed to paralyze your nerves, causing you to whimper. The noise woke Megumi from his slumber, as he shot his eyes open in alarm, catching your hand in his.
"Hey... Are you okay?" Megumi worriedly looked down at you with a visible frown, and the grimace of pain on your face, accompanied by trembling lips, was enough of an answer. He hastily scrambled out in slight panic, "I'll get Ieiri-san."
When Shoko came and got you the painkillers, your pain receded somewhat. Through it all, Megumi stood there, casting concerned glances in your way.
"Bedrest for the week," Shoko stated firmly, assessing your wound with a no-nonsense expression. "Your injury isn't minorâit's serious enough that you're strongly advised against excessive movement."
You could only nod in response. Megumi bowed. "Thank you, Ieiri-san." Once the doctor departed, silence settled over the room once more.
âWhy did you do that?â he quietly asked then, referring to what you did for him. And when you turned to him, you saw it clearly.
He looked pale, and there was this haunted look in his eyes. It broke your heart a little.
"You were hurt." Your voice came out dry, and you realized firsthand just how parched you were. Seeing Megumi looking down never quite sat right with you. He was meant to be an unwavering presence, someone strong enough to sway your convictions.
However, a pang struck when he countered with stern eyes, "You didn't have to do that."
...he was right. You didn't have to. What he didn't know was that you were still holding on these stupid feelings, which drove you to shield him. It made you ponder: if your roles were reversed, would he not step in to protect you at all?
"Why are you here?" You weren't sure if the bitterness in your tone was evident, but you continued anyway. "You don't have to be here either."
"Don't have to?" His gaze bore disbelief, as if not believing your words. "I'mâ"
"If it's because I saved you, Megumiâ"
âDo not even think, even for a moment, that I wonât be concerned over you.â His voice, deep and hoarse, struck you to the core, silencing your words. âNever. I always, always want you to be safe.â
Your mind became a blank slate. Suddenly, all that mattered was his voice.
"Don't you realize how terrifying it was? Seeing you like that?" Megumi spat, his green eyes shining with intensity, teeth gritted and fists clenched. "How could you even think that I wouldn't be hereâ" his breath hitched, and then his lips trembled slightly, "âfor you?"
You blinked quickly, a feeling stirred within youâstemming from that cursed, fragile heart of yours to be exact, evident from the rapid thumping in your chest.
You dumbly uttered, "But we areâ"
"Oh, Goddamnit." Megumi cursed, and honestly you were taken aback. It wasn't really in him to swear, so this really bugged him. He ran a hand through his hair in frustration, and despite the situation, your heart skipped a beat at the sight. Even a mess in a hospital gown, your ex-boyfriend was still undeniably attractive.
He stared at you squarely in the eye, unflinching, steadfast and true, the very image of Fushiguro Megumi you admired from afar and fell in love with in the first place half a year ago. "You don't have to... say anything, if you don't want to. Right now... just hear me out."
And the things he said next... all of them, you could say, caught you entirely off guard.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not trying hard enough, andâdamn it, for making you sad. I never, ever wanted to see you that upset."
Megumi drew in a sharp breath, averting his gaze. "And for days, I've wondered if you and Hakari-senpai are now a thing... and you know what? I hate it so much. I know I have no grounds to feel this way, after what I did, but..."
And like a train wreck, his final words hit you hard. Tears welled up in your eyes in immediate response.
âI'm a loser, and a coward too, maybe,â he shrugged, a tinge of self-deprecation in his tone. âAnd I suck at telling people my feelings, but I love you. I still do.â
A sob slipped out of your throat and you hastily pulled the blanket over your face, much to his surprise. He thought he had worsened things, with the way you were turning away from him.
But then, from beneath the blanket, in a croaky voice, you proclaimed, "Fushiguro Megumi, you're a complete and utter idiot."
And Megumi didn't know that he had been holding back his breath as he chuckled heartily, relieved that you would still take his ass back after this prolonged mess. He knew he still had a lot to make up for and was determined to show it through his actions.
"Maybe I am, yeah."
"That's possibly the longest shit you have ever spouted in one breath."
"Yeah..."
But he got his chance back, and he knew that you would be alright. Both of you are.
On one sunny day...
"Hey, are you alone?"
Megumi glanced up from his phone, only to be met with a random girl standing in front of him, batting her eyelashes with an ambiguous intent. He blinked at her curiously.
"No. Can I help you?"
The girl twirled her hair suggestively. "Ah, you see... I see you all in your lonesome and I think you're quite cuteâ"
The hell? Megumi frowned, and he was really about to give this bimbo a piece of his mind whenâ
Oh, oh. Forget that. Megumi's attention snapped to you on the opposite side of the crossroad. All pretty and dolled up with that crop tee and miniskirt he once mentioned would look great on you by a slip of tongueâthat accidental comment earned him your teasing quips for weeks already.
"Sorry, I'm here for my girlfriend. Bye."
Abruptly dismissing the girl, he didn't catch how comically offended she was for being turned down in a span of 20 seconds. He took big strides towards you, as you crossed the street, and you immediately beamed when you caught the sight of his face.
"Megumi!"
Ah, this is going to be a good day, he thought. As he gazed at your pretty face, and caught your hand in his, clasping it tightly, reveling in your scent and the warmth of your presence beside himâ
He was content, and once again it dawned on him, that he likes you so, so damn much.
"Let's get started on our date, shall we?"
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#WE ARE SO BACK DUDE#MAN#this is like the first good night i've had in a while#goddamn it i fucking hate being an adult and it's something that's frustrated me in a way i don't know how to express for so fucking long#being able to admit that to myself and just say it out loud feels so fucking good. I do not want to do adult shit. i do not want to pretend#to be normal fuck everything and everybody i fucking hate being an adult i hate careers and social niceties fuck everything#god i fucking hate everything and im so happy to be able to say that again. life fucking sucks and thats it#oh my god ive been stuck in a positivity puddle for so long i hate it. complaining and hating is my lifee i will never stop#just oh my god it's so hard to be alive all the time and nobody ever talks about it and just expects you to do everything right all the tim#We are not going to fucking make it dude. what else is there. can we do something else#i feel so expected to just do things right all the time and i feel like people can see that and just make fun of me for existing all the ti#i fucking hate it! literally all of that shit makes me want to die. but like yeah like oh my god putting all of that down might fix me#we'll see. oh god the pokemon video looms large. im on gen 4 but i've been hardcore procrastinating on it. i'm just so done with all the sh#MAN i feel like a real person again i feel like i can breathe. i have been so frustrated w my friends and family for the longest time#and now i just feel like oh. yeah. literally none of this bullshit is necessary. why am i letting all these people tell me how to live#Who cares if im alone who cares if someones watching who cares if people like me i am alone i am happy i am doing what i want#like if i meet my goals and i feel like im doing what i think i should be doing then who cares. i'm having the experiences i want to have#and that's enough. it was always enough. and anybody who says it isn't should get over it. im fine. why are you trying to make me not fine#ok im done im done i just wnated to pour all this out. it feels a little cheesey but legitimately most nights to me feel like they dont mat#and this one is one that for the first time in a long felt like it finally did
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i dont know how three years could be over in a week i dont know i dont know i dont know i dont know how that could happen i dont know how i could let it. all i know is id do anything to get it back
#whatever man. it just hurts everything just hurts it always hurts#everythings changing and its awful but i always thought i could rely on them#and its not their fault if i cant right now but the fact that they wont even let themselves rely on me after i offer it#its just. i wish this world didnt have to involve so much loss abd pain#three years is so long but it doesnt feel long enough#im going to have to live through 20 three years in my lifetime. more maybe#all of it just feels so bleak now. like idk how im going to get through all of that. idk#im just. im always too much to deal with i always become too much. it just hurts more when you become too much after three years#of thinking you knew someone who despite all your worries you where never too much for#i hate it. i hate it i dont know what to do#and it was so easy to talk with them they where so understanding and kind and good to me#and just. we could have conversations so easily and talk about anything it was like something just fit#you dont know how hard that is to find as this messed up autistic kid with sm damage#and now im scared ill never find it again#and theres just this. huge gap in my life where that used to be. and i dont know what to do about it#i dont know when ill ever not just feel this big emptiness . i think it might be there for life#flappy rambles
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announcement || mv33
â summary: max and his private wife have been keeping a big secret
â pairing: max verstappen x private!nonfamous!wife!reader
â fc & warnings: amata alp & mentions of pregnancy
â requested: yes! thank you for your patience đ«¶đ»
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maxverstappen1: glad youâre with y/bff tho i do wish you were here my love
ynverstappen: i wish i was there too. i hate having to miss your races
maxverstappen1: i know you do sweetheart but youâve got big things to worry about right now đ€
ynverstappen: i know i just wish you were here to worry about them with me!
ynverstappen: ugh iâm sorry i know you have no choice in the matter
maxverstappen1: donât apologize liefje. i know this is not like the easiest time for me to be away! i will be home so soon so i can help take care of you
carmenmundt: y/n where have you beeeeeeen itâs been so long!!
ynverstappen: been very busy with work and with holding down the fort here in monaco!! i hope to be back at some races soon đ€
alexandrasaintmleux: gorgeous girl i miss you
ynverstappen: i miss you too babes
yourbff: my baby
ynverstappen: my girl
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f1gossip: during todays redline stream the chat was flooded with questions about the whereabouts of y/n verstappen who has been absent from the paddock for the past couple of months. while y/n is relatively private and we donât usually get many social media updates from her outside of her interior design firmâs posting, she almost never misses the opportunity to support max on a race weekend let alone several in a row. max assured the chat that y/n was ok and that she was just taking some time to herself and that sheâd be back in the paddock soon enough. what do you all make of this?
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user1: iâm so glad y/nmax are fine
user2: you could even hear her in the background at one point asking max what he wanted for dinner!! glad we are getting some crumbs
user4: omg ok good!! i thought that was her but couldnât tell
user3: i was about to email her interior design firm to ask if she was ok thank god max updated us
user4: walk with me here guysâŠ. what if we havenât seen her bc sheâsâŠâŠ pregnant???
user6: oh my god you might be on to something!! they have been married for almost 2 years now
user7: no this is so believable!!! theyâd make the best parents
user5: y/nâs ability to stay under the radar and unbothered is incredible
user8: y/n is the coolest wag i wish she was chronically online like so many of the others
user7: ugh fr!! i wish we could follow her on literally anything đ
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francisca.cgomes: are you redoing part of your house? is this why youâve been so busy and i havenât seen my best friend for WEEKS
ynverstappen: partially yes!! we are redoing the spare room. BUT youâll see me this weekend for my party kiks
francisca.cgomes: and my god i canât wait!! i miss you
ynvertsappen: i miss you too
landonorris: plans for what?
ynverstappen: idk đ€·đ»ââïž
landonorris: liar!
maxverstappen1: theyâre going to have the sweetest room đ€
ynverstappen: yes they are đ€ iâm so proud of how itâs turning out
georgerussell63: the đ€ makes this feel like iâm on the outside of an inside joke
ynverstappen: you just might be georgie!!
georgerussell63: well what does that even mean
yourbff: i am brimming with excitement i canât wait for you to tell everyone this weekend
ynverstappen: me too!! keeping this secret has been so tough but ultimately itâs been really nice to have something thatâs just for me and max even if just for a short while
yourbff: no i totally get that y/n/n!! max has to share his life with the whole world so im sure itâs nice to have those private moments
yoursibling: i need you to facetime me when you tell carmen and kika bc theyâre going to lose their minds
ynverstappen: oh i absolutely will
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ynverstappen: iâm so glad all my favorite people could come celebrate the news đ©· baby verstappen due in january đ€ mommy and daddy love you endlessly already đ
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carmenmundt: i canât wait to be an aunty!!! best news ever đ€
ynverstappen: and i canât wait for you to be an aunty!! baby v is going to be so loved
carmenmundt: they already are!!
francisca.cgomes: canât believe my favorite person in the world is going to be a mom đ„č
ynverstappen: love you kika đ„č
maxverstappen1: đđ©·
ynverstappen: đđ
iamrebeccad: youâre going to make the perfect mom
ynverstappen: i really hope so đ€
georgerussell63: blimey! i canât wait to meet the little one!!
ynverstappen: only 3 more months!!
landonorris: uncle lando is reporting for duty
ynverstappen: baby v is going to love their uncle lan!!
maxverstappen1: baby v is already lucky to have you mate
alexandrasaintmleux: the most beautiful maman đ€
ynverstappen: donât make me cry again đ
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maxverstappen1: grateful for moments like these away from the track. next week is race week again in vegas but for now, enjoy some family photos đ€
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user1: my favorite couple maybe ever
user3: y/n sign of life!!
user4: sticking to my delulu and thinking he said family bc sheâs having a baby
landonorris: see you all soonđ€
ynverstappen: see you soon lannyyyyyy
user4: heâs feeding into my delusions hereâŠ. bc why did he say you all instead of you both
user6: omg does this mean y/n will be in vegas????
ynverstappen: i love our little family đ«¶đ»
maxverstappen1: me too gorgeous
user2: not me crying over this post?? the heart shaped pizzas sent me over the edge
redbullracing: looking forward to seeing you back on track!
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maxverstappen1: i have a tracker on your flight. i think the anxiety of you and the little one being on a plane without me is going to eat me alive
ynverstappen: we will be ok maxie i promise!! im on air max, itâs safe here
maxverstappen1: it is but also iâm not there so itâs not as safe as it could be
ynverstappen: my sweet boy, take a deep breath. you have quali soon
maxverstappen1: yes yes yes iâm breathing deeply
francisca.cgomes: well thank GOD i need you in the paddock
ynverstappen: pls come stay in rb hospitality w me
francisca.cgomes: for you i will just donât tell pierre
charlesleclerc: on a scale of 1-10 how stressed is max
ynverstappen: 16
redbullracing: we canât wait to see you!!
iamrebeccad: yayayayayayya!!!!!!!
ynverstappen: đđđđđđ
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maxverstappen1: for all of you wondering where y/n has beenâŠ. needless to say weâve both been a little busy getting ready to welcome baby verstappen. only a few more months till the little one makes us a family of 3 đ€
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user1: best news ever!!!!
user4: i knew it!!! omg đ„č
charlesleclerc: congratulations mate! i am so excited for you both
maxverstappen1: thank you charles đ baby v is so lucky to have an uncle like you
user16: im violently sobbing over this interaction you donât understand
redbullracing: having a mini rb20 made for baby v as we speak
ynverstappen: oh gosh admin no
maxverstappen1: admin yes!!
redbullracing: uh oh awkward
landonorris: yayyyyyy!!!!!!!! i canât wait to babysit!!
ynverstappen: youâre going to be the best babysitter ever
user7: she is glowing
user9: max and y/n are going to make the most beautiful parents
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f1gossip: here to share a recap of maxâs first interview since announcing y/nâs pregnancy mere minutes after qualifying. he said he wanted to announce it before sunday because y/n was absolutely adamant about being in the paddock for vegas and there was no hiding her baby bump at 6 months. max said âi canât wait to be a dad! itâs honestly something iâve been dreaming of for years and iâm so grateful to my beautiful wife for giving me the greatest gift.â
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user2: this is by far the happiest iâve ever seen max and i am crying
user4: i love max and y/n so much i cant
user15: the way he talked about their baby ??? he already loves that little one so much
user18: i think having a baby is healing his inner child
user3: i love love love love love these 2
user19: crying screaming throwing up
user20: project verstappen!! lfg!!! next wdc champion incoming
user5: her refusing to miss another race is so real of her
user8: thank god sheâs gonna be back in the paddock max needs her luck
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AU where instead of Shen Yuan being obsessed with Luo Binghe, he's instead obsessed with the scum villain himself. I mean we all know Bingge is Very Not Good Personâą but you know who else a Very Not Good Personâą? Say it with me: Shen Jiu
Like just imagine a timeline where Shen Yuan is writing paragraph after paragraph about how Shen Qingqiu might actually be a good person but Airplane is wasting his potential. The other commenters are saying he's delusional because he abused the protagonist and as all these TERRIBLE allegations towards him. So he's a clear cut villain.
But Shen Yuan is defending his fav with the vigor of a devout worshipper. He's constantly siting parts that are obvious plot holes and how they could give much needed context to Shen Qingqiu's character.
Other people are demanding for worst things to happen to Shen Qingqiu to spite him. Airplane caves. Shen Yuan actively commissions art and fics where Shen Qingqiu is happy. People tell him "Shen Qingqiu won't fuck you bro"
Shen Yuan isn't interested in that. He's a freaky little man with freaky little likes. He'd gladly take Shen Qingqiu's cold glares and even volunteer to have tea poured on him.
When he finishes PIDW, he's been outraged that Shen Qingqiu was killed off a while back. He's even more outraged that Shen Qingqiu wasn't given any mention at the end.
Now, imagine with me that he gets transmigrated into some NPC, literally Unimportant Character No°5. Probably as the head disciple for drama reasons. And as soon as Shen Jiu is brought in, scruffy and hissing as he is. He immediately hugging his thighs and saying he'll be peak lord for sure.
Please follow me into this suspicious alleyway as I continue to explain my vision fueled by sleep deprivation.
So now imagine your Shen Jiu. You're a former street rat and demonic cultivator, you aren't expecting to be liked or respected. You're expecting it, you've come to terms with it a long time ago. What you weren't expecting was for this random ass guy you have to call da-shixiong is immediately insane about you.
He met you first day, literally saw you bite a guy, and immediately started spouting out how you'll be the next peak lord and the absolute envy of Cang Qiong Mountain. You conclude he's missing a few screws because he said it in the most disgustingly sincere way.
You try to continue on with your life, trying to beat him and he looks almost... Excited about you beating him. So he's an M, you think to yourself. But then you see someone trying to beat him or you on something, and this guy immediately gets aggressive. Okay so he's just weird with you.
You continue to deal with him. He's weird but also weirdly respectful. He leaves if you tell him to leave. He defends you like it's his very birth right. He's always there to tend to you as if you were a god. He doesn't touch you and only sits around like a dog waiting for a command.
You eventually get strong enough to beat him, and this absolute buffoon is over the moon about it, already spouting about your supposed success again.
When you actually become peak lord, it isn't surprising. Your hype man has been saying it since day one, he was expecting it for some reason. He continues to spout out nonsense about how he just knew you were going to do it.
So what now? You obviously desire him carnally. What is the next step?
Okay so I know this wouldn't fix them. Almost without question this would make they both worse. But, hear me out, it would be funny. (Especially since just know Shen Yuan's entire inner monologue would be him saying he's just being a good friend as if he isn't being the gayest man in the sect and Shang Qinghua is there. That's an accomplishment to outgay the author)
#ignore me im insane#i can only articulate my ideas through silly haha jokes#but like y'all get it right?#svsss#jiuyuan#scumcum#shen qingqiu#shen jiu#shen yuan#shitpost#idk i'm just rambling#personally I always saw SY on the asexuality spectrum but still that man is PRETTY gay about men#especially pretty men#good for him
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DP x DC prompt [3]
during one of the final psych evals at Arkham right before he gets to be released, the whole thing wrapped up so tidy, just a little relapse which involved a robbery. Getting sent back to Arkham, but he got to stay at the asylum so long that he no longer has to serve a prison sentence, score!
But during that eval his overseeing psychiatrist recommended him to have a change of scenery, some fresh non polluted air.
Riddler was rather convinced the guy was making this recommendation to everyone in Arkham in their own weird way to convince them to just leave Gotham and become someone else's problem. should he notify Batman about it somehow? nah, itâll be more interesting to see how this is gonna turn out in the long run.
But can he leave the state? Can he even leave the city? he never really bothered to look into it, at least not legally, up until now if he felt he needed to leave for one of his plans he just did it.
Turns out he can, itâs a whole hassle and a half though, first a judge and then a probation officer and heâs pretty sure both were like âwhat the hell is this psychiatrist guy thinking!?â but at the same time, shrink probably knows what heâs doing (WRONG) so heâs allowed to go visit out of state family or whatever.
he had to wear this nice ankle monitor though, Wayne Enterprisesâą tech, not overly bulky but still very present. real fancy, and a fun extra challenge heh.
now as for a good reason to leave New Jersey heâs going to need distant relatives, and he finds some, great grandpa walker also has a son, who had a son who had a daughter Madeline, who married some guy Jack Fenton, and she lives somewhere out in the boonies Illinois. great heâll visit her.
far enough away in all sense of the word that there is no way she knows anything about him. it would be best to call her first though, be polite about it.
âhello, you have reached Fenton works, this is Maddie speakingâÂ
âRiddle me this-â ah whoops, habit, oh whatever, âwe donât share parents, but certainly a part of your life, from laughter to strife. Who am I?â
there is a pause âŠÂ heâs going to be a bit disappointed if she hangs up if heâs honest.
âcousins~â comes the cheery reply.
âcorrect! the name is Edward Nygma, we are distantly related you and I and well-â
âoh you simply must come visit!âÂ
well this was rather easy, perhaps a little too easy, but she lives in the midwest so maybe just going with whatever some guy says over the phone is normal there? stranger danger not really a thing in a small town where everyone knows everyone?
things start to make a little more sense once he gets there and heâs starting to think some things might run in the family. like a preference for the colour green and weird hyperfixations and genius bordering on insanity. Though that remains to be seen, Jack does not seem like a very bright light after his very enthusiastic welcome.
their kids however are observant and sharp. young Jasmine is wasting no time trying to psychoanalyze him. and the boy, Danny, he had not really meant to and he swears heâs sticking with calling the kid Danny so he wouldnât seem overly familiar, but he might have called him little bird a couple times now.
but thatâs all whatever, heâs playing nice here. and he doesnât even have to worry about his eccentricities tripping him up because this place is insane.
There actually is a local teen vigilante active but he seems about as loved as heâs disliked. and the ghost boyâs enemies are basically all his own kind, which another crazy thing to now know about. ghost. they are real actually, how is Gotham not completely overrun? and how do they even work? and where do they keep coming from?
Edward might be getting a little sidetracked here. He had fully intended to sneakily get his next big game plan underway all the way out here, ankle monitor be damned. but he hasnât made any progress at all.
Instead heâs been listening to Madeline and Jack to maybe figure out what the deal is with these ectoplasmic entities, he has to know, at this point he might go crazier if he doesnât.Â
Heâs making Jasmine promise him not to get her doctorate in Gotham, heâs going back and forth with space riddles with Danny.
so yeah the whole thing kinda just became a vacation, maybe the psychiatrist had the right idea after all? hmm nah, probably not. but this is fun. Heâs thinking about recommending this place to some of the others.
It's different enough to get the vacation feel, but enough crazy shit happens to make it all feel like home.
it is not until Maddie wants to talk with him about potentially switching the position of godfather of Danny to him rather than some weird rich friend of theirs that Edward realizes he might have lost the plot somewhere
Apparently the little bird basically begged them with a powerpoint presentation on how he likes Edward so much more than that Vladimir guy.Â
And honestly, the fellow sounds like a Dracula Lutho so even if itâs kinda sad Edward can understand why heâd be considered a better option. Even if the guy has more money and a huge company that makes him said money. And itâs not like the Fentons know about his Riddler activities.
Thinking it over, Edward does think that Danny would like Gotham and Wayne has that space program thing right? The kid is definitely smart enough for that (Nygma certified), and yeah Edward does quite like their space themed back and forth. So, fuck it, why not, what is the worst that could happen?
He doubts Maddie and Jack are gonna kick it any time soon anyway out here in the boonies, itâs just a title thing, a stamp of approval or something.
he should have known he was going to eat those words later⊠he had this whole beautifully elaborate trap set up for the whole Batclan, and he was just getting to the good part when his phone went off.
Had to put the whole thing on pause cause that particular contact wasnât gonna get ignored. He did promise to be available.
If the whole thing he had planned now went tits up he could at the very least laugh later at the reactions of the bats as he told them to âhold up one second, I have to take this.â while they were all in various perilous positions.Â
Sadly he did have to go, he had a very distressed godson to pick up.
#dc x dp#danny phantom#dcxdp#dpxdc#danny fenton#The Riddler#jasmine fenton#madeline fenton#jack fenton#edward nygma#Story idea#it took me annoyingly long to figure out how to add a read more line btw#I was going to add some other things as well but I didn't want it to get super long#I imagine Vlad was absolutely furious about losing his godfather status#but our boy Eddie just runs circles around him and humiliates him every step of the way#there is only one vampire themed guy that can put the Riddler in his place and you ain't it chief#also I was planning on adding a thing where Edward ends up in the ghost zone somehow#which makes his ankle monitor go off#notifying the bats#because he either somehow managed to destroy the thing in an instant without making any of the build in warnings go off#or he's no longer on the planet
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summary: after receiving a late-night call from your ex-boyfriend, finnick odair, you canât help but agree to meet with him. what happens when you mix a sound-proof train car and an ex you havenât seen in months?
pairing: finnick odair x reader
warnings: rough-ish smut, a teensy bit of angry sex, swearing, unprotected sex (zonât zo that), kinda ooc finnick, choking,
notes: based on 'bad idea, right?' by olivia rodrigo. i lost the person who sent the request so sorry this took so long to come out!! i donât know if i like how this is written, but smut is smut so⊠enjoy :)
word count: 4.6k
Neon beams of light pulsed in time with the heavy bass blasting throughout your unnecessarily large home in the Victorâs Village. District Two. Masonry. Big houses.
Two shots of tequila and some other very unnatural concoctions were soaking deep into your brain. Everything was swayingâthe room, the people, even you. Your small group of friends danced by your side, keeping together to avoid the creeps that might have entered your home. Although, to you, entertaining a stranger that night did not sound like such a terrible idea.
You felt lonely. Undeniably and pathetically lonely. The alcohol only enhanced your emotions and libido, leading you to search the room for anyone who interested you enough to take them upstairs. But there was no one, because in reality there was only one person you really wanted, and he was no longer yours. He hadnât been for months.
Replacements had come and gone, but they never stuck. None of them made you feel the way he did.
âExcuse me!â an exasperated voice yelled. âWould you please get out of my way?!â
To your right, your housekeeper, bless her poor deafened soul, was pushing through a crowd of intoxicated partygoers and heading straight for you.
âClaudia!â you shouted over the music, tugging down your short black slip dress out of respect for her modesty.
The elderly woman stopped in front of you, her disapproval of the vibrant scene clear as day. You always paid her double in exchange for putting up with the chaos whenever you threw a house party, which was almost every weekend.
She hovered close to your ear. âThere is someone on the phone for you!â
âDid you get a name?!â
After she shook her head, you escorted her through the thick crowd of dancers, into a quieter room and thanked her before beelining for the landline.
With a heavy sigh, you brought the corded phone to your ear and said, âWhoever this is, you better make it quick. Iâm not nearly as intoxicated as I need to be and in dire need of another shot.â
Over the scratchy static, you could hear a quiet chuckleâa sound you had spent months trying to forget, along with the person attached to it. How many drinks did you have again? The alcohol must have messed with your mind because this could not be real.
âHello to you too, sweetheart,â the caller said, his voice low and amused.
Everything you had longed to forget came rushing to the surface at an overwhelming pace. Wisps of hair the colour of a dying fire. Eyes resembling the sea. Arms that once acted as a life jacket. A dangerous mouth that had explored every inch of your body.
No. It couldnât beâ
âFinnick.â
********
Stupid. This was so fucking stupid. You were attempting to sneak out of your own party. A good old Irish Goodbye in your own house. With luck, you would make it out the front door without being caught by your friends, or worse, Claudia. Now that would be scary.
Water flushed through your system, a weak attempt you made at sobering yourself up because meeting up with your ex while drunk was a recipe for disaster. Then again, so was meeting up with your ex in the first place. Nothing will happen, you thought to yourself, we are just going to talk.
A thought even more unbelievable than thinking you would be able to be able to escape the watchful eyes of your friends.
Your high-heeled foot had just crossed the front door when someone called your name. âDamn,â you muttered, turning back around.
Valeria, your closest yet heavily intoxicated friend strutted over to you, her feet wobbling every few steps. âYou sneaky little minx,â she slurred. âSomeone said they saw you on the phone. It was him, wasnât it? He asked you to go see him.â
âJust as friends. No, not even. As acquaintances.â
âOh, my sweet, sweet silly friend.â She grabbed you by the shoulders. âWe both know you arenât that foolish.â
You looked away because you knew damn well that she was right.
âLook, I get it,â she continued. âYour hot, heâs hot.â You smiled. âYou both have a history. I just want to make sure you know all the outcomes of what you're about to do. Iâll be here for you if things do get messy but expect a well-versed speech of me saying âI told you soâ afterwards.â
âIâll hold you to that, Val,â you laughed, prying her hands off your shoulders. âI really do appreciate your concern, but I promise all weâre going to do is talk.â
âAlright, but if things go south, call me. Immediately!â she called a little too loudly as you took subtle steps away from the front door and onto the street. âHave fun with your innocent little âtalkâ!â
âThanks, mum!â
You waved goodbye as you walked down the street, body buzzing with exhilaration and apprehension. Finnick had told you his train stopped in the districtâs station for the night. He and his new victor were travelling throughout Panem for the Victory Tour and were currently in District Two. You didnât know much about his tribute, only that they were a she. The thought of Finnick spending all his time with another girl had that green-eyed monster inside you writhing.
Enough to make you agree to meet with him after midnight while moderately drunk and slightly horny. What a fantastic plan.
District Twoâs train station was a short distance from the Victorâs Village, but it was long enough to cause you to remove your heels. You finally reached the train, barefoot and with the wind softly blowing your hair. Finnick had specified a particular door to knock on so as not to alert the peacekeepers residing within the train. So, you knocked. And then you waited.
Your heart was pounding; your hands were trembling. Not long after, a dark figure appeared behind the doorâs tinted window. With a click, the door opened and revealed a shirtless smirking Finnick Odair.
Oh, fuck me.
He was even more gorgeous than the last time you saw him. His crossed arms bulged with thick muscles as he leaned against the doorframe, gaze shamelessly roaming over your scarcely dressed appearance before settling on your face. The amusement in his expression was ever-present and ever-growing.
âFinnick,â you greeted.
âY/N.â
He extended his hand, inviting you inside the train and hesitantly, you accepted. Sparks of electricity travelled up your arm, starting from where his and your hand connected. Some things never changed.
Empty silence welcomed your presence as you entered the train car. Patterned silver vases of white roses were placed atop every available surface. Meticulously crafted chandeliers lit up the room with a golden haze. To your left was an arrangement of black leather couches surrounding a small silver table; further down the car was a rectangular mahogany dining table decorated with fruit and unlit candles.
Somehow a single train car was more luxurious than your entire house.
âIs every one asleep?â you asked, running your fingertips along the pure gold that lined the couches.
âYeah,â he said, eyes following your movements. âEvery room on this train is sound-proof, so...â
You nodded, unsure of how else to reply. Conversations usually ran smoothly between you and Finnick. They were effortless. But that was when you were together. Four months must have passed now since you last spoke.
âAre you and whatâs-his-name still together?â he asked.
âNo,â you said bluntly. âI broke up with him last month.â
âMy sincerest condolences.â His sympathetic tone was as transparent as glass. Sarcasm always was his favourite pastime. âGuess he just couldnât satisfy your needs.â
Turning around to face him, you leaned against the couchâs arm, jaw clenched and eyes glowering with agitation. âIs there any specific reason why you called me here?â
He raised a glass of rich amber liquid to his lips. âCanât two old friends just reconnect?â
âOld friends,â you scoffed. âThatâs what you call it. From what I remember, the last time we saw each other, we were having goodbye sex in your bed. And in the kitchen and the lounge and on the balcony.â
Something sincere overshadowed his teasing nature, revealing itself in the tension in his facial muscles and the glassy haze that clouded his eyes. Reminiscence. âIt didnât have to be goodbye,â he spoke softly whilst holding your gaze.
You blinked. There was a short pause and only the quiet hum of the lights sounded in the room. You were the one to end the relationship, not the other way around much to your friendsâ disbelief. Over and over, you had been asked the same question: why on earth would you break up with Finnick Odair?
Well, behind closed doors, he was incredible. He was loving, affectionate, and thoughtful. He would collect seashells for you that he found on the beach whenever he went fishing, leave hand-written poetry and heartfelt love letters whenever he left for the Capitol, and mother of fucking Christ was the sex just downright extraordinary.
But as previously stated, it was all behind closed doors.
Finnick never wanted to be seen together in public and on the off chance you were, he would practically neglect your existence. Only your most trusted friends and Finnickâs family knew about your relationship. No one else. Eventually, the secretiveness created a deep void inside you that not even the sweetest love letters and seashells could fill. You couldnât remain with someone who seemed ashamed to be with you in public.
So, with a heavy heart, you said goodbye.
In fear of becoming too emotional, you disregarded his weighted words and crossed your arms. âSo,â you began, âhowâs the Tour been so far? You must be pretty ecstatic one of your tributes actually won.â
He bounced back fairly quickly. âI suppose itâs always nice to watch someone you trained live for a change,â he said, placing his drink on a nearby table. âPlus, sheâs got a lot of charisma. A natural with the speeches and interviews, so I donât need to do too much coaching.â
And there it was againâthat green-eyed monster. âCharisma, huh?â You just couldnât help yourself. âIs she pretty too?â
Finnick tilted his head, visibly surprised by your blatant jealousy. âShe just turned sixteen,â he stated with a small smirk tugging at his lips. Well, no one told you that bit of information. Awkward. âCareful, Y/N. You sounded a little jealous there.â
You pushed off the chair, heading back toward the door you entered through. Maybe this was a bad idea. âAlright, Iâm leaving now.â
Just as you turned the handle, a set of rushed footsteps thudded behind you. The door opened a mere crack, sending in a cold draft that caused your body to shudder.
âWait, justââ A swift hand came over your shoulder and pushed the door shut, eliciting a startled gasp from your lips. You could feel Finnick towering over you, the warmth of his skin spreading onto your cold back and his breaths fanning down against the bareness of your shoulder. He was so close. âI just needed to see you before I leave tomorrow morning.â
Slowly, you turned around, coming face-to-face with the man you shouldnât have loved. His burning gaze was a stark contrast to the icy metal door your back was pressed against. Tension pulsated in the small space between you and him. The intense attraction that had first brought you two together came rushing forth; trying to fight such a magnetic force was impossible. You needed connectionâtouch.
This night would not end with just a simple innocent chat, you knew that now.
You swallowed hard, your heart racing. âYou needed to see me?â you asked. âFinnick, if you want me to stay, donât beat around the bush. Tell me what you really want.â
Silence. He continued staring at you and you could see a scheme forming behind his mesmerising green eyes. Then the scheme was unfolding. He leaned down to your level, to your lips, his half-lidded eyes never leaving your mouth as he just barely allowed his lips to brush yours. On instinct, you tilted your head upwards.
âI want you,â he whispered.
You didnât waste a second to respond. âThen take me.â
He was quicker than a bullet train. Finnickâs lips caught your own and were burning with fiery desire, evident in his haste to wrap you up in his arms and practically merge your body with his. Flames licked just beneath your skin, setting your nerves alight with passion and lust. You burned together in an inferno fuelled by each otherâs touch.
Logically, this was wrong. Finnick was your ex-boyfriend and for good reason. But as your hands clung to every inch of him that they possibly could, as his tongue and yours danced fluidly with one another, and as your body buzzed with pure adrenaline, you were willing to abandon all your morals in exchange for five more minutes in his embrace.
A moan travelled from your mouth to his own as you felt him bite your lower lip. You could already feel that familiar throbbing sensation between your thighs and the wetness that exposed how much you craved him. You knew he felt the same. His sweatpants left little to the imagination.
Your hand slipped between your connected bodies, travelling down Finnickâs firm stomach, gliding over his small trail of hair and finally into his pants. Your fingers curled around his cock which already leaked with precum. He was just as desperate as you.
âFuck,â he groaned, the sound sending tingles down your spine.
You left his lips to press a wet kiss to his neck. âI wonder how many times you pretended your hand was my own,â you purred, leaving another kiss on his clavicle. âHow many times you tried to recreate the warmth you only feel when you're inside me.â
His mouth hung open, letting out quiet uneven breaths as you stroked his length, your pace so quick that he already felt an overwhelming urge to release into your soft unrelenting hand. The sound of your voice, so sexy and lustful, combined with your swift pressured movements had his stomach tensing and contracting with a devastating build-up of pleasure.
âToo many times,â he admitted in a strained voice.
You sucked on the warm pulsing skin of his neck, this time receiving a groan that buzzed on your lips. His hands grabbed at your hips for support, roughly kneading the softness and satin in his large palms.
âThis dressâfuck!â his voice broke as another hand slipped into his pants, cupping his balls as the other twisted with each stroke of his cock. âSweetheart,â he chuckled breathlessly. âYou look like a fucking siren.â
Your soft lips pecked at his toned chest before pulling away and looking up at him through your lashes. Euphoric delirium was prominent in his eyes. âYou shouldâve seen everyone staring at my party,â you said. âI wish you saw how badly the men wanted to fuck me right there on the dancefloor; how they undressed me with their eyes. Maybe then you would understand the mistake you made by never showing me off.â
Aggravation blazed in his aroused eyes which only made you so much hornier. Before you could pump another stroke, Finnick had ripped your hands from his pants and spun you around, pinning your body against the wall with his own, his hard cock pushing against the plush of your ass.
âI do understand,â he growled into your ear.
He abruptly started sucking hard kisses onto the side of your neck which had you gasping for air and tilting your head to allow him further access. One of his hands cupped your breast, massaging it with rough fingers and pinching your peaked nipples between his fingertips. His other hand travelled around your hip, wandering beneath your revealing dress and slipping into your lace panties.
You cried out when two fingers plunged into your soaking hole without warning.
âKnow what I wish?â he asked, fingers curling in and out of you at such a rapid pace that the wet noises could be heard throughout the entire room. Blissful tears threatened to spill down your face. âI wish those guys could see how you looked right now with my fingers fucking you.â The hand on your breast moved to your throat, applying enough pressure on your carotid to make your head pound with dizziness. âI wish they knew you only enjoy being fucked by me.â
Your walls squeezed around his fingers, pulling him even further inside. Your untouched breasts were squashed against the train door and the fabric of your dress rubbed against your sensitive nipples. Finnickâs cock twitched against you and his hand was constricting the blood flow to your head. Yeah. Nobody else could make you feel better than this.
Finnick plunged his fingers inside again with a hard thrust which forced a broken moan from your lips. âIsnât that right?â
The heel of his palm dug into your clit and your entire body was overcome with pins and needles; your knees buckled and hit the metal door. That would definitely bruise. You hoped it wouldâyou wanted a reminder of this night.
âYes!â you gasped. âFinnick, only you. Only you.â
âThatâs right.â
Your moans started to rise in pitch, signalling the orgasm which was rapidly closing in. But right before you could come, Finnickâs fingers slipped out of you and out of your now-drenched panties. Your orgasm began to fade due to the lack of friction until it disappeared completely, leaving you feeling frustrated and neglected.
Turning back around with a flushed face, you witnessed Finnick sucking your juices off his fingers with a pop. His grin was conniving, self-satisfied with his actions which proved how desperately you wanted him to fuck you. That smug bastard. You would give anything to wipe the amusement off his beautiful fucking face.
And, well, you did.
âFuck you!â you exclaimed, shoving him backwards.
âFuck me?â He raised an eyebrow, smirk twitching at his lips. âI already know you want to.â
With a frustrated cry, you shoved him again, but this time he caught you in his arms and fervidly crushed his lips to yours. You squirmed and writhed and resisted but eventually melted into his embrace when you remembered you wanted this. You wanted this so badly.
Your arms wrapped around his neck as both your bodies continuously curved into one another, neither of you being able to remain still for more than a few seconds. The taste of brandy and you were on Finnickâs tongue as it swirled around your mouth; the flavours, which were polar opposites, sweet and savoury, mixed together to create something utterly carnal.
With the knowledge that this was probably a one-time thing, your kisses became bruising and frantic. Finnick alternated between kissing your lips, your neck, your jaw, and any place he could possibly reach. You hung onto every sound he made, every hot breath he took.
The two of you stumbled around the train car, lips never leaving one another, hands grabbing at every inch of flesh they could reach. You bumped into walls and multiple glass ornaments and laughed together when Finnick just barely caught one before it shattered on the floor.
Eventually, you ended up down the opposite end of the train car. Your back hit something hard and you gasped in surprise. The dining table. Finnick gave a quick glance at the table before pressing another kiss to your lips, this time a little more tenderly.
âTurn around,â he said, and you did.
You immediately felt him press himself against your behind. You stared ahead, chest heaving and swollen lips tingling, waiting for any more commands. His hand walked around your thigh, over the mound of your pussy, and then grazed up your stomach. He left a trail of warm tingles between your breasts before continuing upward to move your hair from your shoulder where he placed another warm gentle kiss.
Finally, he splayed his hand flat between your shoulder blades and pushed, bending you over the table until your torso lay flat on the cold wooden surface. Finnick hiked your dress up to your hips and crouched down, caressing your outer thighs before sliding your panties down to your ankles.
The air hit your bare skin and you exhaled a shaky breath as you anticipated his next movements. As he rose to his feet, he trailed kisses up your leg, ending with a soft bite to your ass which earned him a small giggle.
You could hear him tug down his sweatpants which hit the floor with a muffled thud. Your breaths continued to shake with nerves, coming out in soft pants. Finnick held onto your hip with one hand and held himself in the other. No words were spoken. Both of you wanted thisâneeded this.
Next thing you knew, your panting breaths had stopped altogether. Finnickâs cock had slid between your folds, filling you up in one single movement, and you both released a relieved moan in sync. Your hands pressed against the tabletop as your body began to rock with his thrusts. You werenât going to make love or whisper sweet nothings into each otherâs ears. No. This was pure unadulterated fucking.
Finnick started off fast; neither of you had the patience for a slow build-up. You didnât even bother caring about the fact that he wasnât wearing a condom. His hand had lowered to your mid back and the other gripped your hip as your warmth swallowed him over and over.
âOh god,â you gasped.
The sensations that overtook your body were eagerly welcomed. You had tried to replicate the sex Finnick gave with other men after your relationship ended, but none seemed to compare even the slightest. You werenât sure how a single human being could provide the sensations of nirvana, how one could master the skills of bringing another person to such an incredible high, but Finnick could. He always could.
It was only at this point that you realised how badly your body had been in withdrawal from his touch. The feeling of him inside you was like a drug. Addicting. Definitely not healthy.
You had tried fingering yourself to replicate his cock, but it was a pathetic attempt. Finnick could hit a deep spot inside you that no one else could like it was some secret forbidden location that only he held the key to. He made your body feel full. Stuffed. Complete. In a way that made you feel like you were going to burst into an explosion of white heavenly light.
Your nails scratched at the wood as he continued to pound into you, cock gliding against the ripples of your inner walls. There wasnât a single inch of space left inside you. He fit like your pussy was where he belonged.
âAlways feel so fucking good,â he muttered between thrusts.
His pleasure was always vocal, voiced with heavy breaths, grunts, and groans. Sometimes he even whimpered, especially when you edged him. He didnât mind you being more dominant at times, but right now was not one of those moments. Being bent over and fucked into a table was not in any way, shape, or form you being dominant. This was Finnick being in control and it felt incredible.
âFinnick,â you said. âDonât stop. Please, donât stop!â
In response he grabbed your other hip and pulled you back into him, burying himself even deeper inside you with each thrust which had you crying out his name again. He hunched over your body, hips still pounding behind you, and sucked harsh kisses on your shoulder. He left behind red and deep purple marks on your shoulder, moving to your neck, and then grazed your earlobe with his teeth.
He returned a hand to your throat, forcing the both of you into a standing position. His fingers squeezed, reducing the blood flow into your brain which enhanced the explosion building up inside you.
âHarder!â you cried.
Both his cock and his hand increased their vigour. Stars were sparkling in your vision. You were almost completely sober now, yet you felt entirely drunk. Drunk on Finnick. He reached his free hand between your legs and your body fell back into his, only remaining upright from his support.
His fingers rubbed side-to-side on your clit, so hard and fast that his hand almost blurred in motion. Your moans rose an octave as your stomach began to tighten. A fire burned within your muscles, so pleasurably excruciating that you thought they would liquefy inside you. Your pussy clenched around Finnickâs cock, walls fluttering with each of his pounding thrusts.
âCome, sweetheart,â he purred into your ear. You could hear how much he struggled to contain his moans as he talked. âCome on, I know you're close. I can feel you.â
You nodded mindlessly and curled your arm backwards around his neck, in need of something to cling to. As the feeling inside your stomach intensified, your eyes squeezed shut and your hold around his neck tightened until you were almost choking him. With every ounce of strength that he had inside him, Finnick increased his pace until he fit multiple mind-destroying thrusts into each second that passed.
He was almost animalistic with his pounding and unrestrained groans of pleasure. And you were so close, so, so close to falling over the edge. His hand was constricted around your throat; the other assaulted your clit, and his cock was mercilessly hitting that swollen spot inside you. Any second andâ
âIâm goâIâm gonna come!â
A potent cocktail of pleasure, ecstasy, and release washed through your body, unravelling the tension inside your stomach and exiting through your stuffed hole. Your juices coated Finnickâs cock with warmth as you repeated his name over and over.
You could feel him twitching inside you, spilling himself onto your clenching walls whilst bending you over to senselessly fuck you into the table. His moans were so loud, so fucking attractive, but may God have mercy on both of you if the room wasnât actually soundproof.
Neither of you could stop. You came an immeasurable number of times; your hands left marks on Finnickâs body as he did on yours, and every surface in the room had been tainted with your sin. You clung onto one another, desperately prolonging your night together that would most likely be the last. Ever.
*********
âDonât leave again.â
Your fingers stilled as you strapped on your high heels. You glanced up at Finnickâwho now had his sweatpants back onâfrom the gold-lined leather chair you sat in.
âFinnickâŠâ you sighed.
âPlease,â he said. Crouching down in front of you, he gently took your hand into his own. His face, which previously reflected nothing but pleasure, now looked at you with pained desperation. âIâll explain everything to you. Why I was always in the Capitol. Why it was too dangerous for us to be seen together in public. All of it.â
The mention of danger took you aback. You had thought he never wanted to be seen together because he was embarrassed, not because it was⊠dangerous. Brows furrowed together, your eyes flickered between his, searching for any hint of deception, anything that might reveal malicious intentions. But when had Finnick ever been malicious towards you? Never. All you found in his eyes was sincerity.
âI canât lose you again,â he whispered, lowering his head.
After a few seconds of contemplation, you realised there wasnât a chance in hell you were going to walk out on him again. Life would mean nothing without Finnick beside you.
Your fingers sat under his chin, lifting his head to meet your gaze. The two of you exchanged a look of vulnerability, signifying an era of newfound understanding and reconnection.
You whispered in response. âYouâve got me, Finn.âÂ
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