#i hate to be resentful ofcoursr im happy for her and ofc i understand this is a hard time | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

delicatetaysversion · 2 months

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sometimes i miss talking to that one person who didn't NEVER turned it into a competition about who has it worse and never told me well atleast you have [x]

#weirdly i think she was the only one #my irl bestie called and was ranting about her miserable life and #it's the exact same thing ive been going through for years her parents won't let her move to another city #she can't make friends here she hates it here her parents are being overbearing and don't understand the importance of socialising #with people her age and they tell her to just hang out with her family all day and don't give her privact #like. okay. i love her ive been listening to her complain about how her mom comes into her room sometimes. and just #i was okay listening to it okay im no judge for how someone's feeling and my bad might be their worst #but then she goes like well atleast you'll know you'll get to move out after you finish your degree for a job #like. wow okay. atleast you got to enjoy 3 years of college at the coolest city in india atleast you got to have vibrant life experiences #and learned so much about the world made tons of friends visited a hundred places had a boyfriend #went to clubs increased your netword learned how to be street smart and talk well #i hate to be resentful ofcoursr im happy for her and ofc i understand this is a hard time #but like god seriously. she'll never know what it feels like think you'll live your life as you pass 12th because they let your elder siste #go to college and she had the best times and then suddenly you're 17 and they twll you well actually we made a mistake and we won't repeat #it ever so you're just gonna stay home where we watch you 24/7 and ww won't even let you go to classes that have somewhat okayish people #because you can't have friends because they'll distract you from your studies #and she'll never know what it's like working towards a dream everyday that seems so fucking faw away and unreachable #when you're not even good at studying and especially focusing because yeah parents fucked you up majorly!!#like im sorry but try being completely hopeless and alone and isolated losing your friends one by one watching everyone #grow and find themselves as you rot in your room try to do better try to find happiness but it's impossible it's never enough #and try to study for a really fucking hard course in the middle of all that #and then tell me that atleast ill get to go out after i finish #like seriously try fucking living my life for one day and then talk #god i know ive become resentful and bitter because of a thing in my childhood but i don't know how to stop #ugh i never should've picked up the phone i was studying so well before that #anyway. i miss talking to that one person who was sensitive and sweet and encouraging always yk #i miss hearing i completely understand you because im going through the same things (def worse imo) and we'll get through this together #man.#chappell roan was so right actually i hate that i let this go on for so long now i hate myself

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