#life love loss and letting go

[jupiterntaurus]

Bewildering Dreams

Bewildering Dreams The ticket to the gates is golden. And the stakes of the game are high. Yet we’re betting all our chances on luck. And we pray that it’s enough to start again, to build again, to fight to live to be happy again. Are we foolish? Are we dreaming? Is this real? Are we laughing? Are we trippin’? What’s going on out there? Yes. Maybe? Maybe not. Maybe a little. Maybe a whole…

[wheniseeyoucry]

It's a different kind of pain when you don't even cry anymore . You just take a deep breath and accept it .

[remanence-of-love]

[creative-robot]

I know The Founders Cut, generally, is the edited scrubbed over version of genloss from Showfall in-universe (as well as a not-8-hour-long-three-stream-binge-night whenever we want to watch it again) but something that struck me as odd and I haven’t seen anyone mention yet, is this warning

It shows up right at the junction where the third act starts, where it appears the Hero is breaking free of Showfall thanks to Hetch. But here’s the thing, while a LOT less than the previous acts the audience still played a significant role in this act, even when really only given two audience interaction choices. Which makes me wonder, how real is this warning, and who is it for? Obviously the audience involved knows what happens past this point, but the audience is also implied to be an integral part of the Social Experiments, which is part of why things start to tweak out when the Founder removes them in the Founder Cut as the Generation Loss generation loses.

My first thought, was that obviously this is another bait and switch, a way to draw the audiences attention, seeing something that’s secret, something that’s not “meant for them”, which is a tactic I could see Showfall using in universe to keep people’s attention and add an air of mystery to their shows.

But

Showfall is doing all their experiments and these shows with a LOT of help from their censors to show it off, displaying a fun silly show that is definitely not uber fucked up and that is 100% just slime don’t worry about it, it’s kid friendly if it’s green! And I don’t think they’d want to bet all their cards on this one experiment doing well enough to their audience to not question the sudden shift in tone that follows this warning. Which makes me wonder.

They did their test, they did their experiment, and the evidence of this last act? I think it was a one time run, they don’t want anyone seeing this, it isn’t for the audience. Act three is specifically to both test and play with their Hero, Hetch’s new lines add a level to this, never once does he call the Hero by their name, just refers to Ranboo as their Role, and he’s not exactly. Nice? About literally any of Ranboos concerns, which wouldn’t really seem conductive to making an audience trust him, especially with his monologue at the end. Ranboo has escaped before, possibly right before act 1 started, they tightened the security on his mask to be unremovably part of them, Hetch doesn’t like the Hero but they’re a fan favorite so he can’t just get rid of them.

Act three is the cumulation of Ranboo being punished for things they don’t remember, for daring to break free from Showfalls control, this is Hetch taking the Hero and essentially majorly fucking and manipulating them to take his frustration out on a fan favorite they can’t otherwise get rid of or give a smaller role like Slimecicle. which is exemplified by the fact that we now know Charlie most likely was never able to actually able to fully snap out of the control, that even in act three in panic and confusion there was at least still a part of him being influenced by Showfall.

So the first two acts are the usual show, they have their posters, they have Squiggles to introduce them, they have goofs and silliness and only a couple slip ups that’re quickly dealt with, the usual rose tinted curtains. Act three?

Do not watch the following material

[bookishblogging]

[deadrlngers]

ocs as patron saints

i was tagged by @katsigian and @ecofear to take this quiz for some of my ocs, thank you both so much!!! loved doing this sm, two things i love obsessing over: saints and ocs <3

patron saint of relics. patron saint of remembering. patron saint of holding something close. patron saint of holding on for too long. for a saint, a relic is often a part of the body, kept for some physical memento of their holiness. they are all in your hands, now: does it feel like remembrance? does it feel sanctified? are the dust and blood as precious as they're supposed to be?

patron saint of bones. patron saint of frameworks. of structures. of solidity. patron saint of things that break. patron saint of things that are left behind. the bones survive long after the body, the building: what is there left for them, when the rest has gone? what do bones do, with nothing to hold around them? who holds the bones?

patron saint of heartbreak. not of comfort. not of condolences. there is a heart and there is a fissure, a fracture, something that starts to splinter and break open. you're the patron saint of the way a heart is rent open. the way it tears itself apart. patron saint of the rift. patron saint of the gash. when they say to "open your heart" to somebody, you are the patron saint of bleeding out.

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and anyone else who wants to do it!!

[tollsoftheclockwerkbelle]

sega please do not save maria please do not save maria PLEASE do not save mariaaaaaaa sega PLEASE

[lostmf]

We don’t say I love you

But you tell me I looked nice today

And I ask you about your dreams last night

We don’t say we miss each other

But we find reasons to talk every day

We don’t say goodnight

But you stay on the phone while I sleep so I don’t have nightmares

We’re scared of getting together because it will end like before

We know the reasons we can’t stay

But we can’t find a reason to leave

I know how our book ends

But I keep going back to first page again and again hoping the ending will change

But it doesn’t

And I don’t

Because to lose you on the last page again

Means I’ll get to have you in the first one again

And maybe this is love

[complicatedconstellation-blog]

[n0bluev]

@fushiglow hmm….wonder who i’d draw this for all of a sudden and why… 🤔🤔

[tetzoro]

i don’t think i’ve talked about it much on this blog because tbh it’s a really difficult thing for me to talk about in general but a year ago today, i lost my baby kitty zelda and i miss her so very much ᰔ

[jupiterntaurus]

Life is Be YOU tiful!

Life is Be You tiful   Yesterday’s gone Today is awesome And tomorrow is just a dream away Life is beautiful Dance like nobody’s watching Sing to your heart’s desires The bells and whistles are calling And we’re all dying to be alive You are be-you-tiful Trust that your heart will tell you And that your feet will lead you through You’ll know where you need to go When it’s time, My love, you’ll…

[justafriend-ql]

This is the problem I will face for the rest of my life. NEVER LET ME GO Episode 10

[fitforestfairy]

As a trauma and ab*use survivor, letting go of the past is a very hard thing to do. It feels like it haunts me and forever conditioned who I have become.

But I'm doing my best to let go of the pain, stop believing what others wanted me to believe about myself, let go of people and situations who no longer serve me and choose every day to create who I want to be 🦋

[poetryatmost]

I’ve always been too good at holding on. I’d pull the whole mountain down with me before I let go of the edge.

-Poetry At Most

[bookishblogging]

Sometimes you say forever and forever happens to only be a short time, and that’s okay. It won’t feel okay, it may never feel like it will never be okay, but it will. And as hard as you try to imagine your life in the absence of your forever, you won’t be able to. And that’s the point! Why delve head first into these fits of love that make you so enamored that you claim “forever!” if you expect to be okay when you find out forever is only a moment? Forever is never going to come, and if it does, it will be long gone before you realize it. So relish in today and make a promise of forever, even if you know it’s never going to truly be forever.