#life is good but I do wish I was married.
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I wish you would write a fake dating fic where Clint or Bucky has to play lovey dovey with Nat (or someone else) for a mission, and they do a really good job at being convincingly in love, and that’s the trigger for the unpartnered party to realize how badly they wanted to be in Nat’s spot.
You!!! You are my favorite. This is going directly in my wips but uhh oops have the 700ish words that fell out in the last half hour: See, the mission isn’t an issue. They’ve done this before, the whole giggly-handsy-just-married-style of touristy shtick tended to be a perfect cover when they wanted to be seen but not necessarily noticed.
Except it was usually Clint pressed close to Natasha, playing a silent game of chicken with wandering hands.
And now Clint is on the sidelines.
The Backup, y’know, putting the eye in Hawkeye to use, the safety net while the spider and her mate spin invisible threads around their prey.
And, well, look, his job is to look, isn’t it? So sue him, he’s looking.
He’s caught half the damn fair drooling over them as they wander around.
Case in point, Bucky makes a show of ‘covertly’ looking around before tugging her into a less-than-hidden alcove. He picks her up by the waist like she’s made of air. When he sets her down on some kind of table, she’s slightly taller than he is. Her arms slip around his shoulders and her legs part to let him between her knees, and Clint’s not about to choke on his own spit about it, no sirree.
They’re shooed back out into the main walkway hardly a minute later. Bucky radiates the perfect amount of smugness as he tucks her under his arm, a hint of lipstick ruining the corner of his beautifully pouty mouth. Nat is the picture of shyly mortified glee, burrowing into his side to highlight the mess he’s made of her hair.
They turn the corner and she pulls him down for a kiss that lingers slightly too long, brushing her lipstick off his mouth only to kiss him again like she can’t help herself.
God. Bucky’s eyes are so dark when he straightens, thumbing at his mouth and kissing the top of her head. They step up to a game Clint knows is rigged five ways from Sunday, but Bucky plays the kid running it like a fiddle, knocking down the bottles that have been glued down with a wink. He makes a big show out of collecting a giant stuffed cat, calico with huge green eyes, and presenting it to Nat with all the gravitas of a fucking proposal. The smirk on his stupid mouth makes Clint want to eat his own arrows.
“Hey,” Sam mutters, knocking their shoulders together. “Tone down the scowl, man, you’re gonna freak out the mark.”
“Am not.”
“You absolutely are, dumbass. What’s got you all grumpy anyway? Still pissed Bucky got tapped to be Nat’s boy toy?”
“I can pull off a good pair of heels, too, y'know” Clint mutters.
“I’m afraid to ask,” Sam drawls.
Clint’s too busy watching the way Bucky runs a hand down Nat’s arm. He hooks their knuckles together and pulls her hand up for a kiss that’s more indecent than when he was literally grinding into her a minute ago. She giggles, long lashes fluttering as she lets him pull her in against him again.
“Yo. Barton. You with me? Where’s your head at, man?”
“I have never wanted to be short so bad in my life,” Clint answers stupidly.
“Again. What in the actual hell?”
Bucky’s hand is so casually possessive as it rests on the back of her hip. He guides her around some kind of cotton candy debacle and the muscles in his arm should be criminal.
Sam bursts into a horrible wheezing cackle that bends him in half.
Clint blinks. He darts a look to where Bucky’s running his hands through Nat’s hair, twirling it around his finger as they talk to someone’s grandma hawking funky crocheted dolls. He looks back down to where Sam’s going darker from the force of his laughter.
“What the fuck?”
“Oh man,” Sam gasps, throwing a hand on Clint’s arm to help himself upright. “You’re down bad, aren’t you?”
Clint looks back. Bucky’s got his head thrown back on his own laughter, throat bared and eyes scrunched up. He’s the most gorgeous thing Clint’s ever laid eyes on.
“Yeah,” Sam says. “You’ve got terrible taste.”
Bucky chooses that moment to slant a look over his shoulder, like he knows.
Clint gives him the all-clear, and for some reason Sam starts laughing again.
“The worst,” he repeats.
And that’s just not true at all.
“Could be worse,” Clint says once he manages to squash the need to go nuh-uh like he’s three instead of thirty. “Could be you.”
#winterhawk#Sol writes#asks answered#betrayedbycinnamon#oh i maybe got a little too excited#do I post this as a silly messy oneshot or do i hoard it and see if i can make it Big. Decisions decisions
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I turn 31 tomorrow
#crazy times#I always thought it’d be so sad to not be married in my 30s 😐#life is good but I do wish I was married.#hopefully in a couple years :)
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Thinking about marriage/women's rights on Vulcan Some may think that T'Pring not being allowed to divorce Spock was because he was going through the pon farr but if she were allowed to divorce him at all she probably would have done that a long time ago, confirmed by T'Pol when she's speaking with Koss, who isn't suffering from the pon farr. She says that he can choose another mate (without invoking a fight it seems: note the difference between a 'mate' and a 'challenger') and after he makes it clear that nothing she says will change his mind about marrying her, she finally threatens to declare a kal-if-fee. It's clear that Vulcan women cannot divorce/refuse to marry a man they've been betrothed to under any circumstances if A) He himself doesn't consent to ending their marriage or B) She doesn't have someone else waiting in the wings to be given to in his stead. Though, if the challenger she selects fails to win the fight, she'll have to marry her betrothed anyway unless (again) he decides he doesn't want her after the challenge. That seems like an incredibly unfair system, heavily biased towards men. SNW is an alternate universe in many obvious respects but most egregiously in that T'Pring has a lot of non-canonical agency over her relationship with Spock. It's interesting to me that Vulcan society has women in many positions of power and treats women as equal to men from what I've seen despite these laws. We don't really see Vulcans exhibiting a misogynistic attitude towards women in general but in TOS (perhaps because of its general writing style but it's still interesting to note) both Sarek and Spock take on patriarchal attitudes specifically regarding wives. Amanda says that 'of course' Sarek commands her because "he is a Vulcan and I am his wife." It's worthwhile in my eyes to note that she specifies 'wife' instead of attributing this attitude to women as a whole. Again, with TOS' writing style it wouldn't be out of place for her to say "he is a man and I am a woman." Spock, while in a pon farr induced irritation, states that it's "undignified for a woman to play servant to a man that isn't hers" - again implying that there's something specific about being a Wife in Vulcan society which is different from being a woman in general and demands subservience to a husband. This could perhaps stem from the extreme sense of ownership that Vulcan law has permitted men to have over women. A woman legally cannot point blank refuse marriage. There is no option which guarantees she won't have to marry her betrothed other than death. When T'Pau speaks of T'Pring she refers to her as being 'property' and Stonn, before being interrupted, states he's made 'the ancient claim' - we don't know what this is because he gets cut off but it's obvious they're both using the language of Vulcan law. Men are permitted true freedom to choose. If a woman wants to choose someone else to be with there is no option available to her other than the kal-if-fee which might result in the death of the one she wants to be with. And, if her lover fails, her husband can still just decide he wants to marry her and she'll be forced to. T'Pring gives two scenarios: One where Spock 'frees' her and one where he doesn't - it's still ultimately his decision which is clear when he ends the conversation with "Stonn, she is yours." This again isn't just because of the pon farr as T'Pol also goes through this. Koss can choose another mate and when the option is talked about there's no implication that this would result in any sort of fight (both by the casualness of its mention and by the fact that there's no formal word for it unlike the kal-if-fee.) Also, the fact that Koss does eventually grant T'Pol a divorce and it's all fine means that T'Pol isn't lawfully required to have another man waiting if her HUSBAND doesn't want her. It's ONLY required if SHE doesn't want her husband. Tradition must take precedence over individual desire UNLESS!!! You're a man. Then it's fine. Like, your parents might not be happy but legally you're golden.
#as a note do NOT read the comments on any T'Pol marriage clips on youtube they're full of 'haha women amiright' jokes about#how she's leading Trip on and being a bitch for not choosing him etc - if you become interested in female characters you learn#quickly just how much people still hate women displaying any amount of complexity/doing anything that isn't just falling into a man's arms#even if that hatred doesn't take the form of outright vitriol (aka: 'I feel so sad for Trip bc T'Pol's marrying some other guy')#Trip: T'Pol listen this arranged marriage stuff is no good - you've gotta be free! You have to do what YOU want to do!#T'Pol: -legally seen as property of her husband in the eyes of the law- ...............#<- not dunking on Trip it's just funny how easy it makes it seem - but!! He doesn't know all the facts#as evidenced by him saying T'Pol might 'call off the wedding' to her mother - T'Pol can't legally call off shit#It's also interesting how gender isn't really mentioned in any of the clips I've seen - it's very clear to me that T'Pol has no options#specifically because she's a WOMAN within her culture but that's almost like a quiet undercurrent and not focused on as a main#point of dissatisfaction - which I imagine it 1000% would be for Vulcan women when men have infinitely more freedom#Vulcan Man: I don't wanna marry this lady#Vulcan Law: Ok#Vulcan Woman: I don't wanna marry this guy#Vulcan Law: Noted. So - if you and your lover are willing to risk his life there's a chance (if he wins) that you can get out of marrying#him BUT if your husband kills your lover and still wants to marry you you DOOO have to marry him sorry you just gotta#<- this also makes it incredibly dangerous to in any way warn your legal husband that a kal-if-fee might be incoming#the element of surprise is a HUGE advantage when it comes to winning a fight to the death (which your lover can train for)#Vulcans#T'Pol#T'Pring#star trek#I don't think this is bad necessarily (as a fictional worldbuilding thing) but I wish it were explored more#It's especially interesting because it's an aspect of logical Vulcan society - it's clearly not logical but it's also clearly rooted deeply#in tradition which may mean Vulcan long ago used to have a much more extreme gender bias towards the male population#it just implies a lot that Vulcan has these old laws which are unfair towards women yet they still follow BUT women are treated as equal#citizens OUTSIDE of marriage! Maybe there was a feminist movement before? Is there another brewing? Where are the Vulcan feminists!
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there is something so. intensely frustrating about feeling incapable of showing up for people the way that they want you to
#i wish people understood that it's so hard to be present in their lives and that closeness for me isnt about frequency of contact#but how open we feel during that contact#my brain is such a difficult place to live in it is so loud and so busy all the time#24 hours a day is a constant monologue and argument with myself for everything and it means that i just dont have the capacity to talk to#others most of the time#and like. i know this is so unreasonable. obviously we have to be present in the lives of people that care for us#but it just feels like every day i have to like. get on a stage and perform to every person in my life that cares about me so i can meet the#criteria of being a Good Friend or Good Girlfriend or Good Fan Artist or Good Mutual or Good Server Member#i feel like it is such a blessing to be seen by others as someone to expect things from#but as more people have started to love me it feels like i have to 'go out and perform' more and more and i am very exhausted#i wish i was someone that was easy to love and care for in the way that i am. and i dont mean that self deprecatingly it's just#i know im very hard to care about and love. because i disappear all the time and come back in a big flurry as soon as i get the energy back#and im just feeling it a Lot More lately because im starting to think this isnt going to be a short term thing i have to do before i start#feeling comfortable with a person#this is going to be my whole life#if i get married im going to have to 'go out and perform' and be a good wife and be affectionate and happy and not closed into my own brain#for days#if im going to make friends with colleagues I'll have to go out when they invite me and have to reply ro their texts and i cant just go#silent for weeks while i try to negotiate with my thoughts and then reappear once i make the slightest breakthrough#im very tired and sad. i want companionship but i feel like the kind of person i am is not fair for people who would be my companion#vent post#♡alizeh talks♡
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Not only have several of my former classmates gotten married, just found out that now one is having a kid?? 😭😭 just reiterating: i cant believe some people my age are doing that dklsldls. Where do they find time to work/study AND develop intricate crown prince rudolf headcanons once they do that
#married people and parents still have hobbies yadda yadda. you dont need to tell me that kslsld its a joke#its interesting how strong an emotional reaction of Otherness i have to these types of news dkkdld. like its always 'good for them but i#dont think i could ever want this'#i mean im not opposed to gay marriage in my future depending on how life plays out but i would not want to do it to 'settle down' i think#dont necessarily want a big house a garden a golden retriever or a car 😭#and def no kids#i guess its partly a reaction to kind of.... idk at a younger age more people are more 'restless' like me and then many change their minds#so its invalidating to be 'left alone' when you used to have allies who could relate to your life choices/wishes haha#i think being gay complicates this... i used to think it was a blessing for making it less of an expectation but actually turns out soooo#many girls on dating apps and online have or really want kids 😭 and i'm just like. good for you but this doesnt work for me#ugh anyway yeah. you guys better still be following me for rudolf posting when i'm 45 with a mortgage and an evil day job x#xD#you can take time off from your spouse and kids to log onto tumblr com and look at this shit 🥰🥰 for md ☺️#me*
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Haha I also used the dickless bore. I thought that only the two main characters came back didn't know he did as well. I still don't buy him ever being into her but that's just me I do wonder if he's going to try and kill her again. I do think Li Rong is treating him too well for my liking she should at least treat hit similarly or worse than she treated ML I want to see wet paper towel non stop suffer.
on one hand, imo a SRQ who is heartless doesn't work for the story the writer is trying to share with us. On the other hand, it's totally ok to decide to be a full-time hater towards a minor character, just because it's fun. I support haters! 🎉 \o/ 🎉
One thing that I think is relevant when comparing LR's reactions: if PWX had killed her, the motive would have been as part of his mission to have his childhood love Qin Zhenzhen's son become the next emperor. (Remember, he came over to threaten her life over that right before she died and called his ex Zhenzhen lmao) THE AUDACITY. In contrast, LR is viewing her murder at SRQ's hands as part of the revenge plan for the Su family's execution.
Some passages of Li Rong's POV:
After a few moments, she whispered: “Where did the scent on you come from?”
“If I say it, you might be upset.” Pei Wenxuan’s eyes had a hint of gloating at others’ pain.
Li Rong thought for a while and frowned, “Su Rongqing?”
“Yes.”
...Li Rong said nothing. She blankly stared into the fire.
Pei Wenxuan turned the fish over and looked at her with a smile, seemingly quite happy. Li Rong found that he had a fearless, unabashed look of enjoying a good play and couldn’t help but be a little fazed.
She believed everything Pei Wenxuan said.
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Su Rongqing was someone that she saved with her own hands.
That year, Prince Su rebelled, and Su Rongqing’s elder brother spoke up for Prince Su. Later on, he was falsely accused of colluding with Prince Su, implicating the Su clan with treason.
At that time, Li Chuan was so furious that he fainted. He put the entire Su clan in prison without going through the Joint Trial of Three Divisions first and put the men to death and the women into exile. She disagreed with this decision and rushed to beg Li Chuan before the Su clan received their sentence. After being subjected to ten planks, with Pei Wenxuan’s intervention, she was finally able to ask for amnesty for the Su clan.
Even if the death sentences can be forgone, it was impossible to escape punishment while still alive. Even though the men of the Su clan could live, they would be subjected to castration. The others couldn’t bear the humiliation, so they all committed suicide in prison. When she arrived, there was only one man “desperate for life and afraid of death” left among the men of the Su clan, Su Rongqing.
At that time, she had told Su Rongqing that she saved him without the intention of asking him to repay her. She could give him silver and a position, so that he could continue to live a good life in the future.
Back then, she didn’t have any special feelings towards Su Rongqing. It was just that he had saved her before, so after he took care of her, bit by bit, she felt grateful, and…vague sentiments towards him.
For the most part, she sought to save the Su clan for Li Chuan and her own conscience. The Su clan was a prominent, noble family. It was difficult for her to sit back and watch if they died in such an ambiguous manner.
At that time, Su Rongqing refused to go.
...It wasn’t that she had never thought that Su Rongqing would not take revenge on her. After all, it was Li Chuan who ordered all the men of the Su clan to be beheaded and exiled all the female family members. It was impossible for anyone to forget this blood feud, let alone the formerly first and most outstanding gongzi of that year?
For so many years, she had never dared to give him real authority, observing him and guarding against him while still trying to help him live a better life. She couldn’t actually kill him because of her own conscience, but she couldn’t actually trust him and give him power.
In the end, he still decided to act. He killed her first, then successfully took her authority in the name of eliminating Pei Wenxuan. If she guessed correctly, he would not leave with the advisors. Instead, he would borrow the excuse of taking revenge for her and enforcing the will of the people to join forces with the Empress, assist Li Xin in ascension, and fight to the death against the remnants of Pei Wenxuan’s faction.
...
She had anticipated this possibility from the moment she took Su Rongqing in, but she couldn’t help feeling a bit regretful when it actually happened.
#honestly i think their relationship is quite interesting#and srq is a tragic character who just suffers 24x7 so no worries there#like just imagine: besides the horrible fate of his family#if he truly had always loved li rong#how cruel that would be#the only chance to be with her was this nightmare#and though they accompanied enough other and had some good memories#she could never trust him and could never return his feelings#and she SHOULDNT trust him#and now he sees no other path available than the one he is on#directly opposed to her and fighting on her enemys side#as he gets to watch her marry pwx again#and be increasingly affectionate together#and realize that this isnt young pwx who is too confused and insecure to have a functional marriage w lr#this is the mature adult who might actually make his beloved happy#and how to even feel about that#cdrama#the princess royal#my personal feelings about SRQ evolved a lot as the story progressed but tbh i still dont know#i feel sorry for him#i cannot sympathize with some of his politics but he is also so damaged that#like LR i guess i feel he must be opposed but i wish he could be saved#LR would say he has his reasons (and he has more reasons than she knows)#now the reveal that they are all from the future is clear#he does not come running to her to explain everything and defend himself#he isnt justifying himself#he actually isnt trying to make this all emotionally harder on her than it has to be#but also i DO consider him as someone who betrayed her#and i dont think he can have a place in her life anymore#(fwiw i get the salt about PWX murdering her: he blew up their marriage over ZZ + now warring w her at court over ZZ kid + kills her for it)
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And so the big sskk shortage begins (no sskk for the next 15 episodes) (and the sskk episode coming after kind of sucks)
#Hhhhhh this is such a good episode.#I don't have any particular strong feeling for Fukuzawa nor Ranpo but this is a very good episode.#The pacing is great the tension and ease are well distributed as much as action and exposition are.#The animation is spectacular and detailed. The drawings beautiful. The imperfect black and white is original‚ compelling and eyecatching#Truly something that shows the animators were given budget and enough time to really think it through. Please more of this#Off to more personal notes I clearly remember the moment in my dorm room I watched the bsd anime–#come back for the first time after three years and the reveal of the untold origins novel being adapted that came with it.#It's such a sweet memory. I was so so excited and happy and thinking back at it makes me :')#In love with Oda's voice please speak more baby#About voices Fukuzawa looks so younggggg and yet his voice is so deepppppppp it's a funny contrast ahah.#Fukuzawa was very pretty when he was younger.#Distributing countless papers on the floor of my childhood's house attic to order them to the point there was no space left to walk is–#something I actually used to do when I was little. That's a cute memory too. I've always liked organizing stuff lol#Seeing all the actors preparing in the backstage threw me back to my musical theater hyperfixation.#Theater backstage feels so familiar to me if only because I used to keep up with the actors' i/nstagram stories religiously pffttttt#I really like Oda.#Wish his life had a little more happiness in it. Wish Fukuzawa could have adopted him too. Wish he could have married Dazai.#Alas :///#Aight no Atsushi this episode (and no Akutagawa for a whole season God‚‚‚‚‚‚‚ ) but a lot more exciting things to come!!!!!#Oh almost forgot the op and ed songs are so good too hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#Actually I think I just might have a soft spot for everything s4 since it's the first season I witnessed as it was airing pffttt#random rambles#I probably need to find a better file to watch the season... So far I'm still using the old episodes I individually downloaded–#as the anime was dropping. Which technically are still 1080 mkv but idk I feel like the quality is not the best.#And the subtitles are suboptimal
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the way my parents talk sometimes it seems like they think the Worst Possible Timeline is the one where I don't get married and don't give them the grandkids they want lol
#you should've seen their faces when i asked them how they'd react if i became a nun!#anyway not to be bitter about this but. i am slowly becoming more okay with the idea of being single for the rest of my life#it doesn't seem like such a great source of grief for me anymore! i am not going to die if i don't get married#and i'm not going to live a LESSER life no matter what certain people in my community may privately think#i know that i DO put romance and marriage on a pedestal and it sometimes runs the risk of becoming an idol#so the fact that i'm actually okay with the idea of not finding 'the one' is REALLY good progress in my own heart and mind#i just wish my parents saw it that way lol#they think im repeating the 'i got HURT and REJECTED and i'm swearing off relationships FOREVER' routine i went through in high school
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layla's relationship with jordan is just so interesting. When they were younger, she was liv's best friend. liv and jordan were also best friends. and layla pretended like jordan was just some annoying guy that hung around. sometimes, that was truly what she thought. most of the time, he was her best friend's brother. and on other occasions, he was one of her closest friends.
he was probably her first crush, but in a way that was never discussed because he was eww a boyyy and liv's brother. she'd secretly be glad when he showed up, while making a show of how annoyed she was that he was interfering with their time.
she would make an excuse when her head turned looking for him as they got older, and he stopped hanging around as much. she'd roll her eyes when he was around, though secretly enjoyed it. and around the same time that it seemed clear that jordan was interested in everyone but her, she thought asher and her made more sense.
and jordan became someone she sometimes hung out with in a large group who messed around with anyone but her. their easy intimacy never disappeared, but layla's feelings did. she never fully addressed or admitted to them, even to herself, and she felt that could never happen anyway. asher was her boyfriend. and then spencer arrived, and she was immediately interested in a way she hadn't been with asher in a long time. she felt disconnected from him, and spencer brought back a spark she hadn't felt since her mom died.
jordan was no longer a focus, was barely considered a friend, and he was still her best friend's brother. but for all her work reconnecting with liv, she never tried with jordan because, well, they were never friends in the first place. a lie she got very, very good at telling herself.
until he did become her best friend. until it was him she was turning to in her darkest moments. it was him that brought her relief, and it was him that she fell in love with but, once again, could not admit to. he was her best friend this time, though. he wasn't just a person hanging around. he wasn't just liv's twin brother. he was her person. and once she admitted that to herself, the rest was over. he was never going to be anything less, and she would not lie to him about her feelings for him after that. she needed to protect herself. he had walls he still needed to break down to get to all of her, but once he had, he had all of her, and he will for the rest of their lives.
#everyone was aware except for layla that jordan was in love with her and wanted to be with her for their entire lives#and no one had that same awareness with layla because she was very good at playing it off and convincing herself it wasn't there#he wasn't the person that was right for her and that became clear to her in middle school#but that changed and he became her best friend again#and during that time she fell in love with him!! but he was with simone and that was something she wouldn't come between#and now they're married ! because once she admitted that she loved him there was never going to be another outcome#it hasn't always been him but it also has do you get that#she won't rewrite history or pretend she was always wishing for them to be together because there was a long stretch when she wasn't#but he's always been more important to her than she was able to say until she COULD say it until she could say you're the most important#person in my life and i can't lose that#anyway they're meant to be fr soulmates fr and everyone can see that too#(spencer + liv + asher still responsible for the way they treated her tho xoxo)#muse: layla keating#meta: layla keating#dyn: lean into love (layla x jordan)
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Me @ to anyone, please anyone, I am begging you-
#do i think we need an outsiders remake/reboot/etc? no#do i want one? FUCK YES#come we've gotten like over a dozen anne of green gables remakes#just one outsiders remake to reawaken the fandom#it doesn't even need to be good i just need it to become relevant again#in my most delusional fantasies I'd wish for a sort of AU where johnny and dally survive and live together and get out of tulsa)(and marry)#i know their deaths are very important to the story but you know what else would be so important?#showing two boys who were born to die defy their fates and the roles forced upon then by society#and become more than anyone including themselves ever thought for them#but more realistically i think a pre-outsiders tv show would be so so so good#characters like tim two bit and steve can be expanded upon#their home lifes their struggles etc#we can have more dally back story#the soc ans greaser dynamics can be explored more#cherry marcia randy bob can be explored and we can get more insight on the lives of the socs#we can see how darry was before their parents death and how it changes him#johnny before he got jumped#like there is so so so much that can be explored#(and a jally kiss)#the outsiders#bob sheldon#steve randle#cherry valance#jally#ponyboy curtis#darrel curtis#sodapop curtis#dallas winston#johnny cade#two bit mathews
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you know that tiktok trend where it's like "before and after kids" and the before is them happy and the after is the clip of that toxic guy from euphoria walking away?
#..... i just feel that if people would be honest. many people's relationships have cracks in them before kids#a lot of people either use kids to fill those cracks or#are for other reasons coerced into having kids#OR have never had a real conversation about what life will look like after kids#furthermore i really really do not want to victim blame#but A Lot of women have kids with men who not only do not have knowledge about periods and pregnancy but also are disgusted by those things#and not helpful or not interested in the health of their partners in the first place! so it's like!!! idk it is very awful and tragic#and i wish people didn't convince themselves that being in relationships with men who do not offer them safety#is really better than just being single#like a lot of these men do not care!! or they want children but want nothing to do with child raring#or dont care to think about what child raring will look like#and the fact that their wive's bodies will change and undergo A Lot of physical trauma in order to have a baby#and when the reality of those things hits it is so easy for them to just step away from the discomfort instead of being a good partner#bc that takes a level of selflessness that they did not sign up for bc men typically get married out of selfishness
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⚠️ spoilers for gustafa's year 4 starlight concert dialogue below! ⚠️
his follow-up dialogue from the next day :
i've slowed down on sharing screenshots from my awl playthrough, (mostly bc i'm lazy when it comes to moving them over to my phone,) but i really wanted to share these. getting these bits of dialogue from gustafa actually made me tear up and just... really made me glad that i decided to marry him in my first playthrough. he has so much love for his family and the friends he's made in the valley, it's so sweet to see him share his passion for music with them year after year.
i've actually played a few of the other bokumono / sos games before this one and love a lot of the characters from them, but i really think gustafa is one of my absolute favorite marriage candidates from the entire series now...
bonus screenshot below!
meanwhile, bea's clearly not picking up on the vibes tonight. 😔
#sorry to get all mushy about a fictional character but man..... i just really love gustafa#as much as i wish there was more content dedicated to your spouse after you get married the stuff we do get is so good 😭#also now i'm thinking about rock and gustafa being friends and the shenanigans that'd lead to#rock always talks about wanting to throw a party so i could see gustafa jumping on that idea and helping him actually make it a thing#*iasip title card* rock & gustafa throw a rager in the valley#(it'd probably be a pretty chill party tho but rock would insist of having a milk drinking contest)#okay i need to go sleep for a lil bit#story of seasons#bokujou monogatari#a wonderful life#sos awl#sos gustafa#gustafa (awl)#oc : tris beckenbauer#🕹 : gamer time#mj.txt#cw long post#awl spoilers
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visited someone whos very very sick. hes convinced hes about to die. what the fuck do you tell a person who knows theyre gonna die
#hes always been so so so so good to me sweet as pie kind like no one else ive ever known#sitting by his bed him struggling to breathe oxygen attached to his nostrils had me excusing myself to go cry in private#as i tried to lighten the mood and let himself into my life by talking about my uni life and my upcoming exams#he told me he knew he was dying and he wished really with all his heart for my life to be long happy and fulfilling#im not religious but if it means he gets to live ill convert to any religion on earth please just give give him another ten years.#i want him to see me get my degree and maybe get married i want him to see me do something with my life i want him to witness it#i want to celebrate with him i want to sit and talk with him i havent thanked him enough i havent expressed how much im grateful for him#w.txt
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[Image caption for original post: live-action ad of a preppily dressed young blonde woman in a spring green blouse with daisies, spring green jacket tied around her shoulders, and pink skirt, headband, and purse showing up with a plate of red gelatin dessert to a party with two gothily dressed young women. around her head, The Sims-style interaction bubbles read, clockwise from bottom left: "flee", "cry", "faint", "die", "show tattoo". Text in the bottom left corner reads as follows: "Popularity. One of five new reasons to live. A whole new generation is in your hands. Satisfy their social ambitions, or pursue less pretentious life goals like Romance, Family, Knowledge, and Fortune. The choice is up to you. Come to think of it, pretty much everything is. Take charge at eagames.com." End text.
Comment in @boggmann's addition by @tacticalannoyance reads: "I can't believe no one said it but IT IS GAY CULTURE BC YOU COULD GET GAY MARRIED AND EVERYTHING AND THAT WAS HUGE BC THIS SHIT WASN'T EVEN LEGAL FOR ALMOST TEN YEARS AFTERWARDS!!! The Sims let you how GAY with zero repercussions in game and it was so fucking NORMAL. People lost their shit over it. they still do. This game was out and added content from 2004-2008. This game is older than most legal rights for LGBTQ+ people in the entire world." End captions.]
More than ten years, in fact - Obergefell was 2015.
Also, in case anyone hasn't heard this story, a gay employee quietly implemented same-sex romantic interactions into the first The Sims game before it was shown to the public, and reportedly, a spontaneous kiss between two female Sims during a public stage demonstration pretty much cemented the fact that the game was going to feature gay content.
this sims 2 ad has like such deep gay energy to it. Like this feels like queer history to me
#kinda sucks that the sims 4 is so like. anodyne and anti anything interesting in life though? esp. given how daring the first several were#like yeah you can get gay married. and there are some rad gender options i sorely wish they had in the sims 2/3. but you can't go anywhere#and they took a lot of the humor out of the game too. it's like silly and sterile rather than wacky and occasionally grim#anyway yeah like. the sims has always been a trailblazer in video games - both for women in gaming and for lgbtqia+ rights#really hoping project rene or life by you or paralives is good#because i really want to recapture the magic of playing the sims 1/2/3 for the first time but the actual games are often painful to play#like i downloaded ts1 complete for s&g's and to try simitone but i don't remember it actually being that good by modern standards#ts2 has an annoying lack of body diversity (less so than ts1 but still) and a lot of other annoying limitations and generally feels crusty#ts3 is cool but kind of A Lot. plus it runs slow but that's less of an issue for me personally. (might merge all my hair cc)#also i am kinda dissatisfied with all current ts3 neighborhoods#my favorite is the custom hood bridgewood but it annoys me that the sun's the wrong way. but fixing this would require totally remaking it#i might do that? but that's too gigantic a project for me to undertake right now#i started looking at doing some hex editing and s3pe hackery to basically just turn the whole thing around but. yeah#the sims#representation#the sims 2#media#video games#gaming
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They were not fucking joking when they said that living well is the best revenge
#got accepted into a masters program with a 3% acceptance rate#got my masters at 22#immediately after graduation I got my dream job in the same field I got my degree in#I’m in a very happy committed relationship with the most beautiful girl in the world and I live with her and I genuinely think#im going to marry her#she’s also in grad school and is so kind and smart and funny and we have so much fun whenever we’re around each other#we’re thinking about buying a house#cause my grown up job can let me do that#I have really great amazing friends and deep connections with so many of them#my relationship with my siblings and my parents is wonderful and fulfilling#I make enough money to live comfortably#I’m just so grateful to be in a secure spot in my life right now and to be happy with myself and genuinely grateful for what I have#I wish I could have told a younger version of me how good my life would be one day#I’m so grateful to have made it through the dark and hard times
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just saw a cardinal in the backyard,, that makes me feel better in a gay grieving way
#i like to think that cardinals are signs from ur loved ones who've passed so hiiii caleb ik that was u tryna be like quit crying abt me#ik u wouldnt want me to be upset but fuck do i miss you so much#i wish we could hav been there for eachother instead of staying away#u told me i was too good for u and u didnt want to ruin me by bringing me down with u#it fucking sucked and it still does and it probably will for a good long while#i miss u dawg i wish we could hav been gay and lived out our plans we made#the plans were so good til we got lost in our own ways#we rly thought we'd hav it all figured out and come back to eachother eventually u said#id wait for u forever in a platonic way i dont even think i was tryna be married and gay and shit#i just wanted u back in my life somehow even as friends#we were rly good friends til we started being more then it got messy and ugly and abusive#i was always ur fave victim tho <33 ik thats for sure#u literally had to have the last word thru the unsent project dumbass bitch boy how could uuu#how could u leave me a suicide note in that way knowing id check when u died whyd you have to do that to me.
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