#life hell for a long long time

[running-in-the-dark]

sometimes I just. realise I'll probably never feel normal about money in my life

I grew up poor, but it's not just that. it's that my mother would constantly complain that she didn't have any money, and because I was the oldest and also lived with my dad, she would call me and tell me to ask my dad to give her money. or rather, she'd yell at me to do it. sometimes she'd come over and they'd scream at each other about it. usually not in front of my brothers, I think, but always in front of me.

I remember how I didn't get anything, ever - and I don't mean luxury items, I mean clothes, underwear, school supplies. one time I asked for a set of coloured pencils because I really liked to draw - they weren't expensive, definitely under 10€, but she got mad and told me we couldn't afford that.

but she went to the hairstylist every 4-6 weeks to get her hair cut and dyed. the few times I went with her (I didn't feel comfortable going usually, because I had anxiety but mostly because I knew it was expensive and I knew we couldn't afford it), I saw how much she spent there (not a lot, but definitely a lot more than anything I got). she smokes, so she spent at least 10€ a day on cigarettes too. but that was fine because she 'never got anything for herself'.

when I desperately needed new clothes (because I literally did not have any that still fit and weren't completely broken), she would only take me to one store - because her friend owned it. I hated all of the clothes there and they were expensive, but she got to pay later or something so that's what we did. she always got more for herself than the few pieces I was allowed to get.

even when I had to move in with her again (not voluntarily), she still made me ask my dad for money. when I asked her to buy food she'd tell me she would do that when my dad sent more money. and it's not like he just didn't feel like paying - at least one of us lived with him until I was like 16, and he had less money than she did. but still. she'd always yell at me because he was so bad and I was responsible for making him give her more money.

whenever I got any money, I spent it immediately, because I knew if I didn't, one of my parents would borrow it (maybe I'd get it back, maybe not).

I don't know. I just don't know how to be normal about it. the stupidest things related to money will trigger memories of being screamed at. it all just feels bad.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Just your average male living space.

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[rendevok]

The gingerbread anything agency!

A secret santa gift for my good friend max 🥰🫶

[lolibunnn]

[happypeachsludgeflower]

SVSSS BRAINWAVE JUST HIT! I HAD A THOUGHT ™

An average modern person transmitigates into SVSSS. Mind you, I specifically mean SVSSS and not PIDW. That’s right, our protagonist awakens to find themselves as a NPC in the world of Scum Villain Self Saving System. And they think to themselves upon waking up, “Oh, I’m an NPC in a xianxia novel with a happy ending! Cool!!” and goes about their life being a background nerd geeking out about plants, and monsters, and cultivation in general, and neat flying swords.

But this is a world of sex pollen and wife plots and unfortunately the cure for a lot of diseases is duel cultivation with a heavenly demon, and we all know who that demon is going to end up marrying, so it’s best to mess around with meta cultivation knowledge and prep for the worst case scenario, and honestly, they may as well solve some of the minor issues in the plot while their at it, so they invent some new cultivation techniques from some of those nifty svsss fanfictions they read while alive (I’m specifically thinking of this fic’s explanation of duel cultivation and cauldrons, but other weird cultivation methods could be used from other fanfics and xianxia books), so they can tidy up some things.

For instance, is it really necessary for Zhuzhi-lang to be stuck as a weird snake creature for nearly twenty years? Is it really needed for Yue Qingyuan to have crippled cultivation due to his sword?? Does Tianlang Jun have to be stuck under a mountain and then escape only to slowly die in a decomposing body??

They know they can’t change everything without the system interfering, but small nudges should help right? After all, they’re just a background NPC and Shen Yuan will show up eventually and everyone will fall in love with him and no one will even notice the NPC’s existence even if they had noticed something was up during their miraculous healing and salvation spree.

So they go about fixing those things. They catch Zhuzhi-lang unawares and feed him a sun and dew mushroom seed while he’s confused and do some funky cultivation shenanigans and pat him on the head cause he’s really such a cute weird snake creature and give him some vague warning about not trusting in laws and then fucks off to somewhere else.

I’m still caught up on Metagaming’s concept of duel cultivation transactions where you give and take—like taking something from someone’s cultivation, not just power, and returning something else—and keep getting stuck in a brainrot loop of the NPC taking some bloodmite powers from Zhuzhi-lang when they gave him a fully humanoid form that’s not reliant on Tianlang Jun. So my main idea for how the NPC plots to hold Yue Qingyuan in place is feeding him lesser bloodmites (not full ones because they only took a minor ability and can only hold someone for a few minutes before the bloodmites die), while they hold Yue Qingyuan still long enough to draw some ritual to heal his soul and separate it from Xuan Su. But honestly, I’m sure other ideas could apply here too. My Metagaming brainrot is just too strong right now to think of any.

And Tianlang Jun? Simple. Zhuzhi-lang’s got a humanoid form and can easily get the sun and dew mountain flowers for himself. They can’t stop the man from being imprisoned entirely. The system says no since Luo Binghe needs a dramatic entrance. So while they can’t stop the tragedy, they can put some pieces into play for an early escape, maybe a new plan to get him a better body once’s he’s back, and be a ferry for Su Xiyan’s body to revive her at some point as well.

It’s nice being an unnoticeable NPC, isn’t it? You can do whatever you want and no one’s going to know!!

Except. Someone does notice (as we all could have seen coming). And Shen Qingqiu is suspicious as fuck of this obnoxious Shidi because he notices everyone due to paranoid, and he’s even MORE suspicious of the mysterious character that healed Yue Qingyuan’s soul (and wasn’t that a doozy of a realization to have when Yue Qingyuan burst into his bamboo house one day freaking out because some disguised, powerful cultivator somehow did the impossible after ambushing him and holding him down as they healed his soul, and Shen Qingqiu is still reeling from learning that Yue Qingyuan’s SOUL was damaged trying to save Xiao Jiu and the stubborn asshole never told him because he apparently assumed Xiao Jiu knew there wasn’t a single universe where Qi ge didn’t try to come for him). And so yea, Shen Qingqiu is suspicious as all hell and starts snooping and plotting to catch the mysterious cultivator by combing through Cang Qiong because whoever it is has to have an in at the sect somewhere to know about Yue Qingyuan’s soul.

And that’s not even mentioning how suspicious Zhuzhi-lang and Tianlang Jun are now. They might not have realized what that strange cultivator did when they did it, or understood the cryptic in law mention, but they certainly have some suspicions now that Tianlang Jun was as imprisoned by in law like people, and Zhuzhi-lang kept his humanoid form just fine without Tianlang Jun, and now the hunt is ON for the mysterious benefactor, so they can repay the kindness and find out what the fuck is going on.

The NPC is, of course, oblivious to all of this going on and goes about their merry way thinking they’re being the Best ™ at being lowkey. They are SO good at being inconspicuous!! They deserve an award really!!

And then. Shen Qingqiu doesn’t qi deviate.

Shen Yuan doesn’t show up.

Oh shit, the NPC thinks to themselves as they begin to panic. They even check Shen Qingqiu out themselves to see if it’s Shen Yuan just being really good at acting. Maybe he was a better actor in the book than he gave himself credit for or something?? But no. That’s Shen Qingqiu all right. Shen Yuan is missing in action, and someone has to fix the plot of Cang Qiong is doomed.

Thus begins the NPC’s journey to try and unobtrusively fix PIDW’s child abuse problems (that they’re unaware are already fixed), save Liu Qingge from his qi deviation in Ling Xi Caves, make sure Luo Binghe doesn’t raze the sect to the ground someday and hopefully find him some sort of husband replacement to keep him under control when he does return, possibly dispose of the Huan Hua Palace Master at some point because he’s vile trash, and did I mention there are multiple man hunts for this poor oblivious dude currently on going??

And the most important question for them to solve? Where the fuck did Shen Yuan go??

Hmm I wonder where that man could have gone.

[thatimageoftomscott]

im cryingggg they are literally perfect for each other.

[yo-yo-yoshiko]

Shouma!! Aw, hey fella!!!

some closeups on these ones eeheh^^

[stealingyourbones]

Shoutout to the one army recruiter who has refrained from putting me on the no text list so every 3 months we can catch up and I can regale him with new cat photos.

[claire-starsword]

oh goodness my, claire is back to doing deltarune sprite edits because of the 8bit segments, who could have freaking guessed

edit: ...didn't realize some white parts wouldn't show up for light mode users without a bg color. my bad. haven't used light mode in a while.

(i could do lineart for the last mike's hands instead, but hands hard and i like how the lineless style came out, even if it's not exactly my the style of most sprites in-game, i just used the pippins one as reference and pippinses are weird art-wise, now i can't be bothered to change it)

[hella1975]

getting a diagnosis for smthn is actually so crazy. 22 years old and looking back at my whole life like OHHHHHH. I GET IT NOW

[applerums]

i've finished my first playthrough of alan wake 2 and now i want nothing more than to sit in my room for like a week and sketch nothing but alice like i'm alan wake himself trying to reach my beloved wife through my creations

[blueskittlesart]

*sigh* thoughts on Nintendo's botw/totk timeline shenanigans and tomfoolery?

tbh. my maybe-unpopular opinion is that the timeline is only important when a game's place on the timeline seriously informs the way their narrative progresses. the problem is that before botw we almost NEVER got games where it didn't matter. it matters for skyward sword because it's the beginning, and it matters for tp/ww/alttp (and their respective sequels) because the choices the hero of time makes explicitly inform the narrative of those games in one way or another. it matters which timeline we're in for those games because these cycles we're seeing are close enough to oot's cycle that they're still feeling the effects of his choices. botw, however, takes place at minimum 10 thousand years after oot, so its place on the timeline actually functionally means nothing. botw is completely divorced from the hero of time & his story, so what he does is a nonissue in the context of botw link and zelda's story. thus, which timeline botw happens in is a nonissue. honestly I kind of liked the idea that it happened in all of them. i think there's a cool idea of inevitability that can be played with there. but the point is that the timeline exists to enhance and fill in the lore of games that need it, and botw/totk don't really need it because the devs finally realized they could make a game without the hero of time in it.

[rustedhills]

Disney, releasing Wish: "so it's all about legacy--the new generation surpassing the old, overcoming the evils perpetuated by them, relinquishing singular power... and there's an old man in a tower, uh... animal sidekick, i guess..., ah... magic...?

Miyazaki, just out of frame, sledgehammer raised:

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

do todoroki and izuku ever figure out they’re in love with each other

Not in pez. I doubt I’ll ever continue this universe past the ending point of pez, but I do have a way I imagine them getting together in the future.

They don’t get together until after the final battle with AfO. There’s a moment in the aftermath while the dust is still settling where no one is certain if Izuku survived. He and AfO had fought until the air burned with energy, until the sky glowed green with lightning. It ended with them crashing back to the earth like fallen angels, and then the entire world falling silent.

There’s a crater where they landed, and no one climbs out from it.

Mirio’s the first one to rush into the battlefield. His body moved before he could think. He screams Izuku’s name until he’s hoarse, and Aizawa has to restrain him before he tries to climb into the crater himself.

That’s the moment Todoroki realizes that he wants to tell Izuku he’s in love with him. The moment where he’s not certain if it’s too late.

Izuku survives, of course. He clambers out of the crater, falls to his knees, and gives Mirio a small nod. Then, he throws one fist in the air, and entire world knows that he won.

Mirio and Aizawa are helping him out of the carnage when Todoroki stumbles up to them. Cameras are filming, the entire world is watching, their entire class is swarming next to them, and Todoroki just can’t wait any longer. He waited too long as it was.

He tells Izuku he’s in love with him. He’s sorry. He knows Izuku doesnt feel the same way and he doesn’t want anything to change between them. But he’s been in love with him since they were kids and he needs Izuku to know.

And Izuku stares at him a beat and says. I’ve been in love with you since we were kids.

And Todoroki says. What.

And Izuku says. Yeah. Since we were like. Fifteen.

And Todoroki says that he’s been in love with Izuku since they were fifteen.

And Izuku is like. No way.

And Todoroki says: “I thought you were in love with Iida.”

And Izuku says: “I thought you were in love with Iida.”

And Iida, who is also there, says: “WHAT”

Everyone is exceedingly lucky that they are all so relieved that Izuku did not die in a terrible passion because otherwise Iida would kill them both with his bare hands. How could they have both subjected him to years of completely unrestrained pining for one another because they both wrongly assumed that the other was in love with HIM.

Izuku, as if it were obvious: you were the obvious choice

Todoroki, also as if it were obvious: anyone would be in love with you Iida

The rest of the class: *nods, murmurs of acknowledgment*

Iida: *has to go lie down in one of the ambulances*

After that, Todoroki and Izuku are officially together. They are immediately subjected to the rest of the class unloading several years worth of shit onto them for taking this long to figure it out.

This is a mistake on the class’s part, because they are the biggest assholes around. After two days of being teased for how slow they were, they announce their engagement. Every single time someone tries to explain to them it’s absolutely fucking insane to get engaged after two days of dating, they double down say, “I’m sorry, I thought we were doing this too slow” and insist this isn’t just to get back at everyone for being assholes about how long it took them.

This is a lie. They are absolutely faking the engagement and doing this to get back at everyone.

Iida argues with them for several hours and then has to go lie down.

Anyway they completely forget they did this, date for a lovely year and a half, and Todoroki proposes to Izuku at a tasteful dinner in the countryside following several weeks of psychological warfare because both realized the other was going to propose and spent several weeks sabotaging the other’s attempts so that way they could beat them to the punch. Todoroki ended up winning after recruiting All Might, Inko, and Eri into his scheme, which Izuku insists was an underhanded move in between bouts of crying from joy.

They announce their engagement to their friends and families like it’s somehow a new development, which makes them remember that they were already officially engaged and have been for years. This reveals that their engagement was, in fact, a sham meant to get back at everyone for how much shit they gave them, which makes Iida spend several hours alternating between congratulating them, crying a bit, telling them how genuinely happy he is for them, and shouting at them for faking an engagement and then forgetting about it. And then he has to go lie down.

They have a very lovely wedding that absolutely everyone cries at, and that has so many heroes in attendance that Japan had to fly in heroes from other countries to handle the shortfall in labor. Mirio is Izuku’s best man and Momo is Todoroki’s, and they’ve already agreed have to pick a venue with an extra large space for the altar because the entire class is in their wedding party.

They wanted to have their parents walk them down the aisle, but there’s obvious issues with Endeavor. Izuku has Inko and All Might walking him down, and Todoroki was going to just have his Mom do it alone, until Iida barreled in asserting his rights as Todoroki’s teen dad. It wasn’t easy but by god he raised them well and he’s earned this. He labored as the dad friend he agonized and he is owed this by right.

Iida cries openly while giving Todoroki away. It’s very dramatic.

Iida, sobbing in the row reserved for parents of the grooms, holding hands with Inko who is also sobbing: I’m sorry, it’s just, they grow up so fast

Dabi, sitting in the row behind him, here because Fuyumi threatened his life if he didn’t come, with open disgust: you’re the same goddamn age.

There’s a line out the door to give speeches. None of them were planned for, save Mirio and Momo, but no one tried to stop them either. Everyone had something to say.

They live in a small, cozy house, and they get a dog and a cat, and the dog is mostly Izuku’s and the cat is mostly Todoroki’s, and their couch is rarely empty. There’s so many people who love them to fill it. Izuku is always on his bullshit, and Todoroki is never more than a step behind, and Iida spends the rest of his life blaming them for his impending grey hairs, but he’s always right there with them.

They have all the love they never thought they’d have, and they’re happy together. For the rest of their lives, they’re happy.

[justalittlebluetiefling]

I'm just realizing how wild it is that they let a ridiculously powerful fey creature set up a team-building scavenger hunt for them.

[tangerwoll]

just woke up from a dream where the leafs made it to the stanley cup final against the preds and we won game 1 with 17 goals