#life hell for a long long time

[running-in-the-dark]

sometimes I just. realise I'll probably never feel normal about money in my life

I grew up poor, but it's not just that. it's that my mother would constantly complain that she didn't have any money, and because I was the oldest and also lived with my dad, she would call me and tell me to ask my dad to give her money. or rather, she'd yell at me to do it. sometimes she'd come over and they'd scream at each other about it. usually not in front of my brothers, I think, but always in front of me.

I remember how I didn't get anything, ever - and I don't mean luxury items, I mean clothes, underwear, school supplies. one time I asked for a set of coloured pencils because I really liked to draw - they weren't expensive, definitely under 10€, but she got mad and told me we couldn't afford that.

but she went to the hairstylist every 4-6 weeks to get her hair cut and dyed. the few times I went with her (I didn't feel comfortable going usually, because I had anxiety but mostly because I knew it was expensive and I knew we couldn't afford it), I saw how much she spent there (not a lot, but definitely a lot more than anything I got). she smokes, so she spent at least 10€ a day on cigarettes too. but that was fine because she 'never got anything for herself'.

when I desperately needed new clothes (because I literally did not have any that still fit and weren't completely broken), she would only take me to one store - because her friend owned it. I hated all of the clothes there and they were expensive, but she got to pay later or something so that's what we did. she always got more for herself than the few pieces I was allowed to get.

even when I had to move in with her again (not voluntarily), she still made me ask my dad for money. when I asked her to buy food she'd tell me she would do that when my dad sent more money. and it's not like he just didn't feel like paying - at least one of us lived with him until I was like 16, and he had less money than she did. but still. she'd always yell at me because he was so bad and I was responsible for making him give her more money.

whenever I got any money, I spent it immediately, because I knew if I didn't, one of my parents would borrow it (maybe I'd get it back, maybe not).

I don't know. I just don't know how to be normal about it. the stupidest things related to money will trigger memories of being screamed at. it all just feels bad.

[corpsentry]

a glass sun 1/2

[lil-lemon-snails]

"I can't ignore what's under dancefloor boards, The rhythm of my heart a dead-as-disco beat, But I still move my feet, to slip out of this groove, I'm free" ~ 2econd 2ight 2eer, Will Wood, The Normal Album

I have been plagued with visions of LDR Sun every time I listen to this song and I NEEDED to get this out of my system @spadillelicious when do we get to smooch the boy pLEASE

v textless version and close ups under cut!! v

[theatrevampire]

lmao sorry if i was an old man dying from parkinson's with a lot of regrets in my life and the vampire i met in my 20s called me up 50 years after an interview where he attacked me and was like "can we try again?" and then i got to his billionaire dubai penthouse and sat down and THIS was what he said to me it would have been fucking van helsing ON THE SPOT like why don't we take a walk outside in the sunlight you shady ass queen

[rustedhills]

Disney, releasing Wish: "so it's all about legacy--the new generation surpassing the old, overcoming the evils perpetuated by them, relinquishing singular power... and there's an old man in a tower, uh... animal sidekick, i guess..., ah... magic...?

Miyazaki, just out of frame, sledgehammer raised:

[blueskittlesart]

*sigh* thoughts on Nintendo's botw/totk timeline shenanigans and tomfoolery?

tbh. my maybe-unpopular opinion is that the timeline is only important when a game's place on the timeline seriously informs the way their narrative progresses. the problem is that before botw we almost NEVER got games where it didn't matter. it matters for skyward sword because it's the beginning, and it matters for tp/ww/alttp (and their respective sequels) because the choices the hero of time makes explicitly inform the narrative of those games in one way or another. it matters which timeline we're in for those games because these cycles we're seeing are close enough to oot's cycle that they're still feeling the effects of his choices. botw, however, takes place at minimum 10 thousand years after oot, so its place on the timeline actually functionally means nothing. botw is completely divorced from the hero of time & his story, so what he does is a nonissue in the context of botw link and zelda's story. thus, which timeline botw happens in is a nonissue. honestly I kind of liked the idea that it happened in all of them. i think there's a cool idea of inevitability that can be played with there. but the point is that the timeline exists to enhance and fill in the lore of games that need it, and botw/totk don't really need it because the devs finally realized they could make a game without the hero of time in it.

[justalittlebluetiefling]

I'm just realizing how wild it is that they let a ridiculously powerful fey creature set up a team-building scavenger hunt for them.

[jackshiccup]

to celebrate my otnwasversary last week i watched httyd in orchestra concert and got a custom tiny toothless tattoo like woah.. we used to pray for times like these 12 year old me would be ecstatic to know this is what we’re upto now

[be-an-echo]

from another mother...

the day when Tess and Maria got shitfaced

[avernusreject]

What if when Rook chooses not to redeem Solas, the last thing Solas sees before he gets dragged into the fade prison is Lavellan. For ten years, he'd only seen her in her dreams, imagined her in the lonely hours of the night. To see her one last time, utterly helpless to move. Hearing her scream his name as she sprints towards him. To far to make a difference. Desperation lacing every syllable that leaves her mouth. The only words that escape his lips is a rush "vhe-", before he gets pulled in

[dykedvonte]

See like the only reason I think the others seriously believed Curly may have crashed the ship is cause he basically had a 30 Rock "I lie to myself" momentary breakdown in front of them after one too many mocktails and like completely forgot about it.

[shannonsketches]

what if they murdered freeza together. as a treat.

what if we gave granolah a big ol kaiju vegeta and they stepped on freeza as a team instead of going to therapy

[journey-to-the-attic]

what a mildly concerning message from my dear friend jo, i wonder what it could- OH MY GOD

WHERE DID SHE FIND HIM?????

[danwhobrowses]

What's this? My skin, cleared? My crops, watered!? My heart, soaring!!??

Callowmoore softness, comfort and sleeping beside each other my FUCKING BELOVED!

[professoruber]

Arcane Season 2 Act 3 Spoilers

Vi deserves better.

And her death being the cause of the alternate almost-perfect timeline was… kinda maybe a bit much?

I get that it was less a case of “Vi dying made everything better” and more so a case of “Undercity child dying caused enough of a scandal to force Piltover to care about the Undercity” but still.

Vi’s life has been non-stop suffering. She has constantly tried and tried to save and protect those she loves and has time again failed horribly.

By the end of the series she lost her birth parents, her adoptive father, her adoptive brothers, her adoptive father (again), and finally her sister.

And even if Jinx possibly survived, it’s unlikely the sister swill reunite anyone soon and so Vi will have to live with assuming her sister is dead. Plus with the guilt of Jinx having died saving her because she couldn’t leave behind Vander. Plus it was Ekko who convinced Jinx to keep living.

So the whole alternate timeline where she dies and everyone is great just feels like kinda punch in the gut on top of the sheer level of suffering she endures despite her good intentions and desire to just protect those she cares for.

Arguably made kinda worse by how the living Vi of the main Arcane timeline doesn’t really contribute overly significantly to the final battle against the Noxians and Viktor?

It was Mel and Caitlyn who had the final fight with Ambessa. Ekko of course saved Everyoje with the Z-Drive when Viktor was on the cusps of victory. Jayce was able to convince Viktor to stop. Jinx’s aerial rescue with mini-gun also probably took out more Noxians than Vi.

Not to say Vi didn’t contribute at all, of course. She still definitely held her own and fought a good fight. But still feels kinda crappy to have the whole good alternate timeline with Vi dead and then not give main Vi bigger moments to succeed and make positive changes.

Anyway my feelings are still fresh so I’ll probably mull over them and reflect on the season more as time goes on. Did really like it overall I think though,

But still though; Vi really deserved so much better.

At least she and Caitlyn mended things and seem happy together at the end, and so together they can hopefully grow and heal.

[chimchiri]

Weird idea but if you had to give Harrow and Nona tattoos, what would you give them and why? (I personally can see Nona with ocean/nature themed tattoos... Not sure what harrow would get tho).

And a small Nona request! Nona w/ an undercut and a septum piercing! (I imagined she'd have one braid for this look)

Ok first, I love the undercut idea <3

As for the tattoos, I think I have to differentiate between canon universe and (modern?) AU.

In a Ninth AU/same universe I either see Harrow not having any tattoos or having some that reflect her devotion to the King Undying or her house and Ninth tradition. Let's ignore the fast-healing body of a lyctor for now (I feel tats would not work properly with them), but I could see her have tattoos on her fingers, something slender along the spinal cord on her back and something following her ribs just under hear breasts. Maybe some religious text in Ninth writing?

I think it'd be hilarious if Nona decided to get tattoos as well. She'd probably get small doodles maybe from an amateur tattooist, maybe Hot Sauce, maybe even herself playing around with a needle and ink. The nature and ocean theme is beautiful and I agree that she'd probably like something along that. But I could absolutely see her getting weird ass random tattoos as well lmao. Like a Campbell soup can. I could even see her get a tattoo of a grocery list - maybe to not forget it a second time after she did so the first time? I just think it'd be hilarious once Harrow wakes up in her body and finds all these weird ass tiny tattoos. Maybe like these?

I'm not sure what's popular in fandom because I don't browse that much, but I love to hc Nona as Harrow's cousin who looks almost identical to her (so much they're mistaken as twins). Anyway, I still think Nona would get basically the same style of tattoos, just many more. Modern Harrow? Either she's a piercing girl with zero tattoos or I could see her with a lot of cryptic, surreal and eye-themed tattoos. Maybe because she always feels watched, maybe she wants to remind her God or someone/something else is watching her, maybe because she observes others, maybe because eyes are the window to someone's soul.... No specific reason, it's just a theme I see fit.