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I feel like this is the start of Damian getting pulled back into the TNJD violence and Dom truely realizing how little faith his team has in him 👀
#let's fucking go ya'll#bonus points if we get Finn SPIRALING about Dom being able to beat him like some of ya'll are theorizing#monday night raw#wwe#damian priest#finn balor#dominik mysterio#dirty dominik mysterio
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To the guys who keep on making happy ending AUs of the Mouthwashing crew where Anya keeps that baby... I hope you shit your pants violently.
#STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT#WHY ARE YA'LL MAKING HER KEEP THAT THING#DO YA'LL JUST IGNORE THE FUCKING TEXT NOT SUBTLE IMPLICATIONS TEXT IN THE FIRST PLACE#SHE WANTED TO GO TO MED SCHOOL AND BE A FUCKING DOCTOR GODDAMMIT#LET HER ABORT THAT THING AND GET THERAPY!!!!!!#mouthwashing#jawz.txt
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every time i see someone shit on the xianzhou story quest on twitter i die a little bit inside.
#narus' corner#SO LET'S TALK ABOUT HOW EVERYONE HATED XIANZHOU BECAUSE EVERYONE AND THEIR MOTHERS AND ANCESTORS HAD PULLED UP THEORY AFTER THEORY#AND WHEN SAID THEORY DID NOT FCKING GO ALONG WITH WHAT THE ACTUAL WRITERS HAD IN STORE HELL BROKE LOOSE#ion think u understand#maybe im biased. i probably am but the way hoyoverse tackled immortality with xianzhou is quite bittersweet honestly#YA'LL WANTED UR DOOMED YAOI AND YURI AND TBH ME TOO BUT THEY ARE STILL FCKING DOOMED EVEN IF SOME THEORIES DID NOT GO AS MOST SHIPPERS WANT#THEY STILL DOOMED MILADYS AND GENTS AND NONBINARY PEEPS DAN HENG IS SUFFERING FROM PTSD AS WE SPEAK.#u look at xianzhou and see predecessors suffering the consequences of what their ancestors wanted because of immortality and vow to stop it#because they been fighting people against GALAXIES who wants a taste of that immortality who also don't KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES OF IT WHICH I#LITERALLY GETTING MARA-STRUCK WHENEVER UR MEMORIES OVERLOAD FROM LIVING TOO LONG AND GO: damn this was shit writing cause i didn't understa#IMMA AAAH#eternal wars where when u find peace after winning you DON'T BECAUSE YOU TURN MARA-STRUCK FROM THE AMOUNT OF TRAUMA U HAVE#when immorality isn't immortality in a sense u can't be killed but long lifespan but then u can't even live said long lifespan#because u get mara-struck from participating in wars to protect AND YA'LL COME OVER HERE AND SAY BAD WRITING?!#and don't come with what the fuck is phantylia doing#ion think u understand how fucked we would've been if phantylia managed to actually absorb that ambrosial arbor AS A GODDAMN EMANATOR#OF DESTRUCTION OF ALL THINGS?! YA'LL WANT INFINITE HEALING WHILE GETTING BLASED OR SMTH!?!#and the aftermath which was probs the most hated on#imma just.#imma shut up LMFAO
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zukerin design timeline cause wynaut
#also im never gonna let go about the fact rin is gonna out live zuke#i got that shit GORILLA GRIPPED#the millisecond my un-diagnosed adhd and autism a-line it's fucking over for ya'll#nsr#no straight roads#zuke#rin 1010#rinzuke#dragondoodles
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After the Fall {AN ACTUAL SHORT STORY THIS TIME} [Kaiju No. 8] (Could be considered as possible Ep11 spoilers; interpreted artistically)
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"Kafka Hibino." Captain Mina Ashiro started, "No. Kaiju Number Eight. I am taking you into custody." She leveled her gun to him. Her voice as steady as her hands, taking care not to let an ounce of sadness that had filled her soul melt her outward resolve. The companies were distraught and heavily wounded. Most of the infrastructure in the training area had been reduced to ash. An arched border line had been etched into the pavement around them. One side was mostly intact with spider cracks in various locations. The other side was a pale, dusty mess. No surface from the border and beyond was traversable with all of it being splintered, jutting, and uneven.
At the peak of the arch stood a half dissolved monster, melting back into a man. When the flecks peeled off and drifted into the remnants of the wind, a face began to emerge. Kafka Hibino, the former member of the Third Division had ousted himself as the elusive Kaiju Number Eight. He stood stone still, letting fragments of his alter form slough off as he never took his eyes off his captor. He wanted to think he knew what she was thinking, that this is just protocol, that there was no place in her heart that harbored ill will or intent. Mina wouldn't use her gun against him, right? They could still be friends, that he could still fight for his spot at her side.
He couldn't tell. Mina was unreadable as ever and Kafka couldn't blame her. He had been reprimanded enough times to know that this was just how she had to be in front of others in the Division. Her place wasn't a position where she was afforded the leeway to be physically emotional. Emotion was considered weakness, and she had to be strong for the others. To the officers, she was being seen as a strong captain, standing against a Daikaiju threat. It didn't matter that this was Kafka, that everyone had seen that it was Kafka who made a harrowing choice to save the lives of thousands. All they saw now was a monster, no matter how human and familiar its face was.
"Hoshina. I need you to cuff him." Captain Ashiro commanded. Hoshina heard, but was refusing to act. He couldn't bring himself to look at the situation in front of him. A man he trusted, a man he had considered as a friend and compatriot, was confirmed to be a threat to the world. Hoshina wasn't sure at the beginning what Kafka's circumstances were. He knew that things were off, but he chose to ignore them. The whole reason for letting Kafka join as a cadet was so Hoshina could investigate him, and he failed to do even that. All because he couldn't look past his smile. How could a man with a smile so bright and genuine ever be a threat to others. He didn't believe it, refused to believe it. He wasn't going to slap cuffs on a man that didn't have a threatening bone in his body.
But was he a man? Everyone saw Kafka gain impossible speed. They all saw Kafka, as a kaiju, blast into the sky and launched the bomb to a safer distance. Was Kafka a kaiju now because he was strong and dangerous? Or was he still a man because he understood sacrifice? Kaijus didn't need to deal with pesky feelings. They didn't have to worry about what others thought of them. All there was in kaiju minds was to eat and destroy. Kafka could express emotion, and has expressed desire outside of destruction. If Kafka knew that others would turn and run in fear if they knew what he was and what he could do, why did he do it anyway?
"Hoshina." Captain Ashiro commanded again, dislodging her Vice Captain from his thoughts. He still didn't want to do this, still choosing to believe in the man behind the monster's mask, but it wasn't a good idea to make the Captain repeat herself. Reaching into his side pouch, he dug up one of the plastic handcuffs that most officers are issued with. They were issued with the intent that defense members might encounter people taking the opportunity for ransacking during invasions and could preform arrests until the offender could be picked up by proper authorities. Hoshina walked up to Kafka and held the industrial zip-tie in his hands. Every neuron in his skull felt like it was screaming in retaliation, making his hands hesitate in the action of placing Kafka under physical arrest. He almost wanted to laugh. Did anyone here actually think that these meager restraints could hold back a person with a registered fortitude rating? Kafka slowly held out his wrists in front of him, looking like a toddler that was expecting a ruler to come down on them in punishment.
"It's okay. I know." Kafka whispered imperceptibly to him. His head was bowed solemnly, but he looked at Hoshina as his face remained ever reassuring. He almost felt like slapping the look off of him. How dare he act like this. How dare he try to be apologetic and caring for others in this situation. Why couldn't he be an asshole and run, fight, do anything to save himself. For god's sake, why can't he be selfish. Having to deal with a daikaiju on the loose would have been less gut wrenching than having to send a fellow soldier to an uncertain fate.
"Captain Ashiro, I can explain-" Reno Ichikawa was shouting as he came barreling over the fallen debris as nimbly as possible. Following behind at a much slower pace was Kikoru Shinomiya.
"Save it Officer Ichikawa!" Ashiro barked at him, "Telling by your outburst at this time of all places, tells me you have some knowledge on this as well." she holstered her side arm now that Kafka had been successfully restrained.
"You too, Shinomiya. Hoshina told me about his suspicions about how you managed to neutralize the honju at the acceptance trials earlier this year and with you showing up behind Ichikawa here, I can assume that you're in on this too." She began to wordlessly direct those around her and made moves to stand behind Kafka and Hoshina.
"Okonogi, send several vehicles over to the training area. We have multiple wounded and a lot of tired soldiers that I think would rather drive than walk back to barracks. Leader Ebina, gather some of your people and start marking a path through the rubble so we can transport the wounded."
"Roger that, Captain. Do you want me to send an armored vehicle for Kaiju Number Eight?" replied Okonogi. Captain Ashiro looked hard at Kafka, now back to appearing completely human and in the plastic cuffs. Hoshina was looking right at the captain. Blood had stopped dripping down his face minutes ago, but it was still clear that he wasn't in any shape to fight anything more powerful than a mouse right now. She took in the fact that his hands were placed gently on top of Kafka's limply curled fists, a sight that Kafka couldn't pull his eyes away from.
"No. Leave the armored vehicle for now. We might need it to be fueled and stocked for whatever happens tomorrow." Ashiro replied back after serious consideration. With most of the Division looking the way it did, and the person most capable of going head to head with a daikaiju of small size looking like death warmed over, she acknowledged the fact that Kafka; or Kaiju Number Eight, she hadn't stopped her brain from fluctuating between the two, hadn't taken the opportunity to bolt for the hills. She figured if he was going to try anything, he would have as soon as she leveled her sidearm at him. In the bright moonlight over head, she could see the person she once considered a friend chuckle noticeably.
"Thanks for that, Captain Ashiro. Those trucks don't have the best air condi-"
"Save it. I don't want to hear another word from you tonight." Captain Ashiro commanded. She could clearly see the word's effect on him as he visibly flinched at her sharp tone. As the officers around her got into position and steadied their hands on their rifles, she pointed her finger off over Hoshina's shoulder, indicating that they should start moving. Kafka's feet regretfully began to shuffle around to face the direction he was supposed to go in, but when he tried to take an actual step he hissed loudly and nearly collapsed to his knees onto the pavement. Hoshina didn't think for a second as he rushed forward to catch him before he landed, propping himself under Kafka's broad chest and grabbing his shoulder to keep him balanced. The chorus of six safety switches all clicking off in unison could be heard behind the two of them.
"Shit- Sorry, sorry! Knees were locked." Kafka said, glancing over his and Hoshina's connected bodies.
"Sorry." He added, seemingly addressed to no one in particular.
'Maybe that was addressed to all of us.' Hoshina thought as he helped Kafka readjust to his feet. Once he felt okay enough to walk, he began to move forward at a sluggish pace. It was clear to Hoshina that he wasn't walking slow on purpose, and that it really must have taken a lot out of him to propel himself into the air and sucker punch a twenty kiloton yoju bomb into the lower stratosphere. Hoshina kept a hand on Kafka's upper back as he gently guided him through the path Ebina's team had marked earlier. With the moment they were in being as quiet as possible, save for the occasional echoing crash of broken rubble hitting the ground all around them, Hoshina took a second to think.
'I mean, when you think about it, that should be enough to knock the wind out of anyone capable of doing that in that sort of situation.' He stunned himself with the words in his head. How could he even try and logic out what a man with the power of turning into a Kaiju was even qualified to accomplish? This whole situation was absurd and he hated it. He hated everything in that moment. He hated Kafka for putting himself in danger, he hated Captain Ashiro knowing she was only doing her job, he hated himself because he was the one who told Kafka not to get attached to others on the job because God only knows what could happen and here he was, feeling attached knowing damn well that he was going to feel like shit because he was basically loosing the best damn thing this Division had going for it!
Hoshina couldn't writhe in his personal hell for much longer as the group had made it to the busted doors of the training grounds. The remnants of his fight with Kaiju Number Ten as well as debris from the explosion had all been pushed to the sides as best as possible. A few tents had been erected to preform triage and separate the barely scratched from the mortally wounded and treat them appropriately. A rotating convoy of open air trucks and military jeeps were set up at the far end of the street carrying the tired and lightly wounded to somewhere else on base for rest, if it was available for most. All activity seemed to slow, almost stopping in some areas as Kafka led his paltry parade showcasing his imprisonment through the masses. It almost felt like a display of a man being condemned. Okonogi pulled ahead of the line in her own commandeered jeep and pulled it to a stop in front of Kafka and Ashiro. The captain told the six behind her to grab a vehicle for themselves and follow close behind, before wordlessly hopping into the passenger seat of the car. As Hoshina hopped in the exposed backseat, he could hear Kafka groan and hiss as he settled into the spot on the bench next to him.
"Hssssss, haaaa, hoooo. Wow, sitting down. A novel idea. Who knew?" Kafka talked exhaustedly as he fumbled with the lap belt using his restrained hands.
"Miss Okonogi, not to presumptuously assume your driving skills, but you mind being careful and avoiding potholes and barricades on the way to my cell. I'm gonna take a nap." Kafka's head slumped unceremoniously against the metal bar framing the back of the jeep and immediately started to breath heavily, almost as if he was asleep already. His closed eyes meant he didn't get to see Mina's irritated glare she sent his way before she took the clipboard that Okonogi brought with her. Hoshina rested his elbow against the car's sidewall and placed his face in his hand, staring at an unaware Kafka.
'He's asleep. This no good, dirty, rotten, lying, mutant Kaiju bastard is asleep?' Hoshina thought angrily. As he felt the car move forward and tuned out Captain Ashiro and Okonogi's conversation, he realized all he could think about in that moment was him.
'A man saves an entire base and this is how we thank him.' Hoshina's inner monologue continued. He knew he wasn't the only one here who felt like this, and when the news got out in the morning he was sure lots of others were going to have mixed feelings on this as well. Arresting him was for the best, he knew that as well. Good intentions or no, human or no, it didn't change the fact that Kafka can become a kaiju. The whole purpose of the Divisions was to eliminate kaijus. The fact that Kafka was allowed to breathe, let alone sitting in the back of a car with the two most powerful people on base at rock bottom of their best, spoke volumes about how crazy and fucked up these circumstances were. Protocol was kill on sight, and Kafka knows this. Yet here he was, sleeping the rest of his freedom away.
'It wouldn't be hard, either.' Hoshina thoughts continued, 'I may not be able to put up a good fight at the moment, but we can assume he's mostly human right now. He's asleep and tired, which means he's vulnerable' He played with the tip of the handle connected to his sword. 'I could end it all for him right now and he wouldn't be wiser.'
But he wouldn't. Hoshina couldn't lay any hand on him with deadly and harmful intent behind it, now and forever. Monster or Human, it didn't matter anymore. Nothing could ever change the fact that Hoshina had one percent of trust in this man right now. And he wondered if Kafka could feel that too, because why else could he be so blissfully asleep right now.
'He's not going to be like that for long.' Hoshina thought bitterly. The protocol was kill on sight for honju and yoju, yes, but that stopped at daikaiju. they were killed like any other threat, but whatever that was left of the body after the fight was sent off for research. Research and experimentation. Hoshina knew that it was a snowball's chance in hell that the leaders of the Defense Force were just going to let them keep Kafka on base, but were they going to let Kafka stay alive and intact? Hoshina could feel his heart be poisoned and start to cramp up at the thought. He had to look away for a moment , lest tears started to mix with the blood and stain his cheeks even more. It took several sharp breaths and a solid minute of mental filing to help his chest feels normal again.
Hoshina tried to take another look at the mystery that was his fellow soldier. A face as still as a forest pond, covered in already healed scratches. Light from the moon created soft shadows on his eyelids and neck. flickering and shifting in tandem with the shakes and jolts coming from the moving jeep. His worker's tan looking more pronounced than it usually did. Kafka looked stoic and peaceful, which created a stark contrast to the unearthly and demonic visage Hoshina has associated with Kaiju Number Eight. It was an awful situation Hoshina found himself in.
On one hand, he wanted to come across the bench and hold him. Whisper calmly in his ear that everything was going to be okay. That he won't have to worry about whatever that's going to come for him in the morning. On the other hand, he wanted to be the one that was being held. To have all those sweet and empty promises whispered back at him, to be told that things would be fine for him too. Kafka won't have to leave the base, that this whole kaiju transformation business was just the concussion talking, and the base will be back to operational in no time at all.
None of those things were going to happen. The base reconstruction was going to take forever, Kafka was going to have to leave, and nothing was going to be fine. Hoshina turned away again, feeling the chest tightening again and wanted to keep his tears to himself for the time being. He couldn't cry now because there was a superior officer present and didn't also want to wake Kafka. He couldn't cry in the morning because he needed to be strong in the face of whatever decision that was to come down on his officer's head. As the first shifts of color indicative of the approaching dawn began to brighten the night sky, Hoshina tamped down every bit of emotion he had to let out later into the first few minutes of however much sleep he was going to get in those twilight hours.
This was going to be a rough few months, wasn't it?
#possible spoilers#For the next episode of Kn8#I wanted to get this posted earlier but I only just now had the time to finish it.#I don't think that we're going to get much of a direct aftermath of the arrest of Kafka HIbino#so here's a substitute.#warning: It's KafHoshi flavored#if ya read between the lines i guess?#who am i kidding#*looks at the last four paragraphs* Its definitely KafHoshi flavored.#I tried not to villanize Mina too much.#Everyone was bashing her for arresting Kafka and I was like#“It literally PROTOCOL for these people”#Ya'll should be lucky that he gets to come out of this without a gunshot wound#Kafka makes dad noises.#might post this on Ao3 as part of my Before the Beginning: After the End collection of Kn8 after the death of Kn9#Help establish the start of where Hoshina gets feeling for kafka.#BUT doesn't realize he has these feelings just yet.#thought I was going to crank this all out in two days.#Nope... as usual#not to act as canon compliant or as an accurate character study#as usual; let me know of spelling errors#fuck forgot these#kaiju no. 8#kafka hibino#kafka x hoshina#soshiro hoshina#mina ashiro#fanfic#fanfiction#short story
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*Crawls out of Artblock hole* TAKE SOME WORK IN PROGRESS BAD BOYS FOR YOUR DAY
#rambles#my art#wip#grian#solidaritygaming#jimmy solidarity#joel smallishbeans#smallishbeans#llsmp#limited life smp#trafficblr#traffic series#I AM FUCKING BACK THEY DIDNT START MELTING MID SKETCH I HAVE THE BASICS LETS FUCKING GO#god i have been trying to draw them FOREVER#uh anyways hi yall i am actually p happy so far with these boys :D#I kept the fluffy earfeathers and the tail feathers from my ESMP 2 Grian design which im happy with (and leg feathers i think?)#Joel is a wolf hybrid but I love the fairy/bug stuff I was seeing in his tag so uh wolf bug because I can do that#Jimmy! He looks very solid rn idk why but hey buff jimmy canon I guess#oh and I added some refs to the Canary Jimmy headcannon but as usual Moobloom Jimmy can be pried from my cold dead hands lol#i'm gonna do a bit of lining but I know I wont finish tonight so enjoy this for now ya'll!
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#piko rambles#sonic movie 2020#sonic movie 3#Ya'll already know what I just fucking watched. Time to spam your dash let's go
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Real quick before I go to bed (which should have been 2hrs ago):
Feel free to explain, if you want.
#baldur's gate 3#bg3#poll#if ya'll need me to tag this with something specific let me know#but like at first. i let him mess with my tav's eye cause i just assumed the worm wouldnt let him get far#but then my tav lost her fucking eye and i wanted to cry#anyway. reloaded to before i talked to volo and just didnt let him do anything#i noticed the eye has like an enchantment or something but i just cant do it. i made my tav's eyes so pfetty#also. i couldnt even look at the screen. even knowing they werent going to show it in detail
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Kpop stans look at idols that have lived together for nearly a decade being genuinely affectionate with each other and scream queerbait and then declare the most cringey ass fanservice and actual ship bait to be evidence of them being gay and supportive of lgbt rights.
#“these two have something going on for sure”#“they have the whole lgbt community supporting them”#and they are the companybassigned ship being shoved into vaguely romantic videos for a massive cashgrab#that's literally just there to sell fuckass overpriced creams and the damned merch just for these 2 is double the price of full group album#but oh no#they are totes real#its not like the company saw an opportunity to exploit the queer market and the deranged unhinged psychotic shippers#and went oh yes let us sell 3 variations of this fuckass useless merch that comes with cardboard pieces and a half empty bottle of cream#no like ya'll know who you are#you know exactly which shippers I am talking about#never EVER interact with me#you give me the actual ICK#your previous fave ship isnt some fucking lgbt queens for faking an entire relationship bullshit for clicks#they aren't doing anything groundbreaking#and let me just say this#none of you shippers give a flying fuck about actual lgbt idols who are struggling in the industry#at all#you only give a shit abiut your fave being gay and fucking the other member you ship them with the rest of the people can rot#to the point that any threat to your real person ship means you start slandering or shitting on this other person#and I genuinely hope you stub your toe every 5 minutes and never find a comfortable sleeping position#oh and for the record#no actual lgbt idol is going to do the kind of bs your fave company assigned ship is doing#you know why? cause its career suicide in a place like that#do you not know what happened to Holland? or Maman? Do you remember what happened to Lady? oh that's right you never cared. nvm
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me, who has 9 other blogs: it sure is nice to only have one muse
#[ THIS MONTH IS BAD FOR MY OTHER BLOGS ]#[ i've written 90% nnnoitra ]#[ i mean yeah i always prioritise him but ?? NNOITRA CAN YOU LET OTHERS LIVE FOR 2 MINUTES ]#[ nnoitra: no ya'll can fuck right off ]#[ I'M GOING TO TRY to swap a little between my blogs today ]#[ and get some stuff done on my other bois ]#[ ---- i say as i continue doing nnoitra's drafts ]#[ i simply love him too much t-t ]#[ ANYWAYS hope you're doing good guys!! ]#toby post. ╱ out of character.
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I love male nurses.
I have never had a shitty male nurse.
#he looked like a thinner karrion that was going gray#and upon hearing half my problem was immediately like 'yeah might be time to get them out screw that'#and told me he got his out during his residency 10 years ago and it was awful but beat dealing with shit constantly#but then thr pa was like :))) i dont see anything:))) just up ur gerd pill again :)))) maybe itll help:)))#and gave me a referral but wants me to wait to call. urgh.#just. let me. see. the fucking. specialist. ffs#they said my tonsils were big BEFORE ANY OF THIS SHIT EVER STARTED#and ya'll like :)))))))) this is normal!!! :)))))
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#so I think ep 12 is really good - does it have problems? yes.#do I think Atom should've apologized to Boston's face properly? yes#do I think boston should've apologized to top's face properly? yes#do I think Nick's interesting choice words for his last convo with Boston were def harsh? yes#do I wish they did the fire topmew scene a bit differently to make it more poignant esp since they've been shitting on top? yes#so many things! And that's just ep 12 bc jfc if u asked me abt the other eps?...we'd be here all night#basically it's this - they are characters meant to rep early 20 something students who are so messy and flawed and reckless#will they each recognize every mistake they've ever made? noooooo bc WHY WOULD THEY??? WHEN ITS ABT THEIR PAIN!?!?#THEY ARE THINKING OF YHEMSELVES#THATS HOW IT IS SOMETIMES - I DO THE FUCKING SAME THING#it feels v much like the end of edge of seventeen where you're with a character you've bonded over for an hour and a half and realize#NO ONE is going to apologize to them - not truthfully or fully or genuinely or etc and it's sad and heartbreaking and painful#but newsflash - it happens#and don't think you've done it right all the first time and apologized rightfully - and if u did?? It's bc that person mattered to you!#these 'friends'??? while yes they are - they also are not#im fucking surprised they all stayed friends tbh bc they don't truly make sense long-run but they have that business together so let's see#let's face it - it's the friendships it's the meanings it's the labels it's the community it's the assumptions it's the lack of words#ya'll saying you want toxic but can't handle when everything is not fair#and it isn't fair! there's exec decisions there's editing decisions there's casting decisions! bruh. it was set up from the start.#editing based on audience reaction? bruh. played right into their hands#blabber time#please ignore me#not even gon put the tags bc ya'll vicious as fuck when it comes to your characters while valid I'm tbh too tired to hear abt
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sometimes i look at things i write and i go "huh. my mental illness is showing"
#vent in tags#<- just to be safe idk what counts tbh lmao#GIRL WHY DID I CRY ABOUT SOMEONE CALLING A SONG FROM TWEWY MID FOR AN ENTIRE DAY??????#why do i keep comparing myself to a houseplant that dies when things go A Little Wrong??????????#hm. maybe i do need to get myself evaluated...#i need to get my eyes checked and go see a psych but i! am incapable! yay! <- knows getting a diagnosis can and probably will make my life#much harder#pls at least let me see if my eyes r fucked or if i am. pls.#optometrists aren't that expensive but it's bad to go alone i think :(#im glad people worry about me but at the same time it makes me wanna die bc like...... no.....#i should not be burdening others with my issues... ya'll have your own lives and issues....#bleh. subjecting myself to the mortifying ordeal of being known sucks#i think its kinda funny that my internet friends always know more about me than my own parents...#but it's not like my parents ever take an interest in me anyway lmao#when i said i wanted to study jp i only got a very sarcastic 'good luck' like... i was at least hoping they might offer to buy me something#to study off of... but they like never take an interest in me anyway lmao#they weren't even here for my birthday. and made plans over new years without me knowing#i only learned when i asked to go see my family for new years bc they hold a celebration and this might be the last time i can go#for like... 4 years. and i don't think i can take myself bc the route is over very windy mountain roads :(#and i... do not trust myself that much in the car... and it hurts me to drive even the 10 mins to and from school sometimes...#my knee and ankle get stiff and my hip starts to hurt... its bad :(#it sucks tho i miss my family i'm lucky if i see them once a year... but its not like the adults give a shit.#sighhhhhhhhhhh. ugh. my life isn't even that bad by a lot of standards so i feel shitty for whining about it#like yeah my parents don't really care about me but at least they feed me and haven't hit me since i was little?#idk man. i should stop talking i think.
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okok so this is different than my usual sun and moon show posts but- I picked up Trials of Apollo (from the Percy Jackson series) from the library a few months ago. I enjoyed books 1, 2, 3, and 4...but I forgot to get the 5th book, so I had to wait to finish the series. I finished the series on friday, and I haven't been posting much in these past two days because I've been really fixated on ToA. (yes, I am an apollogist. Yes, I think that Apollo is a complex character that deserves more attention than he gets from the Percy Jackson series. I will die on this hill.) So...I've been thinking, I REALLY want to share my thoughts and theories with the rest of the ToA community on tumblr. But I don't want to do it here, cause ya'll followed for Sun and Moon show, not Percy Jackson. So...should I post all my Percy Jackson stuff (which will mainly be ToA, ToA is very underrated) here, or should I create a different account? Please leave your honest opinions! Also, if you're a Percy Jackson fan, and you want to leave hate on ToA, then go ahead and do it lol. I find it amusing. ToA seems to be mainly disliked/ignored by the rest of the Percy Jackson fandom (prolly because Apollo is a god and all the other books are focused on demigods, so people assume it won't be as interesting), and I find it funny when a "REAL PERCY JACKSON FAN!!1!!1!" hates on it 🤣🤣
#apollogists#not sun and moon show related#ToA deserves more attention#fight me#I will die on this hill#if u want to hate on ToA please do#I love it lol its so funny to read#no but seriously like Apollo is just as capable of being deep as all the other characters???#like yall give him some love too#Nico and Will literally have more attention than him#and they only have one book of their series published so far#like what the fuck#Just to let all you percy jackson fans (who didn't read ToA) know...#Apollo is one of the most complex (in a very likeable way) characters in the series. I love him. Give him more attention#ha ya'll thought he was all tough??? naah hes a teddy bear#he cries more than all the other characters but together#why am I going crazy on the tags#is this what being an a03 writer is like#Also Artemis is also very cool#OH AND ALSO#if you don't read ToA#you might not discover Meg#which i find very#like very very very very very very very very#VERY sad#Percy Jackson#ToA#why did I only think now to add those tags#what the fuck
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the people in the notes need to be let out today
#im going to shoo them into the outernet#they need to touch grass#every one of them#including me#heheh#I was a guy to let me out to run around in the yard ya'll are crazy fr#IM JOKING#bro jelliebeanbitch is finna rip everyones throat out if we breathe wrong#im gonna fuck their dad and give him a child hes not dissapointed of#im kiddinggggggggg#or am i#I don't want to wake up on a saw trap tomorrow so ima say im kindding <3
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*stares into the camera like I'm on The Office*
#IT'S BEEN ALMOST 8 YEARS MINIMUM#AND *NOW* YA'LL WANNA MAKE YOURSELVES KNOWN#*sigh* Alright OC Revamp time let's go#CHRIST 🤣#WWE OC#I fucking guess???#wwe#cryptid's bullshit
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