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Another nice day in the sky for my flight home above the fluffy white cotton wool looking clouds …. A really nice weekend escape for me at my favourite place .. just not long enough …. It’s always a dreaded feeling leaving my favourite place .. like pieces of me are left there waiting for my return again …. Hopefully I won’t be gone for too long before my next trip .. to be back for longer again soon …. 🌊❤️
#leaving is not the same as arriving#beach lover#pieces of me left there#to be back soon#my favourite place
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"the Gabe and Sally dynamic in the show is abusive" and "the way they've portrayed Gabe in the show is distinctly different from his book counterpart and fans can criticize that" are two discussions that can coexist
#I understand that this is hard topic to navigate#but me saying that /they've changed Gabe and that's consequently altered the dynamic he has with Sally in way I don't like/#is NOT me saying I don't think what they've portrayed onscreen is non-abusive#or that I WANT to see him abuse her???#its just the guy in the show while clearly controlling and abusive (emotionally and financially so far)#...I don't believe he's the guy who's presence was so horrid and disgusting MONSTERS avoided him#I wouldn't call him /Smelly/#in the book his abuse (all forms) is much more overt#(and just to be painstakingly clear: abuse doesn't have to be overt to be abuse)#but the guy in the show does not have the same presence as the guy in the book#book Gabe is menacing#he growls and he threatens and both Sally and Percy have developed very specific responses to deal with it#I've seen one take saying that people can't recognize the abuse in the show because its not physical (yet?)#but even disregarding the physical abuse entirely#if you compare the book scene and TV show scene of Percy arriving home and he and Sally readying for Montauk#there is a pretty stark difference in tone#and in how both Sally and Percy interact with Gabe#in the book Sally goes out of her way to avoid /provoking/ Gabe and asks Percy to do the same until they can leave for Montauk#and Gabe is just itching for any excuse to keep them home#and imo if Book Sally had said the things that show Sally did to Gabe#Gabe wouldn't have let them gone!#and again im not saying that the show's depiction is nonabusive#or unrealistic#im saying its simply /different/ than the book#and im upset that it doesn't feel like dynamic depicted the book#and no book sally is no simpering wilting flower#but she's also not what they depicted in the show either#pjo adaptation#sally jackson#pjo
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Awwww
#is that the same restaurant as last year?#carlos sainz jr#charles leclerc#pierre gasly#lance stroll#zhou guanyu#lewis hamilton#george russell#alex albon#daniel ricciardo#valterri bottas#f1#abu dhabi 2023#yuki tsunoda#look who are sitting across from each other#carlos/Pierre and Charles/Yuki interesting#and George/Alex#valterri/Lewis arrived together and will leave together because they are Chill
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Also do you think Venti heard about Ei closing down the borders of Inazuma, thought about Decarabian and old Mondstadt, and went 'lol this is going to become a disaster'
#genshin impact#genshin talk#'this is going to be a disaster but not my region not my problem'#actually wait he may have been asleep during that#same sentiment though probably heard it and went 'huh good luck'#ei and deca are pretty similar in some ways. never leaves the house. thinks they're doing good#people are suffering under them and an uprising is brewing#hey if the traveller arrived in old mondstadt would they have been able to save decarabian
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Control over time
#ramble in tags! this is my current idea for what Mao is doing in the current arc#because unlike Fumiko Mao actually cares about Denji and Nayuta outside of just being people she should be around because of her job/#agreement with Public safety. so she wouldn't abandon Nayuta in the middle of that mob like Fumiko did#anyways backtracking a bit. So when Fumiko arrived at Denji's apartment as it's being burnt down by Barem and the weapon hybrids#she brings Mao (devil form) along with her instead of the random PS backup dudes#(she went after her in the time she split from Denji and Nayuta. as before that Mao was dealing with the followers at the csm church#alongside Katana and Nail. she tried to see if she could revert the transformed humans back to normal but it's sorta like fiend logic#so she couldn't do much other than cure their injuries since they're pretty much just devils by that point)#back to present time. Fumiko sends Mako to attack Barem#she injuries and throws him to the ground but then Whip appears and makes a huge dent in a side of her head before cutting Mao in half#hence why the blood and ripped clothes she has in this drawing#so Mao is down. temporary as she isn't fully dead but can't to much other than keep moving the clock pointers around and regenerating#Barem tries to choke Nayura and Fumiko shoots him in the head. then the fight between Denji and the weapons + the subsequent mess#with the random citizens attacks him happens pretty much the same#Fumiko leaves Nayura on her own and when she looks to the side she sees Nao crawling in her direction#she asks her to give her some time and she'll be able to fight again. so Nayuta starts killing people and by the time Barem gets the mob#to go kill her Mao is back at full strength and fights back to defend her. subsequently the two of them escape#so Mao is helping Nayuta on whatever she's currently doing. if she's alive that is#if it does turn out that Nayura is dead dead then i may leave Mao with the devil hybrids for the time being. they have a weird relationship#csm#csm oc#chainsaw man#csm part 2#hyena scribbles#Mao Masashige#Nayuta csm
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When Eddie comes out as gay the funniest thing Buck can do is set him up on a blind date with Josh only for Buck to learn too late that Josh and Eddie don't like each other.
#911 on abc#9-1-1 on abc#911 abc#evan 'buck' buckley#eddie diaz#josh russo#gay eddie diaz#bi buck#they don't hate each other but they also don't get along they're oil and water#they're also adults and know how to exist in the same space without acting childish#i think it'd be funny buck being proud setting them up and telling maddie and chimney only for them to tell buck they don't like each other#only it's too late and eddie and josh arrive at the restaurant to see that buck set them up with each other#and despite not liking each other they stay because they rag on buck for setting them up because they're the only 2 gay guys he knows#3 eddie corrects josh but buck cant set either of us up with his bf#and i also think josh clocks Eddie’s feelings for buck but promises to keep them to himself#and they leave the dinner not closer but with a newfound respect for each other#plus i think it'd be a good way of tackling how not every gay person has to like each other#and also how to be an adult around people you don't like#neither will let buck live this down and also have a weird understanding where if they're in the same room at least they can#bitch and gossip with each other
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thinking about bob coming home and surprising you with ice cream from your favorite ice cream place, and y’all snuggle up on the couch with your treats to watch a movie 🥹
#my fantasy rn because i’m getting ice cream but have to get it myself#and therefore i can’t get cozy in my pjs because i have to do an everything shower first and i don’t wanna leave the house after i showered#bc that defeats the purpose of showering#and if i bring the ice cream home and do my shower it will melt#and yes i can put it in the freezer but that defeats the purpose of a hot fudge sundae#it lol be a cold fudge sundae#it will*#not the same experience#do you see my girl dilemma#like why can’t i hop in the shower and by the time i’m done bob will be arriving with fresh sundaes
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qsmp makes me feel like a conspiracy theorist almost constantly. I see someone go "yeah bad almost exclusively chooses tophats in games when given the option" and I immediately run back to my conspiracy board and pin that next to the photo of q!slime and q!mariana saying they'll adopt juanaflippa because she has glasses like q!slime/q!mariana respectively under a sticky note captioned "??? the original spanish-english egg pairs were designed in a way meant to attract certain parents to adopting them???", that's connected by red string to a note pad page stating "how random was the parent pairing REALLY?" with nothing under it - which is then connected to a string that leads to several polaroids containing the ending(s) of the wall and the wreckage of the button, captioned "why build a wall that big only to have it end at a certain point?" followed by a string connected to a notebook page in the middle of the board reading "the illusion of choice?" - connected to several other seemingly dead-end questions and theories, as well as some slight stragglers only connected to eachother and not the middle. and then I look over my board covered in feverish notes and I go. yeah okay so I may just have like a slight problem
#quesadilla island and the illusion of choice.#i am so normal#I spent. a little bit too long on this bit I think.#saying stuff#I have more thoughts but it's just the generic stuff.#why does the federation want the residents on the island so badly. how did wilbur even leave the island.#why did islanders from the island itself vs others who aren't arrive the same way. what the fuck is up with the codes.#why do the feds insist on having a good rapport with the islanders. why do they try to desensitize them to their presence via tasks.#why do they try so hard to look non-threatening to the point even grunt workers carry around bubble wands to blow on the regular.#a lot of this is easily “the federation wants to build trust” but that's also a why. what do they stand to gain from doing that.#hold on where's my nerd tag#i think.#oh my god really.#that's. okay yeah that checks out actually#qsmp#quackity smp#q!cellbit a man of the people (I am burning with questions about the federation all of the time oh my god.)#edit if you see spelling mistakes in this post do not correct me please I have a fragile ego#I did not notice until four hours had passed and now I'm committed to pretending I do not in fact care about it
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gonna snap one day and run through the halls of media critique screaming A PLOTHOLE IS NOT WHEN THERE IS AN EASILY EXTRAPOLATED AND OBVIOUS ANSWER TO A QUESTION THAT THE WRITERS DID NOT THINK EVEN NEEDED TO BE EXPLAINED OUT LOUD BECAUSE THEY EXPECTED YOU TO USE YOUR BRAIN JUST A L I T T L E
#i swear to god this is going to make me lose my mind#“um they didn’t show us how this character who has access to multiple forms of transportation travelled a short distance to get to a place”#motherfucker unless there’s a reason they shouldn’t be able to travel that’s not a plothole#you’re being a nitpicky cinemasins trained dumbass who actively seeks to make stories worse??? STOP IT#don’t even get me started on how another lane here is people who just don’t pay attention to media#and then go “well how could i be expected to remember things in a story they should simply reexplain everything to me every single episode”#fuck ooooooooffffff#today’s annoyance brought to you by “why isn’t taissa at her job being a state senator” (because she hasn’t been sworn in yet ftlog)#and “how could people arrive at the same destination at roughly the same time after leaving at different times???”#when the answer is TWO OF THEM DROVE FROM OHIO TO UPSTATE NY AND THE OTHER FROM JERSEY#ONE DRIVE TOOK LONGER! BECAUSE OHIO IS FARTHER AWAY? LITERALLY THIS IS HOW GEOGRAPHY WORKS
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Progress with the Nirnroot embroidery is slow but steady. Let's see if I can finish this leaf today :)
#embroidery#nirnroot embroidery#i have a bunch of different shades of very light blue and green for this#and the glow-in-the-dark floss will arrive today too#i am however thinking about adding some dark grey accents/lines in the 'shaded' parts of the leaves#and some pebbles in the same grey so it's not floating in thin air#.... or no pebbles and some off-white roots like when you have it in your inventory
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🌧️🫧💭
#i shouldnt have fav mutuals bc i get sooo sad when they soft block me#which *always* happens like im not joking the day will come when they're just like nahhh bye#🥲🥲 nd i cant help but get sad#nd i dont even agree w that anon who said that 'no wonder everyone blocks u' bc im never mean to anyone#i think it's just bc im fundamentally unlikable and unlovable and the time will come when smth abt me#ticks them off nd nothing abt me is ever tolerated i always have to be perfect for everyone so then i just get cut off like dead weight lmao#also it shows that i get attached so easily but in reality ... ppl are not at all as attached to me 💀💀#like i care abt them but they dont care abt me nd it makes me feel so stupid#why do i so easily care for ppl?????? why do i have to care nd like ppl when it's always gonna end the same way#me being me is bad nd wrong and nobody could ever truly know me nd still like me#i have to live my life constantly hiding parts of myself and making sure im not too authentic or too open bc then i will make ppl dislike me#it rlly is that. im never mean. i never fight. ppl just see smth abt me nd go 'oh ewwwwww' nd then leave#nd if it hasnt already happened it will at some point nd im constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop#whenever i realize i say or did smth wrong im tense waiting for the moment where they'll leave me will arrive#ok this might sound silly bc i was like 'triggered' by smth small but like#all my life thats just how it's been. im not even mean or cruel. i just exist and ppl dont like me or who i am or what i think#i can never be truly myself anywhere. that is sure to result in being all alone 4ever. but i dont like hiding parts of myself#but i have to. but its hard when im trying to hide nd be lowkey but i still manage to make ppl dislike me T-T#idek what im supposed to do bc i just exist nd im not likable. i try to be that but im still not. idk what to do#anyway.. who cares.. j'appartiens seul#but yeah it is bc it's like this for me all the time nd ig that triggered me lmao#i mean just w my sisters.. their issue is just who i am. my personality. i havent been cruel to them. or bullied them. or put them down#they just get irritated from my personality nd who i am. thats what makes them mad. nd they kinda want me to just stop being me nd idk how#to do that and therefore we arent even talking. havent talked for a year#i wanna cry like????? what am i supposed to do??????? im so extremely fucking horrible that just by exisiting nd not being mean or cruel mak#es me unworthy of everything. idk idk like. omg i feel so stupid for being triggered by that#maybe if i had irl friends and a job and a life i wouldnt care but im a fucking loser failure worthless good for nothing idiot. ofc im this
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the way i can see ted following in his father's footsteps after that finale
Edit: ok I've had some sleep and took some time and I don't actually think that. I still agree with the tags though
#he was not happy. HE WAS NOT HAPPY#he never learned the lesson they kept hitting us over the head with. that he needed to let people in and accept help#which was said by his mum in the pub and sorta referenced when higgins said that the way to grow as a person was to accept help#the last two episodes only emphasized the way richmond was where he belonged. he was integrated with the community he had a support system#he knew the vocabulary he finally understood football#“they say there's no place like home but there's no place like richmond”#and then he just. leaves.#he arrives to the sound of a song about a father pushing social morms and conformity onto his kid#and the show closes with his face. hes smiling but it doesn't reach his eyes.#the final song is about a person who has never been brave enough to fight for what the wanted#hes coaching a little league football team. emulating to same thing he did in richmond. and it feels empty#it feels fake. like the idyllic suburban neighborhood#compared to the bright community of richmond#fuck#ted lasso spoilers#ted lasso
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Hello! Are you still doing requests for the drabble game? (If not it's still okay!!)
I've been browsing the milgram tags and I keep seeing your drabbles here and there and I've been so in love with each and single one of them. You characterize them in a way that feels so canon I wish it was actually real. Your stories are such a delight to read!
I'd like to request Lies + Kazui and Yuno, or Kazui with anyone really. He's been a liar through and through and I'd like him to talk with someone about it, and Yuno's the only other prisoner who can truly understand him. Especially with Kazui's trial going on and him leaning guilty, he would be more antsy than usual. (But if there's another scenario you'd like that's totally fine as well ^^) Thanks!
Aww thank you so much, I'm so glad you enjoyed! :D And thank you for the request, these two are so interesting !! I imagine that Kazui can tell from the voices he hears that he's leaning guilty, or at least very close in the middle. Here's him and Yuno, following an instinctual lie that she just can't leave alone...
“I’m doing fine,” Kazui said, perfectly accustomed to lying about himself. He was used to putting on a smile when his insides were yanked into knots. He was used to ignoring signs under the surface for the sake of others. There was one thing he wasn’t prepared for, though, and that was Yuno Kashiki.
“Mmm, no you’re not.” She said matter-of-factly. She braided her hair in a complex pattern, hardly even looking at Kazui. Instead, her eyes stayed fixed on the tiny handheld mirror she’d propped up on the table in front of her.
It wasn’t the first time she’d caught him in one of his lies. She’d been merciful in the past, allowing the group to laugh it off and move on. Now, in private, she seemed much less forgiving. She wasn’t the only one in an unforgiving mood (which, conveniently, brought him back to the root of the problem.)
“What are you doing with your hair?” He peered over from behind. “It looks nice -- what’s the occasion?”
Her voice lilted as she said, “oh, well I’m so glad you asked! I’m celebrating the day that prisoner number seven tried and failed to hide his true feelings from me after I asked him oh-so politely how he was doing!”
He returned her smile with a pained one. “I’m not hiding anything. I’m doing as well as any other prisoner. Better than most, for that matter.”
She returned to her task. “That’s a pretty low bar.”
“Heh, I guess.”
“So? What’s eating at you?”
“Just annoying young women who can’t leave an old man alone…”
He thought they could leave it at that. Yuno disagreed.
“Come on, it’s just us. Be honest.”
After a pause, he furrowed his brow. “Why?”
Yuno wasn’t the nosy type. She could have probably gone through all three trials without knowing a single thing about the others’ sins. She’d been even more solitary this trial, forgoing the usual gossip and conversation. For some reason, she seemed unmovable on this request.
She caught his gaze through the mirror. He could only see one of her eyes, but from her angle she probably saw most of his face. “Because it hurts, to lie.”
It did. It had hurt for years. Even when his act became second nature, when the words flowed easily and his body moved without pause, the truth was still somewhere deep inside trying to eat him alive. Here in Milgram, he continued to feel its ache. Now, on top of the same old lies, he was trying to play the part of the calm and collected adult. Yuno was right about the bar being low -- the prisoners were in a sorry state. He had to be strong for them. She herself wasn’t doing well; despite the airs she put up, she was struggling just as much. (She wasn’t the only one who could pick up on someone else’s well-worn mask.)
So he couldn’t be honest and falter in front of her, either. Aware that his silence would be equally telling, he asked, “are you speaking from experience?”
“I’m not letting you change the subject,” Yuno pursed her lips, “but I’ll never miss an opportunity to talk about myself.”
She shifted in her chair, now turning away from the mirror to look at Kazui. He was taken aback with how smoothly the confessions spilled from her. “Yes, I know firsthand what it’s like. I know how much it hurts to lie to someone who loves you. I know what it’s like to wait until the last moment to say something, realizing it’s too late, and you’re screwed. I’ve had to cover up my pain in front of others, pretend like it’s all fun and games when it’s clearly not. And most of all, I know what it’s like to be caught in the middle of the warden’s judgment.”
“I don’t know what you mean.” He did.
Being named guilty is the worst fate for a lot of reasons. The thought of being forgiven, though, felt worse. There was no winning. Just another thing to claw at him from the inside out.
“It hurts, Kazui. I know you feel it. I realized how much all that secrecy tore me apart inside, so I came completely clean to the warden during my interrogation. I thought maybe it could help you, too.”
His expression softened. As much as Yuno wanted to be independent of this whole situation, there was always a part of her that wanted to treat others right. Seeing her intentions were pure, he felt himself relax under her gaze.
“Telling them the truth… and being forgiven afterwards… will it help this ache, then?” He placed a hand on his chest. It was easier to direct his questions at her, but it was clear he was curious about his own fate. “Do you feel at peace now? Can you forgive yourself?”
She turned back around. Her eye watched him from the mirror once more.
“Yes,” she told him, and Kazui knew he wasn’t the only liar here.
#milgram#kazui mukuhara#yuno kashiki#ahh thank you sm! you guys are so kind ;-; and YES i really love yuno and theyd have such interesting interactions...#its cool that shes a liar who completely opened up in milgram while kazui doubled down on his secrets since arriving#with every drabble im like DAMN these two prisoners are exactly the same 😅#i know we're not sure on yunos story but its easy to piece together she and kazui were pretending to love someone they didnt#and after opening up about the truth (gay) (baby) they were wholly rejected#i also think its sweet that they both stay pretty distant but still look out for the others#yunos shown to be caring despite her isolation and kazui accepts his role as the protector#i was half referencing that one timeline convo where she calls him out about his taste in women#but im sure its happened more than that lol#and yeah i really Hope this verdict helps yuno forgive herself but given the story so far i cant be sure ;--;#sorry i always leave an extra rant in the tags asdfsdfds#i hope you enjoyed!!#drabbles
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ordered new sippy cups and night lights today! so excited for them to arrive!
#i already have pink and purple sippy cups and i love them so much i ordered the same ones in blue and green#and the night lights have little rainbow glowing mushrooms with leaves and flowers#i’ll post pics when they arrive#age regression#agere#age dreaming#age regressor#agere blog#agere boy#agere community#agere little#safe agere#sfw age regression#sfw agere blog#age regression community#sfw age regressor#sfw agere#agere positivity
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#my friend who just moved came back this weekend for a funeral#and i kinda wanted to hang out with her but also like . read the room#i didnt know the person who passed but i know she was really upset about it and idk how to be comforting :/#but it was the same weekend i was out of town for apple picking#so i thought we just wouldn't have a chance anyway#but i just got the life360 notification that she arrived at the airport at home#so apparently she was here for a whole week#and we maybe could've hung out#but i didnt wanna bother her and just assumed she was leaving sooner :( so i didn't get to see her :(
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Spinning in my head what happens if after Steph comes back, if she doesn't do the whole assassins thing with Tim. If instead, we focus on the process of coming back to life, of meeting her mom, of the guilt and grief left behind in her absence, and then - Bruce dies.
Would Tim invite her with him? Would the fact that she kept herself hidden for a year while he grieved be too much for him, especially considering the he was spiraling? And even if he did, when she's offered Batgirl, would she go with him? Because I genuinely don't think she would.
#telespeak#stephanie brown#tim drake#this is very much trying to figure out how to arrive to the same place they're in during their 2009 runs#But I think their relationship in this revolves a lot less on Tim telling her to leave Batgirl behind#and a lot more in the fact that over and over again she isn't there for him when he needs her (+ his grief spiral)#Despite the fact that he tried a lot to be there for her#And from Steph's side. The last year has been A Lot. And there's a level of insecurity to the way she sees herself in Tim's life#I don't think she - especially post war games - is gonna think of herself as super important to him#(especially after she messed up that bad - thinking about that quote always)#And Batgirl is both a way to redemption and a chance as legitimacy and stability for once in her career.#(I do think she knows on some level she's being selfish. I also think she'll be able to justify it to herself.)
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