#lame ramblings

[queerofthedagger]

it's already humiliating when you get into new media, take one look at a character, and know that one's gonna be living in your head indefinitely, but it's absolutely nothing compared to looking at a character and thinking eh i don't think i'd ever have strong feelings about that one he's kinda boring and then he sits quietly in the back of your brain poking idly at synapses and thoughts every once in a while until one day you wake up and realise oh. oh fuck. category 5 blorbo moment, how the ever loving fuck did this happen to me

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

I think I made some of you guys a little sad with my last post, so you can have some happy aftermath twins before part 2, as a treat ❤️

[bigmanpiwi]

They got no clue where tf they're going

I've been rotating them in my mind like a couple of pebbles in a rock tumbler. I have. So many thoughts about stan and edas relationship specifically.

It's not a typical romantic relationship. I mean, they were only married for 7 hours, so. They're like-minded, kindred spirits... who constantly tried to pull the wool over the others' eyes. Almost every time they have crossed paths (they part ways to lead their own lives and do their own thangs but they always end up stumbling across eachother again through one hairbrained scheme or another) it's like a race to see who could rob the other blind first. And suuuure, maybe they've conned each other a few times, but they never stay mad. They understand the hustle. You can't blame a scorpion for stinging. They're just a couple of wandering nomads who find solace in each other AAAAA IDK WORDS‼️‼️‼️

[neigepomme]

headcanon of the day! caleb likes your silly movies send tweet

when you watch mean girls with caleb for the first time, he pretends not to pay attention but then you catch him unconsciously saying "that's so fetch" the day after. and then two days after. and then a week after. and he just keeps on saying that until he finds a new thing to say.

he starts muttering "whatever major loser!" when he loses a league of legends game a month later...

caleb's also team jacob when you two watch twilight. well, that was until he finds out (with a super dramatic gasp) that jacob had imprinted on bella's daughter. he takes all of his "come on pips, jacob is way better than edward! edward's just an old porcelain vampire guy or whatever — jacob's a werewolf!" statements back, with a sincere apology for doubting your judgment (in the form of a snack platter).

🍎 pomme's notes - can you tell i've been on a 00s movie run today..

[arrowsperpetualcringe]

No one:

No one at all:

Klavier's gay ass when Apollo enters a room:

Playing with his hair like a SCHOOL GIRL HELP 😭

I just know when this man is alone he kicks his feet and giggles when thinking of Apollo

[fryday]

whenever phil says something actually horrific and then plows onward with it for the sole purpose of getting a reaction out of dan and then dan doesn't give him anything I'm just like LOOK AT YOUR BOY GIVE HIM YOUR WORST MOST GROSSLY AFFECTIONATE STARE WHAT ARE YOU EVEN DOINGGG

[sallymew4]

“you cant ship that….. they tried to kill them...” ok so. can couples not have fun anymore

[otome-dissection]

Idk man I just think that mizu/ena5 and its progression was really beautiful actually. I just think that the release of the ena5 song was also really beautiful and kind of the nail in the coffin for me and I haven't been able to get the event(s) out of my head all week and that I kind of want to talk about it, actually.

It's about being hurt so deeply and continuously that any kindness that could be offered to you manages to feel like a sin, that it makes you crumble and shatter but for all the wrong reasons, not because of the newfound safety, not out of relief, but something worse and more deeply ingrained in you than kindness ever was. It's about carefully measuring the distance at which you keep others away from yourself, to ensure that it never happens again ("To save yourself the trouble", if that makes it easier).

It's about realizing that the people you've been spending all this time with are drifting closer, that they just might bump up against the unsightly parts of yourself that you've tried to keep locked away, it's about turning around and sprinting at full speed and slamming the door shut and holding onto the handle behind you to stop it from turning, because you're as frightened of the possibility of another wound being inflicted on you as you are of the possibility that kinder, gentler hands will reach out and smooth over the exposed scar. It's about hating eyes that judge and silently condemn you as much as you hate eyes that simply see you and take all of you in without scrutiny, because no matter what they're looking and they're looking at you and they know that your hand's on that door handle and they know that you're hiding something because, as much as you try to keep it shut, they've seen through the crack that you foolishly left open.

(The prominence of eyes in Bake no Hana, specifically eyes looking and searching, and finally landing on you, the viewer, Mizuki, is so fucking. Visceral in my opinion. Every character in the MV stares at the viewer in a deadpan, almost judging way. Even though Mizuki knows deep down that niigo won't really hate them, won't judge them, she just can't stand their kindness either; any gaze directed at her is a loss, another prick in their skin. It screams "don't look at me" while making sure that you know, with horrific certainty, that they're looking for you, that you're being watched. You can't go outside, can't leave your room, because they're searching for you, and while that should be reassuring, to you it's anything but).

It's about not wanting to be dissected, whether it's with hands that want to pull your organs apart or stitch them back together because no matter what they're there, and they're getting frighteningly close to your heart. It's about blinding yourself and covering your eyes to it all because seeing means exposure and exposure means they're taking something from you and you can't do anything about it, much less take it all back, much less have a say in the matter. Everyone's just taking and taking and taking and you wish you could just be alone. You wish everyone would just disappear and you could live in a world all to yourself, for only yourself (but is that really what you want?).

It's about the way that, near the beginning of the Yoka ni Mitoreta MV, Mizuki and her loneliness is represented as a dark, splotchy stain in the shadows. No colors, no patterns, no way to clean it or wash it all away, just raw ugliness marring a blank canvas. It's about the way that Ena reaches out to it anyway, the way she startles when the glass shatters just when she finally starts reaching forward, the way that the rest of the MV/song represents her searching for and reaching only further out to Mizuki, even if the broken shards of glass will only cut her fingers, potentially leaving scars.

It's about how, in every way, subtly, directly, consciously, and subconsciously, Ena shows that she fucking cares.

It's about the way that Ena lets Mizuki have autonomy, despite the situation being so horribly out of their control. And it's such a delicate thing: If she really wants to, Mizuki can take the opportunity to just run away, keep running forever, repeat the cycle over and over, and maybe she'll just destroy herself with it again, but it can't be denied that it's something important to them, something she can't quite live without just yet, their means of survival. Mizuki's autonomy is their identity, it's her tailoring her own clothes and choosing her own ribbons and styling her own hair the way she does. Ena letting them have that is as much about trust as it is about understanding that Mizuki of all people should have this right, when control was something stripped from her throughout so much of her life. She couldn't control how she was born, how people look at her or why, can't control what they think of her; lacking control has only left Mizuki vulnerable to the cruelties of others, has only caused them to suffer, which is why it's so important that it's given to them now.

She had the control to make the choice to see niigo's welcoming love and run away instead of staying, and she has the control to make the choice now whether she wants to keep things the way they are or take a step forward to be at their side again. She has every right to have it, and I think the fact that Ena realizes and respects that, even if it's subconsciously, is really beautiful (there is an entire fucking Verse about this in the new song and just. God Look at this. It's so caring, unconditional, and for fucking What. I think there is something to be said about how much Ena is willing to put aside for Mizuki, and maybe deep down it isn't healthy, but for now I'm just kind of in awe)

It's about how insanely patient Ena has been this whole time. Mizuki says that she basically lied to Ena's face about telling her their secret, even after Ena said with such conviction that she would wait for Mizuki as long as it takes, and Ena is just kept waiting and waiting and worrying like this seemingly indefinitely. It's about how Mizuki danced around it, avoided it, kept the distance, straight up ran when she was finally pushed, but Ena still chased anyway when she saw that she couldn't wait anymore, kept chasing just enough to intervene and get a straight answer out of Mizuki when she really needed to, but still leaving her enough space to leave if that was truly what she wanted. It's about how relieved Ena is the moment that Mizuki finally says outright how much they want to be with her and niigo, how much she wants to try, how much more light Ena's voice sounds when she grabs her hand, relieved, the way that the relief she feels can be felt through the music, throughout the entirety of Yoka ni Mitoreta, the way that warm colors always follow her when she chases after Mizuki, just to hold onto her and stop her from running away completely.

It's about how that careful combination of Ena's directness, Ena's persistence, Ena's warmth, her patience, her bluntness about her feelings, the way she chases and holds on but not too tight and her regard for how unsafe and exposed Mizuki feels actually works and breaks it all down. It's about how she really did reach through to Mizuki, despite the thorns and broken glass shards and nearly-unfulfilled promises, the way that Mizuki did finally let her turn the door handle and step through to see what she'd been hiding all this time, the way that Mizuki's hand, limp, when Ena first grabs onto it, shifts to hold hers back as they cry in the face of Ena's gentleness.

Despite how harsh Mizu/Ena5, and even Ena herself as a character can be (or at least was in the very beginning of pjsk), everything is somehow gentle and warm in the end, blindingly so. And you know what, I think that's beautiful. And what's even more beautiful than that is how Mizuki allows themself to crumble and shatter under that kindness, that warm light, but this time, finally, out of relief.

On a final note, I just want to say that I also appreciate how all that didn't have to solve everything. The scars haven't disappeared, haven't gone away, and Mizuki knows that their desire to run hasn't gone away forever, and maybe it never truly will. But for now they've calmed it, at least a little. She's learning to allow herself to be seen, learning that when someone's fingertips brush over their scars the way Ena's did that it's only out of care, and that maybe taking in that care and allowing herself to feel kindness and safety is okay. They're safe, for now, somehow. They're learning. They're trying. And I think that's cool :)

[frosting-surfeit]

On second thought im embarrassed of this shit but ppl reblogged it so its too late anyway

And thEN DIB ACTUALLY SAYS THANKS

Y'all my zadr would be so predictable and ive known for years but like

I cant figure out exactly in what way my zadr is predictable... so sorry these are rough but it was A LOT. I was trying to mindlessly draw a stream of consciousness to see SOMETHING on paper for once about how these two would get to the point of my silly doodles, headcanons n such

No shut up dont judge me

Ik ik

This kind of whump is something youve seen before ID BE VERY UNORIGINAL LIKE THAT

I just love love love this kind of zadr cause it feels very realistic for me ♡ but its probably not ♡♡♡ anyway!! Thx for reading!!!!! I loved making this finally

[sleeping-willows]

How a shitty perm inadvertently changed SY's life

SY, being SY is absolutely fed up with a cosplayer because their LBH cosplay isn't perfect. So, he leaves a 3k word scathing comment on their post pointing towards all the things they fucked up.

the cosplayer's only words to it are "do it urself then lol"

So SY, of course, does

But SY wants it to be absolutely perfect. No amount of wig styling can match the beauty of LBH's natural curls!

Cue to SY, who (for my convenience's sake) already has long hair, deciding that, if he already said he's not going to use a wig, why not get a perm to match LBH's hair?

He goes out and gets the perm with his sister's hairstylist. A picture of LBH in tow, for reference.

He lowkey thinks its ugly after getting it, but oh well, he's committed to the bit this much already, might as well continue.

SY continues with his cosplaying endeavors and enlists his mom to help him learn how to sow. He'd never disgrace LBH with a store bought cosplay! No, it has to be handmade.

A few months have passed and his perm has settled. It almost looks as good as LBH's now! He's pretty much done with the actual cosplay now too, clothing-wise. Now all he has to do is learn cosplay makeup.

Uh. Yeah. Makeup.

He swallows his pride and asks his little sister for help with that, too.

It isn't actually that bad, if he's being honest.

He takes a few more weeks to work on his cosplay (lets pretend makeup is really easy for SY to learn idk) and then he's done!

He takes pictures in it and goes to a con to show off his work.

Cue a confused Luo Bing-ge, who, having just transmigrated to the modern world, is wondering how, exactly, there's a double of him.

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Maybe I'll write a part 2 tomorrow? I've no idea

[ganondoodle]

in other news, i still hate the 'curse' demise says being seen as a literal thing so widely, like he is somehow powerful enough to bend the world to that cycle and even the gods being helpless against it (unless they want it or even orchestrated it but that option never comes up does it), its never even considered to perhaps not be real, like its a literal law of the zelda world, imo its pretty boring itself and also boring as an explanation for the cycle and most often really only gets used to or talked about to make ganondorf be just a helpless evil guy that is born evilly bc he is cursed and if you took away tha demon juice he would side with hyrule and be good tm (a side effect being that people think he is the actual reincarnation of demise like zelda is supposedly of hylia which also sucks IMO) .... or to make demise some sort of puppet master, which i hate even more no .. no i hate that the most (bc it makes ganondorf a puppet and demise the evil demon master and thus ruins both my favs yippie)

[girldriveroscar]

the cut of this suit is going to be the death of me idk idk mild nsfw ahead

something very erotic about like. fabrics pulling each other out of place with every shift. his suit jacket dragging against his shirt sleeves, already tight around the shoulders. the pulled up material bunching in the armpit where he's cold from dried sweat

his pant seams holding on for dear life as he squats. balancing on the tip of his toe just to keep the highest point of tension in his thigh, careful not to shift weight into his ass because there is genuinely No room left back there lol. cotton briefs getting squeezed up into the creases of his thighs and unable to adjust the lumpiness when he stands.

just a lot of unseen movement happening between each layer that's Incredibly uncomfortable and overstimulating in a totally non-erotic way but wonderfully erotic for the guy who wants to see him squirm around (ME =D) yeah. the attempt at smartness/neatness and the humiliation of constantly needing to fix yourself. suits or whatever.

guh.

edit: i did in fact go crazy.

[joltrify]

Klyntar/symbiote Ben.

Return of BENOM

[uncaffeinatedbirb]

Just woke up from a nap, and remembering the vivid dream that I was comparing MelJay and Jayvik to.......socks

Like..Mel and Jayce are like mismatched socks...they work together...may even look like a match sometimes but on closer inspection there's a difference..It feels different...it may feel comfortable, look good and alrighty even! but the fit is..off...While Jayce and Viktor are a matching pair of socks.. they're soulmates..they just fit...they are partners...in all possibilities, they'll find each other every other laundry day (lifetime). They are just meant to be. No matter how much they miss each other or if they lose the other.. they'll eventually wind up together :))

[wn11ow]

we're cooked my g's...... Deraps leaving for japan, Mapiccs taking a break... Yk what atleast the opps got what they wanted and Mawn disbanded but the server is FUCKKEEDDDDD

Hey subz can you end s6 faster...

[kindaasrikal]

Throwing you all with my random dumb situation headcanons for the ninja:

The moment Kai and Cole met they just kept arguing back and forth. Bantering in all technicalities. Kai would say Cole’s arms are just flab’s and not actual muscles and Cole would say Kai’s hair makes him look like a spiky hair brush attached to a body he could easily snap in half. This later led to speculations of a rival’s to lovers plot line until they turned all that energy into something to use on others. Kidnapped? They’re cussing out the kidnapper over his horrible smell. Lectured from Wu and Lloyd? One of them is mimicking them behind their back, exaggerated back issues and all. And to do the norm of bullying Jay, of course.

Jay and Zane have both dressed up as oversized marshmallows before. Zane’s large costume had unbelievably soft fur, Jay’s was somehow actually burnt. They made Kai glue sticks to himself and shoved Cole into a stiff costume of a campfire. He started rolling down a cliff. Jay and Zane periodically laugh at it, even years later.

Kai was once walking past Zane, one accidentally stumbled over Kai’s foot, which made Kai lose balance, which made Zane reach forward to grab Kai, which made Kai cling onto Zane koala bear style but deformed? Which then led them to tumbling down the monastery stairs at 3am. Tired after 10 minutes of rolling down and falling into a tree, they accepted their fate and fell asleep in a puddle of mud. Nya had fun blasting them with water to both clean them and wake them up after two hours of searching for them.

Lloyd has found a lot of entertainment of sticking stickers everywhere. Nya ends up giving him a ‘water you doing’ pun sticker with her face on it after crystallised. He doesn’t know how to feel about it other than sticking it on to one of the cups Jay used to talk to. Lloyd, during march of the oni, may or may not have stuck a cockroach and spider sticker onto Garmadon’s helmet. He has also created realistic stickers and once replaced the bathroom mirror with one. Kai thought he became a vampire.

Jay once caught Kai reading starfarer fanfics. As much as Jay wanted to make fun of Kai, he took a quick peak at the fic and realised ‘oh. Oh no.’ When seeing the writing of 12 year old Jay.

Nya got told she was horribly messy, like a beast, from Kai and that he doubts she could ever clean anything well. She thought challenge accepted, noted how there was no rules saying she can’t use her element (ignoring the fact there are no rules at all) and proceeded to clean the entire monastery under an hour. She didn’t anticipate the fact that her magical element might not be made for cleaning, when for the next week everyone kept slipping on the mirror like floors. Wu took it as a good way to train the ninja in difficult circumstances, and the chicken was then released.

Zane, after a new rule being made on not being allowed to sleep in the fridge, decided to try something else and attempted to freeze himself in a block of ice. In the ninja’s shared bedroom. Wu was torn between cackling and sitting on the floor in disappointment when he opened the door to their room the next morning, wondering why his students are late, only to find ice. Just ice. An ice room. In a literal sense. Nya was not torn whatsoever as she cackled on the floor taking pictures of the shivering ninja.