#kiwi vent

[kiwiwisdeathday]

hhrnn

[pale-fairytales]

I don't really like to get political but I feel a need to talk about this;

It's so funny. It's so funny to me that the people pushing for KOSA also criticize other countries who do the exact same shit (i.e., China, which from what I've heard (and correct me if I'm wrong please) censors a lot of things) and hate their guts. The fact that they're pushing for censorship directly violates one of the amendments of the constitution (which is free speech) and it baffles me that they think this is okay. But hey these are also the same people that won't do anything about gun violence or school shootings and who want to take away bodily autonomy and gay/trans rights so why am I even surprised.

For the love of god, if you can, help stop KOSA. Not just for fandom purposes, but for the fact that it impacts people who want to transition, people who want/need abortions, it impacts a way that human beings can seek out human contact in an increasingly lonely world where things are growing bleak. Not only that, but the people who are suffering from genocide (8 FUCKING GENOCIDES IN THE WORLD BTW) may not be able to get help or get the word out about their condition if a big chunk of the world can't access the content that helps said people.

And I'm sorry, but if you really cared about children's safety, you a) would do more about school shootings, b) would fix issues that put children in danger (shockingly hunger/malnutrition is still an issue in the U.S.A. just not in the same way as in a war-torn country), c) would fix the foster-care/adoption system, and d) teach parents to have some common fucking sense not to have 5-year-olds on the internet watching age-inappropriate stuff (like 5 year olds listening to Sexxy Red or Ice Spice)

Censorship is bad. It's bad because it can genuinely put lives at risk. If you're for the KOSA bill, don't pretend like it's because you care. You don't care about people—you just want to control them. Just like the people you and its instigators hate so much.

[chewykiwiwhee]

I just wanna see Djeeta in Utena outfit.

Also finally got my hands on webglaze!!

[anadorablekiwi]

Needed to do things today

Instead, im still fighting executive dysfunction, and im cramping.

[diagnosedaskiwi]

grief is sooooo silly and weird especially when it feels like nothing <33

[desirtips]

Actually genuinely so tired of anti-para Desirdae blog. What do you mean you don't support other people in relationships because YOUR objects only like objects. You even said YOURS. Not all objects are your objects. Your experience is not the only one. Not every objectum or posic is even in a relationship "Jesus Fucking Christ" . Way to erase the existing of platonic and familial objectum . God.

[kiwis-doodles]

Just a quick vent art about being The Quiet One/Shy/Easily Forgotten and feeling invisible

[kiwibirb1]

Hm okay so boob bump is fine even if I know I hot boobs underneath it but the boobs themselves are. Incredibly dysmorphic that's great

[camping-with-monsters]

I have decided that I may delete my April 8th Solar Eclipse post soon.

I understand that a lot of people really liked the photos. I started with under 200 followers and am currently standing at 702 followers. What do I think of this, though? While you may call me ungrateful to say this, I have a hard time believing that even half of you are genuine. Even less are likely, actually. I’m sure many are bots. I got tired of having to continuing to chase the bots, empty blogs, and porn accounts away.

I personally do not wish to be followed by people who saw one thing they liked that was different from the rest of what I post. I’m an art blog. I’d like my art to be the focus. And that post feels as if it holds me back to me. I’m just the eclipse poster— that’s probably why most of you followed me. I’m sure that maybe there IS someone who’s stayed along and actually seen my other works. But based on those numbers, I haven’t seen many show up.

It’s not that I expect people to do so. But I just have a preference for what I wish to be recognized for. And a couple pictures of the eclipse— while pretty— are not it for me. Somehow, I feel like that eclipse post has eclipsed me from being the blog I actually want to be. I never get to know if people are interacting with my actual creations anymore because my notifications are hogged by that post. I don’t mind the moment of spotlight, but I think at some point I’d like this spotlight to switch off.

Is it selfish? Perhaps. I don’t expect numbers to my art. But for once I’d like to be able to see them at all. I don’t care if they’re small. It’s the little things for me. Not this. This is not where I want to be. I apologize if this has saddened you. I’m sure the pictures have been posted elsewhere. You can save them. Repost them, even. Do whatever you want with them. But I will be deleting that post sooner or later. It’s not my thing anymore.

[guess-what-kiwi-butt]

Venting ahead

I've had to sign so many legal/insurance papers now that the divorce is finalized, and it's just... so demoralizing to have to deadname myself this many times in a row. I've accidentally deadnamed myself on paperwork at my job a few times without even noticing it and it hurts so much when I realize it.

It's been a really long time since I've felt this disconnected from my body and gender and I really wish I had someone nearby to remind me who and what I am

[kiwiwisdeathday]

I would actually rather die than feel constant dread

[pale-fairytales]

I'm still not over the fact that everyone just accepts that sweet potato hitler won the election when the electoral college isn't meeting until DECEMBER. yes I'm still on this BECAUSE IT'S SUS.

Like okay yeah I get it. He "won" the popular vote. But?? The process isn't complete??? There is evidence of suppressed/thrown out/missing ballots??? There are reports of interference????

Like I'm sorry but. It's so sus that Biden won by 20 million votes and now this election, 20 million votes are just. Missing? That doesn't seem right? That seems really sus?? And we're??????? Ignoring it???????

I get that Repubs and MAGAS are gonna like. Really hardcore disagree if they see this but it's just really weird how early the race was called when historically it's taken days to weeks, and now ballots are actually missing. It's just really really weird to me that the FBI found actual evidence of interference and. No one cares. Trump said IN AN INTERVIEW ON AIR that he speaks with Netanyahu about interfering (i could be misremembering what that was about but I digress) with the election. And... no one.......gave a fuck?

Are we in the twilight zone?

[sysig]

Trust fall (Patreon)

[anadorablekiwi]

Oh good, my vision isn’t magically worse, its just a migraine.

[diagnosedaskiwi]

every conversation with loved ones (and people in my comments) lately have just felt like this. i have to be so fucking brave about the horrors

[aceofmuses89]

Really needing a way to get my head cleared of the stress of this world. I'm overwhelmed with all this stuff in the world that's going on and I need to just escape for a bit.