#kinda unstable as well

[totheidiot]

one of these days i am going to make a teru mikami rp ask blog thing. when i do, it'll be so over for you all.

[msp9]

OKAY can we also talk about yasmina design!!!<÷&#^:

They nailed that and you know it.

[love-me-love-my-weirdness]

You think your life is hard?

yeah it probably is. wanna hug and talk about it?

[fl00mie]

I remember you're genocides 🫵

( do you even remember who moqi is ... hai its me )

now answering to your question.. no sorry i can't remember someone called like that-

(read tags pls)

[jkpng]

day 135/547 of missing jungkook

[creepyscritches]

I like checking out clown car animation styles so I watched that new teenage kraken movie and honestly I cannot explain how fresh the whiplash is every time I see Jaboukie credited as one of the main roles. Just like..."JABOUKIE?"

[regular-lord-reckoner]

i’m home !!

procedure went real well, everything was really smooth and almost as soon as they said, “you can count backwards if you want,” i don’t think i even said ten before i was suddenly in recovery and sipping some ginger ale.

honestly the worst part was the iv because they had to do it on the side of my wrist because apparently my veins are crooked ?? i just hate ivs anyway so that’s no surprise but other than that no complaints.

everyone was real nice and made sure i was well taken care of (my nurse even had me pee one more time before so she wouldn’t have to do a catheter which with my history…..thank you)

but yeah, i’ll have a follow up in about a month just to make sure everything’s good and the iud is doing its thing !!

i do have some cramping and bleeding but that’s normal, although a little funny because i literally just stopped my period yesterday but…oh well !! hopefully in a few months i won’t have hardly any so this we can handle and i hace some medicine (and my ~medicine) that’ll help so i’m all set.

mom had to go run some errands so my little recovery buddy is keeping me company. also, a moment of recognition for my new favorite shirt (thank you as always, Boss Dog Art; i’ve already got my eye on another one that says, “i think therefore i am against transphobia around the world” or something like that and it’s got a cool skeleton on it; this is my third shirt from them and they’re really comfy and good quality so not sponsored but check them out, they seem cool):

[silli-illi]

“This feels like an abusive relationship.” - Wemmbu to Zam

NAH WEMMBU THAT CRAZY

[girlyteengirl16]

i don’t know who i am and i don’t think ill ever know and that is the scariest fact i will have to live with until i know otherwise

[worthlessemobitch]

Yum😋

[novelconcepts]

Okay, OBSESSED with Van reading the tension between Travis and Nat during rifle practice and immediately getting up. Immediately snapping at him when he's a dick. Immediately crossing her arms over her chest like she's ready to throw hands if it comes to it.

[katyspersonal]

When I figure that genuinely saying things like "Lol I hate how I am that type of a villain who is cartoonishly immature and draws mockery memes of their enemies", "My favourite thing about [friend] is how they always admire and validate me no matter how insane I get", "Damn, FUCK, why the FUCK did they do that to themselves?!" (when someone blocked me) or "Whoever hates me is either jealous or horny" is extremely out-of-character for me but then I remember that I do have DID that I refuse to organize a proper system for and I had bad memory gaps recently, so it is probably just another shard and there is hoping that this fraction of me won't linger for long

[cinnabarts]

well now that i know how to turn reblogs off on posts ill post these old doodles as well. you can look butcha cant touch.

[tgirlrobot]

Hey. Vent post and rare appearance of Wess², just popping by to scream in the void.

I want rid of him. The boy. The man. The person who never was. The image of him who will never be real.

He screams in the night, begging that it's not fair. He screams out. Why must he be the one whose mere existence causes pain to himself? Why can't he live in a world seperate from him? He knows the response, but he's not happy with the answer. The femininity within him stifled, like a feral animal in a tablecloth. Until one day the beast broke free. Assisted by hands unseen. Understanding that weakened him enough to let go, just for a second.

Now that beast has strengthened. Turned civil. It speaks, and it explains. "I've always been here. You were just forced to hold me."

This is no animal at all. It's a child, never goven space to mature. She smiles with her whole face, ahile He only pulls up his lips. She loves the dresses she wears and the style her hair's in. He's indifferent to his clothing and hasn't brushed in weeks. Beards on her are a distant memory, something she never regrets losing the ability to get. He itches his chin incessantly, only ever feeling comfort for the day or so without a shadow peaking through.

His room is spartan. Only holding the items that distract him from his reality, and the clothing he wears outside. Her room is full of posters and toys, things of enjoyment and play.

The obly time he has comfort at all is socially. People always call him "he." He feels her flinch. He knows this won't last. The more the rightful owner of this place gets confident, but for now, he can face the sun, and have only a twinge of guilt.

He screams into the void once more, and the void answers back.

There is no world for him alone because he was only ever a guardian for the other.

And so he must go.

[heavenknowsffs]

Yeah he's cute but he has 0 emotional intelligence and set up a date with me at a show just to tell me he's going to another show by himself after all ???

[inkykeiji]

Idk if this is a silly question but is there ever a point or situation where touya-nii isnt so jealous and possessive to where she’s allowed friends? or it doesnt matter cause hes borderline sociopath

hi anon!

tw: abusive relationships, toxic relationships

to answer your question: nope! the raging jealousy and possession/possessiveness are kind of like two of his core traits when it comes to her. i talk about touya’s need for control + power a lot and this is heavily connected to that. he desires control over every single aspect of her life. to him, he literally cannot fathom why she’d ever need friends when she has him and natsuo (this sentiment in particular comes from his antisocial personality disorder (sociopathy) which mostly inhibits him from forming and understanding meaningful relationships. natsuo, his mother, and his reader are technically exceptions to the rule, but as i’ve said before, his ‘love’ for them is twisted and thorny and toxic).

this is also an abuse tactic, whether touya is actively aware of it or not, to keep her beneath his thumb completely and entirely. a lot of abusers will slowly and almost systematically cut their victim off from any support lines (friends and family) so they become trapped and completely reliant on their abuser. the last thing touya would want is some ‘outsider’ looking in and possibly putting ‘ideas’ in his precious brainwashed baby’s brain. thus, if she were to desperately need a friend and beg and cry and plead for it, after being unreasonably offended by it all, the only way touya would allow it to happen would be through supervised visits (and probably a thoroughly vetted ‘friend’).

in this respect, bmb reader would actually be a good candidate, because she is in an abusive and toxic relationship as well, and she is less likely to raise as many alarm bells as someone who isn’t in their position would. granted, bmb reader is a brat and has more freedoms than tnii reader does, and she’d definitely be critical of touya (her and touya would not get along) but not to the point to be a real threat to him.

it is definitely cute, in a twisted sort of way, to think about the two of them getting together and having sleepovers and doing homework together and giggling over the phone late at night etc etc all the things bffs do, and it would probably be good for the both of them to lean on each other and have one another there for support and to talk to about their situations. to have someone who, in some capacity, understands. it would be nice for tnii reader to have a friend, honestly. bmb reader not only has that freedom (at least for surface level uni friends) but she also has dabi to lean on, too. tnii reader is entirely alone; it isn’t like natsuo is ever on her side. it is honestly very tragic, and very heartbreaking, when you think about it.