#kinda scared to post in the main tags but who give a shit

[this-should-do]

got stardew a little over a week ago, and while hes not my main man, ive got opinions on sebastion :)

[elskamo]

Dafuq is happening with Ron? The Masterpost!

Hey all, sorry it's taking me a while to update you properly about what's going on IRL. There is... a lot that's been happening and some of it has taken me awhile to wrap my head around and figure out how to explain so please bare with me.

If you just want to know what's happening with my various blogs and accounts (on Tumblr that'd be this blog right here and @official-fresh-tv-blog) then feel free to skip to "My Fandom Situation" at the end of the post (hence the Total Drama tag attached). At some point I'll be updating the abouts on both blogs so if you CBA to read this then you can at least get a vague idea of what's changed when those update. You may also be able to kinda twig one of the main announcements from the tags as well.

I'm gonna put all this shit under the cut because it is LONG. As always if I forget to tag something please let me know so I can add it ASAP. And if you have any questions please don't be afraid to ask me outright.

My Health Situation

As I've mentioned before both my physical and mental health are utter shite that I barely get any help with. I have very little recollection of my childhood, especially before age 8 or so, as an adult when it comes to my dissociation I only lose a couple of days memory at most. Despite this I recently lost two whole months of my memory, hence my disappearance around late April/early May to late June/early July.

A couple of weeks ago I was finally able to speak to a doctor on video call about my mental health and to get a clearer picture on what my dissociation actually is. Given my background and anecdotal evidence from friends (but not family because they notice absolute fuck all) I'm pursuing a more up to date diagnosis of Dissociative Identity Disorder which the doctor agreed is likely (as well as FINALLY getting an official C-PTSD diagnosis). In total honesty I've had my suspicions since around 2018/19 when friends started mentioning suspicious changes in my behaviour and voice as well as my apparent use of a completely different name at one point.

When I finally started interacting with other people who dissociate within the Total Drama fandom during the lockdown in 2020 I realised what might be happening and kept telling myself to reach out to other users but I was far too scared to say anything due to my own lack of knowledge on DID and Dissociation in general and my confusion about how I could possibly not know for so long. If there are any users with DID that are willing to reach out I'd really appreciate it, especially as I'm getting used to the various terminology and figuring out how to interact with the rest of the system, most of which understandably ignore me for the most part given some of my previous shitty and ignorant behaviour and reluctance to get properly diagnosed.

I still haven't told the family I am in touch with simply because they don't particularly give a shit about my mental health, they tend to just assume they know what's going on and run with that. The fact that zero people in my family noticed anything strange when other people around me did also put me off saying anything, right now I'm planning to wait until I have an official diagnosis but I may say something sooner.

I'm waiting on two appointments, one with the same doctor to catch up in September and one with a psychologist who'll have a deeper understanding of trauma and Dissociative issues. I'm also waiting to start new meds as mine have been completely overhauled, this means I'm currently having withdrawal symptoms coming off the old ones and when the new ones are finally ready I'll likely be a bit erratic for the first few weeks due to the side effects. Apologies in advance, I promise several people IRL have been informed and will be keeping an eye on me to make sure I'm okay until the meds kick in properly.

Following my two month memory lapse I also had Covid for the majority of July and am still kinda foggy now, which explains the rest of my absence. I'm not entirely sure what my physical health is like due to having lost my memory but my chronic pain doesn't seem to be flaring up at the moment at least, that being said I was having major problems with my chronic pain prior to my two month dissociative period.

On the plus side of things I finally have an appointment booked with a new NHS gender identity clinic in London so that I can get assessed to start Testosterone therapy! At the moment it's tentatively booked in for September 3rd however I've been told they may be able to move it to a different time slot if they can find one with one of their newer staff given how difficult it'll be for me to travel up there for the early morning (for context it takes about 3 hours to get to London from where I am in Dorset and another 3 hours to get back, most of the appointment slots are at 8 or 9am!)

My Home Situation

Absolute fuck all has changed with my home situation. I'm still stuck at the house where I was previously abused a lot and am not currently in a position where I can find a new place or move in with someone else. A couple of friends have offered to let me sofa surf back and forth between them if needed but I have no immediate long term plans.

I found out a couple days ago that Damien decided to make a post on my behalf venting about my home situation which I will now be deleting. Essentially while everyone in the household caught Covid last month my relationship with my Mum swung back to being quite abusive again and she threatened to kick me out. That being said, I will acknowledge she has genuinely been trying to understand my situation and be a better mother towards me since I became homeless the first time around back in 2018 and no physical abuse has taken place since then.

Right now it appears I'm safe but at the time Damien posted there appeared to be a very high chance that I was going to be kicked out and have nowhere to live. My mum hasn't brought up her threats again since Damien's vent post so hopefully we still have somewhere to stay for the time being.

My Money Situation

Leading on from my home situation, my money situation has worsened drastically. As many of you know I've been fighting a losing battle for years attempting to get my disability benefits back and since being made redundant twice I've been living solely off of the single component of Universal Credit which amounts to less than £400 a month to cover all my living expenses. My housing benefit is gone until I'm able to leave Mum's and I'm still waiting for my appeal to get the unfit for work/sick portion of my Universal Credit back.

My mum refuses to budge on the amount of money that I pay her to stay each month and she has recently been getting me to pay for more frivolous expenses like multiple takeaways because she hasn't been buying enough groceries and being ill has left the three of us unable to cook. Factor in other expenses like transport to get to appointments, the most basic phone bill I can get away with, and unexpected emergencies like my tech breaking and I'm no longer able to cover my living expenses at all and no longer have any savings money left to cushion the blow.

I'm now at a point where I'm in my overdraft every month and resorting to begging friends for loans to keep me afloat so I don't get charged. The situation with my health has not helped with being able to find work, either freelance or a permanent role, so unless I'm able to get money from things like my Ebay, Etsy, or Redbubble stores I don't have anything else coming in that can help me cover my most basic needs.

I'm doing my best to get back on track with job hunting as both the job centre and the local Restart program I've been forced to go onto are insisting I need to be applying for a certain amount of jobs per week and attending regular face to face appointments with them otherwise they'll take away my benefits. I've almost finished updating my CV and website and have a mandatory job fair I've been told to go to on Wednesday so hopefully I can find work again soon, but given my health situation and the fact that I shouldn't actually be working this may still be very difficult.

I know I post about this a lot and many of you have your own financial struggles but please if you're able to, donate to my Ko-Fi page or buy something from one of my stores. Even if you're not able to help me directly just sharing them with your friends/followers can make a huge difference!

My Fandom Situation

You may have noticed by now that my Etsy store has been closed for a few months and I've gone back to posting a lot more infrequently on my Tumblr, DeviantArt, and Archive of our Own accounts. I've also been letting asks pile up in my inbox. I'm attempting to catch up on my fandom stuff as fast as I can but obviously I'll be doing this around all the IRL stuff I'm dealing with.

For some reason a lot of the asks and messages I've been receiving have been straight up disappearing, right now I only have one ask on each blog and one private message to my knowledge, everything else has somehow gone. If when I post answers to both asks you don't see yours answered please feel free to send it again and I'll get to it as soon as I can! If it's something I'm not comfortable answering I'll say so outright so you know that I did receive and view your ask.

I have a massive backlog of fics and art I'm trying to finish off and post, again I'll get to these as and when I can before starting on any new projects. I've been keeping a spreadsheet of all the smaller pieces I want to work on for people to vote on once I've cleared my backlog. My larger projects will take a little (okay, a lot) more time to post.

I'll only be reopening my Etsy store once I'm certain I've got a handle on my health, as usual I'll only be accepting a few orders at a time and keeping the prices fairly cheap so they're more affordable for people that want to buy. As always, Redbubble is always active as is my Ebay account, though there are still a few products I need to update or upload on both platforms that aren't on there yet. If there's any art you'd like me to prioritise adding for you to purchase on Redbubble please feel free to reach out and let me know.

I'm going to be updating the about posts on both my Tumblr blogs soon to better reflect what they're for and who is posting. I'm currently planning on making the Ronnie Rambles tag my personal one instead of using it just to show which posts have been queued up ahead of time. The two alters that I've talked to will definitely have their own tags as well though I have no idea how often they'll be posting.

[antisociallilbrat]

Normal People Scare Me Chp. 1

Read on Ao3

Summary: In the wake of a past year that held nothing but tragedy and hardships, Bill and Susan Denbrough set their sights on a new home, someplace quieter than their current L.A. residence. They do so in hopes of saving their fraying marriage. They have an incoming baby to think about after all. Derry, Maine is where they happened to find themselves relocating. Specifically to a nice, older house on Neilbolt Street.

What will happen when they learn of their new house's infamous, bloody, history in town? Or when they start to realize that some of the stories and rumors that cloud around the house are indeed true? When will they realize that some of the residents in their new home have their own agenda for the relocated couple?

During their time here they'll meet many colorful people in the town of Derry. A few of these faces include the sweet gardener Mike who works for the house on Neilbolt to the punk kid Richie who always seems to be lurking around. Can't forget about Sonia and Eddie Kaspbrak, their new neighbors who may not be who they seem. And there's Sheriff Henry Bowers who just gives Bill a bad feeling.

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Or I wrote a fic with an au so far removed from AHS Murder house that u can read it w/o seein it

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Bc this fic is so tag heavy I'm only going to post it to Ao3 bc I want to make sure you read the tags first but I'll still post about when I update the fic over here.

Time for some quick housekeeping though under the cut.

This fic is apart of the 'finish your shit' big bang. Bc of how Ao3 works I'm going ahead and publishing the first chapter. This fic about 70% done, I have the first ten chapters done at least, plus all of the 'history of the house' is written. The next few chapters need to beta read and once they are I'll post them too. Bill will actually show up next chapter.

The last chapter of this fic will be posted Oct 31st, Halloween. I don't think I'm going to have a posting schedule, I just need to get all 39 chapters out between now and then. I'm hoping to not post so quickly that there's a lull between what I have and what I need to write so for now I'm going to space the updates out.

The reason Bill is with 'Susane' and not Audra is bc I have other plans for Audra. She will pop up and I'm excited about how you all will get to meet her. And Susane is a canon IT character, she's Bill's first publicist. You'll meet her next chapter.

I want to thank Wilbur (@reikunrei) for listening to my long rambles about this fic and I want to thank VTsuion for being my beta reader- it means so much

This fic idea has been in my head since 2020 and it's kinda crazy it's actually happening

Anyways thanks for reading! More to come!

[primofate]

Genshin x fem!reader [Volleyball Team AU - Inspired by Haikyuu!] He introduces S/O to the team

Before you read this, might be a good idea to read the introduction first. To give you the whole low-down of the team and their dynamicsssss.

Other works in the Volleyball Team AU Series: Click Here

Scenario: You and him have been dating for a while now. Why does the team not know and what’s their reaction in finding out/when he introduces you?

Warnings: AU if that’s not your thing then don’t read, not proofread...as usual.

#1 Zhongli (Captain/Wing Spiker/Ace)

You’ve been dating for nearly 5 months at this point. Beforehand the two of you were close friends. So the team kind of already knew you guys were close, but you’d never met the team properly.

It’s not that he was HIDING your relationship, its that he didn’t want to pressure you into meeting his team. They could really be an overwhelming bunch of high schoolers sometimes.

As it happens he walks to the gym hand in hand with you one day, his other hand on his duffel sports bag, thinking that he’d be the earliest one there as always. 

But when he slides the gym doors open his WHOLE TEAM greets him “CAPTAIN!” and then there’s an awkward silence that descends as they all catch him with his hand intertwined with yours.

KAEYA AND TARTAGLIA LOSES IT. “C-Captain, you had a girlfriend and didn’t tell us?!” “You finally made a move on her?!” “S’about time!”

Needless to say they both get knocked on the head by Zhongli’s fist. 

Zhongli sighs and turns to you apologetically but you say that you don’t mind meeting them. He perks up and claps his hands to ask his team to line up.

They do so diligently. Kaeya, Tartaglia and Thoma are giddy while looking at you. Xiao and Kazuha have their mouth slightly agape as if you’re some kind of rare species. Diluc and Albedo stare you down. 

You introduce yourself as Zhongli’s gilrfriend and as you do so Tartaglia’s eyes dart towards Zhongli who has a slightly shy expression on his face. 

“Oh, oh question time!” Thoma raises his hand “Does the captain secretly eat sweets behind our back?” You haven’t even answered when Kaeya asks “Does the captain ever glare at you (he mimics Zhongli’s face) and say 10 Push ups NOW!” Surprisingly Diluc raises his hand too “...Is the captain strict with you too?”

Zhongli gets irked the more questions are asked and he finally steps in with an ominous presence. “10 laps around the gym...NOW!” 

He apologizes to you again but you reassure him it’s totally fine and they all seem like such fun. 

#2 Diluc (Vice Captain/Wing Spiker/Defense Specialist)

The vice captain is a very secretive guy.

Not even his brother knew.

It’s not that he was ashamed of you, he just liked his privacy and you already knew that. 

But there was this one time where he forgot his textbooks under his desk and you had to go and give it to him while he was at practice.

Shyly looking into the door the first one that spots you is Albedo.

“...Do you need something?” you tense up at Albedo’s question and shakily hand him the textbooks.

“U-Uhm... D-Diluc’s...”

Albedo tilts his head and turns to shout at the team. “Someone’s looking for the vice captain,”

Everyone stops what they’re doing and snaps there head towards you.

Diluc jogs over, sweat still fresh on his forehead. Without thinking he takes the books from you, small smile on his face and thanks you.

The rest of his team freezes up all thinking: “Hold on, is he...SMILING?”

You’re oblivious to them staring and give him a quick kiss on the cheek before leaving. When Diluc turns back his team is glaring daggers at him, he stares back at them. Doesn’t say anything, and continues practice.

No one is brave enough to ask him about it.

Tartaglia whispers to Kaeya “You didn’t know about it either huh?”

#3 Kaeya (Middle Blocker)

This MF would talk about you whenever he had the chance.

Y/N this, Y/N that, Y/N is so cute. 

Frankly the team is kinda tired of it. 

But when you finally visit one of their practices the team levels their gaze at you and think “Oh shit, he wasn’t lying, she is actually cute,”

Sees his teammates expression and brags even more. “I know what y’all are thinking. You’re thinking, OH! She’s actually really cute! Hm?”

Slings an arm around you shamelessly with a grin. “Back off boys, I’ll block all your attempts,”

Diluc is the one that walks up to you and you blink at him. Kaeya blinks at him, confused as well.

Diluc suddenly bows, “I feel sorry for you but please take care of him,”

The rest of the team either bursts out laughing or snickers behind their hand.

Their vice captain is low key savage

#4 Albedo (Setter)

The team finds out about you cause when they finish practice they find you waiting outside the gym.

Kazuha asks politely while the others look on “Are you lost?”

You straighten up and stutter a little, “Ah, uh, no, I’m...” You’re at a loss for words. 

Then Albedo suddenly appears from the gym doors and sees you. “Ah, were you waiting long? Sorry,”

Thoma tilts his head in question. “Albedo...Your sister?”

Albedo at this point was standing next to you already. “...No, my girlfriend,” like it was the most normal thing in the world.

Everyone is stunned into statues.

“H-How did you get one before me?” Tartaglia looks as if his soul had been sucked out of his body.

“Next time you can just come inside and wait inside the gym, it’s dark out here,” their responsible captain suggests and you’re amazed at his kindness and bow at him with a thank you.

Albedo doesn’t see what’s the big deal and just grabs your hand and starts walking away.

#5 Tartaglia (Middle Blocker/Wing Spiker)

The team already knew since the first date. It’s because he.would.not.shut.up.about.it

That particular day at practice his spikes were a tad bit stronger than usual.

“Oi... you’re getting too excited...” Xiao mumbles at him. Tartaglia just grins and scratches the back of his head. “Aaaahhhh... I can’t help it, I’m so nervous for my date with Y/N!”

A few more dates later he starts showing off his phone wallpaper to the others. It’s a picture of you and him.

Kaeya tries to piss him off by saying, “Huh, we’ve never actually seen her in person. Maybe it’s photoshopped,” The others snicker.

Is so pissed, asks you to come immediately.

You thought it was an emergency so you come into the gym with a worried look on your face only to be hugged tight into his chest. “See? See? She’s totally real and totally cute!”

Albedo crosses his arms and blinks, then looks at Kaeya “...You totally baited him, he’s such a simpleton.”

Kaeya responds with a smirk “Right?”

#6 Kazuha (Decoy/Middle Blocker/Wing Spiker)

The most formal out of all of them and even tells them seriously that he had an announcement to make.

Next day he comes into practice with you in tow.

Properly introduces you as his girlfriend. 

Everyone is wide-eyed at how official it feels. Then you suddenly take out a big container of fruits and tell everyone it’s for them (The captain doesn’t allow sweets, he thinks it’ll fatten them up or some crap.)

EVERYONE IS BLESSED BY YOUR PRESENCE and Kazuha is just enjoying you getting along with them.

Kaeya and Tartaglia try to whisper and bribe you into making cookies for them. 

Albedo and Xiao stares at Kazuha thinking ‘If someone like you can get a girlfriend, we can get one too, right?’

You offer to come back next time with more fruits and some secret cookies.

#7 Xiao (Libero)

Tried to keep it a secret because he knows his team will make a fuss about it.

The team finds out when his phone suddenly starts ringing in the middle of practice and he asks for a timeout to pick it up.

“Mm... Yeah... I’ll pick you up when I finish,” Everyone starts nudging each other when they hear him talk to you in an unusually calm and soft tone. So different from when he plays volleyball and gets angry at them.

By this point everyone tries to keep quiet and enlarge their ears to eavesdrop.

“Idiot... I won’t be late. I promised to take you out didn’t I?” 

Hearing their tsundere libero say something so sweet makes everyone combust.

When he turns back everyone is staring at him with smirks on their faces. “Hey, why not just ask her to come here?” Kaeya sneakily suggests.

Xiao blushes “A-As if I’d let her near you bumbling fools!”

He was worried it would scare you away, actually.

#8 Tohma (Pinch Server/Middle Blocker)

Literally no one is surprised he has a girlfriend.

It would be MORE of a surprise if he DIDN’T have one.

But they find out cause he left his phone out on the bench one day and there’d been a text message while Xiao was conveniently sitting on the bench.

“...Tohma, someone me--” Xiao looks at the screen where the message ‘I love you!’ is clearly written.

Xiao is so curious but is not gunna admit it so he nudges Kaeya or Tartaglia who might be sitting next to him and secretly motions over to the phone.

They read it and ask in a real loud voice “Oi Tohma! Who’s Y/N? They said I love you!” 

Tohma laughs nervously and since it’s already out he might as well introduce you. 

“This is my princess,” he says when you enter the gym to walk home with him that afternoon. You bow and introduce yourself and everyone looks at you thinking... “Ah, they look like the perfect domestic couple,”

Low-key everyone is jealous of how you dote on him.

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[starlightshore]

anon i appreciate you trying to at least calm down and talk to me at least a little, even all good will was thrown out with insulting and making more assumptions.

firstly: learn to give people respect otherwise no one is going to give you the time of the day. i’ve been way more patient, nice, and kind to you for hearing you out instead of blocking you. except, this all started because i did block you. i get wanting to find out why, being upset over it or whatever, but you really need to understand it’s not okay to go to someone who’s blocked you. its like, i gave you a restraining order, by then you should know to leave me alone right?

but yeah i wanna clear up your points cause again, you keep assuming things? or taking them to be more grandiose than they are at least.

i blocked your original account and then i blocked the original message. if there’s another person who was insulting me than honestly that just kinda proves my point that i was worried your(?) fans would come at me??? thus the block.

i already explained i don’t remember the original comments and that wasn’t the reason i blocked originally anyway.

its not my fault the post got notes???? it’s tagged with “personal stuff” where i do all my rambling. i hate posting in the main tag cause i like keeping to myself esp with my history with the fandom. it being tagged with “undertale theory” is just so it’s easier for my followers to find, that’s hardly the same thing as putting it in the main tag and advertising it everywhere??? i mean, granted, i ain’t got shit consistent, but “theory” is an easy way to search on my blog for posts of that sort. hell, you can see i used a screenshot with my flux. the post was made at god knows what hour as i was watching the no mercy run and having fun doing my commentary. that’s hardly something i would intentionally share with the intent of gaining traction.

I (mostly!) keep to my own lane and mind my own damn business. i don’t want my posts being spread around tumblr and i do  have a fear people who (like you!) are going to harass me over the smallest thing.

i don’t know how to tell you this but it’s not rude to block people. blocking ISN’T an insult, it’s not an act of aggression, it’s not the end of the world. we’re on fucking tumblr dot com buddy. i block porn bots every other week. if someone is rude to me, if i find some stranger’s content annoying or just not my cup of tea? i can block! it’s called cultivating both your audience and your feed. if someone angers you? you can either talk it out or just block, it’s never worth it to insult and waste your time bothering them. the beheavior you’ve shown today is seriously unhealthy.

if you find me rude that’s fine, i understand how being blocked suddenly can be scaring or upsetting but i also understand this is, again, Tumblr. I am fully aware i have hot takes or make specific content that would put someone off. It’s not inherently personal if you get blocked, please get over it. we’re both wasting our time because you refuse to give me any form or respect and I know i’m talking to a wall at this point.

i formally request you leave my blog and stop thinking about me. don’t even send me another ask, i’m not posting this to get a response. i’m posting this because i’m worried for you tbh. it’s honestly creepy at this point how much time you put to trying to degrade me, like, are you okay? is there something else going on here? do you need someone to talk to? not me obviously, you clearly don’t “respect” me after how many times you’ve told me that. i recommend opening up with your feelings to those around you and try to find what you’re actually mad at.

[expectingtofly]

Hold on Tight

Beach Vacation, Baby Jack, Established Dean/Cas, Dean is very protective of Jack

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also posted on ao3

“This seems like a good spot,” Dean said, trying to hold onto both a wriggling Jack and two beach chairs. He set Jack down and looked back at Sam, Eileen, and Cas, who were weaving their way through various blankets and beach chairs occupied by other beachgoers.

“Perfect,” Eileen said, and Sam stabbed the umbrella he was carrying into the sand to mark their spot. 

Cas set down the cooler he was holding and warned, “Dean.” Dean followed where he was pointing to see Jack crouching down, grabbing a handful of sand.

“Jack, no,” he said, taking Jack’s fist and opening it before he could shove sand into his mouth. Jack protested, but Dean quickly set down the colorful bucket and shovel set they’d bought for this occasion, successfully distracting him.

“A little help here?” Sam asked from underneath the beach umbrella, which was refusing to stay open. Eileen laughed at him as she plunked down her chair and Cas rescued him. 

“Alright,” Sam said, adjusting the umbrella to stand up straight. “All set.”

“This is lovely,” Cas said, gazing around as he laid out a blanket. Dean followed his gaze and didn’t know what he was seeing. The wide stretch of sand before the ocean was filled with umbrellas, blankets, sand castles, sunbathers, and people throwing frisbees dangerously close to others’ heads.

“Yeah, this is, uh…” Cas turned his smile on him and Dean finished, “Great.”

Sitting down on the blanket, he motioned to Jack. “Come here, birthday boy, time for sunscreen.” The newly turned two year old ignored him, too occupied with whacking his shovel against the sand, and he put up a protest as Dean attempted to cover his arms and face. 

“There, go, be free,” Dean told him when he’d turned him a shade paler with a copious amount of sunscreen. Turned loose, Jack kicked at the sand with his sandaled feet, then pointed at the ocean.

“Water!”

“That’s the ocean,” Cas told him. “Would you like to go see the waves?”

Jack clapped his hands. “Yes!”

Cas held out his hand to him. “Dean, come on.”

“Alright, alright.” He put Jack’s sunhat on his head, adjusting the strap under Jack’s chin. “Can’t even take a breather.”

“We’re at the beach, Dean,” Cas said over his shoulder, leading Jack to the shore. “The ocean is the main appeal.”

Dean would’ve normally agreed, but as he followed them to the water’s edge, the ocean suddenly looked very huge. Kids shrieked and danced along the shore, plunging headfirst into the waves. In contrast, Jack looked very tiny in his matching swim shorts and shirt plus floppy hat.

“The waves look kinda strong,” he said, instinctively touching Jack’s shoulder to stop him from getting too close to the water.

“I’m not going to let him go in, just along the edge.” Cas pulled Jack’s hand gently, coaxing him to step into the waves sliding up the shore. 

“Cold,” Jack said, putting a toe in, then stepping back quickly and almost tripping.

“I think it’s refreshing,” Cas said. He smiled at Dean, and Dean relaxed marginally. Cas had been on him for a while now to take Jack to the beach, and since it was Jack’s birthday weekend, they’d finally planned a three day long beach trip. It’d been a hell of a drive since everyone else in the state seemed to have the same idea and had descended onto this small beach town as well, and they’d had an even worse time finding parking, but Cas looked downright serene gazing at the waves, so he guessed it was worth it.

Jack jumped as a wave traveled up to his feet, sending water splashing. Dean had only been to the beach a handful of times in his lifetime, and all those times had been with Sam when they were younger and would dare each other to plunge into the freezing water, or would bury each other in the sand. Their dad hated the mess sand made, so they never stayed for long, and hated crowds, so they never went to any public beaches like this where you had to pay for a tag to get in and your blanket was two feet from someone else’s. 

It wasn’t so bad though. He had to smile at Jack's excitement, his little hat flopping as he jumped to avoid another shallow wave.

“I can’t believe he’s already two,” Cas said quietly.

“Don’t say that,” Dean said.

Cas looked at him. “What?”

“We said the same thing when he turned one. He keeps getting older.”

“That’s what children do,” Cas said, and Dean rolled his eyes.

Jack shrieked, pulling their attention, and Dean grimaced at a string of dark green seaweed that washed up near their feet. “Yucky,” Jack declared, taking a step back as another wave pushed it closer. He stared out at the people playing in the ocean, and Dean couldn’t help feel thankful Jack wasn’t old enough to join the older kids which splashed around gleefully. How the fuck were you supposed to keep track of your kid when they were hardly bigger than the waves around them?

“Shell!” Jack yelled, and Dean looked down just in time to see him crouch to grab a shell at their feet. Before Dean could react, a wave crashed on the shore and splashed water into Jack’s face. 

“Shit, shit, shit.” Instantly, Dean scooped him up as Jack began wailing. His arms flailed and Dean wiped water from his face. “Okay, nope, this was a bad idea,” he said, desperately trying to calm him down.

“It’s okay,” Cas soothed, rubbing Jack’s back as he clutched at Dean's shirt, sobbing. To Dean, he said, “He’s alright. I don’t think he swallowed any.”

Dean was already walking away, “We’re sticking to dry land.”

Returning to their spot, he sat down with Jack and grabbed a napkin to wipe his nose. Jack protested, pushing away Dean’s hand as tears and snot streamed down his face, and reached for Cas. 

“What happened?” Sam asked, pausing in rubbing sunscreen on Eileen’s back.

“Got freaking splashed in the face,” Dean said, letting Jack escape his grip to go to Cas, who took him in his arms.

“Aw, it’s alright, honey,” Eileen told Jack, handing over a towel to Dean. 

“No, it’s not alright,” Dean griped, using the towel to dab at Jack’s face. Jack’s crying lessened somewhat, sobs turned into hiccups as he curled into Cas’ lap. Cas hugged him tight, stroking his hair. “What if he’d gotten knocked over?”

“Don’t think about that,” Cas said. “We were right there watching him.”

“I told you the waves were too big.”

“He’s alright,” Cas repeated. "He just got scared."

Dean huffed and caught Sam and Eileen’s concerned looks. Ignoring them, he glared out at the ocean. Fucking ‘course the one time he took Jack to the beach, the poor kid got fucking traumatized. And on his birthday, no less. Dean had been tossed around enough by powerful waves to know that shit hurt, and his chest tightened, watching younger kids run to the water’s edge, then back, almost taunting the waves to pull them under.

“You okay?” Cas asked Jack, and Jack nodded solemnly. 

“Eyes hurt,” he said, rubbing at them, and Cas wiped at them with the towel. 

“We’ll try again later,” he started to say, but Dean spoke up,

“Think we’ve had enough of the ocean for one day.” He held out Jack’s bucket. “You wanna play in the sand?”

Nodding, Jack crawled out of Cas’ lap, and Dean helped him shovel sand into the bucket. He ignored the anxious look Cas was giving him. He wanted Jack to have good memories of the beach, not memories of his dad letting him get whisked away by the asshole ocean. A pang of guilt tightened his chest for not keeping a tighter grip on the kid, and he wiped at a tear stain on Jack’s cheek.

Thankfully, Jack seemed none the worse for wear, sniffling only a little as he focused intently on filling his bucket with sand, then dumping it out, then filling it again.

“You’re not really making any progress there, kid,” Dean told him, breaking the unsteady silence they’d all fallen into.

“That’s the point,” Cas said as Jack dumped out his bucket for the umpteenth time. “Doing something not for the results but simply for the act of creation.” 

“Nah, he just doesn’t know how to build a sand castle yet,” Dean said. This, he could do. No-risk activities. Picking up an extra bucket, he went to the ocean and filled it with water.

When he plunked down in the sand next to Jack, he showed him how to pack a bucket with moistened sand, then flip it over to reveal a small hill. Jack clapped his hands in delight and soon they were surrounded by several sand castles.

“Sam, get over here,” Dean said. “Bet you and Eileen can’t build a bigger castle than me and Cas.” He glanced up at Cas, and was relieved when Cas took the invitation, moving to sit next to him.

“You, me, and Jack,” Cas said, helping Jack fill a bucket.

“And Jack,” Dean agreed.

Eileen snatched up one of the tiny shovels. “You’re on.” 

Now with a goal, they began creating sand castles strategically, placing them in a large circle. Jack helped pat the dirt down into the buckets before turning them over. 

Eileen dug a moat for her and Sam’s castle, which was growing larger every moment, and Jack walked over to her, handing her a seashell. “Thanks, Jack,” she said, placing it on top of their tallest sand castle.

“Stop fraternizing with the enemy,” Dean told Jack. 

“Jack, come on, help us,” Cas said, carving flowing designs into the side of his castle.

“He’s switched sides,” Sam said as Jack handed him another seashell. “He knows who the winning team is.”

“Traitor,” Dean said. He flipped over a bucket for another castle, then heard Eileen start laughing and looked up to see Jack stepping inside her moat, caving in the walls.

“Yeah, ‘atta boy!” Dean called as Eileen tried to remedy the damage. 

Jack ran over to Cas. “Shell,” he said, handing him one.

Dean high-fived him. “A diversion, good call.” Jack stared at his precarious castle and Dean saw the moment he decided to draw his leg back in a kick. “Nope, nope.” Scooping him up, he deposited him in the sand on the other side of the castle. “Grab us some more shells.”

“Shells,” Jack agreed and began digging.

Dean was fortifying their castle walls when Jack exclaimed, drawing his attention. The kid was staring at the ground with an alarmed expression, and for a moment Dean thought he was gonna have to pass on a diaper change to Cas, but then he realized Jack was watching a tiny crab burrow up from the sand.

“Don’t touch it,” he warned as Jack held out a finger. Grabbing a shovel, he went to scoop up the crab, but Cas said, 

“No, don’t.” Moving closer to Jack, he told him, “That’s a type of crustacean, a crab.” He made the sign for it and Jack stared at him, then the crab, which was shuffling back and forth on the sand, as if it was deciding where to go. Cas began explaining how crabs were formed, their evolution and habitats, and Jack watched the crab with a serious expression on his face. Dean was pretty sure Cas’ crash course was getting lost on the kid, but it was amusing all the same watching their exchange—Cas explaining everything so seriously and Jack interrupting with gibberish. Sometimes he swore they had a whole other language they spoke together. 

Jack moved aside as the crab scuttled past and burrowed into another hole. With a shriek, eyes wide, he pointed at the place where it’d disappeared. “It lives in the sand,” Cas told him, and Jack nodded solemnly, then plunked down in Dean’s lap.

“Fish,” he said.

Grabbing their beach bag, Dean fetched a bag of goldfish and opened it, handing one to Jack. 

When their castles began to spread beyond the acceptable range of their chairs and umbrella, they asked Jack to choose the winner and he stared down both castles, expression serious, before rushing one and knocking it down, shrieking in delight and doing the same to the other.

“Well,” Sam said, watching him. “Guess it’s a tie.”

“If that’s what you wanna call getting your ass kicked, then sure,” Dean said.

Sam and Eileen went to the boardwalk to get everyone lunch, and Dean got Jack to stop kicking sand everywhere by convincing him to sit down and burying his legs in the sand. 

“He seems to have recovered from before,” Cas commented.

“Yeah,” Dean said, packing sand around Jack. His face warmed, not just from the sun, but from remembering how he’d freaked out almost as bad as Jack when the wave splashed over the kid’s face. 

Laughing, Jack kicked his legs free and yelled, “Again!” Dean scooped sand onto his legs, repeating the process. 

“Are you okay?” Cas asked after a few moments’ silence.

“Fine,” Dean grunted. He spluttered when Jack kicked his feet, sending up a spray of sand, and Jack laughed at him. 

“I do you,” he said, getting to his feet and beginning to scoop tiny handfuls of sand on Dean’s legs. 

Dean watched him. Sand flecked his chubby cheeks and his sunhat kept drooping over his eyes. Dean brushed the sand from Jack’s cheeks and said, “Just hate seeing him get hurt.”

“I know,” Cas said. 

“Stuck,” Jack said, pointing at Dean’s legs and Dean pretended to not be able to lift his legs, sending Jack into a fit of giggles. “Dada, look!” he called, pointing and looking back at Cas.

“What did you do?” Cas asked in mock shock. 

“I fix.” He wiped away the sand from Dean’s legs and Dean made an exaggerated sigh of relief, moving his legs. 

“My hero. I thought I was gonna be stuck there all day.”

“All bedder,” Jack said, patting his legs.

“All better,” Dean agreed. Picking up his phone, he glanced at the time and announced, “Time for more sunscreen. Come over here.” Reaching for the bottle, he poured a generous amount into his hand and began slathering it over Jack’s arms and ears and face, holding onto Jack’s arm as Jack protested and tried to get away.

“Hey, you wanna burn?” Dean asked him. Even with the sunhat and the shade from the umbrella, he couldn’t be too careful. Setting Jack’s hat back on his head, he folded up the brim so Jack could see better, then let him go. 

Jack returned to digging up sand, dumping it into his bucket, then emptying the bucket and starting again. Tossing the sunscreen bottle onto their beach bag, Dean glanced back at Cas and noticed he was watching them with a fond smile on his face. 

“What?” he asked, but Cas only shook his head.

“Nothing.” Moving closer to Jack, he helped him fill his bucket. 

 Sam and Eileen returned with burgers and fries, and Cas pulled out the PB&J sandwich they’d packed for Jack. Jack was too distracted to sit still and eat, instead going from playing in the sand to taking a bite, to stealing fries from them, to playing in the sand again.

Going to Dean, he tapped his fingers together, signing more, and Dean handed him a french fry, his tiny fist only big enough to hold one.

A seagull landed by the blanket and Jack let out a yell, his eyes widening. He stared at Dean, then the bird. “It’s a seagull,” Dean told him.

Jack took a few, tottering steps towards the bird, both staring each other down, then held out his french fry. Dean leaned over to push his hand down. “Don’t feed it.”

“No!” Jack protested.

“Let him feed it,” Cas spoke up. “It’s hungry.”

“You can’t feed them,” Sam said, closing the container of fries that the bird was eyeing. “We’ll get a swarm of them.”

“Oh,” Cas said. He watched the bird, expression eerily similar to Jack’s.

“And we don’t want a swarm of them,” Dean spoke up, guessing what he was thinking. Cas looked at him. “They’ll snatch Jack up and fly away with him.”

“That’s highly improbable,” Cas said with a roll of his eyes.

Jack took another step towards the bird, and Dean tossed one of Sam’s sandals at it. With an indignant squawk, it flew away.

“Dean,” Cas admonished as Jack yelled in protest, staring at the sky.

“It was creeping me out.” He shook the bag of goldfish. “Come on, Jack, leave the birds alone." Jack turned at the sound of the bag and stopped jabbering to return for more goldfish.

If getting Jack to sit still for a meal was difficult, getting him to settle down for a nap soon after was impossible. The ocean waves were growing more crowded with people, shrieks and laughter piercing the air. Someone kite surfed in the distance. Jack was entranced. 

“Swim!” he exclaimed, jumping up and down as he watched people tumble in the waves. 

“You’re gonna have to wait a few years,” Dean told him.

“I think he’s ready to try again,” Cas said. "Just along the shore."

“Nope,” Dean replied.

“Maybe tomorrow?”

“Or never,” Dean said. “That’s always an option.”

Cas rolled his eyes and stretched out on the blanket with a book. Dean burrowed his feet into the sand. Sam and Eileen signed to each other, and Jack returned to digging in the sand. Dean shook his head, seeing him raise a sand-filled fist to his mouth, and Jack dropped his hand with a huff that sounded way too similar to Cas. 

Thankfully, he seemed to have worn himself out because his digging soon slowed to a stop as his head drooped comically. Cas called, “Come on, Jack, you want me to read to you?”

Jack crawled over to where Cas lay on his stomach on the blanket and kept quiet as Cas read aloud from a book on environmentalism. Despite the lack of pictures—or maybe because he got so bored—Jack’s eyes soon fell shut and Cas fell silent, shutting his book to adjust Jack’s shirt from where it’d ridden up over his stomach. 

Eileen stood, pulling Sam’s hand and signing for him to go to the ocean with her. 

“Don’t drown,” Dean told him and Sam rolled his eyes. He watched them go to the waves, then pulled out the book he’d brought. He couldn’t focus on the pages, though, his eyes continually returning to where Cas lay on the blanket, Jack curled up next to him, face soft in sleep. As Cas read, he absentmindedly scooped up sand and let it sift through his fingers. 

He must’ve felt Dean’s eyes on him because he looked up and frowned. "What?" he asked and Dean shrugged. 

“Nothing."

Cas studied him, then smiled a little and glanced at Jack. “This is nice,” he said, and Dean nodded.

“Yeah."

 When Jack woke, he woke cranky. Seeing Sam and Eileen return from the ocean didn’t help much. “Swim!” he yelled from where he’d planted himself in Cas’ lap and wouldn’t move. 

“We are not doing a repeat of earlier,” Dean said before Cas could suggest taking Jack to the water again.

“There’s plenty of kids over there,” Sam said, toweling himself off. 

“Yeah, and what about riptides?” Dean asked. “They can suck you in from shore, can’t they?”

“I think you’re being dramatic,” Cas said. He tried to entice Jack with the shovel, but Jack shoved it away, pouting.

“Alright, I know what to do,” Dean said, tossing aside the book he’d only gotten three pages into. Taking the shovel, he dug a shallow hole in the shade of the umbrella, then grabbed a bucket.

Going to the water, he filled it up. Sam was right, there were younger kids playing at the ocean’s edge, parents keeping careful watch. He winced as one girl tripped and got splashed in the face by a wave. She coughed, then got to her feet and kept running. Yeah, no. Jack wasn’t playing over here.

Bringing the bucket back, he dumped it into the hole, then continued the task until he had made a shallow pool. “Come on, Jack,” he said, and Jack perked up from where he sat, clambering out of Cas’ lap.

He shrieked in delight as he splashed in the small pool and Dean sat back down next to Cas. 

“Thanks,” Cas told him.

“No problem.”

Eileen and Sam went for a walk, and Jack attracted the attention of a young girl around his age whose family sat nearby. They began digging in the sand together, carrying on a conversation indecipherable to anyone other than them.

“Come here,” Cas told Dean. He grabbed the sunscreen bottle and Dean moved to sit with his back to him. 

“He’s so personable,” Cas said, smoothing the sunscreen onto his skin. “He’s gonna do great in preschool.”

“Preschool?” Dean asked. He looked over his shoulder at Cas. “He just turned two.”

Cas smiled, pouring more sunscreen into his hand. “He’s very intelligent for his age. He’s going to do well in school. What do you think he’ll want to study in college?”

“Shit, slow down.” He watched Jack attempt to bury the girl’s legs in sand. “Wait, fuck, college?”

“Calm down, Dean. I didn’t mean to stress you out. We have plenty of time.”

“Do we really? I mean, he’s walking and talking now, he’s playing with other kids. Fuck, he’s growing up. And quick.”

“Aren’t you excited to see what kind of person he’ll become? To see what he accomplishes?”

“Yeah, of course. But…” He shrugged under Cas’ hands. “I don’t know, what if I mess him up?”

“Dean.”

“I know, I know, he has you and Sam and Eileen—”

“No, he has you. You’re not going to ‘mess him up,’ I know for a fact.”

“You don’t know that for a fact. My dad thought he was doing the best he could, and look how fucked up Sam and I’s childhood was.”

“Your best is far superior to your father’s,” Cas said.

“Hope so.” He picked up sand and let it fall through his fingers. “Just don’t want the kid to get all screwed up like I am.”

“You’re not screwed up. I think you’re wonderful.”

“You’re biased.”

“Yes. But I’m right.” Cas wrapped his arms around Dean’s neck and they watched Jack play. The girl broke free of the sand, and Jack cheered. “He’s gonna be alright. He has a lot of good people looking after him. Including you.”

Dean nodded. Cas’ hands came to rest on his back as they watched Jack jump up and down excitedly as the girl broke free of the sand once more, yelling, “Again!”

“You’re getting more freckles,” Cas said, tracing his back lightly. Dean leaned back into his touch.

 Sam and Eileen came back from their walk, and the shadow of their umbrella grew longer over the sand. Families started packing up around them, the waves growing louder in their wake. Jack waved goodbye to the girl he’d been playing with earlier.

Eileen signed something to Cas that Dean didn’t catch, but evidently Jack did, because he started jumping up and down.

“Water,” he yelled, pointing to the ocean.

“Nope,” Dean said, trying to distract him with another sand castle. “If you wanna go swim, go,” he told Cas. 

“Come on, Dean,” Eileen urged. “Aren’t you tired of sitting over here?”

“It’s not me you gotta be worried about.” He nodded at Jack. 

“Dean,” Cas started, grabbing Jack’s hand as he started tottering to the ocean.

“Look what happened last time.”

“He has to learn to not be scared of the ocean. He has to try again.”

Dean stared at the waves which were crashing with more intensity now in the afternoon, then at Jack, who was tugging at Cas’ grip on his wrist, trying to get away. “You guys go, I’ll watch him.” 

Cas was silent for a moment as if deciding if it was worth an argument, then he sighed and got to his feet. “Okay.”

Dean held Jack back as Cas followed Sam and Eileen to the ocean. “Dada!” Jack called.

“Just you and me, kid,” Dean told him.

“Wanna swim!”

“You can swim here.” He splashed the warm water around in the makeshift pool he’d created.

Jack pouted, crossing his arms, and Dean tried, “You wanna go to the boardwalk?”

“No!” He pointed to the waves, and Dean said, 

“I’ll let you bury me again.” Jack didn’t look impressed, and Dean sighed. He started building a moat around his sand castle just to distract Jack. Finding a shell, he held it up and Jack took it in his chubby fist, then looked back at the water. 

Dean couldn’t help following his gaze. Eileen climbed onto Sam’s back and splashed water at Cas, who ducked under the waves. The sun was lowering in the sky, casting the waves in pink and orange. A breeze blew Jack’s hair back from his forehead, and he clutched at the shell, blue eyes gazing intently at the waves.

Aren’t you afraid of getting knocked over or getting water in your eyes? Dean wanted to ask him. But he knew he’d only be projecting his own fears for Jack. He couldn’t protect him from everything, he knew that. But, dammit, he had to try. Didn’t he? 

He wasn’t so sure anymore that he was holding Jack back for his own good. Maybe he was just holding him back.

He watched Cas, Sam, and Eileen for a moment longer, then made his decision.

“Come on,” he told Jack, standing and holding out his hand.

When they got near the waters’ edge, Cas came out of the ocean, hair dripping wet. He was smiling wide and Jack tugged at Dean’s hand, yelling, “I swim!”

“He wouldn’t give me a break,” Dean said. He gripped onto Jack’s hand, eyeing the dark waves. Jack kicked at one splashing at his feet, laughing.

“Here,” Cas said, taking Jack’s other hand. Another wave approached, and Dean swung Jack up at the same time as Cas, letting the wave pass under Jack's feet. Jack squealed, kicking his feet, and Dean grinned. 

They kept doing it until Jack was laughing so hard he was hiccuping, making Cas and Dean laugh too. A bigger wave approached and this time, water splashed onto Jack’s face as it crashed. Dean tensed, but when Jack looked up at him, eyes wide, face starting to screw up into tears, he tamped down his own panic. 

“You’re alright,” he told him, squeezing his tiny hand, wiping the water from his face. “I got you.”

Jack nodded and tugged at his and Cas’ hand. “Again!”

So they did it again. And again. And Dean knew eventually Jack was going to go deeper and let go of his hand and the thought fucking terrified him, but he wouldn’t be letting him go, not really. He’d still always be here; he’d be right here where Jack needed him.

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Request: hi! if your taking requests, i was wondering if you could write a damien x reader, where they meet through Twitch? add anything else you want i always love everything you write, thanks so much!! - anon

Warning(s): like, one swear

It was a Thursday night when you first met him, or rather, heard of him. You had been streaming for five hours heading into your sixth when you decided it might be time for you to log off for the night. As per usual, you took at least thirty minutes at the end of your stream just to talk with your viewers, usually about how their lives were going in exchange for a story from your own day. 

Tonight, however, there was an influx of people asking if you’d ever heard of a streamer by the name of Damien Haas, which you hadn’t, and if you would do a collaboration with the man anytime soon. Apparently, your content was eerily similar and you were, and I quote, “Practically the female version of him, looks aside.” 

“Damien Haas…” you rolled yourself back closer to your desk, hands settled on your keyboard. You typed his name into the search bar, patiently waiting for Twitch to pull up his account. You clicked into the first one, making an impressed face at the purple checkmark next to his name. You squinted at the screen. “Is this him? In the profile picture with the LEDs in the background?” 

You glanced at your chat, chuckling as the viewers started spamming ‘yes’ and ‘oh my god it’s happening,’ and your personal favorite, ‘mom come pick me up the best crossover of 2020 is happening and im SCARED.’

“He plays a lot of Animal Crossing,” you observed, clicking on one of his videos and dragging the tab onto your main monitor so the stream could see it. You skipped through the beginning part, biting into a pretzel as you watched. 

“He’s kinda cute,” you commented, laughing as your stream freaked out once more. There were a few people commenting what looked like it could be a ship name though you ignored it. “Shame I’d never meet him, though.”

You paused his video, taking note of the time, before rolling out your shoulders. “I think it’s time for me to head out so I’m gonna end this stream with a huge thank you to you all for sticking with me through this entire stream and if you didn’t stay the entire time, I’m glad you decided to join in on the ride even halfway through. I’ll see you guys next time.”

You ended the stream, waving goodbye to your viewers before the light went out and you could relax the smile off your face. Don’t get it twisted, you loved streaming and you loved your viewers but just like any other job, it could get exhausting at times. You shut down your monitors, the screens turning blue before fading to black. You stretched, taking your phone up from its charger and launching yourself into bed, opening your phone and clicking on Twitter. 

Much like staying thirty minutes after you were done streaming to talk to viewers, you usually went on Twitter right after to answer questions and respond to DMs. This time, however, instead of opening the app to see a bunch of post-stream questions, your mentions were filled with the video clip of you saying, “He’s kinda cute,” as well as maybe a million people tagging both you and Damien in them. 

Well, shit. 

Soon enough, that was all that filled your timeline. You couldn’t move in one direction without running into another screencap of you admiring the man. God, you knew the consequences but something in the back of your mind was urging you to reach out to him.

After a few moments of contemplation, the lonely side of you won out, forcing you to message him against your better judgment. Without even thinking about it, you found his Twitter and sent this message:

Hey, I’m sorry about your mentions blowing up because of me tonight. My viewers recommended your Twitch to me and I spoke without thinking about it on Live. 

And with no expectation of his response, you fell asleep right there with your phone on your chest and the DM still open. 

You woke up the next morning with a sore neck and a dead phone, which was a terrible way to start your day. You rolled over, plugging your device into an outlet before crawling out of bed to start your day. When you weren’t streaming, you worked as a freelance editor for different YouTubers, helping their editors with their workload or even staying on as a Temp for different companies. Occasionally you edited the odd commercial here and there, but those gigs were rare. 

Most recently, you had received some material from a group of YouTubers, Smosh. This job was different, however, because if you did well on this you could be looking at a permanent place of employment through their parent company, Mythical Entertainment. 

You knew Mythical Entertainment, it was hard not to, especially since your aunt was one of the producers within the company, but tended to ignore everything the company did. The last you’d heard, they’d onboarded another YouTube group (which you did later find out to be Smosh, the same YouTubers whose video you were hired to edit). 

 After a quick shower and a half-assed attempt at a proper breakfast, you were ready to start your day. You situated yourself behind your monitors, opening the video clips that had been sent to you. The first was a sample video, something that gave you insight on what their editing style was actually like. 

But imagine your surprise when you’re staring down the same man you have called cute the night before, his approximately five-eleven stance taking up one-sixth of the space. He was standing next to a blond, who had been marked as “Shayne Topp.”

Despite there being five other people in frame, your eyes kept moving back to Damien’s figure, watching his mannerisms through the screen and laughing along to his jokes when they fell upon deaf ears. 

Your eyes slid over to your phone, now decently charged after sitting for so long. On your screen were dozens of notifications. There were maybe two from your mom, asking if you’d be coming home for dinner sometime that week but the majority came from Twitter. You picked up the device, unlocking and responding to your mom with a, “yes,” before opening Twitter. 

Nothing much had changed from the night prior. Your mentions were still being flooded with the video from last night but newer content had been ushered in, namely fan edits using footage from your streams and, you assumed, his. 

The only major difference, however, was the fact that Damien had responded to your DM from the night prior. The first message read: 

It’s really no problem! My stream had mentioned your name before, too.

Followed by the second:

P.S. I think you’re cute, too.

You couldn’t believe your eyes. Mr. Damien Haas, the man that you had made a thoughtless comment on stream about, also thought that you were cute. Suddenly, the fact that you had been staring at him for the past hour seemed less stalkerish and more like a blooming crush. You wrote back:

Aw, thanks! Have you seen the newer fan edits? They’re all so talented.

You cringed at yourself. A cute boy started talking to you and you’ve suddenly forgotten how to be suave, not that you really were in the first place. But still, you liked to think you had some tact when talking to people that you found attractive. 

Not even a moment later, there came a response. 

Yes, I have, he responded. And I agree! They are all very talented individuals. 

You looked from the monitor in front of you. You had about a quarter of the footage left to go through before you could start editing but this technically wasn’t due until the following night. Feeling emboldened by the fact that he had actually responded, you replied:

Are you going to TwitchCon on Friday? We should meet up or something. 

Anxiously you awaited his response, taking his silence as an opportunity to watch a bit more of the footage and take down notes according to the sample they’d given you. Roughly thirty minutes later is when the next response came in, reading as an affirmative to both questions. 

You didn’t respond, choosing to leave your social media for after you’d finished editing the video. Your heart still pounded, however. Just the thought that there was a possibility for the two of you to meet was, simply put, insane. You’d just heard of the guy the night before and decided that he was going to be your latest hyperfixation. 

But who could blame you? He was a nice, funny guy that showed the slightest bit of attraction towards you. It didn’t help that you were a sucker for guys that were nice to you. 

Fast forward to the Friday of TwitchCon, also known as the first day of TwitchCon. You and Damien had been talking steadily over Twitter DMs and just last night you had gained his phone number, giving you even more access to the man than you had before. But of course, who were you if you didn’t tease your fans with the prospect of you meeting. 

The night before, at the end of your stream, you’d given your fans the little tidbit of information that you and Damien were, in fact, planning on meeting up sometime during TwitchCon and would be greeting fans together for an hour at your booth. 

That sent Twitter into a frenzy, both of your combined fans getting your ship name to trend within the hour, which confused the hell out of a bunch of locals. 

It was nearing the time you and Damien had set to meet up. The plan was you’d meet around twelve for lunch, take an hour for yourselves, before going back to your booth and meeting with fans for an hour or so as promised. 

You had never been more nervous than you were in that moment. Not only were you about to meet your three-day-old crush but apparently a very popular YouTuber. You tried not to let the thought mess with your head. One of your friends, Wilbur Soot (who you played Minecraft with from time to time) was poking fun at you for being nervous about meeting a popular YouTuber. 

After three years of streaming and gaining a solid following, you’d think you’d be used to meeting other popular content creators. But because it was him, you found yourself unable to think straight. 

“What if I fuck up?” you asked Wilbur anxiously. He’d flown in from London for this event at your insistence and because you’d offered to pay half his airfare to get there and back. He didn’t have his own booth as his arrival was very last minute, but he didn’t mind. He signed the occasional poster though his main purpose was to provide you mental and emotional support. 

“You won’t fuck up,” he comforted, leafing through one of the comics a fan had given you. The entire thing was hand-drawn, which was an insane fact in itself. It looked professional, which was what blew you away when you’d received it. “Well, you won’t fuck up as badly as you did when you first met Schlatt.”

You groaned in embarrassment. “Don’t remind me.”

Long story short, you’d dumped a red in color slushy on the man accidentally after tripping over an unmarked cable. It really wasn’t your fault but the boys hadn’t let you live it down since then. 

Half a moment later, Wilbur was poking your side. “Is that him?” he asked, jabbing his pointer finger into your side while looking in the opposite direction. He was looking at a familiar figure walking down the hallway toward your booth. He stopped for a moment to take a photo with a fan, talking to them about something, before continuing on his way toward you. 

Your eyes locked and you gave him a smile while trying to beat Wilbur into no longer poking you. He stopped when you slapped his arm the first time, sticking his tongue at you before going on his phone. You rolled your eyes at his half-assed attempt of pretending he wasn’t about to start listening in on your conversation. 

“Hey, Y/n, right?” Damien asked as he approached. You nodded, reaching out for a handshake but becoming pleasantly surprised when he instead pulled you in for a hug. 

“You ready for lunch?” you asked glaring slightly at Wilbur as he made kissy faces over Damien’s shoulder. Luckily, Damien hadn’t noticed your moron of a best friend. 

“Yeah, I saw this sushi place on the way in if you wanted to try that?”

“I’d be down,” you agreed, reaching behind your table to grab your bag. Wilbur was set to meet with a few other Minecraft streamers, meaning you didn’t have to worry about him while you had lunch. You looked over your shoulder, making sure everything was set for you to leave before saying goodbye to Wilbur. 

Over the course of lunch, you and Damien had gotten to know each other pretty well. Once the conversation moved away from your fans and, well, work, and more into personal details, you found that you actually weren’t all that similar. For starters, Damien loved watching anime while your guilty pleasure was Gilmore Girls. The one show you both had a love for, however, was Avatar the Last Airbender, which made sense. 

Another thing was that he actually enjoyed being in front of the camera while you tolerated it on most days, really only putting on your face cam for the last thirty minutes on most days. Despite that, he still classified himself as an introvert. 

You returned back to your booth much later than you anticipated, thoroughly shocked at the line that had formed with Wilbur at the front of it, entertaining the fans that had shown up early to meet both you and Damien. 

“Y/n!” one fan called, pointing in your direction. Immediately, the entire line turned and gaped at the sight of you and Damien walking together. You greeted them happily, stopping for pictures and verbally promising that you’d stay until you got to meet everyone personally. 

“You really love your fans,” Damien observed as you put your things back down behind the table. Wilbur had set up shop on your right side, chatting with a few people at the front of the line. 

“I wouldn’t be anywhere without them,” you admitted, pulling a silver sharpie from your bag. You handed a gold one to Damien. “I also wouldn’t have gotten to meet you without them, which I’m still sorry about, by the way. Your feed must have been chaotic.”

“You have no idea,” he chuckled. “But everything happens for a reason.”

You nodded, grinning up at him. “Yes, they do.” 

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[facepalming-since-chernobyl]

I am a SC stan, still a SC stan but I don't associate with most of the Fandom cause they are all toxic and doesn't give a fuck about any characters expect lena. And not to mention the way they constantly disrespect Melissa, chyler, and other actor/actresses by proudly tweeting that Katie is the only reason why everyone is watching the show. How can you be this stupid? Kara is a 60yrs old comic character and you think everyone watch the show for some supporting characters that's not even famous? deep down you all know that no one watches the show for lena/Katie expect supercop fans who are like 10,000 shippers may be? Sure if they have finished Lena's arc earlier those 10,000 fans might have stopped watching it... That's it. It's not going to affect the show. If you erase Kara or if Mel had given the option to end the contract earlier do you think Katie would have been still employed? Do you think CW would have processed the show with Lena as a central character? NOPE.

Even now there are chances for dreamer spinoff. Do you even hear anyone talking about Lena spinoff, nope. Cause trust me lena is neither popular nor an interesting character. Even Scers find almost half of her scenes and arc boring.

See this is one of the main reason I stayed away from SCers and only stick to few nice and realistic people. And let's not forget the amount of Scers that bashed Kara in 3b, 5b 😷

I wish I had taken those SS. Some of the tweets were so horrible and now they are all desperate for SC endgame after bashing Kara for most part of S5. You know Rojascorp shippers have never bashed Andrea for betraying Lena. You can clearly see their Fandom adores Andrea while half of Scers hate Kara.

I mean, we all know how going to the main SG tag is a fucking nightmare, filled with crap that is simply embarrassing. The worst shit comes always after the ep, when they think tagging things like "I'm so bored, where is Lobotomizer" "why she didn't call Kara? booo" is proper. Like... I kinda know, most of the normal fans were scared away during s2 and 3 by them and almost no one posts there and scs think the main tag is their dominion but it's pissing off.

The problem is, they think all people who watch SG are SC/Lena stans. While as you said, there are maybe that many of them, but I think their number is smaller.

And do you remember how they called Mel homophobic and faked some PR letter after SDCC17? How they said she is not their Supergirl and she should have been recast? While have been doing and saying more horrible stuff? And they still think she supports their demands and wants SC to happen?

This or that, I'm genuinely sorry for you and any sane SC, because being in that fandom and being normal has to be an awful experience.

[beignetbenny]

If you're comfortable would you share more you projecting your relationship onto Zukka? I originally followed you from the grocery trip post and i honestly love that sort of thing

You... you want me to project my relationship onto Zuko and Sokka more? My relationship? The one where my GF texted me “if i cosplay zuko and you cosplay sokka and we kiss would that be crazy or what?” that relationship?

I have literally been DYING to do this

Zuko and Sokka met in their junior year of college (performing arts college because if we’re projecting we’re projecting) and the first time Sokka sees him he’s already like: I’m in love

Since Zuko is an arts student, his style is a little more on the quirky side i’m not gonna lie. It’s usually a mix of grunge and goth stuff with the occasional surprise like “oh you have a turtleduck pin on your backpack. Are those pride flag socks?”

Sokka already had a pretty established friend group, but Zuko had transferred back in that semester after taking a leave of absence for family reasons. So, immediately sokka takes him in.

Zuko becomes really good friends with Aang and Katara and Suki and Toph of course, as they spend most of their time together. With rehearsing, running to get food at obscene times of the night still in their dance gear because rehearsals ran long. They food hop and get boba at 2 am, coffee at 3 am, McDonalds at 4 and so on. They go out and get pasta at midnight and refer to it as pasta time. Only one of them has to drop that phrase alone in the groupchat and everyone agrees on a time. Pajamas be damned. They get away with it because technically they are student athletes

A joke by Sokka that is run into the ground by the time they sneak ben and jerrys into a Tap level 5 placement. Zuko is the only other one out of the friend group that gets the highest dance placement as Sokka. It’s understandable, tap dancing is very hard, its’ a difficult skill, and not everyone can do a winged time step into navy time steps it’s rightfully difficult and the timing is off

So... the two of them start rehearsing together more. It wasn’t that they didn’t a lot before, but the class was mostly split and sure they were definitely friends outside of classes too but Sokka felt like his super mega crush on the hot belter who came in with Aftershocks from Next to Normal was something he could get over. So he kinda stuffed it away the more they worked together. 

Then they get assigned a scene. An acting scene. An acting scene that ended in a passionate kiss. An acting scene the teacher said they were both capable of

So they rehearse it. They’re both dead letter perfect by the first night because they have expectations to live up too and both of their siblings just get things so much easier and suddenly they’re talking instead of rehearsing.

Three hours pass before they remember “holy shit we’re running this with blocking in class tomorrow we should probably get this right”

So they go through the scene, the emotions are pretty high, and they both lean in for a stage kiss before Sokka stops

Sokka: Wait...  Zuko: What? Sokka: This is okay right? I can touch you? I mean we didn’t talk about it first and- Zuko: Sokka Sokka: And I know this is both of our first scenes with a kiss and i really respect you as an actor and i don’t want to make you uncomfortable Zuko: ...Sokka Sokka: And I just want to say that- Zuko: You can kiss me Sokka: What? Zuko: It’s not a big deal. We’re both trying to be professionals right? It doesn’t need to mean anything.  Sokka: ... yeah...

So they kinda uh... kiss... and they don’t really stop... kissing

They do it in class and the kiss maybe plays off a little too well. The other classmates clap, the teacher gives feedback. His main point is that you’re supposed to be in love but you’re acting like it hurts.

And sokka makes some bullshit excuse about how he saw the character differently and Zuko tags along to that idea giving more validity to the statement and the teacher is like “alright, bet. You’ve proved your point. It’s probably not what the playwright wanted but this is about expression so i’m glad you feel expressed”

They don’t rehearse together anymore because both of them feel like they’ve gotten it and don’t want to ruin anything. They still hang out. They still have pasta nights. But things are kinda weird. But more than anything, Sokka really misses his friend

In the end, they end up having to do the scene for a showcase. Meaning that during rehearsals they have to do it again and again and again and again until it sort of just becomes normal

Good luck kisses back stage turns into kissing in greeting when they’re visiting each others dorm rooms turns to picking up food orders for each other. Never in front of people, because you can make it platonic. And realistically it’s only done so both of you can make the stage kiss feel more comfortable.

But that doesn’t stop Sokka from being like “woah man i’m getting mad butterflies when we kissed even though I immediately called you dude after the kiss broke"

So sokka comes up with a plan because as much as he likes whatever they’ve got going on, which he does because friend and kissing and cuddling is GREAT for someone who is scared of commitment because the chance of something happening to that person would literally destroy him and that doesn’t feel great.

Instead, the night of the showcase he gets all of his friends to hype him up to ask Zuko out with his favorite candy, a coupon to get pasta, and well... the obvious question

But Sokka waits until they’re in places like an asshole but also because he’s kinda terrified and if something goes wrong it could change the whole dynamic of the scene and they’d both flunk out of fucking THEATER SCHOOL AND-

And he shoves the snack and the coupon and a note he hastily wrote into Zuko’s hands before running to his own entrance to do the scene because he’s stage left while Zuko’s stage right.

And they do the scene, but somethings a little off. Zuko seems distracted but he’s also happy? like super happy? Like did the laugh queue and made it sound genuine instead of spiteful happy? And he smiled into the kiss? That wasn’t... something they did. But Sokka went along with it because the scene SEEMED to be working fine

And then they go off stage and the second the theater darkens, Zuko shoves the prop pillows into Sokka’s chest

Zuko: Fuck you Sokka: What? What did I- Zuko: I mean, yes, obviously yes. The hot tamales were a great choice but fuck you. Sokka: Yes? Zuko: Yeah!

And that’s the only conversation they get in because they have to help with the other prop changes but the moment they are finally backstage and their mics are off they kiss in the little hallways backstage that goes from one entrance or another

(at least they think they’re mics are off but uh... that was embarrassing and i don’t want to put that on them carrying on)

When the show ends and they’re both wiping they’re stage makeup off about to leave their director approaches them and obviously they both think they’re in trouble because they just did a 180 to what they had practiced for the last month but the director loved it. And then he asks them why it was different and Zuko admits that something finally clicked. And the director chalks it up to opening night vibes and that now they should keep it that way for the rest of the performances

The night the show closes they do a Gaang pasta night and the rest of them don’t even realize anything is different until Sokka reaches over and takes something from Zuko’s plate (which was usually off the table and would result in getting fussed at) that they noticed something was up.

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Hey!! 👋🏽😄 I know you said in your last rant about SK8 and Reki and Renga that you were one of those people that always looks up and learns from others, but after your last Langa edit, I just wanted to remind you how immensely talented you are. I might have not seen your first attempts at editing, but I know how it looks like when you're barely starting something, and I'm sure everyone is proud of the progress you've made and many people looks up to you as the level of skill they want to achieve. You're doing amazing! 💖💖💖

Hi, my love!!!!!! ASDFSDFGHG that’s soooo sweet, thank you so much for saying this, it really means the world to me <3 Oh, haha I’ve deleted most of my old videos so it wouldn’t hurt anyone’s eyes lmao T_T I’m still a bit nervous each time I’m uploading my vids to the day to be honest, even with so many subs rn, but at first I really didn’t have any supporters at all and my god I sucked at this, but I guess the love for my fav ships was stronger apparently haha. So I always get silly happy at each nice comment and feedback, so thank you seriously. 

I really love love love vidding, Idk why but when smth comes out the way I wanted it’s a super addictive feeling for some reason, but many times I just looked at the final result and just threw it in the trash and started over and my god how many times SonyVegas crushed and didn’t autosave the project. I’m like Suga now, I’m pressing the save button each 2 minutes, cause don’t want to lose anything xD Being someone’s inspiration is truly an honor to me, I’ve got some messages that hit me too hard. Still feels weird bc I’m like “but do you know that I can’t even use photoshop tho, how do u like me now then?” lol.

I’m always drawn to talented characters, bc they amaze me, esp the humble ones. Like those who hate Haru or Lanaga just buffle me honestly. I understand that they’re pretty and talented and everything, but they’re also the sweetest and loveliest human beings, so like...??? And I adore those who don’t whine and get what they want. I just can’t help it. I’m a strong believer in the fact that "you can do anything if you put your mind to it”. So far it worked in real life so suck it lol.

People are also saying like Langa doesn’t deserve to win this and Haru doesn’t deserve to be in Olympics, like Langa didn’t snowboard since he was 2 and Haru wasn’t swimming every day since he was born. I’m like.. and you need to check in the mirror if your face is a shade of green. BTW I’ve also been in a professional sports for quite a long time since I was a little kid, ballroom dancing and adored it back then, and I did not get jealous at ppl who were talented than me, I was watching the tapes actually with a popcorn. And oh god those large competition events when you sit there for days and give it all, but then you’re like 296 out of 1000. Why was I proud instead of being sad? Idk xD It was fun.

So thanks for liking the vid, cause I even regretted uploading it a bit yesterday. Sadly everyone already knows that we lost this fandom to the middle schoolers being extra, so they do not care for anything each episode except for this ship, so that’s what I got for posting a just Langa vid:

And etc. and that just made me sad, cause I do not like such fandoms, like it’s not even related to the video, that I’ve been making... with love.  Also thanks for the "sama” title, I’m flattered, but editor only wants to vid matchablossom for now, so like there’s no need for any warnings. I’ve been in such horrendoes fandoms, that I’m immune to this. I also in fact didn’t know some keep ruining Langa’s page and saying that he steals Reki’s screen time... cause he’s aparently the only main character...? ...lmao? I didn’t even know Langa can be hated tbh. I wasn’t really ready for all the drama that followed me making a vid about him.

I’ve already deleted some comments, cause I’m like what this even has to do with the vid about Langa? No, I am not obliged to make a vid about Reki, too. What if I post a matchablossom vid, everyone will only start commenting “do renga”, cause fuck your efforts? I’m like... I hate such fanbases, seriously. I do not even know where this is going, but their fans are already pissing me off. I’m still trying hard for this to not affect my point of view about the ship, cause it’d be kinda unfair to them, but its getting harder each week istg.

And I maybe can’t take requests, but I love when some try to get me addicted on their ship with passion and great arguments. It happened to me with some nice ppl. But def not with agression and stupidity haha.

Cause apparently its one of the fandoms where you can’t NOT care for the main ship, even if you accept it for the only possible Langa ship (cause he doesn’t give a shit for anyone else, so like what’s the point), but it doesn’t do anything for you. I’m like... thanks for threatening. This will make me on board ASAP. Like it’s not the epitomy of love to me... I’m sorry? LMAO 

Some anon even sent me a “you’re dense” (literally thats it) ask after that Reki ask. I was tempted to write smth like “oh I’m sorry, this is the most epic love story of my life and his character is the most complex in the world and he’s the best friend and the most inspiring human being that ever hit my screen. can I become undense now? xD”. But you know I do not know if they’d realise the sarcasm and my pride sadly never allowed me to sell my life values for a bunch of 12 years olds to love me lol

My sister always laughs and jokingly says “but you’d probably get much more subs if you made a vid about this or that, but at what price that would be lmao”. Cause yeah, I never could make myself vid smth I do not like, cause I love vidding and do not want it to be associated with things I do not like, plus it’ll most likely turn out ugly, if I do not care. My mom says that she can feel love I put in my shipping vids that’s why she loves them. I really don’t think she’s wrong. But that also kinda makes me an idiot technically, cause I’m not into many of the popular ships, and some popular animes I just find really basic. 

Also I’m like 100% sure it ain’t happening, but even if they miraculously suck each other’s dicks while sitting on a skate board, I can still have the rights not to care at the end. Like did I sign some form where I’m obliged to love each and everyone canon gay ship even if it’s not what I like? Like gay is not the type of love in relationships. You can only care about his ass like Lan Zhan for example or you can only care about your ass. Like that’s different types of relationships, and whatever you like you like. So get all the way of people’s backs, please.

Also do ppl know that you do not need to be blind to the bad sides of the characters in your ships? Or you just gonna be like “I suddenly can’t see” for forever.

So really thanks for such wonderful message and liking the video and for the boosts when I need them and not being an ass to me if I’m not being obsessed with smth, when you like it. (like I think we have different ship in bnha, right? but we’re still doing great tho, thanks for being an angel <3)

I still didn’t expect this becoming a Voltron 2.0. situation tho. We in our twenties see everything differently, I guess. I do get extra about “their love is everywhere”, but I do not get extra by anonymously attacking ppl, threatening creators and yelling “queeerbating psychotic blind assholes if these two aint fucking by the end of the season I’m shaving my head and jumping out of the window and shoot the director. you do not ship it HARD? YOU DUMB FUCK. THAT’S THE BEST LOVE STORY IN THE WORLD”. Like damn, take your blinders off and see the world, kid. Firstly, it’s definitely not, secondly, ppl see love differently in general and at each age too.

Ah, also you must kill Adam, cause he’s a pedo apparently. Like he ain’t even a threat to your ship, unless you’re blind, but they’re still at it, like they do not know that this kind of age difference is literally nothing for an anime? And that there are canon ships with a huger age difference left and right, too. It’s like its their first time approaching an anime or smth. Like in anime world character can literally kill 1000 ppl with his bare hands and bathe in their blood and we can still stan them, depends on their story, ok? Also Langa couldn’t care less for his advances, so like separate Adam from your ship pls. Like, fuck off, if someone is interested in his character. Yeah, he’s a weirdo for reasons, but anime kind of weird do not apply to real life. Stop acting like you’re some purist, when later you’re gonna ship smth else and it suddenly will not apply. Also rules do not apply to animes, everyone knows they do not apply. These are not western cartoons, my god. And 24 years old flirting with 16 year old is defiinitely not the weirdest shit anyone has ever seen in the anime. Chinese BL has characters who were 14 and 30 when they met and happily married. Also FICTION is not life. Literally no one cares. If you’re scared for your saint eyes, do not watch animes, you’re gonna have a heart-attack from what you can see there. Also we’ve seen gayer bromances in animes, who are just bromances, so pls do not shoot anyone if it’s not canon.

So basically I was kinda pissed yersterday, cause fuck them for ruining the tag, but after chatting with my hommies and your ask, I’m okay again, I just have to avoid this fandom and stick to a tight community xD. I just got used to my nice fandoms and forgot for a bit about the precautions you need to take if you’re in one of those. You know. Who make a circus out of lgbt, instead of supporting it, and make other ppl hate being in fandoms.

P.S. sorry for this partially unrelated rant, your messages really always make my heart bloom, so thanks for supporting me, and I know you’re proud of my progress, too <3 and this makes me happy. LY

[ofmythsandmadness]

MY THOUGHTS ON TUA SEASON TWO: PART ONE (spoilers)

So...I finished season two. And I’ve got a lot of thoughts.

I’m putting ALL my thoughts under the tab so please, don’t click unless you’ve seen it all, and/or you just....like don’t care about spoilers? But please if you’ve not watched it, watch it first ‘cause it deserves all the hype and attention. 

(if you haven’t watched yet, go into your settings and blacklist the tag ‘tua spoilers’ because that’ll help you avoid anything if you don’t want to be spoiled, at least on here)

Also, this is part one to my thoughts, because it’d be much too long to list it all here! Part two will be linked below this :)

This is going to be SO badly organized, but I’m gonna do my best to make it otherwise! I’m separating it all under sub-headers, just so you don’t have to read through ALL my thoughts on the series (but there’s a lot, sorry).

I legit just watched it all last night, so it’s fresh but also still jumbled and messy. So bear with me.

Also, let me know what you thought, I’m eager to hear others’ opinions of this show!

AS A WHOLE... So, so, SO damn good. I was scared, and worried and I thought there was gonna be a lot more pain...but it was so good. Arguably better than the first season, I think because the characters are fleshed out and have developed more, and I felt myself caring more for their wellbeings (even though I would have already died for most of them).

Honestly, no. This season WAs better than the first and I’m gonna stick with that.

I also really loved the colour scheme of it all?? I think they did that really well the first season too, but the colour choices and how they alternated between blue and orange, it keeps your attention and adds a vibrance to the characters that was there before but not so loudly.

I want to watch it again and admire how they shot/edited it too, because I actually really was impressed with the shots too (normally Netflix shows aren’t super cinematography-heavy, don’t know if that’s how to say that, but TUA really came through and I’m impressed). I don’t want to drone on about that because i know most don’t care about that as much, so I’ll leave it at just...I was impressed, and most happy with the overall presentation of the show.

LUTHER HARGREEVES...

The way i actually now love him?? 

I mean I felt bad for him in S1, but here he’s an actual character and I cared about HIM, rather than what he had gone through. From the moment he said ‘I don’t give a shit’ in episode one, I liked him again and I’m SO glad. 

I didn’t really love how he still pushed for him and Allison...I mean, I understand that you can’t just erase the feelings, they still stand, but I would have liked a little bit less of it. It’s just awkward to watch and to contrast with Klaus literally calling them out, I appreciate that it wasn’t so prevalent but it was still there. 

But overall!! He became a character I actually really liked, he was actually funny too?? Dorky too, and also just more sure of who he was as a person rather than the number...Luther rights.

DIEGO HARGREEVES...

One word: BIIIITCH.

He was one of my favourites from the show pre-S2, and now I can say he might just be my favourite. I would fight fire for that man.

I didn’t think he’d be almost the main character of this show (obviously one of them, because they’re all main characters ig) but I liked it a lot! We really got nothing about who he is as a person in Season One, and though a lot of people were able to fill in the emotional blanks, there was a lot more given to his character and who he is beneath the hard-headed vigilante.

I think David Casteneda did a brilliant job on his character, and had one of the best performances out of all of them. I knew he was good, but I truly was shocked at how good he did as Diego, and I’m happy to see him as an actor thrive and get more credit. He deserves it, and I’m quite happy. 

Surprisingly, he was the character to make me cry (I cried at Ben too, don’t worry, but!). When Reginald said that shit to him, I was in fucking pain. I won’t get too deep into it, but just the way his face dropped, and then the stutter - it struck a cord and I cried more at that then I did the rest of the show. Dunno. Maybe that’s just me.

But just like...I wish he had more support...everyone just kept calling him dumb and mocking him and I KNOW his obsession with JFK was dumb and aligned with the Luther moon thing and he didn’t have the greatest plans and I’m not saying all of his actions were right, but he was fucking TRYING. And some of it, they played it off for comedic effect but they were literally just trashing on him for doing the right thing and making him look stupid...it made me a little sad.

I am glad, however, at how he rekindled with all his siblings. Because arguably, Diego was an asshole to all of them and though again, arguably they all were and none of them are doing well and there are reasons - they were all assholes to each other, and especially him to them, especially Vanya when she really didn’t deserve it. And to see them at least begin to mend their relationship made me so happy. The way that in the end, they sat together?? And how he accepted her apology just like that?? I sob.

The scene where diego just says ‘there’s this girl I like - I CRACKED UP AND I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHY IT’S SO FUNNY BUT JFC THAT WAS SO FUNNY. That and threatening Olga - top tier funniest moments of the season for  me. They really amped up the comedy this season and I’m happy.

One thing I didn’t get was in the last episode, when he bent the bullets’ trajectory for Five...did he know he could do that? Like I understand that he could do it, but we never saw him do anything else around those lines, aside from in the doomsday season ep1, but that was an alternate history so...I’m guessing Reginald taught him, but??? It was kinda random and I would have liked if they hinted at it at least once before.

To summarize, I love him. I love how far he’s come and I hope he just finds some happiness because he keeps getting the short end of the stick. He deserves the world.

(also, diego hargreeves a huge ass nerd. y’all can’t convince me otherwise. big dork energy)

LILA PITTS/DIEGO & LILA:

You know what? I loved her.

I didn’t like her character as much post maybe episode 6/7, basically once she brought Diego in I was disappointed but I liked her character. I think she was cool and different and chaotic and though I was disappointed that towards the end, she felt a bit thrown in, I still appreciated who she was. I was honestly hoping that she would have left the Handler a lot sooner, I thought they were gonna make her realise the truth a lot sooner but at the same time...this is her maternal figure, she’s been basically brainwashed into that support and there’s gonna be an element of love regardless.

I knew she was gonna be one of the 43 though, the second I saw 1993 I called it and I was happy I was actually right on something. Idk her powers, that too seems a lil bit messy but still, I thought it was neat. I just want to see more! And I think we will, hence why I’m trying not to judge her much, but i hope that we get to know more about her. I don’t want a half-baked love interest, and I was hoping that there was going to be a little bit more this season - but we shall see.

(ritu arya, though, is quite good in her role. and stunning. i quite love her)

I also didn’t HATE the relationship between her and Diego. I know it’s a divided topic but I liked it, I thought they were fucking cute and even though i KNEW there was something off about her, I was just HOPING that it’d be different. I mean, that scene on the bed with them???? I think my heart gave out. Palpitations, bitch. I was so fucking soft for them and even when she was exposed....I stillllllllll wanted the best. :(

And then like shit happened and then it got a little messy (y’all should learn how to communicate...throwing out boyfriend and ex-girlfriend terms like that???) and like yada yada, I was okay but I don’t necessarily like the ‘I love him/her’ thing. I mean sure you can, but THAT felt a little quick. I don’t know why tv shows just LOVE to throw out the I love you’s that FAST, but I’m not into it. 

TL;DR - I still REALLY like Lila Pitts, and I still like them together, somewhat (though like maybe slow your asses down folks).

(question though...are we supposed to think of them as siblings now?? bc...idk I don’t see it like luther/allison because they weren’t raised together and really didn’t associate like that?? but are they all reginald’s alien children cause in THAT case wtf am I suppose to think help-)

PART TWO TO MY THOUGHTS: here.

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Genshin x fem!reader [Volleyball Team AU - Inspired by Haikyuu!] You cheer something embarrassing + The rival team comments about it

Note: My fixation on this AU continues... I just think there’s so many scenarios to explore. 

Scenario: Your friend has dared you to cheer something embarrassing for your boyfriend. Everyone hears it, including the rivalling team...

Warnings: not proofread, some swearing and profanity, slight sexual innuendo if you squint (Tartaglia’s)

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#1 Zhongli (Captain/Wing Spiker/Ace)

Zhongli is pretty well-known among Aces.

He knows you’re up there on the stands and for him that’s good enough. Is not the type to keep looking up there to check if you’re watching. He’d rather be focused on the game.

So when you shout out his name just as they’re about to start, his head snaps towards you and you can see surprise on his face.

“Zhongli!!!” literally all eyes are on you now, the coaches, the managers, the other team. “Y-You’re--”

Your friend nudges and whispers at you “Louder you moron! He won’t hear you if you stutter!”

“YOU’RE THE CAPTAIN OF MY HEART!” 

You cringe and just bury your face in your hands, your friend is laughing uncontrollably

There’s silence in the court, BUT THEN HIS TEAM GOES WILD “CAPTAIN ARE YOU BLUSHING?!” “QUICK SOMEONE TAKE A PHOTO” “HE’S MALFUNCTIONED!” 

Zhongli has a blush on his cheeks but gets his team in order “ROUND UP!” but they’re all silently snickering or giggling.

They form a circle and put their hands in together. Zhongli shouts “FIGHT!” a lot louder than usual.

His team grins. Their captain is fired up, so they’re fired up too. 

Just before he’s about to take first serve he makes it a point to look your way, and give you a firm nod.

Then the captain of the opposite team comments about your cheering. “Wah! I wish I had someone cheering me on like that,” is looking at you with heart eyes.

Zhongli exudes a dark aura and everyone covers their head in fear of getting hit by the ball “Eyes over here,” he grumbles towards the other captain who just smirks.

#2 Diluc (Vice Captain/Wing Spiker/Defense Specialist)

“Diluc! THE ONLY THING STRONGER THAN YOUR SPIKE IS MY LOVE FOR YOU!”

Oh yea gurl. Even your friend is embarrassed and ducks behind the railings to hide her face.

“That’s kinda...cheesy...” Kaeya mutters under his breath and scratches his cheek.

Childe is glittering all over, “It’s so cheesy but I’m kinda jealous,” They both turn to Diluc.

Yea he’s gone. From neck to hairline he’s red all over and steam is coming off from his ears.

His teammates crack up.

He’s so out of it the rest of the team needs to clap and hit his back to get him back into the real world.

“Oi, get yourself together, your girlfriend’s watching!” He snaps out of it at that and puts on his game face.

The other team comments, “She’ll find out my spike is stronger!” 

Diluc is livid that they’re trying to outshine your cheers and spikes like never before.

#3 Kaeya (Middle Blocker)

“KAEYA! YOU CAN BLOCK SPIKES BUT YOU CAN NEVER BLOCK MY HEART!”

has a shit-eating grin the moment he hears it. 

Cups his hands around his mouth and shouts back. “YOU CAN’T BLOCK MINE EITHER!!! I LOVE YOU!!!”

The whole team is just...what in the world is this cringey-ness unfolding in front of them...?

Team doesn’t know whether to be motivated or to puke.

But Kaeya is there to the rescue. He’s so hyped that there are flowers hovering around his peaceful face. “Come on, come on, we gotta show Y/N who the kings of the courts are here, don’t let me down,”

Half-way through the game one of the opponents ask him, “Hey, that your girl up there? She’s kinda cute,”

KAEYA ISN’T EVEN FAZED Y’ALL “She is, isn’t she?!” Probs will show you off more, to his team’s displeasure. 

After the game (which they obiviously won) he bear hugs you and is proud of how much you cheered for him.

#4 Albedo (Setter)

“Bedo!!! YOU SET MY HEART ON FIRE!”

You say this just as the ball touches his fingertips, he slips up a bit at the embarrassing cheer and they end up losing that point.

“Oh crap,” you mutter under your breath and duck under the rails to hide while your friend laughs, pointing at your hidden form when Albedo looks up to the stands.

“Don’t mind, don’t mind!” his teammates slap his back to reassure him that they can get the lost point back.

Tartaglia is the one that zooms in on Albedo’s face, “How are you not making any reactions at all?”

Albedo stares at him for a moment. “...Because she merely stated the truth,” 

Kazuha laughs at how logical their setter is but adds, “He slipped up, I think that’s enough of a reaction,”

Albedo pouts a little but continues with the game. 

A little later on the setter of the other team tries to provoke him. “Hey, you didn’t even give your girlfriend any reaction. Watch out, I’m pretty sure I can give better ones,” 

Albedo is so pissed he actually spikes the next ball with his eyes on that bastard.

#5 Tartaglia (Middle Blocker/Wing Spiker)

“TARTAGLIA!!! YOUR SPIKES MAKE ME WEAK IN THE KNEES!” 

Another one who has a shit-eating grin on his face.

Shouts back at you “THAT’S NOT THE ONLY THING OF MINE THAT MAKES YOU WEA--” is FREAKIN slapped by Zhongli at the back of his head.

You kind of thank his captain that he wasn’t able to finish that sentence but damn it’s still embarrassing.

Kaeya and Tohma is snorting with laughter

Xiao and Albedo does not get it.

Someone from the other team begrudgingly comments, “Dude you don’t have to flex her that hard,” 

Tartaglia is the type to take the bait, a dark look on his face while looking at the opponent. “That’s right, be jealous, no one’s cheering for you huh?”

Whacked by Zhongli the second time and pushes his head down and apologizes for this man-Childe

#6 Kazuha (Decoy/Middle Blocker/Wing Spiker)

“KAZUUU!!! YOU JUMP JUST LIKE MY HEART DOES WHEN I HUG YOU!”

Laughs aloud sheepishly but waves his hand at the stands where you are. 

Is secretly stoked and fueled.

But his other teammates are still teasing him about it. “Wow she must be having some kind of heart attack whenever she hugs you then,” “Come on Kazuha! Show us how far you can jump!”

Laughs sheepishly again and waves his hands at his teammates, “Okay, alright, that’s enough,”

But man is FLYING during the game, literally. The team is kinda scared about how high he’s jumping today and wonders if you’ve cast some type of magic spell.

They’re all thinking ‘...if I get a girlfriend will I perform better too?’ with these glum looks on their faces.

The opposing team’s member remarks, just speaking out loud. “She’s right he really does jump high for someone so small...”

Kazuha smirks at them, although there’s still a friendly smile on his face. “Y/N knows me best,”

#7 Xiao (Libero)

“XIAO! RECEIVE THAT BALL THE WAY YOU RECEIVE ME IN YOUR ARMS!”

low-key the other teammates start to add-on to the teasing. “Wow, how DO you receive her in your arms, Xiao?” “You like cuddles or what?” “So do YOU initiate the cuddles or does she?”

“ENOUGH!” he’s a blushing mess and pushes away his team members to try and focus on the game. 

He shoots you a half-glare while you’re over at the stands but later on he’s prolly gunna give you cuddles the way he likes it.

Every time they’re on time out or break the terrible two (Kaeya and Tartaglia) tease him by wrapping their arms around Xiao and repeating what you said “Receive that ball the way you receive me in your arms!!” “Hug me Xiaoooooo!”

Xiao just punches the both of them on the head.

Albedo deadpans the terrible two and says “That’s a very good way of showing that you’re jealous no one is cheering for you,”

They both sulk on the side of the court.

The other team’s spiker comments, enough for Xiao to hear. “Gee she’s kinda cute,”

Xiao doesn’t even hold back, with fire in his eyes, points at that guy. “You! You won’t get any ball past me!” 

#8 Tohma (Pinch Server/Middle Blocker)

“TOHMA! YOU CAN SERVE THAT BALL BUT I CAN SERVE YOU SOME LOVE!!!”

Tohma laughs heartily and turns to his teammates, “Hear that guys? Guess it’s time for me to go and get served some love,” 

He’s literally just in seventh heaven and is about to nope it out of there to meet you at the stands but Diluc grabs the collar of his shirt and drags him back. “The game isn’t over...”

Deadass pouts the rest of the game, but is so motivated to finish that most of his serves are unstoppable.

And then in the middle of the game, someone from the other team waves back at you. “I CAN SERVE YOU SOME LOVE TOO!”

Tohma serves that ball straight at the guys head, his eye is twitching in annoyance.

Is possibly the happiest that you came to his game and swings you around when he meets you. “Thanks for cheering babe!”

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well Michael still chose Maria again over Alex.

Hey anon! I left this alone for a hot second because I didn't wanna just say 'yeah lol' because I'm not a dick. However, I have been thinking about this and I have an idea about it and I made a post earlier but it was kinda all in the tags because I'm scared to have opinions sometimes so I'll say something here because I feel better about it! Fair warning, I am so far up Michael Guerin's ass it's a problem and that is my fault.

Anyway, I think the main reason this is/keeps happening when Guerin literally has the man he's loved for over a decade right there is 100% self-esteem and abandonment issues. And, honestly, I think it’s a good thing. I mean obviously I don’t like that it’s hurting Alex in the process and I think Michael is being an idiot, but I don’t think he and Alex need to be together when they’re like they are.

I think the reason why, right now, it’s easier for him to be with Maria is because she literally let’s him do whatever the hell he wants and accepts it and enables him. She gives playful banter and gets just angry enough for it to feel like she’s not doing that, but that’s what it is. It’s not even just accepting someone for who they are, it’s literally, at it’s core, enabling someone to be their worst and not being able to push someone to be better. Liz said it when she was talking about Diego that he pushed her to be better, but the feelings weren’t there, and I think it’s the opposite for Michael and Maria. You do need more than love and he and Alex do have that, they’re just not in a place outside of those feelings to actually handle them the right way. 

He’s settling because this feels like unconditional, positive attention to him even though in the long run it’s literally a recipe for disaster for both of them.

My personal opinion on how I would like it to go would be Michael realizing on his own that he wants to be a better person and working towards that and realizing that Maria enables him to stay in the same rut he’s been in for 10 year and ends it with her to make himself better and then realizing the person that pushes him to be better is Alex and he does genuinely feel better when he’s acting like the man he wants to be which just so happens to be the man Alex deserves. I don’t even really want there to be a correlation. I want him to get better first as himself and then go for Alex, I don’t want him to try to mold into what Alex wants. I want them to be themselves and happy.

However, the way I think it’s gonna go based on Carina’s pattern of behavior is this: this back and forth is gonna go on for a few weird episodes and then Michael is going to see Alex with Forrest and get all jealous. Maria is going to see them and be like “I deserve better than this” and “I’m so stupid” and so on and Michael will deny it and she’ll believe him like twice because let’s be real this is a fanfiction we’re watching. Then in the episode before the finale of this season something’s gonna Happen to make Michael flip his little switch or force Maria to see that Michael is not over him no matter what she wants and then they’ll be over, but Alex will be with Forrest and it’ll pose another fucking conflict and season 3 will be about Micahel trying to prove that he’s better or some shit. It’s gonna be dumb, but I’m gonna watch it because I’m stupid. 

Sorry for the literal essay response that is so close to MLA format I’m kinda scared of myself. Hope this makes sense to anyone who actually bothered to read this lol

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Weight Tw:

Everybody posting ‘thinspo’ can we just have a chat. Nothing bad I just wanted to say a little bit about some things nothing bad just read please. I know it’s really hard to feel pretty especially with Valentine’s Day and shit coming up and I kinda wanted to give some perspective.

Most of the posts I’ve seen have centered around legs recently so I’ll center my spiel around that. I am in no way claiming to be a medical professional I’m just a person who is tired of seeing mostly young people die from shit like this.

So here’s a diagram. I do t mean to paint one as bad and the other as superior I’m just stating facts. There are also lots of other types of legs but I’m just going to be focusing on these for now. So the main difference is the curvature of the calf. it needs to curve that way in order to help a person move stand and proform any type of athletic or everyday activities. I admit when I was younger I was also a victim of the mindset that having legs like figure A meant I was fat and that if I excersied enough I would be able to “loose” that. I could never really figure out why I didn’t until I was in 8th grade.

That year was the first time I looked at my body as more than just some imperfect curse of existence but as a functioning system. Basically I got really into anatomy and learned that the reason people are meant to have curved legs is because inside of your leg you need to fit these

When a person is as underweight as figure A the muscle tissue they saw as unsightly begins to be absorbed by the body to use as food when a person is not getting enough nutrients or is loosing more than they put in. That muscle tissue is incredibly difficult to get back. When that muscle tissue isn’t present it can turn your life into a living nightmare. Muscle tissue not only helps you move but it acts as a buffer keeping bones from scraping against eachother. Now I speak from experience as someone whose bones love to do that every day (I have a joint condition) it is not something I ever want to experience again. As I type this it’s happening and I still can’t quite describe it so I won’t.

I do t mean for this to scare anybody or anything like that I’m just trying to state what I feel nessasaey to tell. For anyone struggling withh this I know I’m probably the last person you want to hear this from but I’m sorry that you’re going through this. Recovery is possible and you don’t have to be sick to be alive.Please reach out for help if you can I’ll leave some resources below and if you are turning to weight loss for health reasons please talk about it with your doctor.(and yes I am putting this in all the tags I’ve found that mostly show this type of material I do not recommend looking through any of the tags but still be safe)

Resources:

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-105 please

NB i am told this was meant to say 1-50

thanks queen <3 here we go

1. Who is your favourite ghost?

lately? it's been kitty. and i'm contractually obligated to love the captain

2. If you could see the ghosts like Alison, which one do you think would come the closest to making you want to leave the house?

the obvious answer is julian but probably actually robin, i HATE being spooked (as the asker can attest xx)

3. How would you feel if you couldn’t see the ghosts, but knew they were there, like Mike?

i'd feel mad jealous even though i'd actually have it pretty good. the other person would be trying so hard to tell me how much it sucks and i'd just be like 'but... goast.....'

4. Would you want to see ghosts like Alison, or would you rather be ignorant to their goings and doings?

again my immediate answer is I WANNA SEE THEM but i also know that might suck in many ways. at least for a while. i am not a patient person so i don't know if i could learn to live with them like alison could. but on the other hand... the chance to actually talk to people from the fucking actual past... thinking emoji!

5. If you were a ghost living in the house, would you rather be upstairs with the main nine ghosts, or downstairs with the plague ghosts?

upstairs for sure, sorry to the plague ghosts but i do not want to hang out in a basement for eternity

6. If you were someone who died in the house would you rather be “sucked off” immediately, or would you like to hang around a bit and get to know some of the other ghosts before getting “sucked off”?

i would probably just end up staying forever because i'm scared of the void of death.... <3

7. Which ghost would you miss the most if they were “sucked off” in the next series?

UNBELIEVABLE question? i'd miss ALL OF THEM. but see question 1 also

8. Which ghost do you think you’d get along with the best?

it's hard to say. i think they would all get on my nerves because as said i am not very patient. but the one who would irritate me LEAST... maybe pat?

9. Which ghost would you say you’re most like?

captain. not to be a cliche but i'm gay and repressed. and also irritable and grumpy

10. Which ghost would you say you’re least like?

JULIAN

11. What is a (popular or not) fan theory that you love?

(pasted from prev answer) i don’t actually like ship it because he’s definitely older than her, but a couple of people have said kitty sometimes acts like she has a crush on thomas. which is cute to me even if she does need to get better taste (love u kitty xxx)

12. What is a (popular or not) fan theory that you don’t quite agree with?

(pasted from prev answer) not so much a specific theory but i disagree with the general idea that anything of consequence went on with the captain and havers. i think it was meant to come across as just a snippet of the captain’s poor sad gay life and, as several brain geniuses have pointed out, due to the timing of germany invading france + the captain’s medals the flashback must have been from a good few years BEFORE he died. and i think the flashback was the last time they ever saw each other, so i don’t think that a) havers has any link to the captain’s eventual death or 2) anything romantic ever happened between them

13. Favourite ship and why?

captain x my cute oc boyfriend because i've tailored it to my exact needs. why ship retail when you can ship bespoke?

14. Least favourite ship and why? (Please be nice though!)

patcap as we all know. like YES i'm a contrary bitch so i don't like things that are popular and i do think i'm better than everyone else... but really idk why exactly i just don't gel with it at all. and when i've tried to read fic in the past it feels to me like their characters are kind of flattened. and i think the captain is too much of a bitch. and i think pat is serving us normie heterosexual. it's the 'cinnamon roll' ship of this fandom and i can't STAND (metaphorical) cinnamon rolls. AND ALSO pat is not the simple soft dad cinnamon roll fandom often makes him out to be! like he is a very nice person but he's also fucked up and insane like all of them. anyway my brain charges extremely low rents

15. If you could go back in time and live in the house/on the property at the same time as one of the ghosts when they were alive, who would you pick?

captain. need to know wtf's going on with him

16. Would you rather inherit the house (and its ghostly inhabitants), or just visit?

realistically... visit. i think i would lose my mind eventually if i lived there

17. Do you think we’ll ever know how every ghost died? Do you think there will be anyone whose death we’ll never learn about?

i hope we do, but i also appreciate that isn't the sole point of the series, otherwise it would be kinda boring and discovering how they died wouldn't be as impactful. if there's anyone's death we don't find out about, i think it would probably be robin? lol what if it was so long ago he just forgot

18. What is your favourite Ghosts fanfiction?

so i'm stupid and i never use bookmarks on ao3..... i've read a LOT of different fics i like but do you think i can revisit them? no! because i'm stupid! so i cannot fairly pick an absolute fave sorry

19. What is your favourite Ghosts fan art?

THIS <3

all the babies and children on here talk about horrible histories the show being 'their childhood'........ put some respect on terry deary's name. and this artist did!

20. Tag 5 favourite Ghosts fandom content creators!

honestly i'm not good with like. knowing people. but here are 5 fanfics i've enjoyed (based on the author's replies in my inbox because, again, i am too stupid to use bookmarks)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/28287567

https://archiveofourown.org/works/29868645

https://archiveofourown.org/works/28653192

https://archiveofourown.org/works/28067277/chapters/68761830

https://archiveofourown.org/works/26957662/chapters/65795407

21. Are there any historical periods you wish we’d have gotten to see a ghost/ghosts from but didn’t?

(pasted from other post) not to be predictable but i would have liked to see a 1960s ghost. like a mod who crashed his scooter or something. we have enough 20th century ghosts though but i believe the us remake has some kind of hippie ghost…

22. What is something you’re hoping to see in a future series?

flashback to the captain getting some. like implied or whatever. i can't cope with him dying a virgin. he needs this

23. What is something you’re hoping to see in a future series, but know we probably WON’T get to see?

(pasted from other post) alison meets someone else who can see ghosts, and we get to see the ghosts at THEIR house…. i always love it when we see extra ghosts but i know they probably won’t make any recurring because it would come off as running out of ideas. but i still think they should add a 90s teenager named roy

24. Which lesser-seen characters would you like to see more of in future series?

tbh there's none i can think of that i think we should SEE more of, they get a pretty good balance. there are some i definitely want to learn more about though

25. Are there any characters you wish we’d see less?

don't make me pick a least favourite child </3 but also i think thomas could probably tone it down a bit.

26. Favourite one-liner?

I'LL WAIT FOR YOU, MY COMELY NUG - me whenever i order chicken nuggets on just eat

27. Favourite episode?

DON'T EVEN... i like 2x06 and 3x05 a lot

28. Top 5 headcanons for [insert character name here]?

i'm going to do the captain because obviously i am

- he may or may not have been lavender married

- he may or may not have had a drinking problem

- public schoolboy with domineering father, clearly

- IF he had a lavender wife then she spent all her time in the company of her 'odd' female friend who wore men's clothes, smoked cigars and drove a motorbike. the captain was obviously clueless

that's 4 so a cheeky one for fanny:

- she did a lot of medicinal coke

29. Whose costume is your favourite?

kitty. gotta love an ott ballgown

30. Whose costume is your least favourite?

that's an offtopic question. you have been stopped.

31. If you could do a complete redesign of one of the ghosts’ costumes, whose would you change and how?

i would give thomas his double denim

32. If you could play any of the existing ghosts, which one would you want to play and why?

i think i'd be good at playing mary. meek weird girl who says things that don't make any sense? omg she is LITERALLY me

33. Which ghost would you least like to play and why?

julian, i'm not getting my pussy out

34. What one thing would you miss most if you became a ghost and had to live by the same rules as the Button House ghosts?

FOOD. food. eating and food.

35. How do you think one or more of the ghosts whose deaths we haven’t seen died? Or, if we know the cause of death but not the reason for the death (like Mary being burned as a witch or Humphrey being beheaded), why do you think they were killed?

i think mary's execution might have had something to do with her husband's death and her being unfairly accused or something. also like, she just acts kinda weird, and we know how that often played out for women back then...

and i think the captain died in some really boring mundane natural causes way (congenital heart attack or something) but he's stuck around because a) he's never come to terms with the whole h*mo thing and 2) he was just really mad that he died so boringly

36. Favourite [insert character name here] moment?

CAPTAIN GETTING KITTY TO SMILE

37. What do you think [insert character name here] was like when they were alive? Do you think they were exactly the same as they are now, or do you think there were any major or minor differences?

ok i'll do fanny for this one. i think she was less domineering when she was alive, in death she clearly thinks of herself as above the other ghosts and bosses them around, and when she talks shit about george it's not like he can get back at her in any way. but it would be interesting to see how they interacted when both were alive

38. It’s your turn to pick a movie for film club! What are you watching?

(from prev post) i haven’t seen any movies errr….. maybe austin powers because it’s so sad that julian died just a few years before it came out because he would love it and get really annoying about quoting it all the time and it would be really funny for the captain (who thought the movie was unironic) to have to deal with that. and fanny would NOT COPE.

39. Would you rather share a room with Thomas (constantly sighing and reciting bad poetry) or Fanny (falls out of the window screaming every night)?

fanny. men be quiet challenge

40. If you could do some kind of historical swap (i.e. place a ghost in a different period from their own), who would you choose and what period are they from now?

i would like to give kitty the chance to be a 20th or 21st century girl. maybe an era like the 60s or 80s that was known for daring fashions, i think she would luv it

41. Let’s settle this once and for all. Who’s the real leader, the Captain or Pat?

fanny

42. If the ghosts could eat, what is one food you would like to share with them that they might not have tried before?

doritos tangy cheese, mountain dew baja blast, 4loko. i would make thomas try a jalapeno. i would also make them try my cooking experiments because i do that to anyone i live with

43. You’ve heard rumours of a tenth upstairs ghost who doesn’t often venture out of their room to visit with the other residents of the house. Who are they? (i.e. make up a ghost OC. I know i’m putting you on the spot. I just want to see what you come up with.)

it's george button and his bitch ass is too scared of his wife to come down. his downfall comes when he finds out there's another gay ghost and simply has to clap them cheeks (he fails)

44. Tell me a song you think [insert character name here] would like, or a song that reminds you of them!

i think alison's probably already introduced him to them but thomas + anything by the smiths. i would also make the captain sit quietly and listen to a tracy chapman cd (for my lover...)

45. What song(s) do you think would annoy certain ghosts the most?

the smiths would annoy everyone except thomas. literally they'd all be trying to re-kill him

46. Who is one actor you’d love to see guest star? What kind of character would you like to see them play?

steve coogan as like. anyone. preferably a ghost. a roman centurion ghost if you wanna get cultural. but seriously i just want alan

47. If you could have one Horrible Histories song in Ghosts (either sung by a ghost/ghosts, or playing on the TV or computer for them to watch), which one would you want it to be and why?

that song about how no 'british' stuff is actually british. like tea. i want julian to melt down

48. What do you think the ghosts’ jobs would be in a modern living-human AU where they’re all just chaotic housemates?

captain & kitty: have their own wedding planning company

julian: still a politician but instead of an mp he's like a parish councillor. handforth antics

fanny: headteacher

robin: cool off the shits teacher at same school who undermines fanny wherever possible. deals weed to students

mary: runs a shop selling like healing crystals and incense and dreamcatchers

humphrey: customer service supervisor who actually likes his job because he takes no shit and just fucks with every single customer

thomas: unemployed podcaster

pat: dogwalker

49. What is one modern invention you think [insert character name here] would be surprised or confused by?

fanny would be so baffled by any Feminine Products. when she discovers tampons it's all she can talk about for a week. the mooncup made her go into a coma

50. Name an AU you haven’t seen someone create content for, but which you’d love to read a fic or see some art for.

not to be the way i am but i'd love if anyone ever drew art or something about my au which is a modern-day au where fanny and captain are alison and kitty's divorced parents, julian and robin are captain's brothers and alison's wack uncles, mary is their childhood nanny, thomas is a student lodger at button house, humphrey is a cat and pat is just some guy. but yeah in the past i've had a couple of anons on here mention it and i did melt into a puddle... i think if someone did art i'd explode and die. in a good way like

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twenty questions

I was tagged by the lovely @adampage @cowboyshit @hungmanhorsecarriage @hotyeehawman on my writing blog snarkwriteswrasslin and @wardl0w - my bb. So, now that my laptop is FINALLY fixed, I’m just gonna do this real quick. My tags will be at the bottom but it’s no pressure to do this, okay?

what do you prefer to be called name-wise?

Ashley. A few people on here call me Snark and I don’t mind it, honestly. So, Ashley or Snark, whatever works for you.

when is your birthday?

November 2. I’m a whole year older now. And not the least bit wiser.

where do you live?

North Dakota

three things you are doing right now?

Listening to Spotify, answering this and setting up my computer / whining about it via text to J.

four fandoms that have peaked your interest.

Sons of Anarchy, wrestling, The Walking Dead, Supernatural and Stranger Things. There’s way more than four, jsyk.

how has the pandemic been treating you?

I mean... It could’ve been worse, but it could be so much fucking better too. My dad got Covid not too long ago, yeah, that scared the fuck out of me. I’m always worried that family or friends will get it. It’s made my anxiety grow in leaps and bounds, but beyond that, we’ve (my husband and I) been lucky in that it hasn’t been a huge strain on us financially *knocks on wood profusely bc luck.*

a song you can’t stop listening to right now?

Under The Graveyard- Ozzy Osbourne

recommend a movie.

Uhhh... Shit... Lemme think. Oh!! Sweet Home Alabama. It’s not my usual type movie, but it is one of my guilty pleasure ones. Twister though... That’s my alltime fave guilty pleasure movie, so either of those.

how old are you?

36. I’m an old lady.

school, university, occupation, other?

previously worked as a server, a few other similar jobs. Currently am not working but when this Rona shit eases up more, I’m gonna start looking for office type work again...

do you prefer heat or cold?

Neither. I want it kind of in the middle. Otherwise, I get to be a whiny little bitch about it. I can’t stand being too hot or too cold.

name one fact others may not know about you.

I was born with a condition called congenital hypothyroidism. Honestly, it’s not a big deal other than the chance that I may well not be able to ever have children bc it’s known to cause fertility issues...

are you shy?

Sober, yes. Drunk? Nooooo fuckin way bud. Online? Hell to the nah. I’ll pretty much talk to anyone online or when I’m drunk (unless you’re being obnoxious or a shithead or you’re a goddamn porn bot on here / you send me dick pics bc ew gross) but when I’m sober and IRL, not online? I do not speak a whole lot. And it’s not so much being shy as it is just preferring not to talk much IRL? Like.. I can just chill with someone in the room and be perfectly content.

preferred pronouns?

her/she.

biggest pet peeves?

uhhh, fuck.. silverware scraping teeth when people eat, even though I used to do that myself... Smacking when someone chews... People who pretend to like someone and then either ghost them or go behind their back and tell a whole other story. Just be real with me and don’t smack your damn food and we’re good. (JK on the smacking. I can at least kinda tolerate that. But be real with me. If you don’t like me or whatever, be up front. No need to ghost or be a backstabbing person.)

what is your favorite “dere” type?

Urmm? Idk? Is this like an animal or something?

rate your life from 1-10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be.

about an 8. I’m pretty damn happy with my life, tbh? But there are definitely things I wanna work on and improve. ( weight, health and finding work eventually)

what’s your main blog?

This one

list your side blogs and what they’re used for.

@snarkwriteswrasslin is my wrestling fic blog. @snarkwritesmultifandom is my multifandom fic blog. @ashleysinspirationhoard is a side blog where I store writing memes / prompts and pictures and stuff for inspiration purposes when I write and roleplay and my rp blog is just saved but hasn’t been set up bc I keep talking myself out of getting back to rp on here... 

Is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends?

Sometimes, I zone out. Sometimes I just don’t come online. A lot of socialization has recently started to exhaust me and when I come on and see a ton of fighting and drama on the dash, I’m liable to yeet myself away. I take constant breaks from social media, but... If you’re my friend, I will definitely try my best to talk to you when I’m online. I try not to annoy people, but I feel like I constantly do, so if I ever just stop talking and you see me posting on the dash, I’m probably just giving you space because I feel like I’ve been annoying or something. Anxiety is a bitch. For the most part I can keep a conversation going, but sometimes I’m just drained. Or I get busy. Please never take it personal if I’m on here but I’m not talking to you or anything. Sometimes I just come on to reblog sexy men and drool for hours.

But I promise you guys, I love you all. And I am a friendly person. I am always open to talk, no matter who or about what. If you want to get to know me, please don’t stop yourself because I promise you, I’m a harmless idiot. With major anxiety.

Tagging: Again, no pressure if any of you don’t wanna do this.

@the-ville-idiot @schizoauthoress @rampagewriting @champemoskellyboi @champbucks @chasingeverybreakingwave @andie01 and anyone else who wants to do this.